Hannah Dains - "Don't Kill Yourself Today" | All Def Poetry x Da Poetry Lounge | All Def Poetry

[@cf1586]

no one will care, but this poem saved my life. thanks.

[@gracewilliams5574]

buttsquabble I care and Im happy you are here

[@samilaird6749]

I see you posted this comment 3 months ago but I care. Like the other person who replied to you , I’m happy you are here. And I am so proud of you.

[@giannavona]

buttsquabble im proud of you

[@astraxlys]

buttsquabble stay strong xoxo

[@alicemonteiro5567]

I care

[@zoeo1920]

i heard a story once of a woman who didn't kill herself because she smuggled a cat into her no-pets-allowed apartment. no one would know about the cat, because it was also outside a large amount of the time. the cat would run away and likely starve to death. she didn't kill herself because no one would feed her cat. she's alive because she didn't want her cat to die with her. sometimes small things mean survival.

[@anonymouscandle1223]

I know how it feels to stay alive for your animals, or for reasons others wouldnt understand. I'm currently living to see the music video one of my favourite musicians is currently working on and to watch my favourite mangas anime adaptation in January. I'm alive to be able to cuddle with my cats again and to be around to get the cat i'm currently saving up for. Small things often make up a bigger picture. I havent wanted to be alive now for over a decade, but i keep finding reasons to not kill myself.

[@heidic3111]

I adopted a rescue dog and she is the sweetest but has has too many homes already. That is my main reason

[@gabym9913]

i live for my cat too! (and bc i could never do that to my family and best friend) i love her so much and she loves me so i could never leave her alone, so i cant kill myself...for her

[@Hecateofcrossroads]

Anonymous Candle how are you

[@Hecateofcrossroads]

Stay steong

[@oliverpruitt5457]

"dont kill yourseld because i will keep coming up with reasons not to and i need you to hear ALL of them." 💚

[@memberberrie7225]

The best reason I've ever heard...

[@Northstar54]

Is that supposed to mean something to me? I couldn't care less about this life.

[@kyleewilson1084]

I started sobbing, this whole poem is amazing.

[@ogmeme9007]

name one

[@scarlettcooper1654]

"It is a bad day Not a bad life" I love this so much

[@ronifinn9050]

But what if its not just a day? What if its been like this for 7 years and by the looks of things its only getting worse? What if you have no family who loves you and you have no where to go next year and you are scared out of your mind? Im sorry, little late in this reply. But i just want to know, what do you do then?

[@imenetoumi7377]

Roni finn i wish i knew

[@kaylathatcher1350]

@@ronifinn9050 live for you!!! ❤ You are already changing the world in amazing ways and helping people everyday. Live for them. But also, LIVE FOR YOU. Live because you've got dreams and live because you deserve an incredible life and one day you are going to get there. One step at a time. It's okay to be scared. One day you will feel safe and secure and think back and be glad you kept on going.

[@TheFracturedfuture]

Nah its a bad life.

[@Sophie-293]

I find it hard to believe that’s true sometimes. Anyway, when she says that it makes me think of Jazz Thornton because she says that a lot too

[@ianzernell1948]

...not to be dramatic, but I was actually planning on killing myself tonight. I have a suicide note already written out, I have the key to my dad's gun closet. If it wasn't for this video, I would only have a few more hours left to live. Not to sound cliche, but this video just saved my life. If I hadn't happened to stumble upon it while watching a video a friend had sent me...fuck. I'm so fucking full of emotion. I don't think that this girl realizes how fucking great this poem is. Do you think she knows that she just saved someone's life?

[@bslight2574]

1 year later and this girl saved another.

[@iortegaa]

Ian Zernell It’s been 2 years , i hope you’re doing well💗🦋✨.

[@kywillis1345]

Isis Ortega I’m so happy you’re still with us. ❤️

[@laniafernatt1101]

it’s been two years but i hope you found true happiness within yourself and live your best life 🥰 im here for u if u ever need it bby i need a friend sometimes too ❤️ with all the love in my heart i hope you’re doing well

[@katherinerohs9872]

IT IS NOT BEING DRAMATIC!! Hope your doing well

[@ericburke25]

i saw that cryptic viral tik tok and did some searching so now i’m here

[@Kayla2fly462]

SAME

[@ericburke25]

Kayla Jolivett i had a feeling people would be led here from that😂

[@finna5640]

Samee!!

[@moonchild-vp7qr]

Eric B some ppl didn’t get their lives saved by this poem wow i didn’t-

[@zart3374]

Same

[@shanequasmith5288]

I wish I read this poem before I tried to kill myself a few years ago. I'm in tears. Thank you for this poem

[@gwenrees7594]

Shanequa Smith Are you doing any better? I'm sorry to hear that.

[@shadowviolets]

You made it so far, and I love you for that. 💕☺

[@transgirltalks1140]

did you try and fail or did you just give up on it? i tried and failed at least once. turns out an entire bottle of OTC sleeping pills is not enough to kill you. and it aint enough to make a fat ass like me even drowsy.

[@breelynn8810]

I did, too...♥

[@quynhhoa3919]

Stay strong. I love you

[@mundabi]

I finally had my first " i cant wait for tomorrow" she was right. just keep hanging in there be grateful for the little things

[@pradhanya_19]

really? what was it?

[@tylermay218]

I love the little thank you at the end

[@tiranix6528]

Tyler May me too.😂

[@harrisonwilson8657]

It's cute lol.

[@ej6591]

"Even when the dark comes crashing through, when you need a friend to carry you, and when you're broken on the ground, you will be found." -Dear Evan Hansen It'll all be okay I promise, just hold on there and be strong. One day it'll all be okay.

[@madelynmcguire9268]

Eve's Minor Chords 💙

[@cindypetersen8323]

But what if I can't take one more day?😔

[@maria-kr1cz]

Eva McKnight Imagine singing Anybody Have A Map in a sad tone.. Anybody have a map, anybody happen to know how the hell to do this.??

[@skylarpark9188]

💙

[@sarahburger8022]

Lmao first line of that I flipped "OH MY LORD IT'S YOU WILL BE FOUND FROM DEAR EVAN HANSEN AHHHHHHH" im done fangirling kthx bye

[@datcat0000]

This is a wonderful poem. I just don't understand why the people laughed when she spoke the first line. It seemed really insensitive considering the subject

[@RukiaSailormoon]

Dat Swan Sometimes people laugh in uncomfortable situations to deal with the anxiety

[@basketgirl00]

Usually the artists say something about their poems like a quick introduction before presenting it, I guess thats what their are laughing about.

[@manyfrogs]

I laugh when I relate to something

[@morgancole-shaw1351]

Littlekelt95 they started laughing before she said anything about Netflix tho

[@kiaraeast1869]

people laugh when they're uncomfortable.

[@TheLuellaNetwork]

I love her little "thank you" at the end...kinda threw me off going from so serious to adorable and bubbly. She did a good job i love it.

[@buttercupghost]

This same reasoning is what kept me alive for a year or so, when I was actively suicidal. I would take scissors and hold them over my throats before sighing, thinking, there's still that undertale fan fiction I haven't finished. I'll do it when I finish it. And then there was another fanfic then another and suddenly it's 2017 and im still alive. Not happy, per say, I'm only happy when I'm in a fake world- I still feel the need to hide away in fiction instead of facing the truth, but, well, I'll work with it. Im still alive, after all.

[@itsmemanar2344]

Buttercup Ghost Im proud of you

[@vivianviney7141]

Buttercup Ghost stay strong

[@w11nd0w]

Stay strong I really really hope your still here

[@haleyh4481]

I'm really proud of you and i hope youre still here to read this.

[@quynhhoa3919]

Are you still here? I love you

[@rebeccaariola455]

absolutely beautiful. brought me to tears

[@AllDefPoetry]

+Becca Ariola Thanks for watching!

[@maria-kr1cz]

Rebecca Ariola Me too, I started sobbing with no control

[@shy1509]

​@@maria-kr1cz even five years later.. it still has the same effect as someone whos gone through this the smallest reasons can become your mountin to stand on when you have nothing left

[@robertbarlow4990]

Hannah Dains will never know that she has saved my life four times. But I'm putting this here anyway in case.

[@ssuhr7846]

It's been 4 years since this was posted. So why are you still here? Is it because you finished your shampoo and conditioner at the same time and now you have nothing to live for? Is it because you need reminders on how worth it you are? Is it because you're finally doing better? Why ever you're here, I love you. This author loves you. Someone you haven't met yet loves you. Keep your head up.

[@stellabrawn9045]

this brought me to tears, thank you

[@Dudemon-1]

I'm here because I'm about to be dumped. She waited months for me to get myself together, but the truth is, I'll never be ready. It's not a bad day, but a bad life. Maybe in 50 years, we'll have the science to fix people like me, but I'll be gone by then. And so will she.

[@Dali07L]

It's now 4 years later...

[@abbiechelle2242]

I finally got to "I can't wait for tomorrow" for the first time in five years 😊 Thank you for this poem.

[@oonatapanainen6653]

Because of my depression I've been numb for a long time. I haven't really felt anything strong, other than exhaustion and pain. I have been extremely hopeless and suicidal for a while now. But this poem made me cry, This poem made me smile. This poem made me believe I have a chance at getting better, even tho every atom I consist of is screaming to me that I'm dying and there's no hope for me. So to Hannah Dains and to whoever uploaded this video to KZbin; thank you, thank you, thank you.

[@gracewilliams5574]

Im proud of you if you ever need someone to talk to I am here

[@breadgod5200]

This was commented 2 years ago, but I hope you're okay now, and in a better place. 😋

[@bonjourbear8373]

Low key crying right now Tears of joy though wow this is late, 3 years I hope your okay

[@justapasserby9751]

"Think of all the sunrises you will miss". College had made a night owl out of me, and after six months of waking up in the afternoon at home I now sometimes get up early. Like everyone else, my sleep cycle is terrible but on some mornings I wake up before the sun while it's still a little chilly outside and I am coming to terms with the fact that for years I believed sunsets were more beautiful than sunrises because I had been missing all the beautiful mornings.

[@michelle2367]

SHE SEEMS LIKE SUCH A SWEET PERSON I WANNA BE HER FRIEND

[@toric9348]

I love this but it pisses me off how the audience laughs instead of taking it seriously. And it really speaks to how people react to things about suicide.

[@ryannbrazil]

Sometimes we have to laugh so that we don’t cry. It doesn’t necessarily mean they don’t take it seriously

[@rosehill664]

Tori C They don’t have anything hard in their life unlike us so they don’t understand

[@taniaisabel9207]

@@rosehill664 oof assumptions much?

[@nuggetnugget8291]

And how do you know that? Who are you to assume that you’re the only one that feels this pain?

[@haleyh4481]

i thought it was okay that they laughed. i thought that maybe she even meant to take the heavy topic and make it light hearted while still maintaining its impact. its sort of like she's saying, here are some reasons. they're stupid and small and silly, but they're reasons. and so long as you have one more thing to look forward to, no matter how lame or unimportant it is, hold onto it. because you've heard enough times that your friends and family will be sad if you killed yourself, but fuck them. why is this about them? this is about you. this is about you living to watch that next season of your favorite tv show. this is about you living to drink that new starbucks drink, to hear that new album come out, and pet that puppy. this is about you learning to make pasta and making it to halloween, then christmas, then new years, then doing it all over again. this is about looking for to the insignificant little things that seem to make your days a bit better. that and maybe the audience laughed to relieve stress rather than crying. but i think more so she meant for her poem to get a couple laughs because the reasons were meant to be silly. it doesnt mean they don't take it seriously or don't understand it.

[@bedbathandbelow]

Coming from someone suicidal, this actually makes a difference

[@karenpollyane114]

For over three years, this poem is what has been keeping me alive. Everytime I'm one step from suicide, I think of all the sunrises I'll miss...

[@avu2888]

I had to read the lyrics before my heart could finally feel the emotions of the poem. And the last line, "I don’t need you to see it. I just need you to believe that you can make it until then," is so beautiful. I'm not sure why the people laughed at the first line... but amazing poem.

[@lillibomm8202]

this girl just saved my life. not that it matters

[@Metal.Spider]

I keep coming back to this poem because it no joke keeps saving my life

[@erynbing]

Such a beautiful piece.

[@AllDefPoetry]

+Eryn Bing Thanks for watching!

[@xoxolovepeacexoxo]

This is why I am still here, reasons like this. Every time I got close to that edge, when I wanted to give up. It was always one thought “who will walk my dog?” It was always one thought “but the new season comes out in November” it was always one thought “BTS has a new album in May”. These reasons may be small, may be silly, may not even be permanent. But they got me to today, and today I cannot wait for tomorrow because I have a life. I have friends, I have a job, I’m in school, I am doing things I didn’t think possible when I held that bottle of pills 6 years ago. But I was given hundreds of “just one more” and now I can see a life worth living. Don’t give up. Some problems do last, some traumas will never fade, and you will deal with it. But there is so much hope, there is so much to live for. You just need to fin that reason, no matter how small.

[@wellwhenlifegivesyoulemons8648]

I know this is a very serious comment and I thank you for putting this out there, but STAN BTS!!! 💜💜💜💜

[@FireTubeRoblox]

Ily, stay strong

[@KandyKid1o1]

her little 'thank you' at the end was so cute

[@breannamarieish]

"It's about fining those bedsheets in the darkness" legit the best words ever spoken. Idk you but i love you.

[@kimberlyceulemans6015]

I felt the "I love you" It gave me goosebumps and it felt like you really meant that... damn...

[@beyond-liberalism]

omg me too. do you maybe wanna be friends?

[@skaiphoenix7605]

Girl... I think you just saved my life....

[@mandalindream]

Thank you for saving my life over and over when I’ve fallen

[@eemili96]

no one really knows but i watch this video every night, just to make me laugh a little and give me the strength for tomorrow

[@pidgemaree5046]

I was once told that every reason to stay alive is a good reason, no matter how silly it may seem and this poem reminded me of that

[@megan643100]

“That video saved my life” -my best friend

[@GoddessTTV]

I literally listen to this everyday, it helps me get through ❤️

[@abnerdesouza7550]

You might laugh, but one time I was thinking it should be the time for me, I remembered of all doctor who's​ episodes I would never get to see. I can see exactly like yesterday, years ago and it was the first time I was serious and fine about doing it, but while thinking on how I just remembered of doctor who, and...

[@atlas5971]

This poem may of just saved my life...

[@kaihalbrook9239]

I think the line that got me the most was when she said "Think of all the sunrises you'll miss. Think of all the tears you'll never shed."

[@UsekuyeJarana]

Wow, I love this and I totally needed to hear it

[@alexiswile1659]

No one will see this I’m sure but this poem saved my life

[@Zoe_Gbe]

It saved mine too and it's still saving mine

[@cyanolove7761]

The beautiful, individual, invaluable lives that this has saved... that is my reason I'm fighting for. That is my reason that this life is too good to give up on. If somewhere on earth today somebody watched a youtube video and a decided to keep on living their life then this is not a world I want to leave behind. I love every single one of you. Thank you

[@landryhoward5966]

This poem has saved my life many times.

[@jennihawk]

This is a great piece ^-^

[@AllDefPoetry]

+jennihawk Thanks for watching!

[@thatwaslithe3849]

while everyone was busy making a poem about their depression she's the only person who write why you should live your life.

[@CupcakesAreYummy667]

I suppose I was feeling particularly suicidal tonight. I'm glad I listened to this. I know the feelings will return, but it's good I survived another day. I'll keep pushing through, no matter how long it takes to get where I want to be

[@Katie-si4vu]

It's 2022 and this poem still keeps me going.

[@cynthiamay9985]

What happens when your "temporary" problem isn't so temporary?

[@janelleguild3866]

Maybe there might be another way of looking at your temporary problem

[@sumi9224]

Cynthia May what happens when I say to you that everything is temporary? What happens when I say to you happiness is temporary, sadness is temporary, we are temporary? Nothing is permanent, how can it be when we ourselves are not permanent?

[@zucker8224]

Cynthia May yeah what if the problem is yourself

[@sumi9224]

Dan and phil Are my dads the problem is never yourself but it lies within the way u perceive yourself, stay strong, I don't know u but I know pain so I can truthfully say you're worth it :) x

[@sm9800]

You temporarily think of it

[@sageengebretsen2344]

gosh. I started crying 30 seconds in and didn't stop. I needed this. thank you.

[@bonnieomalia8049]

I hope you're doing better now💜💜

[@TheSunnySimi]

The way she said thank you so sweetly at the end killed me

[@helenadasilva9371]

The timing of me finding this poem couldn't have been better. My thoughts regarding death have gone from "I wished I never existed" to fantasies of jumping from a bridge (which was only a fantasy, and I didn't want it actually wanted it), to thinking I was going to die, to wishing I just dropped dead, to now imagne how easy it would be to take a bunch of pills and go to sleep, and vividly imagine how it feels to holding them and to swallow them. This poem gave me a chuckle and a reminder of to give it one more day.

[@sumankhadka8701]

I like the difference in power of her voice while reciting poem and at last while saying 'Thank You!'..

[@hanri6367]

Love this. Even though it's such a serious topic, she still managed to make it light without sounding insensitive.

[@liamsargeant8624]

“Finding the bed sheets, instead of the noose”. That is brilliant and I felt that to my core. Thank you.

[@brynndanielle7333]

“Think of all the sunrises you’ll miss.”

[@MrJazz24292]

Thanks...wonderful..

[@lowqualitysleep]

I've had this in my antianxiety/motivation playlist for years now and it still keeps me up and motivated to keep going when I hear this.

[@extremelyconfused8184]

Because I definitely wanted to cry over some speech from 4 years ago right now in the middle of the night :)

[@skyicee4801]

im crying

[@dakshitamishra1993]

guys even after that one month two months 5 years 10 years of darkness there is so much happiness, literally so much. You will get there eventually and when your there youll have a story to tell, and so many people will stay to hear that story.

[@v-0131]

I had this poem, more specifically the “lyrical version“ of it on my phone for years. I never knew who the person was who was talking but the words made me cry each time I listen to it. They made me re-think my situation and gave me curage to not give up. All these years I was so thankful for this woman and the words she said because they simply kept me alive and showed me there is something in this world O would miss. I‘ve thought about ending it very often but whenever I found myself in the situation of having these thoughts I wached the video. Now looking back I‘m very thankful I didn‘t give up back then because I would‘ve missed some of the best moments in my life. I know I‘ll never get the chance to thank her personally but I hope that every person who is in a bad situation, mentally or else, finds its way out of it without ending their lifes. To everyone who‘s struggling with bad thoughts, it won‘t bad for ever because life is like the moon, it has its dark and bright side and in times of darkness don‘t give up because the brighter days will come.💛

[@beep3225]

i just love her voice at the end, "thank you"

[@clarabutler5389]

i think this just saved my life thank you

[@thebestpeopleare]

Can we also talk about how her "thank you" at the end was pretty much the cutest thing ever?

[@groundcontrol436385]

Hannah, you are as amazing and talented and beautiful as your mother. Wonderfully insightful and inspiring work.

[@leyyy9322]

I thought I already survived this feeling, but until now i’m still hoping to get out of this situation. Wish me luck

[@illybell8180]

Why were people laughing? That's kinda messed up :/

[@chloer6918]

If we don't laugh, we'll cry.

[@GreenwithEnvyx]

People laugh when they are uncomfortable. It’s a coping mechanism to lighten a mood and it’s often involuntary. People just weren’t expecting this poem to be what it was and that’s okay 😊

[@shaya9745]

true but like i laugh half the time when i wanna cry

[@vioaa2080]

It’s cute how she went through that rlly important speech and at the end she did a smile with a little “thank you”☺️

[@lianafamilia]

This poem was beautiful because my best friend recently committed suicide and I miss her so much, I cry every night missing her

[@shannonpinel7471]

Thank You

[@stellabrawn9045]

this poem has helped me so much that i have probably watched it 300 times. after strugling with anorexia for a year and a Half (starting when i was 12) i got sent to the hospatil with health issues from the eating disorder, they knew about my anorexia and sent me to a nutritionest after my discharge. unfortunatly i never really got the mental help i needed so i got depression, anxiaty and became very sucicidle. now im 14 and started recovery exactly a year ago. i am back in the same hospatil because of a drug overdose witch was my most recent suicide attempt a week ago. its so fucking hard to be alive rn but i thank god i found this even though it came out 5 years ago, i hope someone reads this coment and i hope you are doing ok and things will get better. i am finally getting my mental disorders treated after beeing fighting for 3 years. hope is there keep fighting xx

[@theCushiteGirl]

You getting help to get through. You got this now. I hope you're okay.

[@lostgirl2652]

Goosebumps

[@jessicajackson7887]

She really did Kill it...💯at first I was like what is the chic talking about. But I thought about it, and I love it. 💯💯💯

[@gabi8096]

I saw this 3 years ago, and this very video saved my life. thank you.

[@Iluvmang0s]

Love this

[@AllDefPoetry]

+Alejandra Bermudez Thanks for watching!

[@voltpokeartist5365]

Welp, this is one more thing to make me cry, but not because I am sad, but because I needed to hear this.

[@prettyreckless2700]

she reminds me of maebe from arrested development.. beautiful poem beautiful woman too!

[@daeyonnasmith6183]

The tiny thank you at the end was so adorable and sweet

[@leah2407]

I finished my shampoo and conditioner at the same time today.

[@rosehearts8380]

Leah now you have to do everything else

[@aurisb3800]

Leah that's possible?

[@emmacleland1604]

Leah but Starbucks is launching a new drink so guess u can't

[@samjanthablinks]

Leah Stay alive because, it's summer, and there are pools and beaches waiting for you

[@joneth8185]

Lucida Fonts I think it's that 2 in 1 shampoo and conditioner

[@dinamitev7230]

that quick "thank you" sent me i love this sm

[@jiyoung_3004]

How are you?

[@DearestDruid]

Please. I need a hug. Please someone see this

[@shahdkarout3093]

*hugs* I love you. Stay strong. 💕

[@jiyoung_3004]

How are you now?

[@whelppers]

As someone who understands and has been in that dark spot in more recent years, this made me cry.. Thank you for making this, Hannah Dains.

[@mickey_dbeh6105]

Hannah from '13 Reason Why' needed to hear this 😭😭😭 And of course real people out there that look to suicide as a solution. Your beautiful and wonderful, live.

[@mickey_dbeh6105]

Omg her name is Hannah, I just noticed lol. Wow, what a coincidence

[@lovelyluminance4053]

I hope this is it for someone. The poem that keeps them alive.

[@sj-zs3pd]

well your lucky because it saved mine

[@suzannedang]

Love it, good work

[@ASMinor]

I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my KZbin channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates.

[@stephanieforcier7289]

i'm looking to use this poem in an anthology for an assignment for school. is there anyway I can get a written copy of this piece?

[@theCushiteGirl]

I hope you Googled. I found it there then.

[@kaleidokai11]

hey coming back like 7 years later to tell you this has saved my life more times than i can count. thank you.

[@STACCS99]

Damn should of subscribed earlier there is some good shit on here.

[@AllDefPoetry]

+Your Boss Trueeeee! Thanks for watching!

[@elianadepauw1565]

um this poem is saving me thank you so much!

[@christinelogan3580]

I sent this to my friend who was just sent to that hospital for trying to kill herself and she called me crying saying that it helped her....

[@sydneygonzales839]

Whenever I cant keep going I listen to this and thank god it was written. Thank you it saved my life

[@audrey7810]

How do i tell my family i want to die. My parents little ray of sunshine. Called a Ho by the head of schools kid, depressed. Anxiety. I write about it but no one takes the words to heart.

[@Hassanthehorse]

It's been a year since you wrote this, so I'm wondering how you're feeling today. I hope things have gotten better for you.

[@shashankkpateria1939]

Listen this kzbin.info/www/bejne/m6DJnqB4r8-Cf68

[@alexissander9731]

You say temporary but I’ve been thinking of this for 20 years 💔

[@jiyoung_3004]

How are you now?

[@Stormyseas_]

i was fine until the “i cant wait for tomorrow” but now i’m crying because right now i dread the next day. but one day. just maybe, i won’t.

[@charmer129]

This video has saved my life many times, including tonight.

[@dankpancake9755]

POV: you came from that tik tok

[@goth_kween4834]

Me: you don't know my life Also me: you right

[@avasimone2268]

Um I'm crying ?? I think I'm gonna binge these real quick

[@jlober7896]

The reason I didnt kill myself is because i think to myself: Are you really such a selfish person that you'd allow yourself to not have to deal with the daily struggles and ruin 5 peoples lives in the progress you might make yourself feel happier but you would ruin the lives of your brother and sister your father and mother the people who love and care for you daily the people who clothed you fed you laughed with you and held you while you cried the people who cared when no one else would are you really such a selfish self centred person you'd hurt all these people just for you The awnser is no i wasn't that selfish and I worked through it just like you will too