depression sucks

[@marioadrion]

These times made me realize how much you mean to me! ❤️ Thanks for opening up and trusting us. We love you.

[@curvicurve]

Yes. Mario, its always a good thing to have a genuine support and connection with someone you can open up to an trust to help you through your darkest time. We all have our own struggles, being open and able to show that vunerability as a person is a step to growing. We support you travis ❤

[@gabriellopez96]

Mario, it's wonderful that you're just such a supportive friend! As someone who works in the mental health field I know the value of true friendship and support. I would just offer you a piece of advice. During the video there were times where you would interrupt Travis and bring the conversation back to experiences that you had and you were going through. It’s important to try to relate, but it’s even more important to let someone have their own moment. When listening we don’t always need to respond. Sometimes it’s important to just let people talk, and I think I would’ve liked to hear a little bit more from Travis in the video so that he could really express how he was feeling. I don’t say this with any sort of negative intention, I know that you’re trying to be a supportive friend. As someone who has been there for people through many mental health struggles and who has gone through mental health struggles myself, it’s so important to make space for people to talk I interrupted. Just something to be mindful of. Especially when you hear yourself using the phrase "Even for me" or "What I went through" ask yourself how often you're doing that and if that's taking away from his moment.

[@VanessaMwiza]

Gabriel Lopez these are gold words and I hope Mario can see this and understand constructively. I was thinking exactly this as I was watching the video.

[@adrianflores581]

YOU KNOW DAMN WELL YOU WANTED TO BUST OUT LAUGHING! Lmao jk I can tell you actually consider dude a friend, great support man.

[@rinmartell2678]

Let him talk the next time. This video is about him...not about you.

[@davincecool]

Mario is so amazing. That look in his eyes. "I'll take care of you, don't worry"

[@kyrelterrhaun]

Stay strong Travis. You’ve been battling this same issue for years. You can do this bro! 💪🏾

[@zienzosibiya7122]

Yah he has battled this before, um sure he will overcome it. i was hurt to see him crying xaa.

[@Rainwolff]

You are an amazing man ... both of you are ... I have also been feeling the stress of everything ... I am very sensitive to emotions around me and being a healer and Counsellor too I tend to put my needs on the back burner and help others first ... being locked away in my own space however without the distraction of others has forced me to face the nightmares within myself too ... when our lockdown started I was sending motivational messages etc out to some whatsapp groups and some of my students but the last few days I haven’t done anything because I just can’t ... I hear you ... and seeing you struggling helps me realize I am not alone ... thanks to the video and your honesty I am going to try again in the morning let’s see how it goes. Never forget how amazing you are and that there are people all over the world that love and respect you... hugs and kisses from South Africa ... Kevin xx

[@michaelclarke549]

...a very moving video and much respect to you and Mario for sharing something so deeply personal. I also found it helpful, as I have in isolation/shielding for 8 weeks now and haven't seen a soul apart from the delivery guys. Warm Wishes from the UK...

[@dodger712]

Travis, you and Mario are two lights in many people’s worlds. As someone who lives with depression I send you love and healing vibes. Your being willing so share this means much. Know that you WILL climb out of this darkness soon and that there are legions of fans who support you on your bad days as well as good ones. 🧸🎈💖 BIG hug for you both.

[@dsoules4749]

This quarantine is taking a toll on everyone but it’s so easy to fall into a negative headspace. You don’t have to force positivity it helps to address the depression and process it and give it a name and work through it don’t feel obligated to post or put up a front for anyone! You got this 💙

[@eden-field]

There are soo many ways we can distract ourselves in 2020, ...until now of course that is. Down time helps us to put all things in better perspective. Believe me I have. Hard that this is of course,. It's none the less positive in some ways to help things to make sense again. This used to be what vacations were for! There's empathy inside every human soul and what an example this guy is to us all! Look into his eyes... the windows of his soul and look into his heart! Thank you Travis, you are super important! Just keep on going on, you'll be ok :)

[@JL-re1rx]

A good friend of mine taught me the distinction between going thru “a low” and being “depressed.” It’s been helpful, hope his words of sis are for others reading them here. One day at a time. Some days are better than others. “Boredom is the the fruit of too much routine, or lack of it.” “Enjoy Life!” - last chapter page heading of a a Harvard “Let’s Go” travel book.

[@Shadow2pointO]

I'm fine with quarantine. It's what I always wanted.

[@thevillain4767]

I want someone to look at me the way Mario looks at Travis Edit: My little poor heart, this is so sweet, stay strong we love u both ❤️❤️

[@machrisomachriso2797]

Ooooooooh hell yeah i see those eyes lol

[@diegotroetsch6303]

@@machrisomachriso2797 IS THE PUREST THING .

[@machrisomachriso2797]

@@diegotroetsch6303 yes oooh ghosh its so beautiful i love in the end the way they look at each other its so pure indeed they are really wounderful

[@diegotroetsch6303]

@@machrisomachriso2797 yeah you can see how Travis looks at him looking for some sort of approval and he is just there steady as a rock for his friend, beautiful.

[@mingzheng7361]

no, u dont. it will hurt, there is someone you wanna love but u cant do it

[@nkemani8372]

I’m so sorry about this Travis. I’m on the opposite end right now. After 2 and a half years of feeling a constant darkness and depression, since mid January there has been a calm on my mind that I honestly haven’t experienced in so long. School being a factor of my depression was ruled out this quarantine and I’ve been feeling better. I at times didn’t think things would get better but now I know that what people say about time healing can be true. I wish you the best. Both of you. ❤️

[@es5398]

You are pretty ❤️

[@ikerspindola1859]

Nkem Ani I don’t know you, but reading that statement put a smile on my face, hope you’re feeling so fucking good! ✨✨❤️❤️

[@christianjoyner8979]

Same

[@abhinavabhinav2640]

Same here

[@nateloy]

Maybe Travis should take a break from KZbin. I love his videos but his mental health is more important.

[@d.j.7069]

It's not KZbin that is the problem in my opinion. It's his deep and abiding love for Mario; unrequited in ways Travis needs desperately. Being completely and utterly in love with something or someone you can never have is a recipe for life-long anxiety and depression. Mario says, "I Iove you" to Travis, and even Travis doesn't fully understand how that jaggedly slices through his very soul. SAD!

[@Sociallybeast01]

Definitely don’t think KZbin is the root of his issues.

[@nateloy]

Eli neither do I but it probably adds stress

[@mplsmikey]

@@d.j.7069 I think you nailed it D.J.

[@dee9659]

@@d.j.7069 so true

[@propermthethwa2113]

Guys when he cried..... I'm so hurt by this... It's so sad sieng him cry

[@امبيه-ض7ث]

Me too😭

[@heatonhaus3073]

Thank you for sharing and for this honesty Travis ..I have been struggling during quarantine with not depression, but with my anxiety. It's hard to deal with and I also find myself putting on an act and "pretending" to be fine. Sending you all of my positive thoughts and love friend.

[@noahbovenizer8347]

The people saying that Mario was speaking too much would also complain if he'd stayed quiet. Perhaps just let people deal with their own lives. I'm sure Travis is intelligent enough to know if Mario is good for him or not.

[@derekclifford610]

I love you Travis. I have been following you through different incarnations of your channels and life changes. You are so well spoken and truly communicate and connect with your audience. I feel you and I understand. Its such an individual situation and I have been there in very deep and very dark times. I am so grateful for your honesty and proving that it is okay to not be okay. Much Love

[@scott1747]

The way you look at each other when you talk melts my heart amazing friendship. Lots of love to you both ♥️

[@sanziomike6782]

scott1747 Yeah! I love the way Mário looks at Travis. ❤️

[@harryfontenot2240]

Been following for almost 6 years...seen your ups and downs. What keeps me watching is your honesty. No matter how hard it is to show this side of yourself you know it will help someone else struggling...that's so amazing to me. Love and happiness to you, Travis!

[@danielnikolao9414]

The moment he started crying, I couldn’t hold back myself 😭😭😭😭😭❤️ so much love for you Travis and nothing but love for you xoxo trust me, your gonna make it through ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@aloevera1269]

1:28 I agree!!!! I have always wanted to help my friends but idk how exactly I'm supposed to help😔 PS: stay strong Travis! We love you💞 please stay strong. It broke my heart seeing you cry.

[@lyraadeleriddle6659]

Mario and Travis are both so relatable. At the minute I can't see the person that keeps me stable. Quarantine is definitely taking its toll. Although both Travis and Mario have both been through there own personal "hells", they're still going and still there for each other. There are days where I don't see a point in getting up, and on some days, I don't but seeing them both still going shows me that it can be done. Stick together and look out for each other as always and we will see you at the end of the tunnel. Love you guys ❤❤

[@alissaharder]

This is why we need more friendships like you guys have.

[@citrushealer43s39]

Thank you so much for this video Travis. My husband has been in a deep depression since he lost his father last May. Next week will be one year. I have been trying to help him but I’m going to make him watch this because hearing this from a person also battling depression may help him move into the right direction. We had an appointment set up to discuss therapy with our doctor but it was postponed due to quarantine. Thanks for your honesty. I’m so grateful. Sending love. Stay strong.

[@bwill83]

Thank you for being so brave to tell your story. Being someone that suffers from PTSD and depression it’s always nice to know that we’re not alone going through this. Where this lockdown for so many has intensified there depression it has actually helped somewhat with my PTSD. I have my issues with depression but have found them much more manageable being able to be home and really focus on myself for once. I am a truck driver so I haven’t been off the road more than a week in 7 years so I’m actually getting the chance to enjoy what I’ve been working so hard for. I hope for everyone we get back to a resemblance of what we had for normality before but I am also hoping it has helped people be more self aware and kind to each other.

[@dougc6101]

You are loved Travis! Keep your head up! You are so amazing. 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@monicahansen4156]

Depression is a hard place to be. My depression has made me physically incurably sick and almost took the life of my daughter. But thank God there is a way out if you are strong enough to ask for help and if you watch videos like this. Thank you Travis, huge hug 🤗🥰

[@immanueljacobs6256]

Love you guys!!!Can also relate Travis the worst is when people think it's just a act.Just because they don't experience it.Love that you guys make people aware about how serious it is.🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@diegotroetsch6303]

He is probably not going to read, but thank you Travis, I'm going through.. I won't say the same but have been feeling terrible lately, not in my country away from all family and seeing you dealing with this really makes me feel like there is at least someone on earth that doesn';t care to show how is it all going, there is this pressure for you to be happy all the times, but sometimes there is also the pressure of seeing so many youtubers being so happy all the time that If I don't manage to be like this I also start to question myself for not being as happy as everyone in youtube.. anyways thank you, you really snapped me out of a crisis with this video.

[@craigreed3625]

Travis, I so appreciate you being authentic with yourself, Mario and with us, your viewers. Few people give themselves permission to show up without the mask. Your honesty is so needed, especially now when so many are struggling. Your bravery in owning your darker days is what makes you beautiful in my eyes.

[@jpd464]

These are the most genuine heartfelt guys I think I've ever had the pleasure to witness. Sending high thoughts and blessings to you both.

[@donellajames9261]

Mario you are an awesome human. Very few people who have not experienced depression take the time to try and understand and support those who suffer. You are a true friend 🥰 Travis, I am currently going through a bit of a dark place due to lockdown and everything you and mario have just said has helped me today. Thank you so much boys, you are so lucky to have each other xxx

[@czenniebagel]

my heart breaks when Travis start crying 😭 I just want to say you’re not alone I had been there everybody had been there so stay strong and take a moment to relax your mind and think about happy things ❤️

[@johnsloan4987]

I have never cried so much as watching this. It so resonates, far too many changes in my life to quickly for a while. Thank you so much for talking openly and honestly. You’re helping others and I hope that helps you too. When you battle depression it just keeps creeping up into life over and over. You’re a gem Mario!

[@valleylaker]

Travis, as someone who has been struggling with clinical depression for almost 20 years, I encourage you to be gentle with yourself until everything is back in balance. One of the best things you could have done is stopped business as usual and made this video. It is honesty on your part and you will never know how many lives you have touched putting yourself out there. And Mario, as a wise man, you know that you cannot fix it, you just need to love him through it and stand with him so he isn't alone. I love both you guys because of the difference in the world you make. Be safe, be well, and love!

[@oceanwonders]

Your willingness to be real with the audience is one of the main reasons I'm subscribed to your life. It is so appreciated and I'm sure it makes your younger viewers feel less alone / like freaks. And, I understand wanting to process privately. Thank you for sharing.

[@ChazChristopher]

I understand where you’re coming from Travis. I know there’s nothing I can say to make the depression go away. All I can say is that many of us are in the same boat; and appreciate your honesty about it.

[@asbaran]

Can't help but think about the lyrics to "Rose Colored Boy" "Just let me cry a little bit longer. Don't make me smile if I don't want to." Your feelings are valid Travis. I see you and you are not alone.

[@damarcusjohnson1362]

I am glad you being honest and you don't know this but you are helping so many people that's feeling the same way you are feeling but I hope you come out of it and find happiness, peace, joy So thank you for letting us know how you been feeling so once again thank you ♥️🥰

[@kewaniscureton2368]

As someone who struggles with depression, I’ve seen it in your videos. I know what its like to have to put on a facade so people do know that you’re struggling. Cherish Mario because not everyone has someone who is there for them. Keep your head up Travis, you’re one of the ones who will get through it. ❤️❤️

[@Sociallybeast01]

Travis , I cannot stress how important this video is. I’ve battle with depression as well and I can only wish to have someone like Mario in my life who will be at my side regardless. Someone who’s NOT only there for the good times. I’ve been feeling very lonely lately so this video means SO much to me Travis. You have no idea , I don’t feel as ostracized now despite having no in person support 😢

[@biga36695]

Travis, you have been through a lot in your life and it isn’t always possible to be “up”. I think discussions about mental health don’t happen often enough and it is refreshing to see some of you using the platforms of your channels to open up about real issues. Bravo!

[@jiholl0306]

Travis...Being honest with yourself is one of the best things you can do...and you have done that so well! And sharing and talking openly is enormously helpful. You will be fine...you are a very strong soul. Having a friend like Mario is rare and a key to your health and happiness!

[@kalebfaught8243]

This just became my new favorite video from you. I've been battling with depression most of my life as well. It hasn't been easy. One of the ways I've been fighting it has been keeping myself around people who get it and help me cope.

[@garysmothers9424]

Thank you Travis on what you're going through and your honesty about Depression. I have had Depression since I was 23 years old and over the years I have got slowly worse to the point where threatened suicide and committed to behavioral health for a week. Please keep us informed of your progress and my prayers are with you Brother. Each day is a struggle but you and I and others with Depression will get through this.

[@samiam5189]

Thank you for sharing! I feel the same way about how you work on yourself! I have so much appreciation that you stuck through it! Time to time triggers and moments brings depression back into life. I acknowledge my depression check in myself. I am honestly okay! Get up girl, make my bed and get to the next moment! Today is my birthday! Spread love and smile! Take care, stay strong and together strong!

[@mhaynes22]

You guys have developed a lovely friendship... I admire the two of you, you can both talk openly about everything... lot’s of love x

[@mijadreams3486]

when he started crying i suddenly just understood without words . i’m so fucking sorry travis, i’ve been struggling with depression my whole life but we have to keep fighting !!! sending love from the bay area 🖤

[@michaelbiggs4313]

I am 100% supportive of what you are saying up to a point. When you mentioned we should be making our beds I thought that is just crazy talk. I hate making my bed with or without Depression, but you do you. Helping other people is the best thing for me when I have Depression. Thanks for doing this video. It will help people understand they are not alone.

[@peterduong3499]

Thanks for your honesty and bravery in showing your struggles with depression. It helps when you know that you're not alone. Travis, you're not alone. Sending love and good thoughts your way.

[@ryanmrh4006]

Thank you for sharing this. I just recently found my way out of a bad 3 year depression. Vulnerability is real, and relatable, so this kind of content really helps people.

[@josecabaltera1625]

this videos message is crucial and timely, Trav. Thank you for being vulnerable, being real and showing it to your audience. It is why I like you, follow you and consume your content.

[@thandothomas9649]

Honestly it takes courage to be able to open up to share what you are currently going through and by sharing ..it do shows that u had enough of the inner pain if I may say and u now ready to face this issue .so Travis u need to know that u are not alone ,we love U and I personally believe that u will overcome this with that glowing smile on ur face u always give and hopefully the next video we going to watch will be looking at ur face filled with tears of joy not this one's which are filled with all emotional pain ...it actually breaks my heart 💔 seeing u cry after all the confidentiality I have gained through watching ur videos and Mario as well ..which persuaded me to continue doing something that I love to do without having doubt or second thoughts on wt ppl might say about me .

[@jessicammcmahon]

Hi Travis I was really touched by your video. Like you self harm, suicide and depression has been part of my life for a long time. Like you I grew up with a family that did not talk about their feelings. Mental health was something that brought shame on my family it was nothing I was allowed talk about inside or outside the home for fear of others finding out. The phrase “just get over it” was commonly used. This led to me becoming very introverted and any attempts in getting help would fail due to the pressures my family would put on me. Even now as an adult I find when I’m depressed not knowing how to talk to others and often feeling that same pressure I felt in my childhood to act “”Normal”” in front of everyone else even though I was dying inside. However the more I tried to suppress it the more these dark feelings would consume me. Often leading to me isolating myself not wanting to spoil things for everyone else. I think it’s important for you and I to remember that our feelings matter to other people. But also that we are stronger than we think as we have survived so much so far in our lives. That we can use that strength and determination to get us through these dark spells. You for example are so talented in everything from your acting, modeling, directing. You have such a creative mind. Plus you are a great friend to those you care about. You even make your viewers on KZbin or wherever else feel loved and supported like we are part of a greater family. My parting words would be just that it’s okay not to be okay!! With all my love 😘😘

[@drewbenefield2001]

Travis, I’m so sorry🥺 I know exactly how you feel. I have Depression and anxiety since I was 19 I’m 38 now. Is there anything I can do? KZbin Community is here for you. So glad you have Mario! Love you!

[@samprimera5545]

I think it is so great youve had it half your life and yet you are so ready to help someone else.

[@darrylb9872]

It really takes courage to speak openly about our hidden struggles and weaknesses. I applaud you, Travis, for finding the fortitude to share . Hopefully this will help someone else to 'reach out' too. When we open up and shine a light, we take away the power of those things that would destroy us.

[@jeffreyerdmann1017]

Travis it’s good that you share this especially during the Covid-19 pandemic. I haven’t been dealing with this all my life, about 15 years of severe depression, anxiety and stress. I filter the news and put limits on how much I have in any given day. My boyfriend, Andy has been there with understanding and support and seen me in bad places. But he has lessened those periods of darkness. So much. Your not alone sweetie. By the way, there’s a 27 year age difference, we’re soulmates. Peace ✌️

[@rahvp]

Hi Travis. Can I just say I feel your pain and respect you so much for being open and unashamed about what you’re feeling. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder several years ago and have spent the years since then working on my wellness. Like you, I spent my entire life projecting something on the outside that was nothing like I was feeling inside. Those of us who feel things deeply...who just seem to be wired that way....struggle with trying hard to be acceptable to others because if they knew what we were really feeling inside, they’d leave and we would be alone. That was always my fear...until I started a life of recovery and understood that all the faking and pretending I’d been doing all my life was keeping me from the support I was afraid to reach out for. Isolation blocks the love people want to give us...withdrawing from others, that is. I work in mental health now using my lived experience and the things I’ve learned through my own struggles to be there for others who are having struggles of their own. No one can understand like someone who’s been through the same things. Please know that it does get better and your reaching out for support is the first and best step in taking care of your own mental health. I wish I could give you a big hug and share my story with you so you’d know that recovery is possible. Because I’m nothing special and if I can do it...anybody can. Hang in there and keep being the awesome caring guy you are. And know that help is out there if we just reach out for it and accept it. Thanks for using your voice to reduce the stigma against mental illness that keeps people from seeking the help they need. It’s important what you’re doing and I have mad respect for you. Hang in there....this too shall pass. 😘

[@RodneyakaBlue]

Travis know you are loved. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. I say inside first and stress inside because we see you are a caring person and you love people. It exudes through your videos and trust me we see it. You are so lucky to have such a positive and amazing best friend like Mario in your life. We love you and you will make it through. Stay strong my brother. One love!

[@shawnnix4602]

Thanks for sharing man. I don't normally get depressed myself but I live alone an being alone 24/7 for over 2 months straight is getting old very quick. I hope you feel better an remember there are people out here that care about you as well.

[@tylerwalton3333]

Thanks so much for sharing your struggle. Depression sucks, and I've had long periods of darkness. Glad you have a friend to help get you through some of it.

[@desireealexam]

Travis, thanks for posting this video instead of something fun and entertaining. I appreciate your realness and vulnerability. Everyone is struggling right now due to the quarantine. I don’t know if what you’re feeling is due to that, or something else, but I hope you know you are not alone in feeling your depression. ♥️😘 I’m a mental health counselor and I also have been battling with depression and anxiety for several years due to life and relationship stressors, and been taking medication. Now since the quarantine, I have been working from home for the first time ever, but I’m struggling to manage my time and separate work from personal life. 😳 So, I decided to go back to the office 2-3 days per week.

[@dwaynebaker9793]

We luv you Travis. Thank you for sharing something that so many people battle at times. And, for being honest and transparent. I have a lot more respect for Mario now, seeing how he’s been handling and trying to help in the situation. God’s watching out over you. 💙

[@tallactordude]

I can absolutely understand this, as someone with persistent depressive disorder. It’s a milder form of depression, but it is no less problematic, and all this self-quarantining doesn’t help it any. Anyway, it’s good to talk about this, and I appreciate your honesty in saying you’re not doing well and going through a difficult time. I think that helps take some of the stigma off depression and helps show that it’s nothing to be ashamed of. It’s good that you’re dealing with it, and I hope things get better for you soon.

[@stevefreedman470]

Sweetheart.....I am so sorry that you are experiencing this as I suffer sometimes as well. It's life in general for me that makes me feel not wanted and unloved but always find a moment where I am so positive. With the help of my therapist (and meds) I am able to talk each week to a professional who makes suggestions and gives me "positive reinforcement" that I wouldn't get anywhere else. Dealing with this Covid-19 stuff does not help matters as well....I also remember a therapist telling me, when I feel depressed and don't know where to turn just make sure you are in some kind of light. Dark rooms, shaded areas can increase your depression...always stay in some kind of light and that should help. What a blessing Mario is for you honey and I am so glad you both have each other...I have said that many times....he is your angel through all what you're going through. We ALL love you Travis and want to help you in any way we can. How can we do that for you? Take things one day at a time, one minute at a time and be good to yourself...you deserve all the positive things in your life honey and in this video you were sitting next to that one positive person, your Mario...love you both so much! Mama Steve👌😊❤👍🏿🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎶🎵🎶🎵

[@bauhausweimar595]

Travis, it was a heartbreaking video to watch, since I’m also struggling with depression from time to time and know my dark places! Mario, it would have been nice to give Travis a hug 🤗 while he was crying! Sending love 💕

[@Kupcakepa]

We love you and you are not alone in this battle. Even those that are more positive are having issues with this whole quarantine situation. Stay strong and remember we love you!!!

[@mauiguy85]

Oh honey, we are all facing darkness. I've been in a quagmire myself. Stay strong babe!

[@MrPatrick891]

Be strong Babe. Sending you love and light.♥️

[@MrBasket1028]

Love you Travis. Been feeling this way for awhile now too and I don’t think it’s a coincidence that this showed up for me and the fact that this was posted on my bday

[@KylaPhelps]

Hey Travis. I thought I should comment. Ive been in a very dark depression for a few months too. Also paired with trying new meds that have somehow made things worse. Im so glad that you have someone close to you that is there for you. Because its super important. Keep trying Trav. You are a magnificent creator and I just hope you know that you arent alone and you being so open about it is probably helping a lot of people like me going through a similar circumstance. Stay strong, keep hope.

[@fadyalhachem]

Oooh stay strong !! If you ever need to talk, you can reach me on my ig @fadym :)

[@charleskellim1335]

Your honesty is amazing Travis. Hang in there Big Guy. I'm so glad you have a friend like Mario who you can honestly talk about this stuff with. You two are amazing!!

[@PuppysPride]

Speechless, not speechless. I am so proud of you for your honesty, authenticity and bravery; depression carries such deep rooted stigma and misunderstanding, especially for men, I know how hard this was for you. My husband suffers from depression, and can go for a week in bed, he's on meds, but they have limits. I suffer from panic and anxiety attacks and thankfully, after several tries with different meds, finally found one that is keeping the attacks under control. This social isolation is taking it's toll on all of us, especially those of us with mental health issues. When Mario put his hand on your shoulder I almost cried, so grateful that he is there for you, but envious that you have that support. Travis, you are not alone, I have watched many of your videos and have always enjoyed your perky humorous personality. Thank you for sharing your dark side; I am sure this video will help many other people to understand that they are not alone, maybe seek professional help, and maybe, just maybe prevent a suicide. I am sharing this video on facebook, and will be emailing this to a friend who works for a Canadian provincial mental health education program. Sending love and gratitude from Canada! HUGS, MAN!

[@Tpwk03]

Travis that was so pure and honest. My ❤️ goes out to you. "It's all about finding the calm in the chaos." ❤️ All the love to you both as always. Dannie

[@juststeph3315]

When Travis burst into tears, I almost started to cry too...I struggle with depression and OMG I have been there...One time I was going through such a deep depression that I started sobbing, that same kind of gut wrenching sobbing that Travis did, during a Bible study-there were at least 15 people there and they all treated me like some kind of freak later on...so much for Christian love and understanding! I left that group and the church that had hosted the Bible study shortly after because I was so ashamed and put off by all the members. I just want to say to Travis that you are sooo incredably brave to be this transparent and vulnerable! And Mario, you are such a good friend! Sometimes all you can do when someone is depressed is just be there to listen and wrap your arms around them...just like you did. Travis, I know you can overcome this, you did it before! I know that when you are in the middle of a major depression it can feel like you will never be able to be happy again. What helped me was finding the right therapy and medication. I pray that you will feel better soon and get the help you need. You and Mario are such an inspiration to me! Love you both!!!

[@brandonengland2676]

Love you buddy!! You are amazing and will get through this! Always love your honesty it is refreshing! Reach out if you need help, or feel yourself going down a rabbit hole. ❤️

[@linoalamour]

F**k, you made me cry... I care for you Travis and even if i am just a "subscriber", with years, i obviously developped feelings and a lot of affection for you... So i just want to say right now : I LOVE SO MUCH TRAVIS AND I SEND YOU MY STRENGHT, MY FORCE, MY POSITIVE ENERGY, AND MY BEST VIBES just to see you feeling better and keep smiling... For my case, i have an intense life or rhythm, no matter what is the situation. Probably cause as a filmmaker, i am always creating, writting, filming, editing and working every day to become a better version of myself. And since the beginning of the quarantine, i am working so much than before. I even don't know how it's possible: teaching online courses of yoga, meditation and storytelling. I became a model scout also (yeah, i don't really know how this opportunity comes up too...), plus my other activities with new challenges,... I recently surprised myself crying under shower not because of depression, but because i had any full day off for more than a month and half now. And my body and soul are just getting exhausted... Well, that's life and i am very glad Mario got your back, no matter what. Love you both separately and/or together, deep and long hugs from France Dear Beautiful Sparkling Soul! 💖

[@geamin73]

Thank you for both your openness, means so much given the current situation, be the fabulous self that you guys are and know good times are round the corner!

[@organchoirman9698]

You are not alone in experiencing depression. It hits almost everybody sometime(s) in their lives. I went through it more than a few times. The worst was recovering from cancer surgery. I only felt good (and safe) in bed. I had to fight to get up. As you said making the bed is a great help. Oddly it really is. You will learn what you need to do to pull yourself out of it. Don't every be embarassed. It is obvious that you are a loving, truthful, and beautiful person. If you ever want to message privately let me know how to contact you. I LOVE seeing and hearing you on KZbin. Much love is there for you ... more than you realize. Take care beautiful man.

[@fletchersinohue3596]

This may sound cheesy; but it comes from the heart and helps me immensely. Everyone is different, but perhaps this suggestion can help. When I have dark feelings I can't shake & feel like I'm losing my center, I write them down. In a way, it's like once it has gone from pen to paper; I'm somehow relieved. Like SO much emotional weight is transferred onto that paper. Perhaps just acknowledging the emotion through that physical act is my way to unblock. I'm glad you made this video, we all need a reminder that we're all just human every so often. Much love to you both and keep your chin up.

[@petmeee]

Good idea. But doesn’t it get a bit repetitive because, in my case, when I’m falling into the darkness, it always comes from the same place, the same reason.

[@fletchersinohue3596]

@@petmeee Everyone is different, but for me ... even if writing it out ever felt repeatative, Having the ability to read back on your thoughts can give you an amazing perspective of, "hey. I made it through that dark time back then too." Reminds me I'm stronger than think sometimes. Reminds me that times I'm not writing are some good inbetween days too. And suddenly the darkness seems more balanced and less overwhelming in the moment. I hope you're able to separate yourself from whatever or whoever's causing these repeating triggers for you.

[@petmeee]

Fletcher Sinohue my apologies. I only saw your response today. I’m doing better now I think. Whenever I feel alone and lonely, I just tell myself “And then what?”, just to be reminded that being lonely is pointless. I also read that if you smile when you’re lonely, it somewhat brightens your mood, so I do that too.

[@rodolfopistelara9857]

IM NOT CRYING.... YOU’RE CRYING.... 🥺🥺🥺 Im on the same boat with you Travis. I’ve suffered from Major Depression fro a couple years now. You can’t just switch it off. It’s a constant battle. I love you tons ❤️❤️❤️ We’re all here for you. It always gets better.

[@ampedcrypto808]

I felt that your eyes were telling the story. Take the time to uncover the why driving the feelings. If its prolonged and reoccurring sometimes professional help and medicine are tools that help you get to a place of stability. What I appreciate is that there are varying levels of depression and sometimes we may not consider all the tools - thank you for sharing and for being open!

[@andrewspurgeon1]

You are loved! I deal with depression and anxiety so bad. Thank you for sharing this part of you

[@jjhall1963]

Great Video. I am Bipolar and I have been manic most of my life. These past few years the depressive aspect has been kicking in. It was very comforting to hear you guys talk about depression. Thanks

[@dimitryfarmer8125]

Thank you for opening up and saying how you are. We are all here like Mario to support you no matter what. I have mostly been good during Shelter in Place; I'm working from home so it is very busy and that is a good thing. But a couple health concerns and some uncertainty over the future of my job have given me times where I was down. Yes, I think it was just down. Fortunately, I do not think I have every been truly depressed.

[@nanzheng7022]

Hi, Travis, you can express any kind of feeling in your channel. I appreciate your realness and I'll always support you.

[@KBecnel]

Sorry to hear about your pain. It has been hard for many of us. I am a Holistic Psychotherapist and I see a level of difficulty that I have never seen before. For myself, connecting, meditating, and keeping moving has been essential for me. But it has not been easy. If there is anything I can do, let me know. Obviously you don't know me, but you've brought joy to me for years. Would love to give back. Thank you.

[@stunersnap12]

Its also been hard because the hole quarantine happened i was heart broken so depression hit hard ur guys video had really helped i truly not sure what would had happened if it was not for this video and ur other videos thank you both.you guys actually saved my life for the second time after cancers

[@williamtourot5601]

Took several attempts for me to get thru this vid. Have dealt w depression most of my life and recognise your every emotion thru this. Thank You for sharing your life with us.

[@johnbeadel]

You’re a hero Travis! Thank you for opening up about your depression. A lot of people struggle with this in silence and it’s great to talk about it. 👏👏

[@Basil3000]

Thank you for continuing to be honest and open about depression; it's not just as simple as getting over it. Sending you a ton of love Travis!

[@adriancrespo1575]

This is so sad I wish you the best Travis. I feel what your going through and sometimes ive even lost the motivation to eat. Were all going through this toghether and we will get over it 🧡

[@sofia133100]

Hello Travis, thank you for opening yourself up with us. Just as you and many people, I've been feeling depressed and I just had negative thoughts inside my head (to the point where I almost suffered from Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder). Life doesn't always bring us positive things, but that doesn't mean it's always going to be like that. Sometimes we need the darkness to notice the slight light we have actually in our lives. Sometimes we need to fall to remember for what we were standing before we fell... I'm only 21 and I've been through a lot, so I can't even picture the many things you have been through. I hope you feel well as soon as possible and as soon as the quarantine is over, remember and live as if there's no tomorrow. Quarantine teached me life can turn 180° (totally flip) in any moment and we ought to live life to the fullest. Take care, both of you

[@garygreely7782]

Thank you Travis for sharing what you are going through. It was good that you let your friends know what is going on. No one can be positive 24 hours a day and there are lots of people who are suffering from depression due to what is going on in our world. I realize that you stated that this has been ongoing and that you are afraid of talking about it. You never know who you might have helped by sharing what is going on with you. Take care of yourself.

[@chrisdancer22]

I feel for you, I've lived with depression my entire life. It is hard to get out of that pit, keep trying, that is all you can do. ❤️

[@albertyan3347]

I love and admire the honesty of this video. Not much people would admit that in a public forum. I also admire the bond and strength of your friendship with Mario. Much support and much love.

[@duh_vonne]

I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this, Travis. I’m glad you were able to reach out to someone for support and love and that you don’t have to go through it all alone. Sending you more love 💕 💕💕

[@duh_vonne]

And to answer the question about how I’ve been doing: when social isolation began, I was having a really hard time. I spoke to my then therapist I was still seeing at the time and she gave me great tips on specific things I could do to make it better for myself. Since that time, I’ve been fortunate enough to be doing much better. For the most part, I’ve been pretty happy. I’ve been quarantining with my mom so I’m not all alone and I have weekly virtual work meetings with colleagues from my department so we can stay connected. And I haven’t been feeling depressed like I was when I first started therapy which is a huge relief.

[@devinneely6302]

I was going through the same thing, but this "lockdown" opened my eyes to the darkness I repressed my entire life. Our whole life we're taught to repress who we are and deny our true nature to be what the "outer" world wants us to be. Over time we run further away from ourselves until we're completely lost. We fractured ourselves via social media to be that perfect selfie, to be that person over there with the perfect life, to be that "always" positive person with the perfect life, to be that loving person without condemnation...but at the end of the day we know it's an illusion. We failed and didn't address all the darkness we were taught to repress. That repression later becomes anxiety, envy, depression, etc. Holding that all in will drive a person mad and will drive them to do unspeakable things. It's truly amazing how addressing the problem(s) head on will liberate the inner light within you. At first, it is extremely scary...but you must remember that you're the master of your own mind and you must shape your own destiny. Personally, I realized that I needed to get real with myself and eventually lead me to let go of all my transgressions in the name of love. It's important to give thanks for the learning experience and move on. The darkness within us is a learning tool to find the light within us. From there, you'll gingerly find yourself and your true nature. I wish you all the best

[@beachboi83]

It's really sad to feel this way. I hope you overcome this depression and feel better Travis. Much love and big hugs for both of you :)

[@johnbaldwin9138]

Take care Travis, I am going through a depression right now. You are not alone. We all can get through this together❤️❤️

[@TheGav67]

To be honest... watching these videos of these two friends supporting each other through all sorts of situations... and ESPECIALLY when the conversation flow abruptly stops... are what I am really here for. Own the narrative. Support each other’s mental health. Always.

[@marklopez232]

Travis, Thank you for sharing this issue with everyone. I’m experiencing the same thing; out of the blue I just breakdown & get emotional. I’m going to try some of the tips you Mario shared in the video. Stay safe & keep strong!!!

[@joseph6753]

Bro you are such a genuine soul. Immediately subscribing. Much love 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼