Fiancé died in rehab, we killed our unborn child through abortion at 25 when addicted. I’m 34, live in my car, talk to no one daily. No family. No friends. Brother. You must look at your positives.
@Brad-wc2xu3 ай бұрын
I want to take my own life every single day. You will have to fight every single day brother.
@axjkhl76993 ай бұрын
@@Brad-wc2xuman that comment hit hard, hope things will get better for you. most of us go through a lot of shit
@rustwins44423 ай бұрын
I'm hoping the best for you man. I can't imagine how rough that is, but you're still here and I think that's proof enough that you should keep going. Please hang on, you'll get through this.
@johntierney82823 ай бұрын
Hope things get better for you.know the feeling
@_30K_3 ай бұрын
Broootal tale
@rustwins44423 ай бұрын
This society is profoundly sick. All we can do is enjoy what little we have and try to make things a little brighter in our way.
@brianmeen21583 ай бұрын
Human nature is not pretty. But yes, the best thing we can do is dial down expectations and try to enjoy the small things
@eddenoy3212 ай бұрын
@@brianmeen2158 Agree. We are not entitled to anything, not even jobs, nor kids, nor wife. Just look after yourself first and hope for a better tomorrow.
@StevenJeffrey-h2g2 ай бұрын
"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" Krishnamurti
@blazejames473 ай бұрын
We live in a society that relies on the commodification and destruction of meaning and debasement of human beings.
@gideonros27053 ай бұрын
Beautifully put. The only real way forward is to become spiritually independent. Grow values that are outside of the domain of normal society. What that is or will be for anyone person is the way itself.
@blazejames473 ай бұрын
@@gideonros2705 Precisely. We can’t be too hard on ourselves for reacting to this system, but we must pursue values outside of it.
@gideonros27053 ай бұрын
@blazejames47 Yes. I totally agree. At one stage, you must understand that even profound sadness and anger against the system, destiny, or even God that broke you is empty and must be put to rest.
@Iwishtheirwasnopain3 ай бұрын
It feels so robotic doesn't it?
@SuperDCUniverse12 ай бұрын
@@gideonros2705not god, “man”
@marc-alainmiller84533 ай бұрын
I'm gonna be 34 this month and I got no wife or kids, never even been close to either, currently single and trying to motivate myself to work on something resembling my current career after being laid off 3 times in the last 4 years. Sometimes it really feels like it's over. It's getting harder to visualize a future where I have the things I wanted, and it all feels purposeless. I genuinely don't know how people make huge life decisions/changes in their 20's, like marriage and kids. I graduated college at 23, blinked, and I was 30.
@mrwojna3 ай бұрын
Sometimes the big decisions pave the way. It’s really counterintuitive. I had a kid at 20. I was a boozer and a loser. Had no idea what I was gonna do, but I knew I was gonna be a good father. Fast forward and I was making 6 figures and my son graduated with a degree in chemical engineering. Sometimes the why arrives before the how.
@aim-for-greatn3z9473 ай бұрын
Don't feel bad some of us aren't lucky enough to find a purpose. Like you I'm 36 and live in N.J and NYC. My purpose in life are my businesses and clients, personally I like adding value to others and making money in the process. I know FOR a FACT I'll be a horrible father so I'm avoiding kids like a plague 🤭 But you just need to find your WHY I do have a girlfriend overseas though since I'm able to travel for free. However I STILL consider myself single because like this man story being married and having the RISK of divorce is enough for me to NOT permanently deal with a woman.
@FutureTrunksSSJ13 ай бұрын
Hey brother, don’t feel down or feel like others are passing you in life. Easier said then done I know, but sometimes the grass is not always greener. I’m 26 with my first kid on the way, I don’t even have a HS diploma. Trying to make the best out what we have everyday is the key. It may not seem like it but there is always someone who wishes they can have what you have (even if you feel like you don’t have much) or live the life you’re living without realizing it. Keep on pushing.
@FutureTrunksSSJ13 ай бұрын
@@zad0k91push the negative thoughts aside, I get it, it seems impossible. I’m not perfect by any means I’m just a regular guy on yt. And I know we don’t know each other personally or know each others lives. You never know where you will be in life in the future, if you delete yourself you will never get to experience the nice things you pass up on. Depression is a terrible thing to experience, I’m rooting for you bro. I’m not gonna push religion on you but I’ll be asking the lord to bless you.
@chris95273 ай бұрын
Take 50 IU of vitamin D for a few months it helped me a lot.@@zad0k91
@Steven-sy8mn3 ай бұрын
I am 58 and when I was 48 I had a mid life crisis and have been going through another for almost 9 months now. Hopeless feeling along with isolation. Thinking on the years gone by is really hard on me. If it wasn't for God my wife I wouldn't be here. Almost drank myself to death until I layed it down last November. Life to me doesn't feel right and I don't feel normal. It's like a sense of impending doom over my head day in day out. Thank you for this video. I do have a glimmer of hope. God and my wife. My home is payed for as our vehicle and I live in the country in Louisiana. I have no reason to feel the way I do except for a spine disease. God bless everyone and thank you again for the video.
@SuperReznative3 ай бұрын
Shalom Enjoy the sunshine , .. and the rain . Ask Jesus into your life ,Be want to have relationship with you/ us.
@FancyFeast33 ай бұрын
Did you or do you have any heart issues?
@FancyFeast33 ай бұрын
@leontios6661 There's no explaining away the pain you're feeling from that loneliness and I won't try to do that. Men are offered a very revealing perspective on life, utility, and what it means to be loved. What love really is. I found that when I was isolated, the love of creation, of God, is what I felt the most. Just saying I see the weight of the life you are living and wish you strength. And perhaps it was a blessing in disguise. Maybe in a country where people aren't so materialistic, where people value family, safety, opportunity, and strength of character, there is someone waiting for you
@_whatnext_93192 ай бұрын
I've found over the years that people typically want what others have... enjoy your freedom my friend. The love you yearn for can be the same one you loathe in due time, making you miss those years by yourself. Be good to you and those around you is all. @leontios6661
@mariamountain67183 ай бұрын
As a daughter, I appreciate you sharing your experiences. I can tell you, most kid's, me at least , love their fathers dearly and regret a lot. A LOT. missed time, missed expressed love. So now, I tell my dad that I love him, every time we speak. It was difficult at first, after a couple of times he said it back and it wasn't weird anymore.. and now I'm so happy we got into the habit. Telling you this, because I'm sure she feels similar, even if she doesn't express it. You dads, you guys, are dearly loved, ywe know, how much you've done for us...
@PortugueseMACPOW2 ай бұрын
I live in my tent at 32, I have to beg for food. If I don't talk to my parents in 2 months, they barely notice. Winters are pure hell.
@Gas-jc4xv2 ай бұрын
I hear you.
@weltschmerz3332 ай бұрын
im the same age , living in a camper , cant complain its better than a tent in the winter..
@Syzygy773 ай бұрын
“Found a red IPod at an antique store.” Just that statement is enough to give me anxiety about getting older. I just found out a week ago that my oldest brother was murdered. My other brother decided to leave this earth in 2018 and my older sister did the same in 2015. Seeing my siblings not make it past their 30’s and 40’s has been extremely tough for me, especially since I haven’t really done much with my life except work nonstop since I was 16 years old. I don’t own a home, don’t have prospects for finding a wife, or having children. And I’ll live longer than my any of my older siblings if I don’t die unexpectedly. Along with all that, all the other issues like the state of the world and economy it’s looking somewhat bleak. I empathize with your worries.
@AlanTrades3 ай бұрын
What would change this
@rejectionistmanifesto88362 ай бұрын
Be HAPPY and thank God every day you dont have to watch children grow up in this kind of world.
@lex.cordis2 ай бұрын
@@rejectionistmanifesto8836 What do you mean? Children are born into this world everyday. We are not allowed to _ever_ leave. This heII will continue forever. Also, fuck "God." Whatever made this place is more malevolent than can be humanly comprehended.
@FAA-DPE2 ай бұрын
Humanity is in a crisis, because for a thousand years we've been lied to about who and what we truly are.
@TheWisdom32 ай бұрын
True.
@natashasays2 ай бұрын
Go on.
@5piral0ut2 ай бұрын
Concise and correct
@LiteralMcWhoАй бұрын
@@natashasayshe can’t, he ass pulled it
@misterkefirАй бұрын
Damn.. I'm 14 and this is deep, bro.
@onionfarmercarmen4 күн бұрын
this year I have become a father of a daughter. Being a parent is really hard. you took care of your kids and you seem to think about them a lot. i dont know what your aspirations in life are, but the fact that your kids are still alive and well is proof that you did many things right. bless and love
@Voyeurrrr2 ай бұрын
Life is hell for me currently but I have much to fight for and much to be thankful for. Everyone in the comments and the gentleman who posted, my heart’s with you and I hope you find joy. Surely you will know how to appreciate it.
@fr33dxm73 ай бұрын
Man talkin about "What direction we thought we'd go" vs where life ends up bringing us... A drunk driver swerved into my lane and she hit me head-on at 45mph(70kmh) a week before my 24th birthday, that was almost 15 years ago, crippled, living in chronic pain for the rest of my life... No wife, no kids, no career, only a couple of RL friends and they never wanna do shit, no prospect to any future outside of homelessness after my parents croak... yeeting myself will happen long before that does though 🤣 Yeah life definitely didn't turn out the way I wanted it to, it is what it is though. Basic stoicism 101 - Everything external is out of our control. It may have been that womans fault for ruining my life, but it's my responsibility in how I deal with it. Spend time with your kids, tell em you love them, just cherish it all my man... Life is hard and the joy of it all is having a family to love.
@Notthatkevguy3 ай бұрын
You are extremely strong
@adamf43253 ай бұрын
Wish I could shine your light on a few people....strange how the real deal gives you perspective and strength.. I beleive you only have that because you chose that. Nicely done. Wishing you some peace with the pain
@josephjones558213 күн бұрын
I’m so happy to see that you have children. This life can be meaningless if we don’t seek out and make our own meaning. Or accept the meaning that has been handed to us by the ancients. Thinking about children and what they need can give you a lot of purpose in and of itself.
@1isaacgardner2 ай бұрын
I feel ya brother. I'm 40 living with my dad now in California after I got destroyed in my last relationship and lost a lot. I'm pretty much starting over and have a strong disdain for the US....
@zephyrr1083 ай бұрын
Dude you have kids. You HAVE SOMETHING/SOMEONE.. IM 40 AND I have nobody. Nobody. Completely alone.
3 ай бұрын
Spoken from someone who has never been around babies/child-rearing.
@nailinpalin14773 ай бұрын
Children are programmed to run off and live their lives, leaving the family behind. It's part of the atomization that was done to us.
@eddenoy3212 ай бұрын
Alone is good.
2 ай бұрын
@@eddenoy321 Silence is golden
@sameenergy9414Ай бұрын
You don't want to bring someone you love into this world bro
@crashandersen6023 ай бұрын
You've managed to capture the complexity of life and how moments of connection and nostalgia can be intertwined with feelings of uncertainty and reflection. It's touching to see how you find meaning in the small, shared experiences with your children even as you navigate the larger and more daunting challenges of life. It's very zen and meditative.
@PanarchyTheater3 ай бұрын
Communities outside of major cities are increasingly WASTELANDS. Addicts, strip malls, the old and the listless. Every aspect of society is going to reflect this basic dysfunction.
@bobdobbs87003 ай бұрын
I'm 41 and grew up in the Sierra Nevada foothills too. I wonder if we crossed paths at some point. As for the economy, I believe we're at the same place the Soviet Union was in the late 80s just before their economy totally collapsed: all the official sources are insisting that the country has never been more prosperous while everyone who isn't an out of touch bureaucrat knows that it's over and is just waiting for the the thunder to catch up with the lightning. As usual, those in charge will be the last to know and suffer the least consequences unless they are held to account.
@Investormillard2 ай бұрын
Doesn’t matter…Jesus is coming! Rapture soon!🎉
@radmageirlАй бұрын
Arnold, Big Trees, Sonora, Murphys, Calaveras Co, Amador Co, Angels Camp, Copperopolis, Jackson, Pine Grove, Mokelumne, up to Tahoe and there about, here and there. Miss everything but the hot summers, but always had the Coast for that season and the Pacific breeze. Muggy out this way. Lots of bugs. People are usually nice though.
@lukaz20402 ай бұрын
I went through your whole video, man. I hear you. And I truly hope that everything gets better for you and your family in the future! Going through my own challenges with the tech sector, burnout, grim vision of the future. Hearing your thoughts and relating to what you said helped me a bit today. Thanks, man!
@blyderek3 ай бұрын
Fellow midwestern 40 yo dude. Lean into it. The young dumdums need our guidance. We need men to step up. Give back. We're done. Help out and reduce their misery as much as possible. That's all we can do.
@aim-for-greatn3z9473 ай бұрын
Lol thanks if you provide this but personally I'm good I'm just living for myself out here in NYC it's survival of the fittest. Plus I'm learning the LESS humans you interact with the MORE peace you have AND higher income.
@brianmeen21583 ай бұрын
Yeah I see the young men and many are just lost . I see many that don’t even want to meet women or work .. others are striving to be victims and that mindset is so far from how my generation felt growing up. I’m just not sure what has caused young guys to feel this way…?
@davewolf88692 ай бұрын
your guidance is what made them miserable in the first place. do better
@dopefreshness775 күн бұрын
@@brianmeen2158technology
@carymartz87623 ай бұрын
Stay strong for your kids. Times are tough for most people, keep moving forward.
@wordup8972 ай бұрын
I moved from Indiana to SF in 1989 making 30k (78k today). Lived in the city with no problem, paid cash for grad courses, snowboarded, lived it up. It was clean and safe, like a paradise in many ways. I also lived in Monterey and Squaw Valley Tahoe after that. It's crazy how much the "economy" has been destroyed since that time, as well as how many of our beautiful cities are being destroyed by GovCorp. It's been a wild ride and things are going to get even rougher as they continue to force their dystopian vision upon humanity.
@Investormillard2 ай бұрын
Doesn’t matter. Rapture soon!😊
@wordup8972 ай бұрын
@@Investormillard Been hearing that for 10,000 years now.
@jamesreynolds6423 ай бұрын
I hate to say it but the people that have been in charge for the last 60 years have destroyed a once great county. Try your best to insulate yourself from any coming economic crashes. I’m 44 too and feel it. I understand completely where you’re coming from.
@Men_of_Tomorrow3 ай бұрын
You don’t live in a country just like I don’t (Canada). We live in corporations. And the people in charge aren’t the ones you think are in charge. And they’ve eroded everything on purpose, and it has nothing to do with money and everything to do with control, mass demoralization and the syphoning of our energy. If you believe what they present, they’ve already got you. If you believe in politics, they’ve got you. Keep things simple.
@SeethingSimp3 ай бұрын
@@Men_of_Tomorrow Me too - the amount of 3rd world dreck that has flooded my small town in the past 3 years is beyond belief.
@lankyprepper81392 ай бұрын
When was it great when we were slaves?
@cherrycabra80962 ай бұрын
Money money money money money 😂
@Men_of_Tomorrow2 ай бұрын
@@cherrycabra8096 Mooooooney! Hahaha. Reminds me of the Apprentice and the early 2000s. A simpler time. “You’re fired.”
@AllBlackAirpods2 ай бұрын
Thank you for this man, I hope you get some peace of mind too
@xmodsgaming2 ай бұрын
Wow, I’m 42 and I’m going through the same stuff you are that divorced in 2022 and live in Idaho. All the Californians started moving here hiking up the housing rates and my daughters 20 and she doesn’t wanna talk to me for whatever reason so I feel you man , hang in there
@Aristo012 ай бұрын
I’m 48 and I too have a 11yr old son and 15yr old daughter. Divorced and alone. I can relate to how you feel about your daughter. This is the age where they begin to peel away from you and it hurts. The dating scene is absolutely horrific and my income compared to their mom and her new husband is minuscule, which makes it even more difficult as a single parent financially to be able to do nice things for my kids. They are great kids. I just wish that I could do more and I feel guilty because I destroyed their two parent home. Try and keep your head up man you’re providing solace for people who are in similar situations at least knowing we’re not alone, subscribed. 🙏
@radmageirl2 ай бұрын
Guilt and heartache for me, which I wouldn't have predicted being the case a few years ago. Thought I could force of will life, turns out lifes bigger and tougher than me. Some days hard to focus on the good, I try to think of things I'd have liked my parents to have imparted to me at the same age, so I talk to my daughter about personal finance... she's less than impressed but listens sometimes. Hope you have a good day man.
@ChadLisonbee3 ай бұрын
I’m 45 and I was in a bad place mentally for several years. The difference is, I live about the most ideal life anyone could ask for. I have everything to be grateful for, but still found myself suffering bad. I say this because it doesn’t matter the pains of your past or the current shit that’s causing our mental health issues. The problem is our nutrition man! We’ve been poisoned our entire lives and the FDA claims everything is fine. Over the last year I focused all of my energy on my diet and exercise, I’m here to tell you I’m a changed man. I’m happy to help everyone with their nutrition and exercise to routines. I’ve just started to gear up my KZbin channel for exactly that. Mental and physical with nutrition. I sincerely hope you get everything figured out. Please feel free to reach out to me if you think I can help!
@solomongrundy14672 ай бұрын
And it's not just the food. The FDA approves several poisons for Americans to use. Lice shampoo contains neurotoxins that cause mental and physical health issues. These poisons have been used on millions of children for decades.
@K0ntakt53 ай бұрын
there is nothing to hang onto. it does not matter who you think you are or your status or your possessions or your family and friends or professional relationships. you lose it all. when you understand this and you accept it and you do not fight it, then you are liberated. there was never anything there to begin with. nor do you have to purposefully try to let go- because there is nothing to hang onto, that is the default situation already. nothing to hang onto and nothing to get rid of. when you stop fighting it then you are at rest. "the first half of life is building a healthy ego. the second half is looking inward and letting go of your ego." -- jung
@gideonros27053 ай бұрын
Beautiful
@dopefreshness775 күн бұрын
question for you. what if i try to move on from a relationship and when i do they begin stalking me? and when i was in their presence they always demanded all of my attention be on them in their actions and words. who’s wrong there me for moving on or them for “hanging” on
@K0ntakt54 күн бұрын
@@dopefreshness77 each the same problem in reverse. as long as you are trying to lose something, then you will always seem to have it. does not make dense to lose something you do not already have. no go the other way. as long as you are trying to get something, then it seems be out of reach. it does not make sense to obtain something you already have
@Klotrik2 ай бұрын
Thanks for opening up. As a man it's always a risk. I do think you doing so will be helpful to many fellow men. Beeing a man over 40, married or not, comes with an inner loneliness that I don't think any woman or younger man could understand. Stay strong, brother!
@demeracl3 ай бұрын
In my 40s with kids too and I think the next flee place is rural America. But the difference is the youth would rather stay in the populated areas. I think most parents insulated their kids and showed them a prosperous US but the reality outside of the screens is, it's over.
@ryandgarland3 ай бұрын
Hey buddy, thanks for sharing. I did the opposite. I moved from the Midwest to California in 2005. Now, I am your age also divorced and have 9 year old son. Prices are crazy here. At least the weather is nice.
@stevecarrillo94363 ай бұрын
You're not alone in these feelings, bro.
@1Diddums3 ай бұрын
You can do it, Marcus Fenix.
@stratum42Ай бұрын
This resonates alot with me as. I'm 49 and I also grew up in California and left in 2000, moved to Wisconsin. I left for the same reasons you did, only things I miss are surfing and river fishing. I also work in the tech sector, and have a 14 year old daughter. My son however is 24. While I have a fairly secure job at the State working IT, I'm still nervous about what my future is and worried about my kid's futures even here in the Midwest.
@danieldaniels75713 ай бұрын
Could be worse. I turn 54 tomorrow.
@ryandgarland3 ай бұрын
My man, I don't think anyone ever envisioned as a kid turning 40+. But then you wake up one day and here you are. I bet it will feel about the same when 60+...just BAM! Here we are... 😮😅. Just have to enjoy the time.
@danieldaniels75713 ай бұрын
@@ryandgarland my kids are gone. My wife is gone. It’s a lonely month to month struggle to make ends meet and live in poverty as opposed to homelessness. I’m really not enjoying the time at all anymore.
@ryandgarland3 ай бұрын
@@danieldaniels7571 crap, that could easy be my life in 10 years. Well, I don't really have any answers. My life isn't bad by any stretch, but it is still a bit of a struggle. I suppose it always has and always will be. I guess the lesson is to try to enjoy the present as much as possible. Nothing is forever.
@kanipshun42163 ай бұрын
Hope you managed to find some way to enjoy your birthday. Wishing for the best for you stranger, keep your chin up.
@allinmybackyard39883 ай бұрын
@danieldaniels7571 happy birthday man eventhough its a bit late.
@gjergskender85363 ай бұрын
i commend you for being a dad to your kids and showing concern. in todays world such a task is like that of Sisyphus. i hope everything works out for you man. your daughter will come around in time.
@MonkDave6662 ай бұрын
49 here, until my early mid 30's I was on unemployment and housing benefit here in the UK. Life has got significantly better since then, but one thing I try to do is to just keep looking forward. Dwelling on the past, on the way the world constantly changes and "isn't like it used to be" will drive you insane. I didn't have internet at all until maybe 23 years old, so lived an entire life pre-internet, grew up in the 80's skateboarding, listening to punk rock, watching movies like Pretty In Pink when they came out lol... but the world just isn't like that anymore. Now I'm married, have a nice house with an almost paid off mortgage, 500 games in my Steam account and 4 cats - this is my new life now, and I embrace it, especially as I never saw it coming in the first place! Just go with the flow and try and stay posi.
@b.lloydreese20303 ай бұрын
My whole adult.life has been an existential crisis
@mikuuxp47702 ай бұрын
Im a woman, My first existencial crisis was when i was a child practically...yes...life with no meaning...and people trying to help me through the years ..and still i believe life has no meaning 😊 so..why not doing things we love before we die? I know its difficult, i dont buy lots of stuff i like, i dont have many dates as much as i would love to, ..and some of my relatives and 'friends' are quite toxic, but yes, i only have one life (i dont want people to control it) Good luck to everyone in this difficult time. We are not alone in this❤
@iShredStreets3 ай бұрын
Always heartbreaking to see a daughter go from daddy’s little princess to a demon. All you want to do is protect her and show her that you love her but she doesn’t want to hear it.
@briannarickner55413 ай бұрын
A demon?? What made u say this?
@iShredStreets3 ай бұрын
@@briannarickner5541 don't take it so serious. I've seen young girls rebel, and most of the time it's just them being teenagers but it can get out of hand fast.
@stinkyfingers16173 ай бұрын
He means semen demon
@iShredStreets3 ай бұрын
@@stinkyfingers1617 No.
@SeethingSimp3 ай бұрын
That isn't helped when the Father acts like a military soldier defending his daughter's right to dress like a prostitute haha
@esquivelmichael17 күн бұрын
Im constantly reminiscing about my childhood and simpler times when i had no obligations, just joy and freedom. Now i just work and really have no hope on buying a house just keep on renting a room from my sister. God bless her and her family i dont think i could make it on my own
@HarranSoFarAwayАй бұрын
the energy at the malls around Christmas season was magical and electric. Imagine never knowing this scenario? Tragic
@radmageirl28 күн бұрын
Yeah haven't had the same experience since I don't think. Community/people around, events, all the bustling and noise. Mostly see disconnection and things empty these days. Mall I used to go to connected to toys r us too
@chilloften2 ай бұрын
Life’s a trip, that’s for sure. I’m glad you’re here on this earth with me, going thru it. Baby girl loves you, trust that. Daddy’s are the bestest to kids. You a good daddy as is.
@TheMillionDollarDropout3 ай бұрын
As a 25 year old male who’s been having bad luck wit girl after girl… this made me realize I really need to try and be a big part of a company or make my own cause any man can have kids with a woman but the women doesn’t usually stay around and the kids do grow up so while that aspect of life (parenthood) is fulfilling i can imagine the success of my own company would be almost just as fulfilling and can “grow” up until the day I die .
@giantbear8292 ай бұрын
Freedom is AcceptCe without judgement of this world. Define your own world, from within. Live within our own light internally. Disconnect from the energy sync which is the modern corrupted world. Find yourself in all others, realise we are all One and shine your inner light brightly. You have a kid. Thats a blessing, no matter what.
@xxspecterxx2 ай бұрын
You’ll be ok man. Be grateful go outside go on walks and limit your entertainment , sometimes we just need a reset that isn’t a major deal. I watched all my older relatives go through something like this and they all came out stronger
Keep... keep grinding, keep hustling... shoot for your dreams
@swassesois3 ай бұрын
DUDE YOU ARE DOPE FOR SHOWING THEM RECLAIMING ELECTRONICS FOR YOUR KIDS. When I told my parents I wad doing electronics fabrication, they repugnantly asked if I was gonna fix short wave radios for a living. YOU ARE RAD. Stop being so soft on yourself dude. Load up her ipod with PANTERA, Scream HELL YEAH, AND LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT SO MAKE IT NICE.
@NeilLund2 ай бұрын
Whatever happens, get up again. Try again. Each time, you'll get wiser, stronger and be more aware of who you are. Everyone is unique. Be real again. Listen to your gut. You've got this.
@williammclean659420 күн бұрын
I find this really relatable. I have disabilities and autism. My mom didn’t want me to work because of my mental issues and I only recently got a job about five years ago my first job ever when I was 30 and I just don’t really know what I wanna do with My just working at a grocery store. No career is really interest me and it’s kind of risky to go to school when you might not even end up working for the thing that you spent money to get that career. I see my friends getting married and stuff but like I never really was interested in relationships I think I should at least try to get together with someone because life is expensive. I live with my mom and she doesn’t have a problem with it. But I know she’s not gonna be around forever. Even though I’m not really that interested in relationships or getting married I still think maybe I should. I hope I’ll be able to figure something out with life.
@sstaners12343 ай бұрын
I’m 46 and have no kids. I just have a dog and my wife is in another state.
@Canadian_Eh_I3 ай бұрын
at least you got a wife
@-MakeItGood-3 ай бұрын
She’s in Canada.. you don’t know her.
@lightningfrom93963 ай бұрын
@@Canadian_Eh_I why lmao its not that great
@aim-for-greatn3z9473 ай бұрын
Sooo basically you're single 😂 Look up to you! I'm in the same process, except I'm definitely not having kids for sure.
@AlmaMelvin584593 ай бұрын
lol at least she is in another state
@danwatson82452 ай бұрын
Im 38, have 2 grown stepkids that i raised since they were 4 and 6 they are 21 amd 23 now. There dad wasnt in the picture at all. I lived in the midwest for 34 years moved to southwest 4 years ago when my youngest moved out. Enjoy the time u can with em when there small it goes by in the blink of a eye. I was able to withdraw my 401k from the mine and used that to move across the country. So literally got all my ducks in row...it had been good and bam.....ended up getting cancer. Typical.... Stay safe out there my freinds hug and kiss your kids often bc u never know what could happen and they grow up to fast.
@901coryowens2 ай бұрын
Interesting how people respond to more personal content. Shows the state of most people in the world. Especially the men who have to sit with their own thoughts.
@cwildlife68822 ай бұрын
Times are hard for a lot of people. Everything is expensive now and there's a mental health crisis no one talks about.
@901coryowens2 ай бұрын
@@cwildlife6882 They try to talk about it but they don't understand what the realities are to even begin having a comprehensive conversation
@cwildlife68822 ай бұрын
@@901coryowens Yes. Just kind of swept under the rug until it can not be ignored. Pretty sad.
@elegantwaste77633 ай бұрын
You're interesting. It's rare to hear a raw and genuine perspective --even when it turns into twenty-five minutes of dragon warrior sound effects while I'm working
@Gas-jc4xv2 ай бұрын
Take care of yourself bro. You are not alone.
@bmanagement46572 ай бұрын
We are here to make the world a better place. Most of us relinquish that responsibility. Making the world better TODAY requires peaceful resistance to these destructive systems.
@1101-f6z3 ай бұрын
You're so close to understanding what we all knew the first time this happened in 2008.
@eliinthewolverinestate67292 ай бұрын
We bought a tax sale house for 8k. It was some work, but has paid off. Few years ago we bought 10 acres up north for 17k. Working on building an off grid earthship design cottage to get rid of as many bills as possible. Using masonry walls instead of tire walls. I use linux. Money is a store of value. Currencies loose value. Money is not currencies. Cost of utilities always goes up. The kids actually like going up north camping now. With lower populations I find people are more likely to help each other. Inflation at 2% means over 20 years currencies have lost 40% of value. Property tax at 2% means in 20 years you have paid more than 40% of houses value. The house value goes up too. Agricultural tax exemptions can reduce property tax. Even thou wages go up inflation means you loose value. They fraction the currencies so they take value little bit by little bit. So the currency controllers can take a little more for themselves. Same old money changers. No different then coin clipping by Romans. Senors walk the malls here. Makes sense with bathrooms, benches, and climate control. They need to put dept of aging and social security offices in malls.
@robfut99543 ай бұрын
You have a nice velvet Markaplier voice, you should do voice acting man.
@thegreatsiberianitch2 ай бұрын
A I
@aim-for-greatn3z9473 ай бұрын
Thank you for your story i TRULY appreciate it! 🙏🏾 Personally im 36 and I'm avoiding marriage and kids in the United States AT ALL COST. People nowadays women specifically aren't built to be wives, and the risk of divorce like yourself is too high. I rather avoid all this hassle and live a life of financial abundance and peace.
@eddenoy3212 ай бұрын
you are winning, but dont know it.
@aim-for-greatn3z9472 ай бұрын
@eddenoy321 trust me.... I fully know and I hope you're honestly winning as well! There's enough for all of us! Life will always provide as long your intentions and desires are true
@eddenoy3212 ай бұрын
@@aim-for-greatn3z947 I always thought having kids was a terrible and misguided decision that would crush men and women both. Children are an industry for medical, legal, manufacturing, and government. It a taboo that is never talked about. Good on you for knowing.
@aim-for-greatn3z9472 ай бұрын
@eddenoy321 yup exactly it quickly keeps you as a slave to the system. Plus humans passed the need of survival, having kids now ate a "WANT" no longer a "need"
@chowshows3 ай бұрын
at least you have kids, some people face existential crisis having felt worthless because they didnt have kids
@zephyrr1083 ай бұрын
Exactly what I told him. I am 40 and I have NOBODY.
@brianmeen21583 ай бұрын
Yes but you don’t seem to realize how stressful it is to have kids! Figure in the higher cost of living and that’s a very high stress position. I get your point though as we grew up being told we should work, marry and have kids. That ideal just is not in the cards for many of us. So that leaves us with what to do…?
3 ай бұрын
Spoken from someone who has never actually dealt with babies or child-rearing!
@eddenoy3212 ай бұрын
Could it be that NOT having kids is the real blessing ?
2 ай бұрын
@@eddenoy321 Ya
@cwildlife68822 ай бұрын
Lot's of videos like this on here. A lot of people are hurting. You are not alone. Im 54 & could tell a hell of a story. I struggle just to make it to another day. Maybe i will make a video.
@tleevz13 ай бұрын
I too am a 44 year old man in the Midwest. I even have a PlayStation! It's funny, I'm almost 12 minutes in and you're talking about house prices and who but doctors and lawyers live in those homes? Man, I wonder that all the time. There are lots of jobs that pay well, but I'm in Kansas City and the here are lots of big neighborhoods of really nice homes and how do these people afford that? I grew up in a duplex, live in a townhome now with my mom, so I'm not the guy to ask about job suggestions. Anyway, I should finish your video but I used to think about that a lot just out of pure curiosity. I'm finding changing mindset helps alleviate that.
@shivablaster48253 ай бұрын
You'd be surprised. I bet the majority of those people in those homes either can't TRULY afford it and taking out debt, or they do have high paying jobs but are living paycheck to paycheck. You see in the news so many times how all these celebrities, athletes of yesteryear are selling their homes, memorabilia, etc because they can no longer sustain it
@Iwishtheirwasnopain3 ай бұрын
My son is 12 things haven't been that great too..but I'm sorry you can't see your kids that much..that's awful and not enough time
@_Feed_Me2 ай бұрын
Man that’s tough… my sons are 16 and 17, and strangely they still find me cool/fun. Much better kids than I was. Good luck bro!
@GuiltySpark3473 ай бұрын
You are not alone
@MRPricks2 ай бұрын
Time flies when you're having fun.
@nawledge4pwr2 ай бұрын
All those lamenting their existence should look to God. He knows why you were made. If you make efforts toward Him you may be surprised that He reciprocates. One principle here is that to people who are making an honest effort to follow His teachings, a prayer that requests something that is not contrary to His plan/will is likely to be granted. The best way to do this is to imagine Him sitting right in front of you asking you what is on your mind and heart. I won’t go into my personal journey too much but I used to be an atheist and God found me and is killing the worst in me. I’m a 40 year old former “doomer” who believed existence shouldn’t have been. I’ve changed a lot but man there have been growing pains. Some of the last 3 years have been hell. God bless all of you. Don’t give up. ❤
@sobreaver3 ай бұрын
It's not a crisis, keep walking.. and listen.
@TchrisO1232 ай бұрын
I get it man, it's okay, we'll get through it or somethin'
@philp78843 ай бұрын
At least you were able to imprint on your kids after their birth..I'm 46, and found out in 2019 i had a 9yo daughter i never knew existed..needless to say..been a long road and an emotional roller coaster. If your wondering, the mom ghosted me a week after becoming pregnant unknown to me at the time.
@philp78843 ай бұрын
Oh, and it's all going down soon..good luck
@radicalgreek993 ай бұрын
Once you see suffering as temporary and everything else is good. We aren't meant for this world. I'm an Orthodox Christian man who has known all different kinds of suffering and I thank God I have been through it so far so good. I take the good and bad as blessings and lessons to grow from. Staying humble and getting things done, no matter what it is, I just do it.
@SnakesandDoggies2 ай бұрын
"Hello Big Brother!" It's Altered Carbon Season 1 bro. If you don't know WHAT that is watch it you'll like it. That is WHAT we live in. The girls think the memories just go away magically somehow, and were left with our you know WHAT in our hand cause they're all used up Star....ers like the NIN song.
@SnakesandDoggies2 ай бұрын
Don't even bother with season 2, only the first couple minutes if you wanna see Poe again. I got a few more good ones for ya if you want after.
@marcmeinzer88592 ай бұрын
If you consider the fact that basic shelter can be mass produced for as little as $25,000 per unit it becomes obvious that conventional housing on the market in urban areas is really nothing but a form of real estate speculation based upon what the market would bear if and when you decided to sell. And this is quite sick considering that shelter is a necessity. But at least in Cleveland used vintage houses are considerably cheaper than what you’re quoting. And that would be because nobody wants to buy a used house. Everybody who can afford to do so wants a brand new four bedroom house with a tripe garage preferably on a cul de sac erected on virgin land which was carved out of sold off farmland recently. But then if the price of gasoline gets too high these people could find themselves stranded out in the exurbs contemplating the necessity of turning their entire lot into a vegetable garden just to feed themsevles.
@musicjuly34152 ай бұрын
Man, I know what your problem is because I deal with it myself. It's easy to look at how bad everything is, especially as men with a lot of experience and wisdom in life. Start focusing on the present and building your life for the next 10 years. Focus on the positives. Try to actively look for positive things and opportunities and say, "how good is that?" For example, the USA is the best country in the world, by far, for an average person to become successful in business or anything.
@jakec20093 ай бұрын
I’m about 4 years older than you brother. Hang in there. I’d like to say it gets better but you just have to adjust and push through. You’re an intelligent guy and a thinker. We see through the bullshit. Usually what’s on the other side of the bullshit isn’t too pretty.
@petemorton84032 ай бұрын
I was always getting the "At Will/Right to Work" law used. Just as 3 weeks vacation & 40% vesting. Start over at the bottom. I started slow at buying, fixing & renting old houses. I found something that worked. My wife was against it "all I care about is houses" she'd throw in my face. Well beginning an endeavor is a lot of dedication. I had us up to 3 & the down saved for that 4th. She boyfriends, they take that down payment. Then they false accuse, then after learning he is HIV positive, I file divorce. He coaches so as to live off her takings. I lose my life's work. Why Even Try
@kevinkershaw12093 ай бұрын
The age of the KZbin Lolcow is over. The time of the KZbin Vlogger has come!
@drewpatterson82612 ай бұрын
I'm pretty sure KZbin was originally setup as a vlogger website. I would say things are coming around full circle.
@alexanderson44973 ай бұрын
Best thing I ever did was not bring children into this world, I get why you would and don't throw any shade at anyone that decided to have some, but this grind ends with me. There is no sense of commun8ity here in the US, everyone is out for themselves and you see it advertised everywhere, in our media, in our work places, in our schools and even the way we treat each other. Our politicians match the spirit of the people and that spirit is sickly.
@eddenoy3212 ай бұрын
Truth.
@moa30082 ай бұрын
William Golding is having a mid life crisis and he needs to get over it before he gets to be as old as me (67 years old); and I don’t feel as bad as he does!
@davidlockwood87032 ай бұрын
I am 57. I raised my son on my own an have seen all the changes with him a sons love. For his father is very diff then. The girls I have never had a daughter
@kokeskokeskokes2 ай бұрын
I am also 44. My crisis is that I don't think I need to work any more but I still do and I don't know if I should. I bought a foreclosed house after the Wall Street crashed the whole World's economies in 2008 and everybody was screwed, and somehow I was the one uneffected.
@soulrebel63093 ай бұрын
I hate what today's society does to young women. They go from friendly kids that make you laugh, to mean girl, snobby teenagers. Its so annoying
@UrineDeity3 ай бұрын
Yeah probably brcause they get treated like shit and sexualized 25/8
@tenminutetokyo26433 ай бұрын
You are the only thinker in your universe.
@kissbela74093 ай бұрын
Pay more attention to yourself. What you think is important. Not what the world tells you. Start taking care of yourself.
@amare653 ай бұрын
Do you live on a house boat? There's an awful lot of creaking noises going on in the background.
@KingHVLP12342 ай бұрын
Drum set
@davet52232 ай бұрын
The Grudge
@beskararmor79663 ай бұрын
Just one day at a time. The majority on this amazing mud ball we live on have it way worse.
@joeriveracomedy3 ай бұрын
Stockton is cheap. Only good thing I can say about it.
@Loy3652 ай бұрын
I feel ya man.. Im from Ireland around the same age 48 and it certainly dies feel like simthing is going to give with all the stuff going on right now. and the same thing is happening here prices of everything thru the roof.. we have social / affordable housing announcend €450k. Tge price of food .. tge influx of migrants is shocking and i agree after being shafted atvthe last recession in 08 get the feeling were ramping up for far worse
@keithperkins16133 ай бұрын
history repeat and living vicariously got me thinking of the movie the Northmen when they did the ritual
@derekf90173 ай бұрын
Repeat this daily 50 times for 1 month brother and you will be healed: "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner". Up to you.
@pikpik423 ай бұрын
I can't read stuff like this anymore. I get why people say this and I'm glad it helped for them, but for me I honestly believe that understanding your situation and your suffering and learning from it, taking care of yourself and the ones you love, is better.
@wotanmituns333 ай бұрын
@@pikpik42 fr, the fairy tales people believe in order to cope.
@pod93633 ай бұрын
So passive agressive.
@MarkusSsZ2 ай бұрын
50 times a day LMAO
@derekf9017Ай бұрын
@@pikpik42 of course, youre right, the Lord or his angels are with you
@blue-xk7gj3 ай бұрын
Life without God is a futile, empty wasteland. Death is inevitable. Seek the Lord while he may be found.
@NerdyHoodReviews3 ай бұрын
Just keep pushin dawg thats the only thing we can do. This video was randomly recommended to me. i got no kids and im 37 and my mind is finally set on startin my business, well regestiring it and honestly its also gonna depend on the presidential election. If Kameleon wins then my business will probably fail. They say dont live with regrets but i got a handful of them as an example i knew about bitcoin back in 2012 and it was cheap and guess wha i never bothered to look into it further at the time i just knew that it was digital currency. Hopefully things get better for all of us.
@CuttinInIdaho3 ай бұрын
I had about $7k back when I heard about bitcoin...and it was $40 bucks or practically free if you mined it. I thought I should buy 100 and sit on them.... then I looked into it and realized it was backed by nothing but a notion. Now I regret it too.
@Bayoubebe3 ай бұрын
My husband traded off my dodge coin a few years before it hit its spike, it would have been $750k worth 😂 gotta laugh about to keep from crying.
@dudeseriously793 ай бұрын
People live in paradigms and when a paradigm is challenged cognitive dissonance kicks in to maintain that paradigm. When cognitive dissonance starts to die, a schism begins to take shape and it's there that the fork in the road is noticed.
@Bayoubebe3 ай бұрын
It’s lonely out here though, not many to relate to
@johnsjourney49782 ай бұрын
I had existential crisis at the age we understand that human die!
@alexanderstevens1452 ай бұрын
The part about your daughter made me sad bro damn
@therealdoomguy-r2e3 ай бұрын
"Accumulation of wealth at one pole is at the same time accumulation of misery, agony of toil, slavery, ignorance, brutality, mental degradation, at the opposite pole," Marx wrote.
@ronfroehlich46973 ай бұрын
That quote is the sentiment of a deeply lazy person who strongly hated work. Communism and socialism have caused a million times more agony of toil, slavery, ignorance, brutality, and mental degradation than anything in the history of man.
@therealdoomguy-r2e3 ай бұрын
@@ronfroehlich4697 Capitalist society is a slave society, there is no relationship between how hard someone works and what they are paid, and not to mention the laws are written by big business, aka america is a lawless nation run my a kleptocratic business community. If a real free market existed, everyone would have the right to print currency so they could hold big business accountable, you're not going to hold a giant mega corporation accountable with infinity money accountable, just see the bailouts of the big banks in 2008.
@drbennyboombatz91953 ай бұрын
Bought an ipod from the antique store! Wow
@rosmer00Ай бұрын
"information destroys meaning" leave yourself space for wonder.