Feeling

[@Pengicitis]

not really sure how to put it into words, but i'm glad i found this video.

[@teamof2]

hi pengicitis

[@newgamesrobloxYT]

hi

[@우제인-p7l]

Hi

[@user_hat]

h uphill

[@TheRealFlenuan]

That's how you put it into words

[@TheWorldPillow]

Yeah. This video is not only truthful, but extremely helpful. It isn't the surface-level positive advice that most people give, but instead a deeper truth that acknowledges the bad and teaches us how to live. So Mattias, thank you. You helped me climb out of a hole that I didn't fully even realize I was in, and with every watching of this video, I've found that I have felt better and better, and more and more like myself. More human, more feeling, and more like someone I am happy to be. I still have a long way to go, as I imagine we all do, but I am so grateful that you fearlessly posted this video, and made a difference in so many people's lives with your words and skills. I am so grateful that I found this. Thank you.

[@shlimon7667]

Yeah same dude. I still come back to this video every now and then, it’s a great reminder and it honestly helps on a deep level.

[@young_cheeseburger]

This really hit home for me...

[@glaxglax4741]

DesmondDoes just put your grasses on

[@ghostphobic]

Same, idk how to explain it either

[@Alex53296]

Same

[@Katiegx12]

Too bad that moment was ruined with the black tampon comment.

[@briannunyas8361]

same

[@eeiskindamusical.7091]

When I finally broke away from my abusive home with my "dad" for a year, I couldn't feel shit. I could feel, but when it came to thinking about all the bad things that happened, I didn't cry, I understood how horrible it was, but it was hard to accept it. Hard to accept that I wasn't living there anymore. Hard to be happy. Eventually, I started feeling it, first as anger, then as sadness. A drowning sense of remorse. But I'm winning. I accept what happened and that it was terrible, and I don't care as much, I'm not as bitter, I care a lot but it's not as painful anymore. I realized that I didn't need to be afraid anymore.

[@aloeveil]

damn

[@cloudyxindomie5064]

@@aloeveil that's all i could say to this comment, dang.

[@chieludz]

I haven't distance mtself from my neglectful father and my mom is probably just pretending to be happy.Mostly all of the people in this house,but Im trying and im happy for you

[@eveleene3613]

This. Its hard. You think you're getting better for not being affected anymore. Then a year passes by. And another. First you get sad, then the anger comes. Then everything all at once. Each year, its like the feelings are getting worse. Its like I borrowed time from future me and now Im just paying back the dept. The trauma is finally catching up to me. Its fucking rough. Barely survived it. I feel like Im still there sometimes, but at least now I know myself more. Like I actually have an image of myself.

[@FatalNoogie]

I want to make a shirt that says “CONSUMING SUSTENANCE IS FOR IDIOTS”

[@alvarvonhofsten5679]

Do it

[@ashleym.7233]

I'm gonna draw a pic with a shirt like that I think

[@delightfulrainclouds6394]

FatalNoogie I’d buy it

[@mileslol8457]

@ariannasv22 anorexia

[@trosiss]

I was the 1000th like

[@grimms8783]

This video was really interesting because I had this phase in my life when I was actually quite young, because I was in a state of just going to school, coming home, sitting around, sleeping and repeating it over and over. I had been bullied before for a while and was confused on what exactly I wanted to do in the future and was unsure. Because of the bullying I just tried to ignore and cancel it out. That's what my parents always told me to do, ignore it. So I did. But it just became worse where I not only ignored the bullying but I began to ignore any feeling. I stopped feeling happy, excited or driven about various things. I just did things because I either had to or to prevent myself being absolutely mind numbingly bored. I'd sit in the kitchen for hours combining drinks just to see what'd happen. I'd leave sweets and foods in various liquids and just watch them out of curiosity. I even sat and watched the black and white static on a screen for several hours once. During all of this I just didn't feel anything. It was until I met somebody who felt different. She was completely different from anybody else I knew. She never judged me or looked down on me she was just nice. She genuinely wanted to know how I was, she cared and at first we just talked for maybe an hour at most, then over time it became several hours, until I wanted to spend the whole day with her because for the first time in years she actually made me FEEL something. It felt almost like some kind of angel had came down from heaven and pulled me out of my pit back into the light. Because of her I started feeling happy again, I started taking notice of the world around me, I started doing things from interest and not just boredom. My work improved again, I reconnected with people I knew in person. So many things changed. It's been almost 4 years since that happened and I'm still in touch with her, to this day I still occasionally thank her for what she did. Because if she didn't show up I still might be in the same state to this day and may have missed so many of the things I've experienced.

[@darren561]

@@boredishfish2717 oof

[@chieludz]

@@boredishfish2717 hey bro it might've been 8 months but whats wrong?

[@boredishfish2717]

@@chieludz hi... thank you for caring. um... I'm bad at words and idk I never really tell anyone about myself but thank you I'm sorry. idk why I wrote that comment I'll probably delete it but um I don't think I'll share my life story thank you for caring :) I'm doing a bit better now

[@chieludz]

@@boredishfish2717 oh thats totally fine,I guess I was just checkin up if you're good cause I could probably relate to what you're comment was so thats great to hear ^^

[@amaretto534]

i have someone similar in my life but in a different context. i used to see life a certain way and i just could go with it but i wasn’t satisfied at all and i kinda didn’t know why. like if no one around me could really understand those deep thoughts i had and i needed to suppress them. until i started talking again to and old friend i knew from elementary school. it was a revelation. to know that someone could truly understand everything with ease and also give me different things to think of. after some months he started to become someone incredibly precious for me and it was reciprocated. i didn’t know how happy and satisfied a conversation could make me. maybe he knows me better that anyone else, that closeness i felt even though we’ve barely seen each other this year. i like the person i am today so much more because of his influence. his way to see the world and how alike we are in certain things, apart from banalities.

[@feeshKO]

I was legitimately just scrolling through my subscriptions and feed to find anything to distract myself because of these exact reasons. Having too much time on your hands can cause this feeling too, the semester breaks can be rough

[@nazmulkabir3774]

THIS

[@andandampersand8202]

Well now I feel less special about doing LITERALLY THE SAME THING

[@sognarhs2717]

Same

[@bd8413]

This happens to me alot too. Like on a weekend or a school break if I spend a day without leaving the house, I feel unacompalished and like I've wasted the day, just leaving a lingering feeling of numbness or sadness. It's good to know I'm not the only one who feels like this sometimes.

[@anxiety_disaster]

Not many people I know understand why I dont like long breaks sometimes. They see it as a miracle and blessing, but I usually wind up sitting at home doing nothing, and I feel horrible and lonely. I'd rather be at school and stimulated in some way, than be at home doing nothing but thinking about everything I try not to

[@k0baias292]

That bruh moment where it hits too close to home... I'm not crying, shut up.

[@smiledogjgp]

Hey, you are allowed to feel. Crying is just a facet of expression, it is a catharsis, a release of emotion when it becomes overwhelming. I know this is a year later, but, it is important to be said! So even if you were crying, I think that would be a good thing. I think you would be feeling again.

[@anteater9408]

Bruh

[@beetle7710]

Me

[@psychedelicorange4633]

cry , my friend!

[@Awesomepedia]

This is a better version of Inside Out.

[@TrainerGre3n]

Hehehe

[@helgatoterbaum]

yeah except inside out took 175M $ and absolutely cliche visuals, plot and characters design, while this video has a deeper message and original animation..

[@aungoftheoo8899]

Olga Gitina no need to shit on inside out. It was a great movie and it appealed to younger audiences about a deeper topic in an engaging way. This video, as great and concise as it may be, I doubt millions of kids will flock to see this. I’m not discrediting this video for its value I’m just saying this is why the inside out has that budget so don’t shit on them

[@klutz3955]

Idk how you could compare the two lol therye barely the same

[@QueenFondue]

Both this video and Inside Out are valuable as pieces of art.

[@ironbarsjack7977]

I think I’m one of the few people in my generation that has a true absence of apathy. It makes me really sad because everyone around me lacks so much empathy and it’s hard for me to understand why anyone would ever want to “not feel.” It’s incredibly difficult to make real friends with people who seem like they just don’t care or can’t find joy in anything. I even get made fun of a lot because I enjoy all of the little things so much. All I want to do is enjoy life together with other humans and be able to express and share my feelings with them be it good or bad because sometimes it’s just good to relate and have a real human connection.

[@starrynight1165]

not wanting to feel anything is a defense mechanism, as harmful as it is. keep being you, keep enjoying the little things. its healthy and anyone who makes fun of you for it isnt a great person to be around.

[@mejorge420]

this is so important, yet so hard to understand. its a complex and abstract topic, but im glad you tried to put it like this, great video

[@potatodude3125]

It was clear 4 me

[@shimy1901]

@@potatodude3125 same for me...

[@TheWorldPillow]

I have to come back and thank you for this. I just saw my past comment again, but uh... well, I'll say something again here and now. I have to thank you for this video, because I found it when I was in the pits of my depression. It wasn't wild and dark and edgy like some stories or movies depict, but like this: like an emptiness that pervades you, until you can't see what's up and down, and you feel like you're left without a guide, directionless, because you don't /want/ for anything, or feel anything in particular. I didn't understand it at all. After watching this, this idea, of emotions being like guides in life, it touched me and ended up becoming one of my core guides and beliefs when building myself back up to myself. It was by no means the only thing, but, it was maybe like the keystone arch that got me rolling on the right path with the right idea in mind. Now I'm definitely happier and have more guides and emotions. I almost even know where I'm going to go in life! and haha, that's quite a good thing. So thank you again for this; I saw this in the thumbnail today after watching some of your other videos and was touched, and wanted to see it again to see how far I've come compared to my past self. I'm happy to say that now things are good. So thanks again. :)

[@justwow768]

This video makes me feel feelings I cannot explain

[@LoralieM]

I agree

[@devoniandevotee9494]

this video makes me understand that i cannot explain feelings

[@mr.fizzle6318]

Then maybe you don't understand them enough.

[@steve_exp]

The feelings I feel are relief, acceptance, and hope. May you be feeling the same way?

[@EmpressSketch]

I almost cried. Made me tear a lil bit

[@pinkdragonliver]

One of my favorite lyrics goes, "life's gonna hurt but it's meant to be felt"

[@dr.caracascody5455]

if you don’t mind me asking, where is that phrase from? I think I’ve heard it before but I’m not sure if I have

[@pinkdragonliver]

@@dr.caracascody5455 it's called Break the Shell by India.Arie!

[@dr.caracascody5455]

@@pinkdragonliver Ok, thanks! I’ll go give it a listen .w.

[@shrimplord276]

god this came out at the right time.

[@olivercarlington3384]

Hope you're ok!

[@luiza2597]

@@olivercarlington3384 oh hey there nice profile picture

[@nellieb6585]

"Positive or negative it is suppressed." 🔵 I am in this photo and I don't like it

[@cruelcimmcia859]

I’m in this and I don’t have any strong feelings about it.

[@freshbread4039]

SAME

[@imbored7579]

when i feel anything i just go bruh

[@hometown4791]

FR

[@flootah]

thank you for the personal attack honestly thank you though, this is a feeling that ive been unable to put into words before.

[@briannunyas8361]

i feel the same way it was a confusing feeling to me and ive been lost for a long time but this just helped me

[@sashaesb]

Same haha

[@elizabethmartin3831]

I don't know why but... This is exactly what I needed right now. I've been having a hard time at school because of quarantine and my parents and just the fact that I'm a very procrastinator kind of person. but I just recently had a mental breakdown while watching the video and this is literally exactly what I needed. Gave me hope that my mental breakdowns panic attacks and crying and sadness and everything wasn't going to be permanent and that I was doing it for a reason and that I shouldn't give up just because I probably wasn't going to college because of the horrible grades I have. Thanks dude I owe you a million

[@seizureiswierd]

I've been going through a similar problem it's even worse because I have advanced courses, just try do get the work done I promise you it will pay off in the long run

[@archie6769]

Goddamnit. Are you spying on my mind?

[@kauekairony990]

Such is psychology, such is psychology...

[@Phychologik]

@Marios Bairaktarhs no u

[@The.Queen.Cat.]

"Sometimes we experience something in our youth that made us feel really bad" You see I was born at an incredibly young age

[@christianraxo7535]

Thanks black tampon

[@eckstravirgine9083]

HAHAHA

[@citrus4419]

OMG AHAHAHAH

[@aiiiia9971]

LOL xD wtf kksksks

[@Alisha-qt5rm]

Haha XD

[@stalewater1518]

Emotional tampon

[@mslightbulb]

I’m not apathic, I just have learned to contain my emotions by people teaching me to “always smile and be happy”, if you defend yourself all you will get in return will be the same or the double of the punishment they recieve, crying doesn’t help anything and feeling sad or angry isn’t allowed. So I suppress them, I still feel them until everything ends up into a big ball of negative feelings and I end up crying like a fountain for nothing. People usually tell me what to be, but they can’t never decide, you should be more passive, you should be more aggressive, you are to crazy, you are boring, you are weird, you are bland. I really love hearing people talking about their feelings, things that happened to them, but I just decide to hide myself, telling them small fragments of unimportant things, because when I tell them they start crying or use it to make me cry.

[@theairisamagician830]

are you better now? I really hope that you’re doing ok. I usuallly break down a lot and I get punished for breaking down. I hope you’re better.

[@tiredko-hi-]

Yeah I can relate. I know it has been 2 years, so maybe you've already found an answer. But if you haven't, be careful with going to far though. After time you begin to distance yourself from your emotions instead of bottling them up. That'll make you feel truly empty and tear at your weak heart. Have alone time were you are yourself. Or be with someone you can truly trust. Doesn't matter how insignificant and meaningless it seems, that small outlet is a life saver.

[@cavemann_]

I am unable to express how much support your videos gave me. All I can say is: Thank you.

[@brunop.8745]

Small steps

[@jikiv694]

I've been struggling a lot with this over the past year. Every time I made progress, I would get overwhelmed the instant I stopped feeling any strong emotion that I would revert back to being totally depressed. It wasn't a miracle solution, but I embraced that fear, let myself experience it fully, let myself run back to bed at 2 in the afternoon to weep into my pillow or throw something around or punch something that I knew wouldn't cause serious damage. Instead of giving in to the fear, I started actually feeling better and began to feel at peace when I was merely content.

[@thelastcube.]

While not absolute apathy, I was doing the same stuff. Scrolling through videos, putting them in specific playlists to watch later then scrolling more, just trying to slack off from everything whether that's good or bad or my Todo list. I acknowledge that I try so much to moderate myself instead of actually living the moments, it's a hard habit to get rid off but I will, slowly. Thanks for the reminder, I still have about 10 hours in my day left, I'll make sure not to slack off

[@isaiasmedina8447]

How are you doing now?

[@thelastcube.]

​@@isaiasmedina8447 Heyy, I'm doing well now :)

[@theairisamagician830]

@@thelastcube. congratulations :)

[@JatPhenshllem]

@@thelastcube. You still cool?

[@thelastcube.]

@@JatPhenshllem yess, the habit of endlessly scrolling & watching youtube videos mindlessly has been replaced with reading for leisure. I don't shy away from emotions anymore, that's a big plus. And hey, thanks for checking :D

[@doodlebug6641]

Theres a lot of jokes in the comments but I would like to put something serious here, although this video is a bit old and I don't expect anyone to see it. I think I like the idea of no one seeing this tbh. This is the first thing I've found that has helped me feel more stable now than I have in a long awhile. I've wondered why I don't feel much for a awhile now, but this explained a lot of it perfectly. Its nice to know you're not alone, and this video, even if I found it very late, has helped me understand and accept a lot about myself that I haven't been able to in years. I found your channel a few months back and never thought to go through your older content. I'm glad I did though. I'm at a point in my life where I can finally take steps to improve myself, and this small video has given me a push that I really needed to do that. So thank you for making this. I'm sure I'm not the only person that this video has helped.

[@lemon_box]

I feel too many things and nothing at all at the same time. Sometimes the smallest things make me feel something on a really big level, and sometimes I just don’t care about anyone or anything including myself. And then I don’t know what to feel because I can’t tell if what I’m feeling is correct. If I’m allowed to be upset over certain things. It feels like I’ve lost control over my emotions. And sometimes they don’t even exist ._.

[@hidinginyourcloset]

I feel the exact same way with myself. It's like that one art piece *Relativity* by M.C. Escher.

[@lanchimai]

I've never related to something this much in my life

[@kathrynh685]

Why is this video so comforting I’ve been listening to it on loop for like 30 minutes

[@MadAliceInWonderland]

Dude, I totally understand the feeling. I was apathetic for a long while, and I'm just starting to crawl my way out of it. This video was a nice reminder though that I'm not alone in this. So thanks

[@danieldutoit2697]

I know that feel bro

[@sniparsking5972]

How do you do it? I've been stuck for a couple of years

[@spudragaming8374]

​@@sniparsking5972 Same, and at night I remember that I've wasted so much time on basically nothing. I usually filled up my time with gaming, and at one moment at night, I put a few reminders on the Next Sunday that the next Monday until Friday I would NOT play games at all and try to start drawing instead. After my day at college I got home, and would lay down on my bed for a while, and listen to music/watch a few videos. 3 hours or so later I got myself up to actually start drawing a fairly simple thing, but for me as a newbie, It would be a nice practice and us up some time. I REALLY enjoyed drawing, but the next day it was again difficuly AF to start. At day 3 a friend of mine who draws told me that it also helps to listen to Podcasts (on spotify for example) which helped me with having some fun background noise/entertainment. Although the moments that I was drawing was fun, I had also quite a few moments that I would lay on my bed for a few hours feeling really sad and not motivated to do anything. The Friday, in the evening I would start gaming again, and now it's 1,5 weeks past and I'm in the same routine again, but I will do it again next week or the week after that (got some very important tests coming up for my IT study) It's is so difficult, and I'm not a professional, but I think you need the following: 1. Set a specific moment when you start and end (For the first time at least an end gives you something to look forward to and be proud about) 2. Have (a few) activities that you want to do in your spare time. (But don't forget some brakes, relaxation is also important!) 3. Talk with a (supportive) friend about what you're trying to do. 4. Maybe also have something in the background, some music, or a podcast, but preferably something that can play for at least like an hour. 5. If you try to learn something, it's normal that at first you're not good at it, try to be happy about the progress that you DO make, or at least that you're TRYING. 6. Try to have fun, if you don't, maybe try another activity This is just a few tips that I think are nice to have from my 5 days experience (:

[@MadAliceInWonderland]

@@sniparsking5972 I guess cuz I found people who motivate me. Or, one person really. Not sure if that helps at all for you but it did for me. And I don't mean to just pick a person and go with it, because eventually, that one person will find you. Whether it be a friend or a partner or both. It may take a while as it did for me though. Just make sure to be on the lookout, and stop yourself from automatically pushing people away.

[@taqi8675]

This is Ted ed quality right here

[@jarrodwalker997]

You described my anxiety, depression, apathy, and trauma perfectly.

[@aneoipasam3657]

Same here

[@StanTheBlueYoshi69]

how do u have apathy and depression don't those two concepts contradict each other

[@samuelshaw8856]

@@StanTheBlueYoshi69 Depression isn't always feeling sad- or at least people think it is, its often a lack of feeling similar to apathy, with a much lower baseline standard, you could find out what a baseline is here: www.margimattersbrisbanepsychologist.com/2019/02/07/emotional-baseline/ apathy also isn't necessarily always there- it can come and go, that is how it is for my case anyways, as for anxiety, fear is considered an emotion, but it also triggers fight and flight responses so its confusing and difficult to actually define it as an emotion.

[@samuelshaw8856]

@@FlSCHL I mean you could say that, but on the other hand you could also say that apathy wouldn't exist? I assume it's more of a either/and/or kind of situation, I don't really know the terminology all too well, but I'm just looking at what they are and their similarities, it's like you can be depressed and happy at the same time, you can feel apathetic for a while then go back to just feeling sad, it's not necessarily all the time, but apathy, tends to remove any feeling at all, so if you were completely apathetic yeah, I guess you wouldn't be depressed, it's confusing tbh

[@ehe8491]

@@FlSCHL after 9 moths i answer. I'm not a English native speaker ;; i'm going to have mistakes. The thing here is, I'm someone who is suffering from depression, anxiety and being apathy. When anxiety comes my head hurts a lot and for a moment i feel really bad, that strange fear is just there, and i have the physical symthoms that anxiety makes you have but at the same time you don't feel a lot. My apathy usually comes after longs periods of depression, I haven't recieve mental care, but I remember being depressed like for four moths, it was horrible, and then apathy cames make it worst. Feeling apathy is regret a lot of things and asking yourself why don't you feel anything for things you should? Anyways. If you want to know more do some research 💜 it's really helpfull for understanding others and maybe help them.

[@Catsgirl32]

Dammit you made me cry. This is pretty much exactly what I feel, nothing. I just distract myself by overindulging in things that don't even make me happy. But it's hard to make those little steps back to feeling. I really want to, but it's just so hard. It makes me feel sad when I realise I'm not feeling as much as I would like to, so then I turn off my feelings again to avoid the sadness. Oof this just really explained well what I feel (well, actually what I don't feel) and it really helps me to know that there are (probably many) other people struggling with the same thing. Thank you. ❤

[@LeSpeederus]

This makes me feel neutral

[@supercomputer0448]

I have no strong feelings one way or the other

[@sofiasmania9383]

I think

[@kasschoong3979]

wow seems like youtube had spying on me and had enough of me being in blank state anymore

[@elilun4853]

Another video from one of the most creativist youtubers ever

[@cavemann_]

Agreed here. This guy is really exceptional. Not only can he capture our hearts, he can also push us forward ^^

[@parfait0507]

creativist...is that a word?

[@elilun4853]

@@parfait0507 im honestly not even sure

[@Alex-fc8xn]

From when I was 10 until about 12 or 13 I didnt feel any emotion at all. I dont know how or why it started, I just realized it one day when something happened that should have made me sad and I didnt react at all. My emotions came back when a friend pointed out I had a crush on someone and when I realized I felt that one emotion, they all came crashing back. But I lost the ability to differentiate between them and after almost 10 years I'm still figuring out what names to put to what feelings some days. The worst of it was when everything I had suppressed for years hit overnight and I went from robotic straight to intensely depressed and in so much emotional pain that it physically hurt. If you can work your way to healthy emotions slowly it's best you do, because everything at once is far too much for anyone to handle

[@theairisamagician830]

your comment makes me feel something that I have no idea what it’s called

[@Alex-fc8xn]

@@theairisamagician830 validated? Feeling like you relate? Sad?

[@theairisamagician830]

I do not know what it is but it’s not a good emotion

[@fat-hat]

I'm really feeling it.

[@maacreat]

This is the monado power

[@heylosersaykidbackwards9021]

Jump Slash!

[@prismthegoddess]

I'm not feeling it It's my right middle finger i can't feel with it but I can feel it it is cold

[@huskymirai5824]

@@heylosersaykidbackwards9021 back slash

[@keeg_it]

im feelin like a total barnacle head!!

[@gracebarber4496]

honestly couldn’t have said my daily problem better. i’m so glad i got my biggest insecurity explained into one video. It shows me that specific problems or flaws arent weird or abnormal. A Lot of people experience them too. Addressing these things helps put them into light. To show that this is okay to experience.

[@sup8668]

I don’t know if I have apathy but I don’t feel happy or sad, my laughs aren’t genuine but I’m not depressed or anything, I don’t have a drive to do much at all, I don’t feel much emotion but I do get sad sometimes over things but I can’t get genuinely happy? A few months back I was actually really happy of how my state of “feelings” were and I was actually happy for a few months. But now I just don’t feel much happiness..

[@kherrypie4586]

@Gracie Strunk yeah it sound like that

[@rainforestsarecool]

I'm 2 years late but I'm glad this is on my recommended

[@Lopsider]

The little main character dude looks like Pun-pun.

[@uchoangnguyen3934]

Thanks Now all those horrible memories about that manga are coming back to me

[@nickanthropocene6502]

_Dear God, dear God, tinkle tinkle hoy_

[@hapyness]

just start vibing to things, everything will get better.

[@PixPunxel]

This is very true and I have proof. I was taking anti-anxiety medicine, very potent antidepressant. Not because I was depressive, but because it helped with pain related issues. This drug is not making you feel better or worse. It simply makes everything feel the same. So you are never neither happy or sad. You become literally emotionless. So what happened. An art project I was working on for a long time. I simply could not continue it. I failed to feel "excited" about it. The passion was gone totally. Creativity as well. I really wanted to work on it. But it was suddenly going nowhere. So there it is. Lack of feeling, emotions is death to being what you are as a creative person.

[@shosplecolupis8794]

its been two years. i'm living, i'm working, i'm making friends, i'm letting myself feel. this really helped me organize, understand, and work with my thoughts. thank you.

[@anxelavalverde6563]

I needed I video like this wow. I've being dealing with emotion instability for about 4 years now and I didn't know it, the only thing that I knew is that emotions we're bad because when a felt, it was to much emotion to handle and I ended up exploding. So I started to feel nothing, to feel everything was unreal and to lose every hope I ever had to even take choices. With time it got worse to a point where I really didn't know if a was feeling something or it was just another ilusión created in my head, I started to fake feeling because I wasn't the same as others and they looked at me disgusted. I was really really confused by my reflections in the mirrors. Luckily I got the help that I needed in time, because I really felt like I was dreaming, and that's not good. It's been like 7 months since a got the help and now I know that even if negativity turns me into a mess happiness can help me, so I hold up into this emotions since then, even if they are hard to hold on to and they will sometimes go away, I know they are there and that I can trust them

[@briannunyas8361]

this just explained an emotion I've been feeling for a while, I've felt the same way it was a confusing feeling to me and I've been lost for a long time but this just helped me, i really mean this from the bottom of my heart, thank you

[@cerenbelayaskala542]

oh i do that

[@citrus4419]

Relatable mood

[@aiiiia9971]

Ikr

[@juniperberryyyy]

Same

[@Ali-lh1br]

Dude this hit home tho

[@Yeeguss]

This really hits close to home, I have hard time really caring about anything at all.

[@salixbaby]

Please make sure you're not writing this to justify your feelings. And even if you do, merely realising that and working against it is a sign of progress.

[@Yeeguss]

NoobWithAFez I have been making an effort recently to change it. I hang out and talk with friends more, I also try talk about what I like/dislike with family and friends. It’s still hard, but I try.

[@velksa6835]

Oh god why is this literally me that isn’t a good thing.

[@ORLY911]

Ive been unable to really do anything with art lately and i think you nailed why. I haven't really felt much lately when I need to.

[@Phychologik]

This teaches me nothing on it's own. But it does a good job at reviewing and legitimizing everything that I have randomly thought about this week. Thanks for this.

[@Antipius]

Emotional Apathy is such a deep well to crawl out of... Took me a long long time... :( Thank you so much for this video, it reminded me of the joys and sorrows of my past, upon which I can look very fondly!

[@kallistaaldridge2534]

Sometimes during moments when I may be embarrassed or scared, I can block out my emotions temporarily and not be embarrassed or scared at all. I try to limit myself on doing this because it’s not going to last forever. It only lasts for the moment

[@_bibi_s]

i think.... i think i may be in this process. by my experiences, friends help a lot. this year i actually bonded with some people, and in months these people knew more about me than people i've known for years. i still few directionless lots of days, but i'm glad i've put myself out there, and it's just like you've said: i only realized how apathetic and lonely i was, when something struck me so hard that i couldn't suppress it, and i felt sad, deeply, deeply sad, and lonely.

[@napoh.5888]

Yeah, I’ve felt *empty* before. Like some type of husk, just a vessel to get me to place to place. I felt like I didn’t have a soul, I guess. “No point in doing anything if I’m just going to die and float in eternal darkness, eternal emptiness forever and ever. There’s no point in living. Existence is meaningless.” Sometimes, I’d come up with different ways to get a positive or negative reaction from myself, weather that be tripping or looking at something cute, like a cat, I guess. Lol? Sounds “edgy”. I don’t know if I’ve moved on from thinking like that, not caring, not feeling anything. Sometimes I think about what I thought, and said back then. Sometimes I think “Was I right? No, impossible.” Is it though? Do I miss being a husk?

[@MADGuy248]

It’s really essential to have this attitude towards our feelings, especially when receiving and accepting criticisms. Feeling and emotions are what we have evolved for survival. We should make good use of it instead of dismissing or overusing them. Thanks for your views and advice again, Matthias.

[@spiritdorkrai5741]

we evolved feelings and emotions as an extension of pain, to tell us whether doing x is good or bad. it means we dont overwork ourselves or kill mental health. it also makes us care more for babies and family and lust, all of which helped us survive, not the entire species. the cost of the positives is trying to work as least as possible (for most people) and be as happy as can be. getting rid of feelings also results in 0 motivation, which is terrible. only way to get rid of feelings and be fine is to also remove motivation and become robot-like.

[@Nacho-ms2pw]

@@spiritdorkrai5741 peepeepoopoo

[@FusionGamesful]

I'm so glad I saw this because I've been dealing with apathy for most of my life and I never knew it. I'd play video games and watch KZbin the main purpose of distracting myself, Video games used to be my favorite hobby but then it became my only hobby and I wouldn't let myself enjoy the other things I loved doing. Talking to people was almost impossible for me because I couldn't connect with people emotionally, I was a husk of my former self. It's not as bad as it used to be but this video helps put things into perspective and you are spot on. Thank you!

[@bakicci]

honestly hit it on the nail, thanks

[@puff7520]

it hurts so much how accurate this, since i’m going through this. i always feel like i need to suppress my feelings because i know that all they bring is more problems than i already have, and the few moments people notice my feelings, they get annoyed. they’re unable to understand why i’m showing feelings. this expresses it in such a way that it’s so easy to recognize. thanks.

[@teacoston]

I don't know how this video found me but I really needed to see all of it. This is exactly me .... and to hear it all described to the T makes me feel what I was trying to understand so badly. Apathy becomes a default so many days and slipping through mood swings or extreme relapses in mental health really wrings my soul numb and unstable. I value the little steps so much, to me it's been a long way toward progress that I actually want. It takes a lot to counter all the negativity/abuse in life some of us grow up with or go through and rebuild positive foundations for the areas of life that need it (like friendship, relationships, family, and self....etc). I hope for the day, whether along my positive journey or at the end when I've grown into who I am fully, to meet people who love me for me. I want to be myself and love the life I live... whatever that may be in my ever changing future. I wish the same to everyone going through this. You deserve to have a life worth living. This video helps so much. It's a positive sign and a push in the right direction. You certainly have my subscription. Thank you

[@EmeraldTri]

I know this comment doesn’t mean much but, this video had done so much for me. When I’ve gotten into a state of stress or confusion about my life this video helped me just that little bit to pull me back. I keep it saved just in case I ever fall back into that just so I have something to help me get back up. It can be hard sometimes. But I just wanted to say, thank you.

[@UserName-hr5wb]

i've gone through this. still in the recovery process this video helped me visualize it better Thank you so much.

[@TheAwesomeGamer]

I think this video helped me see that I have been improving for the past few months, but not really noticed it. I've been more expressive, complaining (not whining) about things, but also being happy about what my friends say and the actions I take in my day. But not so much that I'm going straight to what makes me happy and ignore the responsibilities that I have. Thanks, I'm glad you made this video.

[@yeet9703]

The main guy looks like punpun from oyasumi punpun

[@KaiSwift]

Yep this pretty much explains everything.

[@yanlok0706]

I'm not sure how to express how grateful I am for your videos. They're so candid and genuinely make me feel and think about things....thanks for tackling this topic in particular

[@itssillysam26]

I'm watching this every year a day before my birthday to remind myself that emotions are okay I'm now on year 3!

[@s.haefke5957]

I'm actually in tears

[@henrycrabs3497]

La but yes she ey.eymsyjwtjwtjwtjq5j1

[@budpalguy]

Sometimes you know you're feeling something, but you don't know what. It's nice that I found a video that explained to me what I was feeling and now I have a name for it. I also now have a way, some advice, on how to stop feeling that. Thank you.

[@iqqkirby9453]

I often think of this video when I'm struggling with feeling it really helps. Thank you

[@StarAndAster]

Been searching a lot online about anhedonia and apathy, which is probably why youtube recommended this to me. I thank you for making it, bringing light to this lack of feeling, this numbness that makes you feel like nothing is worth it and that you're going insane.

[@yyyaaa3928]

This video made me realize i am midway into losing my emotions. Thank you.

[@SirLightfire]

I love the use of details fading in and out to represent the emotional state of the character. Not just the lack of color and shading, but also how the line work becomes simpler and more crude. It's a very nice touch

[@bluepotato1371]

Thinking back on it, I felt like this at one point. Just trudging through the days, not sad, but not happy either. Part of me worried I was a sociopath. There would be videos that made me cry and I put them into to a playlist to prove to myself I could feel things.

[@Smile-cg8st]

Link to the playlist?

[@bluepotato1371]

@@Smile-cg8st It's changed a lot since then, sorry

[@Smile-cg8st]

@@bluepotato1371 damn, I’m just curious to see what types of videos you used to watch since I was definitely like that at some point, wish I had that idea when I felt the way you did. Any specific videos that come to mind or would you prefer not to share?

[@bluepotato1371]

@@Smile-cg8st I still have a couple, they're kinda weird. Some made me cry, others gave me this pang in my stomach, I thing it was fear? kzbin.info/www/bejne/lZnMmniaj9V5iqs kzbin.info/www/bejne/i6eze5SfgZprnck kzbin.info/www/bejne/m6W3l6RupsSSnNk kzbin.info/www/bejne/pYLZmWOao6eNick enjoy

[@ryliedillman7391]

How dare this pop up on my youtube recommendations exactly when I needed to hear this and make me feel better about the current state of my life and the direction I've been wanting it to go in

[@Tuariq1]

This video started lots of questions in myself. Thank you for releasing it. I love the visual representation of it too

[@maxturtle7787]

This is the only KZbin video I have bookmarked on my computer

[@zamr676]

Even if they are bad emotions it makes You feel alive.

[@youi6762]

This hit the nail on the head for what I’m going through right now

[@gubblebubble3976]

This popped up on my feed at a perfect time. Thank you.

[@theairisamagician830]

Are you still going good? (Please say yes)

[@gubblebubble3976]

@@theairisamagician830 hahahaha! i actually am! honestly right now is going very well, i feel it’s because i have finally taught myself how to feel everything in the way this video explains. :)) it’s become second nature for me and it was rlly nice coming back to this video 2 years later, so thanks for replying to my comment LOL!

[@gubblebubble3976]

@@theairisamagician830 are you still going good??

[@theairisamagician830]

@@gubblebubble3976 yeah I’m ok I guess :) my cat is eating her food rn lol

[@nightmare-nightmarenightma1147]

This actually taught me something so basic that I feel like I should have learned as a child. Not as a 23 year old man lmao. It's okay to feel what you feel. If you feel bad do something about it, dont just push it down and hide it

[@benjaminphillips4514]

Sweet mother of God, I tried google, I tried psychology websites, I even got a counselor and I couldn't figure it out. and this cartoon explained it to me in like two minutes. thank you

[@tri-sapien6487]

What makes a video a masterpiece? A masterpiece to me is something that can affect me no matter what mood I'm in, or one that can completely change my mood. It may even be something that changes the way I think. Not all masterpieces are the best videos in the world, and they don't have to be. But this video? It's one of the best.

[@guillermobolasdemadera345]

Lovely punpun vibes. Right in the feels. Keep the good work man.

[@Waffle045]

I just got out of that hole myself, and you are very correct. Slowly interacting with others and building up emotions is what I've been doing over the past few months. After several years of shutting my emotions in, trying to be hollow, I can finally say I am happy to have emotions. I just recently confessed to the person I loved and we are now in a happy relationship, my days seem brighter, and I find myself smiling much more often..

[@JD.ThatGuy]

“Don’t get addicted to something that will distract you.” example shown: video games. Me:😑

[@cutehamster7676]

It is a good example. I, myself have a problem with getting too caught up in what I'm doing in games instead of actually focusing on more important things.

[@inamedmycarjiminsothatican8711]

but what if...........the things that distracts me are the only things that make me FEEL happy, then........??

[@thegrandtemslayr1384]

@@inamedmycarjiminsothatican8711 then explore! If only one thing makes you happy, maybe try a sub-set of that thing! Like if you play games, try a different genre for once, like a city simulator, or a strategy game.

[@wolfpuppers]

I've had this problem of not feeling anything for a few years because before that i had many years of only feeling bad feelings. It felt good to not feel bad for a while, but eventually I started to question what i'm doing with my life, I didn't have any dreams or goals I wanted to work towards. Everything just felt empty and I didn't want to do anything. Now I'd say since a year or so, I noticed that feelings are coming back, it's not a 100% back. But I'm starting to feel passion and dreams again. Things I'd like to achieve in life. It feels so good to feel.

[@Jathcas]

Reach those achievements, don´t stop following your dreams or passions.

[@skyqueen2035]

"I don't believe I agreed to be interviewed"

[@Marcelinho3Dplus]

This made me remember of the past ... the time when I would play videogames just to escape from reality and to become completely disattached from my fellings because I couldn't feel anything else than bad ... This video made me happy about my growth as a person as to when I learned that I can feel good just like others ...

[@aiiiia9971]

This is exactly what I've been working on! I never realized how emotional I was, I'm like, really emotional, and not even over the "right" things either xD And that hurts me sometimes or embarasses me, it's intimidating to care about what's going on, even to love. It's scary so in the past I have sometimes caught myself running away from problems by going blank or cold about what was upsetting me. It's not time for that anymore, but some of the habits linger. Lately I've made a choice to notice myself doing that and stop it. I want to be ok with feeling ways. I want to feel ways. I even like to feel ways. So that's what I plan to do. I have my faith, convictions, interests, morals, and people I care about, heck, who care about me. So I'm alright. I hope you are alright too. :) I want you to be. I can feel that way if I want to. Edit: I just wanted to add that this video is beautifully and wonderfully made.

[@mafazahwas3948]

That last sentence: and slowly you start to remember “oh this is what i wanted from life” This last sentence really made me tear up because I’m at that stage of healing where I’m starting to remember that this is what i wanted, i started to feel passionate again about the things i always enjoyed and wanted to do, it feels like coming back to your old house and finding that everything is the same (in a good way). This video is really amazing and very accurate i think many people can relate, thank you really!

[@lakewoodbball]

It's funny, I do this, but still have the thoughts of why should I should be burdened to live so that other people don't feel sad when I'm gone. Attitude and feeling can't change depression, only distract you from you immediate thoughts

[@FernTheRobot]

This video just described that feeling I cannot put into words before. I have a very hard time knowing what I feel and finding what I like and enjoy. It feels like I know nothing about myself and that's very confusing. Thank you for pointing this out, easing my fear of changing, and clarifying my doubts. I especially like the line "We're only using our feelings to guide ourselves, to not feel ashamed of what we want or what to achieve or when we fail to get there." From now on, I want to feel more, to do more, and to be myself more, and I will try to do so as best as I could. Thank you again for this video.

[@FernTheRobot]

I forgot to mention how I keep having those thoughts in my head that go "Pursuing things is stupid", "Stop engaging in your life, people will laugh at you", and "It's embarrassing to even be curious about or interested in anything". You know what's the worst part? I actually believed all of that. And you know what's the most terrifying part? I fear that those thoughts didn't come from some apathy ghosts or inner demons, they come from me, my true self, that it is I who genuinely has those thoughts and believe them, that I'm the one who is truly fucked up, that those "Thoughts appear in my mind" are just me, my thought, myself, and I'm lying to myself, escaping the truth. That terrifies me.

[@lemonbot4906]

Mattias, you just take the thoughts in my head and put them into words . Thank you

[@batgh0ul]

I've never felt so called out yet so calm- I'm crying

[@StopVoice]

2:59-3:06 Me when my friends as me what’s wrong

[@soupiedog23]

i’ve been thinking a lot about feeling. i have a lot going on but i’ve only been feeling happy. but that happiness feels unreal. i started listening to some sad music and honestly that’s what got me out of that. it was weird. i didn’t think i was shoving my feelings away or ignoring them. but now that i look at it.. i think i was. anyways this video really helped me a lot. it’s also nice to know other people feel like this. ❤️❤️

[@belltowersubductions5104]

Joke’s on you, as a Child instead of weaponizing my emotions, my Teachers weaponized my occasional lack of emotion and now today I constantly worry about everything because if I cause problems for others through any form of ignorance no matter how insignificant I am bad and I will be punished and now any form of drama causes ptsd attacks and I can’t watch tv.

[@marchiyojoshuatalentsimanj3673]

The character turning blank is some good detail