Going into University as a *WOMAN* for ONE MONTH (Gender Fluid Expression)

[@fawnalove7569]

Just now catching up on your recent journey as last time I saw your videos you were presenting as a trans man, I'm transmasculine nonbinary and have forced myself to an extent into 'being male' for other people's comfort, I am just now trying to figure out more about my identity as I have gotten further into my medical transition, thankyou so much for sharing 💖💖 you are stunning inside and out and your style 🔥glad you are able to discover your expression more

[@MxMorphling]

No problem at all, thank you for sharing too and best of luck with your journey ✨✨

[@Androgynary]

Same, shifted more traditionally masculine only bc I felt I needed to fulfill other people’s expectations!

[@Androgynary]

Can’t tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your journey with us. I’m trans non-binary (currently on T/had top surgery). I’ve never identified as a trans man but early in my transition I definitely felt compelled to present in that way, even though I could never completely ditch my feminine side. I’d love to be able to do what you’re doing here, but I’m going to trade school with a bunch of men lol so I wouldn’t feel safe. But maybe when I’m further along in my career I can express myself in a more fluid manner…at least I still do in my personal life outside of work/school.

[@MxMorphling]

No problem at all I'm happy to share! Best of luck with your journey and hopefully you find yourself in a safer space to express yourself soon✨

[@Meeko4eve39]

It's great seeing you embrace this journey and coming into your own more and more. Your feminine/woman looks also look great as do your more neutral or masc/man looks. I'm very happy for you that you feel so liberated and comfortable with your expression. And good luck also with everything related to your degree. You are very right that handling university while having other (personally important) things on your mind or needing to work a part-time job alongside your uni responsibilities is a lot. Getting a uni degree is basically a full-time job of its own already. Especially if you are actually putting in the effort instead of just half-assing it (more or less). So you are absolutely right: Well done you & everybody else who does it! I'm excited to see how your journey continues :D

[@everything5066]

You're living your best authentic life like the haters don't even exist and I'm here for it.

[@yourpalfred]

So glad to see you finding liberation and expansiveness this way and feeling good about it! Also the outfit with the high waisted plaid trousers is SO CUTE! 🤩 Ed: omg I just got to the look with the lilac cardigan you're killing me

[@MxMorphling]

Thanks! And yeah that look was very extra but I loved it🤣🤣

[@page9818]

I just got top surgery & feel just like u do. Recovery is kicking my ass & I haven't felt much euphoria or excitement thru the sickness/pain but this lifted my spirit 💖

[@bread2246]

I want you to know you are loved . And that now as you are claiming the "queer woman " identity that's fine too !!! It's ok . whether its a matter of detransitioning or being non-binary or realizing your a gnc trans man . Either way you are loved and there will be many of us who stand by you and love who you are!!!

[@Nathandawg187]

I just wanted to let you know how much I admire your bravery. I’ve been watching your videos since you would do “laddie reacts” and you’ve inspired me a lot during my own transition. This video helped me realize that being super masc (which I wasn’t anyway) was important to me because I didn’t want other people to doubt my decision to transition. Now, being authentic is the most important thing when I feel I am not fitting the mold others created for me. THANK YOU 💕

[@MxMorphling]

Yess authenticity is where it's at! No problem at all I wish you the best ✨

[@theblanketfortcohort7332]

Honestly thank you for existing, thank you for sharing your experience so eloquently for those of us still trying to let go of being "one or the other"

[@Ao456kl]

Would be interested to hear about your studies and where you see your future career prospects. You seem in a really good space. Go well.

[@MxMorphling]

I'm soon to be making a science channel which will launch in summer where I'll show all the kinda stuff I do!

[@Tiggy]

I am 59 and also gender fluid but I fluctuate more around the “middle” between Demi boi and Demi girl. AFAB as well, but I never transitioned enough that my voice would have gotten low … And have not gotten top surgery…I admire you a lot and btw you are gorgeous as a femme and handsome as a male 😘

[@crystallcatt]

If it's okay to ask, do you ever feel like you're regretting top surgery because of your genderfluidity? I have mine coming up, and I'm really happy and looking forward to it. Most times I feel dysphoric about them, but I definitely also have femme days where I'm okay with them being there and would maybe? miss them eventually. That's what's bothering me the most about my gender currently.

[@MxMorphling]

Not at all ✌️ I actually love my chest how it is now and to have a blank canvas to add whatever size I want ontop of I'm feeling femme identities is perfect for me ✨ but it's ofcourse all relative so maybe have a think about it yourself x

[@maxearly4338]

Wow I'm so glad you are doing this for yourself and sharing it. I'm going through my own gender fluid exploration and this is so resonant. Thankyou!

[@Kamilp03]

I hardly express my fem side at my high school bc ppl perceive me as a woman , I used to use all pronouns but I got uncomfortable bc ppl perceived me as a certain gender bc of my pronouns and expression

[@MxMorphling]

Yeah it's so annoying when people lean towards using just one set of pronouns but hopefully with time people will actually get more educated on how to ask about people's preferred pronouns and use them even if it's more than one ✨

[@carterkentboi]

Lilac is also my favorite color to wear. Until you said it I didn't know the color name lol jeez this is hard. Thank you for your posts

[@spoons2075]

You’re awesome! Love all the looks and all of them are totally you! I don’t want to go all Mr. Rogers on you ( is this just an american thing?) but you are always the same person inside no matter your expression and that’s what matters. Would you consider a fem look with no boobage and showing your shoulders? I thought it was awesome when you took off the lilac sweater for a sec😎 anyway, always here to support you and wish you would fly here just to do my make up😂😘

[@mikk5540]

I’m looooving all the purple outfits!! ♡

[@MxMorphling]

I'm basically obsessed with purple 🤣💜

[@mikk5540]

@@MxMorphling 💜💜💜💜

[@east_coastt]

Hi Tobi, thanks for sharing this and I’m glad you’re feeling more comfortable in yourself. I’m ftm, but have not medically transitioned as I’m scared of ‘reconnecting’ with my femininity at some point and regretting making those changes. How has this been for you? If you knew what you know about yourself now, would you still have medically transitioned? I also wondered how your family has reacted to your gender fluidity? From what I remember, there were some reservations from your family with regards to your ftm transition and so I wondered how that had been for you now. Have they doubted your trans identity now that you are presenting in the way that you are? Sorry if this is all too personal, and I hope you’re keeping well.

[@MxMorphling]

Yes I would have still transitioned medically I think, my old high voice and soft features would make me more uncomfortable when I'm feeling masc than anything else and I'm so glad for how I've changed on testosterone. I've found a good point where I can be both! I am going to make a video with my family soon discussing their thoughts on it ✌️

[@JBayol-vr2lq]

This is so precious ! Thank you a thousand times for sharing

[@jackthesour]

i'm so proud of you and how far you've come these past couple of years

[@nearlyace]

One thing I am a little confused about... You physically and medically transitioned, and as far as I understand (as I've been subbed to you for a number of years) you were content in the body and presentation you are in. But in this video, you talked about feeling dysphoric presenting in a masculine way, and you felt happy when you were presenting as a cis woman would. Like even giving yourself the appearance of having breasts, despite having had top surgery. I'm curious about how you go working your identity out, when there were many opportunities during your transition to figure out what you were and were not comfortable with, e.g. presenting in a masculine way or feminine way.

[@MxMorphling]

You gotta remember that every little thing that I think doesn't always end up on the channel. I can't explain the intricacies of gender and identity and I'm not gonna try 🤣

[@nearlyace]

@@MxMorphling yes... of course not every thought ends up online. But my point is, you made many videos documenting your feelings around transition. So my question pertains to wondering how you figured out your identity now. I'm not asking you to explain the intricacies of your identity... I'm wondering if there were points like 2 years ago for example when you felt the way you do now. Like I remember you insisting you were a trans man and absolutely 100% not non-binary. I'm a little confused about your response to me... I think input around this question could be really helpful to those of us who may question ourselves even after feeling confident that we are binary, especially after years of transitioning.

[@cuppachar201]

Hi. I have a question, so you're on estrogen now? How long do you plan on taking that? Won't you body naturally produce that? Hope this isn't too personal a question.

[@MxMorphling]

Oh I just meant that I'm "on estrogen" as in that my body is (should be) producing it again

[@caseycronan9217]

Cheering you on!!

[@Novanomadmac]

Hey! I am happy with my changes right now from T and have been thinking about going off for awhile but I’m so nervous that i will change mentally. Have you noticed any mental changes after going off of T? Thanks!

[@ayaneagano6059]

I’m wondering on what your pronouns are, are they they/them, or still he/him? Or do you use different pronouns depending on your look? I want to be sure to get this to get this right. I’ve been following you for years (since before your voice changed!), and you seriously ROCK any look you choose! I wish you love! 💖💞

[@eneedham789]

He mentions that about halfway through the video

[@MxMorphling]

Thankss💜 and yeah I do mention it in the video as I kinda go by all of them but sometimes I prefer one at different times ✨

[@pinkforguys]

thank you for being yourself and sharing!

[@jindra4965]

Could someone tell me the name of song you've played at the piano at 1:14 please? I know I've listened it somewhere but don't remember the nameee :'(((

[@MxMorphling]

I actually wrote it for my cat🤣

[@carterkentboi]

Do you or did you get headaches and joint aches the further you got from your last shot of testosterone? I'm daily wondering if this is what's causing my own pains since I've been off of it for some time now and I can tell my body is sort of "out of it" (T) now if that makes sense.

[@MxMorphling]

I generally am quite an achey person as I workout and have all sorts of aches after my workouts so I haven't really noticed 🤣

[@thunder69dabarber66]

I’m a natural ftm I’m looking forward to starting low dose testosterone at some point

[@carterkentboi]

Also I am proud of you.

[@mysticalsoul1575]

Are you at Leicester uni

[@KP-bw9my]

Your so beautiful and amazing.

[@MxMorphling]

Thankyouuu 💜

[@rogertidy]

I like it

[@rogertidy]

Hi You look very nice..

[@nefelh83]

I don't believe you.

[@MxMorphling]

Huh?

[@eneedham789]

Believe them about what?

[@iAmCompletelyNormal]

If this was about you, you would be doing this in a setting that only affects yourself. When you decide to dawn a costume with heavy makeup & wig, you're doing it to confuse others through obfuscation. FTMTF? is that the journey so far?

[@yourpalfred]

Gender expression is relational. It doesn't exist in a vacuum.

[@casperccino]

they clearly said they were genderfluid in the title, so maybe check your reading comprehension ❤️

[@MxMorphling]

"affects yourself" 🤣 those poor poor people who are so harshly effected by seeing me in a femme look, we should start a fundraiser for those who've accidentally found me attractive and got confused 😖 woe is them

[@zSwagsterz]

Genderfluid people aren't confusing. You just choose to be confused. Confusion isn't an excuse to judge someone.

[@jackkay5963]

Exactly I agree, she is making a fool of REAL trans people.

[@hankleigh9356]

You are so confused about who you are. You should seek some help.

[@MxMorphling]

I did actually discuss all this with my therapist and she was the one that suggested this. Why do you watch me and comment just to call me confused what's the point?🤣

[@everything5066]

You left so many comments on here it seems like you're the one crying for help.