Get Off the Floor - Movies with Mikey

Mikey created a short film to share his story and struggles from 2017. Turning the camera on himself, he walks us through a deeply personal analysis of his journey, and examines how life-threatening challenges have shaped him and his work.
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[@BreakingBanter]

This was next level dude. I genuinely believe you're the most essential creator on this platform. Infinite respect for this.

[@zanderzephyrlistens]

Breaking Banter peter coffin, contrapoints, and filmjoy. Id say theyre tied but youre right

[@WillWrite1]

What this guy say

[@NerdSyncProductions]

That Professor X story is amazing 😂😂😂

[@NerdSyncProductions]

Thanks for sharing this video, man.

[@maccatt7274]

"I wanted to get better before I got BETTER" You nailed it. While wrestling with the demons and the sh1t life through at you (with the back of your hand, 15 mins at a time) you gave an outlet to the energy in your life, to get to back to LIFE, looking backwards with a forwards goal..... Sir I salute you

[@kaidela1013]

I found your channel one day after a mention on Cinema wins. You've since become not just my go to, but anyone I can pin into place long enough to force them to see the love, care, and brilliance you put into your work. Thank you for sharing your story. It makes us love you all the more. Thank you for everything you do. We love you Mikey.

[@dudemcfurgusson7179]

kaidela1013 if you're talking about the Thor Ragnarok clip, that's also how i got here.

[@michaeljames8941]

That's how I ended up here, too. And I'm so inspired by Mikey's story. You go man.

[@Mikewilliamswhc]

This. Is. Beautiful. Tragic. Flawed. Powerful. Perfect. Really proud of you Mikey. Thank you.

[@jrjoanes]

Get off the damn floor. Man. That gave me goosebumos

[@TheTintinTim]

I normally do not comment on videos, but I gotta say: This video was absolutly amazing. I guess your whole show was always kind of a favorite of mine, but this video just was on a whole other level. It amazes my how someone is able to tell such a personal story so emotionally, while suddenly being absolutly hilarious. I have to say this episode really touched me and just cemented you as one of the best people of this whole Platform. Thanks for sharing the story, but also for sharing your wonderful way of storytelling. :)

[@Stormridegaming]

hätte nicht gedacht dass ich jemanden asu der Hookedcommunity hier wiederfinde, aber ich stimme dir so zu...

[@bigjclv]

This reminds me of when my late wife lost the ability to walk for 5 years due to a rare nerve/joint deterioration. The things you do to not cope and the things you then blame yourself for, both as sick person and caregiver, are so weird to anyone outside the sickness cyclone your life becomes. But to you, living in it, there seems to be no other way to live. Much love, @mikeyface. Perhaps one day I'll share how Creed and your review of it saved me while my wife was dying and passed away from cancer. Another time, maybe.

[@jwhite3449]

I do not comment on videos, as a general rule. I rarely "thumb up" even things that I like. I am subscribed to exactly four channels. Just watched this for the second time and I have no words (an English major with no words, that's a level we didn't know existed). People put themselves in their art. This is a truth we all know to some extent, but I don't know that I've ever seen a better example of artistic bravery than this video. I have learned much about movie-making in general from your videos. I enjoy your views about writing and character. But this video is when you gained unbridled respect, both as an artist and a person. Its easy to see the artist, its harder to understand the artist behind the art and that is what you do very, very well on your channel. I'm glad you are seeing success and wish you the best. Borderlands was probably more fun and more lucrative. This, my friend, is important art.

[@filmmode3216]

I remember seeing this for first time when you released it. I think I was 20 at the time. The video at the time never stuck with me even though it was good. I never made stuff for the sake of making stuff. I was so scared to create anything. Now I’m 25, gone through a close relative dying, the pandemic, and realized I’ve done nothing except graduate community college. This video now makes me cry now because I relate to it more. I don’t have a disability like yours and you been through a lot more than I have. I still feel this video because I’m in the process of getting off the floor. It’s not easy and will have a lot of bumps. But I think can do it this time. Thank you Mikey!

[@Strawberry92fs]

Damn Dude, You were lower than I've ever been and were still doing more work/art than I do on any given day of the week. Thanks for making this video, I hope things keep going well for you.

[@whazee]

Thank you for sharing Mikey. I can't imagine how scary and difficult it must be to put yourself up on this platform and basically entrust us with your heart and soul. Most importantly you value the importance of looking at things from the positive perspective. How you look at film, writing and characterisation has helped me understand my own characters and their motivations better in my writing. You do a lot. And what you do means a lot to me. ...plus I really love Deep Dive cos it reminds me of my friends at university. I get to relive those memories with you guys every now and then. 😊 Much love brother.

[@Site_42]

Damn son. Damn.

[@Palmieres]

You have a place, Mikey. We want you here, giving us these few minutes of joy, of humanity and insight. Most of us can't even pretend to know what you've been through, but it's part of being human to suffer for one reason or another, and so all of us will at least empathize. Empathize and hope for you. I only have a handful of youtube subscriptions from which I genuinly hope every day to get a notification. You are up there. I know it's not much, I'm nobody, but I'm part of the considerably large group of other nobodies that love the fact that we can watch your videos. So keep'em coming.

[@MaxMarriner]

That part about wanting to be famous struck a great many chords with me. Thanks for making this, Mikey.

[@zanderzephyrlistens]

Max Marriner hahahahahaha meeee tooooo

[@zanderzephyrlistens]

Max Marriner "but not like shia laboof,"

[@BreakingBanter]

How could anyone dislike this video? Legit go out and find a heart.

[@FL3TcH_A_SkETcH]

I was wondering the same.. maybe they clicked on it thinking it was a dance video or something.

[@anomimeso7009]

percentage likes vs dislikes looks about right considering the number of real cunts in any human collective.

[@jakeanderson3625]

Statistically, some people will down-vote by accident--no matter how hard it is to do so. Then, you have the people who will DV just to "swim against the stream," and then there are the "get over yourself" assholes who can't handle emotional honesty.

[@Chris-ov9se]

Hater's gonna hate, some hatesparation.

[@Twystedsyxx]

I mean, you have those who clicked on accident, then you have the people who legit cannot deal with such reality. Any good art will speak to what we love. But, great art shifts our perspective and some cannot handle that. Thus, the dislike.

[@Doomsjay1923]

I am ashamed it took me this long to find this video. I just want you to know that your videos became my comfort activity. Anytime things aren't going great I come to your channel and I watch your videos and laugh and cry and experience film in a way only you give. So thank you so much. You are genuinely one of the people I look up to. Never stop making your art. Please.

[@Icewielderguy]

As someone who also had a rough 2017 due to health issues and depression, I can relate to a lot of things in this video. Thanks for sharing ur story man. Excited to see what comes next

[@ChiefVizier]

Woh. The intro subversion. Goosebumps

[@Tim99CA]

When I watch your videos, "I am amazed that my thoughts are so clear and true. That three words went through my mind endlessly. Repeating themselves, like a broken record... You're so cool. You're so cool. You're so cool."

[@markfudge5642]

Lets go there, I bow down to no man, but there have been times when your reviews have made me weep. My incredulity that there was a world beyond what I believed was an all knowing me. So Mikey, to your best of health, you are a true verbal virtuoso, a person worthy enough to be listened to. Forever listening, x.

[@nyxfears]

You're so strong Mikey

[@emrysmccright3753]

Your "I have to concentrate on pronunciation literally all of the time now" voice actually makes me want to listen to you even more because it makes everything you say sound more articulate, intentional, and significant. Which is fitting because you, your story, and your perspective on art and life are all articulate, full of obvious love for the beauty that can be found in art and life, and powerfully important to the discussion of both. Your unique style of communicating, including the way your voice sounds, is one of the things that drew me to this channel in the first place. Then, your insightful and fascinating perspective kept me hooked and has inspired and encouraged me more times than I can count. And your work keeps getting even better. Even the art you produced in the midst of chaos and pain has continued to show that, and this video demonstrates it again. Keep getting off the floor, Mikey. We're in your corner. Edit: grammared wrong the first time

[@TimdeVisser86]

Dude, you were already my hero for the mere quality of your work. I knew you had a stroke, but I never realized how bad it got for you. You always seem so upbeat. I'm struggling to find words here. I want to tell you how impressed I am with your drive, because I've struggled with mental disorders for most of my life, and accepting the fact I have Cerebral Palsy since birth. I don't want to say I know what it's like, because the shit you've been through sounds truly terrifying to me. I'm just genuinely grateful to you for being a rolemodel. I'm not striving to be a KZbinr, but i guess what I'm saying is, I want to be like Mike Newmann when I grow up. You deserve so much better, and I hope to follow your content for a long time. Thank you for opening up about your trauma. I deeply appreciate it.

[@j_6469]

I'm really glad you're doing better Mikey. Your videos have always really inspired me, both as someone who loves film and just as a person. Thank you for everything you've done.

[@wjhull]

On behalf of, like, 170,000 subscribers, and hundreds of thousands of viewers, I've gotta say, thank you for letting us be a part of your 'movie therapy'. Your videos are always the brand of deep and thoughtful that makes people want to get off the floor themselves. We love 'ya, Mikey!

[@JoshForeman]

Amazing story! Thanks for sharing.

[@-MrFozzy-]

So sorry I got to this so late...I just wanted to say that I love your work...you make me love things I never cared about, make me think more than I have before and I truly believe you are the most important voice on KZbin...I wish I had the raw talent and insights you have...I wish I could understand what you have gone through, but all I can say is it’s taken you to a place that you would never have expected to be..but where you have come out to has given us amazing pleasure...and I’m so grateful and can’t wait to see what you do next...

[@劉悅音]

Two months ago I stumbled into here because of the recommendation of CinemaWins. At that time I was infatuated with Edgar Wright while no one around me knew anything about this guy and had just finished watching Hot Fuzz the tenth time earlier that week, so you can imagine how thrilled I was when I found out you had done a video on Hot Fuzz. I fell in love instantly. No need to say I binge watch your channel, it not only opens a door into meeting films that I've never heard of but it also becomes the antidote when I can't find a place to let go of my anger and anxiety. (Do you know your voice is soothing? Well now you know it) I don't know if you will ever read this or not, nevertheless, I'd like to say I'm so glad you made this video and all your previous works. You inspired me in a way I can't truly tell, and it really helped me. Thank you.

[@desjani]

Jesus Christ I didn't expect to have these feels today. Good on you, Mikey. I love you and everything you've done.

[@darkecofreak23]

You are a brave and brilliant person, Mike. You couldn’t have told me this channel was therapy for you before I watched this. I liked your videos before, both emotionally and physically (I clicked the Like button; get your head out of the gutter). Now you have my respect and care. Keep going, man. I will, too.

[@williamsmith169]

As someone who went through a stroke in 2013, and have been gradually coming to terms with what that means going forward, I can relate Mikey. I feel like I'm maybe 50-60% back, even though most people hardly notice (outside of the cane). I'm not getting better, this is just who I am now. I didn't have much before my stroke, and now even less. I survive via SNAP, MedicAID, and the generous donations of family and friends. Hopefully my SSI will go through this time. Fingers crossed. My free physical therapy ends next week (30 free visits per year), but I've thankfully found a good therapist for my Mental Health, so there's that. Am I a better person now? Hell yes. I'm more understanding, I have infinitely more patience, and I generally just treat those around me better. I don't think that you can truly understand how bad bad can be until you stare it right in the face. There's something visceral about it, it changes you. Love you Mikey, keep on keeping on and I'll do the same. For realz.

[@vegetarianzombie82]

I've been in a similar situation, and it's nice to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I just needed to hear it from someone who would understand. Thank you.

[@LexYeen]

Unironically, same. Thanks, Mikey.

[@tonzillaye]

The scene of you in the closet screaming and such man, I just want to come give you a big hug and cry together, Nearly brought me to tears which is incredibly rare on this site. You are amazing.

[@BurnoutsAndBourbon]

🙏🏻WHOAH... (in my best Keanu Reeves impression). That was so insightful and encouraging. I’m going through a horrible divorce, found out one of my children I love dearly isn’t mine, are being weaponized against me with lies to try and alienate them from me, all while losing half of my business I’ve spent a decade trying to build because my state is a no-fault state; and this really puts things into perspective for me. I have so much to be thankful for, my health, mental fortitude, loving family, a prosperous country etc. etc. Thank you for telling your story, it pushes me to GET OFF THE FLOOR myself. 🙏🏻

[@TheCloudhopper]

Welcome off the floor. Enjoy the journey, we'll enjoy tagging along as long as you let us. Thanks for sharing, thanks for being here.

[@misterthegeoff9767]

Dude, thanks for making this film. For all of the millions of us out there struggling with our mental health it makes a huge difference. I'm not in the best place right now. I haven't left the house in 2 weeks and it means a lot to hear you talk about things I'm going through mentally if not physically (though the fact I need a walking stick just to get to the front door hasn't exactly helped me get out of the house). Today's a good day. I showered, I shaved, I'm sitting at a desk not lying on a sofa and all of those things are things I had to tell myself to do. Keep being your best self, you're reminding the rest of us that we can turn it around too.

[@marthawinata]

Thanks for talking about it, it must be so hard to make this 👍 you're super cool bro

[@exploding_puffins]

Thanks for being so damn honest, Mikey. Keep getting off the floor.

[@Cinema_Is_Supreme]

You are a brave man. You make people lives better. Please keep doing what your doing, if it continues to help you.

[@TheGreenhat2000]

Mikey, you've inspired me, both in my films and the rest of my life. Thanks for keeping it real with us man. Remember that sometimes you need help to get off the floor, from friends, family, freaking Patreon supporters if that helps you, whoever it may be. You can't always go it alone. You can pull through man, you're a gem and a believe in you, but please have people to support you. And thank you, so much, for living through it. I will be praying for you and supporting you on Patreon, and if I can help in any other way I'm sure both me and several of your fans will do their best. Because video essays, KZbin, heck the world and my entire life would be a sadder place for the loss of Mikey Neumann. Stay strong.

[@ExhaustedElox]

I'm so glad you kept at it, good, bad or otherwise. I love your work and I love it more knowing how hard it was for you to make. I can't wait to see what's next.

[@lizzyrbits1283]

This is TRANSCENDENT. I was an idiot and when I saw this video thought to myself "I haven't seen 'get off the floor' I'll hold off for now"... This is painful and beautiful and speaks to so many aspects of being a human person in a broken meat suit. Thank you Mikey! For everything!

[@s.g.7572]

I'd like to write a comment to express my admiration, but there are no words to describe the depths of my respect. So instead, here's a smiley face. :)

[@justsemantics2278]

For the sake of appropriately responding to this video and the apex of cumulative context that it represents, I am going to temporarily suspend perspective. That is to say: Mikey Neumann is a person with which I have no relationships. He does not know me, nor I him and yet somehow he has created a thing with which I have found an inexplicable connection. I'm not the only one, I am sure. But this ain't yours. Tell the man yourself. To Mikey: Movies with Mikey is a thing I discovered at a time during which I was meant to discover it. The details of my 2016 and -17 are not necessary to make my point and I won't presume the podium and describe them, but it has not been easy. In Major League Baseball terms, you could call them a massive rebuild. A reassessment of values and return to fundamentals. Something you very clearly understand. Your show, even though I was only as aware of your circumstances as you laid out in the "I'm Still Here" piece, has been a beacon of constancy for a long time now. Something whose pattern of anticipation and fulfillment has been as comforting in its repeated familiarity as a coffee in the morning or a beer after work. It's been woven into the fabric of a life I'm working hard to repair and, to make it as clear as possible, has been integral to my ability to get off the damn floor since the first episode I ever watched. I don't remember what it was, but for the sake of this weird sycophantic tone, lets say I do. And it was Ladyhawke. You're going to get a lot of these "thanks for being you" type responses to this piece, I'm sure. And so you should. So in the spirit of saying something that deserves to be said, be it white noise or not - thank you.

[@Kyrbi0]

Just Semantics thank you.

[@apricitywills897]

I just wanna start out by saying I think I've seen every one of your Movies with Mikey videos three times each, and I can name some I've seen five separate times just showing to separate people alone. I have always described you as my favorite video essayist, and I have shoved your channel at so many professors at my college I've got a bit of a reputation for it now xD And I wanna continue by saying learning one of your role models who really inspires you to love art in such a way your love becomes art itself also has PTSD is something mind blowing. There have been periods up to fifteen hours where I have sat in a locked closet in a locked room and done nothing but shake with fear and cry as quietly as I am able to. And I've always wanted to do art in a proper sense, but I've always somehow thought that while I can make art when traumatized I can't *do* art when traumatized. I suppose that mostly came from not seeing anyone else do it. I'm not going to sit here and declare that I'll become famous now or really get properly published but for a long time I've been waiting for some sort of push to fall back in love with art, perhaps just some reminder that I can, and I think this was it. So really this is a terribly selfish reaction to a very beautifully told and powerful story, but it's also three paragraphs that can hopefully be boiled down to: Thank you. Thank you for the essays, thank you for this film, thank you for inspiring everyone you have. I'm glad you're doing better, and hope on those downs that always come with the ups of recovery you don't feel alone in it. And congratulations on almost 200k! You undoubtedly deserve it.

[@EntertainmentBreeze]

I was literally laying on the floor when this video came up. Thanks Mikey. Met me right where I was at.

[@kassjames5301]

I currently hand this to people who are coping with various disabilities. This is a video that shows a struggle with a light at the end of the tunnel, but also genuinely shows the darkness that we feel. That's a voice with a shared experience.

[@gieron666]

Jesus christ when putting this playlist on autoplay with intent of flushing away my day in the constant state of depression that has been my life for the past couple of years i did not expect to cry this much on one of these videos. This hit me hard and i have to thank you for that. HOW DOES THIS HAVE ONLY 50K VIEWS, HOW DO YOU NOT HAVE A MILLION SUBS THE FUCK IS GOING ON

[@TheMugbearer]

Hugs and good vibes to you Mike.

[@OptikRvB]

Good video , hits deep.

[@pfunk224]

Love you, Mikey. That's all I really needed to say.

[@donnyspeed]

Dear Mikey, Thank you. You are one of the reasons I am alive today. The very first video game I ever pre-ordered was Borderlands 2. I have put around 2,000 hours into the xbox360 version, during the darkest time in my life. It was charming, and funny, and a thrill ride that I absolutely fell in love with. I had been going through a very rough time in my life and that game pulled me through it. Since then, I have gone through a few years of ups and downs, struggling with things that only my doctor and I know about. And, this last year, I have been going through another rough patch. In order to stay busy, I became obsessed with film. I had always loved movies, but this was when I started really to look at them as art and a medium to do something bigger. I was watching another film channel's videos, and suddenly they said to come visit this channel. I thought, why not? The name of the channel is filmjoy, so it'll probably be pretty good. That's when I discovered your show. I watched around 3 videos, and decided that you were basically my favorite KZbinr. I cry watching a lot of your videos. But it wasn't until I watched the Iron Giant video that I actually knew who you are. It is because of these videos I was able to pull myself out of the sadness that had enveloped me. So I guess I owe you my life twice over. I can never pay you back for the things that you have created that give me hope. You will never know how much bl2 and this channel mean to me. I don't usually have the money to support through patreon, but for your channel I will make an exception. Thank you. I'm sorry if this was a bit wordy, I just wanted to emphasize how thankful I am that you keep getting off the floor. Keep getting up, and I'll keep getting up too. Sincerely, Donovan

[@Stormridegaming]

I cant possibly tell how impressed i am of your bravery in this video. I can identify myself with your case on so many levels yet i havent experienced anything near as horrifiing as you have. You are by far the most inspirational person that I know of and I hope you are aware that you leave such deep impressions on so many people.

[@u0432865]

No youtube video has ever made me sob. I was diagnosed in 2008. That was really touching. Thank you for sharing

[@tefoca]

I just found out you made my favorite game of all time, after being a subscriber ever since the first few episodes. You're a great person dude. I live with depression daily and some days you just can't get off the floor, but we fight to most of the days at least, so yay for that I guess.

[@jbekkers1983]

I don't have the time to write an essay of good will... but rest assured your work is loved and appreciated by many. Kudos to you for being so open about this in such a public manner. I am not even slightly annoyed that this video wasn't about a movie... you, your mind and your words are what brings me here. Be yourself and take care of yourself. Best wishes.

[@untetheredlive]

Great Video dude!!! Keep walking. you will make it. Thanks for the art, you might not know how your story might shake someone else's up to get them off the floor. Thanks for that too. God bless you.

[@Dutchtica]

Thank you for sharing, Mikey.

[@amandadadesky5192]

Mikey. Bro. This film of yours speaks to me on a deep level. Everything you described, from the relearning to walk right down to the list-making for how to human, is what I've gone through as a disabled person. Christmas 2016, I hit the dining room floor while feeding my then 3 year old son. My legs had simply stopped working because, unbeknownst to us, my discs in my spine were moving out of place AND degenerating. I'm only 37 (34 at the time) years old, so it was especially sobering to find out I wasn't as healthy as I believed. (I spent 7 weeks unable to wal kn unassisted, so I can relate.) I'm better now, but there is no curing this thing. There is only managing it, and slowing its progression. That means having to change one's definitions of many things. As you said, what is considered success for someone like you is barely considered an accomplishment by others. I consider it a successful day if I can get anything done while keeping myself and my kids alive and not having tabs house burn down. I've been watching your channel for a couple of years now, and I gotta say, I'm proud of you, dude. You never fully have up, and that's amazing. Lesser people would have just withered away and disappeared, but you're still here. And I'm very glad you are. 🧡

[@ciarannihill]

If you dislike this video you're an actual monster. Thank you for bearing your soul to us in this way, Mikey. I'm glad to hear not only that you're on the ascending side of that deep valley you've experienced, but also that you've given us insight into how you got there which can be valuable to those of us viewers experiencing our own valleys, if only as evidence that it can be done. Love you, Mikey.

[@ahorrell]

I was literally thinking yesterday - "I haven't seen a video from Mikey lately. I hope he's okay." Glad to hear you're still alive and toe-kicking, man

[@spamus5243]

You know what? I almost didn't watch this video because I usually only watch the MWM's on movies that I have seen and I thought "Get Off the Floor" was probably some obscure old movie that I'd never heard of. And then when I did decide to check it out, I was not remotely prepared to laugh and cry and feel a whole range of emotions. I am so happy for you. I am so excited for the heights that you are going to achieve. This is hope, right here. My floor looks nothing like this, and I would never pretend that I've sunken into such a dark place any time in my life. But if you can do this, then I can get off my own damn floor. Thank you.

[@cheese_priest]

Absolutely beautiful.

[@elphiascutie3]

I'm going through something similar with my grandfather right now. He's currently in the recovery/ptsd/ I want to be better yesterday stage and it's rough. He went from being an unusually healthy 80 yr old with very few physical problems and the very beginning of dementia to getting a bad infection, spending nearly a month deathly ill and now he can barely walk and his mental faculties have diminished so much it's like he's in his 8th year of Alzheimers rather than his first year of dementia ... and having panic attacks now. Recovery sucks and he'll probably never be the same. Hearing your story really makes me understand him better. Thank you for opening up about your story.

[@revuesdeminuit4071]

As someone who’s been somewhat freshly diagnosed with ptsd, I really appreciate this video. I completely understand the crippling, and paralysing anxiety, and the depression that sinks in. I’ve been “lying on the floor”, as it were, for nearly a year now, and while I go to therapy and I’ve made leagues of progress I wouldn’t have otherwise made, I needed to hear this today. I need to get off of the floor, and get my shit together. I need to stop pretending that I’m better, when I’m actually not at all. While ptsd is a forever thing, I hope that you will one day hardly feel its insidious pull, and are able to make peace with it, which it sounds like you are on track to doing. Thank you for being able to articulate your experiences for all of us, and for producing such wonderful content.

[@headwhere]

Dear Mikey, You are 100% my favorite creator on KZbin, and one of my favorite creators of all time. You work has inspired me to pursue my dreams as a creator. Love this video, keep moving and keep creating.

[@jameshill936]

So I don't usually comment, but my drunk self had a breakthrough for my sober self because of this video. I've been going through a couple of things for the last 3 or so years, battling with depression and trying to understand myself and where I am mentally. This video made me appreciate the people in my life a little more. I may not have exactly hit the floor yet, but that's thanks to a support system of people keeping me above it. So thank you Mikey, thank you for being as honest as you are in this, its inspiring and I hope you keep doing what you're doing, for the people like me who were lost before it.

[@dlvnmedia]

Seriously I am crying, I knew nothing about this side of your life. The moment that really hit me was you talking about using the reviews to talk yourself up off the floor. I use a lot of these videos you do for the same reason. I had a serious suicide attempt a few years ago, and I have a lot of bad days even now. Those same videos have kept me alive a lot of days. So thank you Mikey, from the very bottom of my heart.

[@fusion1233358389]

You're a beautiful person, I am far too familiar with PTSD. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 8 years ago with psychotic features. This means that at least once a year I end up in the hospital because I cannot control my brains mania. It takes me months to recover, and I'm proud that you're still kicking it. You give the best movie reviews, soon enough the whole world will know.

[@CoRDSau]

everytime i have had an MRI i have fallen asleep, i find the sound relaxing, i guess im somwhat broken. I'm Glad you survived and I appreciate the JOY you bring to the world

[@prometheus3396]

Have not seen anyone else who is this tangible and human on any platform. I will never stop watching your stuff. Thank you for helping me get off the floor last year. Will never forget all you’ve done for me. Keep at it Mikey

[@captainravenscar4449]

I was in the hospital getting a stem cell transplant the day you released your "I'm Still Here" video, your videos kept me sane during my hospital stay. You inspire me to get off the floor every day, and for that I want to say Thank You. Please keep up the amazing work, and stay strong.

[@ThiagoCRocha-fh6lg]

Thank you for being here with us. Thank you or sharing a part of you with us. Thank you

[@om.globes]

Thank you for turning your experiences with suffering into art and sharing them with all of us. I can't enumerate how many tiny details you've sprinkled into your videos that have helped me see my own struggles in a new light. I've been trying to scrape myself off of the floor for over half a decade, repeatedly ending up back where I started, or worse. Usually worse, like somebody turned the gravity up each time I fell back on my face so the ground hit harder each time. I discovered your videos while in one of my immobilized phases only a few days ago and, I shit you not, they're one of the only things I've ever watched that gave me hope in the midst of that soul-crushing stuckness. This video definitely brings context as to why your perspective would bring me hope and brings even more while doing so. Thank you for the call to action. Thank you for candidly sharing your own path and know that it has helped light the way for me during a dark time.

[@vidroiualin2060]

Stay strong brother :)

[@marierussell1070]

As someone with PTSD from a situation that doesn't generally get thought of when referencing PTSD (ironically enough, I am a veteran, but it is from elsewhere), this hit like an absolute ton of bricks. You're brilliant and courageous (although yes, it can feel condescending to be called "courageous" for just...living your life, I know how hard it is to get up off the floor), and I hope that life gets even better for you.

[@CorSecProps]

This hit me in ways I could never express. My health issues are a struggle at times but you moved mountains and continued to knock it out of the park over and over. I came into your channel recently with the Thor episode and watched EVERY SINGLE EPISODE. Some while sick myself so I watched them twice after passing out during a few. I distinctly remember passing up your channel several times in my feed as just another movie channel that will nitpick and put down movies.... Well I was wrong... WAY wrong. I finished that journey several days ago. Then you post this... I recently burnt myself out so bad that one financial hiccup crippled me among unprecedented success in another venture. I was on that floor. Finally getting up myself and this video hit me hard. It will now forever be a go to for anytime I'm struggling. Some of the greatest creators I know are broken in some way. Yet they continue to move forward and share their gift with the world and we are blessed for it. I hope you never stop making videos and I for one will never stop watching them.

[@captainevdo]

Really beautiful video man. Honesty, especially at this level, is never easy and we, who watch and love your videos, are grateful for you. Glad you're off the floor.

[@kennethcooper8807]

This was art. This was beautiful honest art. KZbin just changed forever. You've changed it. Simply amazing.

[@thad7288]

I got nothin' but love for you, Mikey. I don't know you IRL, but I'm proud of you. This hits so close to home, but I didn't realize how close until I just started crying at "I wanted to already be better before I got better." I wasn't even sad, I just started crying? I think I needed to hear somebody put that feeling into words. Thank you, Mikey.

[@ladydars]

Mikey... holy shit. Thank you for being vulnerable with your audience. I feel like you've said important things here, and I love you for it. Seriously.

[@collinsmith7078]

Thanks for sharing your story Mikey.

[@iniksbane]

There are dozens of lessons I've learned through my own journeys with depression, mine and others. But the most important lesson I've learned is that everyone's journey is different. I'm glad that you found something that works to keep you off the floor. I'm sure that it doesn't really matter, but these shows have inspired me to write again. Even if it's just for me and no one else sees it. So thank you for that.

[@southernbelle875]

i really appreciate how vulnerable you've chosen to be with this video, mikey. i hope that things continue to get better for you.

[@LycoLoco]

I laughed, I cried, I empathized like hell. It now makes sense why your pieces sound so genuine, because they are and they're from the heart of a very real space. Don't give up on this, you're too good at it and it's clearly good for you. Thanks for being honest with yourself and making this video and SO many more!

[@youreallinsane]

Love you, Mike.

[@thegustbag]

I found your channel just a couple of weeks before you released the "I'm Still Here" video. That caught me completely by surprise, but it also spoke to me on a deep level. I think that's the moment I decided to stay here. "Stay subscribed, stay active and keep watching. Because this guy deserves it". You did back then and you still do now, Mikey. You make art in this channel. But more than that, you interpret art in a positive and touching manner. You imbue art with meaning. And I think that's a hell of a thing. I'm glad you're off the floor when you are, and I can only hope to be, as a member of your audience, a speck of motivation to get back off of it when you need to give it some more hugs.

[@helenl3193]

I had a back injury in 2012 and your experience really resonated with me. I'm fortunate to not have had PTSD, but I have suffered anxiety and depression since, and been unable to work due to the combination of physical and mental health issues. I can't imagine being able to put that all out there in a video like this, you're incredibly brave and generous to share your experience and the insights you've gained. I hope things have & will continue to improve for you :)

[@HonageMaximus]

Mikey, please know that you are incredibly valued and that the work you do is anything but disposable. Thank you for fighting so hard.

[@steelstringd2018]

Mikey that was amazing. Thank you for everything. You're wonderful.

[@ShootingStarNeo]

You, sir, are a genuine inspiration. I've never had a KZbin video about movies move me to tears before and you, Mikey, have like, half a dozen. Your sincerity and the pure emotion in your work - the sheer joy, the wistfulness, the righteous anger, the sorrow - is a light in the darkness. And to leave yourself stripped bare like that when you put yourself up on a global platform is an act of incredible courage. You're indispensable, Mikey.

[@LanternSlade]

I genuinely wept at watching this. You're a dangnabbin' hero to me, man.

[@NovelSimplicity79]

I have probably watched this video 100 times. I have shared it with countless people. I think it’s that amazing and impactful. I never experienced anything to this level but I have watched my entire life come crashing down due to divorce, massive depression, and all that comes with those thing. I still remember slamming into rock bottom. You put to words beautifully and masterfully what that is like. Much love for that Sir. You are amazing and beyond your other successes, I count this as your legacy. It takes amazing courage to air this out. I am 100% certain it has saved lives.

[@JefferyBlue]

I suffer from severe rheumatoid arthritis and Crohn's disease. Life is hard. I both empathize and sympathize with you as well as appreciating all the time you put in to these essays. I need them as much as you do.

[@juangee7676]

Mikey, you're the kind of artist who talks about what they like passionately, provides a uniquely personal perspective, and dares to talk about themselves and their own personal beliefs (in a good way!) Hearing you talk about your life and work is really amazing. You're a great role model, especially for all the creators out there. :-)

[@honestiago4738]

Hey man, I just want to say thank you. Not just for this video but for so many of them. When you talk about videos being therapy and pep talks for yourself I hope you appreciate they're more than that. When I watched your Guardians of the Galaxy video for the first time I cried because someone else *got* it. I was abused as a kid and it left me imperfect forever. I recognised your idea of a person made mostly of mistakes because that's who I was through most of my twenties as I utterly failed to process my trauma. Like your critique of Quill I needed my friends to pick me up because the uncaring world had broken me. Listening to your essay made me cry because it affirmed what I'd been through and even years into my recovery and progress it helped me to know others got it and could make such beauty. In processing your trauma, you helped me and I know I'm not the only one. Don't lose sight of that. Similarly I recognise a lot in this video. A few years ago I was in a serious accident which nearly cost me my left arm. It took me a couple of years of hard physical therapy to get movement back and to this day I have to work to keep that movement. It'll be that way until the day I die. Still, that accident made me stronger. The accident and the lessons the recovery taught me helped my recovery from my childhood trauma. It helped me get off the floor. What makes me appreciate you is you can take something and draw out a universal lesson. You find the humanity and 99% of the time you make it beautiful. You've taken the rubbish hand the universe has dealt you and used to it to add to the sum total of happiness in the world. That's really something and I'm grateful for it. Thanks man.

[@squidfeathers9704]

Made me cry, and think of my mom. She's in a similar spot, but her MS is relapsing remitting. And it's scary, and your videos have meant the world to me. They've helped a lot, especially with the impending knowledge and general sense of doom that comes from knowing that at some point I'm gonna need to schedule a lumbar puncture for myself. Sometimes you have to get off the damn floor. Thank you.

[@Ditocoaf]

Thank you. The more we talk about anxiety and depression, the better. It's not a solution, but it's good for people who experience it to know that they aren't alone. That it's way, way more common than you'd think. That someone who SEEMS confident and together can still be trapped in that cycle. Your health problems are a huge thing beyond that, of course, much rarer and more concrete. But telling the story about how you struggled, while we all might have thought we saw you getting "on your feet" much more quickly, is something we all can learn from.

[@Bub1029]

You, sir, truly are one of a kind. You mentioned not wanting to be disposable, and you are most definitely not that. Not a single person on KZbin is the same as you. I hold you just as high as creators like Lindsay Ellis. Movies with Mikey has been helping me come back from a spiral for some time now. Something about the way you see the world has helped me get off the floor in my own way. thank you for that.

[@macfilms9904]

Wow, a number of your reviews/video essays/'content' have brought me to tears ("RIP Heath" ouuuuuch) - but finding and watching this part of your back catalog reaaaaally hit hard. I had a very bad climbing accident 10 years ago wherein I nearly died (helicopter rides aren't always fun) - and the truth is, I did that, to me - and it took away the stuff that mattered the most to me (travel and adventure sports) - still working on what that leaves...somewhere after that, and in the midst of the now 17 surgeries, I had a TIA (temporary stroke) - and I could feel my mind going & it was the scariest thing i've ever experienced - way worse than the startlingly many times I nearly died- and whenever I feel sorry for myself that whole 'you did this to you' thing really hits hard. Hope you're doing ok Mike, none of this life stuff is easy.