Homeless man is candid about being molested at 9 years-old

[@wetatonce]

He sounds like he's gonna start cryin any second. Sad. Hope he's fine

[@milespennington5255]

Don’t blame him.

[@butterflywatching34]

I hope so too afwul story

[@z3me1]

yeah crazy its mostly when he talkin about god ,when he says he didnt deserve gods love or that he always loved god and then certain key words like pain, kindness, comunity, love etc

[@chmstx7251]

Your highly emotional when on opiates

[@JohnMichael-mm2lu]

@@chmstx7251 was never on opiates except tobacco

[@porky6xx]

God Bless this man . you can tell he still has a lot of hurt inside

[@chmstx7251]

That hurt doesn't go away. You just temporarily numb it , which is where drugs come into play. And around around it goes. The vicious cycle that will be an issue with the human race untill the end of time

[@_S-O-S_]

So much pain in his voice... It is heartbreaking... I don't think people understand that people break too...

[@JohnMichael-mm2lu]

Hi, I'm John from this video. Had no idea it is still getting looked at. I'm very touched by your comments and stories. Love yourself through thick and thin. I do a lot of homeless outreach in my home town and some writing. Still healing some but my peace is deep and I feel very solid as a human

[@GodisInYourJobSearch]

Hi John. I pray you’re well on this Easter Sunday. Your story continues to inspire. Let us know how we can help you and your ministry. 💟💟✝️

[@asdfghjk8876]

Hi hope you’re doing fine

[@BlackieBluelick88]

“Walking wounded” hit me with a truth bomb that has changed my mind, good work brother.

[@woodsprite007]

I find his honesty very refreshing.

[@adiscourse9489]

Did anyone else instantly love this man? ❤️

[@itsjustrenee1320]

I advocate capital punishment for pedophiles. It destroys children. He's wonderful. I hope he found his way.

[@a_legitimate_salvage]

Our political world is run by them.

[@benbrice9343]

You damn right. Removal of their twig and berry's at the very least. Just about anything would be better than what we have now.

[@benbrice9343]

@@a_legitimate_salvage It sickens me to my core because I know what your saying is the truth. They will all have to answer for they've done one day.

[@666blindrider]

All the pedos should be castrated. I've read that they want to legalize pedophilia. Even Oprah said pedophilia is ok if your doing it right. 👿

[@TimeWatch5]

This channel is so interesting

[@CharcoalDove]

Lovely man.

[@InvisiblePeople]

+Theresa Dove Music I agree

[@guitarttimman]

Females do not even get it. The AT WILL employment law takes your freedom away more than it does mine. Sure, a young lady can make a lot of money living the life of a prostitute, but look at the chances she has to take, and what happens if the pimp gets mad? How is this analogous to AT WILL employment? Well, AT WILL employment gives the employer KING or QUEEN status. IT means they can fire people for no reason. Suppose the rich chicken hawks have their eye on some young petite meat. All they need is her social security number and they can make sure she is shut out of the employment circle. That means no job. Oh but she wants to live right? The chick hawk drives up and tells her he knows how she can make big bucks quick. Do you think it's not being done? Think again. Abolish that law, and that young lady can get a job, take pride in know that she is control of what she chooses to do, and become be free. Our country is being controlled by thugs, and I am against that. Although there are some females in high positions who are giving me problems, I am always fighting for female rights and trying to advise them not to do things they will regret later in life.

[@guywade5413]

He is working on being without Pride...Thats beautiful...

[@harmonyjones8035]

@@guitarttimman Who are you talking to? You make some good points but in response to what?

[@guitarttimman]

I'm just trying to make a point to anyone who reads it. When I was younger, I got caught up in that game because I thought I had something to prove to the world. What was wrong with me? I was drugged and raped when I was 13 years old, but I'm not gay. There are some very sick minded people where I live. I know now, had that not happened to me, I would've chosen a different route. What really hurts me is that I used the very ones who were trying to help me, but that's what happens when someone goes insane. Perhaps, if someone, a female, would've just sat down with me and really pep talked me, I would've snapped out of it. I live with guilt every day, and sometimes it's battle of the bulge with me, but I'm really not a bad guy. I understand reality now, and that life can't be that way. So here I am once again straddling the middle line not wanting to harm anyone. I'm a heterosexual, but I can control my desire, I'm not an offender, but sometimes I have deal with bulge in paints. That's because I was married for a number of years and had a lot of girl friends. Sometimes, though, I wish I would've just kept to myself and not gotten involved in any of that crazy stuff. Human life and dignity is worth more to me than anything. The female souls is beautiful, and the last thing I want to do is hurt that, I just do the best I can to be the perfect gentleman.

[@emilystahl1847]

His spirit is inspiring

[@electriman77]

This man is very Courageous

[@AnthonyRizzo2]

A full night restful sleep is crucial to well-balanced thought. One could go insane without enough productive sleep and this is what homeless people are mostly prevented from doing. How is a homeless person supposed to keep his sanity if the police are perpetually interrupting him when he is trying to sleep? Another crucial problem is residency, the homeless are technically speaking not residents because they do not have a home address, so they can’t register to vote, they can’t get a driver’s license. They can’t receive mail and they can’t find work or pay taxes so they can’t pull themselves out of homelessness without direct outside intervention and nobody wants to sponsor this help.

[@humphreyheimmersmith8131]

truth

[@seanodwyer8691]

last night why ahh was in the street sleeping all my food was stolen. the churchs dish it out, and young horny Tahiti girls p pray for us Bums with their hands on our knees.

[@Jamesglover71]

“There was really never a battle in the the first place.” Dude, that’s the most epic thing I’ve ever heard about redemption.. You have a place to stay if you’re ever in Louisville.

[@saraH-yu1mx]

As someone with PTSD from abuse, if I didn’t have family that was well off, I could very well be in his position. Half of the time I feel frozen and time passes me by staring at a wall. PTSD is a beast. This poor man.

[@ConnorElliot]

It's strong of him to be able to open up about the abuse...

[@geezer1244]

I love this guy he's hurt really bad inside I hope he's doing okay.

[@Capgungoesbang]

He had a lot of really good things to say.

[@DocDave77]

You're a wise and gentle man John, light years ahead of most of us. Wish there was a way I could reach you and help you up.

[@Sameoldfitup]

"Death is one moment, and life is so many of them." Tennessee Williams.

[@luiscalvillo3725]

This is a beautiful man.

[@gregbradshaw7220]

Seeing him on the verge of breaking down is heartbreaking but I see so much true heart in this guy, hope he can find the right path

[@entic432]

this hurts me so much to watch, as he recounts his memories i remember mine. i'm a struggling alcoholic faced with a similar scenario. yet i'm lucky enough to have a home, but accepted ill one day live on the street as an outcast. people just don't understand the life long mental pain and worthlessness of being sexually abused as a child.

[@wasiswillbe1010]

some people do understand, all to well. Maybe listening to some of the videos in my playlist titled, "Overcoming Sexual Abuse" might help you some or maybe not but you won't know until after you give it a try. I do not believe there is a cure, at least not while in this world, but I believe there are some constructive things we can do for some temporary relief from the sting of the sharp edges, if not continually relieved, at least long enough to keep survivors from being driven deeper into the escape provided by addiction, used to numb the unbelievable pain that remains of past trauma that nothing in this world can undo. Salute sojourner

[@spencerk4077]

I understand what your going through. I’m also a survivor

[@stephaniefisher2241]

I understand.

[@kristinah9917]

I’ve watched a lot of these interviews and John’s is one of my favorite. He’s so likable and relatable in his honesty and pain, and articulates it so well. Thank you for this channel - it has truly opened my eyes to the homelessness experience.

[@timuruntopalayagi4282]

Hello from Germany

[@posivibez2094]

This channel is amazing. Very moving powerful interview.

[@joshprice1350]

John you are awesome,,,,,I loved your video. Im sorry that man hurt you when you were a child,,,keep spreading love love , people need you!

[@Jyoutube282]

this is powerful.... Great Channel really impacted me a lot.

[@katiemerrick7232]

Bless this man. He seems very broken. Hope he has got mental health support

[@jerrypapi80]

Amen

[@CreateYourWorth]

Each person they interview answer the wish question basically the same. They want others to love each other more. They never mention about having more money.

[@rg8637]

CreateYourWorth I noticed the same thing.

[@InteractiveIdea]

When you live on the street, survival is based on the kindness of strangers. So they wish for that...

[@ijustdoyoutube3556]

NotMe, spot on.

[@nkiru61]

My favorite response has been...” I wish I didn’t need 3 wishes”. ☺️😢

[@jaywilbur515]

pain unfortunately brings us either closer together or farther apart. Its beautiful when it brings us closer together. He proves it

[@Claudia-cr2pm]

John WOW that is what i have been searching for as well but i didnt even know it. the rawness of your humanity, the walking wounded. WOW. i want to follow your writing, your thoughta. how?

[@jamesbeargeoff]

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[@karenhoward3662]

I love him. So sorry for everything that has happened to you. You are smart and wonderful hope life gets better for you. I been thur some bad things also but I move on and smile at everyone. Life is good today. Much love from Louisiana.

[@angelaviolet]

Poor man, he's a lovely true soul surviving this life. He's doing a good job looking after himself.

[@z.alvarez1315]

I’m so sorry you had to experience all this. I hope you found housing and are doing better. Child abuse in all its horrible forms is so traumatizing & damaging.

[@rialtaf2239]

When you have nothing and your life revolves around surviving day-to-day, there’s no room for bull****, this man has no faces to put on, no ego to feed, just a display of raw genuineness. Everyone should loose everything once in there lives. These videos are so refreshing and inspiring. I look up to these people, I respect them for the fact that they are doing it, they are surviving, they are making the best of what they have and what you see if what you get. No room for fluff and BS.

[@danielrivera4423]

I love u bro I really do You deserve the best True story

[@JoshsDigitalinteractions]

This is by far my most favorite video, I love this guy. God bless you John !

[@postscript5549]

For some reason this particular homeless man really spoke to me. He is articulate and self aware. I certainly wish him well.

[@wriston2]

What an amazing interview. What a truly beautiful soul.... I can certainly relate to this man on so many levels. First time seeing your videos. If I can help a lil being unemployable.. imagine what those with a steady income could do. Matthew 25:40 And the King will reply, 'Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of Mine, you did for Me.' Bless you all. Will keep you in my prayers

[@middysmamma]

This man is extremely talented and highly intelligent!! With proper treatment and TLC, this man can be integrated back into the mainstream of society. God love him!!

[@jj1211]

I was raped at 13.I didn't have the capacity to deal with it and a large portion of my life was ruined. My 3 wishes are: 1.For the law to be about justice. 2.For all the supportive people out there to have contentment and love in their lives. 3. To have my own home😅 I'm halfway through a social care degree, god willing, I will grant this one for myself..someday❣ Thanks for posting.

[@asdfghjk8876]

Did u get the degree

[@TA-hg8qm]

I know when I finally dealt with the hurts from my past it didnt take much for me to cry. Even though I had gone through the first stages of healing; great sadness and brokenness my raw feelings remained on the surface for quite some time. Healing takes time. I think his tears are a good thing...he is no longer holding on to the pain that had him trapped for years. God kept me close, even when I was angry with him. Stay centered in God, he will hold your hand as you work through your pain and take you on a miraculous journey. Surrender, trust and truly believe in Gods love for you❤

[@TheDudeFlows]

The Dude lives in us all.

[@Jacki79]

There's a lot of evil in this world, because it's Satan's kingdom but Satan doesn't live in everyone, he's not in me, tho he lives in most, he lives in people who willfully live sinful. Jesus lives in me. We all have a flesh that is wicked but it is possible to put to death the flesh and overcome temptation with God's holy spirit dwelling in, it's a choice to want to do what's right, I don't live a life of sin, but if I sin I am deeply grieved and repent, God's people hate the destruction and selfishness of sin, they walk with Jesus and sincerely want to do what's right. God is just and he judges each heart accordingly, he sees all motives. Draw near to Jesus and he will draw near to you

[@InteractiveIdea]

@@Jacki79 you sound borderline delusional crazy

[@Jacki79]

@@InteractiveIdea what is the meaning of crazy? An unsound mind,I'm not crazy, I have a sound mind. I speak the absolute truth. You're actually suffering an unsound mind to even say that truth and reality is "crazy".

[@InteractiveIdea]

@@Jacki79 well there is no such thing as absolute truth. You are just sharing your personal beliefs which are just your subjective reality which to me sounds "borderline crazy"... not full crazy, which is what you had assumed I called you. Try to understand the comment next time before writing a reply to it.

[@Jacki79]

@@InteractiveIdea you're a hypocrite. And the truth is, you know what I speak is truth.

[@stilldreaming56]

I feel for this man. I hope he can find peace and love in his life

[@balrajsingh776]

Beautiful. God bless you, what an amazing, inspiring spirit.

[@simplyrise930]

Beautiful human being. Bless you

[@marcosjimenez7509]

Most people don’t know what it’s like to be abused at a young age, whether it be sexually, emotionally, physically or mentally. It can break for the rest of your life. Some people might say, “get over it, you’re a grown ass men” but the reality is that you feel less deserving, less than dirt. Having that kind of hurt in your heart can impact the way you socialize with people and you get a different perspective on the world. You learn not to trust anybody leading you to a lonely path throughout your life that in most cases ends up in homelessness, mental illness, substance abuse and suicide.

[@fionamalcolm1850]

You are so nice. God bless you xx

[@jetcitygrljewels9719]

What a beautiful soul you are John. It is so sad to me the way that some people treat homeless people. So many people seem so entitled, yes, we are all the same. You said it, what many people do not seem to realize is that many people who end up homeless suffered trauma and that is one huge reason why people end up on the streets. Bless you, on your journey to healing.

[@carlosfigueroa790]

My brain got stok on this moment!!! Today's reminder! Greetings from Central America, Guatemala City.

[@bettinarossi7908]

One of the most compassionate acts you can do,is let people tell their story.The importance of self expression ,as reflection and validation of still having a voice that is being heard..is vital to survival. God Bless you Mark. You are a good man.🙏🙏🙏💙💙💙

[@WatchDog513]

Homelessness=Abundance I think man kind has become so jaded about what is good,they do not recognize it anymore.I sound cliche,some day you may look back at those times of walking,seeing ,hearing and feeling and say "I lived".I do not envy the rich man,I see that man,and I see one that would not be bad to know.Be well,prayers and regards.Suffer thee well this life.

[@LovingLivingTheWork]

Hey John. Found your blog. Beautiful writing.

[@michaeledwards434]

He said some people have the money to hide their pain wow Good bless you sir you are rich in spirit and will be rewarded

[@YoussefAitAli-hi5zf]

please God help this man❤

[@spencerk4077]

I really wish I could help this man

[@sharonpeters2262]

John Thx 4 that! I was praying to hear the voice of a friend tonight. The lord is on the streets of Eugene where I go. I have many friends tho often it's just one time only to acknowledge friends in the lord. I know you are my friend.

[@livinglifecustom4558]

Amazing channel, i stop and talk to persons in the street here in Manchester UK and they all say the same thing... "thank you for stopping and talking to me"

[@samanthalake4289]

My heart 💔 is breaking for John. I wish him only good vibes, prayers, and thoughts for him. I hope he finds his way. Peace in abundance

[@bahplusten2934]

YOu need to hire him!! You were meant to meet him

[@veshaw.]

I just wanna hugg this guy he wants to cry so bad let his emotions out just scream bro release the emotions great guy

[@go3119]

John is extremely articulate and insightful.

[@cynthialangley7338]

Childhood trauma especially childhood sexual abuse causes so much damage; so often minimized and misunderstood. We need to find a way to effectively prevent this and treat victims, including reparations. Also there needs to be severe punishment for perpetrators. They destroy lives and the very fabric of society. May God bless this man and so many more like him.

[@kylew4312]

This man is very kind and intelligent. He doesn't deserve to be homeless.

[@igolfjtweetler4097]

Help this man.

[@supersman2000]

Hang in there brother. You will overcome this! Jesus has not forgotten you

[@nature_photography_yukon]

John speaks such wisdom and truth. More love, more kindness needed in the world

[@billmitchell3329]

He is totally 100% correct about kindness and love. The fact that he’s homeless means nothing in the scheme of things when you think about it. I mean most people couldn’t survive without the stability and certainty of having a home to return to every evening. How he does that, living on the street is his issue. But it took for him to be homeless and destitute to come to the true message of love and kindness. We should all take note because when we leave this world your account with God will be how kind and loving you really were! Bless this man and I thank him for his message. I pray he will find peace of mind and happiness.

[@leontaylor3572]

John you are an amazing guy. Tough as nails and I think yo deserve the best for what ever that is worth. May God bless you.

[@damonhenderson5673]

God Bless you man. Hope your back on your feet

[@mariaa.5829]

you're

[@luxuriousfir]

So much love in his heart. He is speaking truths. If you're not feeling these you got serious problems.

[@margaretsmith927]

I REALLY HOPE THIS SWEET HURTING HOMELESS MAN IS IN A SAFE & HAPPY PLACE ITS BEEN A WHILE. WOULDN'T MIND AN UPDATE

[@sunshine3914]

He commented on here 3 years ago & so did Mark, who says they’re still in touch & he’s no longer homeless & works with the homeless.

[@_LaNica]

This was humbling... God help us!

[@oyildirim5641]

Hang in there you are a chosen one, you are not forgotten but loved dearly. This grueling challenge is for you to work through your demons and come out as the angel and inspiration you were ought to be. Just don't give up. Bless you ❤️

[@aloisys.2257]

i don't how this vid has only 75K views after 7 years. i wish more people listened to this man...

[@smileyface8832]

Awe... this guy almost started crying. I felt it in his heart...

[@emmachase8588]

What an honest and interesting fellow. Observation: Once again, no services for people with trauma. And then they start self-medicating. Heartbreaking. What a loss to society as, well. Most newspaper journalists have university degrees and incredible knowledge. We have such throwaway society in North America.

[@lonia.5283]

God Bless John and Help him in his feet please🌷❤️🙏

[@FredoCorleone]

I like this guy.

[@sheenagriffith2635]

You seem like a kind and wise soul. GOD has more for you than what you've settled for. He loves you. Keep the faith.

[@Estelle-Maureen]

God bless him. I hope he's okay.

[@DUDEMANYOWOW]

Great interview... I'd love to hear more from him.

[@mamahyperplasie]

What a man !

[@Kurplutzo]

this guy has some of lowest views. That's why I clicked. Glad I did.

[@iiicuuubreathingfullyoohoohooh]

More laughter and play coming up. Thx dude.

[@negreaflorian1881]

This something similar happened to me about suppressed memories, after they surfaced i and got stuck 3 years in the same day survival mode, its just so f-t up, you get broken when you are little and don't know anything by so called protectors and then you mature in a broken man just to fracture again, it's just hell. this earth place is a prison and in the prison its an battleground for types and types of annihilators and criminal chameleons to kill , such a weird creation . and then you get blamed for it , talking about its your fault lol , its 100% stupid.

[@sinandonk6782]

Pills and learning being selfish do really help. I stopped taking pills and they made me realize That's kind of how the earth works. I'm here, i need to do what my instincts tell me. I know that i can go anyime i want, but i won't. I'm better than that and anything that brings me down will go out of my sight. I'll only focus on good things. I'll learn what people went through in the past, and i'll use them to my own benefit. The memories won't go. But I'll learn to ignore them. I'll get rid of toxic people. Because I'm important. That's the mindset you can choose. That's how I'm struggling with all the things that are done. Music, smells, learning from experiences and ignoring toxic people.

[@sinandonk6782]

🌷❤️🌸💛🐵🥦🍐🍉🍩☕

[@sinandonk6782]

Change your focus points, focus on good things, your breathing.Fool yourself. But do not give up for that's what they would expect from you.

[@sinandonk6782]

I understand you, i have gone through similar stuff as well, peace.

[@metsot]

Hope things go for the better.

[@MrPoetry4life]

This so very sad.

[@Reinhardt4444]

Truly a good human being right there.

[@vinniedeluca2188]

This guy popes his heart out to Mark and is basically in tears and Marks response is thanks for talking to me goodbye, it’s ok everybody gets back what they give so he will be treated like crap too

[@fredaulun3548]

Despite the rough life he has, he still believe that God is still there for him. May God remember this man.

[@InvisiblePeople]

I am still in contact with him. He’s no longer homeless and is doing great

[@brettquesada7883]

@@InvisiblePeople im very glad thanks for what u do ill be forever grateful

[@izzhipp4971]

This breaks my ❤ ...

[@emmachase8588]

This was an AMAZING video clip.

[@troyke]

God bless you John!! The horrible experience(s) you went through, and you still have the love of God in your heart and soul! You're the perfect example of what is missing in this world: people who are STILL kind and loving, despite having been wounded and/or mistreated!

[@postscript5549]

More community, more sweetness, kindness.

[@mikesowder2597]

If this could get to him... brother I understand, I too was hurt by someone, but the Lord never gave up on me no matter the mistakes I made. Stay strong in Christ my friend. I pray every day for the downtrodden, fellow addicts, whether in recovery or active the sick and young and old, I pray for so many people and I know what you mean saying you don't feel like you deserve God's love. You do brother. God bless you and the best of luck here's a hug from afar 🤗

[@dLuong1000]

I have same problem it is sad. I have deal wit it hard...😕

[@adolfoledesma167]

i want to give him a big hug. God bless you John

[@elwoodcheek9328]

I have just one wish, I wish people would treat all people with respect as long as they treat you with respect.

[@ivdddoxiemama7275]

There is hope. Keep your faith. Hugs and prayers