How I'm really doing after IVF | Day in my life

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[@michellel.w.kennon155]

You are so loved, Rachel. He is with you and has plans for you. My parents were TTC for 6 years all full of prayer and heartache. Then I came as a result of IVF. Not to discourage, but as annoying and frustrating as it is His timing is not ours. If I came when I was first wanted I wouldn't have had the same life , and I like my life. Praying for peace.

[@RachelVinn]

thats so touching thank you so much for sharing. You are so right

[@Samsoko830]

Rachel I’m crying with you. It took me a miscarriage, 3 failed iuis, 1 failed egg retrieval, one failed transfer to finally be pregnant with our baby boy. And honestly all those feeling are still there. They may have dulled but man IVF stays with you for sure. I’m praying for you. And know that in your weakness others are surrounding you with prayer.

[@sheridanskinnerportfolio]

It’s all gonna be okay! I appreciate you being so real and honest on here. It makes everyone feel not so alone

[@anniereck501]

I’m not religious but going through very similar thoughts right now. About to start IVF in January and it’s just a tough season. I don’t think there is anything wrong with you focusing on bettering yourself! I keep reminding myself that one day when I have multiple kids I will look back on this time and think wow I should have enjoyed the time I had to refine myself as much as possible before becoming a mom and having no time. Things will work out for you, I don’t think we deeply long for things for no reason. You will be a mom one day!

[@user-sz5zl4cv4q]

Praying for your spiritual health and all of the above. I don’t understand what your going thru and can’t relate, yet I appreciate you sharing this bc it makes me realize what people go thru during this journey. Good or bad, we are here.

[@savannadyck531]

As someone who is also in this journey with you….your feelings and thoughts are soo valid and I feel the exact same way. Took the words out of my mouth.

[@RachelVinn]

I’m with you💜💜

[@AquaCloud97]

My heart goes out to you and I hope in some way you stay positive through this process. Love you. ❤❤

[@ilyto0o22]

Thank you for sharing Rachel. You’re so strong and what you’re going through is so real. I’m not religious and am not TTC currently but I can still feel your pain and appreciate you sharing your journey with us and it feels like I’m going through it with you! Lots of love and hope you’re doing well.

[@mahnoushheydari]

Thanks for being such an inspiration Rachel showing how to be strong even when you are waiting on something important in your life, for being so honest and transparent 😌I know that how waiting on something sucks but you are trying and you are so strong! This is what self-worth is, showing up for you every day!😊 sorry I got emotional and talked alot🥹 We love you Rachel and our pray is with you❤

[@Yesad.]

Take A Good Care Of Urself, God Bless U, Rachel !!

[@taylorbennett3373]

Thank you so much for sharing. Thinking of you and sending you lots of love, support and peace.

[@beautiwoods]

Praying for you and your family in this season!! xoxo

[@AlieRenee]

I love you Rachel!! I hurt for you as I would for my real friends. Praying so much for you 💛

[@HarryThomasPictures]

So sorry your back has been hurting sweetie, hope the work out helped. Huge thumbs up for your video👍❤️!

[@mansoor3159]

Rachel you always brighten up my day with your videos you are looking extremely pretty and I wish you have a beautiful week ahead🥺🩷💫

[@liagracestudio]

Hey Rachel! I’m on the same boat as you and feeling a lot of self doubt.. Praying you will have a good outcome! I start IVF in January so wish me luck! 🫶

[@santaisgangsta]

I just want to hug you 🥺 I’m so sorry you are struggling on this ttc journey. It is not for the faint at heart. You are going to the be the best mom however that looks for you. You are already fighting so hard for your babies who are not even here yet. I am praying for you! 🙏

[@julianneackerman8172]

Oh man, tearing up with you, girl. Rooting for you so hard!! ❤️

[@ilybarbiegirl]

I’m praying for you Rachel ❤

[@kimberlyrodriguez782]

I always appreciate your honesty you definitely keep it real. I pray that everything goes well for you. This is such a difficult time in your life. I think all the women who watch you can definitely understand where you are coming from or have had the same thoughts. I pray for your happiness, peace, and mental stability. Infertility is not easy to navigate through and I think your platform helps a lot of women around the world. ❤

[@mariel3806]

We love you Rachel!! God has better plans for you. You just need to be more patient again 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 love u!!

[@Benitasocute]

Oh sweet Rachel,I’m going to go down on my kneels and pray for you 🙏🙏

[@annakoretchko688]

here for the spiritual support in any capacity possible

[@trin303]

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[@yuliyamedyanikov4574]

Hey Rachel I’ve been following your infertility journey and my husband and I are Christians also going through infertility and I just wanted to let you know that you are being prayed for in our home. I know how hard it is to go through infertility as a believer, you’d think that being a believer makes it easier but it doesn’t, it makes you question everything. It takes your mind to dark places and your honesty made me tear up and cry because I feel everything you feel, the anger and the resentment, everything! As I was mopping the floor today I said a prayer for you that God would just fill you up with his peace and love, that he would give you his presence and endless grace no matter the guilt you may feel for doubting him or his goodness, that you would just feel him near you and let him fill you up. In Jesus name I pray, his will be done, amen. Psalms 34:18-20 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.

[@kyratownes4554]

❤❤❤ Rachel I am mourning with you. One day this will be your testimony. I love you and and am praying for you, in due time we will rejoice. Keep pushing! I'm thinking of you!

[@estefanyquiroz9277]

I balled so hard when you said there is so much heart ache in this community… you’re right 😞 thank you for sharing this. I needed to let myself cry too. I am so close to being at CD 1 (again and again) and I can’t mentally accept that rn. Also, I’ve been buying things like crazy…I bought a kitten, we will be picking her up tomorrow… looking forward to that. After the darkest part of the night the sun WILL rise.

[@haleyzo13]

Sending you love and support Rachel ❤️

[@ug8179]

This is not an easy process physically and emotionally but you’re very strong! Sending hugs and best of luck!

[@imperial.dermatology]

We love you Rachel and pray for you and AJ and all the other children God will add to our family!❤

[@BethMJones]

Yay, another vlog! I love your glasses & beautiful hair. Continuing to pray for a baby for y’all in God’s perfect timing. 🙏🏻I love the white dolphins sweat shirt. Looks perfect for fall & winter & so comfy! Your arms! 🫷🏻 I love palm trees 🌴…wish I was in Florida now! So cool about Thrive’s cause! You’re so beautiful inside & out, Rachel. Your channel has inspired & blessed me. ❤️ Yes, praying for you. It’s going to be ok! And God loves when you are just real with Him.

[@soph4002]

Wishing you happiness and that your dreams come true

[@madisonhexter4243]

we were just talking about this same thing in my small group (where we're studying prayer), that honestly it's so easy to be angry at God in various situations and then to distance ourselves out of shame and anger. I was reminded of the Psalms where David literally yelled at God - and guess what, God wasn't mad. He just wanted David to come to him. Praying for you :)

[@Becky6066]

Praying for you! ❤

[@Dermatillomaniac]

Thank you for being open and vulnerable with us. I don’t know your TTC struggle, but living chronically ill for a decade I relate to feeling ‘broken’ in my 20s and trying to distract myself from the mental pain. It’s hard to see others achieving my dreams so easily and as you said, trying to remain hopeful in a way that doesn’t end up crushing you. Have you considered restarting BetterHelp with someone who could help you develop some tools/strategies for this season? Praying for mental and spiritual strength for you and AJ. 💛

[@meganbarto4138]

Praying for good results and peace! Infertility is not for the faint of heart. It's a very stressful process. Sending hugs 🤗

[@ambervenezia8220]

Hi Rachel, can’t relate to what your going through with IVF but I do get the “why me, God” I’m newer to your channel and I appreciate your vulnerability. Now of course this is a few months later and a congrats is in order for the beautiful blessing you are carrying. Will absolutely continue to prayer for your faith to be strengthened in this new season…. Rejoice for the Lord has been good to you my friend!!!!

[@evelynrodriguez9238]

As a Christian who’s in the same journey I cried so hard watching this. I understand the feeling of being mad at God. I love him so much and I’m so grateful for everything he’s done in my life but gosh I’m so hurt that my husband and I are dealt this battle. We were supposed to start ivf this month but our RE decided a laparoscopy should be done first due to my endometriomas. I know this sounds so extreme to others but I don’t remember the last time I was truly happy and carefree. Infertility is always in the back of my mind. Praying God moves in our lives in such a miraculous way that we can’t deny his goodness even as we walk through this awful valley.

[@konjevodruzica5270]

I had an endo I did laparoscopy and got pregnant naturally the same month, now I have my baby boy sleeping right now in my hands, so I pray for you, it will be good. God is good, always!❤

[@evelynrodriguez9238]

Congratulations!!! This brings me so much hope. Thank you so much for your prayers ❤️

[@sweetsali18]

Sending you a virtual hug ❤ going trough the same right now, I know what it must feel like ❤

[@Tbeckchemist]

Thinking of you ❤

[@caseystephens6447]

Sending love and prayers your way! I understand what it's like to be angry with God, when my mom was diagnosed with cancer it was my lowest time. She's healthy now, and I know you are strong and will be a great mother, thank you for sharing your story on here!

[@AnggiSahamCantik]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm 36, single, and start to think maybe one day I might need to get through IVF to conceive myself. This a couple of years I let God guide me along the way, rebuild my life from 0 in my 35. It's been a journey on itself learn to love myself while optimistic that things will work for me in the end. I wish you the best for your journey 🙏

[@MarySmith-zn5dz]

Even Christ on the cross asked, “Why?” It doesn’t mean you doubt. You are hurting but I will keep praying for you and that you allow your faith to grow stronger in your hard journey.

[@RachelVinn]

thank you for this powerful reminder!

[@graciadelacruz9788]

Thank you for being so vulnerable about your journey. It is really hard and I understand how you feel and where you're coming from. I'm ttc too and it sucks. It affected my spiritual life as well and makes us doubt God. We may not understand it right now but I know one day we will. 😢

[@nikkidionson1069]

Virtual hugs, Rach 🥲🩵🫶🏼

[@user-gs7py6nh8f]

Sending ❤prayers your way!!!

[@christinesophia9318]

Rachel, I got very sad looking at you crying. Even If you will not have a child of your own you have a place in the world and could be there for a higher purpose (you don't know yet or will never know). I know - in your heart you know but, what ever this will is will happen! Stay positiv and keep you head up!

[@ericaluna01]

Sending you prayers. ❤

[@maidumlao]

Hi Rachel! Love love love your videos! Could you kindly share where you got your necklaces from? Thank you so much!!

[@mssanchez6752]

I feel. You. I have struggles as well and I'm crying most of the time these past weeks. And doubted God as well. It's hard. With my sickness as well. It's hard. Let's keep pushing and praying for to God even if it's hard to pray.

[@StephanieMBae]

Hang in there. I’m in the same boat, but have been for awhile. Just did my 4th egg retrieval, and have had 5 failed transfers. Ivf is tough, but God only gives us what we can handle, and I guess I’m superwoman and stronger than most. So remember that you are a strong bad**** and will get through this. ❤

[@RachelVinn]

you are so strong!!

[@SofiaAbrantes]

Never watched a video as freshly posted haha 🎉

[@RachelVinn]

Yay

[@claudiavilchez]

God knows you very well, he knows what is good for you, keep trusting him, every step is a learning lesson, keep it up! 🌷

[@jessssalemme]

I always feel like getting my nails done makes me feel like an adult 😅 so I support you going lol

[@clarisse6902]

Omg I got really emotional when you cried. Sending love and hugs 🫂 ❤

[@kelseymena1844]

Definitely will pray for the spiritual and mental health girl. You got it!

[@RachelVinn]

Thanks love

[@jasminewoooten]

I used to bite my nails and they looked like that! It took about a year for my nail beds to be normal but now they are beautiful. Good luck! 🤍

[@RachelVinn]

Oh wow!

[@michellebraddock6671]

I just went through a difficult spiritual low, not IVF related at all. But I can so relate and it's such a terrible feeling in general as a Christian. Will be praying for you! I recent just finished "Don't Give the Enemy a Seat at Your Table" by Louie Giglio and it was really good and helpful! I highly recommend it during a time you feel distant from God or are just on that Spiritual struggle bus. xoxox

[@Heyitsme_13]

Hey Rachel, I Hope you find peace! It is a really hard season, but let me say something… when I was going through this, I used to listen “Seasons” by hillsong and tried to remember that even the winter was longer, that my season would to come… and now I can say that after almost 2 years of negatives and cries in front of doctors, I’m pregnant 🎉❤ I believe that you are the next. You can and must be honest with God!!! Praying for you 😊

[@RachelVinn]

amazing, congratulations

[@Heyitsme_13]

Thanks ❤ i know you will get this too, soon!!!! 🎉

[@user-gs7py6nh8f]

❤

[@angelique8827]

I totally understand you because I am going through the same hun. 🥺 Sometimes I get mad at God because this ttc journey has been incredibly hard. All I think about everyday is that I want to have a baby. Sometimes it feels like he doesn’t wanna give it to me. But I also know that I am just being impatient and I should trust God and his timing. 😭 But we should not forget that God loves us so much , he only wants the best for us. ❤ We got this!

[@cookingfails6412]

I'm praying for you.

[@honeybee19892]

I think ivf is even more tough than a regular month ttc with getting hopes up. This is one thing that scares me. With all those injection shots I would feel like pregnancy should happen..

[@hollyc7110]

Absolutely praying for you. I can only imagine the complex emotions you must be feeling right now. Tonight I was reading Psalm 100 and I thought of you.

[@neip2023]

It may be a spiritual dump time. I’m not in your situation, but I have had overwhelming events happen recently and my spirit has felt broken and I felt an overwhelming need to drop to my knees and just cry. Bring it God, lay it down and cry uncontrollably in worship. Your doubts and fears dump them all and allow yourself to surrender it. ❤ we love you!

[@moonhoanimontero2456]

My transfer fail too, my transfer was 3 weeks a go 😞

[@bobbih2022]

Rachel, I felt and still feel as you do. I know it will pass but I’m mad a God because I prayed so much and still had 4 failed IVF cycles. I don’t understand why me? I’m also trying to figure out my value and purpose now. It’s tough but we are not alone on the journey 💜Praying for you (and me lol).

[@RachelVinn]

Praying for you💜 that is so tough. I’m so with you

[@bobbih2022]

@@RachelVinn 💜💜

[@MakeupByHaylee]

I’ve never related to something more.. I am also 26 and still feel like a teenager. I am so ashamed of myself for being angry with God and for my spiritual tank being so low… This is so hard 😭

[@morvaridrazaghi1991]

You are valuable even without children.

[@eddiemartinez7555]

Lovely Rachel 😊😅😅🎉🎉😂😂❤❤

[@kristismyk1930]

Praying for the strength that can only come from the Holy Spirit to be able to find all of your peace, joy, & contentment in Him.

[@oliviagracevlogs]

Rachel, please know I have been praying for you and will continue doing so! You don't know me, but know I'm always here to talk to as a sister in Christ. ❤

[@RachelVinn]

Thank you so much!

[@oliviagracevlogs]

@@RachelVinn you're welcome! 🫶🏻

[@edenduarte]

It is so refreshing to see another Christian woman my age feeling the same way I do in my fertility journey. After trying for two years I finally fell pregnant in Jan of this year. The faintest positive was only enjoyed for a day. I followed up with my doctor and they confirmed the test was now negative. I thought about blaming God and then I realized after talking to my husband that Job was tested but remained faithful and the Lord blessed him abundantly. The enemy wants you to think this is God's doing but it isn't. Many many hugs and prayers to you mama!

[@jessiruu6087]

I’ll be praying for you and your husband. 🤍

[@amandakoh6111]

thank you for sharing, and yeah just want to encourage you that you are NOT alone. Want to share a verse with you that cheered me up today! It's from 2 Thessalonians 3:3 "But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one". Will pray for your spiritual health!

[@danahg6469]

If you don’t mind me asking, how much eggs were they able to retrieve and how many embryos did you end up with? I also have a large endometrioma on my left side but RE is giving me the option to remove it first before retrieval or just do a cycle but she may not be able to access my left ovary with the endometrioma. You said your RE had no issues with yours being there during retrieval so I was curious. Thank you

[@RachelVinn]

Message me on IG for these details 🩵

[@xoliswakali15]

You are correct that God can handle our honestly, especially when we feel 'negative'. I am believing with you that one day you will watch this video in awe of God's goodness! Retrospect is always the best ❤️

[@shop_n_thrive1901]

Hi Rachel,i would like to remind you the story of Job in the Bible whenever things don't go your way or when in doubt with your spirituality.Stay strong, what's meant for you won't pass you

[@Neelie4]

Praying for you but continue focusing on your self care. Get those nails done, get a spray tan, go shopping. Whatever makes you happy and gives you something to look forward to ❤

[@Jasmine-cm9il]

Hi Rachel! I am sorry, that you’ve been going through this journey. God, has been putting this on my heart lately in my own life and maybe this will help you as well. God has you, let it go and trust God. I’ve seen God come through when I truly trust him. It’s hard to do, I am not going to lie, but I can feel him saying Trust me. God has you ♥️🙏🏻

[@RachelVinn]

Thank you so much!

[@Jasmine-cm9il]

@@RachelVinn you’re welcome, remember Gods not done-he’s working even when it’s quiet. You and AJ just trust God he has the best plans for you guys♥️🙏🏻

[@hyefndt4241]

Will be praying for you, girlie! But God cares much more about your spiritual wellbeing than He does in giving you want you want immediately. He cares much more if you love Him despite all the trials in your life than if you only love Him when He blesses you. I see your IVF journey as a way in which He is trying to speak to you and teach you this in a unique way in your life. Because I think you're already financially well off, you have amazing family, friends and spouse. But I'm ofc only an onlooker! Much love, Rachel!

[@mfintastik929]

Genuine question: Are you guys still trying naturally along with the IVF process?

[@RachelVinn]

yes!

[@mfintastik929]

@@RachelVinn 💜 definitely praying for you guys and are in my thoughts! 🫂

[@christiecaplinger5242]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@neysarodriguez9622]

🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻♥️ 🙏🏻

[@sharonenabs]

It's 1am right now and I tried sending you a message on IG, but couldn't. However, I would try communicating this well in words. My heart broke for you and I had an intense need to cover you in prayers. And I know I'm not the only one! So regardless of the situation, imagine us all surrounding you in prayers and speaking God’s mercy on your life! I am going to God right now in prayer on your behalf!!! Receive your miracle with testimony because it is done in Jesus name. Love you ❤

[@engineeringsd8106]

When in good health, there is very little more fulfilling than fasting and showing sacrifice for God's plan in your life. The Daniel fast is a good one.

[@dianecollins8142]

Growing weary is okay, feeling discouraged is okay, losing hope is okay... but God is good and His will prevails always. I think it's worth asking yourself "do I want a baby more than I want God?" Stay encouraged and wait on The Lord, sister ❤

[@RachelVinn]

oof so true!

[@silviawilliams3972]

❤🙏🏻

[@trin303]

I can't not have my nails done😂 i feel naked and wrong without them

[@youtube_fan97]

Hello, did you try to do the research on the products that you consume on a daily basis (food, cosmetics, etc.). We are too much exposed to different chemicals that affect our both physical and mental health and usually we are not aware of them and would never expect that poisons can be found in some of the products that we consider as safe to use. There are many researches showing that some products such as lipsticks, nail polishes, even baby products can cause cancers, problems with fertility and other different diseases and health issues.

[@ervinsmoviecorner8748]

First comment right here!

[@katjawenn9800]

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[@simplyellenxo95]

I hope and pray for you that you will have kids one day. You’re still young and the same age as me, you have plenty of time to have kids. Unlike me, I don’t have kids nor do I have a partner in life.❤

[@hayl97]

I completely understand the anger and distrust with God during this time. That’s completely normal and very human and God doesn’t love you any less for it. ❤

[@libbyborg7558]

I belive God has put this desire to be a mom in your heart for a reason. He who had promised is faithful. He who calls also equips. As someone who went through a lot of pain and waiting for our baby, i can say i would do it all over again. I know thats hard to hear when youre in the waiting, but it is true. I am praying for you, i am hurting with you. God is faithful.

[@JennaHong]

you’re the strongest mama literally ever

[@JohnBarratt2750]

By the time you are my age, Rachel,(60), you will have had so much experience of God as to be convinced He is ALWAYS with you. Speak to you again when you've had your results. I'm sure I could spend hours discussing with you what you said in your video. X

[@omg18llcool]

Girrllll I know you didn’t just do a mascara check for you sponsorship during what was otherwise a vulnerable moment. I do feel for you and your journey, but that absolutely made my skin crawl

[@RachelVinn]

girllll i wasnt paid to say that that came out of my mouth naturally lol

[@aayushi7874]

You're gonna be pregnant by the end of this year.🙌

[@HazyFerns]

Surrender it to God! He is the creator.. we are His creation. It’s tough to let go but let God take control..the testimony is going to be amazing.

[@tomikamurry659]

God isn’t a genie, he doesn’t grant you wishes. He answers are always yes, no, and not now. And never get mad with God. He knows what we do. We may want a child now, but he knows more. It may be to bring you closer to him. I understand though. But we aren’t suppose to get mad with him.