Therapist Reacts to Falling Away From Me By KORN

[@pystoph3987]

Something I don't see people comment on with this music video is that the red lights represent all of the other kids that are living in the same environment. As a kid who experienced and witnessed domestic violence & child abuse, it was nice to have that visual representation that I wasn't alone.

[@kimjongeil]

I noticed that detail for the first time watching this video. I must have seen the music video dozens of time.

[@pystoph3987]

@@kimjongeil Awesome to notice something new after so long

[@ChrisWierchowski-p8z]

I love you. As the same, someone needed to say it. Reach out friend. I fucking love you

[@pystoph3987]

@@ChrisWierchowski-p8z Much love to you too! All is well here and hope the same for you ❤️

[@pystoph3987]

​@@ChrisWierchowski-p8z Tried to reply to this earlier so apologies if this becomes a duplicate comment. Much love back to you! All good here & just keeping up the fight. Hope the same for you.

[@petrmilota6398]

Korn is a reason why I am still here.. Nu-metal and mostly their "sad" songs were ment for us - troubled kids - to cope with situations which we had so little knowledge about.. I'm 35 now.. still fighting my demons from childhood - still single, still enjoying my solitarity but at least I am not suicidal..

[@ericklandrud5356]

Same, 48 now... my first experience ever hearing KoRn was them opening for Marilyn Manson who opened for DanZiG And... as a musician at the time into that, KoRn scratched an itch that Ministry, Manson, Slayer and the harsher death metal couldn't reach... KoRn is hate, and pain, but with Head (let's ignore the stuff without him) it is also Love and Healing from the past injuries life deals

[@joegasperoni1466]

Same bro

[@440-6pakroadrunner]

Same, there was times I wanted to flirt with suicide to get back at my parents and give them a reason to love me

[@ColinRichards1]

I completely understand buddy

[@TheMCmace]

you got this bro

[@jinxtide2291]

Korn represented a lost generation of kids. Such an undercurrent of rampant abuse in all of its forms in so many households. So many of us had disassociated by our teenage years. He gave us a voice. Something to stand behind. Brought us to others just like us, and showed us we werent alone. The anger in their music was like a lightning rod for the anger we lost souls felt. Still to this day one of my favorite bands.

[@Schmepanda]

❤❤❤

[@travisspaulding9540]

Represents. They’re still around and doing well.

[@Breekon_Hope]

I grew up in a very abusive household. I disassociated so much that I can't remember most, if not all of my childhood. When I got stuck in another one, I "flirted with suicide", just wanting out. "No more pain. No more sorrow" is what I told myself. I did get help, hospital and professionals. It's been about 5 years, im so happy I was able to reach out.

[@roseprojectmanager]

Exactly the same for me 😕 I'm 34 and after 32 years finally scaped and I'm going to terapy 😮‍💨

[@gonzalez89fer]

Korn saved many lives, It represented a generation of "lost kids." It wasn’t just in the U.S.; in my country, Venezuela, many kids, including myself, sat on sidewalks and the steps of plazas, with bruises on our skin from hits (some of them at home others by bullies), wearing worn skate shoes and holding second-hand skateboards, trying to translate the songs. Even when we didn’t fully understand the lyrics, we could sense the message.... Today we are +30 years old and we are guarantors of not repeating the same mistakes with our children. issues, follow the leader and untouchables were very important in my life. I saw them live for the first time a few weeks ago at their 30th anniversary concert, it was spectacular.

[@BethanyRatliff]

❤korn helped save my life as a teenager❤

[@ideasinthegord3915]

Me too. I'm in my 30s now and their music still helps a lot.

[@lxDastanxl]

Actually smashing pumpkins had a public interview and a dad speak up about his teenage daughter and give thanks to the lead singer for helping his daughter out of depression

[@DanielEstrada-hp4fh]

Same

[@ei446]

@@ideasinthegord3915 Same here. But what i find so insane is when I listen to these songs, its like i can smell the air around me back then. Korn has such an unbelievably talented way of capturing all the emotions and making a little time capsule to revisit. I hope this makes sense hahahha

[@joelane800]

Directed by Fred Durst, hes in the video at the end very quickly when Jon is shaking his head at the camera. One of the most important bands of all time!

[@heffatheanimal2200]

I always considered Dust to be another damaged-artist-stereotype. Even though he is a narcissist and an absolute a$$hole, he can be really gifted with his talents creativity

[@JenHarris-n6t]

​@@heffatheanimal2200Korn found limp biscut and fred then found staind... imagine that.. just like Trent found Manson

[@SvenS2]

Cool! Never noticed that

[@the-postal-dude]

@@heffatheanimal2200 why is it always in mental health spaces that people use medical terms as insults?

[@That-Ginger-Chick]

I thought that was Fred Durst at the end

[@Pikawarps]

Decades ago the very person who introduced me to these korn songs was my abuser, the irony is palpable

[@ZoëGrant-m7b]

Both my parents heavily used meth and introduced me to slipknot. on a certain level it feels like they wrote their music for the children of their fans. glad you got through it.

[@Shitsmearingbandit]

Not so much irony as much as it's likely passed down most of the abused become abusers and keep the cycle going cause its all they know by how they where raised themselves

[@gloriabell8772]

I’m sorry

[@lyleprater8306]

The person who abused me almost daily while my mom just stood there because she was afraid to stop him afraid she would get hurt just started listening to korn and told me he sees why I did now when I was a teenager in the late 90s

[@Z3ROTH3RT33N]

I saw Korn live for the first time on the Twisted Transistor tour. It was like going to church. I felt all this negativity purged from my soul. Korn is definitely great for helping you deal with difficulties in life.

[@yyyyyk]

I'll be seeing Korn live for the first time TODAY! In literally just a few hours! It's something that I have wanted to do since I became a fan of theirs in the 90's, so I am super excited...!

[@Z3ROTH3RT33N]

@yyyyyk Rock on! And of course arrre you ready?!

[@yyyyyk]

@@Z3ROTH3RT33N Yesss!!! I hope they open the show with "Blind", and that line... It would be so awesome... But really, I'm such a huge fan, I want them to play ^all^ of their songs... 😅 I love so many of their songs that even if they sing 10 songs that I love, I'll wish they sang even more songs that I love...

[@dsggoodbar]

The saddest part is that Jonathan Davis has first hand experience in abuse as a child. I've been through my own trauma, but fortunately it wasn't this severe. My favorite aspect of this video is that the kid ultimately used the box (music) to get away. Music saved my life many times. I deal with mental health diagnoses. Music can be a huge safe haven for relating to or working through emotions. Music is the heartbeat of my life.

[@Quizzy0000]

i did flirt with suicide like 20 years ago but not cause of this topic in the video but still. never told my mother tbh i dont think she could take it now so its my painfull secret i share to all of you. korn actually saved me from this feeling. it felt like i wasnt alone feeling all these feelings. my aunt kinda saved me she had korn on in the car 20 years ago and i looked them up and a whole world opened up for me.

[@lithiumkc8]

Korn was my version of a therapist growing up. So grateful for them. I’m glad you are stable. Thoughts of suicide are so heartbreaking. Everyone should know that they are loved and everyone deserves positive support. 🙏♥️

[@MindSawProductions]

This video is the embodiment of "find your tribe". The idea that family isn't blood [RED], but rather those who free you from pain. She stays behind until KoRn comes back into the box, The band represents her inside energy and will to escape her situation, the driving force that helps her finally open the window to make her escape into the arms of her new/true family. You're absolutely right where it continues off from Freak on the leash because it's a continuation of the idea of using art and creativity to release and/or understand the pain of life. Infact that's literally Jonathan's whole though process when it comes to KoRn lyrics in general. He's stated in many interviews before that they want to be the voice for the voiceless, a place for kids to understand they're not alone, that what they're going through isn't right, and that there is a way to escape it.

[@Budsandsuds75]

This needs to be a live talk show. She's so smart , She could be great on TV if given the opportunity

[@superblahman]

TV is a dying platform. KZbin is where it's at.

[@Cyan1de1312]

@@superblahman true dat

[@frankthedukes1564]

i love korn ...never abused...im a sport guy, baskeball, football swimming...high school was a breeze and actually fun for me.(college as well) but always appreciated jon and korn's music and message. My friend turned me on to them early on when before the came huge...... This song does hit hard. Seeing the kids outside pumping their fists and coming together gives me chillllllls. Top 5 band for me ever.

[@1k0Rn]

Same here, man. Never abused, but highly empathic, I deeply feel what John is singing about...

[@balduineldhopp4219]

I suffered physical and psychological abuse as a child at the hands of my mother, and I remember watching this video as a kid, feeling completely identified with it. Even though I dissociated from myself to cope with the pain, this song helped me understand I wasn’t the only kid experiencing violence. If it weren’t for this song, I wouldn’t be alive today, and I wouldn’t be a metalhead. Korn changed my life, and they’ll probably never know the impact they’ve had on me.

[@bethsline]

KoRn's music has been a therapeutic outlet for my for more than 20 years. Thank you for backing down their songs. I'm happy to have found your channel.

[@Wiaskme]

I've been there. Floating away from myself. Korn and family saved me. Truly. Keep doing these vids!!!

[@dandugan6852]

KoRn has saved many many people's lives with their songs....you need to listen to ALL their songs !!!!!!! EPIC !!!!!!!!

[@kristians07]

As a kid that delt with child abuse constantly your memories of happiness and childhood are gone. Suicidal thoughts were what kept me going in very dark times! I’m 42 and the happiest I have ever been.

[@rustysh1tbox652]

A thing I feel that is overlooked is the fact she has the band/music in the box and seeks them out in her worst times. Basically the music is there when you need it, also it can be a release/protection for those times and ultimately can help you escape the situation. It never leaves her and she carries the music with her. That’s my interpretation of the band in the box.

[@bobsmith613]

Jonathan Davis wrote this about his childhood. The final track is "Hey Daddy"... I strongly recommend finishing the trilogy.

[@digthis18]

i was gonna say this but i thought id look first haha yeah hey daddy is for a lack of a better word intense

[@shabeba86]

their song "Alone I break" will always have a spot in my heart and soul... dealing with depression and Borderline and some ptsd issues it hit al the right spots.

[@Burning_Rocket]

Recently, after watching this clip, I couldn't hold back my tears. As a child, I was physically abused and lived in fear, expecting it to happen again every day. I was able to leave there and live separately from my parents, but I still can't forget it. I don't think about it, but the reminder of those times can awaken emotions in me. I just wanted to share it.

[@HeartSupport]

From lu2910: @Burning_Rocket I'm so sorry that you lived through such a time in your life, I'm very grateful you're still here and in a better place. The hurt we experience, especially such unjust and traumatizing one, oftentimes will linger with us under our skin. We are able to build ourself up and move past it, but the memories still will spark up and make us feel as if we are reliving it all over again. One example I've heard about what trauma is like is a big ball bouncing rapidly around a box with a button. When the ball hits the button, we feel everything all over again and it hurts. As we grow as a person and find ourself and process our hurt, the ball shrinks and becomes slower. The effects drastically decrease, but the ball can still hit the button at any time. You are an incredible person and you are so much more than your hurt. You've come so far that the button is rarely pressed to remind you of these emotions, but the emotions will still come up to be processed at times. Know that your past is no longer your reality, and when you feel this way you are not going through this alone, and the feeling is only temporary. I am here with you my friend, I've very proud of you and I will be with you as you continue to persevere forwards <3

[@HeartSupport]

From lu2910: @Burning_Rocket I'm so sorry that you lived through such a time in your life, I'm very grateful you're still here and in a better place. The hurt we experience, especially such unjust and traumatizing one, oftentimes will linger with us under our skin. We are able to build ourself up and move past it, but the memories still will spark up and make us feel as if we are reliving it all over again. One example I've heard about what trauma is like is a big ball bouncing rapidly around a box with a button. When the ball hits the button, we feel everything all over again and it hurts. As we grow as a person and find ourself and process our hurt, the ball shrinks and becomes slower. The effects drastically decrease, but the ball can still hit the button at any time. You are an incredible person and you are so much more than your hurt. You've come so far that the button is rarely pressed to remind you of these emotions, but the emotions will still come up to be processed at times. Know that your past is no longer your reality, and when you feel this way you are not going through this alone, and the feeling is only temporary. I am here with you my friend, I've very proud of you and I will be with you as you continue to persevere forwards <3

[@HeartSupport]

From reem182: @Burning_Rocket Hey there, thank you for sharing a part of what you've endured. That is strong and courageous and your perseverance proves to me that you are meant to be here. I can't begin to imagine all the pain and trauma that weighs on your heart so many days from what you've experienced. I don't know why such horrible things happen to people, but I do believe that there is purpose and beauty in your life exactly as you are with all you have lived through. It's okay to still be broken by the evil that has happened to us. It's okay to not feel okay. Those emotions are brutal and they might always linger. I see your pain and your story is heartbreaking. But every hard thing you've endured gives me hope that you probably can't see right now. You have persevered where so many would give up, and I believe that your strength is serving as an example to people you might not even know. The fact that you are still here might be the example of hope someone else needs to stay alive today. I can't tell you how grateful I am that you are here and are willing to be vulnerable. This world needs more of that and you are a bright light in it. This pain does not have the power to overshadow your beauty and worth. I see you as someone so much more wonderful than the horrible ways you have been mistreated. You do not deserve to be abused and you are not defined by what others do to you. I believe in the hope you can't see right now, my friend. I am sending you all my love today and I am so proud of you for exactly who you are.

[@MatulKM]

This video reminded me why I loved Korn, as a kid/teenager it's easy to connect with the themes and concept even in a foreign language and the solace that the music provides in expressing the anger in a different way

[@ei446]

I experienced abuse as a teenager, and these songs were so so perfect in resonating with the emotions i felt then. Not just the lyrics, the sounds. the heaviness, everything. Its now 14 years later, and listening back to them is bittersweet; there's relief and pride and appreciation of how much this music impacted me positively back then, but it also acts as a time capsule. The minute this song comes on I can smell and feel the air around me exactly how it felt back then. It's surreal.

[@ericklandrud5356]

Survivor... when you flirted too closely, you know what it means to have pushed yourself out of life in this world and woken up changed. It hurts, but living thru the attempt hurts more, so it heals... eventually Lost count of my battles, but never lost yet. I am alive after them for a reason ...to help guide others, apparently, in some ways Creativity is a way out of pain!!!!!!!! Falling away, from this world, to come into our own

[@EVENMETAL]

Man, this one got me. I am sitting in my old room visiting my parents watching this. I live out of state and am helping my Dad after a heart surgery. Listening to this in my old room again opened up a lot of emotions as I was a terribly depressed young adult when this song was new. This was so therapeutic for me back then and am glad KoRn’s music still helps people today. Your videos are great btw. Keep it up 👍🏻

[@MrChrisrabbit]

I was a teenager when all these groups came out. It was all I listened to and that anger/raw rage was the only thing pushing through those years of apathy/depression/suicide attempts. Without it, I just curled into a ball, unable to move. As I found my footing and purpose in my 20s, I was able to let go of the heavy music. Still love the classics!

[@olafurjohannsson5165]

Holy shit this woman gets it. Korn saved thousands of people from going the suicide way. Me one of them.

[@noided583]

Lorna Shore - The Pain Remains parts 1-3. Could even make it a triple feature for the channel. It's really quite popular among people who tend to watch music reaction content and it deals with some incredibly painful subject matter, chiefly loss, grief and powerlessness and what that could lead a person toward. Might make for some very interesting discussion points!

[@kaynesheldon4905]

Absolutely!

[@AnthonyBusted]

She react to first part

[@noided583]

oh awesome!@@AnthonyBusted

[@JenHarris-n6t]

Austin blows my mind

[@xMXWLx]

6:28 her having the band in her room and all the kids outside chanting is like a huge metaphor of how this music connected so many kids. even though we were in pain, we were in it together. we all made it through.

[@williammann376]

Crack The Skye by Mastodon. The drummer's younger sister, Skye, took her own life. The band wrote the song as a tribute. Brann (drummer) sings the clean vocal parts too.

[@pandamanda3182]

This is why I will always go back to Korn, they are a form of therapy for us. All of these songs came out when I was going through similar things and my only outlet was music. They not only made lyrics I could feel and relate to, but the rage is something I understood. Even if I go years without listening to them consistently, I always come back and it's usually at a time I need to work through something. I sleep listening to them at times. People always told me 'If you listen to that you'll just get more depressed and angrier', but it helps me get that out. I've learned how to disassociate whenever I want to now. I'm in therapy now but this still helps.

[@bradhaines3142]

that's always been so weird to me. people in dark times can listen to dark music, and feel comfort know other people have made it out the other side of the same pain. but people who dont seem to understand the pain, it makes them sad.

[@GTBAnime]

In first grade i was "touched" by an entire classroom of 8th graders and no one believed me, not even the psychiatrist. It made life hard for a while, and made it so i listened to people.

[@thedarkestmindvlogsandgame7323]

Korn mudvayn and tool have helped me a lot throughout the year's interesting to watch your reactions

[@danielbeard7045]

In the end, music saved her ❤

[@frankhermansen243]

exactly

[@davidward9737]

Thank you Taylor for reaching out to us. You are the best.. From my husband and i, we are sorry too. You make a difference

[@Uschinatir]

Please more Korn ❤

[@LJ-yz4ob]

Korn is so good! They sing songs that are uncomfortable, and force it into the limelight, which is good. It needs to be out there and talked about. I wasn’t abused as a child, but at 16 I was pregnant and got married. My former husband mentally, physically, and sexually abused me. At 21 I left and got divorced. I did start standing up for myself and fighting back.

[@paulkepshire5056]

5:07 The trauma-related disassociation and out-of-body experience you mention is so palpable... That's exactly what I feel (vicariously) when watching this video. I think the box represents the inner turmoil/pain/grief/trauma that the girl is looking at from outside and above. Very powerful imagery and symbolism either way.

[@kenhoward2340]

I’m 51. Korn has saved me in so many ways. I named my son Jonathan, after JD. He’s a lifesaver

[@pczalizo]

Corn is a very powerful band. I was listening to them without understanding what are they saying about. English is not my first language, I have learned it about a year ago. And when I start listen to them again, just few weeks ago, I have been realized that my condition in the past was similar with many of their songs. I do not like to call to memory. there was violence, betrayals, alcoholism and drugs. depression, dissociative disorder, eating disorder, suicidal thoughts and failed attempts. then, 8 years of cleanliness from any substances. Now I am a grown man with a failed business due to the war in my country and i've has lost my family (my ex-wife left me six months ago, taking our child). The only thing I'm glad about is that all the people close to me are alive. And I don’t lose heart. I'm still not okay but this beautiful and disturbing music is worth listening to. Author of the channel, thank you for your reactions and comments on the songs. I wish everyone good mental and physical health. Take care of yourself.

[@HeartSupport]

From satty22: @pczalizo Wishing you good mental and physical health as well! Thanks so much for sharing. Your life matters and you are not alone. Sending some love your way!

[@HeartSupport]

From OneStepAtATime: @pczalizo Hello there friend! Thank you so much for posting. We appreciate you. Music can bring people together. It can bring out emotions we have never felt. And it can give us a home and community. It has brought us together today, which i am so thankful for. You have been through so much. Way more than any person should. I see your strength, I see your struggle, and I see YOU. You are so brave. Please remember you will always have us here at Heart Support. Keep the music bumping! -Blake

[@HeartSupport]

From OneStepAtATime: @pczalizo Hello there friend! Thank you so much for posting. We appreciate you. Music can bring people together. It can bring out emotions we have never felt. And it can give us a home and community. It has brought us together today, which i am so thankful for. You have been through so much. Way more than any person should. I see your strength, I see your struggle, and I see YOU. You are so brave. Please remember you will always have us here at Heart Support. Keep the music bumping! -Blake

[@HeartSupport]

From TenaciousGrace: @pczalizo Hello friend! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and a bit of your story as well. That can be hard for many to do and your bravery to share does not go unnoticed. First I want to say, considering English is not your first language and you only learned it a year ago, you speak it very well! It is definitely not an easy language to learn. So that's awesome! Secondly, Korn is an amazing band and their lyrics resonate deep with many, including myself. The lyrics combined with the music can be super therapeutic for me. I am so sorry you have had so many hard experiences in your past that bring forth difficult memories. Congratulations on your sobriety from all substances! That's awesome and I am so proud of you! It takes a lot of self-discipline and hard work to not only get clean but stay clean yet you are doing it! Again, that shows immense strength and courage! I am sorry to hear about your marriage. I know that loss must be hard. It sounds like you have grown a lot over the years and sometimes as we age and grow, we can also grow apart from people we thought we would be in our lives for good. So maybe it wasn't so much a failure than it was that you two simply grew apart as you both aged and went through things. Endings can also bring forth new opportunities. I hope in time, you continue to heal from the things you have gone through and end up finding someone new that brings you confidence, peace, and happiness.

[@HeartSupport]

From TenaciousGrace: @pczalizo Hello friend! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and a bit of your story as well. That can be hard for many to do and your bravery to share does not go unnoticed. First I want to say, considering English is not your first language and you only learned it a year ago, you speak it very well! It is definitely not an easy language to learn. So that's awesome! Secondly, Korn is an amazing band and their lyrics resonate deep with many, including myself. The lyrics combined with the music can be super therapeutic for me. I am so sorry you have had so many hard experiences in your past that bring forth difficult memories. Congratulations on your sobriety from all substances! That's awesome and I am so proud of you! It takes a lot of self-discipline and hard work to not only get clean but stay clean yet you are doing it! Again, that shows immense strength and courage! I am sorry to hear about your marriage. I know that loss must be hard. It sounds like you have grown a lot over the years and sometimes as we age and grow, we can also grow apart from people we thought we would be in our lives for good. So maybe it wasn't so much a failure than it was that you two simply grew apart as you both aged and went through things. Endings can also bring forth new opportunities. I hope in time, you continue to heal from the things you have gone through and end up finding someone new that brings you confidence, peace, and happiness.

[@djmastergroove946]

Jonathan Davies had a very painful and traumatic childhood. The 2 song's Freak on a Leash and Falling away from me, the video's we're an expression of that time! Powerful, Raw, Emotion.

[@DarlingPikaQueen]

I relate to this song VERY much so, this is literally my whole life up from age 9 to 29 yrs old... I spent yrs suffering n had yrs of my family conditioning me to be completely codependent on them n told I couldn't amount or do anything n could only survive as long as they were in control of me... it didn't help that I am also disabled n deal with chronic illnesses so it was harder for me to leave but I got the help I needed n changed my life for the better as an adult... I am living much happier n no longer being abused and able to live life the way I want vs just living to just live... This song saved me.

[@ozmatazbuckshank8090]

I have experienced abuse resulting in a myriad of mental health issues, PTSD etc. How you say that it feels like you're disembodied, like you're floating outside of yourself, that is so accurate. I've never been able to put it into words. Thank you. It feels nice to see people like yourself feeling the music the same way I, and I'm sure many other people feel it. Your reaction to this song helped me to feel just that bit more understood. Love your work.

[@martincastrogiovanni812]

I love how you, as a therapist, do not disassociate your feelings from what you are experiencing. I can imagine that in session, you have now choice, but to see your genuine reaction, you are probably a huge asset to your patients. Let me thank you for them

[@dylancrosby6891]

I've always taken this song to be a "we know, we care" type message, released in 1999 that's pre smartphone, and pre internet for most normal families, these days if you're a kid being abused you can google and seek help or forums and find support, back then, you kept it to yourself in the fear that anything you said would just get back to your abuser, this was Korn saying, we've been there, we get it, and we're going to get you through this

[@chetnolan7496]

First of all I love your channel and I love you !🤟❤️. I really feel a connection to you and your understanding of the songs that you listen to and your ability to express yourself to the viewers !

[@timhmetal3499]

Some scars never heal, some memories never fade, you just try to become numb to the pain and pretend it's ok.

[@chuckgaskins]

As someone that grew with music as a outlet from King Diamond to death core. Most of my issues an hate stem from being in the navy asking for help an not getting any. Got kicked out an since in 2000 people say its ok but its never ok. An Korn has been one of my outlets. Thank you for all you do helping the lost an misguided like an others.

[@BrokenStrings231]

Through of these 24 years that I've been on this earth, I've struggeled with so much abuse due to the way I looked when I was a kid which resulted in me stuttering, which I still do to this day. It caused me so much trauma, destroyed me so many times, always creeps around the corner, but it also taught me a lot on how I can start loving myself, how I can move forward and that I'm not alone. It's different listening to bands like Korn and listening to lyrics now that I'm older, that I started to work on my issues and that I'm studying social work so I could help other people. It's nice not feeling alone.

[@RikkeMyE]

Hi, 37 year old woman from Denmark here / this is still my favourite song, 20 years…. And yes its the continuation and they are next to each other on the album 😅

[@Jermusicislife84]

Like most ppl, I discovered Korn at a perfect time. Their music saved me. I had just left high school where I was being bullied and I had just got out of an abusive relationship with my then girlfriend who was abusive towards ME. I wish so much I could thank the guys for helping me through and preventing me from committing suicide.

[@masonyuzwa8717]

Damn..i just found your stuff and you're already diving pretty deep into the nu metal scene !! Welcome to your nu rabbit hole..these bands have some of the most diverse and somewhat touchy messages !! But I'm sure as a therapist you've heard some of this before and are well equipped to dive into the deep end of this !! I'll be watching !!

[@ericpeterson7512]

Ok I'm seeing this now as an important channel. A therapist who can relate to metal. That's big right there. Music has always been cathartic, and at least somewhat reflective of the inner landscape of the writer. Metal music is there to express pain, rage, frustration, defiance, rebellion. I've often thought of metal as a therapeutic tool. It's a gift to have someone knowledgeable and empathetic to dig into the feelings expressed in metal, and the feelings that arise from it. Metal can be an incredible catharsis. It can be a way of feeling some form of belonging, of being seen and understood. A template for rebellion. A shout of solidarity. I think in the right hands it can be an awesome therapeutic tool. You seem insightful and supportive. I'm excited to see this! Thank you for bringing this channel to the world! Big thumbs up! ❤

[@jenBuruato]

This band is so important as some other bands that tell these stories if this band and music didn't exist I don't think I would still be here it makes you feel less alone. I dealt with SA from my Dad until I was 13 and even now as an adult it never leaves you but somehow these songs still help. Thank you for such a great reaction.

[@stephensutton2546]

KoЯn got me through so much growing up, they are, to this day my favorite band. Someday i hope to meet them and thank them for helping to keep me here.

[@franzwohlgemuth2002]

@HeartSupport Korn got me through tons of abuse... I listened to Korn from the first album on. Music is therapy. Never thought of ending it by my own hand. I didn't care if someone else did, however. Which got me into some very dangerous situations (like picking a fight with a biker gang by kicking over all their bikes).....

[@danlesieur]

Love your natural responses to Korn's music 🤘✊ Also, I just realized Korn comes in to protect & rescue the child! #storyofmylife 🥹❤

[@mattd457]

I’m a huge KORN fan and listening to these brings me back to my childhood… sitting in my room alone just me my bad thoughts and korn blasted in my headphones

[@yoiitsthenoid9461]

I've seen this music viceo god knows how many times, but I never really noticed that the box she has is very symbolic. When she opens it up it's all her bottled up emotions coming out, and when she leaves and she turns back and it all goes back into the box, it's her traumas and pain going back inside her because no matter where she goes, it'll always be there.

[@kaylzshter6153]

Look fam, I typed out some shit and honestly? My formatting was terrible and I lost my train of thought, so I deleted it. In any case, you seem like a better human than me by far, and in my short time on this channel so far, I have come to admire your outlook on the music that was such a big part of my formative years. OP, you have heart, and you seem to care about people, and you don't seem to let cynicism or despair run your life. That's whats up. You just reminded this jaded old girl that every tunnel has light at the ends, even if you have to dig through collapsed rubble to get to it. Much

[@stevenbanks1548]

I mean. Basically the first four or five records are just... Working through trauma. No wonder it spoke to so many people.

[@jaylowery5445]

MORE KORN!!! Bad ass band been a fan since 1994 helped me thru a lot

[@benjithefox1278]

Most of my days I often get feeling disassociated with myself because my childhood made me wish I could escape. By the time it was proven that I needed help away from it, I was mostly disassociated with myself. Music has this healing ability to me to help me through my struggles. I did the best I could to hang on and gotten myself therapy when I needed it. Sometimes the isolation abuse has me feel like I haven't had much experience with life enough to connect very well. I just do the best I can to survive and be myself.

[@HeartSupport]

From GaryYounOG: @benjithefox1278 It sounds like you've been through a lot, and I truly admire your strength taken to navigate such challenging experiences. Music’s healing power is remarkable, offering solace and a form of escape when the weight of past trauma feels too heavy. It’s heartening to hear that it helps carry you through tough times. Dealing with dissociation, especially as a result of a difficult childhood, is incredibly tough. This coping mechanism, while protective at times, can make it challenging to stay connected with yourself and the world around you. It’s understandable that you might feel as though your experiences have isolated you, limiting your ability to fully engage with life and connect with others. This feeling of being somewhat outside of normal experiences is a common aftermath of enduring abuse. I'm glad to hear that you’ve taken significant steps towards healing. That’s a powerful decision and a vital part of caring for your mental health. You’re actively working towards recovery, and every effort you make is meaningful. You mentioned doing your best to survive and be yourself-this is incredibly important. Each day you continue to push forward, you are asserting your strength and your commitment to living your life despite the difficulties you’ve faced. It’s okay if the journey feels slow or if the path forward isn’t always clear. What matters is that you are moving, that you are striving, and that you are acknowledging your struggles while also working through them. Perhaps exploring new activities or interests could further assist in creating connections and enriching your life experience. Joining groups or classes that align with your interests, whether they’re related to music or something entirely new, can be a good way to meet new people and form connections. This doesn’t have to be a big commitment-a casual meet-up or even online forums and groups can be a starting point. When I’m under similar situations, I found volunteering to be beneficial as a way to step outside of my own experiences and contribute to something larger. This was incredibly fulfilling for me and it helped me forge new social bonds and add to my life experiences in meaningful ways. Thank you for sharing your journey with such openness. Please remember, your best is absolutely more than enough. You're doing what you can to heal and grow, and that deserves acknowledgment and respect. Keep taking care of yourself, and know that it’s perfectly fine to take things one step at a time.

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: @benjithefox1278 There is no doubt that you are doing more than enough to survive and to keep on seeking what life has good to offer to you, friend. Numbness especially is such a frustrating and difficult reaction to overcome, especially when it stems from trauma. Although it serves us and help us cope in adverse circumstances - or what feels like it in the present. I'm so proud of you for not giving up on yourself and for letting things such as music be a healing funnel to you. It's amazing what it can do. Rest assured that you are not alone. :heart:

[@hed_rollins]

Korn is my favorite band. I give Jonathan the highest respect. There is a video where he talks about how he is struggling with depression. It inspires me a lot!

[@fyisic]

As a teen i was really into Korn and while i didnt have abuse issues i had a lot of insecurity issues and suicidal thoughts. What Korn did for me was with the brutally honest lyrics come down and grab me and with the instrumentals give me strength and help me proccess those intense teenage emotions. In other words, with lyrics say " hey your not alone" and with the instrumentals "lets fight together".

[@lancemalvey597]

I've watched this music video during it's release, Though I cried with your explanation.... I don't cry. My abuser is dead (after he attempted to murder me and my mother, it's idk some say it was karma.) I myself now as a man disasociate quickly and i will admit somedays are harder with coming to terms with it.... but I still deal with his slanders destroying my name. His friend's are a rough crew (bikers not chill ones) trying to cope with coming to the realization that i'm a murder survivor actually is heavier to hold then everything else bothering me (ptsd wise or his friends) people sadly don't take men seriously when they bring up this stuff.... well cry and rant over, Thank you. i needed that.

[@guitarone47]

I think one of Korn's best music videos to analyze is also one of the least reacted on all of KZbin: "Thoughtless"... That video helped me a lot since I also suffered a lot of bullying of that type. GREETINGS FROM ARGENTINA. I subscribe...

[@dextercree1]

Korn is a dope band love their music!!

[@Djcimofficial]

Came home from school one day and this was the first music video I ever saw on MTV2

[@kaceylinne344]

keep up the amazing work. make me bad, here to stay, alone i break, narcissistic cannibal, lets go, get up, never never, rotting in vain, black is the soul, a different world, take me, cold, you'll never find me, the darkness is revealing, idiosyncrasy, finally free, can you hear me, h@rder, this loss, let the dark do the rest, start the healing, worst is on the way. also what it is by jonathon davis from his solo album

[@HeinrichHiedrick-ec7jo]

My childhood was straight from a Stephen king novel. Almost daily verbal abuse, every other day physical abuse, and weekly blowouts from the “person” who fathered me. Grabbed, slapped, thrashed, spat on. All while my mother was trying to stop it. I would NEVER go back to being a child, I never fantasize about my childhood like other lucky adults. However, I’m grateful I made it through. I can’t verbalize how great it makes me feel to be able to be the dad I wanted when I was a kid. What’s crazy is my kids are SO WELL BEHAVED. Disciplining them is almost completely unnecessary. The love I get the privilege of showing made my childhood worth it. And now, as a father I can’t understand how he could have treated his kids the way he did. I simply can’t even imagine hitting my kids or verbally denigrating them. Anyways. It was a horror at the time, but I’m grateful.

[@PatBlackwell-z3i]

Thank you for your help resources and support for folks in need of HELP

[@Futtbucker3000]

Was just listening to the song when I noticed you uploaded, it's my favorite song so thanks for reacting to it

[@Saiyan7R]

The very first song that got me into Korn. I used to listen to the song to cope with suicidal thoughts and many many other feelings. The chorus beating me down, I used to think of it as if life is just beating me to the ground. When there's no one else, Korn is the safe place to go to. I never experienced domestic abuse, but sending prayers to anyone out there experiencing such horror or any shit overall. There's always light at the end of the tunnel.

[@Willowposting]

As someone who experienced abuse as a child, and well until I was a legal adult (sometimes past that), Korns music touches me in a way not much other music can. I grew up thinking it was normal, and this song (and others) were a big part in realizing that this wasn’t something healthy functional families do to their children. I spent a very long part of my teenage years very suicidal and trying to disassociate from people I loved, out of fear of further abuse. Thankfully, I got out of that, but it still has lingering effects and I still have to take anti depressants. I tried my best to protect my younger siblings from a similar experience.

[@LunaCorbden]

I’m watching this from a hotel because I had to get out of my house today. My elderly mother, I’m her caretaker along with my son, has become increasingly manipulative and abusive. She always has been, but I tolerated it and set boundaries as best I could. But I’m completely beyond out of energy, on my 5th burnout in two years that I’ve never fully recovered from, getting too sick to take care of myself much less her, so today I just needed out of there. I’m going to clear my head a couple of days and decide what to do next. But something has to change. I’m familiar with Korn from my youth, but never really realized the depths of these lyrics as you’ve insightfully pulled out in this and Freak on a Leash. They are exactly how I’m feeling right now. So thank you. ❤️ I’m a writer specializing in psychology, so I “know” all this stuff, but situations find a way to trap you regardless.

[@thomasmorisette9042]

Graduating in 1999 I only listened to rap, about 2001 I started listening to they by accident and quickly related to not only this song but the full Issues album, really got me through some tough times and 23 years later just saw them perform for the 20th time live 😎

[@Lymsley]

Was a Korn fan from the jump… yeah I’m old. When Falling Away from Me dropped, it was one of the first times, I can remember, feeling a part of something larger than myself… probably a mixture of timing & Korn’s popularity reaching a critical mass… but, people around me where starting to wise up to this music, that it wasn’t just angry, angsty self indulgence. This music has soul, intelligence, emotion & a message. 1st time seeing your channel, hope to see more soon.

[@VV-or8es]

#heartsupport You are doing important work. Thank you. Keep the torch burning!

[@CoryGarcia-ck5dd]

I like the metaphor of the video . Korn is in the music box . So in her abuse from her father she opens up the box and looks to them . And even at her darkest moments of tears she sees korn in front of her as a manifestation of her overcoming her abuse . So korn is saying whenever your down open the music box (records or songs) and well always be here when youre going through your trauma. Been a fan since 94 . I got out of my hopeless abusive situation. You can too . Dont give up . There is a way out

[@synshenron798]

I was never "abused" by my family. I was never in domestic violence or anything like that. I just felt so broken inside all the time and I was my own abuser. I would mentally berate myself day in and day out. My inner voice would just come screaming and hollering at me as Id lay on my floor crying. After my first failed attempt I went to my bedroom and wept on the floor as I could hear my inner voice screaming that I was so pathetic and worthless that I couldnt even take my life without messing it up. All through my teen years and into my twenties ive lived like that. People would always tell me "dont beat yourself up, mistakes happen" and things of that nature. Meanwhile in my head all I could do was berate myself and make sure I felt as shitty as possible for making mistakes or just not being good enough. Ive never been abused by either of my parents. But if abuse is anything like the way I was treated in school and at work. I can definitley say I understand being abused. Too anyone like me, you arent alone. I get it, many days it feels like everyone says that but theyll never truly understand. They will. And even if they dont there are those who want to help because they shed a tear for every person who suffers in silence. I am that guy, I know how bad some days can be. And I want to be the voice that talks someone down from that ledge. I hope and pray no one ever has to go through that shit. Sadly I know they will, but I hope they have a friend to walk with them through the shit storm. Good luck to whoever reads this and I hope you have an amazing day🫰

[@SpielkindFR]

That opening chord still runs a shiver down my spine. Even after so many years.

[@TheHuggyzim]

I love your videos. Another great Korn song. These songs really helped me through my teens in the 90s. I used to record their songs off the radio wirh my tape deck 😂 Korn is my favorite band, and their songs talk about a lot of things that I experienced as a scapegoat. I didn't find the help I needed as a child like in this song. I wish I would have. No one believed me 😢

[@gstevenson7781]

This is genuinely turning into one of my favourite channels due to the content and your reactions. I’d like to recommend “Poet and the Pendulum” live at Wembley by Nightwish. It is not the normal song people start with when it comes to Nightwish, however it is the song that suits this channel the most as it deals with depression and struggle. It was written by Nightwish’s song writer the keyboardist Tuomas during the hardest time in the bands history and he basically ended his life in the song to stop himself doing it in real life, however the new song finishes positively with a new beginning. It is one of the best written pieces of music you will come across and is broken into Acts. I won’t say more about it. Nightwish hold the record for most reacted song in KZbin history with “Ghost Love Score” (normally what people start their Nightwish journey with. However, as previously mentioned, “Poet” suits this channel perfectly, especially if the research is done on the songs meaning beforehand.

[@ojohnnylawotwitch7110]

I think the part when Korn enters her room shows it’s louder. Growing up listening to Korn I used to crank it up at bad times as a release of anger to sing along, and Korn being in her room says to me that although it’s bad Korn is there for you. Music is a release.

[@adamv1715]

All the rage, sadness, disassociation, grief etc kids feel can all be worked out within one hour in a pit. It's a place to let it all go and truly be yourself.

[@joelporter6743]

Thanks for doing this and all your videos. You open up the window to these artists' souls and really have incredible insights. I have dealt with suicidal ideation and attempted as early as 7. Thàt is one of the reasons I listen to this group. And other rock bands that talk about it. You are right. I just wanted an escape from the pain. Wow! I'm glad I stumbled on to this.

[@cheetara32]

So many bands at this time in the metal scene were bringing up the difficult topics that were still being avoided. Those that suffered found so much solace in this music and the community of people that could relate. Society saw metal heads as aggressive and often associated this music with psychopaths when actually it was often the complete opposite....Everyone seeks a way to process difficult emotions and experiences... Metal music helped get some anger out without it being directed physically towards others.... music is so special

[@W4r34rt]

It's so weird, because I listened excessively to Korn and this song never made me emotional. But now over a decade later, with your commentary about suicidal ideation, made me cry. It took me years to realize why I "flirt with suicide". On point explanation.

[@artforalex2085]

Your reaction videos are so wonderful. You have a great soul. Thank you. ❤

[@andrejsandal2382]

Loved the video, and love what you do. Just got here from a Ren binge on your channel. Flip side of the coin, but do you know how calming it is for me, knowing I can end myself and no one being able to stop me? It's like I always have a place to go, no matter what happens or how badly I mess up. This realisation has been my rock since early teens, and my further life experiences only solidified it. Ironically it's the thing that kept me alive at my lowest, and after I failed previous attempts. At the bottom I found solace, seeking what I once thought the end.

[@Underournorthernstar]

Hatebreed had a video similar to this I remember from when I was a teen "To the Threshold" Always have respect for anybody bringing attention to domestic/child abuse.

[@robertellison100]

Thank you Taylor for doing this song. I flirted with the big S a few yrs ago, but at the last second I spit the pills out. Since that nite, I've never felt that urge again. I don't know what it was, but I'm glad that whatever changed my mind, did. IMO the song, Thoughtless by Korn, would be part of a great trilogy. Hope you can get to that song one day. Keep up the great work 👍🏻

[@chadgibson2820]

Jonathan Davis displays rage perfectly in a musical way. The one thing you don't talk about is the gift of rage. Rage helps us out of this pain and motivates us to strive ahead. We have a choice, we give in to the pain or we use the rage to crawl out. The trick is to control that rage that we utilize from the molestation.

[@kaylzshter6153]

2:00 you're right, i wish I knew how to guide people who are at risk, away from me, and to actual help.

[@stevenbanks1548]

This music video did a lot for me at the time it came out. I was right around the incredible young actresses' age. I used to watch this video and dream about saving her from her situation. It wasnt until much later in my life and therapy that I understood this obsession for what it was.

[@ja7941]

This band This band Saved me more times then you can imagine literally put a gun to my head and was ready to give it all up everything I was everything I could be this Korn saved me no one can save me no one I'm a monster walking along with humanity

[@bhurzumii4315]

This was the opening track of my workout playlist during my last tour of Iraq. This song always makes me anticipate 2 hours of pain, sweat and maximum effort! It's a banger! Oh, and you should watch "thoughtless" - it's another great track with "abuse and revenge" as its central theme.