I met Moser around 2012 in LA. He was sitting on a wall at an intersection by the freeway in Westwood holding up a sign that said he was looking for work and that he was clean and sober. To this day I still dont know why - but I motioned him over and ending up taking him to my house to have him help string Christmas lights up on my roof. I had never before and have never since picked up anyone looking for work but there was something about his face that seemed almost babyish. Plus, this was a long time ago in LA crime years, if that makes any sense. Moser ended up becoming a friend to me and my kids and spent some afternoons and evenings hanging out at our house, sometimes doing odd jobs, sometimes just having a meal with us. He was a 21 year old kid with horribly stinky feet and an old soul. Moser played guitar and sang songs he made up and was just an all around cool and goofy guy. And very smart. When it was time for him to go I would just drive him back to his tent by the freeway. That's where he lived and refused to have it any other way. I loaned him money once and never expected to see it again but after he moved back to PA he sent me a letter with a check included for the exact amount, plus interest. Over the years he would write (never email) and send me copies of his different band's CDs asking me my opinion. He was a really good singer and an exceptional song-writer. He really could have made something of himself because he ABSOLUTELY had the talent. For many years after he went back to PA, I would sometimes drive past a Westside 7-11(he used to call certain 7-11 parking lots his "office") and I'd see some tall scrawny kid with long hair, and puppy dog eyes wearing a backwards baseball cap and I'd think "Well, it looks like Moser's back". I dont know. Maybe I could have done more, maybe I should have done less. Maybe it doesn't really matter because, in the end, people are just people. I miss him. Paula
@gisselmontero23044 ай бұрын
😢wow!!... God bless you
@ktrain-hj6jm4 ай бұрын
This was so moving. Thank you for sharing. 🥺
@Freddybender1234 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing that with all of us!god bless❤
@ME-jg8lo4 ай бұрын
Wow.... I bet it a pretty good soul urself. What an amazing story. It's funny how people we may never see again, stick with us
@gargidwivedi77004 ай бұрын
Is this him? kzbin.info/www/bejne/m6upnIuBeJuhgbssi=vhYUn37Ontv2py0N
@aaronsilfies2 жыл бұрын
I grew up with this man. He was a highly intelligent, extremely talented individual. He played 4 different instruments, played football and was the kindest person you could meet. He literally gave me the shirt off his back when I was in need. He had a lot of choices and he did pursue them for a while until he got bored and went back to the drugs. Its heartbreaking seeing someone so talented choose this path for themselves. Mos, you were loved and we miss you man.
@angiesmanimagic27352 жыл бұрын
Well said my friend.....
@mishariealsaqer8951 Жыл бұрын
I guess you should try to help em if you miss em
@christineknippelberg3975 Жыл бұрын
@@mishariealsaqer8951 by his use of past tense to describe Moser....makes it seem like he has passed? also as a recovering addict no one person can rescue you, you have to want it....clearly Moser is not there yet.
@HailXenu Жыл бұрын
@@mishariealsaqer8951 How? You can’t. The only person that can help them is themselves
@janetyanez-rivera2829 Жыл бұрын
So sad!
@katrinakelly-tg9nb4 ай бұрын
Can you please do a follow up with Moser? He is by far my favorite interview, for how honest he is and I would love to see what he’s up to now.
@crick4622 ай бұрын
I agree a completely honest man id like to know how he is also.
@leetheleo96024 ай бұрын
The way there are people who know him in the comments all saying the same sweet things…this is so heartbreaking.
@anicyb23 күн бұрын
Their comments all look so similar that it's weird. I'm not sure what's up with it and how they all found the video. If they're all real then it looks like the guy's a narcissist, charming and empty inside, that's why he needs drugs
@lindseyjordan17046 ай бұрын
I knew Moser for so long I know his first name. He was always on shit, but, healthy. We used to party in the “riot house” on wood street in Bethlehem. I was one of the low key people. I just ate my triple c’s and drank my alcohol. The shit that happened in that house is a doc on its own. Cris was crude, funny, silly, harmless to me, I was the cool lesbian chick. He went on to front a band, got clean for a while, and idk what happened between 2020 and now (met him in 2012ish) but omg I’m crying. I can’t even express. Seeing a friend like this after wondering what happened to him and his snarky comments on my social media. He’s holding back so much trauma. He comes off as the embodiment of hopeless addiction, but he has passions. He has a heart. And he’s hurting. If anyone sees him let him know I’m trying to reach him. The cool lesbian who met him at the riot house, Lindsey.
@sinead22644 ай бұрын
Hope you find your friend. His interview really touched me ❤
@sthlmnoir4 ай бұрын
The denial & avoidance is strong within this one
@lynnharts774 ай бұрын
@sthlmnoir yeah, sad that he's in so much denial about his childhood.. but drugs will numb you from that realization.
@jacobrheaume13 ай бұрын
TRIPLE C. Now that is something I have not heard in a long time. Old robo head checking in
@AlexFromnicАй бұрын
I think you probably werent nearly as cool as you thought you were.
@kerrimicklos89982 жыл бұрын
This man is not what you see. He was an intelligent, creative, loving soul. He is still in there....he is worthy...he is loved.....I love you....I pray God helps you find your way. I pray for you every day!!
@Freddybender1234 ай бұрын
Amen
@seabassvn21 күн бұрын
“He is worthy”??? Are you saying that the other drug addicts here are not worthy? Odd thing to say for a someone who claims to be religious and who prays to god.
@tenn_42017 күн бұрын
@@seabassvn they literally didnt say anything about any other person… why are u trying to twist it to make it seem like theyre saying other people arent worthy?? theyre just saying he is
@seabassvn16 күн бұрын
@@tenn_420 “he is worthy” implies that other people aren’t. Otherwise why specify that this person, specifically, is worthy? Wouldn’t it be weird if I were to say “Bob deserves to live”? Without mentioning anybody else, it is implied that other people don’t deserve to live. I’m just calling religious morons for that they are: hypocritical pieces of shit.
@GiGi_to_32 жыл бұрын
This is as sad as it gets. Moser is the person that has no rock bottom. It's hard to see any hope or potential for him because he loves drugs more than living. He will go out doing what he loves.
@PM-vv3uc2 жыл бұрын
true. I know that feeling to think that staying sober seems unimaginable because you can't really stand clear life.
@meeks12012 жыл бұрын
I was thinking the same thing, he has no shame or remorse, sad way to live life when there are other wanting and fighting to live
@freener2 жыл бұрын
Find something you love and let it kill you
@avon30642 жыл бұрын
Exactly- no rock bottom. He already seems terminally ill to me...
@bicstic82 жыл бұрын
Find what you love and let it kill you- bukowski. We are all looking for it. Just like there is no such thing as addiction, only things you enjoy doing more than life.
@toryfortin97492 жыл бұрын
This guy is so honest! I don't think I've ever seen such an honest interview. He just loves his drugs.... No glamorous stories, no excuses, no regrets. Wow. This was a great interview, Mark I'm glad you decided to go to Kensington to show the lives outside of skid row.
@Jen_Is_Outside2 жыл бұрын
Watch all of Patrick's interviews. Talk about honesty.
@aliciamari852 жыл бұрын
This poor fella avoided answering anything in depth, but I can see how you'd think he's just honest.
@Guessy2 жыл бұрын
@@aliciamari85 it seemed halfway through the interview he kept his answers short so he could get out of there and get his fix. I agree with Tony there was a level of honesty about accepting that this is his life, and then he started deflecting. My heart breaks watching this video 💔
@TheKiddos772 жыл бұрын
It’s hilarious that people always talk about honesty and drug addicts! Drug addicts are master manipulators and liars and he is only showing you wants he wants you to see. He is far from honest but you are gullible.
@adambrocklehurst42112 жыл бұрын
Not honest in the way you think, honest in so much as he's been completely reduced to his addiction, nothing else matters. It's tragic. He'll die soon.
@kaylamicklos3699 Жыл бұрын
This is my VERY first boyfriend/ex-fiance moving to Northampton... We dated for 2.5 years, started at 15-16y.o... he was such an amazing man and so sweet and kind, very loving, until he started hanging around the wrong crowd.. I tried to beg and plead for him to stop but he didn't listen to anyone... It's such a shame and breaks my heart to see this.. I cried the entire video... I really hope you find your way sweetie and make something of yourself before it's too late... Please cris.. do the right thing, you have so many people that love you ❤️❤️❤️... I pray for you every day and will continue ❤️❤️❤️..
@georgemaxwell49844 ай бұрын
It must be so upsetting for you to see him like this. He seems like a nice guy.
@kaylamicklos36994 ай бұрын
@georgemaxwell4984 yes, you are right.
@itzhak73 ай бұрын
Hope life plays out better for Him.
@Clydekid3 ай бұрын
@@kaylamicklos3699 He seems so intelligent his words are well spoken.
@Clydekid3 ай бұрын
Cris you could be a pholbomist (sp) person who draws labs. I hope something better happens for you.
@selenam.22422 жыл бұрын
This breaks my heart.. he dated my older sister for a while and he was so in love with her.. she was his first love. They were engaged at a young age. During that time they were together him and I developed a brother/sister bond and always had so much fun together, til this day I still call him my big brother. I’m pretty sure we still have each other on FB marked as brother/sister lol. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out. Even though they didn’t work out he still made time to come see me and let me know he was always there for me no matter what.. and to give me my big hug!! He’s a very smart and intelligent man for sure. Anyone who knows him will tell you the same thing. One of the smartest people I know. I wish he never went to California.. but he had big dreams.. Moser, (even though I always called you by your first name) if you see this just know I love you and care about you so much. I just want to come down there and pick you up and try to help you, I know you don’t want it, but I believe you can pull through this and get better if you really wanted to. I love you and miss you so much.. please be careful out there.. Love, Selena ❤️
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@Steef_Lee2 жыл бұрын
It’s this feeling that you don’t necessarily want to die, but you definitely don’t want to live.
@PM-vv3uc2 жыл бұрын
100% true. What a statement.
@leneo17312 жыл бұрын
You just want a damn break. Just for a minute. So you can take a deep breath.
@peety63232 жыл бұрын
Yes, I've been there before.
@PrettyQuee22 жыл бұрын
Yes 🥺
@tjwoosta2 жыл бұрын
Thats the feeling of having no purpose. Life isn't supposed to be a selfish endeavor.
@elenigeorga64672 жыл бұрын
He is the most honest drug addict i have ever watched in many interviews. He doesnt make excuses for himself and wants his lifestyle. He makes me more sad than anyone else i have ever seen
@kevinadams94682 жыл бұрын
The honesty doesn't change the fact that he is sick, and addict, a criminal and a burden on the social service system. Hitler was a vegetarian and loved animals, but it doesn't erase all the other shit.
@AlexFromnicАй бұрын
Nah. These videos are full of honesty. Obviously not all are.
@pouncer9992 жыл бұрын
This is my friend. I've known this man since we were about 6. I haven't seen him or heard from him in 2 years. This is obviously so sad but I love him. Just being able to see him alive and hear his voice, see his movements and habits, the humor in him, makes me smile despite how fucked up this is. If you see this, I love you man. - KY
@danielsylvester37252 жыл бұрын
I can't believe what I'm seeing and where he is right now
@RebootMatrix2 жыл бұрын
@@danielsylvester3725 Yeah it's pretty heart breaking, and there's not much we can do.
@ete6667 Жыл бұрын
@pouncer999 I hear you. An old friend of mine as well. Have any contact for Mos?
@Tierneycristian4 ай бұрын
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
@NetaZjdb4 ай бұрын
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, fentanyl, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
@Caroljoyce-mp8sk4 ай бұрын
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
@VanRyan-bv7du4 ай бұрын
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
@EthanEdward-wx7ut4 ай бұрын
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
@ChristopherEric-fr8im4 ай бұрын
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,
@WhisperingWitchASMR2 жыл бұрын
“Are you afraid of living?” is one of the most poignant, insightful and empathetic questions I have ever heard anyone ask a fellow human - especially since, in reality, no shortage of people out there actually are. Stellar interview as always, Mark. Thank you beyond measure for all that you do and help to bring out from the shadows and into the light of every glowing electronic screen the world over of those who are fortunate enough to be able to view your content. 🙏🏻💗
@travisschaefer5286Ай бұрын
How many people aren’t afraid of living?? In one way or another.
@susanfontaine52142 жыл бұрын
He’s surrendered totally to his addiction. Seems intelligent, well spoken. Sad. Such a loss.
@revfunk88232 жыл бұрын
Who's loss? He's perfectly happy.
@quinnplaysguitar2 жыл бұрын
@@revfunk8823 the loss of his potential.
@revfunk88232 жыл бұрын
@@quinnplaysguitar again. He's more than fine. Other people may feel sorry about a "loss,"....that's on THEM
@quinnplaysguitar2 жыл бұрын
@@revfunk8823 i mean ur right but hes gonna die early by living the life he is. he may not feel there is a loss now but its different when its affecting his lifespan bc of a selfdestructive lifestyle.
@revfunk88232 жыл бұрын
@@quinnplaysguitar again. That's YOUR opinion. Has no effect on his life. He chose this, clearly.
@RyRyVids2 жыл бұрын
I like this guy. Something tells me he won’t live much longer. At least he loved a great life by his own standards.
@wesleyAlan91792 жыл бұрын
Thats the best way we can look at it, I guess..it's sad really
@doloresparra46042 жыл бұрын
So he says
@awesome_comment2 жыл бұрын
Shit standard.
@livingonabudget18902 жыл бұрын
Dude is a low life who injects other people with extremely potent deadly drugs in an unsanitary environment for a living and you like him… you should go set an appointment and meet him
@leneo17312 жыл бұрын
@ Dolores Parra. My thoughts exactly. So he says. There have to be more to him and his story than what he's saying. He could not even come up with one childhood memory. Or he's autistic. Something in the way he answers the questions make me wonder if he's got Asbergers.
@littlems.tries-to-fix-it62702 жыл бұрын
Why did your mom leave? “I dunno, That’s her business” As a mom that breaks my heart
@ashleegarrigan330923 күн бұрын
That one broke me
@BBL_Fam20 күн бұрын
Yes, and about as defensive a response as one can give.
@julielacaze32536 күн бұрын
In my opinion, the actions and inactions of a mother towards her child will stay with a child and shape that child for their entire life.
@LilRed652 жыл бұрын
I was prescribed fentenyl patches for about 4 years. It was when they were just plastic full of jelly so I was cutting them open and eating the jelly. I've had a lifelong struggle with addiction starting at age 9. In 2018 my brother and I overdosed on fentenyl laced heroin and I survived but he didn't. I am now 3 years in recovery. RIP CHRIS 8/4/1972-9/9/2018
@emfie12 жыл бұрын
Rest in Peace Chris. I'm glad you are clean and I wish the best for you.
@LilRed652 жыл бұрын
@@emfie1 thank you my friend 💖 I miss him so much. He was a talented singer/songwriter/musician until the drugs came into the picture. His band was Cruel Twist of Fate... there's however only one of his songs on KZbin "Hearts Will Turn" and I have videos and CDs of him singing and playing guitar 🎸 it seems to comfort me. May God bless you and your loved ones ❤️
@mindrolling242 жыл бұрын
I wish you all the best ❤️
@julz93782 жыл бұрын
please please stay on track. you are doing well now. so sorry you lost your bro. time for you to stay well. keep your brother alive through living your life well for the both of you. he is with you, always. best of luck.. you got this
@LilRed652 жыл бұрын
@@julz9378 thank you my friend
@I-U-E-V2 Жыл бұрын
I'll never forget meeting him at some show in allentown, probably mayfest. It was 2010 I think. He saw a friend of mine at the mall and asked how I was, didn't have access to a cellphone. It killed me inside to see him on social media just destroying himself. We didn't get to talk much, but I always considered him near to my heart. He's so talented. Such a good soul. It's hard to see him this way.
@froandcara3 ай бұрын
Can you share his social?
@I-U-E-V2Ай бұрын
@@froandcara Sadly he's not active on it and hasn't been since maybe two years ago about. People tag him in stuff but some of us think maybe he didn't make it. Sadly I have no news on him or know how he's doing.
@LuchadorMasque2 жыл бұрын
This guy reminds me of myself in all of the ways I hate. His paperwork may say fentanyl, but this man is dying of a broken heart.
@sallyann9852 жыл бұрын
Such a cool comment.
@LuchadorMasque2 жыл бұрын
@@sallyann985 ?
@sallyann9852 жыл бұрын
@@LuchadorMasque you can't take compliments?
@littlems.tries-to-fix-it62702 жыл бұрын
It’s a profound comment. Not exactly “cool”
@sallyann9852 жыл бұрын
@@littlems.tries-to-fix-it6270 I think profound is taking it too far, but it was touching the way she worded it.
@thenameless18962 жыл бұрын
I related to him a lot when he said "I *could* do everything" and I truly believe he could, smart, great communicator, resourceful, empathic. I just think he decided being an addict was going to be the only and best thing he could be in life. He seems content where he is but I sincerely hope somebody could show him that there's so much more in life to see, to give, to do than being stuck in Kensington.
@jasonjon2 жыл бұрын
the world is corrupt and hes being free, preparing for inevitable death. i envy him
@nicolecooly5782 жыл бұрын
Empathetic? He doesn't care about himself and never made any statements re concern for others.
@kvanon28012 жыл бұрын
This man is the epitome, definition, embodiment, of a drug addict: a person experiencing chronic, progressive dependance to opiates. To someone like Mark who isnt an addict is so perplexed and has just a complete lack of comprehension to how or why he could have no hope. Mark and others without the burden of addiction, to them its like...there's gotta be something this person is missing. But when you love heroin or fentanyl more than literally LITERALLY anything and everything else in this life...nothing will stop that affair from continuing until they find that something they love more. And unless a divine intervention swoops in...a legit miracle.... this is death. Although tragic, incomprehensible, deeply sad... I do commend this man for speaking his truth. When he explained that he lost his voice by shooting in his neck which later he explains that's his voice or talking is his best and only thing he has to keep him going....he continues to take that from himself time and time again because the fentanyl in the moment is more important than keeping his last line of communication open and useful, a must-have in order to obtain his drugs...makes no sense. Addiction in a nutshell. No games, no excuses, his rock bottom doesn't exist. His honesty about his life is like a punch in the face. Somewhere along his journey he lost hope and all light.. he has embraced the darkness and will admit what most people on drugs are too ashamed to say but most all will feel hard inside. He loves being high. Being sober or having a clear mind is boring, unfufilling, he is at peace with what he created as a life for himself. I want to say I hope this man gets clean... but he has crossed that line where he has decided there's no life for him without fentanyl and I know that it's powerful enough to drown him without him struggling for breath. I hope he goes peacefully. And I hope the next life gives him a brighter perspective.
@internetcomment44402 жыл бұрын
No one ready comments this long fyi
@karynwright-sikora16062 жыл бұрын
EXACTLY
@karynwright-sikora16062 жыл бұрын
He has accepted his fate. He knows all of the logic but as you said, addiction is a disease that defies all logic.
@karynwright-sikora16062 жыл бұрын
@@internetcomment4440 I do
@a.marvellehoneyman45602 жыл бұрын
My family knows that “I am this situation”. -Moser
@michro19822 жыл бұрын
This breaks my heart a little. He seems like a good dude. Just sucks he doesn't care about himself. Godspeed Moser
@eliguerrero3332 жыл бұрын
I can see how handsome he is…breaks my heart to see him in this state. So skinny and I see the scars on his skin. You’ll be in my prayers tonight Moser. And even tho you say you don’t want to live I hope one day that mindset will change. Take care ❤️🙏🏽
@Taradise344 ай бұрын
Quite handsome
@Clydekid3 ай бұрын
@@Taradise34agreed
@aesthetic.destruction23412 жыл бұрын
This guy is like an angel with broken wings. He has also completely surrendered, but I think there is still this atom, glimpse of hope inside of him.
@heyyou2282 жыл бұрын
He really is
@nickbrennan33892 жыл бұрын
Wow...good comment.
@ahh11802 жыл бұрын
Chill out dude he is no angel
@marcodominguez2702 жыл бұрын
He’s gonna be face down and dead from an overdose in a month, he isn’t an angel and there isn’t any hope
@jeep192 жыл бұрын
This musthaphfruqr ain't no angel, more like drug addicted, opportunist... with his dirty hands!
@DorothyM452 жыл бұрын
If he isn’t the definition of a drug addict, I don’t know what is. This one got me. He is someone’s son; so young. Not a gray hair on his head. I wish him luck ❤
@gonnabeok2 жыл бұрын
I'm afraid that won't help him much though 😌
@jennadethloff18962 жыл бұрын
I agree
@snafu44052 жыл бұрын
Better than nothing. Hope, Luck, Best Wishes, Prayers. It's all electrical impulses with dedication towards an energy source. No matter what your belief system even a lack of one... it's something. That, will always be better than nothing.
@robindore2582 жыл бұрын
There's no such thing as luck
@annjones96352 жыл бұрын
@@snafu4405 Well said
@HP-fn4bo2 жыл бұрын
I can’t believe he’s only 30. He’s not long for this world. Sounds like he knows that too.
@SandraSmith-vb5pf2 жыл бұрын
At least he’s not playing the victim 🫵🫵🫵👏👏👏🌈💙💛🧡❤️💯🥳😇🏳️🌈🤩
@SandraSmith-vb5pf2 жыл бұрын
Not His First Rodeo 💉💉💉💯🌈🏳️🌈🌈🏳️🌈🌈👌👌👌Excellent Interview 🥳🤩😇
@AmmoGus12 жыл бұрын
@@whodat1884 it isn't lol
@miketan88572 жыл бұрын
Hopefully he gets back on his feet
@johnboy65942 жыл бұрын
His time is near and that’s a blessing.
@jiljohnson77512 жыл бұрын
I absolutely love this guy! "Do you need therapy?", hell no! This guy IS a therapist. What a pure soul.
@docmcfly39332 жыл бұрын
It kills me to see such a kind and likeable guy go through that...
@kristycartwright47432 жыл бұрын
I can honestly say, this is the first of the addiction interviews where I couldn't stop my tears!!! My heart really cried for him!
@mysoullovessoul5582 жыл бұрын
This poor guy is a sad representation for a disaffected generation of society that feel hopeless, isolated and with no future worth trying for. Breaks my heart.
@geebee62442 жыл бұрын
'Poor- sad -hopeless' these are YOUR thoughts and interpretations. Moser wasn't making excuses, spoke honestly, intelligently and claimed happiness.
@naizmenicnastruja2 жыл бұрын
@@geebee6244 Agree, He is one of just a few people here who just seems honest , not proclaiming some almost unbelievable tragic childhood story. No pathetic excuses, not crying for help. From me although I dont support his life style , Moser has all the respect.
@amberadams29352 жыл бұрын
@@geebee6244 how do ppl end up arguing in dee comments...u cnt tlk shit cus they havea bleeding heart fr....u can feel ur heart hurt over anything maybe his blatant attitude is heart crushing....maybe mysoullovessoul gotta kindred soul....mmmmm maybe doiii
@mysoullovessoul5582 жыл бұрын
I was reading between the lines. His gf of ten years left him, he's on the streets and intends to take a lethal drug with no care if he dies. He's not proclaiming happiness, he's given up.
@geebee62442 жыл бұрын
Observation Vs judgement?
@robinsnestradio2 жыл бұрын
Sometimes when people say they are dealing with depression, it seems like the depression is dealing with them.
@freereinartstudio14632 жыл бұрын
Yes!
@zeromczero73692 жыл бұрын
ON POINT 👍
@funekamasusi62072 жыл бұрын
This interview was so real. It's sad that he has surrended he's life to drugs, he is a lost soul. I wish him well and hope he makes something out of he's life, I mean he's still young. What an authentic interview man!!
@Prettythings123814 ай бұрын
I see this is from 2 years ago. Is there an update on this guy?
@AJ-wo7qh4 ай бұрын
Came here to ask this!
@Lalalanez1234 ай бұрын
Me too!
@4tunecookieclub28 күн бұрын
would like to see an update also
@trashboat99924 күн бұрын
^
@Spiceisnice1322 күн бұрын
Can almost guarantee if he isn’t clean he’s in the ground. Sad
@kittyxcow2 жыл бұрын
I never comment on your videos but he just struck me. I’d love to see more of him. This is just tragic and I really pray he makes it out of this alive.
@alexleggett62702 жыл бұрын
Welp... I never knew there was such a thing as an injection specialist in the fentanyl world. I learn so much from this channel about the human experience. Another fascinating interview Mark. well done sir 🙏
@22Afk2 жыл бұрын
Well written
@ChainsawTV12 жыл бұрын
Oh yeah..I think I learned that in some of his other videos. People who can't put a needle into themselves because they have a phobia, of needles. Or blood. Or what ever you would think would keep them away from shooting up. Nope..you find one of these guys, a friend, the dealer..often times kicking those people down some of your drugs. It's crazy
@aproposinkognito91692 жыл бұрын
Of course has every drug-communtity people who are injection-experts. After a while it is a big job getting the needle into the right part of the body. In a way nice he helps the other people.
@matthewking71912 жыл бұрын
It's actually pretty common amongst IV drug users. After a while your veins collapse and it's super hard to hit anywhere. Add in some dope sickness ontop of that and it's even more difficult. It can be a real struggle.
@grappetsail2 жыл бұрын
get paid with a shot
@adambrocklehurst42112 жыл бұрын
Things are bad for Moser, he's ill and there is a lack of hope about him. If he don't get clean he's gonna get his wish sooner rather than later. God help him.
@494ava2 жыл бұрын
Amen
@johnboy65942 жыл бұрын
Death is a blessing to those who suffer so greatly. when I hear that 100 thousand users died as a result of overdose, something inside of me smiles with the relief of knowing that they are finally free from the misery of what they were trying to escape.
@s_photo13852 жыл бұрын
Thanks for that captain obvious
@adambrocklehurst42112 жыл бұрын
@@s_photo1385 such profound insights.
@adambrocklehurst42112 жыл бұрын
@prairiedarkness yes there is.
@FalseNi9e4 ай бұрын
This is exactly how every addict thinks we just don't ever say it like this.
@CatalinaFOIA4 ай бұрын
Facts 💯
@Living422 ай бұрын
@@CatalinaFOIAdefinitely 100
@AlexFromnicАй бұрын
Thats not true at all. I never thought this way ever and I was a bad one. This is how every addict who wont get clean thinks. You manifest your own reality. You speak and think it into existence. Anyway I have a feeling you arent an addict. And if youve watched videos on here you know there are plenty who are dealing with extreme trauma which use to cover it up. Not because they love drugs.
@AlexFromnicАй бұрын
@@CatalinaFOIAsaid by people who arent addicts
@AlexFromnicАй бұрын
@@Living42exactly 100 wrong. Plenty of addicts im sure think like this. Plenty dont.
@DansBuddhaBodega2 жыл бұрын
Being a recovering addict myself, my heart goes out to these people.
@lizzymint67052 жыл бұрын
This guy has no delusions and is super intelligent. It’s hard to watch, but seems he’s made his choices about life.
@mustertherohirrim73152 жыл бұрын
'Super intelligent' Yeah.
@hatsuhioki93612 жыл бұрын
@@mustertherohirrim7315 hahaha yea, like ppl always trow that ''super intg'' stigma over junkies
@leneo17312 жыл бұрын
@ Hatsu Hioki Are you saying no junkies are intelligent?
@hatsuhioki93612 жыл бұрын
@@leneo1731 for sure not fentanyl/heroin addicts
@lizzymint67052 жыл бұрын
Intelligence does not mean he can’t make poor choices. He has signs of intelligence.
@dogmom20232 жыл бұрын
OMG so so emotional to watch this. His hands are a product of fentanyl use no circulation. May he find peace in this world while he is still here. Sometimes these affects aren't reversible. My heart breaks for people. I have not lived a sheltered life and have done my share of things I regret. Thank God I have been a strong woman and have overcome the battles that I have fought. God bless you Moser.
@sugarsore2 жыл бұрын
I've never seen a heroin/fentanyl addict with hands like that.
@agangstersparadise12 жыл бұрын
@@sugarsore I have seen many...
@kendradaniels18312 жыл бұрын
I was wondering what the discoloration on his hands was all about. This is very sad.
@rollieroulston2 жыл бұрын
I think it's due to the so called "tranq dope" going around. It's got xylazine and/or benzos in it and it's causing horrific wounds, even in areas where they haven't been injecting. VICE did a documentary on it if you want to know more
@elwampo1352 жыл бұрын
I think theyre just dirty. Otherwise would be swollen too at least in my experience
@andrewlong55102 жыл бұрын
I have a friend from high school just like this. open to the idea of dying and refuses to be sober. and not just like a couple beers and some pot refuses to not do tweak and dope everyday. nobody can make anybody do anything.
@chorpita2 жыл бұрын
Awesome interview, Mark! The comments here tell more about the commenters than about Moser. In the USA, people have it drilled into their brains from childhood that they have to be somebody. If they are not somebody, they are nobody. And there is nothing worse than that. In Buddhist temples, people work hard to discover that they aren't anyone, that trying to be someone is the core of human suffering. Sense of self is suffering. Moser seems to have figured this out already. He's surrendered to the true indifference of the universe...but his heart seems warm, his words ring true. KZbin watchers look desperately to find some weakness in his story to validate their own story. For me.....Moser doesn't strike me as a liar. That's probably his main appeal...his honesty, his sincerity....a lot of women probably fell for him over the years....that honest charm. He's probably had some very good moments in his short life. That's why he's low on regrets.....and more or less ready to die. We all have to die eventually....unless you are waiting on Jesus and company. Well.....I would say....try not to judge people that you can't understand. We really understand much less than we think we do. We posture ourselves to think we know everything. We know very little. Thanks, Moser! Thanks, Mark! Great video!
@Siss20122 жыл бұрын
Beautifully put, I couldn’t agree with you more!
@zeromczero73692 жыл бұрын
I think that people living this life are the lowest depth of misery ...they don't contribute to humanity in any way...they are a drain. There is nothing wrong with judging people who have been given the gift of life and squandered it. Disgusting display of a life wasted.
@suchabadkitty12932 жыл бұрын
@@zeromczero7369 Thank you for proving the OP's point.
@suchabadkitty12932 жыл бұрын
@@zeromczero7369 "Theres nothing wrong with judging people..." Wow.
@zeromczero73692 жыл бұрын
and thank you for reinforcing my belief that you cannot explain the obvious to an idiot.
@andrewoverhere85252 жыл бұрын
"Is there anything that happened in your childhood, anything you're running away from" "no, but if I am I'm doin a really good job at it". Wow. That was the single most compelling line I've heard on you channel. He is so mentally sharp. Even a wordsmith in there I think. He really could do anything. I like to think he's more of a "specialist", putting every ounce of life into the actual lifestyle. Like maxing only one stat in a video game. This fellow is a user and an abuser. The most telling for me is the lack of info on the string of ex girlfriends. Con artist. Not a bad person to sleep next to next to his tent near skit row either, in my opinion
@wanghaf_Gl0yper2 жыл бұрын
Wouldn’t say the most compelling line from the channel by any means lol..dude just loves getting high that’s all there is to it
@andrewoverhere85252 жыл бұрын
@@wanghaf_Gl0yper well that's just like ur opinion man
@Calverts3992 жыл бұрын
I have no words.....he has NO bottom, NO happiest day, NO regrets, NO future. It's just SO darn sad. 😪
@Jen_Is_Outside2 жыл бұрын
"I dont want to get clean"= a death sentence, especially in Kensington. God bless his family.
@gregunderwood46792 жыл бұрын
Brutal honesty mixed with delusional grandeur.
@davidroberts42482 жыл бұрын
So true.
@tf63852 жыл бұрын
Actually, no... this guy is top of the food chain...
@commente2 жыл бұрын
@@tf6385 what do you mean? sarcasm?
@tf63852 жыл бұрын
Definately...
@indicarlos2 жыл бұрын
Delusional grandeur ? That's far from the truth in this guys case . I don't think he's living the time of his life and truly believes that .hes just accepting things the way they are of anything that's the furthest thing of delusions of grandeur
@jayroman2 жыл бұрын
This breaks my heart. He's so honest, so blunt. I wish I could speak to him personally as a clean recovering addict & alcoholic. He seems like he has a glimmer of light, saying things could possibly change. I pray for Moser. I think he's so far absorbed into this lifestyle, the things he does, and the people he's surrounded with, that he can't envision a life without drugs. I pray he one day wakes up and realizes that he can change before it's too late.
@KitsuyuutsuR24 күн бұрын
I was so shocked this guy is from my neck of the woods… He’s about the same age as my oldest niece, about 9 years older than my oldest… My mom heart was breaking the whole time I watched this. Here’s this young, nice looking, obviously intelligent young man and he’s literally throwing away the precious gift he was given for drugs. Worse, he doesn’t even care… Then I was reading the comments, a lot from other locals who knew and love him, one from a random person who happened to pick him up out in California and had him over at Christmas… I wish he could see how his sweet, gentle ways, his silliness, his kindness, have touched so many people. Maybe he’d see that his work here ISN’T done, that he hasn’t done all that he wanted to do, that he could do so much more. What he offers people, the way he touches lives, that’s what people rarely see today and what people need most. He’s a special breed, like an angel here on earth (and I don’t say that lightly, I’m an atheist). I hope he has decided or will decide to get clean one day. I hope it’s not too late. He’s the kind of person this world needs and I’d like to see him stick around. If you’re still out there and read this, Moser, know that there are a lot of people who love you and want to see you clean and sober. You still have so much to offer this world ❤ - a local mom ❤
@patrickleary43302 жыл бұрын
Moser’s exceptionally intelligent. When he says that he has the capacity to excel at anything he wants, he’s simply telling the truth, unreservedly. I don’t think the same can be said for him saying/suggesting that there is no ultimate catalyst for his drug use, however. He’s probably manic depressive/bipolar/clinically depressed.
@julz93782 жыл бұрын
yes, he must have an underlying mental health issue if there has been no trauma
@sharoncochran85082 жыл бұрын
Moser, happiness could be right around the corner. Please don't throw it away! You are worth so much better. I don't believe that you're really comfortable with the way things are. The fight to get clean will be so worth it. I'm going to pray for you.
@aamlam2 жыл бұрын
Ohhh! What a great interview. His life is so simple, yet so complex. Yet he loves it the best he can. No goals, just living in the moment.
@VarnasL4 ай бұрын
Im off all drugs(booze included) for almost 3 months but this guy, his mentality... He's my spirit animal
@barrymccockner4582 жыл бұрын
"They know that I *am* the situation" This dude is super real. Hope he goes out with a smile on his face, straight nirvana status.
@ozalenaglover48732 жыл бұрын
As a former heroine addict from the age of 15 until I got clean almost 4 years ago it is very hard to watch this one. He is so negative in a self destructive way. I used to think like that, even did 4 years in prison and I finally woke the hell up and realized there's nothing to that life. Now I'm married to a wonderful woman and have two amazing kids! I wish he will wake up before he dies. It's not too late until it's too late.
@zeromczero73692 жыл бұрын
Now THAT is a great comment....really happy for you and that you have found meaning in your life.
@pauli21692 жыл бұрын
This was just too sad to watch all the way through, seems to be the slowest suicide ever.
@lf14962 жыл бұрын
This guy can be multiplied by the millions. Something is wrong with American society that this bleak hopelessness is pervasive in much of the population. This emptiness is a result of the emptiness of a culture that places all its value on THING$ and not a rich culture based on love
@thevardodark46182 жыл бұрын
I agree and it runs through every demographic too. I know for me personally the hopelessness is partly that all the anger and hate around me makes me feel there’s no place to belong and has driven me further and further into isolation. Add health problems paired with inadequate healthcare, and I can easily relate to Moser’s outlook.
@KevinSolway2 жыл бұрын
Not only THING$, but also false religion. It's no surprise that people feel a hopelessness. Our society has no soul.
@maxdawg2 жыл бұрын
bleak hopelessness also exists in "rich" gated communities... where i've seen soccer moms (and their kids) addicted to prescription pills, cocaine, heroin, etc. so that 'rich' culture you speak of isn't immune to drug addiction... and those people have lots of 'things.'
@ItssssJack2 жыл бұрын
Yeah, well said. As a young(-er) person myself, one thing that people underestimate are the effects of things like the pandemic. Imagine losing two years of your youth when you're supposed to be interacting with others and living your life at its physical peak. That takes a real toll. Once you lose that socialization it becomes a lot harder to pick it up again.
@nickbrennan33892 жыл бұрын
True...poorer countries have less addictions and mental health problems.
@Jonhistorymodel2 жыл бұрын
The finest person you have spoken too. He has both eyes wide open and stares bravely into the Abyss.
@Farrcast721 күн бұрын
Well said.
@Power505052 күн бұрын
There is nothing brave about this. Let's stop glorifying this type of lifestyle. I understand it's his life and his choices but people need to stop being selfish. This life is not only about making yourself feel pleasure while putting those who love you through pain. Bravery is about facing the pain everyday and overcoming it by doing something great with your life and not escaping with drugs.
@Jonhistorymodel2 күн бұрын
@@Power50505 pfft. Ok bud.
@Power505052 күн бұрын
@@Jonhistorymodel brother, I'm not trying to be rude or anything like that. I am a 15 year heroin addict myself, so believe me I understand this guy. However, I came to learn that addiction was just escapism and there's nothing brave about it. Bravery is a when you face your fears and whatever life throws at you. Thats all I'm saying. Call him cool, smart, whatever but brave is not one of them.
@Jonhistorymodel2 күн бұрын
@@Power50505 I was a 20 year opiate addict! You don’t dominate addiction others exist and have opinions.
@zemocon28684 ай бұрын
"My family knows I am this situation". Epic and so real comment
@Foxiz3 ай бұрын
Yep - When I myself was at my worst, my parents told me that they didn't hate Me, they "Hated the situation"... ...I understand very well what "being the situation" means... 😶
@aaaxthelm2 жыл бұрын
Hey Moser, if you’re reading this comment I’m telling you I don’t buy that you love drugs more than living. I don’t buy that your mom leaving you at 12 was “her business “. I think there’s grief in your life you aren’t sharing.
@moswiney27372 жыл бұрын
I feel sorry for his family because they are the ones that are sober and have to witness the complete destruction of their child with no way to stop it…coming from someone who has lost a child to fentanyl
@brendaandjohnroark-rivera77102 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for your loss.💙
@scottmatznick31402 жыл бұрын
damn, Mo. sorry to hear. I got clean. I come just to remind myself why.
@moswiney27372 жыл бұрын
@@scottmatznick3140 glad to hear you are clean. Always remember everyone has people who love them. Losing you can totally ruin your families life. The pain is deep and never goes away. Good luck
@amandapeterson36592 жыл бұрын
I feel more sorry for him. usually addiction stems from child hood trauma... maybe his parents had something to do with that? it's sad for everyone though (who cares about him)
@MariaEOD2 жыл бұрын
Okay people, there you have it, straight from the horses mouth! This is one of THE saddest interviews of a person I’ve ever watched on Mark’s channel, and I’ve watched hundreds of them! His eyes are deeply cold, dark and hurt, yet oddly “happy,” in a way…just a collectively difficult way to try and describe him, but that’s what I see & feel from this man. As the famous Etta James sang, “All I could do is cry…” 😢😭
@getin39492 жыл бұрын
Oh puleeze
@MariaEOD2 жыл бұрын
@@getin3949 I’m sorry you can’t spell and I don’t know what you need or want by your comment. If you’re hurting too, just say so.
@mikefixac2 жыл бұрын
I agree with you Maria. Good call.
@viborgvee83992 жыл бұрын
Mark sounded uncharacteristically flabbergasted, like I can sense his jaw hitting the floor in this one.
@DrChronic_DirtyDishes2 жыл бұрын
Give this guy a hug💯 Another amazing interview Mark. I have been addicted to heroin on and off for 20 years. It never got this bad. I am sending this guy positive energy, he deserves it. We all deserve it. I wish we understood that humans are 1 tribe and we need to learn to love, respect and appreciate one another. I also believe we are only as strong as our weakest member. ☮️❤️💪
@kristinab10782 жыл бұрын
If Moser had been turned on to a hobby, skill, or subject at a young age, such as sports, music, art, science, anything, I think he would have been successful. He stated that he is good at everything when he puts his mind to it. I believe him. I hope he is able to release himself from this destructive passion and finds a reason to live.
@wesleyAlan91792 жыл бұрын
Possibly, Kristina💜
@5thdimension6252 жыл бұрын
@Jaybird exactly Jaybird. Take it all with a grain of salt. I look for actions and behaviors to see how people are really living. That’s where the truth lies.
@katiexcakes2 жыл бұрын
I agree, i was raised with not alot.of attention and no push for me to do any activities and even if i wanted to do something extracurricular i never ended up getting slips signed money for fees etc. Just "get good grades". I WAS good at everything i tried, but better at doing drugs and staying out of people's hair. I ended up a heroin and whatever drug addict and alcoholic. I ended up getting out of that life, but only out by my own choice. It's hard, but it's all about personal drive for him at this point
@mustertherohirrim73152 жыл бұрын
If Blif blof
@katiexcakes2 жыл бұрын
@@baublesanddolls but if he fully decided to be good at being sober he would likely do great at it as well. He is probably great at many things you dont have to do or deal with in a day.
@kayD11092 жыл бұрын
No bullshit, just real. Has me in tears. Moser, if you go out, I hope you go out knowing you've touched my heart, you are loved, and in a way you've given me hope. God bless you bro fr. 🙏 "No one's going to understand you." "That's alright." ❤️
@maxdawg2 жыл бұрын
i met a girl in Salem, NJ who's attitude about drugs was JUST like this guy's attitude. she was a "proud, happy, and faithful," drug addict. she didn't want your pity, sympathy, empathy, or (free) money... just wanted to clean your house, wash your car, shine your shoes, walk your dog... whatever it took to get some money to go to the park and do heroin. the scary thing about watching this video is that if you saw a picture of her, you'd think she is Moser's younger sister; they look very similar. i'm NOT a psychologist, but for some reason, i think Moser's 'drive' to stay high might be based on losing (romantic) love interests. some guys, when they lose their woman... etc., resort to self-destructive activities. he did say he had girls that took care of him (motherly love) but that they left.
@WalkerBetweenWorlds4 күн бұрын
I love this guy. He’s brutally honest and quick witted.
@Horizon-1-3-52 жыл бұрын
This mans spirit is undeniable. The realest interview ive seen.
@coonhoundqueen92162 жыл бұрын
I'm not sure I understand why but I cried so hard for this man. I just can't explain my emotions
@Ropeadopeya2 жыл бұрын
Because he is a truly lost soul.
@bil.johnson_2 жыл бұрын
It's sad but it's on him
@Catalinaobregon2 жыл бұрын
He denying the fact his mother left him when he was twelve and it affected him emotionally. Twelve is a crucial age for a child. He goes through women, falls in love all the time. Repeats the abandonment peptide and puts a needle in his arm. Feels good.
@gx99542 жыл бұрын
Spot on! 🎯🎯🎯
@aandjay2 жыл бұрын
Yess and he doesn't want to say why she left when he probably knows
@zeppelinite12 жыл бұрын
So true. How many people out there are looking for a wife thinking they’re going to find a mother? Far too many!
@kevinadams94682 жыл бұрын
Thanks, Dr. Phil... He's a sick junkie who would sell an infant for a hit of fentanyl.
@dbloom2002 Жыл бұрын
yep, 12/13 is a pivotal time in a person's life. Many tribes and religions unrelated to each other have some rite of passage or transition event at this exact stage in the human's development. We really do no understand the human soul and its vulnerability at this exact time OR we choose not to understand it because it's inconvenient.
@thevardodark46182 жыл бұрын
Man I can really identify with that feeling of “I’m just done.” I wonder why two people can feel the exact same way but one does what he does and one just muddles through life anyway without drugs. I will say, my feeling of being “done” or just not caring stems from major depression and PTSD. Maybe that’s his struggle too but he’d rather not deal with it.
@dalpz2052 жыл бұрын
A lot of times it depends on your core values, support past and present and if/how truama is being dealt with.
@patricklary812 жыл бұрын
Ive been there before. When you have lost everything you have built and worked so hard for its devastating. You want to give up and sometimes for awhile you do. At the same time you eventually build another life, one you may not be totally happy with but the fear of loosing everything and starting all over once again keeps you there.
@bicstic82 жыл бұрын
Or it stems from seeing the path in front of you and it looking boring and repetitive..actually I guess that is very depressing, but don't a lot of folks live the same day over and over?
@patricklary812 жыл бұрын
@@bicstic8 that could be as well but the guy didnt give alot of context but from what he did say and frommy own experiences of going through something similar, when his wife left after 10 years he didnt want to start over. From personal experience I can tell you I felt the same way. I had worked hard for years had a child, a home , a family, one day, and the next it all was just gone. My ex took everything. Even my car was in her name. She took it as well. Alot of it was being you and not knowing any better, but for a long time I felt hopeless. I didnt know what to do or where to begin. I didnt want to. Why work so hard when it all van be taken away in the span of 24hrs. Not to mention the betrayal I felt from the one person I implicitly trusted. I didnt have a clue. One day I had it all the next day I had nothing.
@thevardodark46182 жыл бұрын
@@bicstic8 so true. It can get very hard in the “straight” life not to go what the hell is the point of doing this every day?
@keksandwich2 жыл бұрын
Smart, well-spoken, honest, and probably a good looking guy at some point. It's obviously sad, but in a way refreshing to see a person so absolutely honest about their relationship with drugs. This guy isn't lying to himself. He knows the situation he's in and just accepts it. He also clearly got high during the interview around the 10:30 mark. His demeanor and eyes change quite dramatically at this point. Good luck brother.
@310jewel2 жыл бұрын
He seems like such a cool guy. It’s really sad that he’s fallen so low. He seems like someone that almost anyone can get along with. Really sad
@theant42682 жыл бұрын
What a legend, no past he's running from, no future he's working towards. Just drugs and the now. I'd feel bad for him if he didn't say he chose that life for himself. 0 blame, just him and his choices. Legendary
@494ava2 жыл бұрын
Absolutely a legend!! Like I said in my comment,that maybe we’re not suppose to try to change him but learn something from him. Great comment btw…..
@silverapples752 жыл бұрын
Legend my arse. There's no nihilistic glory here. Soon there will just be no moser, just non-existence.
@MicroCatalyst2 жыл бұрын
@@silverapples75 Might not be about nihilism. It may be just be about accepting what the world throws at you, and being humble enough to say thanks for 30 years of fond memories. Some people live 90 years of total misery - is that better because they prolonged death? This futile attempt to escape death that we all irrationally desire? Soon there will be no Ras either. For all you know, you get hit by a car tomorrow and Moser outlives you. I lost 2 mates who were in their teens that way. The man did what he wanted, and this is where it got him. That would suggest that to get somewhere else, he would have had to do something that he did not want to do. This man is in many ways more human than any "successful" person I've ever met.
@DaveDurango2 жыл бұрын
100%
@silverapples752 жыл бұрын
@@MicroCatalyst Strongly disagree. What metric of 'success' are you using here!? A complete negation of existence. The guy has just given up. He knows he has no chance against his compulsions and has accepted non-existence. There may well be no me tomorrow, but I'll strive to fulfill whatever potential I have before my brief flickering of illumination is swallowed by the void. This isn't a heroic stoicism - the man has no self control and is overcome by negative emotions. This guy is pure negative, there is no heroism in this nihilism.
@rebeccayoungimpasto2 жыл бұрын
This sweet soul is lost! I hope he finds a way to heal emotionally that’s not through substance abuse!! Sending him hugs and good juju!!🦋
@TravisJansma2 жыл бұрын
Unfortunately I don't think we'll see this guy again
@j_ohana2 жыл бұрын
This isn't the first addicts interview I watched. But this hits me so hard, man. The honesty, the somewhat acceptance -but from what I understand, he's not doing it in a depression perspective way. No anger, no regrets, nothing to compare. My heart ache so much. I hope he gets whatever he needs to be better in his way in life.
@kaycampbell85322 жыл бұрын
I look at this man and I just want to cry. He's young, with a beautiful face yet he's so unhealthy and thin. Soon he'll be dead and it doesn't even matter to him. I am the mother of two grown sons. If I saw either of them in this condition, I would be inconsolable. These drugs steal their souls. It's absolutely heartbreaking.
@sharonlegnon74112 жыл бұрын
This is just heartbreaking. He is ON the edge.
@mushymama8052 жыл бұрын
I met him in Venice when we were both kids, I was around 18. We called him pretty boy, because he was pretty then. Now he isn't, so sad to see him like this. Poor guy, I hope he gets better.
@miapdx5032 жыл бұрын
A lot of pretty party people do not stay that way. Drinking and drugging ages you like crazy.
@hattyburrow7162 жыл бұрын
He doesn’t want to get better, so he won’t.
@aude15452 жыл бұрын
I bet he was
@a.marvellehoneyman45602 жыл бұрын
Sometimes being so pretty can be a challenge, what do you remember specifically about him…
@KiaPiaaa2 жыл бұрын
Stop being mean. He's pretty still
@geebee62442 жыл бұрын
Respect to Moser he is owning it and must be skilled in his own 'field' to maintain. No excuses or BS just straight truth. Good luck brother ✌️ Mark- these interviews are cutting edge social anthropology of our time!🖤
@manbunmike53872 жыл бұрын
Many of us were concerned with where he's ended up. Now we know. He was/is a musician, a great one.. at his best he is the easiest person to follow and admire. I have some videos of his performances.. pictures and all. I'm glad he's 'thriving' in his position, but it's heartbreaking to see the detriment he's sustained to himself. Anyone can message me for some media of what his best sounded like, since I can't seem to post a video in the comments.
@yuritussolini13472 жыл бұрын
Please send the ig so I can see it, I feel like this guy is intelligent enough to realize he can at least try to function while on drugs
@Libbyyyyyyyyyyyy5992 жыл бұрын
How can you send it?
@aude15452 жыл бұрын
Can you put it on your KZbin account? I'm struck by Moser, for an unknown reason, I would love to hear his music
@RebootMatrix Жыл бұрын
@@aude1545 this was the band: www.youtube.com/@VICTIMofficial
@cherricastellon490 Жыл бұрын
Send one please
@bryangraham30722 жыл бұрын
I really hope you change your mind Moser. Ten years from now you can be married with a couple kids living a real life. Think real hard about it man, you're one of the good guys, the world needs more dudes like you Moser. Clean of course. Peace bro. Take it easy.
@randymarsh94882 жыл бұрын
This is like a cross between ASMR and a drug addicted Batman
@lalaland21072 жыл бұрын
😂😂
@nessienessie87982 жыл бұрын
😂
@deezlilnuts2 жыл бұрын
so f'ed but real
@crazeeborg2 жыл бұрын
💉“I’M 🦇MAN”💉
@unfairweather2 жыл бұрын
Hahahahah
@SM-kk4rx2 жыл бұрын
OMG his hands…I’m sure he won’t admit it but that he has some sort of “abandonment issues” from his mother leaving him.
@mamajoe12392 жыл бұрын
This is so scary . His voice from shooting up in the dark . The girl with the flesh opened in her arm . Nothing scares them obviously. The pain they go through from sores and living in filth just doesn’t make them want to stop. Unbelievable and nauseating at the same time.
@jasmines.63252 жыл бұрын
That's why harm reduction is the most effective
@greatwhite36762 жыл бұрын
@@jasmines.6325 is it? Because it dont seem like they are reducing harm. The best solution is methadone first and legal heroin second. Fent is so much worse than real heroin. The gov't needs to start giving these people real heroin again.
@MichaelCWBell2 жыл бұрын
It’s amazing to see the number of interviews you have conducted. I really value your project and I’m sure it will be used by many for insight, both personally and professionally. We are all guilty of passing by the poorest (in the fullest sense) members of our society, avoiding eye contact etc. The Desiderata advises us to listen to this section of our communities. In the simplest act of service to people by listening. Sadly some are too damaged to allow for meaningful communication. I have probably only watched around six of these but this one was for me very interesting because we have a good looking and eloquent enough man seemingly without regrets in a chosen life of drugs and their encompassing feeling of ecstasy. I myself hardly go a day without red wine so I’m guilty too of a crutch. What is the difference? It’s the act of crossing that line of self abuse where you become not only non-productive to others but unintentionally harmful to others. He was popular, made his diploma, had girlfriends. I understand that people have awful influences but every individual always has the chance of loving oneself. I don’t want to come across as preachy; I’m just blown away by these interviews and want to try and understand our humanity. I mean, S.W.U. I wonder if you plan on writing anything as a result of all these interviews? I’d be interested to read it.
@Earthdogbonzo32 жыл бұрын
". . . .Be nice to people . . . Not to hate anyone, or anything . . .To love everybody . . . ." We're all here for only a very short time . . . some shorter . . .others less short. I don't feel/sense or hear a mean bone in this young man's body. How many of us at the end of a tether, or bad break, can . . .or have ever spoken such words with clarity, simplicity and heartfelt conviction? Not many I'll wager. God does make Angels to walk the earth among us with broken wings, tattered clothes and broken hearts. When God asks Moser about his life those words will ring the heavens as silver, gold and sunlight. God Bless You Son🙏❤️🥰
@ewechoober33552 жыл бұрын
His entire life since leaving school has been drug addiction, his life's work, his legacy, as Mark states. He went to L.A. to do drugs and moved to Kensington to do drugs. I think he already knows the jig is up, a death wish of sorts. "I'm great at everything l do" is code for "l don't have the will to do anything else except shoot fentanyl into my collapsing veins". And yet, quick-minded and articulate. But every statement of positivity ends on negativity, "l'll either do something great....or I won't". My guess is sadly, he won't.
@donnabittner69 Жыл бұрын
Excellent comment. Sad but true.
@danielw21202 жыл бұрын
If anyone ever wanted to see the later stages of how addiction can progress they need to watch this. This is what happens when it takes your soul and you cross that thin line of not caring... subconsciously you want the next shot to be your last so you don't have to endure another day of hopeless darkness. There is still hope but it is extremely difficult for anything positive to happen when you are at his point. Good luck and I hope you come out the other side!
@micealmacadaim65502 жыл бұрын
Fentanyl is the scourge of the US. It's a national tragedy. I do feel sorry for this poor lost soul and all the other souls lost in pain.
@myeyeswentdeaf62132 жыл бұрын
@natrural flavor Biden’s got nothing to do with it. It was the same under Trump too. America has always had a huge appetite for drugs. BTW Biden didn’t really change any of Trump’s border and immigration policies and Biden even added article 42. So Biden has now deported more people than Trump did. Just like it’s impossible to stop an addict from getting high, it’s impossible to stop drugs getting to them.
@whelanbdubs2 жыл бұрын
@natural flavor making this political is total BS. The war on drugs was lost long ago. Synthetics and tranqs are being mixed because Fent is illegal in China now. Biden doesn't "let" more in. I'm not a Biden fan, your take is just ridiculous though.
@ponyorat2 жыл бұрын
he has a handsomeness about him. Really beautiful eyes. I hope he continues to do whatever he wants to do, but I also hope he becomes healthier and finds peace without addiction.
@burymeinakobebryantnumber85982 жыл бұрын
I pray this man gets a better and well ! His honesty is refreshing he is not asking for help or crying for attention ! He knows his problem and isn’t blaming anybody but his self .. he loves drugs he said that about 5 times during this short interview ! Hope he finds a Light
@ElroyMunson2 жыл бұрын
Wow... A FIRST ! He owns IT ! No victimhood... No regrets, remorse, or shite excuses. Mark's respect is sublime. Embracing the escape of drugs and the hell that encapsulates it. We all should learn from this dude. Own your hell and your escapes, keep your self-confidence. (As long as your escapes aren't EXTREMELY addictive vices like Moser's)
@gutwallst66452 жыл бұрын
learn To Not do drug's, EVER
@nickparton56632 жыл бұрын
What a twisted way to look at life
@marniestewart2 жыл бұрын
Our perspectives are quite opposite here I see nothing to learn from with this guy and the victims with shite excuses that you dislike so much would probably very much have liked to not be victims of whatever they had to go through
@ElroyMunson2 жыл бұрын
@@marniestewart Agreed. Our country is dominated by a 'victim' leverage over society as "victims" are being used as pawns to garner power. "Victims" are the key for corrupt politicians to exploit empathy in order to accrue more power. These people who embellish their victimhood to elicit benefits are a microcosm of the macrocosm. This dude owns his crap. No embellishment... No whining... Owning his hardships and carrying his cross. We're all victims ... It's how you deal with it and overcome it.
@a.marvellehoneyman45602 жыл бұрын
My family knows that, “I am this situation “. -Moser
@derblaueengel4 ай бұрын
I hope he's okay. This interview has stuck with me since it came out and he reminds me of so many people who I've loved & lost. I wish I could do something to help even though he doesn't want it. Please be safe Cris we love you❤️
@lisawatton65352 жыл бұрын
I respect that he admits there was no wrong doing in his life he chose this and sadly will keep going till his end. He seems a genuine guy who has well and truly given up on this side of life and cannot see him ever changing his mind sadly 😥
@marklambert7515Ай бұрын
The Honesty if this man is commendable. I really really really am rooting for you mose.