From Holy To Heretic | Why I Left Christianity

[@languagelearningexperience6814]

Yup. Very relatable. When a Christian says "you probably weren't a real Christian" they have no idea how hard I tried to get it "right" because I loved god/Jesus so much. As soon as you look into things, because you want to understand it better, it all falls apart.

[@walleras]

Come become a noahide.

[@donjiaye6263]

Try to look in to Islam ☪️ with an open mind and see

[@walleras]

@@donjiaye6263 Okay do you have proof of Islam?

[@donjiaye6263]

@@walleras what kind of proof do you do you need?

[@walleras]

@@donjiaye6263 A sign equivalent to what my fathers saw at mt. Sinai

[@ashleytheseeker8480]

Former muslim woman here. I have the same sentiments. I wish I left islam/religion a lot sooner.

[@WISDOMBITES1]

Ashley doesn't seem like a Muslim name.Lots of Muslim haters claim to be Ex-Muslims to encourage Muslims to leave their religion so it becomes a little suspicious when you realise that they may never have been Muslim in the first place. I hope you are being honest rather than attempting to deceive.🙂

[@ashleytheseeker8480]

@@WISDOMBITES1 sigh....so muslims only have Arabic names??

[@ashleytheseeker8480]

@WISDOMBITES1 I'm not a muslim hater, I am an ex muslim American. I was Muslim from ages 9 to 37. For you to say I'm being disingenuous because of my name shows you know nothing about muslims.

[@ashleytheseeker8480]

@rmr5563 thank you. It took me a while to leave. In islam were taught to always reevaluate our Iman, which I was constantly doing, but it wasn't bringing any solace.

[@Brisleep1]

@@ashleytheseeker8480 I too am happy for and proud of you! Not only for leaving a religion, especially one which openly discriminates against women but for ignoring the person who said your name is wrong because of your faith, lol! Apparently I should rush down to our local courthouse and pay a fee a disabled veteran who actually needs food that isn't delivered like mana from heaven, not only free but so nourishing to body and soul that I only need an apple sized amount for a day. Oh yes, and the name I should have based on my mom's faith when I was born, so, Luke, Matthew, John, or maybe the scariest book of the Bible, Revelations. Lmao! Oh wait, I'm not allowed to say the A word, because those who eat mana have no wastes, just sweat that vanishes during the extreme work I produce during the day. 😁🙄 Honestly though, you're taking the right steps, away from an extreme religion like Muslim or Christianity, and doing things like living without praying towards the east, even when Mecca is west because it's behind you, and other ridiculous things that people get wrong because of "faith", and "following the word of God", which you'd think a deity could put on stone tablets that would take a lifetime to read. Lol! Ok, I'm done laughing at people who write ridiculous things in response to a KZbin video. I hope you live a long healthy life before you get struck down for leaving a religion, just as everyone should so people don't saddle you with guilt because of your name, so ridiculous, I can't believe that person actually wrote that, peace, light and love to you sister.

[@LyleFrancisDelp]

Glad you came to YT. I don’t do TikTok. I really appreciate your views and your insight.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents, unbelief etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@LyleFrancisDelp]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 All humans need to be who they really are. Jesus never existed and certainly wasn't and isn't "GOD". Jesus never rose from the dead, because that's impossible. Grow up and be an adult.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

@@LyleFrancisDelp Jesus split time in 2 (AD and BC) God through the Holy Spirit has shown me several things relating to the afterlife with the purpose of convincing people like yourself. Stuff like Heaven and Hell, Angels, and evil Spirits the Lord Jesus (not worthy at all), a miracle happened to me that saved my life (thank you God) & so much more. I am more than happy to give further details.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

@Daathiel God is more important than tiktok,where you sped eternity i impotant to me and God. My care for you is like a drop in the ocean compared to God's care for you People underestimate hell, it is bad because it is separation from God. In a vision I was shown a person who claimed to be Christian but started fornication (premarital sex), He died relatively young and went to hell forever (1 Cor 6:9). God’s holiness means He will not coexist with sinners forever therefore Repent (Luke 13:3) and have a relationship with Jesus.

[@douglascutler1037]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Pascal's Wager 2.0: Are you betting man-made climate change is a hoax? What if you get to the gates of heaven and turns out the climate change was real? God commanded you to 'love thy neighbour as yourself' and then you turned your back as millions died from man-made climate change and gas car air pollution. What if Gold call you on it? But you were warned by this: “Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord will enter the kingdom of heaven . . . And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you’ . . . but the one who does the will of my Father [will enter heaven] Matthew 7: 21,23

[@StrollingwithStella]

Thank you for sharing your journey to us, I found your channel some weeks ago and I am hooked. I was born and raised as a jehovah's witness, was a devout believer until the age of 42. I was so depressed after leaving not knowing what to do afterwards. It took me a long time to build up my confidence and learn to trust and love myself. Growth is painful but it's worth it, funny I finally grew up in my 40s. I have finally learned how to be responsible and what being accountable means and started made decisions of what I truly want and be my authentic self. I love my life after leaving.

[@philosophicalneo]

This is a fruit of divergent movements. The Catholic Church is the only true Church of Jesus Christ and all protestants, mormons, and JWs are in error... How can we know this? Well, we must first acknowledge that there has been an actual providential history under the sovereignty of God. This is known from the Bible as Jesus promises a Church and the Holy Spirit to guide it. In other words, there is no view of history, especially Christian and Church history, that can remain valid or credible without showing its own continuity with the actual historical narrative. Jesus is the vine and his disciples are the branches. Thus there will ALWAYS be historical continuity that brings us right back to Christ, the Apostles, and those whom have been taught by them in the faith and guidance of the Spirit (the earliest of whom include: Ignatius of Antioch, Clement of Alexandria, Justin Martyr, Augustine, etc.) In other words, articulation and doctrine of the faith (such as veneration of relics of Saints [refer to Saint Polycarp's bones], praying to the Blessed Virgin [refer to 4th century inscriptions], believing in the True Presence of Christ in the Eucharist [refer to John 6 and Justin Martyr], or the veneration of icons [refer to John of Damascus and iconoclasm debate of 7th-9th century]) are not random concoctions without any context or reality. Instead, they are proper responses to condemn erroneous teachings and practices contrary to what was seen as normalized or even taken for granted in the one, holy, catholic, and apostolic church. Therefore, in order for any protestant to remain credible and present an argument against the Catholic Church, he or she must first demonstrate that the one Church instituted by Christ, handed down to the Apostles, disciples, and so on, AND guided by the Holy Spirit, ceased to exist at some point in history and was only recovered by the 'faithful providence of God's plan in Luther'... or Joseph Smith... or some other biblical exegete who decided he (or she) finally understood the Bible as it was meant to be interpreted... you know... instead of the reality in which it has been revealed, compiled, and preserved. In other words, most christians have given up the race before really even beginning it because theyve been misled by protestant falsities. If it's from the Holy Spirit, it's Catholic!

[@simplifiedlife8607]

Thanks for your comment, I can relate to what you went through. I was a JW for 45 years, left a year and a half ago. I'm glad you made your way out. I view my time as a witness as what I needed to experience at that time, now I'm continuing my education in this earth school, freedom is wonderful.

[@StrollingwithStella]

@@simplifiedlife8607 hey, so glad to hear your exit from jws, we somehow validate each other's journey. I'm so happy and proud of you. There is so much to learn especially how to get along with the so called world and it's views.

[@DavidWalden-qb1yt]

Thank you so much for your videos. I am 87 years old and I have spent much of my life ridding myself of Christian nonsense. It helps me greatly to hear you give voice to struggles I have had for decades.

[@Jay-oj4hj]

Please return to Jesus before it is too late he still loves you and he’s inviting you into his kingdom. All you have to do is believe in him and follow him.

[@xipetotec8700]

​@@Jay-oj4hj 😂

[@lindareese4579]

Thank you Chris for sharing this information with me...

[@darkworld5026]

Unfortunately for you, the Bible is still the best selling book in the world. Faith and religion are two different things.

[@codjo1]

I feel sorry for you but there is no other option than Jesus.

[@jamesknakiewicz3615]

This exactly how I transitioned from being raised catholic to being free from religious beliefs. Leaving all of that behind made feel so free!

[@jezebelvibes]

Happy you found freedom!

[@tajjiintanzania6237]

Catholicism is not Christianity due to its unbiblical doctrines and the Catholic Church's actions throughout history to present day. You let go of religion, but you never had the Christian faith. A Christian is a person who has encountered God and was forgiven of sins and experience His grace, mercy, love, discipline, guidance, and blessings as a Holy Spirit filled believer. This spiritual transformation is amazing and is noticeable by the unbelieving world. -Blessings from Tajji in Tanzania

[@mistylover7398]

Yay

[@starpenta]

​@@tajjiintanzania6237 when you study the history of Christianity, yes, it definitely is. It can be argued it was the first organized Christian denomination. It split between Eastern Orthodox and Roman Catholic, then later Russian Catholic, while the church was still forming. The Protestant type variations didn't start until Luther in Germany, then Henry VIII in England but when it got to America, that's when the different denominations really started taking off. There have been different opinions on what 'real Christianity' is since the very beginning bc the Bible is so contradictory. There are literally hundreds of sects in America, thousands world-wide. There are different Bibles and on top of that, different translations of each one. Try to research what 'real Christianity'is. That's where so many of us realize it's NOT real.

[@AllThingsFilm1]

@@tajjiintanzania6237 You can't demonstrate an "encounter with G-d". Therefore it's just an assertion.

[@t0dd000]

I left the faith as a teenager after I read the Bible cover to cover. Still took me years to actually accept this fact fully (leaving the cultural womb). And only now, at age 53, after both my parents and all my grandparents are gone ... Only now do I feel free to talk about it with my family. Reading the Bible: I have come to the conclusion that i don't think you can call yourself a Christian until you have read and agree to the terms and conditions. I.e. not until you have read the Bible. Ideally twice. Cover-to-cover. If this were the requirement, the religion would be largely dead.

[@theotheoth]

Snap, Todd -- I first read the whole Bible cover-to-cover when I was aged 9-10. Most Christians I've chatted with apparently have very little idea of the contents of the Bible, what it means, where it comes from.

[@TheMiddle-Child]

I find these conclusions very interesting indeed, care to enlighten🙏 a fellow human on what the Bible is really about? Or what it means?

[@theotheoth]

@@TheMiddle-Child Aha! I guess I slipped up with the phrase 'what it means'. I was not professing to have a unifying grand conclusion for you -- sorry about that. But I could say plenty about, for example, small details that are wilfully taken out of context to support other narratives. Only this week, my local pastor was bleating out the common Isaiah 'prophecy', which I am satisfied very clearly does NOT foretell the birth of Jesus from the Virgin Mary some 700 years later (as corroborated by a fair few Christian historians, also).

[@t0dd000]

@@TheMiddle-Child I recommend just reading it. There are a billion unread copies lying about everywhere. But then … also read the Koran (a much more enjoyable read). The Vedas. The Upanishads. And then some of the Buddhists writings. That's an reasonable coverage of the new religions. Then start reviewing the older religions. Zoroastrianism, for example. Then go older ... A survey of indigenous religions would be good. The Greek and Roman faiths of old. Paganism in the British isles. Do all that, and now you have at least scratched the surface of human religiosity. A lot of schools offer comparative religion courses that you may or may not be able to audit.

[@stevepaige7557]

@@theotheoth What does the Isaiah prophecy foretell?

[@ISkeptic649]

I can totally relate. I got "saved" when I was five. I had no idea what I was doing, yet I was supposedly making a life-long decision. I "rededicated" a few years later, I think I was 12. Still had no idea what I was doing except that it made all the adults around me happy. Looking back at it, I think that I just wasn't "wired" to be a believer. I had too many questions that were unanswerable and lost my faith. Glad you found your way out. Oh and I was SBC as well. I subbed you a few days ago and am sifting through some of your videos. Thank's for the content and for sharing your life story.😉

[@JustaNaughtyBoy]

I found Kristi when Ray Comfort covered one of her videos, so subbed today.

[@jamesbreaux2448]

Your parents lie to you all parents lie to their kids you not save at no 5 yrs old you don’t even no the gospel didn’t even repent

[@tijeraslack3]

I feel people need to know that “salvation” prayer. I got saved at 5 and my parents did it with my daughter at 4. Maybe I’m still on my journey and tied a bit, but people need to know what they are getting into.

[@joshuabell7761]

Thank you for sharing this. I used to be a non-denominational Christian but stopped believing after I realised just how messed up it all is and how there is no way to guarantee that any of it is real. It was hard, I had to give up a lot and I couldn't tell my parents for over a year that I stopped until my mother kept pestering me to give tithe when it made me uncomfortable. I have yet to engage with a debate with them as to why it happened (and honestly, I'm scared to) but I do have a list of points as to why I left which include the various ethical and philosophical concerns of Christianity and why I can't take an extraordinary claim at some book's word for it.

[@DM-zq8qy]

Hundreds of “scriptures” make no moral sense. The BIG one for me was Hell. A loving, just, good GOD would NEVER torture you for EVER because of your thoughts. Hell is a SICK doctrine made by men to control people.

[@lifethroughromans8295]

@joshuabe7761 - Would you mind sharing your list of points that made you leave the faith?

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

i'd say RELAX about the book thing. Bart Ehrman has quipped that there are few things that produce so many ex-christians as "reading the entire bible" which evidently most of them do not.

[@justinotherpatriot1744]

Cognitive-Theoretic Model of the Universe. God is real. The ontology of reality is not less intelligent than its human subsystems.

[@mgntstr]

didn't turn your back on Christ, just left a lost church.

[@gabrielesemeraro1769]

I absolutely adore you and your content. I want you to know that what you’re doing here is tremendously significant to a bunch of people who are going through the same experience as yours. Please, never stop!! Sending you so much love and support from Italy❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@jezebelvibes]

Wow! I love that I have so much support from all over the world. My heart is so full. Thank you so much.

[@ministryofthewayofYehoshua]

So you adore that she and you are not taking the gift that Jesus Christ gave to the world? Eternal life is a gift that the Lord has given us, why not take that? It’s a very easy decision. Stay dead in your sins or be forgiven for your sins and live!

[@ministryofthewayofYehoshua]

@Samantha Allen not everyone that is selling Bibles is a Christian. There are plenty of people giving Bibles for free. They have the Bible app for free. I preach on the street for free. I mean should I keep going? But let me tell you something important, salvation is what is important, not going to hell is what is important. Let’s put away labels, you need to be saved. This is how you are saved, Repent meaning turning away from sin and turning to Jesus Christ, be baptized in the Name of Jesus Christ for the remission of your sins and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. It’s not about religion, it’s about being in a relationship with the Creator Jesus Christ. It’s about receiving the gift of eternal life that He is offering us.

[@ministryofthewayofYehoshua]

@Samantha Allen I sympathize with you on the lost of your mother. But will not the judge of all the earth do right, you can rest assure that the Lord Jesus Christ is going to do right by your mother but right now you are alive and are in need of salvation. You have to make the choice of where you want to spend eternity.

[@ministryofthewayofYehoshua]

@Samantha Allen the Lord Jesus Christ is going to do what is right with your mom, but I’m speaking about you. You need to make your decision for yourself my friend.

[@awakeenlighten2298]

Loved this video Kristi! Stay strong! “Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth, because they don't want their illusions destroyed.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

[@theonlyway5298]

I agree with your quote, particularly as it is very applicable from a Christian's perspective, in their view of those who don't want to hear the truth, but want to remain in their own illusions. Its probably not quite the direction you were thinking of applying it, but nevertheless, from a Christian perspective it has validity. We do need to acknowledge that what is a popular ideology or truth, in one era, is dismissed in another as being 'not true', mostly likely in an ever spinning spiral that has its influences in popularity and fashion, each new generation discovering "the new truth", but being dismissed by the next era of generations. Today's 'heros' will be tomorrow's comedians and the pursuit of truth is relentless. What one proudly announces today as new revelation or understanding, is tomorrow evaded as an embarrassment. History can tell us much about this process, as it repeats itself endlessly.

[@TheTruthKiwi]

Brilliant quote from Nietzsche. That is why religion/christianity has persisted for so long in the human psyche.

[@theonlyway5298]

@@TheTruthKiwi Interesting idea, but it’s fundamentally flawed.

[@TheTruthKiwi]

@@theonlyway5298 How is it flawed exactly?

[@theonlyway5298]

@@TheTruthKiwi Its flawed firstly because you are imposing a modern skeptical perspective anachronistically, on 2000 years of Christian faith, which is contextually inapplicable. Nietzsche's statement, is a modern skeptical idea, that is founded upon his own modern philosophical ideas of Nihilism and Positivism. Unfortunately for Nietzsche, he spent the last 11 years of his life in a Mental institution with general paralysis and mental breakdown, having lost his sight, due to Syphilis - thus his philosophical ideas, did not in fact personally help him morally - still less spiritually! Having ideas is one thing, but proving they actually work is quite another! Nietzsche had been a gifted man, but as with other men who have been given exceptional gifts but who did not give glory to God for them, his life in the end, was humiliating and very sad! Regarding the statement itself, its isn't applicable, because it is based upon the false assumption that there is a dual conflicting consciousness between: a) wanting to believe in God and b) having a motive (in the statement indicated by: "don't want"), to protect that belief, while having an awareness of it being an illusion or delusion. While (a) may well be true, (b) is far less likely to be true historically, because in the cultural context of the Christian west, for example, few if any would question the existence of God. The questioning of the existence of God as we know it today, is a relatively modern and mostly western idea, confined to a minority of the world's population. Additionally: c) the idea that "the truth" is that God 'doesn't exist', as you are applying his statement, is again based upon your own philosophical ideas and it cannot be assumed that those who believe in God, would countenance that as being 'the truth', any more than you can actually prove it is "the truth". Thus in summary, while its interesting to hear your view and compare it with other people's views, experiences and beliefs, in the light of the above things which I have discussed here, I'm not convinced at all by the applicability of Nietzsche's statement, to the existence or continuum of religion.

As an ex Jehovah’s Witness (been JW for 35 years), I totally understand the process you did, as I did the exact same thing, watching debates, Bart Erhman for example.. the more I read and studied the more I realized the False Stories we were being told! Instead of feeling closer to God, I felt betrayed by a “belief” of God. I come to realize that religion in general is a business of belief to adhere to.. thanks for you great videos!

[@leeshelenberger7240]

You were in a religion not Christianity. Just believe Jesus died,buried and risen again for your justification, and that is the gospel of our salvation for this present age of grace.

[@johnnywomack548]

@@leeshelenberger7240 You don't know her better than she knows herself.

[@leeshelenberger7240]

@@johnnywomack548 do you?

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

Ex Jehovah’s Witness. Charles Taze Russell the beginning of this false Church. I have noticed many here with comments they came from Churches that were man made counterfeits. Kristi seems to thrive on the fake to condemn the true God, Jesus and Christians. Satan is the Author of confusion that Kristi magnifies.

[@randygalbraith2553]

@@leeshelenberger7240 This comes up from time to time Jehovah's Witnesses Wikipedia talk page. The consensus of Wikipedia editors is JWs are a Christian religion because they are followers of Jesus and believe him to be the Messiah (Christ). However, they hold non-Trinitarian beliefs that many assert is required of all Christian religions. Many Ex-JWs, such as myself, now identify as atheist and relate to both what Sebastien and Kristi are reporting. On the other hand, if one is in a nominal Christian faith, perhaps arriving there after leaving the JWs, they can feel strongly about "Christian" label being applied to JWs. Kind regards, -Randy

[@connorpace8739]

I grew up Mormon in a small Alabama town. Your vids have more logic than they ever taught! Perfect first video💕

[@jezebelvibes]

❤ we are in this together!

[@tdr.220]

I pray that people don't confuse the church and God. God is not the church, and the church is not God. You don't have to throw away your faith because of other "Christians" or bad experiences in the church. I think people confuse the institution of Christianity and being a Follower of Christ. There are many Christians who do not follow Christ. Being a Follower of Christ means that you prioritize your relationship with him versus church traditions. Churches can help introduce/ lead people to Christ, however they cannot give you a relationship with Him.

[@jarrettjb]

@@tdr.220right sister? Do this and don’t do that, rules, religious activity and a whole lot of filth that only cause confusion, division, and ultimately eternal misery which has nothing to do with our King and most dear friend Jesus. Let’s go out and share Jesus with the hungry!

[@artstation707]

@@jezebelvibes No, you're not. Judgement is on a personal basis. Now, honesty... I feel sorry for Kristi. I know pity probably innervates her. Maybe someone let her down. She looks like she just wants someone who will listen to her. Her "ministry" is trauma. How can someone so articulate vilify the Creator of Heaven and Earth? Perhaps the shock of realizing who she is, and who she is not, was too much. But it's not the end of the world. Everyone gets subjected to the same deception. Her choler she should direct to the one true deceiver. Believe it or not, those things she claims absent in God, are present. She just doesn't know it. He's not excluding viable people. He must separate those who can be part of the perfect system from those who would undermine it. Someone should tell Kristi there is a place of refuge for her on the day of God's wrath, if she will repent and submit herself completely, and I'm sure that would be forthright. I don't think entry into the heart of things would be on the cards; it wouldn't be up to this writer, of course, at least as far as I know. After all, she spent at least a year undermining everything she could about the Bible. Yet, hers could be a voice to bring those led astray, back to God. And who knows? There's nothing impossible for him. It's heartbreaking to watch these videos.

[@aronscott9698]

@@artstation707it’s heartbreaking how easy it is to indoctrinate and brainwash people with religion. It just holds us back as a species.

[@sarahrodriguez142]

Hey kristi, I’m 23 and I grew up Pentecostal Christian. And I had so much existential dread since I was 3 because of religion. So much stress and anxiety because I was trying so hard to fit myself into boxes that can be checked and that’s what children do when they grow up, when I was 16 my pastor mocked a couple for leaving our church and I immediately felt nauseous by it and I thought that was God telling me it was time to find a new church but really it was my moral compass that felt disgusted by his actions, there were other bts things too. But after 2 years I left the new church my family attended. It wasn’t until I let go of God that I found my existentialism deteriorating and my anxiety levels going down. I’m now at a point where I don’t really care if there is a God or not. Like I don’t want anything to do with him or religion. And that’s okay. We’ll all die one day and if I perish so be it but on this earth I will enjoy my life the best that I can and be the kind person I can be. Your videos help me when I start to feel that anxiety rising again because growing up indoctrinated is traumatic and even I have my days. It gives me comfort to know that I’m not alone in my thinking. Thank you for being an outspoken soul, I’m trying my best to be outspoken as well. My family still are believers and that’s fine with me, I’m lucky that they still love me the same and still talk to me not all people who renounce their religion get that.

[@christianbosse_]

i had similar issues. the more i worked at my faith and studied the bible and even worked on staff at a church the more angry and anxious i was. ironically, the amount of stress, gut issues, suicidal ideation, and anger i’ve experienced since the journey of letting go has significantly dropped. i’m also more open to being friends with people who believe differently. being a “good christian” only caused me to be bitter, anxious, depressed and isolationist. but i did meet my husband due to my faith and i accumulated a lot of skills in the process so i don’t totally regret the journey.

[@Darth_Vader258]

I CANNOT ABANDON God, because were all GONNA DIE. Atheism ⚛️ is *FOOLISHNESS* to me, since if the Physical Material world, is ALL there is then what's the purpose of Life anyway?

[@vegangelo_29]

@@Darth_Vader258 Lol and you think worshipping images and stones (like what you catholics do) is not foolish? HAHAHAHA Well, no wonder, you're a catholic. Catholicism has 3 main foundations: Depravity, Idolatry, and Stupidity. Without these three, catholicism will vanish HAHAHAHA

[@josiahesquivel1487]

Be careful with every decision you make and watch your step and every move you make and life is full of wonderful things and is full of pleasure but you can’t escape the truth and that’s the truth

[@crystaljones5648]

I can't believe what everyone is writing here to this poor person! Comments like "There is no hope for you??" Really?? I can't believe I just read that in one of these responses to this person who has bared their feelings to the public! Who gives us the right to judge like that!!! Until we draw our last breath there is ALWAYS hope!! Everybody, it is NOT the church that saves you!!! The organized church of today is not what Jesus had envisioned or preached. They have twisted the Scripture and brought in so much secular stuff that has nothing to do with faith in Christ. I don't blame anyone for leaving the organized church of today, which is more like a social country club where you " pay dues for tithes" and get entertained, and if you dont "fit in" you're an outsider, and if you decide to join another church, you're ostracized by the members of the church you left. It's disgusting. Where in all the scripture does it say it's okay to do all that!! What does save you is your genuine faith in Jesus Christ and having Him constantly number one in your life. That's it!!. No denominations, no condemnation, no ifs ands or buts. And when you have Jesus as number one in your life, you are going to want to love and help others, NOT condemn them. This is why Jesus was so angry with the Pharisees. They were ritualistic and judgmental and all they thought about was their synagogue and affluence. They were hurting the people with their ritualism rather than applying the real truth of the Word. We should learn from that! Jesus said I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father but through me. So please, go back to simple genuine faith and read the Scripture for yourself. Dont let the hypocrisy of the church cause you to lose out on eternity. What the church does, and what you decide to believe and act on, are two totally separate things.

[@ethanhess8230]

I’m privileged enough to have never been religious. Both of my parents have deconversion stories though, and yours is very similar to my mother’s although she was never a fundamentalist. My grandmother recently asked her why she left the faith, and she shortened it to “I read the Bible, couldn’t find the loving god I was raised to worship in it, and didn’t want to become an asshole because of my religion”

[@JustaNaughtyBoy]

I love the words of your mum succinct yet comprehensive ☺😉 I'm a lifelong atheist, I think my folks were probably atheists, religion wasn't mentioned at all in our house in a village in the Lake District in the UK.

[@12567NoYouCannot]

@@JustaNaughtyBoy The Best thing that happened to You in this LIFE was to NOT Believe in the Same God that I did since I was a child, that has Shown me that I am nothing but GARBAGE to him and his people. I am Glad that You did Not fall for that TRAP.

[@GoldAceNews]

Your grandma was wrong and she left the world convinced her otherwise, just because "she did not want to become an asshole"... that is the most stupidest thing I've heard from a human. She rejected Jesus, then when she passed away, she is probably in eternal torment.

[@toddrickman]

I am so thankful that I discovered your channel. You have finally given me the right words to explain my feelings.

[@jezebelvibes]

🫶

[@FamilyIsGone]

​@@jezebelvibes the reason I believe it's because I've experienced witches and demon/jinn otherwise I'd be like you

[@nineflyerr3866]

​@@FamilyIsGone exactly, they have never experienced demonic activity, occultism, witchcraft, blood rituals, etc... the knowledge is out there if they so seek it. But, odds are they are too scared because deep down they know it's real.

[@FamilyIsGone]

@NiNeFlyerr I wish it was fake so I could live freely but knowing my experiences I can't abandon God of Israel despite me not being modern Christianity but the first early creed that follows YHWH as God and Jesus just as messenger

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

Satan knows your weak points.

[@BFHuntress]

Religion does NOT work for everyone. Every religion thinks THEIRS is the ONLY way to heaven or the hereafter. When something we believe in has an eternal effect on our soul/spirit it needs to make SENSE to me. I can’t believe in something that leaves more questions than answers. I APPLAUD your logic, candor, and decision to do what you’re doing, I’m with you 100%. ❤️❤️❤️

[@christianbosse_]

facts. early on in my journey of wrestling with christian faith, i realized that a lot of times people believe they’re right because they believe. which is a logical fallacy. your belief in something doesn’t prove it. and what’s worse is when you say you’re researching outside of church or the bible, people tell you to stop.

[@BFHuntress]

@@christianbosse_ - Agree with you 100%

[@BFHuntress]

@Clowy Nicx - No, he’s not.

[@crystaljones5648]

You're right. " Religion" doesn't work for everyone. And every "religion" is going to say their way is the right way to live life. But I know only one belief where a man suffered horrific tortures at the hand of his fellow man, was crucified, rose from the dead with over 500 witnesses, and also proclaimed himself as "the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes through the Father but through me." And on top of that, Jesus fulfilled over 300 prophecies in the Scripture written over the span of thousands of years before His birth. No other religion can proclaim this.

[@crystaljones5648]

@@BFHuntress Jesus said: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father but by me.

[@iamshango3005]

I sought him too and I didn't find him. Instead I found pain and suffering

[@jusugow4572]

Kristi, your journey resonates with me. I could go on explaining similar experiences, but you've already summarized it. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents, unbelief etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@MrPeterschmit]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 and some humans are so messed up and lost that they pretend to have relationships with imaginary entities AND act morally superior to those who don't. Those are the really bad people. Real, really bad. Go to a cancer ward and say that sick crap to dying kids whom your god could help but won't.

[@aawschannel]

This really touched my heart. And I feel so sad you had to go through that experience! I’m glad you have found your own path and way of life. ❤️

[@jezebelvibes]

Thanks so much for being here

[@aawschannel]

@@jezebelvibes you are welcome. And I just read the bible and it didn’t Aline with what christians say God is. So My deconstruction is helping me.

[@leslieseptember6050]

This touched my heart too, I too felt sad that that you decided to walk away from Jesus for He is love. I'll be glad when you return to Him for He is indeed the Way, the Truth and the Life.

[@starpenta]

​@@leslieseptember6050 I questioned for 9 years what real Christianity was. But, I had other interests and didn't look as deeply as some. Just enough life experiences that led me to Q's that made me realize there really is no reliable evidence/proof. But, read something by Bart Ehrman. He's an ex-fundie Xian, still married to an Xian (in case you don't know, 'X' is an acceptable abbreviation for Christ- it has to do with Medieval history stuff), he has a PHD in theological matters (but he is hardly the only scholar that's an ex-believer, just well known) that explains all the errors and contradictions he found a long the way, all the different cultures and other religions it has commonalities with. He also learned the different languages the Bible was written in and points out that some translations, from one language to another, simply can not be that accurate bc the some languages don't have a word that has the same meaning as what was written.

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

There seems a way right unto man but at the end is death.

[@mackymintle7806]

Great to hear your story. I’m a big fan of people spending the time to find integrity…snd then teach themselves how to communicate their thoughts clearly! Instant subscriber. ❤

[@tanvigawde1612]

Oh my goodness , I went through exactly what you went through. I’m still rebuilding my identity. It’s a journey. Thank you for sharing!! It means a lot!

[@iamshango3005]

I'm trying to figure out my identity too

[@BroneduChannel]

Don't mix the topic brethren Christianity is not a religion but a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians. So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

[@johntiggleman4686]

@@BroneduChannel I am. I think. I will. "My hands...My spirit...My sky...My forest...This earth of mine...What must I say besides? These are the words. This is the answer. I stand here on the summit of the mountain. I lift my head and I spread my arms. This, my body and spirit, this is the end of the quest. I wished to know the meaning of things. I am the meaning. I wished a warrant for being: I need no warrant for being, and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction. It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is my ears which hear, and the hearing of my ears gives its song to the world. It is my mind that thinks, and the judgment of my mind is the only searchlight that can find the truth. It is my will that chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I must respect. Many words have been granted me, and some are wise and some are false, but only three are holy: 'I will it'" "...for I know what happiness is possible to me on earth. And my happiness needs no higher aim to vindicate it. My happiness is not the means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal. It is its own purpose. Neither am I the means to any end others may wish to accomplish. I am not a tool for their use. I am not a servant of their needs. I am not a bandage for their wounds. I am not a sacrifice on their altars. I am a man. This miracle of me is mine to own and keep, and mine to guard, and mine to use, and mine to kneel before!" And finally, "I swear, by my life and my love of it that I will NEVER live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine."-Quoted from "Anthem" and "Atlas Shrugged" by Ayn Rand.

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

Satan agrees with you.

[@johntiggleman4686]

@@gemmeerobinson1803 What is the point for the whole thing? Creation, etc? Just so the "saved" praise god forever?

[@Jasminejupiterjuice]

Fired up! I'm almost shaking I'm so mad for you and me and all of us. Great story. I wanna flush out my story too. Xo❤

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents, unbelief etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@FtdThinks]

Thanks for sharing your story. I am a former Christian too and really know what it's like to feel trapped inside of Christianity and burdened by all the ideas of God that exist. I see so many similarities in your journey with mine. Glad you made the right decision for yourself. Keep sharing your story. So many people need to hear it!

[@rafaelrotellini7141]

Hope people understand that. RELIGION IS THE CONTROL OF MENTALITY OF ALL PEOPLE. BIBLE????? ISO MUCH CONTRADICTION

[@justinspence8341]

No you are not a former Christian. You were never a Christian in the first place. If you felt trapped inside of Christianity then it was never yours to begin with. Faith is given by God and is not of ourselves. You might think that you have heard all of this before and therefore it is not worth hearing anymore, and maybe you have heard it before, but did you actually listen to the real message? I think not.

[@mattmccain8492]

What you were trapped by was the controlling influences of other people. Faith in Christ isn't based in those people, their perceptions, their beliefs , their ideologies, their rituals , their requirements , their interpretations , their suggestions and their points of view. Faith is based in Jesus alone and what He promises and provides for us through Him and only Him. Never our fellow man. The religions of man have distorted faith into a system of control and monetary gain for them.

[@mattmccain8492]

​@@justinspence8341 God doesn't give us faith. He gives us salvation by His grace through His only begotten Son Jesus Christ. Something we do not deserve but freely given because God loves us that much. Our faith is what we give God by our belief in Jesus and His completed work and self sacrifice on the cross on our behalf to pay our sin debt and die in our place for those sins. We are not saved by our own works least we would boast about it. We can never achieve redemption back to God on our own because we are inherently wicked and not perfect. Only Jesus provides that which we cannot do for ourselves. Only through Jesus can we be redeemed back to God our Creator and Father.

[@RocketKirchner]

Contradiction is an apparent paradox . We are brainwashed to not think in paradox .

[@sherrybowie8843]

Former southern baptist here. Thank you so much for making this video. My story is similar and I have found myself much happier at the age of 53 and fully unattached to any religion.

[@Balintawak72]

You have no idea how much your videos mean to me. I am currently struggling greatly with this and have found very little in the way of support. You are a breath of fresh air, what’s encouraging is you are able to provide this lifeline of encouragement without religion bashing. Thank you very much, please keep up the great work ❤️

[@jezebelvibes]

Thanks so much for the support and encouragement

[@aishaahmed3611]

💞You.I'm going through this with Islam "It's hard to forget about everything you built your identity upon. What's mad sometimes is All the time You Lose & Lost druing your believe. 💜💜💜💜

[@jezebelvibes]

Sending you so much love. I know how hard it is to feel that loss. It's a lifelong journey but it is worth it. Freedom is worth it. ❤

[@Camelotskin]

Islam, like Mormonism, Jehovah's Witness etc. is a false religion. Once you read the Bible and open your heart to the truth, the God that created the Heavens and the Earth will reveal himself to you. Many people, like this channel got rooted in the wrong Church and it caused doubt to set in. Listen to this Intelligent Muslim convert. Amen. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iKqbfGepgJioesU

[@walleras]

Come be noahide

[@walleras]

@B Come be Noahide

[@sultanalbluwi7277]

Don’t follow the satan come back and ask for guidance how the universe were created the sun the moon the day and night the earth the sea the miracles in the Quran that no one could have known 1400 years ago don’t quit the satan wants you to quit he promised that he will attack us with what ever he got ask Allah sincerely he will guide you insha Allah to the straight path.

[@Eric-ne8vg]

Really appreciate you sharing your story Kristi! I’m going through my own “deconversion” after years of wrestling with things in the Bible and within the Christian faith/belief system. You are not alone… I am not alone… Other’s are not alone in the questioning, being skeptical of and doubting the validity of the tradition of religion. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts, opinions, perspectives, and experiences.

[@pankaja7974]

what were you wrestling with ? any example ?

[@josiahesquivel1487]

You should’ve trusted in Jesus and asked him for the keys of prosperity

[@justinotherpatriot1744]

Cognitive-Theoretic Model of the Universe. God is real. The ontology of reality is not less intelligent than its human subsystems.

[@jesshughes776]

I am writing to share the most incredible thing you will likely ever hear, and it has everything to do with your position if you will follow it. First, it is impossible that anything you can touch, taste, hear, see or smell on the face of the earth, be it lighting, tornados, rocks, life, minerals from salt to plutonium or anything that can be with the powerful telescope we have in orbit and beyond what we can see, that could possibly exist without having been created. Because of this, we can be sure that everything that is had to be made where there was absolutely nothing to make it out of. Romans 1:20 New International For since creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse. So you see, there is a God. I myself have studied world religions in depth in college and much more so on my own time. I have found that the only religion that holds water is Christianity. I am no affiliate of any Christian denomination as they are called because the enemy has a very well received counterfeit in place in nearly all of them, and the condition is terminal. I am Messianic, where I find Truth to be most rightly applied and followed. The bill of rights we share is such a blessing. But I will quote TobyMcKeehan with Times are changing/With morals in decay/Human rights have made the wrong okay. I am only showing you the way as I have found it through much study and life experience. Perhaps my best case for Truth of this is found in the book of Habakkuk 1-2:17 where he was given a vision of Adolf Hitler and Nazi Germany. Some very strong and interesting proof is in the discovery of Sodom and Gomorrah. This is in these videos. Pt. 1 kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZoLWmIxnZpp4fMU Pt. 2 kzbin.info/www/bejne/bqHPmWeEgtSEqZo And here is where the remains of pharaoh's army is found in the red sea. kzbin.info/www/bejne/jmSxpnShjbqqq5I Gnesis 19:24 New International Version Then the LORD rained down burning sulfur on Sodom and Gomorrah--from the LORD out of the heavens. Brimstone found there is over 95 percent pure. The purest sulfur anywhere else is just over 45% and is found near active geothermal regions. Brimstone such as is found near these two infamous cities is found nowhere else on earth. Yet here it is still, a God-given supernatural element to warn those who would live against Him. 2 Peter 2:6 If He condemned the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah to destruction, reducing them to ashes as an example of what is coming on the ungodly; He is love or He wouldn't have warned us.After much consideration I found truth best taught and followed as a Messianic. Here are two of the videos I found on this. kzbin.info/www/bejne/enO2eqZol62ca8k kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZoLWmIxnZpp4fMU&t=2s THESE 2 VIDEOS ARE UNDENIABLE PROOF OF NOAH'S ARK AND SODOM AND GOMORRAH. IT WAS SOUND AND THE DIMENSIONS AND MEASUREMENTS MATCH THE BIBLICAL RECORD EXACTLY. WHAT THEY FIRST SAW LOOKED TO BE AN OUTLINE OF A SHIP IN THE MOUNTAINS OF ARARAT WHERE THE BIBLE SAID THE ARK SETTLED. IT WAS MOSTLY PETRIFIED WOOD WITH LINES OF METAL RUNNING THE LENGTH OF THE ARK REMAINS EVENLY SPACED ACROSS. THIS MEDAL WAS NOT FOUND OUTSIDE THE ARK. THE ALSO FOUND PETRIFIED ANIMAL DROPPINGS AND WHAT LOOK TO BE RIB TIMBERS USED IN CONSTRUCTION. kzbin.info/www/bejne/pYLal4hteduIr6c BELOW ARE THE ACTUAL REMAINS OF SODOM AND GOMORRAH'S ASHEN REMAINS. MILLIONS OF PIECES OF BRIMSTONE WAS FOUND IN THE AREA OF THE CITIES, BUT NONE IN BETWEEN THEM. BRIMSTONE MEANS SULFUR. THIS SULFUR IS 98% PURE. THE PUREST SULFUR FOUND ANYWHERE ELSE ON EARTH IS A MAZIMUM 40% PURE. kzbin.info/www/bejne/fZm3m3iYg8yHh68

[@bigdogalldayeveryday]

Interesting. I was agnostic and found faith in adulthood. Questioning is good. Do you believe that rape is a moral good or or bad?

[@gs3610]

Your content has been very helpful in my own journey leaving christianity. Good luck with your channel 😊

[@adedwards3097]

Spiritual Song: "Come Out of Her My People" Line 1) Come out of her my people, be not partakers of her sins, receive not of her plagues; Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: Revelation 18:4 Acts 7:48; 17:24 Hosea 8:14 -- Line 2) Where Satan is transformed as an angel of light, and his ministers also be transformed as ministers of righteousness. Deceitful workers are they; false apostles, preachers, and teachers transforming themselves into the apostles of Christ. Having a form of godliness but denying the power thereof, Where the mystery of iniquity doth already work. Enemies of the cross of Christ are they. Scripture: 2 Corinthians 11:13-15 2 Timothy 3:5 2 Thessalonians 2:7 Philippines 3:18-19 Matthew 24:11 -- Line 3) God that made the world and all things therein; the Lord of heaven and earth, dwelleth NOT in temples made with hands. Therefore, Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: Acts 17:24 Revelation 18:4 Hosea 8:14 -- Line 4) Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and the Spirit of God dwelleth in you? Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, touch not the unclean thing, And I will be your God, and ye shall be my people. Enter ye IN at the way of the narrow gate, which leadeth unto life, where FEW there be that find it. Scripture: 1 Corinthians 3:16 2 Corinthians 6:16-18 Matthew 7:14 Isaiah 52:11 -- Line 5) Come out of the temples made with hands; Enter ye NOT in the broad way, Enter ye in the wide gate, that leadeth to destruction, and MANY there be which go in thereat. Therefore, Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: Acts 7:48; 17:24 Matthew 7:13 Revelation 18:4 -- Line 6) Jesus Christ who is the Word of God is our only place of refuge, safety, virtue, and Truth; in this present evil world, By faith all that believe must trust the Holy Ghost, the Spirit of Truth, and is no lie; will teach you all things and will lead and guide you into all truth, as you read and study the word of God. Scripture: Revelation 19:13 John 1:1,14,17 Galatians 1:3-4 1John 5:19 John 14:16-17,26 1 John 2:27-28 Ephesians 4:21; 5:25-27 Colossians 2:2-3 Philippines 4:8 Psalm 91:1-2,9 Proverbs 18:10; 29:25 2 Peter 1:3-4 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 -- Line 7) Let not your faith stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God. Therefore, Come out of her my people, be not partakers of her sins, receive not of her plagues. Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Jesus Christ, the power of God and the wisdom of God; the Word of God, In whom all the fulness of the Godhead dwelleth bodily, And ye are complete in Him. He is the image of the invisible God. So, Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: 1 Corinthians 2:5 Revelation 18:4 Acts 7:48; 17:24 Hosea 8:14 1 Corinthians 1:24 Revelation 19:13 John 1:1,14,17 Colossians 2:9-10; 1:15 2 Corinthians 4:3-4,6 1 John 5:7

[@salvation4all313]

The greatest help for your journey in life is to acknowledge and believe this fact: NOBODY on this planet Earth can come anywhere close to matching God Almighty's greatest gift offering in the history of humanity!! Jesus Christ said, *"I am telling you the truth, whoever believes in me has eternal life."* (John 6:47) Hallelujah! Let those great words of Jesus Christ be preached all around the world!

[@bubbabruh6309]

​@salvation4all313 do you really think quoting the Bible to ex Christians is in any way productive?

[@salvation4all313]

@@bubbabruh6309 They are NOT ex Christians. They NEVER were true Christians.

[@salvation4all313]

@@bubbabruh6309 They are not ex-Christians. They never were true Christians.

[@davidpatterson9221]

I really love your story and how well you presented your journey. I've always been a scientific rationalist but i was also raised Catholic by my mother, luckily my father is an atheist and always supported my decisions and choices. I'm super thankful for that, but your story has helped me to realize that I could have reached where I am now on my own.

[@tajjiintanzania6237]

Catholicism isn't Christian though.... not at all.

[@davidpatterson9221]

@@tajjiintanzania6237 It still fall into the general worship of the same Jewish-Muslim-Christian-God of Abraham figure. In fact Catholicism directly evolved from Christianity and is considered by scholars to be a Christian sect. How could you have possibly come to this conclusion that they are not related at all?

[@BroneduChannel]

Christianity itself cannot be categorized as a religion but as a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians. So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

[@2fast2block]

David...."I've always been a scientific rationalist" No, you just pretend you are. You can't even get past creation let alone what followed. The 1LofT states that energy can't be created or destroyed, it can't happen naturally. One aspect of the 2LofT shows that the universe is winding down, usable energy is becoming less usable. It is clear creation had to be done supernaturally at some point yet it is still denied because people are just too proud to accept that, among other things.

[@RandallSimmons-ll3ii]

@@tajjiintanzania6237 Literally every Protestant and Evangelical denomination is an offspring of Catholicism. Baptist, Pentecostal, Methodist, Mormons, Jehovahs Witness, Lutheran, Presbyterian, Calvinist, Charismatic; all of them are some break off of a break off that historically traces it's origins back to Roman Catholcism and Martin Luther's "Revolt".

[@guillermoostapczuk541]

It is very important to share these stories, indeed. So many of us have struggled and still struggling with fear and guilt. Thank you so much.

[@tdr.220]

I pray that people don't confuse the church and God. God is not the church, and the church is not God. You don't have to throw away your faith because of other "Christians" or bad experiences in the church. I think people confuse the institution of Christianity and being a Follower of Christ. There are many Christians who do not follow Christ. Being a Follower of Christ means that you prioritize your relationship with him versus church traditions. Churches can help introduce/ lead people to Christ, however they cannot give you a relationship with Him.

[@redeyewarrior]

​@@tdr.220 You clearly don't understand what this person is talking about. If you did you wouldn't try to convert them back to the very same thing that's the cause. You don't get it.

[@shiningarmour1357]

@@tdr.220 According to white people Christianity is a religion , now this lady has to figure out her gender problems. White society is basically the most low IQ society these days .

[@sparkstudies1675]

​@@tdr.220And how do we get to know the will of Christ/God? Through whims and impressions? Tingly feelings? Tell me how are we supposed to have a relationship with Him? He's already made much of His will known to us through scripture and doctrine. Finding out His will through a relationship with Him would not lead you anywhere else.

[@ellebutler5234]

Guess it's true, end times Satan would come in whatever way and convince those people who want life easy to sit back and have a blast when the true Christian life is suffering and there is warfare over our souls. Hell is the absence of God and that's for eternity.. God is going to deal very strongly with wrong teachers who persuade masses to give up their faith. Be very careful of what you are promoting here, vulnerable people don't need a pat on the back and to be told, give up God and have an easy life. You're messing with their souls Kristi.... This is very serious and you're on a slippery road.

[@bonniehaney573]

1/3 if the women in churches are experiencing emotional and verbal abuse in there Christian marriages. That is me! I am in therapy and it has helped me so much. I am also in the process of deconstructing my faith. Thank you for speaking out.

[@mgntstr]

majority of Christians are women of color

[@katpage9378]

Christian here, as for a lot of the theological questions and confusions you had, I have similar ones all the time. I think it’s important and healthy for all Christians to wonder about how reality works and why things are the way they are within their own religion. I remember my catholic grandfather and I got into a debate about Christianity and Catholicism, and he was telling me “The catholic doctrine is the infallible truth that is written by extremely intelligent, highly educated men who were guided directly by God. You can’t question anything!” I bluntly responded to him, “I think we should question everything! In the sense that we should look at everything critically in a healthy level, wondering why things are the way they are, so we can actually understand what we’re believing.” So I empathize and I definitely agree there are way too many Christians who just believe all these doctrinal and theological things without ever wondering “Why” or “How”. At the same time, I know we probably aren’t going to definitively figure out the answers to some of these questions. It sucks, but honestly it doesn’t bother me too much. One thing that rationalizes my faith in Jesus in my own mind is that I know from firsthand experience that a spiritual world including demons does indeed exist, and I also know that scientifically a higher being who is infinitely powerful existing logically has to be the case (it’s kinda hard to explain the reasoning, but basically there are multiple plains of reality/states of existence, and they all are confined to laws, but all of existence cannot logically be confined by laws, and laws cannot logically just be put in place by nothing, so there must be an ultimate plain of reality, one with zero confines and all power, and one that is sentient and responsible for creating all the laws put in place over the other plains. This is what God is. God essentially is the highest reality, hence why he refers to himself as “I Am”. He simply is! He is is!) anyway and I’ve looked into the other religions, and I still continue to do so, and you can argue I have a bias from being raised Christian, but Christianity is the only one that makes sense and strikes a chord in me, and I’ve just seen these little signs in life that point to it. Like I said sadly we’re not going to be able to understand everything we really wanna understand, and the Bible certainly doesn’t reveal and clarify as much as we’d like. But as long as you live your life with open eyes, a heart open to the truth, and just kinda *feel* reality, be in touch with it spiritually, I believe you will find the truth. I certainly don’t have the whole truth, not even close, but I think I get more in touch with it each year just by doing this. 11:02 I think your heart was in the right place but I think you may have been too intense about it. I think even though I get this was a very frustrating and even scary thing for you, I think God would’ve wanted you to calm yourself a little and just open your heart to him. He’d want you to, with a genuine heart, not angry at God, but just open to whatever the truth might be, ask him to show you the truth. Trying to filter away any biases or worries or angers you might have, just having a pure genuine intention. And be okay with it if he doesn’t show you everything you want to know right away. Trust that if he’s real, and if you keep asking this of him with a heart fully open to him, he will show you what you need to know one way or another, even if it’s just gradual, you know? What I’m wondering is, did you pray to him much about it on your journey of trying to understand him? Or was it mostly you seeking this understanding of him more so just on your own almost as if he’s a stranger alien separated from you? Anyway this was just my perspective as a Christian, I hope nobody minds. I like to find mutual understanding and have discussions with people whether they’re Muslim, atheist, Hindu, Christian, ex-Christian, Satanist, etc. Also it was a bit messy of a comment, but I hope regardless it makes some sense and you see it!! Oh also, when it comes to how we can truly have free will when it comes to whether we go to Hell or Heaven when God is all knowing and created us, nobody can really pretend to fully wrap their head around how that could work. When it comes to the nature of aspects of reality and God we often fall into the territory of frustrating, unsolvable paradoxes, whichever way you look at things, including the idea that we must not have free will and just be meaningless puppets with predetermined destinations because God was all knowing when he made us. That limits a being who anything is possible through. So I know us having true free will works somehow even though it makes absolutely no sense it my brain when I try to really think of the mechanics behind it.

[@robertjimenez5984]

You sure wrote a lot. You say you hope she finds the truth. How do you know she hasn’t found the truth already? Plus, you say you are a Christian. Are you sure that Jesus is a god? If this is not true then the claims of Jews and Islam must bother you. If Jesus is not god, then you have broken the first commandment and will go to hell as Islam says. So, are you sure that this man is a god?

[@matthewnitz8367]

Just so you know, your recommended approach definitely doesn't inevitably lead to the Christian God. Truth has always been the most important thing to me, and when I realized I didn't think Christianity was true I absolutely prayed to God about it. I asked him to show me the truth, whatever it may be. I tried my best to truly evaluate all different viewpoints I could find and see if they withstood scrutiny. To completely separate my anger at the humans that had boxed me into one view that I was told most be right from whatever God may actually be. The end result is that I'm very sure if there is a God it isn't the Christian one. Maybe there is a God that has led me to that belief. But I'd say one bit difference between myself and most Christians is that even though I feel I was very honest in my search and as diligent in seeking truth as I could be, I'm unwilling to say that what I've come to believe is true is in any way from a God. To be fair, maybe there are actually Christians or Hindus or Muslims that God has given an actual revelation that has shown them some truth about whatever God may actually exist. But I haven't seen anyone give any better reason for think that than they essentially really feel their belief is right and true and makes sense. And that just isn't anywhere close to enough reason for me to say that I've found more truth about God than any other person. It seems that if there is a God he just doesn't want to be found by some people. Or maybe there is no God and the people that claim to have found one are just mistaking parts of their thoughts and beliefs for some God. I don't really know how I would tell the difference as someone that hasn't seen anything I could truly say I think was from some God.

[@robertjimenez5984]

@@matthewnitz8367 I went through the same process. After deeply studying about this religion that I have believed for more that 50 years and discovering so many unproven claims and even lies a set a one year pray and fasten to find my god. This was in December of 2019. After the year past in January 1, I realize that this god was not interested in me knowing that it existed or it was not real. I became not convinced of it’s existence. For sure this is why men wrote in this book; do not put to the test your lord. Obviously they knew that it will fail if you don’t start with biases and crap justifications to dismiss the failure. In few words, it does not work.

[@geraldbutler5484]

If we weren’t told there was a god then almost everyone of us wouldn’t know or have any need for one. If I was forced I’d probably pick Buddhism, it seems to do less harm than other delusions.

[@istvansipos9940]

"I know from firsthand experience that a spiritual world including demons does indeed exist" sure. and and floating ships exist. I've seen them. And there are fotos of them. Of course, when we understand physics (mirage), we find out how unreliable any personal experience is. Mental episodes are another example. Humans experience EVERYTHING and anything all the time. That's why we use testable claims. Sadly, nobody has ever presented any such claim about demons. and then you write a w0rd salad about the g0d. Again, no testable claim about the g0d. it is like my 9.81 seconds 100 m sprint. Sane adults have no reason to take it seriously, IF I don't let them measure it. And that's not magic, not a world record, it is a PROVEN possible sprint. We see better ones every year. you rant about 1 type of Middle Eastern MAGIC, and cannot present any testing method to show that it is true.

[@Mikebruno1187]

Thanks for sharing your story. The emotional rollercoaster is real when going through deconstruction. I remember going through this about 15 years ago and it was agonizing to feel like you’re losing your community and purpose. Great there is more of a community now to support others during this phase. The sense of peace and freedom when you finally accept that this religion is just a myth is one of the most liberating feelings and you’re no longer a slave your own delusions.

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

once having left the other community, there is another one. a lot of it is online, rather like here on this thread.

[@tdubs8188]

Here from TikTok, so happy for your first video on here and exciting for you! Absolutely love your videos, my favorite tiktoker !

[@jezebelvibes]

🥺 that means so much. Thanks so much for being here.

[@triciaperry2234]

@@jezebelvibes Go BACK. I is NOT WORTH IT. if you were born again. Go back. I need to get back. SERIOUSLY when you die it doesn't change the fact that hell and heaven still exist. I wish I had stayed and were you ever BORN AGAIN with the holy Spirit?. That may be the issue. Jesus is still coming back. So you were BORN AGAIN!!! I mean seriously GO BACK IT IS NOT WORTH IT .THE WORLD and Satan is going to beat you down to trash. This is his world. And if you with the world. You lost. You should have stayed. After you did all that. Passing out tracts and etc..... blog about Christian journey. Growing in relationship with God THEN YOU WENT DOWN after _____________ you didn't rebuke those thoughts. My family is HOLINESS and all are in Church. What you doing is promoting REBELLION and atheisism

[@johnswoboda9809]

The best moment I had during my years as a Catholic was when I went to confession in 8th grade, when we were preparing for Confirmation - with our pastor, no less, who was known for old-fashioned, fire and brimstone sermons and had all of us CCD kids scared stiff - and I told him that I didn't really have anything to confess but that I was beginning to question my faith. I expected fully that he was going to be met with a very stern and intimidating lecture, and yet all he said was, "Good." I replied, "I'm sorry, Father, what?" He chuckled and said, "John, I recognize your voice. I know you and have known you since you were a baby. I'm the one that baptized you, don't forget. I've watched you grow up to be an intelligent and inquisitive young man, and I will tell you this: No one religion is for everyone. Religion itself is not for everyone. It's good that you're asking questions because I don't believe God gave us intellect and free will just to have blind Faith. He wants us to ask questions. Think about people who have made great changes, Galileo, Leonardo, Einstein, Martin Luther King. They challenged what was accepted as fact, they challenged what they knew to be unjust rules. I would feel that my part in your life as your pastor has been a success if you take an honest look at your beliefs and what you hold true and decide to leave the Church because it would be at intelligent decision. I know, you were expecting me to pull the hidden lever and drop the floor it and cast you straight to Hell. I'm not giving you any penance; you didn't do anything wrong. Go home and ask your questions until you have your answer. I have faith you'll choose what's right for you." It wasn't until years later talking to my parents about it that they revealed why they weren't surprised. Turns out, he had been raised Orthodox Jewish - his mother had been Catholic but converted to marry his father. When he realized that his mother's family's Catholic faith spoke to him more, he was disowned by most of his father's side of the family, so he fully understood the weight of questioning the faith you were raised in. And I will always appreciate that that final nudge to just go for it and leave Christianity came from the very man who baptized me into it.

[@slamee100]

Catholicism is a false religion. We all need to have a personal loving one-on-one loving relationship with God with just God and ourself, by reading the Holy Bible for ourself, and praying to God for ourself, with no false religions from Satan in the way.

[@johnswoboda9809]

@@slamee100 While I don't necessarily disagree with you that all structured religion is a creation of humans trying to understand the higher powers, I don't think it's even necessary to specify one single book or tradition of religious philosophy. I think it's more important to have, if you choose to be spiritual/religious/faithful etc, a close personal relationship with the Almighty in whatever form speaks to you most. That's why leaving Christianity and finding my way into Paganism just fit so much better - I have that personal connection what is above me but it's on terms that make more sense to me and I can relate to better. But yes, I absolutely agree with you that the best path is a deep, personal connection to the Almighty.

[@slamee100]

@@johnswoboda9809 Well, it sounds like you left a FALSE Christian religion that came from Satan, like Catholicisn, or Mormonism, or Jehovah's Witness, and Paganism is also a false religion from Satan. Satan has many false religions and fake gods that he uses to confuse people to keep us from finding the ONE True Living God of the Holy Bible and to keep us from accepting Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior, because Satan does not want us to be saved, he wants us to be eternally separated from God just like he is. But the ONE True religion in the world is God's True Church of believers in the Gospel of Jesus Christ in the Holy Bible, who have accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior and been spiritually born again by God's Holy Spirit by believing that Jesus was God on earth Who died to pay for our sins for us and resurrected from the dead to defeat eternal death for us and believe Jesus is coming back again to set up His eternal heavenly kingdom for all people who accept Jesus Christ as their Savior to live in for the rest of eternity, forgiven of their sins and reconciled with God. Paganism is another false religion from Satan, and actually it is synonymous with Godlessness. You cannot worship nature, the creation of God instead of worshipping the Creator Who created it, and you cannot worship any god of your choosing in the manner that you wish to worship. because that is false worship and idol worship. There is only ONE God, Savior and Creator of all things that exist, God Who gave us His Word, the Holy Bible. GOD IS the Father the Son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit all at once always the ONE True Living Eternal God of all men from all nations and all of creation. Thes is no other God. Read the entire Holy Bible for yourself and pray to God for yourself, and have a personal one-on-one loving relationship with God with no false religions from Satan in the way, and always ask God to give you wisdom knowledge and understanding of His Word the Bible, the Bible is a spiritual Book because God is a spiritual being and we are spiritual beings also, and it must be understood spiritually by God revealing the meaning to us. : ) Accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.

[@steveOCalley]

There is wisdom here and there.

[@steveOCalley]

The Way for each is given to each child of God. We argue, but each has its own way.

[@glennz6686]

I went from fundamentalist free will to once saved always Christianity to Agnostic Atheist.. What really drove me away from Christianity is a thorough Bible study in finding out how controversial and inconsistent the Bible really is. Leaving organize religion. Christianity was the most liberating thing I ever did in my life. I would never go back. Thanks for sharing your story

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@lbg7240]

But jesus is not god, the bible says the son. If you believe jesus is god you follow to gods

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

@@lbg7240 Jesus is God became Man, a tricycle has 3 wheels but is 1 bike, likewise 3 persons but 1 God Here is why you need Jesus. You’re like a man about to jump off a plane without a parachute and his plan is to flap his arms to save himself and I'd say “don't do that use the parachute “(Jesus is the parachute).; you are already a slave to your sins- yet God came to set the captives free. (The truth shall set you free- Jesus said I am the way the Truth and the Life) Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

[@Childfree334]

​@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363I see why so many people have no respect for Christians. Y'all are no better nor any more believable than any other religion/belief system. ALL OF YOU (Christians, catholics, Muslims, JWs, whatever) preach the message of believe in MY God or be eternally damned. Seriously?

[@NaNlinear]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 No. My plan is to live my life. You come with nothing but verses from a book and fear mongering. There are people on this channel who have been traumatized by your religion and here you are rubbing their faces in it. You are exhibiting psychopathic behavior.

[@annemariededekind6271]

Dearest Christy, You are a brave person. I find that the time I spend in the Bible is not wasted for now I know that I know this is not the god I want to know anymore. I should have been traumatized, but since my studies I am sure of what is true and what not. So I do not regret a thing. Just very, very happy that I am free of the burden that the bible puts on us. Yes, we lost family and friends, but we still love them, for indoctrination is a terrible thing. Glad that you found yourself......keep going...we only have this life.❤

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

sorry you had to lose so much. I hope you find other connections and build your own community.

[@sparkstudies1675]

Do you guys ever struggle with the thought of what if we're actually stupid and missing out big time on a blissful eternal life?

[@j0hn_char960]

YAY, your first video!🎉 Thank you for sharing your story

[@jezebelvibes]

Thanks so much for your support 😊

[@12567NoYouCannot]

"GOD was RUNNING AWAY from Me, Rather than Running to me" Exactly; the More You SEEK him, the MORE HE REJECTS YOU, yet he helps those Who Are Selfish and Cruel, just like those Who attend Church every week.

[@user-qk4ui7sq7b]

You speak so eloquently! I could listen to you talk all day

[@jezebelvibes]

😊

[@RhymesWithPorridge]

Well done, you! I really appreciate hearing deconversion stories from different perspectives, especially those who don't fit the "angry atheist" stereotype.

[@katied_mua582]

“I couldn’t choose to believe even if I wanted to” really resonated with me. Growing up in western North Carolina where everyone is a devout Christian, I always felt from a young age that I was “left out” because I didn’t grow up in a church. From when I was young I never believed in god even though I so desperately wanted to so I could have that sense of community but every single time I went to church I felt like a hypocrite because I never felt Jesus and I knew even while in the church that I didn’t believe. I love listening to your content and it helps me feel so much more secure in my beliefs now.

[@jezebelvibes]

I'm so happy you broke free and found your most authentic path. You deserve it ❤

[@walleras]

Come be Noahide

[@jellyrollthunder3625]

I say the sam thing. I'm incapable of just CHOOSING to believe this or that. True beliefs aren't chosen. True beliefs choose YOU.

[@byron2521]

Wow! Your story sounds almost identical to mine. Raised Southern Baptist, saved (baptized) at about 5 or 6, doubted if that was good enough at that such young an age too. Went to a Bible camp at about 15, moved me! burst out in tears at a prayer meeting during camp. Decided then to either become a preacher or work with kids as a youth minister. Dedicated my full effort to studying the Bible. But as I delve into it more, it just opened more questions and doubt. Met a girl in high school that was a Chistian, any girl I dated then had to be a Christian. I was still devout then. But as we dated, I began to question more, and me and my girlfriend grew apart as her faith was unchallenged. When I was introduced to the philosophy of Calvinism, and only a few are chosen to be saved (not all that believe), no matter what you do. Well, I already doubted my faith, but yeah, I had problems with that concept too. Me and my Christian girlfriend broke up when I was 19. By then I was pretty much an agnostic. But I kept going to church because of "Pascal's Wager", I thought I just could be being lured away by the Devil, so I needed to keep the faith to avoid Hell (unless the Calvins were right, and I had no choice anyway). The Calvin philosophy may have had more influence than I thought. The Idea that God was not a democratic god of freewill still doesn't sit well with me. A tyrannical God that demands blind thoughtless obeisance without thought or freewill or threat of eternal punishment (and your efforts may be in vain anyway)? I tried a few other churches too. I went to Jehovah Witnesses and even seriously thought about Judaism.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

God is the epitome of Holiness because He is sinlessly perfect, A sinner (liar, sexually immoral, taking the Lord’s Name in vain, thief etc) cannot be in the presence of God or else he will be utterly consumed therefore repent of your sins and put your faith in Jesus as your Lord and Saviour to go to Heaven.

[@NaNlinear]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Actually, no one can be in the presence of the Christian god as it does not exist. Also, your fear mongering is just gross manipulation.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

@@NaNlinear God through the Holy Spirit has shown me several things relating to the afterlife with the purpose of convincing people like yourself. Stuff like Heaven and Hell, Angels, and evil Spirits the Lord Jesus (not worthy at all), a miracle happened to me that saved my life (thank you God) & so much more. I am more than happy to give further details.

[@NaNlinear]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 "has shown me several things relating to the afterlife" - Again, people from almost all religions report being shown "truth". "purpose of convincing people like yourself" - Your god could just show up like it used to. You could also demonstrate at all with ANY empirical evidence that your god COULD exist much less that it's your god. I am not bothered by you being a Christian. Some of the best people I have known are Christians. I am bothered when apologists like you use manipulation and coercion to try to "convince" people. Some of the worst people I have ever encountered have been Christians. Apologists rank among these.

[@Brisleep1]

I'm 62, my wife died 4 years ago, she was 58, she had finally accepted she needed to love herself before anyone else. My family is rabid Christian, I've been asking your questions since I was very young and now I just don't understand how people believe it religion. I've been watching your videos at random, now I'll probably go from here, you really know what you're saying! ❤ I've been depressed all of my life, I recently stopped saying that I'm a Christian and guess what, I don't feel depressed about anything anymore! 😁 Thank you for being forthright and honest, I'm glad I found your channel!

[@marcdc6809]

I think it's the thing they do with telling you you're a sinner for having certain thoughts... the coveting... and that's the hook with which they hold you under. Once you realise you're not a sinner for thinking certain things... that the real source of happyness is actually realising: 'hey, I have these thoughts, but don't let them take over my life...', they are on to something there, but they exploit it in stead of coming to terms with them. There's also the thing that they tell you 'you could have done more', and that in itself becomes a sin, I got that a lot from having an education in a catholic rather strict boys-school... And three is always a good number, they tell you that you have to be grateful for your talents, you can't take personal satisfaction for them... that also drags one down...

[@louisemayrand1549]

Praying that you will return to Jesus

[@tommakowski6862]

I wish I had discovered what you're talking about 52 years ago when I accepted Jesus during the Jesus movement. I am now deconstructing, and it's tough. My family and friends are still entrenched in the greatest hoax Humanity has ever seen. Keep going girl, and don't turn back. You are on the road to True Life and true freedom

[@kaionabautista4812]

It’s not a hoax, it’s the truth.

[@WildandFree4]

@@kaionabautista4812 No it isn't. You are in a cult. Look up the religious cult definition. Christianity ticks every box.

[@kaionabautista4812]

@@WildandFree4 What about Christianity leads you to believe it’s a cult?

[@CutTiesWithYourCaptor]

@@kaionabautista4812 I'm not sure what WildandFree response is or was (because I can only see your 2 responses), but I would say that for someone to be led to believe that Christianity is a cult would be simple from the definition of the word "cult". cult /kəlt/ noun: cult; plural noun: cults a system of religious veneration and devotion directed toward a particular figure or object.

[@wheat3226]

Same here. Age 60 before I realized the truth. The evidence it is NOT true is overwhelming. From archeology to biology to history, it fails. Not to mention its own confused theologies and errors.

[@26beegee]

So glad you figured this out and brave enough to make the changes in your life you needed to in order to find emotional and intellectual peace. I was in my 60s before I allowed myself to acknowledge what I had known for several years. Good job and stay strong!

[@jb562]

'When I am weak, he is strong' is the ultimate statement of a controlling cult. The bible is full of this! All of your videos are amazing... please keep it up!! ❤

[@gundamcollector77]

So relying on and having a personal relation ship with a higher power in times of struggle is you being Controlled? Christ preached adamantly that knowing him is a willing choice, and one only the individual can make.

[@josiahesquivel1487]

You will never realize Jesus is all you need till he is all you have

[@jb562]

@@josiahesquivel1487 Why are you here? Perhaps you will learn that you've been lied to. Only the ones that dive deep into study of the Bible are the ones to see the multiple contradictions and to see that it's mythological and copied texts from much earlier books. Dive deep and you'll discover this!!

[@josiahesquivel1487]

@@jb562 We will learn who has been deceived by time

[@josiahesquivel1487]

@@jb562 I’ll tell you this We Will All Say Jesus Christ Is Lord And King Of King’s

[@pipedrmmr]

Thank you for telling your story. You are helping others who are wrestling with the same issues about their beliefs. Blessed be!

[@lagodifuoco313]

As a former minister who was always a Lerner and seeker but never a believer who, after digging deep into contemporary evangelical Christianity and biblical history, became an outspoken anti-theists over 10 years ago. I want to tell you that it was stories like yours that helped me not to feel so alone. Thank you for your "testimony" 😉.

[@davidmccarroll8274]

As a Christian I have one simple question If you are an anti theist then you are entitled to your position hawever if you have never believe how and why are you a former minister?thanks !!!

[@lagodifuoco313]

@davidmccarroll8274 You don't have to believe to be a minister. Do you think Charlatan Scamvangelists like Kenneth Copeland, Creflo Dollar, or Benny Hinn actually believe the Buybull garbage they preach? All you have to do is pretend like you believe, and gullible people (like you) will follow the shepherd like good little sheep.

[@lifethroughromans8295]

​@@davidmccarroll8274- He does make a strange claim as a believer that was a former minister. You have a point.

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

yep I have a friend from my most recent formal UU church whose life story reads like yours. He had to question EVERYTHING and pretty much walk a way from a fairly cozy life situation into one where nothing was certain. Then he almost died from a heart attack. He has been on the mend ever since and has pretty much found his own purpose in life. In a way I think he did sort of "minister" to me, and in turn I sort of learned how to minister to others where I could see somehow that I might sort of reach them.

[@dusty3913]

The “problem of evil” always plagued my thoughts when I sat in the pews as a young person. That, and the “selective love” other Christians showed to people of the world.

[@danboyigomsuk2027]

Look, Christianity is your personal relationship with God. Don't look at what others do and criticize them. Each of us, including you, would one day, account for his actions in this world. The Bible is very clear on that word, 'love' or 'charity'. The Bible instructs us to love all; and to love even those who hate you; pray for them. That is the straightforward instruction. So, when you say 'other Christians' show "selective love", they are not the Bible. Follow the Bible words. Those who show 'selective love' do not understand what Christianity is all about. Accordingly, do not join them or look at them. They are in no way any role model. The Bible is your role model. Period!

[@johnpro2847]

@@danboyigomsuk2027Bible and all religious books are just made up nonsense..If there is a super celestial force..NASA knows nothing of this..amne

[@dusty3913]

@@danboyigomsuk2027 this is quite silly since the Bible is anything but clear. If you choose to read only the words that say “love people” and ignore all the other words, then it is YOU who’s made the decision to “love” and not the Bible’s instructions-since you’ve chosen to ignore most of them. How and from where to gather one’s slaves, how to beat them, what to do with disobedient children, etc. The list of non-loving instructions are long. You can’t possibly defend them or explain them away. So, everything you said was total gibberish. Sorry

[@paulavery5889]

​@@danboyigomsuk2027 so forgive those you hate instead of bitching at them on KZbin.

[@danboyigomsuk2027]

@@dusty3913 And I say categorically that all you have said here is downright gobbledygook and trash! You have made up your dusty mind and closed it to other opposing statements. If you had read and understood what I said earlier, you would not have penned this nonsense. Just as I wouldn't want you to derail in your sojourn in this life, I would equally say that the choice of direction is entirely yours. So, in that case, do not come here to pull other people away from their chosen path of God. It is unconscionable. Just keep your own belief to yourself alone!

[@FABRlCE]

11:11 i used to get told "don't try to go deep making sense bcz you'll end up questioning" i did not listen cause i could bet my life the loving God was real at the time and i thought it will make the belief even stronger on the other side of questioning! I got shocked with my honest conclusions and saddened! i was around 17 thinking i can't stand going to church but who knows in the future, until i was honest with myself at 18, that i wasn't going back. my mind is free from wondering why would God let certain people suffer too much and i used to do good to others knowing that i really wanted to, but i knew of the rewards of afterlife, but now i don't believe in afterlife and i'm happy every time i know i did good for the sake of it. Thank you Kristi.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents, unbelief etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@drpatriciamushonga5411]

Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate to a lot of the things you went through. I have recently left the faith and I am struggling to find meaning and purpose outside of religion.

[@shannon6467]

This is pure disillusionment, not ignorance. Don’t listen to her lies. Cast aside you religions and call on the name of the Lord. Romans 10:9-10 Praying for you Doc!

[@theboombody]

You can't fall into the trap of nihilism where you think nothing has any inherent meaning. That's never a good belief. I never left a religion so I can't relate to that struggle, but I know how damaging it is to believe that nothing ultimately matters. Not only is it damaging, but I believe it to be an untruth.

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

What kind of faith? Mormonism?

[@drpatriciamushonga5411]

@@shannon6467 Nothing fails like prayer

[@drpatriciamushonga5411]

@@gemmeerobinson1803 Evangelical Christianity

[@zechariah22]

I'm here for it =) this is a great first KZbin video. I myself officially left Christianity (evangelism) behind about a year and a half ago

[@Roberto-REME]

You're the best, Kristi. I admire your ability to stay neutral and simply seek the truth. You are an awesome speaker and commend you for all the work you do to help others get clarity on themselves, ...life,.... reality, ....the world, ....why we exist. I support you.

[@handlenumber707]

No. I'm sorry, but she's none of those things, apart from a decent speaker.

[@goohber1]

as a very hopeful Christian, I also struggle w / many issues u bring up about Christianity because, 4 me, I feel like this human existence was forced on me. I also struggle w / concept that if some1 harms me physically - violently, where's god when I really need him in such a situation ? so, if I have to deal w / other humans , specially those who r not really interested in my well - being, where's God to really , lovingly intervene to preserve my existence ? whenever I hear of some1 being brutally murdered, because some1 decided this or that person was not worthy of existing, where was God, if he really loves his children, to do something - intervene & stop this crazy human from murdering so and so ? these r situations when I really ask myself : where's God when it really needs to matter ?

[@floccinaucinihilipilifications]

Thanks for sharing your story. Not easy being so vulnerable. Many wrongly assume people wake up one morning and say, “I’m an atheist now, so I can now live my best sinful self, without guilt!“ Yeah, no.

[@BroneduChannel]

Christianity is not a religion but a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

[@floccinaucinihilipilifications]

@@BroneduChannel been there, done that, got the t-shirt. I say, keep believing what you believe if it’s working for you. If or when it doesn’t, move on…I personally find that The truest thing said in the New Testament is, “Seek the truth and it will set you free.” Paradoxically, if you continue seeking you will find that much of what you believed to be true is not grounded in reality. This is Very disconcerting, painful for a time but resolves itself as you persevere. In deconstructing you can’t “unsee” what you come to see. And that is a beautiful thing. Oh, one other great truth from the Old Testament, engraved on king Solomon’s ring, “This too shall pass.” It’s true of all things. “Good & bad.” Peace be with you!

[@BroneduChannel]

@@floccinaucinihilipilifications to help you understand brother, the Truth is Jesus Christ For he is the way, the Truth and Life... The reason why you are battling currently in your heart about Christianity is because you never had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Your relationship with Jesus Christ was born out of others relationships with Christ which were probably diabolical or not genuine. And because you see the life they lived and do not go well with it, you decide in your heart to abscond. I'll advise you today, seek Jesus Christ personally to be saved...

[@floccinaucinihilipilifications]

@@BroneduChannel I understand that you believe what you are saying. I used to say the same thing… I was presumptuous. As you are being presumptuous not knowing a single thing about my personal experiences, my own Christian journey of 63 years. Even though you will remain a Christian, for your own spiritual growth, I’d point you away from, The blind spot of presumption and the “ sin of certainty. “ It is understandable if you are making these presumptions about me and others, to shield yourself from the doubt. I did the same. I forgive you. 😉 I had them both and will continue to keep that human inclination in check. Imperfectly yours, Mike

[@BroneduChannel]

@@floccinaucinihilipilifications I understand you, and I can tell for sure you have spent many years as a Christian and must have had your reason to abandon it as a religion, I have spent 27years of my life doing the same, as a worker in the church, paying my tithes and doing all I was instructed till I found Jesus Christ by my self. The reason for Christ coming is to save us from our sins to the multiplication of righteousness in us. Until we understand this we can't follow Him in spirit and in truth, until we understand this we can't identify the goals, or reasons for going to the church or taking upon ourselves the name, Christian, even in time past the name Christian might not be the name it was called then by the early Christians, but did you get the message? (that's what matters) It's not about name or experience or years, it's about the life of Christ in you. Until you encounter Christ personally your years of being a Christian by name, birth and circumstances doesn't count. In spirit and in Truth, I'm only just a few months old in Christ and because of the knowledge of the Holy spirit and fear of God in me, I'm yet to claim the name *Christian*. Humble yourself and Christ today to help you personally.

[@annapostate8246]

I went through a very similar experience. I diligently searched for what was true. The way you articulate your experience makes me feel like I’ve found a soul sister 💕 thank you for sharing your brilliant mind ❤️

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

Brilliant mind with no heart for life.

[@annapostate8246]

@@gemmeerobinson1803 I find the opposite true…she knows this life is all we have so it’s even more treasured

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

@@annapostate8246 Her False Preacher must be Joel Osteen who written the book, Your Best Life Now. Goofy...

[@handlenumber707]

Her mind is not so brilliant. I believe she is a victim of some New Age demonic cult; someone who was vulnerable, and taken advantage of by Satanists. It's heart-wrenching.

[@rachaelwilliams-weston6810]

Christie. Ty. I’ve recently left my faith and am distraught and feel I have no purpose anymore. You are really helping me

[@bansrajmattai4548]

This lady has just liberated her mind from what others have been telling her!

[@rennakay1711]

As an X tian myself of only 5 years...Im just now finding my voice! But NOW I realize why every xtian I've ran into as a christian was soooooo vocal about their disdain for the church. I never understood it while I was living it. It's so blatantly obvious now, smh. Thank you for being so vocal, you have been instrumental in my deconstruction!

[@theboombody]

The biggest problem the church has is that it has selective enforcement. It doesn't ignore fornication and adultery but it gave up fighting against them, and is instead fighting against something else that it THOUGHT was less popular. Took the road of least resistance hoping to retain its membership. That's a big reason why God is allowing the church to decline. When you ignore God's methods hoping to achieve his ends it just doesn't work. He takes it all away when you think you can do it better than he can. The church of today is learning that the hard way. They're losing members because they thought they knew better than God how to retain them.

[@estherstone4860]

Don’t confuse the church with God.

[@PaleMist]

What is an "xtian"?

[@rennakay1711]

@@estherstone4860 🤣🤣🤣typical response.

[@rennakay1711]

@@PaleMist ex christian

[@JaysonT1]

When i stopped being religious, my family disowed me (with the exception of my mother). I kept reaching out to them and got so exhausted that i thought, I'll just wait for them to connect with/call me. That was over 20 years ago and to this day I have yet to hear from any of them.

[@familyportsmouth]

That is what keeps many from coming out. I feel that there are many "christians" who stopped believing a long time ago, but to keep harmony, they claim to be christian.

[@Manas-co8wl]

Love without freedom is fear in disguise. It really shows doesn't it. Thank you for being brave. You may not have familial connection but you have our unending support.

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

sorry it cost you so much. meanwhile "family" need not be composed of people with common DNA but perhaps people with common spirit.

[@Childfree334]

​@@tracyavent-costanza346"Family need not be composed of people with the same DNA" Exactly!!!!

[@true4585]

That’s not love.

[@towandalomax3295]

I have been dealing with very similar feelings for the last few years, and sometimes friends and family treat you like a unicorn and they worry that I'm going to hell.But I feel more free and peaceful than I have in years. Stay Strong

[@true4585]

Honestly. Sooooo much more free peaceful and just NICER

[@Chemeleon86]

Former Christian here. There's a lot to relate with in your story. Mainly the harsh response from the more religious of my family. I've recently just discovered your channel. This is my third video watched and I think I'll hang around for a few more. :)

[@ChristianApologeticsProject]

There is no such thing as a "former Christian," as that would be tantamount to say, I am a "former son/daughter of my human parents," which is abject nonsense. You did nothing to bring yourself into the world, and the Christian does nothing to bring him/herself into God's family. Hence, you can do nothing to extricate yourself from either.

[@Chemeleon86]

@@ChristianApologeticsProject Christian meaning from Google, "relating to or professing Christianity or its teachings". I do not submit to it's teachings anymore. Thus the 'former' part certianly comes into play. But hey, for fun, let's assume you're right and I'm still a Christian. 1. I'm still going to live the life I want without any worship to your God, sins and all still occuring. Will I still be accepted into heaven since I'm still Christian and in his family? 2. Are you saying that I can't remove myself from religion because, "Once you're in, you're in for life"? Then that kind of takes away from the 'free will' that your God supposedly offers. Or, if you're saying that we're all Christians because we're all God's children, then please explain that to the other religons. 3. You might want to keep a close eye on me. If I'm a Christian then you certainly don't want me representing you. "I'm Christian! Hail Satan!". See? It's bad P.R. isn't it? Me being bound to religion can only be a bad thing for both of us. And frankly, you don't get to make up titles for me. So what do you say we just go back to calling me a former Christian and I will bid you Good day?

[@ChristianApologeticsProject]

@@Chemeleon86 "But hey, for fun, let's assume you're right and I'm still a Christian." There was no assumption on my part that you ever were a Christian, though. In fact, it is the contrary. Your irrational mockery makes that evident. So, I will just say, "Thanks," for example.

[@Chemeleon86]

​@@ChristianApologeticsProject So the argument is, "you never really were a Christian"? Ok, so there was a fork in the road as to how I could interpret your comment and I got the wrong one. I apologise about that and the following arguments that had no place here. However, I gave the dictionary defination at the very start. That withstanding still shows I was a Christian because I related to it's teachings. Yes, I've since dropped those teachings, but I still once held them. Jumping back to the mockery, I'd mentioned in my original message that my religious family had caused me some issues. Seeing a complete stranger on the net apparently taking a swing at me too set me off. I'm not proud of that. I apologise again. I still consider myself a former Christian. That's my history.

[@ChristianApologeticsProject]

@@Chemeleon86 Being born into God's family is not about YOU! It is irrelevant whether YOU "related" to any text, whether it is the Bible or some "Christian" author's book, whereby YOU thought that made you a Christian. Being born of GOD is what matters. If you're not born of GOD (literally "born from above," as Jesus taught in John 3:3-5), then you're not a Christian. Persons born of GOD remain Christians, because "salvation is of the Lord," and what GOD does, YOU cannot undo. People do not become Christians because of their own efforts, nor can they cease to be a Christian by their efforts. Salvation, or becoming a Christian, is by God's unmerited favor, whereby He chooses whom He will "according to the purpose of His will" (Eph 1:5). Hence, a Christian can no more undo what GOD has done to become a child of His than what you or I could do to undo what our human parents did to bring us to be as their sons or daughters. If our efforts to be or not be Christians was relevant, "then Christ died for no purpose" (Gal 2:21). That said, I accept your apology. It is not my intention to "take swings" at anybody, personally, but to destroy the foundations they set up "against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ" (2 Cor 10:5). What Kristi has erected here, in her own personal hostility, probably toward something similar to your experience, even though indirectly toward God and Jesus, is a fortress she has been deceived into believing will bring her solace. It will bring none, though. What she calls "deconstructing" is really nothing more than self-destruction, or the very thing Satan wants her to do. It makes his task easy if a person will simply destroy themselves without him having to do much more than plant a God-defying thought in her head, and then stoke her irrational emotions a bit, and before long she self-destructs beneath a cloud of nihilism, despair, and hopelessness. Let me finish by letting you know that I want you be a Christian, just not the wishy-washy, doctrinally-dumb variety found in so many "Christian" churches today. I want you to stand on the solid rock, who is Jesus, so that when an imposter, an apostate, or self-proclaimed atheist comes along, you can easily spot the fallacies in their supposedly sophisticated arguments that they claim is "rational" or "reasonable." That way you can stand and not fall for their deceitful tropes and conceited implications that they are a god. Until such time, have a great day! I look forward to conversing with you in the future, hopefully on a better footing that we got started.🙂

[@ashmac89]

Subscribed! I recently discovered you through tiktok and your videos have helped me process my complicated emotions towards religion. As a child it brought me comfort but within the past few years I've struggled with the contradictions and forced guilt. Today I think I consider myself agnostic and I'm focused on healing from the past and making sense of the world in a way that works best for me. I look forward to the future of your channel 👍

[@daughterofthemoon22]

omg this is like my life I grew up a Baptist and I even went to a Baptist school thank you so much for sharing this

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

it might help to read about john calvin himself (who did not actually FOUND "calvinism" but did sort of make it widely a thing). He was no angel, and I do think an abiding self-hatred powered his ability to internally justify the vile things that he and his minions did. here is a way to get started... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Calvin

[@MrsBridgette2012]

I’m impressed by the fact that you left your religion while your parents were still around. I had doubts and questioned our religion since I was a teenager. My mother was very strict. Can you believe I didn’t even dare change my religion till she passed away. Finally I could explore. I could read other books. She always said,”Anything you need to know is in the word of God”. And when I asked questions or made a friend from another religion. She would forbid me to have anything to do with their religion. “Don’t look into other religions, you will be led astray.” I was 45 years old when she passed away and I was free. For many years I searched for a church and religion that made sense. Long story short, I’m 70 years old and am finally admitting that I don’t believe the Bible is the word of God. And religion is man made. My sister is just like my mom and she gives me a hard time. She of course wants to save me from eternal hell fire. You sure are brave and I look forward to hearing more from you.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

Most people have heard “Jesus/God loves you”. Does that mean they have a relationship with God and will go to heaven? Depends on the individual. A relationship is 2 sided, you receive love and you give love back. God showed His love by suffering, dying on the cross and rising from the dead for you, now you show Love back by repenting of your sins (lying, stealing, sexual sins, taking the Lord’s Name in vain etc) and believing in Jesus as your Lord and saviour so that Heaven is in your future not hell

[@jentynjones]

I came over from the ⏰ app. You quickly became my favorite creator there. I’m so happy to have longer videos. I know this is the only one so far. But I’m excited for the others to come.

[@swativerma4035]

Hey.. Even I struggle sometimes with this doubt.. I m new in Christianity.. Always wondered what if I am not the choosen one of God.. This thing scares me a lot.. But all I knw i put all these questions in front of God including other questions like why in the old Testament he let ppl die in war, was so hard with israelites, why did he left them wondering in wilderness for so long, why he only choose certain ppl and many more.. Such questions always break my heart.. And trust I just laid those questions in front of Jesus Christ trusting him that he himself would solve these for me one day.. And he did.. And not through Bible.. But i dont knw how in my spirit I knw the answers now.. He gave me these answers through so many ways.. Made me understand things logically as I feel I can now see things through his perspective.. All i did was praise him and worship him.. Rest he did himself.. He showed me why certain ppl and he already knows who bcz he knows our heart.. Bcz not everyone wants to change and serve God.. They willfully choose satan as their master bcz they enjoy it.. They do not want to change.. Just do not.. U knw ppl who willfully accept satanism.. If they knw satan exist, they knw God too exist.. God showed me the power of praising him and worshipping him.. It makes things possible.. Even the disciples had to grow through so much bcz of these ppl who did not want to accept God as the Lord or themselves want to define God.. I was a narcissist.. So selfish.. But i always prayed to God to change me.. Yet so arrogant.. God humbled me, let me suffer for so long bcz of my own pride.. But showed me in the end all this.. I knw I have now changed a lot.. I know He is working on my heart and will continue to do so.. He will take out everything from me, pride, anger, greed, lust, anxiety, so on till I turn into a person he wants me to be.. I asked him the value of Jesus sacrifice for me in the beginning bcz I could not thank him for this whole heartedly.. To ans this he showed me my weakness, my daily small sins and my inability to correct so much in me.. And then I don know how he made me realise that Jesus Christ is the manifestation of his love and forgiveness for me every day.. Every moment.. And so I am so free.. I still have some questions that I want to understand.. But now I trust him that he will solve these too in his own timing, using his own ways.. Also he did many things in my life which I knw only God can do.. Still my many prayers were not answered.. So just lay your question at his feet.. And praise him and worship him.. Stop trying to figure things out with your own understanding.. He will first give the heart to understand.. Otherwise it will just be like a seed thrown on a Rocky ground.. Enjoy being with Him.. I m not questioning your faith or efforts.. But it too took me some yrs to understand.. Bcz my heart initially was not able to accept things from Bible.. But he made me go through pain, situations, struggles, solutions and prepared my heart to see things from his perspective.. Also this is the new thing he is teaching me that how my faith is more important than those laws in the Bible.. How Jesus is so important in this.. Jesus works directly on our hearts..

[@joannelum2995]

Amen.. we have to have a relationship with Our Lord Jesus n experienced miracles than we will understand it all... ❤

[@johnathanocampo8023]

“Belief is not a choice” - that sentence felt like a hug…I don’t know why lol😭😂

[@williamstennett7136]

WOW! Your testimony is spot on with my experience also. Keep up your wonderful work! You are loved and appreciated!!

[@jesshughes776]

I am writing to share the most incredible thing you will likely ever hear, and it has everything to do with your position if you will follow it. First, it is impossible that anything you can touch, taste, hear, see or smell on the face of the earth, be it lighting, tornados, rocks, life, minerals from salt to plutonium or anything that can be with the powerful telescope we have in orbit and beyond what we can see, that could possibly exist without having been created. Because of this, we can be sure that everything that is had to be made where there was absolutely nothing to make it out of. Romans 1:20 New International For since creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse. So you see, there is a God. I myself have studied world religions in depth in college and much more so on my own time. I have found that the only religion that holds water is Christianity. I am no affiliate of any Christian denomination as they are called because the enemy has a very well received counterfeit in place in nearly all of them, and the condition is terminal. I am Messianic, where I find Truth to be most rightly applied and followed. The bill of rights we share is such a blessing. But I will quote TobyMcKeehan with Times are changing/With morals in decay/Human rights have made the wrong okay. I am only showing you the way as I have found it through much study and life experience. Perhaps my best case for Truth of this is found in the book of Habakkuk 1-2:17 where he was given a vision of Adolf Hitler and Nazi Germany. Some very strong and interesting proof is in the discovery of Sodom and Gomorrah. This is in these videos. Pt. 1 kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZoLWmIxnZpp4fMU Pt. 2 kzbin.info/www/bejne/bqHPmWeEgtSEqZo And here is where the remains of pharaoh's army is found in the red sea. kzbin.info/www/bejne/jmSxpnShjbqqq5I Gnesis 19:24 New International Version Then the LORD rained down burning sulfur on Sodom and Gomorrah--from the LORD out of the heavens. Brimstone found there is over 95 percent pure. The purest sulfur anywhere else is just over 45% and is found near active geothermal regions. Brimstone such as is found near these two infamous cities is found nowhere else on earth. Yet here it is still, a God-given supernatural element to warn those who would live against Him. 2 Peter 2:6 If He condemned the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah to destruction, reducing them to ashes as an example of what is coming on the ungodly; He is love or He wouldn't have warned us.After much consideration I found truth best taught and followed as a Messianic. Here are two of the videos I found on this. kzbin.info/www/bejne/enO2eqZol62ca8k kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZoLWmIxnZpp4fMU&t=2s THESE 2 VIDEOS ARE UNDENIABLE PROOF OF NOAH'S ARK AND SODOM AND GOMORRAH. IT WAS SOUND AND THE DIMENSIONS AND MEASUREMENTS MATCH THE BIBLICAL RECORD EXACTLY. WHAT THEY FIRST SAW LOOKED TO BE AN OUTLINE OF A SHIP IN THE MOUNTAINS OF ARARAT WHERE THE BIBLE SAID THE ARK SETTLED. IT WAS MOSTLY PETRIFIED WOOD WITH LINES OF METAL RUNNING THE LENGTH OF THE ARK REMAINS EVENLY SPACED ACROSS. THIS MEDAL WAS NOT FOUND OUTSIDE THE ARK. THE ALSO FOUND PETRIFIED ANIMAL DROPPINGS AND WHAT LOOK TO BE RIB TIMBERS USED IN CONSTRUCTION. kzbin.info/www/bejne/pYLal4hteduIr6c BELOW ARE THE ACTUAL REMAINS OF SODOM AND GOMORRAH'S ASHEN REMAINS. MILLIONS OF PIECES OF BRIMSTONE WAS FOUND IN THE AREA OF THE CITIES, BUT NONE IN BETWEEN THEM. BRIMSTONE MEANS SULFUR. THIS SULFUR IS 98% PURE. THE PUREST SULFUR FOUND ANYWHERE ELSE ON EARTH IS A MAZIMUM 40% PURE. kzbin.info/www/bejne/fZm3m3iYg8yHh68

[@pwoods100]

Your story resonates so much with my own - I always had questions since I was a kid, but never feeling strong enough to confront them. It wasn't until my late 20's that I started my quest for truth that lasted about ten years. By the time I reached age 39 - I was fully out, becoming at first a deist, and then finally atheist. Most of my family still doesn't have a clue about my non-belief. My dad is more liberal, and doesn't have an issue with it anymore. My mother - I can't tell, simple as that. The most important thing to remember, is that the number one weapon that religion uses is FEAR. Fear of death, fear of doing the wrong thing, fear of believing the wrong thing, ect. It's all based on fear of something that has never been proven - and never demonstrated to be true, while the masses still cling to 'the Emperor's new Clothes'. Everybody wants to feel safe - just in case it is true, but there is a huge price to pay for the charade. There are more moderate forms of Christianity - sure, but they're really just another version of 'choose your own adventure'. And what's the point of that? It's useless.

[@theonlyway5298]

I'm also a fingerstyle guitarist, but my journey has been in the opposite direction - I experienced a powerful conversion of God's presence when I was aged 24, had a vision of Christ months later and have been on the Christian journey for decades. For me, my faith is not about fear, but on then contrary, about the deep love and meaning of Jesus and his presence with me. I respect other people's journeys, as no one can really walk in someone else's shoes.

[@charp823]

It's amazing to me how completely diverse everyone's stories are.

[@istvansipos9940]

@@theonlyway5298 and flaoting ships are real. I've seen them in a mirage. Ooops! Mental episodes area also real. "your g0d is a vague claim about 1 form of Middle Eastern magic. the g0d is not defined, let alone supported with evidence, or with just 1 testable claim." waiting for that very first testable claim, I wonder: Why, oh WUUUY don't we have visions about any deity we've never heard about? Millions of people in all the many centuries in the Americas, for example. Building cities, waging wars, running entire civilizations, but never ever decribing any vision about the bible g0d. Not a simple CROSS anywhere before 1492 C.E.

[@4dojo]

100% relatable. No one who knew me in my youth could ever say that I wasn't ever "really a Christian". I spent my whole life until my late twenties doing everything that I could to spread Christianity and get to know God better. I had read through the entire Bible so many times that I was actually competing in national Bible knowledge competitions and placing in the top ranks for Bible knowledge. But in my mind twenties I started trying to understand all of the contradictions in the Bible that I had tried to ignore or rationalize and trying to understand all of the terrible things that God commanded his followers to do to other people in the Bible, and over the next few years as I stubbornly tried to keep believing in God I finally had to admit to myself that my religion was foolish and that I had wasted most of my life and lost out on so many opportunities and relationships because I wanted to follow the Bible rather than my intellect.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@4dojo]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 At this point in my life unless a Christian has an intellectual argument I'm not really interested in hearing them just tell me to believe for no reason. When I point out the countless contradictions in the Bible like how Judas returns the silver and hangs himself in the book of John vs how he kept the silver and bought a field before falling in it in the book of Acts, christians refuse to explain those contradictions, and there are many more contradictions just like it, but I would be given examples all day if i started. Or when I point out that God openly encourages buying slaves and beating them to near death because they are their masters "property", or how God commanded the death of every canaanite baby and even civilians who beg to be spared, again Christians expect you to ignore those things, and there are many more questionable commands from God like those, but again I'd be naming them all day if I started. So unless you want to actually explain these things please don't just tell me "I have no compelling argument, just believe anyway". And please don't use personal anecdotes as evidence, like how you can feel the holy spirit and that's how you know he exists. That means nothing to me.

[@QuestionThingsUseLogic]

@@4dojo that commenter you replied to just copies and pasted the exact same response to anyone who does not believe in its immoral god. They never respond to pertinent points, I've found over time. Enjoy the life we have! ☺️

[@4dojo]

@@QuestionThingsUseLogic That's sad. He probably doesn't even watch the videos or read the comments before pasting his own.

[@QuestionThingsUseLogic]

@@4dojo yes, agreed. There are a few I've come across who spam Atheist channels. They have no respect for people. It was good to read your comment. Ex Christian here of 50 years! Much happier and freer!

[@coldstone6129]

I am deeply touched by your such sincere and honest sharing. I would like to wish you all the best!

[@purplepineapple7893]

Almost a 100% map of what i had and have been going thru . Is refreshing to hear someone who legit can put into words mostly how i felt/thought and very similar experiences about what started to break your understanding of things. Very similar breaking points however im still struggling with certain things and understanding of it all. I can’t call myself a Christian but perhaps there’s some spiritual reason why we going down this path. I can’t csll myself an atheist either and still “pray” that whatever this path is is still headed in helping myself and others reach a fruitful truth. Ty gif sharing friend😢❤️

[@happyraver1958]

Your journey out or Christianity has a lot of similarities with mine. You're a very smart lady Kristi! I'm very happy to hear about your journey, maybe some day I'll muster the courage to tell my story in a video. I keep thinking that we need more atheist content creators while at the same time I don't become one myself, I'm too busy with life, it almost sounds like a contradiction on my part. You inspired me to add an item to my bucket list: "Tell my de-conversion story in a video." Thank you Kristi!!!

[@BroneduChannel]

Christianity is not a religion but a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

[@happyraver1958]

@@BroneduChannel do you truly believe I didn't wrestle with these issues? Do you think Kristi didn't either? I wasn't born yesterday, I know what I experienced, I know my life and I know myself, you can't come at me and tell me what I feel, what I know and why I did what I did, this is gaslighting, one of the many forms abuse can take. "You were never a true Christian (no true Scotsman fallacy) or you just want to sin." I've heard it countless times before, it has been thrown at me and at many other atheists before. This is one of the many reasons why Christianity is easy to reject, it is based on nothing tangible and it relies on abuse and manipulation to sustain itself in the minds of people.

[@BroneduChannel]

@@happyraver1958 not true... Or I'll say not certain. There's the hard truth (what we fight with everyday) and the spread of truth with love. I'm not gaslighting, but if it sounds like that's what I did, I apologize... The truth here is that, we are to educate each other, you have stated your reasons, and from a spiritual point of view, I have explained the hard Truth. But I'll will bring it with love. Christianity isn't a religion, that's where we get it wrong... I can help you with scriptures if you ask. It is our duty to educate each other of the danger of sin and the life of Christ to save us from the damnation of sin. Will you say because, the word of God has told us to live certain way, to abstain from sin for our salvation unto our repentance that Christ doesn't love us?? The m*rderer needs Christ as much as the r*bbers in the street too and as much as we both do. There is no where in the world that a man will see a solution to sin than in Christ, because that is the purpose of his coming and dying on the cross. If you didn't know before, I am bringing it to your knowledge. You might have spent years in the church, with christian folks and engaged in so called christian doctrines, but the question is this... have you had encounter with Christ personally, like in a dream, vision or trans?? It's through this encounter that we can say for sure where we stand, because the Christ will let us know. I'm 27years of age as an acclaimed christian but in spirit and in truth I'm just a few months in Christ, under-going the course of repentance. So sweetheart, seek the help of Christ today to be saved from your sins, no matter how small they are, that the Will of God be achieved in your life... In Jesus name Amen

[@happyraver1958]

@@BroneduChannel I've lived in the USA long enough to know about the gospel, I used to be a Christian just like you, that talked just like you and that had serious convictions just like you. The way you write reminds me of me when I was your age, but I've learned and I've grown since then. Before you throw scripture at me, the reality of what is written needs to be established, you're taking that part for granted, you're assuming that Jesus exists, that heaven exists, that hell exists, that sin is real, none of these things have any evidence behind them, all we have is people believing that they're real, but no tangible, verifiable, empirical evidence for any of them, how do we know any of that is real? I've never had any moments of trance either sweetheart, but I have heard of others that can go into a trance and manifest a flower in thin air; they have mastered the power of the mind that it is claimed they can manifest it in physical form. A Zen Buddhist made that extraordinary claim, I don't believe him because of lack of evidence, I don't believe Jesus is real for the exact same reason. Don't preach please, everything you can tell me I've heard before.

[@BroneduChannel]

@@happyraver1958 it's fine you've heard everything, and I won't be throwing scriptures at you, because the Word of God lives in me already and I will share the knowledge of the Holy spirit as given. Because you can't give what you don't have.... Jesus Christ came to save us from our SINS. But just like your quest is to leave Christianity, mine was to be saved from sin, because my conscience never liked it. If you say your sins are your natural form then why judge the m*rderer, and a r*bber?? no one ever likes what they do, that's how much sin is to be hated generally. I've being a Christian for a very long time, I even became a worker in the church, paid my tithe sometimes and sometimes shared the gospel the little I can but I was later at the edge of giving up like you have done, because the reason I came to the church wasn't achieved in me, (which was to stop my sinful nature of masturbating, fornication, pornography, anger, rage, envy, bitterness, lying and swearing tongue)... After a Man shared the gospel of salvation and repentance to me and I followed him to know Christ better to be taught of the word of God in an educational setting, it was then I realized 3 things, *some churches are far from God, the church is no more spiritual because they have mixed the church with the world. *Nations are far from God and a nation can be cursed to never hear from God again which will lead to multiplication of corruption and unrighteousness. *And lastly, I noticed I wasn't seeking Christ in spirit and in truth, and that I can not stop sin myself, no man has the gift and power to remove sin from a man, but only the Word of God - Jesus Christ, to be taught by the Holy spirit, and the holy spirit just like it's name is, cannot behold unrighteousness, unholiness or iniquity. So I don't know what you were being taught in your church in USA, but I'll tell you for sure, I have had an encounter with Jesus Christ myself personally, that's what has given me this confidence to speak openly, I am saved from all the sins I have listed and joyful in my heart to share more, only if you can humble yourself and seek Christ in spirit and truth. I think your question and concern now shouldn't be based on the years you've spent in the church as a Christian and what has happened in the past but a way forward and How Jesus works?

[@setheninsendgame]

Wow, I'm surprised how similar our stories are. A loving god purposely sending people to hell was the first issue for me as well and divine hiddenness was also the final nail in the coffin for my faith. I just kept running into more and more issues that made it impossible for me to ignore even though I tried. Thanks for sharing your story. It was stories like this that helped me accept who I was and gave me the courage to come out as an atheist. I've shared my story on my channel as well for the same reason you are. We aren't alone! All the best to you!

[@crystaljones5648]

Just curious, where did you get the idea that God sends people to hell? He doesn't. God is a very patient God. He doesn't want people to go to hell, in fact, people have all their lifetime on this earth to take the opportunity to believe and trust in Jesus Christ, to make Him first in their lives and follow Him; and in return they are rewarded with the gift of eternal life by God after they die. He doesn't want His creation who is made in his image to spend eternity with the place set aside for Satan and his demons to spend eternity. 2 Peter 3:9 says that God is long-suffering toward us, not willing that any one of us should perish but that all would come to repentance. 1 Timothy 2:3-4 says God desires all men to be saved and come to the knowledge of the truth. What God does recognize is that many will perish because they will not repent according to Matthew 7:13-14. If you do not repent, you are sending yourself to hell, not God.

[@gleanerman2195]

@@crystaljones5648 You need to read your evil bible, god is a murderer that sends pretty much everyone to hell.

[@setheninsendgame]

@@crystaljones5648 Thanks for your question. It came from my understanding that god was omniscient (all knowing) and that god was responsible for creating life. That would mean that god creates people that he knows will spend eternity in hell. I came to realize that god's "love" is more abusive and conditional. It's like he was saying "You are free to love me if you choose, but if you do not then I'll lock you in the basement (or worse actually)." The concept of a loving god and a hell are not logically consistant. What I find curious is how we know god is loving? If god was a deceptive god, one that was jealous and vengeful, he could still "write" the bible so that people would be deceived into thinking he was a kind of loving god. How would we know the difference?

[@dimitartodorov4826]

​@@setheninsendgame God knowing something doesn't mean He caused it. Calvinists believe that God causes everything that comes to pass, but not all christians are calvinists. And even if you cannot be convinced by that there is a doctrine called "open theism" which basically says that God created a world in which He limits Himself in knowledge and He knows every possible choice but he doesn't know with certainty what you will chose (something like a story game with multiple choices). No matter which of the 2 views are true, based on what we see in Jesus, God is just and good. If God predetermines people for hell, I agree with you, this is not a just or loving God, but rather and omnipotent and omniscient devil. Hell isnt a problem as well since if you don't like the "eternal conscious torment" view of hell, you can hold to "annihilationism", which is basically - the lost will be destroyed at one point and stop existing. Scripture isnt clear on the issue so they both are possible. There are some doctrines which present God in a bad light, don't let false doctrines of man shape how you view God.

[@sinenomine7984]

@@crystaljones5648 If your god didn’t want ppl to go to hell, why the hell did he create it? And if he’s truly all powerful, why doesn’t he get rid of it and the devil bogeyman? If he doesn’t get rid of all that, he’s not all powerful or not all good. And if he won’t, then he’s just a piece of shit and not worthy of worship. Or, and FAR more likely, HE’S NOT THERE!!!!

[@TWolf317]

I always enjoy hearing a story similar to my own. With stories like yours, I'm always reminded of the the blog Neil Carter (Godless in Dixie) wrote where he says something about how many of us left the faith not because we cared too little, but because we cared too much. For me it was wanting to know *all* of the Bible, not just bits and pieces. After a deep dive into the Bible of 10 years or more, I was left as a non-believer. Christians will tell me I was looking for atheism when I read the Bible. But nothing could be further from the truth. I wanted to the absolute best, most informed Christian I could be. It's just that I didn't find "God" there.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@josephchia1287]

Your courage to be vulnerable and share your deconstruction journey is admirable. I have intellectually and spiritually left Catholicism but would never dare to declare it to my family let alone on a public forum.. well done

[@memtesin5918]

So many people who grew up in a church family are turning away. I pray he's able to lead you back some day soon. Thank you for sharing your experience.

[@gleanerman2195]

Once you see the truth we never go back, just laugh at you all for being so gullible.

[@andrewprahst2529]

​@@gleanerman2195 I saw a guy get baptized two weeks ago who was an atheist for 70 years and wrote multi-page essays about why religion is a fallacy, but by the grace of God he came around somehow.

[@gleanerman2195]

@@andrewprahst2529 Most are brainwashed as a child, this man was brainwashed as a 70 year old fool, his brain is very weak at that age, sad.

[@nanoelbatero57]

Former church drummer here, tbh I got tired of playing at churches (actually church in general cause bro that junk is so stressful) the amount of people taking advantage of my skills, getting upset when I can’t play, lack of pay expected to play like a pro for free. I left church and joined a band and wanted to freely pursue a drumming career and all I got from church was being judged. Mind you this band was the first brother hood/family I felt in all my life but naw the church wants to tell me I must give it up and that church comes with a family. Mind you people at church have lied to me, manipulated me, took advantage of me, bullied me, etc. And I’m suppose to give up my band , people who actually care about me, just to go back to church and consider them as “family” (random people that Idek )because it pleases God and that’s what im suppose to do? Naw im good, I don’t ever wanna experience that again.

[@Curtoonstv]

I feel you, I joined a Young Adult Group at church. A lot of young people there in their 20s and adult teens (Im in my late 20s). It was very cliquish and a lot of high school mindsets (not surprising). I left it after a month. They were all about dating and validation seeking in there. Very corny. I turned down a few and they got pissed.

[@davidsalo8397]

I left church a couple years ago. It was an organization fraught with many problems that the upper management would not address. Or address it in the wrong way. I got tired of feeling exploited. Then the hypocrisy during COVID was the final straw. I'm finished with institutional religion, and not really sure about what happens after we die. For many, their belief system appears as an insurance policy against eternal damnation. That's when I feel like I've been taken hostage.

[@tinag7381]

I was raised Catholic but I always disliked having to go to Mass on Sundays. In my teens I'd often pretend to be sick so I didn't have to go. As a little kid I had gone to Catholic school from Kindergarten to 3rd grade. I was so happy to finally go to a public school from 4th grade on. What kept me from being a true believer was a reading from the Scripture that came up from time to time, about," wives obey your husbands ". Right there, I rebelled and could not stand these oppressive messages against women. I continued to pretend to believe as long as my parents were alive. Now that they are no longer on the planet, I think for myself and consider myself culturally catholic and spiritually agnostic. I just found your channel today and have been binge watching! You make sense. I appreciate logic, reason, and science.. Thank you for your insight and wisdom☆

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

God is the epitome of Holiness because He is sinlessly perfect, A sinner (liar, sexually immoral, taking the Lord’s Name in vain, thief etc) cannot be in the presence of God or else he will be utterly consumed therefore repent of your sins and put your faith in Jesus as your Lord and Saviour to go to Heaven.

[@mgntstr]

logic, reason, and science... brought to you by followers of Christ who sought to know him better by gaining a deeper understanding of his creation. "Husbands serve your wives" uugh bible is so toxic and oppressive.

[@RJ420NL]

Thanks for sharing your story. I was also raised S. Baptist. I left the church and Christianity many years ago. I’m at a point now where I’ve moved through the emotional aspect and I’m looking into religion from a sociological and mythological perspective. My current thinking is regardless of what I do not believe; religion is a powerful force both in the modern world and historically, so it’s a topic worth studying. Anyway, I came across your channel because I was researching the differences between Jesus and Paul. I wish you all the best in your journey.

[@luisaalmontevega2016]

You’re gonna be great on KZbin! Congratulations!

[@jezebelvibes]

Thank you friend!

[@jortiz2672]

Hi Kristi! I came from TikTok. You have really helped me see the logic and come to rational conclusions about Christianity. Im 23 and I have never been religious or had it forced on me..but my mom is a christian, and growing up I saw her go through a dark time where she did really strange things because she could not understand or justify the actions of people in her life who have wronged her. It was a plan by the devil, etc…I just knew ever since then that there’s something wrong here..the negative impact religion can have on people’s mental health…and their entire life. Your content has helped me understand religions are currently controlling people and preventing them from finding themselves, developing their own moral compass & critical thinking about the world. but yeah I’m rambling here..but I enjoy your tiktoks and appreciate you sharing more of your story. I would love to see more KZbin vids

[@tdr.220]

I pray that people don't confuse the church and God. God is not the church, and the church is not God. You don't have to throw away your faith because of other "Christians" or bad experiences in the church. I think people confuse the institution of Christianity and being a Follower of Christ. There are many Christians who do not follow Christ. Being a Follower of Christ means that you prioritize your relationship with him versus church traditions. Churches can help introduce/ lead people to Christ, however they cannot give you a relationship with Him.

[@Slo-ryde]

@@tdr.220 for baptists and evangelicals….it’s all about the church… to them, as long as you are deeply rooted in their church; you can do or say no wrong!

[@jaysonb.6669]

The sad thing is how many millions of Christians have walked away from faith altogether due to the yoke & shame associated with man-made religious doctrine.

[@Slo-ryde]

@@jaysonb.6669 they didn’t walk away because the religion was “ man made”…. More so because they saw the hypocrisy being practiced by those saying one thing, and then doing something else!

[@jaysonb.6669]

@@Slo-ryde The Gospel message is so SIMPLE a child could understand. Man diverts & pollutes it with additional stumbling blocks. God's grace ALONE through Faith ALONE in Jesus Christ bloodshed on the cross. Dont put your faith in Church leaders, place it in JESUS CHRIST ALONE.

[@leechteeeeth]

I just want to say thank you so much Kristi. I felt I could relate to you from the beginning as I also grew up in an extremely religious household. When I was 16 (I'm 17 now) I decided to pursue god and I wanted to know him better, but as I did I would find cracks that couldn't be explained logically. I'm still terrified of hell and the supposed consequences of not following Jesus but you have helped me so much through my religious trauma. I still have to fake being religious in front of my family but I'd rather that than getting kicked out. Thank you so much, you're a blessing 🥺!

[@RealityMatters343]

I followed the same journey as you and Kristi in my early 20's. Understand this: torture is compatible with neither love nor forgiveness. You know this, in your whole being, this statement stands on its own merit. So a god that would invent eternal torture for failure to believe in it, understand it properly or worship it is a despot. If there was such a god, it would be utterly unworthy of human adoration. You and I would no more worship it than worship someone who abuses animals just because they have the power to torture something into compliance. Hell is a human invention used to control people. Teaching young children that they are destined for Hell just for being born unless they believe a bunch of unverifiable claims is flat out child abuse. They resort to that because they don't have anything else to keep people trapped, the claims simply don't hold up on their own. I'm sorry you were a victim of that. Congratulations on finding your way out, you are very special to be able to break free so young. Trust yourself and don't look back. Your own heart is better than the religion you were raised with. When people allow themselves to recognize this in themselves, more people will get out.

[@BellaBella.]

Jessica Joi Don't listen to her. Satan talks through her. Hell is real and once you close your eyes in earthly death it is over. You have made your decision. God didn't send you there. You did by not believing.

[@jaysonb.6669]

This is the heavy yoke of religion which places many followers in peril. Focusing on fear, shame & guilt instead of JESUS CHRIST. The Gospel is SIMPLE to understand. Jesus took care of all your sins on the cross with his EVERLASTING bloodshed. Past present and future. The Holy Spirit seals all believers for eternity. You can now rest in God's GRACE instead of trying to keep yourself "right" with works, which is the trap Satan wants us to fall into. Either becoming overly prideful egomaniacs, or perpetually broken & ashamed to the point of walking away. Jesus says "my yoke is light". We strive in discipleship because it pleases our heavenly Father and helps our walk in this world avoid pitfalls, not because we have to maintain a scale or "teeter totter" of Salvation status. I really hope this encourages you to not walk away from your free gift of salvation. If you get the chance you should check out "Pastor Joseph Prince" on youtube and see if that helps you as well. Remember, rest in God's GRACE, not your own resolutions or imperfections. God bless you.

[@highflyingduck]

Totally relatable. All the Charismania, Word of Faith, Prosperity Gospel nonsense in the Church today is a total Faith killer. Fortunately, I've been able to hold on to firm beliefs, based on actual scripture but I doubt I'll ever step foot inside a Church again. I just really feel bad (and angry) for the millions of "Christians" that have been sucked into this heretical lunacy. Thanks for this honest video.

[@jasond4658]

Why?

[@estibensilvamacario6581]

I went through a similar experience; I was brought up in a Christian home and have attended a Pentecostal evangelical church all of my life. I would preach and was even baptized when I was 14 years old. Then my doubts began to surface, and I went through a very similar process. I then began to work with a different Pentecostal church that was a little more liberal and appropriate for me, but my questions were never satisfactorily addressed. As a result, I began to study mysticism with a group called the Gnostics at college after class. That didn't work though; I felt better for a few months, to be honest, until I turned 21 and declared my atheism, followed by my agnosticism. Now I consider myself non-cognitivist. Since you were raised in the south, which I know is very religious, I can relate to you. I was raised in a Caribbean nation where religion is extremely important, and our flag even shows a verse from the Bible. My mother and my church friends did not react well, and suffice it to say that I only kept about 3 or 2 of them up until this day, none of the ones who were close to me talk to me or check on me or anything at all.

[@tracyavent-costanza346]

sorry you had to lose so much. I wonder if any of the ones who effectively abandoned you, feel any remorse over it. I doubt if they did, they would tell you since that would be the beginning of their OWN slippery slope.

[@josiahesquivel1487]

That is a hard situation to be in they probably felt like they lost you too and they may be hurt as well May all go well with you in Jesus Christ name

[@FoursWithin]

​@@josiahesquivel1487 The name Jesus was created in the 1600s and is found nowhere earlier.

[@LarsPallesen]

It's just the anglicized version of the greek name Iesus. John the Baptist wasn't called John either, you know.@@FoursWithin

[@FoursWithin]

@@LarsPallesen The modern Jesus is a transliteration through multiple languages. The Greek name for the Hebrew Yeshua would be Iesous. Which is found in the oldest existing Bibles. And the word you mistook as Greek Iesus would be classical Latin. Yeshua, JCs original name, is understood to mean "Yahweh is lordly". It's interesting how the names of God's (that are claimed to be so special ) just change over time and the God doesn't even care. I wonder what his name might be in the future.

[@floccinaucinihilipilifications]

I don’t mean this in a snarky way, “ seek the truth and it will set you free.” It’s actually true. But it led me into deconstruction and out of my previous religious beliefs . The journey never ends but it’s less tiring now that my cognitive dissonance is going or gone.

[@gemmeerobinson1803]

Hope you weren't hurt by any fake church like Mormonism or Jehovah Witnesses. Kristi like these are no help but gives deconstruction to prepare for a greater hell.

[@DM-zq8qy]

YES. Freedom from man-made doctrines like HELL! So sad that I had “faith” in such a scam for so long. Hundreds of “scriptures” make no moral sense. The BIG one for me was Hell. A loving, just, good GOD would NEVER torture you for EVER because of your thoughts. Also, the Old Testament describes god as the biggest sinner of all. Murder, rape, incest, lies. Yep, god did them and many more!

[@williamholmes9807]

Wow! I'm a Christian, I had a parallel journey except towards Christianity...I do appreciate all that you told about your life's journey, being candid, genuine and sincere, sounds like this was truly all you and your idea and intentions. There are many questions and comments I have, but I'm sure you've heard most, if not all of them, so again I'll leave that alone. And, Again I say Wow, because my life's journey to Christianity happened almost exactly the same way, except i went from living for myself, to living unto that Higher Call of God. Just was taking notice of how two people can be experiencing the same highs and lows of their existence yet end up at opposite ends of that journey.

[@simongreenwald446]

The Calvinistic God is more like the real God because everything is indeed predetermined..

[@stevenhogenson4880]

@@simongreenwald446 That was part of my deconversion was realizing that the verse "unwilling that any should perish" relating to salvation was a lie. If god is truly omniscient and exists out of our understanding of time, then he knew before anyone was created who would die a believer and who would not. And yet both types of persons are born and die, and have been born and dying for many millennia. And some special ones get saved and the others don't. And it was all known ahead of time...IF the attributes of god are actually true. Which, fortunately, they aren't. Because god is a human construct to explain a world that primitive man did not have the tools or knowledge yet to grasp.

[@marcdc6809]

I don't think you were ever a true atheist... just kidding, that's usually what they say in the opposite direction, I'm an atheist but I called a priest to give my mother the last rites and asked the priest to read the Samaritan at her funeral... I only later realised that the Good Samaritan was not a christian, so he's gone to hell... go figure...

[@williamholmes9807]

@@marcdc6809 Actually you're right, I was never an Atheist. I always believed God existed, I just didn't have a solid foundation in how to express my faith. And there came Christ. And I think you are misguided in who is saved and who is not (although I know you don't believe any of it (the Scriptures). Not being called a Christian is not what prevents you from being saved. Just simply put...not believing is what prevents your salvation from coming to fruition.

[@williamholmes9807]

@@stevenhogenson4880 I believe you are not genuinely being fair...just because God knew some would not be saved, does not mean that He is unwilling that any should perish. Many good and decent parents are unwilling that their children would get low grades/scores, no matter what they do to try to prevent that, yet they know that every child will not graduate from MIT, at 15yrs old. Yet mankind will continue to have children. Knowing that some of them will be a problem child, have you ever heard of a sociopath?

[@kelleroper3490]

Wonderful Im so happy for you❤ welcome to the club!

[@cainofthejungle]

I found your channel like seven months ago and after seeing so much you post up, today I see this. Watching this video=therapy Thank you for this and everything you've been posting up on this journey.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@NaNlinear]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Citation needed. Also, more fear mongering manipulation.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

@@NaNlinear Creation implies creator People underestimate hell, it is bad because it is separation from God. In a vision I was shown a perron who claimed to be Christian but started fornication (premarital sex), He died relatively young and went to hell forever (1 Cor 6:9). God’s holiness means He will not coexist with sinners forever therefore Repent (Luke 13:3) and have a relationship with Jesus.

[@NaNlinear]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 "Creation implies creator" - Perfect. Show that any of our universe was "created". Show that there is in fact a "creator" and that it is your god. "People underestimate hell" - More unsubstantiated fear mongering and coercion. "In a vision" - Every religion EVER has had visions.

[@NaNlinear]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 My other comment did not seem to load: I don't care that you are a christian. Some of the best people I know are christians. My problem is when apologists manipulate, use coercion, encourage science denial, discourage critical thinking. Some of the worst people I have ever know have also been christians. Apologists fall in this category.

[@tyoungjjr]

This is a compelling testimonial. As a Christian myself, i to experienced other Christians being stumbling block. But i found that our God is bigger.

[@DavidRamos-nz4bh]

You are delusional, think a little bit harder and be honest with yourself. It’s all bullshit.

[@istvansipos9940]

so big is the g0d, you cannot even define it properly. If you give it a try, we always hear what you BELIEVE about the g0d. We never learn what you KNOW about the g0d, because knowledge can be domonstrated, and you have nothing of that sort. your g0d is a vague claim about 1 form of Middle Eastern magic. the g0d is not defined, let alone supported with evidence, or with just 1 testable claim. That's why not even the most gifted cave painters drew any cross in any cave ever. Nice lions, or just o.k. wolves, etc. But never a cross! A shape our children can draw! If it is already invented as a symbol, that is. the g0d, IF it exists (and we have n0 reason to think so), let at least 10 000 human generations follow false g0ds. THEN the g0d made a very limited debut in 1 tiny corner of 1 region. And even these days, the g0d somehow cannot reach all mankind with the w0rd. And when it reaches UNindoctrinated 5th graders, the idea of the g0d is always laughed off the stage, no matter how hard a well trained professional liar (priest, past0r, imam, etc) rants about magic. Critically thinking KIDS intellectually tear the g0d another one with almost 0 effort. that's why religi0n has to get those kids as young as possible. What a big g0d! without lies, religi0n DIES.

[@skycheung7510]

I’m an ex Christian too… for me getting out of faith was a rebirth experience, as much as getting into it.

[@ChristianApologeticsProject]

There is no such thing as an "ex Christian." If you ever were a Christian, then you would have known that. But, as the Apostle John wrote of people just like you, "They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would have continued with us. But they went out, that it might become plain that they all are not of us" (1 Jn 2:19). Also, since "the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable," then you had no say in the "rebirth experience." Only God does, which Jesus compared to the blowing of the wind. "The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit" (Jn 3:8). So, while you think you're now free from something that you were never apart, the reality is, you're still enslaved in the bonds of sin, stacking up God's wrath against you, and if he does not move by his grace to set you free, you have an eternity in hell waiting for you, for your impenitent and hard heart. Now, go ahead, and start mocking, and that is expected too.

[@skycheung7510]

@@ChristianApologeticsProject To the one who demand Abraham his fav dude on earth to blood sacrifice his son to show obedience. Murdering entire city along with children and animals. Ya, my sin would be pretty small comparing to you know who.

[@skycheung7510]

@@ChristianApologeticsProject and the one who justifies beating and owning slaves, on the holy book saying oh you are fine as long as you don’t beat the slaves to death that day and how the slaves should obey their masters… I feel pretty righteous comparing to that.

[@ChristianApologeticsProject]

@@skycheung7510 Those who critique with a relativist worldview are not only being inconsistent with what the claim to believe, they implicitly admit that their their beliefs/worldview are a lie. A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.

[@ChristianApologeticsProject]

@@skycheung7510 I repeat what I just wrote: Those who critique with a relativist worldview are not only being inconsistent with what the claim to believe, they implicitly admit that their their beliefs/worldview are a lie. A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.

[@noopy24]

Watching you is the most amazing ,beautiful testimony I've ever seen in my life 😊 I'm so thankful that I have found you. I have been away from the church for 10 years and have felt guilty about it. I just finished a beautiful 7 year relationship and pulling away from the church was partially responsible for the end of our relationship but finding you and your brightness and enthusiasm for your new life inspires me to be happy again 😊 Thank you so very much... I will definitely contribute and by merch...🎉

[@BobLeach_DarkWolf]

I'm thrilled thst you got your channel up and going. Looking forward to all of your content. All the best to you. :)

[@spectreskeptic3493]

In my 40s I took up learning about philosophy, reason, logic, evidence, epistemology, etc. as basically a hobby, and then quite accidentally I began to reevaluate my own beliefs using these new techniques. Even as a Christian of nearly 40 years, intellectual honesty was important to me. Long story short, statements like "God's ways are higher than our ways" and "God works in mysterious ways" and "God is sovereign" etc etc were no longer intellectually satisfying. I was an atheist about six months after starting that little adventure. I love hearing stories from young folks who found their way out. It takes the edge off the frustration and anger I sometimes feel having taken so long to do the same. I wish the Internet had been around 30 years sooner. Thanks for sharing your inspirational story.

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

[@QuestionThingsUseLogic]

@spectreskeptic3493 that's awesome that you looked into philosophy etc...and the outcome is fantastic! Welcome to the other side of religion! I was a believer for 5 decades before l began fact checking the claims of the bible, that's where it fell apart for me! Using logic is essential. A god that endorses r@pe, sl@very, dashing infants against rocks (?) is an awful god! And that's only some of the terrible things this god condones. Enjoy your life: religion free!!🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363]

@@QuestionThingsUseLogic Why is it important to forsake your sins. You are like a man with an expensive Gold Belt. This man fell into the ocean and didn’t take the Gold belt off because he was afraid to lose it so he drowned. The belt are your sins that you don’t want to let go of but it’ll be the death of you. Therefore, forsake your sins and shave faith in God Today.(Jesus) Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

[@QuestionThingsUseLogic]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 there is no such thing as sin, hell, heaven, satan nor jesus. It's literally psychological propoganda that was written by a crafty and clever family designed to deceive you. You're quoting a book that is full of false claims, lies and deception. This is only apparent to those who have truly studied it (or were never trapped mentally in the first place!!) and who have factually checked it's claims. The *best* atheists are pastors who have deeply studied and understand the bible better than most who claim to be christians that barely know what the book says...

[@QuestionThingsUseLogic]

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 if you mean to literally "shave faith today", then l agree. You should. Shave it off.

[@splaxy8116]

I have never related more to any YT video than I do with this one. I usually just throw up YT as background noise while I game, but this has turned my gaming to background noise. THANK YOU so much for this, I feel I am not alone in a way I didn't realize before.

[@jezebelvibes]

you certainly aren't alone

[@Am0r1s]

As a blossoming christian, I really enjoyed hearing your perspective and experience. I don't know where the future will take me or if I will have doubts like these, but you give me hope that no matter what I'll be okay. Thank you for sharing your story, it has truly comforted many.

[@freddyestrada2566]

I'm sorry for how hard it's been on you. I truly do sympathize with you. But as someone who's come out on the other side of this struggle I promise you that God is definitely worth hanging in there for.

[@jezebelvibes]

As someone who has been on both sides of the struggle, god is not worth hanging in there for. You're free to follow him. It isn't for me.

[@triciaperry2234]

@@jezebelvibes so basically you CHOSING Satan and HELL It is either God or Satan One SCRIPTURE didn't change you. You chose long before that SCRIPTURE Don't blame truth for your exchange of LIES

[@kyle9777]

@@triciaperry2234 why is that the assumption with you people, maybe people stop to critically think, why is it there are 41000 denominations of Christianity, different doctrines and no one can agree with one another? Where's the free will with that? Alot of religious people I've met are hypocrites and are not very loving people.

[@iaminevitable_]

@@triciaperry2234 this is what you believe. Doesn’t make it real for the rest of us🤷🏽‍♀️

[@j.vanbreugel2378]

@@triciaperry2234 As a Christian I would kindly ask you to remove such hateful comments.