Ex-Cartel Hit Man and Drug Smuggler-El Gordo

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of El Gordo, a former cartel hit man and drug smuggler in Los Angeles.
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[@abrahamkouyate191]

What's crazy to me is that the man saw live decapitation and talks about it without blinking. Yet when he brings up a memory of him having the first real conversation with his mother he tears up. This in itself is the most powerful thing to me. This is the archetype of a good soul given bad hand. Hope he's doing well

[@craigslist6988]

wtf. No it's a whiny narcissistic POS that somehow justifies murder by crying about his mom. wtf is actually wrong with you that you think that he's a "good soul"? Brain damage?

[@boogb6766]

I found that particularly interesting as well. He can barely keep it together when he’s reminded of his mother, but talks about death and murder like it’s nothing.

[@ewetn1]

​@@jeffhenderson1778lol what drugs do you think hes on?

[@PsychedbE]

@@jeffhenderson1778 No relevance... whatsoever.

[@Arthurian.]

​@@ewetn1why do you laugh as if it isn't blatantly obvious?

[@pharrelliski]

If you dont hear the little kid in him that is screaming for his mothers love. You have missed a big point to fully understand this interview. The horrible things he did will never go away but it sheds some light on how untreated trauma will lead a human to become an unimaginable person. I wish him the best because its hard for people that have gone through so much trauma in addition to he drugs/alcohol abuse.

[@tcl5853]

I hear the people screaming and crying for their lives right before he murdered them.

[@Rosco9313]

​@@tcl5853 should prolly get that checked out

[@GotchaBih163]

He's a fake

[@cryptic4446]

​@@GotchaBih163I was speculating , he dropped some pretty big names ......

[@matthewjamal]

Bunch of judgmental fucks to be honest.

[@rickbernal5132]

When that man said " why did you sell me for a beer?, is that what I'm worth to you?" Broke my heart. I've got an 11month old . Always love and protect your children and family. No matter what, show them how special they are to be in your life!

[@lucypage4266]

Mine too. 😢

[@user-tw3ej5jk4j]

I fill for this dude and I would never be able to hang with him cos all you young kids ain't got a brain to change I was raised to be racist but I'm smart enough to know what's right and what's wrong amen young man I hope the best for you brother hang in there don't keep dragging up the shit you did what you had to it's our systems fault not yours 1 love bro

[@MalikFumblesalot]

Luis, man if you ever see this, I cannot erase your past but just know that there are ppl out there who want you to succeed and live a safe life. Thank you for having the courage to share this. As a single father of a 12 yr old boy who has a similar "mom", it didn't take long for this video to hit home for me. I wish you well man! Don't ever give up! Much love man!

[@jakel3491]

I dont i want him to rot in prison

[@user-ot7uv9tm5x]

@@jakel3491why?

[@samo222]

@@jakel3491 i want you to face every consequence for every bad thing you’ve ever done as well then

[@Shoes_Gone]

@@user-ot7uv9tm5xcause he’s a decent human, unlike yourself

[@marcusechavarria1356]

Bruh I feel bad for his upbringing but this asshole killed ruthlessly

[@rdgz9774]

All he needed was his mother’s love!!! You could really see his heartbreak. Prayers to him and all the victims involved. Great interview Mark!!!! Huge fan of your work.

[@mattbrown1773]

Needed a lot more than his mothers love. 2 parents on drugs in a highly impoverished neighborhood of socal is a recipe for disaster.

[@rdgz9774]

@@mattbrown1773 maybe, but he did say that his mom not showing up was his heartbreak and he just didn’t care after that. If she would have put more effort and showed him her love towards him, the circumstances could have been different.

[@XXXAVIERXXX69]

Interview ? Mark only questioned him like 4 times

[@rdgz9774]

@@XXXAVIERXXX69 whatever you want to call it. It takes courage to tell your story for millions of people to hear, and for Mark it takes very hard work, a lot of time editing, equipment, and a lot of effort to have over 5 million followers and people like you admiring his work and watching him ask people “4 questions” to tell their story.

[@shenbettridge976]

Yes, the devastation of growing up without your mother. His hroat sounds like it is actually hurting from the pain of longing for his mother's love 😢😢😢

[@AimeeLittle]

While I’m sure he has done some unimaginable things in his lifetime, it’s hard not to see that heartbroken 4 year old little boy telling this story.

[@Myspirit904]

100%

[@3ZN357]

Pain pulls downward

[@lm1629]

When he said his mom sold him for a beer 😢 my heart broke for him.

[@spurdosparde9487]

his timeline doesn’t make sense lmao he’s just a fucking crackhead😂

[@lisajackson3724]

YOU MADE IT THROUGH, against all odds and despite not receiving the love you deserved to have as a young man, you came through Hell...HELP OTHERS WITH YOUR STORY. BE THE BEST DAMN ELECTRICIAN YOU CAN. and write that book!!!

[@jimmygalindo6240]

This guy has me in tears. Thank you for sharing hermano. I'm from East L.A. i know a lot of people with similiar stories, with the exception of not being scared to be vulnerable talking about it.

[@hlpmosmos123]

Mark this is by far the best interview I have ever seen on SWU. Thank you. I’m going to be praying for you Luis, My heart breaks for you. Some people do not deserve to be mothers or fathers. I’m so sorry this happened to you.

[@LuckyBubbleTea-ef5kd]

He was lying about who he worked for in Mexico 😂 said he went down there in 2017, worked with chino ántrax after a year but chino was in prison since 2013, plus the ántrax weren’t a Beltran Leyva cell, they were a mayo zambada cell 😂 then Rodrigo ( el chino ántrax ) was released in 2020, he cut his ankle monitor in San Diego, fled back to Culiacán Sinaloa, after a couple days he was kidnapped along with his sister and her husband, they were found wrapped in blankets in the back of his old suv, this man was lying through his teeth

[@CalebWelser13]

@@LuckyBubbleTea-ef5kdnonsense

[@jrfish198526]

Check the interview with Royal. It’s a pretty good one too. If you haven’t seen it, think it was like two years ago.

[@jeffjohns9162]

You can tell he really needed to get that first part out and talk about it out loud for once. You do a great thing mark. These stories are so important. It’s sad to see how they never had a chance as a kid and what paths they were forced to take to escape broken homes, addiction, and abuse.

[@busted1396]

i know this foo personally. he used to us brewskies when me and the homies were younger cause we let him keep the change. firme ass vato but his street cred and this while story is definitely fraudulent

[@JP-hj2gs]

@@busted1396 okay.. what part of this story is "fraudulent"? because he sure comes across as genuine here.

[@angelaranda8899]

​@busted1396 what did he lie about?

[@zachaxry4299]

@@angelaranda8899as if he’s gonna say it over the internet 🤣 he knew that man personally i don’t think he’d just be telling his true story for shits and giggles

[@seltonk5136]

I feel like it would be easier to be a drug smuggler if you don't look like central casting drug smuggler. Call me crazy

[@deena7155]

How difficult it is to bare your soul to a camera and come completely vulnerable with it. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It has to be hard.

[@spurdosparde9487]

he’s lying bruh😂

[@deena7155]

@@spurdosparde9487 😱 why do you say that?

[@spurdosparde9487]

@@deena7155 he said he worked for chino and then beltran that shit doesn’t even makes sense if they were fighting each other,

[@Angellozano30]

I can't even tell one person imagine to the world to see I'll probably have a panic attack😂

[@ordinaryv1nce275]

@@spurdosparde9487but how you just gonna say he lying things could’ve been different he was a cartel hitman he works for many

[@GenreKingJoe]

I love how quiet the room gets when someone speaks with substance. Literally the best episodes make themselves

[@bryantdonald8997]

Mushrooms did wonders in my life. Over the course of my life, I've suffered from uncontrollable, depression, anxiety, alcohol, smoking, and illicit pills addiction. Imagine carving heavy chains for a long time and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. This is something that really needs to be used globally to help people with similar health challenges. I've been sober for 6 years and have my life back.

[@JohannaKoch-dh7vt]

Congrats on your recovery. Most people don't realize that psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives.

[@SurprisedFruitBowl-qj9oy]

To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.

[@AugustasBalciunas]

Can you help me with a reliable source? I have suffered from years of addiction, anxiety, and severe ptsd, thinking I got my panic attacks under control, they've come back with a vengeance, and I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't. It's absolutely crippling me, I'm in Australia and it is hard to get a reliable source here. Really need!

[@JohannaKoch-dh7vt]

Yes, Sporeville. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and addiction... Mushrooms definitely made a huge difference to why I'm clean today.

[@SophieAafjes]

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He's 59 & has many mental health issues plus probably CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD knows if it is common for an obsession with violence.

[@federalreptilian]

This story is so heartbreaking. You can hear the trauma in his voice immediately. His body language shows all the stress and tension from the life he's had. I just want to give this man a hug. Regardless of the crimes he's committed, this man deserves to be loved. Had he just been loved by his mother, he may have never gone down that path. So sad man. I wish him the best

[@erinrametta]

El Gordo, my mom abandoned me too. We are better off without them because they are not good people. We are worthy of love, nurturing, and care. You are not alone. Reparenting and self care is something that helps me yet abandonment trauma is a life long struggle. I wish you peace, love, and safety moving forward. Vaya con Dios

[@OOKIEDOKIE]

Except he abandoned his own child. Only spoke about them for about a second. He's smart enough and been through enough to know he's doing the same thing to someone else.

[@Jezzzzz818]

eat a PIEDRA@@OOKIEDOKIE

[@user-nj9db2tg9w]

@@OOKIEDOKIEit’s truly maddening how people choose to continue the cycle. It’s really hard to fathom and understand. Even when they are in the moment, telling their story… crying… why is there never an epiphany as to what they’ve done and the cycle they’ve chosen to continue? They should be running off set to go and get their child

[@educationlockdown9304]

well said, thats the truth, it makes you a better father though I bet

[@JeffMTX]

Vaya con Dios indeed

[@Hison-Dcarman]

I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to cocaine. Spent my whole life fighting cocaine addiction. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.

[@RaymondEMartinez]

Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.

[@KicksConceptsshoes]

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.

[@SusanaGomez-mp8sk]

Yes Dr.alishrooms

[@NicoleCtirad]

I'm really happy for you that your wife decided to help you...I hear about alot of family members or so called friends shutting an addict out of their life, which since most addicts do it to mask emotions to me is the worse thing someone can do to an addict.

[@TomSanders-qv8bv]

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

[@TintaAzul_BlueInk]

I’ll be waiting for an update on Luis! One of the best interviews on your channel!

[@erikay2022]

25 minutes into the story and I’m already at the edge of my seat. 25 minutes in and my heart is so broken for this man. I feel even more heart broken because I have a son too and as a mother my love for my son is out of this universe!!! Every child deserves love from their parents. Praying for this man’s healing & happiness.

[@HomerSaints-lo7zf]

Too bad if you knew how the cartels work and have cousins n uncles in it and alot of family in mexico you would know this guy is lying hes not the only one that lies for clout they exposed some other guy that was talking like him saying he also worked with the military using drones and all going into mansions taking millions and cars and jewelry and it was all a lie cause people who actually knew the life and people he was talking about it turns out he was lying you can easily tell when someone lies let me tell you something a real hitman for the cartel like el chino they don't talk like this guy this guy talks like he watches alot of youtube and watches alot of beheading videos by the cartel and they think they lived that life

[@IllbeaMarinetillthedayidie]

you're an extraordinary woman and mother🥲💛

[@prittyugly86]

Poor baby 😢

[@biancagoodnight1750]

Nothing worse than having a loveless mother.

[@SuperThesavage]

@@IllbeaMarinetillthedayidie how do u know lol

[@alexandrarobles6892]

I feel like I am watching him as a little kid finally having someone listen to everything he’s gone through. Now more than ever it is apparent what a mother’s love or lack there of can do.

[@anactualalpaca7016]

I spent a good 12 years without a mother and i can attest, shit is damaging

[@GotchaBih163]

He's a fake his story doesn't add up this guy is like a stolen valor guy but it's a different culture so every foreigner and white American falls for it. Shame

[@Yerrrsei]

This interview is full of so much pain and raw emotion… El Gordo, thank you for sharing your story. This is real human experience. Hoping you find peace, love, and light on your journey. You deserve it.

[@backagain5216]

I wonder if you wish his victims the same. We all had a rough life but I’ve never used it as an excuse to do what he did.

[@mikeyswift2010]

@@backagain5216 Bro this is all bs anyway he didn't do ANY of this besides doing drugs himself

[@Christyxx1]

this interview is so heart breaking , a grown man that was truly craving his mothers love, his mother love could have changed the trajectory of his whole life

[@backagain5216]

Think about his victims Christy? Would you be as forgiving if your loved ones were his victims? Not a chance.

[@lousifei]

This channel is incredible. When you hear these people's stories, you really begin to count your blessings. It also gives you some insight into why people act the way they do as well as insight into how different people view life according to their experiences. One message that seems pretty clear in all of these stories is that alcohol and drugs are just no good and ruin so many people's lives, both the users and the sellers. Having kids without a foremost commitment to raising and loving them never works out well for anyone, either.

[@twinkyslax7961]

Yeah when i feel sorry about myself i will watch these videos, and honestly it helps more then any therapy or medication could do.

[@bachiak1]

antinatalist for life

[@LatinaNailDesignz]

I’m scared the cartel might see this and get angry!

[@joebagodonuts4039]

High Schoolers should be required to watch these videos, maybe middle schoolers!!!

[@Deceptive_Perspective]

Well Said

[@roreecolaluca3964]

I taught middle school for 5 years, and I can see many of my old students in him. It breaks my heart.

[@victoriabrodzenski2731]

I've taught at the same trauma-informed school for 11 years. I teach high school but we have kiddos as young as 2nd grade in our building. A lot of my students' stories are similar to Luis'. We love our kiddos so much. I wish could go back and get young Luis and bring him to our school ❤

[@TylerG69]

You see ex cartel members in your middle schoolers? Wild

[@josephbutros8526]

Much Respect Bro- Giving up Gangs, Streets, and Drugs is one of the hardest things ever! Keep it up

[@anactualalpaca7016]

you can tell this was very new and cathartic for him, have a feeling he's never opened up and spoken about his feelings so freely like this before

[@jbatt6088]

Goes to show how much children need to be loved more than anything. God bless this man's soul. Takes real courage to open up and be this vulnerable.

[@Tambo85]

Man, I never thought I’d want to hug a cartel hitman, but this man just needs some love. 😢

[@Anastar317]

❤

[@user-sf6qq8nc2c]

Feeling the same

[@butterbutter9398]

I said the same thing and wasn’t even halfway through the interview.

[@DarlaAnne]

Right? It really gives some perspective. I hope this man makes the best of the rest of his life. It's sad for those born in or joined into the Cartel because they have no other choices. And then become totally desensitized to what they have to do.

[@Raul-nx1dq]

He is not, anyone who knows anything about the Mexican cartels knows that all their information was wrong and mixed, like a teenager who read too much on the Internet and does not understand how it works.

[@JAP92]

Much love Luis. God loves you and I’m sorry you were dealt the cards you were given brother. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your life experience.

[@user-xb7ee3bj1j]

Amazing interview. He has so much heart, so much honesty, that’s so hard to have with so much trauma. He could make such a difference in some other child’s life who lives thru similar troubles today. I wish you the best , in your next life, you deserve to live it free of struggle. I wish that for you friend.

[@etimani7282]

The importance of being in your child's life is so damn crucial, he broke my heart with his story. Imagine what the outcome could have been had his mother at least gave him closure..she had a 2nd chance and was still selfish, be easy bro I'm sorry you had to go through this difficult trauma in life man

[@Jj23178]

Illegals should be DEPORTED

[@exvandal187]

I watch these videos while working in a underground mine in a dark environment alone. I often wake up hating my life. But I came from poverty myself and was locked up at 13 and was running around southern cali with murderous gangsters for years. Watching these videos make me realize my life if awesome now! I own my own house and raise a beautiful self confident young man. I count my blessings

[@ce5983]

That's awesome how far you came! Many people can't say they own their own home or have kids let alone a good relationship with them . The work you do does sound tough and especially not getting a lot of sunlight sets people up for depression so you are in that tough spot of managing that. If you want to, you can slowly but surely change your life so that your work isn't so detrimental to your mental / emotional health. Rooting for you, you've accomplished a lot against the odds and just know if you're unhappy you can find a way out of even that

[@JeffMTX]

God bless you. Yep, the baptists sing a song called “count your blessings.” It goes through my head all the time.

[@priesterd]

This comment is the best. Keep it up man. You're the real definition of success.

[@ByproductRebelMind]

Did i read that right? "while working in a underground mine in a dark environment alone."

[@exvandal187]

@@ByproductRebelMind yes sir

[@stevenwaller7201]

The pain in his voice reverberated threw my body just listening to this. Some people just need support, being abandoned as a child is the cause for a lot of trauma that takes people to lead a life of pain. I feel for him and I hope he can do great things for himself.

[@duke2294]

Thanks for sharing your experience and story brother, can’t tell you how many of us are in similar situations with no one there for us

[@leightonffoulkes8617]

Bro, you’re childhood trauma was soooo painful to listen to. But remember… you came through all that and their is a reason why! Thank you for being so brave enough to share this with the world. (Real warrior sh’t!). I hope & pray you use your life experiences to help others & in exchange you get EVERYTHING you want/need/deserve. Maximum respect homie you are an inspiration! 🫡🫡🫡❤️🙏🏻🤷🏼‍♂️✊🏻😬

[@navielok3171]

Wow it’s crazy how easy it was for this guy to fool all of you. He’s clearly lying about everything. He said he worked for chino antrax and his sit squad then said he’s working for Beltran Leyva brothers. Chino antrax worked for Sinaloa and was at war with beltran leyvas. Do you research a bit you can clearly see he’s lying

[@user-gs6cs7jl4g]

@@navielok3171hitmen switch sides all the time in cartel ..it’s a money led track of life ..

[@natedagreat6704]

⁠​⁠@@navielok3171they worked together. The Sinaloa cartel and Beltran Leyva brothers. Then they split off

[@edicreynaga5368]

@@navielok3171holy shit your right

[@Equestrianballer]

@@navielok3171seemed off right from the beginning.

[@izzydeadyet7336]

Its hard to fathom how strongly our childhoods affect our whole lives! basically everything we become sprouts from our childhoods and parents.. my mother always would say that people shouldn't blame their parents for how they turn out, but having my own chikdren who are teens now i realize how everything ive done has affected them, to turn out good for a change, and how my mother just wants to escape responsibility for how i turned out

[@rockman4699]

I hear you but don't we also as adults, bear responsibility for recognizing the baggage our parents left us with perhaps isn't their fault either? Compassion instead of angst towards those we feel have short changed us is healthier for us.

[@tomjones4835]

@@rockman4699that sounds like something a bad parent would say

[@alexsimonelis164]

@@tomjones4835 That sounds like something a person who refuses responsibility says.

[@kandycepeterson2482]

Sounds like your mother has a lot to be proud of you for.

[@dubzy8334]

Freud had some weird ideals, but the foundation of what he says is exactly his

[@zachrussell2642]

What a tearjerker, what a guy. Real proof of rising above, this dude is going to be a general contractor in no time. He's organized, focused, and definitely charismatic. Run your own company dude.

[@user-qu7dv2vy3v]

This whole story is a lie lol maybe the mom leaving him and so but the cartel stuff he's lying lmao. He said he only got 18 months after doing a hit in jail while serving 4 years for drug trafficking. His time does not add up.

[@aaronrogers8451]

😂😂😂

[@aureliogama7208]

@@aaronrogers8451tf is your problem laughing, you cunt?

[@anatashavidal7244]

Thank you for this video . I didn’t know what I was doing wrong in life and being a mother. I didn’t know what questions to ask or where to start. And Luis answered all my questions without me asking , just LOVE! Love you’re kids with all your might , perfection is not the goal just LOVE

[@fuckyaB]

Damn, I'm 14 minutes in and I'm heartbroken for buddy, I can only imagine the pain and anger that caused him. I know what having shitty parents is like but not on that level. Prayers go out to him for real.

[@Het-race-rijk]

its all fake you belive everthing

[@javidallas4113]

Are you also ❤️ broken 4 the ppl he victimized once he became a hit man smh 🤦🏽‍♂️…. I tell you being a victim is one hell of a drug 🤦🏽‍♂️

[@stap1er]

I'm 43 minutes in and feeling less bad for him that I did at 14 minutes lol

[@alien1034]

Yeah, fake. Mark is playing us all. It’s always been obvious that the “people” in ALL of Mark’s/SWU interviews are just animatronic creations made by Mark. That plus some decent CGI…So obvious! FYI, Johnny is in on it. Johnny is legit human, but he’s Mark’s main engineer/scientist. Johnny and Mark make this shit in a lab. NO PEOPLE. ~RESPECT~

[@rockman4699]

damaged people lash out. Everyone including most of the animal kingdom just want to be loved @@stap1er

[@ttv.snakez1x402]

Drug dealer n hit man but cried when he talks about his mom shows no matter how hard you might be there are things that will always be so painful to your heart

[@user-qu7dv2vy3v]

He's never been a drug dealer or hitman. This guy is full of lies. His time does not add up at all. He said he did 18 months for doing a hit in u.s jail while serving time for drug trafficking 😂.

[@johnchapman5125]

Great interview! Inspirational, honest and sincere. What a remarkable person, in spite of the horrors he's committed and faced. Thanks for this.

[@nicarao305]

El Gordo I just finished watching your interview bro you inspired me. Even after all the shit went through in your life that tried to spark out your good spirit you’re a great guy.

[@daveforeman6931]

This man is experiencing unimaginable pain. To be known that you were sold for beer- I can't imagine what that feels like. God bless you, Gordo.

[@cooliotopnotch6287]

Yeah who cares about the people he murdered and tortured, nor their families left behind in sadness. He had a tough childhood, so no big deal, he's such a victim

[@Masticas.]

@@cooliotopnotch6287exactly these people are hella dumb the victims are forgotten and this guy blames it on his childhood

[@checopelon2564]

More than likely the ppl that got murdered and tortured were doing the same thing he was doing. It’s either him or them and I guess it was them. It’s a dog eat dog world out there kid.

[@cooliotopnotch6287]

@@checopelon2564 Yeah, it's not like the cartels ever murder innocent tourists, families, farmers, rivals' relatives, etc....lmao man you are ignorant to the world jeez almighty

[@Masticas.]

@@checopelon2564 you fuckin idiot innocent people get killed too

[@cinnamonappple]

I like this guy. He seems genuine. Hope he’ll stay on the right path and build himself a good life. Loved this interview.

[@sqwk2559]

A genuine evil criminal! I can tell you vote democrat.

[@nickdotson21]

Powerful stuff. From the heart

[@ashtonbull5758]

So you're going to let him live with you then I guess right???😂

[@timl628]

You like a hit man. Unbelievable

[@derekwong809]

People change but come on. This is all it takes anymore, a 1-hour video.

[@samwild2520]

I didn’t cry in any break up I ve had in my life, but Luis you made me cry at work today. Bless you bro

[@guillermolozano2137]

This is the best one I've seen so far!

[@Cat-gl9cm]

This is breaking my heart that he wanted his mom even after all of the rejection. This poor man has so much pain in his soul.

[@asapvlone]

there’s people in the comments saying why are you worried about him and not the people he tortured, if he would’ve received his mothers love he would’ve never done any of that

[@isiahharris1897]

When we grow up like this it's not that we are chasing love we just chasing love from a certain person and that's the toughest part

[@greasemonkey90065]

Parents: No one is perfect, but just love the sh%t out of your kids. We are not raising children, we're raising adults. I by no means consider myself a perfect father, but I do not hesitate to tell my boys I love them. The world is already a hard place, we need to be the rock where they get to land. Thank you Mark for this interview. Prayers for the interviewee and all the victims. I grew up in the same neighborhoods in L.A. and lord knows what would I be without my parent's tough love and support.

[@m3nhy]

❤❤❤

[@rainerszahn9651]

" just love the sh%t out of your kids" sounds a bit weird.. but i hear what you're saying and aggree to that, senor!

[@greasemonkey90065]

@@rainerszahn9651early on when I was a recently divorced single dad sharing custody, I met a lady who she herself was a single mom. She could tell I was a little lost, and she replied with that quote. It stuck with me. I love my sons and I make it a point that they can always lean on their dad for anything. They are both young men now, but they were 4 and 5 at the time.

[@michellehyde7750]

This seems like the most brilliant comment on the internet. Yes that is what these videos are for. You get it sir. Love the crap out of your kids because we are raising adults. Wow, I havent been able to put that feeling into words until now. That is going to be my signature line in my email. I will quote you, if you would like😊

[@greasemonkey90065]

No need to quote me, it was not my original quote :)@@michellehyde7750

[@mariarod510]

I’m only 3 years older than him but I would love to give him a motherly hug. The pain he must have felt is unimaginable and no child should feel that.

[@grantfromspacee]

amazing video, love your work and the people whom you feature. Great story, I hope he can continue to prosper.

[@randallromero625]

Some of us seemed to have never even had a chance. It’s horrible. It makes me extra grateful for what I have. There are some horrible human beings in this world. You should need to pass a test or have a license to have a kid. To make sure you’re fit to be a parent and not some alcoholic junkie who is going to abandon your kid for a beer and guarantee he’s going to have a fucked up life and let that cycle continue.

[@Mint-kj9kw]

I'm a professional nanny for wealthy people. Even wholesome, happily married high income families don't know what the hell they are doing. I am actually going to leave my profession next year because its hard to watch parents make poor choices.

[@randallromero625]

I work in treatment and am a sober addict. Addiction doesn’t discriminate at all. I’ve seen people from all walks of life get crippled by addiction. People with money, people without money, people wherein everyone in their family is an addict and people (like me) where nobody in my family was an addict. People with great childhoods (like me) and people with fucked up childhoods. We don’t really understand why some people get the bug and some people don’t. We only know that shame is a big precursor.

[@Jeff-sp7bg]

I worked for a multi million dollar crackhead. Was quite an experience

[@randallromero625]

@@Jeff-sp7bg please tell me about this. I only met one rich crack head. As an addict I always contemplated like how much… like it would have been considerably worse and harder for me to get sober if I was wealthy. As a matter of fact, I’m 98.9% certain that if I happened to have been wealthy, I would be dead. I would’ve overdosed and died.

[@ameliaflowers9836]

Oh please

[@tommyescalante6181]

You can actually feel the pain in his voice when he speaks about his mom 😢

[@SamSam-jn2rw]

Speaking personally; I grew up raised by my grandparents my mom was in my life but my father non existent. In my teens he tried to come back but I was brainwashed to hate him ( years from my mother shaming him to me ) Fast forward to the adult years… I google his name he is now gone. I have no closure & this pain from the start is still here .. all you can do in the end is love yourself. Years of therapy and self awareness it’s a daily struggle to feel happy. This really broke me.

[@debbassgirl586]

My best friend worked as a councillor in a prison in AZ with men that were in the Cartel. They are just as vulnerable as anyone else. They are either forced into the life or/and have no choice in the decision.They cried when she left. All of them were once little boys who were loved by their families.I feel for all of them.

[@Masticas.]

They are animals

[@keiradrais-td9dz]

they weren't once loved by their families and thats why they acted how they act. if they received a lot of love at home they wouldn't be in this position

[@eligreg99]

@@keiradrais-td9dzNot always the case. Some people have had good parents. Parents can only do so much

[@USDNFiLM]

Lots of them join as impressionable young kids, and end up getting trapped in that life.

[@voiceofreason2771]

Stop feeling sorry for demons...no excuses

[@beachboi_lb1612]

Dam bro I’m sorry… I feel your pain I went through the same thing!! My mom was a drug addict and spend most of my teenage life in prison my dad sold drugs and never cared for me. My grandparents raised me as well I remember my dad came to see me and my sister one day and told me flat out he dosent think I’m his son… I didn’t cry or say shit but it killed me inside I never said shit but even talking about it now it brings tears to my eyes and it hurts.. my mom ended up getting clean when I was 16 or 17 she had more kids and re married… I remember always drawing her pictures when she was in prison couldn’t wait for her to get out and raise me… she would get out but always go back within 2months. I remember her FINALLY getting clean and re marrying I went to the hospital when she had her first child and I just remember walking out the hospital room and crying like crazy in the hall way.. her husband got upset and completely ignored me and I get it… but I cried cause that day I knew I would never have my mother that shit hurts so bad and now I’m 32 and my moms been trying for years to have a relationship with me but I just don’t feel it.. I have my own kids now and I don’t need you anymore 😢 the child in me needed you so bad but he’s gone he died that day. But I LOVE WHAT I WENT Through!!! It made me LOVE MY KIDS TO DEATH!!! U gotta do better bro u gotta be there for your little ones and break that cycle …………….

[@eugenealymov2723]

Sad, but very moving story. Thanks for sharing.

[@erikaalvarado4010]

Same 😓

[@jodijones3273]

May God keep you safe and know your loved. God Bless You and yours 🙏

[@ceezr79]

Wow!Appreciate the share.God Bless u on fatherhood brother 💙

[@acepc2]

Such an incredible story. I"ve been on the edge of my seat since the beginning. My god, all he needed was his mother's love

[@maryforester9122]

My heart goes out to this man. Kudos for you being able to tell your story. Many of us out here have a story,and life has not treated us so well,but when you hear a story like his they really don't compare to the pain and tragedy he has suffered.Good luck to you sir. I wish you now all the love and joy life can bring.You so deserve it.TY for being so brave as to tell us your full story,I know some of it was very painful to tell. These childhood traumas haunt us for our whole lives.

[@seanmcilroy5106]

Im a grown ass man with two young kids and found this totally heart breaking! Amazing interviews as always.

[@fourfurrypotatoes]

This interview almost made me cry because his mother did him so wrong. He really wanted his mom, and she didn't care. It breaks my heart.

[@travisdower6439]

This shit did make me cry

[@JeffMTX]

She probably got raped and beaten throughout her childhood.

[@user-xd3zj8rv4u]

What an incredible story! Mark, please keep us updated. This man needs a book deal and a Netflix movie! Unbelievable the life he lived. I am a foster parent, and I am grateful that my two girls crossed my path. Can't imagine where else they could of ended up.

[@marlenewall9373]

Wow, your story is amazing. I’m not into the criminal act here but truly you’re alive. Thankfully you’ll keep straight and do the right thing. Good luck in any of the endeavors that you talked about doing as an electrician. I hope you make it.

[@michellescarlett4023]

Man. You seem like such a tough guy but you are such a gentle giant. I wish I could hug you. My son adopted is going through the same thing right now. No matter how much love I show him, he pushes back because he wants his bio mom. He’s 14. I would love for you to talk to him. You got this though. You can be an example to so many. Keep strong man. Love yourself beyond your mom’s mistakes.

[@Freddy2Rumble]

Be patient, I’m sending so much love and gratitude to you. You are amazing ❤ your son will one day figure out how loved he is and always was.

[@KeepingITreal24-7]

🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@unkorichie2029]

Thats no gentle giant..he is a cold blooded killer that admits he doesn't have remorse, or in his words "I don't feel bad".

[@alfonzo7822]

It's a hard age at the best of times, just be there, keep patient and keep loving him. I hope that things work out in the end. It's so difficult.

[@joshuahernandez7673]

The fact that he met el chino is crazy, much respect to this dude for putting his life on the line for telling us this story.

[@5.0hmygewdness10]

Kind of scarred for him

[@julio97402]

He dropped a lot of info. I don’t know if that was smart.

[@eduardoR8768]

He didn’t meet chino ántrax trust me he said he met him after 2017 el chino smoked that CAF dude 2013 or 2012 and he said he was there wen he went on that especial misión 😂😂😂 I was believing everything but he mest up there 😂😂😂😂

[@eduardoR8768]

This dude

[@eduardoR8768]

That fool said he worked for Arturo and el chino how is that posible if they were contras 😂😂😂😂

[@holyspirittransformation8577]

This is the most amazing interview I have ever seen

[@b.r2180]

Blessings to you, Luis. Do not give up on love compa. All good things take time

[@c5ster]

More than anything else, your videos show how important parents are.

[@MsMoonMagic]

This was an amazing interview! My heart broke for this man hearing about his early life. I have a mother who was technically there but she did not love me and that really messes with a person. I could relate to him and his anger and pain. I was in the streets as well because of it. The fact that he made it out alive and is now focusing on being an electrician is incredible. I hope you find the love and peace you never had Gordo.💯🙏♥️

[@cooliotopnotch6287]

Did you listen to some of the things this guy did? Jeez almighty, absolutely disgusting

[@ryantodd6978]

Tell that to the families of the victims this man may have tortured and murdered in cold blood….lol some of us had similar childhoods doesn’t make doing horrible things justified 🤦‍♂️

[@lukegardner6917]

​@@ryantodd6978he never justified dude's crimes. Just congratulated him on crawling out of the sh#t. I think it's pretty impressive as well. All because someone gave him a hand up instead of a kick in the teeth.

[@checopelon2564]

@@ryantodd6978 More than likely the ppl that got murdered and tortured were doing the same thing he was doing. It’s either him or them and I guess it was them. It’s a dog eat dog world out there kid.

[@OTM984]

You're gorgeous

[@ernestwoodson7010]

Damm !! Brother your story is so deep and truthful it’s amazing even just watching this you have a very blessed soul please don’t let anyone take that from you, you still have it it didn’t go anywhere please continue on this good path you have so much to offer I prey that god and the and the ancestors kept you and continue to guide you in love !!! Most people don’t have the gift of a gentle soul ..all that you have been through was not your fault keep sharing your story your are an amazing brother peace and blessings to you brother ..all the way from Harlem NY!!

[@chriswhite8507]

I'm only 15 minutes in and his story has already broken my heart to hear all that pain in his voice. Wow

[@Dollface829]

Man, you are just as deluded as everyone else in this comment section. Cartels don’t let hitmen walk away alive . Y’all believe anything this scamming channel puts up.

[@KaLiAl]

@@Dollface829 one question. Where were you born? Where do you live. That will answer a lot about what you really know about cartels.

[@Nessa_97]

I’m a mother myself as a 26 year old woman. Throughout the years of watching Mark’s videos of these broken people make me realize one thing…. having both parent in someone’s like really makes or breaks a young child. Always be there for our kids. Always.

[@JeffMTX]

Yep. Our culture has been lying to us since the 60s. Lies. Good intentions? Maybe. Lies nonetheless. And they’re still lying to everyone.

[@Bonz-vc8zd]

Decapitated people seemed like he was desensitized from it, but searching for his mother, made him choke up. Truly heart breaking of a kid who was dealt a bad hand from the start. Yet, truly interesting what the human species is capable of.

[@dboy413]

Shits FAKE MAN !!! Actors

[@arianmalekhosseini]

to really give you another perspective, in survival mode, the human is under immense pressure and will do anything, the lack of love from his mother had his nervous system under that pressure throughout all of his life and then being exposed to the system so early on. It was just continuous trauma, my heart aches for this man as a younger guy trying to make it in this world. I really want you to put this into perspective though, before societal structures and the comfort some of us have within life now, all we knew was survival. We've somehow survived as a species through all of that and although we may not know the full story to this period of survival, just think about all of the gruesome things that man/women had to endure until we reached this point. It really gives you a sense of gratitude for what you have now.

[@Bonz-vc8zd]

@@arianmalekhosseini I couldn’t agree with you more. Hit the nail on the head

[@arianmalekhosseini]

@@Bonz-vc8zd have a blessed day brother, I hope life treats you well.

[@Peopleprofile_]

Y’all give excuses to anything bro welcome to earth

[@sh-df1bb]

No one should have to go thru the struggles you've been through. Respect to you for sharing your story with the world. I hope you find some peace in this world. ❤❤❤

[@BrianandAor]

Praying for you brother 🙏 your story is amazing and incredibly real. I hung on every single word. You're a blessed man, to have made it out.

[@lizwaa100]

This guy has seen and felt things I can't fathom. Thanks Mark for finding this nugget of gold. Beautiful soul.

[@user-wc4uh4rl3z]

What been a criminal n being a ilegal alien

[@mexicand7691]

@@user-wc4uh4rl3z your are a complete moron, you totally miss the lesson; the moral of the story. You dumb hick

[@ameliaflowers9836]

Only had to see 1 head cut off then it was normal. What kinda joke are you ???

[@ameliaflowers9836]

@@user-wc4uh4rl3zexactly

[@stretchLoc]

Why not just go to another video instead of spreading your hate ?? @user @amelia kick rocks

[@Melodie1960]

Marc, it's safe to say that after watching hundreds of your videos, it has motivated me more than ever to not become a shitty mom haha. It's incredible how the lack of love from his mother could take him down a path like this. I am extremely affectionate and involved in my child's life and will continue to be forever.

[@ritaj7080]

Oh wow I was just thinking the same , after hearing this sad stories ,I started spending much more time with my son , telling him how much I loved him and how proud I am to be his mum. …

[@xyyx7141]

Very nice, God bless you and your children !

[@morganvanschuyver]

Yes, parents who are involved in their child's lives and provide love and stability are essential to turning children into adults.

[@MsArrika]

It's true what they say, ya know.. mother is god in the eyes of a child. The impact we have on the lives we bring into the world and the bonds we form can be the most imperative factor into determining who and what these peolle will become and the paths they take in life. Its unfortunate such a critical fact is so easily and too often forgotten. I really believe as long as every move you make as a mother is done with love, above all else, everything will fall into place. All you can really so is give it your all and hope for the best, but as long as you give all the love you can to this human being, everything will turn out just fine.

[@idek8822]

Thanks dawg keep doin that

[@nicholas121]

Man, out of all the interviews I've watched, that was hard.

[@jkanno1]

Man. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from hearing all these different stories. I have it really fn good, and can’t complain for even a second.

[@soniaa.9518]

Gordo has such a purity and innocence about him despite the depraved nature of his previous work. It just goes to show us how multi-faceted human beings are, the dynamics of duality,....I wish you all the best in your career as an electrician, Gordo, you are going to kill it. God Bless you and your honesty and courageousness.

[@SteveAustin-mo2ve]

``you are going to kill it`` poor choice of words for the man in recovery

[@aliengreeter]

"purity and innocence" . . . 🙄 Americans are dumb af.

[@S.E.H-TOWN713]

@@SteveAustin-mo2velmfao!!! Sorry not funny but I spit my drink out

[@brunoramos4394]

Bring Gordo home

[@s.u.g.a.r_n_ms_spice9364]

@@S.E.H-TOWN713I thought the same 😂

[@designhub8128]

If this is not a perfect example of why kids need unconditional love, i dont know what is. If you cannot raise a child DONT HAVE ONE. Wish this man all the best in life

[@cooliotopnotch6287]

You listened to the part about him murdering and torturing people right, and ruining the fabric of society by smuggling drugs in for a quick buck, or him abandoning his own child? But yeah, he had a tough childhood so it's okay

[@designhub8128]

@@cooliotopnotch6287 and where does this behaviour stem from....it's all about trauma that would literally change the way you think. I've experienced it myself and it's up to the person to essentially "see the light" and make better decisions

[@cooliotopnotch6287]

@@designhub8128 So he had no choice and responsibility whatsoever in murdering and chopping those people up? Weird, because there are plenty of children who grow up in even more abusive and terrible circumstances yet don't become degenerate murders and drug mules. So weird....

[@EluxeM]

@@cooliotopnotch6287 Exactly! This man is a freaking monster.

[@dominickmarge5049]

Hey man hope you’re doing good keep yourself safe and enjoy the good things that are out there prayers for you

[@mranonymous1966]

I hope Luis is doing ok now. Really heartbreaking to hear his story and what courage to share his experiences. Luis if you happen to read these comments, know that there is nothing but love and good vibes being sent your way.

[@donnieyellowhair4]

Damn Homie. So sorry you went through all that shit man. I had a step dad that would abuse me when my mom was not around just because I was not his real son. He would get drunk , hit me, and say shit to me which hurt. When my mom found out about it, I thought she would take my side but she took my step dad's side. I got kicked to Grandma's house where I was raised by my grandma and aunties. I know how you were feeling from experience myself. Just know I can be a brother to you and will not turn my back on you. Homies like us need to stick together bro. Much love to you

[@tania_0rt3ga]

So sorry you went through that! Thanks for commenting to show that this is something that affects many and people and not alone ❤️

[@tania_0rt3ga]

are not alone*

[@elsievaenz9531]

I am sorry for that little boy as a mother we are your first love and are supposed to be your protectors 😢

[@NorthernGreenEyes]

❤🙏🏻🫂

[@esanram]

So kind of you

[@myname_2663]

My unc tells me how he wishes he could feel the hug of his mother and i should be appreciative of what i have. Great respect for you.

[@JasmineDCarter]

Fantastic video. You started to cut him off a bit at the later parts of the video, though. I wanna hear him all the way out. Either way thanks for letting him tell his story. Que le vaya bien la vida

[@pazuzil]

Fascinating interview! Wow!

[@IAMBADOMEN]

This is one of the most heart breaking stories I’ve ever heard. This man is incredibly brave and strong to be this vulnerable with such a heavy load. I wish him the best.

[@Missnips24]

This was a good watch. This guy seems like a genuine person who has been through some tuff things in life.

[@lindaflynn2371]

Thank you for your honesty ❤😢

[@rosefesenmeyer2808]

I just want to give him a hug! Thanks for sharing your story.

[@Kimchiboy08]

It's interview's like this that keep reminding me that all children need that love from parents.

[@brockpinson949]

Damm

[@livelovelaughforever2131]

Bravo! Hit man and drug smuggler now living a good clean life! True testimony! Keep going! Proud of you.

[@dawnireland2606]

That is a man with a heart of gold who got lost searching for his mothers love.. I am absolutely heartbroken for him.. As a mother, the moment he began talking about his desperation for his mother's' love and crying, I just wanted to hug him.

[@AX1A]

Luis, brother -- I got love & respect for you. You've done what you needed to do, and you're a survivor. This may not mean much, but I'll say it anyway: That you;re here today, telling your story, means that your parents, your mother, your father, and everyone else you need is already and always in you. Love all that is you, and that is in you, and stand tall.. bc you're a man, and more, youre a good man, with a good heart

[@howmoon67]

Man, this is a tough one to watch. I can tell he is still hurting from being abandoned. I feel for you sir..

[@rmsbrooks1]

I'm half way through this video and I can say I'm blown away. I don't cry easy but this guy got my tear ducts working. Will comment after I finish. p.s. He expresses himself well.

[@Officialgaetano]

Man, I feel for this brother. This is a heartbreaking interview. His pain cuts deep. Wow.

[@stevenlopez9201]

A movie on this man’s life would be great… everything he was saying I was just really imagining it … god bless him

[@willjackson6729]

My good buddy died while at the dream center. Dude tryna get sober, relapsed once, passed out face down on his pillow and died. Rest in peace John Hand❤️

[@edwinlopez4491]

Muchas veces vemos a estos muchachos y por su apariencia pensamos que son malas personas pero no sabemos todo lo que ellos han pasado y los motivos que tuvieron para seguir esos caminos, yo personalmente los he conocido y he visto que por la forma que han crecido aparentan ser malos porque la calle eso te enseña a no mostrar debilidad. Es como una careta que muchos llevamos puesta, me conmueve cuando dice (I was eating my own shit) ellos saben que el camino que han seguido no fue la mejor decisión pero que ya no hay vuelta atrás. Que Dios ponga paz en el corazón de este hombre.

[@RatKing-hx6sh]

I agree 100%, but if im not mistaken he was being literal. Ósea literal he “eat shit”. (Hope im mistaken)

[@heyjesse8162]

De seguro tu eres de esos Que juzgan a todos a la verga sera un a realizacion tuya Que quieres pasar como consejo?….. de todas maneras, asi es, lo Que dices 👏

[@harrybalsagna7485]

Eating your own shit?

[@GotchaBih163]

Es un alucin

[@b.r2715]

What a great video of redemption! Great guest!💯

[@Duzzii_]

15 minutes in and im fighting tears for this man, how incredibly sad. I had a fucked up father but came from a overall good home and i always feared losing my mom and not getting her love due to the next actions my father might take. I just cant imagine this world without my mother and i cant ever sit here and say i understand but i can feel some of that pain here .

[@theonebyonemovement]

I am a former gang leader and former international crime figure from Toronto Canada. Now I have an organization that helps people to ethically leave the lifestyle. Most have left with honour. I just gotta say, this work you’re doing is invaluable my friend. I have been watching your content for sometime now. Bravo and thank you for sharing these stories. Sometimes it’s hard for me to watch and hear some of these stories but if we are going to begin to start to fix these problems, people first have to understand their root causes. Respect 👊🏽.

[@alexbellington9243]

Canada is soft. Only the mob gets down for real over the bridge.

[@frankwright9774]

which gang?

[@prestonpreston8082]

"Certainly some who find themselves on the wrong side of the law were driven there by mistreatment in their own homes while growing up. Others were drawn to the flame of evil through other true or perceived injustices. To them I can only say, break the chain of mistreatment, a real man nourishes righteousness, not evil." Forward to the book, Black Hand, The Mexian Mafia.

[@sayvaughncyrus2143]

Cap.

[@MunnaHandLuke075]

International Crime Figure😮