Don't Bleach Your Hair Four Times 😭 Hay Textured Hair 😱 p.s. I'm blonde (for now)

Finally my hair bleaching hair dying video 😱😱 bleaching my hair four times 😭😭😭 my hair turned into hay texture and it's really frizzy and crazy T T Should I do a review of hair repairs ??
Of course always go to a professional for bleaching or dying your hair!!!! My mom has been doing hair for many many years so we decided to do this at home to allow me to film it all for you ! I've bought the hair treatment and will be doing it right away to repair my hair but def don't try this on your own !!
Well if you can't tell I'm blonde lol it's kind of weird doing a black to blonde hair transformation haha I'm not used to having my whole head a diff color and I keep forgetting I'm blonde I kind of miss my black hair but I think this is fun too.
I think I'll love it even more after I dye it a fun color :D Let me know what you think of the blonde and what color you think would suit me XD
I'll stay blonde just for a little bit to let my hair breathe a little because four rounds of bleach is kind of killing my hair lol so I'll do a separate dying hair video some weeks later !!!
Thank you for watching as always ! Luvluvluvluv yuu
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[@NameePark]

Products I used: Goldwell Oxycur Platin Lightening Powder goo.gl/FQkgFY Goldwell Topchic Lotion 20 Volume Developer goo.gl/YU3LLj Goldwell Topchic Lotion 40 Volume Developer goo.gl/LVNWQq Shimmer Lights Purple Shampoo goo.gl/bXHp4A (Better Purple Shampoo) goo.gl/2n5mjN Goldwell 10BS Toner goo.gl/PNfXgG What do you think of the blonde? > < currently going wild with treatments 😂 Check out the video I cut my own hair! kzbin.info/www/bejne/jmmnpHuDebd_gck Always remember to go to a professional !!! My mother has been in the industry for over 40 years but we decided to do it at home because I didn’t want to have to take lights and film at the salon XD It is possible to bleach four times but it must be done with a bond repairing product mixed in. I didn’t use it because it was really expensive at the time but it got quite damaged so I’ve purchased it and will apply it right away! Let me know if you want to see a review for something like Olaplex damage repair bond protector! More than my hair being damaged, when I was upset in the video, I was more upset because my mom didn’t tell me anything and just did the fourth round all over when I was just thinking she was going over some previous blotches u_u it was more of a frustration of our miscommunication (or lack of) and misunderstandings that made me really upset u_u even though I was already platinum blonde after the third round, she wanted to even out blotchiness with a quick fourth round but didn’t tell me anything and the miscommunication and misunderstanding between both of us was frustrating XD Also I want to mention when I said bald white eagle, I didn’t intend to say something bad towards being bald, because I think bald is really beautiful ! I was more referring to the fear of my hair snapping and looking a little more like a mad scientist with burnt hair shafts 😭😭 I’m sure my hair will be better after I put the repair on 😭😭😭 Anyways hope you enjoyed this one and look forward to my attempt to dye my whole head by myself in some weeks 😱 Please know some links are affiliate based and at no extra cost to you, we would get a small portion to help support the channel through these links. Thank you always for taking your time to watch our videos !

[@abstinenceofwords]

I felt bad for your mom when you started getting upset at her. :(

[@JoriGilkey]

NamiiCho oliplex is amazing I used it when went white. It helped a lot! がんばって！

[@MariannaLovesMusic]

NamiiCho Ok take a breath and don't get sad . It's natural for ur hair to be damaged into an extend... personally 4 times of bleaching (always personally ) is very bad . It's a big mistake ! I did it only once and then tone lots of toning. Now it's not damaged to an extent that you will lose your hair . It's not the point of no return:) SO!!!!Now it's time to do many masks and treatment for ur hair to get back to healthy hair asap. 3times a week . As for the rest of the video I really felt so happy when you and your mom had such a nice time together ,bonding time saying I love you and playing around ! I felt very happy for you :) Ps the kids where like (excuse me who are you woman ?😂😂😂😂😂😂 Its so funny when moms change sth so simple like hair the kids get so confused ! So funny and cute !

[@babychoi_jae9157]

You look great!! Tbh i love it. I was bleaching my hair but not all of my hair, but yes i was worry about my hair bcz the hair couldn't dry fast and sometimes i saw my hair felt down, tbh worried what if i gonna bald, lmao. But no no, we can fix it with give some vitamins, toner, or else. Namiiiiii you are so beautiful! Aye! Love ya ❤

[@manlikemuny6612]

Olaplex is amazing, my hairdresser used it on my hair when I had my hair bleached for the first time 3 weeks ago. I was so scared but because of the oplex my hair was surprisingly so so soft with minimal damage.. I was like what kind of trickery and magic is this🤔😍😍😍 then she dyed it pink and the whole process took 6 hours

[@personified3500]

"is there any value in being like this?" Words that made me reevaluate my whole attitude towards certain life situations.

[@beccashelton11]

Omg Yessssss.. I love that phrase!

[@ruki4585]

Yeah

[@KimMala-xk4ll]

Omg me too! I lost time from the moment I heard her say that!

[@ADazzledDazzle]

you and your mom laughing together made me so happy

[@orcas12]

“Is there any value in being like this” damn your mom shut you down

[@trish1444]

When your mom was washing your hair, that moment was so precious! 😩

[@kawaiilombax]

I love how Asian partners are always like “why r u crying, stop, it’s pointless.” 😂😂😂

[@mclynnepatacsil]

Katelin why not

[@allstr8peopledeservetodie10]

@@mclynnepatacsil what

[@sk-gi1kl]

I am Asian my mom says it literally everyday💀

[@cristibunny829]

I thought she was like 16-17

[@kitteneyes1160]

Cristi Bunny how old she is?

[@raantaaro]

kitten eyes she's like, 22-23

[@girliedefensor0506]

i thought so too!!!

[@nikkiarch1828]

Me too

[@biba3025]

@@raantaaro i tought she was in her 20s. She doesnt look that young too me (16). ☺

[@cami-bi7zt]

nami:never bleach your own hair me: *bleaching my own hair*

[@larissam.2299]

I literally lol to that!!!

[@taetaeislifeu895]

Me rn lol

[@raantaaro]

I liked the orange-brown colour after one bleach

[@okanaganblonde4095]

A to the G to the U to the S-Tae-D Right? It looks like that natural ginger my hair dresses could never give me. That’s a happy accident.

[@madelyngrullon6264]

A to the G to the U to the S-Tae-D so do I.

[@maya8497]

eyyy army :)

[@prettyycookiee4630]

Yes army 😂

[@GiovanaSimmer]

Yes. That was a nice redhead color.

[@arielguerrero2906]

Girl, you are so blessed to have the family that you do. When your mother was rinsing your head and you both were joking around and laughing I thought, "Wow, what a great memory they'll have to look back on." What a beautiful bond. Your husband is so supportive and sweet. I know how you feel abt the bleaching bc I've damaged my hair to the point of it feeling stringy and snapping when wet. At this point, all you can do is give it time to bounce back. Coconut Oil and hot oil treatments are my best friend. Soon you'll be able to look back at this memory and laugh about it. 😊

[@hebbspark724]

Hi Ariel! Thank you for watching & leaving a kind comment! We'll look back years later and be filled with nostalgia, lol. Take care, Hebbs

[@lesleycaradelossantos112]

I actually started crying at that part hahahaha it was very sweet and for a moment I felt so jealous

[@ruthbatt9029]

I like it it looks nice on you 🙂

[@bunny1114]

You should try a peach color. You'd look so cute in any color though

[@ToriUptown]

this was hilarious lol i Love when moms do their adult daughters hair. my mom still does my hair sometimes, she actually cut it all off for me when i went platinum blonde once lol ... "is there any value in being like this" LMAO wow

[@MexicanaEnElReinoUnido]

My mom does mine and I think Im so annoying to her because I complain a lot hahahaha poor her :(

[@mariahgutierrez4481]

I'm 24 and my mom still takes it upon herself to curl and cut my hair sometimes. She can't stand seeing split ends on my bleached hair so she'll curl it to make it look healthier

[@SM-fy2im]

My mom just trimmed my hair for me, she’s the only one I trust with my haircuts

[@famousamos]

I'm watching this and I wish I could change my hair color...

[@NameePark]

+WOOJONG do it !!!!!!!

[@jasoon2343]

You can ! A change is always good

[@VaishnaviRaghavajosyula]

WOOJONG I

[@belle5185]

Woojong with the Word you should definitely try!!! I’ve been wanting to try a blondish/silver color or even a light brown for a while but due to my Asian coarse dark hair no one has been willing to do it. At this point I am wondering if I should even try to go through with anything of the such but I wish you the best of luck!

[@struggle9394]

me too

[@erikaserika]

At least the color itself looks bomb on you Nami!

[@NameePark]

+Shaina Erika aw thank you shaina T T

[@ramennoodles7467]

The hair breaking off is my *nightmare* !! But it looks cuute. If you ever get tired, i feel like pastels will look good on you! The artsy makeup you do, especially the glitter freckles will look ADORABLE with pastel hair. Anyways, i heard the Bumble and Bumble overnight repair hair mask is good for fluffy bleached hair :)

[@anthonyfox585]

dang 4 rounds of bleach with 40 volume developer in just a few days? im surprised that your hair is still as healthy as it is!

[@badguy252]

Excuse me If I bleaching my black hair 4 or 5 times I'll have a white hair ??

[@saunatonttu9658]

vivo pls you will be bald

[@skrunklycreationz]

I’m so scared to bleach my hair a fourth time (bleached it twice a month ago) cause I’d be using box bleach, so idk how she does it

[@Ella-fr9nq]

It depends on the hair type and quality. Please don't try this, especially If you have very fine/thin hair. Your hair could literally fall out!

[@kissxokissxokill251]

She used 20, which is what her links say.

[@mirela3308]

Sis you look sooo stunning as a blonde but the damage made me cry in the club 😭😭😭

[@btsbigbangfan7046]

OH MY FREAKING GOSH YOU LOOK ABSOLUTELY AMAZING WITH THAT HAIR COLOR WOW

[@itzme_ra6400]

SHE IS BEAUTIFUL

[@saltyrizzy2125]

❤❤

[@btsbigbangfan7046]

exo we are one baekhyun i- BIXTH HI

[@saltyrizzy2125]

bts big bang fan HIIIII ITS YOU AGAIN

[@jade.xox__]

BLACK OR BLONDE IS FINE WITH ME! NAMII YOU'RE ALWAYS SO BEAUTIFUL! I LOVE YOU! I hope the boys are doing well! Bye! 😍😍❤❤❤

[@NameePark]

+Baby Tae Tae awww luv yu too !!!!! 😭 they are good !!!!! Hehehehe hope you are well too !!

[@jade.xox__]

NamiiCho I am hehehe! 😘😘😍😍

[@armyjams5089]

Baby Tae Tae army^^

[@itzme_ra6400]

SHE SLAYS SO MUCH OMFG

[@Music_Lover0612]

Baby Tae Tae What did she put on her face?

[@sophiehooper457]

That cut and colour on you is everything!!! 😍😍😍

[@yebinlee711]

1:03 - *never bleach your own hair* me: stares at my hair in da reflection. *whispers* what have i done. i am doomed.

[@ogirlie101]

Looks so cute!!! When your mom said your name and turned off the blow dryer and asked you what the value was in being like this, I got chills!! Anyways, it takes courage to do this!!! 💓

[@dianasitnic2703]

Your mother is phenomenal

[@shayemandy5065]

Your mum is a beautiful human! My family would never help me bleach my hair! So sweet to watch her comfort you when you were blow drying it. She’s right, no point stressing about the texture it’s already done haha, I’m in the same boat but it gets better! 💕

[@chinkrisbe1508]

Love your mum washing your hair... so sweet!

[@ohliveyeaah]

you look so PRETTY blonde! It reallly suits you! Makes me want to go blonde! Your makeup looks pretty as well and I would love to see hair repair masks and creams tested!

[@tozy8214]

I think a Grey die should be sooo pretty on you and your style ;)

[@ellelee9723]

Keulloe Lang Chwe you can’t dye your hair grey! It’s a toner. But yes, I agree you should go silver/gray

[@mansonmetalheadferrets8310]

Ion, Arctic fox, manic panic, Sparks, ect... All have gray dyes. There are dyes that are gray, and toners that neutralize your hair to a gray.

[@shugsspotandpots7681]

Yes grey! That wld be so pretty on her young vibrant face.

[@sarak680]

OMG girl it looks amazing on you !!

[@hannahgora2495]

I love your mom! “Is there any value in acting like this?” Brings me down to earth

[@OrianaTrindade]

The orange were so pretty, it fits you really well

[@hopes7181]

Dude with the whole "my hair won't dry" thing...I FEEL YOU. I've got a pretty similar hair type as you and if I go to bed with wet hair, especially if I used too much conditioner it will NOT dry properly and feels super icky underneath until I wash it again so I just have to let it air dry. Glad you got it figured out!! Love the blonde! It looks so good on you

[@GracieRaeActor]

wow looks amazing !!! even the red looked amazing

[@clmtlss]

that haircolour looks AWESOME on you! I am rewatching these videos, they inspire me to do crazy things with my hair 🤪🤪

[@kristina-we7mm]

The blonde hair on you looks so cute and fashionable!!!

[@ToriTenacious]

"I'VE NEVER BEEN BLONDE EVER IN MY LIFFFFFFFFF-EU!" yep, subscribing to you right now😂😂

[@dearmysoul6706]

It looks very chiiiic on you! Very nice and head turner in a good way

[@FoxInMocs]

You are just SO adorable! Blonde looks good. Did it myself for the first time in the summer.

[@iris-kw7ry]

Omg I think lilac would suit you sooo well! Please try it 😍👏🏼

[@YasmineV.]

I used to be fully blonde and did it on my own cause I thought I was the shit since I had to take courses on hair coloring and etc to work at a beauty salon ;; BUT if you ever decide to go lighter (esp if you have dark hair), you gotta do it slowly. Like bleach it once a month or so, space it out so your hair doesn't snap too easily. Also next times you do bleach, don't use strong developer like 40 volume but instead 20 volume (or 10). Find hair masks with oils and honey. Coconut oil is really popular too ;v; I hope I helped a bit. for colour, pls do a pastel pink or lilac~

[@parmetries]

I'm not going to lie, I LOVED that strawberry blonde you got after the first bleach. If it had come out more even at the roots my god it would have been such a PERFECT colour for you. The blonde looks good too but I just loved that red shade.

[@arnnalim1679]

YOU LOOK SO GOOD BLONDE!

[@laurajeano3585]

Even that orange/brunette color was so nice! It was a pretty orange?? I hope y’all know what I mean, seriously everything suits you 😻

[@chazitybontempo2681]

Currently watching as I have over processed hair hanging on my head 😭 when your mom said "is there any value in feeling like this?" I needed that lmao. Being upset and angry isn't gonna change what I did to my hair, all I can do is move on and work with what I got now lmao fml.

[@tsavo1065]

I know this video is a few years old, but I adore this. The interactions between you and your mom are priceless 💕 the blonde is so adorable on you!! I bleached my hair years ago and it became horrible frizzy noodles that wouldn't dry. The only thing that even remotely helped it was Elizavecca collagen treatments I found on amazon. I hope this helps, well, anyone!!! Lol

[@LeSweetpea]

Your hair looks soooo good!

[@katiejudd01]

It's cute. If it's a look you like I really recommend you use guy tang's products for bleaching. Also you asked is about color, I feel like a light pink would look cute.

[@vaiaprs]

Katie Bounkeovisane yes she would look so nice with pastel pink hair 😸

[@NameePark]

+Katie Bounkeovisane ooo ya his products are really good !! And he always uses olaplex so the hair doesn’t fry T T hehe thank you Katie for your suggestions !!!! 😍😍😍😚

[@AnimeGirl-rt2qi]

Yeah she would. 😮😍

[@Satfirescat]

It looks really cute. My only recommendation is that next time you should wait about two weeks in between bleaching and deep condition and treat your hair lots in between

[@hebbspark724]

Thank you for your input, Satfire!!

[@user-dp1ms2ue7y]

You and your mom made me smile so much 😆😊

[@teresafeuerstein5120]

You are too cute! Love the color, you are so lucky to have a supportive mom!

[@ch.8325]

Semi-permanent dyes are really good for your hair, as they are super conditioning! If you decide to go pastel or change to a "crazy" color, it won't be damaging so long as you use a semi-permanent! Pravana is a good one that is super long lasting. :) The blonde looks good but a pastel color or silver would also look really nice if you got bored with the blonde!

[@nonog222]

your mom is an angel, just like you

[@CHARISMA7171]

IT LOOKS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

[@nmorto2013]

Girl your hair is so strong! It looks good

[@ilikechimchimnuggets290]

Can you please do acne coverage makeup tutorial? Or like just how to apply such flawless foundation? 💕😭

[@prettyycookiee4630]

Ikr! Also, hi army ✌️

[@anabhousen7159]

"Is there any value in being like this?" Damn that was deep. I gotta remember that one the next time my kid is a brat 😜

[@sharonpereira6500]

Love all the colours!! Totally suit you, your mum is amazing!!! The bonding experience you have is worth it, you only get one mum xx

[@user-iw3ot1rz9m]

ALL THREE colors look so good on you omg

[@kem4470]

stay with that color it looks really good !!

[@meganmcguinness3986]

You should dye it pastel pink or liliac

[@tatikkaiii]

OMG you look amazing with blonde HAIR!

[@emeliafournier3030]

Your relationship with your mom is so precious❤❤

[@tamarahart6657]

Honestly natural remedies will be ur best friends, try avocado or egg masks. Or try olive oil for definite moisture

[@tamarahart6657]

P.s. it'll take a few weeks to recover from such a strong bleach. Believe me I've been there, except i was originally blonde, THEN did TWO years of box dye, and THEN went to the hairdressers to bleach it 5 times and stripped twice. It was straw, I feel u hun, it'll get better, don't give up! And i absolutely love the blonde xxxxxxxxxxxx

[@Kittygirl2326]

Tammy Hart great tips I use those too often also

[@itzme_ra6400]

*GYAL YOU LOOK FREAKIN BOMB*

[@hebbspark724]

Thank you !!!!

[@spongeyolboi388]

That light blonde color does look really good on you👌😍

[@yayahomemovies4580]

it looks really good by the end!! hoping the texture gets better with time :))

[@el8691]

Your hair looks so cute Nami!! Also I'd love a video on hair treatments because I have super curly hair that gets dry and frizzy really easily, and I'd trust you opinions on products

[@megane3063]

“But I’ll show you some kick boxing moves” I LOVE HERRRR

[@deewatson5075]

Your mom saying “I love ❤️ you” was the sweetest thing

[@GreyhoundChannel]

That color is gorgeous on you!

[@user-tu6rt3fl4n]

Oh man it looks good! But I do feel your pain when you had the Melt down. Going from healthy hair to bleaching it so many times can be a bit overwhelming! I always do my own hair, so if anyone else wants to color/ bleach their hair I recommend you do your research and have patience! Bleaching your hair within such a short amount of time can be real damaging. however hair is also hair and it grows back and will be healthy again with time!

[@agreasymess]

It looks so good!!!💞

[@NameePark]

+a greasy mess thank youuu !!!! >

[@GiovannaCosta-nv6xt]

nami ive been subscribed for a while now and when i saw this video i swore id never do that and today i bleached my hair myself....its been just falling off and breaking easily. just gonna rewatch your videos on how you saved your hair lol dont mind me xx

[@samanthamarie8007]

You pull off this platinum look so well! Looks so pretty on you. & I love the part when your son and husband see you. You guys are so cuteeee :,)

[@user-vh2zh2dm3y]

You look good in blonde!

[@melaoh1054]

"Is there any value in being like this" really struck me for some reason.. Like.. on a emotional level. lol. I should be thinking like that 24/7 ;D

[@lowkaye]

its okay noona! you are still look pretty :D

[@sarahhoag2193]

this is a super adorable video omg

[@Moxleygirl]

Is there any value in being like this 😂 I’m dead.

[@ericamiller9141]

I so agree. Just to much

[@kimochiiku9845]

OMG NAMI! YOU DYING YOUR HAIR ORANGE REMINDED ME OF KIM BOK JOO LOL! My weightlifting fairy feels..😭😂

[@GREENFROGLOVER02]

This is the first video I watch from you!! I freaking love it!!😆❤❤

[@Adrika2017]

I bleached my hair a total of 4 times by now and the aphogee protein treatment is the only thing that makes it feel like hair again 😭 def try it it’s only a couple of bucks at Sally’s and completely worth it

[@XxDreamRidexX]

How many times did you use it until it felt like hair again? I'm going through the same thing. Thank you!

[@angelbasham6631]

What bleach and what volume developer

[@xocoworld6331]

Just don't wash it for a while. Restore them naturals oils! You look amazing

[@hebbspark724]

Thank you for your input, Xoco! :D Take care, Hebbs

[@VM-wt3ti]

Looks soooo beautiful!!!!!

[@anonymousgirl4969]

You're probably the only person in the world that could pull off that orange color (after the first bleach) it looks so good on you!!

[@JustWhattaRuLookinAt]

You look like a beautiful fairy with the platinum blonde color.😆✨

[@eKaYTeNshi]

Try getting a protein treatment/deep conditioner or make it at home with coconut milk, mayonnaise (trust me), olive oil, and coconut milk. I leave mine in for a day and rinse it out the next day. But you can leave it in for like 30 minutes or add heat then wash it out. Also use keratin conditioners and shampoos.

[@snap19]

You mentioned coconut milk twice... 😆

[@erisegura2900]

Thank you for your video! Really enjoyed your mom's responses she is a gem!

[@ouji8809]

the color is SO PRETTY and you look amazing as a platinum blonde but GIRL! THAT TEXTURE! OH NO :(

[@jasminelau9108]

You looked really pretty with blonde hair!! I think that you should try using the etude house colour hair treatment! I will only last for a week or two!

[@jenniferliu4852]

Your relationship with your mom is so adorable... it well be better you look beautiful ❤

[@NameePark]

+Jennifer Liu aw thank you Jennifer XD thank you for your sweet words 💓💘

[@jenniferliu4852]

NamiiCho anytime girl 😀

[@huimin2474]

You & your mom have one of the cutest Mother-Daughter relationship I have ever seen!!

[@anyatoomey1469]

This hair realllyy suits u 😍😍😍❤❤

[@naira3817]

Ginger hair looks so good on you 😍😍😍 but the blonde is good too

[@itsjenniferbee]

Nami you still look good 😍👏🏼

[@jmmjjjmm]

Love the hair color!😍

[@glennreymondrapo3122]

You look like a model! I love it.

[@WandernHunger]

First time I dyed my hair was to a green/silver ombre and I bleached it 3 times in the same day. After that for the next couple of months I went through almost every colour and by now my hair has been bleached 8 times and dyed 9 times (I only re-bleached and re-dyed the same part of hair, I avoided my regrowth hair because my plan is to cut off all the bleached/dyed part once my regrowth reaches my shoulder). According to my hairdresser, she said my hair is really good for dyeing because the colour retention is super long (she told me red would usually only last about 2 weeks but my red stayed for about 2 months), and my post-8x-bleaching hair was smoother than most people's natural hair. I've moved now and my new hairdresser also can't believe I went through so many bleach/colour changes when he touches my hair lol. They all tell me it's a shame I don't want to dye it anymore since my hair handles it so well :\ I actually only had 1 colour I didn't get to do, which was like a grey-silver but I feel it only looks nice on a whole head of dye rather than parts and I don't have the patience to maintain it lol oh well

[@PaolaItzel]

You look so cute Namii! I think you should definitely go with pink or a really pretty blue

[@britjj5126]

I love the orange brown colour. It looks so cool.

[@melodyquiambao3319]

I find it cute how you and your mom are bonded... But my gooooood you're still pretty hahaha hopefully it grows soon