I DIDNT want to do this video BUT yall deserve ANSWERS!!!

THIS VIDEO WAS PRETTY HARD FOR ME TO MAKE!!! I didn't know how to start it or what to even do but I ended up just speaking from my heart and let you guys know what ive really been going through the past few months!!! But on the bright side, IM BACK BABY!!!
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[@cohomesource]

Thank you so much for checking in with us. You know we all love you!🙏🏽🥰

[@angellahemans1800]

Hope u feel much take care of your before going back on the job it's only one body

[@kathleenmcbride3126]

I'd your little girl ok now? And I understand your fear of needles

[@DNelmark96]

God Bless You. Thank you for being so open about anxiety. We are praying for you.

[@LucianSpelta99]

Sounds like a demonic attack

[@carolyntaylor5946]

​😅

[@MikeInElma]

As someone who continues to battle anxiety, grief, and depression I so hope you are able to find the therapy that works for you so you can continue to be your best self. Whether it is playing chess, building legos, or making videos do what you love so you can focus on you and your health. Keep being amazing Al and hope your family stays safe & healthy!

[@karengossett1475]

Oh I totally understand 🥲 Hope you stay strong 🙏❤️

[@elaineeverhart7100]

Me too with the struggle...it's so hard to keep fighting but I do❤❤❤ you too ok❤❤❤❤

[@user-jm4ms2jv5i]

Glad to see you are feeling better. Sometimes I have anxiety really bad. I have found that by doing the Five Grounding Technigues really helps. Try it out. It will help you get out of your head.

[@patriciajoy9174]

God Bless You and your family, we love you and God's got you. It's wonderful to see you today.

[@darrenhawken9766]

Rest up and recharge recover , what's good for you and your family comes first. Thank you for the great KZbin vids ,take care 👍

[@fabrinaleach3251]

Hi, Al. I’m a veteran living with PTSD. Just wanted to let you know you-how watching you [help others] makes me feel like you’re doing GOD’s work! You are an amazing person. Living life day-by-day and thanking GOD for his mercy is what keeps me moving forward. GOD Bless you and your beautiful family!

[@tinkatude77]

As a phlebotomist who's been drawing patients blood work for the past 30 years. I've come across some patients who are nervous, scared & faint. I've learned to talk to them about other things that's happening. It's my way of distracting them. Some still feel weird but most make it through. I don't like having my blood drawn coz I don't have good veins. I'm glad you finally got it done. It's our river of life. It says alot of what's going on with us. Thank you for sharing. You are a blessing to many folks. I pray for good health and healing in your body in Jesus name ☝🏽❤️🙏🏽

[@sundoesshine8583]

Being one of those patients, yes, it helps and thank you!

[@marilynbender7257]

I am a phlebotomist myself AND terrified of needles when they come my way, and im really good at what i do. my coworkers dont understand, but..... my heart goes to him. I hope he can get through this. I love his videos.

[@ilacallya324]

If you're sticking people with needles .. you really thing you have the right to say the Lord's name?

[@tinkatude77]

​@@ilacallya324I sure do! I am His child & He gave me the gift of empathy for those who are afraid of it. As a person who got stuck repeatedly bc they "couldn't find my vein" I thank him very time I get a hard stick & succeed! I also don't like when parents use me as a punishment " If you don't behave I'm gonna have her "poke you with the needle'. That's were trauma comes from! So yes, I thank Jesus everyday & blessings to you also. ☝🏽🤙🏽🙏🏽

[@sharondavis1665]

There's nothing to a needle stick I kid and say it's a really small hole

[@lisal6996]

You don’t owe us any explanation. We have just been hoping you & your family are OK. I too suffer from anxiety/depression. I can be fine one day & then the next day I just start crying out of the blue and it is tough to overcome. Stress & how it affects our mind is a hard thing to deal with. You are not alone Al ! Love you guys ❤

[@BREEZYM6015]

I can relate to your comment.

[@lg8365]

I can relate too Lis. Hope you're coping okay Hun! Take care. ❤🇨🇦

[@lisal6996]

@lg8365 I am doing well right now Thank You 😊 I hope you are as well !

[@Missy3105]

Dealing with this as i watch this video! You guys aren’t alone! Prayers to everyone who is suffering! ❤

[@lisal6996]

@Missy3105 Hugs to you ! I pray you feel better very soon ♥️

[@kimmyrahne433]

It's a brave thing to discuss your anxiety and depression openly. Thank you! I think there is a heaviness in the world right now that is pressing on us. ❤

[@DianaJG8]

EXACTLY and Amen! ❤ - Diana

[@ellenadams5650]

Anxiety is a real thing. I [unknowingly] had it even before it was a "THING"...just thought thought I was weak. I refused to get on an antidepressant for years as my Dr recommended because I had never been depressed. But when he finally convinced me that would cure Anxiety- I discovered he was right.

[@kimmyrahne433]

@ellenadams5650 We need to value and care for a whole person including mental health. So many physical health problems can be attributed to issues like anxiety and depression. It's unfortunate that it's taken so long for the medical community and the world at large to acknowledge and help treat people.

[@nitawallace5347]

Mental health RN here. So proud of you to pull yourself out of this and face that demon. A mental health break and a checkup can be a life saver. Hang in there!

[@erinwalter132]

@@nitawallace5347 Yep. Always take Mental Health Days.

[@paulgreen1330]

Brother, My wife used to struggle with anxiety and depression after I had an accident in 2004, she attempted suicide in 2014 but after 30 days in the hospital when she was healed completely she accepted Christ Jesus as her Lord and Savior (me too) we both did, He delivered her from that ! The Bible says God did not give us a spirit of fear so if you believe Just ask Him to remove that spirit from you, we love you and will be Praying for you and your Family. May God Bless You

[@pilesovinyl]

Just another subscriber who feels that your videos are better than anyone else that does these lawn makeovers and don't feel alone because there are legions of us that enjoy and are uplifted (that's right-it spiritually encourages us) by what you do and the fact that you are helping people without charge. A day at a time my friend. Take care and be well.

[@holliehogan8106]

Mental anxiety can manifest to the physical-and people who don’t have anxiety issues won’t always understand-and if there is a physical problem, it makes the anxiety 100 times worse and just feeds back and forth-be safe and get healthy ❤love watching both channels

[@SylDomiAlem21]

Glad your truly better. Remember a lot of people love you out here . Thanks for sharing 🙏🏽peace be with you God continue to keep you healthy ❤️

[@ericalavallee4625]

Amen

[@debbutcher5827]

Al, This is not crazy at all, please reach out to a therapist and explain your anxiety, Just talking it out with family and friends isn't the same. There are many things they can teach you to calm yourself without medications if that's a problem. I have been there, take care of your health, we all can wait. Love both of your Channels and your family content.

[@bobdees6428]

Al , is Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior ? I ask because I have met many people who have your issues/ anxiety and as they grew closer to the Lord their issues/anxiety became less and less, and in some cases completely gone. John 3;16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have every lasting life. True peace is found only in Jesus Christ !!!

[@sindiesigmon55]

I have to agree...spending time in God's word helps my anxiety a lot.

[@christophergauthier5149]

As a veteran dealing with PTSD and clinical depression, I understand. Know that we are behind you and support you whether you are posting videos or not. Please just check in once in a while so we know you’re ok.

[@DianaJG8]

Thank you, Christopher, for your service! I pray God lays a mighty hand of recovery on you to heal your PTSD. With MUCH Love - Diana ❤😊

[@colleenwiles4082]

I’ve gone through anxiety too !! This life has lots of challenges ! Prayers for you ❤

[@kerrolynntitus9460]

🇺🇲Thank you for your service. May God bless you, and continue to bless the USA. 🖖🏼🫶🏼 ✨✝️🙏🏼💖🙇🏼‍♀️🙌🏼🕊️✨

[@erniebhernandez6452]

Myself I'm a veteran with PTSD and Anxiety/Depression. I'm on medication for those mental illnesses. Also, I am extremely claustrophobic, which will trigger a severe panic attack. I hope you get feeling better soon, and I will pray for you. 🙏

[@diannaleigh9914]

I’m not a veteran but I gave anxiety and PTSD from anesthesia gone wrong. I understand. I’m glad you gave support.

[@777Snowdrop]

For someone who goes through dark times , you shine the light of Christ in your kindness and gentle soul . God Bless you and keep you sir . Please know that prayers are going up for you and your family 🙏🏻

[@tracieokeefe1348]

I had 3 full-blown panic attacks in 1 week, 3 trips to the ER. You are so not alone. I've been taking maintenance medication for quite a few years. I'm glad you feel safe here to share. We sure do appreciate you. Stay safe, share your feelings, and seek therapy if needed. You are a terrific human! ❤ to you and your family

[@crackednut78]

I want to thank you for your courage to speak out on your anxiety and depression. So many people suffer silently with it, especially men. I honestly believe that talking about it not only lightens your burden but may also help someone else not feel so alone. Shout out to your wife for having your back!❤

[@teresasmith4028]

COVERING YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN PRAYER!!! Thank you for sharing your journey with anxiety. You got this Al!!!!! Never, never give up!!!!

[@kimb5693]

Amen!

[@roodgamma7987]

Amen

[@dfoot636]

BEAUTIFUL COMMENT Covering them in prayer!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@kimdimasi3092]

I agree!! Covering you and your family in prayer that this worry goes away and never returns. God Bless you!!!

[@nymbusDeveloper86]

Agree, God bless him, he is doing an amazing work helping people out.

[@sparky9072004]

As a veteran dealing with PTSD ANXIETY and Depression I feel you but don’t let it beat you! There’s ways to control it . Keep up the good work and a big shout out from San Antonio Texas. Much love and support.

[@bonniemccord420]

You are helping others by talking about it. Thank you. ❤

[@ChelbySe]

Dear Al, anxiety can be absolutely brutal. For those who haven't experienced it, it's so hard to describe. You are not alone, and you are dearly loved. Keep breathing and taking one day at a time. You're doing all the right things. May the love and kindness that you send out come back to you tenfold as you find your way through this challenge. ❤

[@candybell3214]

As an elderly person that lives alone after losing my husband, I can tell you that depression is very real and not easy to get through. Find things that interest you....think I might try Leggos. Stay strong and keep people in your life . I have missed you and am sending prayers and positive thoughts for you and your family.

[@francisoconner3596]

Candybell3214, I have had over 100 plus surgeries and procedures since birth. There is only one way to stop depression which is stop keeping God out of one’s life. If one asks God to help you by praying to God, by reading the greatest love letter to humanity the Sacred Scriptures the Holy Bible and ask God to forgive one of our sinfulness. I promise you that ones depression or any of problem God can and will fix if one Loves God as much as he loves us. You’re problem or illness my not go away but God will give one the tools to make you happy, joyful and at peace inside one’s soul, body and mind. Satan does want any of us to rely upon God for everlasting happiness, joy and peace. God loves us so much that he wants all of us to be in Heaven with him for all eternity. But if we follow the world and Satan our happiness, joy or peace will be very brief. If one forgoes the world and realize on God alone the joy, peace and happiness will shine upon us with God’s graces and blessings. Again, completes the Three Pillars the God asks us to do daily which are prayer, Penance by (obeying his 10 Commandments ) disobedience to God’s Word and will and study and know the Catholic Faith which is the only Universal Truth that Jesus Christ founded and set forth through his Apostles JohnTheBaptist.us

[@vladbrad1389]

Those are nice words of inspiration

[@Marc_Gagne]

For myself I'd prefer a Mechano Set. If left outdoors it'll rust and disappear.

[@johnnytryhardgaming5209]

💖

[@user-ng4rj6ec9k]

I enjoyed Lego’s. I really got into log cabin toy. My grandson would build towns and he had a train station, matchbox cars. IT WAS FUN! I was in my early 60s. What fun to be a grandmother.

[@d.h.4778]

Hunny, mental health is so important. It’s so hard to dig yourself out. I’m autistic and struggle with anxiety and depression daily, but you went through very traumatic things very quickly. Especially with your daughter. That’s TERRIFYING. Everything you just went through. The world needs you here. You are changing the world for so many people, but it’s okay to struggle. It’s human to struggle, but the absolutely incredible thing is you recognized that, and are doing so wonderfully to get back to who you want to be. Don’t hold that shht in. That’s what brings it all on so heavily, so quickly. Talking about struggle like this is incredible, and so helpful. After all you do for others, you deserve the happiness and content too. Don’t forget to take time for yourself too. Acts of service are important, but so is taking care of yourself and how you are feeling. ❤ I’m so proud of you and your family.

[@jessetippett2967]

As a fellow anxiety/depression sufferer.... And self proclaimed most private person in the world..... I really appreciate your candidness in speaking about this. Keep your head up and take care of yourself.

[@frankdotyjr]

Hi Al !! You're doing more for the world by doing THIS vlog than you may know. Mental Health is a REAL issue and needs to be brought to the surface of our conversations!! Thank YOU for your bravery and commitment in your life to Pay It Forward. Without people like YOU, we would be a far worse place. In the meantime, do NOT be afraid of seeking help and sharing here for the world to see a brave man face his issues head-on!! Peace Brother!! 😎👍✌

[@valeriejohnson2367]

So glad you opened up about your health and emotions……it’s a wonderful way to feel better by discussing what your feeling……. Like going to a therapist with no bill………❤

[@elainemywords6799]

Maybe also, this was what had to be done to bring more awareness to mental issues/challenges that not many are taking seriously. He should document the whole process to get a book in the making to help others overcome this disease because that is what it is. Our leaders also need to provide more help to those suffering. It is a hard fight. I see my loved one struggle every day.

[@carleenspada2293]

@frankdotyjr, You not only said a mouthful, but you said it spot on. YES ! YES !! You’re 100% right in all that you said ! My sentiments are that I wouldn’t change a word of what you just conveyed .... I couldn’t have said it better than that ! 👍 💔🙏🇺🇸

[@realsweett05]

Thank you for being so organic and raw with us! I will definitely add you and your family in my family’s prayers! God Bless!

[@lybeat_gang]

I think it's truly important that you talk about this. I also know too well what you're talking about. I hope you are feeling much better, day by day. Big hug, man

[@1dbrook]

Don't feel pressured to air every detail of your struggles, Al. We are standing with you in your battles with our thoughts and prayers. Your fans want to know as much as you're willing to share about your life because they care, but some things are private and no one else's business but yours and your family's. Pray for wisdom. The Lord will show you His pathway to your healing of body, soul and spirit. You're loved!

[@patriciashumate9974]

Al we love you , we are praying for you and your family be safe and please get a full yearly check up by you doing this it in courage's all us the people you have helped all these years . Take time for yourself and your family first God loves you just Rest I understand Rem😅.ber there are always underlying conditions hidden. Please Take care of yourself. 😮You have helped me get through all of my health challenges. God Loves you ♥️🙏🙏🙏❤

[@bigsonslawncare]

✔️💯👏🏾

[@texasnatv]

@1dbrook very well said. 💯% agree!

[@smilinacha]

Echo @1dbrook ‘s comment. Praying for your recovery and strengthening of your marriage bond. Praying extra grace upon your dear bride these times are very hard on them as well on a number of levels.

[@carolmerrill6241]

You are not alone, my friend. Anxiety kicks but with no warning. A lot of us are going through similar anxiety and stress. We stand behind you 100%. Keep fighting it man.

[@cindywilliams9537]

Your physical and metal health are what is important.. glad you see you

[@blendedhope138]

You’ve got this!! Anxiety can be crippling. Lifting you and your family in prayer as you navigate through this. I think it’s totally a normal mental/body response to deal with “what could have happened” after you blacked out. You have so much gratitude and love for your family and you don’t want anything to happen to you or a loved one. But that fear can cripple you. Keep talking through it❤

[@bamatricia1]

Al you are such an inspiration. Sharing what you have with all of us was so heartfelt. I hope you know how much we admire your strength. I am praying that you will find the answers you are seeking and that you will be restored in both your physical and mental health. Anxiety is real. I love watching your videos. Praying for you! 🙏

[@drmom1443]

Al, Depression can keep you from doing all the things we used to love to do. I have had depression and anxiety my entire life, and I know what a struggle it is. Therapy helps if you find a good therapist that you click with. Be kind to yourself, Al, above all. You mean so much to your family and your community. Take time for yourself whenever you can. We will be here when you're ready. ❤

[@angel-astanfield7939]

Never underestimate anxiety and panic attacks. Generalized Anxiety Disorder is a lot more debilitating than we give credit. Good for you Al. Dark nights of the soul are not easy to get out of. Thank you for your honesty and courage. Much love to you and your family. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@dollyburton9205]

Praying for you to get better, take care of yourself❤️ You are such an inspiration to all of us ❣️

[@tamibrudzinski4036]

Your videos are awesome and heartwarming. I love transformations but they are also inspiring to see how much you care about others!! Glad to see you are feeling better and taking care of yourself and your family ❤

[@seanslawns]

As a recovering drug addict who suffers from anxiety and depression who also mows yards for a living...I can totally relate to this, thanks for sharing AL

[@paullyrenee]

Congratulations on your sobriety. Prayers for continued peace.

[@user-lg6pw4hs6g]

Al, I appreciate how much willpower it took for you to make this video, to share your struggles. So many of your viewers can certainly relate to what you are experiencing. When I went into that rabbit hole I almost didn't make it back. May I please share with you some instructions my doctor gave me. Simply when you notice your mind is dwelling on negative thoughts, immediately turn them around and recall something that made you laugh, that made you happy. During challenging moments, deep breathe and blow out slowly. Most importantly, hold your loved one close, they are hurting with you. We love you, Al. Take care and we'll see you soon.

[@lindavenport9788]

Friend Al, cause of your job exposures good to get blood work done. Maybe a simple fix to deficiencies - being proactive about your health is a start. Do let us know. We (I) think you're wonderful & luv the insights you have. Hugs, & healing energy being sent to you.✨✨

[@MrsDonnaE]

Same… I’m still surprised I survived! ❤❤❤ This is what helped me with major panic attacks, hope it works for someone who needs it… When it’s getting worse than you are prepared for: Name 5 things you can SEE Name 5 things you can HEAR Name 5 things you can TOUCH Name 5 things you can SMELL Name 5 things you can TASTE I have Complex PTSD, and because of issues with insurance etc., can’t find a Dr in my area. So I’m unmedicated and struggling hard. The first time I tried the technique, it worked so well that I just cried a River… it has never failed. Even during catastrophic accidents. Praying for everyone battling to stay here…❤❤❤

[@Judy-pw3pq]

Praying for you Al. It takes a lot of strength to open up like that. You are an awesome man and praying for God’s strength and covering. ❤

[@cherylhooper3513]

You’re the best! Thanks for the video. You did a great job and helped many struggling in the same way. Soooo happy you’re feeling better.

[@AngelusCraft]

Al, your videos soothe me. The noise and the final results makes me calm and content. I’m happy you’re doing better. Never be embarrassed to be “normal”, we all go through things and it helps to talk about them.😊💜

[@Gneevah]

Depression has no reason to take us over, it just happens. So me 68 now and have had all the symptoms that you talk about off and on all my life. I’m 37 years sober and it didn’t fix depression, oh well, we just put one foot in front of the other. I love you more for being so human, not perfect. Your mowing videos have been such a wonderful thing to watch, you’re just naturally a good person, don’t forget that. Love Grandma Gneevah😊

[@melissakirk9033]

I suffered from anxiety so much that I had to force myself just to go to the grocery store. I know some people don't believe in the Lord but I do and he told me that the devil was trying to steal my joy. It wasn't an audible voice it was just something that popped in my head and I know it was the Lord. It changed my out look and I hardly ever have anxiety attacks anymore. I pray a lot and the more I pray for others the smaller my problems seem. I'm so glad you're doing better not just for you but also for your beautiful family. May God bless and keep you always..

[@jeffcole1914]

I agree Jesus Christ is the the way the truth and the life. Anxiety can become a mountain of phobias obsessions etc. But there’s a way out. Fist is moving through it you can’t stop just keep moving

[@annat4014]

Al don’t worry so much. You are a kind & caring young man. I am so proud of you. You & your family are in my prayers.✌🏽❤️

[@karenryan3496]

Oh my goodness! You sound exactly like my 25 yr old daughter! She has been going through extreme anxiety attacks for almost a year and a half. It got worse in December. She got married to a wonderful man. Was feeling somewhat better then had a miscarriage! Absolutely threw her for a loop! She is just now crawling out of that hole. We have been praying and praying for God to raise her up. We’re getting there. I’m going to be praying for you! You always make me smile and I love your spirit! If you need someone to talk to you can talk to this old mommy! I have a good ear! You take care and I’ll be listening out for you!

[@BigTunaCrypto]

AL it's Tuna...Bro I live in Indiana. I'm a KZbinr. I like to bust out the DEER on local yards too....but what you do is God's work brother. Not only do people love watching you work hard and help others...People like how humble you are. Glad to see you back at it. Never give up! You are an inspiration to others!

[@lorrainehill-stevens6968]

For me, my depression and anxiety is a daily struggle. Believe it or not, watching your videos and Midwest Magic Cleaner has helped me to get out of my head and do things. Watching others pay it forward is wonderful in helping me think of things I can do. It’s a slow process but it’s working. I hope that you too can find what works for you. It sucks being stuck in your head. You’re not alone, please know that. I wish you the best! Btw, Mack from Midwest Magic Cleaning Loves your channel!! He has mentioned you a couple times.

[@joannsomers2406]

Me too, for both channnels.

[@marilynlegg311]

Midwest Magic Cleaning channel is one of my favorites. So much empathy for struggling people, whether mentally or physically. And he does recommend Al’s channel. 👍

[@CrazyCatLady1968]

Midwest Magic Cleaning got me up & moving one day when I was just sure I couldn’t do anything. You guys help so much more than just what you’re doing in your videos. Anxiety is a real beast, but being brave like this takes away its shadows to hide in ❤

[@lookin-up]

You go at your own pace, we're not going anywhere. Hope you feel the collective love all around you. You are amazing Al, you do so much good. Ty for your honesty about anxiety. I hope each day gets better for you, sending you love and Yes, I been there. ❤❤❤

[@AllisonWCone]

Al, you are awesome, dude! I feel you. I see you. You are doing all the right stuff. Keep plugging away and working on whatever you need to do to feel better. 😊 Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I have so much respect for you. You are loved and appreciated. ❤

[@andrewadams7864]

3 years ago I had a minor stroke. Then 2 months later my heart started racing with afib after testing positive with Covid. I was in the exact place you found yourself. Afraid to be alone and wanting to stay home. A year later I found you on KZbin. And since I love mowing, I totally enjoyed your videos. I watch your videos all the time now. It helped me thru my weird feelings I have in my head on occasions. The videos calm me down and I get my mind off of feeling weird. Thank you for sharing and I hope you get back to 100%. Life is full of curveballs. Adjust and make positive changes.

[@lyndawerner2188]

Anxiety and depression are BEASTS and they look different for everyone. I'm glad to hear you're doing what you need to take care of yourself. You don't owe anyone any explanations, but sharing your story definitely helps other people. xoxo

[@dianehillman7808]

Definitely!

[@kemsgirl1964]

Perfectly said.

[@rickmoreland5206]

Man you are an angel for the things you do for people, hope all the best for you , I have a lot of the same things happening to me and it’s hard sometimes to understand . We are living in crazy times but people doing things like you do to help people gives us all hope that God has plans for things to come . All the best to you and love and prayers 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@julieallen8627]

I love the fact that you're sharing a bit of what you're going through. I went through a bad anxiety time that I was in the same boat you were. I decided coloring was the best thing for me mental health is so important I love that you helped so many people, but you have to make sure that you get back on Track period Therapy really helped for me And it's nothing two be ashamed about please hang in there because you will get through the other side

[@dontcomply2war]

It takes a real man to be so transparent with health concerns! I'm glad you and your daughter are better! Hat's off to a great wife to help you through it! We love you Al! ❤

[@roxiegs348]

I’m proud of you for being so vulnerable. Anxiety and depression are real and can affect you physically. Praying for you.

[@CarolSpark-sg2iu]

Bless you for sharing this with us. Your honesty is appreciated. Many people suffer in silence with similar circumstances and feel alone. Praying for your complete healing ❤️🙏

[@francesknight4529]

Glad to see you working your personal problems out and sharing with us! It gives some of us hope for our own dark places of feelings . Thank you❤️🙏🏽

[@ShawnieS-so5mb]

Praise God! Keep declaring that God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind. Declare this whenever the enemy attacks you with worry, anxiety or fear. So glad your family and you are well. Thank you for the work you do!God bless you and your family.

[@janet5820]

Lovely comment 🥰

[@gypsy4136]

I understand you 100%. I've been hospitalized twice. Do NOT feel, weird, off, embarrassed, etc for being human. My husband has debilitating anxiety and has agoraphobia. He can only leave the house if I'm with him. Opening up and talking helps! No! Not bored with you talking. Kudos to the Lego set! My hubby builds model cars. Sending you so much love and lots of hugs! Blessings for peace of mind and healing. ❤

[@cindynelson5908]

I’m so glad you are feeling better! u are heaven sent to so many! Good bless!

[@catharinealvarez7964]

Hey, Al, thanks so much for making this video. I can definitely relate to what you're going thru. About 15 years ago, I was suffering from PTSD. Anxiety is relentless and so exhausting. It did feel like there was no way out. But you're right, it doesn't last forever. I'm so glad that you're sharing about your experience and how it feels to start to recover. You may have some setbacks, but over time, you will feel better and better. And you'll come out of this wiser and with a lot of empathy for what people are going thru. You got this! I'm so glad you have a supportive family. You're going to be okay. ((hugs)) from one of your mowing fans ❤

[@margaretmcnarry4298]

Rumination (dwelling on things, overthinking) is not fun. I’ve dealt with depression/PTSD for the last 50 years, and can empathize with you. Thank you for sharing. You are pulling back the curtains on mental health issues, and that is a difficult yet very important action on your part. Thank you for doing this.

[@dianehillman7808]

I agree 100%! ❤

[@tsgrandma9837]

You are not alone. This happens to so many people every day. You are stronger than you think. The fact that you shared all of what you have been experiencing and going through proves that. It's not easy to admit to yourself that anxiety has taken over your life, much less make a video admitting it to thousands of people. You absolutely rock! You are an inspiration and are to be admired and looked up to. So strong....Thank you.

[@bettywhitley8458]

Thanks for letting us know you’re okay. It takes a special person to do what you do. You help so many people! I love watching your videos. We all love you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 we’re glad you’re back❤❤❤

[@terrymarshall424]

Al, everything you said made so much sense to me and you're not crazy. Anxiety, grief, depression are all real feelings and can hit us when we least expect it, and it will leave you unmotivated to do anything. I can also relate to the needles thing. By now, I have had enough needles with blood work, etc., and I don't mind it as much, BUT, there is still no way that I can look at my injection site when the nurse is giving me a shot or taking blood draws. Sometimes I have a hard time turning bad thoughts off in my hard until I remember to ask the Lord to please take these thoughts away, and He does. So glad you shared this very sensitive and hard video. You have touched so many people, and I am glad that you are ready to get back on your mower and continue your good work. Bless you. Just a P.S., I am having my blood work drawn tomorrow...

[@darlenemartin7613]

I have a phobia with needles so I totally get it. Stress and fears can wreck havoc with the mind. There is no shame with going through the process as you are. Thank you for being vulnerable and transparent with your subscribers. Take care of yourself, Al. 🙏🏽❤️

[@lolaottinger3038]

Two of my grandchildren have difficulty with the thought that their doctors visit may include needles. I have zero problems with them, I once had to have a skin cancer removed from my leg, the nurse was going to have me lie down, I told her no, I wanted to watch and the doctor said I could. Also no matter how gross something looked or smelled I didn’t gag. Well the no gag thing is gone. I can gag at almost everything now, but needles still don’t bother me, and I have a suggestion Al, I have seen you get stung by many bees, I’ve seen you pick up a snake….that is something I’ll never ever do in my lifetime, but as far as needles and bees, try and think to yourself that if you can handle a bee sting which is actually going to hurt really badly, that you can handle a small stick of a needle which will only last a very few seconds. I’m a diabetic, my doctor had me on Ozempic for awhile, I didn’t like the side effects and went off it pretty quickly, but I have to say that the needle on that syringe was the smallest I’ve ever seen and I didn’t see how there could possibly be a channel inside it to carry the medication, but there was. Too bad every needle isn’t that small. I’m guessing the needles diameter was a fourth the size of an eyelash! Doctors should start requesting those! All this being said, I’m glad to hear that you’re doing better, the family is doing good and your daughter is well! 🙏🏻

[@Sparrowdeplume]

Love your work Al. ❤ I’m an EAP clinician and I see hundreds of people in the clinic with anxiety, including health anxiety. I’m so stoked for you that you’ve found a way through to do something about it. It’s so important to get your health checked out and attend to what is needed. Do everything you can to calm down your autonomic nervous system and set yourself up with a green prescription of good food, sleep, nutrition, exercise and someone to talk to everyday about how you’re feeling. It will help. You’ve got this Al, you’ll get through it. You’re already helping people by sharing your lived experiences about anxiety to inspire others to do something about their anxiety too. ❤

[@susanswift7363]

Thank you for sharing. Sometimes our guardians, guides and ministering angels give us many signs that we need a time out. I am curious about your age, as I believe 28 is the first year of true adult life, and ages 26-29 are the toughest self examination years. Also, you are obviously a very sensitive being and full of compassion for others; finding the compassion for ourselves, and self love is a lifetime work. When difficult thoughts take up too much time and FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) decreases our sense of well being, keeping your hands busy is the wisest thing you can do. Games, puzzles, and I love watching Lego Masters. As you engage in a reset, I can see you fine tuning what is right for you, as an individual. Be well and have a prosperous and abundant 2024.

[@stepheng.5623]

So well said Sparrow! Your advice is excellent! Isn't Al a awesome guy? Strong yet but vulnerable. Prayers your way brother. Keep up the great work! 💙🙏

[@jeanclausen7367]

Take Care!

[@b.jackson4072]

Thank you for sharing, its really awesome to open up and speak about this with others. (I've been down this road and know what you're going through.) Hope things are going well for you, and test results are good. Always make time for yourself, your health is important, especially your mental health. Take care of yourself and your family. All the best!

[@nomaddaemon3967]

I'm 56 years old and I struggle with anxiety, depression and schizoeffective disorder most my life and I get what you are saying. I get to where I fear leaving the house and will isolate for months sometimes. I manage my symptoms with antidepressants and antipsychotics and have been doing well again for about a year. It's so important to keep busy and have things to do and look forward to, at least for me. I'm am happy you are doing better. Don't beat yourself up. Embrace your whole self as even our "faults" make us who we are. You are a positive, bright individual with a beautiful family. And I believe you are correct. These trials you are going through are for a reason and will make you a stronger, even more compassionate person. These videos you post explaining your situation can be great therapy too - not just for you but the people who watch them. I hope it helps and you continue doing your thing. Thanks for being you, bro! D 🎶

[@musicgirl8004]

Please take the time to listen to what YOU need and then DO it. Everyone has a limit and sometimes it sneaks up on you and smacks you in the head. This does not mean that you have something broken inside...it means you are human! You are such a lovely giving person Al. Give yourself grace and forgiveness. Big hugs and much love going to you bud.

[@sunila32]

It takes a brave person to speak about how one is feeling, especially when you find yourself in a difficult position and going through a tough time so well done and feel privileged that you are willing to share this with us. Over the past few years, I have been through something similar and it's only in the past year or so that things have started to improve. Hats off to you for your desire and efforts to do something about it.

[@twink1212]

Thank you for sharing your story! ❤ I love how you have a desire to help others through your own experiences and empathize with those you serve! You're awesome!

[@elizabethrose3667]

Thanks for checking in. Prayers. You’re a good man for doing what you do. ❤ god bless your family.

[@lindasimpson1813]

Thank you for sharing your story with us glad to see you you are such a kind man

[@brendalonergan5111]

So many of us overthink everything, Al. We can't help it. I certainly understand. You are not alone in this, Al. Our minds can be our worst enemies😢 My adult son does Lego to relax. It's wonderful.

[@evelynpickwick9822]

We’re here for you Al. You are not alone. You’ve been missed. By sharing your struggles, you’ve helped so many. ❤

[@brendabrucker8884]

Glad your better .❤anxiety is so hard to control or handle keep smiling pray to God for healing ! I'm praying for you and your family ! 🙏❤️

[@debrarogers4985]

You were missed for sure. I am happy that you are better and I thank you for sharing with everyone. It has probably been a blessing to so many people going through something like this. God has used you to bless others in countless ways. Thanks for being you and an inspiration to us all!

[@diannaloveshenry]

Your sensitivity makes you a great human being! A lot if people mistake kindness for weakness. Strong intelligent people show their sensitivity. You sharing your raw feelings inspires me and I'm sure your entire audience! Your baby girl's safety must have had a lot to do with your feelings. Thank you for sharing your true grit, Al!

[@kellyq8132]

Hi AL I'm not one to comment on videos but I felt compelled to let know that you have taken the first steps in dealing with your anxiety. I have witnessed this with one of my sons who has had depression and anxiety for 11 years . He now has a family and is doing much better. Talking with friends and family helps, but sometimes professional support is needed to get over the hurdles. Don't be embarrassed ❤ We all need love and acceptance. You are truly a beautiful soul. God bless you , your amazing wife and family . 😊 you got this

[@justinbowser5050]

We all love you Al. You are awesome and I totally love your transformation videos. Please be safe and God bless you and your family!!

[@patrickmccann9173]

You are a good person and do a lot of good. I have suffered with anxiety as well. Keep going. Bless you

[@elaineeverhart7100]

Al....you and your videos have changed this world.... literally....you have made such an impact on the YT community..... anxiety is crippling...don't dismiss it...proud of you for getting that blood work ..... Dig into your faith because God is using you to reach His children....Praying for you Sir❤ and your family❤❤❤

[@aqua.scape69]

Hang in there brother. I went through a battle with depression and anxiety for a few years. I finally decided to go to the doctor and get checked out. My blood work came back good. The Dr put me on medication for my anxiety. It changed my life and now I’m 100% better. Thanks for sharing man. God Bless you and your family. You and your daughter are both in my prayers. Love ya brother. 🙌🙌

[@KSM295.]

Do you mind me asking what medication you are taking? My 25 year old sun is suffering from anxiety and panic attacks. He has a dr appointment but not until February

[@karenkuhr5698]

When I finally went to the dr for my terrible anxiety, I was afraid to take the 1st anti-anxiety pill...don't ask me why; but anyway, after I felt the relief after the first dose, I cried so hard with relief.

[@winnbev10]

@@KSM295.my son is on fluoxetine at a low dose. I’m on sertraline for anxiety and that helped me get the anxiety at a manageable level

[@rainydays-dancing5793]

I’m glad you’re on the up and up. You’ve had a lot going on even in your videos. I really appreciate how you see this bump in the road as an opportunity to relate to others. Sometimes one person’s mountain looks like another person’s mole hill and folks are quick to belittle it as “that’s nothing compared to…”. Always take time for yourself when you need it and don’t apologize for that…you only get to be YOU once❣️

[@Tyler-ml3ft]

Love your videos man! You inspire alot of people including myself to pay it forward and just straight entertainment with the lawn care. I love transformations , I do lawn care for a living. Also I had bad anxiety and dealt with it for years and it was very hard for me just do alot of things without having an anxious stomach or bad thoughts and all of that. Finally had the courage to make a doctors appointment and got on a medicine called Lexapro. I've been on it for 2 years and has helped so so much! Really no side affects and has helped me for the best. Hope all is well with you now, keep the great videos coming

[@rachelbee7921]

So relieved to know you're okay, Al. When you become overwhelmed with anxiety, remember that God can lift that weight, if you'll only ask Him to. Praying for your continued mental clarity. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️❤️

[@Scratchin2themoon]

🙏🏽 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽Amen!!

[@RoseMaryBowen]

Glad you are feeling better. I'm 68 years old with multiple sclerosis for nearly 40 years. Anxiety is a recurring problem for me because my disability. My dependency on others who help me causes anxiety because I've always been independent. My anxiety escalated with each additional health-related event until I thought it was too much to bear. My faith in God and talking to a mental health professional has gotten me through so many times of anxiety and depression. You are stronger than you know! You are a kind, generous, thoughtful and insightful young man. Love and believe in yourself! Praying for you and your family. God bless you. ❤🙏😊

[@debraheskin428]

I hope you family is doing well

[@summerbrown7058]

So sorry to hear that. You are such a gift to this insane place. Sending blessings.

[@susanpugh5265]

I poured my heart out to you about what I had went threw! I love you & your videos! I'm still praying for you! May god bless you! Get a helper so you won't be alone when you mow!

[@marshalllaw123]

Brother depression is no joke; it can be utterly debilitating at times, and I can definitely relate! I’ll tell you that talking to a psychiatrist about it can be incredibly helpful, and there are meds that can make life WAY easier to deal with. Try to keep an open mind, and stay positive. We’re all here to support you!

[@HazelLee-rg3zg]

Al, please ignore the negative comments. They don’t know you. Anxiety and depression are real. It’s NOT “all in your head.” I used to think that until I went through it myself and realized I could not control it myself. I lost my husband of 52 years last year and didn’t realize I was going through depression until I was going day after day, not getting out of my chair and letting my housework go. I went to my doctor and got on a good antidepressant. I’ve been worried about you and have prayed for you and your family. Good to see you back..

[@sharlaroschewski2455]

You are brave, and kind. We are behind you and you can count on us to support you always. Been there, done that and your description is so real. Depression is so real. God bless you.,..prayer helped me. We love you and welcome you back to whatever you can give.

[@janetsloan6500]

All you are awesome what you do for people is amazing. So pleased you are coming back xx

[@laurastevenson2785]

Al, let me tell you why I started following you for a very long time. 1. Is because I love the way you are gracefully so happy helping someone or just anyone that needs it. 2. I love your beautiful attitude which is always the same and even when someone stole from you, you didn’t show how upset you were but continue to help someone in need of your help. This is what you called graceful Blessings. I have to admit that I was so sad that there was something medical going on with you, and that you didn’t want to share. I am so happy about your test results and is looking forward to following and continuing to pray for you and family. I love you Al. God Bless Love’s 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@hollyann127]

I LOVE that you are not just saying that this is about “YOU”…. It is about helping “Others”. Social media acceptance/growth can affect a persons’ wellbeing…..you got this!! 🙏🏻❤️🇺🇸🙏🏻

[@lindadawson5277]

Thank you Al for sharing your story. You are loved because you are not alone. Hold your head high, you are blessed, and don't be afraid to ask for help ❤🙏

[@danielmcmanus7436]

You are an amazing individual and an inspiration. Keep the faith and God will be with you always. Thank you for sharing. My prayers are with you that you continue to be strong.

[@ksueb7788]

Al, I hope you know that the reason we all watch you is not just your skill at mowing but your humility, honesty, empathy and kindness toward your family and others. You are a special human being. My daughter, grandson and husband have all suffered episodes of anxiety and you described it perfectly. You pull away and you can’t get out of your own head or take that first step in getting help. So glad you pushed through your terrible fear of getting labs done and hope this helps you get back to where you want to be. ❣️

[@Berta535]

It’s ok brother, many of us have been there. Nice to see your face again. Take care of yourself. I’m sure you are helping many people for just telling them about your experience. Anxiety can be debilitating. You are loved Al. Glad that you made the video. Take care, you are missed and loved big time. Hugs, Gods peace be with you brother. Call you the Lego master….bye

[@cwpowell9453]

❤I can't say it any better than @robertatows❤ we knew something was up and I'm sure many have prayed for you and your family. Yes you are loved ❤

[@audreym3777]

“If I didn’t make myself get out of this situation I’d still be in it”--quote of the century.

[@susanmeadows627]

Praying for you and the family Al. God bless you for your great heart. 🙏❤️

[@RustyShackleford97]

Health over views brother ❤. We're the Bladez fam and we're here for you no matter what you can talk all you need to we're here to listen and maybe not all of us can relate but just talking and having positive feedback helps wonders. I don't really want to say it but I'm at my all time low as well homeless living in a shelter with my wife and 3 kids so much depression and anxiety but I can't give up I keep pushing and here this year I'm making a huge risk to move out of Chattanooga TN to Florida. My sincerest Blessings to you and your family.

[@sharyncarew7939]

May the road rise to meet you.......

[@wendybarefoot5838]

Al, you are not alone. Ive been struggling for over a year with this very thing and people dont understand that it can be almost crippling. It can feel impossible to pull yourself out of, but weekly therapy has helped some. Thanks for sharing this part of your struggle. It helps many of us feel like we are not going through this alone.❤

[@ellenyoussif1207]

It is so wonderful that you faced all you needed to face in order to get your head back together! Your hope sounds boundless, while still realizing you need to deal with all of big AND the small stuff in your life! I'm glad that you have a loving family to help you through it all. It has to be hard on all of you. Stay well...I ALSO feel like we would be friends in person. It's WAY cool that you were able to share all of it with your on-line family. Thanks! Love you, too! Ellen

[@kenedwards9603]

Thank you Al, God bless you!!