From Holy To Heretic | Why I Left Christianity

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I was born and raised in the southern baptist church and spent my childhood and teenage years devoting myself to what I believed to be the mission of Christ. After years of devotion and bible study, I realized that I no longer had good reasons to believe. I lost almost everything I knew and loved to carve out my most authentic path...but it was worth it. I hope that by sharing my story I can bring some comfort, clarity, or validation to others out there who are struggling with their beliefs, too.
*Please keep in mind that all everything I say here is my subjective opinion, and is intended to deconstruct fundamentalist/evangelical/conservative Christian ideologies from an ex christian perspective*
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@languagelearningexperience6814 Жыл бұрын

Yup. Very relatable. When a Christian says "you probably weren't a real Christian" they have no idea how hard I tried to get it "right" because I loved god/Jesus so much. As soon as you look into things, because you want to understand it better, it all falls apart.

@walleras Жыл бұрын

Come become a noahide.

@donjiaye6263 Жыл бұрын

Try to look in to Islam ☪️ with an open mind and see

@walleras Жыл бұрын

@@donjiaye6263 Okay do you have proof of Islam?

@donjiaye6263 Жыл бұрын

@@walleras what kind of proof do you do you need?

@walleras Жыл бұрын

@@donjiaye6263 A sign equivalent to what my fathers saw at mt. Sinai

@ashleytheseeker8480 11 ай бұрын

Former muslim woman here. I have the same sentiments. I wish I left islam/religion a lot sooner.

@WISDOMBITES1 10 ай бұрын

Ashley doesn't seem like a Muslim name.Lots of Muslim haters claim to be Ex-Muslims to encourage Muslims to leave their religion so it becomes a little suspicious when you realise that they may never have been Muslim in the first place. I hope you are being honest rather than attempting to deceive.🙂

@ashleytheseeker8480 10 ай бұрын

@@WISDOMBITES1 sigh....so muslims only have Arabic names??

@ashleytheseeker8480 10 ай бұрын

@WISDOMBITES1 I'm not a muslim hater, I am an ex muslim American. I was Muslim from ages 9 to 37. For you to say I'm being disingenuous because of my name shows you know nothing about muslims.

@hamluk_ 10 ай бұрын

@@WISDOMBITES1 as we all know, nobody born outside of muslim parents has ever converted to islam, and nobody muslim has ever given their kid a name that wasn't derived from their country of origin

@ashleytheseeker8480 10 ай бұрын

@rmr5563 thank you. It took me a while to leave. In islam were taught to always reevaluate our Iman, which I was constantly doing, but it wasn't bringing any solace.

@DavidWalden-qb1yt 10 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for your videos. I am 87 years old and I have spent much of my life ridding myself of Christian nonsense. It helps me greatly to hear you give voice to struggles I have had for decades.

@Jay-oj4hj 10 ай бұрын

Please return to Jesus before it is too late he still loves you and he’s inviting you into his kingdom. All you have to do is believe in him and follow him.

@xipetotec8700 10 ай бұрын

@@Jay-oj4hj 😂

@lindareese4579 10 ай бұрын

Thank you Chris for sharing this information with me...

@darkworld5026 10 ай бұрын

Unfortunately for you, the Bible is still the best selling book in the world. Faith and religion are two different things.

@codjo1 10 ай бұрын

I feel sorry for you but there is no other option than Jesus.

@LyleFrancisDelp 9 ай бұрын

Glad you came to YT. I don’t do TikTok. I really appreciate your views and your insight.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 2 ай бұрын

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents, unbelief etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

@LyleFrancisDelp 2 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 All humans need to be who they really are. Jesus never existed and certainly wasn't and isn't "GOD". Jesus never rose from the dead, because that's impossible. Grow up and be an adult.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Ай бұрын

@@LyleFrancisDelp Jesus split time in 2 (AD and BC) God through the Holy Spirit has shown me several things relating to the afterlife with the purpose of convincing people like yourself. Stuff like Heaven and Hell, Angels, and evil Spirits the Lord Jesus (not worthy at all), a miracle happened to me that saved my life (thank you God) & so much more. I am more than happy to give further details.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Ай бұрын

@Daathiel God is more important than tiktok,where you sped eternity i impotant to me and God. My care for you is like a drop in the ocean compared to God's care for you People underestimate hell, it is bad because it is separation from God. In a vision I was shown a person who claimed to be Christian but started fornication (premarital sex), He died relatively young and went to hell forever (1 Cor 6:9). God’s holiness means He will not coexist with sinners forever therefore Repent (Luke 13:3) and have a relationship with Jesus.

@douglascutler1037 Ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Pascal's Wager 2.0: Are you betting man-made climate change is a hoax? What if you get to the gates of heaven and turns out the climate change was real? God commanded you to 'love thy neighbour as yourself' and then you turned your back as millions died from man-made climate change and gas car air pollution. What if Gold call you on it? But you were warned by this: “Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord will enter the kingdom of heaven . . . And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you’ . . . but the one who does the will of my Father [will enter heaven] Matthew 7: 21,23

@jamesknakiewicz3615 11 ай бұрын

This exactly how I transitioned from being raised catholic to being free from religious beliefs. Leaving all of that behind made feel so free!

@jezebelvibes 11 ай бұрын

Happy you found freedom!

@tajjiintanzania6237 11 ай бұрын

Catholicism is not Christianity due to its unbiblical doctrines and the Catholic Church's actions throughout history to present day. You let go of religion, but you never had the Christian faith. A Christian is a person who has encountered God and was forgiven of sins and experience His grace, mercy, love, discipline, guidance, and blessings as a Holy Spirit filled believer. This spiritual transformation is amazing and is noticeable by the unbelieving world. -Blessings from Tajji in Tanzania

@mistylover7398 11 ай бұрын

Yay

@starpenta 11 ай бұрын

@@tajjiintanzania6237 when you study the history of Christianity, yes, it definitely is. It can be argued it was the first organized Christian denomination. It split between Eastern Orthodox and Roman Catholic, then later Russian Catholic, while the church was still forming. The Protestant type variations didn't start until Luther in Germany, then Henry VIII in England but when it got to America, that's when the different denominations really started taking off. There have been different opinions on what 'real Christianity' is since the very beginning bc the Bible is so contradictory. There are literally hundreds of sects in America, thousands world-wide. There are different Bibles and on top of that, different translations of each one. Try to research what 'real Christianity'is. That's where so many of us realize it's NOT real.

@AllThingsFilm1 11 ай бұрын

@@tajjiintanzania6237 You can't demonstrate an "encounter with G-d". Therefore it's just an assertion.

@awakeenlighten2298 11 ай бұрын

Loved this video Kristi! Stay strong! “Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth, because they don't want their illusions destroyed.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

@theonlyway5298 11 ай бұрын

I agree with your quote, particularly as it is very applicable from a Christian's perspective, in their view of those who don't want to hear the truth, but want to remain in their own illusions. Its probably not quite the direction you were thinking of applying it, but nevertheless, from a Christian perspective it has validity. We do need to acknowledge that what is a popular ideology or truth, in one era, is dismissed in another as being 'not true', mostly likely in an ever spinning spiral that has its influences in popularity and fashion, each new generation discovering "the new truth", but being dismissed by the next era of generations. Today's 'heros' will be tomorrow's comedians and the pursuit of truth is relentless. What one proudly announces today as new revelation or understanding, is tomorrow evaded as an embarrassment. History can tell us much about this process, as it repeats itself endlessly.

@TheTruthKiwi 11 ай бұрын

Brilliant quote from Nietzsche. That is why religion/christianity has persisted for so long in the human psyche.

@theonlyway5298 11 ай бұрын

@@TheTruthKiwi Interesting idea, but it’s fundamentally flawed.

@TheTruthKiwi 11 ай бұрын

@@theonlyway5298 How is it flawed exactly?

@theonlyway5298 11 ай бұрын

@@TheTruthKiwi Its flawed firstly because you are imposing a modern skeptical perspective anachronistically, on 2000 years of Christian faith, which is contextually inapplicable. Nietzsche's statement, is a modern skeptical idea, that is founded upon his own modern philosophical ideas of Nihilism and Positivism. Unfortunately for Nietzsche, he spent the last 11 years of his life in a Mental institution with general paralysis and mental breakdown, having lost his sight, due to Syphilis - thus his philosophical ideas, did not in fact personally help him morally - still less spiritually! Having ideas is one thing, but proving they actually work is quite another! Nietzsche had been a gifted man, but as with other men who have been given exceptional gifts but who did not give glory to God for them, his life in the end, was humiliating and very sad! Regarding the statement itself, its isn't applicable, because it is based upon the false assumption that there is a dual conflicting consciousness between: a) wanting to believe in God and b) having a motive (in the statement indicated by: "don't want"), to protect that belief, while having an awareness of it being an illusion or delusion. While (a) may well be true, (b) is far less likely to be true historically, because in the cultural context of the Christian west, for example, few if any would question the existence of God. The questioning of the existence of God as we know it today, is a relatively modern and mostly western idea, confined to a minority of the world's population. Additionally: c) the idea that "the truth" is that God 'doesn't exist', as you are applying his statement, is again based upon your own philosophical ideas and it cannot be assumed that those who believe in God, would countenance that as being 'the truth', any more than you can actually prove it is "the truth". Thus in summary, while its interesting to hear your view and compare it with other people's views, experiences and beliefs, in the light of the above things which I have discussed here, I'm not convinced at all by the applicability of Nietzsche's statement, to the existence or continuum of religion.

@StrollingwithStella Ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your journey to us, I found your channel some weeks ago and I am hooked. I was born and raised as a jehovah's witness, was a devout believer until the age of 42. I was so depressed after leaving not knowing what to do afterwards. It took me a long time to build up my confidence and learn to trust and love myself. Growth is painful but it's worth it, funny I finally grew up in my 40s. I have finally learned how to be responsible and what being accountable means and started made decisions of what I truly want and be my authentic self. I love my life after leaving.

@joshuabell7761 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this. I used to be a non-denominational Christian but stopped believing after I realised just how messed up it all is and how there is no way to guarantee that any of it is real. It was hard, I had to give up a lot and I couldn't tell my parents for over a year that I stopped until my mother kept pestering me to give tithe when it made me uncomfortable. I have yet to engage with a debate with them as to why it happened (and honestly, I'm scared to) but I do have a list of points as to why I left which include the various ethical and philosophical concerns of Christianity and why I can't take an extraordinary claim at some book's word for it.

@DM-zq8qy 9 ай бұрын

Hundreds of “scriptures” make no moral sense. The BIG one for me was Hell. A loving, just, good GOD would NEVER torture you for EVER because of your thoughts. Hell is a SICK doctrine made by men to control people.

@lifethroughromans8295 9 ай бұрын

@joshuabe7761 - Would you mind sharing your list of points that made you leave the faith?

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

i'd say RELAX about the book thing. Bart Ehrman has quipped that there are few things that produce so many ex-christians as "reading the entire bible" which evidently most of them do not.

@justinotherpatriot1744 7 ай бұрын

Cognitive-Theoretic Model of the Universe. God is real. The ontology of reality is not less intelligent than its human subsystems.

@t0dd000 10 ай бұрын

I left the faith as a teenager after I read the Bible cover to cover. Still took me years to actually accept this fact fully (leaving the cultural womb). And only now, at age 53, after both my parents and all my grandparents are gone ... Only now do I feel free to talk about it with my family. Reading the Bible: I have come to the conclusion that i don't think you can call yourself a Christian until you have read and agree to the terms and conditions. I.e. not until you have read the Bible. Ideally twice. Cover-to-cover. If this were the requirement, the religion would be largely dead.

@theotheoth 9 ай бұрын

Snap, Todd -- I first read the whole Bible cover-to-cover when I was aged 9-10. Most Christians I've chatted with apparently have very little idea of the contents of the Bible, what it means, where it comes from.

@TheMiddle-Child 9 ай бұрын

I find these conclusions very interesting indeed, care to enlighten🙏 a fellow human on what the Bible is really about? Or what it means?

@theotheoth 9 ай бұрын

@@TheMiddle-Child Aha! I guess I slipped up with the phrase 'what it means'. I was not professing to have a unifying grand conclusion for you -- sorry about that. But I could say plenty about, for example, small details that are wilfully taken out of context to support other narratives. Only this week, my local pastor was bleating out the common Isaiah 'prophecy', which I am satisfied very clearly does NOT foretell the birth of Jesus from the Virgin Mary some 700 years later (as corroborated by a fair few Christian historians, also).

@t0dd000 9 ай бұрын

@@TheMiddle-Child I recommend just reading it. There are a billion unread copies lying about everywhere. But then … also read the Koran (a much more enjoyable read). The Vedas. The Upanishads. And then some of the Buddhists writings. That's an reasonable coverage of the new religions. Then start reviewing the older religions. Zoroastrianism, for example. Then go older ... A survey of indigenous religions would be good. The Greek and Roman faiths of old. Paganism in the British isles. Do all that, and now you have at least scratched the surface of human religiosity. A lot of schools offer comparative religion courses that you may or may not be able to audit.

@stevepaige7557 9 ай бұрын

@@theotheoth What does the Isaiah prophecy foretell?

@connorpace8739 Жыл бұрын

I grew up Mormon in a small Alabama town. Your vids have more logic than they ever taught! Perfect first video💕

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

❤ we are in this together!

@tdr.220 Жыл бұрын

I pray that people don't confuse the church and God. God is not the church, and the church is not God. You don't have to throw away your faith because of other "Christians" or bad experiences in the church. I think people confuse the institution of Christianity and being a Follower of Christ. There are many Christians who do not follow Christ. Being a Follower of Christ means that you prioritize your relationship with him versus church traditions. Churches can help introduce/ lead people to Christ, however they cannot give you a relationship with Him.

@jarrettjb Жыл бұрын

@@tdr.220right sister? Do this and don’t do that, rules, religious activity and a whole lot of filth that only cause confusion, division, and ultimately eternal misery which has nothing to do with our King and most dear friend Jesus. Let’s go out and share Jesus with the hungry!

@artstation707 7 ай бұрын

@@jezebelvibes No, you're not. Judgement is on a personal basis. Now, honesty... I feel sorry for Kristi. I know pity probably innervates her. Maybe someone let her down. She looks like she just wants someone who will listen to her. Her "ministry" is trauma. How can someone so articulate vilify the Creator of Heaven and Earth? Perhaps the shock of realizing who she is, and who she is not, was too much. But it's not the end of the world. Everyone gets subjected to the same deception. Her choler she should direct to the one true deceiver. Believe it or not, those things she claims absent in God, are present. She just doesn't know it. He's not excluding viable people. He must separate those who can be part of the perfect system from those who would undermine it. Someone should tell Kristi there is a place of refuge for her on the day of God's wrath, if she will repent and submit herself completely, and I'm sure that would be forthright. I don't think entry into the heart of things would be on the cards; it wouldn't be up to this writer, of course, at least as far as I know. After all, she spent at least a year undermining everything she could about the Bible. Yet, hers could be a voice to bring those led astray, back to God. And who knows? There's nothing impossible for him. It's heartbreaking to watch these videos.

@johnswoboda9809 5 ай бұрын

The best moment I had during my years as a Catholic was when I went to confession in 8th grade, when we were preparing for Confirmation - with our pastor, no less, who was known for old-fashioned, fire and brimstone sermons and had all of us CCD kids scared stiff - and I told him that I didn't really have anything to confess but that I was beginning to question my faith. I expected fully that he was going to be met with a very stern and intimidating lecture, and yet all he said was, "Good." I replied, "I'm sorry, Father, what?" He chuckled and said, "John, I recognize your voice. I know you and have known you since you were a baby. I'm the one that baptized you, don't forget. I've watched you grow up to be an intelligent and inquisitive young man, and I will tell you this: No one religion is for everyone. Religion itself is not for everyone. It's good that you're asking questions because I don't believe God gave us intellect and free will just to have blind Faith. He wants us to ask questions. Think about people who have made great changes, Galileo, Leonardo, Einstein, Martin Luther King. They challenged what was accepted as fact, they challenged what they knew to be unjust rules. I would feel that my part in your life as your pastor has been a success if you take an honest look at your beliefs and what you hold true and decide to leave the Church because it would be at intelligent decision. I know, you were expecting me to pull the hidden lever and drop the floor it and cast you straight to Hell. I'm not giving you any penance; you didn't do anything wrong. Go home and ask your questions until you have your answer. I have faith you'll choose what's right for you." It wasn't until years later talking to my parents about it that they revealed why they weren't surprised. Turns out, he had been raised Orthodox Jewish - his mother had been Catholic but converted to marry his father. When he realized that his mother's family's Catholic faith spoke to him more, he was disowned by most of his father's side of the family, so he fully understood the weight of questioning the faith you were raised in. And I will always appreciate that that final nudge to just go for it and leave Christianity came from the very man who baptized me into it.

@slamee100 2 ай бұрын

Catholicism is a false religion. We all need to have a personal loving one-on-one loving relationship with God with just God and ourself, by reading the Holy Bible for ourself, and praying to God for ourself, with no false religions from Satan in the way.

@johnswoboda9809 2 ай бұрын

@@slamee100 While I don't necessarily disagree with you that all structured religion is a creation of humans trying to understand the higher powers, I don't think it's even necessary to specify one single book or tradition of religious philosophy. I think it's more important to have, if you choose to be spiritual/religious/faithful etc, a close personal relationship with the Almighty in whatever form speaks to you most. That's why leaving Christianity and finding my way into Paganism just fit so much better - I have that personal connection what is above me but it's on terms that make more sense to me and I can relate to better. But yes, I absolutely agree with you that the best path is a deep, personal connection to the Almighty.

@slamee100 2 ай бұрын

@@johnswoboda9809 Well, it sounds like you left a FALSE Christian religion that came from Satan, like Catholicisn, or Mormonism, or Jehovah's Witness, and Paganism is also a false religion from Satan. Satan has many false religions and fake gods that he uses to confuse people to keep us from finding the ONE True Living God of the Holy Bible and to keep us from accepting Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior, because Satan does not want us to be saved, he wants us to be eternally separated from God just like he is. But the ONE True religion in the world is God's True Church of believers in the Gospel of Jesus Christ in the Holy Bible, who have accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior and been spiritually born again by God's Holy Spirit by believing that Jesus was God on earth Who died to pay for our sins for us and resurrected from the dead to defeat eternal death for us and believe Jesus is coming back again to set up His eternal heavenly kingdom for all people who accept Jesus Christ as their Savior to live in for the rest of eternity, forgiven of their sins and reconciled with God. Paganism is another false religion from Satan, and actually it is synonymous with Godlessness. You cannot worship nature, the creation of God instead of worshipping the Creator Who created it, and you cannot worship any god of your choosing in the manner that you wish to worship. because that is false worship and idol worship. There is only ONE God, Savior and Creator of all things that exist, God Who gave us His Word, the Holy Bible. GOD IS the Father the Son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit all at once always the ONE True Living Eternal God of all men from all nations and all of creation. Thes is no other God. Read the entire Holy Bible for yourself and pray to God for yourself, and have a personal one-on-one loving relationship with God with no false religions from Satan in the way, and always ask God to give you wisdom knowledge and understanding of His Word the Bible, the Bible is a spiritual Book because God is a spiritual being and we are spiritual beings also, and it must be understood spiritually by God revealing the meaning to us. : ) Accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.

@steveOCalley 15 күн бұрын

There is wisdom here and there.

@steveOCalley 15 күн бұрын

The Way for each is given to each child of God. We argue, but each has its own way.

@jusugow4572 7 ай бұрын

Kristi, your journey resonates with me. I could go on explaining similar experiences, but you've already summarized it. Thank you so much for sharing.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 2 ай бұрын

@MrPeterschmit 9 күн бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 and some humans are so messed up and lost that they pretend to have relationships with imaginary entities AND act morally superior to those who don't. Those are the really bad people. Real, really bad. Go to a cancer ward and say that sick crap to dying kids whom your god could help but won't.

@aawschannel Жыл бұрын

This really touched my heart. And I feel so sad you had to go through that experience! I’m glad you have found your own path and way of life. ❤️

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Thanks so much for being here

@aawschannel Жыл бұрын

@@jezebelvibes you are welcome. And I just read the bible and it didn’t Aline with what christians say God is. So My deconstruction is helping me.

@leslieseptember6050 11 ай бұрын

This touched my heart too, I too felt sad that that you decided to walk away from Jesus for He is love. I'll be glad when you return to Him for He is indeed the Way, the Truth and the Life.

@starpenta 11 ай бұрын

@@leslieseptember6050 I questioned for 9 years what real Christianity was. But, I had other interests and didn't look as deeply as some. Just enough life experiences that led me to Q's that made me realize there really is no reliable evidence/proof. But, read something by Bart Ehrman. He's an ex-fundie Xian, still married to an Xian (in case you don't know, 'X' is an acceptable abbreviation for Christ- it has to do with Medieval history stuff), he has a PHD in theological matters (but he is hardly the only scholar that's an ex-believer, just well known) that explains all the errors and contradictions he found a long the way, all the different cultures and other religions it has commonalities with. He also learned the different languages the Bible was written in and points out that some translations, from one language to another, simply can not be that accurate bc the some languages don't have a word that has the same meaning as what was written.

@gemmeerobinson1803 11 ай бұрын

There seems a way right unto man but at the end is death.

@davidpatterson9221 11 ай бұрын

I really love your story and how well you presented your journey. I've always been a scientific rationalist but i was also raised Catholic by my mother, luckily my father is an atheist and always supported my decisions and choices. I'm super thankful for that, but your story has helped me to realize that I could have reached where I am now on my own.

@tajjiintanzania6237 11 ай бұрын

Catholicism isn't Christian though.... not at all.

@davidpatterson9221 11 ай бұрын

@@tajjiintanzania6237 It still fall into the general worship of the same Jewish-Muslim-Christian-God of Abraham figure. In fact Catholicism directly evolved from Christianity and is considered by scholars to be a Christian sect. How could you have possibly come to this conclusion that they are not related at all?

@BroneduChannel 11 ай бұрын

Christianity itself cannot be categorized as a religion but as a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians. So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

@2fast2block 11 ай бұрын

David...."I've always been a scientific rationalist" No, you just pretend you are. You can't even get past creation let alone what followed. The 1LofT states that energy can't be created or destroyed, it can't happen naturally. One aspect of the 2LofT shows that the universe is winding down, usable energy is becoming less usable. It is clear creation had to be done supernaturally at some point yet it is still denied because people are just too proud to accept that, among other things.

@RandallSimmons-ll3ii 11 ай бұрын

@@tajjiintanzania6237 Literally every Protestant and Evangelical denomination is an offspring of Catholicism. Baptist, Pentecostal, Methodist, Mormons, Jehovahs Witness, Lutheran, Presbyterian, Calvinist, Charismatic; all of them are some break off of a break off that historically traces it's origins back to Roman Catholcism and Martin Luther's "Revolt".

@sherrybowie8843 10 ай бұрын

Former southern baptist here. Thank you so much for making this video. My story is similar and I have found myself much happier at the age of 53 and fully unattached to any religion.

@williamstennett7136 9 ай бұрын

WOW! Your testimony is spot on with my experience also. Keep up your wonderful work! You are loved and appreciated!!

@jesshughes776 6 ай бұрын

I am writing to share the most incredible thing you will likely ever hear, and it has everything to do with your position if you will follow it. First, it is impossible that anything you can touch, taste, hear, see or smell on the face of the earth, be it lighting, tornados, rocks, life, minerals from salt to plutonium or anything that can be with the powerful telescope we have in orbit and beyond what we can see, that could possibly exist without having been created. Because of this, we can be sure that everything that is had to be made where there was absolutely nothing to make it out of. Romans 1:20 New International For since creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse. So you see, there is a God. I myself have studied world religions in depth in college and much more so on my own time. I have found that the only religion that holds water is Christianity. I am no affiliate of any Christian denomination as they are called because the enemy has a very well received counterfeit in place in nearly all of them, and the condition is terminal. I am Messianic, where I find Truth to be most rightly applied and followed. The bill of rights we share is such a blessing. But I will quote TobyMcKeehan with Times are changing/With morals in decay/Human rights have made the wrong okay. I am only showing you the way as I have found it through much study and life experience. Perhaps my best case for Truth of this is found in the book of Habakkuk 1-2:17 where he was given a vision of Adolf Hitler and Nazi Germany. Some very strong and interesting proof is in the discovery of Sodom and Gomorrah. This is in these videos. Pt. 1 kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZoLWmIxnZpp4fMU Pt. 2 kzbin.info/www/bejne/bqHPmWeEgtSEqZo And here is where the remains of pharaoh's army is found in the red sea. kzbin.info/www/bejne/jmSxpnShjbqqq5I Gnesis 19:24 New International Version Then the LORD rained down burning sulfur on Sodom and Gomorrah--from the LORD out of the heavens. Brimstone found there is over 95 percent pure. The purest sulfur anywhere else is just over 45% and is found near active geothermal regions. Brimstone such as is found near these two infamous cities is found nowhere else on earth. Yet here it is still, a God-given supernatural element to warn those who would live against Him. 2 Peter 2:6 If He condemned the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah to destruction, reducing them to ashes as an example of what is coming on the ungodly; He is love or He wouldn't have warned us.After much consideration I found truth best taught and followed as a Messianic. Here are two of the videos I found on this. kzbin.info/www/bejne/enO2eqZol62ca8k kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZoLWmIxnZpp4fMU&t=2s THESE 2 VIDEOS ARE UNDENIABLE PROOF OF NOAH'S ARK AND SODOM AND GOMORRAH. IT WAS SOUND AND THE DIMENSIONS AND MEASUREMENTS MATCH THE BIBLICAL RECORD EXACTLY. WHAT THEY FIRST SAW LOOKED TO BE AN OUTLINE OF A SHIP IN THE MOUNTAINS OF ARARAT WHERE THE BIBLE SAID THE ARK SETTLED. IT WAS MOSTLY PETRIFIED WOOD WITH LINES OF METAL RUNNING THE LENGTH OF THE ARK REMAINS EVENLY SPACED ACROSS. THIS MEDAL WAS NOT FOUND OUTSIDE THE ARK. THE ALSO FOUND PETRIFIED ANIMAL DROPPINGS AND WHAT LOOK TO BE RIB TIMBERS USED IN CONSTRUCTION. kzbin.info/www/bejne/pYLal4hteduIr6c BELOW ARE THE ACTUAL REMAINS OF SODOM AND GOMORRAH'S ASHEN REMAINS. MILLIONS OF PIECES OF BRIMSTONE WAS FOUND IN THE AREA OF THE CITIES, BUT NONE IN BETWEEN THEM. BRIMSTONE MEANS SULFUR. THIS SULFUR IS 98% PURE. THE PUREST SULFUR FOUND ANYWHERE ELSE ON EARTH IS A MAZIMUM 40% PURE. kzbin.info/www/bejne/fZm3m3iYg8yHh68

@gabrielesemeraro1769 Жыл бұрын

I absolutely adore you and your content. I want you to know that what you’re doing here is tremendously significant to a bunch of people who are going through the same experience as yours. Please, never stop!! Sending you so much love and support from Italy❤️❤️❤️❤️

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Wow! I love that I have so much support from all over the world. My heart is so full. Thank you so much.

@ministryofthewayofYehoshua Жыл бұрын

So you adore that she and you are not taking the gift that Jesus Christ gave to the world? Eternal life is a gift that the Lord has given us, why not take that? It’s a very easy decision. Stay dead in your sins or be forgiven for your sins and live!

@ministryofthewayofYehoshua Жыл бұрын

@Samantha Allen not everyone that is selling Bibles is a Christian. There are plenty of people giving Bibles for free. They have the Bible app for free. I preach on the street for free. I mean should I keep going? But let me tell you something important, salvation is what is important, not going to hell is what is important. Let’s put away labels, you need to be saved. This is how you are saved, Repent meaning turning away from sin and turning to Jesus Christ, be baptized in the Name of Jesus Christ for the remission of your sins and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. It’s not about religion, it’s about being in a relationship with the Creator Jesus Christ. It’s about receiving the gift of eternal life that He is offering us.

@ministryofthewayofYehoshua Жыл бұрын

@Samantha Allen I sympathize with you on the lost of your mother. But will not the judge of all the earth do right, you can rest assure that the Lord Jesus Christ is going to do right by your mother but right now you are alive and are in need of salvation. You have to make the choice of where you want to spend eternity.

@ministryofthewayofYehoshua Жыл бұрын

@Samantha Allen the Lord Jesus Christ is going to do what is right with your mom, but I’m speaking about you. You need to make your decision for yourself my friend.

@katpage9378 Жыл бұрын

Christian here, as for a lot of the theological questions and confusions you had, I have similar ones all the time. I think it’s important and healthy for all Christians to wonder about how reality works and why things are the way they are within their own religion. I remember my catholic grandfather and I got into a debate about Christianity and Catholicism, and he was telling me “The catholic doctrine is the infallible truth that is written by extremely intelligent, highly educated men who were guided directly by God. You can’t question anything!” I bluntly responded to him, “I think we should question everything! In the sense that we should look at everything critically in a healthy level, wondering why things are the way they are, so we can actually understand what we’re believing.” So I empathize and I definitely agree there are way too many Christians who just believe all these doctrinal and theological things without ever wondering “Why” or “How”. At the same time, I know we probably aren’t going to definitively figure out the answers to some of these questions. It sucks, but honestly it doesn’t bother me too much. One thing that rationalizes my faith in Jesus in my own mind is that I know from firsthand experience that a spiritual world including demons does indeed exist, and I also know that scientifically a higher being who is infinitely powerful existing logically has to be the case (it’s kinda hard to explain the reasoning, but basically there are multiple plains of reality/states of existence, and they all are confined to laws, but all of existence cannot logically be confined by laws, and laws cannot logically just be put in place by nothing, so there must be an ultimate plain of reality, one with zero confines and all power, and one that is sentient and responsible for creating all the laws put in place over the other plains. This is what God is. God essentially is the highest reality, hence why he refers to himself as “I Am”. He simply is! He is is!) anyway and I’ve looked into the other religions, and I still continue to do so, and you can argue I have a bias from being raised Christian, but Christianity is the only one that makes sense and strikes a chord in me, and I’ve just seen these little signs in life that point to it. Like I said sadly we’re not going to be able to understand everything we really wanna understand, and the Bible certainly doesn’t reveal and clarify as much as we’d like. But as long as you live your life with open eyes, a heart open to the truth, and just kinda *feel* reality, be in touch with it spiritually, I believe you will find the truth. I certainly don’t have the whole truth, not even close, but I think I get more in touch with it each year just by doing this. 11:02 I think your heart was in the right place but I think you may have been too intense about it. I think even though I get this was a very frustrating and even scary thing for you, I think God would’ve wanted you to calm yourself a little and just open your heart to him. He’d want you to, with a genuine heart, not angry at God, but just open to whatever the truth might be, ask him to show you the truth. Trying to filter away any biases or worries or angers you might have, just having a pure genuine intention. And be okay with it if he doesn’t show you everything you want to know right away. Trust that if he’s real, and if you keep asking this of him with a heart fully open to him, he will show you what you need to know one way or another, even if it’s just gradual, you know? What I’m wondering is, did you pray to him much about it on your journey of trying to understand him? Or was it mostly you seeking this understanding of him more so just on your own almost as if he’s a stranger alien separated from you? Anyway this was just my perspective as a Christian, I hope nobody minds. I like to find mutual understanding and have discussions with people whether they’re Muslim, atheist, Hindu, Christian, ex-Christian, Satanist, etc. Also it was a bit messy of a comment, but I hope regardless it makes some sense and you see it!! Oh also, when it comes to how we can truly have free will when it comes to whether we go to Hell or Heaven when God is all knowing and created us, nobody can really pretend to fully wrap their head around how that could work. When it comes to the nature of aspects of reality and God we often fall into the territory of frustrating, unsolvable paradoxes, whichever way you look at things, including the idea that we must not have free will and just be meaningless puppets with predetermined destinations because God was all knowing when he made us. That limits a being who anything is possible through. So I know us having true free will works somehow even though it makes absolutely no sense it my brain when I try to really think of the mechanics behind it.

@robertjimenez5984 Жыл бұрын

You sure wrote a lot. You say you hope she finds the truth. How do you know she hasn’t found the truth already? Plus, you say you are a Christian. Are you sure that Jesus is a god? If this is not true then the claims of Jews and Islam must bother you. If Jesus is not god, then you have broken the first commandment and will go to hell as Islam says. So, are you sure that this man is a god?

@matthewnitz8367 11 ай бұрын

Just so you know, your recommended approach definitely doesn't inevitably lead to the Christian God. Truth has always been the most important thing to me, and when I realized I didn't think Christianity was true I absolutely prayed to God about it. I asked him to show me the truth, whatever it may be. I tried my best to truly evaluate all different viewpoints I could find and see if they withstood scrutiny. To completely separate my anger at the humans that had boxed me into one view that I was told most be right from whatever God may actually be. The end result is that I'm very sure if there is a God it isn't the Christian one. Maybe there is a God that has led me to that belief. But I'd say one bit difference between myself and most Christians is that even though I feel I was very honest in my search and as diligent in seeking truth as I could be, I'm unwilling to say that what I've come to believe is true is in any way from a God. To be fair, maybe there are actually Christians or Hindus or Muslims that God has given an actual revelation that has shown them some truth about whatever God may actually exist. But I haven't seen anyone give any better reason for think that than they essentially really feel their belief is right and true and makes sense. And that just isn't anywhere close to enough reason for me to say that I've found more truth about God than any other person. It seems that if there is a God he just doesn't want to be found by some people. Or maybe there is no God and the people that claim to have found one are just mistaking parts of their thoughts and beliefs for some God. I don't really know how I would tell the difference as someone that hasn't seen anything I could truly say I think was from some God.

@robertjimenez5984 11 ай бұрын

@@matthewnitz8367 I went through the same process. After deeply studying about this religion that I have believed for more that 50 years and discovering so many unproven claims and even lies a set a one year pray and fasten to find my god. This was in December of 2019. After the year past in January 1, I realize that this god was not interested in me knowing that it existed or it was not real. I became not convinced of it’s existence. For sure this is why men wrote in this book; do not put to the test your lord. Obviously they knew that it will fail if you don’t start with biases and crap justifications to dismiss the failure. In few words, it does not work.

@geraldbutler5484 11 ай бұрын

If we weren’t told there was a god then almost everyone of us wouldn’t know or have any need for one. If I was forced I’d probably pick Buddhism, it seems to do less harm than other delusions.

@istvansipos9940 10 ай бұрын

"I know from firsthand experience that a spiritual world including demons does indeed exist" sure. and and floating ships exist. I've seen them. And there are fotos of them. Of course, when we understand physics (mirage), we find out how unreliable any personal experience is. Mental episodes are another example. Humans experience EVERYTHING and anything all the time. That's why we use testable claims. Sadly, nobody has ever presented any such claim about demons. and then you write a w0rd salad about the g0d. Again, no testable claim about the g0d. it is like my 9.81 seconds 100 m sprint. Sane adults have no reason to take it seriously, IF I don't let them measure it. And that's not magic, not a world record, it is a PROVEN possible sprint. We see better ones every year. you rant about 1 type of Middle Eastern MAGIC, and cannot present any testing method to show that it is true.

@Mikebruno1187 10 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing your story. The emotional rollercoaster is real when going through deconstruction. I remember going through this about 15 years ago and it was agonizing to feel like you’re losing your community and purpose. Great there is more of a community now to support others during this phase. The sense of peace and freedom when you finally accept that this religion is just a myth is one of the most liberating feelings and you’re no longer a slave your own delusions.

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

once having left the other community, there is another one. a lot of it is online, rather like here on this thread.

@Roberto-REME 10 ай бұрын

You're the best, Kristi. I admire your ability to stay neutral and simply seek the truth. You are an awesome speaker and commend you for all the work you do to help others get clarity on themselves, ...life,.... reality, ....the world, ....why we exist. I support you.

@handlenumber707 7 ай бұрын

No. I'm sorry, but she's none of those things, apart from a decent speaker.

11 ай бұрын

As an ex Jehovah’s Witness (been JW for 35 years), I totally understand the process you did, as I did the exact same thing, watching debates, Bart Erhman for example.. the more I read and studied the more I realized the False Stories we were being told! Instead of feeling closer to God, I felt betrayed by a “belief” of God. I come to realize that religion in general is a business of belief to adhere to.. thanks for you great videos!

@leeshelenberger7240 11 ай бұрын

You were in a religion not Christianity. Just believe Jesus died,buried and risen again for your justification, and that is the gospel of our salvation for this present age of grace.

@johnnywomack548 11 ай бұрын

@@leeshelenberger7240 You don't know her better than she knows herself.

@leeshelenberger7240 11 ай бұрын

@@johnnywomack548 do you?

@gemmeerobinson1803 11 ай бұрын

Ex Jehovah’s Witness. Charles Taze Russell the beginning of this false Church. I have noticed many here with comments they came from Churches that were man made counterfeits. Kristi seems to thrive on the fake to condemn the true God, Jesus and Christians. Satan is the Author of confusion that Kristi magnifies.

@randygalbraith2553 10 ай бұрын

@@leeshelenberger7240 This comes up from time to time Jehovah's Witnesses Wikipedia talk page. The consensus of Wikipedia editors is JWs are a Christian religion because they are followers of Jesus and believe him to be the Messiah (Christ). However, they hold non-Trinitarian beliefs that many assert is required of all Christian religions. Many Ex-JWs, such as myself, now identify as atheist and relate to both what Sebastien and Kristi are reporting. On the other hand, if one is in a nominal Christian faith, perhaps arriving there after leaving the JWs, they can feel strongly about "Christian" label being applied to JWs. Kind regards, -Randy

@toddrickman 11 ай бұрын

I am so thankful that I discovered your channel. You have finally given me the right words to explain my feelings.

@jezebelvibes 11 ай бұрын

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@FamilyIsGone 11 ай бұрын

@@jezebelvibes the reason I believe it's because I've experienced witches and demon/jinn otherwise I'd be like you

@nineflyerr3866 11 ай бұрын

@@FamilyIsGone exactly, they have never experienced demonic activity, occultism, witchcraft, blood rituals, etc... the knowledge is out there if they so seek it. But, odds are they are too scared because deep down they know it's real.

@FamilyIsGone 11 ай бұрын

@NiNeFlyerr I wish it was fake so I could live freely but knowing my experiences I can't abandon God of Israel despite me not being modern Christianity but the first early creed that follows YHWH as God and Jesus just as messenger

@gemmeerobinson1803 11 ай бұрын

Satan knows your weak points.

@tf3207 8 ай бұрын

Amazing video, had to come back to the start after watching your biblical story series (ark, Babel, etc.). Can't wait to watch the rest of your content!

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 8 ай бұрын

The issue at hand is sin and God’s nature of being just. Sin brings suffering (the pleasure is short term, and the suffering is long term-on earth and in hell forever). God brings Righteousness (may have short term suffering followed by long term pleasure- on earth and in Heaven). If you love yourself repent of your sins (lying, hatred, unforgiveness, sexual sins, taking the Lord’s Name in vain, stealing, dishonouring your parents etc) & believe in Jesus for forgiveness of sins. (Jesus died on the Cross as a sacrifice and defeated death by rising from the dead)

@chrisrent7119 10 ай бұрын

Thank you Kristi. Looking forward to all of your content. I relate.

@sarahrodriguez142 Жыл бұрын

Hey kristi, I’m 23 and I grew up Pentecostal Christian. And I had so much existential dread since I was 3 because of religion. So much stress and anxiety because I was trying so hard to fit myself into boxes that can be checked and that’s what children do when they grow up, when I was 16 my pastor mocked a couple for leaving our church and I immediately felt nauseous by it and I thought that was God telling me it was time to find a new church but really it was my moral compass that felt disgusted by his actions, there were other bts things too. But after 2 years I left the new church my family attended. It wasn’t until I let go of God that I found my existentialism deteriorating and my anxiety levels going down. I’m now at a point where I don’t really care if there is a God or not. Like I don’t want anything to do with him or religion. And that’s okay. We’ll all die one day and if I perish so be it but on this earth I will enjoy my life the best that I can and be the kind person I can be. Your videos help me when I start to feel that anxiety rising again because growing up indoctrinated is traumatic and even I have my days. It gives me comfort to know that I’m not alone in my thinking. Thank you for being an outspoken soul, I’m trying my best to be outspoken as well. My family still are believers and that’s fine with me, I’m lucky that they still love me the same and still talk to me not all people who renounce their religion get that.

@christianbosse_ Жыл бұрын

i had similar issues. the more i worked at my faith and studied the bible and even worked on staff at a church the more angry and anxious i was. ironically, the amount of stress, gut issues, suicidal ideation, and anger i’ve experienced since the journey of letting go has significantly dropped. i’m also more open to being friends with people who believe differently. being a “good christian” only caused me to be bitter, anxious, depressed and isolationist. but i did meet my husband due to my faith and i accumulated a lot of skills in the process so i don’t totally regret the journey.

@Darth_Vader258 Жыл бұрын

I CANNOT ABANDON God, because were all GONNA DIE. Atheism ⚛️ is *FOOLISHNESS* to me, since if the Physical Material world, is ALL there is then what's the purpose of Life anyway?

@vegangelo_29 Жыл бұрын

@@Darth_Vader258 Lol and you think worshipping images and stones (like what you catholics do) is not foolish? HAHAHAHA Well, no wonder, you're a catholic. Catholicism has 3 main foundations: Depravity, Idolatry, and Stupidity. Without these three, catholicism will vanish HAHAHAHA

@josiahesquivel1487 Жыл бұрын

Be careful with every decision you make and watch your step and every move you make and life is full of wonderful things and is full of pleasure but you can’t escape the truth and that’s the truth

@crystaljones5648 Жыл бұрын

I can't believe what everyone is writing here to this poor person! Comments like "There is no hope for you??" Really?? I can't believe I just read that in one of these responses to this person who has bared their feelings to the public! Who gives us the right to judge like that!!! Until we draw our last breath there is ALWAYS hope!! Everybody, it is NOT the church that saves you!!! The organized church of today is not what Jesus had envisioned or preached. They have twisted the Scripture and brought in so much secular stuff that has nothing to do with faith in Christ. I don't blame anyone for leaving the organized church of today, which is more like a social country club where you " pay dues for tithes" and get entertained, and if you dont "fit in" you're an outsider, and if you decide to join another church, you're ostracized by the members of the church you left. It's disgusting. Where in all the scripture does it say it's okay to do all that!! What does save you is your genuine faith in Jesus Christ and having Him constantly number one in your life. That's it!!. No denominations, no condemnation, no ifs ands or buts. And when you have Jesus as number one in your life, you are going to want to love and help others, NOT condemn them. This is why Jesus was so angry with the Pharisees. They were ritualistic and judgmental and all they thought about was their synagogue and affluence. They were hurting the people with their ritualism rather than applying the real truth of the Word. We should learn from that! Jesus said I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father but through me. So please, go back to simple genuine faith and read the Scripture for yourself. Dont let the hypocrisy of the church cause you to lose out on eternity. What the church does, and what you decide to believe and act on, are two totally separate things.

@tanvigawde1612 Жыл бұрын

Oh my goodness , I went through exactly what you went through. I’m still rebuilding my identity. It’s a journey. Thank you for sharing!! It means a lot!

@iamshango3005 Жыл бұрын

I'm trying to figure out my identity too

@BroneduChannel 11 ай бұрын

Don't mix the topic brethren Christianity is not a religion but a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians. So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

@johntiggleman4686 11 ай бұрын

@@BroneduChannel I am. I think. I will. "My hands...My spirit...My sky...My forest...This earth of mine...What must I say besides? These are the words. This is the answer. I stand here on the summit of the mountain. I lift my head and I spread my arms. This, my body and spirit, this is the end of the quest. I wished to know the meaning of things. I am the meaning. I wished a warrant for being: I need no warrant for being, and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction. It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is my ears which hear, and the hearing of my ears gives its song to the world. It is my mind that thinks, and the judgment of my mind is the only searchlight that can find the truth. It is my will that chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I must respect. Many words have been granted me, and some are wise and some are false, but only three are holy: 'I will it'" "...for I know what happiness is possible to me on earth. And my happiness needs no higher aim to vindicate it. My happiness is not the means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal. It is its own purpose. Neither am I the means to any end others may wish to accomplish. I am not a tool for their use. I am not a servant of their needs. I am not a bandage for their wounds. I am not a sacrifice on their altars. I am a man. This miracle of me is mine to own and keep, and mine to guard, and mine to use, and mine to kneel before!" And finally, "I swear, by my life and my love of it that I will NEVER live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine."-Quoted from "Anthem" and "Atlas Shrugged" by Ayn Rand.

@gemmeerobinson1803 11 ай бұрын

Satan agrees with you.

@johntiggleman4686 11 ай бұрын

@@gemmeerobinson1803 What is the point for the whole thing? Creation, etc? Just so the "saved" praise god forever?

@ethanhess8230 7 ай бұрын

I’m privileged enough to have never been religious. Both of my parents have deconversion stories though, and yours is very similar to my mother’s although she was never a fundamentalist. My grandmother recently asked her why she left the faith, and she shortened it to “I read the Bible, couldn’t find the loving god I was raised to worship in it, and didn’t want to become an asshole because of my religion”

@BrianNewton286 7 ай бұрын

I love the words of your mum succinct yet comprehensive ☺😉 I'm a lifelong atheist, I think my folks were probably atheists, religion wasn't mentioned at all in our house in a village in the Lake District in the UK.

@12567NoYouCannot 4 ай бұрын

@@BrianNewton286 The Best thing that happened to You in this LIFE was to NOT Believe in the Same God that I did since I was a child, that has Shown me that I am nothing but GARBAGE to him and his people. I am Glad that You did Not fall for that TRAP.

@GoldAceNews 2 ай бұрын

Your grandma was wrong and she left the world convinced her otherwise, just because "she did not want to become an asshole"... that is the most stupidest thing I've heard from a human. She rejected Jesus, then when she passed away, she is probably in eternal torment.

@RhymesWithPorridge 10 ай бұрын

Well done, you! I really appreciate hearing deconversion stories from different perspectives, especially those who don't fit the "angry atheist" stereotype.

@mackymintle7806 Жыл бұрын

Great to hear your story. I’m a big fan of people spending the time to find integrity…snd then teach themselves how to communicate their thoughts clearly! Instant subscriber. ❤

@glennz6686 11 ай бұрын

I went from fundamentalist free will to once saved always Christianity to Agnostic Atheist.. What really drove me away from Christianity is a thorough Bible study in finding out how controversial and inconsistent the Bible really is. Leaving organize religion. Christianity was the most liberating thing I ever did in my life. I would never go back. Thanks for sharing your story

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 7 ай бұрын

All Humans need to repent & Believe in Jesus as their God. Why? Because all Humans have sinned (lied, lusted sexually, stolen, dishonoured parents etc). Avoid the fires of Hell (justice of God) and choose Heaven today. Jesus defeated death by rising from the dead. GOD IS HOLY

@lbg7240 6 ай бұрын

But jesus is not god, the bible says the son. If you believe jesus is god you follow to gods

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 6 ай бұрын

@@lbg7240 Jesus is God became Man, a tricycle has 3 wheels but is 1 bike, likewise 3 persons but 1 God Here is why you need Jesus. You’re like a man about to jump off a plane without a parachute and his plan is to flap his arms to save himself and I'd say “don't do that use the parachute “(Jesus is the parachute).; you are already a slave to your sins- yet God came to set the captives free. (The truth shall set you free- Jesus said I am the way the Truth and the Life) Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

@Childfree334 5 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363I see why so many people have no respect for Christians. Y'all are no better nor any more believable than any other religion/belief system. ALL OF YOU (Christians, catholics, Muslims, JWs, whatever) preach the message of believe in MY God or be eternally damned. Seriously?

@NaNlinear 4 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 No. My plan is to live my life. You come with nothing but verses from a book and fear mongering. There are people on this channel who have been traumatized by your religion and here you are rubbing their faces in it. You are exhibiting psychopathic behavior.

@danielamesquita98 9 ай бұрын

Thank you for this video. For speaking for all of us that lived the same experience.

@Brisleep1 10 ай бұрын

I'm 62, my wife died 4 years ago, she was 58, she had finally accepted she needed to love herself before anyone else. My family is rabid Christian, I've been asking your questions since I was very young and now I just don't understand how people believe it religion. I've been watching your videos at random, now I'll probably go from here, you really know what you're saying! ❤ I've been depressed all of my life, I recently stopped saying that I'm a Christian and guess what, I don't feel depressed about anything anymore! 😁 Thank you for being forthright and honest, I'm glad I found your channel!

@marcdc6809 10 ай бұрын

I think it's the thing they do with telling you you're a sinner for having certain thoughts... the coveting... and that's the hook with which they hold you under. Once you realise you're not a sinner for thinking certain things... that the real source of happyness is actually realising: 'hey, I have these thoughts, but don't let them take over my life...', they are on to something there, but they exploit it in stead of coming to terms with them. There's also the thing that they tell you 'you could have done more', and that in itself becomes a sin, I got that a lot from having an education in a catholic rather strict boys-school... And three is always a good number, they tell you that you have to be grateful for your talents, you can't take personal satisfaction for them... that also drags one down...

@j0hn_char960 Жыл бұрын

YAY, your first video!🎉 Thank you for sharing your story

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Thanks so much for your support 😊

@gs3610 Жыл бұрын

Your content has been very helpful in my own journey leaving christianity. Good luck with your channel 😊

@adedwards3097 Жыл бұрын

Spiritual Song: "Come Out of Her My People" Line 1) Come out of her my people, be not partakers of her sins, receive not of her plagues; Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: Revelation 18:4 Acts 7:48; 17:24 Hosea 8:14 -- Line 2) Where Satan is transformed as an angel of light, and his ministers also be transformed as ministers of righteousness. Deceitful workers are they; false apostles, preachers, and teachers transforming themselves into the apostles of Christ. Having a form of godliness but denying the power thereof, Where the mystery of iniquity doth already work. Enemies of the cross of Christ are they. Scripture: 2 Corinthians 11:13-15 2 Timothy 3:5 2 Thessalonians 2:7 Philippines 3:18-19 Matthew 24:11 -- Line 3) God that made the world and all things therein; the Lord of heaven and earth, dwelleth NOT in temples made with hands. Therefore, Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: Acts 17:24 Revelation 18:4 Hosea 8:14 -- Line 4) Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and the Spirit of God dwelleth in you? Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, touch not the unclean thing, And I will be your God, and ye shall be my people. Enter ye IN at the way of the narrow gate, which leadeth unto life, where FEW there be that find it. Scripture: 1 Corinthians 3:16 2 Corinthians 6:16-18 Matthew 7:14 Isaiah 52:11 -- Line 5) Come out of the temples made with hands; Enter ye NOT in the broad way, Enter ye in the wide gate, that leadeth to destruction, and MANY there be which go in thereat. Therefore, Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: Acts 7:48; 17:24 Matthew 7:13 Revelation 18:4 -- Line 6) Jesus Christ who is the Word of God is our only place of refuge, safety, virtue, and Truth; in this present evil world, By faith all that believe must trust the Holy Ghost, the Spirit of Truth, and is no lie; will teach you all things and will lead and guide you into all truth, as you read and study the word of God. Scripture: Revelation 19:13 John 1:1,14,17 Galatians 1:3-4 1John 5:19 John 14:16-17,26 1 John 2:27-28 Ephesians 4:21; 5:25-27 Colossians 2:2-3 Philippines 4:8 Psalm 91:1-2,9 Proverbs 18:10; 29:25 2 Peter 1:3-4 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 -- Line 7) Let not your faith stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God. Therefore, Come out of her my people, be not partakers of her sins, receive not of her plagues. Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Jesus Christ, the power of God and the wisdom of God; the Word of God, In whom all the fulness of the Godhead dwelleth bodily, And ye are complete in Him. He is the image of the invisible God. So, Come out of her my people, Come out of all the temples made with hands. Scripture: 1 Corinthians 2:5 Revelation 18:4 Acts 7:48; 17:24 Hosea 8:14 1 Corinthians 1:24 Revelation 19:13 John 1:1,14,17 Colossians 2:9-10; 1:15 2 Corinthians 4:3-4,6 1 John 5:7

@salvation4all313 Жыл бұрын

The greatest help for your journey in life is to acknowledge and believe this fact: NOBODY on this planet Earth can come anywhere close to matching God Almighty's greatest gift offering in the history of humanity!! Jesus Christ said, *"I am telling you the truth, whoever believes in me has eternal life."* (John 6:47) Hallelujah! Let those great words of Jesus Christ be preached all around the world!

@bubbabruh6309 11 ай бұрын

@salvation4all313 do you really think quoting the Bible to ex Christians is in any way productive?

@salvation4all313 11 ай бұрын

@@bubbabruh6309 They are NOT ex Christians. They NEVER were true Christians.

@salvation4all313 11 ай бұрын

@@bubbabruh6309 They are not ex-Christians. They never were true Christians.

@Eric-ne8vg 9 ай бұрын

Really appreciate you sharing your story Kristi! I’m going through my own “deconversion” after years of wrestling with things in the Bible and within the Christian faith/belief system. You are not alone… I am not alone… Other’s are not alone in the questioning, being skeptical of and doubting the validity of the tradition of religion. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts, opinions, perspectives, and experiences.

@pankaja7974 9 ай бұрын

what were you wrestling with ? any example ?

@josiahesquivel1487 8 ай бұрын

You should’ve trusted in Jesus and asked him for the keys of prosperity

@justinotherpatriot1744 7 ай бұрын

Cognitive-Theoretic Model of the Universe. God is real. The ontology of reality is not less intelligent than its human subsystems.

@jesshughes776 6 ай бұрын

@bigdogalldayeveryday 4 ай бұрын

Interesting. I was agnostic and found faith in adulthood. Questioning is good. Do you believe that rape is a moral good or or bad?

@tdubs8188 Жыл бұрын

Here from TikTok, so happy for your first video on here and exciting for you! Absolutely love your videos, my favorite tiktoker !

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

🥺 that means so much. Thanks so much for being here.

@triciaperry2234 Жыл бұрын

@@jezebelvibes Go BACK. I is NOT WORTH IT. if you were born again. Go back. I need to get back. SERIOUSLY when you die it doesn't change the fact that hell and heaven still exist. I wish I had stayed and were you ever BORN AGAIN with the holy Spirit?. That may be the issue. Jesus is still coming back. So you were BORN AGAIN!!! I mean seriously GO BACK IT IS NOT WORTH IT .THE WORLD and Satan is going to beat you down to trash. This is his world. And if you with the world. You lost. You should have stayed. After you did all that. Passing out tracts and etc..... blog about Christian journey. Growing in relationship with God THEN YOU WENT DOWN after _____________ you didn't rebuke those thoughts. My family is HOLINESS and all are in Church. What you doing is promoting REBELLION and atheisism

@AngieVail Жыл бұрын

Religion does NOT work for everyone. Every religion thinks THEIRS is the ONLY way to heaven or the hereafter. When something we believe in has an eternal effect on our soul/spirit it needs to make SENSE to me. I can’t believe in something that leaves more questions than answers. I APPLAUD your logic, candor, and decision to do what you’re doing, I’m with you 100%. ❤️❤️❤️

@christianbosse_ Жыл бұрын

facts. early on in my journey of wrestling with christian faith, i realized that a lot of times people believe they’re right because they believe. which is a logical fallacy. your belief in something doesn’t prove it. and what’s worse is when you say you’re researching outside of church or the bible, people tell you to stop.

@AngieVail Жыл бұрын

@@christianbosse_ - Agree with you 100%

@AngieVail Жыл бұрын

@Clowy Nicx - No, he’s not.

@crystaljones5648 Жыл бұрын

You're right. " Religion" doesn't work for everyone. And every "religion" is going to say their way is the right way to live life. But I know only one belief where a man suffered horrific tortures at the hand of his fellow man, was crucified, rose from the dead with over 500 witnesses, and also proclaimed himself as "the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes through the Father but through me." And on top of that, Jesus fulfilled over 300 prophecies in the Scripture written over the span of thousands of years before His birth. No other religion can proclaim this.

@crystaljones5648 Жыл бұрын

@@AngieVail Jesus said: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father but by me.

@michaelstueben2880 6 ай бұрын

WoW! Thank you so much for this video. Your story just says so much.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 6 ай бұрын

People often say, “I’m not hurting anyone so it’s ok to sin (lying, stealing, sexual sins, disrespecting parents etc)” The same God who said to love your neighbour first said to love Him to the best of your ability. If you carry on sinning, then you do not love God but are selfish like the devil so you will be joined to your father in hell or repent of your sins and believe in Jesus as God so Jesus adopts you as His child and you will join Him in Heaven forever.

@noopy24 Ай бұрын

Watching you is the most amazing ,beautiful testimony I've ever seen in my life 😊 I'm so thankful that I have found you. I have been away from the church for 10 years and have felt guilty about it. I just finished a beautiful 7 year relationship and pulling away from the church was partially responsible for the end of our relationship but finding you and your brightness and enthusiasm for your new life inspires me to be happy again 😊 Thank you so very much... I will definitely contribute and by merch...🎉

@BobLeach_DarkWolf Жыл бұрын

I'm thrilled thst you got your channel up and going. Looking forward to all of your content. All the best to you. :)

@FtdThinks Жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your story. I am a former Christian too and really know what it's like to feel trapped inside of Christianity and burdened by all the ideas of God that exist. I see so many similarities in your journey with mine. Glad you made the right decision for yourself. Keep sharing your story. So many people need to hear it!

@rafaelrotellini7141 11 ай бұрын

Hope people understand that. RELIGION IS THE CONTROL OF MENTALITY OF ALL PEOPLE. BIBLE????? ISO MUCH CONTRADICTION

@justinspence8341 11 ай бұрын

No you are not a former Christian. You were never a Christian in the first place. If you felt trapped inside of Christianity then it was never yours to begin with. Faith is given by God and is not of ourselves. You might think that you have heard all of this before and therefore it is not worth hearing anymore, and maybe you have heard it before, but did you actually listen to the real message? I think not.

@mattmccain8492 11 ай бұрын

What you were trapped by was the controlling influences of other people. Faith in Christ isn't based in those people, their perceptions, their beliefs , their ideologies, their rituals , their requirements , their interpretations , their suggestions and their points of view. Faith is based in Jesus alone and what He promises and provides for us through Him and only Him. Never our fellow man. The religions of man have distorted faith into a system of control and monetary gain for them.

@mattmccain8492 11 ай бұрын

@@justinspence8341 God doesn't give us faith. He gives us salvation by His grace through His only begotten Son Jesus Christ. Something we do not deserve but freely given because God loves us that much. Our faith is what we give God by our belief in Jesus and His completed work and self sacrifice on the cross on our behalf to pay our sin debt and die in our place for those sins. We are not saved by our own works least we would boast about it. We can never achieve redemption back to God on our own because we are inherently wicked and not perfect. Only Jesus provides that which we cannot do for ourselves. Only through Jesus can we be redeemed back to God our Creator and Father.

@RocketKirchner 11 ай бұрын

Contradiction is an apparent paradox . We are brainwashed to not think in paradox .

@Jasminejupiterjuice 2 ай бұрын

Fired up! I'm almost shaking I'm so mad for you and me and all of us. Great story. I wanna flush out my story too. Xo❤

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 2 ай бұрын

@katew.9402 9 ай бұрын

That was such an interesting video! Thanks for sharing your story!

@iamshango3005 Жыл бұрын

I sought him too and I didn't find him. Instead I found pain and suffering

@ashmac89 Жыл бұрын

Subscribed! I recently discovered you through tiktok and your videos have helped me process my complicated emotions towards religion. As a child it brought me comfort but within the past few years I've struggled with the contradictions and forced guilt. Today I think I consider myself agnostic and I'm focused on healing from the past and making sense of the world in a way that works best for me. I look forward to the future of your channel 👍

@FABRlCE 9 ай бұрын

11:11 i used to get told "don't try to go deep making sense bcz you'll end up questioning" i did not listen cause i could bet my life the loving God was real at the time and i thought it will make the belief even stronger on the other side of questioning! I got shocked with my honest conclusions and saddened! i was around 17 thinking i can't stand going to church but who knows in the future, until i was honest with myself at 18, that i wasn't going back. my mind is free from wondering why would God let certain people suffer too much and i used to do good to others knowing that i really wanted to, but i knew of the rewards of afterlife, but now i don't believe in afterlife and i'm happy every time i know i did good for the sake of it. Thank you Kristi.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 2 ай бұрын

@ISkeptic649 7 ай бұрын

I can totally relate. I got "saved" when I was five. I had no idea what I was doing, yet I was supposedly making a life-long decision. I "rededicated" a few years later, I think I was 12. Still had no idea what I was doing except that it made all the adults around me happy. Looking back at it, I think that I just wasn't "wired" to be a believer. I had too many questions that were unanswerable and lost my faith. Glad you found your way out. Oh and I was SBC as well. I subbed you a few days ago and am sifting through some of your videos. Thank's for the content and for sharing your life story.😉

@BrianNewton286 7 ай бұрын

I found Kristi when Ray Comfort covered one of her videos, so subbed today.

@jamesbreaux2448 25 күн бұрын

Your parents lie to you all parents lie to their kids you not save at no 5 yrs old you don’t even no the gospel didn’t even repent

@aishaahmed3611 Жыл бұрын

💞You.I'm going through this with Islam "It's hard to forget about everything you built your identity upon. What's mad sometimes is All the time You Lose & Lost druing your believe. 💜💜💜💜

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Sending you so much love. I know how hard it is to feel that loss. It's a lifelong journey but it is worth it. Freedom is worth it. ❤

@Camelotskin Жыл бұрын

Islam, like Mormonism, Jehovah's Witness etc. is a false religion. Once you read the Bible and open your heart to the truth, the God that created the Heavens and the Earth will reveal himself to you. Many people, like this channel got rooted in the wrong Church and it caused doubt to set in. Listen to this Intelligent Muslim convert. Amen. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iKqbfGepgJioesU

@walleras Жыл бұрын

Come be noahide

@walleras Жыл бұрын

@B Come be Noahide

@sultanalbluwi7277 Жыл бұрын

Don’t follow the satan come back and ask for guidance how the universe were created the sun the moon the day and night the earth the sea the miracles in the Quran that no one could have known 1400 years ago don’t quit the satan wants you to quit he promised that he will attack us with what ever he got ask Allah sincerely he will guide you insha Allah to the straight path.

@annapostate8246 11 ай бұрын

I went through a very similar experience. I diligently searched for what was true. The way you articulate your experience makes me feel like I’ve found a soul sister 💕 thank you for sharing your brilliant mind ❤️

@gemmeerobinson1803 11 ай бұрын

Brilliant mind with no heart for life.

@annapostate8246 9 ай бұрын

@@gemmeerobinson1803 I find the opposite true…she knows this life is all we have so it’s even more treasured

@gemmeerobinson1803 9 ай бұрын

@@annapostate8246 Her False Preacher must be Joel Osteen who written the book, Your Best Life Now. Goofy...

@handlenumber707 7 ай бұрын

Her mind is not so brilliant. I believe she is a victim of some New Age demonic cult; someone who was vulnerable, and taken advantage of by Satanists. It's heart-wrenching.

@ast453000 11 ай бұрын

Beautiful. Very similar to my story in some ways. I'm so glad I found this channel.

@drews1757 11 ай бұрын

I appreciate you sharing and I was raised Christian, that is how I felt trapped and controlled as well, I have had similar experiences, shame and guilt and hate and judgement.

@jentynjones Жыл бұрын

I came over from the ⏰ app. You quickly became my favorite creator there. I’m so happy to have longer videos. I know this is the only one so far. But I’m excited for the others to come.

@guillermoostapczuk541 Жыл бұрын

It is very important to share these stories, indeed. So many of us have struggled and still struggling with fear and guilt. Thank you so much.

@tdr.220 Жыл бұрын

@redeyewarrior 11 ай бұрын

@@tdr.220 You clearly don't understand what this person is talking about. If you did you wouldn't try to convert them back to the very same thing that's the cause. You don't get it.

@shiningarmour1357 11 ай бұрын

@@tdr.220 According to white people Christianity is a religion , now this lady has to figure out her gender problems. White society is basically the most low IQ society these days .

@sparkstudies1675 2 ай бұрын

@@tdr.220And how do we get to know the will of Christ/God? Through whims and impressions? Tingly feelings? Tell me how are we supposed to have a relationship with Him? He's already made much of His will known to us through scripture and doctrine. Finding out His will through a relationship with Him would not lead you anywhere else.

@kelleroper3490 9 ай бұрын

Wonderful Im so happy for you❤ welcome to the club!

@JaysonT1 10 ай бұрын

When i stopped being religious, my family disowed me (with the exception of my mother). I kept reaching out to them and got so exhausted that i thought, I'll just wait for them to connect with/call me. That was over 20 years ago and to this day I have yet to hear from any of them.

@familyportsmouth 10 ай бұрын

That is what keeps many from coming out. I feel that there are many "christians" who stopped believing a long time ago, but to keep harmony, they claim to be christian.

@Manas-co8wl 9 ай бұрын

Love without freedom is fear in disguise. It really shows doesn't it. Thank you for being brave. You may not have familial connection but you have our unending support.

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

sorry it cost you so much. meanwhile "family" need not be composed of people with common DNA but perhaps people with common spirit.

@Childfree334 5 ай бұрын

@@tracyavent-costanza346"Family need not be composed of people with the same DNA" Exactly!!!!

@zechariah22 Жыл бұрын

I'm here for it =) this is a great first KZbin video. I myself officially left Christianity (evangelism) behind about a year and a half ago

@drpatriciamushonga5411 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate to a lot of the things you went through. I have recently left the faith and I am struggling to find meaning and purpose outside of religion.

@shannon6467 11 ай бұрын

This is pure disillusionment, not ignorance. Don’t listen to her lies. Cast aside you religions and call on the name of the Lord. Romans 10:9-10 Praying for you Doc!

@theboombody 11 ай бұрын

You can't fall into the trap of nihilism where you think nothing has any inherent meaning. That's never a good belief. I never left a religion so I can't relate to that struggle, but I know how damaging it is to believe that nothing ultimately matters. Not only is it damaging, but I believe it to be an untruth.

@gemmeerobinson1803 11 ай бұрын

What kind of faith? Mormonism?

@drpatriciamushonga5411 9 ай бұрын

@@shannon6467 Nothing fails like prayer

@drpatriciamushonga5411 9 ай бұрын

@@gemmeerobinson1803 Evangelical Christianity

@lagodifuoco313 10 ай бұрын

As a former minister who was always a Lerner and seeker but never a believer who, after digging deep into contemporary evangelical Christianity and biblical history, became an outspoken anti-theists over 10 years ago. I want to tell you that it was stories like yours that helped me not to feel so alone. Thank you for your "testimony" 😉.

@davidmccarroll8274 9 ай бұрын

As a Christian I have one simple question If you are an anti theist then you are entitled to your position hawever if you have never believe how and why are you a former minister?thanks !!!

@lagodifuoco313 9 ай бұрын

@davidmccarroll8274 You don't have to believe to be a minister. Do you think Charlatan Scamvangelists like Kenneth Copeland, Creflo Dollar, or Benny Hinn actually believe the Buybull garbage they preach? All you have to do is pretend like you believe, and gullible people (like you) will follow the shepherd like good little sheep.

@lifethroughromans8295 9 ай бұрын

@@davidmccarroll8274- He does make a strange claim as a believer that was a former minister. You have a point.

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

yep I have a friend from my most recent formal UU church whose life story reads like yours. He had to question EVERYTHING and pretty much walk a way from a fairly cozy life situation into one where nothing was certain. Then he almost died from a heart attack. He has been on the mend ever since and has pretty much found his own purpose in life. In a way I think he did sort of "minister" to me, and in turn I sort of learned how to minister to others where I could see somehow that I might sort of reach them.

@MrMister441 9 ай бұрын

Every word you speak has resonated with me. similar experiences similar conclusions. Thanks for sharing. thought I was the only one

@pipedrmmr Жыл бұрын

Thank you for telling your story. You are helping others who are wrestling with the same issues about their beliefs. Blessed be!

@user-qk4ui7sq7b Жыл бұрын

You speak so eloquently! I could listen to you talk all day

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

😊

@coldstone6129 5 ай бұрын

I am deeply touched by your such sincere and honest sharing. I would like to wish you all the best!

@byron2521 6 ай бұрын

Wow! Your story sounds almost identical to mine. Raised Southern Baptist, saved (baptized) at about 5 or 6, doubted if that was good enough at that such young an age too. Went to a Bible camp at about 15, moved me! burst out in tears at a prayer meeting during camp. Decided then to either become a preacher or work with kids as a youth minister. Dedicated my full effort to studying the Bible. But as I delve into it more, it just opened more questions and doubt. Met a girl in high school that was a Chistian, any girl I dated then had to be a Christian. I was still devout then. But as we dated, I began to question more, and me and my girlfriend grew apart as her faith was unchallenged. When I was introduced to the philosophy of Calvinism, and only a few are chosen to be saved (not all that believe), no matter what you do. Well, I already doubted my faith, but yeah, I had problems with that concept too. Me and my Christian girlfriend broke up when I was 19. By then I was pretty much an agnostic. But I kept going to church because of "Pascal's Wager", I thought I just could be being lured away by the Devil, so I needed to keep the faith to avoid Hell (unless the Calvins were right, and I had no choice anyway). The Calvin philosophy may have had more influence than I thought. The Idea that God was not a democratic god of freewill still doesn't sit well with me. A tyrannical God that demands blind thoughtless obeisance without thought or freewill or threat of eternal punishment (and your efforts may be in vain anyway)? I tried a few other churches too. I went to Jehovah Witnesses and even seriously thought about Judaism.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 6 ай бұрын

God is the epitome of Holiness because He is sinlessly perfect, A sinner (liar, sexually immoral, taking the Lord’s Name in vain, thief etc) cannot be in the presence of God or else he will be utterly consumed therefore repent of your sins and put your faith in Jesus as your Lord and Saviour to go to Heaven.

@NaNlinear 4 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Actually, no one can be in the presence of the Christian god as it does not exist. Also, your fear mongering is just gross manipulation.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 3 ай бұрын

@@NaNlinear God through the Holy Spirit has shown me several things relating to the afterlife with the purpose of convincing people like yourself. Stuff like Heaven and Hell, Angels, and evil Spirits the Lord Jesus (not worthy at all), a miracle happened to me that saved my life (thank you God) & so much more. I am more than happy to give further details.

@NaNlinear 3 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 "has shown me several things relating to the afterlife" - Again, people from almost all religions report being shown "truth". "purpose of convincing people like yourself" - Your god could just show up like it used to. You could also demonstrate at all with ANY empirical evidence that your god COULD exist much less that it's your god. I am not bothered by you being a Christian. Some of the best people I have known are Christians. I am bothered when apologists like you use manipulation and coercion to try to "convince" people. Some of the worst people I have ever encountered have been Christians. Apologists rank among these.

@tyoungjjr 11 ай бұрын

This is a compelling testimonial. As a Christian myself, i to experienced other Christians being stumbling block. But i found that our God is bigger.

@DavidRamos-nz4bh 10 ай бұрын

You are delusional, think a little bit harder and be honest with yourself. It’s all bullshit.

@istvansipos9940 10 ай бұрын

so big is the g0d, you cannot even define it properly. If you give it a try, we always hear what you BELIEVE about the g0d. We never learn what you KNOW about the g0d, because knowledge can be domonstrated, and you have nothing of that sort. your g0d is a vague claim about 1 form of Middle Eastern magic. the g0d is not defined, let alone supported with evidence, or with just 1 testable claim. That's why not even the most gifted cave painters drew any cross in any cave ever. Nice lions, or just o.k. wolves, etc. But never a cross! A shape our children can draw! If it is already invented as a symbol, that is. the g0d, IF it exists (and we have n0 reason to think so), let at least 10 000 human generations follow false g0ds. THEN the g0d made a very limited debut in 1 tiny corner of 1 region. And even these days, the g0d somehow cannot reach all mankind with the w0rd. And when it reaches UNindoctrinated 5th graders, the idea of the g0d is always laughed off the stage, no matter how hard a well trained professional liar (priest, past0r, imam, etc) rants about magic. Critically thinking KIDS intellectually tear the g0d another one with almost 0 effort. that's why religi0n has to get those kids as young as possible. What a big g0d! without lies, religi0n DIES.

@annemariededekind6271 11 ай бұрын

Dearest Christy, You are a brave person. I find that the time I spend in the Bible is not wasted for now I know that I know this is not the god I want to know anymore. I should have been traumatized, but since my studies I am sure of what is true and what not. So I do not regret a thing. Just very, very happy that I am free of the burden that the bible puts on us. Yes, we lost family and friends, but we still love them, for indoctrination is a terrible thing. Glad that you found yourself......keep going...we only have this life.❤

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

sorry you had to lose so much. I hope you find other connections and build your own community.

@sparkstudies1675 2 ай бұрын

Do you guys ever struggle with the thought of what if we're actually stupid and missing out big time on a blissful eternal life?

@Chemeleon86 10 ай бұрын

Former Christian here. There's a lot to relate with in your story. Mainly the harsh response from the more religious of my family. I've recently just discovered your channel. This is my third video watched and I think I'll hang around for a few more. :)

@ChristianApologeticsProject 9 ай бұрын

There is no such thing as a "former Christian," as that would be tantamount to say, I am a "former son/daughter of my human parents," which is abject nonsense. You did nothing to bring yourself into the world, and the Christian does nothing to bring him/herself into God's family. Hence, you can do nothing to extricate yourself from either.

@Chemeleon86 9 ай бұрын

@@ChristianApologeticsProject Christian meaning from Google, "relating to or professing Christianity or its teachings". I do not submit to it's teachings anymore. Thus the 'former' part certianly comes into play. But hey, for fun, let's assume you're right and I'm still a Christian. 1. I'm still going to live the life I want without any worship to your God, sins and all still occuring. Will I still be accepted into heaven since I'm still Christian and in his family? 2. Are you saying that I can't remove myself from religion because, "Once you're in, you're in for life"? Then that kind of takes away from the 'free will' that your God supposedly offers. Or, if you're saying that we're all Christians because we're all God's children, then please explain that to the other religons. 3. You might want to keep a close eye on me. If I'm a Christian then you certainly don't want me representing you. "I'm Christian! Hail Satan!". See? It's bad P.R. isn't it? Me being bound to religion can only be a bad thing for both of us. And frankly, you don't get to make up titles for me. So what do you say we just go back to calling me a former Christian and I will bid you Good day?

@ChristianApologeticsProject 9 ай бұрын

@@Chemeleon86 "But hey, for fun, let's assume you're right and I'm still a Christian." There was no assumption on my part that you ever were a Christian, though. In fact, it is the contrary. Your irrational mockery makes that evident. So, I will just say, "Thanks," for example.

@Chemeleon86 9 ай бұрын

@@ChristianApologeticsProject So the argument is, "you never really were a Christian"? Ok, so there was a fork in the road as to how I could interpret your comment and I got the wrong one. I apologise about that and the following arguments that had no place here. However, I gave the dictionary defination at the very start. That withstanding still shows I was a Christian because I related to it's teachings. Yes, I've since dropped those teachings, but I still once held them. Jumping back to the mockery, I'd mentioned in my original message that my religious family had caused me some issues. Seeing a complete stranger on the net apparently taking a swing at me too set me off. I'm not proud of that. I apologise again. I still consider myself a former Christian. That's my history.

@ChristianApologeticsProject 9 ай бұрын

@@Chemeleon86 Being born into God's family is not about YOU! It is irrelevant whether YOU "related" to any text, whether it is the Bible or some "Christian" author's book, whereby YOU thought that made you a Christian. Being born of GOD is what matters. If you're not born of GOD (literally "born from above," as Jesus taught in John 3:3-5), then you're not a Christian. Persons born of GOD remain Christians, because "salvation is of the Lord," and what GOD does, YOU cannot undo. People do not become Christians because of their own efforts, nor can they cease to be a Christian by their efforts. Salvation, or becoming a Christian, is by God's unmerited favor, whereby He chooses whom He will "according to the purpose of His will" (Eph 1:5). Hence, a Christian can no more undo what GOD has done to become a child of His than what you or I could do to undo what our human parents did to bring us to be as their sons or daughters. If our efforts to be or not be Christians was relevant, "then Christ died for no purpose" (Gal 2:21). That said, I accept your apology. It is not my intention to "take swings" at anybody, personally, but to destroy the foundations they set up "against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ" (2 Cor 10:5). What Kristi has erected here, in her own personal hostility, probably toward something similar to your experience, even though indirectly toward God and Jesus, is a fortress she has been deceived into believing will bring her solace. It will bring none, though. What she calls "deconstructing" is really nothing more than self-destruction, or the very thing Satan wants her to do. It makes his task easy if a person will simply destroy themselves without him having to do much more than plant a God-defying thought in her head, and then stoke her irrational emotions a bit, and before long she self-destructs beneath a cloud of nihilism, despair, and hopelessness. Let me finish by letting you know that I want you be a Christian, just not the wishy-washy, doctrinally-dumb variety found in so many "Christian" churches today. I want you to stand on the solid rock, who is Jesus, so that when an imposter, an apostate, or self-proclaimed atheist comes along, you can easily spot the fallacies in their supposedly sophisticated arguments that they claim is "rational" or "reasonable." That way you can stand and not fall for their deceitful tropes and conceited implications that they are a god. Until such time, have a great day! I look forward to conversing with you in the future, hopefully on a better footing that we got started.🙂

@jb562 9 ай бұрын

'When I am weak, he is strong' is the ultimate statement of a controlling cult. The bible is full of this! All of your videos are amazing... please keep it up!! ❤

@gundamcollector77 9 ай бұрын

So relying on and having a personal relation ship with a higher power in times of struggle is you being Controlled? Christ preached adamantly that knowing him is a willing choice, and one only the individual can make.

@josiahesquivel1487 8 ай бұрын

You will never realize Jesus is all you need till he is all you have

@jb562 8 ай бұрын

@@josiahesquivel1487 Why are you here? Perhaps you will learn that you've been lied to. Only the ones that dive deep into study of the Bible are the ones to see the multiple contractions and to see that it's mythological and copied texts from much earlier books. Dive deep and you'll discover this!!

@josiahesquivel1487 8 ай бұрын

@@jb562 We will learn who has been deceived by time

@josiahesquivel1487 8 ай бұрын

@@jb562 I’ll tell you this We Will All Say Jesus Christ Is Lord And King Of King’s

@RobertJones-gq3jq Жыл бұрын

As you talk, it reminds me of what I lost from my community. I was left with all the feelings of insecurity about myself that were soothed when I joined.

@marcdc6809 10 ай бұрын

you're not alone in this.

@WTinVirtualReality Жыл бұрын

So proud of you! You are an inspiration!!

@aaronlsuton 7 ай бұрын

Your channel is everything - thank you

@cainofthejungle 7 ай бұрын

I found your channel like seven months ago and after seeing so much you post up, today I see this. Watching this video=therapy Thank you for this and everything you've been posting up on this journey.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 6 ай бұрын

@NaNlinear 4 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 Citation needed. Also, more fear mongering manipulation.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 3 ай бұрын

@@NaNlinear Creation implies creator People underestimate hell, it is bad because it is separation from God. In a vision I was shown a perron who claimed to be Christian but started fornication (premarital sex), He died relatively young and went to hell forever (1 Cor 6:9). God’s holiness means He will not coexist with sinners forever therefore Repent (Luke 13:3) and have a relationship with Jesus.

@NaNlinear 3 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 "Creation implies creator" - Perfect. Show that any of our universe was "created". Show that there is in fact a "creator" and that it is your god. "People underestimate hell" - More unsubstantiated fear mongering and coercion. "In a vision" - Every religion EVER has had visions.

@NaNlinear 3 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 My other comment did not seem to load: I don't care that you are a christian. Some of the best people I know are christians. My problem is when apologists manipulate, use coercion, encourage science denial, discourage critical thinking. Some of the worst people I have ever know have also been christians. Apologists fall in this category.

@BlackieNuff 11 ай бұрын

The way you described going through the depression and suicidal ideations, it sounded like a withdrawal from an addiction. People tend to go through quite an emotional ordeal that can manifest physically when a perception or mindset is rocked. But in the end, it's good. That means the mental shackles have been broken and the chafing they cause is beginning to heal. Good for you for questioning and examining and holding the whole thing up to scrutiny, and kudos to you for being open minded when reading the debates and recognizing the "wise minds". I'm looking forward to working my way through your videos. 🙂

@handlenumber707 7 ай бұрын

Only she's not doing as you describe. Proper scrutiny of her arguments betray a bitterness, an incoherence, predicated on a visceral rejection of God. I believe she jumped out of the frying pan and into the fire, going from the innocence of faith (regardless of the quality of her denomination), into the sin of New Age living, brainwashed to fence illogical arguments against divine authority. It's really sad.

@gustavocunha5626 Жыл бұрын

U should know how good u are for people, ur my voice, u help so much, i love ur videos, thank u for making these videos, ur inspiring

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your support!

@salvation4all313 Жыл бұрын

NOBODY on this planet Earth can come anywhere close to matching God Almighty's greatest gift offering in the history of humanity!! Jesus Christ said, *"I am telling you the truth, whoever believes in me has eternal life."* (John 6:47) Hallelujah! Let those great words of Jesus Christ be preached all around the world!

@dusty3913 11 ай бұрын

The “problem of evil” always plagued my thoughts when I sat in the pews as a young person. That, and the “selective love” other Christians showed to people of the world.

@danboyigomsuk2027 11 ай бұрын

Look, Christianity is your personal relationship with God. Don't look at what others do and criticize them. Each of us, including you, would one day, account for his actions in this world. The Bible is very clear on that word, 'love' or 'charity'. The Bible instructs us to love all; and to love even those who hate you; pray for them. That is the straightforward instruction. So, when you say 'other Christians' show "selective love", they are not the Bible. Follow the Bible words. Those who show 'selective love' do not understand what Christianity is all about. Accordingly, do not join them or look at them. They are in no way any role model. The Bible is your role model. Period!

@johnpro2847 11 ай бұрын

@@danboyigomsuk2027Bible and all religious books are just made up nonsense..If there is a super celestial force..NASA knows nothing of this..amne

@dusty3913 11 ай бұрын

@@danboyigomsuk2027 this is quite silly since the Bible is anything but clear. If you choose to read only the words that say “love people” and ignore all the other words, then it is YOU who’s made the decision to “love” and not the Bible’s instructions-since you’ve chosen to ignore most of them. How and from where to gather one’s slaves, how to beat them, what to do with disobedient children, etc. The list of non-loving instructions are long. You can’t possibly defend them or explain them away. So, everything you said was total gibberish. Sorry

@paulavery5889 11 ай бұрын

@@danboyigomsuk2027 so forgive those you hate instead of bitching at them on KZbin.

@danboyigomsuk2027 11 ай бұрын

@@dusty3913 And I say categorically that all you have said here is downright gobbledygook and trash! You have made up your dusty mind and closed it to other opposing statements. If you had read and understood what I said earlier, you would not have penned this nonsense. Just as I wouldn't want you to derail in your sojourn in this life, I would equally say that the choice of direction is entirely yours. So, in that case, do not come here to pull other people away from their chosen path of God. It is unconscionable. Just keep your own belief to yourself alone!

@PeytonCarey-tu2ye 9 ай бұрын

I'm happy that your being yourself I was recomended your channel by my sibling so glad he did!!

@pagancub7641 9 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing and I was raised in a very fundamental religion that made me so horribly unhappy and it took me peeling away the layers of BS to realize that religion is just a man made control system to control man and I identify as an agnostic atheist as well so I completely identify with you so please keep your videos coming because I promise there is more of us out there than we realize that are disgusted with religion and your videos offer a breath of fresh air so thank you for sharing 😊

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

take a while to heal. give yourself the permission and don't expect it to stop hurting overnight.

@DAE92487 Жыл бұрын

Great to see you! I came to help support you here and hope to see you thrive!

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Thank you for your support!

@rennakay1711 11 ай бұрын

As an X tian myself of only 5 years...Im just now finding my voice! But NOW I realize why every xtian I've ran into as a christian was soooooo vocal about their disdain for the church. I never understood it while I was living it. It's so blatantly obvious now, smh. Thank you for being so vocal, you have been instrumental in my deconstruction!

@theboombody 11 ай бұрын

The biggest problem the church has is that it has selective enforcement. It doesn't ignore fornication and adultery but it gave up fighting against them, and is instead fighting against something else that it THOUGHT was less popular. Took the road of least resistance hoping to retain its membership. That's a big reason why God is allowing the church to decline. When you ignore God's methods hoping to achieve his ends it just doesn't work. He takes it all away when you think you can do it better than he can. The church of today is learning that the hard way. They're losing members because they thought they knew better than God how to retain them.

@estherstone4860 10 ай бұрын

Don’t confuse the church with God.

@PaleMist 9 ай бұрын

What is an "xtian"?

@rennakay1711 9 ай бұрын

@@estherstone4860 🤣🤣🤣typical response.

@rennakay1711 9 ай бұрын

@@PaleMist ex christian

@mjsup1 10 ай бұрын

Man you said a lot of things that I also experienced, I wasn't as devout, and like you said I'm still bucking off old things that were baked into me.

@floccinaucinihilipilifications 11 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing your story. Not easy being so vulnerable. Many wrongly assume people wake up one morning and say, “I’m an atheist now, so I can now live my best sinful self, without guilt!“ Yeah, no.

@BroneduChannel 11 ай бұрын

Christianity is not a religion but a lifestyle, sacrifice and something like a stigma attached to the early Christians So even those that call themselves christians don't live to the expectations these days, reason why we called christians by birth or circumstances don't go far or last long in the faith.. But because we want to continue in our sinful ways, we tend to dish away the cross and sacrifice to live the way we want. Remember, we can't cheat the judgement of God.... Except a man is born-again (genuine Born again in Christ) he can not see the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God is personal and it's only through Christ that you will understand it better Matthew 6:33 says, seek first the kingdom and his righteousness.... Without these two things you won't understand the rest, for Jesus Christ is the only way, Truth and life.. Meaning, you can only make the kingdom of God through Christ, you can only understand God and his ways through Christ. Seek Jesus Christ today personally, so you can be saved. Thank you.

@floccinaucinihilipilifications 11 ай бұрын

@@BroneduChannel been there, done that, got the t-shirt. I say, keep believing what you believe if it’s working for you. If or when it doesn’t, move on…I personally find that The truest thing said in the New Testament is, “Seek the truth and it will set you free.” Paradoxically, if you continue seeking you will find that much of what you believed to be true is not grounded in reality. This is Very disconcerting, painful for a time but resolves itself as you persevere. In deconstructing you can’t “unsee” what you come to see. And that is a beautiful thing. Oh, one other great truth from the Old Testament, engraved on king Solomon’s ring, “This too shall pass.” It’s true of all things. “Good & bad.” Peace be with you!

@BroneduChannel 11 ай бұрын

@@floccinaucinihilipilifications to help you understand brother, the Truth is Jesus Christ For he is the way, the Truth and Life... The reason why you are battling currently in your heart about Christianity is because you never had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Your relationship with Jesus Christ was born out of others relationships with Christ which were probably diabolical or not genuine. And because you see the life they lived and do not go well with it, you decide in your heart to abscond. I'll advise you today, seek Jesus Christ personally to be saved...

@floccinaucinihilipilifications 11 ай бұрын

@@BroneduChannel I understand that you believe what you are saying. I used to say the same thing… I was presumptuous. As you are being presumptuous not knowing a single thing about my personal experiences, my own Christian journey of 63 years. Even though you will remain a Christian, for your own spiritual growth, I’d point you away from, The blind spot of presumption and the “ sin of certainty. “ It is understandable if you are making these presumptions about me and others, to shield yourself from the doubt. I did the same. I forgive you. 😉 I had them both and will continue to keep that human inclination in check. Imperfectly yours, Mike

@BroneduChannel 11 ай бұрын

@@floccinaucinihilipilifications I understand you, and I can tell for sure you have spent many years as a Christian and must have had your reason to abandon it as a religion, I have spent 27years of my life doing the same, as a worker in the church, paying my tithes and doing all I was instructed till I found Jesus Christ by my self. The reason for Christ coming is to save us from our sins to the multiplication of righteousness in us. Until we understand this we can't follow Him in spirit and in truth, until we understand this we can't identify the goals, or reasons for going to the church or taking upon ourselves the name, Christian, even in time past the name Christian might not be the name it was called then by the early Christians, but did you get the message? (that's what matters) It's not about name or experience or years, it's about the life of Christ in you. Until you encounter Christ personally your years of being a Christian by name, birth and circumstances doesn't count. In spirit and in Truth, I'm only just a few months old in Christ and because of the knowledge of the Holy spirit and fear of God in me, I'm yet to claim the name *Christian*. Humble yourself and Christ today to help you personally.

@tommakowski6862 Жыл бұрын

I wish I had discovered what you're talking about 52 years ago when I accepted Jesus during the Jesus movement. I am now deconstructing, and it's tough. My family and friends are still entrenched in the greatest hoax Humanity has ever seen. Keep going girl, and don't turn back. You are on the road to True Life and true freedom

@kaionabautista4812 Жыл бұрын

It’s not a hoax, it’s the truth.

@WildandFree4 Жыл бұрын

@@kaionabautista4812 No it isn't. You are in a cult. Look up the religious cult definition. Christianity ticks every box.

@kaionabautista4812 Жыл бұрын

@@WildandFree4 What about Christianity leads you to believe it’s a cult?

@CutTiesWithYourCaptor Жыл бұрын

@@kaionabautista4812 I'm not sure what WildandFree response is or was (because I can only see your 2 responses), but I would say that for someone to be led to believe that Christianity is a cult would be simple from the definition of the word "cult". cult /kəlt/ noun: cult; plural noun: cults a system of religious veneration and devotion directed toward a particular figure or object.

@wheat3226 Жыл бұрын

Same here. Age 60 before I realized the truth. The evidence it is NOT true is overwhelming. From archeology to biology to history, it fails. Not to mention its own confused theologies and errors.

@QuestionThingsUseLogic 6 ай бұрын

Thank you Kristi, your videos are really appreciated! Mrs Kerry from Australia 🎉🎉

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 6 ай бұрын

@QuestionThingsUseLogic 6 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 l don't sin. You have been hoodwinked by your bible -propoganda- indoctrination that has convinced *you about so-called sin* . With your -propoganda- indoctrination in mind, *why did god sin* ? *Why did jesus sin* ? We have countless examples of both god and jesus sinning, according to what your -propoganda- bible classifies as 'sin'! Countless. The examples of what they have done and condoned are immoral! By anyone's standards.

@QuestionThingsUseLogic 6 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 AND you've just misquoted the -propoganda- bible!!! Your -propoganda- bible does *not say to "love your neighbour first and love god to the best of your ability"* !! Read Matthew 22:37-39 again! Yeesh, you people don't even know the -propoganda- bible you're defending....

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 5 ай бұрын

@@QuestionThingsUseLogic Matthew 22:37-39 New King James Version 37 Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ 38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ John 14:15 “If you love Me, [a]keep My commandments. Therefore repent and believe the gospel you will never look back

@QuestionThingsUseLogic 5 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 so you just confirmed your contradiction. If you knew your bible better, you'd leave it's teachings. Oh, and l notice you don't address some obvious problems listed in my reply to you. Good luck with this one and only life you get!

@WebbyStudio 6 ай бұрын

i first found u on tiktok, and i'm glad to have found you here on more longform videos. keep up the great work!

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 6 ай бұрын

@WebbyStudio 6 ай бұрын

@@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 in my religion, it is a sin every time you say the word 'sin'. according to my holy scriptures, your mention of 'sin' four times equates to 4 hours of sinful pleasure. my god sprouts 4x tentacles for 'sin' you have mentioned... and will gently escort you to his red velvet, padded closet (with scented candles) to sinfully massage you for your 4 hours of delicious torment. amen. and you're welcome.

@katied_mua582 Жыл бұрын

“I couldn’t choose to believe even if I wanted to” really resonated with me. Growing up in western North Carolina where everyone is a devout Christian, I always felt from a young age that I was “left out” because I didn’t grow up in a church. From when I was young I never believed in god even though I so desperately wanted to so I could have that sense of community but every single time I went to church I felt like a hypocrite because I never felt Jesus and I knew even while in the church that I didn’t believe. I love listening to your content and it helps me feel so much more secure in my beliefs now.

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

I'm so happy you broke free and found your most authentic path. You deserve it ❤

@walleras Жыл бұрын

Come be Noahide

@jellyrollthunder3625 Жыл бұрын

I say the sam thing. I'm incapable of just CHOOSING to believe this or that. True beliefs aren't chosen. True beliefs choose YOU.

@leechteeeeth Жыл бұрын

I just want to say thank you so much Kristi. I felt I could relate to you from the beginning as I also grew up in an extremely religious household. When I was 16 (I'm 17 now) I decided to pursue god and I wanted to know him better, but as I did I would find cracks that couldn't be explained logically. I'm still terrified of hell and the supposed consequences of not following Jesus but you have helped me so much through my religious trauma. I still have to fake being religious in front of my family but I'd rather that than getting kicked out. Thank you so much, you're a blessing 🥺!

@RealityMatters343 Жыл бұрын

I followed the same journey as you and Kristi in my early 20's. Understand this: torture is compatible with neither love nor forgiveness. You know this, in your whole being, this statement stands on its own merit. So a god that would invent eternal torture for failure to believe in it, understand it properly or worship it is a despot. If there was such a god, it would be utterly unworthy of human adoration. You and I would no more worship it than worship someone who abuses animals just because they have the power to torture something into compliance. Hell is a human invention used to control people. Teaching young children that they are destined for Hell just for being born unless they believe a bunch of unverifiable claims is flat out child abuse. They resort to that because they don't have anything else to keep people trapped, the claims simply don't hold up on their own. I'm sorry you were a victim of that. Congratulations on finding your way out, you are very special to be able to break free so young. Trust yourself and don't look back. Your own heart is better than the religion you were raised with. When people allow themselves to recognize this in themselves, more people will get out.

@BellaBella. Жыл бұрын

Jessica Joi Don't listen to her. Satan talks through her. Hell is real and once you close your eyes in earthly death it is over. You have made your decision. God didn't send you there. You did by not believing.

@jaysonb.6669 11 ай бұрын

This is the heavy yoke of religion which places many followers in peril. Focusing on fear, shame & guilt instead of JESUS CHRIST. The Gospel is SIMPLE to understand. Jesus took care of all your sins on the cross with his EVERLASTING bloodshed. Past present and future. The Holy Spirit seals all believers for eternity. You can now rest in God's GRACE instead of trying to keep yourself "right" with works, which is the trap Satan wants us to fall into. Either becoming overly prideful egomaniacs, or perpetually broken & ashamed to the point of walking away. Jesus says "my yoke is light". We strive in discipleship because it pleases our heavenly Father and helps our walk in this world avoid pitfalls, not because we have to maintain a scale or "teeter totter" of Salvation status. I really hope this encourages you to not walk away from your free gift of salvation. If you get the chance you should check out "Pastor Joseph Prince" on youtube and see if that helps you as well. Remember, rest in God's GRACE, not your own resolutions or imperfections. God bless you.

@wweep 9 ай бұрын

thank you so much for sharing your story, makes me emotional. Even though i wasnt born christian, i am in a society which is based on christian values. this video really spoke to me. thank you for being so genuine and honest

@handlenumber707 7 ай бұрын

I don't think she is genuine or honest.

@wweep 7 ай бұрын

@@handlenumber707 why?

@handlenumber707 6 ай бұрын

@@wweep At the very least she's ill-informed, but I sense she knows what's she's saying is wrong.

@wweep 6 ай бұрын

@@handlenumber707 well, could you tell us whats ill informed in her statements? They sound more personal than factual…

@handlenumber707 6 ай бұрын

@@wweep Most people who leave religion behind don't realize they're rejecting false doctrines. This is because they rely on others to read and interpret scripture for them. A proper reading of the bible (real study) would reveal that all of the things found objectionable don't exist in scripture.

@richardwayne6772 6 ай бұрын

Brave honesty. Well spoken "testimony"

@jezebelvibes 6 ай бұрын

Thanks so much for supporting me!

@natasharennich1572 Жыл бұрын

I'm excited I get to be an OG subscriber! ♡

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

😊

@luisaalmontevega2016 Жыл бұрын

You’re gonna be great on KZbin! Congratulations!

@jezebelvibes Жыл бұрын

Thank you friend!

@rafaelcruz5458 10 ай бұрын

Every time I watch your channel my eyes open up more and more

@user-rk3yb6tu7t 3 ай бұрын

I absolutely love this. Thank you so very much for posting this. I just wish I could tell you what I HAD to go through to end up where I am today. The TRUTH shall make you FREE, And it did after many years. Boy,do I UNDERSTAND You ! .Thank you again.

@Inspiron6000LSB Жыл бұрын

Your story is very similar to the one that is shared by many people that have been hurt or deceived by the religious system embedded in the christian church. I've been a christian for 40 years. I've been through several human and quite defective, hurting and confusing behaviours in the church. But I never quit because my focus was not the church. My focus was HIM. I'm very imperfect. Humans are very imperfect. Church is filled with humans, so church is imperfect. So there was a point in my life where God tought me to LISTEN to HIM. He cut my job and send me 400 Km away from home to work in a warehouse where I needed to live during that time. So I said: " ok, I'm here " and I started to pray at 6 AM there every day and suddenly happened: I started to hear God. I said: " Oh, so this is how you speak ! " And He said: " I'm always talking to you but you are so distracted with so many voices and noises ". After that my relationship with God changed dramatically. I got to know Him in a way that I was never aware of despite of my time " in church ". And yes: He is indeed much, much different and much more than that we are tought in the church or how many interpret the Bible. So, bottom line, what we truly need is to develop an intimate relationship, one on one, face to face with God, talking to Him and allow Him to speak to us. It takes time and patiencie but HE SPEAKS and teaches. And definitely He shows us who we are for Him and who we are in Him. He is the only one we need to listen to. God loves you !!

@blessme7853 Жыл бұрын

Is he nice ?

@iamshango3005 Жыл бұрын

I'm very confused and tired and lost too.

@Inspiron6000LSB Жыл бұрын

@@iamshango3005 go deeper in your prayer life. He is good and He cares for you. Blessings !

@TallGlass-fh8qf 11 ай бұрын

Amen!!! He has spoken to me as well! To the point that my porn addiction has caused me to notice sin truly does separate us from God. Everytime I struggle with this, I can feel the shame and guilt. I hate it…

@Inspiron6000LSB 11 ай бұрын

@@TallGlass-fh8qf porn addiction starts as a bad habit but it becomes a demonic stronghold. Maybe you are in a time where you need deliverance. I say this because I was there. Pray for it and go to a mature Christian fellowship that moves in spiritual warfare and deliverance.

@memtesin5918 Жыл бұрын

So many people who grew up in a church family are turning away. I pray he's able to lead you back some day soon. Thank you for sharing your experience.

@gleanerman2195 Жыл бұрын

Once you see the truth we never go back, just laugh at you all for being so gullible.

@andrewprahst2529 11 ай бұрын

@@gleanerman2195 I saw a guy get baptized two weeks ago who was an atheist for 70 years and wrote multi-page essays about why religion is a fallacy, but by the grace of God he came around somehow.

@gleanerman2195 11 ай бұрын

@@andrewprahst2529 Most are brainwashed as a child, this man was brainwashed as a 70 year old fool, his brain is very weak at that age, sad.

@bonniehaney573 4 ай бұрын

1/3 if the women in churches are experiencing emotional and verbal abuse in there Christian marriages. That is me! I am in therapy and it has helped me so much. I am also in the process of deconstructing my faith. Thank you for speaking out.

@keanaskyspeaks 10 ай бұрын

omg this is like my life I grew up a Baptist and I even went to a Baptist school thank you so much for sharing this

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

it might help to read about john calvin himself (who did not actually FOUND "calvinism" but did sort of make it widely a thing). He was no angel, and I do think an abiding self-hatred powered his ability to internally justify the vile things that he and his minions did. here is a way to get started... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Calvin

@esi_enya 11 ай бұрын

So relatable, so much of what you said was similar to what I went through recently, except my journey was not over as a long a period. As for many people the pandemic acted like a little pitri dish for all the questions I had about God and Christianity that were never properly answered that grew and grew. Trying to find the truth led me out of religion.

@theboombody 11 ай бұрын

Well, you have to ask yourself why the truth is important. That's not really a given. Truth isn't important if it doesn't have some kind of inherent meaning. And it's really difficult to say it only has meaning within the fickle mind of man. Man is susceptible to changing the truth too often to give it any kind of real value.

@istvansipos9940 10 ай бұрын

@@theboombody and man is proven to exist. Which pretty much settles every "man vs the g0d" question. IF you are a sane adult, that is.

@tracyavent-costanza346 9 ай бұрын

the petri dish metaphor is pretty apt. a living walk of faith can lead you anywhere and for a lot of people on this thread it already has. all I can say is that it is probably not wise to expect to find "all of the truth" in any one place nor in any single belief system. Personally I am most attracted to the ones that just encourage ASKING and INQUIRING and do not pretend to provide answers. I know and admire some christians who have discovered that, and try to live it. Most of the other older faith traditions have already figured it out. Christianity is just one of the younger ones that has not discovered its own mortality, sort of as a teen human might not.

@26beegee Жыл бұрын

So glad you figured this out and brave enough to make the changes in your life you needed to in order to find emotional and intellectual peace. I was in my 60s before I allowed myself to acknowledge what I had known for several years. Good job and stay strong!

@RJ420NL 9 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing your story. I was also raised S. Baptist. I left the church and Christianity many years ago. I’m at a point now where I’ve moved through the emotional aspect and I’m looking into religion from a sociological and mythological perspective. My current thinking is regardless of what I do not believe; religion is a powerful force both in the modern world and historically, so it’s a topic worth studying. Anyway, I came across your channel because I was researching the differences between Jesus and Paul. I wish you all the best in your journey.

@MrsBridgette2012 8 ай бұрын

I’m impressed by the fact that you left your religion while your parents were still around. I had doubts and questioned our religion since I was a teenager. My mother was very strict. Can you believe I didn’t even dare change my religion till she passed away. Finally I could explore. I could read other books. She always said,”Anything you need to know is in the word of God”. And when I asked questions or made a friend from another religion. She would forbid me to have anything to do with their religion. “Don’t look into other religions, you will be led astray.” I was 45 years old when she passed away and I was free. For many years I searched for a church and religion that made sense. Long story short, I’m 70 years old and am finally admitting that I don’t believe the Bible is the word of God. And religion is man made. My sister is just like my mom and she gives me a hard time. She of course wants to save me from eternal hell fire. You sure are brave and I look forward to hearing more from you.

@thereisnonegoodbutgodjohn363 8 ай бұрын

Most people have heard “Jesus/God loves you”. Does that mean they have a relationship with God and will go to heaven? Depends on the individual. A relationship is 2 sided, you receive love and you give love back. God showed His love by suffering, dying on the cross and rising from the dead for you, now you show Love back by repenting of your sins (lying, stealing, sexual sins, taking the Lord’s Name in vain etc) and believing in Jesus as your Lord and saviour so that Heaven is in your future not hell