Depersonalisation disorder: Why are some people unable to feel love? BBC News

For people living with depersonalisation disorder the world appears unreal, as if through a haze or fog - or even in 2D. Many are left emotionally numb, unable to feel love. One in 100 people is thought to have the condition, but experts are warning that few medical professionals have heard of it.
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[@briannabonilla1725]

I would never wish this disorder on my worst enemy. It's the worst feeling and leaves you feeling lonely and numb.

[@blackheart6162]

I mean, i dont feel lonely, just dead. Like compleatly dead. I don't need interactions with people. Just doesn't mean anything to me. Its like playing a videogame, can't really describe It might be because i had 2 self inducted comas with alcohol and drugs... I feel like i've died before. Now im just waiting till next time im in blank

[@lilybug6718]

What I do is just date people to make them happy. It doesnt bother me much.

[@briannabonilla1725]

I'm a junior in college now and have been experiencing this since I was sixteen years old after a night of drinking and smoking with friends. I still have intense feelings of not being fully there, very spacey. I've come to find out my mom, dad, cousins, and my aunts and uncles, deal with something similar. My guess is it runs in the family; having psychological disorders, especially after one of my cousins was diagnosed with schizophrenia last year. I go about my life and I've learned to cope with it after dealing with it for so long. I do second-guess my feelings and emotions, what other people think of me, etc., but I try not to let this thing run my life.

[@ilovekirbydontjudge8465]

I only had a one crush over my home life and it only lasted 1 week then I didn’t feel anything tords here and ever since haven’t feel that thing

[@donnapatrick1804]

@@blackheart6162 -I feel exactly the same. It’s horrible. Has it changed at all for you?

[@umaimasaeed8975]

Sometimes i get so scared of myself. I feel like i can never love anyone wholeheartedly, not even my parents or my friends or myself.

[@coin2039]

That's not necessarily Dp

[@fangirlyyy6230]

i do feel the same. i feel bad feeling like i dont really love my parents neither my friends or myself..

[@starchildofthe90s7]

Same

[@MegaOrion66]

Same with me.I try to help people only cause it’s the right thing to do and not if I’m feeling about it

[@Nick-kv5te]

If you guys wanna overcome dp I recommend this channel kzbin.info/door/MouQO5FI6eXdoU76l1td0A

[@leoapoldrakowski3304]

I clicked on this because I was trying to figure out why I can't feel love towards another person

[@jasminex677]

leoapold rakowski. Same

[@Jessy-kl7xl]

Same

[@soumidas3979]

Same

[@mr.noname6109]

Same

[@chairacabrera]

Me too

[@jenniphermariea8976]

The music/sound in this video is horrendous and distracting.

[@emanuel_soundtrack]

it’s a compositional disorder

[@KaranPatel-ns3jc]

I feel that I am unable to love anyone anymore..it feels like after waking up I am just acting to be a son, a bf, a friend, a brother with different people.. literally just pretending to be myself..it feels like I am employed by me to act like me.

[@tayatrisha11]

same

[@rayy1016]

Omg ive literally said this before to myself, it feels like im a character acting out my part to the world im constantly switching faces with different people

[@opticalman6417]

when you have a spiritual awakening it does strip parts of your ego away cuasing you to feel totally diffrent around people

[@dylanwise1251]

I just started seeing therapist and just came across this. This is pretty spot on with the past 10 years of my life man and I’m going to bring this up when I meet with the therapist this week. This is some crazy stuff I didn’t really know others dealt with. I’ve always had this feeling I’m like watching myself just be a part of this life without actually living it, as crazy as that sounds.

[@fancylad7153]

waltuh

[@rafael9921]

I feel like im in a dream and every second im gonna wakeup but i never wakeup

[@johnnybrix5308]

Anyone ever get scared about relationships because not sure whether your feelings are correct and feels artificial?

[@underwater_tigerlilies3446]

Yes, a lot, actually

[@Dingleberry_smith]

So much ignorance in the comments, you don't know the pain until you experience it. 2 years of DP for me and counting.

[@JohnDoe-cz3dh]

Thomas Layland hey cheer up u got a PlayStation if so give me ur gamer tag

[@abrehamtadesse7203]

Oh man I know I know it’s just so numbing and so much confusing. But there’s hope man believe me. Christ can give you rest you can see things for what they really are again. You can get relief Just cry your heart out to him. He understands he knows your pain just cry your heart out to him you’ll see the truth believe me just ask for help he knows what’s going on just ask him for relief

[@orangejuicesimpson7233]

What's it like?

[@l1elastico574]

I do not have this disorder I have something called schizoid personality disorder since I was young I’m an adult now and the only people who know is my doctor as I never got diagnosed at an earlier age I’m not depressed I’m not lonely I enjoy it to me it would be the best feeling if I could feel it you know

[@JodyBunting]

Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?

[@st4rrysy]

i cant feel love for anyone anymore. but like..i know who i love. i just don’t feel it.

[@Iiivyyh]

same

[@EzequielMartin55vf]

me too

[@velvia7880]

DP/DR is a blessing in disguise. It's the beginning of the ego not being the in drivers seat all the time anymore. The ego thinks it's dying. You're not. It's actually a very beautiful thing that is happening. You are waking up. Give yourself time to go though this process. The greatest help I found in my process was this: Acceptance. 100% accept at all times what your are feeling. You don't have to engage with it. Just as radio noise in the background. Let go. Let go of all the thoughts you have. Don't take them seriously, no matter how grotesque or annoying they are. They are just thoughts. They don't control you unless you actively want them to. Relax. Don't fight the process. Breathe. Spend time in nature. Curiosity. Be curious and face your fear. Try to find where the actual fear is coming from. You will sooner or later see that the source does not exist, and the fear will dissipate by itself. Hope this helps

[@samuhnella]

life is hell, you can’t feel anything, I want to feel something so badly

[@ub3rfr3nzy94]

You obviously don't have this disorder. It's not a nice feeling at all.

[@benjaminro341]

Stupid take..

[@sportsnewz5608]

It starts at any time but usually at early adolescence or early adulthood. It appears as a defence mechanism against severe anxiety, trauma by switching of reality. You know that you love your family but you sort of know it academically rather than feel it. Relationships that you value deeply suddenly lose their essential quality Those with this condition claimed to see themselves detached from the world or seeing the world as if through a haze or fog. The World appears 2d or flat like a cartoon. Watching themselves from a far or out of body experience feeling detached from their own body parts and an emotional moment. You can't feel someone that you love them because you don't feel it. You're emotionally blunt

[@jordanalexie7407]

I've been going through it. It's very strange. It's like I see everything differently. It feels like my whole reality has shifted

[@kevkevin8177]

​@@jordanalexie7407for how long ? Are you recovered

[@CanadianHaleStorm]

ive had this for 15 years

[@clich126]

Yeh

[@Obinsfnubf447]

I think I have developed this condition over time. After so many anxiety, trauma and emotionally taxing situations, I kind of switched off. I think I'm incapable of loving someone. And even If I do, I can't feel it. Seems far away from me. When I go out, the world, people, and everything that is happening around me feel threatening and uncomfortable. You will always catch me observing things, people, animals, the weather, etc. Despite not feeling able to love, I also feel a very shallow sense of accomplishment, motivation and/or desire. Everything just seems fo far away from me, like a vision that I can only see in my head.

[@va_esiahvi]

I always feel like I am no longer human. I am just existing doing role-playing in real life.

[@BJGvlogs]

Dont feel alone

[@Gregory-lu3up]

This is very real, and it is hell. I've had depersonalization disorder since 2004

[@user-rf6qq1xf5l]

Gregory I feel you I have had it for 20 years

[@prajalsharma1]

try floatation tank or sensory deprivation it really help me to connect with my body

[@jd49631]

I’ve had it since April 2007, just over 11 years. It is pretty miserable but as time has gone on, I have managed to have more and more days where I don’t think about it and distract myself. But last year being the 10th anniversary of my DP onset meant I started thinking about it again and worrying it will never go away. I hope there is a cure someday and people start to take it more seriously.

[@Kingdomchild_5367]

helen4963 There is a cure and that’s Jesus Christ because what your going through is not mental it’s spiritual

[@Bangandthedirtisgone]

Eseosa Osagiede wtf does that mean?! I’ve had (and have) this. I, like others found I had nowhere to turn as medical professionals had no idea what it was and worse still blanketly and incorrectly diagnosed it as depression. I tried going to church in the search for relief but it just meant more to worry about as it felt like those in church were speaking another language and I couldn’t understand or access what they were saying or why, ultimately they believe in Christ. Phrases like ‘accept Jesus Christ as your personal saviour’ terrify me. I don’t want the ghost of some dead guy coming into my body and mind! I’ve too much in there already!

[@katelynsmith7084]

I don’t want to be one of those people that self-diagnose them selfs but I relate to everything in this video 😐

[@bwmanhath3770]

Same innit

[@snowflower._.]

Waking up and you can just end it all, cause nothing feels real, nothing. It sounds so simple but you have no idea how scary and empty it feels

[@bwmanhath3770]

​@@8Polkovnikmate litetally all yge time 😢😢😢 its the weirdest

[@Ddmm123]

Everyone in this comment section saying you a living with this...holy hell. I had no idea something like this even exists..this is like hell on earth..I am so very sorry and I wish you all to return back to normal asap. Doctors, specialists, scientists where you at??

[@divinellght]

I’ve had it for almost 2 years. Honestly it was the worse feeling ever waking up everyday having panic attacks, feeling like I was in a dream, looking in the mirror and freaking out. I hope everyone that’s going through this recovers. You will and you can. The gym honestly helps and self care. Keep taking care of yourself and eating healthy foods! Keep surrounding yourself with great people❤

[@AnimateCentral]

You are not alone.

[@Friendlyadhd10]

Can you tell me how to get out of it??

[@handsome_man69]

Meditation, therapy and doing something that terrorfies you helps.

[@WhiteAfrican78]

I suffered from this for less than a year. It felt as if I was a passenger in my own body. I sometimes stared at my hand and asked "who's hand is this"? Words coming from my mouth....it was me but it didnt really feel like me. It became quite frustrating trying to break out of this bubble.

[@michael5089]

How did you deal with it?

[@anteyes6976]

I believe there is a form of this where you can love those close to you but still have an overwhelming feeling like you are never really there with them, even if you want to be. You can be sitting right next to them and be a billion miles away.

[@galaxi407]

I don't love anyone. The concept of love is alien to me. I feel like we're conditioned by society to follow an order, love, marriage, kids, family and friends, but doesn't come naturally to me.

[@johnnybrix5308]

Same.

[@Violetlovell]

I feel like im in a dream constantly, i cant feel love and im constantly feel lonely and i now know what i have which makes me feel better.

[@asthestic_black_soft_BPBS11]

Hey how is ur dpdr now ?

[@eliettalcantara42]

Amazing how she describes it. Very accurate

[@amalajohansson5254]

Finally I understand what happened to me this fall and winter! I WAS FEELING THIS. I’ve never felt so certain, I had depersonalization/derealization disorder. I went through a personal trauma/crisis and after that. For MONTHS I was feeling absolutely detached from the world. I felt as though I was a flying orb going through life and stuff just kept happening to me, without my respons to any of it (because I was detached from myself). When people asked my questions like ”What do YOU think about this Emelie” I answered in my head ”But I am not Emelie or a ”you” or a person at all, why don’t anyone ask the trees outside what they think? I am a part of everything in the world, and I am also nothing.” It felt like I knew something beyond normal peoples comprehension, like this huge secret that life was of no other substance than things happening. A couple of months ago I had a nervous breakdown, where everything just sort of let go. After that I cried and screamed and sobbed and mourned for about a MONTH. Every waking moment where I wasn’t preoccupied or distracted with anything I cried. Like somebody pulled the plug and the water run out. And after that, even though I’m still ashamed whenever I display emotions, I know I have to feel them, I must feel them. Or else in the end of this ”no-feelings-cycle” there’s only emptyness which (in my case) can lead to addiction. I wouldn’t wish DP/DR on my worst enemy. It’s one of the strangest and scariest ”headspaces” I’ve ever experienced.

[@jeonkookie2774]

😢so that's why I feel weird when someone calls my name, I don't even know who are they calling.

[@jeffthepizza7537]

@@jeonkookie2774yeah I feel the same, it's the scariest feeling. hate it so much

[@owen261]

I HAVE THIS IM SO HAPPY ITS ON BBC

[@JodyBunting]

Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?

[@sportsnewz5608]

I don't know if I have it but recently, I've learnt that I'm incapable of love. When I go out with friends it feels strange like I'm in a different planet surrounded by different species. Sometimes, I have to forced a smile or laughter to connect with people and make them feel safe and calm. I usually look at my friends if they smiling or laughing so I can do the same. Sometimes, what I hear, my brain interprets it different which makes me to isolate myself from civilisation or publicity. I don't like people. It's like my switch turn off. The concept of love is alien to me.

[@keviness1067]

Such ignorance here. Depersonalization is the third most common mental health symptom in the world, right behind depression and anxiety. Forget what you've been told. I'm a working man from a construction background. This isn't some "feminist made up illness", this is a well documented mental disorder. Adam Duritz of the Counting Crows has had it for years. Rapper Vinnie Paz from Jedi Mind Tricks has had it for years. I am friends online with people all the way from Tunisia to Japan that have this. People of all kinds of backgrounds are at risk. This isn't just some "triggered" feminist disorder. Actually read up on something instead of bringing your politics into something. This illness I've been living with for years is finally getting publicity, which means better odds of a cure, which means I might finally get to live a normal life, and the vermin of the internet gotta come out of the woodwork to fuck it up.

[@Jawnjawn4949]

Agreed. I think this documentary almost does a disservice to those of us who experience it. Its not about not feeling love, its about a complete lack of self and the world around you.

[@phildobson8705]

Lunch Box 89 sounds like you've got paranoia not depersonalisation "vermin" are going to come out of the Internet and into your abode lol

[@keviness1067]

"My name is Phil Dobson and I don't understand hyperbole."

[@phildobson8705]

Out to Lunch & off Box mental age 8 or 9 paranoid schizophrenic. Non drug therapy for schizophrenia: Always challenge the voices particularly when they tell you stuff about "vermin"

[@keviness1067]

Vermin was meant to be a hyperbolic statement. A metaphor. Like a rat? Or a lowly person? Like other than that word choice what's your issue man? To think we got grown ass men out here with nothing better to do than troll strangers on the internet. Smh.

[@just_call_me_em]

I'm not diagnosed and I will not diagnose myself, but this perfectly describes what I've been going through for almost a year now. I have a hard time understanding and actually feeling love, it feels like a foreign concept. It never feels artificial or real, every time I try to grasp it. It's just simply not there.

[@whatnow2768]

Thank you for talking about it on tv

[@reinaswift8457]

Have had this for 1 year and 2 months now. Mental Health services haven't got a clue, but even if they did, there is no current specific treatment. The best strategy I've found is drawing your attention away from the symptoms (I know its obsessive but do your best) and onto something you used to enjoy, EMDR, talk therapy, good nuitrition, exercise, lots of water, and time - lots and lots of time. There are some good youtube channels too. You're not alone and plenty of people have made it through, stay strong!

[@JodyBunting]

Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?

[@lilbouncybee1766]

I have the same complication with feeling love and having moments where I always have out of body and out of world experience

[@antsly]

I had this for a month, two years ago. If anyone is experiencing this now, don't be scared by all the stories out there that it lasts *forever*. No idea how someone can function with this e.g. career, relationship, for years and years. You're a blank emotionless automaton. Unable to be happy. Unable to be sad. Unable to love. Unable to fear. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

[@kevkevin8177]

How did you recover ?

[@antsly]

Nothing specific really (though I did resign from my employment at the time to concentrate on my recovery), it just gradually lifted, not instantly, but slowly I started to feel better. It came on me after a period of severe anxiety where I was unable to sleep at all for a week or so apparently it's a defensive mechanism the brain uses to shut off from that intense trauma. The point i really wanted to hit home is that, it did not last long for me in the grand scheme of things and I am sure that is the case for the vast, vast majority of people who ever experience this.

[@kevkevin8177]

@@antsly i used to have intense inner monolgoue, intense visual mental imagery and feelings. Now i am blank, i have aphantasia and no inner voice. A silent mind. I have 1.5 years like this. I still cant function.

[@kevkevin8177]

@@antsly i lost my university bcs of this, u cant do anything. Never i would have thought that the inner voice would someday..just.. Stop.

[@kevkevin8177]

@@antsly how old did u get it

[@8peterp]

sleep deprivation and lots of caffeine can cause similar.

[@reinaswift8457]

Correct as can trauma, or drugs, thats likely to cause an episode though which goes away. The Disorder is when it is constant 24/7

[@Benjavaz]

Reina Swift It's not an independent disorder since it usually comes with other symptoms like visual snow and anxiety. The way to overcome depersonalization and derealization is to get involved with life and stop checking in to see how you feel. I know someone who recovered twice using that, and I almost recovered once. Age regression can be used as a last resort if that doesn't work.

[@TerryReedMiss]

How does age regression work? I think you are right - getting involved in Life is the ONLY cure, maybe helped along with some anti-anxiety/anti-depressant meds, and ... a home health visitor that MAKES you get out of the house! We need Public Health in the US to begin hiring regular trainers to help people get more physical, and more involved in their communities! It could only help. It'd help me leave my home, though I'm not agoraphobic, I have no feelings for anything anymore. Just ... nothing. I need a fire under my buns.

[@bibin6766]

I get over a crush,suddenly everything change.I can't love anyone.

[@raymondotoole2600]

That’s not a bad thing. Think of it as your love machine taking a break from giving out love. You’ll know when to go back to it!

[@johnnybrix5308]

Same

[@fishlivesmatter]

This is me, i dont feel anything towards anybody even to my family..

[@thorbenhinzmann]

yes, i don't feel love for my family. my parents, pets. They are/were just there helping me. My Life is good at the moment but somehow bad. i feel happy and sad knowing I may never find a Love for someone

[@dieve_0151]

@@thorbenhinzmann same

[@csc8697]

She is describing me exactly! I'm so happy to have it put into content. Im not like this all the time but it goes in & out uncontrollably. Sometimes weeks at a time. The picture of my hands or detached feeling , same flat symptoms. I seem better now that I'm retired but its lonely & scarey.

[@RiannaNicole]

I’ve had this off and on since childhood, after my anxiety started showing its head. It feels like a really good (albeit disturbing in a way) 3rd person video game, where you’re just over your shoulder, but still using your own mind and eyes. Touch doesn’t feel the same either, like the flat emotions as well, for me. I typically have issues when I’m overwhelmed and anxious, and heading towards burnout. It really cripples me, and affects nearly all aspects of my life.

[@hamnok4277]

Is a way a lot of people’s mind handle emotional trauma 😔

[@opolobot]

I can’t feel love and happiness and sadness It SUDDENLY HAPPEND SOMEHOW

[@oxxy223]

Nah me too ..im 19 never date.. angry but i cant ,im sad but i cant ,even i cant fell in love ..why?🤔i want to fell in love😢

[@sofirific227]

ME TOO. It was just like a light switch. I don’t know what happened, it just did. I am in a happy relationship and for some reason I haven’t been feeling any love, and in my past relationships, every one of them. I don’t like people anymore, and it’s not one of those things like “Oh you just haven’t met the one yet.” I haven’t felt anything. I’m confused, I’m not sad or happy or anything I don’t know what’s going on. It’s just blank. The switch was just turned off and now I don’t know how to turn it back on. I feel numb.

[@urlilspider7867]

me too

[@Justanobodybro]

@@sofirific227 yup my addiction did this to me

[@imogenereeve6512]

I experience this due to intensive psychopathic abuse. Extreme stress.

[@camargorafael420]

i think Love and kindness comprehension are key to help people to heal.

[@KH-vu8is]

Same you just feel like a passenger and you question reality or if you’re in the matrix

[@fanafofanafi4480]

my docter diagnozed me depression that cause depersonalization, but i think depersonalization makes me feel depression

[@briannabonilla1725]

My mom was recently diagnosed with depression and she suffers from depersonalization. It could be both simultaneously.

[@Justanobodybro]

depression has the same symptoms as dp its a living hell

[@lexdrayton8086]

This explains why I can never feel myself missing someone. I can only miss them if they have passed on.

[@ramonmurray_]

OMG! Thank you so much for this video. I’ve been experiencing all these symptoms since I was in prep school and now I’m a grown man and i never knew how to explain it so I just never brought it up.

[@JodyBunting]

Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?

[@laurenq4843]

I find it unbelievable that doctors in the UK haven't heard of this. I'm from the US and have DP/DR and was in the hospital as well as outpatient for it, and all the doctors, nurses, and therapists I've talked to were familiar with it and said they see it all the time in patients. There were people in the hospital the same time as me who were also having it, or told me they had it in the past. They must be getting really inadequate training over there.

[@marioncarbonell6047]

@@8Polkovnikit feels like I’m a robot, worst part is it’s the memory failure and unable to visualize anything anymore, my mind is just blank, but I walk around with no emotions, foggy brain, numb limbs, I hate it…

[@lauramelgoza90]

@@marioncarbonell6047I been having dpdr for almost 2 years and yes I agree with the memory part when you try to remember something it’s like you can visualize it just blank and things you did seem like you did them so long ago

[@Yaye147]

@@marioncarbonell6047do you feel fear?

[@codewithbishal]

I guess now I know what the problem is. Thank you !

[@cupidb0nes]

I think I have this. I’ve struggled with it for years and I’m trying to reach out but I’m stuggling to

[@Sy2023hk]

In my forties now and have this feeling, afraid to go out sometimes, it's really distressing.

[@kingnola..952]

Action needs to be taken as soon as possible

[@marekschlegel4425]

I feel like this for years and the worst about it is the fact that you know it's only in your head. You know it's not true. This feeling alone is slowly driving you insane. This inner isolation, the feeling of not belonging to this World or just being an observer is torture.

[@blasiandoll6717]

I’ve had Dp and Dr disorder for 9 yrs persistently.. I remember feeling like my thoughts were running constantly. I felt like I was completely invisible! Like the walking dead! It was so bad. Now, I have days where having this is so normal and i don’t really feel so detached. I still don’t completely feel normal!! I just wish one day it would just all go away.

[@JodyBunting]

Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?

[@sharundaseagraves5248]

How do you over something like this?

[@sharundaseagraves5248]

Come

[@amaryllisnightingale6309]

When the beginning has such a banging start, you can't stop yourself from focusing on something more upbeat

[@brunoangel4556]

Hate that feeling of the split between me and everything and everyone I see myself as a joke or fool it becomes hate towards myself.

[@urbanwarchief]

I feel I wasted my life on something fake sold to me long long ago

[@RaleighLofi]

This happened to me after suffering a panic attack from being high on marijuana

[@donnapiano610]

Me too

[@Kingdomchild_5367]

Did you know that marijuana gives room for demons to enter you? What you’re going through is spiritual hence why you find your self outside your body watching yourself from another realm. The bible says in Ephesians 6:12 “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood (humans) but against principalities, powers, rulers of darkness of this world, spiritual wickedness in the heavenly realm" what this scripture is saying is that we have Two realms a physical realm and a spiritual realm. We humans dwell in the Physical realm while demons and angles dwell in spiritual realm. Did you know that Demons can pull you out of your body and leave you stranded in the spirit realm while they possess your physical body in the physical realm? Hence why when your in the spirit realm everything looks different it almost feels like another reality because there’s no time or space in spirit realm. You may see things in 2 dimension. You may even notice that someone else is controlling your physical body!! I want you to understand that it’s not you in control is a demon!! They can will-fully pull you out and place you back in when they want too!! Please I don’t want you you to be afraid I want you to put your trust in Jesus Christ because he can set you free and restore you!!! You must repent from your sins and believe in Gospel of Jesus Christ!!!!!

[@fbi7158]

Same. I can't smoke weed or ill feel so fucked ill be scared. And then Ill get depersonalization, panic attacks and anxiety long term

[@MeesLWijnnbeek]

@@Kingdomchild_5367 u re crazy

[@ilovekirbydontjudge8465]

What does it feel like to pass out or black out never had happened to me

[@lexdrayton8086]

After finding out about this, this is the most I’ve ever felt seen..

[@ScreamingBanchie]

I got this from 10 mg thc. I took 2 years to recover. I wish everyone the best. It was horrible.

[@jensnow5690]

how did you recover?

[@hunter.strawberry]

I've had this for two years... began drinking heavily to self-medicate it, now that im 7 months sober its mostly gone, life is livable now, but it still is something i deal with on a regular basis...

[@matthewmaifrini4620]

as a 17 year old struggling with this disorder. this sure is encouraging (not) :(

[@yuricore004]

i also get an out of body feeling a lot when i get a new par of glasses it happens or when i go up to a teacher and talk to them, i also get it randomly in the day but mostly when i get unconformable, i hate it, it makes me want to go and stay me my room all the time (idk why and non of my family knows this or anyone will not anymore)

[@greatmindes5668]

am suffering right here it started at the age of 16 now am 19 still can't feel a thing , it's just disgusting and makes me depressed and self hate keeps on growing day after another

[@pamelaia]

I have this and I'm only 12 years old. I see all the people in the comments saying how long they've had it... I don't want to have it for that long. I want therapy but I don't have enough money for it. I feel doomed. I'm like a robot; thoughtless and empty. I just live day by day... Someone help me!

[@rania446]

Pammie me too I’m 12 and I don’t feel emotions and have dpdr

[@djackson9984]

This first onset for me when I was 12 as well. I am 28 now and still feel void. It doesn't just cure itself. The good thing for you is the internet now has so much information and resources that weren't available when i was your age. Talk to your guardians first and dont let them just diagnose you with depression. If your guardian isn't available, talk to school counselor, and be honest. Don't be ashamed. If you haven't already, seek a personal relationship with God.

[@Ddmm123]

I hope you are feeling better now..this was posted four years ago but I just discovered this disorder even exists just today. :( I feel so bad for anyone experiencing this stuff especially all the kids not even 18 yet and dealing with something so life shattering..breaks my heart.

[@pamelaia]

@@Ddmm123 I am doing better, thank you so much! But i fear i may have episodes of this again in the future because of stress. The one i had when i was 12 lasted 1-2weeks, and the rest were only a mere few hours; i'm incredibly lucky compared to a lot of other people in this comment section. thanks for the concern, and i hope you're doing well 💜

[@Ddmm123]

@@pamelaia ♡

[@Mrworthwhile]

I can't connect to anybody

[@xoxo-qc6qd]

I had this disorder for a whole year from the age of 12 to 13 and it would come back in shorter spans during my mid to late teenage years when I would dwell on my experience with it and try to articulate what it felt like. I had just started full time ballet at 12 and it was a very toxic and stressful environment (I did full time ballet until I was 17). The most horrible part is that I would tell my parents that I "wasn't me" and they would just say "everyone goes through stages like this". I thought I was losing my mind and went into a deep depression during that first year. There were hardly any articles on it at first but once I was made aware of what it was, I was so relieved.

[@metalheadrobredbar6899]

" Feeling detached from their body parts" No. I've never really experienced that.

[@yallgotanyfuckincheese7811]

shit real... i can't feel either

[@vifujioka]

I don’t want to self diagnosed, I’ve been feeling like this for around 5 years?? It feels like I’m in a game and life doesn’t feel whole. I still remember the moment where it started

[@ohmickeywhyte]

I had my finals today. I'm looking up this because I really started to flare up but I'm always one to disassociate

[@_a_nomaly]

For me, its been chronic for almost a year. My family feel like strangers. My body doesnt feel like mine. Time goes by inexplicably fast. I sleep all the time. The world feels so unreal. Like Im an observer in someone elses body. Or like Im looking through a glass wall metaphorically. And sometimes I just stare into nothingness for a while because its so confusing. I went to the doctor but only came home with some Prozac for depression. I guess I do appear depressed but I feel so out of it all the time that I can't tell if Im depressed. Slowly my emotions have felt more and more disconnected. Second week of Prozac and Im I think my symptoms have only worsened. But Im still taking it and I honestly dont know why. Maybe Im hoping for a miracle that the medicine works, even though Im 99 percent sure it won't help. I live with my immediate family since I'm still underage (16), but I haven't spoken to them for months. I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore. Hell, I don't even want to go to school. I have no one to talk to. No motivation to do work or even things I enjoy cause it all feels fake, foggy, like a never ending dream. I dont know what to do.

[@bwmanhath3770]

Bruh completely same

[@MrCmon113]

You clearly have a very firm self concept. This sounds more like "dis-association" than "de-personalization", I guess? I think you can speak to people without feeling like speaking to people.

[@RigoVids]

I feel very alive, I am constantly aware. However, I have never felt love towards someone. Infatuation, perhaps. Appreciation for my family, certainly. But I don’t have a genuine feeling of happiness towards anyone. Just their approval.

[@truth9042]

as a sufferer of dp/dr it is not an easy disorder to have; but i believe it is attached to some sort of trauma that one goes through

[@samart673]

Wow, I was having this kind of stress, despression and anxiety and what worse I never felt in love except temporary celebrity's crush. Then I randomly type in "why can't I fall in love.. " and saw this. And this is exactly what I felt for more than 20 years. People asking me if I'm oky and I told them I oky just I can't feel in love. And seem like this what I been having. To who I should refer to and ask help 😔

[@miky3035]

I was searching for an info about myself. Then i got here, i dont know, but i dont feel love, but i can feel anger occassionally, loneliness, yes, feeling different, but cant say am DP...

[@blue.parker1016]

God loves you😊

[@ilovekirbydontjudge8465]

Hmmmmmm did you know there’s somthing idk what it is all I know is that when you get mad even a little you go on a rampage and you don’t remember anything you could have both the video gives answer about love and the think I said can be the think about hitting

[@liminal_lucy]

The man is at 5:00 is terrified. It is the fear that paralyses, not the warped perception. For fast progress, just consider you're dead already, make friends with the apparitions, observe and set the rules of the game, and enjoy the show.

[@chucklemethis3329]

I didnt know seeing yourself while next to yourself was the same thing as the 2d experience. I came here looking for answers to the former. I almost gave up when i learned about the latter because i already know too well about that. But the two related? I had never heard of. I have my suspicions why this occurs (completely separate from but in addition to trauma) and was hoping others like me had the same conclusion.

[@clairecognizant6615]

I was diagnosed with Derealization but I think I have symptoms in each. I will lose months of time, I scene my body lying in my bed and haven't fully connected it back, I have self isolated for 2 years. Does anyone else have these symptoms? I feel like I am not alive anymore.

[@Laprecious1983]

Yes,me🥲

[@bellkayl928]

Can this occur after psychedelic drug use? Like People who like and want the seperation of mind and body and actually continue to live in their brain/ mental world rather than in reality?

[@critenks229]

I looked up this video because it’s been happening to me. First time was terrifying and just unsettling. 2nd time wasn’t so bad, best thing you can do is relax and let it pass.

[@Bakedbaconscookedcookies]

Just sleep sleep sleep and some more sleep and everytime you do that, you're wishing "gosh let this please disappear by the time I wake up" but then it doesn't and then what do you do? GET SOME MORE SLEEP... cause that's the only solution

[@yuliinks7882]

The only time I feel like I in with my body is when im high it’s like the two pieces arte able to relax and fit together like puzzle

[@BrianBloop]

I've never been able to be close to anyone and it's scary and soo soo dam lonly

[@user-rf6qq1xf5l]

I have had it for 20 years, I am from Saudi Arabia

[@dylanpower1438]

I can feel love, I just think no one will love me

[@Caligari1]

have it since 99 .... in the end you get used to, sad but true

[@bansoo3003]

I can't Express love or feel it it feels like I'm in a deep water trying to reach out to get out but i can't and it feels lonely watching other being in love is great but i will never have that it's like watch a movie

[@johnnybrix5308]

Same

[@reiyasart]

When these symptoms appear for me they happen in episodes when I’m especially anxious or worried. The longest I’ve gone with it was 5 days. I can’t even imagine having this 24/7 it already felt like a living hell. I went to a doctor and they had no idea I was denied any real kind of help and they just said to rest and eat more.

[@nafgamergirl540]

Ugh we really need help I have a biggg exam in 3 months and I can't study because of this shit..I'm screwed

[@Benjavaz]

Everyone is treating Depersonalization like some independent condition, which it isn’t. Depersonalization is a symptom of anxiety.

[@miraclealigner8140]

it can be a symptom of anxiety and/or depression, but it can also be a chronic illness. they're talking more about the illness than the symptom.

[@donnapiano610]

No DP/DR disorder is a real disorder, read the DSM-5. You can have temporary DP/DR symptoms without having the disorder though, ie through drug use. The symptoms are also common in borderline pd, anxiety disorders, ptsd and others

[@notofthisworld5267]

Anxiety Stress Drug use Drug withdrawal It's a symptom yet also a disorder. Stress hormones fire up, and the brain is jarred out of equilibrium.

[@Benjavaz]

@@notofthisworld5267 I believe that DPDR is caused by a depletion of dopamine, norepinephrine, serotonin, and acetylcholine. It could also involve NMDA receptor toxicity. Overdosing on psychoactive drugs can deplete these neurotransmitters and cause toxicity to neurotransmitter receptors. Recurring panic attacks can do the same. Treatment should involve letting neurotransmitter receptors repair and supplementation with precursors to these neurotransmitters.

[@_cole_shugg9409]

Being going through this for a while I thought it was psychosis at first glad I at least know what it’s called

[@Annabelle66633]

I’ve felt incapable of love for some time now 😐

[@perkboyX]

even I feel the same, I don't see a point being loved but to live yes. I m awakened and know everything is illusion but reality amazed me when I see it like AI game

[@Ab-yq1hy]

This conditions got my relationship messed up and made me fail academically , but I have sort of worked out the recovery process. The aim is to take your mind off it , but I’ve never got to 100% recovery yet. Just pretend it doesn’t exist , do things you enjoy, you should feel better, but the aim to the cure is maintaining that. If you are gonna worry bout dp and search it up all the time then be prepared to have it for a long time. I can say this cause this emotional numbness I’ve felt my emotions again, I’ve experienced temporary recovery, never been able to eradicate it though

[@mihaialexandru135]

Please ,does anyone know where is the Clinic , doctors in Uk where I can treat my depersonalisation disorder . I’m really struggling I don’t want to live anymore. Please can somebody help me

[@eldiablonoob4305]

I can't feel love to anyone all I do is act as I love them which is really hard for me.

[@mixqueen6723]

Same

[@elijahx7159]

Same but it's easy for me to act like I do

[@LumiYTT]

same like i never miss my mom and i dont love her ive been like this for years some times my mom say do you love me and i say yes when im telling a lie i think she think i dont love her

[@racheldahliamusic]

How loud do you want the music? YESSSS

[@exovit6348]

Massive panic attacks from it cos you'll be in it and be like "well im used to it now" then you hit an even harder dissociative spell in the middle of work you didn't know was possible.

[@pandabelepotan]

i never feel sincere love for others. except family.

[@us5freaak]

I tried this once when I got really high. I was watching my own hand while wiggling my fingers and I did not feel like I was the person controlling it, I felt like a was just watching a hand that was moving.

[@user-em8vg6wx8m]

I think I have depersonalization disorder cause sometimes when I am looking at myself in the mirror I get the feeling that who ever I see isn't me. Or any kind of action I make in front of it isn't making me the person I think I should be..is it "it"?

[@user-gw1vi8cg6w]

That sounds like delusions

[@boch2411]

@@user-gw1vi8cg6w not a delusion. fuck you.

[@Justanobodybro]

@@user-gw1vi8cg6w im 2 years late but ur wrong L

[@Justanobodybro]

same for me but i have depression its hell

[@MrCmon113]

@@user-gw1vi8cg6w No, that's accurate perception. What he reports sounds exactly like a mirror mediation and the insight he had is precisely the one we are trying to evoke. The thing that appears in the mirror is in fact not you. Nothing that appears can be you.

[@a7c777]

Whoever edited/mixed the audio should look into another career path

[@acutetriangle8923]

If I don't feel love, I will find a way to love I will find someone who I love I won't give up in my life

[@Marc-qw5yo]

💛

[@Chadmon1]

I get this. I had a substantial period of bad trauma and individual traumatic experiences all in the same bloc together, some of which I had amnesia of. From what I can tell is that my brain goes into a state of defence-mechanism where, instead of the normal brain function which would consist of passing short-term memory to long term retained memory, my brain just goes from taking the short-term and then just bundling it away asap, and I *think* that is what causes the dream-like state. Memory function feels disconnected or diverted. My two cents. I definitely feel like a robot when it happens, the strange thing is you function somehow but it is exhausting. My arms often feel like one of those blow up dolls that are outside shops that flap about in the wind, it's very surreal. I've had out of body experiences many times.