Citizen Soldier - G*nshot Lullabies (Official Lyric Video)

[@CitizenSoldier]

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[@azzahrrenayala3366]

Hey! I was hoping to know, do you think that once this pandemic is over and you guys have more music you guys could do a tour or even have a concert?

[@justinlay5662]

Say are you feeling alright? I'm just wanting to check up on you. I'll admit that this quarantine is not doing me any favors either.

[@azzahrrenayala3366]

@@justinlay5662 well im not quite sure if you are talking to me. But i just got out of quarantine from having corona and all that crap and now well I'm in a deep mental state where i just rely on music to stop my head from spinning.

[@justinlay5662]

@@azzahrrenayala3366 while I was talking to citizensoldier I'm glad to hear that you are doing alright

[@benjaminvanwyk2503]

When r u. Guys gonna make a actually music video🤔

[@Shiloh_has_a_bird]

It’s official. Every song Citizen Soldier makes is perfect. Not that it wasn’t obvious before

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are too kind. Thank you Sarah 🖤

[@kawaiipotato5851]

@@CitizenSoldier nah fam, they're spitting straight facts here

[@kydison]

This is so true

[@jeromie1962]

@@CitizenSoldier but she's right!

[@christianhildebrandt8186]

Legit yes!!!!

[@drax1526]

As a writer who suffers from bouts of depression, I adore that line "I'd like to speak of love and all its glory, instead I write it out in sadder stories." Had huge anticipation for this song, and I absolutely was not disappointed.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it spoke to you 🖤

[@Stolen_Rose]

Is depression a writer thing or is writing a depression thing? Because I'm the same. I just can't seem to produce a happy ending.

[@rayrayfc1]

@@Stolen_Rose writing is generally about how you are feeling so if you are depressed, you feel more of the same kind of emotions, so you are more likely to right those down making more pieces of literature dark and depressing so I think it's more that people with depression have to fight emotions and dissect them through any way possible, I turned to writing poetry and music, you turned to writing and music as well, everyone has something that will help them through it, and everyone deserves to feel okay, if u end up reading this keep on writing! Write what's true for you not what other people want to hear, it's your life, your story, don't feel like you are 'different' for feeling depressed, if you feel like you need help then seek it but never degrade yourself, never blame yourself, I can assure whatever made you feel this way wasn't your fault no matter how much it can feel like that, good luck in life amd your next piece of writing tho, sure it'll be great.

[@as-was-prophecyawp4088]

Learn to love the depression my brother.

[@MokiHunter]

Man the line of “I’m feeling dead inside but I’m too afraid to die” just nails the feeling exactly. Thank you for the music you post! Just the fact that it speaks so accurately to mine and others’ situations I think gives a sense that you’re not truly alone and someone else knows how you feel even when you’re too afraid to talk to anyone about it. And knowing you’re not alone is so important.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Well said. Thank you friend 🖤

[@sharonperez5011]

Totally agree. It's so hard going through life wanting to die, but staying alive because of being afraid to die

[@genanunez8170]

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS EXACTLY !!!!!!

[@aiveparn2930]

I can relate!❤

[@therealmeemawmallen9493]

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[@drakon_flight7946]

"Im feeling dead inside but im too afraid to die" Honestly, its pathetic how much I relate to that line, I've debated ending my life so many times, I've even made plans for it, but I always back out of pure fear. Thank you Citizen Soldier, thank you for making songs that are so accurate to how my own situation and how others feel. It makes me (and im sure others) feel that we're not alone, expecially during the chaos thats happening currently in the world. You guys are an amazing band. Thank you. "I dont feel at all how I did when I was young" Is a line, that is just as powerful and relatable. As a child your carefree without truely understanding everything that's 'bad' about the world, but as we grow older, nobody tells us how much everything changes that nothing is like the childish fantasys of dragons and princesses, Instead its cruel with violence and heartache and agony that hits you like a truck.

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re not alone. You’re not broken or wrong for feeling that. It just means you’ve been dealt a tough hand. I’m proud of you for fighting it because you’re worth that. Others will need your strength and thats what this community is all about 🖤🙏🏻

[@gothic_ace2037]

Dude I know what you mean. I was bullied almost my entire childhood by the kids I went to school with 🤷‍♀️ I was different and they could sense that. I got transferred to a different school for a year due to family reasons before being transferred back... if I had stayed, my life would have turned out so much different. There was one moment where I actually took a rope out to the back yard and sat up in a tree contemplating hanging myself. My aunt walked out on me up there but I'm so good at hiding shit she never suspected. I backed out at the last second. It was a shitty weak tree so the branch probably wouldn't have held my weight anyways, that thing was so dead from getting hit by lighting.

[@veilmontTV]

I hope things are better for you now

[@WarcrimeDragon]

"I don't feel at all like I did when I was young" Strange how the agony, misery, and suffering, seems to not exist when we are born. But then reach a point and for some of us, it never ceases to cling to our hearts. Thanks, Citizen Soldier, each new song is nothing but feeling sympathized with. I hope the day you die you can die happily knowing you helped people feel they aren't alone.

[@CitizenSoldier]

This means a lot to us. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻

[@axescilias]

citizen soldier, never failing to make those of us who feel worthless and invisible feel like we're not alone love you guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re never alone. Sending love 🖤

[@diabliqblack9921]

you know i could say it by my own words that my ego was offended by your words and still i agree with you, but instead i will use this. "Never before have I been so offended by something I one hundred percent agree with." - James Acaster because i always act like i'm tough and emotionless but that's only mask i wear when i'm not alone.

[@lumberjack7178]

Agreed there always get me to cry I have 88 suicide attempts and there song make me feel like I'm not alone

[@axescilias]

@@lumberjack7178 oh jeeze, I hope you're getting help, mate, I think you really need it

[@panhead537]

@@lumberjack7178 88?!

[@EyeTea]

When you don’t know how to explain something so you find a song that will describe it for you. Music is such a blessing.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So true 🖤

[@BrokeAtBestMusic]

It works the same for us. Easier to play than say sometimes.

[@hateurfacem810yearsago6]

Too bad most of us dont have anyone who we could explain our situation to. :'/

[@BrokeAtBestMusic]

@@hateurfacem810yearsago6 That's not your fault. People are just people, it's a whole thing.

[@kairavenstrike8740]

So true

[@SteriluxGaming]

internet quote "nobody is perfect" citizen soldier "hold my beer"

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hahaha love it!

[@grimthoughts41]

Most people just say “thats just a bunch of loud noise” but to someone who goes through a mental struggle they are currently fighting a war all while trying to make others happy and for somebody like me your music keeps me sane throughout every heart wrenching second of it. I am very grateful y’all are still releasing songs and wish I could give back to show my gratefulness since words are honestly not enough. I may just be some American amidst the millions of others but I am here I got your backs. You ever need someone just hit me up and we can talk. Everything will be ok. ❤️

[@grimthoughts41]

This song especially since I, once again, relate to the lyrics so well 😃

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for this friend 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@seasea7872]

Or, they say every song sound the same.

[@mattyman051]

Same, when i’m in pain, i dont let others see it, instead i make them as happy as possible cause i feel guilty sharing my pain

[@selado]

??????? Who the hell says "That's just a bunch of loud noise"? Pretty few people

[@arloraeZ]

I love that they actually notice their fans 😁🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

* Family 🖤

[@ImaNat20]

@@CitizenSoldier ok you have too be the most wholesome bond in existance

[@trishmunoz7745]

@@CitizenSoldier You are amazing.

[@officialliljuice8182]

they're awesome! sent them a DM on Instagram maybe 3 days ago and they responded a day after! Love them

[@elliemaej520]

"I don't feel at all like I did when I was young, I'm feeling dead inside but I'm too afraid to die" :'( I knew this song was going to be amazing and omg that it is, it's so beautifully written, your lyrics and videos capture the hearts and minds of so many here. There is so much i want to say but i won't because things for me are just too much atm 🖤⚘xx But I will say this.. You know When i think of a Soldier i think of all the hardships they go through to keep our world safe. They give their lives to protect us from harm. You guys are almost the same but you do it all through your music.. You are the voice to those who cannot speak of the horrible things they go through. You give hope when sometimes there is none, You give light when our days are at their darkest, when everything is just too hard to bear. You show love and respect to all those that message you and in turn we all show our love to you for everything you do 🖤⚘xxx

[@CitizenSoldier]

This comment made our night. Thank you so much. Sending love 🖤🤘🏻

[@elliemaej520]

@@CitizenSoldier You're more than welcome, thank you for this it's so true to how we feel. Love to you all 🖤⚘xx

[@mariesakowallis171]

🙌❤

[@genericosgenericbrandoceri873]

110 percent preach that ♥

[@SKMusicandLyrics]

@@elliemaej520 preach! This band is the voice of many of us who can not or dare not speak our feelings and suffering. We stay silent because we either don't have words, or we don't have the means to share the words. This band has the words and the means to express and share them. They are now my favorite band now, with TDG AND BB and skillet coming close behind!

[@woh1715]

ISTG THIS IS THE BEST BAND EVER

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are too kind 🖤

[@Limaieuh]

Love your picture

[@shadowalpha8170]

"I'm feeling dead inside but I'm too afraid to die" Thank you for another fantastic and relatable song 💕💕💕💕

[@CitizenSoldier]

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@angrypotato2825]

This is so relatable

[@laurazucchiatti8761]

I can relate too cos I almost did it in late 2019, but I'm still here, don't have the will nor the courage to take my own life 💪🏻.

[@cinnamon_tony_crunch560]

@@laurazucchiatti8761 Keep kickin' sister!

[@laurazucchiatti8761]

@@cinnamon_tony_crunch560 I will, thanks :)

[@winterburge2221]

I feel like a collab between Citizen Soldier and Breaking Benjamin would be an absolute masterpiece. Not that everything Citizen Soldier makes is a masterpiece already

[@CitizenSoldier]

Nice! Wouldn’t mind that at all!

[@Chico_Zanurfi]

HOLY CRAP YES, BB IT'S MY FAVORITE BAND SINCE CHILDHOOD AND IT'S AWESOME, AND MAKING A COLAB W/ CS WOULD BE SO FREAKING PERFECT

[@fallenangel9770]

I would probably have a heart attack if they did a collab. 2 of my all time favorites together🥰 you guys need to do this😭🥰

[@Nix1280]

Or Citizen Soldier and Skillet

[@CrystalLifeHD]

I would probably have a heart attack if that happens like @Fallen Angel said but I think any collab with CS and anyone would be awesome, I trust them 🥰But I would definitely go crazy when I see a collab with Three Days Grace also. I listen to CS and TDG quite a lot, it would be the perfect gift for me xD♥

[@HerondalesAngel]

Amazing 👏 it's getting harder and harder to choose my favourite, all the songs you guys put out are just so brilliant . Life just isn't life without citizen soldier thanx guys xxxxx

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much. You’re the best 🖤

[@calixlove4956]

Yeah

[@frozenalbertangaming2411]

i love how so far every song ive clicked on tonight ive seen your comments your citizen soldiers biggest fan :)

[@HerondalesAngel]

@@frozenalbertangaming2411 its true i do love them lol .

[@frozenalbertangaming2411]

@@HerondalesAngel its really hard not to idk how many times their music has helped me get through a tough time

[@EyeTea]

You guys never cease to inspire.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We have incredible people like you all to inspire us 🖤🙏🏻

[@kayprobst7823]

You guys have no idea how many lifes you safe just by writing these songs... i can't say it enough you guys are awesome!

[@faeb.9618]

man... it kinda hurts how accurate this song is to how i've been feeling ever since anxiety and depression really started sinking in, especially when i look back at when i was a kid and just... ask myself where i went wrong, what did i do to end up being the mess i am now trying so hard to just. stay alive and stay afloat. but it also feels so good... like a scream to let it all out and show all the tears and frustration to the world and actually being heard for once thank you for your songs, all of them, i can never thank you enough for what you're doing, they have gotten me through times when i didn't think i was strong enough to survive

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re not alone in that feeling. We need to be strong together 🖤🙏🏻

[@toastycomfyghosty1891]

Sorry this is coming a year later, but I hope you’re in good health. Your comment hit close to home cause I feel exactly like this, and a way that’s helped is to find people who are feeling close to what you feel, and allowing it to flow out in a group.

[@joaquinheredia83]

It is 3:00AM here in Argentina, but it is a Citizen Soldier notification so...

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love the dedication 🖤

[@goodguysab7061]

... I’ll sleep later

[@cavemanchonny]

Same lmao

[@dimeolas777]

For many they fear the loss of control and loss of identity. So while trying to hang on, and make others happy, theyre also trying to be normal so they dont have their control taken away from them. Theyre afraid of being put somewhere and it will be like a prison. Thank you for championing the causes people dont want to talk about and lending a voice to the suffering.

[@berg4549]

Song starts: hmm ok, it's good Chorus starts: OMG IT'S SO *UCKING GOOD

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hahaha so glad you like it 🖤

[@seasea7872]

No, all of it is *UCKING GOOD.

[@the_eternal_darkness_8436]

I love songs like this. Sad lyrics but so upbeat or rocking in the music that I can relate so heavily without feeling sad. Songs like bullet by Hollywood undead and now gunshot lullabies are some of my favorites. Thank you for the gem! What a great early birthday present🤘🏾🤘🏾

[@xenotriver]

I mean, there's that and then there's Pumped Up Kicks lmao

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means a lot. Thank you for the kind words. Happy birthday! 🎁🎉

[@abigailwelch6710]

Reason number one why i love having insomnia, i get to see the notifications for these pop up😂

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hahaha sorry about that 😂🖤

[@abigailwelch6710]

@@CitizenSoldier tis it is okay. You guys are probably in a different timezone than the one I'm in.

[@ZacharyHawkshaw]

Who needs sleep? We only need some of the best music ever produced 😂🎶🎤🎸

[@ryantully3717]

So amazing when you can connect to real music over a therapist...

[@ryantully3717]

Also amazing when you finally hear the words you're dying to say but just cover up with drugs and alcohol instead

[@michaelstrader4279]

The hardest thing sometimes is telling another about how you feel. "I don't know how to say this" has been true for me even to this day. Love the music it is full of passion.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend. Appreciate you 🖤🙏🏻

[@purfectkittyfan]

My depression took back over this week. Feeling over it all, wanting everything to end but scared to. I play your music nonstop, and this is another song that perfectly captures my feelings. Amazing band, I love you guys

[@rebel0334]

Stay strong. I believe in you 🖤

[@purfectkittyfan]

@@rebel0334 Thank you ♥️ I won't actually end it, I just hate this

[@rebel0334]

@@purfectkittyfan I know what you mean. Trust me but the best thing we can both keep doing is fighting. I've been like this since 2018 and sometimes I feel like doing something stupid cause I feel like there's no end to the constant pain I'm in.

[@purfectkittyfan]

@@rebel0334 I'm glad you're still fighting 😊 It's a long seemingly neverending fight. I completely understand feeling like its the only way to end the pain, but it's so worth it to push through

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hope you're doing well friend 🖤

[@jankotek2681]

The fact that this wasn't on top of the charts deeply saddens me. This world doesn't deserve you, but it needs you like nothing else. Your music and the way you get your point across is unparalleled. For the greater part of my life I've been listening mainly to extreme metal music and thought that it encompasses all my feelings. Then I stumbled upon you and to say that I am a fan is a tremendous understatement. You gave me goosebumps and made me cry. I can't say enough. Thank you for existing.

[@witchybuisness8503]

there is no other band I've ever stumbled across that hits such heavy emotion like citizen soldier. It's so relatable yet so personal and touching at the same time, incredible.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you feel it. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻

[@jakubslavicek6796]

how can one song excatly explain the way i am feeling, but your music help me so much, thank you for being here for the ones that can't speak for themselves

[@anna-lenabischof1479]

I think He's really understaning the real pain and for me that gives a bit Hope in my dark World. Citizen Solider is such a great Group. I really Hope theyre staying Safe and please do more of this legendary music 🙏♥️🙏

[@m0rtias_YT]

Honestly, I don't understand how you guys make every song so relatable. This is an awesome song to.

[@x3non616]

From someone who is very emotionally distant, the "i don't feel at all" part really hit home. Then again, great song, I'm always hyped as soon as I see a new song pop up on your story, great band and I can't wait for your second album when you get around to it

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad you felt it 🖤

[@WoIfgirI2]

Hey, Citizen Soldier, thanks for speaking about mental disorders. I use your songs to talk about my bipolarity and phases. The pain, the anxiety, the confusion... Everything. I love your songs. Thanks to give me strength. :)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Sending love friend. Stay strong 🖤

[@WoIfgirI2]

Oh well, now I'm just freaking out. Fuck me, but I really Love you guys ಡ ͜ ʖ ಡ

[@aurora_sway]

Your music is my counselor, therapist, and psychiatrist. I love everything that you put out. Thank you, I hope someday I get to meet you in person so I can thank you for real.

[@bloodvypa783]

I know exactly what you mean. This band has saved my life so many times.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Can’t wait to meet you some day. Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻

[@eragonaras6937]

why are you giving me the feeling that you understand me but hurt me with your words all in one song?

[@thecomedian6391]

Bit late to seeing the music video, but listened on Spotify over and over again, I’m glad I found this band early because this is the music I can grow up to and tell my kids about when I talk about the greats. Also, I want to say thank you to the band, reading your comment on my comment really helped me feel semi important, I’ve been thrown away by a lot of my friends and some family for my mental illness, and it was nice seeing that people who are busy took time out of their day to write a response to me, it’s so cool that you guys go through the comments trying to make sure everyone feels important, and trying to respond to people who need it. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Of course. This is a family and we all need to support eachother through that dark place we all face eventually. Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻

[@deathdealr8775]

As a Veteran who suffers from PTSD... This is how feel almost on the daily.... nobody I know can or will truly know how I feel on the inside... They don't see the demons I fight or feel my pain... There are days I want to end it all, to end the suffering...

[@cypheriskfrost5188]

Once again you’ve made another amazing song to vibe with, not to mention the amazing vocals and the constantly relatable lyrics great job and those 20 people who disliked the song obviously have bad taste if they can’t tell how amazing this is

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are too kind! Thank you 🖤🙏🏻

[@tylermonette1410]

"i don't feel at all, like i did when i was young" these words describe me almost to a T i may still be considered young (17) but the point still stands for as long as i can remember ive felt practically nothing and lets be real covid made that 10 times worse i may be late to the party with this song, but its the closest to describing me, thank you for not ommiting any aspect of mental health in your songs i look forward to the new album

[@orton220]

I am in treatment for complex PTSD and have trouble expressing and labeling exactly how I feel. Every citizen soldier song describes it perfectly in a way I never can. I am grateful for your music and others you are helping.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So proud of you for facing your problems head on. Keep working hard, we’re rooting for you 🖤🙏🏻

[@100spookyskelly]

This album talks about such sensitive topics in such a way that you can sing along. These songs can be such coping mechanisms for people that are suffering such pain, and I can sing along and still enjoy the song when I’m not feeling down. Amazing job as always Citizen Soldier, can’t wait to see more!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So happy to hear they help others cope. Much love 🖤🙏🏻

[@lillyspradley8518]

This song actually made me forget what stress my family has caused me as a student, an athlete, and so many other things. Your music always inspires me in so many different ways. Keep up the amazing songs!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it helps. Love hearing that :)

[@darkbean8916]

The lyrics, the guitar, the chills it gives me and the animation. Everything is just perfect ɵ̷̥̥᷄ˬɵ̷̥̥᷅ 🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤

[@alextsukishima7666]

Man you guys deserve more than just +80 subscribers like this is a MASTER PEACE( and that includes all other songs) and there's no person who cannot relate to this one bit!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you crowns. That means so much 🖤🙏🏻

[@firehoodyt3265]

I don't know how you do it but every song you make hits in all the right spots and is always the song I need to hear ( Let it Burn is a perfect example) thank you

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻

[@emoash9382]

I have just been hit in the feels real hard. Thank you so much for sharing and producing songs, this is amazing and shows how many people feel. You guys never cease so amaze me with your music, and especially at this time when music is keeping people sane when being stuck at home. Thank you for everything you do and all that you have done. You are an amazing band that have inspired many people, and I believe that you will keep doing it because that is what Soldiers do, they keep fighting and keep helping even when everyone has given up, and you guys are soldiers. We believe in you, and we always will, so keep up that fight.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So well said. Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻

[@emoash9382]

@@CitizenSoldier You are amazing and deserve this said so much. And also thank you so much for commenting on this, I've had a rough day today and needed something to brighten my day.

[@WinterRose89]

This song hit so close to home that it actually made me cry. 💙 It’s such a powerful meaning song 🎧 🎶

[@gilangromadhon7028]

3:30 "i don't know how to say this".yup, this song is really amazing. love form Indonesia 🇲🇨

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love from Utah 🖤

[@HaremHighway]

Thank you for posting this, I have a couple of tears streaming down my face because this song spoke to my soul. Thank you Citizen Soldier, godspeed friends.

[@CitizenSoldier]

You too friend. Sending love 🖤🙏🏻

[@prettymomma3968]

This came up in my recommended out of no where and it could not have picked a better timing. This screams out the words I cannot speak, so much is going right for me yet my mental illness looms over and smothers like a thick smog. Thank you for saying what we've all been silently screaming to be heard for so long.

[@xaiyanicplague7874]

Honestly such a beautiful song that honestly reaches out to those of us that feel alone. Reminding us we're just the opposite.

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re definitely not alone 🖤🙏🏻

[@tatsukinomiya]

Mess of Me and Gunshot Lullabies are my favorite tracks on this album. Every lyric from those two songs hit my daily existence. "I don't feel at all like I did when I was young; I'm feeling dead inside and I'm too afraid to die. And I DESPISE what I see through bloodshot eyes" So much soul in the vocalist's voice

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Tatsu 🖤 Thanks for your support

[@cayleighmusic]

Dang, this describes living with trauma (or the effects of trauma) for me. Especially the part where there was no face in the mirror. That hit hard.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Cayleigh 🖤

[@dalewikfors9194]

Growing up makes our child hood memories fade. This is why this song, this work of art is so appropriate to the times we live in now. Great work men, another treasure you have created 👏

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much, glad you get it 🖤🙏🏻

[@XxToy_SolderxX]

A lot of people deal with their own inner demons and I'm no different. when I was 8 I lost my best friend in a house fire on Christmas eve, 3 years later I lost my great grandparents, when I was 14 I lost my grandfather and a great aunt at 15, at 17 I lost an uncle to homicide, I thought that in order to end all of the pain left behind from that I had to end myself and I actually tried a few times, I've been battling my inner demons for a while and I don't think my battle is done yet but Citizen Soldier is helping me get through it. Thank you and keep up the amazing work!!!

[@annachezganova5548]

Looking for something that is real I can't remember how to feel The moments pass before my eyes Make it hard to say goodbye Staring straight into the sun Life pouring from my hands like dust Empty heart and jet black lungs What have I become I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside (dead inside) But I'm too afraid to die And I despise This world I see through blood shot eyes I look up to the sky (to the sky) And fall asleep To gunshot lullabies Lullabies And though it seems I've sealed my fate My life's a canvas I will paint An image of myself I hate But can anyone relate In the midst of life and death Living under this regret If I give up will I find rest 'Cause I haven't found it yet I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside (dead inside) But I'm too afraid to die And I despise The world I see through blood shot eyes I look up to the sky (to the sky) And fall asleep To gunshot lullabies Lullabies I'd like to speak of love and all it's glory Instead I write it out in sadder stories I try to fill the void with Anything at all But I can't I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside (dead inside) But I'm too afraid to die And I despise The world I see through blood shot eyes I look up to the sky (to the sky) And fall asleep To gunshot lullabies Lullabies To gunshot lullabies Lullabies

[@CitizenSoldier]

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[@sophiaelise8710]

@@CitizenSoldier I found your channel by accident about 2 weeks ago and I have fallen in love with your music. I struggle with undiagnosed anxiety and depression, and I've been through so much in the past few years. I relate so much to your music and I appreciate that. You put my feelings into words and that means more to me than you know. Please don't ever stop making this music. You're saving lives and making the misunderstood feel understood and the lonely feel like they're not alone. Thank you soooooooooo much!!

[@akemithesamuraiofdawn3382]

Me: Looking for a movie feeling tired Computer: Notification pops out Citizen soldier drops new song Me: Grabs headphones sits in front of the computer click on video and ignore everything around is just me and the song rocking on🤘🤘 Awesome song

[@CitizenSoldier]

That makes us so happy to hear. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻

[@jaydenstacy6478]

This is already one of my favorite songs with lines like "I'm feeling dead inside but I'm too afraid to die." And "my lifes a canvas I will paint an image of myself I hate" and even "I try to fill the void with anything at all but I cant" gotta say this is in my top 3 CS songs after the first listen. Thank you guys got such great music.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means more than you’ll ever know. So glad you connect with the lyrics on this one. Much love 🖤

[@chjc2001chjc]

I'm so happy that someone understands how i feel. Love you Citizen Soldier, Your songs are some of the best, even if i don't like modern songs/music

[@m4rine374]

So many difficult topics have been touched on by this absolute gem of a band and they continue to do so in this time of chaos. Keep making great songs that help people I know they helped me.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We will keep working hard. You guys deserve a band that fights for you 🖤🙏🏻

[@xenotriver]

Let's gooo! Longest wait of my life.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Let us know what you think!

[@xenotriver]

@@CitizenSoldier a little softer than I was expecting. Absolutely love the lyrics though.

[@andysixxstalkerangeloftrag5833]

I'm so mad I slept through the upload. But this is another song I love by this band. At this point though I don't expect to not love a sing by Citizen Soldier, all their songs are beautiful.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you enjoy the new track 🖤🙏🏻

[@just4me754]

You never cease to amaze me with your songs. Such beautiful music, but also the stories they portray...there's no words to say how much your music means to me

[@CitizenSoldier]

That’s an honor to hear. Thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻

[@just4me754]

@@CitizenSoldier Thank you for putting words to so many emotions and thoughts that I could never explain, even to myself. Thank you for reminding me there are good people and things worth fighting for in this life. 💕

[@Ajb5591]

"my life a canvas I will paint, an image of myself I hate" that's something that I can relate to, and others out there. I really appreciate your music

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you friend. Much love to you 🖤

[@Dragonslayer17111]

My friend recommended this song to me. This song is perfection. To that person, thank you friend.

[@mjloki5524]

That line "i dont feel at all, like i did when i was young" seems everyone feels it within them now a days.. Remember when you're young, you used to dream of how to make others feel the same happiness that you feel by sharing it with them, but now, you're trying to find that same happiness you used to feel. That's what that line meant for me anyways. Another great song from you guys. 👏👏👏👌👍❤️

[@aprilleerose]

So true

[@CitizenSoldier]

You definitely get the message. Thanks for sharing friend 🖤🙏🏻

[@mjloki5524]

@@CitizenSoldier you're always welcome & thanks also. Your songs have so much depth in it that it literally gives comfort to those who are feeling depressed or going through a lot right in a way i really can't explain and for that, thank you..your song has its way to tell people who experience loss, sadness and anykind of negative stuffs realize that there's someone feelimg the same thing and to not give in to it. i know its not just me you helped out in a way but many lives. I do hope your songs reaches out to a more people who are going through tough times . More power to you guys. Keep safe. ❤️

[@cosmiccal308]

"I'd like to speak of love and all it's glory Instead I write it out in sadder stories"

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜;

[@kingfisher213]

This song hit my soul... It's like their taking the thoughts and feeling right out of my head...

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad you feel it speaks for you 🖤🙏🏻

[@BrokenHeartedVS]

I absolutely love not only the song but the video. Both of them do so well in describing what major depression feels like and as a writer of stories who literally just got done writing one a month ago about struggling to survive through such depression(with the help of a friend), "I'd like to speak of love and all its glory, instead, I write it out in sadder stories" was super powerful and hit me right in the core. I often deal with my own bad thoughts, using my stories.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you enjoyed it. Appreciate you 🖤🙏🏻

[@BrokenHeartedVS]

@@CitizenSoldier Right back at ya!

[@hyuranghae]

"I try to fill the void with anything at all" hits so close to home...

[@Dont_Hug_Me_Im_Squared]

The first song in ages that made me convulse in tears, thanks a lot for this masterpiece

[@CitizenSoldier]

🖤

[@Altair6263]

Every Song of you is a masterpiece, how is it even possible...

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are too kind 🖤🖤🖤

[@JustinSchieck]

Theres something about this music that catches my attention. Out of nowhere while coding at work, this comes on after finding weight of the world a week ago, this one hits hard and home too bc for years until I fought tooth and nail to change life, this song illustrates my everyday. I still have these exact thoughts but their suppressed now a-days. great song again guys.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend. Stay strong 🖤🙏🏻

[@JustinSchieck]

Always do guys. Keep rocking it

[@blubbermouth]

Thank you. 💕 No sap story coming from me tonight, but I've been following y'all since late 2019 I think, so I heard this when it came out and loved it, but I've just come back to this song tonight, and I learnt I really needed it's existence at this time. So thank you.

[@sara_s1737]

Citizen Soldier's songs never stop to amaze me, it's like I finally found something that can express my feelings that I couldn't before. Your songs just hit right in the feels.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love hearing this. Thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻

[@CrazyOldCanuck]

Paint your future in water color, that way it's easier to start all over again.

[@quative2014]

This song is dark,relatable,clever,and a message people need to hear.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻

[@sin4144]

I've been waiting for this one

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hope it was worth the wait 🤘🏻🖤

[@sin4144]

@@CitizenSoldier Definitely. Your songs always are.

[@chaosandduality931]

I think I connect with the music and lyrics of Citizen Soldier the most when it comes to musical artists. It feels like someone is singing the soundtrack of my empty husk

[@elisaho8084]

i've just recently discovered citizen soldier and all i can say is that i'm amazed. every song is so beautiful and carries such a strong meaning. the more i listen, the harder it gets to choose a fav

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤

[@yesaigvalencia1798]

Love The song, love The animation, love The lyrics. Incredible, Perfect/10

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@wyattcarson6572]

This week couldn't be better Monday I turned 23 plus we get new music from citizen soldier i remember I was depressed after losing my mom I was checking out music on montage rocks channel I clicked on the video for buried alive the lyrics were so real I searched you guys up on KZbin and I'm pretty sure I listened to everyone of your songs your lyrics are real and emotional I'm sure your music has truly helped alot of people like it has for me and everytime you guys release new music it's wonderful reading the lyrics that are so real that are truly full of emotion

[@CitizenSoldier]

Happy birthday!!!! So glad you enjoyed the new song 🖤🖤🖤

[@saiki_amv1858]

You keep a lot to yourself because it's hard to find people who understand.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So true. We have been there

[@jullyscainl7623]

You're hared all pointed ok all dealing allok

[@Comrade884]

I cannot think of a bad song y'all have made, all are masterpieces, and still my favorite band

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤

[@rahulsugrim9561]

It's like they know what I'm feeling...every song is like a emotion I feel everyday n this song means alot when it comes to helping people like me...big cheers for Citizen Soldier

[@Nocteul]

Samee, these songs are so relatable, which is exactly why citizen soldier is my favourite band.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you feel that connection friend 🖤🙏🏻

[@monsieur9743]

"I'm feeling dead inside but I'm too afraid to die" I felt that, and looking at the comments a lot others did too we'll all get through this though 🙏

[@CitizenSoldier]

We need to all help eachother 🖤🙏🏻

[@blairm_1621]

This may sound dumb but this song is how I feel put in words I couldn't find to say so thank you for allowing me to find a song that helps me but into words my emotions

[@dhvanitvyas9418]

Soul touching lyrics, Honestly this band is so underrated...! Lots of love from India 🇮🇳

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love from Utah 🖤

[@KGiguere091994]

I don’t think there will ever be a time where this band lets me down, every single song and album they have made is just incredibly done and fantastic, thank you Citizen Solider for blessing me with your music.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means the world to hear. Honored that we haven’t disappointed you 🖤🙏🏻

[@KGiguere091994]

@@CitizenSoldier just never stop making music guys, hope to see y'all in concert one day

[@akaikolr4297]

Perfection is not reaching the point where nothing can be improved, that point does not exist. Perfection is always improving more and more over time. Your music is already PERFECT

[@CitizenSoldier]

This is so kind. Thank you so much.

[@robertdonaldson5095]

YOU GUYS ARE LITERALLY GODSENT GAURDIAN ANGELS THANKYOU!!!

[@tarawalters3773]

I'm not even going to lie, this song, saved me, and I mean literally, I wont go into detail because I cant, but thank you for this song, it truly helped and is still helping, it makes me feel less of an emotionless sociopath as the words of family and friends, and more like a human being🖤Thank you for this song

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it helped. Sending love 🖤🙏🏻

[@andy4380]

Great Song. I feel me so worthless and alone and nobody understand my feelings and emotions and my situation except you Guys. Citizen soldier give me strength and Hope for my Life back. I want to say to thanks being here and for this make great music.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that Andre 🖤

[@fallxn_freak4174]

Dang, this is one epic way to start a morning. Thank you so much for this! This is so relatable, especially the line "I'm feeling dead inside but I'm too afraid to die." I know I've said this before, but seriously, thank you so so much. When I hit a depressive rut in my life, I literally turn up your music and start crying out the lyrics. Your band is a literal therapy session for me and countless others, thank you!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it feels like therapy. That is exactly what we want this to be. Much love 🖤🙏🏻

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it feels like therapy. That is exactly what we want this to be. Much love 🖤🙏🏻

[@agaamei2954]

The line: 'I'd like to speak of love and all its glory, instead I write it out in sadder stories' hit me hard, just like the rest of the song. I love your songs and everytime I feel more suicidal I listen to 'Let it Burn' I don't know how and why but it really helps and I'm more then thankful for your songs and hard work you all are putting in your career and your support for fans and all people. And even more wholesome is a fact that - as I saw in comments under this song - you're giving hearts and replying to EVERY ONE comment, showing that everyone matters and that you really read those comments. It's truly wholesome and thank you for that. Thank you for helping me - and I'm more people than me - keep being alive 🖤💕

[@CitizenSoldier]

Honored to hear the songs are helping. You’re worth the fight. Stay strong 🖤🙏🏻

[@agaamei2954]

@Citizen Soldier It's hard sometimes but I'll try my best and I'm sure your songs will help me with it. I can't possibly express how thankful I am for music (including yours) that helps survive through those days. I feel like a 'thank you' isn't enough but that's the only thing I can say, so thank you, so much.

[@okaymoonstorm]

Another incredible and relatable piece of art, it’s a magical feeling when you find a song that puts your feelings into words.. I always use songwriting to put complicated emotions that I am afraid to come to terms with down on paper, and it relieves me and helps me begin to understand them. It’s my solace. All their songs make me wonder, though, if CS is doing okay mentally. This reminds me slightly of the Linkin Park/Chester thing, I’d hate to see more cries for help go ignored. Hope they know all of us are here for them :)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing your kind words. So honored our music is helping. Sending love 🖤

[@MadGamer1337]

"I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside But I'm too afraid to die" Greatest part of the song.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you like it 🖤🙏🏻

[@abbyosborne5007]

How many tears can I cry? How many times can someone lie? How many bruises can you spy? How many days until I die? How many thoughts can I think? How long will I continue to shrink? How many blows to break that last link? How long until I finally sink? How many bullets left in the gun? How many shots until the round is done? How many can I shoot beneath the sun? How many…? And still have a bullet for one.

[@Griff6g]

Thank you guys for what you do. I feel like the lyrics are straight out of my thoughts...Your songs are amazing and emotion jerking for me but brings up the battles i need to fight with my inner demons. Really glad I heard one of your songs while watching GSL last month and became a big fan and hope to see you guys perform live!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank love to play live for you! Appreciate you 🖤🙏🏻

[@panhead537]

This is the deepest song you've done yet! Again, I've never felt like this. But I feel horrible 4 those who have.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate your kindness friend. 🤘🏻🖤