dealing with anxiety

talking about anxiety for the first time because I am embarrassed normally but I hope this reaches the right people ok I love you have a good week

[@filmsgilmore]

“everytime i leave my house it is a conscious choice to make myself uncomfortable in the name of something greater for myself” EXACTLY

[@bamboutaurelle5532]

She just described my life

[@shrinocri]

true

[@zelie2545]

i genuinely cannot thank you enough for talking about your experiences and being vulnerable online, it’s so comforting seeing someone as inspirational as you are sharing their feelings like that

[@dejowada]

Dude, really?

[@fangirlinneverland6335]

Literally same,she made me so comfortable with my emotions and made me more hopeful

[@remc2901]

The fact that I’m feel so connected to this whole video

[@tonywilthshire308]

Sounds like you’ve found your calling in life, helping people the way that lady helped u

[@ellajackson5640]

As someone diagnosed with severe high trait anxiety, OCD and eating issues, thank you so much for this. Honestly beyond relatable. You are so pure, and you should be so proud of yourself for being so open and honest because it will help thousands of us and hopefully you too. Never ever be embarrassed of it. Thank you 🧡🧡🧡

[@AA-qb7ni]

Madeline really serves us with everything we need without even asking 😭❤

[@Specialtuness]

fr

[@KittyKat101MT3]

thank you Madeline. We need more honest conversations like this, people always stray from the details and try to make mental illness look cute or talk about it as a joke without acknowledging when shit actually gets real

[@lizzie8615]

as a person with anxiety, this video feels really validating. a lot of time in my life I always have had a little part of my brain that I feel like I know will always stick with me throughout my life. anxiety has always been a huge part of my life, especially when I was growing up, and knowing that it will always stick with me in my life is such a sinking feeling. I’ve always felt like it was so difficult to talk to anyone without anxiety about this, but this video gives me a sense of security, that a lot of people feel the exact way i do.

[@denarendall]

I haven’t had a panic attack for probably 3, maybe even 4 years now, but when I think about when I used to take them multiple times a day, I almost can’t fathom it anymore. That feeling cannot be compared to anything else. It feels like it will never ever stop. There is no way out. And the way it completely robs you of every ounce of energy is wild.

[@jobo8868]

Not me watching these videos to deal with my anxiety...💀 Madeline is our therapist frfr

[@samiraosman46]

i’m literally so happy with how quickly you went straight to the point right at the beginning of the video

[@harv_astrnight7506]

this video was posted at the perfect time i was literally deep thinking about how to deal with my anxiety

[@ElMoscas114]

She never fails to give and deliver. So thank you ever so much for sharing it. The wonderful feelings from Colombia 🇨🇴.

[@littleblueplanet222]

omg. thank you. idk why but I cried watching this. i don’t necessarily have the level of anxiety you mention but I do suffer from manic and depressive episodes and this video was very clarifying to me. i started piecing together things i haven’t thought about in years.

[@cait1774]

My anxiety makes me physically ill and forces me not to eat so i can not imagine eating in the middle of a panic attack. This video was so validating because I don’t know anyone who has anxiety to my severity. Although the things we get anxious about are different the panic attacks you have are so similar to mine. On another note I had severe acne due to the amount of stress I was putting on my body, before I got anxiety medication. Even with medication I still struggle but it has helped.

[@atiya._]

i cannot thank you enough for making this.I grew up with debilitating amounts of anxiety and seeing someone who's also come out of the other side of it open up about it in a way that's so raw and vulnerable feels so cathartic.forcing yourself to get better is so exhausting but it's all i've ever known,and this makes it feel more manageable.

[@kay-lee8571]

And the sucky thing about anxiety is that you have to do the thing your brain is telling you not to do in order to feel better. And that is SO difficult sometimes. And it’s so hard when your trying to explain to people who don’t have anxiety what your feeling. They just don’t get it.

[@haleyhall1234]

no because i'm OBsessed with you.....thank you for speaking so openly and honestly about such a hard thing that so many of us have to deal with every day!! you can tell you really HAVE been working on understanding this part of yourself for a while now and you honestly seem so wise!!!! i definitely needed to hear this

[@adelaidebooze8150]

It really sounds like agoraphobia and OCD as well as anxiety. I’m a psych and neuroscience major wrapping up my degree now. Something I touch on frequently is the idea of brain training, which it seems like you’ve fallen onto that yourself. Keep up the work, learning how to be uncomfortable until you’re essentially numb to it is hard but you’ll get there. Try to find the balance between working on it and letting yourself be, it’s the hardest thing to find but you’ve got this.

[@jessieblackery4547]

Ahhh I’ve never heard a description of someone else’s experience of anxiety that’s so similar to my own :’) I also massively struggled with school- I was told that my attendance was gonna make me fail all of my GCSEs, but that made school feel even more anxiety inducing. Then in the December, I realised I needed to at least prove them wrong so I stubbornly taught myself the content as a ‘fuck you’ lol (it worked). But yeah, I’m also finding it strange to navigate as an adult, cos it’s down to me to find structure each day, and sometimes I’m just not capable .. but similar to what you said- the more I start to avoid, rather than challenge, the harder each of those things feel to face. I’m trying to get myself out of a rut with it right now cos I’ve got three weeks to write my dissertation& final essays or I won’t get to graduate this year :’) but cos I’m trapped to those exact deadlines, it’s made me feel claustrophobic in that sense. Whereas I feel like it’d be entirely different if I knew I could get a 2 week deadline and still graduate with my cohort .... but ah well, I hope this didn’t turn into a trauma dump (I’m a lil bit disconnected atm) but I just wanted to share with you that I really related to those experiences

[@jessieblackery4547]

((I’m fully overthinking the wording of this lol but I hope it all came across okay, my intentions are good 😅😂))

[@TheWorldIsPeopleing]

I had that trapped anxiety like crazy when I was a kid. Starting my first job was a nightmare cause I had to stay "stuck" 9 to 5 or get fired but luckily where I work now signing off early is acceptable. Also Yoga with Adrienne helped a lot with exploring my physical symptoms a bit more, if you want to try her monthly calendar.

[@sophiephillips5265]

I LOVE HER. i’m autistic and have anxiety. she’s been so helpful for me especially before bed to destress and turn off my fight or flight

[@MadiNewson]

this video made me break down in tears knowing I'm not alone almost lifting a weight off my shoulders, thankyou you so much.

[@jesscollingwood8153]

Honestly thank you so much for talking about this Madeline, you dont understand how much this has helped me understand myself x

[@annaohashi8568]

It sounds like OCD than anxiety my queen! People often associate OCD with obsessive cleaning but what you described sounds awfully like what my friend with OCD goes through.

[@esseven]

she might have that too but from the way she speaks about anxiety it sounds like she has been diagnosed

[@sle4108]

@@esseven well they can come hand in hand as well

[@esseven]

@@sle4108 yeah i get that but i thought they were implying she has ocd not anxiety

[@AlohaAlexStef]

@rosie its not anymore

[@ellasolveignina4867]

she’s talked about having OCD so i’m pretty sure she’s been diagnosed with that too

[@imancdr2131]

Everyone suffering from a panic attack / anxiety disorder should reaaaaally make some researches about sensitization (the book "hope and help for your nerves" by Claire Weekes explains the concept really well). Understanding this concept helped me immensely, I used to have very severe panic attacks and I rarely have even small ones now. David Daish on KZbin also explains this concepts in some of his videos. I really hope that everyone will find their healing process.

[@filmsgilmore]

thank you so much for being so open about your mental health & sharing a bit of your brain. you are helping so many people feel less alone. love you 🤍

[@sophiaellenn]

the way you describe your anxiety was almost identical the way i have felt my whole life especially the school part THANKYOU SO MUCH for talking about it i literally love you🫶🏼

[@mirandapavaneli5981]

I recently came across your videos and I've been loving the monologues and the personal experience content ❤️ you're really eloquent and authentic

[@Annajakubowski]

I have had panic attacks for 6 years now. I empathize with you. Thank you for sharing your story and being vulnerable. This was very helpful for me. I hope you have a great day:) so grateful for you.

[@stories-of-elle]

The thing about missing out a lot on is real. Meditating for the last 4 years has been great for me. I certainly do experience some anxiety especially when particular experiences trigger me, but even when i do I'm more aware of it now and it doesn't really run my life. Also, breathwork is very amazing for releasing stuck trauma and energy in the body. Thank you for sharing this with us 💙

[@vladkazakov4556]

i’ve started to cry after she said «without her i wouldn’t have my GCSE & etc» cus this is actually what i’m going through rn. i have to pass my exams, i want to go to univ BUT I CANT cus of the panic attacks. its too heartbreaking

[@biueoo]

i was also house bound with my anxiety for many years. it was AWFUL. And i particularly was so so anxious about not being able to leave and not being ok with leaving. i related so much to everything you spoke about. by the ends of the years with my anxiety i’d get so tired of fighting id just leave

[@seantubexd3278]

Thank you for making this video, I genuinely relate to your story’s so much and it has made me feel profoundly less alienated and alone. Take care of yourself and I wish you all the best Madelyn x

[@seantubexd3278]

Sorry I spelt your name wrong also ahaha

[@Jennie_6132]

You should try out wim hof breathing basically forces your parasympathetic/healing nervous processes to start up. And calming down your bodily manifestations of anxiety are huge to calming down how the anxiety thoughts can affect you. Helped me soooo much. If I feel anxiety calming on I can put my attention on only my breath and takes me out of the clutches of anxiety. He has follow along breath work videos for beginners. Also u shud look at Hitomi Mochizuki’s channel. She has many videos on spirituality, life perceptions, yoga and how she dealt with her anxiety and her perspectives really helped me in my anxiety journey. Feels great to listen to someone else who experiences these issues with anxiety, makes me feel alone. Lots of love and support to u on ur journey girlie❤❤

[@bethfkni]

i love you madeline-you explain everything so well and it really helps everyone who watches, even people who don't have similar experiences. you help expose people to all these subjects and make it so entertaining and relaxing to watch/listen. thank you

[@Isabelle-t5m]

I don’t think I have ever felt more understood, thank you so much xx

[@joshuaharris2022]

brooo my yt algorithm is such a W for letting me find you. i never thought id find someone who shares my EXACT same sentiments. much less on youtube! love these vids.

[@SiobhanSaysHi]

I’ve met people from all over the UK and not one of them has had a good experience with CAMHS (including myself) like there is clearly something wrong? Thanks for talking about this, felt it all v deeply and it’s nice to know there’s someone else feeling the same x

[@Alisha-sk2hr]

omg she’s getting consistent 🤩🤩

[@katherinemikhaylova9036]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, in my country people do not really acknowledge anxiety and panic attacks and for years i've been treated for different stomach issues when in reality i was having anxiety and panik attacks and it got to the point when i was calling an ambulance because i seriously thought that i was dying and hearing other people takling about their experience gives me hope and makes me feel not alone, thank you thank you thank you

[@olivermunkholm1]

thank you so much for sharing your experience. i have been homebound with anxiety for about 2,5 years at this point and its been kinda brutal. but i think im finally starting to crack the code (fingers crossed)

[@kingchewy7991]

For me my anxiety affects me in exams it was because so back I would have a panic attack during my exams to the state a teacher would take me out of the exam and sit me down outside. I also struggle is going to group events like party's or work events. Thank you for sharing.

[@l33sli333]

i’m late to this video but i have ocd and this hit home since i have had similar food related fears and constant panic attacks. i’m so glad you talked about this because you’re helping lots of people realize how severe mental illness can be, and not just a quirky “im mentally ill”

[@lex365]

you help me so much I love you and these podcasts theyre one of the only things I look forward to, thank you❤

[@maddiealcantar2093]

This is one of the most realistic depictions of anxiety that I can relate to with actual helpful coping examples. Thank you so much for sharing! 😭🥹

[@tulsisexerciseworkouts6307]

Madeline - this really really spoke to me. Especially about "Why am I putting up with life like this, when I don't enjoy it ". The metaphor of the house on fire, is just spot on. Not until your actually burning, would you be willing to change it. Thanks for your honesty. I'm not sure if there is a program for GAD, which sort of sounds like what you have, but I do know AA programs and their derivates like OCA can be super helpful and enlightening. Wish you the best in your journey to enjoy life more, and also hope the car did in fact start at the end or you got the help needed for it! Thank you again for the honesty shared, I got emotional towards the end myself xxx

[@savvinaa5327]

this is the most relatable video i’ve ever seen i understand u and i feel u because i’ve been through the exact same things it’s tough but i’m in therapy

[@jaynemarrison8347]

Sounds super exhausting. So sorry you’re going through this. You should be so proud of yourself for coming this far, genuinely ❤ take care girl

[@sparklymoona5437]

This was so relatable. If people were not so fucking mean then I feel a lot of us who struggle with mental health would not feel this way. No one will ever understand anxiety unless they have it. That’s why it can feel like a small world when people brush it off and say oh it’s fine. Like no it is not. Mental health is a priority.

[@shxl17]

im literally having an oral exam later and i suffer frm anxiety so this really reached the right audience at the right time 😭

[@lizziedeerest]

This is actually so crazy… I’ve been working on my audience-related anxiety for years. I had an incident in the audience of a symphony (when I was a music student), and it led me to struggle to sit in classrooms, work meetings, and regular audience settings of all kinds. I really like that your therapist gave you permission to leave. And I can’t believe that’s the real solution… I have been failing to give myself permission, especially in situations where authority made it impossible to leave (I.e. work). I am going to try to get back into audiences for fun things like going to the cinema. Thank you for sharing 💕

[@lizziedeerest]

Omg I also declined being a bridesmaid!!

[@jackiedibiase9391]

Thank you for sharing such vulnerable part of your life. My heart goes out to you as no one should ever, EVER feel like that. As someone who is in school for this it’s both physical and mental that have sever consequences. It takes years of re-wiring but it’s a state that can always change.

[@lilasayers9298]

love you madz you are such an inspiration to me this video was posted at the perfect time

[@near6050]

What, this could not have come in a better time. I had a panic attack yesterday 😂 lately anxiety has been too much for me

[@samia2604]

I shed a little tear because the story describes my life almost 1:1 🥺 The first thing that helps me at the moment is the Polyvagal Theory, ifs therapy etc. There is a programme (called cfs school, but it is also for anxiety) that gives me hope at the moment. Wanted to share it because it's not fair that we suffer so much from anxiety and panic and have no time for hobbies lol

[@islaypayne8379]

This is the most validating video I’ve ever seen, I had to watch it twice 😭❤

[@verysleepybear1774]

This video helped me so much. It was like somebody speaking on my behalf. It was soothing. Thanks for this. I can relate to some of the things you said since I'm also a mentally ill university student.

[@anonymousgirl6676]

this is one of the most relatable videos i’ve ever watched. thanks for reminding me i’m not alone in feeling like this

[@anonymous6666]

thx for being so vulnerable

[@abib8330]

I have the same issue, I also fixed it the same way! Exposure therapy. Will be fighting myself forever though.

[@douaaeziani]

I love seeing you and hearing you. You are like therapy for me so thankful for you❤

[@euoniaxbreeze7310]

you changed my life. I feel like someone understands how I feel everyday. thankyou

[@leenaadams6742]

you are so real for this, you have no idea how many of the girls feel like this and just don’t say anything to anyone

[@heyyy1325]

omg madeline is literally the prettiest name ever i love madelines like the food, and also this came at the perfect time just about an hour ago i was syaing how qnxioud i am, ive come toa point where i can cope and handle my anxiety much better and just accept it without fearing it too much but i do need that extra support/help at times so thank u for this

[@mvp2883]

vagus nerve exercises changed the game for me! Talk therapy/meds were useful at times throughout the years, but really didn't do much for me longterm. I also stopped caffeine which was necessary bc my nerves were already fried af. Somatics r the key I think.

[@bethanythomas9797]

I am 5:13 seconds in and I’ve never heard anybody describe what it’s like in my head, I feel like an alien all of the time, this aided some comfort in knowing that I’m not the only alien

[@AlexaReece]

These videos bring me so much comfort

[@hart2858]

i have ocd, this was very relatable. thank you

[@thesXIXn]

this entire video is so on point oh my god i didn’t think anyone else like dealt with it or had the same expirience with it in the way that i do

[@marsmakesart]

i have OCD and agoraphobia and every time i leave my house i get so scared. but the more i do it the easier it gets. thank you for talking about it!

[@dopeyunicorn]

love that you did exposure therapy on yourself without realising

[@owensspace]

The part at the end with your car! So funny! I love it. Reminds me of my old car

[@amarokdcs1062]

I've had anxiety since I was in year 8, coming up to my GCSE's in Year 11, its severe to the point where I'm also having multiple anxiety attacks every day, I have atleast 1 panic attack a week. Not one of my friends know I have anxiety. Also hide it extremely well, which is amazing for me since a large portion of my anxiety is social anxiety, I'm constantly thinking about how others perceive me and its nonstop. It's 4 weeks till my Exams and my procrastination has never been so high and obviously making me stress even more. I have no clue how I'm gonna get through them! Great courage opening up! Something I feel I could never do, Your channel is the one place I feel I can come anytime I'm having a hard time, Wish you the best!

[@merrymermaid]

i’m also a major procrastinator (still have 1000 words to write for tomorrow and it’s 10:30pm) and don’t share any of my internal thoughts with anyone. i got through my gcses, so so can you! you can do it, i promise. try to handle each exam as it comes. i know that it’s difficult but try to block out everything except what you will be doing that day. make yourself a daily plan, eg. today i have an afternoon exam, so i’ll get myself some breakfast and revise for 2 hours in the morning. then after my exam i’ll have a little walk outside. having a plan like this will help your brain know what’s coming up, even when you have the uncertainty of the exam. i promise you can do it, because i and so many others who struggle alone also got through it :)

[@Brent_Hugh_Ranft]

The warehouse style flat would have been perfect for you it sounds like. The open spaces. Sorry it didn’t workout but at least you know what you’re looking for in a place for yourself.

[@julianatuhan]

this episode hit. thank you Madeleine. i love you so much

[@kaziimtiazahammad1928]

You looks amazing. Where are you from?

[@patchwhole]

you have obsessive compulsive disorder, in addition to your anxiety disorder. i too have ocd and relate to 90% of what you talked about. thanks for sharing, youre very intuitive

[@savvinaa5327]

this is literally me. when i was young i was convinced there was something wrong with me. after every routine blood test id CRY until i couldnt breath because i thought something really bad would show up. before every doctor’s appointment i’d spiral. i was terrified of losing my teeth, to the point where i was 100% id he toothless. when i was 10, i genuinely convinced myself i suffered from ebola. now that i’ve grown up i’m doing a bit better although i still have daily anxiety attacks and most nights i wake up in panic like 7 times per night. it’s rough but ur never alone

[@crxqs7]

Omg wow feel so much better knowing there’s others that feel the exact same way as me. so proud of how much you’ve overcome!! Keep sharing xx

[@navreen3619]

your podcasts are so important for my mental health 🙏

[@lizzieb3816]

Definitely notice with social anxiety the more isolate myself the worse it gets. Small steps of I suppose exposure therapy? Really does help your brain to rationalise thoughts

[@mixhellesousa]

such a confortable video to watch, hope you talk more about this❤

[@nataliejones5272]

I can imagine by eating in the middle of a panic attack, you're almost signalling to your body that everything must be okay because like .. hey, she's eating, and if she's eating we must be safe enough

[@baronhelmut2701]

Anxiety goes away as soon as you realize why its there to begin with. Anxiety is the state of your mind when you can only hear what people are saying, not the wishes and desires behind what they are saying. Essentially, you either dont care or dont understand what others want. You have to realize that this is normal. You have to talk to people to understand their wishes. Hence why it doesnt make sense to be anxious in social situations, you are too worried being judged on your own wishes, that you stop realizing that others feel the same way. They might just not express it the same way. Some people express anxiety by getting giggly. Some people express anxiety by blushing. Some people express anxiety by bullying others. Please for the love of god. Try to listen to peoples wishes. Knowing their wishes will not harm anyone, wont offend anyone. And at the same time, you will learn how to express your wishes better.

[@Theone-ou2xt]

i hope you feel better. This year is just horrible.

[@miadanaee]

i’ve genuinely never felt so seen as i do by this video

[@katemallett1446]

i’m 18 and i have been housebound since i was 15 and was completely bedbound in 2021 due to a chronic illness and heart problems, however because i have quite serve anxiety on top of that it makes everything so much more difficult. i’ve gotten to a point where the smallest thing will trigger a panic attack and it gets so exhausting. our situations are completely different but to have someone else explain their experience with something i resonate with so much, really helps me feel less alone. i’m so glad you were able to somewhat overcome that part of your life, that gives me some hope for the future🤍

[@solanad1805]

your podcasts make me get up in the morning

[@m4svn184]

thank you for talking about this to us, it helps me so much🩶

[@Pea-noot]

You’re so fucking amazing❤ And so inspiring, thank you for posting this!! I hope that you get major amounts of positive results from working on this with your therapist!! Wishing you all the best! And have a brilliant day:))!

[@happywings15]

Wow that therapist sounds amazingggg I just wonder who in their life had experienced anxiety because for her to have such nuanced perspective about a person with anxiety needing to know they can give themselves permission to break a rule to just at least get something necessary done, is not common knowledge even for a professional to be bold enough to suggest it and give you the tools to execute it like giving you permission to ditch school when you needed to and bringing your mom in to back up the decision

[@neilpeal6938]

I myself have severe diagnosed anxiety, O.C.D., as well as asperges, most of this coming from fear of becoming ill (especially vomiting) and not being in control of my own health. Its really good to talk about these things to normalise them as there is still a stigma around the issues so thankyou so much. I do want to say that if anyone feels like they are mentally struggling please reach out to people around them, as its ok to need support. Additionally, though as Madeline says the camhs service can often not provide the highest quality service, whilst this can be true, I myself was assigned a camhs phycologist to help me with my mental health and she was amazing, so dont be entirely put off talking to your gp to see what's available. Keep up the great videos Madeline ❤

[@imogenmoore3530]

Neuroscientist here! So there’s a region in the brain that determines how resilient we are to stress. It’s callled the locus coeruleus and is the major source of noradrenergic innervation in the brain) research shows that our locus coeruleus differs in its sensitivity to stressors for no environmental reason, biologically / genetically some people are less stress resilient than others. Thus you can be more anxious just because it’s of your biological makeup

[@maduch4392]

The thumbnail 😭😭

[@ashhhley31]

i so needed to watch this video

[@ofentsesethosa9677]

My mental health after listening to this podcast📈📈📈

[@alexdaws5776]

Anxiety is fucking marvellous, I’ll never get over it

[@raniadian2678]

my exam study sunday's have just consisted of listening to your podcast when you post them in the bg

[@jodieturnerx]

tuning into my weekly therapy x

[@stefanalexanderwennberg]

Thanks for sharing. I relate a lot to your story. Wish you the best!

[@sophiaisabelle01]

We appreciate your insights. Keep up the good work. God bless you and everyone here.