Dec 18 - Decision making in recovery, mental hunger, recovering while you have to work

[@mickeedooo]

Lol I had my ED recovery playlist on shuffle whilst lying in bed thinking about food, and the "get off KZbin, get off watching recovery channels, and actually get out there and do recovery" got me. Nearly 1 in the morning, everyone else in the house is asleep, and I got up and ate because the (avoidance/denial of) mental hunger is honestly getting ridiculous at this point. Thank you Tabitha, you're the best!

[@dotexe6415]

I am absolutely called out by the end of this video "watching my KZbin channel is a form of extreme/mental hunger." Thnak you. I have been noticing that, but it's good to know I'm not crazy.

[@sarahmartinez322]

dot exe so i guess even if I have bulimia I have extrem hunger 😂

[@dotexe6415]

@@sarahmartinez322 Yes! It depends on your reasons for watching though. 😂 Its not always extreme hunger for me. Also, I don't think "even if" is correct. I think that BECAUSE you have bulimia, you have extreme hunger!

[@sarahmartinez322]

dot exe Yeah I knew I was hungry bcs I didn’t ate anything without keeping it down or restricting low for few days so it was extrem hunger and I felt physically hungry. I ate too much and it’s been like almost 18h since my big meal and I don’t feel hungry I’m still full so I’m just gonna wait few hours. I have nothing that I want eat 😂

[@sarahmartinez322]

dot exe And im watching bcs im looking for advices but like I’ve said I have bulimia so idk why I watch anorexia recovery stuff 😂

[@dotexe6415]

@@sarahmartinez322 I think there's a novelty with anorexia. I've been diagnosed with both at different times, and I've noticed that... Tabitha's videos are for everyone, anyway!

[@eleonoreconstant]

You’re the best!!! 🙏🏻 thank you!!!!

[@chelseafarran]

The binges won’t stop until months after you stop purging. The binges will never stop until you stop purging, in any way you purge the calories.

[@deathechovii]

I watch for some of the best advice and support I get, thank you!

[@silverpumpkin]

Just realised you answered my question in this! thank you. It's not an issue I can raise with friends and family and having your response is so helpful and motivating. Just had some good old christmas "junk food" at a party last night xx

[@fibee8324]

Where is the community tab you refer to?

[@JoJo-vg9sj]

fiBee yes I would like to know this too!!!!

[@alexjones9763]

If you go on her channel page there is a tab called community - it’s there 😊

[@fibee8324]

@@alexjones9763 Thanks!

[@kmoy]

Lol I love how you give it to use straight Tabitha. You don't take BS and you don't give a f*ck. You're like our older sister who tells us the truth. It really is true, don't over think anything, just eat what you want to eat. It is as simple as that. It takes times, but keep practicing .You will get it. And it will be worth it to recover. Good luck!

[@elainesulllivan508]

I seriously dont watch ur channel because I'm hungry. I watch it even after a binge or when i just had a meal.. i just cant seem to get any further atm .. i actually start to feel worse and worse every day .. i watch ur channel because everytime i feel i cant do it im about to go back.. you stop me from doing this..

[@RuthJMusic]

Hi Tabitha, I'm currently in recovery eating unrestrictedly for about a month now, was in quasi-recovery for about 3 months before & have consistently been heavily restricting for the past 18 months, however have had disordered eating incl. restriction/binging on/off for about 7 years, so since during puberty. My period was always consistent and came every month until about 12 months ago when the cycles started getting longer & longer but still always came more or less every month (which I used as an excuse for not being sick enough to recover) and generally became very irregular (& also got shorter in quasi-recovery), but generally always appeared every month. Now that I've launched into full recovery & am starting to weight restore my cycle is completely missing even though I'm eating a lot more calories & a lot more fat. Any idea why this is? It really sucks because I feel like I'm messing up my body by eating more food and that I could be putting my hormones out of balance instead of in balance :/

[@fibee8324]

Not an ED question, just curious how you ended up living in the States. I'm guessing it had something to do with your husband :) And do you miss the UK? I'm a Brit living in Toronto and after 20 years here I'm getting really homesick all of a sudden (yes, despite Brexit lol)