I Almost Took My Own Life While in Solitary Confinement

In this powerful and emotional video, a former inmate shares his personal story of how he nearly took his own life while being in solitary confinement. He speaks candidly about the psychological toll of being isolated for extended periods of time, and how it led to feelings of hopelessness, despair, and ultimately, thoughts of suicide. This eye-opening account sheds light on the devastating effects of solitary confinement on mental health and serves as a reminder of the urgent need for prison reform.
0:00 - 1:11 Intro
1:11 - 4:59 The Angola Three
4:49 - 6:32 Human Contact
6:32 - 7:12 Claustrophobia
7:12 - 8:33 Rec Time
8:33 - 12:48 My Best Friend's Suicide
12:48 - 14:41 My Motivation
14:41 - 15:23 West Coast vs East Coast Prisons
15:23 - 19:50 Changes Need to Be Made
Ex Jewel Thief, Mob Earner, Criminal, and Prisoner Larry Lawton
Ex Jewel Thief Larry Lawton spent 11 years in prison and now helps people make better decisions and fights for prison reform.
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I do not condone any of the negative behavior described. I have learned from the mistakes I have made and do not wish for anyone to recreate or attempt any of the events described. Ex Jewel Thief, Mob Earner, Criminal, and Prisoner Larry Lawton

[@michaeljasso10]

I’m glad you’re here with us, Larry. You’ve impacted and continue to impact so many lives.

[@MerksClips]

So glad you’re here Larry ❤

[@mw3sharpshooter]

We’re all glad you’re here today, Larry. It’s likely many others are still walking this planet because of you. 👊 respect and love your videos.

[@Anonymous-if4jd]

For real ❤️❤️

[@Joe_Okey]

As someone who is a suicide survivor himself, this video hits harder than most. Love you, my friend.

[@petepillow8642]

Lol

[@danieltrottier8599]

We survive to help others

[@crimesforkibble6912]

You obviously didn't do it right

[@Silas.Marner]

​@@petepillow8642 troll

[@Silas.Marner]

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[@kingofdice66]

I'm glad you're alive Larry. I'm sure you've saved a few people yourself along the way.

[@GloriousVibe]

He's definitely saved tens of thousands of people. What an great human. Harnessing his own pain for the greater good of all of us. 🙌

[@donclark4486]

Larry, so glad you pushed through. You are an inspiration and we love you

[@LarryLawtonJewelThief]

Always pushing

[@TENNESSEETV.]

​@Larry Lawton not goin lie larry I used to party hard and drank and used pain pills in 2017 b4 all the fent really hit here I got fake ones and cuz my tolerance was so high I took 6 of em and died but luckily girl I was with called the ambulance and died a couple more times on way hospital but finally grew up and left all the bs alone. My message to anyone taking pain pills don't buy them u never know when u can get a fent pill

[@daxsinger6877]

I’ve found your channel recently and I’ve been fascinated to learn about all the corruption that goes on in the prisons. Thank you for bringing these to the forefront, and keep doing what you’re doing, much love ❤️

[@forza1984]

This channel has helped me so much after getting out of the PADOC in August 2022. To listen and interact with someone who knows what it’s like going through all the diesel therapy, black boxed and needing to take a piss. The loneliness and insanity that you go through in the hole. 4 pointed strapped to a metal table. I look forward to all of your videos Lar, keep it up brother. You gave me hope when I first got out and I read your book. Keep spreading the good word my brother.

[@Izenti597]

I’m glad you’re still here you have a huge impact on a lot of people Larry

[@danishpride1]

Thank you for sharing this important message about what solitary confinement does to people.

[@Ben-jm7dn]

Watching Larrys videos have made me think so hard and really go back throgh my life and say this is trauma caused by... Thanks Larry, keep strong

[@ftffighter]

I'm glad you are still here today brother man to warn us about this corrupt system! Love ya Larry, great video! People do not understand quite how much hell it can be towards those who have medical problems already...

[@KP-wg6by]

Wow. Thanks for sharing this, Larry.

[@malamaurer4043]

So thankful that you stayed strong enough for a few more seconds when things were at their worst for you. (On weekends I watch you on our big screen tv instead of on my phone. Your eyes are extremely expressive. Didn't need to say much to recognize the trauma.) I have read your book and going through it for the second and a half time now. You have an incredible gift and so grateful that you are sharing your gift to connect with others at such a human level, making make it sense. As fun as your channel is at times, it's incredibly powerful catalyst to make positive change happen. 🤝

[@susanm8738]

Beautifully said 👏

[@malamaurer4043]

@@susanm8738 🙏thank you for reading 🙏 Have a wonderful rest of your day.

[@shag377]

Thanks for another great vid, Larry. What you say and share is powerful stuff.

[@blackscotydog]

Powerful stuff Larry.....Glad you are still with us.

[@robinhaupt9119]

Always appreciate the real deal from you Larry, thank you.

[@LarryLawtonJewelThief]

Always keeping it real

[@tangopete]

Glad you stayed strong 💪🏼 I read your book and it was great. Keep up the awesome work!. Love this KZbin channel.

[@bigtexnick2188]

very inspiring video, larry. thank you for living a life of example and recovery and hope.

[@dac782000]

Larry, thank you so much for all that you're doing to bring to light the problems with the system! Thank you for helping people to learn what not to do while in prison and to stay as safe as they can and to make the right choices so they don't end up in prison! May you be blessed in all of your endeavors!!!

[@JuniorMcDirt]

So glad your here today you give us all hope Larry

[@1008md]

Thank you for sharing such vulnerable and painful memories. As someone who has never been to jail or prison, your strength brings gives me hope in humanity for change. In America we discard us before they help us.

[@jonahmaddox2885]

It is a blessing that you are still here man. God keep you here to tell people not to go to prison

[@Livingfree4me]

Thanks for the video Larry. 😊

[@barrymcockiner3103]

Larry never lies when he says he got a great video. I'm so glad u made it through everything to make these amazing videos much love brother.

[@Ralphopotamus]

Larry, Ive been watching your vids non stop for a wee now. Thanks for telling us what its really like. I hope your stories can inspire change in the system. Keep fighting

[@aaronzigelbaum]

Powerful honesty, great video Larry

[@oddity6605]

I love your videos larry, keep up the good work

[@ghostking433]

Glad you’re feeling great and doing good Larry. Keep up the great videos, love these raw and uncut stories

[@LarryLawtonJewelThief]

Always keeping it real

[@NewsCrew]

Larry you have the best content... hope you continue to have much success on KZbin and continue to be blessed with good health

[@LarryLawtonJewelThief]

Thanks Man!

[@railroadricky5157]

Hi Larry I just wanted to say I love your videos I just love to listen to your stories and your advice and guidance on life and how the world really is You are really are an inspiration keep up the amazing work you do in helping people the best way possible 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

[@yasonrebirth5735]

Thanks for sharing OG 🫡

[@199Rudy]

Amazing content Larry keep up the good work man love your videos and what you do brother

[@stormrendstudio4197]

I'm not exactly sure how I came across your content, but I'm grateful that I did. I'm also happy to see that you're still here with us and creating content! 🥰. Your storytelling skills are impeccable, and I find myself unable to stop listening to your content. Keep up the fantastic work, Larry, and all the best to you!

[@Storyoficons]

I am from Sweden, glad you are alive Larry. You are making a difference

[@nathanbrownmolotov8697]

Good Content. Some good advise. Glad you made it out.

[@peterm.souzajr.2112]

the world is better with you! i feel closer to my own dad when i watch your videos

[@chivalrous_chevy1163]

This video is very important, thank you sir.

[@manuelmorrow7606]

Ready for this vid Larry

[@skinnex3236]

Looking good Larry, keep it up man, you helped me more than you could ever imagine Much love

[@americanpurge]

Just started watching. Enjoy and can relate to parts of your journey.

[@123jozko]

Hey Larry! I watch your videos from the other side of the world😮, from Slovenija-Portorož. You are a king! I love your Videos, keep it up! I wish you all the best!!!! By

[@randycollins8917]

Larry... I'm glad you're still with us brother. Love you very much... you help so many and do so much good!... Your impact on the world would be missed... like, this feeling that something is missing if you weren't here. Keep on keepin on. ❤️

[@LarryLawtonJewelThief]

I appreciate that

[@randycollins8917]

@Larry Lawton Glad to give back the love big guy! Thank you for still bein here.

[@crazydrummer181]

You’re an inspiration Uncle Lar. Hope all is well with you and your family.

[@jbilotta]

God bless you Larry. I’ve been following you and I’m going to buy your book.

[@23e445]

I’m a fan bruh wow this hit me man made me damn near cry may God bless u keep me in your 🙏🏾 great story King!!!!!!!!

[@Kaykavoosi]

OMG so proud of You for doing this video, I know it was hard to talk about this issue

[@Justice4m.tthewN0rth]

love love love it. love the glasses love the haircut love the shirt, love it! you look FABULOUS Larry WORK IT

[@tracywaller3957]

I love your videos I'm glad your here Larry'

[@caesar4880]

Larry I am glad you didn't do it and we still have you and your personality around.

[@SamanthaSmith-yu2eg]

I really love watching the videos Larry, on a side note, keep doin whatever ur doin, u look great 👏💯

[@jordanv1888]

Larry you been looking good man keep up the working out all love and respect

[@sabinaneri9568]

I’m literally in tears your stories move me

[@ItsAllGoodGames]

Thanks for sharing you stoey

[@richiewitkowski7142]

Literally have "Law" in your name, it was meant to be Glad you're here today I watch ya almost everyday!

[@sabinaneri9568]

I’m glad you didn’t and survived to help others I can’t imagine what you went through

[@mattmeyer99]

I got a beer and a new story from Uncle Larry. Today shall be a good day

[@frankmann2899]

Larry you look great! It’s been a little while since I’ve seen a video. Keep up the good work I love your content.

[@mviking39]

Thank you Larry

[@sabinaneri9568]

I never want you to feel like your alone I’m so so glad your here don’t ever feel like that

[@thomasrogers5229]

Larry you had an actual GAURDian watching over you....and you are doing what you were called to do....Awesome job brother...keep up the awesome work

[@Hunches333]

Haven’t watched in awhile, really looking sounding good

[@elvalvinoskyo3307]

I hope who ever reads this comment gets better mentally and physically and it’s blessed,never give up if you going through hell keep going and get out of hell don’t stay there

[@Hahnfruh]

12:30 damn when you talk about laying down you can immediately hear those feelings and memories coming back in your voice. It's great to still have you with us!

[@bholdr----0]

Larry, we are all both thankful and fortunate that you didn't top yourself... I hope that your efforts to expose this garbage will make a difference... They have already done so for my own perspective on the cruelty of incarceration in the U.S. Cheers.

[@kalemacpherson1542]

I like your shirt Larry! Reminds me of the East Coast Lifestyle brand clothing they sell around where I'm from with the anchor ⚓

[@reneehomen2226]

Been there... made an attempt but failed thank God! I believe He saved me for a reason. As human beings , we are social beings. We need human contact to survive.

[@pastasalad8676]

Im only a 23 year old man. And I love your videos so much. Im so interested and entertained by your videos Larry keep it up my friend

[@robertmcmillan5640]

you recently replied to one of my comments . I worship you for everything you have been through . Thank you so much for sharing your life on here . Yes everyone deserves a second chance no matter how big or how small the crime is /was . I once punched a guy ten times in the head in broad daylight . Put him in the hospital . He broke my rib the day before , I broke his face the next day , badly

[@allenpedrick6502]

So glad you are alive. I am retired Lieutenant from Delaware and suicide is the worst.

[@rc8695]

Thank you

[@ChicagoMobTrials]

Thank God you survived and completely turn your life around@

[@kcgeil]

Impressed by your humanity

[@sad2540]

Soft hanging is the most humane and sure fire method to take yourself up outta here for sure. Lost my best friend to that exact same thing.

[@Xaniker]

I never knew it was this bad. I'm embarrassed of my naivette and ashamed things like this still goes on in America. I'm so glad you're shining a light on this evil.

[@cynbadlonewolf9455]

Someone I love is in solitary for no reason since may 3rd with no end in sight NNCC. I MUST do something. And thank you for this 🙏🏻🙌💕👍

[@davejohnson3474]

Man i was worried when i read the title. Can't have bad things happen to Larry!!

[@commanderphilbo1471]

RIP jack ...glad you are here larry .

[@kevincoyne9324]

As always appreciate your story and sharing. Interested to hear your thoughts/reactions to the latest Last Week Tonight segment on solitary confinement

[@idkwhythisismyhandle]

Hey Larry, can you do some more prison tutorials? They are super interesting :D

[@shannonlubeck569]

Purchased a book looking forward to reading it

[@fatheadivan]

we need a guy like larry in our lives❤️

[@Shortgirl110]

Hi Larry, I was recently incarcerated for the first time (county jail) for a night& was let out on ROR. Due to some circumstances between my lawyer and I, my court case is adjourned till August. I’m afraid I’m going to be behind bars. I’m not sure how all this works. But having drug issues got me in that real low spot. I don’t have anymore chances after this to mess up again. I couldn’t take one night being in county jail cell, the sounds of the bars locking me in still haunts me. You are such a brave and strong man for what you went through. I hope everything goes well for you man.

[@grizzly424]

How's it going Lar, Great Video today. Also, were sorry you had to go through that tough times in prison NOBODY should go through that shit ever. It shows how fucked up our federal systems and prison systems really are.

[@n8lbv]

Wow the last place on Earth I ever thought I'd do studying or even have the slightest interest in. Life sure is grand. Pretty happy Computer IT small business guy in Michigan. God bless you and thanks!! I don't even smoke man but I'm craving one 'o those cigars for sure. I can see myself engaging one of those at the drum kit.

[@n8lbv]

18:51 GhostCat!!

[@seahawklover14]

Your an amazing person and love your content and I'm a better person learning things from you I have been on probation since February 7th 2020 I get off in 2025 and after 4 years there finally letting me take off the leash they have me always on!

[@chrisjohannes179]

Bro don't feel the need to overshare. It's a real concern of content creators. No need to put things out there until you're really ready! Enjoy it all!

[@wallaceschmitten4941]

The light perpetually on is mind boggling.

[@917Mike1]

The timing of this is perfect. John Oliver just did a segment on his show tonight about solitary confinement. I think you would appreciate Oliver’s segment, Larry.

[@The_GTA_bois]

I'm in Australia right now and it's 4:00am, I've got school 3 hours an I had nothing to watch until I got the notification..... LETS GO❤

[@petepillow8642]

You're going to fail school ,

[@vednev6931]

Love you Larry !

[@No1_Inpa_Ticular]

When I was in jail they put me in the infirmary for two weeks prior to going to my block. I had almost no human contact and nothing to do. I lost my mind. I started talking to the walls and would have gladly had a bug for a pet. I finally got to see the Doctor after 10 days and the human contact for those 5 minutes were amazing

[@therealjaycentury69]

Looking better!

[@RetiredSeniorChief2018]

Retired Navy Senior Chief here - Love your videos!

[@gbone1812]

Congratulations

[@danielbriggs7110]

Reunion 😊

[@whiskeytangotv1758]

Hey Larry I'm bad in tight spaces like MRIs... They have standup MRIs now and it's great

[@brad6817]

I understand where you are coming from Larry with the MRI machine. When I had mine it was because I had a bad reaction to the covid vaccine and was having chest pain so they did a scan. I can't remember why but I had to have all this equipment on top of me putting weight on my chest while doing some type of breathing prompt. Not to mention I can't balance very well on the bed because of my disability and then they injected some sort of fluid into my IV that made me all hot. All of this after not eating a proper meal in four days and no sleep. Didn't really think claustrophobia was real until I had that experience.A lot of rambling and probably some bad grammar in their thanks to anyone for reading.

[@dmanassero]

Respect!

[@boyanratkonov1354]

Larry you a boss💯

[@xyro9115]

You deserve more views. People need to hear what you say. Unfortunately, many will use your past as a means to degrade what you're saying, but you're saying things that both my mother and I have written college papers on. This knowledge isn't getting out there, and it needs to.

[@Jay1en_]

More views??? He deserves a peaceful rest of his life and a spot in heaven.

[@Alias735]

Larry, you knew you didn’t fight so damn hard to just give up. You knew you had to live to tell the story and be a free man. You proved them wrong to make this world a better place. All of those things YOU did and wouldn’t have if u went through with it. my close family member committed s and god i’m f’ed up

[@eazyerice]

I unfortunately had been locked up for a total of 19 months, obviously no where near close to what alot of ppl have to do but that little amount of time plus the little amount of time spent in seg was enough to cause me to have crazy anxiety in different situations that I never had before I got locked up. I'm the same way with the mri machine. Also when I 1st got out going to stores like Walmart later in the day when it was real crowded I would get real bad anxiety so I started going to walmart around midnight or later that was obviously way before covid caused stores to close at 11 p.m. but my anxiety has calmed down a lot with that situation, but I will still sometimes go as soon as they open in the morning just to avoid crowds