Healing Through Creativity

[@thebookishkhmerican4303]

My dad died also in 2017 to cancer and that has been really difficult. I’ve also been dealing with a lot of depression due to intergenerational and religious trauma and having lived in a toxic Asian family and community environment. I’ve found a lot of healing and freedom through art and painting. It’s been inspiring to see your self-expression and healing process and it helps validate and acknowledge that these feelings are ok to feel and it’s normal and part of being human. Continue healing and sharing your healing journey! ❤😊

[@amytangerine]

Oh my heart. I am so sorry for your loss. The healing journey is hard, but so worth it. You're a cycle breaker, and that has infinite positive ripple effects. Sending you hugs!

[@dee_ewell_pierce]

I remember the year 2002...I had a heart attack at my desk at work, admitted to hospital, another heart attack the next day, flown by helicopter to larger hospital, emergency bypass surgery on a Saturday night... It was Girl Scout cookie weekend and I was the cookie mom....didn't happen! Hard recovery, cardiac rehab for weeks, out of work for three months. Husband was a long haul trucker so he took time off to take care of me. While he was off the Company he was working for went bankrupt, he had no job to go back to! My dear cat Boomer died in April, My daddy died in June and My Mom broke her neck in a car accident in October! I lived through it and grew more spiritualty that year than you would believe. When I lost my daughter to suicide in 2009, I wouldn't have lived through it had I not gone through the year 2002. The world keeps on spinning and turning whether you're in it or not. I choose every day to be in it.

[@amytangerine]

OH my heart, Dee! You're amazing in sharing this. And for choosing light and love, even on the days when I am sure it's extremely tough. Thank you for your words. I believe we have the power to choose and thanks for believing it too.

[@shalyngomes1635]

Thank you for this reminder. I lost my grandmother this year and I am still trying keep smiling everyday journaling helps so much.

[@amytangerine]

Sorry to hear that. Journaling is incredibly healing

[@BagLadyLaine]

I lost my grandmother (who was also my best friend) recently. I was her caregiver for a year and it was the greatest privilege and honor of my life to but it was also the greatest challenge as her dementia progressed. She also taught me the importance of LIVING life. I'm trying to keep my grief moving so I decided to create an art journal, something I haven't done in 4 years. They say grief is love that has no place to go so I'm going to try to put at least some of it into art. This video was so encouraging and helpful. Thank you for this ❤.

[@amytangerine]

oh my heart - thank you for your kind words and this message. Hope you're moving some of that love and flowing into your art journaling. LIFE IS FOR LIVING! I am sure she is so proudly watching over you. Sending you huge hugs. XOXO

[@karenrobertson890]

Sorry for your loss. May happy memories comfort you at this time.

[@amytangerine]

Thanks Karen

[@KatieReadsKoziesAndMore]

Amy, I’m sending all my love to you as you continue through your first year of mourning each celebration without your beloved father. My mom has been gone since 1999. Last week I heard something interesting that I know she would have loved. Then, I remembered I couldn’t just pick up the phone and call her. No, it does not hurt the way those first 12 months did. Every year will make things easier…and gift you with memories of a special moment between the two of you. Include them in your journal so they can help you smile when you are down. Also, they will be a blessing to your children when they get older and are interested in learning about their beloved grandfather. You are a treasure. Always know I love you. Katie PS: when I was four my very pregnant Aunt went upstairs to take a bath. I asked my mom if my baby cousin would drown? Mom looked like a deer in the headlights while she tried to find a way to explain this to me. I cannot remember her answer, but I was assured my soon-to-be baby cousin was safe.❤

[@amytangerine]

YOU ARE A TREASURE. Thank you Katie, your words hugged my heart.

[@Joysart360]

So sorry to hear about your dad passing. My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing your art and your life with us.

[@amytangerine]

Thank you!!

[@colettemarshall6891]

Loss is so devastating. I lost my husband of 34 years to Alzheimer’s in 2014; all three dogs within two years, and my mother in Oct of 2019. You learn to live with loss but are never the same once you’ve experienced it. Being creative is a balm and does make the journey of coping easier. My heart hurts for you❤️

[@amytangerine]

Oh my heart - I am so sorry. Sending hugs for a bright new year

[@Dolittlesart]

Thank you, Amy. Thank you for being honest and vulnerable and human. This is why I love you.

[@debhouckscraftycottage]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. My father had dementia and the last 14 years of his life were terrible and some in a care home because he got to be too much to handle for family. I still miss him terribly and he passed in 2007. Dementia and Alzheimers are absolutely horrible. I also lost my mother in 2020 at the age of 91, but not to Alzheimers nor Covid. However, it was June of 2020 and I couldn't see her in the hospital ER nor in the ICU. The ER nurse was kind enough to let me Facetime with her before transferring her to the ICU and that turned out to be the last time I would ever get to talk with her. Thank you for the positive message. I think the last several years have been very rough on many people and, if any are like me, it's just now hitting emotionally. I'm not sure why that is, maybe my age since I'm older, maybe because the holiday season is here. I'm not sure, but a feeling of worthlessness has been setting in lately. So, I definitely appreciate the sentiment you shared. Sometimes we find people or things just when we need them. Thank you for being a light!

[@amytangerine]

Oh Deb, my heart goes out to you. 14 years and such a horrible disease. Hoping you find brightness and hope and lots of love in this new year. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@SHANGRILAAA333]

I lost my beloved father November 11th. 💔💔💔 I share your tears of great loss. I REALLY needed to see your video!!! Thank you for reminding me that art does bring joy however minor the scribble or wash of color. 💜💙🧡💚💛❤ Prayers for your broken heart. ♥

[@amytangerine]

Sending you hugs and hope for this new year!

[@jeannebrinkman8889]

When I lost my Dad and than my Mom also …. I have learned to let the body heal… and grieve when you need to grieve…. Celebrating life will help you heal 🕊 Grieving is a process that everyone will go thru differently and no determination of time… God 🙏🏻 give you strength beyond understanding… and many many blessings to you ❤… and your family.

[@amytangerine]

Yes, thanks Jeanne!

[@rtd1791]

My dad died this year too, over the summer. And then my dog followed him a month later. I started crying at the beginning when you were struggling to hold back your tears. I also had a wonderful relationship with my dad. I’m thinking about how many times he left “I just called to say I love you” voicemail. Once I got calls from my mum & dad on the same day and both of them were singing me this song. They’ve been divorced since I was in preschool so one wasn’t inspired by the other; it was a total coincidence. I haven’t been feeling very inspired since my dad passed. I have so many wonderful craft supplies but all I feel is a big sense of “blah”. It’s like those fireworks that go up but don’t explode. I might feel a moment of excitement but it fades quickly. Maybe I just have to permit myself more grace and space.

[@amytangerine]

So sorry for your losses. Give yourself permission to just play with the supplies. You can start with 1 thing (watercolors, for example) and then give yourself 10 mins to simply play and explore. Put on some good music or a podcast and let your creative juices flow. Hopefully it will feed your soul :)

[@dawnh7043]

My deepest condolences Amy. 🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@amytangerine]

Thanks Dawn!

[@dorothyluz]

Amy, I’m so very sorry for your loss…my heart breaks for you during this difficult time. Sending lots of blessings and hugs your way from Alaska. ❤

[@amytangerine]

Thank you so much!

[@lovicollier9640]

Thank you for sharing, I went and journaled about all the good things about the people around me who have passed just recently, thought about all the happy and crazy moments we had, thank goodness for video and photos. I made me a mood board with photos and key words that resonated with me and them then my siblings wanted to contribute to it. It was our creative way to moving on. In Māori culture having a damn good cry cleans the soul and releases you to move on. Once again thank you for the reminder..Smiles from down under.💐❤️🇳🇿👍

[@amytangerine]

Beautiful!! Sending hugs from here. Miss Australia so much!

[@kittencreates2785]

Thanks for your beautiful post. I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. I know that pain and I'm sending love & light your way. Peace.

[@amytangerine]

Thank you!!

[@andreamiller1550]

I am so sorry you lost your dad. It is so hard. I miss my dad. Lost him two years ago to Covid. He was my best friend and rock. Hugs to you.

[@tammyb6497]

My heart is with you Amy. I lost my dad on May 8th of this year, which happened to be Mother’s Day. It was unexpected and we didn’t get to say goodbye which has made the healing process that much more difficult. I think about him every day and know that this holiday season will be a difficult one. Take good care of yourself and your family. 💗

[@amytangerine]

SO sorry. Hope this new year is bright and full of hope!

[@PM_1937]

Amy, I'm so sorry that your sweet dad passed. I lost my mom on Dec 27, 2022. I know the inevitable deep grief that I'm feeling every day is an extension of the deep love I have for her. And while I know my deep love for her will never lessen, I do pray the heart-wrenching grief will eventually subside. At this moment though, I'm finding ways to deal with it every day and I believe your advice on "healing through creativity" would help. I've already been journaling about my mom for months. Mom always told her children "live your life". I miss her so much. Thank you for sharing your tender and emotional video.

[@amytangerine]

Awww Cici, my heart goes out to you. Not a fun club to be a part of, but I know we can be strong and hold the precious memories of our loved ones in our hearts. LIVE YOUR LIFE - what a beautiful motto we can embrace fully!!

[@luckygardeniasdashboardcon9214]

My heart breaks for you losing your of dear Dad is such a huge loss to you and your family. Sending prayers

[@amytangerine]

Thank you!!

[@msbeers2001]

Thank you for making this video. I needed to hear this message right now. Wishing you peace.

[@amytangerine]

You too!!

[@notoriousMAG]

Our parents were so cool in their youth, I feel like much cooler than we were lol Praying for you in this season of defining your new normal, I'm in the same season.

[@amytangerine]

Right?! So grateful he lived fully! Sending you hugs - hope you feel the love of our loved ones watching over

[@janicepruitt3458]

I lost my mom in October 2022. She was my best friend. I am struggling. Thank you for this video. I enjoy your videos.

[@amytangerine]

Sorry to hear that. Thanks for the kind words. Hope you're giving yourself plenty of grace and space for the healing journey

[@MichelleLuvs2Scrap]

Amy, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my beloved mom in 1990 due to cancer. She was only 45. My sister and I were only 25 and 23 and the pain at times are still unbearable. Then, in March of 2020, we lost our beloved dad to Covid. He was a very healthy 79 year old, who took care of me and worried about my health. Not only, was the world at a standstill, I was working at home because schools were closed and I was grieving my dad and living alone. I am a creative 56 single female who is very creative but have neglected it. After viewing your video, I AM GOING TO LIVE LIFE!!! Blessings to you Amy!🥰

[@amytangerine]

I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you, I cannot imagine. Though I believe you are surrounded by love and light. And your parents would be so proud of your journey. Also, I LOVE THAT YOU EXCLAIMED THAT!! CLAIM IT! Happy new year!

[@karenc.8622]

Thank you so much for sharing. Sending hugs 🤍

[@amytangerine]

You are so welcome!

[@moeboe2]

Amy I thank you for all your creativity. I love Al the travel videos I went on. 💜

[@meghan9436]

A little late to the party, but this resonates. I almost cried right along with you in the McDonald’s lobby. I recently quit a job due to a toxic work environment. It was making me anxious and angry, and there was no question it was rubbing off onto my social circles. It wasn’t good for me or for them. When you find yourself in a situation where people can’t or won’t understand your point of view, removing yourself from the situation is the most powerful thing you can do for yourself. It’s okay to let go, and move on from a bad situation in order to make more space for the positive people in your life who matter, and will accept you for who you are.

[@amytangerine]

You're so right. I commend you for your bravery!!

[@meghan9436]

@@amytangerine Thank you! 🙏

[@kristinelambiris4074]

My brother passed away from cancer at age 28 and we almost lost my dad to a different cancer last year, so I totally feel for you. My brothers last wish was to go to Hawaii, which we did. I was only 24 and I vowed to make the most out of my life. I feel so happy with the travels and adventures I’ve had and will continue to honor my brother by doing that. I am so glad you are getting healing through creativity and keep that up! It really helped me as well!

[@amytangerine]

Oh my heart. I am so sorry. I am sure your brother is so proud of you and smiles along with you as you LIVE and LOVE fully.

[@buyenyenable]

Ms Amy you dont know how much this video of yours touch my heart and so timely needed. i am in the process of healing physically and emotionally. i am so thankful that my faith in God helped me to get through this heavy ordeal. But i also love crafting, and i agree with you that it also helped me tremendously through the years. God bless you and i am your fan :)

[@amytangerine]

Awwww thank you for your sweet words!! Sending hugs

[@marykaywilson8821]

It is okay to be emotional, I lost my mom who was my best friend in 2011 and I still cry thinking about her.

[@amytangerine]

They say that the grief is so deep because the love was as well. Sending hugs, thanks for sharing

[@suehensler325]

So sorry for your loss.

[@eviem70]

Beautiful words, beautiful painting

[@BecScribbles]

Thank you for the uplifting words in your video.

[@amytangerine]

You are so welcome

[@CherylsCreativeWorld33]

This is the first video of yours that I’ve ever seen. I’m so sorry for the many losses you’ve experienced recently. Yet, this was uplifting, and reminded me that even in the darkness, there’s light. Bless you and those around you. Take care!

[@amytangerine]

Bless you too! XOXO

[@honorahill7657]

I'm sorry for your pain. He is still with you. His spirit can never be gone. Have faith.

[@amytangerine]

Thank you!! I feel it too

[@heatherm2125]

I found this video exactly when I needed to. Thank you for the reminder about grace and space.

[@cindyborcherding8927]

Hi Amy.. I just wanted to say I am sorry to hear about your father's passing. Losing a loved one is so very hard. A piece of our heart seems to go with them. I firmly believe that art has saved me on many days when grief seems to much to bear. Sending you love and light..

[@amytangerine]

Thanks Cindy for your thoughtful words. I often feel that way, but can also sense his presence at times too. It's comforting for sure. Hugs!

[@lucilucero6490]

Amy, I am a new subscriber. Thank you for this video. I was looking for inspiration and motivation with journaling, I struggle with writing anything in my journal. Your words helped me so much and of course your creativity and art is amazing. So Sorry for your loss and also for your friend’s and the loss of Melanie I was one of her subscribers too as a fellow crocheter. I will be looking forward to your videos and especially watercolor videos. 🙏😇

[@amytangerine]

Hi Luci! Welcome and thanks for your kind words. Put your heart into your journal and you can't go wrong. You're amazing!

[@herrera9839]

Thank you for sharing.

[@amytangerine]

Thanks for listening

[@mariesurvivor]

So sorry for your loss. I lost my dad in 2019 to a stroke. It was a struggle for him because the stroke left him in bed with a feeding tube and not able o talk. Since then I’ve been taking care of my mom and she has Parkinson’s and dementia. She has gone done steadily after my dad passed away and this year I had to put her in a home but I go everyday for around 4 hours to be with her. It is s hard because although she is still here her mind is very much in the past. I’ve been struggling a lot this year. It’s been a hard one and I understand the pain of losing one’s dad.

[@amytangerine]

So sorry - sending you lots of hugs and love

[@coolmom751]

I appreciate your transparency regarding your healing journey! ❤️🙏🏾

[@tracyburcham7350]

Sorry to hear about your loss. My mom had Alzheimer’s, also. She passed 12 years ago, and I still miss her very much. I miss her most around Christmas time. She was very creative, and now I enjoy being creative, too. I truly believe it helps me mentally. I’ll be thinking of you. I know how hard it is to lose a parent. I’ve also lost several friends and family members, the last 2 years. Thanks for being so encouraging.

[@amytangerine]

Thanks for sharing, Tracy. I love that she passed along creativity to you and it brings so much enjoyment. I like to think my dad is watching over and smiling often!

[@stylesformiles79]

I just came across this video and I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I love your strength and openness about your grief. It's been just over a year since my mom in law passed and our lives changed completely. Your words of healing, hope and moving forward ate so encouraging. Thank you!!!💕❤️💖

[@amytangerine]

Thanks for saying that about my strength - it comes with doubt at times, so I appreciate it!!

[@1HeathersJourney]

[@amytangerine]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Slowly but surely, let's support one another in mending broken hearts. We all need hugs and I believe in advocating for caregivers as well. XOXO

[@jens.4858]

Thank you so much for sharing your vulnerability, loss & wise words & creativity. So sorry to hear about your Dad & your other painful losses. Sending so much love & light your way.💖

[@amytangerine]

Thanks Jen! Sending it right back!

[@jens.4858]

@@amytangerine 💖

[@gingerkirby8208]

If I were asked who is the most positivity influenced KZbinr that I know of it would have to be you. On days that Im feeling especially unmotivated, blue or just lazy, I know I can watch one of (or any of) your videos and come through it feeling lighter, more motivated and positive. I see your dad through you, and I GUARANTEE you were his favorite human also. Its so obvious that you're a huge influence on your children, they are little images of you and I've enjoyed watching especially Jack grow up, and I look forward to watching them for a long time to come. Thanks for sharing this video, and showing us a little bit of your vulnerability. It makes it so easy to connect with you and thats what I love about your channel.

[@amytangerine]

Oh Ginger, thank you so much! It means a lot, truly! I am screenshotting this because it will serve as a reminder if I am ever drowning in self-doubt. My word this year was FLOW and next year I think it just got sealed, thanks to your message. It will be LIGHT. It holds so much depth and I too crave feeling lighter. XOXO!

[@Beckyp1601]

So very sorry for your loss Amy ❤ I have really enjoyed your creativity & just your encouragement to us to know it’s ok to not be perfect. This has meant so much to me. Thank you for all you do ❤

[@amytangerine]

Thank you!!

[@andreabrown2805]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Amy ❤

[@cherbowman]

Even during a trying time, you manage to lift others with your message of hope, love, and positivity! You are are a bright light to this world, Amy! Your beautiful spirit provides me with peace and a sense of confidence that…YES, it will all be okay. There is much to celebrate even when things are heavy. I send you a warm and loving hug, my friend!! ❤🥰💕

[@amytangerine]

Oh Cheryl, thank you so much! Receiving the hug with a smile. Did you book Go Wild for DC? We must reunite there ;)

[@laprimanerda7333]

Grief is so so hard. Thank you so much for sharing and being so vulnerable with us. 💜

[@amytangerine]

Thank you!!

[@steffymuze]

My sympathy for your loss 💜 I lost my dad this year too, back in March (only child as well, I feel ya! 🤗)

[@amytangerine]

Sending you a great big hug!

[@elliotelliott901]

Ohh…..my heart! 💔 Amy…..I’m so sorry for your loss….. I truly believe in the power of creativity to heal! There are so many ways we can honor our loved ones by creating. Our souls connect with others through creativity…..thank you for always inspiring us to create! My word of the year for 2022 was IMAGINE…..and for 2023 it shall be CREATE! Thanks for the inspiration! ❤️🙏

[@amytangerine]

YESSSS! Thanks for your kind and heartfelt words. Truly means a lot. My word this year was FLOW and next year I think it will be LIGHT. Let's CREATE LIGHT together!

[@jenihansen7201]

OH AMY , I AM SO SORRY THAT YOUR DAD PASSED. MAY GOD BLESS HIM AND YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. XOXO

[@amytangerine]

Thanks so much, Jeni XO

[@cherylrobertson5629]

❤️❤️❤️

[@cazkiwinz4300]

💙💙💙

[@rozstitt4659]

Hi Amy. I am so so sorry to hear about your Dad, and my heart goes out to you. I know what it feels like to lose your Dad because I lost my Dad too 10 years ago, and not a day goes by that I don't think of him. 2 years ago I lost my brother to an aggressive cancer, and he died 4 months after being diagnosed with it, and in January my ex-husband committed suicide and a good friend of mine died from brain cancer. Grief is felt differently by everyone, and it's the way how you look at things that can help. I personally believe in the afterlife, so even though they're gone, I know that their souls are up there having a good time and looking down and protecting us and that has helped.It's true what you say about creativity and living your life. My personal creativity has bloomed over the years and even though grieving can put a damper on things, I have changed my mindset to being a positive person, and being as optimistic as possible, but I still have my down days. Whenever you think of your Dad, just know that he's there with you, and I'm sure he'll give you signs to get your attention 🙂 Whenever you are down, just imagine a big blanket of love wrapped around you, and that your Dad is the one wrapping you, it might make you feel a bit better. Time will be the only thing that will help you heal, but just remember that you have so many people that care and love you, so I'm sure they'll be there if you need to have a cry etc. All the best to you Amy, and I'm sending you and your family the biggest hug and much love from Australia. Take care xxxx

[@amytangerine]

Oh Roz, your words have comforted me so! Thank you for taking the time to share your heart. So sorry to hear of your losses, but I too believe we have angels watching over us and blanketing us in light!! Sending hugs right back and hopefully we can take a trip down to Australia soon as it's one of my favorite places in the world!

[@pennybrown7292]

I'm so glad I came across this video. I lost my dad 9 years ago. He had dementia pretty bad towards the end of his life. I was born on his birthday and we were close. In 2021 my mom cought covid around Christmas. She was in the hospital, caught pneumonia and passed away Jan 14 2022. She was my best friend, we did so much stuff together. We lived 8 minutes from eachother. We sometimes talked on the phone multiple times a day. When she went to the hospital i had her dog stay with me and my family. Then he passed away 1 week after my mom passed. He was 14 years old. Then our family dog passed away. He was sick for awhile. He was 15 years old.This year has been so hard. I try to focus on the good times and all the good memories I have. I also have found art jouraling to be good for me. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@amytangerine]

I am so sorry. Thanks for sharing yours. Holding you close to my heart!

[@pennybrown7292]

@@amytangerine thank you

[@SHANGRILAAA333]

You've suffered great loss. I am in the grieving process of losing my beloved father and then my dear sweet dog a few days ago. Sending you healing thoughts and hugs.

[@pennybrown7292]

@@SHANGRILAAA333 thank you for the kind thoughts and hugs. Sending you the same.

[@ArtwithVikkiC]

Sorry about your dad . My moth-in-law died in April . This year has been rough ,but you make things better with these videos .

[@amytangerine]

So sorry - sending hugs!

[@carlacaldwell1719]

❤❤❤❤

[@dorothyc2801]

Thank you for this, it was very helpful

[@amytangerine]

I'm so glad!

[@peggyfitzmaurice4100]

Thank you for sharing a powerful message. Blessings to your family this holiday season. I realize it won’t be the same without your father but it will be a time to share the memories of his life.

[@amytangerine]

Thanks Peggy, appreciate you! Happy holidays!

[@jaycham17]

So very sorry for the loss of your father. I hope you find comfort in your precious memories of him. I was a caretaker for my aunt and she passed away Thanksgiving morning. My mother, who I also care for, has dementia and not able to process what’s happened. I’m glad to have come across your video tonight. Painting has been healing for me too. It really is about the process. It brings so much peace. Continued blessings to you and your family.

[@amytangerine]

Thanks for your kind and thoughtful words. I'm so sorry for your loss and my heart goes out to you for your mom. Take good care and hopefully take some time to paint and reflect on 2022. I just posted a new video and it was healing in ways too!

[@tezntweet]

Sorry for your father passing. I lost my 15 year old neice in October. I will keep you in my prayers.

[@shakirarouse7125]

Thank you so much for being so authentically vulnerable and sharing what you have been going through. I wish you well as you continue healing as you journey on through life. I can identify with your situation personally because my grandmother was also my favourite person and she died of Alzheimer’s. It is awful how they lose memory and parts of what made them who they were and they were powerless to do anything about it. Despite, I’m glad that I have tons of photos and other keepsakes to look through as I reflect on the good times. 💜🥰

[@amytangerine]

Oh Shakira, thank you for your words. Your kindness and heart shine through - I appreciate you!

[@shellybrewer1231]

I’m sorry for your loss Amy. I know that you are such a joyful, amazing person and I’m glad you made this heartfelt video. My dad was diagnosed with cancer this year and it’s been a struggle. Thank you for the reminder of creativity to help healing.

[@inkandpenadventures]

Amy, thank you for sharing this. Loss of a parent is so hard. I lost both of mine within two years (2016 & 2018) and it still hits me hard. This video is so inspiring. I have your collab with A&O and have been debating how best to use it... I think I've got it now!

[@eljay1980]

Amy, I am truly sorry to hear of your Papa's passing and will keep you and your loved ones in my thoughts during this difficult transition time. I will always remember when you shared the trip you took with baby Juniper to visit your father, it was such a precious and heartwarming video and I am so glad you got those times with him recorded to look back on when you are ready. I am also sorry for the losses your friends and family have gone through and send love to you all. My Mum passed in 2007 and it has only been the last few months where I have been able to create a scrapbook of her 'story' which has been a huge help in processing all of the emotions I had (metaphorically) been running from for all this time. Being able to create regardless of our mindset is such an important and freeing thing to do and I am glad to hear that creativity is helping you through this time.

[@amytangerine]

Oh my heart. Healing and grief is so tricky and has no timeline. I like to reflect on the good memories and can understand your need to process in your own unique way. Hugs!!

[@eljay1980]

@@amytangerine Sending hugs to you and your loved ones. I hope you are all able to come together to enjoy Christmas and share happy memories of your Papa, I'm sure he's watching over you and is very proud of the woman you are xxx

[@sharonwade8193]

Thank you for this video, Amy. Sorry about the loss of your father. I find I am also hard on myself but I also find your videos uplifting like a little pep talk. I like your use of bright colors in your work. I tend to lean that way too when I watercolor. I need to do it more often but I need to be more self compassionate with myself like you said ❤💜🧡💛💚💙🤍🌈🎄

[@amytangerine]

Oh Sharon, thanks so much. It pains me to hear when others are hard on themselves and is a good mindful reminder that I need to be kinder to myself. Yay for this beautiful colorful world.

[@angelagaretto2079]

I appreciate you posting this. I lost two of my favorite people this year, and this really hit home for me. Sending you love ❤️

[@amytangerine]

Sorry to hear that - sending you love right back

[@sharoncrouchman4348]

Amy, this post really hit home for me. I lost my Dad to Alzheimer’s, too. He was my hero. I’m so sorry for your loss. We also lost 6 very important people in our lives this year. This holiday season has been very difficult and I haven’t felt crafty but I feel very inspired by this and will go try some watercolors. I met you at Whimsodoodle years ago and you are a very special person. ❤

[@amytangerine]

Oh Sharon, I am sending you so much light. I just posted a new video with a reflective practice for 2022 that has comforted me, as your words have done. Those whimsodoodle days were some of my FAVE!

[@silvanam9229]

I'm so sorry for your loss Amy! 💔 I had never felt pain or loss the way I did the day I lost my dad. Today would've been his birthday & it's been a rough day. I miss him terribly!😔 Thank you for sharing this with us! ❤

[@amytangerine]

Oh Silvana, my hope is that he feels the deep love, not just on his birthday but every day. I believe they are our angels watching over us!

[@tspacefullstop4161]

🥰🥰🥰🥰💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@Danadane314]

I am so sorry that you have joined this incredibly sad club. If you know, you know. 💔

[@amytangerine]

Hugs to you!!

[@m.m.3181]

Sorry to hear of your losses in this season. ❤‍🩹 Creativity is such a great therapy for healing. Is that a Morgan Harper Nichols quote? Thanks for sharing.

[@amytangerine]

Not sure!

[@tortagialla]

❤❤❤