I DIDNT want to do this video BUT yall deserve ANSWERS!!!

[@cohomesource]

Thank you so much for checking in with us. You know we all love you!🙏🏽🥰

[@angellahemans1800]

Hope u feel much take care of your before going back on the job it's only one body

[@kathleenmcbride3126]

I'd your little girl ok now? And I understand your fear of needles

[@DNelmark96]

God Bless You. Thank you for being so open about anxiety. We are praying for you.

[@Lucianspelta99]

Sounds like a demonic attack

[@carolyntaylor5946]

​😅

[@fabrinaleach3251]

Hi, Al. I’m a veteran living with PTSD. Just wanted to let you know you-how watching you [help others] makes me feel like you’re doing GOD’s work! You are an amazing person. Living life day-by-day and thanking GOD for his mercy is what keeps me moving forward. GOD Bless you and your beautiful family!

[@Donnybrook10]

How TF do you have ptsd? You were never in combat?

[@candacebrandt8211]

You don’t have to be in combat to have PTSD. It isn’t something that just affects veterans. Why you pickin’ a fight?

[@gracerodriguez3516]

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[@bethbradbury8043]

I also see God's work being done through his hands. Not just by the work it's self. Being honest through his feelings. Like this video, it's OK to have a few off days. But don't give up, get up. It's alot harder when you don't have that buddy to drag you to a golf course or a spouse to rub your back and say don't worry babe I got this today. That's why God sends him, he rolls up and makes the difference in someone's life. We need more people like this.

[@bethbradbury8043]

​@@Donnybrook10😂 me either and I got it to. God Bless you, you lucky son of a gun.

[@MikeInElma]

As someone who continues to battle anxiety, grief, and depression I so hope you are able to find the therapy that works for you so you can continue to be your best self. Whether it is playing chess, building legos, or making videos do what you love so you can focus on you and your health. Keep being amazing Al and hope your family stays safe & healthy!

[@karengossett1475]

Oh I totally understand 🥲 Hope you stay strong 🙏❤️

[@elaineeverhart7100]

Me too with the struggle...it's so hard to keep fighting but I do❤❤❤ you too ok❤❤❤❤

[@itsmests]

Glad to see you are feeling better. Sometimes I have anxiety really bad. I have found that by doing the Five Grounding Technigues really helps. Try it out. It will help you get out of your head.

[@patriciajoy9174]

God Bless You and your family, we love you and God's got you. It's wonderful to see you today.

[@darrenhawken9766]

Rest up and recharge recover , what's good for you and your family comes first. Thank you for the great KZbin vids ,take care 👍

[@tasteofcountryllc737]

But I also think your wife needs a break after holding it together for everyone. Let her know she is seen by us as well. Very strong woman right there. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@christophergauthier5149]

As a veteran dealing with PTSD and clinical depression, I understand. Know that we are behind you and support you whether you are posting videos or not. Please just check in once in a while so we know you’re ok.

[@DianaJG8]

Thank you, Christopher, for your service! I pray God lays a mighty hand of recovery on you to heal your PTSD. With MUCH Love - Diana ❤😊

[@CoW-m1m]

I’ve gone through anxiety too !! This life has lots of challenges ! Prayers for you ❤

[@kerrolynntitus9460]

🇺🇲Thank you for your service. May God bless you, and continue to bless the USA. 🖖🏼🫶🏼 ✨✝️🙏🏼💖🙇🏼‍♀️🙌🏼🕊️✨

[@erniebhernandez6452]

Myself I'm a veteran with PTSD and Anxiety/Depression. I'm on medication for those mental illnesses. Also, I am extremely claustrophobic, which will trigger a severe panic attack. I hope you get feeling better soon, and I will pray for you. 🙏

[@diannaleigh9914]

I’m not a veteran but I gave anxiety and PTSD from anesthesia gone wrong. I understand. I’m glad you gave support.

[@kimmyrahne433]

It's a brave thing to discuss your anxiety and depression openly. Thank you! I think there is a heaviness in the world right now that is pressing on us. ❤

[@DianaJG8]

EXACTLY and Amen! ❤ - Diana

[@ellenadams5650]

Anxiety is a real thing. I [unknowingly] had it even before it was a "THING"...just thought thought I was weak. I refused to get on an antidepressant for years as my Dr recommended because I had never been depressed. But when he finally convinced me that would cure Anxiety- I discovered he was right.

[@kimmyrahne433]

@ellenadams5650 We need to value and care for a whole person including mental health. So many physical health problems can be attributed to issues like anxiety and depression. It's unfortunate that it's taken so long for the medical community and the world at large to acknowledge and help treat people.

[@nitawallace5347]

Mental health RN here. So proud of you to pull yourself out of this and face that demon. A mental health break and a checkup can be a life saver. Hang in there!

[@grayjack5021]

I've been fighting this all my . I didn't know I was their until I was in my 40's. I'm now 71 everything is great now!@erinwalter132

[@crackednut78]

I want to thank you for your courage to speak out on your anxiety and depression. So many people suffer silently with it, especially men. I honestly believe that talking about it not only lightens your burden but may also help someone else not feel so alone. Shout out to your wife for having your back!❤

[@OhNoNotFrank]

Remember that depression isn't a sealed cave. It's a tunnel. Keep on going and you *will* find light at the end.

[@jamestyler2593]

Great Comment Frank - i once wrote down i see it as invisible for others to see, imagine being sat in a chair on a beach looking out to sea, and everyone is having fun around you BUT you can feel a Tsunami out to sea coming towards you that others cannot see THEN it hits you,crash's into you, But to others you are sat in your chair nothing happening, The Tsunami is crashing over you and around you moving past going inland and you have to stay strong 'Not Panicing' in the chair and you just have to be patient and 'WAIT' , then it all flows back to the sea and you are sat safe in the chair due to not having fell apart. i also wrote while in that chair/time deep in the depression at your lowest you can link in with The Inner Spirit/God and you can examine what is presented to you and you can work on it as it is something that is blocking your spiritual progress that time of depression can be where you find a pearl of wisdom in the darkness.... secret is do not panic..! Best Regards James

[@rosiered3403]

What an awesome way to put it! This will help the next time I'm in the tunnel. Thank you.

[@gerdagrobler2485]

Well said.

[@lisal6996]

You don’t owe us any explanation. We have just been hoping you & your family are OK. I too suffer from anxiety/depression. I can be fine one day & then the next day I just start crying out of the blue and it is tough to overcome. Stress & how it affects our mind is a hard thing to deal with. You are not alone Al ! Love you guys ❤

[@BREEZYM6015]

I can relate to your comment.

[@lg8365]

I can relate too Lis. Hope you're coping okay Hun! Take care. ❤🇨🇦

[@lisal6996]

@lg8365 I am doing well right now Thank You 😊 I hope you are as well !

[@Missy3105]

Dealing with this as i watch this video! You guys aren’t alone! Prayers to everyone who is suffering! ❤

[@lisal6996]

@Missy3105 Hugs to you ! I pray you feel better very soon ♥️

[@candybell3214]

As an elderly person that lives alone after losing my husband, I can tell you that depression is very real and not easy to get through. Find things that interest you....think I might try Leggos. Stay strong and keep people in your life . I have missed you and am sending prayers and positive thoughts for you and your family.

[@francisoconner3596]

Candybell3214, I have had over 100 plus surgeries and procedures since birth. There is only one way to stop depression which is stop keeping God out of one’s life. If one asks God to help you by praying to God, by reading the greatest love letter to humanity the Sacred Scriptures the Holy Bible and ask God to forgive one of our sinfulness. I promise you that ones depression or any of problem God can and will fix if one Loves God as much as he loves us. You’re problem or illness my not go away but God will give one the tools to make you happy, joyful and at peace inside one’s soul, body and mind. Satan does want any of us to rely upon God for everlasting happiness, joy and peace. God loves us so much that he wants all of us to be in Heaven with him for all eternity. But if we follow the world and Satan our happiness, joy or peace will be very brief. If one forgoes the world and realize on God alone the joy, peace and happiness will shine upon us with God’s graces and blessings. Again, completes the Three Pillars the God asks us to do daily which are prayer, Penance by (obeying his 10 Commandments ) disobedience to God’s Word and will and study and know the Catholic Faith which is the only Universal Truth that Jesus Christ founded and set forth through his Apostles JohnTheBaptist.us

[@vladbrad1389]

Those are nice words of inspiration

[@Marc_Gagné]

For myself I'd prefer a Mechano Set. If left outdoors it'll rust and disappear.

[@johnnytryhardgaming]

💖

[@JudyCordero-p8o]

I enjoyed Lego’s. I really got into log cabin toy. My grandson would build towns and he had a train station, matchbox cars. IT WAS FUN! I was in my early 60s. What fun to be a grandmother.

[@seanslawns]

As a recovering drug addict who suffers from anxiety and depression who also mows yards for a living...I can totally relate to this, thanks for sharing AL

[@paullyrenee]

Congratulations on your sobriety. Prayers for continued peace.

[@777Snowdrop]

For someone who goes through dark times , you shine the light of Christ in your kindness and gentle soul . God Bless you and keep you sir . Please know that prayers are going up for you and your family 🙏🏻

[@ChelbySe]

Dear Al, anxiety can be absolutely brutal. For those who haven't experienced it, it's so hard to describe. You are not alone, and you are dearly loved. Keep breathing and taking one day at a time. You're doing all the right things. May the love and kindness that you send out come back to you tenfold as you find your way through this challenge. ❤

[@teresasmith4028]

COVERING YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN PRAYER!!! Thank you for sharing your journey with anxiety. You got this Al!!!!! Never, never give up!!!!

[@kimb5693]

Amen!

[@roodgamma7987]

Amen

[@dfoot636]

BEAUTIFUL COMMENT Covering them in prayer!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@kimdimasi3092]

I agree!! Covering you and your family in prayer that this worry goes away and never returns. God Bless you!!!

[@nymbusDeveloper86]

Agree, God bless him, he is doing an amazing work helping people out.

[@frankdotyjr]

Hi Al !! You're doing more for the world by doing THIS vlog than you may know. Mental Health is a REAL issue and needs to be brought to the surface of our conversations!! Thank YOU for your bravery and commitment in your life to Pay It Forward. Without people like YOU, we would be a far worse place. In the meantime, do NOT be afraid of seeking help and sharing here for the world to see a brave man face his issues head-on!! Peace Brother!! 😎👍✌

[@valeriejohnson2367]

So glad you opened up about your health and emotions……it’s a wonderful way to feel better by discussing what your feeling……. Like going to a therapist with no bill………❤

[@elainemywords6799]

Maybe also, this was what had to be done to bring more awareness to mental issues/challenges that not many are taking seriously. He should document the whole process to get a book in the making to help others overcome this disease because that is what it is. Our leaders also need to provide more help to those suffering. It is a hard fight. I see my loved one struggle every day.

[@carleenspada2293]

@frankdotyjr, You not only said a mouthful, but you said it spot on. YES ! YES !! You’re 100% right in all that you said ! My sentiments are that I wouldn’t change a word of what you just conveyed .... I couldn’t have said it better than that ! 👍 💔🙏🇺🇸

[@tracieokeefe1348]

I had 3 full-blown panic attacks in 1 week, 3 trips to the ER. You are so not alone. I've been taking maintenance medication for quite a few years. I'm glad you feel safe here to share. We sure do appreciate you. Stay safe, share your feelings, and seek therapy if needed. You are a terrific human! ❤ to you and your family

[@jessetippett2967]

As a fellow anxiety/depression sufferer.... And self proclaimed most private person in the world..... I really appreciate your candidness in speaking about this. Keep your head up and take care of yourself.

[@holliehogan8106]

Mental anxiety can manifest to the physical-and people who don’t have anxiety issues won’t always understand-and if there is a physical problem, it makes the anxiety 100 times worse and just feeds back and forth-be safe and get healthy ❤love watching both channels

[@SylDomiAlem21]

Glad your truly better. Remember a lot of people love you out here . Thanks for sharing 🙏🏽peace be with you God continue to keep you healthy ❤️

[@ericalavallee4625]

Amen

[@debbutcher5827]

Al, This is not crazy at all, please reach out to a therapist and explain your anxiety, Just talking it out with family and friends isn't the same. There are many things they can teach you to calm yourself without medications if that's a problem. I have been there, take care of your health, we all can wait. Love both of your Channels and your family content.

[@bobdees6428]

Al , is Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior ? I ask because I have met many people who have your issues/ anxiety and as they grew closer to the Lord their issues/anxiety became less and less, and in some cases completely gone. John 3;16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have every lasting life. True peace is found only in Jesus Christ !!!

[@sindiesigmon55]

I have to agree...spending time in God's word helps my anxiety a lot.

[@drmom1443]

Al, Depression can keep you from doing all the things we used to love to do. I have had depression and anxiety my entire life, and I know what a struggle it is. Therapy helps if you find a good therapist that you click with. Be kind to yourself, Al, above all. You mean so much to your family and your community. Take time for yourself whenever you can. We will be here when you're ready. ❤

[@countrygirl1006]

Dear Al, you are the first yard cleaning person that I have watched. I love the fact that you helped people. You are loved and appreciated ❤ In time you will be one hundred percent better. Give yourself some time. Just an old woman from Florida.

[@carolmerrill6241]

You are not alone, my friend. Anxiety kicks but with no warning. A lot of us are going through similar anxiety and stress. We stand behind you 100%. Keep fighting it man.

[@cindywilliams9537]

Your physical and metal health are what is important.. glad you see you

[@andrewadams7864]

3 years ago I had a minor stroke. Then 2 months later my heart started racing with afib after testing positive with Covid. I was in the exact place you found yourself. Afraid to be alone and wanting to stay home. A year later I found you on KZbin. And since I love mowing, I totally enjoyed your videos. I watch your videos all the time now. It helped me thru my weird feelings I have in my head on occasions. The videos calm me down and I get my mind off of feeling weird. Thank you for sharing and I hope you get back to 100%. Life is full of curveballs. Adjust and make positive changes.

[@Gneevah]

Depression has no reason to take us over, it just happens. So me 68 now and have had all the symptoms that you talk about off and on all my life. I’m 37 years sober and it didn’t fix depression, oh well, we just put one foot in front of the other. I love you more for being so human, not perfect. Your mowing videos have been such a wonderful thing to watch, you’re just naturally a good person, don’t forget that. Love Grandma Gneevah😊

[@karenryan3496]

Oh my goodness! You sound exactly like my 25 yr old daughter! She has been going through extreme anxiety attacks for almost a year and a half. It got worse in December. She got married to a wonderful man. Was feeling somewhat better then had a miscarriage! Absolutely threw her for a loop! She is just now crawling out of that hole. We have been praying and praying for God to raise her up. We’re getting there. I’m going to be praying for you! You always make me smile and I love your spirit! If you need someone to talk to you can talk to this old mommy! I have a good ear! You take care and I’ll be listening out for you!

[@lorrainehill-stevens6968]

For me, my depression and anxiety is a daily struggle. Believe it or not, watching your videos and Midwest Magic Cleaner has helped me to get out of my head and do things. Watching others pay it forward is wonderful in helping me think of things I can do. It’s a slow process but it’s working. I hope that you too can find what works for you. It sucks being stuck in your head. You’re not alone, please know that. I wish you the best! Btw, Mack from Midwest Magic Cleaning Loves your channel!! He has mentioned you a couple times.

[@joannsomers2406]

Me too, for both channnels.

[@marilynlegg311]

Midwest Magic Cleaning channel is one of my favorites. So much empathy for struggling people, whether mentally or physically. And he does recommend Al’s channel. 👍

[@CrazyCatLady1968]

Midwest Magic Cleaning got me up & moving one day when I was just sure I couldn’t do anything. You guys help so much more than just what you’re doing in your videos. Anxiety is a real beast, but being brave like this takes away its shadows to hide in ❤

[@1dbrook]

Don't feel pressured to air every detail of your struggles, Al. We are standing with you in your battles with our thoughts and prayers. Your fans want to know as much as you're willing to share about your life because they care, but some things are private and no one else's business but yours and your family's. Pray for wisdom. The Lord will show you His pathway to your healing of body, soul and spirit. You're loved!

[@patriciashumate9974]

Al we love you , we are praying for you and your family be safe and please get a full yearly check up by you doing this it in courage's all us the people you have helped all these years . Take time for yourself and your family first God loves you just Rest I understand Rem😅.ber there are always underlying conditions hidden. Please Take care of yourself. 😮You have helped me get through all of my health challenges. God Loves you ♥️🙏🙏🙏❤

[@bigsonslawncare]

✔️💯👏🏾

[@texasnatv]

@1dbrook very well said. 💯% agree!

[@smilinacha]

Echo @1dbrook ‘s comment. Praying for your recovery and strengthening of your marriage bond. Praying extra grace upon your dear bride these times are very hard on them as well on a number of levels.

[@melissakirk9033]

I suffered from anxiety so much that I had to force myself just to go to the grocery store. I know some people don't believe in the Lord but I do and he told me that the devil was trying to steal my joy. It wasn't an audible voice it was just something that popped in my head and I know it was the Lord. It changed my out look and I hardly ever have anxiety attacks anymore. I pray a lot and the more I pray for others the smaller my problems seem. I'm so glad you're doing better not just for you but also for your beautiful family. May God bless and keep you always..

[@jeffcole1914]

I agree Jesus Christ is the the way the truth and the life. Anxiety can become a mountain of phobias obsessions etc. But there’s a way out. Fist is moving through it you can’t stop just keep moving

[@CamperEra]

I know I shouldn’t say it, but me too. Praying keeps me grounded. God does answer prayers, so just pray 🙏🏻 wherever, whenever. My most sincere prayers are when I’m driving, especially the freeways. Pray out loud and eyes open, pray about EVERYTHING. Wait for the answers 😌

[@dawnsitkowski7703]

Thank you for bringing light and acceptance to all mental health issues. The best to you.

[@ShawnieS-so5mb]

Praise God! Keep declaring that God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind. Declare this whenever the enemy attacks you with worry, anxiety or fear. So glad your family and you are well. Thank you for the work you do!God bless you and your family.

[@janet5820]

Lovely comment 🥰

[@gypsy4136]

I understand you 100%. I've been hospitalized twice. Do NOT feel, weird, off, embarrassed, etc for being human. My husband has debilitating anxiety and has agoraphobia. He can only leave the house if I'm with him. Opening up and talking helps! No! Not bored with you talking. Kudos to the Lego set! My hubby builds model cars. Sending you so much love and lots of hugs! Blessings for peace of mind and healing. ❤

[@TheBigTunaShow]

AL it's Tuna...Bro I live in Indiana. I'm a KZbinr. I like to bust out the DEER on local yards too....but what you do is God's work brother. Not only do people love watching you work hard and help others...People like how humble you are. Glad to see you back at it. Never give up! You are an inspiration to others!

[@bocaron4571]

Anxiety disorders are crippling, Vertigo is also something I suffer with, the dizziness off balance feeling, is scary all in itself. Which is something you may have gone through by the way you explained it. I try to help people with their Anxiety because I've been going through it for so long ,since I was 15 I'm 59 now lol. You will bounce back from this son I assure you.

[@Masheeable]

Lego model FTW. We abandon the things that are fun as we grow up for absolutely no valid reason. Get some more of that good stuff in ya!

[@tsgrandma9837]

You are not alone. This happens to so many people every day. You are stronger than you think. The fact that you shared all of what you have been experiencing and going through proves that. It's not easy to admit to yourself that anxiety has taken over your life, much less make a video admitting it to thousands of people. You absolutely rock! You are an inspiration and are to be admired and looked up to. So strong....Thank you.

[@tinkatude77]

As a phlebotomist who's been drawing patients blood work for the past 30 years. I've come across some patients who are nervous, scared & faint. I've learned to talk to them about other things that's happening. It's my way of distracting them. Some still feel weird but most make it through. I don't like having my blood drawn coz I don't have good veins. I'm glad you finally got it done. It's our river of life. It says alot of what's going on with us. Thank you for sharing. You are a blessing to many folks. I pray for good health and healing in your body in Jesus name ☝🏽❤️🙏🏽

[@sundoesshine8583]

Being one of those patients, yes, it helps and thank you!

[@marilynbender7257]

I am a phlebotomist myself AND terrified of needles when they come my way, and im really good at what i do. my coworkers dont understand, but..... my heart goes to him. I hope he can get through this. I love his videos.

[@ilacallya324]

If you're sticking people with needles .. you really thing you have the right to say the Lord's name?

[@tinkatude77]

​@@ilacallya324I sure do! I am His child & He gave me the gift of empathy for those who are afraid of it. As a person who got stuck repeatedly bc they "couldn't find my vein" I thank him very time I get a hard stick & succeed! I also don't like when parents use me as a punishment " If you don't behave I'm gonna have her "poke you with the needle'. That's were trauma comes from! So yes, I thank Jesus everyday & blessings to you also. ☝🏽🤙🏽🙏🏽

[@sharondavis1665]

There's nothing to a needle stick I kid and say it's a really small hole

[@walthereboessen4417]

i find it really brave of you to talk about this. most people wouldnt do that. I hope you get well soon and know that we all love and support you!!

[@marshalllaw123]

Brother depression is no joke; it can be utterly debilitating at times, and I can definitely relate! I’ll tell you that talking to a psychiatrist about it can be incredibly helpful, and there are meds that can make life WAY easier to deal with. Try to keep an open mind, and stay positive. We’re all here to support you!

[@roxiegs348]

I’m proud of you for being so vulnerable. Anxiety and depression are real and can affect you physically. Praying for you.

[@diannaloveshenry]

Your sensitivity makes you a great human being! A lot if people mistake kindness for weakness. Strong intelligent people show their sensitivity. You sharing your raw feelings inspires me and I'm sure your entire audience! Your baby girl's safety must have had a lot to do with your feelings. Thank you for sharing your true grit, Al!

[@tshaw2856]

This is a great step in telling your story. There is a huge stigma around anxiety/depression and men. We aren’t allowed to have anxiety in this world we live in. If we do we are weak, soft, snowflakes, but the reality is that coming through it proves just the opposite. We are strong, strong enough to get through it and still be here!!!!

[@pilesovinyl]

Just another subscriber who feels that your videos are better than anyone else that does these lawn makeovers and don't feel alone because there are legions of us that enjoy and are uplifted (that's right-it spiritually encourages us) by what you do and the fact that you are helping people without charge. A day at a time my friend. Take care and be well.

[@JudyAaron-z4f]

Al, I appreciate how much willpower it took for you to make this video, to share your struggles. So many of your viewers can certainly relate to what you are experiencing. When I went into that rabbit hole I almost didn't make it back. May I please share with you some instructions my doctor gave me. Simply when you notice your mind is dwelling on negative thoughts, immediately turn them around and recall something that made you laugh, that made you happy. During challenging moments, deep breathe and blow out slowly. Most importantly, hold your loved one close, they are hurting with you. We love you, Al. Take care and we'll see you soon.

[@lindavenport9788]

Friend Al, cause of your job exposures good to get blood work done. Maybe a simple fix to deficiencies - being proactive about your health is a start. Do let us know. We (I) think you're wonderful & luv the insights you have. Hugs, & healing energy being sent to you.✨✨

[@MrsDonnaE]

Same… I’m still surprised I survived! ❤❤❤ This is what helped me with major panic attacks, hope it works for someone who needs it… When it’s getting worse than you are prepared for: Name 5 things you can SEE Name 5 things you can HEAR Name 5 things you can TOUCH Name 5 things you can SMELL Name 5 things you can TASTE I have Complex PTSD, and because of issues with insurance etc., can’t find a Dr in my area. So I’m unmedicated and struggling hard. The first time I tried the technique, it worked so well that I just cried a River… it has never failed. Even during catastrophic accidents. Praying for everyone battling to stay here…❤❤❤

[@Judy-pw3pq]

Praying for you Al. It takes a lot of strength to open up like that. You are an awesome man and praying for God’s strength and covering. ❤

[@sunila32]

It takes a brave person to speak about how one is feeling, especially when you find yourself in a difficult position and going through a tough time so well done and feel privileged that you are willing to share this with us. Over the past few years, I have been through something similar and it's only in the past year or so that things have started to improve. Hats off to you for your desire and efforts to do something about it.

[@leahhoffman2528]

Al, I know you have been a big blessing to another of people! I have felt a lot of depression myself and one thing that encourages me is 2 Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness". I pray that you will allow God to replace your weaknesses with His strength and replace your fears with His peace that passes all understanding! I will lift you up in prayer! ❤

[@brendalonergan5111]

So many of us overthink everything, Al. We can't help it. I certainly understand. You are not alone in this, Al. Our minds can be our worst enemies😢 My adult son does Lego to relax. It's wonderful.

[@Nancy-n4w4j]

Doing puzzles help too. Zigsaw puzzles, word search, cross word all help me.

[@musicgirl8004]

Please take the time to listen to what YOU need and then DO it. Everyone has a limit and sometimes it sneaks up on you and smacks you in the head. This does not mean that you have something broken inside...it means you are human! You are such a lovely giving person Al. Give yourself grace and forgiveness. Big hugs and much love going to you bud.

[@Sparrowdeplume]

Love your work Al. ❤ I’m an EAP clinician and I see hundreds of people in the clinic with anxiety, including health anxiety. I’m so stoked for you that you’ve found a way through to do something about it. It’s so important to get your health checked out and attend to what is needed. Do everything you can to calm down your autonomic nervous system and set yourself up with a green prescription of good food, sleep, nutrition, exercise and someone to talk to everyday about how you’re feeling. It will help. You’ve got this Al, you’ll get through it. You’re already helping people by sharing your lived experiences about anxiety to inspire others to do something about their anxiety too. ❤

[@susanswift7363]

Thank you for sharing. Sometimes our guardians, guides and ministering angels give us many signs that we need a time out. I am curious about your age, as I believe 28 is the first year of true adult life, and ages 26-29 are the toughest self examination years. Also, you are obviously a very sensitive being and full of compassion for others; finding the compassion for ourselves, and self love is a lifetime work. When difficult thoughts take up too much time and FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) decreases our sense of well being, keeping your hands busy is the wisest thing you can do. Games, puzzles, and I love watching Lego Masters. As you engage in a reset, I can see you fine tuning what is right for you, as an individual. Be well and have a prosperous and abundant 2024.

[@stepheng.5623]

So well said Sparrow! Your advice is excellent! Isn't Al a awesome guy? Strong yet but vulnerable. Prayers your way brother. Keep up the great work! 💙🙏

[@jeanclausen7367]

Take Care!

[@mariont7723]

Anxiety and Depression can be a scary place. I’ve had them for years, but with therapy and meds, I feel better. No longer in therapy, but still take meds. Thanks for sharing. Bless you!!!

[@lyndawerner2188]

Anxiety and depression are BEASTS and they look different for everyone. I'm glad to hear you're doing what you need to take care of yourself. You don't owe anyone any explanations, but sharing your story definitely helps other people. xoxo

[@dianehillman7808]

Definitely!

[@kemsgirl1964]

Perfectly said.

[@karensnipes2739]

We are not bored. You may help many people dealing with these life changes. Anxiety and depression are a disease and you can be helped. We have missed your mowing and your neighborly help to others. Keep reading and sharing your self as we all travel this road of life. Thanks

[@darlenemartin7613]

I have a phobia with needles so I totally get it. Stress and fears can wreck havoc with the mind. There is no shame with going through the process as you are. Thank you for being vulnerable and transparent with your subscribers. Take care of yourself, Al. 🙏🏽❤️

[@lolaottinger3038]

Two of my grandchildren have difficulty with the thought that their doctors visit may include needles. I have zero problems with them, I once had to have a skin cancer removed from my leg, the nurse was going to have me lie down, I told her no, I wanted to watch and the doctor said I could. Also no matter how gross something looked or smelled I didn’t gag. Well the no gag thing is gone. I can gag at almost everything now, but needles still don’t bother me, and I have a suggestion Al, I have seen you get stung by many bees, I’ve seen you pick up a snake….that is something I’ll never ever do in my lifetime, but as far as needles and bees, try and think to yourself that if you can handle a bee sting which is actually going to hurt really badly, that you can handle a small stick of a needle which will only last a very few seconds. I’m a diabetic, my doctor had me on Ozempic for awhile, I didn’t like the side effects and went off it pretty quickly, but I have to say that the needle on that syringe was the smallest I’ve ever seen and I didn’t see how there could possibly be a channel inside it to carry the medication, but there was. Too bad every needle isn’t that small. I’m guessing the needles diameter was a fourth the size of an eyelash! Doctors should start requesting those! All this being said, I’m glad to hear that you’re doing better, the family is doing good and your daughter is well! 🙏🏻

[@RussOniPhone]

You sound like a kind person I learned from watching some guys cutting lawns and got hooked on it, you look very young, get your health in order, maybe in your mind no worries I’m 70 years old and I know it will get better for you.

[@angel-astanfield7939]

Never underestimate anxiety and panic attacks. Generalized Anxiety Disorder is a lot more debilitating than we give credit. Good for you Al. Dark nights of the soul are not easy to get out of. Thank you for your honesty and courage. Much love to you and your family. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@Missfortune70]

The mind is really powerful and sometimes when you get stuck in that anxiety loop, it's tough to break out of it. I'm wishing you the best.

[@wendybarefoot5838]

Al, you are not alone. Ive been struggling for over a year with this very thing and people dont understand that it can be almost crippling. It can feel impossible to pull yourself out of, but weekly therapy has helped some. Thanks for sharing this part of your struggle. It helps many of us feel like we are not going through this alone.❤

[@suzanne721]

Bless you for sharing. Many people don't realize that anxiety and depression can be debilitating. Praying for your continued healing.❤

[@iwuvmycolts]

Anxiety and panic attacks are very real. You don't know what you don't know until it happens to you. Godspeed for Al and his family!!

[@wesleyantkowiak6479]

Mr. Bladez. You are fantastic and so therapeutic for so many. Please be easy on yourself. We will all watch your channel no matter what and be supportive to you. You are a great person with great intentions. You have done so much for and what a great example for countless people.

[@simply_iris7338]

After having gone through all my treatments for cancer, I’ve realized there’s nothing I can’t do! I can deal with any situation now. Plus my faith in the Lord and knowing he has my back helps me! Glad to hear you’re feeling better and keep talking about it! That helps too!

[@sherirogers2649]

God Bless you. I’m praying for you right now.

[@josephinelooman5878]

God Bless You and Prayers ❤️ Love

[@jg9772]

I have a 6+ft. Grandson who is buff, strong and terrified of needles. We have to hold his hand and distract him to get him through it. Anxiety devastated my life at one point. I was unable to do anything productive. Prayer and removing stress helped me get to a healing place. No meds now. Jesus is my medicine. Give HIM control. Proud of you for being aware and doing what you need to do. Blessings sweet Al to you and your family.

[@elaineeverhart7100]

Al....you and your videos have changed this world.... literally....you have made such an impact on the YT community..... anxiety is crippling...don't dismiss it...proud of you for getting that blood work ..... Dig into your faith because God is using you to reach His children....Praying for you Sir❤ and your family❤❤❤

[@mackattack701]

Al, I also battle anxiety and have been on medication for 20 years (it has helped). You aren't alone. I'm proud of you for getting up and getting the help you need. ❤

[@jr-mynext50years41]

Anxiety can be mild to extremely debilitating. It’s real.

[@spencers4121]

I had it when I was younger, but it hit me like a sack of bricks in my 30's. Along with panic attacks, along with depression. basically making me a prisoner in my home.

[@nomaddaemon3967]

I'm 56 years old and I struggle with anxiety, depression and schizoeffective disorder most my life and I get what you are saying. I get to where I fear leaving the house and will isolate for months sometimes. I manage my symptoms with antidepressants and antipsychotics and have been doing well again for about a year. It's so important to keep busy and have things to do and look forward to, at least for me. I'm am happy you are doing better. Don't beat yourself up. Embrace your whole self as even our "faults" make us who we are. You are a positive, bright individual with a beautiful family. And I believe you are correct. These trials you are going through are for a reason and will make you a stronger, even more compassionate person. These videos you post explaining your situation can be great therapy too - not just for you but the people who watch them. I hope it helps and you continue doing your thing. Thanks for being you, bro! D 🎶

[@christinas4]

I’m so glad you’re ok!!! Yes everything in moderation! Including your phone and sugar! You have to do what you have to do. You needed the time away and I’m glad you took it. Please pay attention to your health AND your mental health! ALWAYS! ❤

[@rachelbee7921]

So relieved to know you're okay, Al. When you become overwhelmed with anxiety, remember that God can lift that weight, if you'll only ask Him to. Praying for your continued mental clarity. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️❤️

[@Scratchin2themoon]

🙏🏽 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽Amen!!

[@LibertyBelleLyric]

Hi Al, I'm Amanda. What I want to say is that you have blessed so many people with your giving and you have been a bright spot in a lot of lives. Your actions are not just noticed in the physical but also spiritually. When you do good and cause others to do good that's when the dark forces of evil try to take you off of your game. If you know Jesus, remember to invoke his name and rebuke the anxiety. Matthew 6:25-33; Luke 12:22-31

[@MalteseMafia]

Amen 🙏

[@RPLAsmodeus]

I just want you to know If you ever read this Your videos for a long time now have helped me through the grief of losing both my parents and with my own mental health struggles. You inspired me to sort my garden out and get up off my butt. Showed me there are good and selfless people in this world. Never give up my brother from another mother!

[@PatD-user-td7xh2ms2z]

Need 🧂, 🍚, mag, vit C, small amounts. ❤

[@kellyq8132]

Hi AL I'm not one to comment on videos but I felt compelled to let know that you have taken the first steps in dealing with your anxiety. I have witnessed this with one of my sons who has had depression and anxiety for 11 years . He now has a family and is doing much better. Talking with friends and family helps, but sometimes professional support is needed to get over the hurdles. Don't be embarrassed ❤ We all need love and acceptance. You are truly a beautiful soul. God bless you , your amazing wife and family . 😊 you got this

[@RoseMaryBowen]

Glad you are feeling better. I'm 68 years old with multiple sclerosis for nearly 40 years. Anxiety is a recurring problem for me because my disability. My dependency on others who help me causes anxiety because I've always been independent. My anxiety escalated with each additional health-related event until I thought it was too much to bear. My faith in God and talking to a mental health professional has gotten me through so many times of anxiety and depression. You are stronger than you know! You are a kind, generous, thoughtful and insightful young man. Love and believe in yourself! Praying for you and your family. God bless you. ❤🙏😊

[@debraheskin428]

I hope you family is doing well

[@carolburnett190]

There’s no such thing as “just anxiety!” I deal with both depression and anxiety and neither is easy in any way. I’m also glad to see you openly talking about something that is much too often kept secret.

[@kimhollenbeck1308]

Nice to see you again Al Bladez on you tube,it will be nice to see you mowing lawns and making the yards beautiful

[@ksueb7788]

Al, I hope you know that the reason we all watch you is not just your skill at mowing but your humility, honesty, empathy and kindness toward your family and others. You are a special human being. My daughter, grandson and husband have all suffered episodes of anxiety and you described it perfectly. You pull away and you can’t get out of your own head or take that first step in getting help. So glad you pushed through your terrible fear of getting labs done and hope this helps you get back to where you want to be. ❣️

[@Malisgmaw]

So glad to see y’all! I too had a fear of needles. But I’m almost 59 & I had to get it over that. Prayer is the most powerful weapon. You have a beautiful family depending on you. You can get through anything with The Lord! Will be praying for you! Love to you & your family!

[@ashjoma]

I have a huge fear of needles, dental and vaccination type needles. I cry at the dentist and shake with fear. I am almost 59 too

[@HazelLee-rg3zg]

Al, please ignore the negative comments. They don’t know you. Anxiety and depression are real. It’s NOT “all in your head.” I used to think that until I went through it myself and realized I could not control it myself. I lost my husband of 52 years last year and didn’t realize I was going through depression until I was going day after day, not getting out of my chair and letting my housework go. I went to my doctor and got on a good antidepressant. I’ve been worried about you and have prayed for you and your family. Good to see you back..

[@angelanicholson951]

Bless your heart. Taking a complete break when you need to is the best thing to do.

[@charlottedonell2453]

Anxiety is real and can absolutely cripple you. I really appreciate your honesty and bravery for talking about it. Sending prayers for you and your family 🙏 Glad you're back

[@Berta535]

It’s ok brother, many of us have been there. Nice to see your face again. Take care of yourself. I’m sure you are helping many people for just telling them about your experience. Anxiety can be debilitating. You are loved Al. Glad that you made the video. Take care, you are missed and loved big time. Hugs, Gods peace be with you brother. Call you the Lego master….bye

[@cwpowell9453]

❤I can't say it any better than @robertatows❤ we knew something was up and I'm sure many have prayed for you and your family. Yes you are loved ❤

[@Connie-t1p]

Al, you are obviously a highly talented ,creative young man. The level of your creativity is evident in the content you produce consistently on each of your channels. It is evident that the years have produced exceptional material and that you have grown in your expertise and experience in your chosen field. As a devoted fan of your work, I am excited to watch you reevaluate your craft and take time to decide what you really WANT to produce with your time. It is with much anticipation that I await your return to "You Tube" with your new highly creative content! Even if it is very different from the familiar videos, we will embrace the genius that sparks the joy of witnessing a truly creative man

[@martinvs6415]

Al, I learned a long time ago that 90% of our fears never happen and the other 10% come along and aren't near as bad as we expect. Hang in there. Take time to schedule a better balance of life and work.

[@Bingoking88]

My son deals with extreme anxiety and depression, he is 26 and never leaves his room but loves your videos. He has been thinking of possible starting to mow. So I might help him and buy what he needs. All I can say is thank you for showing him the way out. Please stay strong

[@marlenehod]

You are the sweetest, most precious man Al. Get better soon, and we miss your yard videos and to hear who you are going to bless next. One thing I noticed is that you do not have much fat on your body. One doctor that examined Bruce Lee, martial artist, said he died from lake of fat and too much exercise. Eat more butter and healthy fats and increase "complex" carbohydrates, as in broccoli, and other cruciferous vegetables. That is what my dietician says.

[@kellettthomas9176]

My guess is most of your million subscribers don't just "consume" you or are entertained or "satisfied" by your videos. I think people are genuinely affected by your life message and simply find you encouraging. So this revelation of anxiety doesn't diminish our admiration for you, it only enhances it.

[@richardtfrazier2246]

You got this!!!! If I can mentally deal with being stuck in the house for years, dealing with stage 4 lung cancer and diabetes. I know you can handle this set back. Like you always say, a little bit at a time, setting small achievable goals for yourself daily. You'll get through this, you seem to have a good support system helping you. I am PROUD of you and keep doing what you do. Thanx for everything!!

[@margaretmcnarry4298]

Rumination (dwelling on things, overthinking) is not fun. I’ve dealt with depression/PTSD for the last 50 years, and can empathize with you. Thank you for sharing. You are pulling back the curtains on mental health issues, and that is a difficult yet very important action on your part. Thank you for doing this.

[@dianehillman7808]

I agree 100%! ❤

[@Awakingandseeing]

You are helping others by talking about it. Thank you. ❤

[@andrearussell9755]

Thank you, Al for sharing. Please know, you are not alone. So many of us are experiencing depression and / or anxiety .. I myself have battling with depression & grief from my husbands passing, which will be 1 year in a couple of days. Thru the grief, emotions & depression my anxiety levels have been off the charts... I pray daily for peace, comfort & healing and you have always been included in my prayers.. I know we will find the inner strength we need to help gets us through... Hugs & love to you and your wonderful family from this ole lady in Virginia...

[@carolg.6838]

God bless you. Stay busy on the anniversary. You will get thru it.

[@beztintentionz8908]

Andrea, I pray for comfort and healing during this time of intense grief. I pray the body of Christ surround, support, encourage and overflow love upon you. May your depression and anxiety subside to allow for healing and growth to take hold. Love, peace and blessings from God our father to you, now and forevermore!

[@julieallen8627]

I love the fact that you're sharing a bit of what you're going through. I went through a bad anxiety time that I was in the same boat you were. I decided coloring was the best thing for me mental health is so important I love that you helped so many people, but you have to make sure that you get back on Track period Therapy really helped for me And it's nothing two be ashamed about please hang in there because you will get through the other side

[@RustyShackleford97]

Health over views brother ❤. We're the Bladez fam and we're here for you no matter what you can talk all you need to we're here to listen and maybe not all of us can relate but just talking and having positive feedback helps wonders. I don't really want to say it but I'm at my all time low as well homeless living in a shelter with my wife and 3 kids so much depression and anxiety but I can't give up I keep pushing and here this year I'm making a huge risk to move out of Chattanooga TN to Florida. My sincerest Blessings to you and your family.

[@sharyncarew7939]

May the road rise to meet you.......

[@marvenepatterson9702]

A lot of good sage advice here! I have no magic elixir, but it seems you’re on the right track and you have a loving support system. Paragraph I am a new subscriber and I’ve enjoyed every one of the videos. I’ve watched. I’m wishing and praying the best will come to you and your family - now and always. ❤👋

[@Leejahable]

Anxiety and depression can cause low energy. Some tasks seem overwhelming at times. Your vids help me immensely. I cant do huge overgrown gardens, but I can do 20mins in one corner, have a break, 10 minutes in another corner etc, until I get the task done. I feel so accomplished when I see the end result! Even if it takes me a few days. You are brilliant Al, love your content.

[@msbuyhouses]

Thank You for sharing and caring ❤

[@hummingbird275]

No, we definitely are NOT bored with you sharing your feelings with us. That’s what you need to do. BLESS YOU‼️🙏🏼

[@MonicaMullenbach]

I'm a person who has drawn blood for 22 years and you are not alone! So many people are like that. You are such a good person and this will get better. I have anxiety as well. Take care ❤

[@robinthayer2844]

When I was in my 20s, I suffered severely with anxiety and panic attacks. I suffered for about 8 years and had gotten so bad that just leaving the house to go to work was a struggle. What you are describing about being stuck in your head describes it perfectly. It’s good that you finally saw a doctor and I hope he did a cardiac work up too to rule out anything abnormal. Once you have a clean bill of health, hopefully the anxiety will resolve. If it continues, please seek out a counselor/therapist who specializes in anxiety/panic disorder. It only took me a few visits with him to learn effective ways to manage my anxiety and my panic attacks became a thing of the past. Please don’t make the same mistake I did and wait years to get help. I will keep you in my prayers 🙏

[@amberwalsh5767]

Anxiety is a tough monster to deal with because you can't leave it in a box and walk away. Kudos to you for sharing and persevering , keep fighting.

[@dougsweldingfabrication953]

Al.... Your mind, emotions, and overall health have a huge impact on how you see the world around you. It can control you, and take the wind out of your sails. If we're honest, all of us have been through these internal struggles. We all handle it differently. Like others have said, you don't owe us an explanation, we're just happy to support you, and we wish you and the family only the best. You have a lot of love and positive energy coming your way from all of us. Remember that !!! You're not going through it alone.

[@cynthia-ef9vd]

Anxiety and depression is a huge issue with those who serve others. I was in the social services field, both professionally and personally. I relapsed into alcohol and zoned out horribly. It takes huge amount of willpower and strength and faith to come out. Legos are perfect! Its time consuming and focal work! Great job being honest, keep doing what you do!

[@BillJumper-z7l]

I’ve lived with the same thing you went through my whole life! It’s terrible, every little ache makes you think you are dying. Once I started medicine for my anxiety and depression, my attacks have almost completely went away. I hope you have a great life Brother Al. Don’t be afraid to seek help for your mental well being! God Bless!

[@joycevally7878]

Al, there is one reason you were one of the first people I followed. Your gentle heart, and kindness is so obvious and real. It just pours through the screen. You are such a good person. This was heartbreaking to watch you share your struggles, that could not have been easy. I wish I could give you a hug. When I watched your videos I could always escape for 30 minutes. Which I don't think you could. I wonder if making 1 M subscribers wasn't very, very stressful, and that when you made it, it just all crashed down on you. Fame can be very hard on people. The only thing I didn't hear was how your daughter is doing? Take care of yourself Al.

[@rebeccatatum3629]

As a person who has really bad anxiety and depression, i completely understand. Its sooo hard to function. Im proud of u for not giving up! I take meds to be able to function on the daily. Dont ever feel ur alone as everyone here is for u and ur family. U got this Al!!!

[@kerrybrine9340]

I went through this for 3years and I feel so much better now. It was so hard to take those steps but I’m now going forward everyday. We love your channel and your good work for all the people you touch. ❤❤❤