Depersonalization: Existential Thoughts (And How To Stop Them!)

[@isamarbaeza6894]

You are amazing! I bought your manual and I’m starting to enjoy my life again! Thank you thank you thank you!

[@Dpmanual]

You are so welcome Isamar, delighted to hear you're doing so well! 😊😊

[@SenidOptimises]

Depersonalization Manual please upload more❤️

[@Dpmanual]

@@SenidOptimises It's on the way! 😊😊

[@FunnyClips-sd1kx]

I'm hoping to get there

[@FunnyClips-sd1kx]

@@Dpmanual thank you I seriously thought I was losing my mind.

[@k3v1nT3nd0]

“I choose to release the need to know it all, I choose peace”. This saying helps.

[@Dpmanual]

That's really helpful, thanks for your comment! 👍😊

[@cloudofh2o394]

Thank you for this, it’s not an answer to all of life’s questions but it’s a start to living opposed to drowning

[@MrSauceman09]

This helped me a lot and I can relate to it well. Thinking about not knowing whats going on behind the scenes so to speak is really scary.

[@Rui-wk2eb]

do u have anything else that helps?

[@cloudofh2o394]

@my name in case they don’t get back to you, maybe checking out Alan Watts could help? At the very least he’s got a relaxing voice. Also the book “The Power Of Now” by eckhart tolle audiobook is free on KZbin

[@niilo2852]

I literally could not look at the moon in 2013 because it was just TOO real. Love it now. Mental health is no joke. Its anxiety guys. Let go of the fear of fear. You will be 100% better I promise you. I thought I was going insane. 8 years later and it has not come back.

[@Dpmanual]

Yeah absolutely, things like the moon and the sky used to scare me so much back when I had DP. But you're right, it's just anxiety and it does fade away and stop! 😊 Thanks for your comment Steve, and glad to hear you're better! 😊

[@gemcool16]

This really inspires me that I can recover. I have existential OCD and have had depersonalisation due to a hallucinogenic I took as a teenager. I’ve dealt with the DP very well but I still get caught up in the thoughts. Your comment gives me some hope.

[@niilo2852]

@@gemcool16 Oh you definitely can. You probably don't have these problems BECAUSE of the drug but rather are already prone to anxiety and OCD, like myself. The anxiety comes first, not the existential thoughts. When you are in an anxious state those thoughts become alarming and feed into anxiety. When you are calm, you can think these thoughts and not have any problem with them. The key is acceptance and knowing you are not going crazy. There are thousands of geniuses trying to figure out why we exist, so best just leave it to them and relax yourself haha

[@cristin97]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@alicianolte7837]

Please tell me how 😩 I’m suffering so bad

[@mandy2310]

"a drug flipped a switch in my brain and now I'm stuck like this forever" took the words right out my mouth...

[@shadesbaane774]

P.S Will it go as i recover /v/ and will i forget it? ;°

[@shadesbaane774]

The illness thingy isnt really affecting me(the i dont see the things real.) Its just the Bad thoughts :)

[@shadesbaane774]

Is that good? I think so 0_o

[@shadesbaane774]

I KNOW I TYPED ALOT BUT your channle and u are like my BFF 🥰💘👬

[@atomnous]

Salvia. I only had weed before that.

[@grrrohmy665]

another scary thing about dissociation is how i wake up at 10am, i make breakfast, eat breakfast, think, drink coffee, think for a while, watch a few videos on youtube, worry about everything and existence and if i’m real for a while, make lunch, take a shower, sit down in bed and grab my phone and it’s 8:02pm. none of it makes sense, then i panic, then i sleep and it’s the same thing the next day :// feels so good to know i’m not alone though

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment! And don't worry, 'time distortion' like that is super common with DP and it will fade away and stop as you recover. Check out this article for more info: www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/

[@Iiivyyh]

SAME

[@fuksukkas1495]

dont drink caffeine

[@chemicallife5085]

Has it gotten better?

[@ryanlevis5753]

Make a list of activities you love. Then when you’re anxious, look to these activities and to them.

[@SeraphimsDevil]

When you said, “I was scared that I might just disappear into thin air” I immediately burst into tears. You have described all of my biggest fears in these videos. Literally all of them. I just can’t believe that I’m not alone in this feeling. I’ve had a constant episode of depersonalization and derealization for the past 4 days now and I’m so thankful I came across your videos. I started therapy with a new therapist this morning and will be using your manual with my therapist to help me recover. Thank you so much.

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks so much for your comment Ellie and I'm so happy to hear that you connected with the video. And don't worry, you're definitely not alone and you can and will recover 😊 Keep up the good work!

[@FunnyClips-sd1kx]

Me too I feel so overwhelmed sometimes.

[@AaronJuddMusic]

I have been struggling too. One Vape drag with a friend and suddenly for three days I was sure I was in pergatory and somehow died without knowing... All these things have been helping. My Days are so much better... My nights are still hard. Being willing to fall asleep has been a real struggle but I'm working on it, that fear of letting go of this reality just causes me to feel like my arms and legs are not mine. Hope you are doing better!

[@vev1644]

@@AaronJuddMusic stay strong everyone

[@nikisawyers7559]

{{{HUGS}}}

[@anderskedegard6799]

I found it very scary and bizarre that the fact that we simply live on a large ball in orbit around another ball that is immensly bright and hot. Very strange in retrospect.

[@xxx_ducknugget_xxx9543]

Same I had thoughts about that to and started thinking if there was a god and how life j started from nothing to something and how were in space floating on a ball in a black void

[@elilac.1980]

@@xxx_ducknugget_xxx9543 wel i believe there is a god bc there no way life just happened without a creator, that's not even possible. but ur free to belive whatever u like! just remember ur completely safe and what ur experiencing is just anxiety hope you feel better soon! :)

[@elilac.1980]

@@xxx_ducknugget_xxx9543 how old are u bc im pretty young and just wanna know if ur a kid

[@ilivemylifeforthestarsthat3140]

@@elilac.1980 same I’m only 16 and I’m experiencing this

[@spacey_6910]

I think it's really cool, think about it! We are living beings from a delightful planet that is in space, a truly wondrous place

[@loo8087]

This is for anyone reading this that is going through this right now....I’ve had this for the last few months and at first I was TERRIFIED I kept going to bed to sleep just to get away...I also have children and I couldn’t even feel myself around them I just felt like it wasn’t here’ going through the motions yet not actually living. I was scared I just felt so numb even around friends and family. IT DOES GET BETTER !!! I now don’t suffer anymore I feel normal and believe me when I say I never ever ever thought it was possible! I am now happy again so please hang in there ! I think ongoing stress is what caused it to happen in the first place. You can get better I promise....I never ever thought I’d be happy again it was the most loneliest scariest time I have ever experienced in my life but please have hope xxxx

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Lauren and I'm very glad to hear you're recovered! 😊😊

[@vanessareyes7582]

What helped you overcome DP

[@loo8087]

@@bxndochico658 one thing which helped me MASSIVELY was magnesium supplements...they help the nervous system and with anxiety and it really helped xx

[@loo8087]

@@vanessareyes7582 magnesium supplements helped me on my recovery, they help the nervous system and anxiety xx

[@teresawhiteindependentscen4238]

@@loo8087 which supplement? magnesium glycinate? I’m struggling with this badly! I’m a mom too and just need to feel like me again. Been this way for about 5 months.

[@bluewolf1470]

Advice to anyone suffering from this or these thoughts etc. Save this video to your favourites and watch whenever it’s getting too much, it will put you at ease, these feelings and thoughts will pass. I thought i was going to be like that forever you just need to work hard and listen. You are not alone ❤️

[@jonsmith568]

my dp went away when i took prozac, for several years then i stopped prozac for 2 months and it came back went back on prozac, no more dp just fyi for those suffering

[@jackw6660]

@@jonsmith568 and intrusive thoughts?

[@ductapebros3014]

it’s all in your head guys. when i’m feeling the dp. i always come to his videos and it helps significantly. just relax and remember that everything is okay and it’s all anxiety based. you’ve got this. you’re family still loves you i promise. i love you. you guys have got this!

[@calebpaez-98]

❤ thank you bro, so hard to realize that sometimes. My huge huge fear is that I could be living in a coma and not knowing, like the had this injury or something that I forget about and I'm going to just wake up one day my whole life is just a dream. It's just so scary to think about. I'm only 13 years old and I'm honestly scared to tell my parents about how I feel.

[@calebpaez-98]

But it's helpful to remember that I'm not alone. ❤

[@jonsmith568]

my dp went away when i took prozac, for several years then i stopped prozac for 2 months and it came back went back on prozac, no more dp just fyi for those suffering

[@larrybruno9016]

I question my existence and have intrusive thoughts on what happens when we die and how we got here

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Larry, thanks for your comment 😊 Don't worry, those types of thoughts are super common with DP. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and trauma. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover! Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com

[@ilivemylifeforthestarsthat3140]

Same my biggest fear is death

[@xo_lexie]

Lines that helped the most: - “Thinking about the size of the universe is the same as thinking about what you had for breakfast.” - “This is just temporary, the thoughts can’t hurt you.” - “You don’t have to address each individual fear, just the anxiety causing them.” Thank you so much for this video. Depersonalization and derealization are by far the worst feelings I’ve ever experienced and this video helped so much. :)

[@Dpmanual]

So glad it was helpful Alexa 😊👍

[@javiacosta6227]

The thing that helped me a lot, is realizing i am no different from everyone experiencing this. YOU are no different from everyone else in these comments, you are not “too self aware from your own good” or “too smart”. We all think we have it the absolute worst , we all have these existential thoughts that terrify us to our core. And it genuinely feels like you are stuck like this forever. We’re all dealing with one thing, anxiety. Your mind is so anxious 24/7 that every thought or thing can turn into its own little “phobia” even thoughts themselves. Your brain is looking for an answer for the anxiety, so it can pin it on just about anything. Right now you’re not the normal you, you’re you with anxiety 10/10 and you will not feel like that forever. I know its hard to believe, you think “no im different, mines really bad” State specific memory is huge, when you get better you’ll honestly laugh at how silly you were being. Best of luck , I believe in whoever is reading this completely, that you will get back to normal.

[@deidrajones1052]

Thank you. :) this was helpful

[@zanetierney3834]

Fuck yeah bro, cheers🤎

[@jbjb7843]

Thank you. You mean once anxiety is gone, these thoughts will go away?(Actually I don't feel any anxiety) Should I take medication for this?

[@unsimpleserhumano7774]

@@jbjb7843 no bro, medication is a way of desapearing your symptoms but not the root, YOU HAVE A BEATIFULL LIFE TO ENJOY, COME ONE, START HAVING THE LIFE YOU HAD EVER DREAMED, GO TO THE GYM, WORK OUT, SAY YOUR FAMILY THAT YOU LOVE THEM, IS THE MOMENT TO RECONECT WITH YOUR REAL YOU, WITH YOUR REAL DREAMS AND DREAMED LIFE, IS THE MOMENT OF START HAVING A BETTER LIFE HABITS AND LIFESTYLE, COME ON BRO WAKE UP, IT IS THE TIME TO LIVE THE LIFE WITHOUT ADICTIONS, WITHOUT PROCASTINATION, ITS TIME TO FEEL THE REAL HAPINNES, SELFLOVE AND REALIZATION

[@jbjb7843]

@@unsimpleserhumano7774 Thank you 😊

[@gracemurphy5294]

I have never seen such a relatable video. During my first episode, I could not stop thinking why humans just went on with their lives so oblivious to how life doesn’t matter. I felt like I had all the knowledge in the world, and every one else was living in perfect ignorance. Everytime I would think about the solar system, or people, or anything else huge I would lose the feeling in my legs. It’s crazy.

[@mistermandem5530]

How long did it last?

[@samanthadubbs442]

THIS. I’ve never heard someone else describe this exact feeling/thought process. It led me on a chase to find meaning and purpose in life. How are you doing with this now?

[@veera.8566]

@@samanthadubbs442 honestly, try and understand your opinions and thoughts on this type of thing before the dp. Just know life may not be as deep and its as simple and fun as it was before you started overthinking. remember so many people experience this

[@Isa-eg9ei]

I FEEL EXCATLY THE SAME like how does everyone look so calm while I’m literally going insane it stresses me out more, glad I’m not alone

[@janaskopekova3477]

@@Isa-eg9ei ME TOO. I was just sitting in the train and wonder how can be everybody so calm like we are literally on floating rock?????

[@Honey-gl8gv]

When it was at its peak I kept thinking How am I even a human? Why aren't I something else How did humans happen? How am I a real person If I tried to explain it to someone they thought I had completely went bonkers!

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment! 😊 And don't worry, existential thoughts like that are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@Honey-gl8gv]

@@Dpmanual Oh yes they did go away ans when I look back I laugh but at the time they were NOT funny at all!! I didn't think I was ever gonna have my mind to myself! I let myself be in it..and stopped fighting them..it was perpetuating them. Sometimes the intrusive memories return but I learn to let them play in the park of my mind and realize it's just a thought..like you said. Too bad I didn't come across your videos when I was in the heat of it. I wouldn't have suffered so long!

[@livuair]

@@Honey-gl8gv hello. How are you now?

[@matilda1044]

@@Honey-gl8gv omg!! I am experiencing the same thoughts!! They are so scary. It s so nice to know you got over them. Really gives me hope

[@assiaassia8987]

@peachy love you're not the only one dear, we'll be fine ❤️❤️

[@kenzie9767]

YOU ARE AMAZING!!! I experienced this at 18, I had no idea what happened to me. It took me 3 years to start enjoying my life again - I pushed everyone away and tried my best to hide it. I have been recovered for 2 years now. I am so happy this content exists to save others from thinking that they cant recover, if you're reading this- you're gonna be okay again

[@justikristina]

It's a very strange situation but I'm 18 now too and I have it since September. Honestly, I've never thought that I can experience something like this and now my life is a completely disaster but comments like this really help to believe in the bright future. Thank you!

[@paulaolid]

i bursted down crying when i read u say "this i truly temporary" it has been 2 months and this is horrible i don't want to feel this way i want to be back to normal i want to be happy again i will trust your words thanks for saying it is temporary i dont know if you are right but i hope this will be over soon

[@kenzie9767]

@@paulaolid my heart goes out to you my friend, Here are some things that worked for me: calming my nervous system by taking an ashwaghanda supplement, drinking chamomile tea all day, quitting all substances including alcohol, (eventually anyway, I continued to drink for a while idk if it would have helped to stop sooner or not) I also recommend a daily yoga practice, it really helped me regulate my emotions and stress and start to find my inner sanctuary and feel present in my body again. reminder: fear is an emotion that serves to try and protect us, it's over active right now though. Let your fear know you are thankful for it, but that you are safe, im sorry i took some substances and it scared you. I will take care of us while we get back to normal. Also remember fear is within our imagination, so much of the things we worry about in this state aren't real, so rather than continuing to chase them and try to solve the thoughts: create a mantra for your peace of mind and just try to calm your anxiety ❤️❤️these are just things that helped I n my experience, but I hope it helps. These videos are great too! I wish I had access to them when it happened to me ❤️

[@paulaolid]

@@kenzie9767 you are an angel sent to my tonight..... my day was awful but you have blessed my night thank you very much 💟

[@DaquanD1]

​@@justikristina hey how have you been lately? Did you recover and if you did, can u give me some tips

[@chrysalism3741]

For me one of my most disturbing existential thoughts was pondering an afterlife and thinking even after I pass I will be stuck in that state of consciousness for an eternity

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, existential thoughts like that are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@hellohello1604]

I had similar thoughts. Being stuck in this state even afterlife😫

[@acid3367]

@@hellohello1604 for me it was what if we just vanish like we never even existed. and if so, whats the point of living, I really hope there is an afterlife even though I’d say there isn’t one and I’m terrified of that

[@bumonda]

@@acid3367 same.

[@3amDayDreamer]

I had the same thought. It was too much and it broke me…..

[@IkeSpams]

Questioning your existence is the scariest part about depersonalization, I’ve been suffering for almost 2years and I gotta say, this video did open my eyes.

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment and don't worry, scary existential thoughts like that are super common with DP 😊 I know they can be frightening but they are temporary and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@babiiluv7931]

I swear! I was so freaking frighten. Now, every blue moon that realization will pop up then vanish.

[@IkeSpams]

@@babiiluv7931 keep your head up fam. It gets better trust me.

[@babiiluv7931]

@@IkeSpams thanks because man oh man 😮‍💨🙏🏾

[@MoonWomanStudios]

I remember telling my therapist I wasn't sure that I was real and expecting her to put me in an institution.

[@Dpmanual]

I had a very similar experience back when I had DP, I was so afraid to describe my symptoms because they sounded so weird 😊 Check out this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-do-i-feel-real-again/

[@elilac.1980]

did she understand? im 11 and im geting a therapist in 2 weeks. im scared she might think im insane, did she judge you, and f not, did she help you?

[@elilac.1980]

@@awesomegaming1991 still havnt gone yet, im probally gonna go this month tho

[@adflyofficial]

@@elilac.1980 What happened?

[@elilac.1980]

@@adflyofficial im supposed to go next month now, there was a delay lol

[@JakuLOL]

My existencional thought was: What if everything is fragment of my imagination. I am still dealing with it little bit.

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, those types of thoughts are very common with DP but will fade away and stop completely as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/

[@NoHesiGG]

@emanuel gamino accept that its anxiety and live your life as you normally would (corona makes this hard but develop new hobbies)

[@Dpmanual]

@@NoHesiGG This article contains some useful tips on dealing with DP + anxiety during Coronavirus 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-coronavirus/

[@JakuLOL]

@emanuel gamino Imagine a situation when you are talking to a friend. And friend will say a thing: Dude What if everything is fragment of my imaginonation, or your imagination. When you do not have a depersonalisation what will be your reaction? You just get impresed and little bit scared about that, but after a few minutes you will forget about it and you will probably do not think about it anymore. But when you have a depersonalisation you are giving to this thing a lot of power. It is making you anxious and you can not stop thinking about it. It digs to your mind so deep that you think about it like a common thing to think about. But when you are starting recovering, your are thinking about this thing less and less. After you will be 100% recovered you will probably do not think about it anymore. You will forget about it as you forgot what did you did exacly 2 years ago. So my tip is: Catch your self whenever you are thinking about it and try to employ your mind do something esle.

[@JakuLOL]

After there will be no power for this thought, it will disapeard as other thoughts with no power.

[@vanessagalun8284]

When u mentioned the sky being huge I felt so understood

[@Dpmanual]

Yep, that was a major fear of mine back when I had DP! Glad to hear the video was helpful 😊

[@tenzzyy6061]

Can I contact you someway bro I need someone to talk to about dp please

[@vanessagalun8284]

NSN Tenzツ me?

[@oakboy5960]

Vanessa Galun can you text me off Instagram

[@toadb]

Depersonalization Manual oh my godddd

[@Zeslonatrus]

"How is possible i can have toughts." Is my big fear too. Thank you for video.

[@Dpmanual]

You're welcome Adam!

[@hammuski10]

SAME it feels so good that someone else has this.

[@Zeslonatrus]

@@hammuski10 No worries! After 3 months i feel normal again. But I know its hard to be calm. Good luck with beating DP/DR!

[@Zeslonatrus]

@@sss-nc9vw Dont worry you are NOT GOING CRAZY. I had very very similiar things inside my head. But its gone now. It need time and specialy, it need less attention. It live from it. If you wanna talk about it we can on Telegram or Signal. But dont worry. You askin question what nobody have answer and this questions are in more people heads not just in yours. Difference is it make you feel fear and for them not.

[@chintudutta5662]

@@Zeslonatrus can I contact you?

[@ianreynolds262]

I have experienced periods of this several times in my life. The first time, I was just 17 and in 1980 there was no KZbin. I had no idea what was wrong with me. Now, at 61, I have finally discovered what it is that I suffer from periodically, thanks to your KZbin Channel. It's like a light bulb going on in my head! Thank you, thank you, thank you. You've brought me such a deep sense of relief. I've cried and smiled as you described each and every weird and bizzare thought and sensation that I've experienced over the years. Shaun, you are an absolute star!

[@Dpmanual]

Wow, thanks so much Ian! Welcome to the channel and I'm delighted that the videos have been helpful 😊

[@Vanakul]

I am stuck with a thought that seems so real:”Afraid of losing abilty to understand words, because how is understanding even possible”. And I cant watch movies or read because when i hear talking or read the words my brain kind of keeps on focusing on the fenomen of understanding words and what if I suddenly cant understand. I get moments when It is ok, but almost all the time I hear someone speak or read something the first thought is (comes along with hit of anxiety and uncomfort) “wow i understand, omg how itis possible, omg they are just sounds, what is understanding and blbla”

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment! 😊 And don't worry, existential thoughts like that are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@Happys_Art]

I understand your feelings completely. Don’t worry at all. Leave everything to god. God loves you and loves us all and will save us all. Please let’s become friends. We can talk about everything my friend. God bless you.

[@Stars-and-gliters]

That's exactly what i'm going through :)))))))))))

[@hevazaja664]

@@Stars-and-glitersdid it get better?

[@hevazaja664]

Did it get better ?

[@SireOzzy]

I’m so relieved I thank you so much. It’s been a couple months later and I’m totally fine now, it’s been a journey but I want the people to know that it’s going to get better I promise, I’ve just stuck with my loved ones and just focused on my hobbies and eventually it disappeared so if I can do you can do it too!

[@Dpmanual]

You’re welcome! 😊

[@hungryburger6195]

How long did it last?

[@VengefulPolititron]

how long, and are you christian, before after or during, or not

[@SireOzzy]

Vengeful Polititron it’s usually been 2 months for mine to disappear, I’ve been talking a lot and kept my mind occupied and I just live life as normal as best I can and it’s gone

[@VengefulPolititron]

where you a Christian before!?

[@marisarodenkirch130]

I’ve been having a lot of thoughts about what life is and what vision is. It’s nice to think of them as just thoughts that can’t hurt me.

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Marisa, glad to hear the video was helpful! 😊

[@Hugol00]

@Adrienne Cowall I feel the exact same. Are you still going though it? Ive had it for like 1 or 2 weeks and I feel like a cant handle it and it feels like its never going to end

[@jackw6660]

@@Hugol00 are you better?

[@kyleemaestrey7319]

Really happy my mom showed me your videos. I was having a breakdown about how I feel like I’m the only real person and everything is my imagination and how I’m scared it’s gonna affect me forever and affect my future career as a nurse. Now I believe what I am going through is simply in my head and it has a solution. Thank you!

[@kyleemaestrey7319]

I’ve suffered from general anxiety disorder my whole life without knowing it and DP is what has gotten me diagnosed and finally reaching out for help to combat my anxiety.

[@Dpmanual]

So glad to hear that Kylee! 😊

[@maytegonzalez6444]

Omg same. I also wanna go into nursing!! And I also felt like I was the only one alive and everyone else was like an illusion or part of my imagination..

[@user-im9xh1em1k]

Are you better?

[@sonorouspiano2225]

@@kyleemaestrey7319 that great your getting better. What is your solution to this thought?

[@Kim_o.s]

THANK YOU! I was convinced that i was the only one... this deserves to be shared so people won’t feel the same feeling that i did.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear it Kim! 😊😊 And don't worry, you're definitely not alone 😊

[@Pizzahutbaby]

me too I kept researching and thought i had psychosis thank god im such a logical thinker an thought it made no sense i was holding together by a mere thread

[@KaptainKash100]

@@Pizzahutbaby What's the difference between psychosis and depersonalization?

[@WillWinterss]

The thoughts of the nature of reality is the worst to me, if this is a dream, or a simulation, etc. just a thought loop of pain. It’s awful to think these things. At first you may just think it’s a cool interesting “deep” subject. But after a while of thinking of them it causes severe anxiety and derealization. Glad I’m not the only one who has experienced this

[@KaptainKash100]

How are you feeling now? I'm having the same exact thoughts.

[@heloisa1909]

@@KaptainKash100 hey! are you feeling better?

[@KaptainKash100]

@@heloisa1909 ehhhh...

[@mikechrist9699]

@@KaptainKash100 how are you?

[@jackw6660]

@@mikechrist9699 can I talk to you bro?

[@its.norasilva]

I’m going through this right now and there’s no word to describe how horrible it is. Some days I almost give up. It’s good to hear that I’m not going crazy!

[@Dpmanual]

I know DPDR can be tough but just remember that it's temporary and harmless and you can and will recover, 100% ❤️ And you're absolutely not 'going crazy' or anything like that 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/

[@cameron3846]

I’ve watched all of your videos and I’ve been crying for hours, thank you so much. I’m not the only one who’s dealing with this. You’ve saved my life because I don’t know how much more of this I could’ve taken.

[@Dpmanual]

So glad to hear the videos were helpful Cameron! 😊 And don't worry, you're definitely not the only one 😊 I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and trauma. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover!

[@josecarmona8046]

YOU ARE NOT ALONE! 🙏🏼

[@WillWinterss]

@@Dpmanual I know how you feel my friend, you are not alone, and I love you

[@Pikester89]

My anxiety comes from a fear of death and loss. About a month ago I had an anxiety attack and had a mild amount of DR. I was questioning a lot of what happens after we die, I ended up taking an edible for the first time and it triggered a massive panic attack. Now I'm suffering from DR and the existential thoughts about life after death and fearing for the loss of loved ones has been dialed to 11. I always feel like I am in a dream and things don't feel real. I purchased the DP manual and I can honestly say its been helping. I hope my death anxiety goes away completely and maybe I can approach my spirituality in a calm and peaceful state of mind. I'll keep you all updated on my progress.

[@mikeallen8937]

Hey all, this is my other account for an update on my progress: I just wanted to come back here to let everyone know that I'm nearly 100% RECOVERED!!! Around 3 months ago I fell into terrible depersonalization, I didn't feel real, my life felt like a movie, and I was having panic attacks left and right. My anxiety was through the roof and I was suffering from terrible depression, I was even having suicidal thoughts, awful existential thoughts like "what happens when we die!??!". I can't express how much the DP manual helped kick start my recovery. At the worst times, I felt desperate ready to try anything (SSRI's, Therapy, etc). I stumbled on the DP manual by chance googling my symptoms and started watching shauns videos. I said "screw it" and bought it. Now, it took a bit of work and dedication but I followed his program and I can say for a fact that it works! I go days without even remembering that I had DP and life feels normal again. I'm not out of the woods yet and I still have bad days now and then, but they're becoming less and less. After a couple weeks I improved, and over the course of 3 months I feel almost back to normal!!!! Thank god! Sometimes I felt like I wouldn't get there and doubted myself. His program is pretty simple, basically just keep yourself busy and understand that DP is a symptom of anxiety, take care of yourself with diet and exercise. I surrounded myself with family, played tons of basketball (i'm 31 years old lol no excuses), lifted weights, went on long walks, and ate good food, I cut myself off caffeine. During my long walks I listened to his audiobook (comes with the purchase) or his videos (comes with the purchase) and it was so reassuring. When this first all started I made a promise that if I ever got better I would come back here and tell my story to give others hope, I remember reading comments from others and feeling thankful for the positive comments. Now it's my turn to pay it forward! If you're reading this, you can do it, I believe in you. I hope this helped! Shaun, thank you bro. Your book was one of the best purchases of my life.

[@jiberider994]

@@mikeallen8937 Thanks so much for relating your success story. I wish all the more power to you on your journey to recovery. You are strong and will get better. Your story is so relatable to mine. My symptoms have been very similar. The existential thoughts have been just completely unbearable. With regards to my recovery I am not quite there yet. I experience occasional normality (maybe for a distracted minute or two). However, I will get out of this if it's the last thing I do. I have overcome other obstacles in my life before that seemed insurmountable at the time and I outright refuse to stay in this state.

[@mikechrist9699]

How are youm

[@veera.8566]

hi i would also recommend supplements like l theanine and magnesium supplements. also try to limit caffeine, eat healthy, and work out

[@makhomoovervoorde8988]

I have the same anxiety and now dpdr,so exhausting

[@MusicOrSomething]

I didn't realize so many people went through this. Thank you so much. I'm sad that people go through it but really glad I'm not alone.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful 😊 And don't worry, you're definitely not alone! 😊

[@haydenhoch1363]

it’s hard, i am going through this and i keep thinking about life after death and everything, this helped me a lot, i have had so much anxiety and stress and i am slowly recovering but once in a while having panic attacks, it really sucks, thank you

[@kaydenwallacevlogs1258]

I feel the exact same way I get rly scared go or something is just gonna come back or I’m gonna die soon and feeling like I’m not real and I’m in a dream and I start to worry and feel alone and get distracted and have panic attacks but your not alone we will get through this together ❤️

[@twistsx.]

You guys had the exact same feelings as me I hope u recovered well this is really freaking me out❤❤

[@Cjayy223]

Yo bro I’m going through this aswell and I keep having the exact same thoughts about life after death and I keep having panic attacks your not alone bro

[@zibooka1573]

How do u recover

[@4r1]

@@kaydenwallacevlogs1258 hey do you feel better now?

[@dentellier]

“A drug flipped a switch in my brain and now I’m stuck like this for ever.” I’m so happy to know that I’m not alone in feeling this way. Five months ago, I had a terrible reaction to MDMA-assisted therapy. I often still feel convinced that there’s no way I’m ever going to recover from this experience, like I’m living in some new, permanent nightmare reality. Thank you for giving me hope 🙏

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful Lacey! 😊 And don't worry, DPDR is not permanent and you can and will recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/is-depersonalization-permanent/

[@WillWinterss]

It can be so scary :( I just wanna stop thinking sometimes

[@ilivemylifeforthestarsthat3140]

Sameee I wish my brain Could just be blank or something

[@hellohello1604]

@@ilivemylifeforthestarsthat3140 Yess I wish if I could just forget about everything that happened in last few months ,so I would forget about this too.

[@nathannicholson2452]

The thought of me nolonger thinking scared me because it meant I was dead.

[@hellohello1604]

@@nathannicholson2452 do you feel emotional numbness? It feels like I am randomly replying to people without any emotionss

[@nathannicholson2452]

@@hellohello1604 yes. I feel the emotional numbness. Its lonly in this dimension.OCD thinking is what triggered this crap. I wish they had pills that would allow me to go into a deep sleep. I pray and I have a relationship with Jesus but what can i pray about when im the problem and he's the strength. I started thinking to much and couldn't turn it off.. OCD.

[@jessewestlund5159]

I'm always thinking about consciousness, I try to track every thought I have to find the core of my mind. It's definitely a challenge to believe that I won't be stuck in this cave forever but I do believe that I'm making progress. I really appreciate your videos!

[@Dpmanual]

Glad the videos have been helpful Jesse 😊 And don't worry, DP isn't permanent, it can't hurt you and you can and will recover! www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@justwinginit0213]

Jesse, I too obsess about consciousness. What is this feeling of being alive? Am I and everything I know just a product of my brain? Am I "in essence" a 2lb gray mass at the top of a body. Does this fall in line with what you were thinking as well?

[@crystal_vvave9045]

@@justwinginit0213 i have the same shit

[@matilda1044]

@@justwinginit0213 exactly what I have. 10 times harder to deal with when I am studying medicine and how the brain works

[@region3228]

@@matilda1044 have you overcome it ?

[@WillWinterss]

I have had derealization for 3 years, it has been getting better as in like I how I don’t notice it as much. But the worst part that I still struggle with is the extremely crazy thoughts for example the ones the freak me out the most is how I think about, am I real, am I alive, am I a simulation, is this all just a dream, the worst thought is thinking you aren’t real, or you have gone off the deep end.

[@graciegavin745]

the existential thoughts are the worst thing for me too! has yours gotten any better i've had mine for 3 months.

[@WillWinterss]

@@graciegavin745 yesss it’s gotten better. I have hope for you my friend❤️❤️❤️💪🏽😃 I realized that sometimes we simply are just thinking too much. Find something you enjoy and just focus on it. When we focus on those existential thoughts (you know exactly what I mean) it just makes us go insane. We gotta just accept that we might never figure that shit out and then just get on with life. We CAN be happy we just have to stop being obsessed with things we simply can’t figure out yet

[@twirlanta2250]

bruh i struggle with the simulation one and i cant stop thinking how those philosophers are like yeah its 50 50 and i had made a full recovery before but now i fear i can never do it again since ive had it for 4 months

[@KaptainKash100]

@@twirlanta2250 How are you doing now?? I have the same exact thoughts man.

[@rosie7441]

@@WillWinterss did you recover?

[@kidkawaiimusic]

Your manual is literally saving lives. While I do understand (thanks to your content) that DP is not actually life threatening, it is still threatening to a person’s quality of life. And you are giving people their lives back. Someone get this man a Nobel Prize. Thank you so much for the work that you do, from the bottom of my heart. You are helping me feel safe for the first time in a month of terrifying chronic derealization episodes. God bless you. ❤

[@Dpmanual]

This comment has made my week 🙏🥲 I'm so happy that the material has been helpful. Keep up the good work and enjoy your recovery ❤️❤️

[@lazieramen185]

Man where was this when I was freaking out about the world not being real and that I was on a different reality or something. This made me feel a lot better and I have been getting better everyday! I am so excited to be back to normal and happy again.

[@Dpmanual]

Very glad to hear the video was so helpful 😊 And don't worry, you can and will get 100% back to normal: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@pattygaffney]

What i love about your videos and explanations is you provide a sense of comfort for the sufferer which is what i think people with anxiety truly need! It’s hard to go to a therapist & everything seems so strict and to the book but when i listen to you it all makes sense and is so much more simple than a lot of professionals make it out to be!

[@Dpmanual]

Ah thanks so much Patty, I'm delighted to hear you're finding the videos so useful! 😊😊 I do try to make the info as simple and accessible as possible; pretty much exactly what I would have wanted to hear back when I first got DP! 😊

[@shaynapowersx]

@@Dpmanual I 100% agree with Patty. I dropped out of therapy after 6 weeks because he told me that if I didn't stop being scared of weird things, that I'd develop "schizophrenic behavior". That of course made me so much worse because one of my biggest fears (that I told him was a huge fear) was going crazy. Yesterday, I found your videos and things immediately clicked. I'm not going crazy, and I finally believe that. My therapist never even mentioned the world "depersonalization" and he blamed me over and over again for what I was experiencing. His only suggestion every week was to "challenge the thoughts and face my fears" which led to me fighting with my thoughts and beating myself up emotionally all day long. The warmth and compassion in your videos along with your understanding of EXACTLY what I've been going through gave me hope and I feel happier than I've felt in 2.5 months. Thank you so much.

[@Dpmanual]

@@shaynapowersx Thanks so much for your comment Shayna, and I'm so happy to hear that the videos have been so useful! 😊😊

[@royalerats3072]

I'm late to this video but i'm so glad i found this channel. I have these thoughts like, 'what if the whole world was created just to trick me into thinking it was real', 'what if everyone is just acting to be my friends and family', 'what if there is another reality that i got transported into when i got dp' and 'what if we don't actually have brains and we are just being controlled by some sort of machine'. I know deep down that these thoughts are stupid, but they still scare me.

[@Dpmanual]

Welcome to the channel and I'm very glad to hear the the videos have been useful 😊😊

[@njp8529]

Dude same

[@CanZu7]

I have the same thoughts. It's unbearable... have you recovered?

[@chaeindigo]

@@CanZu7 Not yet, but recently bought the manual and the thoughts are slowing down but the dp is still there. Good luck recovering!

[@0mgskillz96]

The most persistent thought like this that I have revolts around life being a simulation and people, especially my family members, being programmed NPC’s. I understand that these thoughts stem from the DPDR making the outside world and people seem unfamiliar/unreal mixed with me reading about delusions of schizophrenic people, but the persistency of thoughts is what scares me. I know these thoughts aren’t true, but sometimes, especially when they catch me off guard, I get this weird feeling as if I’m about to start believing in them. This causes me to be scared sh*tless, even when I might be chill and relaxed. I just hope I don’t start believing in them and slip into psychosis..

[@ducktelepathy8352]

I am so incredibly grateful I found your website and videos. I was drowning in the fear cycle, completely overwhelmed by anxious feelings day after day. One of my greatest fears (irrational though it may be) is being trapped in a dream and not being able to tell between dream and reality. So having DPDR following an intense existential crisis was like my worst fear coming true. I was so lost until I found your website. I still have to stop the existential thought “what if this is all fake?” about every 10 minutes, but I tell myself now “that is anxiety talking because it’s what you’re most afraid of. You are real, you are here, and the world won’t disappear.” It’s still a struggle but I literally feel 80% recovered in only a few days now. I was so overwhelmed I felt terrified and exhausted at the concept of fighting the fear forever, but hearing from someone who experienced these same thoughts and feelings and made it through has given me the hope and courage I needed to make it through too. Thank you so so much for this.

[@Dpmanual]

I'm so glad to hear the videos and website were so helpful! 😊😊 And don't worry, you absolutely can and will recover! Keep up the good work 😊

[@CanZu7]

Have you recovered completely? I have been having exactly the same fears for 3 weeks now. What if this is all fake, what if my mind is making all these details up? Am I dreaming? This is sooo extremely scary. I try to find valid reasons to tell myself, that I'm not making it up, but my mind questions that too. I've now read the dp manual and hope that will help me recover.

[@ducktelepathy8352]

@@CanZu7 I don’t know that recovering completely is necessarily the goal. I’ve learned to live with the thoughts and find peace despite them. So sometimes, especially when things align just right in an uncanny way, I’ll still have this thought of “what if all this is fake?” But I’ve come to the realization that - so what if it is? That doesn’t mean I care any less about the people I love, and I still enjoy watching silly tv shows, and I still love watching sunsets. I know how terrifying it feels to not know for sure, and to feel like you’ll always have that doubt. But certainty is a myth, and it’s absolutely possible to live a full and wonderful life without knowing anything for sure. It’s all about learning to live with the uncertainty, and keep enjoying life anyway.

[@CanZu7]

@@ducktelepathy8352 thank you so much for your response! It helps :) and I'm glad you've learned to live with it.

[@CathysWorld383]

I can’t even begin to thank you enough. You are out here saving lives, man. Keep up the good work.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to help 😊

[@gone6561]

Seriously, thank you for this. A while ago I was stuck in a very difficult situation. I have panic attacks and I was stuck on a hill with no way to go except down. The vast blueness of the sky and the wide view of the earth below me made me feel awful. I got off that hill, but the memory of it still haunts me to this day. I am currently trying to battle that recurring memory, along with horrid agoraphobia. I have existential thoughts constantly, and make everything bigger than it is. Hearing you say that you were afraid of the sky as well helps me know that I'm not just a nutcase, and that other people have these thoughts too. I feel as if I can fight it. And when I do fight it and conquer it, I'll leave another comment. Thank you so much.

[@Dpmanual]

You're very welcome and I'm looking forward to hearing from you when you've fully recovered 😊 Keep up the good work! 😊

[@celestebrandon-john730]

What scares me the most is tgat ppl saying theyre like that for years. I cant handle this for so long

[@Dpmanual]

Hi, thanks for your comment! 😊 I know DP can be scary but no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com

[@jacobra1184]

@babygirl celb how is it now??

[@Happys_Art]

Don’t be scared. It will go away quickly. Leave everything to god. If you want we can become friends and talk. I truly understand your feelings.

[@kaka2010451]

Just hold on guys you will come out of it. I depersonalised my self after weed trip . dont fight just accept it an let the feeling just go through you.

[@henryprussman5704]

i’ve been accepting it and it’s not as intense but my feelings still feel suppressed how long did it take you

[@kaka2010451]

@@henryprussman5704 3 months was really bad but then started easing on an off around 6 months

[@kaka2010451]

@@henryprussman5704 and another thing think about all the good and bad times you had before Dp put them feeling back in an trying forget about the present.

[@henryprussman5704]

M V thank you

[@henryprussman5704]

@my name eat healthy excercise and do things to keep your mind off it like hangout with friends or family as much as possible watching tv also helped also eat dark chocolate i hood you start feeling better soon it will eventually go away

[@SamandNat13]

the stuck in the coma thing is exactly how i feel sometimes wow. im so grateful i found this channel

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful and you're very welcome to the channel 😊

[@jonsmith568]

my dp went away when i took prozac, for several years then i stopped prozac for 2 months and it came back went back on prozac, no more dp just fyi for those suffering

[@Smichelle00]

This added years to my life... really.. i felt relief for the first time in years. Thank you very, very much.

[@Dpmanual]

I'm so glad it was helpful 😊❤️

[@sheffhub]

When my anxiety gets on top of me I watch your videos, dont know where Id be without them. thank u brother

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear they've been so useful 😊😊

[@ambwrx4545]

I never felt like someone could relate so much

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear it was helpful! 😊

[@whataaryadoin]

sometimes, i get scared by the concept of human beings. I constantly remind myself that i see from my eyes and the rest of my body is just a prop. Weird, but lets get through this!

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment! 😊 And don't worry, existential thoughts like that are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@kentrellminaj3635]

Thank you so much for this. I prayed to God earlier this morning for some help with my DP because it’s been bothering me for so long. I’m now having dreams about it and it’s really scary.

[@Dpmanual]

You're very welcome, glad to hear the video was so helpful! 😊

[@mandy2310]

I am literally doing the same exact thing. And prayed all day and night for help before coming upon these videos. They went even connected to what I was looking for. Hope these help you as much as they seem to be helping me. 🙏

[@fleetwoodfan6951]

I did the same ! It’s almsot weird as a Christian where you know that after life there’s God and Heaven yet you have these crazy depersonalization experiences. But yeah I prayed as well and found these and they helped a ton ! Thank you Lord!

[@VengefulPolititron]

i got mine after sinning. so I thought I was damned.

[@urbannist]

Thank you! Now I know what is this happening to me. Mostly, I'm scared of death and thoughts like "what if the world isn't real", "why the earth is round" and something similar. Recently, I got scared of the fact that every creatures are made up of cells. I know that all these thoughts are absurd, but constant thinking is really tiring me a lot. This video gave me hope that all this is surmountable 👌

[@Dpmanual]

So glad it was helpful! 😊😊

[@gaigeeeeeee]

This video is INSANELY accurate to what Depersonalization and even Existential OCD is like. Thank you for this.

[@Dpmanual]

You're welcome! 😊

[@jackloo7233]

Hearing Shaun enumerate basically all my fears is so cathartic. God bless you, man. Here’s to getting better!

[@Dpmanual]

So glad the videos have been helpful! 😊

[@jonsmith568]

my dp went away when i took prozac, for several years then i stopped prozac for 2 months and it came back went back on prozac, no more dp just fyi for those suffering

[@theascalons1874]

Just came back here to give people hope! Had a bad panic attack with weed about 10 months ago felt DP for almost 6-8 months worst! But now I’m 100% recovered! I think the final stage for my healing is to help people get out from this! You’ll come out stronger than ever!! Don’t hesitate to reach out to me for any help!

[@Dpmanual]

That's fantastic Peter, glad to hear you've recovered! 😊😊

[@oakboy5960]

Can you give me your Instagram

[@ashwinipriyadharashini3863]

I too have same feeling

[@ashwinipriyadharashini3863]

I had my panic attack with 5 month postpartum..almost three months over.but myy thoughts are hell..24/7

[@jennymontelongo5032]

How exactly did you recover? Did it just go on its own, did you get therapy?

[@lolzzznolife]

I do all this, then just question the “purpose” of life. Feels like everything we do is just a huge distraction and nothing really matters we just live to distract ourselves till we die then I overanalyze that idea.

[@habibaumme877]

Hey! Can we speak privately?

[@kewinlasota7228]

this is where I am currently too. :( its so overwhelming and it hurts

[@KaptainKash100]

@@habibaumme877 Can we also speak privately?

[@sal5287]

1 year ago, i thought i was going crazy and that i will never be able to be back to normal again, yet, look at me now i am living my life again, feeling connected again after i thought it was impossible. Dpdr is no joke, it's so scary and frustrating, but it really does go away if you approach it the right way guys. Stay strong it will get better!

[@Dpmanual]

Delighted that you're doing so well 😊

[@angelfrance1595]

I'm at this point that these existential thoughts is getting too overwhelming and too scary. I'm even quite leaning on the thought of suicide to stop this and I could barely convince myself not to. I am happy tho and couldn't thank you enough for creating this video because it was a sense of relief for me to know that what I'm feeling is validated and temporary. I'm currently working on myself to recover. It's hard since I'm a freshman in college but, I'm determined to overcome this.❤️

[@Happys_Art]

Hello my friend. Im sorry for what you’re going through. God loves you and will help all of us. If you want we can become friends and talk about it.

[@ESOInTeNsE]

Determination is key, when it all started for me from a bad experience with weed I didn't understand it very well and found myself desperate. I didn't know what was real and what wasn't, and so it stripped me of any comfort. How could I go to someone to ask for comfort when that person isn't real? What can they, a non-real person, say that will comfort me? So I had to dig deep to really find an anchor, something to hold onto, and it was the determination to do something about it. I figured, well, even if I and the world around me aren't real, I'm still "here" anyway, so I guess it doesn't actually change anything does it? I'm just gonna keep going and work on it. It was months later that I began mindfullness and began paying attention to the thoughts in my head, and realized that they are just thoughts after all. Slowly been recovering since, but I still look almost fondly on that initial month because I learned a lot about my own capabilities and resolve.

[@jackw6660]

@@ESOInTeNsEhow are you now

[@Gerysta]

This made me cry because you describe precisely how I feel. I want to laugh and dance and be calm again. Mine was provoked by severe panic attacks due to loss of smell because of COVID.. My smell is back but my anxiety stayed and then depersonalization episodes. I'll start yoga and meditation.

[@deidrajones1052]

This is me too! I couldn’t smell or taste and I didn’t know it was Covid at the time. I started having panic attacks thinking something was wrong with me. You are not alone! I thought I was out of it. Stay strong !

[@mellonpoop1344]

I’ve had two severe “triggers” within the past few months and now it’s so bad I thought I was going insane because people kept telling me their relatives had similar thoughts and ended up being hospitalized. This video has just made me realized how fixable the issue is and how I shouldn’t be scared of going insane because it’s just thoughts and anxiety which people get help for all the time.

[@Dpmanual]

I'm very glad to hear the video was helpful 😊😊

[@Nettamamiii]

Then why were these relatives hospitalized if it was just thoughts and anxiety? U triggered me now 😂

[@Nettamamiii]

@2fishes444 And what you get in the hospital? What’s doctor’s said ? Do you feel better?

[@Garden223]

It feels like I will never be the same bc I have have thought of these things . How can I ever enjoy life again having realised these terrifying things

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, you can and will get 100% back to normal 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@jbjb6897]

How are you now?

[@Garden223]

@@jbjb6897 perfectly fine:)

[@jbjb6897]

@@Garden223 Really? So great to hear that. How did you get better? Please help me.

[@xmayx2507]

Thank you Shaun. You completely understand what I’m going through. Many people have talked about DP but I haven’t seen the exact question anywhere else that I’ve been asking of “how do people even exist?” when looking at other people. I’m glad you to hear you have made a successful recovery and are now helping other people. You are an amazing person❤

[@Dpmanual]

Always happy to help 😊 ❤

[@rhysh2639]

It feels as though my conciousness is the only thing that exists and sometimes I feel claustrophobic in my own body. I get this urge to want to get out of my body. Other times I feel uncomfortable just for existing.

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

[@calebpaez-98]

4:12 when you said "in a coma" i started to cry. This is exactly how i feel. I cant thank you enough. I now know im not alone ❤❤❤❤❤❤ im forever grateful

[@Dpmanual]

Happy to help 😊❤️

[@calebpaez-98]

​@@Dpmanualand when you mentioned how movies like the matrix can make you feel worse....I really feel like it's not just me! I watched the backrooms, some creepy horror movie on KZbin. Made me question everything 😭😭 but I was able to move past it ❤❤

[@Dpmanual]

@@calebpaez-98 Oh yeah, that type of stuff used to completely freak me out aswell 😊 Great that you're feeling better ❤

[@jonsmith568]

my dp went away when i took prozac, for several years then i stopped prozac for 2 months and it came back went back on prozac, no more dp just fyi for those suffering

[@MrMomst]

thank you so much man ive been felling dp for a month now thinking im not real and im trying to stop weed i thought that i was gonna die when the anxiety got the best of me when i thought things werent real i thought i was gonna disconnect but that doesnt happen and wont thank you so much youve really helped me understand why i feel like this, youre really changing lives out there, mine included

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks so much for the kind words, very glad to hear the video was so useful 😊😊

[@bigsmokegaming838]

never smoke weed again

[@yungsativa2359]

@@bigsmokegaming838 100% correct I kept ignoring thr signs and carried on smoking and I ended up in hospital and have just brought stress to my family aswell as me now I hope u can learn from me 😊

[@sjzara]

I have suffered from this so often throughout my life. You are the first person who has described it exactly.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful Steve! 😊 And don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DP off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com/articles

[@saranr2176]

Guys I’m telling you, his words are the truth💯. I was able to recover from my DP in like 3-4 days max. I had a really bad panic attack and it caused DP. Accompanied with the fact that I had seen The Matrix, was interested in quantum physics, used to smoke weed and had spent quarantine with my thoughts, I was genuinely believing in these absurd thoughts about simulations, being high, stuck with DP for 10+ years etc. Trust me, these negative thoughts aren’t real, and that you are very much real. You can recover within days maybe hours if you want. The DP manual is really helpful and I’m sure it can help you just as therapy will. If anyone’s trynna talk I’m here for y’all🙂

[@Dpmanual]

Wow, thanks so much for your comment and I'm delighted to hear that you're recovered! 😊

[@hungryburger6195]

How did it go away?

[@saranr2176]

@@hungryburger6195 You just ignore it completely and you won’t feel anxious about it. DP is a habit of thought, and only becomes a syndrome if you dwell on it like Sean says. Just move on with your day and it’ll go away naturally quickly. Also exercise and social interaction are two good ways to keep your mind occupied. Hope that helps u

[@hungryburger6195]

@@saranr2176 I think your right! The past few days I was very occupied and didnt realise that I had it, it came back today cuz I thought about it. Thanks For the advice, I'll make ways to distract me from it

[@saranr2176]

@@hungryburger6195 You’re welcome!

[@williamshaw6075]

Thank You so much! Been suffering with this for 6 months and it honestly feels like it's impossible to get rid of. I cried so much at this video, and the part about getting freaked out when watching movies like the Matrix, is SPOT ON! I used to love those type of films and find them intriguing and now even thinking about those movies can give me an anxiety attack! Thank you for giving me hope once again! I feel like there's a light at the end of the tunnel! For anyone out there who is still suffering from DP. You're not alone, you're not crazy, and we will beat this together!! :D

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful William! 😊😊

[@veera.8566]

yessss

[@jieun208]

I was crying the whole video.. so scared that I’m in a serious issue

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful 😊😊

[@jieun208]

@@Dpmanual still i can’t stop thinking about all of this, i would think until i reach a very scary feeling and it repeats.. I’m turning crazy!

[@Dpmanual]

@@jieun208 Don't worry, you're not going crazy 😊 Read this: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/

[@d.7472]

1:24 Wow, just hearing someone adressing these thoughts that's been tormenting me relieves me so much.. Thank you so much, you've given me some hope

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it was helpful! 😊😊

[@DoomsdayApparatus]

Thank you! I'm finally finding people who touch on the existential panic just when it has began affecting me the most. I remember I would panic at night because I was "thinking" about my "thoughts". My heart would beat a mile a minute accompanied by the most shrill, antagonizing fear I've ever felt in the pit of my stomach. I read somewhere that someone cured themselves by just thinking of everything as just "is" real or not. This way of thinking, along with water fasting, has helped me.

[@icantchooseaname6903]

Yeet! :DDDD

[@ashleyriosrizo]

How are you doing now?

[@nicolerodrigues6258]

So glad to see I’m not the only one who finds it scary to actually be thinking. hope you’re doing well and thank you so much for sharing that…Any updates?🥺

[@DoomsdayApparatus]

@@nicolerodrigues6258 Hey! I'm doing so much better, I find that depending on what I eat, it will literally go away, and I'm talking 100%. And it's crazy, sometimes I can eat something and it will just come rushing back. But it's gotten to the point where it doesn't bother me if I do eat incorrectly and it comes back, because now I know it's probably something to do with overproduction of mucus in the body (from bad eating habits like meat and dairy and sweets and beers). Fruit/vegetable fasting along with alkaline dietary teas and affirmation/subs helped a lot in the beginning. I was able to smile again, genuinely. I originally got dpdr after a four hour long "greening out" from some super highly potent edibles my friend bought online. I was stuck for hours, convulsing, feeling as if I was "god" stuck in "eternity". I recovered that night but a few nights later I ate some cookies and it literally felt like that feeling washed over me from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes. I lived through hell for one year and a half, so bad that I started growing grey hairs. But I have total control over that monster now. (P.S., that experience gave me small ptsd-like symptoms so still to this day I can't eat brownies or rice krispies that others have made, lol.) So don't get anxious thinking it's a mental thing that you can only control so much, you have complete control over it, it's just something wrong inside of the body that needs cleaning!

[@martaferreira6442]

I don’t feel like I am myself, I feel like I’m a different person, and it is just terrifying. I find being a human really weird and I can’t even think of how will I continue my life and recover from this …

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Marta, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DP can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com

[@martaferreira6442]

@@Dpmanual thank you so much, sometimes I feel like I’m nothing, you know, like I don’t have a body, like I don’t exist, do you get me? Have you ever experienced this?

[@Dpmanual]

@@martaferreira6442 Yep, those are very common with DP: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

[@lk2386]

Thank you so much for this video! I am suffering from depersonalization. When you said looking at other humans and wondering how are humans real. That is exactly what I feel. Or wondering how I a separate person from others. Or how I see out of my body but others see out of theirs. Just such deep thoughts that are constantly scaring me. Thank you for the video

[@Dpmanual]

You're very welcome, and I'm delighted to hear the video was helpful! 😊😊

[@KaptainKash100]

How are you doing now??

[@rosie7441]

Did you recover?

[@lk2386]

Hi everyone, I have made a compete full recovery about a year a half after my worst depersonalization/derealization days ! I feel the best I have ever felt in my life. I didn’t think I was gonna get through it but I came out better on the other side! I don’t have any depersonalization or these thoughts I spoke about a year ago at all anymore. I’m back to college and I’m happy! Love you all, don’t give up!!!

[@rosie7441]

@@lk2386 do you have any tip?

[@ParisChristianne]

I thought I was alone! Your description of the existential thoughts like how do cats or dogs exist or being scared of looking in the mirror instantly made me cry because of how perfectly they describe me lately. Thank you so much

[@Dpmanual]

So glad it was helpful! 😊 And don't worry, you're definitely not alone! 😊

[@satioOeinas]

THanku for this!!! Got this at age 17. dissapered for some years, but they came back during isolation in covid. My cure has always been being social and busy in school and life in general. The scarzy thoughts creep up when my life is slowing down.

[@ogLa84]

I just needed that right now.. when im working monday to friday I dont feel my dp/dr so strong. But friday evening to sunday it‘s so bad that I dont want to think anything anymore... I feel so worthless when these existential thoughts hit me like a wall. And then I get the fear of a panik attack and it makes it even worse. It is such a relief to know that Im not alone with this, THANK YOU SO MUCH❤️

[@Dpmanual]

You're so welcome, I'm delighted to hear the video was so helpful! 😊😊

[@swapnilshirke347]

Hey brother I am from India and I have symptoms of DPDR and here it is so difficult to make someone understand as people are not aware about it I did my research for days I found it out and I got your channel finally and it explained me " I find humans weird and as if they are artificial or not real the thought use to scare me" you answered it in your video and I feel relaxed now

[@Dpmanual]

So glad to hear it was helpful! 😊😊

[@rowceo]

Coming back to this video to say your videos and guide really helped me get out of derealization 3 years ago. I am forever grateful to have found your tools ❤ to anyone currently suffering it’s not permanent whatsoever you will learn your way out of this feelings trust

[@Dpmanual]

So happy to hear that! 👏Drop me a line if you'd like to have your story featured on the channel 😊

[@BattlesCinematics]

I'd heard the phrase before but I sure as hell wasn't aware of what an existential crisis actually was but about a month ago, I was just minding my own business one night and out of nowhere I just started having these thoughts about life and death, the mystery of existance and the futile nature of it all. It was as if I slipped into this little pit in my mind where all the brutal truths about the nature of existence had been living without my knowledge. Suddenly they were revealed to me and I felt like life would never be the same now that I'd realised these things. Thoughts started to get really dark and the notion of eventual suicide was cropping up while I was writhing in my bed, trying to sleep. Thankfully, the absolute worst feelings took place over the first 5 days or so and it has been a little bit less severe for me since. These thoughts have literally been making me feel physically sick, I get a horrible knot in my stomach, it gave me diarrhea and I've felt like throwing up a few times. I'm doing as much research as I can into this and am taking solace in the fact that according to the internet, it shouldn't last forever. I went to the park to meditate yesterday and as I was sitting there, breathing, I started to get really overwhelmed. A hazy fuzziness started radiating through my entire body and my mind felt as though it could have just disintegrated into the void at any moment. I was tempted to just get up and walk it off out of sheer terror but I sat there with it for about 10 minutes doing my best to acknowledge and accept the feelings whilst also acknowledging the presence of my body and focusing on my breathing. Despite the horrors of the thoughts, facing them, being strong and not letting them beat me felt really, really carthartic. Beautiful even. I became so emotional I started crying tears of joy. At that moment I realised not all hope is lost and that life is actually really beautiful in a lot of profound ways. I'm really trying to look at this as an interesting experience that will ultimately lead to positive change in my life. If anything, I'm starting to feel really thankful for my mind and body, I'm amazed by what I am now, to be honest. What amazing creatures we are that our brain can subconsciously detect when you aren't living life the way you know you should be so it starts hitting you with these insane realisations so that you hopefully get your shit together and starting doing what is right for you. Despite it feeling like your mind turning against you, it's the total opposite. You are an amazing thing made of many different parts, all of which want the best for you. Feelings like this are a warning that you aren't doing what you know you should be. Good luck to all of you going on this journey. It's for the best! You are loved.

[@esterb8254]

I feel you deeply

[@Hellion_IX]

I feel you 100%. I remember one day in December, I started having these existential thoughts out of nowhere in the middle of the night. Just like you did. Since then, it has changed my life. The best you can do is remind yourself that you always deserve better and let go of the urge of wanting to know it all. It'll pass, I promise 😊

[@awatif-rajab]

Thank you for this, I’ve had this strange feeling of being stuck in a dream, and as much as i knew that couldn’t be possible, it still kept lingering. And this helped me so much, thank you!

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it helped! 😊😊

[@rosie7441]

Did you recover?

[@awatif-rajab]

@@rosie7441 Yes I did! I no longer let these thoughts get to me. If I felt any of those thoughts creeping up on me, I instantly let go of them because there’s just no point to waste your time thinking about this. Live in the present and don’t worry too much; life is right here and right now. I know it’s easier said than done, but focus on all the other things that life has to offer, and know that you’re not the only one who has had such thoughts. Indulge yourself in your daily life activities and continue life normally. Here’s one of the quotes that helped me: “The easiest way to tell that you are not losing touch with reality is that you think that you are losing touch with reality.” It might seem scary but when you look back and think about it, you’ll almost question why such thoughts ever got to you! It’s just a matter of time. Time heals. Wishing you the best!

[@rosie7441]

@@awatif-rajab Omg thank you very much for answering, I get these thoughts when I'm outside and basically I'm afraid of being scared, I started dpdr 3 weeks ago and I feel like I got over that visual effect of being in a dream but the existential thoughts remained. Thank you very much, your comment helped me a lot. sorry for my english

[@awatif-rajab]

@@rosie7441 No worries! Also your English is perfect. I wish you well, and to make you feel better, I felt much happier after going through this experience. Sure it might be scary at first, but it really helped me see life in a different perspective, it helped me appreciate every little thing in life, no matter how small. It’s truly an overwhelming feeling that causes anxiety, but once you’re able to control the fear, you’ll feel better. Remember that it’s nothing dangerous, these feelings just seem to scare us and make us feel like we’re in danger, even though we are not. Everything truly happens for a reason, and you’ll eventually look beyond this experience.

[@CryptidLurks]

These statements are so spot on. Literally every one of those “panic thoughts” has raced through my head. These videos help tremendously by finally relating to someone. Thank you for the assistance and help.

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks Joey, I'm happy to help! 😊

[@daanvd3734]

I continuesly have thought about solipsism and wondered what is real. I don’t know how to dealt with this, it is really hard. But watching these videos once in a while helps a lot and i hope to get better soon

[@Dpmanual]

I'm glad to hear the videos have been helpful 😊 And don't worry, you can and will get better, 100% 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@zyvnayrthfalconshadow1228]

I can relate to this so much, these sort of thoughts are awful, and I am thinking about these sort of things 24/7. Sometimes I feel like they will never go away. I also worry sometimes think that I am the only person that is actually real, and wonder why am I me. I am typing these thoughts as I am watching the video, and the more I think about it, you are right, they are just thoughts. I've been experiencing depersonalisation for over a month now, usually it will last most of the day, but when I manage to stop thinking about it, it usually just comes back. After watching your videos, I am more determined than ever to get these thoughts aside and feel real again. I am so glad I have found your channel, thank you so much!

[@graciegavin745]

the existencial thoughts are killing me. has it went away from u?

[@Happys_Art]

@@graciegavin745 don’t worry brother. It will go away. Leave everything to god. God will save us all my friend. God loves us all. Can we become friends. We can talk about everything.

[@jackw6660]

@@graciegavin745are you any better?

[@meltyglaze8399]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS VIDEO! I was scared thinking that I was going insane and that I was the only one but I just found it that it’s an actual mental disorder! For anyone that’s suffering, just know that your not alone and that the best way to deal with the problem is to go outside and interact more with others 👍

[@Dpmanual]

So glad it was helpful! 😊 And don't worry, you're not going crazy: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/

[@kiddbrescaly2506]

i watched your videos yesterday abs woke up today feeling the most normal i’ve felt since it happened a month ago. i started having a little bit out thoughts, but i remembered what you said in your video abt how it’s not dangerous or permanent! im slowly feeling better all thanks to you shaun! THANK YOU THANK YOU 🙏🏾

[@kiddbrescaly2506]

sorry for the autocorrects 😅

[@Dpmanual]

You're so welcome! 😊😊

[@RGeth]

Honestly, after tears of suffering with Anxiety Ive finally found someone that knows how I feel. Thank you so much for making these

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear the videos are helpful Rhys! 😊😊

[@mikechrist9699]

How are you?

[@alanacseas]

i’ve been suffering for like a week after a triggering panic attack (and conveniently reading existentialist writers), and this has kinda helped. thank you

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear the video was helpful Alana! 😊 Remember that DP is a natural reaction to stress and trauma, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com

[@seanmc9393]

I started to question reality maybe 2 years ago, but not until recently that it started effecting almost everything in my daily life. I now look at co workers and question not only mine, but their existence. The mirror thing you mentioned blew my mind, sometimes I stare at myself and question my reality. How is it, that we went 14 billion years of no existence, yet we came to life sometime in recent years (recent given the timeline of our universe) and just go about life… I’m 25 and its felt like I’ve been here so long yet we are mere fragments with respect to our universes “existence”, and when we die it’s nothingness forever (depending on your view of religion and what not). So many things I wish I could bring up but you hit all the big things I’ve been feeling lately, hopefully I can reflect on this video and start to see the brighter sides of what you mention and capitalize on them. Thanks for this video nonetheless, I feel less alone now.

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Sean and I'm very glad to hear the video was useful 😊

[@johnbold]

Well done - not just for the generosity of spirit in sharing this, but for the simple, calm way that you've articulated this condition. This is the best video series on this topic that I've seen.

[@Dpmanual]

Wow, thank you! 😊

[@jarrydfinniss6552]

This started for me a couple days ago....i thought I could handle it but I reached out and I caught you're videos.. Having adhd and anxiety.. These videos made me feel so secure.. I'm so glad I'm not alone.. Thank you so so so much @everyone and depersonilization manual.. I go in and out of my grounded state but I'm trying my best.. Thank you everyone

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Jarryd and I'm so glad to hear the videos were helpful! 😊😊

[@Iiivyyh]

Are you okay now? Did it pass?

[@jarrydfinniss6552]

It comes and goes.. I try not to fight it and just let it be.. Do you get it are you ok?.. Iv been away for work this week and being very busy has helped

[@Iiivyyh]

@@jarrydfinniss6552 glad it went away for you :)

[@jarrydfinniss6552]

@@Iiivyyh well not completely but I mean.. One day at a time right?

[@xovierzwtf1013]

I have got a lot better I’ve had it for about a month and a half. It was caused by a panic attack and it got worse but over the month I got way better thank you so much for this video God bless❤️

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment and I'm very glad to hear the video was helpful! 😊😊

[@leticiaamorim4315]

Hi! I've been doing a lot better thanks to the manual but I still get a lot of existential thoughts, this video helped me a lot to have a little bit of reassurance! Sometimes it gets so hard that I almost believe the intrusive thoughts, but it's good to know that nothing has changed and nothing will. Looking forward to full recovery! Thanks for the videos :)

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Letícia 😊 Keep up the good work and enjoy your recovery! ❤️

[@ranveersoni3574]

Leticia what type of existential thought you get??

[@snoop3318]

Checking on these every once in a while really helps prevent future episodes, thanks a lot ❤

[@Dpmanual]

Very glad the videos have been helpful 😊❤

[@lauramanton8144]

I had the worst of this disorder for over 12 years, I’ve been free of it for 8 years, and even the smallest things in life make me happy now, because this disorder nearly made me take my own life. .I pretty much used something similar to this technique along with medication to recover. This is such a well put together, helpful video. Well done DP manual, I’m sure you can reach many people this way👍❤️

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks so much for your comment Laura and I'm very happy to hear that you're recovered 😊👍

[@davedoodles]

I see posts like this--people who have dealt with it for ten years or better--and it's just mind-blowing. I can't imagine dealing with it for that long. I've only had it for five months. The worst stopped after about a month and a half, and now it's in occasional waves--fewer and further between. I don't know if yours was a constant stream of it or if it was off and on, but either way, that's absolutely incredible. Twelves years...I just can't begin to fathom that.

[@lauramanton8144]

David Perry it was the start of 2001, so hardly anyone knew about it, limited internet and no social media. That’s the only reason I had it as long as I did! I honestly don’t know how I got through it, it ruined my 20s. I had my son in 2006 though and he was my life saviour for sure.

[@josecarmona8046]

@@Dpmanual You are awesome Shaun! I’ve been following you for a while, today I arrived to your KZbin channel (finally!), and trust me.. you are a Godsend for many.. Thanks a lot!

[@Dpmanual]

@@josecarmona8046 So glad to help Jose! 😊😊

[@bottle3014]

you have no idea how much this helped me. thank you thank you thank you

[@Dpmanual]

So glad to hear it! 😊😊

[@kayleydrummond1819]

i've been struggling with this for a couple weeks now. i keep going back and forth between feeling TOO real and freaked out that i exist to feeling like im not real. i can't even look up at the sky without feeling anxious because my head can't wrap around that we're here. its been making my life miserable.

[@babiiluv7931]

Please hang on. It will go away. The thoughts will go away too. I went through the SAME ish man. I know what you are going through. Mines went away within a week or so.

[@rosie7441]

This is happening to me, did you recover?

[@rosie7441]

@@babiiluv7931 i need helpp

[@babiiluv7931]

@@rosie7441 hey, my DPDR went away. The only thing that is lingering are the realizations of me existing. It’s not as bad. I am finding ways to maneuver around the realization or learning to accept it. That taking some time. Some days it’s intensely scary and other days it’s gone to where I can focus on shopping, work, school etc. how are you feeling now?? Are you okay?

[@rosie7441]

@@babiiluv7931 It started 3 weeks ago, I have no visual effects, the first week I felt like in a dream but then my vision returned to first person, I was just very scared of everything. these thoughts are the worst. I feel something similar, it's like I can't believe I exist.

[@tonytrillz3162]

I want to give you a hug😂 if anyone is wanting to get the dp manual but doesn’t want to spend the money, just buy it. I have been hesitant for a while but after only listening to one of the videos in the manual I feel 10x better and we will all recover very soon but also have patience😉

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Tony and I'm so glad to hear you're starting to feel better already! 😊

[@abhisheksing8379]

Thank you! It helped a lot. You described everything perfectly.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad it helped! 😊