Dancing for Dollars to Write My Gay $tripper Romance - STUDDENLY In Love [why I left booktube]

[@bookishlymichelle]

tbh booktube has NEEEEVERRRR felt like a community to me/i never felt included when i still posted. i'm too gay, my accent is too thick, i live in a country that will never match the aesthetic that this space expects at this point, and the viewership & the algorithm have never let me forget that. i stopped creating content at the beginning of this year because i was so tired of it. booktube is more exclusive than inclusive in so many ways. I'll be cheering y'all on regardless tho!!! sending love as always. ❤❤

[@JesseOnYoutube]

okay michelle all of that is so true. point blank period. good for you for speaking on it. thank you for cheering us on regardless. its so kind. you're seen and loved.

[@moustik31]

I mostly watch Black Ytbers and a lot of them (Bookish Realm, Jess Owens, MyNameisMarines, etc.) are either burnt out and/or have stopped posting. I used to watch Beauty content 5y ago, so I understand, that viewership's trends evolve, it's still disheartening to watch it affects Black content creators the most.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

booktube literally be milking Black youtubers for our labor, voice, etc and then discarding. just wild. Ashley pours brilliant intellectualism and soul into her videos - i haven't seen a deeper commitment to consistent discussions, especially ones that aren't "popular topics" on booktube as I have on her channel. and the other creators are wildly talented too. ugh. thanks for the affirmation :) we're glad to be back and pushing through. we will find our audience, our people, and we will stick by them

[@mcclorei9]

I feel this so much. I quit bookstagram because the video that got the most views was a traditional style fantasy. Everything else was ignored. I don’t want to just read those books so I say no thanks

[@amyschmelzer6445]

Marines posted a new video. I watched it this afternoon, so I think it’s from today. I hadn’t seen her in a while.

[@moustik31]

@amyschmelzer6445 Yes, I saw. I'm so excited!

[@anishalanghorn2573]

Not me on google trying to find stud stripper stories. I did not know about this. Please keep writing it. I cant wait to see it.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

ahhh!!!!! ok right? i started writing the novel because of my experiences being a stud and a stripper while trying to date. the prejudice i faced from other lesbians/queer community...not fun. but there's so much queerness in stripping as a whole and that's been a blessing. we just don't talk about studs in love, especially if they're best friends and trying to navigate whether to risk their friendship for love. thank you for the inspiration. its needed.

[@KirstensKorner]

everytime i think im smart and then i listen to how eloquent and intelligent ya'll are and im in awe

[@KirstensKorner]

genuinely salivating waiting to read this book.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

wheezing bc we felt so messy filming this. like we didnt make sense and wasn't linear. thank you for letting us know that wasnt the case

[@soulfullyalex]

As a genderqueer person thats not totally out everywhere the gendered terms going around on bookstagram and booktube always make me feel... off/uncomfortable. I always feel left out of the trends when people are using "book girlie" and the like, and I've honestly found myself engaging less in the book community as a result. It can feel so hard to navigate the space sometimes. I've always loved y'all's videos because they felt comforting and like I was just hanging out with a friend. Y'all make me feel safe somehow. I can't wait for y'all's book! Sending love to you and your family!

[@JesseOnYoutube]

🤧😭😭😭😭🤧🤧

[@hyemiyah]

yes to everything y'all say about booktube. nowadays everyone feels like a copy of the same person, it's a bit uncanny. i mean, I don't mind them, truly, I'm happy for them, but at the same time booktube used to be a much more diverse place. hoping y'alls brother finds a job that treats him DECENTLY soon 🙌🙌🙌 can't wait for y'alls novel!!! so thrilled!!! love y'all loads!!

[@JesseOnYoutube]

all of this. the way you phrased 'like a copy of the same person' YO! honestly.

[@danaslitlist1]

I cannot wait to read y’all’s book! It has certainly been a labor of love and hard work on y’all’s end💞💞

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Danaaaaaaa

[@ElegantMechanic_]

"Girlie is gender neutral" is kind of a wild take. I'm 6'6", bald and bearded. Can't imagine anyone calling me "girlie" and thinking "Wow, look at me, doing a Gender Neutral". It would be pretty funny though, so feel free if it would improve y'all's day.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

literally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! would you call the postal workers girlie? etc. the forcible labeling of ...strangers has gotten so freaking weird. terms of affection have become the norm to use for acquaintances/randoms and ... i find it odd. ps we're 4'11" , don't tell anyone.

[@ElegantMechanic_]

@@JesseOnKZbin 4'11" eh? We should form a team and fight crime. With our powers combined, we are BigSmol, scourge of average height criminals.

[@NateReadsDiversely]

I just watched your two most recent videos, and I’m in awe of y’alls ability to stand up for nonbinary readers and show love to your community at one of the hardest times in your life. It shows how big your heart is. I’m sending you so much love and can’t wait to read your books!

[@mcclorei9]

I feel betrayed in the reading spaces sometimes because it really doesn’t cater to everyone. It makes reading trendy, it’s not for the love of it anymore. The biggest booktubers all kinda look the same and read the same. It’s just sad that I have to be purposely intentional to find diversity of all kinds to follow me

[@JesseOnYoutube]

💯

[@livforreading]

Jesse you have absolutely no idea how excited I am to read your book!! It sounds incredible!!

[@JesseOnYoutube]

stfu thank you, Liv!!!!!!!!

[@cannabiread9234]

We LOVE y'all❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@JesseOnYoutube]

we love y'all back :)

[@rysreadingcorner]

The book sounds amazing! I can’t wait to read it ❤

[@JesseOnYoutube]

We literally cannot wait to see you with it

[@Strawberrybabyz94]

I'm just glad y'all are back. I love your content and hope to join patreon soon. Soooo excited for the new book. Your book recs give me life. I feel like i'm watching myself on youtube when i watch your videos. Keep up the great work. My condolences for y'all family as well. Much gratitude mi amor!!! 💜💜💜🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🥰🥰🥰

[@JesseOnYoutube]

We are SO grateful for this message, mi amor. 💜💜💜

[@Strawberrybabyz94]

@JesseOnKZbin You're the only book tuber that I will always interact with. Y'all are such a beautiful person and I can't wait for the readathon in November. I'm replaying your videos as we speak. Just like your mom and abuela I fall asleep to your videos. The voice, The personality, The Doggies, so much love and care that I enjoy watching on youtube in general. I don't comment much, but I couldn't go another day without telling y'all how much I appreciate y'all.

[@StephTucker-hc8px]

Cannot wait to read your book

[@moonyreadsbystarlight]

I feel ya'll on the whole "book girlies" thing. I also don't really interact with/follow people use that exclusively. Same with people who have no queer/trans books (The exceptions are maybe people who do really niche nonfiction content). Or, like, if the only queer book on your feed is Evelyn Hugo (or the like), I'm out. It's really cool that y'all are opening up about your other job, and that you're taking some of that and putting it into your book. Tbh y'all had me at stud4stud romance, but I'm even more excited to see how it is knowing that! I hope y'all feel more comfortable being on booktube having opened up about it. Anyone who is weird about it isn't worth the time

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Evelyn Hugo 😂 The last sentence slays!!!! Thank you for all this affirmation, dear friend.

[@savannah4439]

Congrats to Jamill on the new job! Especially after such a hard year, it’s so important to celebrate the wins when we can. I wish him the best!

[@dylanwickersham5610]

I know that this is an older video and that things have changed drastically since filming. But I hope that y'all's community of folks who walk their talk shows up and shows out during this time. Everyone deserves positive space. On a lighter note I'm happy that y'all brought up lashes! I know a few dancers and people who are dance adjacent and a lot of the meticulous work relating to their look goes unrecognized.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Dylan 🤍😭🤧☀️

[@sagekay]

Wowowow what an update! Support yall always!!! I’m so sorry for your loss! Sending you healing vibes 🫂🫂🫂

[@PaulinaSanchez]

Sending y'all so much love!! I can't wait to read Studdenly in Love 📚❤‍🔥

[@JesseOnYoutube]

we literally cant wait to SEE U WITH IT

[@ellethinks]

I don't comment often, but I'm a long time watcher (I think I found your channel from one of your horror skits?). Just wanted to say I appreciate y'alls channel/videos and y'all's vulnerability on your platform. ❤ And good luck continuing on with your writing!

[@JesseOnYoutube]

We love that you've been with us since those cringey skits lmao! Thank you for the affirmation.🤍🤧

[@Onemorebookpodcast.]

Wishing you all the best.

[@isisx2015]

I don't comment very often, but I just wanted y'all to know that I've been here since the bowties days and I've seen y'all go through a lot. I can't imagine what y'all're going through now. But I just wanted to say that, in whatever form y'all choose to go forward, I've been here and I'm gonna stay here. ❤️

[@h5y878]

I have always found this channel fresh and authentic, and I've never considered being a patreon myself because y'all's content has always been so fulfilling here, giving that I'm an ocasional viewer. But I do consider y'all's to be among the creators that this comunity needs around, someone so talented at this; and I can't stand watching a person being deprived of a safe space, so I'm very exited to support joining without second thought. Sorry for my bad english.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Oh my gosh!!!!! We are so incredibly honored, thank you 🙏🏽

[@moustik31]

Im so happy, writing this book has allowed y'all to experience dancing differently and I'm excited to see more of that aspect in y'all life in y'all future videos!

[@JesseOnYoutube]

ahhh ty ty!!!

[@JoshsBookishVoyage]

Wishing y'all the best and excited to hear more about y'all's book in the future.

[@adrienneadelsperger897]

Love you and your honesty so much. Thank you for sharing more about this aspect of you 🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@sophiareagan6425]

Y'all's book sounds great!

[@circlesofflame]

Wayyyyy... back with a bang. Let's goooo! I think BookTube has felt the loss of not having y'all around - I certainly have - and I'm glad y'all feel resilient to all of the social media trend rubbish, can fly the flag for inclusivity and do what y'all enjoy in a way that keeps y'all and y'all's family safe and nourished. It's probably not said enough, but thanks for creating a community and space where everyone feels free to be who they are. I'm excited to see it continue to grow once again.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Omfg. This comment is so appreciated. You said some things we really needed to hear. Thank you

[@chantristrammell6088]

I love the fact that Patreon exists so that good creators can be supported fully. That being said, let me go and start an account so that I can support yall. I like when creators start their videos by addressing hes/shes/theys

[@JesseOnYoutube]

ummmm THANK YOU CHANTRIS!!!!!!!!

[@llamabean529]

I'm looking forward to the books. I will just say that you are in my thoughts.

[@AyceMcGee]

I've been waiting for someone to bring up the girly issue! "GIrly is gender neutral" only works in trans and nonbinary spaces when it's people who would otherwise feel dysphoria or discomfort from "girly" reclaim for themselves and others who consent to it in a fun way. It can't and doesn't function that way when cis people say it and force it onto their audience.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Ayce coming through with brilliant commentary always

[@northofdakota]

PREACH! 👏🏾 I'm trans nonbinary and any time I see someone starting their video or post saying 'girlies', I cringe and find it hard to wanna follow them LOL 😬🙃

[@ZataraBerry]

This femme look 💛💛💛💛so much versatility!

[@JesseOnYoutube]

weeeeee! thank uuuu

[@erinsbooks]

I am so sorry you and other non binary and trans people are not welcomed. We are all readers, and should be open to whomever wants to read and talk about books. Looking forward to the content with your book. Also, so sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad not too long ago as well.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

Erin

[@veerow6035]

My heart goes out to you and your family. I am concerned. Some of the language you are using in this video and the last is quite extreme. Plus, with everything you have been through lately and the election coming up... I just hope you have the best care during this difficult time.

[@MiracleMiriamMichaelaMilagro]

Hey y’all! Hope y’all are finding peace despite the struggles of losing y’all’s mom and the physical issues y’all are facing. While I don’t have experience with losing a parent, I do very much understand my share of chronic illness and I want y’all to know that I see y’all and I’m here for y’all. I love y’all! I will light a bayberry candle for your sibling this weekend (so long as I don’t forget).

[@JesseOnYoutube]

what's bayberry? going to try and look it up if we recall. it sounds beautiful and so are you, our stunning and many named friend(s?)

[@MiracleMiriamMichaelaMilagro]

@@JesseOnKZbin Hi there! We have! Fellow plant lover! We spoke on IG as well, exchanging plant pics and such! (Oh yeah, speaking of, we sent y’all a couple sewing and candle making vids on IG of people we like to follow, for y’all’s reference. We used to make and sell candles and we’re low key terrible at sewing but still watch people.) Bayberry is a plant generally used for luck, bringing in money, and even for bringing in food and other resources. We burned our first bayberry candle this past weekend and it went out today and as soon as it did, we got an interview for a job that’s 15K more than what we make now. So we definitely vibe with it!

[@MiracleMiriamMichaelaMilagro]

@@JesseOnKZbin We have! Y’all’s DID video encouraged us to go back to therapy, after our own experiences in memory lapses and multiple SAs. (We have since left, but are considering exploring other therapists, post our most recent SA experience this month, so thank y’all!) We’ve connected on IG also, exchanging plant pics and such! (PS. We sent a few vids on candle making and sewing, for your future reference. We used to make candles and also suck so bad at sewing but still love certain creators, so we sent some for y’all on the gram.) Bayberry is a beautiful plant, and when in candle form, it’s used for luck and to bring physical resources, such as food, shelter, and money to your pockets. We burned our first one this past weekend and have already gotten an interview for a position that is 15K more than what we were already making. So, we’re definitely going to be stocking up on the bayberry candles!

[@KeriJo12]

Girlie feels very MLM, not gonna lie

[@JesseOnYoutube]

dead

[@Averagebookwormdad]

"Girlie is gender neutraI" my *ss... I am a cis male, wouldn't say I am overly masculine and I enjoy doing girly things with my daughter. But if someone would call me girlie I would cringe myself into a ball, and think that, okay that channel is simply not for me.

[@booksgurrsandpurrs]

Y'all are next level bad a**.

[@JesseOnYoutube]

WEEEEE! thank you thank you!!!!