episode 19 - Knitting as Healer

[@genevievekhayat823]

Thank you for this beautiful episode. I am so sorry for your father. Sending positive vibes your way and wishing you all the best! Grief is hard and slow but needs to be fully lived. Take care!

[@littlebigknits]

Geneviève Khayat thank you!!

[@juliadroy1179]

You are a very brave lady sharing your dads story with all of us, please take time to grieve, I know this happened a little while ago but I do send you my thoughts and love,. Love all of your projects. also you reminded me of a linen sweater I knitted in the 60's.

[@littlebigknits]

Julia Droy 🙏🏻

[@nanci001]

Wow beautiful music, I'm enjoying your company while i knit and have some empanadas in the oven :)

[@0927holly]

Thank you Selma. It was so nice to see you again. I went through much the same thing 2 years ago. Oh so much stuff. Anyway from my heart to yours, I wish you healing and blessings. Namaste.

[@loobielou6965]

Oh. My. Goodness I'm so happy I've stumbled across your podcast. I'm really enjoying watching past episodes, your knitting is stunning.

[@littlebigknits]

Lou Nichol thank you so much!

[@chrismajchrzak6332]

Dear Selma, Thank you for sharing your story with us. I enjoyed seeing your beautiful knits and sewing. But I was also touched by your personal journey as well and how knitting has seen you through it. I have been in a long season of loss beginning with my father, then my grandmother, most heartbreaking was the death of my son, followed by my brother. Intense grief has been a regular companion and truly i don't know what it is like to be "normal" anymore. However, I find great solace in knitting and making and in nature. It is in nature that I find beautiful signs from my loved ones that they are still very present in my life. Grief will crack you open to the core, and you can either remain broken or you can rise up and become a stronger version of yourself - and this only happens by working through the sadness, allowing it, and mining for the gold in your life. Blessings to you.

[@barbarafortune9572]

This has been one of your best podcast. You are so beautiful inside and out. Just delve into and remember all the good times spent together.

[@sallysandwith2424]

Love you and sorry for your loss. Everyday you carry on his love for art and crafting. God bless, Sally🇺🇸

[@littlebigknits]

Sally Sandwith thank you!

[@inezharrell1231]

Lovely video This is my first time seeing your video. Looking forward to more. Take care Thanks for sharing your Mom and Dad's memories will all. Enjoy your weekend.

[@helenmulcahy1399]

I am so very sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers. Thank you for such a beautiful podcast.

[@sheryltisdale]

Thank you for sharing Selma, best wishes for you and your family in your time of grief. Lovely podcast, I enjoyed it very much, just give your self all the time you need. Take care

[@pathowes32]

So sorry for your loss. Hugs to you❤️

[@withthesehands1631]

So sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing a bit of your time with us. God Bless.

[@janekline1018]

A beautiful podcast! Thank you for your honest and accurate assessment of what it is like to lose a beloved parent. Knitting is my therapy and I enjoy seeing all of your lovely projects!

[@randiraphael-hurtado8713]

Wishing you comfort during this challenging time. The photos of you and your father touched my heart. I'm glad you shared and so happy to see another video from you.

[@littlebigknits]

Randi Raphael-Hurtado thank you so kindly!!!

[@heatherbryant4527]

I’m so sorry for your loss, and truly appreciate you sharing your thoughts about grief. Thank goodness for knitting. Loved all of your beautiful makes. I’ve added some of the patterns to my list!

[@jacobabekker2685]

Everything of the podcast was so beautiful thank you so much for sharing this. Much love! 💖💖

[@bonniefindley1746]

Thank you for this beautiful podcast. I'm sorry for your loss. Holding you in peace and love.

[@littlebigknits]

Bonnie Findley 💕💕

[@TheDivabird1]

What a heartfelt episode, beauty from sadness. I lost my father April of last year, and it just plain makes your heart hurt. I miss him so much. Thank you for sharing your lovely knitting as well as your father with us.

[@littlebigknits]

Teresa Knight 💕💕

[@cappuccinocrafts2412]

Thanks for sharing. So sorry for your loss. This was a beautiful episode in every way. Projects, memories, beautiful snippets of summer footage, music. Knitting/sewing/crafting gets us through so many things.

[@lailab6693]

So sorry for your loss, wishing you all the best. Thank you for a wonderful and personal episode.

[@godylief]

Selma I missed you. I was so glad you posted another podcast. I cried with you I know it's hard to lose a parent (or both). You're a wonderful women. I love your pink top just wonderful and you give me so much inspiration and good feeling. Thank you so much 😘

[@littlebigknits]

Godelieve Massant thank you! I am really glad to have podcasted too!! It felt good to do something completely different than what has been on my plate these days!

[@elizabethryan9633]

Thank You Selma for sharing and I am so sorry for your loss. I lost both my parents within 6 months and then decided to learn knit last September. I was lucky enough to find you and the knitting community. Every stitch heals a little. Thank you again for such a beautiful episode.

[@littlebigknits]

Elizabeth Ryan I am glad you have found knitting!! That was a lot of loss as well so I hope that it helped! 💕

[@jazzyshell7299]

So sorry for your loss. Thank you for such a wonderful heartfelt episode xx sending you good wishes. Looking forward to next time xx

[@marynolan6627]

So sorry for the loss of your father. Lovely to have you back!!

[@mellezazasj]

what a wonderful episode, thank you for sharing. Yes knitting is a healer, and so is yarn and all that you love about it, the feel, the smell! I do hope it will help you in this process and time. Take care! Sarah

[@angelajenkins3952]

Bless your heart, Selma, it has been an emotional summer for you. I've been thinking about you and am so happy your knitting has been there for you.

[@littlebigknits]

Angela Jenkins it has indeed!! Thank you for thinking of me!!! Big hug to you!

[@crittermomof2]

I absolutely love your podcast! Your voice is just so soothing. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your father. My prayers for comfort are with you.

[@donnamariecorrigan]

Loved all the different aspects of this video from the beautiful scenery, knitting, music and sharing. God bless you and your family.💕

[@ShowandTellknitting]

My condolences, Selma. How courageous of you to share your innermost feelings publicly. I, too, am an only child and have been through the deaths of both parents (one at age 94!) in the past 8 years. My mother's unusual life, the sale of her house and the disposition of her stuff was an adventure worthy of a book. I took a full year to grieve and to write that book, full of wonderful memories. I imagine that you also have many great times to reflect back on and that those thoughts help sustain you.

[@catherinesp6378]

Another lovely episode Selma. I’m sorry to hear of the loss of your Dad. I look forward to seeing his makes 💞

[@littlebigknits]

Catherine Paradiso 💕💕

[@sweetlavenderknits6670]

Hi Selma, a very lovely podcast. So sorry for your loss and may you find grace through this time...hugs xx

[@annparsons6238]

I’m so sorry for your loss Selma . Like you my knitting was there . As a maker you will cherish any hand made items . Mine are looked at daily and now bring such happy memories and comfort .

[@ElaineP49]

Lovely podcast, and beautiful pictures and memories to treasure. My thoughts and prayers are with you. x x

[@shethasimon3441]

Thank you for such a lovely episode, I am very sorry for your loss, it is extremely difficult, I always try to find my beloved ones in our happy memories that we managed to create and share in our lives together. Lots of love 🌻🌼🌸

[@needle_nut7501]

Selma, that empty hole you feel will slowly fill up with sweet memories and peace. I agree that you have to live the heartache to move froward. Your pictures and stories are so beautiful. Blessings, Cheryl

[@bighairedbookworm3578]

Thank you for a wonderful podcast. I’m so sorry for your loss. It takes your breath away when you lose a parent. Suddenly a pillar of your life’s foundation disappears. Sending much love to you xxx

[@littlebigknits]

BigHaired Bookworm that is exactly that. It makes you question and ponder many things. Thank you!

[@sharonarrendale8418]

I love all of the things that you are working on. I’ve been wanting to work on a summer sweater. But, haven’t even started. I’m so sorry for your losses. I realize how hard to loose a parent. I too have lost both of mine. Several years apart. I was my dads only child. Wasn’t close to my mom. Her choice. Please know that you are in my heart and prayers.❤️

[@littlebigknits]

Sharon Arrendale thank you Sharon!

[@erinsprinkle7393]

I am so sorry to hear about your father. Cherish his handy work, my home is filled with family heirlooms and it brings me happiness. Wishing you peace!

[@ppuyle1]

Lovely to see you back! So sorry for your loss!

[@danadanabrown]

Thank you for such a special message. Your tribute to your father at the end is touchingl and so full of love. You've made me think and I truly value that. Your warm openness inspires me. Have a beautiful fall and I hope life smoothes out for you very soon.

[@craftymystic4868]

Grief is a formidable companion, Selma. It’s not depression, by far, you are wise to recognize the process as a natural one, the sadness that happens. I was a daddy’s girl, and lost mind 30 years ago. But the realization that we now are the eldest generation, no longer the children, we are the ones to carry on, we will also be the next generation to pass. Crafting, or making as they call it now, got me through more than one personal loss. And now I have yoga, which is equally as helpful. My thoughts are with you 🙏🏻 Namaste

[@littlebigknits]

Crafty Mystic thank you dear one! There is such a strong existential aspect to it for sure which I really didn’t see coming.

[@christineferoli1750]

Love the whole vlog, beautiful yarns. Lovely

[@pam3744]

Thank you for sharing about your experiences in this lovely podcast. Big, big hug, Selma. Take good care.

[@Dailywhatnots]

Thank you for sharing. I’m looking forward to seeing your family’s making history.

[@nancymorales2741]

So sorry for your loss, Selma! Loved the photos of you and your dad. I agree that knitting is therapeutic. Sending hugs. -lajoyagirl

[@shirleybeard2318]

You have such a loving spirit. Thank you for sharing. Your shawl has me anxious to try that yarn. Peace.

[@Sijiweavingdreams]

Beautiful and emotional! Felt like to call my parents right after I finished watching. Love.....💕

[@jdenn5774]

I am so happy I found your podcast 🌞 You are beautiful and inspirational 💕

[@littlebigknits]

Julie Denninger thank you for such kind words Julie!

[@hunacre]

What a nice treat to wake up to the alert that you had uploaded a new episode, I've really missed you! I'm so sorry about your father, I was crying with you. He seemed like a very unique and talented person and I'm looking forward to seeing those woven ties! You are so right, let yourself feel whatever you need to feel, it's all part of the process. Thank you for sharing your heart and knitting with us, Selma!! xo

[@littlebigknits]

Stephanie Freel thank you for synch beautiful words!! I promise to show the ties!!

[@cathyhodge2799]

A beautiful podcast Selma. I'm so sorry for your loss. Big Hugs to you my friend

[@LDSVenus]

My heart breaks for your losses this summer and my prayers and thoughts are with you for peace and comfort as you work through the grief. Just know it takes time and have patience with yourself. Glad you have your knitting to bring you comfort, I find it helpful as well.

[@lisacotter6227]

My heart goes out to you! I lost my dad September 2017 and i know what the loss entails. It is something that I will be processing for the rest of my life. ❤️

[@littlebigknits]

Lisa Cotter my mother lost her mother 30 years ago and she still says she misses her and I think that is a wonderful way of remembering them and holding them close!! Thank you for chiming in!!

[@reneesmusing12]

It was a wonderful episode..I’m a first time viewer, but not a last time...TY

[@vickishaw374]

Sending you big, big hugs. Although I haven't gone through that yet with my parents, I don't think it's far off and is something on my mind a lot. I can't even imagine the roller coaster.

[@mywoolmitten]

The photos of you and your Dad are beautiful Selma. Thank you for sharing

[@karenshaw5514]

You are amazing Selma ❤️ I haven't lost a parent, but my best friend has. She said the same thing as you just last night, that there's no way to understand that kind of grief until you experience yourself. I love the way you talk about your father, he must have been an extraordinary man and I am so sorry for your loss 💔

[@littlebigknits]

Karen Shaw thank you Karen!! It took me a bit to understand that it wasn’t depression but that I couldn’t just put the emotions aside or talk myself out of them. It’s not a usual sad thing but somehow comes from our core. Here’s to our next meeting in pei!! 💕💕💕

[@tanyaseaman67]

Lovely podcast -- this was my first time watching yours. I'm sorry for your losses this year.

[@HawthornCottageCraft]

Triple thumbs up. A beautiful episode from start to finish.❤️

[@littlebigknits]

Hawthorn Cottage Craft thank you my dear!!

[@tinajakimova6986]

DANKE ! IMEER SCHÖNE MUSIK !

[@lindac6922]

Selma, I'm very sorry for your loss. Your dad sounds like he was amazing!!!

[@tyedyediva9671]

Welcome back! Love the beautiful blue tunic.

[@agonz1438]

First time. Loved everything you knitted... & your presentation is soothing!

[@3plypodcast]

Thank you for such a heartfelt episode. So sorry for your loss. Grieving is such a painful process. Hugs and much love, Irene (also an only child) ❤️

[@lesleydeeming9479]

I am so sorry for your loss, the photos at the end of you and your Father are so lovely... the videos you put up of the lakes and other areas were beautiful.. I hope life is treating you kindly, ❤️

[@sheilaf1406]

Wishing you peace to bring comfort, courage to face the days ahead, and loving memories to forever hold in your heart.

[@zoegodfrey2910]

Sending lots of love

[@patbossence8995]

My condolences Selma. You are inspiring not only in your knitting and designing skills but also in your dedication to your family. How wonderful that you have many memories of your father and your much loved hobbies to sustain you now. God bless.

[@littlebigknits]

Pat Bossence thank you!!!

[@susanweber581]

Enjoyed the podcast and your projects. Losing parents is hard. My mom was a knitter, sewist, crocheter, quilter, and maker of stained glass. I treasure having my Mom's things and the memories. Hugs to you, it gets easier.

[@astalabianca5557]

I'm very sorry for your loss. We just lost my mother-in-law this summer and had her memorial service this month. It's an emotional roller-coaster and I pray for comfort for you and your family. The podcast was beautiful. I really enjoyed the footage at the start and finish as well. I put together a slide show of my mil for her service, and it was very moving to see all the phases of her life before us in just a few minutes. A life well-lived. Thanks for sharing.

[@littlebigknits]

Asta LaBianca I am sorry to hear 💕 it is a roller coaster that is an important one to ride I think!!

[@russellsansom1673]

Sending you love and and condolences for your loss from the U.K.

[@selbergmocht3051]

Thank you for this Podcast it was so special for me, please excuse my English, best wishes from Austria

[@hollyorwin2096]

Sorry for your loss. What beautiful pictures of you and your dad. Great podcast. Hope you podcast soon. Keep knitting for your health.

[@BeebeesHandmade]

Oh Selma, i'm so sorry to hear of your lovely Dad's passing. I'm glad crafting has been helping you through. It's really lovely to have you back on youtube. Lots of love from the UK

[@littlebigknits]

Beebee's Handmade Dress thank you!!

[@mayolson2]

I enjoyed the violin so much. My aunt was a concert violinist in her younger years. The singer is wonderful.

[@rachleebookgirl]

Hang in there. I completely feel your pain. We lost mom two years ago and I still miss her terribly. We’ve also gone through the whole process of cleaning out the house and putting it on the market. It’s physically and emotionally exhausting. Honestly , I’ve shared these responsibilities with my two sisters and I can’t imagine being on my own to shoulder all the burdens. So glad you’re continuing to knit and sew. I totally agree that crafting has therapeutic powers!

[@christineferoli1750]

Lovely pictures of the lake

[@nazltutkukalfa3261]

your knittings are beautiful your cat is beautiful, your garden and your house too. you are beautiful too.. :) An armful love to you from Turkey Selma !

[@Karanodom]

when i sewed jersey, i had trouble with the stitching because it snagged. etc. i had to switch to a #9 needle, and all went smoothly. love your podcast

[@kaarinakoistinen9265]

Thank you for putting out another episode in spite of the crazy summer your having! I hope it will only get better from here on! Thank you for sharing about your family! Sorry to hear of your fathers passing. Thank goodness for knitting! All the best to you!

[@littlebigknits]

Kaarina Koistinen I do hope this year improves!! I must tell you that the day of the podcast I later found out that my uncle, my mother’s oldest brother, passed away... so not getting better yet... but I will probably accompany my mother there for the funeral

[@katgore99]

Lovely podcast, your a lovely lady. Peace to you and yours!

[@littlebigknits]

Kat Gore thank you for such kind words!

[@junef2618]

Hi Selma thank you for sharing the loss of your father as I too lost mine the day after on 26th June. Your talking about the many layers of mourning has struck a cord with me and has helped me understand what I am going through - thank you. I love watching and listening to your podcasts and your interest and enthusiasm for handcrafting whatever it may be. The music at the end of the episode was lovely. I too may make the Good Vibes shawl yours looks lovely. virtual hugs!!

[@littlebigknits]

June F thank you for sharing June!! It is such a baggage of emotions that we have little control of it seems. At the same time I realized I needed to acknowledge them and allow them to happen. I hope we will both be able to move through and come out stronger and wiser with some peace. Hugs to you as we share this burden

[@joharris6045]

Thank you for a truly lovely episode, the photography and the music made for very relaxing watching. As an only child who has lost both parents over the last six months I relate very much to the things you were saying and I can completely agree with knitting being a healer. Be kind to yourself as you go through the grief process (as you say it has many layers) but watching this podcast I think you are a very wise lady ❤️

[@littlebigknits]

Jo Harris you have had your share of loss my dear!! I hope that you have found comfort as well💕 I send you a hug!!

[@loritownsend3390]

I also made the sunshine coast this summer. I loved making it and wish I could remember the yarn name. I know it is "something" farms with the yarn name Zooey. It was a linen cotton blend. I am so proud to wear it!!! Yours is lovely. So sorry to hear of your father's passing. Grieving is different for everyone, especially the timing part so take your time and be kind to yourself

[@littlebigknits]

I know which yarn you speak of!!! I bet it’s lovely! If you are in our ravelry group you could share it there! And even enter it in the knit along

[@Elianaalfonso7703]

I have been watching your old episodes and enjoying them immensely. This one made me sad for you though it occurred some time ago now. My father was born and died in the same years as yours, at 84. I look forward to watching all your episodes until I catch up to the present day.

[@littlebigknits]

❤️ we have the mémorisant the knowledge that they loved good lives!

[@denenemeneley608]

I just found your channel, so sorry for your loss!

[@pattymcreynolds2720]

It's so good to see you again, and all of your finished projects are just beautiful. And your new yarns! Oh my! But I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It's alot to deal with and it takes time to get through it. You're lucky to have your family and friends, and knitting, of course, to help you through it. Take care. Looking forward to seeing what comes next. Patty

[@littlebigknits]

Patty McReynolds thank you!!

[@nolamcneely7857]

Hello from Tennessee USA. I just found you and completely enjoyed your podcast. My father is also a crafter of all things and I know when he passes away it will be extremely hard also. Thank you for sharing everything with us all.

[@karenbudnick]

So sorry for your loss. Having lost both my parents within a few years of each other I've been encouraging my husband to work with me to get our affairs organized for our adult children to make it easier on them if something were to happen. It's difficult enough with all the sadness without a mountain of paperwork to deal with.

[@PearadiseIsland]

Sending my love dear Selma! It’s true, you must give yourself time to process...and heal. As time goes on, I’ve learned that grief doesn’t really go away - I just learned to live with it until it no longer hurts. XO

[@littlebigknits]

Pearadise Island thank you my dear!

[@teresephelps6263]

My thoughts and prayers are with you for not just today but the coming weeks and months. The year of firsts without a loved one will bring up new emotions as you remember what it was like. Those are the moments that may be hard to allow yourself to look at/use/talk about the great things he left you behind to leave that piece of your heart and the great gifts for all of your family to cherish!

[@sallieholloway7657]

So sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[@tracybrines746]

So sorry for your loss. It is hard enough losing a parent but then also having to go through all their life belongings is even more so. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[@lorimcfarlane4254]

So sorry for your loss Selma big hug out to you and your family.😘💕🌹

[@littlebigknits]

Lori McFarlane 😘

[@shellastosik7345]

Your Good Vibes shawl turned out stunning! I think I will have to knit one as well! I do think that pink will be lovely with your dress! I can't wait to see you again I miss our lunch time knitting :)

[@littlebigknits]

Shella Stosik 😘

[@paulyknit]

So sorry for your loss. It's so hard losing a parent. I lost mine, at an early age. Nice episode. I like the idea of seeing the projects from past generations. You don't need to respond to my reply.

[@dianescott3515]

Selma, my thoughts and prayers are with you in the loss of your dad. There is no easy or “right” way to get through a time like this as I found out a few years ago. Thank you for sharing the thoughts and sweet pictures with us.

[@mariajoaocanavarro48]

Hello! I' m sorry for your father! Stay well, a big kiss for you from Portugal!

[@andrealandsburg2080]

You are a lovely soul Selma, wishing you all the best!

[@littlebigknits]

andrea landsburg thank you so kindly!!! It doesn’t always feel like that but I will believe you!! 😘

[@andrealandsburg2080]

Your spirit shines tru..don't ever doubt it... the rest will pass..

[@StitchingJoanne]

I just found your video. I love that you knit tops not just socks and shawls like a lot of people :)

I am so very sorry for your loss