depression sucks

I just haven't been okay for a while now and I couldn't pretend anymore.

[@marioadrion]

These times made me realize how much you mean to me! ❤️ Thanks for opening up and trusting us. We love you.

[@curvicurve]

Yes. Mario, its always a good thing to have a genuine support and connection with someone you can open up to an trust to help you through your darkest time. We all have our own struggles, being open and able to show that vunerability as a person is a step to growing. We support you travis ❤

[@gabriellopez96]

Mario, it's wonderful that you're just such a supportive friend! As someone who works in the mental health field I know the value of true friendship and support. I would just offer you a piece of advice. During the video there were times where you would interrupt Travis and bring the conversation back to experiences that you had and you were going through. It’s important to try to relate, but it’s even more important to let someone have their own moment. When listening we don’t always need to respond. Sometimes it’s important to just let people talk, and I think I would’ve liked to hear a little bit more from Travis in the video so that he could really express how he was feeling. I don’t say this with any sort of negative intention, I know that you’re trying to be a supportive friend. As someone who has been there for people through many mental health struggles and who has gone through mental health struggles myself, it’s so important to make space for people to talk I interrupted. Just something to be mindful of. Especially when you hear yourself using the phrase "Even for me" or "What I went through" ask yourself how often you're doing that and if that's taking away from his moment.

[@VanessaMwiza]

Gabriel Lopez these are gold words and I hope Mario can see this and understand constructively. I was thinking exactly this as I was watching the video.

[@adrianflores581]

YOU KNOW DAMN WELL YOU WANTED TO BUST OUT LAUGHING! Lmao jk I can tell you actually consider dude a friend, great support man.

[@rinmartell2678]

Let him talk the next time. This video is about him...not about you.

[@davincecool]

Mario is so amazing. That look in his eyes. "I'll take care of you, don't worry"

[@nateloy]

Maybe Travis should take a break from KZbin. I love his videos but his mental health is more important.

[@d.j.7069]

It's not KZbin that is the problem in my opinion. It's his deep and abiding love for Mario; unrequited in ways Travis needs desperately. Being completely and utterly in love with something or someone you can never have is a recipe for life-long anxiety and depression. Mario says, "I Iove you" to Travis, and even Travis doesn't fully understand how that jaggedly slices through his very soul. SAD!

[@Sociallybeast01]

Definitely don’t think KZbin is the root of his issues.

[@nateloy]

Eli neither do I but it probably adds stress

[@mplsmikey]

@@d.j.7069 I think you nailed it D.J.

[@dee9659]

@@d.j.7069 so true

[@thevillain4767]

I want someone to look at me the way Mario looks at Travis Edit: My little poor heart, this is so sweet, stay strong we love u both ❤️❤️

[@machrisomachriso2797]

Ooooooooh hell yeah i see those eyes lol

[@diegotroetsch6303]

@@machrisomachriso2797 IS THE PUREST THING .

[@machrisomachriso2797]

@@diegotroetsch6303 yes oooh ghosh its so beautiful i love in the end the way they look at each other its so pure indeed they are really wounderful

[@diegotroetsch6303]

@@machrisomachriso2797 yeah you can see how Travis looks at him looking for some sort of approval and he is just there steady as a rock for his friend, beautiful.

[@mingzheng7361]

no, u dont. it will hurt, there is someone you wanna love but u cant do it

[@kyrelblack]

Stay strong Travis. You’ve been battling this same issue for years. You can do this bro! 💪🏾

[@zienzosibiya7122]

Yah he has battled this before, um sure he will overcome it. i was hurt to see him crying xaa.

[@nkemani8372]

I’m so sorry about this Travis. I’m on the opposite end right now. After 2 and a half years of feeling a constant darkness and depression, since mid January there has been a calm on my mind that I honestly haven’t experienced in so long. School being a factor of my depression was ruled out this quarantine and I’ve been feeling better. I at times didn’t think things would get better but now I know that what people say about time healing can be true. I wish you the best. Both of you. ❤️

[@es5398]

You are pretty ❤️

[@ikerspindola1859]

Nkem Ani I don’t know you, but reading that statement put a smile on my face, hope you’re feeling so fucking good! ✨✨❤️❤️

[@christianjoyner8979]

Same

[@abhinavabhinav2640]

Same here

[@noahbovenizer8347]

The people saying that Mario was speaking too much would also complain if he'd stayed quiet. Perhaps just let people deal with their own lives. I'm sure Travis is intelligent enough to know if Mario is good for him or not.

[@dsoules4749]

This quarantine is taking a toll on everyone but it’s so easy to fall into a negative headspace. You don’t have to force positivity it helps to address the depression and process it and give it a name and work through it don’t feel obligated to post or put up a front for anyone! You got this 💙

[@eden-field]

There are soo many ways we can distract ourselves in 2020, ...until now of course that is. Down time helps us to put all things in better perspective. Believe me I have. Hard that this is of course,. It's none the less positive in some ways to help things to make sense again. This used to be what vacations were for! There's empathy inside every human soul and what an example this guy is to us all! Look into his eyes... the windows of his soul and look into his heart! Thank you Travis, you are super important! Just keep on going on, you'll be ok :)

[@JL-re1rx]

A good friend of mine taught me the distinction between going thru “a low” and being “depressed.” It’s been helpful, hope his words of sis are for others reading them here. One day at a time. Some days are better than others. “Boredom is the the fruit of too much routine, or lack of it.” “Enjoy Life!” - last chapter page heading of a a Harvard “Let’s Go” travel book.

[@Shadow2pointO]

I'm fine with quarantine. It's what I always wanted.

[@propermthethwa2113]

Guys when he cried..... I'm so hurt by this... It's so sad sieng him cry

[@user-gm4lt3je1g]

Me too😭

[@dodger712]

Travis, you and Mario are two lights in many people’s worlds. As someone who lives with depression I send you love and healing vibes. Your being willing so share this means much. Know that you WILL climb out of this darkness soon and that there are legions of fans who support you on your bad days as well as good ones. 🧸🎈💖 BIG hug for you both.

[@aloevera1269]

1:28 I agree!!!! I have always wanted to help my friends but idk how exactly I'm supposed to help😔 PS: stay strong Travis! We love you💞 please stay strong. It broke my heart seeing you cry.

[@scott1747]

The way you look at each other when you talk melts my heart amazing friendship. Lots of love to you both ♥️

[@sanziomike6782]

scott1747 Yeah! I love the way Mário looks at Travis. ❤️

[@harryfontenot2240]

Been following for almost 6 years...seen your ups and downs. What keeps me watching is your honesty. No matter how hard it is to show this side of yourself you know it will help someone else struggling...that's so amazing to me. Love and happiness to you, Travis!

[@citrushealer43s39]

Thank you so much for this video Travis. My husband has been in a deep depression since he lost his father last May. Next week will be one year. I have been trying to help him but I’m going to make him watch this because hearing this from a person also battling depression may help him move into the right direction. We had an appointment set up to discuss therapy with our doctor but it was postponed due to quarantine. Thanks for your honesty. I’m so grateful. Sending love. Stay strong.

[@monicahansen4156]

Depression is a hard place to be. My depression has made me physically incurably sick and almost took the life of my daughter. But thank God there is a way out if you are strong enough to ask for help and if you watch videos like this. Thank you Travis, huge hug 🤗🥰

[@heatonhaus3073]

Thank you for sharing and for this honesty Travis ..I have been struggling during quarantine with not depression, but with my anxiety. It's hard to deal with and I also find myself putting on an act and "pretending" to be fine. Sending you all of my positive thoughts and love friend.

[@cutestgayboy]

Thank you so much for being so human, your video broke me down in tears as i had also a very hard time the last 2 months, you will be in my prayers and I hope all your vulnerable sides are going to make you stronger than you think you are.

[@derekclifford610]

I love you Travis. I have been following you through different incarnations of your channels and life changes. You are so well spoken and truly communicate and connect with your audience. I feel you and I understand. Its such an individual situation and I have been there in very deep and very dark times. I am so grateful for your honesty and proving that it is okay to not be okay. Much Love

[@diegotroetsch6303]

He is probably not going to read, but thank you Travis, I'm going through.. I won't say the same but have been feeling terrible lately, not in my country away from all family and seeing you dealing with this really makes me feel like there is at least someone on earth that doesn';t care to show how is it all going, there is this pressure for you to be happy all the times, but sometimes there is also the pressure of seeing so many youtubers being so happy all the time that If I don't manage to be like this I also start to question myself for not being as happy as everyone in youtube.. anyways thank you, you really snapped me out of a crisis with this video.

[@danielnikolao9414]

The moment he started crying, I couldn’t hold back myself 😭😭😭😭😭❤️ so much love for you Travis and nothing but love for you xoxo trust me, your gonna make it through ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@jpd464]

These are the most genuine heartfelt guys I think I've ever had the pleasure to witness. Sending high thoughts and blessings to you both.

[@dougc6101]

You are loved Travis! Keep your head up! You are so amazing. 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@bwill83]

Thank you for being so brave to tell your story. Being someone that suffers from PTSD and depression it’s always nice to know that we’re not alone going through this. Where this lockdown for so many has intensified there depression it has actually helped somewhat with my PTSD. I have my issues with depression but have found them much more manageable being able to be home and really focus on myself for once. I am a truck driver so I haven’t been off the road more than a week in 7 years so I’m actually getting the chance to enjoy what I’ve been working so hard for. I hope for everyone we get back to a resemblance of what we had for normality before but I am also hoping it has helped people be more self aware and kind to each other.

[@johnsloan4987]

I have never cried so much as watching this. It so resonates, far too many changes in my life to quickly for a while. Thank you so much for talking openly and honestly. You’re helping others and I hope that helps you too. When you battle depression it just keeps creeping up into life over and over. You’re a gem Mario!

[@Rainwolff]

You are an amazing man ... both of you are ... I have also been feeling the stress of everything ... I am very sensitive to emotions around me and being a healer and Counsellor too I tend to put my needs on the back burner and help others first ... being locked away in my own space however without the distraction of others has forced me to face the nightmares within myself too ... when our lockdown started I was sending motivational messages etc out to some whatsapp groups and some of my students but the last few days I haven’t done anything because I just can’t ... I hear you ... and seeing you struggling helps me realize I am not alone ... thanks to the video and your honesty I am going to try again in the morning let’s see how it goes. Never forget how amazing you are and that there are people all over the world that love and respect you... hugs and kisses from South Africa ... Kevin xx

[@damarcusjohnson1362]

I am glad you being honest and you don't know this but you are helping so many people that's feeling the same way you are feeling but I hope you come out of it and find happiness, peace, joy So thank you for letting us know how you been feeling so once again thank you ♥️🥰

[@michaelclarke549]

...a very moving video and much respect to you and Mario for sharing something so deeply personal. I also found it helpful, as I have in isolation/shielding for 8 weeks now and haven't seen a soul apart from the delivery guys. Warm Wishes from the UK...

[@kalebfaught8243]

This just became my new favorite video from you. I've been battling with depression most of my life as well. It hasn't been easy. One of the ways I've been fighting it has been keeping myself around people who get it and help me cope.

[@immanueljacobs6256]

Love you guys!!!Can also relate Travis the worst is when people think it's just a act.Just because they don't experience it.Love that you guys make people aware about how serious it is.🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@danielhenke2031]

been feeling it as well...serendipity that this popped into my feed today...needed to hear this and confront my own feelings...much luv and support ur way and thank you! :)

[@alissaharder]

This is why we need more friendships like you guys have.

[@marklopez232]

Travis, Thank you for sharing this issue with everyone. I’m experiencing the same thing; out of the blue I just breakdown & get emotional. I’m going to try some of the tips you Mario shared in the video. Stay safe & keep strong!!!

[@desireemossberger6341]

Travis, thanks for posting this video instead of something fun and entertaining. I appreciate your realness and vulnerability. Everyone is struggling right now due to the quarantine. I don’t know if what you’re feeling is due to that, or something else, but I hope you know you are not alone in feeling your depression. ♥️😘 I’m a mental health counselor and I also have been battling with depression and anxiety for several years due to life and relationship stressors, and been taking medication. Now since the quarantine, I have been working from home for the first time ever, but I’m struggling to manage my time and separate work from personal life. 😳 So, I decided to go back to the office 2-3 days per week.

[@samiam5189]

Thank you for sharing! I feel the same way about how you work on yourself! I have so much appreciation that you stuck through it! Time to time triggers and moments brings depression back into life. I acknowledge my depression check in myself. I am honestly okay! Get up girl, make my bed and get to the next moment! Today is my birthday! Spread love and smile! Take care, stay strong and together strong!

[@MrBasket1028]

Love you Travis. Been feeling this way for awhile now too and I don’t think it’s a coincidence that this showed up for me and the fact that this was posted on my bday

[@lyraadeleriddle6659]

Mario and Travis are both so relatable. At the minute I can't see the person that keeps me stable. Quarantine is definitely taking its toll. Although both Travis and Mario have both been through there own personal "hells", they're still going and still there for each other. There are days where I don't see a point in getting up, and on some days, I don't but seeing them both still going shows me that it can be done. Stick together and look out for each other as always and we will see you at the end of the tunnel. Love you guys ❤❤

[@geamin73]

Thank you for both your openness, means so much given the current situation, be the fabulous self that you guys are and know good times are round the corner!

[@brandonengland2676]

Love you buddy!! You are amazing and will get through this! Always love your honesty it is refreshing! Reach out if you need help, or feel yourself going down a rabbit hole. ❤️

[@destanmilandris3651]

Thank you for this amazing video travis, I am going through the same thing and this really made me feel good.

[@duh_vonne]

I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this, Travis. I’m glad you were able to reach out to someone for support and love and that you don’t have to go through it all alone. Sending you more love 💕 💕💕

[@duh_vonne]

And to answer the question about how I’ve been doing: when social isolation began, I was having a really hard time. I spoke to my then therapist I was still seeing at the time and she gave me great tips on specific things I could do to make it better for myself. Since that time, I’ve been fortunate enough to be doing much better. For the most part, I’ve been pretty happy. I’ve been quarantining with my mom so I’m not all alone and I have weekly virtual work meetings with colleagues from my department so we can stay connected. And I haven’t been feeling depressed like I was when I first started therapy which is a huge relief.

[@adriancrespo1575]

This is so sad I wish you the best Travis. I feel what your going through and sometimes ive even lost the motivation to eat. Were all going through this toghether and we will get over it 🧡

[@maximfanta8709]

You have all my support, thank you for being real and showing courage ❤️

[@SuperWeatherdude]

Travis I am so glad you are open about yourself to us because it truly takes a lot of courage to be open with your vulnerability to share with the entire world. Sharing your honesty and truth really resonates with a man like me who is very in touch with his emotions and experiences true depression. I am also so glad you have a superb and supportive friend in Mario because finding people like that in this big world are few and far between. This will remind men going through similar struggles, or perhaps enlighten men who know friends that are, that it all is completely normal for a guy to experience and not demeaning as a man to admit. That is what I want for more people in this world to realize and having people like you Travis are an important asset to bringing more awareness to that cause because I am a big mental health advocate. Talking from my perspective, I really admire a man, any man, who is open with his emotions. I think it is so courageous because unfortunately a lot of men are taught from an early age that it is discouraged to show emotion, even in the most extreme of circumstances. While physical health is highly important no matter what, I think it is just as important to place the same value on your mental and emotional health because I believe those three elements are what encompasses your well being. Even to add a fourth, depending on your beliefs, at least for me is recognizing your spiritual health as well which for me is Christianity and evaluate your relationship with God (I am a gay Christian). Once more men are taught to make all these elements as equal priorities, hopefully it will improve their quality of life and not discourage them from going to ask for help or a friend to talk with when they need it the most. No man should ever be kicked when their already down in the name of societal stereotypes, stigmas, and standards that bear no relevancy or usefulness.

[@teddysolomon8623]

Thank you for sharing and describing your depression. I totally relate and it makes me feel like I'm not the only one feeling like that

[@raydavis8187]

You got this Travis! I deal with the same thing and thank you for being honest and open about what you’re going through.

[@shawnnix4602]

Thanks for sharing man. I don't normally get depressed myself but I live alone an being alone 24/7 for over 2 months straight is getting old very quick. I hope you feel better an remember there are people out here that care about you as well.

[@daylonmitchell6033]

Thank you for sharing some of your struggled with us. I know it’s not easy being vulnerable. I’m glad you have a good friend like Mario in your life.

[@DAPortalatin]

Also, just wanted to say that this was a really good video as well and gets the conversation started! This is the stuff that no one talks about and I am ok with you not always doing a happy/or funny video...we are all human and should be so! On top of that, you are definitely in good hands and have a down as f, cool ass, real friend in Mario...to be that honest as well and to be able to share that with someone with no judgment... is a really beautiful thing!!! Love ya!!!

[@peterduong3499]

Thanks for your honesty and bravery in showing your struggles with depression. It helps when you know that you're not alone. Travis, you're not alone. Sending love and good thoughts your way.

[@KylaPhelps]

Hey Travis. I thought I should comment. Ive been in a very dark depression for a few months too. Also paired with trying new meds that have somehow made things worse. Im so glad that you have someone close to you that is there for you. Because its super important. Keep trying Trav. You are a magnificent creator and I just hope you know that you arent alone and you being so open about it is probably helping a lot of people like me going through a similar circumstance. Stay strong, keep hope.

[@fadyalhachem]

Oooh stay strong !! If you ever need to talk, you can reach me on my ig @fadym :)

[@kleinbach826]

Very touching. I appreciate your honesty. I have been having some meltdowns lately and it makes me feel better that I am not the only person feeling down at times. I wish I had a good friend like Mario to talk to! You two are awesome! Hang in there, I am sending you a hug!

[@joseph6753]

Bro you are such a genuine soul. Immediately subscribing. Much love 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@tylerwalton3333]

Thanks so much for sharing your struggle. Depression sucks, and I've had long periods of darkness. Glad you have a friend to help get you through some of it.

[@nelcam20]

Bendito Travis!!.. Just know that we all love appreciate you!.. Thank You so much for talking about such a very important issue especially in these trying times!.. Also really appreciate all the good advise!! You and Mario are the best!

[@abbielopez98]

Stay strong Travis. I've been battling depression and anxiety since I can remember and since all this shit it's only gotten worse but you are strong and you can do this. Love you 💙 I need routine in order to be some what good. I knew where I had to be. What I had to do and that can't happen anymore so being alone with your thoughts can be daunting.

[@donellajames9261]

Mario you are an awesome human. Very few people who have not experienced depression take the time to try and understand and support those who suffer. You are a true friend 🥰 Travis, I am currently going through a bit of a dark place due to lockdown and everything you and mario have just said has helped me today. Thank you so much boys, you are so lucky to have each other xxx

[@drewbenefield2001]

Travis, I’m so sorry🥺 I know exactly how you feel. I have Depression and anxiety since I was 19 I’m 38 now. Is there anything I can do? KZbin Community is here for you. So glad you have Mario! Love you!

[@samprimera5545]

I think it is so great youve had it half your life and yet you are so ready to help someone else.

[@mhaynes22]

You guys have developed a lovely friendship... I admire the two of you, you can both talk openly about everything... lot’s of love x

[@czenniebagel]

my heart breaks when Travis start crying 😭 I just want to say you’re not alone I had been there everybody had been there so stay strong and take a moment to relax your mind and think about happy things ❤️

[@andrewspurgeon2000]

You are loved! I deal with depression and anxiety so bad. Thank you for sharing this part of you

[@avg2411]

So sorry to read this. Its good to open up. I wish you all the strenght of the world!! And a BIG hug from Holland.😊

[@princecharles4724]

Travis your going to pull through the dark times I promise stay strong this is a battle you will win!!

[@ringo2995]

I love you Travis. You are an inspiration, and who and what you are works.

[@queenbutterfly7519]

All love for you both. It's ok not to be ok. Better days lie ahead. So glad you have each other to lean on. Love y'all

[@dwaynebaker9793]

We luv you Travis. Thank you for sharing something that so many people battle at times. And, for being honest and transparent. I have a lot more respect for Mario now, seeing how he’s been handling and trying to help in the situation. God’s watching out over you. 💙

[@ChazChristopher]

I understand where you’re coming from Travis. I know there’s nothing I can say to make the depression go away. All I can say is that many of us are in the same boat; and appreciate your honesty about it.

[@Julia-nh9nw]

When Travis started crying it just hit me and I started crying too Thank you for being so open about this topic! It's so important for people who suffer from depression to know that there's other people going through the same thing. It really helps and makes one feel less alone We can all get through this together❤

[@garysmothers9424]

Thank you Travis on what you're going through and your honesty about Depression. I have had Depression since I was 23 years old and over the years I have got slowly worse to the point where threatened suicide and committed to behavioral health for a week. Please keep us informed of your progress and my prayers are with you Brother. Each day is a struggle but you and I and others with Depression will get through this.

[@jessicammcmahon]

Hi Travis I was really touched by your video. Like you self harm, suicide and depression has been part of my life for a long time. Like you I grew up with a family that did not talk about their feelings. Mental health was something that brought shame on my family it was nothing I was allowed talk about inside or outside the home for fear of others finding out. The phrase “just get over it” was commonly used. This led to me becoming very introverted and any attempts in getting help would fail due to the pressures my family would put on me. Even now as an adult I find when I’m depressed not knowing how to talk to others and often feeling that same pressure I felt in my childhood to act “”Normal”” in front of everyone else even though I was dying inside. However the more I tried to suppress it the more these dark feelings would consume me. Often leading to me isolating myself not wanting to spoil things for everyone else. I think it’s important for you and I to remember that our feelings matter to other people. But also that we are stronger than we think as we have survived so much so far in our lives. That we can use that strength and determination to get us through these dark spells. You for example are so talented in everything from your acting, modeling, directing. You have such a creative mind. Plus you are a great friend to those you care about. You even make your viewers on KZbin or wherever else feel loved and supported like we are part of a greater family. My parting words would be just that it’s okay not to be okay!! With all my love 😘😘

[@DAPortalatin]

Thank you for sharing this Travis and I'm sorry you are feeling like this. Just know that you are not alone and that you definitely make a difference in my life and so many others just by being present/visible on youtube/social media in general!...I feel like this and have felt like this for a long time too. Specifically, I have severe depression/anxiety that I have dealt with/continue to deal with. I 'm not sure if this is how you are as well...? It's one of those things that I don't really share with anyone like you and I always try to show/share the happy version of myself with everyone. Anyways, just know that you make a difference and you have a purpose/don't compare yourself to others is what I have learned over time. I will probably never get to meet you in person but you have been like a friend in my head for several years now and I would give you a big hug if I could! The gay friend/s that I wish I could have had growing up and ya, you are awesome, hilarious, and very talented and I continue to be inspired by you and look forward to your content...so just know you have definitely made and continue to make a difference in my life as I tend to be an introvert and still struggling with my own internal battle. I always feel like I have a community of people out there going through a similar life experience and it is really awesome what you, Mario, Tyler Oakley, Miles Jay, Mathew Lush, Mamrie Hart, and so many other influencers like yourself do and continue to do for our community. Just ten years ago, I never thought that this would be possible on KZbin/in general on any social media platform but then slowly over the last decade many gay youtubers started to come out publicly such as Joey Graceffa and it has made the world of difference in so many peoples lives like myself, and hopefully will continue to get even better and better! So, thank you Travis and Mario and I hope you keep doing you/keep your head up my online friend/s!!! Love ya!!!

[@stunersnap12]

Its also been hard because the hole quarantine happened i was heart broken so depression hit hard ur guys video had really helped i truly not sure what would had happened if it was not for this video and ur other videos thank you both.you guys actually saved my life for the second time after cancers

[@chrisdancer22]

I feel for you, I've lived with depression my entire life. It is hard to get out of that pit, keep trying, that is all you can do. ❤️

[@ampedcrypto808]

I felt that your eyes were telling the story. Take the time to uncover the why driving the feelings. If its prolonged and reoccurring sometimes professional help and medicine are tools that help you get to a place of stability. What I appreciate is that there are varying levels of depression and sometimes we may not consider all the tools - thank you for sharing and for being open!

[@Kupcakepa]

We love you and you are not alone in this battle. Even those that are more positive are having issues with this whole quarantine situation. Stay strong and remember we love you!!!

[@johnbeadel]

You’re a hero Travis! Thank you for opening up about your depression. A lot of people struggle with this in silence and it’s great to talk about it. 👏👏

[@steverdms]

Been right there with you guys. Thanks so much for sharing.

[@beachboi83]

It's really sad to feel this way. I hope you overcome this depression and feel better Travis. Much love and big hugs for both of you :)

[@TR-ff2pl]

Love you Travis *

[@familyvideos8703]

This is one of your best videos. Thank you both for showing us something real.

[@rahvp]

Hi Travis. Can I just say I feel your pain and respect you so much for being open and unashamed about what you’re feeling. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder several years ago and have spent the years since then working on my wellness. Like you, I spent my entire life projecting something on the outside that was nothing like I was feeling inside. Those of us who feel things deeply...who just seem to be wired that way....struggle with trying hard to be acceptable to others because if they knew what we were really feeling inside, they’d leave and we would be alone. That was always my fear...until I started a life of recovery and understood that all the faking and pretending I’d been doing all my life was keeping me from the support I was afraid to reach out for. Isolation blocks the love people want to give us...withdrawing from others, that is. I work in mental health now using my lived experience and the things I’ve learned through my own struggles to be there for others who are having struggles of their own. No one can understand like someone who’s been through the same things. Please know that it does get better and your reaching out for support is the first and best step in taking care of your own mental health. I wish I could give you a big hug and share my story with you so you’d know that recovery is possible. Because I’m nothing special and if I can do it...anybody can. Hang in there and keep being the awesome caring guy you are. And know that help is out there if we just reach out for it and accept it. Thanks for using your voice to reduce the stigma against mental illness that keeps people from seeking the help they need. It’s important what you’re doing and I have mad respect for you. Hang in there....this too shall pass. 😘

[@hd86star]

Travis thank you for being vulnerable in this video. I can more than relate. I have not been doing great either. I am grateful that you have a support system in Mario to help you cope. I don't always feel like I have that in my life. I usually keep this struggle to myself because I often feel like my friends and family don't understand what I am going through. Hearing comments like "shake it off" or "you don't pray enough" do nothing but drain me even more than I already am. I will take your advice and try to put a routine together cuz I do acknowledge that I am at my best when I am able to occupy myself. I just want you to know that I discovered your channel at a time when I was at my lowest and will continue to follow you because I gain inspiration to continue another day cuz I see that you are able to do it. You are great man, we love you **hugs**

[@lozadahe]

Thank you for sharing, Travis. Sending you good energy

[@dudleyhall5217]

Hi Travis, I really enjoy watching your KZbin videos as well as those you do with Mario. You guys are so good together. My thoughts & prayers are with you during this pandemic. You’ve helped me and so many through your videos. So, it’s our time to send strong positive vibes your way. Just know your viewers love you and wish nothing but the best for you. Hope to see & hear you again soon.

[@Kayla-bd6ez]

Omg I'm so sorry sweetie your too nice to cry and just know that people are here to support you through everything. Much love. 😥😥❤❤

[@williampolk9782]

A good friend that can see thru to your soul and can tell what's really going on is probably the best support a person can have. Stay strong, stay safe 👍😀

[@robertlandon8006]

Thank you Mario and Travis for your video I look forward to them , And as far as depression you give excellent advice I really appreciate the advice and I thank you very much for sharing your experiences Travis I hope you feel better

[@mplsmikey]

Love your honesty! I also struggle with depression but you and Mario warm my heart!

[@noahfrancisca852]

I'm glad that you talk about this with full honesty with us. Suppressing the way you feel is never a good thing. You are super lucky with Mario on your side we all need a friend like that, also know that there are alot of other friend out there that want the best for you. Love from the Netherlands!

[@stevefreedman470]

Sweetheart.....I am so sorry that you are experiencing this as I suffer sometimes as well. It's life in general for me that makes me feel not wanted and unloved but always find a moment where I am so positive. With the help of my therapist (and meds) I am able to talk each week to a professional who makes suggestions and gives me "positive reinforcement" that I wouldn't get anywhere else. Dealing with this Covid-19 stuff does not help matters as well....I also remember a therapist telling me, when I feel depressed and don't know where to turn just make sure you are in some kind of light. Dark rooms, shaded areas can increase your depression...always stay in some kind of light and that should help. What a blessing Mario is for you honey and I am so glad you both have each other...I have said that many times....he is your angel through all what you're going through. We ALL love you Travis and want to help you in any way we can. How can we do that for you? Take things one day at a time, one minute at a time and be good to yourself...you deserve all the positive things in your life honey and in this video you were sitting next to that one positive person, your Mario...love you both so much! Mama Steve👌😊❤👍🏿🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎶🎵🎶🎵

[@oceanwonders]

Your willingness to be real with the audience is one of the main reasons I'm subscribed to your life. It is so appreciated and I'm sure it makes your younger viewers feel less alone / like freaks. And, I understand wanting to process privately. Thank you for sharing.

[@jadkins001]

I love you Travis!!!! You are amazing, you are talented, you are beautiful, you are valued, you are gifted, you are smart, you are witty, you are caring, you are special, you are hope, you are inspiration and TRAVIS YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS!!!! XOXO

[@offcore]

You are both great. Seeing support each other and just being open was nice to see. It is okay to feel whatever you are feeling, quarantine is making us all face realities. All the best ✌✌✌🇬🇧

[@ericlanson8426]

Been thinking about you. Not surprised by this video. We can usually tell, Travis, when you're not ok. Glad you have someone to lean on even though you usually have to find your own way through it. Love to you xo

[@ReaLani_Create]

Travis I get what your going through depression is like a battle your trying to win, but having great friends and ppl who love you helps a lot ❤❤🌹

[@jiholl0306]

Travis...Being honest with yourself is one of the best things you can do...and you have done that so well! And sharing and talking openly is enormously helpful. You will be fine...you are a very strong soul. Having a friend like Mario is rare and a key to your health and happiness!

[@michaelbiggs4313]

I am 100% supportive of what you are saying up to a point. When you mentioned we should be making our beds I thought that is just crazy talk. I hate making my bed with or without Depression, but you do you. Helping other people is the best thing for me when I have Depression. Thanks for doing this video. It will help people understand they are not alone.

[@darrylb9872]

It really takes courage to speak openly about our hidden struggles and weaknesses. I applaud you, Travis, for finding the fortitude to share . Hopefully this will help someone else to 'reach out' too. When we open up and shine a light, we take away the power of those things that would destroy us.

[@josecabaltera1625]

this videos message is crucial and timely, Trav. Thank you for being vulnerable, being real and showing it to your audience. It is why I like you, follow you and consume your content.

[@21grvms]

Thank you for sharing your emotions. I totally understand how you feel. I can clearly see it it your face and eyes. I was in this state too for years and got out of it. But recent situation in the world makes me i falls back back into this dark deep depression again :(

[@nathanvue8356]

Sending you much love Travis💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 you are one of the strongest people i have ever seen. You can get through this. Keep your head up and just go day by day