Finding Myself After Profound Loss

I lost my mom and dad in a very unnatural and traumatizing way and my brain cannot process this grief right now. I turned on the camera and instantly started crying because I've been avoiding the pain because the pain is far too great to sit in right now. I want to get my life back and have something to look forward to. I would like to start making videos again. Thank you for your support and encouragement while I go through this and try to understand what just happened to my family. Thank you!
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Andrea used to live in Florida, until she met her husband Hadar online on World of Warcraft. We met for the first time in Israel, and got married in America. Andrea moved to Israel and had been living there for 10 years. We are happy to announce that.. Our family just recently moved to AMERICA! We made it! We are a fun loving and happy family. We are not fake family vloggers. You will never see us being fake. Views are not as important to us as our integrity. Many of our family and real life friends watch our videos. You can be assured that what you are seeing is 100% truth and reality. You will not only see the best of us, but the worst of us as well. We all have a story to tell and it's not always pretty. For us, it will always be real. I do not make videos just for you. These are my family's memories. There would be no point in making videos if it weren't the truth.
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[@pattyhove9866]

It's Thursday, October 10th. I haven't been here in a while and came here to check on you guys after the hurricanes. Now it seems you have been in a hurricane of your own for several months. When i saw this, my heart sank. I AM SOOOO VERY SORRY! I almost lost my mom a year ago. She was 80 then. I hear your struggle with the medical feild! It like they just want her to go away. Please know that though you don't know me, I am praying for you all, and I care so much.

[@kimberlypilkerton1961]

When my 18 year old passed away in a car accident, I joined online support groups. It helped me very much. I’m sorry for your loss.

[@queenfr765]

I am so sorry for your loss. love you, internet stranger. live an amazing life x

[@sandrabourland5774]

Andrea 😢💔 the minute I saw your face, I started crying. You are breaking my heart. Your pain and grief are so palpable through the screen. I wish I could give you the biggest hug. Grief hits everyone differently, and it will take time. Just know your mom and dad are watching from above and giving you the strength you need. Hold your head high, live for grandma Esther, and carry her smile and beautiful soul with you. I have no doubt that you will get through this difficult time, and I do think vlogging will help you. We will be here all the way. Sending you hugs from Texas ❤

[@TaraLemieux]

It’s ok to cry, sweet soul. Let it all out. My dad used to say that crying was the way the heart could express what the mind couldn’t yet out into words.

[@phyllispartonmarks8912]

Andrea, I cried with you. I have been with you since Rafael was a baby. I love your family. Hugs to you, to all of you. I'm so very sorry. Please take your time. We will be here when you are ready. I have been Praying since the beginning of all this & continue to Pray for you. ❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏

[@suzieqou8129]

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[@stephburnett202]

🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@wendystephan35]

I couldn’t say it any better!

[@Toffee146]

I thought Raphael had died, from your comment, before I watched Andrea's vlog. It frightened the living daylights out of me.

[@caryslougheed2]

I’ve been watching since Rafael was 4 or 5

[@athenamary123123]

I lost my brother last year to suicide and have used your videos as a crutch back into normalcy. I can't thank you enough for the comfort you've provided me with during that time. I hope you can find the inspiration to fight past the trauma and grief, just as I did when watching your content. There are more happy moments in life that you deserve to experience. Happy Birthday

[@tinah6423]

I wish I could give you a hug. You’ve been on my mind and in my heart. Your experience with your mom actually helped me get through 1 surgery and 3 hospitalizations with my mom this year; she just turned 77. Your parents and your relationship with them made me feel like I knew them. They are loved and missed ❤. Sending lots of love your way ❤❤❤

[@AnnA-jd4xm]

Losing parents is gut wrenching. I am so sorry for your loss, Andrea.

[@cks57youto53]

In one month I literally lost my daughter , my husband and then both parents .. unbelievable pain unbelievable denial unbelievable lonely .. A storm beyond belief flowed down my cheeks .. The only way out of it was only up to me ... Accepted the new life ahead of me .. That was 13 years ago Andrea .. Not a day goes by that a tear doesn't find its way into my eyes .. Grief is tuff .an nobody can tell you how to go through it . We are all different an we all lose loved ones .. I just happened to have it all taking From me in a month ! You'll get through it an in time you'll be surprised at how it helps others thru loss ! Nothing hurts worse than loss ... I can't tell you how my hurt , HURTS! But I can tell you time and grace will come from above! Your parents are together and thats a form of your peace of mind ! I'm sure ! Push thru this however you need to ! God is always there for you ❣️ Ask for his incredible strength ..

[@bmeaux2286]

💗💗💗 We will grieve with you. I’m so sorry it was so traumatic. All of your feelings are beyond valid and I hope there is some peace for you in knowing how hard you fought for your family.

[@DonniesSweetie]

I’m so very sorry, Andrea, for the loss of both your parents. I just lost my mother last week and the pain is immense. It will help you to come back and give you a new focus. Sending hugs. ❤

[@jmore5841]

A silent watcher here, I checked your page daily for updates. You are doing the best you can with all that you have been through. Share at the pace that is best for your soul, and remember to give yourself grace above all. Sending you so many healing vibes

[@TheLiviehibbs]

I’ve thought of you every single days for months and months. You are so loved! I’m so very sorry.

[@cschrader09]

Sending you so much love right now. I've watched you and your family since you were pregnant with Abigail. My heart breaks for you right now. You'll always have my support.

[@andreav1472]

Oh Andrea, I’m so sorry. That is so awful. I was worried when the videos stopped coming. I’ll be looking out for anything new. We’re all here for you, don’t forget that. Do what you need to do and take care of yourself. HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

[@MissisChannel]

I remember when you only had 7 thousand subscribers! YOU have done so much through the years and come so far...you will get through this! Hugs and prayers!

[@leannallen8967]

Andrea ,I'm so sorry for your loss! I am still here for you !

[@Tal.Bibliotek]

I am so sorry for your loss and wish you nothing but strength and courage moving forward. I have been a long time viewer from the early days of vlogging your little ones back in Israel. I may not even have been a regular viewer of your more recent videos since the move but I’ve always had nothing but love and care for your family. I can understand how making videos will be therapeutic for you as well but know that you can do so at your own pace. I’ll be here. Take care of yourself. Big hugs to you and your adorable children from this long time viewer and supporter in Canada 🇨🇦

[@vshcvsh98]

Andrea, something moved me to come to your channel and check in.. I have not watched your videos in my goodness I don't know, over a year? As my life has gotten very hectic itself. Ive been watching you before I had my now almost 8-year-old son who happens to have autism. Little did I know, you were helping me and my family before my family even existed. Let us help you and your family, thank you for reaching out and thank you for posting this because now we get to show you the support that we have and can shower over you and your family. Much love from Austin Texas.

[@PurseTrippin]

1st step accomplished Andrea. You did it! Making this video is HUGE and you are now on the road to recovery. I am so proud of you! I too lost my Mom and Dad and boy do I ever understand. Keep talking and cry. Cry all you need. It is pain and loss being released. Breathe and take life not one day at a time but 1 second at at time. I promise you time and effort will get you exactly where you need to be. At peace with your mind and the life you and your husband and childern so deserve. Much love and prayer. YOU'VE GOT THIS GIRL!

[@Grandma-to-Shaggy]

Prayers for peace, comfort, strength and healing.

[@lovethineownself7994]

Oh lovely, I feel so strongly with you. I'm so deeply sorry for your losses and the grief and burden you have to carry. I pray for you and wish I could be there to hold you and give you the room and space to cry as much as you need to. Your life will be taken back, don't worry about that, life is carrying you. Love and prayers and hugs and empathy from someone in Germany, following you since many years. ❤

[@walkn4life]

I have no words, but my heart breaks for you and your family. My prayers are with you. May the Lord up lift you and guide you in His loving care. Hugs to you and my deepest condolences! 💐

[@joannmarie1971]

Andrea i am extremely sorry for your loss! I have always felt your authenticity. May God send you blessings and peace❤ Happy Birthday by the way! It is obvious to me that you are a wonderful daughter, mother, and wife.

[@nounou2129]

Andrea, I am so sorry that you have lost your Mum and Dad and for the difficult circumstances around this that have caused you to feel so much pain. I've often thought about you over the last few months, realising that something tragic must have happened as your videos recording your Mum's care had stopped. I've been watching you for many years, but today I see a different you that has just come out of a horrendous time. I appreciate so much, what it's taken for you to even record this today, but want to encourage you that we love you, are here for you and we're not going anywhere! I am praying for you and your family and just to say that your Heavenly Father loves you, he really, really does! ❤ Keep on going! Sending love from England 🇬🇧🥰

[@shirleyzimmerman5024]

My heart is hurting for you…I’m so sorry for the loss of your parents… I know the bound you had with your mother was like no other… Your KZbin family is here for you and your family… we missed you GOD Bless you all 🙏🏼💕

[@Angienicholas1975]

I am so so sorry I was just thinking of you the other day as you came up in my face book memories. I have no words, hugs to you all.

[@picke6995]

I lost my grandma and big sister suddenly and tragically in 2011. And then my baby niece the same way in 2014. It never stops hurting but it does get so, so, so much easier with time. I can't tell you how to grieve, but I will say you're not alone in your suffering and just take it a day at a time. Glad you're back! ❤

[@mizzmary861]

In hindsight, You being able to move back to the state's when you did is truly a Blessing, a light in the storm because although heartbreak laid ahead you were given precious time with your Parents. I understand "blocking" out, it's almost fight or flight mode to save what feels like all you have left of yourself. I done the same thing with the loss of my parents and twin, it's in no way not dealing with it, it just works for me and I know what I need to cope. Prayers over you and your Family, breathe...take all the time you need. Hugs from Tn.

[@kathleenfitzsimons3388]

Hi Andrea. I have been checking every single day for a video from you. I guessed your Mom didn’t make it but to hear that your dad has died too really shocked me and I can’t imagine the horror you have been and are suffering. I dread to think about the other issues that have compounded your grief. Well done to you. You have made a video and put it out for all of us to know what has been happening. I actually felt a little bit of life come back into you in the midst of the tears. Just a sliver of hope. I know you build on that and bit by bit regain your strength. It will be one step forward and two steps back but I know you can do this. Love from Ireland ❤

[@kiralopes7709]

I’m so sorry you are going through this! Sending you a virtual hug and strength to get through this dark time🩷🫂

[@goneisgone8344]

Dear, sweet Andrea. It's okay to cry in order to heal. It has been 3 years since I lost my Daddy. I keep note cards with his writing on them and they are such a blessing for my heart every time I see them. It never goes away, but it does get a bit easier to cope with the loss over time. Praying for ya'll. ❤

[@saydeebug01]

I’m so sorry to hear about your parents. I’ve been watching for years and don’t plan to unsubscribe. I love your videos and I’m excited for more, but please take your time and do it when you’re ready we’ll be here waiting. ❤️❤️

[@bettylee1024]

Much love being sent to you all. So sorry for your losses and all the trauma associated with them.

[@lindak4839]

I am so sorry for your losses, grief is a long process but i know for sure (following you for years now) you are strong (like your wonderful mother). You have your followers beside you, we love you Andrea. Take care sweetheart ❤

[@jenniferolson5345]

Andrea, you were on my heart today, and now I have just watched your precious video. My heart absolutely breaks for you. I am so sorry for the loss of your mom and dad. There are no words, but I will pray for your healing as you go through the grieving process. You are in survival mode; take your time. 🙏

[@valgal72]

Thinking of you all. Praying you’re safe through this storm. Love and prayers✝️🙏❤️

[@smr2855]

Hi, Andrea. I’ve been thinking about you guys a lot! Sending lots of love and prayers

[@susanasetas]

I lost my mom a year ago and I'm still processing and learning to live this new life... I can't even imagine losing both parents the way you did. You are still in shock and probably will be for a while... Your brain is trying to protect you because the pain is too intense. Take it one day at a time and eventually you will feel strong enough to start deal with the small things. Your mom and dad did not deserve this, it is so terrible... I wish I could hug you and help you, but I am here if you need me. I think therapy will be helpful eventually, I know I had to do it because it's all too much to handle and no process on your own. ❤

[@GeminiLeo6]

So so sorry andrea for your loss ,my heart is with you. 😢😢😢

[@lyssaxoh]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been here since Rafael was small & Abigail was just a baby. Thinking of you and your family during this hard time! Your tears are my tears! Grief is hard. It doesn’t get easier but we learn to deal with this new life with grief. Sending all the love.

[@Desaree1]

This is heart breaking. I've been watching for years! I love how genuine she is always shows how life really is. I'm sad for you and your family and we love you crying messy icky or sweet smiling cooking self. You are just the real deal!! We will be here if nothing else just a bunch of ears or eyes to listen to anything your share!!! Looking forward to it.

[@judys4977]

Omg Andrea, I really don't know what to say. You've bin through such a hard time. I cried with you. I'm so sorry for your big loss! I'm from The Netherlands and I'm following your life sinds Raphael was a baby. I can't believe what has happened. It feels like if one of my own familymembers passed away. So glad that you moved back home and got to see your parents so often in the past years. Hang in there Andrea ❤❤

[@melissaandhercatsadventure4721]

You have taken the first step in your recovery journey. I am so sorry for all the trauma you have been through and the way you have been treated. It is not easy thing to lose a parent, let alone two in such a short time. Your grief journey will last your life time but each day you will learn to live with it and pick up the pieces and start a new path with the memories of your mom and dad. I never clicked on a video so fast as when I saw your face in my feed. I am so glad you reached out to your you tube family. Take your time, we will all be here to support you.

[@that_one_chick_411]

I am so sorry for your loss. You’re in my prayers ❤️

[@Kassandra_Karma]

I'm so sorry for your loss... I've been there myself and as someone who's had many mental health battles, I can promise you that as long as you keep trying and doing things, you'll find your way out. We'll be here as long as you are, and please take your time in doing things. I have no words right now, but I wish you and the family all the love and grace you need. And may your parents rest in peace... 💜

[@katiemclain2946]

When the update videos stopped I had a feeling something terrible had happened. I never imagined you had lost your dad too. My heart goes out to you, Andrea. I lost my dad and couldn't imagine losing both parents in such a short time span.

[@morales5412]

Andrea!!! My heart breaks for you!!! I have been thinking a lot about you and your family the last 8 months. Just know you are very much loved, and in people’s hearts all over the world. You have a place in this world. People care for you. I am rooting for you, and wishing you lots of love! May happiness and love penetrate your heart and soul soon🫶🪷

[@emc3006]

andrea, i am here for you! if you need me to take a trip i’ll come see you, meet you whatever you need. im not far and don’t feel weird. we love you and you’re family. my heart hurts for you and the kids. ❤

[@MichelleGagnon-g6g]

Vermont Lisa here. I usually check your channel but today I saw you for the first time in a long time. I can’t say anything that will truly comfort you; wish I could give you a hug but your parents although gone are still with you. In a different way yes but I loved Grandma and your dad. If I know grandma; she will be everywhere you are. I always say do not judge. I know you don’t deserve what you’ve been receiving. You are one of the kindest and level headed people I know. I too have ptsd (much trauma). Healthcare system is really gotten bad. I just have my mom now and recently was in the hospital with horrific treatment. I am on and off being in the world as well. I make up excuses some days not to get out of bed, brush teeth and poor nutrition. I can’t wait for the day to go by most days. I stopped carrying about myself on and off. I am currently trying to turn myself around and it’s better for NOW. I saw negative comments during your leave. That’s why I said “don’t judge”. You never know what’s going on in a persons life. You have your children, fury ones too and Hadar. This too shall pass. Your mom would never want you to stop living. I love you and feel for you. Great job on your first step. Your house will be organized in due time. Not the most important. You have had great loss; take care of you first and your fooly cooked Channel. Kudos to you for making the step to be a KZbinr and mom.

[@evsheskin]

I am so sorry to know of your profound loss. I have missed your vlogs but understood you needed time for yourself and family. Please accept my deepest condolences. I hope that the children and Hadar are coping. Hugs to you and yours from Israel.

[@marciacorbin3513]

Andrea I am so sorry for your loss losing a parent is so hard and having to deal with both is unmanageable. I lost my dad 2 years ago and went thru similar issues with the medical staff. I just wanted to check in to see how you guys made it thru the hurricane that went thru Florida and how Hadar's family is doing with everything that is going on in Israel right now. Please know your family is in my prayers and please take care of your self and know your parents are watching over you and your family.

[@NOVOLITION]

i’m so sorry andrea 🤍 been watching since 2017, and you’ve been here in my darkest moments (suicidal and hopeless) and i want to thank you for that. sending love and healing to your family 🤍🤍

[@katiebugg311]

I described it as being "untethered" when my mom passed right after my 31st birthday. I am now 34 and it's still a struggle everyday. Sending a hug to you. I am so sorry for your loss. 💔❤️‍🩹

[@naturalhabitatvideoseries255]

This is a good first step to healing. Thank you for updating us. I have wondered how you were. You are the rock that holds your family together. You are one strong lady! I love your natural hair. Losing your parents is impossible to go through, what ever that looks like for you, no one can fault you. Wish I was closer to help with the pool!!!

[@kamin9568]

Omg I’ve thought of you everyday for months. I missed you so much I wish I can give you a big hug.

[@pinkymin6077]

We understand you are going through a very difficult time in your life. I lost my brother back in 2020. It takes time. Many hugs to you. Love you from California. 🌈🌈❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@mondohankie]

Hugs Andrea. I am so very sorry for your loss and pain of losing your parents. There just aren't any words that can be said to make it better, but from my heart I sends love to you all. Praying much God will comfort you and bring you through this painful time of life, you and your family.

[@valgal72]

Andrea, you articulated the monster of grief so well… floating, beat down, defeated. My heart breaks for you and your precious family. Praying that you’ll find solace and your center again as you establish a daily routine and rebuild your life after such horrendous trauma. I’m so very sorry for the devastating losses your family has suffered. My husband and I would like to do a small gesture for your family, if you are agreeing of course. I left an I.G. message asking about it. Sending all my love and prayers for comfort to you and the family.

[@Moonlightdance58]

Andrea, we are here. Don’t worry about needing to be a certain way. One of the things that I have always loved about you is how authentic and real you are. You dont put on a pretense. You are moving forward again even though it may not feel like it. You are taking baby steps. I am so proud of you, Andrea. This is HArD! Start to notice all of the signs of your mom around you. She has only physically left you. Talk to her. Laugh with her. She is still there. Love and light to you and your family.

[@karenandkidzinca]

So so sorry to hear of your parents passing. Your Mum was such a character, always so happy and bubbly. my heart is breaking for you and I’m wishing you strength to build back your life again. I really think you are doing the right thing getting back in to you tube, it’s almost like it will be your own therapy. Big hugs from up here in Canada xx

[@adelemcneil125]

So sincerely sorry for your profound losses in such a short period! I too feel orphaned.i was very close to my folks. Grief is like the ocean, it comes in waves and sometimes it’s a tsunami and sometimes it’s a ripple. God bless you in this surreal time. Grief never leaves us but it will be easier eventually. My heart is with you.❤ You are exactly where you are meant to be do not feel your not! Grief is a process. You’ll come through this too because you’re strong although you don’t feel so at the moment. Take your time again it’s a process and you are not a miracle worker your human xoxo

[@lindacostello1162]

Andrea, I can't tell how so very sorry I am that you're going through all of this. Having lost my Mom when I was 13 I can relate with the surrealness of it all. I was in a weird funk dream like state, but kids that age get more support and have more distractions (like school) to help move them back to the world. Give yourself time, start with little steps. If it something you're not able to face don't do it if you can put it off. I love you, Hadar, and the kids. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@ways8]

Hey I used to watch your channel since Raphael was a toddler, got busy in life skipped 3 to 4 years didn't watch your vlogs, now I'm taking a look, I am sorry for your loss may her soul rest in peace

[@ways8]

I remember your mom was kind and nice, she's in a better place now, do good deeds in their remembrance, wish you recover fast and get back stronger

[@suzieqou8129]

HI Andrea, I have been watching you since Raphael was a baby sleeping in his little tent. Please come back to us. We miss you. I understand you are going through so much so it may take some more time but please please come back to us❤

[@amyophila7511]

I'm so proud of you for starting videos back I'm sure it's so hard I've missed you guys

[@flaviapitschek8239]

Hello Andrea, I’m so very sorry for the loss of your parents. It’s heartbreaking to see how devastated you are. I wish I could be there to give you a hug. I will be watching every video you post. Sending you so much love and hugs from South Africa. ❤

[@MysticalGuidance4U]

My dear Andrea and family, My deepest condolences for the losses that you are experiencing. I understand only too well. The past five years, I have lost five significant people in my life.. Even though I’m a professional counselling therapist that specialise in grief and loss. It still ripps a huge hole in my heart and have this huge voids in my life.I still have my bad days . Sometimes we just have to live in the minutes the moments the hours and the days and find time for self-care, that is ever so very important... The 7 stages of grief.. the loss of loved ones. ...Denial. ...Anger. ...Bargaining. ...Depression. ...Acceptance and hope. ...Processing grief. when and if you are ready and need to talk to a professional therapist ,I’m here for you darling. Morning noon or night. And NO I will not be charging you for my time , I love to help & support those in need & can really see you need help & support in these very challenging sad, life altering times, you are enduring .Sending healing love & light your ways and always.❤❤❤❤

[@jeanmorgan5410]

I’m so sorry for your loss we are here for gods got your back. Lord be with this family as they deal with with their loss

[@moniquemarie9637]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I remember feeling extreme grief and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. The only advice I can give you is just take baby steps. I was a zombie for a year and I had to force myself to crawl out of what felt like pure hell. It was like I had to remove myself from experiencing life just to take the edge off so I could survive and take care of those around me. I love you and your family and I’m so sorry❤ Just keep hanging on.

[@jonginbabo]

sending you and your family my thoughts and love! Will always be here to support whenever you're ready to go back to youtube fulltime again!

[@Nikki360PDX]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Andrea! I lost my mom suddenly on May 9th, so I can kinda understand how you feel. I've been checking your channel every day for a new video and knew something must have had happened because you haven't posted in so long. My thoughts are with you ❤

[@dor3094]

Hugs for you and your family. Loss is hard on us and there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Please be gentle with yourself and take the time needed to heal as much as any of us can after a tragedy. Please dont feel a need to apologize for showing your pain on here. Much love and continued prayers for you all as you navigate this very difficult time. 🙏💗

[@gorginajonker4808]

Andrea, my heart goes out to you and your family. Grieving is the hardest! The price we pay for love. You will get through this, I know it’s hard to believe. We eventually learn to live again and learn to live with it even though at times you will find yourself crying, it does get easier I promise. I lost my father 7 yrs ago to cancer and gosh I miss him so much! So many mistakes were made-he was 75. Hang in there beautiful, it will get easier for you. ❤

[@katyw2206]

I believe that most of us agree to not abandon you and stand beside you as you navigate this terrible tragedy. As long as that takes, we will be here for whatever you need from us. Because of your kindness, you have turned your community into your family. We aren't going anywhere. Thank you for the update. I can't imagine how difficult this task was for you. I think you will find lots of gifts from your mom as time goes on. I have no doubt that her gift today gave you the strength to post this update. We are here for you and with you.

[@devoradamaris]

I am so sorry Andrea🫂 May she in peace rest🕯🕯🕯

[@devoradamaris]

Your Dad? I love you Angela🫂🤍🫂 May he find eternal rest🕯

[@lindathibodeau3197]

So very sorry for your loss. Been thinking about you and praying for you. ❤

[@PotawatomiProud]

So sorry Andrea, know that we love and appreciate you and your beautiful family. Your videos are more helpful then you can imagine.❤😢

[@LoriWexler]

Andrea I have been thinking about you all since thanksgiving. My heart is breaking for you and your entire family. While waiting for the psychiatrist appointment could you possibly find a grief support group whether it’s online or in person! You have all of us as well as Hadar and the kids! Please know we are all here for you! Love you all. We never went away. We have been here for you during this difficult time. ❤❤

[@kimberleyrobertson7741]

Haven't watched this yet. But I am so so happy your back on here. Man I have missed you. Maybe you don't know but you brighten my week and help me in so many ways ❤

[@bambilanz]

I’m sorry Andrea. I lost my daughter and my mom this year and im still in shock/denial. I’m praying for you and your family. Be gentle with yourself ❤ take your time and it’s ok to not be ok 🤗

[@nena4u1979]

Praying for you and your family. Praying for comfort and peace in such a hard time.

[@kjb19]

Thank YOU for staying with US!!! You are experiencing unimaginable loss. Take as much time to grieve as you need

[@tonyafromgeorgia3519]

Losing your love ones is so hard, I lost my mother 2 years ago, the tears were uncontrollable at any given time that lasted 6 or so months for me, the pain gets better with time, but I so understand your pain for many reasons! Your mother will be missed by everyone on your channel, she was a big part of your channel. I’m so sorry it was such a traumatic situation with her care, we know just how hard you tried for your mother, we saw it. We’ll be here for you for comfort, sending a virtual hug x

[@BarbaraCooper-qg2bn]

I am so very sorry for your tremendous loss...

[@yfa6244]

Our Courageous Lady. Please know you are very much loved. When the time is right, please find someone who can help you and your family for grief therapy. Get someone older, seasoned, experienced. Also never forget many who are local, a local Pastor who truly cares, may love to pray with you right now. Know that you are prayed for now. I tried my hardest as well, and experienced the medical trauma my parents were dealt. This needs to be written about. I garnered so many stories about the same thing happening to other parents as well. I fought hard as well. The undeserved guilt I put on myself was not what I needed. It was only through letting God Himself talk to me, who I felt truly knew understood all my efforts really worked. There is nothing more powerful than a man of God who is in touch with God's spirit. You are loved, our Courageous Lady.

[@Sarajanesjourney]

I lost my mom 2 years ago this coming August. She introduced me to your channel. I pray for you for healing and strength. I miss my mom daily. My heart goes out to you ❤

[@HiddenShadowRockHounders]

Praying so hard for you and your family. I lost my parents also and I completely understand what you’re going through. ❤️🙏🏻❤️😞

[@joanstrzelec4302]

Oh Andria I am so so sorry I know how hard it is and I feel so bad for your family. I lost my patents 7 months apart and it was so hard. I can tell you it does get better but it takes a good while. Just be patient with yourself. Sending blessings and prayers.

[@nadinearcand]

Awe. I have been following you since you lived out of country. When your mom came on board I thought she was the sweetest just like you❤saying prayers for you and your family over here in Canada. Much love

[@suzanne9353]

My sincere condolences Andrea. Praying for strength, courage and peace.

[@ellie_grace_gymnast7720]

Thinking of you and your family and praying Take as long as you need to grieve you shouldn’t hav etc feel like you have to make videos for us we will still be here when your ready

[@HighVibeHendi]

Sending you so much love. I went through this and there’s absolutely nothing like it. You speaking on your experience is medicine for your community. Thank you for being this brave to talk about it and offering that healing to others in your darkest time. You are an Angel and we are so grateful for you. I’m so so sorry for your great loss. My mother passed and my stepfather passed about a week after from what they’re saying is heart break. Apparently that is possible. So I am sending you and your family wishes for strength and hope at this time. We love you all. Please remain strong.

[@RockHoundChic]

Andrea... We love you and we are here for you.. *hugs* I am so sorry for all that your family has went through.. I have watched your family from back when Rafael was a baby and I feel like you are a part of my own family. I am so, so sorry and wish I could give you a hug... I wish I could give all of you a hug.

[@waltermaples3998]

So Sorry for your loss Andrea I know what you're going through I just recently lost my on my birthday. Sending you and your family Lots of love and hugs 😪🫂❤️.

[@JulieScott-u2q]

Well done Andria that must have been so hard for you ❤ big hugs you done well 🤗 we are all here for you xx

[@patyoung7495]

Andrea, my heart aches for you and your family. When you are ready to start slowly getting back to a normal routine your mind will give you a happy feeling even if it's just a short time to begin . Take all the time you need as grieving process is different for everyone. Prayers, hugs, and lots of love to you and your family❤

[@tiffanywilkinson2245]

Oh Andrea, I am so sorry for your loss. There is no time limit on grief. Take all the time you need. I'm hugging you in my heart.

[@giadark483]

Andrea,I am so sorry for your loss.I wish you peace and well being going further for you and your family.Healing will be a hard thing to achieve because you can’t really be the same person as before but I hope you’ll find peace.Sending you love.

[@moonsun1368]

I've been with you from the start. I wish I could wrap my arms around you Andrea.