I relapsed on alcohol and I'm not ok

[@Tattooedladyd]

It changed my life when I decided to rarely check my Facebook and stopped using my Instagram. Social media can be so toxic. Stay strong. I have had an issue with alcohol too. Know your triggers. For the record, I don't judge. You should never struggle alone, but people can be so toxic. Much love, bro.

[@EricBZink]

Amazing how nice those breaks are I am doing that with Facebook now because it is so damn toxic and hate filled. People stopped just caring about other humans

[@Tattooedladyd]

I agree. The world has become so cold. Everyone is so quick to place judgement, yet nobody is perfect. I prefer to protect my peace, so I keep my circle very small. I also like to help others, and it's a tricky thing to do in this world.. But when you're passionate about it, one should never let the opinions of others sway that.

[@cripto2813]

Exactly... I been struggling for 15 years ... And I have piece of shit neighbors and landlord that dony understand... Someone just snorted 3 xans .. gn guys

[@danieltaylor1408]

Social media is the devil !!!!

[@cindymclean-r4t]

Keep going to AA never stop going you can do this . Be strong .

[@kimberlytheberge8675]

Part of recovery is relapse its hard to sometimes come clean and open up to the fact of relapse but it happens to the best of us just keep your head up and moving forward you are so loved and I respect you for being who you are

[@EricBZink]

Thanks and it’s hard asf but relieving when we share

[@kimberlytheberge8675]

@@EricBZink YES ITIS BUT YOU ALSO HAVE TO ADMIT YOU MESSED UP AND TRY AND FIND THE REASONYOU DID BUTJUST BECAUSE YOU HAD A LITTLE HICUP DONT GIVE UP KEEP PUSHING FOWARD BECAUSE EVERYONE IS WORTH ANOTHER CHANCE NO MATTER WHAT THAT ADDICTION IS YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE BECAUSE YOU MAKE ONE LITTLE MISTAKE BUT TAKE THAT MISTAKE AND LEARN FROM IT AND USE IT TO NEXT TIME SUCCEED CAUSE YOU ARE NOT YOUR MISTAKES YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE AND YOU CAN NEVER BE REPLACED YOUR A HUMAN AND NOT SOMETHING THAT IS MATERIALISTIC YOUR IRREPLACEABLE

[@craigt2539]

Hey Eric, listening to and watching you, I can see you as more human than I have been able to see the majority of people and I can relate to you quite a bit, like I genuinely find you relatable and I have always struggled with empathy so I find seeing so much of myself in you interesting and I hope you are doing well still man. I'm grateful to have found your channel

[@erkanzengin4846]

Found your channel through Cg Kid. Yours is one of the most important channels on the internet, past and present. Many thanks to you for sharing your experiences with us, and many many blessings to you.

[@myownmusic8182]

Think of it like this: you get to redo your lap. I literally play a game with myself, to try and achieve a high-score of sobriety. Current high score is three months of sobriety, and I'm currently using, but I'm going to rehab on Tuesday. I'm gonna blow my three-month high score out of the water, God-willing! Whatever your high score is, keep it getting higher, or get ready to beat it if you've already relapsed! If you beat it once, twice, three, four, five, whatever number of times, it'll be even easier to beat it again! Every relapse should just be confirmation that you CAN do it, that you CAN be sober, and that you CAN live a better life.

[@tylerwalmsley5602]

Thank you for your honesty bro takes a true man to admit your down falls as long as you get yourself up and press on being who you are

[@EricBZink]

Heck yeah and together we got this!

[@erinbrown6962]

Congratulations 🎉 on your 90 days!!! Thank you for sharing your story! You are very brave. May God Bless You!!!! I hope you feel Gods grace surrounding you and know that you are never alone! 🙏🏼☺️.

[@jimjones6450]

I was taking Kratom like a Fiend not knowing it was addictive, i went through opiate withdrawals in 2003 for 1 whole year ( oxy) i watched your video, and stopped immediately, and i had minor withdrawals for 2 weeks. You saved me. I have an addictive personality, i can't believe i almost put myself thru that Hell again. Wasnt too bad, but i suffered restless legs and Major Depression for 2 weeks and i only used kratom for 8 days

[@EricBZink]

Believe me I get the struggle and proud of you for being here still today!

[@SahandSadeghi]

That sounds bad, I'm using kratom right now to get off suboxone. It's been working but I'm realized more and more that kratom basically IS an opiate and I need to taper off that too. I hate hearing people say they can take kratom for years and stop with no w/d's, their lying to themselves and everyone else

[@dankorth1325]

Yes!

[@coco1113]

Aw I'm so sorry to hear that your not in a good mental state but your not alone we are here for you and we love you ❤️ you can always share your thoughts here we won't judge you and we'll help the best we can!

[@EricBZink]

Heck of a lot better now thankfully to strong support, I appreciate you!

[@mikebucur8461]

Great job. You just learned another way that the addiction monster can trick you. Relapses are normal and not bad at all. It's a good idea to reframe failures as something good that it takes us closer to where we wanna go!

[@realschoby]

I appreciate you being able to explain this. I’m struggling with alcoholism and ADD at 26 years old. My main issue is being able to explain to my wife how our brains work. I am very successful but the manic episodes drive me insane it’s like a roller coaster ride battling my thoughts and urges. Your videos give me hope 🙏

[@alesburja9819]

I have relapsed too, the same after three years sober, but what didn't killed me makes me stronger, after I found my thoughts behind my tongue when I ordered first, trough AA meetings. Now first year sober going again that doesn't matter, I'm sober even off from psychiatric drugs that didn't help me be as I am, free off poisoning myself with other substances. Thanks for the video it helps me understand the same situation.

[@dihillen]

Thank you for sharing this experience. I can tell you it took my anxiety away,i'm sober of alcohol now for 1,5 month and am thinking to drink again just for the reasons you had. This story grounded me so good,and i don't feel that urge anymore. It is so valuable what you do,people learn from your experience just because you're so honest about all of it. Keep it up💪

[@beckvee8719]

I relapsed from my eating disorder on feb 1st 2020, I didn't eat for two days, I was 3 months clean and trying to heal but I was hit with a death of a family member and I couldn't take the pain. I am 1 year and some clean now with the help of you and my S.O. I am working out. I am transitioning (ftm transgender male) , I am trying. Thanks for being here with me Eric.

[@Johne13]

Hey Eric I appreciated hearing your feelings, this is very relatable to me and people dealing with alcoholism I thank you for this video.

[@randomcomputer7248]

3 years not wasted. Your body has had 3 years of healing. I relapsed during lockdown after 2 years of being sober. A few beers quickly turned into 40/50 units a week, ok not pints of Bacardi a night, but too much for me. I am now 1 week sober again and am looking forward to another 2 years.

[@EricBZink]

Exactly and I love that mentality we are not alone we got this!

[@erinbrown6962]

That’s a huge accomplishment of being able to stop after the one night. You should feel proud of that!! We are always learning what works for us and lonely is one of the hardest feelings. I don’t have any friends because my mental health struggles have been so severe, but I’m getting better and know that God has a plan for me. God has a plan for you, and you are already being of service to SO many people by sharing!!!!! You got this!!!!! Sending positivity your way!!!!!

[@mumbos8211]

Who are you today? that is what matters, you are not the same person you were yesterday, nor the day before, its no longer you. Don't live in the past, if you mess up, you mess up, but it makes no difference whether we worry or not about what we did apart from our own well being because the mishap has already happened. So be present, dont worry about someone else that isnt here now.

[@kolesemeniuk955]

Your videos help me keep going. Discovered you from CG Channel and we definitely have the same drug of choice and just staggering similarities all around made some life changing decisions on that stuff and I just wanna say thank you for talking about it and helping others man.

[@SahandSadeghi]

Relapsing after long periods of sobriety really sucks, but you just got to keep going. Relapse is part of recovery as they say. I relapsed recently too, it really does suck, it makes you feel like such a failure

[@hidden8510]

hey eric. neither do we know each other, nor am I the kind of person to regulary leave a comment - or even leave a comment at all - but the truth is that even tho I still couldn't manage going completely sober yet, your videos are one very big part of my motivation to do so. if you wanna be sober, you'll make it. and yes, relapses are shit. I've had them happen to me way too often. but if you have this wish for a sober life in your heart, then trust me, that is what you're gonna earn in the end. you're strong. you'll make it.

[@EricBZink]

You have no idea how much reading this means, I believe we can all get through it together and you touched my heart. Thank you ❤️

[@hidden8510]

@@EricBZink we can go through this together - yes, we will! thank you so much 🕊

[@GaryZahn-t9x]

Im proud of you bro. You are getting back up after falling down. Ive been sober for 13 and half months. Its been really hard but here I am. Keep fighting the fight and Im happy you got back on the wagon. Thats not an Easy thing to do ...💪

[@veritas3379]

Thanks for sharing brother, 👍 No body can take those 3 years of sobriety away from you. It's in the past and part of your process now. God can draw a greater good out of it.

[@mattparr3038]

After that long being booze free, its safe to say your body liver can handle the slip. The only obstacle is your own conscience and how you cope moving forward. Just learn where you went wrong and move forward, 3years sober is bloody awesome. Its the old saying, if your walking up stairs, nearing the top and you fall, just jump back on where you fell. For most, addiction is a lifelong marathon, we run it at our own pace, and we only have ourselves to be accountable. Dust yourself off and try again... ive been there in the past, just keep on keeping on. Nuture good relationships and make the moments with them count. 😁😁

[@hannahpleines3301]

Youre loved Eric. I relapsed and got kicked out of group therapy for supposedly trying to buy drugs in group. So youre not the only one struggling and trying to get through.

[@EricBZink]

It’s a fight thankfully some understand how much of one it is

[@paranxietyoia587]

the life is keep on goin bro stay sharp n freshh

[@CaliCoast805_lovin_life]

❤❤❤Amazing! Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest! You are inspiring and helping many. I think every person has or will been touched by addiction in one way or another! It's hard, but necessary to be forgiving to others and the hardest to forgive ourselves. I have loved many addicts, including myself!❤ Thank you again❣🙏

[@nurzrachit7133]

I relapsed twice on alcohol. Both times after 10 years of sobriety. I'm 53 now and I know for certain I didn't lose that time, even though I have not been back long. A shit load of awesome things have happened in my life, but I allowed myself to isolate and my ego told me that I could finally handle it. Although I didn't have anything significant happen.. drinking is not me, but I'll always be for it.

[@EricBZink]

❤️

[@tarapowless554]

Thank you for your honesty and I respect you more for being true especially for helping me except that slips happen and to get back on the wagon.❤️ Much love.

[@EricBZink]

Always and I appreciate the support!

[@VULCAN1135]

I feel you man. Don't worry about people, you won't think about drama on your death bed

[@Kim-do6md]

You’re amazing and have gone through so much. I’m so proud of you. Life isn’t a easy path, it’s just how we handle the twists and turns that’s thrown in front of us. Honey you got thrown more than most. You picked yourself up and started again. A battle is only lost when we don’t get back up. You’re a true Warrior my King. I’ll always have your back. Love you more than you know!!

[@EricBZink]

You’re amazing too and your support has been priceless throughout all of this! I am grateful for your friendship!!!

[@xwarx1000]

I relapsed after 5 years of abstinence on 14April ( I was not working on my sobriety), Its not a good feeling, just 6 day sober today after 3 months of bender and crazy bike accident.

[@kirstyrossington-watson6745]

I will pray for you and I relapsed on 7 months being clean of self harm and I have also recently stop going to my therapy you are an amazing and I respect you

[@EricBZink]

You got this and believe in you!

[@kirstyrossington-watson6745]

@@EricBZink I believe in you to and I have also been kicked out my home

[@Baxte.r]

What?

[@kirstyrossington-watson6745]

@@Baxte.r what are you saying what to

[@Baxte.r]

Wasn’t necessary to say u are “clean of self harm” not like it’s a drug

[@jameswebster6078]

I love you Erick❤️ I relapse to❤️ I can’t stop smoking weed out of boredom. But that’s ok I’m strong and you are strong. We got this.

[@EricBZink]

We do got this and all the love

[@jameswebster6078]

You got this man you help me with depression so much💪 and anxiety/ adhd

[@EricBZink]

@@jameswebster6078 just know you are not alone and we got this together!

[@malachai8049]

there have been many times where i wanted to go down that dark path. addiction is basically in my nature and from personal experiences i know the casualties of letting alcohol or anything for that matter control your life. And i'm proud to say that i have avoided that path because of my support system. I believe everyone has the ability to fight temptation and relapse or not i'll always be in everyone's corner. this is not a battle but a war and wars are won with teamwork.

[@EricBZink]

That’s awesome! I love hearing the support system when I stopped building mine is when it all went downhill

[@malachai8049]

@@EricBZink it's definitely been a rollercoaster ride of losing and gaining support

[@EricBZink]

@@malachai8049 Well got your back!

[@Jodysf]

Your videos really are amazing man. I look up to you

[@EricBZink]

Just helps to know we are all human

[@d.lessard4018]

Nope. He is a sick twisted liar. Hundreds of victims can attest.

[@Jodysf]

@@d.lessard4018 why?

[@gary3548]

Thank you so much for your honest video

[@statickshockum]

Much love man, you got this!✌

[@EricBZink]

All the love back we got this

[@EricTaylor-cn4zq]

You the man Eric. Love your videos.

[@booferjuicethebutcher3196]

Sorry I'm a few years late man. I'm in the OC as well. Sober from alcohol for about 8 years. Let me know if you or anyone out here you know needs help dealing with temptation. I'm not a therapist, doctor, or trained professional. Just a complete stranger willing to listen. Good work Eric

[@wpc999]

Hope you’re doing good. Haven’t seen you post in a while!

[@SethChirdon]

I lied to a psychologist about having anxiety, and faked symptoms of ADHD and got prescribed Klonopin and Vyvanse. I haven't filled those scrips in over a year. I'm struggling rn, but at least I'm not downing 2mg of kpins and 90mg+ of Vyvanse every day.

[@woof.3682]

Recovery, Unity , service, The recipe for sobriety.

[@frankgrodzicki1436]

You are a warrior, truthly

[@carolhartz6448]

I am 13 yrs clean. Relapsed once. Felt horrible about myself. I didn’t want anyone to find out so I never told anyone and did not pick up any more whiskey. You are doing well. It is such hard work. One day at a time when it’s tough. Love ya.

[@EricBZink]

Thanks and it just helps to know we are not alone

[@james_daniels]

I know how it feels to help others and listen to all their stupid freaking problems and then have them never reciprocate when I really need them. Which I often only ask for help or someone to talk to when I’m at my worst. Otherwise I try to do things myself. I don’t like to be a or feel like I’m being a bother. So I definitely am not the kind of person who is needy or always asking for others to lend an open ear. But then for the people you trust to just shrug you off, be rude, not want to listen is really disheartening. It makes me never want to help others again. I really hate when I’m trying to talk to someone about my issues and their only response is “stop talking about this” as if I’m just annoying them and they don’t want to hear it or they say “stop making excuses” when I’m literally not making any excuses. I’m telling you my serious, deepest issues and you’re telling me to stop making excuses? That’s your answer? That’s your help? Seriously? Wtf.

[@Djnuffsaid457]

How much do you have to drink every day before you have physical withdrawals? And do you necessarily need to go to a detox unit?

[@dianakraft4452]

You're amazing Eric.And I'm glad that you're still here.Remember that you're a BAMF and you're not alone.Always here for you.I've never left.All the love❤️

[@EricBZink]

All the love and you didn’t you where one of the few and for that I can say you’re a true friend and thank you

[@dianakraft4452]

@@EricBZink ❤️

[@etmontbelloj1855]

My friend wos have alcoholic for 20 years hi went in hospital for alcohol detox hi stop there for one month then when hi come out just stop never drinking again .no alcohol rehab for him

[@KaiBullyssssss]

You got this 💯

[@Wesmancan]

I do t quite look at thinks like most people. If you used once and can put it down and start counting days again you will be fine. Moderation is keep. It’s ok to indulge once in awhile as long as you are in control. I have been they many different addictions at different times as well as a few addictions at the same time. It’s not the end of the world. Don’t get down on yourself. Though I think we are the same in that we have to get pissed at yourself before you finally take action.

[@bennettharvey5162]

Your honesty helps people more than you know... Thank you for being vulnerable. Takes a lot of courage.

[@Hanz-Solo]

We all need to remember sometimes, that it's ok to not be ok 👍🏻

[@A553N]

Good for you man, alcohol is my blanket it's been that was since I was 15 I'm 27 now. But I know that I am a great guy and my family and friends always tell me the same and then when I'm drunk I'm an asshole. Myfather is a drunk and so was his father, my mother is a moderate drinker and her father was a functioning alcoholic his whole life, I grew up seeing it and it's so fucking hard. I'm not ready to quit yet but I know one day I can do it. My younger brother is sober from everything (he was a pot head and psychedelic kinda of guy) and he did it. However my older sister and me end up drinking on the regular, and we fuel each other. I miss feeling normal

[@shelbyco.6066]

No Eric. You are doing the same thing youve done before. You are not blaming who you should. You. You caused the judgement because of the vile words you wrote down. You need to remember that. Stop blaming KZbin. I've been a nurse forever , I seen this behavior a zillion times. You don't need to explain your behavior , you need to change it. If you ever want to talk I'm here for you , if you are real . Take care

[@joshuah1640]

Keep up the good fight Eric, I was worried this happened yesterday. Glad you have 3 months man, I just recently reset my sobriety time because Smoking weed was destroying me and 4 seizures later I nearly did not make it. Even though it wasn't booze it didn't matter and I hated tossing away my two year medallion. But I am thankful to be here now at a month.

[@EricBZink]

Proud of you and you got this!

[@kalijohnson285]

In your heart you know what is right for you. No matter what you do, the world will criticize you. Learning to love life the way you want to is important. Don't live by anyone else's standards

[@EricBZink]

Love that and absolutely

[@alittleolder]

If you need a helping hand like ever please reach out. I'll be there.

[@EricBZink]

I truly appreciate that, I have a bunch I am starting again with bullying added to everything so I will be asking for help soon

[@alittleolder]

@@EricBZink just shoot me an email or I'd be happy to add you to my personal facebook so we could use messenger. It's easiest since I live in Austria with different times and so on. Just check my email on my youtube homepage. I'll be ready for battle!

[@maryann008]

Hey I know your not ok but take this believe me here WE ALL LOVE YOU and CARE about you so much I believe in you YOU GOT THIS to anyone and everyone who needs it im here

[@EricBZink]

I appreciate that and love seeing people help people we are not alone!

[@mariahmoritz7180]

It’s okay Eric Struggling is hard

[@EricBZink]

It is be we keep fighting through

[@mindysueloowho]

You’re amazing to be able to tell the world something so vulnerable! You got this though. If you ever need to talk about it, you know how to get me. Love ya bud!!!!

[@EricBZink]

I truly appreciate you and being there for me when I needed a friend! I am truly grateful for you!

[@christophersorensen7696]

The meeting guide has all the AA meetings if you want it

[@FoodieBeautyStan]

What is the meeting guide, for myself. Thank you

[@christophersorensen7696]

@@FoodieBeautyStan if you go to aa.org it gives you a link for the app that has all of the AA meetings

[@Rubindy]

In your new videos u look much healthier and younger than in this 3yo video! WoW

[@robertworton2394]

Relapse is a part of recovery, I relapsed on kratom after being off suboxone for 6 months. But now I’m just getting back on track, it’s all we can do

[@EricBZink]

Awesome made props to you, keep pushing forward it’s a we fight!

[@babybx3]

I’m keeping you in my prayers. Never give up. One day at a time! ❤️

[@EricBZink]

Always we got this!

[@thetattooedguy1413]

That’s the truth! Me as a addict constantly thinks about the days ahead ( how I’m gonna feel etc etc ) the best thing to do is STAY IN TODAY and go one day at a time

[@EricBZink]

@@thetattooedguy1413 for sure it is all about today and nothing more, you got this

[@babybx3]

@@EricBZink I’ve been struggling a lot with my depression lately and your videos and tiktoks give me different ideas to try that are more natural than meds, not that meds are a bad idea I use them last resort. But I love your videos! Keep being you! One day at a time. We are all in this together. ❤️

[@angiegosleigh3474]

I can relate to you. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I am there to listen and help people anyway I can. But unfortunately I don't get the same thing

[@VULCAN1135]

Relatable. Don't give up, just keep learning

[@OliviaSelma]

i’m sorry for the situation you’re in, you can get through this hiccup you’ve still made such good progress your journey is not over yet good luck ❤️ one day at a time

[@nicochavez1779]

Really like ur channel!

[@robcoleman6558]

Hang in there . We’re on our own brother ! Glad to see your okay ! Don’t sweat the little lapse . Control and you will be good .

[@EricBZink]

All the love and we got this!

[@Shotcalla223]

You didn’t relapse you just took a break from sobriety

[@katiewebsterhayes2826]

Is what u did to that 15 yr old true

[@EricBZink]

No and because of the drama I’m pretty much done helping others it’s so bad that whatever you heard is already wrong because that’s not the age. Advice never help teens leave it to therapist and their family

[@clearwater9462]

I just started checking out some of the relapse stories and came across this. I relapsed after almost two years. I was lone wolfing it. When I see a lot timers in aa with 20, 30 years of real sobriety I see someone with 20 or 30 years of aa indoctrination. Which isn’t something I want. The only reason I made it 21 months is because I totally divorced myself from anything and everything aa or twelve step. I got too stressed at work. I was getting things done. My life changed in very important ways that wouldn’t have happened if I’d have been spending my time around that shit, hearing let go let God, and being powerless? This is hard stuff. I’ve felt powerless before.That’s the last place you need people trying to drive it deeper in to you so you are dependent on them. Recovery has been real hard alone. This relapse freaked me out. Still reeling, and scared. I wish you the best.

[@FS-ng6nt]

You are very brave person, don't lose hope keep on fighting. You are a warrior. Half of the cure is acceptace ..making an error is part of the process of giving something up that is not good for you. Focus on the positives that you have no matter how big or small. Keep saying to yourself you are strong enough to get through the rough times. You have helped me a lot bro.

[@zd1640]

Your not alone I told myself I’d quit smoking darts but I’m still smoking trying to stop tho really hope I don’t have to go to rehab

[@EricBZink]

It’s a fight I believe in you, don’t give up

[@andysings64]

I think I'm becoming addicted to cocaine, I keep telling myself is not that bad, is not that much money, it doesn't matter, is just 1 gr... but I get a lot of cravings, I think about it a lot. Seeing your videos helps a lot, you are so relatable I would love if you give me a little advice, how do I break the habit? I dont want this to ruin my life

[@baramundi__88__]

Fuck the haters. Good video

[@Fishingqueen05]

U got this!! Part of the recovery process is u will have some relapse. U used to self harm really bad and got clean for a year. Then relapsed Bc I had some shit going on in my life. But I recovered from it and been harm free for 4 years now. Glad u have a therapist!! I found a great one and we just talk about shit when things get bad and I have my thoughts of harm and suicidal thoughts. But..... like I say ‘We got this’ yeah we may stumble and fall again and again. But we get our asses back up a better and stronger person for the experience we have had!! Glad u felt comfortable to tell your story..... I really like your videos on KZbin and really liked your videos on Tiktok too!! Keep up the great work!! U got this.... we both do!! Much love to you!! ❤️

[@sethbrandow4142]

I jus want to say thank you bc u help me stay here I was almost to the point where I was thinking about killing myself but since I've been watching you videos I've been doing better thanks Eric

[@EricBZink]

I’m proud of you for fighting through!

[@sethbrandow4142]

@@EricBZink thx

[@EricBZink]

@@sethbrandow4142 always helps to know we are not alone!

[@sethbrandow4142]

@@EricBZink I know thanks a lot Eric

[@ellyt3429]

recovery isn’t linear. you’ve still got this. ❤️

[@logand3112]

So many paths to give up and regain that treasured sense of being alive. Countless resources are available, and many people have benefited from them. Try something similar to Steffon Barkload's approach, or anything else that makes sense to you.

[@nancytonner4089]

Thank you for your story its healing

[@EricBZink]

I really appreciate that

[@nancytonner4089]

@@EricBZink ur so welcome

[@Wesmancan]

I do not agree with the once an addict always an addict. Theory

[@camranh_royal]

I watched your video a couple full times on 2 different phones and the view counter didnt update, it was stuck at 5527… damn woke youtube algorithms…

[@kimberlyestep5064]

Maybe not hang around people who drink, like your TikTok friend. As they say change your people, places and things. Gotta keep working the steps.

[@kellyjo2017]

You are in my prayers, you got this! I have great admiration for you talking about it!!!!!🙏🏻😊💖

[@markusminny9472]

Same as cg kid's video??

[@Bricklinsv1970]

You still can't discredit all the work you put in.

[@hearanecho]

I threw my four months away burned alot of bridges half my family is mad at me and I cant remmeber anything besides smiling and crying and being angry the whole time but I go sober and drink again often. Theres times im so determined I don't drink at all dont even think of it. But like I haven't been able to leave the house mainly to avoid other drinkers or I get bad anxiety so I was forced to go to my birthday party that I did not want at all...and the word just one "shot" its your bday and because I already felt anxious being there I said sure why not. That one shot led me a week and 8 bottles later and its all a blur. Im beyond ashamed really said to myself im tired of these episodes. I have bipolar disorder by the way, so its not just the alcohol. And im still recovering at this moments being physically and mentally paralyzed. Triggered my hallucinations thinking about suicide more than I should saying this is the end for me like just the end of my life. So im trying my best to find support to help me remind myself. Its okay to start over....and knowing not even a shot for me is okay.

[@EricBZink]

You got this today it is a fight but you’re not alone

[@ChemDawg54]

Love you brother ! I’m in Idaho falls i would love to meet you one day!

[@EricBZink]

Absolutely would be totally down

[@someguyyoumightknow7684]

We love you Eric

[@EricBZink]

All the love back

[@stevewaller9452]

Eric, alchohol is not your problem dude. It's no problem to have a few drinks , most people function fine...Your mental issues are completely a different issue. Sure drinking in general is not healthy, we ALL get that. For me your video was not about alchohol abuse.

[@nicochavez1779]

I relate

[@Frsdaily19]

Just started to watch you KZbin. First found you on Tiktok and love what you do have gotten through. I have been sober for 6 weeks now and cause of your videos I wanted to do it and would love to get the chance to meet you and get coffee

[@dankorth1325]

Hope your doing better. Ive been a drinker for last 20 yrs. Tried to use kratom to kick the booze, bet you can guess how that turned out. Tune out the trolls.

[@SAMEntalhealth]

How do they work out? You got addicted to the kratom? Did it help your alcohol withdrawals? Just trying to see exactly what you mean

[@TwilightZone96761]

Read the book. ‘AA cult or cure?’

[@jaykafcas4342]

Ok Eric, it's about time someone tells it like it is. 1st- Lose the constant shaming. The 12 steps and aa people are the WORST way to find your new baseline. Dude, really look into finding professional help, a counselor trained in neuroscience, trauma and addiction. The counselor MUST NOT BE a recovering addict or drunk. NO WAY. What is the definition of insanity Eric? So why the f*** would anybody "keep coming back"? If it works "if" you work it and I can choose any spiritual bullshit/scapegoating I want. WHY NOT DO IT RIGHT? YOU HAVE TO DO THE WORK ANYWAYS MAN, why belittle yourself to a depressive nub? Dude, go get bloodwork, get that gut cleaned all out. Stay off ALL KZbin, Social Media., all of it. Too much evil littered all amongst these pixels of hogwash. Btw, Warriors are not powerless. Good luck dude. Let's LIVE!

[@woof.3682]

Stop calling your sponsor and calling other alcoholics and stop doing service and you'll relapse

[@sethbrandow4142]

Hey Eric

[@EricBZink]

Hey back

[@Baxte.r]

Cg kids relapse title similar to this

[@Cobraprincess-y3h]

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