First Time Hearing Monsters by James Blunt | Suicide Survivor Reacts

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Kickin' off the Halloween season with a themed titled (thanks to my lovely Patreon, K Duncan) - Monsters by James Blunt from the Once Upon A Mind album.
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[@MentalAmanda]

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[@80s_kid.]

Hi You should do a reaction to Lewis Capaldi - Before You Go, and another one by him called Someone You Loved, Both Great and Emotional Songs, he did 2 versions to someone you loved but this one is the best kzbin.info/www/bejne/mHTYmaibhdGDbtE

[@bkbentley]

Amanda, I love your reactions so far. Keep up the good work. As a person who suffers from severe depression, your perspectives are beautiful. Thank you so much. There is an Artist named Jordan Smith who has a couple of songs that you should listen to. The Songs are "Only Love" & "Be Still & Know" I promise you that you will NOT be disappointed.

[@dillowman8]

Amanda, I love you and I just discovered you. I have dealt with anxiety and depression most of my life and I too am an open book about it. For that alone, I am sure your Dad is damn proud of you!

[@louisejohnson6057]

Profound loneliness. It's as much fun as it sounds. I moved, at age 57, to a completely new city, hundreds of kilometers from all my friends. The two female friends I did make here, tragically died, and I've made one male friend. With the pandemic It's been impossible to join any groups or clubs. I have mental health issues to begin with, and this situation is making it worse. This is my first time watching one of your videos, it won't be the last. Keep up the good work of helping to break down the stigma that surrounds mental illness❤from 🇨🇦

[@louisejohnson6057]

@@dillowman8 , I too am open about my mental health struggles. It's no more shameful that my mother was bipolar than it was that she got cancer. Why should it be treated differently, it's ridiculous to do so, in my opinion.

[@Dougmcjock]

I was 18, in the armed forces, when I came home for leave at Easter and my mum told me my dad had terminal bowel cancer but he didn't want us to know. She knew that he would probably pass before I got back home to see him again so she told me and let my dad know she told me. That goodbye when I left, knowing I wouldn't see him alive again, broke me and I cried my eyes out all the way in the taxi to the train station. He died 2 months later and was informed by a knock on the barrack door by MOD police. In my fifties now, thought I had gotten over that, but this songs has me crying like a baby every time I watch it (as i am now) but it feels therapeutic, so I keep putting myself through it. Stay safe everyone.

[@razmo21]

Thanks for that. I miss my dad too.

[@barbaramelville337]

I lost my dad when I was,5 year's old 😢 song 🙏 ers to everyone who lost there dadsyso so sorry for your loss 😢😢

[@Dougmcjock]

Thank You ❤@@barbaramelville337

[@patrickconlan3181]

Take comfort in the knowledge that your Dad saw you become a Man and was probably bursting with pride. From the tone of your post on here , the fact that you can express your emotions without fear speaks volumes ...in my prayers buddy ...and thank you for your service 🙏

[@WickedDandelion]

The story of the music video is quite funny actually. By the end of the song, the whole (and I mean the entire) crew were in floods of tears. Everyone, particularly the Director knew there was no way they could ever go for a second take. But James' father looked around the room and asked "Why is everybody crying, I'm still here?"!!

[@MentalAmanda]

I imagined that happening as I read it and chuckled to myself.

[@peterchapman3740]

yep thats not true blunt said himself

[@darlenefragale6550]

But if you close up on his fathers face you will see his emotion. He probably said that to keep himself together

[@ThePoisonDwarf1]

@@peterchapman3740 there is a video from about 3 years ago of James literally saying this himself

[@louisewakelingsmith13]

At its core, this really is a healing song. A gift from James and his Dad ❤

[@jennywren7822]

Spot on. James wrote this song for his father last year, he needed a kidney transplant his one kidney was failing. He was on the waiting list and his children weren't a match. Both James and his father were high ranking officers in the British army, James a captain and his father a colonel, thats a stiff upper lip situation feelings aren't shown. James left the army to have a career in the music industry, a flippant career when you're expected to follow in your fathers footsteps, in Britain anyway. After this song and video were released, a distant cousin was tested and was a match so he donated a kidney, a live donor, the transplant took place and his fathers still alive 😇. The wonderful thing is both had the same name Charles Blount. James changed his name as he thought the surname was a bit posh... So at the moment a happy ending. Always makes me cry, the first time I howled for a long time, I've lost both my parents. . Well done....

[@mikeandersonwa]

Fun story about James Blunt's real last name, when I saw him live on the All The Lost Souls tour I was talking to James' band and one of the guys was laughing saying they call him the "Blounty Hunter"

[@pjmoseley243]

pj moseley 0 seconds ago James Blunt at the Oxford union is a very good view, shows his humour, I can see he has that British Army humour, it was just that humour that reminded me of my British Army life in the 1960/70s

[@poodlegirl55]

@@mikeandersonwa His actual real last name was Blount, that's his Dad's name. Blunt was just his stage name.

[@lyncohn9505]

James was Born with the name JAMES

[@Louis19566]

Not only 1 kidney was failing: he only had 11% left (in both kidneys)

[@anthonymccoll5]

When his dad reached over and puts his hand on his arm.....gets me every time. Despite this song being about the son chasing the monsters away it's still a father's instinct to comfort his son. ❤️ Love the reaction and subscribed

[@papitorp1986]

I get emotional every single time I hear this song. Thank you so much for sharing your story....

[@dillowman8]

Anthony, that part always gets me too

[@janellehasley8495]

That part always speaks volumes to me, even during such a difficult time for them both, he still was trying to be that comfort for james..

[@tsnide34]

I'm glad you let the video play out to catch the "pat" at the end! So touching.

[@kvoltti]

James Blunt says that in his comentary about the video

[@topgazza]

This was real emotion from James. His father was dying. But luckily a kidney donor was found and he survived. That’s him in the video

[@tr9092]

The pat on the arm from Dad is the hammer blow to the whole piece. Too many reaction videos stop and stop before it and miss the most emotional part…

[@eileenbaran7040]

Its his dad. He's in last stage of kidney failure. James and immediate family wasn't a match. His father donated a kidney years before. So he only had one. A distant cousin saw the video was tested and a match. His father has survived

[@WolvenHeart1]

It is so emotional because it is honest, not forced. The music the words are flowing and it pulls you in because we all have that type of relationship with someone , father, mother mentor, etc. Lost my dad 2 years ago, had many monsters in my life, but he stood beside me. I was able to help my mom when he had dementia before he passed . This song brings me back to him.

[@Amm1ttai]

I'm impressed at how well you held it together. I lost my father to cancer 13 years ago and the first time I saw this it ripped my heart out. The next ten times I ugly cried. I've probably seen it 50 times now and I still get choked up.

[@GeePeeSterRace]

same

[@MentalAmanda]

To be honest, the one thing that kept me together is I have been getting a LOT of weird signs that make me feel close to my dad lately.

[@californiadreaming567]

Me too

[@ORDEROFTHEKNIGHTSTEMPLAR13]

What dafuq does ugly cried mean???..Lols😂

[@MrAndrewkheinrich]

Amanda, yours is the most concise and eloquent analysis of this song I have seen. Thank you my dear, we have both been there. Lost Dad two years ago tomorrow. Miss you old man.....

[@Thanat0s3166]

Not matter what you have done in the past, your late father will always love you and watching you and protect you and your family

[@ravenmasters2467]

Ive watched every reaction i can find to this song since it came out and yours was one of the better ones. beautiful thankyou. i lost my dad in 2018 and i wish i could have played him this song before he passed. ive gotten into many discussions in many comment sections about this video. one of the best was about how this song is therapy in a way (quite fitting since your channel is about mental health, apparently). listening to it gives you permission to cry and to grieve, but also to move on. thankyou again for this reaction.

[@andrewgilbert2321]

What a touching tribute, to your father also. A lovely interpretation of what the song meant. Your parents must be proud and look out for you in different ways. Keep your faith and believe in yourself .

[@jimk2099]

I have seen quite a number or reactions to this song. While there is something to be said for sharing in our common humanity with open crying, I do have to say that your response is the most insightful and mature of all the ones I have seen. Well done with a difficult subject.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you so much 💗

[@jessdati1]

absolutely ...the best, most touching analysis of a great song i ever heard!!!!...subbed for sure!...i totally relate to your story...and James Blunt made us think about it...our most loved and most important people in our lives...it could be a mother, it could be a father (yeah our parents) but yes, for most of us...a good dad... we cant really do without, and he has a bigtime & profound effect on a child's life!!

[@petergraham6624]

The man in the Video is his real Father, James Blunt’s father is Colonel Charles Blount, a man with a distinguished military career that has seen him inhabit the ranks of the 13th/18th Royal Hussars as a cavalry officer before becoming a helicopter pilot and colonel of the Army Air Corps. Blount (which is where James’ Blunt stage name comes from) was clearly a huge inspiration to his son who followed his father into military service, a long-standing tradition in the Blount family which reportedly dates as far back as the 10th century

[@TommyJessen]

❤ I cry every time I watch this video, you really are so real and authentic to watch and listen to with your telling of your own story as well as the action in the video. thank you, Love is sent here ❤ from Denmark / Europe

[@tomatolady11]

When he sings, "I'm not your son, your not my father..." it strikes me that he is attempting to take a breath of detachment from the emotional agony so he can continue with what he needs to say. I, too, was so full of fear and denial at the passing of my dear mother that I never allowed myself to give her a loving goodbye. Still have regrets 35 years later.

[@MentalAmanda]

My parents passed in 05 and 07 and I still have regrets too. It's normal. 💗

[@kvoltti]

Perhaps trying to say his father doesnt have to carry the burden of being of being his father. That it's his turn to carry the load but even at the end his father's first instinct is to comfort his son.

[@cherylluff5345]

I am not your son you are not my father was the way they said goodbye before being deployed. Both military men in the British army.

[@Jcvulpi]

I see this is older but thought I’d comment anyway. First, I’m so sorry on the loss of your dad. I lost both my parents ugh. I read the story about James & his dad: James followed his dad into the British military so stiff upper lip & no showing feelings. James left to peruse music, which caused a bit of a rift there. Then his dad had kidney failure and they were unable to find a match for a transplant. His father was dying. James wrote the song Monster for him. Then, miraculously a cousin came forward & was a match!! His dad had a live donor for kidney transplant & is still alive. So yes!! That’s him in the video with James. It’s a haunting & beautiful song between parent & child about when your parent is I’ll & dying & the child becomes the parent. Then, we have to chase the monsters away 💔

[@Jcvulpi]

I think it means that when our parents are ill & dying, the child becomes the parent & then WE have to chase THEIR monsters away!

[@jimtuell4076]

I first saw this video about one week after it was released, and I immediately was absolutely moved by it. I even found the chords and learned to sing it less than a month after it came out. I have watched probably 50 reactions to it, and your video is the absolute best. You figured out where it was going even before the chorus first came on, and your personal experiences make your response wonderful. Thank you.

[@mohdnazri2058]

when they made this music video, all the crew cried, james's father said why are you all crying, I'm still here

[@suzywhitfield1708]

Hello from Hertfordshire, UK. Thankyou for such an open and honest reaction to Monsters! It really gets you in the feels doesn’t it? It is his real dad and they really love each other. Keep strong and remember that you are fabulous on a good day but more than perfect when you get through a bad day x x

[@Pantherking916]

Amanda, you are so beautiful in every way from your eyes to your heart & how much you care about people you don't even know. Thank you for the rawness of your emotion & thank you for sharing more of yourself. You are truly a light for the world.

[@husaisanchez2244]

This song really makes me reflect on how beautiful life is, and to be with the ones you love while they still live. Having experienced lots of losses in my life since finishing high school, this song sure speaks volumes. Especially now that I not that long ago went through losing someone close to me and my family, I can't help but cry. plus, I know that it's okay to cry. sometimes you just have to let it go. my message to those who react to your videos, as well as to you who makes them happen is simply, let's cry with those who cry, and laugh with those who laugh.

[@markstone1619]

Whoa... I'm floored. This is my first time hearing this song and also my first time seeing your channel. I learned his father had Stage 4 kidney disease in the comments but did successfully get a donor transplant. I can't fathom anyone else on YT doing a better 'react' video than yours. Your story of your own father added so much & so glad you shared your story of that. Glad to see you built up the strength to cope with such losses, even tho it's so hard. I can relate heavily to both James & you, as my father had total kidney failure around 1972 and struggled/survived for 12 years after that on dialysis tho it weakened his other body systems over those years. He wanted to have a 'man-to-man' talk with me about his likely death during preparation for open heart surgery, but I (like you) also was in denial that it would result in his death (or him ever dying so young at age 58). I just kept telling him that he would "come out fine". He didn't, as he 'knew' inside that he wouldn't. I regret being in denial that it couldn't happen. Now I just learned that I'm at the edge of Stage 4 kidney failure myself and will have to handle that as best as I can, solo. I'm grateful that father was a great example/teacher of strength & overcoming what life throws at you.

[@dochubbell]

Amanda your reaction is heart felt and sweet. May any lingering grief turn into sweet memories. This song touches many many hearts of those who lost loved ones close to them. The message is let those who love others in family and friendships know that you love them. You never know when things will happen sooner than you expect. Love to you

[@gavinshaw6103]

Thanks for sharing this reaction Amanda. 20 years ago since I lost my dad and I still have moments where I just tear up. This song does it every time but I love listening to it. It is a great release.

[@allankirk1128]

You got that pat, so many people miss it, with love.VOIDRAKER SAYS YES.

[@AMentorway4u]

You seem like a Beautiful soul, honest and true. God Bless you for sharing your story. Im sure that your dad is watching over you. True LOVE os all around us, we need wyes to see it and to allow our hearts to feel it. Bravo on this video

[@judgedino]

I haven't let my emotions out & cried my eyes out for a long long time! Every now and again it's good to let go! Thank you! So glad I found you! XX

[@jusdally]

What a beautiful soul you have❤ You completely understood the song and emotions. You found the beauty in this song, and it brightened my heart.

[@nellime426]

I’m so sorry for your dad , but this song is just perfect for saying goodbye but it breaks my heart I lost my dad too and I know the feeling Love from Germany 🇩🇪

[@robin2629]

Thanks you so much for your openness and honesty. It was very interesting to listen to you. Keep up the work and best greetings from Germany :)

[@spartuz71]

Hi Amanda I am a new subscriber thank you for creating this channel where we can talk about our struggles. I've been dealing with anxiety and depression since the age of 14 now Im 50 and have a good days and bad days, lost my dad to cancer in 2001 and my mom in 2015, after I lost my mom my mind went to a really dark place but I decided to keep fight, You are a beautiful soul Amanda. Thank you Again, you are making a difference!

[@MentalAmanda]

Losing my mom sent me spiraling too. We aren't taught to deal with grief! I'm proud of you for continuing to fight. Remember, you can find ways to share her love with the world every single day.

[@oldjesus8978]

I've watched many reactions to this song and yours was, hands down, the best I've seen! Please stay exactly as you are !!

[@gerrynewport3894]

This is the best reaction to this video I’ve seen! You have a beautiful and intelligent mind and an enormous heart! Bless you!

[@ShibuChoAdrian]

Amanda - keep fighting - we're all touched by poor mental health in our lives - conversations that we should have with those that we love can sometimes be the cause of our angst. Thank you for opening your heart on this one, your Dad would be proud of you and is. Take care of yourself, you're precious.

[@Jos_G.]

Woow, Amanda... How well spoken and understood, even before the chorus was started. In this video you make your apologies for being emotional talking about your mental health in other videos. I did not watch them but do know that it sometimes gives much relieve watching someone else cry about the same subject, people don't feel alone. I hope you are doing well now. Wishing you all the best.

[@MentalAmanda]

If I apologized, I take it back! We should never be sorry for being human!

[@DavidMoore_Golden]

The absolute best reaction video I've ever seen. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@KaotikMotorsports]

OMG Amanda this hits home in a VERY VERY hard way……. I feel EXACTLY the same way as he is saying in the song Again thank you Amanda

[@CeeMoney1961]

Such a beautiful and heartfelt reaction! May your dad rest in peace, Amanda

[@delevar5780]

This song wrecked me for a week. Seeing someone else go through all the emotional runs like you did affirms my own reaction when I saw it. Thank you dearly for sharing this part of yourself. I don't know you, but something tells me that your parents are proud of you.

[@kenwithrow9032]

Little sis my condolences on your parents! My mom is gone too and my dad is 85. And I do t know what I'm gonna do when he goes where I can't follow. My dad is my hero always has been and always will be! Keep up the good work and good music. It uplifts people and makes them feel better. God bless you and may he smile on you and your family.

[@abrahamlave8218]

I'm so sorry for your loss... My dad was the same as your dad..You seem like the sweetest person..Sending all the love your way!❤❤

[@tilemonkee5510]

You are a TREASURE!!The effort and work you have put into Life itself, is nothing other than admirable! My dad was a guy who valued a good time more than he valued his wife,but he wasn't a monster,he was just weak. Keep up the good fight,my friend!!!

[@AxianTee]

You have such a kind soul. Thank you for sharing your story

[@hichambarrak2902]

A heart-wrenching song & I did appreciate your reaction & comments. Thanks Amanda. I'm sure guys will explain to you the story behind this song as it is a true story. As for James Blunt, he has a distinctive voice, very british accent.

[@MentalAmanda]

I have a soft spot for guys who show their emotions and british accents!

[@larryshair]

Beautiful reaction. I had a very similar story and reaction on my channel that goes live tomorrow (Recorded last week and goes live on 11/22). I actually broke out in tears on this song. Amazing song and tribute. Thanks for keeping it real.

[@larrychasen1070]

Thank you for such a thoughtful reaction to a song that is immensely powerful for so many of us. Don't we all wish we could have expressed these feelings while our parent/parents were still alive. Alas, I missed that opportunity. Hopefully this song will inspire others to not let the opportunity go by.

[@metalmark1214]

Certainly an emotional song, my mother fought cancer for 8 years, my dad a sudden heart attack. Both have been gone more than 20 years. They say time heals all wounds, but I'd say, as I think you and others here would agree, Time only lessens the wounds.

[@MentalAmanda]

Mine was reversed! My dad was terminal and my mom died of a sudden heart attack. For me, time might heal the wound, but there will always be a scar.

[@louisejohnson6057]

It's been 30 years since my dad passed, and 29 years since my mum passed away. Time has of course lessened the pain 💔, but it's always there, like a lump in my throat. There are times when my need for a hug from them is staggering. In fact, just writing the previous sentence made my eyes fill with tears.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@louisejohnson6057 I know I will never stop missing mine, I just try to shift the pain and use the grief for something positive and loving.

[@Vyselink]

There is a fantastic Emily Dickinson poem known as "They say that 'Time Assuages'" (I say known as because Dickinson didn't actually name her poems, so most of them are known by their first line): They say that "Time assuages"-- Time never did assuage-- An actual suffering strengthens As Sinews do, wih Age-- Time is a Test of Trouble-- But not a Remedy-- If such it prove, it prove too There was no Malady-

[@johnshea5967]

Suicide survivor,I watch and listen to many reaction videos,you young lady are by far the most astute reactor I have watched,you understood what James wad trying to purvey better than anyone else,and yes it is powerful,ps James's father fortunately did not pass as James expected,he did however receive a donated organ from a distant relative who was made aware of his situation through this song,James donated all profits from this song to charity,the power of music is limitless,ps Suicide survivor you are a beautiful human being,mankind needs people just like you!!!

[@davidlewis2555]

Well, that had me crying. I knew the song already, but wanted to see your reaction and breakdown of the lyrics. My dad died suddenly 2 months ago and if I'm honest I'm really, really struggling at the moment. He died peacefully in his sleep in his favourite chair. The absolute perfect way for him to go, but I feel I never had that moment to say goodbye as it was so sudden. I hope, I think he was proud of my and his grandkids. My son (now 19) was born with a lifelong bowel condition. and I also hope that I've been able to chase some of his monsters away when he's been in for all his surgeries. He's also had several surgeries for spinal issues and I know it's affected his mental health, Sometimes all I can do is hug him or pat him on the arm and tell him I'm there for him.......but it often feels too little and I feel helpless. My wife is struggling with her own health issues and now my daughter (16) has been diagnosed with the same spinal issues as my son. We go to the hospital today to hear if she will need the same surgery my son had (which ultimately failed). I'm supporting my mum who was in hospital for 8 weeks last year and caught Covid in hospital. She's still very weak and very down after the death of dad. Through it all I'm trying so hard to support my wife and 2 kids and sometime an arm on their shoulder feels so insignificant and just not enough.......so thank you for showing me that sometimes it is enough.

[@MentalAmanda]

If there is one thing I've learned, it's that we don't mourn their death. We mourn having to live without them. Just the fact that you are so concerned about whether your dad was proud or you scared your sons monsters away tells me that you have nothing to worry about. If you're being conscious of it, you are acting from your heart most the time 💗 You are doing amazing at being a protector and supporter. Just don't forget about yourself. You matter and you can't give if your own bucket is empty.

[@jamescurfman3284]

Amanda, I had to pause your reaction in the middle of the video. I promise to come back to the video later but I can't finish it at this moment. I have massive issues (I still have problems with the memory of my Dad; he passed in 2006) and I have to calm down a little before I can finish your video. James is awesome but I didn't watch his music video before experiencing it with your reaction here. This hits WAY harder than I expected. I am a total stranger to you except for some times when I have left comments and you have responded (which is SO AWESOME of you!). We don't know each other past that but I HAVE to tell you, I am SO proud of you. You are AMAZING! I know that it must take a LOT of work for anybody to come back from an attempt. I am so glad that you are still with us and you are using your life, your time, your energy and your platform for one of THE BEST causes! BLESS YOU! Luv ya!

[@MentalAmanda]

I completely understand. Sometimes we have to take a breath. Songs can do that to me too. Or shows even. Luv you too!

[@user-vt2js6ut8x]

sorry about your loss of your parents Amanda! I love your video

[@ronmcbride4474]

You are such a beautiful person and spirit....so glad you found your way and helping others.

[@sharonvincent4238]

Yours is the most insightful reaction to this song I have seen. I thought that this is how people who love each other should say goodbye. 💕

[@deejayturtle]

I dont recall if I suggested this for a reaction or not. So happy you found this beautiful tribute to fathers. James wrote this for his dad. His dad was needing a kidney or something and couldn't find one. James wrote the song and played it for his father privately. That is his dad in the video. Someone saw the video and gave his dad a kidney, so happy ending. What a lovely song for everyone who is losing or has lost their father,

[@jamesmulanax1424]

Everyone has some sort of trigger that gets to them. For me it was "chasing the monsters away". Dad wouldn't chase the monsters away, he was the monster, and I had to chase him away. Regardless, I appreciate seeing how much James loves his father and singing his tribute song thinking the end was near. Still makes me cry, though. Peace be with you all.

[@AurioDK]

I had plenty of fathers James, most of them drunks with a temper to match the Greek tragedy my life as a kid was. I still cried a Spring thawing river upon listening, I think some of us cry because we empathise with J. Blunt. Some of us might also cry because we can only imagine what such a relation with a father would be like, or perhaps a mix of both.

[@WillPage]

@@AurioDK I cry because because I can only imagine what it must be like to feel that way about your father. I lost my mum at 8yo and my father is every kind of bad. He was the moster. I think trauma victims are the often most empathetic too.

[@WillPage]

Great comment man. My father too, was the monster!

[@AurioDK]

@@WillPage In movies we are always the bad guys ... kind of sad really.

[@WillPage]

@@AurioDK true.

[@aaronzeiger216]

Death to me is scary and a release at the same time. I'm not suicidal because I won't put my family through the hell my sister did when she killed herself. But I'm not exactly hiding from the grim reaper either. I'm so sorry about your family. As far as impressing your dad, You impressed him by staying alive, having a lovely personality and being a beautiful person.

[@mom23mangos34]

Wow. You got this song from the very beginning and truly understood the lyrics and dynamics.

[@pidxxx]

Every once in a while we are gifted a song that hits home and this song really hit hard for me. James wrote this song in 2019, the same year I lost my mum. My mum was my foster mum from when I was a baby right through my childhood and the life I have now is all down to that wonderful lady that sacrificed so much for me. My foster dad passed when I was 6 and because she was going to be a single parent back in 1979 they authorities wanted to take me away and re-home me and she was like hell you are. My brother left school without any qualifications at 16 and began working full time to bring in a wage so I could remain in the family and he was just like a dad bringing me up with my mum. I sadly lost my brother last November to Covid and it now leaves me as the last one so I DO leave a light on and live my life to make them all proud in their names. I too have struggled with mental health after losing my sister in 1992 and I attempted to end it all but now I’m so glad I didn’t because I now learn from my experience and pass on my fight to the younger generation I work with at a university and I’ve helped so many that have been that low. Live your lives guys, make it what YOU want it to be for yourself and not others, by doing that your making your loved ones proud. Great reaction video and I’d say the best one I’ve watched yet.

[@scifimonkey3]

The only song that consistently makes me break down. Takes me instantly back to my dads last days and even though.I know that James’ dad made it through with a transplant I cannot help but blub to this beautiful but haunting song. This song also flags up another important message, …………tell your loved ones that you love them and thank them for what they do for you on as regular basis as you can. Don’t wait to do it at their eulogy cos they can’t hear you.

[@yjwrangler7819]

All I can say is ...yes. There isn't much to add

[@RebeccaMidyette]

This song always reduces me to tears very quickly. Thank you for your reaction.

[@rshappy123]

Thank you, that was a beautiful reaction. I wish you the best

[@jenniferbooth9348]

I think everyone has lost a loved one or a very dear friend and this song is for everyone. When I heard the song the first time I didnt know the backstory but I’m happy that his father did receive the kidney. There are many who are not so lucky. A beautiful tribute. Your emotions are very raw. I’m sorry about your father but just know he’s watching over you snd your mom.

[@poodlegirl55]

That was the first time his Dad heard the song. Everyone on the crew was crying. The record company wanted to fix the cracks in his voice when he got emotional but he wanted to keep it real.

[@elizabethweaver9364]

You are so young, yet you’ve gone through so much. You are more intuitive of life and death and the importance of letting go of worldly problems and moving on! I think you would be an amazing friend to have!! They are very lucky!

[@MentalAmanda]

I always welcome new friends!

[@TheJohmac]

This is one of those songs that fills you with emotion. I find it healing, even though I believe I have grieved my father sufficiently, this song reminds me of all the emotions that process entails, and is a way, in my mind to honor the memory of my father. My goodbye with my father wasn't nearly this dramatic or articulate, but it was good, it was mutual respect and admiration. Sometimes it is nice to be reminded of those painful memories and to spend a bit of time in that emotion.

[@stobbersteve]

Came across this by accident Amanda, when I saw the bunny ears I almost didn't watch but I'm glad I did, thank you for the very articulate, spiritual and sensitive way you spoke 🙏 , it is his farther in the video.x

[@mountainechoes1886]

I just recently found your channel a few hours ago n I let every emotion that I could not let my sisters nieces and daughter see me in

[@tcborg]

Amanda....i`m 2 years down the line...but still a sad reaction.. very tearful..... only made brighter cos you are beautiful..xxx

[@matthewgoodA1206]

This song really coaxes the tears at every listen. Such a simple, stark and sad ballad. Even though James is miming his studio recording you can see he’s still brought to tears by his own song. Which is perfectly understandable. I haven’t had the best relationship with my parents, particularly when I was much younger and still very mixed-up. Now that I’m older- and they are as well- we’re all more at peace with each other. But unfortunately, this song now has an added layer to it for me, as my cousins just lost their father to cancer under a week ago. His diagnosis was years back, but then this year he went into hospice… and now he’s gone. It’s a heavy void. And this is a beautiful song.

[@mrd9161]

Pretty sure this wasn’t mimed it was a live take

[@matthewgoodA1206]

@@mrd9161 Well, if that’s the case, then this was used on the studio album, as all of the instrumentation, plus lead and backing vocal parts are exactly the same as this on the record. As well, the singing by the children’s choir was prerecorded, so I don’t see much chance that a live performance would feature a studio vocal track, unless it was dubbed in during post-production. Regardless, what you hear here is a total match to the version on his studio release, which I own a copy of.

[@ingekjetilbratset8839]

Hi Amanda. Just want to tell you that this is the greatest reaction to this beautiful, but sad song I've seen. You get it all (apart from the start that is haha). I'm sure your father is very proud of you.

[@mattpotter8725]

Amazing response and you are right this is real emotion that you can see and hear in his voice. He wrote this song when his dad was dying and needed a kidney transplant, neither of his children being matches. A distant cousin was found after this song was put out and his dad had the transplant and is still alive, but at the time James doesn't know this so I guess this was him saying goodbye to his dad. I've not lost my dad like you but I still find this song so emotional and hard not to cry when watching. You should react to some more of his songs, I'd suggest Carry Me Home, Goodbye My Lover, and Same Mistake, I feel that all these songs James puts his unique singing into, as well as a lot of his heart and soul as well. As other people have said James was a high ranking officer in the British Army, he served in the Balkan War in the 90s after the breakup of Yugoslavia where he famously disobeyed the order of the US NATO airfield that was being held by the Russians claiming he didn't want to start WWIII!!! It is amazing how someone like him can be so talented in songwriting as well. His wife is very lucky!!!

[@damienosullivan193]

I like how he responds to people who give him bad tweets. He uses good humour when they troll him, a couple of examples, "a little bit of James Blunt never hurts anyone", and he goes, "depends where you put it". Another, "James Blunt has no talent, no this or that", and he just goes" and no mortgage". He has even written whole book of all sorts of tweets he has done. I have heard that when he responds to a troll, he would show one to his wife, and if she shakes her head in horror he took it as good enough to press send. Anyway all jokes aside, you say you don't think you gave your dad a lot to be proud of when he was alive. The way you describe him when he was alive, he was definitely proud of you. You described a pretty good father who thought the world of you, he really did I think. And your mother, the post you gave me on Instagram, she sounds like good fun how she bonded over the music you and I remember from school. I know my father was a good guy too. There are things I beat myself up over, I know I shouldn't. How I feel, can be well explained in the song, The living years" by Mike and the Mechanics. I think I have seen you come a long way in the short amount of time I have known you, you are definitely in a much better place than even a month ago, all the best 😊😊👍

[@tdb2012]

Powerfully moving song. And wonderful reaction. You have a new subscriber.

[@crabbymottram]

My son and my granddaughter who lives both have serious mental issues so although I have never suffered by things like schizophrenia/bipolarism and many of the 'terms' awarded to them I do know the effects and depths of despair they sadly suffer! I lost 3 very dear friends through depression because I never saw the signs of their suffering! I spend every day regretting that and wishing I had seen the signs of their darkness. The Simon and Garfunkel 'He Was A Most Peculiar Man' sums up depression and how the world fails to understand it remarkably :( I am so sorry for what you have been through Amanda but feel certain that you are strong enough to help others who have lived your nightmare x

[@horstschafer1839]

I'm on your side.. My parents are both about 80... There comes the time they have to leave... You can't prepare to... Thanks for your reactions!!! We'll go this way together!!!

[@jacobboykin-ex2hk]

took me long enough to focus and find this video, but here i am, thank you for this...

[@b3r3tta95]

love love love this

[@carolbailey4849]

Never apologize for having emotions. I liked the way you explained a different view I had not thought of. Thank you

[@zdenkogruber1028]

Magnificient song, and very, very beautiful commentary, smart, true, personal, clear... I think you are doing a good job. Thank you and keep on doing beautiful things... 👍👋

[@user-vt2js6ut8x]

I'm so sorry about your loss of your dad! I like your video

[@brrryan2908]

I'm glad you connected positively with this song. Not everyone gets to say goodbye. My dad was on the other end of the country when he suddenly lost consciousness from a traumatic brain injury. He died a month later on Valentines day. It has devastated my mom. Please consider reacting to REALIZE by THE FLAMING LIPS.

[@stealthfrag9060]

I truly hope you are what you say, first time seeing your video. As a survivor I know it all, I didn't want to survive. but I think your reaction is genuine

[@UranusMcVitieFish-yd7oq]

The bit that really gets me is towards the end where James looks his Dad in the eyes and sings "let there be no darkness in your heart" before quickly looking away. I'm autistic spectrum and looking someone in the eye, even a loved one, literally drains my energy and makes me feel over stimulated (there is too much going on because faces keep moving and changing) Basically the briefly looking directly at someone and then having to quickly break eye contact is something I'm aware I do all the time.

[@Hashtag_Not_All_Hippies]

I wondered about your reactions to this song. I am also a multiple suicide attempt survivor, and this song was hard for me to watch. But it is an awesome song. And your reaction is spot-on. Thank you.

[@lindy1642]

Awesome reaction...you were spot on and noticed all the little things..

[@shadsullivan7817]

I watched my father die as well. He died at only 53 of brain cancer. To see someone so strong and your hero slip away like a storm in the summer takes a toll on you. I loved your reaction by the way, so thank you for being so kind in regards to this subject. God bless you in every way.

[@briansgamesandanime]

This song hits home for me. I just lost my aunt 2 months ago to Covid. She had underlying conditions like COPD, Bronchitis, high blood pressure, and was on oxygen for a wreck she was in back in 2007. Because she had Covid and I was having to quarantine, I couldn't be there when she passed. I know she's finally pain free and at peace but it still hurts she died alone like that.🥺

[@kerrylynch449]

As painful as this song is it is so beautiful at the same time. I'm sad to hear you struggle with mental health. I lost my big brother to depression 25 years ago, my dad 4 months later, ( broken heart) and mum 10 months later from cancer. I am in my later years myself now but struggle with the Black Dog every day. Just know that you are a beautiful soul who has a lot to offer the world and we would all be the poorer for your absence. Stay strong and never feel bad about sharing your needs and feelings.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm such a Harry Potter nerd that you said Black Dog and it took me a solid 15 seconds to realize you weren't referring to Sirius Black (Padfoot.) That is a LOT of loss to experience in a lifetime, let alone all at once. Of course that traumatized you! It would traumatize anyone. Just please know that it is never too late to find ways to share their love and wisdom with the world and find healing yourself. 💗 Here if you ever need to talk.

[@calvin4up]

It'd been 6 years since my dad died. Thought I'd made peace with it. Then heard this and damn closest I've come to crying in a long long time. Beautful , raw and pure. Love it

[@MentalAmanda]

There's a song by Mike Shinoda called Over Again. "Sometimes we don't say goodbye once, we say goodbye over and over and over again." My parents passed in 05 and 07 and there are still things that make me cry.

[@rx7dude2006]

I'm glad you talked about telling the one to let go it will be ok.I did this with my mom and she passed within 15 minutes of me telling her that and she was the one who told me that we need this to finally let go many years earlier.

[@CORN-FED-COUNTRY-STRONG]

Yes his father was terminal. How he did this is beyond me. I to watched my father slowly pass away and as much as I love this song it's amazing hard to listen without crying. Great video 🙏🙏

[@lynettejones3076]

Beautifully done Amanda…❤️

[@iwantcheesypuffs]

Loved the pink ensamble with the bunny ears and complimentary color finger nails. You have a good and sincere spirit about you.

[@poppad331]

Hi Amanda, new subscriber here about to check out your other videos. Great job on this one. This song. more than any other, makes me cry

[@davidgaps6589]

A message to all of Amanda's s supporters. Many of us have a lot to thank Amanda for with all her support. I would love to see some support shown back to her. KZbin looks at views and likes when it post videos for recommendations. Please make sure you like her videos. As well as try watching, and liking, her vlogs. I think you may even discover some advice or suggestions to help in your daily life. At least you may see that you are not alone in some of your issues and struggles. Let's help her, and also help her to help others as well as us. Thank you for the support, and thank you for making this community all the better with your presence.

[@rictodd2841]

I lose it everytime I watch this video. We never stop grieving no matter how long it's been. Keep your chin up. Your dad is so proud of you!! 😊

[@patrickgoss1428]

I just recently discovered your content. I have enjoyed listening to your upbeat ideas and encouragement for those who may be struggling. I clicked on this video not ever hearing it before...... The last few months i have been living in the appartment in the basement of my fathers home. In that time i have been struggling with has been the hardest few months of my life to date. My father just turned 70 last month which is incredibly young to be deali g with dementia. When i arrived in the beginning of April my father at least recognized me. However now three months later he referes to me as that guy and our interactions have been reduced to him commenting and correcting whatever it is i may be doing. I have been here specifically because my "step-sisters" were trying to move him out of state which is not what he wants to do. They planned on moving him by tricking him onto a plane then put him in a memory care facility when they got there. They planned all of this behind my back after convincing me that i did not need to come up and assess the situation. My father and i have had a strained relationship for years. A product of the bitter custody battle between my parents more than 30 years ago. A process that has kept he and my brother from speaking to one and other for over 20 years now. Watching this video had me sobing and facing some truths that had yet to confront. And exposed some issues i wasn't aware i needed to confront. I found it comforting as i was balling my eyes out with face in my hands to hear you voice in the background. I suspect as is ofen the case for peopld like you who expose themselves, their emotions, their hearts, their failings and weaknesses that you do not get thanked enough for what you do. Thank you. Today you provided me with something i didn't know i needed.

[@MentalAmanda]

A loved one getting dementia is my worst nightmare. It's like they are there, but gone. I hope that, despite the hurdles, your family finds ways to make peace. And I hope you continue finding strength 💖