Nayo Jones - "Healing"

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[@biancaborrego8903]

“loving you almost made me forgot how much i hate myself” i felt that

[@afryeaperpignac2981]

same

[@kekee7109]

Bianca B frrr same that’s what made me break out into tears 💔

[@dont375]

Same

[@poem]

💝💝💝💝

[@basicx_amber2708]

And then they had to leave..

[@AS-kb5wm]

"Love will not heal me. But it will hold my hand if I ever heal myself."

[@backpacker3397]

Then maybe teach me a joke That I can stay alive long enough to laugh at I love you enough to want to love myself too.

[@cybersecurity440]

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[@bourgeisieswagga3690]

love will not heal me, but it will hold my hand if i ever heal myself.

[@QuadirahBaum]

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[@biteof87facebookmom19]

she’s beautiful. she isn’t just physically beauty, she has a beautiful soul

[@dotmarceo]

Indeed.

[@poem]

💝💝💝💝💝

[@moskimctair8498]

Her poetry is also very beautiful

[@MzBleu_Went2Neptune]

Doesn’t she though 🥰

[@TreeHairedGingerAle]

She's right. People keep saying that you have to love yourself first, but that isn't how all the healthy people learn. Everyone who has told me this has had safe homes and loving parents and supportive communities and lasting friendships and eager lovers, all pouring love into them for decades until loving themselves is even easier than breathing; and I know it because I can smell it on their breaths as they tell me that I *can't* be loved until *I* love me and it makes me wonder why. Why do they tell me this when they KNOW that they themselves were loved into being long, long ago, in hundreds of little ways that I can't even imagine? And why do I nod anyway, and smile, and whip back the tears and say, 'Yeah. I know. I'm working on it.' As if affirming trust in a medicine that **BOTH** the doctor and patient know will kill me, but that neither will admit the lethality of aloud.

[@emcel17]

I just realized I have said this to people and I am someone who came from a loving home. My new and more conscious approach is to love people the way they are.

[@TheWinningNadz]

You are a good writer. I hope you are writing a book or something

[@louisejanice9911]

Thank you

[@caitlinbelforti870]

Thank you so much for this comment.

[@seyni736]

I agree with what you said. But let's say you fall in love with someone and that person makes you love yourself, when that person leaves will you then go back to hating yourself or will the love that you have for yourself stay the same ?

[@MrSaqeq1]

"If someone can kiss the scars, administer the pills, absorb the bad days, and wake up smiling next to me, then I can try to breath again" Woah...

[@kms4771]

I know right.

[@tyshonnafreeman3449]

Beyond deep !

[@smokeskitchen461]

Anisa Hussein 😊😊😊

[@shadow12264]

Anisa Hussein I can relate to this

[@remybutler6473]

Anisa Hussein fuck 😩

[@Fatima-pn1ip]

" I love you, enough to want to love myself too... " 😔

[@coleennarimas2659]

Fatima me too i feel the same way everyday.

[@Daisy-zr3qm]

Literally at work with tears in my eyes smh it’s so sad

[@CoffeyB3ans]

I really don’t think that she knew the effect this poem would have on those who have experienced every sentence. Thank you, for putting my feelings into so clear glossy words, that I can truly show to someone “This is how I feel! And I am not alone.” 😊 Thank you.

[@evetortaaa1516]

Yes agree💛

[@audiras2725]

hi, can you tell me what the point shes talking about bcs my english isn't that good

[@latonyasmith7975]

True!!..

[@ayasaoud2920]

I feel the exact same way she does, the exact same way you do.. and maybe that's enough for a moment.

[@simplyhamy4492]

i keep coming back just to listen how accurate she describes the way i feel

[@rolandriches4287]

Low key she inspired me to express myself too on a poem I posted called "expressions of the mind"...let me know what you think

[@evetortaaa1516]

Same girl same why im here rn

[@evetortaaa1516]

@@rolandriches4287 where did you write this ? Would love a read

[@mikaylaholyoke8124]

I've watched this about 50 times now

[@Nelle0721]

same and I still bawl my eyes out every time

[@julyanna5039]

sameee

[@tyshonnafreeman3449]

Mikayla Holyoke Same

[@jazzewazze9870]

Same

[@jazzymay_8398]

Relatable

[@shayla5781]

"I have died many times" yes girl

[@heavenjones2156]

shay it feels good to know its not just me

[@jipcampcc]

shay

[@Liliana0121]

“I love you, enough to want to love myself too” I FELT THAT

[@rayandiriye3612]

"Your love be the drawers that hide all the sharp things." God shes so brave. Im still crying after watching it for the 7th time. Im shook😢😢😭😭😭

[@amoyaree5716]

"everything beautiful has a consequence" so beautiful & brave

[@teairahalbright5731]

Amoya Reé gg n

[@abgard5753]

Amoya Reé And it's beyond true because this caused me to cry... which rectifies that statement

[@t.5021]

Amoya Reé that part alone... reminded me of losing my son. I miss him dearly

[@poeticlovee]

That part 💔❤️🖤

[@raeburt2551]

She read my whole. fucking. life. So damn beautiful.

[@ashleyr.9752]

Ikrrr😭😭

[@No-om1vo]

this will forever be my favorite poem

[@audiras2725]

hi, can you tell me the point of shes talking about bcs my english isn't that good

[@unicornlover2659]

@@audiras2725 hi I know it's a year later but... The first section she's talking about her past with self-loathing and depression, with suicidal tendencies. Near the middle she talks about how self love sometimes can't come first. In the last part she talks about how someone else's love can teach her to love herself. I hope this helped.

[@BrazilianGemini-tc6xv]

SAME

[@madewhole-ev4uy]

When I first watch and heard she hated herself at 7 I was like that's young. now that I'm not depressed I realise how long I was. I remember really hating my self in 5th grade I was either 10-11. I'm 16 now. Wish I could go back in time and just cuddle my old self and tell her that she's loved and she's precious and that everything would turn out great.

[@briannacroney]

when she said "love will not heal me but it will hold my hand if I ever heal myself" & " I love you enough to want to love myself too" I felt that

[@gizzzy6723]

"So when I told you that loving you almost makes life worth it, I was not joking. When I tell you that loving you almost makes me forget how much I hate myself, it is not poetry. Loving you is taking all the love I could never give myself and putting it to good use." I'm shook, this is powerful af! Thanks for sharing. 😭😭😭

[@Shalisha24]

GIZZZY yesss that part got me too!

[@lethuthandomaphalala3357]

I watch this poem literally every 3 months 😭🥺🥺

[@ritchieritchnsd]

This reminds me so much of my beautiful wife. The sadness she's felt for most of her life. She's told me many times that my love has helped her be who she is today. It saddens me that I had to come to her with my heart in my hand, and willingly hand it to her. What I received from her is equally as loving. For whatever force it was that brought us together...thank you.

[@imanotintrested8786]

" I figured if I could cut my legs enough gravity would let me go "😭 I couldn't hold in the tears after that line

[@kaitlynzuniga]

this made me cry so hard. everything down to the very ages i went through. he made me feel like i was worth something after years of feeling inadequate

[@khadijahhudson8038]

kaitlyn zuniga I know the feeling.

[@forevertheaii]

Me too, but when he left it all came flooding back.

[@oro-oluwatoromo-thewordoft7339]

kaitlyn zuniga only God

[@eugh1372]

I used to listen to this poem thinking I would never have this but guys, I finally found that love after 5 years of finding this poem and thinking I would never feel this way, I'm happy

[@certainlysoup508]

I'm happy and proud of you :)

[@kathlynbhebe6535]

this is my go to poem when my anxiety gets too hard to handle........ i feel the weight in every word

[@miriammoss6491]

Honestly in tears right now. You can hear the pain in her voice. This is so incredibly deep and meaningful, and one of my favorite poems now. This deserves to be heard.

[@zeldahmoshoette3659]

She is such a beautiful soul.

[@alexisramirez2469]

I come back to this video every so often and as the years pass it still helps and is still so relevant. Thank you for this beautiful poem

[@audiras2725]

hi alexis, can you tell me whats the point shes talking about bcs my english isn't that good

[@joannalehman2830]

I had a therapist tell me once, it was ironic how much love I gave out cuz I didn’t give much to myself. She laughed, like self-love was a sick joke. I chuckled and cried at home. I had someone tell me once, I could not love anyone else until I learn to love myself. This time, I got to laugh. This time, The sick joke was mine was me. Might as well wait forever. I remember hating myself at the age of seven, journals filled to the brim with criticisms. By eight, I had enough pages to stitch them into wings to fly close enough to the sun to see my tears turn to steam, felt the wax burn on my shoulders and mold into thick skin. I was nine when I wanted to die. Thirteen when I finally found a solution, figured if I cut my legs enough gravity would let me go. When it didn’t, I tied a pillowcase around my neck, twisting like the rope swings I knew so well from childhood heard my heartbeat pound in my ears like a warning drum, then fade. I’d almost convinced myself I’d done it. When I started writing, I smeared my blood on every page to remind myself that everything beautiful has a consequence. I’d hoped to stall the clotting long enough to give myself to the craft and let myself go. I have died so many times. So when I told you that loving you almost makes life worth it I was not joking. When I tell you That loving you almost makes me forget how much I hate myself, It is not poetry. Loving you is taking all of the love I could never give myself and putting it to good use. It is reminding myself that if someone can love a dying thing this way, can hold the Lazarus of my body and give thanks for the way it holds back - if someone can kiss the scars administer the pills absorb the bad days and wake up smiling next to me, then I can try to breathe again. Because self-love does not always come first. Or second. Or even ever. But your love be the guardrail on the edge be the drawers that hide all the sharp things be the body that carries my collapsed frame into bed be the flowers you bought; because even though they are dying too they still dance. Love will not heal me, will not wipe my slate of my body clean - I will always be a woman of wounds of rope-mark neck and melted skin. Love will not heal me; but it will hold my hand if I ever heal myself and maybe teach me a joke that I can stay alive long enough to laugh at. I love you enough to want to love myself too.

[@goodwillgwenmargauxdelapaz]

[@caseyred99]

❤

[@ilovepiedoyou2]

i am in tears.

[@joeo2252]

We all are, dear.

[@user-bn4xz2gv8m]

“I have died so many times, so when I told you that loving you almost makes life worth it, I was not joking. When I tell you that loving you almost makes me forget how much I hate myself, it is not poetry. Loving you is taking all the love I could never give myself and putting it to good use” I flipping cried bc I can relate so hard to this saying and basically the whole speech.

[@gmaglorious3536]

🦋🦾🌻

[@C-JayJacobs]

Once 7 years ago, Nayo shared emotions everybody knows some of us never heal, so just how can we grow she made me cry, she was 9 when she wanted to die just a child, and she has died many times if loving you was a crime, life sentence would be the time. I really pray that your free, i really pray that your healed.

[@kaylasilva9995]

I wrote one, I named it “Corrupted” I’ve decided to write my own eulogy No, I’m not dead but my soul no longer lights ruefully I’ve hated myself for so long The thought of death started to seduce me Please excuse me for my mind is very twisted The thought of my soul no longer roaming this earth turned me on I sometimes wish I never really existed I know it sounds crucial,I’ve turned years of my life into partial moments Trying to forget all the pain, I started to roll up all my sorrow and smoke it in vain Thousands of times I’ve asked myself “Why are you so violent towards yourself? Do you not see the light you bring into someone’s life?” Maybe someday you’ll be somebody’s wife It’s a constant war in my head fighting with fire and desire I’ve been blinded by the flames, you can see in my pupil full of rage With tears in my eyes I’m asking god “why? Why am I still standing on this filthy planet that filled me up with so much hate” I never really had faith in the man who let so much shit happen to me Until I met you You were my fate All my raging thoughts of wanting to hurt myself left my mind Your love was one of a kind That for once I believed I could actually be loved It stunned me to know that someone could love someone like me You became my safe place, my home Where it was always judgement free The light in my soul started to shine again Loving you made me forget how much I hated myself What y’all think?

[@khalilkelley1664]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Cece-oo1zx]

Got me in tears right now.

[@rachelfrey3333]

I love it

[@mads4775]

Beautiful

[@grethidlegend8698]

It's incredible.......you can speak it out

[@TheRealEbonyRose]

"Love will not heal me I am a women of wounds"

[@indiajade7184]

I literally had to pause this video to wipe the tears...😤❤️

[@venus246]

Poems like this always get to me. I’m literally crying right now but it is so worth it. Her words were so beautiful and honest. I wish that we could learn more about these types of poems in class and in school because they have such deep meanings that will stay with you.

[@oyisajam-jam506]

A good couple of years later I still come back this❤❤

[@Nou75]

Killing me softly with your song, telling my whole life

[@mykameakulpa]

I feel this monumentally. My pain transcended ages too, and I would always hate hearing a woman must love themselves before they find someone to love. For me, it was the other way around and I too gave out so much love but never reflected it back to myself. I'm still so young but I know that mental distress can be a lifetime.

[@lefamushabi8864]

M. Greene mee too 😢

[@monaeythegoddess3966]

Exactly, she spoke the words my heart was feeling

[@stephaniemukandila157]

M. Greene FACTS^^

[@aishwarya_ganapathy]

[@jdashlovela]

i always gave more love than i recieved from others too

[@lucaaz14]

Best poem i’ve ever heard. Totally changed my perspective of self-love ‘that has to come first’.

[@sphiworantabe5507]

3 years later I still come back here.. 🇧🇼🇧🇼🇧🇼 Love from Botswana

[@marievir1818]

This is so beautiful and hard to listen to. it is so amazing.

[@steddyliife9495]

Marie Vir Hey! when u get a chance if u cud check out my poetry and music page that would be awesome:) and gime some criticism and feed back that wud be awesome 😎😎

[@paolacordero7911]

I watch this every single day. I resonate so much. She's so beautiful.

[@zeldahmoshoette3659]

I watch this everyday too. It reminds me of my strength.

[@mariamsalih3428]

paola cordero I do too

[@ashleyzombik9598]

"I'll always be a woman of wounds" that hits like nothing has ever hit before.

[@missymariana626]

I love poets. They’re able to put my unexplainable feelings into words. Making our nonsense make sense. Making me feel comforted cause it gives me a false sense of control of over what I’m feeling. Becuase being able to express it is likely the closest I can get to understanding it

[@r3tr0spctv43]

You sound like a poet yourself. 💞🥹

[@xprisilax2482]

So when I told you that loving you almost makes life worth it, I was not joking. When I tell you that loving you almost makes me forget how much I hate myself, it is not poetry. Loving you is taking all the love I could never give myself and putting it to good use."

[@afroqueendancer]

The last line though!!!! Oh my goodness! That was powerful!

[@clayonezero6774]

“I love you...enough to want to love myself too”

[@teeechincx5607]

“I smeared blood on every page to remind myself everything beautiful has a consequence”💕💕💕💕💕

[@kelseysimmons2155]

she literally just read my life and thoughts... wow.

[@LearnTwiwithEfiaBAE]

"...because self-love does not always come first" Nayo Jones.

[@onthatilelenka9465]

It’s been 4 years and i still come back

[@synthiajohnson5289]

I watch this EVERY time I feel down . She has such a beautiful soul 😩

[@harmg9120]

"self-love does not always come first, or second.. or even ever"

[@vadnoviice]

The emotion in her voice makes my heart hurt.

[@samahpeters3324]

I’ve watched this a million times over the years, it did so much for me in a dark phase of my life, Im better now and hope the rest of you here can join me💞

[@jackstar6018]

This has to be the deepest poem ever written

[@AutumnLeighTheQueen]

this actually made me cry. if the author of this poem ever reads this, i hope she knows that as a poet myself, this is the most powerful poem i've ever heard in my life.

[@marshallleevalentine]

"Loving you is taking all the love I can never give myself and putting it to good use." I've never been hit by a line so personal and so impactful that it literally made me cry for a solid 5 minutes.

[@madelynburns2959]

This is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. In tears. Thank you Nayo Jones.

[@maryantoneth6714]

17-year-old me would be ashamed that 20-year-old me is still crying over this

[@BleWonders]

I keep trying to watch this while trying to diminish the crazy lump in my throat followed by trickling tears. But then I remember how crazy close I am connected to her words, and that it is okay to let this happen naturally. Girl you are everything so wonderful!

[@livbrooks4194]

I can’t count how many times I’ve watched this and it still makes me sob every time

[@hollyx6371]

This still gets me. Every single time I watch it!

[@likeletsomotaung5888]

"So when I told you loving you makes life worthwhile" This poem puts my pain into words

[@sadiebee2557]

I cant stop crying, they all told me i cant love him if i cant love myself but i loved him in the hopes that maybe I could and he left me, because i expected him in some way to be able to save me. I held on too tightly to him because i loved him and i wanted to love me too but now hes gone and i cant find any way to let anyone else in. And this girl hurt me, because she got out the words and emotions i feel but can not escape my own mouth for some weird way. Thank you Nayo. Thank you.

[@AndrewLoganJameson]

Sadie Bee are you okay? It’s been a year since you posted. ❤️

[@aishwarya_ganapathy]

Are you ok now? Im in same boat bud.. love to you (because i cant give it to myself

[@amandabrosig5519]

I feel this so much it hurts. I have a man who doesn't understand what my depression is like at all but he tries so desperately to be there the best he knows how and tries to support me and be understanding in the hopes he can at least keep my scary thoughts away. I'm so worried though that one day he'll get tired of it all. And realize I'm not worth the added extra stress. That it's not worth feeling someone else's pain to this extent when there is no solid "reason" behind it sometimes. I'm worried he'll end up hating me as much as I hate myself because of his love for me and my love for him

[@sadiebee2557]

It’s been a year and I want to tell you all to hold on. You dont need to love yourself yet. You learn it over time when someone shows you that you can love yourself. I am in love with a wonderful boy and we have been together for a year now. Even though I sometimes still self harm, he is there reminding me that he loves me, i love him and i love myself. Ive learned to love me.

[@wertylasky2344]

Sadie Bee I’m so happy to hear this

[@amoracalderon6356]

Crying right now. This is so beautiful, their energy is so strong and beautiful.

[@nickiallisia8909]

Once you said I had a therapist once ... my eyes watered up with the self conscious flame of a me too. That standing in front of the class room anxiety, your cries out loud we're my demons that sit in my soul. Pulling each emotions out of me, now sitting in a puddle of tears. I can take one deep breath ... thank you ❤

[@kayleighdelaet3577]

You can hear the pain in her voice...so beautiful and raw.

[@roselynvgxo314]

"Loving you almost makes me forget how much i hate myself." i felt that

[@Shrecksy]

you can hear the pain in her voice which makes the poem so much more meaningful

[@emmalinewinter2703]

I have been coming back to this poem since I was 15, I needed to know I could be loved while unable to love myself. I am 22 now and I found him, he’s beautiful. Thank you Nayo Jones, you kept me hopeful that someone could love me. This poem sustained me for 7 years and I cannot put my gratitude for you into words. I would not be who I am today without this poem. From the depths of my soul, thank you.

[@njerikimiri9601]

I'm still here in 2021🥰...good poetry never stops trending 🤩

[@dina3998]

Chills in every word. So happy to find this (and to keep repeating it over and over again).

[@SuperReddragon18]

Her voice literally gave me goosebumps

[@PhelokaziNohesi-ov1jt]

I'll always come back to this. I've never related this much to a piece

[@natashamarie4671]

This has brought me so much healing, I’ve been going back to this video ever sense I was the 13. I’m 17 now, and I can’t thank you enough for making this. You are the starting of so many peoples healing.

[@muckspoutmillinery8008]

“Loving you is taking all the love I could never give to myself and putting it to good use” That. That made me cry.

[@georgeblack2749]

I come back to this. Income back to this so many times. It is one of the most well written poems I have ever heard.

[@Chicken-ev1ln]

I come back to this every year and it makes me cry every time

[@kella420]

I’ve come back to this video throughout the years and it hits in a different way every single time. Incredible.

[@kella420]

"Everything beautiful has a consequence." God girl, this was a masterpiece.

[@monnikajohnson2794]

For anybody that just so happens to see this, please remember that God loves you and you have a purpose in His kingdom. Have a great day 💓

[@bailiemyers261]

I come back to this 3 times a year to feel validated. Beautiful

[@stephaniesilva1699]

Any therapist will tell you " you have to love yourself before you can Love something else", but for Me that is Not True, I will Never be Able to wrap my head around that theory, because I Love My Children First! And they come First!.And no matter what I'm going through during my Struggles, My Babies give me my Strength. Mommy Is Your Mommy and Daddy..God has Blessed Me with my babies, i am so Grateful. I Love Them Sooooo, No Words Exhist to explain My Love for Them. I love when she says"Loving Them is putting My Love to Good Use".. " I Love Them Enough to Love Myself"..This Poet is Lovely, hits me at home.. Thank you for this😙

[@hanihani4007]

Can we just take a moment to appreciate how beautiful she is

[@cahvahleneie5074]

2019 and I still love this video. She put the thoughts in my head to words spoken out loud .

[@smoothflowers]

I’ve watched this poem for so many years, each time I watched I cried and cried. I used it as a form of healing, so raw, so open, it’s truly beautiful!

[@kellyrichmond887]

“ Love will not heal me, but it will hold my hand if I ever heal myself “. That was beautiful.

[@madsxg]

Someone finally put it into words..wow. I'm so speechless

[@alyiahsings7055]

I just found this video and I watched it with tears. The way she worded it and described it was just so beautiful. This will never leave my mind.

[@eatingclouds6313]

Almost every day I come back to this poem. It's so powerful

[@drdanleydna4658]

I subscribed just now because I didn’t want to go another day questioning my worth in this world. I’m no longer ashamed to ask for help from people who love me enough to be my guardrails until I am strong enough to look into the abyss of my life as a conqueror.

[@MizzFab]

In 20 days I am marrying my best friend. This poem says things I am unable to say to haters and doubters.It sums up my relationship BEAUTIFULLY . To know you cannot fix someone and not want to. He is not my fixer and I am not his but together we hold hands and fight demons. I bring him birthday cake to the mental hospital , when I am admitted he calls me everyday so I don't dissociate and wander into thoughts that no one loves me. It is not EASY but knowing the hard work is worth it.Thank you for speaking your truth. I love this.

[@laurynharper7571]

Not me at work bawling at how accurate these words are to what I have been feeling since high school

[@MhzLoistine]

I watch this every time I’m feeling unappreciated.. which is a lot. Such strength

[@jillianthornton3840]

MAN, all those cliche sayings don't fit everyone. And this piece jus makes yo realize it. this was amazing!

[@GeminaMilfort]

This is by far my most favorite poem in the world. Thank you.

[@victorialhellen4244]

I can recommend you to Dr.frank who is a relationship counselor who helped me restore back my relationship and heal my marriage back permanently after 3years of separation.

[@victorialhellen4244]

Whtsaap him**.

[@victorialhellen4244]

+ 2 3 4 7 0 4 4 5 0 9 7 9 2!!.

[@patrickbell4314]

Every time I hear this poem, I say "WOW!" and exhale. Then I wipe away the tears. This poem is a gift. And I am thankful.

[@moodyfrenchfry4459]

‘Because even though they are dying too they still dance’ brought me to tears

[@giovannarenee10]

I will always be a woman of wounds. this touched me so so much.