"Fixing" My Sadness By Going Away

While in need of a reset, I thought a week away would be the fix. And it was… but in an unexpected way. After days of being sick, feeling sad and not sure what exactly was wrong, I finally got some clarity. Join me on this vlog where I spend a week living slowly while away and finally discover a bit more about what I really want and need. Things might seem peachy on the surface, but we are all just people going through this journey of life.
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- about me -
Hi there! My name is Dalia and I'm a girl in my 30's living life in Canada! On my channel you'll see videos about DIY projects, home upgrades, vlogs, get ready with me, Q&A's, etc. Thanks for stopping by and I hope you enjoy!
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[@lizzie.136]

I remember reading something silly but it kind of helped: "what's the opposite of depression?, it's expression" and I guess it helps have a space and time to feel the feels, recognize them

[@rebekahschroeder7949]

I Peter 5:7 is a favorite Bible verse of mine when it seems the weight of the world threatens to rob me of my joy. “Cast all your cares on Him (God) because He cares for you.” He is the creator of the universe, of me and you! He knows! He cares! When you think of all the intricate details of those seashells, the birds singing, the palms waving in the breeze…He created all of that. Even that bird you captured on camera with the big shadow! He even cares about that bird…if He cares about that bird, how much more does He care about YOU?! ☺️ Thank you for sharing your trip with us. And letting us get glimpses of your relationship with Parth. He seems so sweet and kind.

[@jacquelinerodriguez561]

I love watching your videos. They always bring me back to center. I’m also fighting anxiety and depression. It’s great to know I’m not the only one.

[@MicheleWalkerWebb]

Me also. Good luck to you. 😊

[@g.d.anonymous8235]

Dalia, I'm not a doctor, but I have been in counseling and have seen medical doctors for depression that comes and goes, but mainly comes and stays. So many times I get in my head and try to figure out why am I feeling this way, why can't I make it better. It just happens, and it does so to many of us. If you feel you cannot get away from that sadness, try researching counselors. There is no shame in this. The harmful part is that we take care of our bodies, but neglect that our minds are the biggest part of our health. Everything works in unison, so we need to acknowledge this. That's why we have a head on our shoulders. Bless you and take a journey with all of this in mind.

[@moussabby]

I am currently going through the same thing: feeling sad (unhappy, lost and very much scared even) but I have yet to reach clarity and healing. Thanks for showing me one way to get there. I hope you're feeling better, sending you so much love!

[@lyric1320]

Hey Dalia, I want to share something I once heard someone say that really spoke volumes to me..they said Wherever YOU go...there YOU are. Meaning changing sceneries doesn't necessarily remove what emotional or mental feelings we are dealing with...we have to seek help to deal with the underlying things that is causing the state of emotions we are feelings. I dont know if you are a spiritual person or religious person but during these times you can benefit from seeking some form of higher power..even if that is therapy of some sort. I am a religious person and I not pushing my religion on you but Satan seeks us more during periods of isolation or depression but God holds us and leads us to ELEVATION. I want to encourage you to count your blessings..Rebuke Satan out of your mind...go to your door, open it, and LITERALLY tell Satan he has NO PLACE HERE!!!. Read some motivational and daily scriptures that fight of feelings of depression and I will pray for God's covering over you. Praying for your healing and for God to restore light back into your soul. 🙏🤗🌻

[@LittleCocoStudio]

This was so personal, thank you for sharing what you're going through and thinking. I'm glad the trip gave you clarity and direction. We will be here to support you as a creative human in whatever form you need to thrive.

[@Princessmom9]

You, my dear, are blessed because you are a blessing to so many. You are not alone in how you have been feeling. I love you and your wonderful husband. About a month ago I was feeling the same way. Every night around the same time I would feel like I was coming down with the flu but had no fever. By early morning I would be feeling better. I realized after that time passed that it was due to my depression and my body was telling me to rest. Sometimes we just need to rest our body and mind. I don't know if there is such a thing as a rest for those of us live with mental health issues but I am glad that you were able to get away for a time to just relax.

[@alexandraturnbull2783]

Thanks for sharing 💕 looks like a beautiful trip and appreciate your lovely sentiments and perspective as always

[@deborahgeelhood843]

I haven't caught your videos in a while. So glad to have come across this one. It is obvious from the comments you are fondly thought of and we love your soul. Your husband is perfect for you and much enjoyed in your videos. You seem to have a lot of insight into your emotions. At the end of your video you stated you prayed that the clarity would continue. God promised that if you come to him when you are weary, he will give you rest. I will pray with you that you continue in clarity and find peace.

[@marsalgo2320]

So beautifully said!

[@jescr9418]

I'm also fighting with this weird sadness feeling and sense of purpose. It's exhausting. It's a daily challenge, but all we can do is keep showing up for ourselves. Sending positive vibes your way, Dalia! ❤

[@randyw4984]

Reset or Re invention, I am a 66 year old female, for Years there was always a script running, I was always taking the path my parents wanted. I worked at a company for 30 years ,that was not worthy of how true to their customers or hard working I was. That said I retired well and I am grateful for what I left that company with. YOU are a good daughter, they will love you no matter what. You and Parth are not in trouble....Take your path! reinvent that path when necessary!!Let the expectation aspect go.... Truly the hardest thing in life is what would make us happy...That changes...Reinvent, Love and be loved, be kind.You have a partner that is willing to work on Your lives. BTW it was a earlier video of your's that made me realize I was always chasing the expectations of others...I also am ADD, Others expectations may have to do with having to work harder to hide a little Nero divergence... Let's waste no time....let's figure it out! Your future is bright ,you are smart and introspective and you have a really good husband!!

[@wombmenempowerment]

Thank you for sharing ❤ healing thyself is one of the most liberating experiences & this video is a beautiful depiction of that. Feeling is a superpower!

[@nikki6814]

I’m going through the same thing currently. Thank you for being honest, sharing your story and transparent 💜

[@ocean_dg_ofc]

Hello Dear Dalia.. I have been watching your videos for a while now and I have been noticing it, that you may not able to put your “finger” on yourself. Depression = depressing your authentic self (most humans do this without even knowing it, hence many health issues) . That’s what it literally means. You’re stuck and on a loop for a while in this state of being, and it saddens me to see it. I see you and your pains Dalia. The past 3 years I have been on a massive intense healing journey myself and it caused a beautiful inner transformation for me and freed me literally. I needed a spiritual awakening for me to really start doing “the work” but mostly become so aware of everything and understanding the connection of all (mind body soul) and how trauma works. Patterns. Childhood trauma (even the ones you may not even reckon as). We are mind body soul.. when you understand this you will find your way to heal YOU. Feeling = healing tho. Sit with ur pain and allow it all (all emotions) without judgement. The release (energy stuck in your trauma body is toxic) will literally create space, and u will notice it. It’s not a one day thing. It’s life rewarding commitment to yourself because you want to be better and understand what is going on and why. And never look for a “fix” again. Because you shift energy and reality by healing yourself. We humans are not here to be on survival mode.. (95% of humans are). When you find out the true you, the authentic you behind the wounds and conditioning.. then you will set yourself slowly free. You will have to go through the mud first. But I promise you it’s worth it!! My whole life changed after my transformation and I am so happy it happend. I have never felt soooo good in my entire life. And i am 41. My best help on my journey which I urge you to follow + get her book (mindblowing really) everything will fall into place for you too. I am 100% sure about this! Check her: The Holistic Psychologist on instagram fb and KZbin too. Her book: How To Do The Work (Nicole LePera) she is been a blessing to me and 7 millions of her followers walking this journey too. You are not alone 🤍🙏🏽 In her book she is taking you on her journey of her own and her clinical experiences and FINDINGS especially what trauma does on deeper level. And she is guiding you how to do the work (healing + innerwork). Trauma is not always something big.. sometimes it’s something we NEVER learned or receveid but needed from our parents.. and the wounds never go away.. unless we become aware of it and heal it ourselves. (Innerchild healing). My dear I wish you all the best🤍🙏🏽 I never comment but I felt guided to put it out here. I am sure if it is your time you will do what’s needed🙏🏽 The only way “out” = IN 🤍

[@pman2916]

I'm so glad you have hubby there with you. Be good to yourself. It's not selfish to put yourself first in times like this.

[@Aunty87]

I love how you process your experiences 🤗❤️ It's a privilege to watch your journey, thank you for sharing. I'm glad you got some hammock time! 😎

[@renpatman]

This is what we all need. To be honest about societal measures of success vs our own well-being. Only a few who've taken the brave step of choosing well-being over assumed security will understand the mourning you speak of. Also shout out go Parth for being a PARTNER! Stay playful and innocent....this is how we live meaningful lives ❤

[@loristanley6594]

Sending you healing hugs, wish you could see yourself from my eyes. I look forward to all your videos, advice and truly amazing design talents. I am amazed at all you can do and the ideas that come to you are so awesome. You inspire, spread joy and are beautiful inside and out. Hope you are rested and finding your way. p.s. love how supportive your husband is, truly romantic.♥

[@loranthiweerakoon2011]

Be strong….your husband must be a wonderful kind & understanding person…we all have our bad days,believe me I know the feeling..some days for no particular reason…take care❤

[@angelikialbanis9809]

[@darianowicka1832]

Thank you so much for sharing and being so open about it. You are truly beautiful in and out and the love you have in the marriage is so inspiring. Wishing you peace of mind and freedom 🤗

[@alyssabernal2758]

Dang I really relate to this, especially the piece about wanting to feel free but even when certain circumstances change I still don’t quite feel free. I feel like I’m viewing your video and realizations at the right time. Thank you for sharing so intimately.

[@coll4455]

Love this! Beautiful video you did a wonderful way of describing how it can feel

[@santokki0502]

Tbh, i love your DIY videos, but I love these vids of yours even more.When I read the caption, I immediately said "this is me" and true enough, what you shared here is exactly what I'm feeling on and off for a couple of years now. Thank u for sharing and making me feel that what I'm feeling is not some sort of a "self-induced drama" that my family keeps on telling me. ❤

[@hopejstone]

Dalia! I love how transparent this is, I totally get it. Praying your clarity continues as well. Along with your new perspective and reflection, I would also encouage looking at your vitamin intake. I'm not a doctor but I'm a freelance creative and found my emotional mood was helped with B12 and magnesium, but recommend checking with your doctor to see if you are missing a nutrient that supports mood. All the best!

[@madelynvazquez9006]

I think we all experience different levels of sadness at some point in our lives, for whatever reasons that may be, and sometimes it may even make us feel like we’ve failed. My way of fighting those emotions is to remember myself what I have accomplished and maybe it’s not all I dreamed but it’s all that I needed. Sending you my prayers and reminding you that you have an amazing talent and creativity that we all enjoy 😘 thanks for sharing Dalia, May God fill your heart with joy.

[@Bullie_mama]

Glad you got to take some time for yourself! You deserve it ❤

[@melissahatfield4773]

Mental health is extremely important. Take time for yourself daily. Find time to clear your mind and reset. Meditation helps me. It doesn’t have to be a long meditation but just as long as you need.

[@jackandlill]

Trust yourself beautiful girl!! I can relate to your feelings but I can tell just by the way you dealt with them, are dealing with them that you will innately do what it takes to land on your feet! It's just who you are - we know fear is the thief of joy ( love that saying - its sooo true) and when you trust that you will rise to whatever the challenge may be you can have an easier time dealing with fear. jmho! So glad for you & your husband that you took time for yourselves by the beach - I find the ocean so healing! Be well my friend ❣

[@JSSCA-lk7hl]

I love Mexico, I’ve been once to Cancun and it was heaven on Earth! We went in November during the off season and it was not super crowded and the weather was 90s. Hop😊your feeling better!

[@katrinacool]

I'm glad you were able to get away to a tropical place. However as someone who lives on a tropical island living here doesn't change your mental health. I'm going through something similar where I'm not doing what I want to do either. I've suffered mentally and physically so now I'm making the decision to leave my comfortable employment and live for me. I've got support from my husband and I'm ready. After losing my brother to cancer last year I realized life is too short to worry. Live for today and do what I want and I will not let stress control my life. Im starting to feel free and happy again- and i deserve this. No expectations. Just do it. Trust me - it will work out for the best. Good luck Dalia and please know that we care. 😊☺️🥰❤️🦩☀️🌴🥰❤️🥰❤️

[@silversmithclasses]

Thank you for sharing, I’m so proud of you!❤ Hugs Ellen

[@NoraDesmond897]

Did anyone noticed the purple in the sky the 2nd time they went to the beach? The world is different now from when I grew up. There is so much negativity, disrespect, unaccountability, entitlement, add to that the constant corrections of what we should think, say, what we shouldn't think or say, it's no wonder why there is so much anxiety and depression. You kids are bombarded with a buttload of good and bad information. It all happened so fast that there was no chance to process in order to think for oneself. This life is about "like" or "dislike" no inbetween. Content creators have it hard. They have to come up with content that is relevant and pay attention to good and bad reviews, so to speak, in order to keep up with the Joanses. This could be a huge stressor. Depression and anxiety is the new "Burnout". I'm no doctor or therapist but I strongly believe every once in a while one needs to detach from TV, phones, computers and people. Take time to take care of oneself. For content creators I feel they should take a break and not feel bad about it. One doesn't always have to have an explanation for what they do.

[@edwinochieng8882]

those were really beautiful sunsets, I think you should have taken photo for some painting refs.

[@kaylaboyles2668]

I’m just now seeing this 💛 I love your honesty and vulnerability. It feels like you’re a very close friend. 💛

[@kufda]

Ever since Covid lockdowns, I’ve become very averse to crowds. I would not be able to handle the loud music & crowds in the pool either. Have you tried Pilates on the reformer machine? It has helped me tune into my body & breath more

[@MicheleWalkerWebb]

Loud music, lawn mowers, barking dogs. 2020 was horrendous. I worked at Home Depot and listened to everyone's theories. Everyone wanted to argue to be heard. I just wanted to be alone.

[@emilykochco]

Thank you this helped me I feel like ive been going through something similar as well minus being sick and more so random tiredness and sadness

[@anamuraro]

For those who are fighting depression, read about alchemy, specifically nigredo and mortificatio. The symptom is a clue to each operation you're stuck in your self development.

[@robwelch1]

Thank-you for sharing your vacation break... Please know you are an inspiration and a wonderful person, just know life is full of trials and tribulations.... don't be afraid, You're not alone 🌻

[@julieaw17]

Beautifully said and thoughtfully shared Dalia, this is as much a gift to your audience as your other fabulously creative videos are , such a treasure. Thank you ☺️

[@juliatoro109]

Thank you for sharing 🥰 🙏

[@loomonda18]

Sending you many hugs 🤗💕

[@missuma6822]

Dear beautiful Dalia thank you for the video, it set my mood on the right wave for the day ahead!

[@jennyirizarry4901]

I been feeling the same for about 6mos oh how I hate this feeling I’ve also tried to get away and be in the moment but the sadness is still there I kno y I’m having these feelings my marriage not doing well but I’m trying my hardest to fix and get out of this slump I kno it no conciliation but there is others feeling just like u But I’m determined to feel better

[@millerlena2208]

Amen. This is beautiful

[@amebaqer]

😮

[@nanadiycorner]

Definitely the right place✨

[@lisaschreiber2893]

OMG!! it’s sooo beautiful, I hate to be that person but is there a possibility of being pregant. I was sick, tired and feeling emotionally lost for lack of a better word when I was with mine.

[@DIYDalia]

haha definitely not the case for me :P

[@MicheleWalkerWebb]

You are not alone. ❤ 😊

[@estherolawuyi4204]

My beautiful DaHlia! I love you. that's all

[@nanadiycorner]

Clean space

[@shabbysuse7821]

❤

[@L0U1SE]

Feels like you need to make the changes

[@amylaws]

💕💕

[@nanadiycorner]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@gypsea23]

Sending love beautiful soul..🩷🩷🩷

[@shakie_my_love]

Am sending you love and support honey 🍯💗💕

[@rachelsavur3728]

Didn't you quit drinking alcohol? I wonder if your brain and body are trying to adjust? And yes, it can take months for the brain to heal damage caused by drinking. Hoping the best for you! Thank you for sharing real life.

[@galaxycat7960]

I don't wanna start anything but maybe you're pregnant? Idk just a thought... 🤔

[@kimt4340]

Could you possibly be expecting?

[@DIYDalia]

No lol that’s not it

[@nuthinbutlove]

The combination of running your hands through the sand and pool water is horrible for press on nails... just so you know in the future 🙂

[@NHOULI]

Hey, have you tried to listen to the Quran?

[@Randomsheis]

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[@adriennealine]

Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable with us. 🫶🏼 I started to tear up when you shared that you don’t know when you started telling yourself this lie, because it resonates with me so much. It’s a nice reminder that “thoughts become things, so choose the good ones” It’s obviously easier said than done, but a nice reminder nonetheless. Sending so much love your way, Dalia!