Emotional Reaction to - "Hi Ren" - by Ren

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[@JensRandolff]

Here is some additional information on Ren's story, in case you didn't already know. I gathered it from an old newspaper interview and Ren's livestreams and posts where he discussed his condition. Ren Eryn Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales in 1990 or ‘91 (depending on which source you cite), he grew up in Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, he began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony. Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which lead him to experience psychosis. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure. Ren is currently in Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023). Ren's Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder, which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals, as well as his bones/joints. Ren stated: "It's a lot to wrap my head around having to be away from friends, family, and a successful career, and almost feels like a total juxtaposition to the fact that my music is blowing up right now and spreading to all corners of the world, but that's life, we take the good with the bad." Let's keep supporting Ren and not pull a "Sony" on him as he undergoes his treatment. Check out and subscribe to his channel, listen to some of his earlier work, like and comment on his performances, and let's lift Ren's spirits. If you are a believer, pray for him. Ren is an artist with something to say to this generation, and his work is needed in these troubling times. Here is the link to Ren’s GoFundMe page to raise money for his current treatment. www.gofundme.com/f/ren-get-better-from-lyme-disease-and-autoimmunity

[@nickforell1]

Super insightful, thank you for the detailed info Jens

[@WanderlustWarrior46]

Nice thanks for that detailed comment. @Jens

[@dougoneill7266]

He absolutely is worth supporting.

[@levity8121]

@@nickforell1 This above comment by @Jens Randolff would be a very good comment to pin at the top of the comments. And maybe also pin a comment with just the go fund me link. I watched Hi REN straight through tonight when it crossed my feed, having no idea who he was or what is was about. Blew my mind. Then I watched Sick Boi. Another mind blower. Then went to his channel and watched 5 more. Then…watched this reaction video of yours. Really appreciate your inputs…and your work. I did hear/understand more going thru it again with your inputs. I knew at the beginning of your review as you started commenting on the guitar…that you were about to go on a journey you didn’t expect. You got it right away before he even switched voices. It’s a lot to integrate listening the first time. With you on those deep breath pauses. This song is profound. I’m glad you asked people to give more info on Ren. Now I know. Praying for Ren’s recovery. 🙌🏻🌈

[@shanapettigrew1609]

Beautifully said, Sir! I’ll Share REN til the day I Die. He’s saving US..we gotta Rally around him and get him WELL &Back HOME🙏❤️💯

[@davidmacgregor6093]

“Why do we follow our demons”. Best answer is from a meme I saw a long time ago that summed that kind of twisted trust up perfectly: “It’s hard to ignore the demons inside, because they held you when no one else would.”

[@tashgardner]

I felt this in my soul. Ouch

[@Subxenox15]

Woah

[@patrickkilduff4355]

When you are looking to memes for clarity on the human condition...we have failed you

[@richardsimpson9039]

Yeah…

[@4arrows4all]

I have watched a lot of reactions to Hi Ren. Like, a lot. I think you might be the first one who has actually referenced his themes of suicide out loud. It’s been strange to me that almost nobody has even uttered the word. I give you a ton of credit for that.

[@karmakaze6694]

It's not strange to me... the drive to survive is a fundamental part of all living things. It is at the very core of our nature, and when we are confronted with a person in so much pain and turmoil that this most base instinct is overridden, we struggle to process it. How could they do that? It is so contrary to what we are, that we don't even want to acknowledge it, even if it is right there in front of our face. This is how people can miss the obvious signs until it is too late. At their core they want to believe it is not even possible and if they ignore it, it will go away. Of course, that only makes things worse. Well, that's my opinion, anyway.

[@nickforell1]

Thank you Eduardo. Honestly, he poured his heart out for us and it's evident there's a core message that should be celebrated. Appreciate you

[@gdeltotoro]

@@karmakaze6694 honestly it's acutally quite a bit more basic, youtube doesn't like the word and might demonetize your video based on it, that's at the very least part of why noone on youtube is actually saying the word out loud

[@laurelhager8495]

It was fantastic to get your reaction. I have an autistic schizophrenic son who is now 40. This Hi REN MELTED me intoa puddle. What an amazing genius Ren is And you are very insightful. You must be very good at your job. We need more of you in the world. Thank you.

[@jackieharvey7440]

Sorry, I’m a psych nurse too but I at least let people finish talking before I jump in so much. You would pause right in the middle of sentences. Quite entitled I think.

[@chrisbentleywalkingandrambling]

It's nice to see a reaction video from a mental health professional. I've worked medium secure and spent the last 25 years as a Psych Nurse in UK Prisons. It's a hard but rewarding job. Stay safe.

[@craigevans8912]

Ren did get signed by Sony, he then fell ill and got worse as he was misdiagnosed. He was bedridden and Sony dropped him. He’s now in Canada getting treatment. This is a Grammy winning song and performance hands down.

[@dalethompson5077]

totally Grammy and Mercury as well 🤩

[@Hobodeluxe960]

if he played this at the grammys the roof would come down. but they'd never give someone 9 min of air though.

[@dissonancy9762]

Honestly, an Oscar for best acting wouldn't be weird either, the way his whole demeanor changes in half a second between the negative and positive side of himself is really astonishing, and he's doing it live, while playing the guitar which also switches in tone between the positive and negative side AND he's really experiencing every single one of the words he says or sings AND those words are ridiculously well put together. And brave. And he has brain damage? I have to stop now before my inner Nurse Ratchett starts giving me grief for not doing more meaningful things with my life.

[@debbieparnell7582]

Trophies feel insulting this song fully transcends and makes the Grammy's and any other awards look very silly. What's a piece of metal? When someone's produced art like this that transcends the need for petty little award shows. It doesn't need anyones stamp of approval.

[@Glesga_lassie]

​@@debbieparnell7582 I'm sure Ren would be happier to know his music, and then s song in particular, has helped, and will go on to help so many people would mean more to him than any award.

[@zombie-xj7gc]

Another thing people miss is at the end, he doesn't play the last note, so doesn't end the song. This shows that the fight to stay balanced is never ending. Pure genius.

[@dekcraft262]

I noticed it after a few listens but didnt understood why. Thankss for that it makes it so much better now

[@katyanelson]

oh wow, you're right, he does that on the last spoken word as well -- the last syllable of "human beings" is almost inaudible. I kept wondering what that was about.

[@0Onyx13]

I don't think I would have ever noticed it. I only discovered this today and I'm watching everyone's reaction and learning more and more about it all, and it just keeps digging inside me more and more and more, and it's... wow, I'm so overwhelmed. Thanks for pointing that out, it's yet one more amazing detail that adds to it all.

[@axemanchris]

Dude, good catch! This video is so well thought out, to the shorting lights when evil Ren is taking, to aggressive guitar playing and beautiful cordage

[@gabrielmckeagney5353]

I was wondering that, so clever!!!

[@pieceofgosa]

There is a moment after Ren has delivered his message of hope that you can see The Beast try to assert control again but instead of fighting it, Ren takes it's energy & turns it into an incredible unique vocalization that I can only describe as a "scream of hope". This is extremely sophisticated & highly proficient art delivered with an honesty so genuine it makes you feel physically uncomfortable.

[@ChristianSunkel-Zellmer]

I love your comment! Many people write, that the „good side“ did win. Even though a minute later he says, that it was never a battle to win. (and even though the lights are flickering in the end!)

[@chamqual6480]

Exactly

[@wadopotato33]

Your line describing his art is perfect. It makes most feel uncomfortable because our social conscientiousness won't allow us to be that vulnerable and I imagine most people would be horrified at the thought of sharing that part of ourselves with millions. That is true bravery, to me.

[@catherinehayashi1380]

So very well stated. Bravo. I'm going to quote these words in the future when asked why this song affected me so deeply.

[@pieceofgosa]

@@catherinehayashi1380 Yes. Me say words good... sometimes :D Seriously, thank you so much, that's terribly nice of you to say.

[@evil4d]

I think the last part of the song, before the spoken monologue. Where he is singing, dancing and the lights are flickering is a representation of him learning to dance in the chaos, loosen up and just go with it like he explains at the end. I haven't heard anyone mention that in a reaction but that's my take. Because before that moment the lights only flicker when his dark side is speaking but at the end, it's the positive side singing, the music is more upbeat, the lights are flickering because his dark side is still there, but he is dancing freely and has learned to move with it.

[@loadedorygun]

It made me think about revival celebrations; it’s the natural joyous shout after such powerful testimony for eternal humanity as he does, and of course fits the thematics of dark vs light and singing hallelujah at the end, so to speak.

[@averageaimer8533]

That’s also apparent the in the minor part of the operatic vocals at the start and end. Most of it is in the major scale but the second phrase has some minor notes in it. Like the shadow is still lurking there.

[@limner123]

That’s beautiful

[@pattidean4109]

YES! I've watched his video many, many times and this is the first time I came to the same conclusion: the lights flickered at the end because he had learned to dance in the chaos! I'm so glad to see you say this too!!!

[@stampandscrap7494]

My take too

[@chrisfortune6616]

Hey There Nick. Fellow psych nurse here. I watched for the first time after finishing a double shift and it brought me to tears. He really captures what it must be like having this inner turmoil that we refer to as psychosis.

[@nickforell1]

So many psych nurses in the comments, represent! Yes Chris I felt the same way, it’s really overwhelming at times. Great to have an outlet like Ren who can show an amazing side of things

[@Danandrea919]

He does. Ren put into words what my mind, my soul goes through. I watch every reaction to this video I find... Probably over a hundred by now, and I see the faces of people just like me, in awe, crying, amazed someone actually put IT into words and give a glimpse into how it feels. I love Ren!

[@Bluemoon_75]

I'm a psych nurse too. I work with adolescents struggling with serious mental illness. I work on a locked-in patient unit. This video inspired me, it made me cry for all the struggles my pt’s endure and I cry for those who lost the battle. I shared this video with our music therapist who struggles with Lupus. She has shared this with a few of our patients. It has has had a profound effect. “ Some people know me as hope” Ren, you are hope. You are also a genius this is a masterpiece. I have never seen an artist like you. This should be an opera. Thank you for your voice for the voiceless ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@valeireking4719]

Brought me to tears. Intense. I am 63. Have C-PTSD, auto-immune disorders, FM, CF + much more. I lost my eldest son (aged 20) to suicide. I grieve my 6 still-borns. Suffered sexual abuse. Mental and physical abuse from my mother. Abuse from my (now ex) husband. A couple of meds I was given messed me up even more. I am left with living day to day, as I can be taken out by at any time by my extreme high risk for stroke or heart attack, due to the abuse (not a weight or lifestyle issue). I sure appreciate the good moments I experience. Eminem WAS the only rap artist I'd listen to. Thank you Ren for your brave voice! I now have two favs! Yay. I am writing heavy metal songs to express my pain. I will be listening to more from Ren, and passing on to my buds, that this lad is worth spending time on. From all of us in Canada - I hope we help. AND NICK! I'll be watching more from you as well! So awesome.

[@kymsalow7676]

30+ year psych nurse. I've tried over the years of my work life to describe what my clients are going through but could never make it relatable to people not involved in mental health. Ren BRILIANTLY and beautifully brought it to life. I think this may be the most powerful music I've ever seen. Certainly the most accurate representation of what our schizophrenic clients have to deal with. 😊

[@nickforell1]

Thank you SO much for what you do Kym. :)

[@samsmith6481]

I sent it to my worker

[@JohnGatesIII]

Ren is a Poet, a Singer, a Rapper, a Musician, a Composer, a Songwriter, a Producer, an Actor......an Artist. Keep going down the Ren rabbit hole, there's literally nothing he can't do. This video is completely LIVE....No pre-recorded music and lip-syncing here. Don't miss out on the fact that Ren was also in a band...."The Big Push". They too have lots of videos, mostly of Busking (street performing). Ren needs all of our Thoughts, Prayers and Love right now. At 17, Ren had been discovered by Sony Records, Busking in England. They signed him to a contract and he was on his way. As he was recording his first album, he got incredibly sick. He went to the British doctors, complaining of severe pain all over his body and in his joints. The Doctors could find nothing wrong with him and insisted that it was all in his head. Ren spent the next 8 years of his life, looking for answers, going to hundreds of different doctors. The medical community kept saying it was ALL in his head and treating as much, with Psycho-Active/Tropic drugs for his "Mental Disorder". Meanwhile, Ren was stuck in bed 23 hours a day because of the overwhelming pain. All of this nearly drove him crazy as he KNEW he was experiencing the pain that they said was made up. A few years ago, he found a Doctor in Belgium that finally diagnosed Ren with Lyme Disease. He had his answer. However, because the Lyme disease went untreated for 8 years, it Ravaged his body to include his brain. He even received Stem Cell treatment in Canada a while ago, but the damage was already done. He is currently BACK in Canada, for 6+/- months, to try and repair some of that damage. This will include multiple surgeries. He is there by himself, without friends or family to comfort him through this grueling ordeal

[@iamlpinthe312]

This is SO much more here than a “music video “; this is an entire play in one act. There’s just so much here in this one room. I’m gobsmacked and speechless!

[@FastNCurious88]

Well said! Couldn't agree more!! ❤

[@Attabasca]

When he says, "Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope," I think that is Mercy. He mentions *Hope,* which is so important but one also has to have *Mercy.* He is battling his merciless inner critic in this song. We can be so merciless in our criticism when it comes to ourselves.

[@joebyrne8872]

I think what hes saying is when people hear his music it helps them step away from the edge of suicide

[@darkmoondrops]

He's talking about the light as opposed to the darkness. There is an equal amount of good as there is darkness. Yin and Yang

[@E-plunksna]

@@joebyrne8872 He means not his music in particular, but the eternal voice which is in your head. This positive side which is as eternal as the negative, and it wins in the case of loosening the rope. In other case unfortunately it loses and the negative one wins.

[@harribergman2020]

750 subscribers, 853 views.... Ren's Rabbit Hole army has found its way in here. I've probably seen at least 100 different reactions to this incredible piece of art. And I'm hardly alone, there are probably thousands of us who love and are fascinated by this fantastic artist. Hope you also fall down the rabbit hole, because there are many masterpieces to be found 🌑🐇 Thanks for a great reaction, I appreciated it 🙂

[@nickforell1]

Thanks Harri, I'm pretty blown away to be honest. This is a brand new channel so I'm not used to having this kind of input. It's a real pleasure seeing a community so passionate. I'm going to definitely be doing more with Ren!

[@mckalcm7494]

#981

[@deejayturtle]

@@nickforell1 Yes please and thank you.

[@deejayturtle]

Totally agree.

[@willbender9035]

This ratio is even more insane now. Also congrats on surpassing those 1000 subs pretty quick with this one.

[@peki101.]

I'm amazed at how many reactors miss the "Loosen the noose on the rope" line!? Good to hear your views! Great reaction!

[@RaelDanger]

I remember listening to Hi Ren for the first time it felt like I was holding a dam back until that verse.

[@loadedorygun]

@@RaelDanger that’s his greatest gift in this song imo: we all have that voice to save ourselves, if we can find it. ❤

[@TheNordicharps]

Yes. It ripped my heart out.

[@sasquatchbill9430]

Its never missed, I've noticed it is the one point in the song you physically see a gut punch in almost every reactor. The song is very emotional, and like myself most people who listen will truly listen to it, most reactions barely pause it is so captivating. But that line, is when you will see almost every reactor, look away, take a noticeable breathe, its a hard hit. Most people know that line personally, they understand that part of Hope, which is why it resonates, but its also something no one wants to talk about, because you have to reach a point, not just doing an act that brings that part of hope forward, but even just the thought, its the darkest place you can go, and when you come back to it, you know you felt it. So when its brought to the foreground, people will get it, but like I said, its a taboo to talk about. I even havent said in this comment, because Im sure most people know what im talking about.

[@blinkumissit1]

Simply the most incredible line I've ever heard, just heart wrenching but absolutely beautiful at the same time. I too am shocked when people don't stop the song there and just sit speechless for a few moments, I do everytime I hear it.

[@JensRandolff]

“Hi Ren" is the song that put Ren on everyone's radar since December; it went viral and has garnered more than 5 million views since its debut, but he has been creating great music for more than ten years. Ren’s music videos are generally recorded live, often in a single take, although not necessarily the first take, and from various camera angles. His release, "Sick Boi," is almost another chapter to "Hi Ren." Many of his songs resonate with people because he addresses struggles that many others face every day. Ren plays multiple instruments (acoustic, electric, and bass guitar, piano, drums), has impressive vocals, is an excellent storyteller, and is quite the philosopher and poet. He is considered by many a modern bard. His trilogy "The Tale of Jenny/Screech/Violet" is haunting and has an unforeseen conclusion. It needs to be watched in the order given, as this is the flow of the storyline. It is another example of Ren’s genius and a master’s class in storytelling. It has been likened to a Shakespearean tragedy. Ren’s collaborations with Chinchilla (“Chalk Outlines,” “How to Be Me”) are beautiful and showcase his singing voice while addressing mental health. His live music videos are especially impressive. Ren's personal reflections are threaded through many of his songs; "Insomnia," "Depression," “Diazepam," “Penitence,” “Dear God,” “Heretic,” “Dominos,” his "Freckled Angels" album, just to name a few, all deserve a listen. His song "Money Game" (Part I & II) is another recommendation, although it is less of a personal song than it is an indictment of greed and the resulting injustices in this world. Ren’s Hip Hop/Rap style songs are all worth checking out if you enjoy this genre; they are pretty amazing. Check out “The Hunger,” “Genesis,” “What You Want,” “Losing it (FISHER rap retake),” “Right here, right now (Fatboy Slim one shot retake),” "Life is Funny," “Love Music (Parts 1, 2, and 3),” “Crucify Your Culture,” “Power,” and his latest release, “Bittersweet symphony (The Verve retake).” As I recently discovered, Ren also recorded a cover of “Can't Help Falling In Love (Elvis Cover),” that is simply beautiful. Then there are his performances with Sam Tompkins (“Blind Eyed,” “Earned it /Mans World / Falling,” “Walking on the moon/No Diggity”), Eden Nash (“Humble,” “Ocean”), Bibi (“Crutch,” “Ahiahiaoha”), Molly McKinna (“Penitence”), his former bandmate, Romain Axisa (“French Song”), which are all great. Ren's performances as a member of the band "The Big Push" (which unfortunately broke up), their busking (street performances), concerts, and their live recordings, are awesome and well worth checking out. Ren's covers of "I Shot the Sheriff," "Wade in the Water," "An Englishman in New York," “War Pigs,” the songs "Oh My Woman," “Swan Song,” “Sweet Little Lady," "It's Alright," "Watch Out," “Dignity,” and so many others are equally impressive. Ren recently released his single, “Sick Boi.” In anticipation of his stay in Canada for more treatments, Ren prepared some music ahead of time to be released over the next six months that he expects to be gone. As mentioned above, his latest release, “Bittersweet Symphony (The Verve retake),” is another masterful work.

[@crunchydragontreats6692]

Thank you for promoting Ren on all these reaction videos. Grab your ketchup and crunch away my friends.

[@danmac1871]

Thank you

[@MusicArcade]

This feels like it was written by chatgpt

[@JensRandolff]

@@MusicArcade Lol. Not sure if this is supposed to be an insult or a compliment. Bless your heart. Just remember, facts don't care about your feelings.

[@MusicArcade]

@@JensRandolff it was a compliment my friend. Very well structured and lots of info about Ren that I didn't know.

[@LaurinGarcia]

I'm a Goth and I'm also a fan of heavy metal but even I believe with all my heart that this song is pure utter mind boggling 100% genius. I have heard it several times in the past already and it still blows my mind everytime I hear it. Pure Art! Pure Fire! ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

[@cazaberry4485]

As someone who has struggled with depression and ptsd for most of my life when I listened to this I could relate so much. The voice in your head you can't get rid of, the back and forth. That dark side is comfortable, like a hug. It's hard to explain but he relays it so well

[@harmonynoharmony]

I've cPTSD myself and your comment of how the dark side is like a hug really hit home for me. The dark side is what we're used to, it's just always there and always has been and it's so, so easy and comfortable to lean into because we know it so well. I hope you're healing. Sending love x

[@patrickquinlan3056]

We need to know that Ren never had any serious psychological issues until he was treated with antipsychotics. For five long years, while being pumped full of drugs that couldn't help him, Lyme's Disease was ravaging his body. The medical system utterly failed him. Hence the pig faced butcher at the start. I recommend "Sick Boi" next.

[@AP-gb3eh]

Absolutely

[@Beezer1742]

Holy shit. That’s insane… 5 years we lost of this insane talent.

[@Beezer1742]

That puts the meaning behind “I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain”

[@neh4pres]

also... the butcher pig is a double. a butcher knows every place to cut on a pig, which is a visual mirror to the song, where the mind knows where to attack itself.

[@bug1408]

also also...Ren's illness gave him hallucinations that made people look like they were wearing animal masks

[@graceygrumble]

1 . The guitar playing was really good - notice the face twist. 2. The guitar playing becomes discordant. 3. Notice the sorrow in the fight - the other Ren is resurfacing. 4. The head drops. 5. The battle commences. 6. The head drops. 7. Ren resurfaces. 8. Notice the joy in the strength and will to reject. 9. The light remains steady. Perfect symmetry. Hauntingly beautiful.

[@michaelaghmalone-hansen5656]

Ren is currently in Canada, getting the medical attention he needs. Initially, it was expected to be a 3-month treatment, but it has now been extended to 6 months. From what I have read, he was misdiagnosed as Bipolar plus other misdiagnosed illnesses, when in fact he had Lymes disease. He was treated with drugs for bipolar which caused psychosis and other side effects. He is well known around London (Brighton) as a busker, he was also part of a band called The Big Push, they have so many live videos available and are incredible. He does have a GOFUND me page to help with his medical bills, on his own page. Personally, I think Chalk Outlines Ren + Chinchilla would be a great second review, followed by some of his live performances, also, "The Trilogy" of Jenny, Screech & Violets Tale, is a must. He is often referred to as the Bard of London.

[@nickforell1]

So f'ed up and tragic. At least its been identified and hopefully he's going to make a rebound. I thoroughly enjoyed that

[@HighHoeKermit]

Hi, just want to point out that Brighton is about an 80 mile drive from London and is situated on the south coast of England, in the county of East Sussex.

[@phoenixblaize8344]

@@HighHoeKermit not to be that person but since we're correcting pedantry Brighton is not in East Sussex it's in Brighton and Hove

[@HighHoeKermit]

@@phoenixblaize8344 Yeah I thought so too, so I looked it up before typing it. Either way, we can both agree it's not some suburb of London, so hardly pedantic really. It's like saying Birmingham is in Manchester, it's about the same distance.

[@HighHoeKermit]

@@phoenixblaize8344 Brighton and Hove, city and unitary authority, geographic county of East Sussex, historic county of Sussex, southeastern England. I think the geography was probably more relevant than who they pay council tax to.

[@scottlaurenson3390]

Ren is so open about his struggles with ill health and eloquently puts it down on paper, his song chalk outlines ( live with chinchilla) is a must ✌️❤️

[@Blend-25]

X2 chalk outlines live is a MUST

[@jw1289]

X3 Chalk Oulines (live) is a beautiful yet sad song and your take as a psych nurse would be fascinating.

[@Hundhammer]

X4 Chalk Outlines - but I must add it's a shame Ren's blowing up and every reactor on the internet does Chalk Outlines, all praise the incredible duet, her great voice and their combined achievement, but Chinchilla doesn't get nearly any love at all, the subs on her channel are ridiculously low and very few fans of Ren show up in her comments... she has some amazing recordings without Ren as well, but even if she didn't she deserves some subs and love for all she did with Ren, not only chalk outlines...

[@avalonprojectwildfire]

@@Hundhammer I think I subscribed. She has an amazing voice. I think that it's Ren's knack for putting things into words... He's exceptional. Followers who encounter deep meaning and can pick up on the social cues, yes... but I reckon there's a large demographic of autistic spectrum people in the Ren following!

[@avalonprojectwildfire]

I an one (which is almost the literal definition of the word 'autistic').

[@diamassserum2107]

As far as i know, he was misdiagnosed, he was receiving treatment from bipolar and depression while in fact he had lime disease and brain damage, he now in Canada waiting for operation

[@nickforell1]

A couple of people have mentioned that and it's actually insane. I believe lyme disease just became curable so I hope he gets the treatment he needs

[@Glesga_lassie]

Same shit happened to me. I had stress induced psychosis due to being really sick from autoimmunity and not knowing that was the reason, I was was misdiagnosed bipolar, screwed up with a ton of antipsychotics. Only years later did I discover I have an autoimmune condition. It's disgraceful the way these things go undiagnosed and doctors don't, and won't, listen.

[@fayesouthall6604]

@@nickforell1 he’s had some stem cell therapy. I saw him perform on video more recently and he looks more healthy.

[@JesseJames7-8-9]

This is one of the most important video/songs that exists. I’m glad it’s being studied.

[@nickforell1]

Totally agree

[@ericpeterson1000]

Watched this 100 times and just noticed the "hi ren" has a black background in the beginning and the "hi ren" has a light (reality) background at the end. This frickin guy :)

[@tarajean1414]

I'm about to graduate as a nurse in May and I just gotta say thanks for everything you do. It takes a special person to work in that field. Your reaction was spot on. I subbed for it. ☺️

[@nickforell1]

You got this! All healthcare workers deserve that kind of recognition. Thank you for the support :)

[@1118alpet]

Thank you for this reaction! Finally someone who understood the message behind the message, and that it was more to it than just the self doubt as an artist. I have lived with mental health struggles my whole life. I am diagnosed with Bi-Polar, C-PTSD, severe social anxiety w/ Panic attacks; which has led to agoraphobia. It's a constant struggle. Not just day-by-day but, minute-by-minute. People don't seem to truly understand what a struggle it is just to get through the day or to put one foot after the other to get out of bed. Thank you SO much for your insight and ability to explain & point out important things about it all.

[@nickforell1]

Alpet! Glad you enjoyed my perspective, but also thanks for sharing your experience. It means alot.

[@canangel75]

This kid has been able to express and explain in such clear terms with a musical tint that's incredible!.... support n share...... mental health is the last Taboo

[@Keeley-Rabbit-Hole]

‘Chalk outlines’ and ‘how to be me.’ You’ll hear him sing. Both equally beautiful songs.

[@mrmagoo-778]

I cannot get past the genius of REN. Speaking so eloquently, consise and honest. Singing, talking, acting in credible diversities. This is Art. It may involve music etc... but it is a beautifully crafted piece of art. From my backlog, it triggers of a mash of attributes from Jello Biafra (Dead Kennedys etc...), Greg Graffin (Bad Religion etc...) and Nick Blinko (Rudimentry Peni). I can imagine everyone that enjoys this song will be able to describe how it relates to them like nothing else quite has done before. Mr Forell, your epilogue was superb considering the powerful effect the song had upon your thinking resources. Thank you.

[@nickforell1]

Thank you SO much for that Mr Magoo. Ren is one of a kind absolutely

[@amberdawnhanke7903]

I believe REN is a lighthouse or a beacon in this world and is way of giving us insite on the eternal struggle of illness and mental health and how it's invisible on the surface but ravaging us inside. I am so thankful to have found this artist Ren, I hope he gets the help he deserves and we deserve to live and love shine bright.

[@morestupidforms]

I've posted in a lot of these reaction to Ren videos. This song, in particular, changed the way I see life, it has changed me. That final verse, knocked me off my feet. Every time I listen to it, I can feel myself processing years and years of stress, that I haven't been able to put into words, still can't really, just beating myself up, expecting too much. But I am in a much better place now, thanks to Ren. I had pretty much given up, autopilot, just existing. I cannot explain what has happened and how this song has changed me, just that it has, maybe it came around at the right time for me? Whatever, I would love to tell Ren exactly how much I owe him. We all have a dark side, we all fail to meet expectations, sometimes. We are all sometimes disappointed in ourselves. Fighting against something that is intangible, that for the most part, doesn't exist. I have always had 2 sides to me, darkness, selfishness vs generosity and kindness, fighting the dark just makes it more powerful, accepting that it is there changes it, it makes it controllable. This probably sounds nuts, but that's where I am at the moment.

[@katarinadorotic4382]

We all have a dark side , that doubt and pride and ego and fear....we all have our demons. I think that every person on this planet can relate to this song, because it speaks about all of us . That is why it makes us all emotional, hits right in the heart.

[@AlSnoopsReid]

Sick Boi should DEFINITELY be your next Ren reaction as it is a follow on from this one. Then, The Tale of Jenny and Screech (full version, as it contains Violet's Tale, which completes the trilogy).

[@nickforell1]

Thank you for the suggestion Alan, I'll try my best

[@may_beck6224]

in total agreement

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

Agree deffo sick boi next

[@jimbob4456]

Yea, Sick Boi.

[@craiggrant8600]

He was signed by Sony records before he became ill and got dumped over 10 years ago

[@nickforell1]

Thank you for the info Craig. Wtf that’s so f’d up

[@kovanoir]

As somebody who has struggled with psychosis since i was young and either never believed or misunderstood along with a weird mix of inferiority and god complex this song hits hard for me and genuinely one of my favorite pieces of art in any form of media

[@kellyl6883]

As an artist myself and also someone who suffered through many years of severe childhood sexual abuse, I relate to both this song and your reaction to it. I have survived death several times, and I am 46 years of age now, yet every day is still a massive struggle. Thank you for reacting to this amazing and very truthful track, and I am a new subscriber to you. Greetings from Melbourne, Australia.

[@nickforell1]

Thank you for sharing Kelly. I love Australia, Melbourne is beautiful!

[@sherrieshaver848]

I'm watching this a year later. And ren has Lyme disease and was misdiagnosed for that whole 10 years of his life. And it's starting to come out of it. Still have some residual issues genius of phenomen. Unbelievable how he can relate his story to other people

[@pippafinland]

I see Ren raising awareness of mental health - weirdly enough, in mental health professionals, in physical health professionals, in neuro etc. just as much as in "common" people. I've worked in mental health care and in adult social care for a long time, but I'm also fighting my own depression and anxiety. If there ever was a song I'd want to share with my clients, it would be this. ❤ #ren #weareALLhumanbeings

[@kyosuke423]

I think the lights flickering at the end are his acceptance of the evil we all have inside and his found ability to dance with it anyway.

[@ferretgirl408]

suffering from mental illness myself this song hits homes in so many ways. I am so thankful for youtube, helping me find artists I would not know about otherwise. Amazing song and message.

[@craiggrant8600]

He started off by getting bit by a tick and got limes disease and was miss diagnosed for years and was bed ridden for years and it started to affect his mental state and now he's paying for it he's currently in Canada getting some of the best treatment thought it was for 3 months but has now been told goi g to be at least 6 months!

[@nickforell1]

That's unreal Craig. Health system failure right there. Hope he gets what he needs

[@dawnpatterson8708]

This was a great reaction. I really liked your outlook on it. This is one very real young man going through unimaginable things and at the same time touching millions of people. At 17 he was bitten by a tick and contracted Lyme disease. It was misdiagnosed for 7 years and he was given psych drugs. At one point he was bed bound for 23 hours a day from the pain. Lyme disease is a horrible thing. Gone untreated absolutely creates extreme mental health issues. He is now in Canada receiving treatment for the disease and the damage that it's caused. Now, on to this masterpiece. This here is something incredible. It's not the guitar work, lyrics or even the amazing performance. The most incredible thing about this, is what is going on out here in response to it. I have seen reactors as well as people in the comments section coming forward with intensely personal stories of their own struggles and how they are coping each day. Reactors are telling folks to get help if they need it. Even offering resources to do so. This is so relatable to people in all walks of life. We all have inner struggles and demons. Whether it's doubt, self esteem, addiction or mental health issues. Because of this, there are people who are reaching out saying that they felt alone in their battle. To find a massive amount of people saying that exact same thing. Proving the point a falsehood, the way no words can. People are finding a connection to an unexpected place. Each other. It's truly a wonderful thing. So much so, that I want to shout it out from every rooftop that there is. I think that with just this one song, he has proven his own words true. He IS a genius and the waves that he is creating are tsunami in scale. His music may just be more important than he could ever imagine.

[@nickforell1]

Thank you Dawn, he lays it all out there for us to see. It was a really impressive piece of work

[@thetalantonx]

18:10 - It's the same internal chaos that the song started with, but this time it's not oppressive. He's not cowed into his seat as the loser of a battle, he is standing and dancing the dance amidst the chaos, facing the challenge head on. It's not going to go away, all he can do is to accept what he has and make the most of it.

[@dirtydogsanddiesel]

New sub here. Ren is a superb storyteller, a true musical artist. He is currently in Canada receiving treatment after being misdiagnosed 10 years ago. Others will no doubt advise on other pieces of work.

[@Shade.85]

I have loved Ren for years as his music has been the support that hasn't been available to me otherwise, so to see his message being spread FINALLY is pure bliss! 🙌 Thank you for this insightful reaction. Please consider these next: Chalk Outlines with Chinchilla Blind Eyed (live) with Sam Tompkins busking on the streets of Brighton Insomnia Sick Boy

[@nickforell1]

Well said! I will absolutely doing much more Ren so not too worry!

[@travgusmc]

"Genesis" and "Right Here, Right Now (Fatboy Slim one shot retake)" too, super underrated by his following. They're in my top 5 for him but his fans never mention them for some reason.

[@snapdragon8888]

Great reaction. You do pick up something new every time you listen. I had probably listened to this at least 20 times when I made a connection on the second time he played guitar and sang the "ooo"s, near the end. He was dancing with his dark side. Ren's sweet voice was there, but the guitar playing was more chaotic, and the lights were flickering. This song is SO deep.

[@swolejszo]

I fell down the Ren rabbit hole on You Tube a while back and this is one of the best reactions I have seen so far. A bit of background - Ren was mis-diagnosed when he contracted Lyme's disease when he was young, and over the course of a few years his health and body continued to deteriorate to the point where he is in pain every day. My understanding is that he did have a record deal, but the label dropped him when the mental health issues made it impossible for him to conform to the requirements of making an album. He is currently in Calgary getting treatment for the actual illness, and I am not aware of any updates about how that is going. I am sure we all hope that he recovers to the greatest degree possible, knowing of course that this will be a very long road for him.

[@debramceneaney]

may i suggest Ren sick boi.... i know you will enjoy that one, as far as his history it is his story to tell. the more you listen the better you will understand Ren

[@nickforell1]

Thanks Debra, I’ll add that to my list. He was so awesome

[@horsehollerer]

This is a fabulous perspective on a music video I've probably watched 100 times already... thank you! I feel like I maybe saw a glint in your eye a couple of times, a sort of "this is why I do what I do, even though it sucks most of the time" expression/affirmation of hope and pride in equal measure. I could be completely wrong, of course. I recommend checking out Chalk Outlines (live, with Chinchilla) for a mesmerizing portrayal of the daily charade of taking multiple daily meds to stay alive (or is it to stay dead?). This one is 100% "proper" singing, and spoiler alert: the vocals and composition will blow your mind. Cheers!

[@roystevenson9632]

Lost count of how many reactions I’ve watched, but appreciate it when the host gives the artist the majority of the screen, kudos. This modern masterpiece needs to be part of every high school curriculum.

[@loribohn8605]

One word describes Ren "Brilliant" The simplicity of the video and at the same time the small things were so powerful. Ren gives updates on his road to recovery and he loves getting feedback from his fans. ❤️🙏

[@nickforell1]

Glad you enjoyed it!

[@CharlieJonesNC]

Loved your reaction. I notice someone put chalk outlines as another one to listen to and I would also include sick boi which is his latest video. These three videos let you see how diverse he is in his talent.

[@nickforell1]

I'll check it out, thank you Charles for the support!

[@deejayturtle]

@@nickforell1 Same song I recommended in my comment.

[@amandamackie6481]

Dont forget that this as well as all his tunes are sung and shot live. The mans a genius. And he gave me and still gives me hope and the will to survive....

[@whiskers1776]

Chalk outlines is one of his songs which is so far my favourite of his

[@nickforell1]

Definitely, there were so many lines. I’ll need to rewatch on my own

[@ladyriot9620]

I was blown away with the depth of his creativity. I know many who have mental health issues, and this was a very emotional piece for me. He is a genius.

[@E-plunksna]

Yes he is an actor :)) This PERFORMANCE is more than just a song. The ideas, the expression, the control of breath and opposite characters - that's super-talent. Exactly - self-awareness. No need to narrow it down to psychiatric subject :) I relate to it as millions of people do. Our profession isn't the limit of the world ;) I think this masterpiece covers a much wider range - from devil & angel on your shoulder, negativity & positivity voices in your head on a daily basis, to anxiety or psychosis. As Ren said, "we must not forget we are human". Anyway, I like how you appreciated many things in this piece of art.

[@craigbullard8163]

Ren is an absolute genius with his creativity. Renegades got his album to #1 in the UK just by constantly pushing it on social media. Many of us also have Lyme disease. Please review Seven Sins, it’s a masterpiece.

[@garethmackrell2304]

Somehow dropped into this video and so glad I did. This is a genuine work of genius. From the lyrics to the style to his facial acting when switching characters is utterly immense. The switching of aggression between the characters and the gaslighting of the self is beyond anything Eminem or Plan B did. This is as good as any self conflict art I've ever seen.

[@wakingtheworld]

I've only just come across Ren so feel behind the times esp as his video has now garnered 42M views. I appreciated your sensitive commentary on this one, Nick. It packs a powerful punch with the raw emotion of someone who's been there. The fact he was misdiagnosed for all those years with the subsequent severe health complications, hits even harder. This was a piece of musical, lyrical, vocal & cinematic brilliance with a powerful message. This took courage to face & express.

[@MaryBruflat]

HiRen may be the greatest work of art in the 21st century. He deserves all the credit in the world.

[@reneedevry4361]

Excellent reaction to this creative genius. I also shouted out to an empty room at 17yrs old and was lucky enough to become a student to keep me alive for the next 45 years. This is an absolute masterpiece on so many levels. I am pleased that you are supporting independant artists like Ren and Dimash. 🥰 Hugs from a Canadian Dear 🇨🇦

[@XHansCoché]

His performance on YT got 5.5million views in 2 months and many thousands of comments. This performance of his is a masterpiece.

[@stephielynnvanasten9169]

I enjoyed your review. I appreciate your knowledge, insights, and your emphasis & encouragement to seek help whenever necessary. REN, no doubt, had/has some very difficult struggles. Yet, not only did/does he continue to seek help, he bravely and openly used all these difficult experiences to let others know that they’re not alone and that there is hope. What a talent and what a gift- for all of us!

[@Nick60606]

Great reaction! Being diagnosed with Primary Progressive MS at 61, I can relate to this in a personal way. The pendulum for me swings hour to hour with my physical limitations. I'm sure he goes through the same thing with Lyme. Both diseases also lead to mental issues dealing with these limitations I cant imagine having to suffer with Lyme disease at such a young age. Autoimmune problems rob you of so much of your life and with invisible illnesses such as Lyme and MS you can look normal so its hard for to people understand the struggle. He is a huge inspiration. I have taught myself guitar to help deal with the my physical struggles and I really enjoy it. Creativity is a great way to deal with these issues and highly recommend it. Also being a Industrial designer have a been working on products to assist handicap people with their mobility issues which brings a new positive relevance to my life. Everything happens for a reason and Ren has proven that to us with this beautiful artistic piece.

[@nad4929]

Every care work provider, teacher, cop should see and take the time to understand this, wow how humanizing. This glimpse into the mind is a precious gift.

[@Shiroar]

Great reaction to this multitalented modern day bard. Hope to see you down in the Ren rabbit hole with the rest of us. It’s getting crowded, but we keep making space for more, cause everyone needs Ren. The world needs Ren. There might also be cookies down here.

[@nickforell1]

I will absolutely be doing more!

[@megtwix721]

This isn't music necessarily it's freaking ART! Ren told us MORE of a story in nine minutes and nineteen seconds, then most movie producers and directors tell us in two hours. He deserves a f**king Oscar for this, there's so much emotion in this it's insane! I do have a request though could you please react to Demi Lovato? They released an album last August called Holy Fvck, and I'm obsessed with it LOL May I make a suggestion, you should listen to a band by the name of Falling in Reverse, I think you'll really like them! Watch these music videos IN ORDER: Popular Monster Losing My Mind Losing My Life Drugs The Drug In Me Is You The Drug in Me is You (Reimagined) I'm Not a Vampire I'm Not a Vampire (Revamped) Zombified Voices In My Head Watch The World Burn Ronnie Radke is the lead singer Willow is Ronnie's daughter she's in two of these music videos Remember the year 2033 Ronnie Radke's actually incorporating his story, so much like many of our own, into every detail. Every word and every detail in the video means something. He has been to the bottom and back a few times. Have fun going down the Ronnie Radke AKA the Falling In Reverse rabbit hole! It's a great journey!

[@tammymoyer7518]

Love you actually bringing the psych background into analyzing this. I've been saying that as a victim of a narcissistic abuser that the "devil," is a narcissistic persona. There is no winning against a narcissist in an argument. You watch how the attacks gradually create his desperation and combative responses in the "normal side." The moment you start yelling at the narcissist is when you lose. They now blame you for getting angry even if they have been insulting and nasty for hours. It is all about breaking you down and making you see them as the only thing you have. The moment he yells about killing himself is when the evil takes over...he lost control. Oh...also the only time the lights flicker while on his "good" side is right before he falls to the devil and is yelling back...perfection. Terrifying to see how well the acting displays this. The ending, as someone who escaped the abuse, resisted a third attempt at suicide while being pursued and trying to escape, who has found herself and come out of overwhelming self hate as a trans woman at last and found a future I have hope in. I cry every time listening to this no matter how many times I hear it.

[@Tommysimonsen]

"Why do we listen to our demons?" Because they are often right, Ren`s bad side tell zero lies just a dark side of things.

[@nickforell1]

Yeah, that’s a nice catch. Embrace the dark side

[@Tommysimonsen]

@@nickforell1 Well embrace it 50%. Hate the world and you will be lonely, trust the world you will get Fèd.

[@ladonna9938]

I think that is why the "truth in a blender" line is so powerful. The dark side tells a twisted version of the truth.

[@Apollo.Rising]

Which is why you can't just lock that side away, that voice does have its purpose. I see that final segment as him integrating both his light and shadow. He's still speaking with the tone of the hopeful side of himself, but using the assertiveness of the dark side to bring power and confidence to his words. Before that point the hopeful was timid and defensive. And when he's singing at the end the lights are flashing, which previously only flashed when the dark side was speaking. It's not light triumphing over the darkness, it's light integrated with darkness to make a whole, empowered human being. I love the message behind that, it's something I really needed to hear.

[@Tommysimonsen]

@@Apollo.Rising Also both sides say "Hi Ren" non of the sides are Ren. Both sides are.

[@SomewhatSkating]

I've watched SO MANY reactions to this song, and you're the ONLY one I've seen to comment on the line "some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope". This whole song is incredibly powerful, but that line is just insanely impactful. May just be my single favorite line of all time. Thank you for the real in-depth analysis and catching more than most do!

[@nickforell1]

Thank you for that! That’s super nice of you to point out, Ren did all the work of course

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

The guitar part near the end is the celebrating dance, he beat his devil's

[@nickforell1]

Ooh, definitely like that interpretation

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

@@nickforell1 but brother that's what it truly is. watch it again. most say it takes 5 to ten times of watching it to notice everything about it and get it right. The masterpiece of our time it is!!!

[@aikighost]

One thing I noticed after about a dozen watches of this song is that when "Dark Ren" is talking or in conflict the lights flicker asynchronously and when "Creative Ren" talks the lights stabilise and shine bright.

[@nzemosrox]

This song fucking blows my mind. I've been there, and his message at the end is so true. It is eternal, and it doesn't end for us. I'm so fucking tired, but I can't stop. I can't give up now. So glad I found this guy.

[@johnnyeproductions]

He had a record deal with Sony Records, but then he fell terribly ill. For years they couldn't figure out what he was suffering home. It was so bad that he went into bouts of psychosis and was on the edge of it all... The record label released him from his contract. He was diagnosed finally with Lyme Disease. He went through so much trauma, and it hurts my heart for him.. but it made him who he is now. I battle with serious illness also... it is sooo difficult, it would be easier to end it all... but it takes more courage to stay and suffer. Every thing in this video is so carefully thought out. He plucked the guitar harder when he was on the evil side, softer on the other. The lights flickered on the dark side. He is a genius and this is a masterpiece!!!

[@simplysimon9868]

Ren is also in a band, The Big Push from Brighton, UK. All friends and song writers and started busking there. His music so diverse but so good. Pure Genius that touches his health and misdiagnosis. From covers to rap to awesome videos he has so much to give.

[@catherinehayashi1380]

I appreciated your insight on this video. I'm nearly 40 and this song resonated with me in a way no other music has before. I wasn't able to put my finger on why that was. Yes, I've struggled with my mental health since my adolescence but plenty of artists have tackled the subject. What you said...that this video is brave hit the nail on the head. His vulnerability in a world that is unkind to those showing "weakness" (especially male bodied individuals) is nothing short of a revolutionary act. I've shown this video to a couple of others and while they appreciated the artistry, they didn't get into it in their reactions. Thank you for your react video. It helped me process my own feelings on this. I'll be checking out more of your videos in the future. Nice work.

[@jeffstumpf9129]

I always enjoy it when experts brings their knowledge and insight into their reactions. To me, the artist already tells us everything we need to know, but experts do backup and confirm this. We can see that Ren is really good and that he’s revealing his own true story. And, we realize many may see themselves in his story, as well. Your point that we can’t handle such issues on our own is very important. Always seek help. Thank you for you fine reaction.

[@nickforell1]

Thank you Jeff, Ren is spreading an important message. Thanks for being here!

[@katiemcteague]

Brilliantly articulated through poetry and music. Much respect to Ren. I hope his treatment helps him both physically and mentally. One thing another reactor pointed out that I never picked up on watching the video, is that the lights always flicker when the “dark side “is speaking. They do not flicker when Ren is replying back. Just an extra part of the production that subconsciously had impact. I very much enjoyed your reaction especially given your career.

[@consentofthegoverned5145]

It's not just mental health- not just bipolar issues... it's the inner struggle within us all.

[@ShallowSedai]

I see the yodeling portions as his dance, his balance. Chaotic but beautiful; controlled but off-chord. His pendulum.

[@Bearlissimo]

Ren was misdiagnosed for 10 years as M.E. & Bi-Polar & medicated & then subsequently self medicated. But he has Lyme's disease, it has affected his auto-immunity & this has also massively affected all aspects of his health for which he is now in Canada getting the correct treatments. He was discovered by SONY/UMG (they may strike for copyright they don't own by the way), but they dropped him when he showed signs of pyschosis. Ren's brain was damaged by the Lymes & Autoimmune issues which did affect his reality at times. He's definitely on the road to recovery & much better off. I'd love you to check the following Ren songs, Crutch, Insomnia, Depression, Diazepam, How to be me, Ready for you. Most will point you to his other songs which are rap based which are also amazing. This video was 1 take (4th attempt), many of his songs are live one take (The Tale of Jenny & Screech full is a three in 1 video which is a must-see). Glad you got this... would love your take on these.

[@daniellebrooks1611]

Ren is suffering from Lyme. He literally spent 3 years in his bedroom in so much pain. It’s been over 10 years that he’s been dealing with it’s affects. The Lyme severely affected his brain & he was misdiagnosed as Bipolar. 5 years ago he made a video from his bedroom about how sick he was and how he didn’t think he could live much longer. He was in his late 20’s and looked like a young teenager weighing under 100lbs. He had also developed MCAS & could barely eat. A Dr in California saw that video & offered him free Stem Cell Transplant Therapy. That therapy was what turned things around for him. For the last 5 years, he’s been able to function, make music & perform. It didn’t cure him though. He is currently in Canada where he is getting further treatment of daily IV’s, breathing treatments & other things. His natural artistic ability seems endless and his catalog of music is so worth the rabbit hole! He posts updated and when he does, they’re written like poetry.

[@nickforell1]

Wow Danielle, that was quite the read. Amazing insight thank you. So traumatizing...glad he has the talent and passion to put out music like this

[@FaintlyTapping]

If you would share this with your co-workers, it would help to drive home feelings of empathy and increased awareness of the inner workings of the people for whom they are responsible for care. That’s my suggestion and it would be in line with REN’s message.😊

[@dawnpatterson8708]

Yay, absolutely. I really think that EVERYONE should see this.

[@katehoialmen]

This guy is AMAZING!! I have literally just started listening to him, and I am hooked!!

[@philk9227]

Superb reaction m8. New subscriber here. Welcome to the amazing rabbit hole that is the music of the modern day bard Ren.

[@nickforell1]

Thank you Phil, appreciate the support. Can't wait for more Ren

[@Morty-z2n]

This was even the old discussion between Freud and Jung. And Freud's advice to Jung: Don't think so much about your dreams. They finally parted ways. And the melody of the movie Good, Bad, Ugly by Ennio Morricone.

[@belindamelville2270]

Enjoyed your reaction so much i have subbed to you..🙂

[@nickforell1]

Thank you so much 😁

[@cryptosecuritytools]

Ive watched several 'reacts to' videos of this song and you have been the quickest to understand, the quickest to cut to the meaning without waffling and fumbling for words. I think we are very lucky for your observations on this one. Ren as an artist is sublime and Ren as a human is inspiring. I think the reason people are reacting to this in such a visceral way is not only because we have experienced versions of this ourselves, but we recognize that as below so above. We are dealing with this kind of threat from an existential plane. The world is going through what Ren is acting out. We feel it. We combat it every day in the headlines, in our conversations with our friends, with ourselves. This song now, is a parallel of our greater reality. Like the quantum level connection with the universal. I think Ren (the artist performing for us here) has used his internal struggle in such a way as to illustrate and educate us on how to deal with the times we now find ourselves in. And on an emotional and psychological level, he also gives hope to the individual. Thank God for Ren. And thank 'all that is' for you, Nick.

[@nickforell1]

I appreciate that heartfelt message Glen. Ren laid it out for us and he's brilliant at messaging, especially when it comes to important messages. Thank you for watching!

[@jackalexander209]

I'm not a particularly judgemental person or one who thinks in absolutes, but in the last few years I've been increasingly feeling that humanity is is going through an enormous battle between its best and worst aspects, which, as you say, may explain why so many people are having visceral reactions to this song (including myself - I was crying from about 4 minutes into the song the first time I heard it).

[@shanapettigrew1609]

99.9% of people agree that they (in fact) were “NOT Expecting THAT” 💯 % of the time..❤️🔥🙏🌎

[@DennyViereck-q6r]

Wow! You are the first person to notice that he doesn't play the very last note. If I called him a young musical genius I wouldn't be lying.

[@badbadleroybrown]

Great reaction, and I know for sure you'll also appreciate the related themes in Ren's 'Sick Boi' and 'Chalk Outlines (live version)'.

[@nickforell1]

I'll check it out and thanks for stopping by!

[@danielharry1075]

It's so fantastic to hear someone's thoughts who obviously really care as reflects in your profession and you intelligence to understand the song for what it is, is very impressive. Much respect!

[@Diamonddog59]

A small personal observation, I see this as a play in three acts, followed by an epilogue, Act One -The Introduction: Ren is wheeled in, weak and feeble playing music without confidence but it is for a better word, "happy place", at this point we are introduced to the second snide controlling Ren, who is pissed because the drugs and treatments are shutting him out but he knows he can always come back. Ren does not talk for himself, "my therapist says, (for me the saddest phrase in history) shows he has not yet healed enough to fight back. The exchanges are teasing and almost comical, ("fuck you, you should be so lucky") and Ren's voice is more pleading and unsure. However towards the end of the act, Ren is finding his feet and stating the things that give him hope, which angers evil Ren, who points out, that if he wants to rid himself of his evil inside, the only choice is death. Act Two - The Battle: An existential fight between good and evil and life and death. Chaos is control and he who causes the chaos or can controls the chaos, wins! The tempo of the exchanges become more frantic and vicious, as both Ren's try and fight for survival or dominance , and the arguments take on a Shakespearian dynamic and the evil Ren getting more spiteful and grandiose, as he realises in music Ren has found salvation, The increased chaos and final scream of "Ren", is him knowing he is being banished and has (for the moment at least) lost his power over the musical, stronger, healing Ren. Act Three - The Victory and Release: Ren exhausted but victorious shuts out the voice of evil Ren, and chooses to listen closely to the music so closely his ear is next to one plucked note, and finally when Ren talks and plays he is doing so with his own calm, confident voice, He is no longer speaking to his banished demon but to his new self, his carers and us, the audience that has been willing him to be well and with every word his confidence grows to the point of release. He lets us know how close to the rope we can all take it but in his victory we are all can find "hope" and/or the strength not to self destruct. The final refrain from his earlier, "happy place music" is now joyful, primeval and gloriously euphoric, Ren is free to be one Ren. The Epilogue: Powerful, poetic, poignant and honest, it speaks for itself and is inspiring and humbling. Feel free to disagree or agree, we all have our own psychosis and that is, "what makes us human" Thanks for a thought provoking reaction, so much more in this but I have rambled enough.

[@BinaryDad]

Lots pf great insights, Subbed straight away, see you on the next one...

[@riulin96]

Ohhh you'll love his trilogy :) But there are already dozens of reactions and analysis to it which is why I would prefer to see any reactions to his older song "Crutch". It deserves way more spotlight

[@Pepperwindu]

Thanks for getting it. I see so many reactors thinking this is split personally. 👍

[@doobiedave9686]

This is pure genius. 👍

[@nickforell1]

Tough one to watch in the morning but it was soooo well done. Get this man a record deal

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

@@nickforell1 Ren does not want one

[@angelaprzybylski1425]

​@nickforellreacts he wants to stay independent so he can do the music he wants. No record label is going to let him put out the types of things he writes about. Think that's why everyone has been really trying to support all his music because it definitely needs to be heard. Chalk Outlines is a must and another walk down the mental health alley and so beautifully done. It should really be on the radio everywhere

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

@@angelaprzybylski1425 you said that perfectely. Hi Ren was on radio in Seatle and a few stations in california and college radio. and yes if he didnt get kicked from Sony years ago we would not have this type of music, It would be a very differetn Ren.!

[@inderida2000]

this has been the best portray of mental illness for me. I lost my mom 15 years ago to suicide from bipolar. Im 36 now, and while she was going through her struggle with it, I hated doctors for always trying to change and play with medication for her. it just messed her up more. at the time though, I believe she was able to finally beat that demon and end it for the both of them, and not let the demon come out and effect her daughter and me. thanks for sharing!

[@salmanalrasyidibnuabbas7324]

he also has a good storytelling, there is trilogy song of his "Jenny's Tale, Screech's Tale, and Violet's Tale" from left to right is how the story told, its all a good storytelling in a music, like a bard in medieval times at a bar :D.