Citizen Soldier - Never Ending Nightmare feat. Kellin Quinn (Official Lyric Video)

For those with mental illness, the most terrifying nightmares are when they’re awake
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[@laurengalvez5631]

“Pull the veil over my eyes, so I can’t see the person I’ve become” that hit harder then I care to admit.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 💜

[@laurengalvez5631]

@@CitizenSoldier Thank you for your much needed music 🎵💜

[@alfredbyrd249]

I'm always excited to see you guys release a new song because they never disappoint unlike most other bands

[@fighternump382]

@@CitizenSoldier Thank you

[@crysralwinkle]

It really does. I used to be sweet, naive and too kind for my own good. I've grown tougher, but at the price of being a bitch. I know this, but I can't change it. I'm not entirely proud of becoming this way.

[@buddermastr]

Mental illness isn't always depression. PTSD is a big one and it's hard to live with. I'm only 22 and I will never be able to stop thinking about what I saw. Someone that didn't think help was there took it into their own hands. 30 minutes of CPR to no avail. What I saw was hard, I know there's help and I won't give up. Nobody should ever give up. Help is out there even if you think there isn't. You will always be able to find help.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you 💜💜💜

[@xkaydencexx455]

I can relate to this. We fight together, not alone brother 🖤

[@buddermastr]

@@xkaydencexx455 amen to that. None shall never fight alone.

[@xkaydencexx455]

@@buddermastr thankyou for being here ❤️❤️

[@buddermastr]

@@xkaydencexx455 it's my pleasure ❤️

[@sebas110102]

Anyone else just sing at the top of their lungs with tears in their eyes when they are alone when listening to this and any other song by citizen soldier or is it just me?

[@madlasob.6740]

You're not alone, mate

[@jobeattie8456]

Not just you, I hope you're okay mate

[@RenaeA16]

No I do it too.

[@theradiance2530]

No, it is not only you...

[@quadry1273]

Im still doing it so yeah you are not alone 😢😢😢

[@Crashentyre]

Doubt, regret, anxiety, depression, trauma... Whatever you're living with, you're not alone.

[@timmythecat1770]

I wish there were more people like you on this space rock

[@shadowkiller9862]

What if its all of them and more ? Because that's me and this song really shows it I hold that line but its close to breaking

[@jessicahogan8153]

I have someone very close to me cutting themselves. Prayers please. She's also stealing and drinking. Help!

[@timmythecat1770]

@@jessicahogan8153 Do you and them have discord? I know it sounds like a weird question, but that is the place I help my friends and other people at.

[@idrathernot...470]

... i freeze

[@jackpott2823]

Only found you last October a week after “I’m not okay” came out. Every single song you’ve released since then has been amazing and I went through the older songs on the channel. I love all of them, they’re just so raw with emotion. Connection through music is so powerful

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you found us 💜

[@claudi8588]

@@CitizenSoldier Love it!😪🥰

[@shadowhawk4164]

I found them I think two years ago, I think the first one I found was “found” and I haven’t been dissatisfied (I think that’s the word but I don’t know) since, also I definitely agree with what you’re saying, thank you😀

[@jackpott2823]

Yeah, I wish I would have found them sooner since I love all of their music. I haven't been dissatisfied either. Glad I did find them though.

[@shadowhawk4164]

@@jackpott2823 I’m actually surprised you read my comment, thank for that also yeah I’m glad I found them too, they’ve definitely changed my life for the better, thank you again and I’m really sorry if this didn’t make sense

[@Yippeeyippeeyippeeyippeeyippie]

The most heartbreaking thing is that most of the people who listen to these songs understand and relate to it.. If you dont, you're lucky. Keep pushing through ❤

[@pixie1238]

I can always pull at least one line from every song they have released that I relate to on such a personal level, that truly speaks to me. I'm in total agreeance, if you can't relate, you are so, so lucky. If you can, it breaks my heart... 💔

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜💜💜

[@Balteus1]

I don't usually post this stuff in comment sections since I don't want to come off as oversharing or like I'm trying to get a reaction. I deal with a dissociative disorder and other myriad diagnoses. Its something I was born with though why we don't fully understand, the prevailing theory among the professionals I've met with is that its due to trauma sustained in the womb. Living with the biggest monster I've ever known living in my head and knowing when he reaches out to take control he may hurt someone and I wont remember a thing Is horrifying, my entire life has been a war against the living nightmare who's set up shop in my mind, everything I've dealt with from the world outside has no comparison to the hell that exists within my head. The constant war to keep this monster suppressed is exhausting and when I finally give in and fall asleep hes waiting for me and the fight begins again in a different way the nightmares that wake me up and leave me exhausted take a tole on my health. Many of citizen soldiers songs resonate with me to such a degree because all I've known for as long as I can remember is a war within my head. But there is a bright side to all the chaos in my head, 1 due to the nature of my in utero trauma Im an isolated case within my family meaning the dissociative disorder wont be passed on by my older brother and my younger brother is like to be free of any issues outside of the genetic markers my family already has and 2 I've learned to persevere through whatever the world throws at me because nothing has come close to what I'm already dealing with. Citizen soldier said it best "pains a gift it aint a curse" I can only get stronger from this so I'll fight till I'm stronger than anything within me and anything without. Sorry for the thesis these songs make me think... A lot

[@Balteus1]

This was supposed to just be a comment why is it in replies, oh well I'll chalk it up to my phone being a piece of crap

[@kellyvendrasco1945]

I relate so much! I thank @citizensoldier for bringing me some comfort. Not much does!

[@TrayXCooper]

Boomers: why listen to this music? It just makes you depressed Me: No it makes me feel not alone and better

[@ljousijl]

facts

[@LJONeill1997]

True.

[@aidanroberts6986]

Agreed

[@iyen-Bunny4792]

Agreed You dont feel alone with a song you can relate to

[@engineerghost2327]

to all my friend with same condifition around the world

[@shamanking48]

"Would anyone care" reminded me that there are people in my life who love me and care about me. And who would miss me if I was gone. "I'm not ok" reminded me it's ok to admit when things are hard and that it doesn't make me weak. "Stronger than my storm" reminded me I'm a survivor who is more than the anxiety. More than my trauma. Stronger than those that try to tear me down. "When living means living in hell" can be hard but it's all one step in front of the other. And I just have to remind myself that it's ok to take a break. And for all this I say, thank you.

[@gustavorodrigues9658]

let's win this battle.

[@patriciaspires5450]

Yes sucker punch it😎

[@Sonnenblume_18]

These are the best, best songs of theirs 😁

[@comedian8351]

You are a winner

[@comedian8351]

I wished the same for me but a can't seem to find the will I have lost😊

[@-molon1343]

"When living means living in hell" that line hits so hard. This song, and all the others, are so fucking relatable and that's amazing. Please never stop

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@shadowhawk4164]

@@CitizenSoldier I agree, please never stop what you do, it helps so many people and it’s obviously something you love considering how much effort you put into you music, also I know you’ve gone through what we have according to your bio or whatever it is called so I hope you are doing okay as well, anyway thank you so much for your music and sorry if none of this made sense

[@aviezerscop401]

Unrelated but I love your pfp

[@henrikenglund8546]

@Tea Veritain tc

[@sarahdfaul]

@@CitizenSoldier yes, please never stop. These songs help me feel less alone.

[@Autistic_Mf]

"It's so hard to fight for myself, when living mean living in Hell" Hits harder when you cry, trying to figure out what is wrong with you to deserve this-

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@Toxicsupermodel182]

You may figure out a whole lot about yourself that way but always remember as a natural born human being you were born beautiful and capable. People should never take that away instead encourage and nurture growth in confidently being so. Don't fear speaking up to anyone ever if your quality of life is threatened by someone. Basic human rights and the right to live as you are are a worthy cause to make an accomplished trend

[@masacross8551]

@@Toxicsupermodel182 And anyone who says otherwise says so because they are in agony. Just because they are suffering doesn’t mean you should be in pain as well. There’s always a choice to be made.

[@kryswilson2743]

“When living means living in Hell” best lyric ever heard

[@LJONeill1997]

Yeah.

[@kaylapreds610]

Yeah

[@kittysyco]

It hit the nail

[@jenssenolanio6009]

@Laura o' Neill yy6yy Yyy Yyyyyy Yyy Yyyy6y y6y6yyyyyyyyyyyyy6yyyyyy6y6y6666yyyyyy6yyyyyyyyyy6y 00

[@natashaalicia8105]

You hit the nail on the head...

[@shadowrainbow3716]

Me: *tries to sing along to any citizen soldier song cause i love them all so much* Also me: *starts crying during the first chorus*

[@twitexdragon]

I do too

[@anondadon7634]

Yall too

[@Tellybear-yc8iz]

Me too 😩

[@cky395618]

Same

[@Jinx-cy2hu]

“WHEN LIVING MEANS LIVING IN HELL” - I just wanna scream along, this song is my new obsession! You guys are amazing, i hope to see you in concert one day!!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Jaden 💜

[@kaylapreds610]

Same I really love to go to a concert with citizen soldier

[@noahcoulombe4125]

Same bro, I don’t care where the concert is I’m goin

[@kaylapreds610]

@@noahcoulombe4125 me too

[@zoeygranitz3679]

And this is why we stop fighting..

[@sakuria4183]

Once again, you're here to lift me out of the hell I've dragged myself down into. Thank you.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 💜

[@theradiance2530]

Feel you

[@adamalbarado7126]

I’m here more times than I should. They speak the feelings we all feel but don’t act on. I’m proof that it can move forward albeit difficult. Keep the momentum, time doesn’t have to stop….

[@Nocturnal.Pestilence]

I think I could gladly speak for the both of us when I say music is our saving grace

[@demonblade198akaecho8]

I know im late to this but I just want to say even in the darkest pits of hell ill reach out my hand to save you and should I miss as you fall ill jump and take the landing if it means your ok Sincerly a random friend

[@HerondalesAngel]

.......... you did it again guys the lyrics the music , its like I listen and the world stops until the last note your music helps so much thank you jake for your voice ❤

[@youtubeaddicted1221]

Yeah, the world DOES seem to stop, huh? That's when you know they're a good, no, GREAT artist. I found them on "If I Surrender" and I've followed them ever since

[@nraisor6507]

@@youtubeaddicted1221 "would anyone care" for me

[@izmizcha955]

@@nraisor6507 Same

[@xdrummerxderekx]

Just discovered these guys and wow. Exactly what I'm dealing with.

[@chrisblomberg8159]

I found them back when they had first started

[@whiplashgaming9053]

Im a Combat Vet, I couldnt keep back the tears! I have found a song that speaks for me and what ive went through! Thank You! Again thank you i needed this

[@janetcasuscelli7907]

Thank you for your service!♥️

[@chrisboucher7166]

IGY6 I sing this alot dawn is coming idk when but it is that's what gets me through the dark time always remember it's darkest before the dawn till Valhalla

[@benwit5618]

Semper Fi brother

[@CrossBianchi]

Quinn’s voice works so well. The high and low notes really takes this song to the next level!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜

[@NicholasBennett-nm8ej]

At first I thought it was your voice. Thank you citizen soldier for allowing me to cry to your music, I suffer from Bypoler and suicidal depression. Please never stop making music.

[@sickdoinkster8995]

I listen to many bands, but i don't think any band has ever touched me so emotionally and moved by something so motivating, and eye opening than Citizen Soldier. Possibly the best story tellers in rock music.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much thank you 💜

[@Thegamermythicfamily]

So true

[@balqisworld8013]

[Verse 1: Jake Segura] I won't be sleeping tonight I know that it's gonna be war (War) Lately been up, wondering why I'm even worth fighting for I've been getting so tired of holding the line, yeah The price that I pay to survive seems so high and I [Pre-Chorus: Jake Segura] I am raising my white flag tonight [Chorus: Jake Segura] When I close my eyes it's there waiting for me Finds me every time, will I never be free? There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes I can never escape, I've been running for miles When the morning comes I know it will still be there My never ending nightmare (My never ending nightmare) [Verse 2: Kellin Quinn] Pull the veil over my eyes (Eyes) So I can't see the person I've become What am I doing with my life? (Life) Try to stop staring at the sun But my eyes get the best of me I'm on the edge, I'm in too deep Why can't you see that I'm right here waiting? [Chorus: Kellin Quinn] I close my eyes, it's there waiting for me Finds me every time, will I never be free? There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes I can never escape, I've been running for miles When the morning comes I know it will still be there My never ending nightmare [Bridge: Jake Segura] I've almost had enough Knowing I just couldn't get much lower It's got me so messed up Never knowing when this story's over It's so hard to fight for myself When living means living in hell [Chorus: Jake Segura, Kellin Quinn, Both] When I close my eyes it's there waiting for me Finds me every time, will I never be free? There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes I can never escape, I've been running for miles When the morning comes I know it will still be there My never ending nightmare (My never ending nightmare)

[@esfeigenbaum]

I don't suffer from mental illness but I know people who do and I tell all of them about Citizen Soldier. Every song you've done is extraordinary.

[@M-O-K-O-I]

I'm truly happy to hear this. Still remember, you are allowed to feel bad, even if other people might have it worse in your perception. We might not all be suffering from mental illness, but we all are carrying baggage. Keep pushing through. Appreciate you.

[@zachnelson1400]

Citizen Soldier: neverending nightmare Me: Are you ok, do you need a friend?

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@gamergod7457]

@@CitizenSoldier We are here for you.

[@xceryxdemurstra6323]

I said a similar thing on one of their videos once. Artists like this I love but they scare the hell out of me. Because I relate too strongly to their lyrics which means they relate too strongly to my mentality. And my head is not an easy place to live. And it scares me for those that live in similar places. Because I know how easily any day could be the day you fall off that edge whether you wanted to or not

[@Orthros]

The songs on this channel resonated with me in a way no other artist has ever done, and they were a lifeline for me the last few years. I've managed to weather my storm and am in a much better place, in part thanks to you. I'm glad to see that you continue to raise awareness and show others like me that they aren't suffering alone, and that someone cares about them.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that you get it 💜

[@shadowhawk4164]

Agreed with what you said and same, also I know this is weird question but what does resonated mean, so sorry if this didn’t make sense, also I hope you are doing okay and thank you for saying that, again sorry if that didn’t make sense

[@blazeplayz697]

yeah same this band helped me so much no not just me many other people i don't get it why is Citizen soldier so underrated because people see fame not hard work society is horrible there are a lot of bad people but there are also a lot of good people,people need to see the hard work because when they do hard work they don't get what they deserve because they get visited by karma

[@laurenrules334]

Struggling with depression, suicidal ideation & self harm, it’s so hard to put into words what I’m feeling and ALL of your songs describe what I’m feeling perfectly. I listen to them on repeat and cry because it feels like someone understands. So thank you. and keep making awesome music

[@bansheemike7046]

So glad I'm not the only one.

[@shawncoulter7470]

Exactly man fuck 😭😭😭

[@alonaholliday5284]

I feel the same way.

[@joeyv1982]

How are you doing now, 2 years later? I hope you are well.

[@wamparinyx]

So be it amen. Not really but yeah that's how it feels

[@tinf0ilh4t98]

This guy is so underrated it’s stupid. These songs have got me through some tough times. Thanks for being there.

[@TheAkumuKing]

I should be sleeping, but this is more important. (It’s midnight) Once again, another masterpiece is made! Kellin just makes it better!

[@vagusviridian4753]

Same here.

[@ahumanonearth126]

Same but its 1am

[@Eloquent_Top_Hats]

Yes we love staying up till 3 am when you have school at 7:30 the next morning-

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate the support and dedication 💜

[@s.m.u.d.g.e.entertainment804]

It’s amazing

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you 💜

[@MegaEricwolf]

Depression is a never ending nightmare but we all got to fight this never ending battle and I’m so glad I found the song “Still Breathing” and it reminds me that I nearly ended my life yet I’m still here. I want to help as many people as I can. Thank you!

[@TheZephyrsWind]

Same here, mental and physical illnesses for me. For me being a Christian has helped me tremendously.

[@babyblues8898]

Battling depression and anxiety makes up the never ending nightmare I've been faced with for 6 years. I'm still currently struggling till this day.

[@pyrohawk69]

I know what you mean... But I can't help but point out that you said you are over 120 years old...

[@kaplararon1592]

"When living means living in hell" that one hit deep, wow.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@AlexisRodriguez-bq4mf]

Yessssssss sleeping isn’t a thing when you guys drop a song🔥

[@ahumanonearth126]

Fr

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hahaha love the dedication 💜

[@starrtorres2642]

Two beautiful voices. Two amazing people who have helped get me through hell. One beautiful song that i yet again have found in darkness

[@Andrewguy-fy1rx]

How do they always know exactly how to portray how I feel through song? They've become a part of me, and these songs have become my emotions. Bless you a hundredfold, friend.

[@Banana-nf1xb]

This song hits on a different level for me. For almost 2 years, I had battled myself within my mind. Almost every night when I closed my eyes, I saw myself there, berating myself for all my failures and weakness, all my incorrect choices and decisions. I was eventually get myself in a slightly better place to now, where a steady outlet for my stress cam through exercise, but even now, although much less frequent, I still relive all my failures as a person some nights, and in those moments it seems like there is nothing for me in this world. But for all those struggling like I once was, always remember that it gets better. I didn't believe it, but slowly, for what seemed like infinite eternities, I was, and still am, pulling myself back together.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you’re still here 💜

[@shafireman700]

Definitely not worth giving up when in my mind, if you do then it won't be what you've done in life but what you could've done if you pulled yourself up. Stay strong, never let it take ahold of you and if it does make sure others are around to save you. There's always someone out there that will care even if you don't believe so. Keep on changing for the better dude! :)

[@innocent_proto247]

Another relatable song never fails to impress

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend 💜

[@raymondcarson9084]

27 year Vet. I suffer PTSD , I can't even sleep half the time and when I do my Monsters keep coming. I am glad your songs really hit every emotion I have. It is such a struggle that sometimes I wish the Monsters would just go away.

[@heavenlee4117]

💙🙏🫂

[@jessieoglesby5561]

I myself have ptsd as well. Ive found a medicine by the name of prazosin helps. Its a PTSD/nightmare medicine. I get nightmares every time i sleep(so i cant even nap😭) but since starting the medicine when i was 15-16 has helped me so much. Im almost 25 now and just got back on it and oh. My. God. Its so nice to sleep. It also helps during the day too. I find im not as jumpy when i take it. Stay strong❤️‍🩹

[@raymondcarson9084]

@@jessieoglesby5561 thank you i will ask my doc

[@jessieoglesby5561]

@@raymondcarson9084 youre very welcome. I know how it is to be in that spot and its not fun at all. I hope this will help you. Stay strong ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@ncemt]

As former Paramedic with PTSD in the form of nightmares, reliving the worse calls I've been on. This song hits hard.

[@glacial3788]

Citizen soldier always has lyrics that just feel way to close to home and it makes me appreciate their music so much.

[@shadowhawk4164]

So agree with your comment Evan and it’s true, sorry if that didn’t make sense at all, I don’t actually know what to say but agreed

[@Eloquent_Top_Hats]

"Been up wondering why im even worth fight for" This hits hard, every night I'm awake just crying. Cause everyone i used to be close too hated me, the person im closest to now hates me, and everyone else hates me. Im too talkative and too loud. I'm too headstrong simply because I wont agree with someone when i dissagree with what they're saying. "Im getting so tired of holding the line" Yup, im the only person ever putting any effort into my relashonships woth people.. "When i close my eyes its there waiting for me" I have dreams about my sister committing suicide, the exact same everytime. "Its so hard to fight for myself" I always disregard myself and worry about others, my familt and friends. My people. But never myself. Edit: May I just say how much i love this community? I commented this at like 3 in the morning mid emotional breakdown and I didn't have my glasses on so the amount of terrible phrasing and misspelling in this comment. Like in any other place on KZbin there would be people replying correcting me and sh#t but everyone is just being so supportive and lovely. Thank y'all so much! Love you all and don't be a hypocrite, do as you say. Take care of yourselves!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hang in there friend. Much love 💜

[@StuffierHat]

Almost everything you said i feel. I'm the only one that does anything in my friends relationships and even relationships with girls and I have given up on almost everyone because of it. I care so much about everyone else but no one cares about me. I'm treated as if I'm non existent and I always talk ny mouth off and talk over people cause I just blabber about anything and I've gotten bhate from it. I feel where your coming from a bit. I wish I could give you advice to help cause usually I'm the guy who always gives advice but as of late I've run out of advice and I'm in the same boat as you rn in what you've said so yeah 😞

[@thesheepwhisperer6546]

Same hat, kid. Like almost exactly. Hang in there. We'll get better

[@Only_-_Yours]

Maybe you think they hate you but they don't, you are loved even if there was disagreements ❤️

[@shafireman700]

Hey, I don't know what you've been through by exact detail but I do know one thing. Despite that, it shows you have an unbreakable care for others. Sure it's not easy, just standing up being yourself when everyone seems to hate you but trust me there's something in that care that will interest others. Being upfront and saying what you mean, truth is better then a lie. Even if it hurts them. To me me those are good traits, even if you are loud or talkative or anything. Now, I'm not saying those other traits are bad either but your mind would deny if I said it was good. Just know there's still something in you worth saving. I know what it's like to be the only one to hold onto a friendship. I feel like fighting for one I have but I don't know if it'll work out. I also know someone who's, put so much effort just to see someone disregard them, even hate them slightly. I don't know how to describe it but do know you're worth something even if you don't know what, keep fighting. Maybe someone will notice it in you.

[@on-e-x3141]

"I can never Escape.. i've been running for miles.." Dear Citizen Soldier This song (and in particular this lyrics) hits deep inside. This song is just perfect cause everyone has (or have to fight) a "neverending nightmare". And it's worth for everything. Starting to problems like study, work, relantionship to other problem like desease, Illness or addicition.. What this song is trying to say (in my modest opinion) is that everyone has their own nightmare and running away it's not the solution. But we have to fight, cause even we think we are weak, inside of us there's a force who gives us the strenght to continue to fight! And most importantly guys remember, we are not alone and there's no shame to ask Help. Thank you for this Brilliant song, Amazing work as Always!! Best regards from Italy❤

[@blazeplayz697]

you are right we all have that never ending nightmare my time with it has ended now i have friends family my best friend but listen there is no never ending nightmare every nightmare has an ending we think that it is a never ending nightmare because we think that we can't let go of the past that's true we can't neither can i but still we should make a future for us our families and friends we have to stay strong we can't be weak it's ok to cry but sometimes you have to stay strong i hope this means something

[@apollodelphi5793]

This hits hard. 15 years ago I lost me. She was killed on an operating table and the person who woke up just never seems to be the person who went into that room.

[@nos5915]

"I've been getting so tired of holding the line, yeah The price that I pay to survive seems so high tonight" felt that

[@amyhong342]

"The price that I pay to survive seems so high tonight" "It's so hard to fight for myself / When living means living in hell" These two hit me so hard. "What am I doing with my life?" A curious thing is that I spent all day listening to your other songs. And now this one? Oh my goodness! I can't believe! It is so amazing. Thank you guys for another masterpiece.

[@twitexdragon]

Facts they hit the heart ❤

[@TacticalBrotherhood]

Anyone else lay alone in the dark and pray that the nightmare won't replay when your eyes close? I listen to these songs and the words are the exact way I live day to day.

[@Dmf812]

All the time afraid to go to sleep 😴😴😴

[@TacticalBrotherhood]

​@@Dmf812 "when I close my eyes, it's their waiting for me, it finds me everytime" it hits really hard.

[@StrangerNeverFound]

“When I Close my eyes” i sing tHAT on top of my lungs. All your songs are relatable. I had it very hard. And i am fighting

[@GrayIsNotHere]

I always knew my insomnia would bring great gifts to me. All jokes aside, keep up the good work. Your songs are all masterpieces! 💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you 💜

[@isabelanitap.9411]

Honestly, every song of yours is a masterpiece that crashes into you like a train.✨ And the contrast between Segura’s powerful and mature voice and Quinn’s melodious and youthful one is wonderful.✨

[@BooBerry7124]

Its soo satisfying to have a song be sad, so often the last verse is some hopeful hang on things get better nonsense that gets overplayed and old. Sometimes I'm just sad and thats okay.

[@SilvermistAnimeLover]

I’ve never found another band like this. I thought Breaking Benjamin was the band that spoke to my soul until I found Citizen Soldier. Every single song resonates so wholly with my spirit that I can’t help but replay it for hours. Keep up the great work!! You guys make the bad days so much brighter;

[@its_djwolfyboi908]

"Finds me everytime, will I Never be free" I relate to this so much bc my past which I want to forget keeps finding me, so always told myself I'll never be free. Love the music ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you friend 💜

[@DarknessRealm]

Facts

[@shafireman700]

It's not about your past because even if you've had a terrible past? You can still change and make a difference.

[@the_eternal_darkness_8436]

You guys NEVER disappoint! And now you’ve included Kellin??? Well this is officially a masterwork!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend 💜

[@shadowhawk4164]

Agreed though I don’t actually know who Kellin is, I’m sorry I don’t but whoever he is he did good in this song, really sorry if none of that made sense

[@Akmenos6576]

@@shadowhawk4164 lead singer of sleeping with Sirens, check them out if you haven't

[@shadowhawk4164]

@@Akmenos6576 thank you, also if their songs aren’t about love sure I’ll check it out, thank you again and sorry if this didn’t make sense

[@jasonthegod21]

@@shadowhawk4164 listen to bloody knuckles or kick me by sleeping with sirens

[@jaceb5990]

Everyone keeps saying these songs are so relatable and perfect representation. Someone who hasn't been there wouldn't be able to perfectly recreat the feeling. Don't forget to let our artists and entertainers know that we see their pain and are here for them.

[@daunterse]

I love this, and Kellin fits so well

[@sapphirelord6876]

This song and many others on this channel have resonated with me. My life has had terrible moments and the reason they feel so much like my life because as much as I want to give up I still stand to hopefully see the light of day. So I am currently going through the loop of my depression trying to get through it all. Anyway thanks for these songs they help a lot of people I can tell and they help me have the relation to feel I am not alone and look at people who say not to give up and to the people who won't. I just want to say everyone don't give up even if you feel like everything is repeating and won't just know it can fix one day. I have not been there yet and still stuck with my mind being against me. With everyone out there I want to inspire and tell I am not giving up till I fully feel defeated. I will fight until the bitter end. So Just know some people love you all out there. ♥

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hope things get better friend 💜

[@shafireman700]

@JUDE CULBERT Not too sure where that is, but when I find it "No more hell" I desire to join as well. And if I can't just reply here.

[@shafireman700]

@JUDE CULBERT Unfortunately I do not have the ability to set it to that just yet but I will figure it out. Message me how all that will work also with where and when I'll be able to join such. That is all, have a good day.

[@salemwitch4138]

"I can never escape, I've been running for miles" just hit so hard... Another absolutely breathtaking song 💛💛💛

[@salemwitch4138]

"When living means living in hell" just feels too familiar...

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hang in there friend 💜

[@shafireman700]

@@salemwitch4138 Agreed, I don't know if that was used in another song as of recently I've noticed them reusing lyrics it gives that nostalgic feel and is amazing.

[@shelbywilkerson235]

Ive felt this way so often since the love of my life passed...thank you so much for grasping the hell some of us live everyday we open our eyes just to realize he truly is gone! Bless each of you!

[@motionlessinwhiteprincess5498]

I have PTSD, Manic Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia, a eating disorder and so much more so I'm having a never-ending nightmare from my past, so I just help myself everyday as I take it one day at a time. Thank you, Citizen Soldier I remember finding you guys on tiktok and reading the caption that you are or were a therapist writing these amazing songs.

[@berkcangunes3663]

It's all that because ptsd?

[@davidnissim589]

Dude, Kellin's voice was perfect for a song like this.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜🙏🏻

[@jblordexplosionmurder2425]

Does he have a channel? Sry I loved his voice 😭👌

[@racheld4184]

@@jblordexplosionmurder2425 kellin quinn, sleeping with sirens

[@jblordexplosionmurder2425]

@Manny Blackstar I found them sry I did not know them why roll your eyes? Keep rollin them and maybe you'll find a brain a** jeez

[@davidnissim589]

he's in the band Sleeping With Sirens, they have a lot of music videos and songs@@jblordexplosionmurder2425

[@Hondacivic-fk7ky]

It's so weird hearing the difference In pitches between Jake and kellin's voices. Great song tho

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@Willowwasbored]

Yea, i feelt it too

[@thomashan4963]

The song started with 'Em' note (Normally they play around F key) I was like 'Wowwww' and Jake killed it anyway. Just wanna point out that it's a higher key for Jake ✌️

[@dimeolas777]

Tragedy of society is everyone acts like their life is wonderful. We dont want to admit the truth or help others. So many put people down who arent throwing out the same lie. You guys open up and tell the truth and we should help each other because we all go through the same things. And btw Kellin's voice is so very good, you two sounds great together.

[@kimberlywheaton1232]

When every song Citizen Soldier does it way to close to home and has u me in tears

[@grindygamingaddict]

Amazing! Typing this early cuz I already KNOW this is gonna be a banger

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@Zero-sw2uy]

I'm glad I found this band I can relate to almost every song

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad you found us 💜

[@loggerman2353]

I hate everything about me but music helps and just don’t be depressed bc I’m a guy lmao

[@FlagadossSupreme]

How do you know you’re a guy ?

[@UltradudeRW]

Hey, I'm a guy too. And I'm so depressed that I had to get on a plane to go live with my dad because my mom works a full time job and can't watch me all day. I haven't attempted, but I make a lot of comments about it. Just because we're guys doesn't mean we don't have mental health. I have no idea who you are, and your comment was posted a year ago but I love you and I hope you haven't left.

[@triplexxx2174]

Its obvious when you are or aren't ​@@FlagadossSupreme

[@veilmontTV]

​@@UltradudeRWi couldnt get one of my parents to watch me overnight if i needed it. I hope you use your mom to get through what youre going through. My brother and i suffered for decades before we got truly happy. Im 35 now and i ask you as someone on the other side. Dont fucking stop fighting. I cry sometimes thinking about how much better it is now and im far stronger than ive ever been. Once the pain is gone there is that resilience youve bult up. It stays and serves you like a nornal person wouldnt ever understand.

[@DustinCrokie]

Hey brother your not alone but I promise the Lord love you and to him your a priceless gem

[@aaronbiasini1599]

You guys constantly blow me away. All of your lyrics hit me on such an emotional level. In this song the line that hit me the most was “It’s so hard fighting for myself, when living is living in hell” that line really hits my soul because i feel that. I really wish you guys went on tour because i would go see you guys in a heartbeat!!!

[@pixie1238]

"Will I never be free? Theres a monster I caged deep behind my eyes..." Absolutely true. My thoughts always flicker between "why won't you leave" and "please dont leave me..." OCD (unwanted thoughts for me) is a tough battle. My heart and support to anyone else who suffers from this.

[@pixie1238]

If you happen to suffer from my specific brand of OCD, you will make it. I've made it 22 years and still counting. You will make it.

[@tinatvarelashvili643]

OCD sufferer here, I feel you, everyone and citizen soldier soloist in this struggle 💚 ( couldn't even write his name because of OCD, I have OCD in everything that I do😔)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you friend 💜 Stay strong

[@Nocteul]

Ok, i've officially run out of words to describe these songs, "it's amazing" simply isn't enough anymore

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you so much 💜

[@michaelaharris8263]

Any artist can sing about mental health issues, ptsd etc but you can truly FEEL it when they've experienced it & been there themselves & i wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart! Your songs are what i listen to every morning...your saving soo many ppl with your messages ❤💙💚 never fail to get goosebumps....your giving our broken souls a voice and that is priceless!! 💪🏻❤💚💙 love you!! ❤🥰

[@featherguardian6023]

Each new song get more deeper and relatable that the last one that it makes me shedding a tear.

[@Randomperson-ht2ey]

My Uncle committed suicide when I was 9. My friend helped me through the pain and guided me back to the light, that same friend committed suicide 2 years ago. Since I've found you guys you have been guiding me back and I honestly can't thank you enough. This song hits really hard cause some things you say in this song were in my friends journal and it just brings back memories.

[@DarkAbyss023]

Finding this band and hearing all their music lately has gotten me thinking about my mental health battles, all the stuff i went through, all I suffered from peoples abuse and bullying, then the suffering i caused myself with my own thought about those situations. Looking back now i have seen that i am on the track to getting better, this amazing music strike just the right cords with me to know I'm not alone in all this.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad you found us 💜

[@homer14lange28]

Musik is just the best way to deal with a mental brake down (at least of you are alone ore want to be alone) it's crazy how much emotions can just yea blow up inside of you and give you the fealing that you are not alone with this even tho ot does feel like it way to often

[@Ceru234]

I've been fighting for over 15Years with my 'Nightmare', but seeing im not alone keeps me fighting! Stay Strong everyone! Great songs and lyrics, love it! Straight from the soul

[@tylerhart6928]

Been living a never ending nightmare the last 17 years and the demons do win some days

[@laco3788]

I have been listening to your songs for a while now(over a year), and I relate to them on a level I can never even describe to you. This song hit me harder than any song had ever done. Thank you Citizen Solider

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@ruralMCgaming129]

This song relates to me especially that line that said “When living means LIVING IN HELL” That hit deep

[@yoshiheine658]

"there's a monster I caged behind my eyes" was one of the sentences that hit me hard. I know exactly how it feel. This song is a masterpiece. I love it. Greetings from Germany

[@teodor9975]

an endless war. it tears us apart, it breaks our minds. but when we see the sun. no matter what the nightmares are. we are unshattered. and we shall fight til the bitter end

[@shadowyblackwolf]

Another beautiful song from Citizen Soldier! Thank you for speaking out for us who are struggling :)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Always 💜

[@cu-m3815]

Last year, I was in the midst of a never-ending nightmare, mentally driven to the point of seriously considering suicide. I couldn't bear the thought of tomorrow coming, and refused to go to sleep, but back then, when I closed my eyes, what did I find behind my eyes...? I feel better than I did last year, but I don't want to face reality too much because I don't know when I will break down now. If I don't listen to your songs everyday to encourage myself, I'm afraid I'll fall apart. I'm glad I found your songs. From Japan, with love.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad you’re still with us 💜

[@Mysterious_Moments642]

Hi Bro We can talk you want to I am a Good listener... and you are not alone Life is Precious

[@cu-m3815]

@@Mysterious_Moments642 Dear Kindness. Thanks for your comment. It took me a long time to respond to your kindness in exact English. I didn't mean to ignore you, so please don't be offended. Last year I was severely harassed at work and betrayed by two bosses I trusted. Yet I was in a position where I was not allowed to take time off from work. And every time something went wrong (for example, someone got sick and had to take a day off), they blamed me for it. My workload was also quite heavy, and I had to allocate my lunch breaks and holidays to work in order to make it. I was told later that I alone was in charge of the work that should have been divided among the three of us. I asked for help many times, but no one showed up to help me. After a while, I began to think that I was not worthy of being saved. Since January of this year, I received an offer from another facility in the same group company and have been working there. Even now, whenever a problem occurs at the facility I was working at until last year, they blame me for running away. Even at my current facility, I have to be very careful about who I trust. I'm also afraid to ask for help. I spend my days pretending that I am back on my feet. Thank you for reading this far. I can't write English properly and I think my grammar is wrong. Much love and appreciation to you! Using a translation app

[@akiral3g10n6]

@@cu-m3815 Let's see I won't try to make it a contest so sorry if it seems that way in advance. To start I watched the events of 4 of my friends die in mysterious ways the ways they died looked natural enough but the thing that bothers me is every time either in class or asleep I would see one of them dieing and hear about it 1 or 2 days later. I blame myself for not saying something sooner this is my pain. But I on top of that I've had friends and co-workers betray me and even some family, very many times even now I contemplate stepping in front of high-speed traffic or jumping off a building but every time I think about it I look at the ring on my finger and the symbol on it is a Viking Knot with a promise or 2 I made to someone and that in itself keeps me from doing stupid shit. This pain is so great that people don't usually live as long as I have though they die in their sleep and you never hear about it. This pain also takes its toll I should be a very energetic person yet I can sleep for hours on end and I should be healed by now but I feel all the pain from every part of my body that ever got damaged. So I say find something like a promise to latch onto and never break it no matter what and you'll not only be better because of it but you'll become a better person. Also remember to harden yourself to your pain people may see someone being cold but the right person will see through it.

[@cu-m3815]

@@akiral3g10n6 Thanks for your comment. Please give me a few days to translate your comment into Japanese and then I will rewrite my reply to you into English. I have a question, is it correct that the "Viking knot" is the overlapping of unbroken shapes that you see in rings and other symbols?

[@sarahdfaul]

People online know me better then my best friends. That’s sad.

[@gregbronze3136]

"There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes, I can never escape" That lyric is the most defining line I have ever heard in any song in my life!! That hits more than just close to home, it explains perfectly my situation!!

[@dylanholloway3342]

To anyone reading this I want you to know that you are important and you are loved. I know how difficult it can be waking up every day and going through the tough times maybe by yourself or maybe not, but you are so powerful for continuing to fight even if you feel like giving up. I am proud of who you are and I’m proud of who you’re going to become. You can do great things! Every day is a new day; maybe things won’t change day to day, but I want you to try. Just one more day. If you feel like giving up try. Try to find the good things in your life, even if it’s small. Maybe you like the way the sun shines on the leaves or the grass. Maybe you like the way your hair looks. You can do this. You are amazing. Keep moving forward, please. Stopping the fight might be easy but there will never be a chance you get to make better memories if you quit. Take care of yourself.

[@dylanholloway3342]

@Someonelovesrock of course! You got this, you’re incredible! If you ever need anything please reach out! There are plenty of numbers to call, friends you can talk to, and of course I’ll do my best to listen if you need. So proud of you ^-^

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@ChiMiniold]

i will honestly say , this is what i needed , hiding behind a smile is really hard and you stripped it off and made me cry all of the things i held back for months , im honestly thankful , i needed it and i am grateful that people like you exist. May you be blessed with good fortune and good health

[@dylanholloway3342]

@@ChiMiniold I’m glad that this helped you, truly. I’ve been there, always hiding, feeling like you can’t trust anyone or thinking that no one could possibly understand what you’re going through but I promise someone, somewhere, does. Never be afraid to reach out if you need help. Good fortune to you as well! 💜

[@mystiangel96]

"Some days I couldn't get much lower" - Stronger Than My Storm "Knowing I just couldn't get much lower" - Never Ending Nightmare Thank you guys for your music, I wish y'all nothing but the best ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 💜

[@jennifernunya909]

Chronic, "unexplainable pain and exhaustion".... leads to inevitable depression. I feel you💕

[@cutecupcake8425]

Every song they make just speaks volumes to me,their music hits hard but helps out so much I can't say thank you enough for this band.

[@salvagesigh9705]

I suffer from nightmares about my death. They have recently stopped but I now have insomnia because they were so frequent and have increased my mental illness. I'm so happy this song exists.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad they’ve stopped 💜

[@lili8454]

I can feel this song... That is not just a song actually, It is art!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that Lucy 💜

[@kevinhollis603]

Living daily with fearing that if I sleep, I'll be reliving childhood drama, always in fear since I could start walking, even sharing this has my eyes tearing and anxiety barely under control. Hopefully I'll be able to overcome all what I fight to keep hidden and hide. Thanks again for the community. Jake Segura, I know the feeling of certain attempts, sometimes it feels like it's the only option and I'm glad you went this route

[@glitchville]

I hope you're okay and feel better :) Have a great day

[@Icenflamesrush]

This was a great collab. Kellins voice really brought another powerful dimension to this song.

[@cheyennekuehn6578]

It ways done on any song he works on with other people and bands. I am OBSESSED with Kellins voice

[@raenalevens8093]

So good, as always! Your music always helps me when I feel sad but don't want to speak my feelings and problems out loud, your music always knows what I want to say. Thank you for sharing your stories and musical abilities with us all.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend 💜

[@blitzspectre5130]

Sigh... every song makes me cry just because how real it is. It is no joke, it's crazy to keep seeing more songs that hit so emotional

[@soldier0831]

There’s just so much here. Citizen Soldier you guys knocked it out of the park again, just as you always do. This song expresses so much emotion that so many continuously fight every day. Amazing job guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜

[@TheJCHarkins2]

I recently had a depressive spiral...10 years holding the line...holding my mind together...and in one night I found myaelf alone and no one to back me from the edge... and between this and several other of your songs, I held back. It gave me the focus to grab onto a lifeline. The anxiety of living thundered in my heart like lightning and my head was splitting in twain...and I survived the long night. Thank you for putting to words what depression feels like in my eyes. Its easier to explain whats going on with your music and lyric videos than to grasp the words myself.

[@sohampalodhy4214]

I don't know why but your songs always hit somewhere else....... beautiful 😭❤️❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜💜💜💜

[@Limitless2116]

YESSSSSSSSSSS THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR, I straight up didnt sleep from the excess anticipation💜💜 As anticipated, absolutely legendary as usual, thank you for your service 🔥💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜💜💜💜💜

[@kataang222]

Omg not even a minute in and I’m bawling. Best band with the best lyrics and music. Omg.

[@jonathanratliff8271]

A musical masterpiece. Like so many others from Citizen Soldier. So much pain, but also release in each line. To hear someone voice feelings I cannot put into words and realize I’m not alone - so thankful 🙏🏻

[@wendyevans2969]

“When living means living in HELL”…. I might be older but this band is by far my favourite out there, every song touches my soul… speaks to my mind…. Thank you for another masterpiece…… love it….

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@MegaEricPham]

Hey Citizen Soldier! Random comment and hope you see this! I hope you're doing well, especially mental health wise. You're music is amazing and I've connected so well with your work! I'm checking in cause it's important to ask with people you care about and I and I'm sure everyone else wouldn't want another inspiration to pass away like Chester Bennington, and other people who I may have missed. If you're feeling down, feel free to chat with us, or read this comment again and hopefully this made your day! ❤️ To everyone else, I hope you all are okay as well! Y'all are amazing no matter what, feel free to chat with me if you want I'm always available! Have a great day/night/etc.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that Eric 💜

[@MegaEricPham]

@@CitizenSoldier Of course! ☺️

[@musamumtaz9764]

Finally there is a band that actually understands the struggle of living with mental illness.

[@mathewspear3011]

This song, speaks to me so deeply and it hurts to say that this is how I feel so much, everyday. And I'm tired. I dont want to keep going through this pain