Drug Addict's Sister interview-Allison

[@hellbabyy]

Im an addict named Logan as well, and i have a younger sister who’s suffered from my addiction, real eye opener, i have 5 months clean now and fentanyl has no control over my life anymore

[@alexinanalogue2645]

I wish you the very best, you’ll only get stronger from here on in.

[@shasmi93]

Stay strong! I too am finally sober from alcohol and beer death from that addiction. The only “substance” I use now is mushrooms. Stay away from drugs and if you feel the need to relapse go do some mushrooms and they will guide you back to a healthy sober mindset. If you don’t want to do psychedelics than find something else that work but drugs are always just a dead end. We know that by now. Learned that lesson many times over.

[@BeeKay4444]

Congratulations. Great job and keep fighting for your sobriety as you are worth it.

[@dannymcintyre3819]

Solidarity

[@lucy4diguardo500]

So proud of you

[@lindasacks8572]

This woman's articulation skills are off the charts. I lost my son to an overdose almost 5 years ago. Its some kind of heart breaking pain that will never go away.

[@meriahsouter4323]

I'm sorry for your loss one mother to another I can't imagine your pain 🙏

[@texaslife956rodz6]

Im soo sorry❤

[@HP-fn4bo]

What a lovely woman. She talked about herself by telling us about the people she loves and the compassion she has for them.

[@bearmarshmallowinc.1979]

What a lovely way to put it. She seems like a sweet, loving sister. Life is so hard sometimes. ❤️❤️❤️

[@twinpyramid5985]

She really wants the best for her brother’s 💯

[@Shornandkenny]

I concur

[@AuntAlnico4]

I think she's sweet and all but a little naive, maybe that's what makes her seem so sweet and heartfelt 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@AuntAlnico4 🤷🤦

[@lionelscarf2872]

This is ingenious, hearing from the people who are affected by addicts is a great new perspective into the difficulties and issues that families have to deal with

[@roxannerodriguez7075]

Yes!!

[@gggallin8279]

The small part where they talked about how addiction can affect your children is really the reason I’ll never have children. The substances I abused and the mental struggles I’ve already had before that probably messed by chemical balance pretty badly up and I wouldn’t want a child to go through the same shit

[@emilyy9674]

thank you for saying this! it's extremely lonely and you don't have many people that relate to you as the sibling of an addict.

[@janaemeyer7394]

I grew up with 2 siblings who have been addicts for nearly my(22f) whole life. they still are. my brother overdosed on fentanyl a month ago and im the only person he told. i watch how my mom treated my oldest sister when she was withdrawing from heroine. i witnessed a lot, i have a broken family, not just from the drug use but other familial issues as well. drug use really is detrimental to not only the user, but the family and friends of the user as well. Watching people you love so much try so hard to get off that path, and fail over and over, when theres nothing you can do about it is extremely heartbreaking and hurts so much to watch. I have many horror stories of holidays, the rare visit to see my sister and my mom would make it very clear to me that she had a gun on her and that i needed to be careful of touching her back. i was probably 10 years old. its not a good life for a child to see and experience.

[@lionelscarf2872]

@@gggallin8279 wow, it really touched me too. One really starts to wonder.

[@8beef4u]

This is good for addicts to see. Life doesn't end if you OD. It continues to haunt the people who loved you.

[@ellygarcia6986]

I wouldnt say haunt. I'd say affect... to an extent bit only of you let it!

[@MzClementine]

​@@ellygarcia6986 I think haunt is perfect.

[@Goldie789]

How can you not "let it"? Honestly, when you truly love a person and they pass away, OF COURSE it's going to affect you! It's not a matter of letting it. A person who is a huge part of your life is now gone. That's a big change and a very painful part of life. ✌🏻

[@PamAftertheStorm]

​@Goldie789 Absolutely true! That will definitely haunt, affect and traumatize you as the family left behind! This hurt me listening to her tell it, so I can only IMAGINE what they are still going thru! Well said, and you are one of the rare Empathetic humans still out here. I pray they somehow find some healing....I truly do 😢🙏🏼❤️🕊🕊🕊

[@PamAftertheStorm]

Very true, I hope other addicts see this as well....people are so much more than their addiction, and deserve love, support and healing! It absolutely haunts the family left behind! 😢😢😊❤❤🕊🕊

[@ldravland]

I found my brother dead of an overdose in 2020. This is the story of so many of us. Thank you for sharing. Not enough people do

[@jameseastwood4984]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[@BeeKay4444]

I’m sad for your loss. 💚

[@sunsetstormx]

I'm so deeply deeply sorry for your loss. I too lost someone. My own daughter found her sister. It's just too much

[@thomasmorano7779]

So sorry to hear may God make you a strong person n to heal..my prayers for you.🙏

[@jennifergannuscio6086]

HUGE AND SWEETEST OF HUGS TO YOU 🌹

[@miles2127]

She is phenomenal. One of the best interviews on this page. I’m glad to see she is leading a positive life.

[@BostonBuzz]

Yup, mission accomplished for Allison, she got her Hollywood publicity. Doesn't Mark have like 3mm subscribers. Allison's phone will be ringing off the hook for sure 🤨

[@thekatt...]

💯💯💯❤

[@jesuschristismylord4043]

Honestly what makes a positive life would be having Christ first. Do that and the positive will follow

[@fricklefart90]

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[@jesuschristismylord4043]

@@fricklefart90 are you a child of God or child of Satan? Who do you serve

[@TheAndred1]

Her ability to naturally tell her story brings you into how much she loves her brother through the worst and best . Her conscious scope just dragged me into her love and lost .

[@GiGi_to_3]

Because many addicts view the videos on this channel, I think more of these videos are necessary. There are not many platforms that give the family & friends affected by addiction, a voice. Sometimes there is a sigh of relief that the addict is not struggling anymore but as she says, he had so much more life to live. RIP Logan & may his friends & family continue to grow through this process 🙏

[@mamarobyn]

This is so interesting. I agree I started out as the daughter of addicts and then became an one so when you have both experiences it's definitely way different..I can't Imagine really the pain that I put my family thru. I try to because I was once on the other side but once you let that monster take over you really forget who you were. I've been clean for 5 years and I'm just now starting to really live life.

[@emilyy9674]

thank you for sharing this! it's extremely lonely as the family member of an addict. so many ups & downs.

[@Lee-fs1rg]

Justice for Amanda Rabb. This channel is linked to her story.

[@Shortkonner]

We do watch this channel. If anyone wants to know, we are sorry. I went from mad at her to respecting her. This was a very good interview.

[@JSlove-mj3uk]

I agree. The drugs also hurt the family very deeply. It saddens me to know that my daughter may feel the same way about her father.. just breaks my heart.. addiction affects, destroys and tears families apart Sending love from Philly 🕊️

[@sarahevans3622]

Our son died the same way Allisons brother died. He has four siblings and they all have struggled. One son was estranged from nathan and has had a hard time moving forward. It brought our family closer but we're all still trying to move forward while keeping Nathans memory alive. Nothing is worse than losing a child. Your world fractures.

[@meriahsouter4323]

Oh wow this is heartbreaking I'm sorry for your loss

[@angelamoran1479]

This young lady is so intelligent and eloquent. I could listen to her for hours. A wonderful storyteller of a tragedy that sadly affects thousands of families.

[@tracywilliamsliterature]

Want to send love & respect to Allison from the UK. I was first prescribed opioid pills in L.A... then a 20 year addiction. I am now 5 months clean. Never really understood why my family were in such a panic about my addictions. Listening to Allison opened up a new perspective. Best wishes.xx

[@maryannhope8276]

5 months is awesome. Please take care of yourself and remember #Weoutthere Peace

[@ldravland]

5 months is incredible. All the best to you ❤️❤️

[@esrealwilleatit8574]

Congratulations on your sobriety! Five months is awesome. Next time you think about it it’ll be a year, then 5 years, and you’ll realize just how awesome your life has become! Keep trying and keep smiling and always remember that Gods love goes with you anywhere you go!

[@tracywilliamsliterature]

@@esrealwilleatit8574 thank you from all my heart for such a lovely message.x

[@tracywilliamsliterature]

@@ldravland thank you.x

[@Char-kd3og]

To speak so eloquently about something so raw and painful is truly remarkable. I can only hope that this lady decides to go on to help others, to learn to express their pain and grief in the way she has here. This is such a gift - most likely a gift from her dear brother ❤️

[@christinemeyers1136]

Girl, I feel you so much. I sincerely never write comments, but your story struck me. I finally got the call too. It was my dad. He was at a homeless shelter. Unfortunately, I still worry daily about my mother and sister. My mother is still street based homeless, and my sister continues to not do so well between her addictions and mental health issues. I wish you well girl. I know it's not easy. I give you major props for getting up here and talking about it with so many people. You never know who you will touch. xoxo

[@MonicaMooring]

As the sister, family member, and friend of so many addicts I feel her pain. I know those tears, fears, and heartache. My sister was on the streets and used for over 10 years. The first OD loss I experienced was at 13 years old of a friend. The obituaries just piled on from there. I love how she can look past her, what I'm sure is, anger and grief to see that it was a hard battle he was facing. Addicts aren't bad people. They have done bad things but that isn't what defines them or who they are. It takes a lot to see that. Many of us grieve their loss long before they leave this world. Death doesn't stop the pain addiction brings, it only stops the addicts pain. All of us left behind have to learn from their journey. I absolutely adore how she describes him as a person and not just his struggle. She is wonderful!

[@khalilahd.]

Seeing one family member suffer from addiction is hard enough but TWO is unbelievable and at such a young age. I’m so sorry she lost her brother but I pray she stays close with her other brother and he stays clean 🙏🏽

[@serengeti4027]

i always see you writing nice messages. 🙌❤😊

[@lindseysellers2288]

What a wonderful sister. You can see how much she loved her brother.

[@twinpyramid5985]

The sincerity in her voice made me feel her pain, you can tell when a person really wants better for someone else. Allison became selfless put her life to the side numerous times for her brothers, a true testament of unconditional love💯

[@BuddhatheRockstar]

She had such a positive message. Her perspective on everything her brother went through was from a very loving place. No judgment.

[@callmebyurname77]

He really needs to try & get more of these videos with the family of someone addicted. Because the love ones suffered greatly too

[@carolinesnowe3885]

We don’t care about the carnage. Or if we do it just fuels the guilt and makes it worse. Change comes from within.

[@ryleysemperger]

I'm recovering from fentanyl and this makes me think of all the shit I put my sister through.. love ya sis thanks for never giving up on me 💜

[@Kimberly-jz2ts]

As a sister who shares and understands a brother going through addiction, please always remember that when you are a sister of a brother, we always usually feel the need to protect our brothers. We love like a mother in a sense of that makes sense to you. We always usually feel that we should take on more to help our brothers when they are hurting. It's hard to protect our brothers when it's themselves that's hurting them. Sometimes it's unbearable almost emotionally. We may get very moody with you guys at times but it's out of being so afraid of losing our brother. A sisters love for a brother is so very strong. I know for my brothers id go against anyone for them but it is incredibly hard to go against addiction for them and win and we know this and it's hard to accept that we have no control over the harm that's being done to our brothers. Addiction is very hard for the people who love you. I pray you stay clean for yourself first and foremost and also your family. Every day, remember why you never wanna go back. Find one thing to just hang on to. You can do this! There's no pill or bag of dope thats worth your life. To your sister and family you're priceless and life wouldn't be the same for them without you there to share it with. I sincerely hope that you have much success in your sobriety and recovery

[@Mimi-bs7kn]

I wish you well on your journey of sobriety hang in there and take one day at a time, pray 🙏🏾

[@ryleysemperger]

Much love everybody 💜

[@Kimberly-jz2ts]

@@ryleysemperger I hope you are still doing well with your recovery!

[@sydneyfc7769]

Get off the drugs simple fix

[@harveydjent9228]

Fighting tears rn. What a remarkable human being.

[@billseivers3528]

Our society has lost so much from the effects of addition. Not only the loss of precious lives, but the lost contributions to our society and the needless suffering of family members. Allison's pain comes through loud and clear, but I believe her strength will grow from her pain.

[@Games.Gadgets.Sports]

This hit home so much. Lost my wife to prescription overdose in 19....I hate drugs and pills. Rip shannan

[@2ATILLTHEYBURYME]

R.I.P. 🙏🏾

[@timgutierrez2211]

I also lost my wife to Rx druigs 14 years ago. I understand

[@DrSchor]

As a grown man you must now face the hard facts like Jack Webb to reach the appropriate conclusions however unpleasant or unpopular those conclusions are, if you are to improve conditions for the current teens: you did not lose your wife to prescriptions and overdosing. You did not lose your wife to a "system", or failure of the government to act. That thinking is very shallow and feels right because it absolves you of responsibility. Analyze this deeply, and correctly so others can be helped. As her husband, you took on the duty to care for her as no one else can. Remember in the USA we have personal freedom to take or not take any action. You must conclude that you lost your wife to your failure to monitor her, to your failure to intervene, in short, to your failure to help her. Young people, with limited experience and ability to make correct choices, will never be helped if this harsh conclusion is not accepted.

[@sugarsore]

@@DrSchor What a disgusting comment. You have no idea who this person is or what their circumstances are/were.

[@Games.Gadgets.Sports]

@@timgutierrez2211 sorry for your loss as well. Very hard to go through

[@torilamb1389]

This needs to be a Netflix series. I learn something from every episode. More people need to see this. I’m so happy Alex stayed clean. They have an amazing sister. Thank you.

[@paranoidhumanoid]

I just lost my brother to addiction a few weeks ago. It's still raw but I'm slowly moving on. This story brought back the memories and how I both love and resent him for it. ❤️

[@nancyb2003]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope time helps you build your peace of mind after such a senseless tragedy.

[@KYhomes4u]

I’m so sorry you lost your brother. Prayers for your heart♥️

[@stacyjaye6350]

Sending you courage, strength, and hugs from Tulsa, Oklahoma.☮️💖🫂

[@dawnserrano737]

Sorry for your loss..

[@rosep9866]

Please don't resent him for his drug use,, drugs had him not he had drugs,, it will make sense to you later as you grow.. just love him as he was unconditional.. God Bless

[@wendyzeigler597]

What a well spoken person. I was mesmerized by her story due to her delivery. Thanks Mark.

[@328Fairy]

Absolutely love her. Her clarity, her awareness, her spirituality...it all shines. I am so sorry for her loss, and I have lost a brother, a sister, and currently have a sister in deep addiction right now. Her words resonated with me so much. Thank you for sharing her story, Allison!

[@QurVgn]

I don’t know why I’m crying. The way she talks, the word choices, the softness and kind of peaceful ease - in the midst of everything - is so beautiful. If you see this, I’m So proud of you; you’re a Rockstar!

[@beezkneeezz]

One of my favorite interviews of all time. She’s a wonderful story teller.

[@MissEricaBarnes]

I love that we’re able to see the opposite side of addiction. I’m so angry how they literally tore the family apart. Goes to show addiction truly is a disease and affects more than just the addict. Prayers for everyone

[@TheKristin43]

What a beautiful young lady who speaks so eloquently. I couldn’t help but cry..

[@sunsetstormx]

This is such a beautiful sister giving a testament of her amazing loved vibrant brother. Breaks my heart that drugs take people away from us. I lost my own daughter She was only 25. Heroin. I hate drugs. I miss her so bad. I'm so proud of this young lady. I hope and pray that her brother Alex stays strong. Because addiction is very deep in a person's soul. But there is hope. This family sounds so special. I'm so sorry for what they went through and what they are going to be going through always because of the pain that's in their hearts.

[@sixdinnersyd]

I lost my 21 year old daughter to a fentanyl analog in 2017. It's been a rough road but insights like this one help me to carry on. I love what Allison said about our capacity to experience and view love differently after a loss such as this. I am also changed and feel my daughter every day. The signs from her are regular and undeniable. Thank you for this.

[@meriahsouter4323]

I'm so sorry for your loss 🙏

[@neworleans1979]

Allison-you are such a beautiful being. The love you all have for each other is beyond intriguing yet so captivating. Keep your brother close and your precious daughter will always be reminded of Logan. You all are so special . Praying Alex stays on the right path. My heart is with you all. Much love from my heart to yours-Katie I lost my first brother in 2009 to opioid addiction. He was extremely intelligent graduating at the age of 15 from high school and graduated valedictorian from LSU with a degree in petroleum engineering. He passed at the age of 34 as a very successful functioning addict yet it took him way too soon. Addiction doesn’t discriminate. I lost my second and last brother in 2021 to alcohol addiction. He was amazing yet just couldn’t put down the alcohol. He wind up passing from liver failure. Very very horrible death as I seen him at the hospital with blood coming out his nose. Something I will NEVER forget. August 2021 I lost my precious mother to Covid pneumonia-her and my amazing father married 60 years. My Dad is lost without my beautiful momma. We all are. In February 2021 my Dad almost passed from heart attack and had emergency triple bypass. Thank God he made it and my momma was there with us. I’m sure she helped tremendously in my Dad’s recovery. I say all this for a couple reasons: Love is so powerful especially when it’s between family. Tell that someone how special they are. Time goes by so fast-especially the older we get. My daughter and I live with my Dad now-we take care of him and wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m truly blessed to know what love is and spend so much time with my Dad and daughter making memories.💕

[@ashleyboersema4376]

It's really lovely to see someone care so much about their loved ones and that you still get that confirmation from him because you have a beautiful soul inside and out! Your parents should be proud young lady.

[@Colly-flowerrr]

I don’t really talk about this but my older brothers birthday was yesterday. He would have been 27. He died from an overdose when he was 22. I’m not really religious but I think to think he’s away from his demons. My dad is still alive and well but he’s also an addict. I’m so sorry, thank you for sharing.

[@pjrichards3974]

I know you miss your brother and sorry you have to deal with your dad too. That must be hard, I hope you stay strong and I hope he gets clean. Hugs from HOUSTON !

[@KnikkiHall]

I hope you are doing ok❤

[@ellygarcia6986]

Blessings🙏❤️

[@carriechandler1936]

I have a similar story. Oxy's ruined my siblings. All 3 of mine became addicts. All overdosed mulitple times on heroin. My two brothers ended up homeless and sentenced to prison for crimes. My only sister passed in 2020 from an overdose. RIP Carlie⚘️

[@eyeswideopen4]

So sorry for your loss.❤

[@missyemerald]

It's terrible that addicts die in peace & leave lifelong grief for everyone that loved them.

[@lexvirgilio]

Such an amazing interview. She has such a kind and warm soul. So appreciate her sharing her story with us ❤️

[@emswum1]

I've watched this channel for years and this one really got me. I'm a sister and spouse and friend of those in and out of active addiction. I also work in that field trying to help others. no one knows what it's like unless you have lived through it. thinking of all those struggling. keep fighting.

[@stuff1784]

Wow… This girl has an amazing way of explaining things. What a tragic thing to go through though. Just tragic…

[@Indigochvld]

It's insane how the sibling of an addict describes them so perfectly than the addict alone. It's so beautiful how family understands the person.

[@kw.3661]

i love allison's perspective on death. grief is not linear at all. the only thing i feel intuitively certain about death is that it's not a finality. the purple dolphin story has me tearing up... i have that same sort of disjointed relationship with my mother now, and the signs i get from her also hit me with that same sarcastic but loving "really?" energy. thank you for this one, allison and mark

[@tnosk2260]

I have always been told that when you dream of a loved one that has passed it means that they are ok. The dream is to tell you that they are ok. I'm not sure if this is a truth but it does make me feel better through the grief and loss. Thank you for sharing your families story. I am truly sorry for your loss.

[@EmmaVickers-m7b]

This interview made me cry. What a lovely sole rip Logan 😢

[@jimboswell4818]

Incredible young lady. My daughters are addicts. It feels horrible. I had a near death experience 10 years ago and saw my mother. Blessings to you in every facet of your life.

[@SuperTruthful]

Take care of yourself..it will be hard but take care of yourself. They made their choices and you can't change that. Love you more. blessings to you

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

Wishing you better days in Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸 ♥ 🙏

[@emynnlogan5124]

I lost my brother on February 1st 2022 to a fentanyl overdose. His story is a lot like your brother's story. He had several severe injuries that led to drug addiction. My brother is also around all the time. My brother was my best friend. My deepest condolences to you. 💜

[@mawutojineku]

I'm so sorry

[@jameseastwood4984]

I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my brother in 1993. He would have been 50 last month.

[@MushroomMoonbeam]

My heart goes out to you ❤️ My brother died of a fentanyl overdose Aug 12, 2021. Almost one year ago.

[@emynnlogan5124]

@@MushroomMoonbeam this breaks my heart, for you too. Thank you for your reply. May you be blessed with peace 💛

[@emynnlogan5124]

@@jameseastwood4984 thank you for your reply. Happy Heavenly birthday to your brother.

[@angelikaborisenko7923]

I am so in love with her personality. This 30 minutes will change so many lives, I am absolutely sure. Thank you for sharing.

[@teamginate3400]

So much went wrong. Going from a stable family unit to a family blunder as her story goes is a slap of reality. Good to hear she’s trudging forward and what a gracious courageous top notch young woman. Thanks for doing this video.

[@AV-sq3jb]

Such a sweet girl all the best from Holland

[@ddz1375]

What a wonderful and fresh perspective to wake up to for an interview from you Mark. I've lost two handfuls of friends to drug overdoses and a brother and a cousin. I try not to let a callus develop over my empathy for those who suffer true addiction. My mother was also an alcoholic. When I was about 15 or 16 she had a breakdown drink and ungodly amount of alcohol and attempted suicide with Valiums. I remember waking my father up as she was laying on the floor convulsing and vomiting and he told me leave her alone she'll wake up Tuesday. Not knowing what to do I called Poison Control and they directed me to call 911. I did that and this was back in the early '80s when people still had Bearcat scanners so you could hear police calls going over the air. Needless to say I was off forsized and vilified for breaking the silence. She would have rather died than let anyone know that she was an alcoholic with a pill problem. I moved out shortly thereafter. I came back in twenties to try to rectify our relationship. She broke her arm and so we took her to the ER and she came out with lung cancer stage 3 squamous cell. As well as cirrhosis. It took her two years to die and in that time my heart softened enough to see her not as a mother but as a human being. She never got over being angry with me but that was okay I got over her being angry with me. I did care for her from diagnosis to her last breath. It was one of the most difficult things I've done. But my heart is lighter for doing it. I work in Hospice Care Now and I'm good at what I do because I learned compassion and not to Shield my heart. Other friends who have OD'd made me angry, disappointed, frustrated and the whole gamut of emotion concerning the loss of someone through drugs and addiction. I didn't go to a lot of their funerals because I wanted to remember them as they were before their addiction stole their lives.

[@DrSchor]

Did you mean ostracized? It is harsh to conclude your failure to overcome that process caused the death. You admit by not going to funerals you suppress facts to make yourself feel better. Facing facts and accepting your sacred duty to assist family will help. You failed to do even as much as simply address her nicotine addiction, the drug addiction that specifically causes stage 3 squamous cell lung cancer.

[@ddz1375]

@@DrSchor I use voice to text because of debilitating arthritis in my hands. I also have a Philadelphia accent which sometimes is misread by the voice to text. I don't go to funerals because they're a waste of time funerals are for the living not the Dead. I made my peace at the time when they pass away I have no need to get dressed up and show my face to people I really don't care about. Thank you for your analysis though I appreciate you taking time out of your day to do so. Have a good one

[@ddz1375]

@@DrSchor also read I left home at 16 her smoking addiction was not my f****** problem and by the time she was diagnosed it was too goddamn late. What was there to do? Scold her like a child? Bull crap on that she was a grown woman who bent her own elbow. Had nothing to do with me. She's lucky I nursed her from diagnosis to death so keep your s*** to yourself man

[@PaulWashington..]

@@ddz1375 Do you know Jesus ?

[@ddz1375]

@@PaulWashington.. yes.

[@terryyoungflesh3347]

This is the most powerful video I’ve seen on this channel so far. I’m an addict myself. Something about this girl and the way she conveys it made me tear up. Very powerful. Thanks for sharing, Allison

[@saradenn7447]

Honor yourself and those that love you by getting clean. You can have beautiful life to live!

[@maureent8653]

Thank you Allison for sharing your story with us. I lost an ex to a heart infection he received from shooting dope. I watched him battle a terrible addiction for years.

[@samanthaalexander1822]

This hit home so hard, I cannot stop crying.

[@Loopzxx]

The similarities between her experience and mine are uncanny. My sister is an addict (~100 days clean!) Watching my sister go in and out of jail, rehab, and halfway houses made me realize at an early age that the system is purposely built to work against addicts.

[@dianalynn7135]

Don't blame the system!

[@Kristen10-22]

I got the call… 1/2018 Yep crack laced with fentanyl.. 5 people died that night as my brother. I still can’t believe it I feel the same as her I feel my brother too & lots of signs

[@donitabrown8100]

So very sorry for the loss of her brother. So touching and heartfelt. She loves her brothers so much and you can feel it in her words. Beautiful conversation Mark.

[@briancooke6816]

Wow…. This story hits home so very familiar, except there has been no deaths but prison is a reality, and with the brother finding the other brother pierced me because I found my father dead on Father’s Day and he had been dead for 6 days due to alcoholism. Once again you’ve put out another intense & emotional video. Thanx for using the gift you were blessed with. Have a great day 💯😎

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

Wow Brian, What a terrible memory finding your father. Thinking of you in Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸 ♥

[@jasminejohnstone1803]

Heartbreaking on fathers day too gutted so sorry 😞 😔 😟

[@briancooke6816]

@@KimbradleyMasterGardener thank you so very much. I handle it better than I use to. I have a son who’s in active addiction and that takes up allot of time. Much appreciated Kim. Thanx🥰😎💯

[@briancooke6816]

@@jasminejohnstone1803 thank you Jasmine!! I really appreciate that. Like I mentioned to Kim I’m allot better now days then before🥰😎💯

[@Nessa_1990]

I am incredibly sorry for your loss. I felt this video hard. My brother never got into drugs, but he also left quickly after writing a suicide letter to everyone, and then killed himself. I'll never forget him. I'll never forget when I received the phone call, how late it was, where I was, and who called. My parents rejected me. He was already dead one day. It was weird getting a call from my father. I had the worst feeling and automatically thought of him. It was so difficult to process. After a week or two, I went right back to work. The older I get, the easier it is to give myself some sort of love. It has been 10 years, but it either feels like 1 year ago or 50. My body is in so much pain and I feel like stress contributed to my autoimmune disorder. I'm so sorry about your father. You deserve all the healing in the world.

[@dancininthekitchen5134]

I was standing beside the ambulance, still asking if my baby brother was really dead? My mind couldn't even comprehend that he was gone ... it's such a surreal experience to feel so much pain and yet be so numb.

[@naelyneurkopfen9741]

There have been a few instances where my kids have been prescribed oxycodone, I refused those prescriptions and insisted they prescribe Tylenol 3. That's what was prescribed when I was young for procedures/injuries. It sufficed and we didn't have these types of issues with it. You have to advocate for your kids.

[@zambezi-sv1ed]

So much love in her heart, so grounded and connected to what she's feeling and expresses these with such humility and strength. Powerful stuff... 🙏

[@gkkk1488]

Wow.as a recovering addict to hear what family members go through is so refreshing and overwhelming, saddening and eye opening at the same time. God bless you all. Thank you so much for sharing this.

[@zactranten3235]

She has such a strong grasp on reality and understanding of people. Her brother would be proud of who she’s become.

[@Therapistlife13]

Allison, I also live in South Florida. Everything that you described about the doctor shopping and pill mills, brought me back to such a dark time. My my baby brother, my big sister, my only cousin and my boyfriend, all died. My baby brother struggled most of his life with drug addiction and took his own life after many years in a Florida prison. All of the others that I mentioned, died of accidental fentanyl overdoses. My ex husband is also an opiate addict. My daughter never got the opportunity to know her Uncle. When I hear you talk about becoming a mother, just know that your daughter feels the love that you have for your brother. I'm now a mental health therapist in Florida and strive to help people afflicted with addiction and mental illness every day. We grieve to the extent that we love. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your pain, your growth, your insight and your compassion.

[@ilonagasiorska7112]

💗

[@JolleanArroyo]

Do you have any resources for a recovering addict in NY ?? ​@@ilonagasiorska7112

[@debrajarnagin7101]

Bless your heart. You have had such a hard time

[@Therapistlife13]

@@debrajarnagin7101 I appreciate your kind words.

[@MarionJoseph-kc7gd]

“The healing journey is not linear”. What a profound, insightful statement! This young woman is a teacher. This video is one of the best I’ve seen. I’ve learnt much from it. What an amazing and incredible woman.

[@joelexline9]

Damn, crying at work. This one hit hard, my brother died July 10th from an overdose, I somehow survived an OD and crash while driving last October? My daughter is 20 months and my brothers daughter is 17, addiction really fucking sucks.

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Sry bout your brother. RIP. I lost my wife to an overdose 3 years ago. I’m still using. Addiction is rough.

[@gregoryreeves8586]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 I am over 2 years sober. I wish you the best of luck. It is hard and a daily struggle but I have faith that you will find your way to a happy and sober life..

[@joelexline9]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 shew thats heavy, I can't imagine. I wish you the best bro. I would always get frustrated that my wife is straight edge but it was definitely a blessing in disguise. I have just been taking kratom and then a cbd pen in the evening. Kratom was the only thing that helped me get off of suboxone a couple years ago and then also helped when I would fuck up and get percs or dope. I know it's another addiction but atleast it won't kill you if you get a strong batch. Keep fighting bro 🙏

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 Thinking of you in Nashville Tennessee

[@tomdonahue4224]

Very sorry for your loss

[@boardbrown]

Wow, just wow! One of my favorite SWU interviews ever. Thank you Allison, and thank you Logan. And thank you too Mark!

[@TitaniumBandaidsl6718]

Hi Mark, You probably get a million requests, you probably won't even read this but if you are interested, I was a Heroin addict from the age of 15 - 24 and the son of a Lutheran pastor with quite a crazy story to tell. I am 30 now and 6 years clean. I can share more details if this is something that you are looking for.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Hey, I 2nd this comment 🖐

[@thematriarchy2075]

Look in the " about" of this channel for info on how to contact him. Good luck!

[@TitaniumBandaidsl6718]

@@thematriarchy2075 Thank you for that!

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@TitaniumBandaidsl6718 You are welcome and i would be interested in hearing about your life❤

[@616CardBoard]

Thank you for sharing your story. You make your brother proud everyday. “My flesh is weak but my will is strong”.

[@TheDmccoy]

I lost my older sister to a heroin overdose and when you said you were jealous of others who had “normal” siblings, that hit home with me. I so badly wanted this too. I wanted to be just like my sister until the first time she tried to kill herself and the addiction was made clear. Thank you for sharing your story. You are touching many lives.

[@TheDmccoy]

@@baublesanddolls I fully agree with you. I am thankful that as we grow, we can learn these things.❤️

[@rudyrivas7889]

Great interview. Really felt this.. Man 10 people in a two mile radius. Thats just sad. Many blessing to her for sharing

[@omastache50]

Your story has really helped me for this night,addiction is a disease we have to fight it one day at a time,thank you Allison.long live Logan!

[@ghaffir]

Thank you for telling the story Allison. You are very well spoken. I am sorry for your loss ❤

[@edwardjones2202]

Lovely woman. Her family and daughter are blessed to have her.

[@thegreatghastlyyy]

As a lot of the other comments say… this particular interview really got to me.

[@MelindaAnnL]

Great interview. I grew up in Coral Springs and know many of the areas she’s talking about. She is so smart, well spoken, and strong.

[@Wombats-1]

What a lovely young lady. She’s so strong and has so much love for people close to her. I wish I could have someone like her in my life. I myself was addicted to pain medication from a lifelong battle with chronic pain since I was 17. I know first hand what addiction can do to a family. This channel is beyond amazing, how real the people are there is never a dull moment during the entire interviews. Amazing content bro thank you so much. I’ve become numb just trying to find new content to watch cause everything has blended together so much that everything else is all the same. This channel is a breathe of fresh air. Awesome

[@Psm-00]

i wish all family had this type of understanding. this is so beautiful.

[@melancholyman369]

Addiction can drive ppl up the wall, it's good to see she wasn't dragged into that life with them.

[@RW-ob4en]

Allison - tho this is all too relatable to me, you’ve done a wonderful job with Mark’s interview. “What matters is what we survivors do with what is left ourselves…” This is a phrase I carry with me that I hoped I’d never need. Perhaps others will read and relate, too? You seem to have embraced honoring your brother with how you are living your life. As you implied, I too have grown in my ability to feel empathy following our loss. Such a high price. Peace to you.

[@jc-tu6pg]

She's the most normal person you've had on this channel

[@johnobrien5037]

Because she's not prostitute, dominatrix , swinger, or addict, she just lived with one who died and is very effective at telling the addiction story from the side of those who love one.

[@bohemiababy4264]

Sending love from Sweden. I have a daughter who lived that life. She is struggling, it's better, but depression is still present.

[@dannymcintyre3819]

Thank you for this. Please include more interviews with family members and loved ones of some of the people you interview that suffer with addiction problems. Many thanks

[@HJ-ul6mr]

beautiful beautiful episode wow, I didn’t expect to be as drawn in as I was (because I clicked on this episode on a whim) and I’m so glad I did. This truly made me look at addiction so much more differently and I can tell she is making her brother proud just by the way she did him justice in this interview ♥️

[@theorkenator548]

Wow, such a touching interview. Allison's story is captivating. She has a way with words. It brought tears to my eyes as I can relate in somewys . God bless her and her family! I'm glad I stumbled uponon Soft white underbelly channel,. It's a sobering reality of life. Shedding light on unscripted accounts from the streets.

[@tracyjane1000]

Wow what a beautifully sad but articulate interview. You speak so highly of your brother and it is just so real and heart breaking. Keep shining and keeping his memory alive 🐬❤️❤️

[@Mr93sharpei]

Excellent interview.... Very wise young woman.. Thank you 😊

[@skyking228]

I will be watching this extraordinary interview several more times. Thank you.

[@er1ns]

Allison, thank you for sharing your story. It isn’t an easy one to tell. Your experience mirrors mine in so many ways. More and more tears welled up in my eyes with each detail you gave. Unless someone has been through it, there are no words to describe the pain of seeing a loved one going through addiction. And as a sibling, it can make you feel very alone as the devastating situation unfolds. I’m happy to hear that you’re in a great place in your life. Your brother will always be with you. And my brother will always be with me. 💚

[@joezagame5598]

I am inspired by Allison’s maturity and perspective on her family tragedy. I pray for her peace and well being.

[@GRyanBee]

What a beautiful and wonderful woman. Showing her strength through her brother. The metaphysical spaces she puts herself into when she needs a sign from her brother. THIS interview hit home, Mark.

[@rosemariereade131]

Wow beautiful story. My daughter's story is Logan's. A truly genuine, smart and beautiful. She never saw it but her friends did. I am not the same now but I know she is not struggling, and the fear you spoke about waiting for the call paralyzes you too in life as much as the drugs. Your pain is real and you can only love unconditionally as they make the choices. You are living your best life with your daughter. Allison, Logan is in your heart forever.

[@bobbiandmoo]

Her story has many similarities to my own. I am also from South Florida, from a good, close knit family, with a brother who suffers from mental health issues and drug addiction. Specifically OxyContin, percs, and Xanax. It has been a living hell for my family and something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. There is no greater pain that loving someone with your entire heart and soul and watching their lives fall apart because of addiction. It’s an illness no one can cure but them, and that is the most painful reality. My brother is three years younger than me, he will always be my baby brother. My heart is constantly broken for him, but I’m also infuriated by the pain he has caused my family. My parents will never give up on him, they will never stop trying. They’ve absolutely drained their bank accounts sending him back to rehab after every relapse. Thankfully, right now he’s on his longest sober streak. A little over two months. We are all holding our breath, praying and praying something in his brain switched. Just like she mentioned, my absolute worst nightmare is him overdosing. I think a really scary factor is that it’s pretty common to hear about fatal overdoses happening when things finally seemed to be getting better. Thank you for showing this side of the story. Every single time I pass an unhoused person on the street, I imagine they could be just like my brother and simply not have the support system he was blessed with. I live with a broken heart not only for my brother but for everyone in that position.

[@lilaworley8935]

Thank you for sharing this story and your family's experience. Every time I watch an interview here with someone that is using...my mind wanders to the people that care about them and how they got into the position to be addicted in the first place. It takes a remarkable level of inner strength to break free from the addictive mind set. Your brother Alex is very strong. I hope he continues to flourish and love life. As are you...so strong and courageous... For having so much insight and unconditional love. I appreciate you. Thank you.

[@annettestrother1808]

Allison gave a great interview. You can feel the love and grief she has for her brother.

[@parnaerue]

Whew I felt the ending for sure. I lost my mom in 2019 & I too have the most realistic dreams that have ceased the pain bc it’s so evident that she’s right here with me. I look at death as a transcendence as well, they are always with us 🥰✨ It took losing her for me to find myself, there is always beauty in pain you just have to connect to it.

[@kobygrimes1234]

Man, what a wonderful strong young woman. Makes me realize what I've been doing to my family and other people in my life

[@philharris53]

This was a super interview. There are a lot of things about death and what's after that we never talk about or consider and she very elegantly covered those things. The thing about love and those who are addicts that have left this world is well worth considering as we navigate this complex road of life. Thanks Mark and Allison for this presentation.

[@madilittlefoot8988]

I think this video hurt more to watch than any other video I’ve watched on this page. This broke my heart… I can’t believe she told this story so calmly & so well & that she’s accepted this & healed so well.

[@jaynebananatree3783]

Oh my fucking god im bawling my eyes out by the end of this video