I feel like I am just surviving instead of living

[@AtHomeWithRae]

I hear you. I'm 41, just lost my job, single, no children, etc. I am completely 'outside' of society in that regard. I have zero family, and the family that are out there are too toxic for me to want to be around. I guess we have to learn to love our lot and find our own ways to be happy!

[@KnotQwyte]

💯 I agree with you wholly with what you say. I've wasted a lot of time playing video games, sitting at home and not necessarily doing anything to better my situation yet I always envied and found myself feeling disheartened by being so far behind my peers or just seeing people seem like they have it all figured out or a direction to follow. I would blame the fact that I didn't know what I wanted to do or that I found everything else easier to do than chase what I wanted, so I've been putting off doing what my heart craved for years now and I'm realising I need to do them or else I'll just be miserable regardless of the many goods that come my way, not that I am ungrateful for my blessings. I'm relatively new to pursuing the multiple interests that I wish to be good at and have found that the lack of people to share my ideas and showcasing my projects to does put me down. I ,however, have adopted a parasocial relationship with those I wanted to learn from (healthy) and just did case studies of the works or watched videos breaking down their works and sort of learning to emulate their styles and while their words and intentionality are lost in translation, I have found that I continue learning new things, things I wouldn't have been able to learn on my own rather quickly. So watching your videos also brings me closer to understanding my own feelings especially since everything you say is to a tee, how I am and what I'm doing and have been watching your videos lately. I can't say I would be the best to connect with not that good at anything yet but if ever you feel anything we could just have practice sessions together and see what we can learn, since I do wish to sing as well but have been horrible despite the practice. I agree you are not going to get anywhere without building connections with others but also putting in the effort yourself, because people only invest in viable products that already exist or have a work in progress sample, hence why portfolios and résumés put people ahead when companies choose who to invest in. That's why I'm determined to build something off myself so that people can see something. Love you lots Kaki and I'm building myself alongside you and your journey ❤. Keep trying and sorry for the long comment.

[@KnotQwyte]

Something I just remembered is that we can't do everything by ourselves, and in pursuit of multiple interests and trying to be a one man show, I've realised that choosing the fewer yet most fulfilling pursuits/interests (despite the nagging FOMO from not wanting to let go of the other things) not only allows you to center your attention and progress further but you tend to enjoy it more and become more creative. Get others who are equally passionate about their crafts to collaborate with you to create what is mutually beneficial to the parties involved and to make things that are twice if not ten folds as great as what you would have been able to do by yourself is another thing, you inspired me to think about. Don't feel you're alone, we are all in this together and if you feel you need to do things by yourself, I understand but know that sometimes visions are better manifested with the aid of others. I'm talking to everyone here. Love you all and I'm wishing you all the best in your lives, no giving up or well not today 🫶🏾.

[@yappykaki]

Hey @KnotQwyte! Fantastic comment you wrote here...I am happy that my video reminds you of what you would like to chase after! Is it also in music? It is people like you who leave heartfelt comments like this motivate me to keep making some more videos. I believe whoever gets to read these would find some value in them. If you would like to also cheer each other on the journey on self-improvement, you are welcome to join my discord and share whatever you are working on. :)

[@OkinuIshikawa]

You are not alone ❤ sending love to you.

[@yappykaki]

Thank you :) Have a great day!

[@djrokkchun8ntnojokeproduct131]

My friend my friend. You are one of a kind. The spirit is you and you are the spirit. You are the creator of your life. You can decide what you want to do ❤

[@MarianaFerreira27gatoslindos]

It is true what you say ❤but I feel the same way as her

[@yappykaki]

Thank you man, you are here since so early and I always remember your positivity and that cheers me up! Have a great day and let's collaborate when we are ready :D

[@yappykaki]

Hang in there...I have these feelings more frequently lately that is why this is a high time for me to keep putting more effort in building what matter for me!

[@djrokkchun8ntnojokeproduct131]

@@yappykaki I meditate a lot. It keeps me focused on what really matters and what doesn't

[@johndarland3633]

This general advice is usually reserved for men on the internet it seems but I really don't see why it can't apply to women as well, as someone who's going through the same kind of "surviving instead of living" feeling, the most difficult and yet effective method that's helped me at 29 years old, almost 30 is finally forcing myself to make a change immedietly instead of waiting for the next best oppertunity to do so. For me it was, begin persuing something I'd wish I could do but have been making the excuse that I don't have time or energy for it, doing that thing (whatever it is, in my case studying math in preparation for my masters in 2025 September), whatever it is right now. Not when you wake up tomorrow and have worked out and had breakfast and the day has gone ideal because it won't, never does... just make the most of what time you have right now and do what you want to do and be the person you want to be. It will be hard. it will feel like there's no point but it's all a numbers game and eventually the one or two times it's worthwhile, it will only be worthwhile during those 1 or 2 times because you put yourself in that position. And it will be so much more rewarding so. Apologies if I've been perhaps confusing or a little vague there but tl;dr: Focus on self improvement regardless of how you feel. Work out, Study, anything. Even if you're tired, just take 5 minutes to think beforehand (set a timer even) of what the alternative is? to mope? and then you'll find atleast enough commitment. Good luck, hope this helps, helped me, only took me like 4 years to realise.

[@yappykaki]

Thank you for this comment John! I think the most important thing might be having better routines to make sure my physical and mental health are protected. I realize I had missed many important energy boosting routines like regular lunch time, proper breaks, less screen time, proper breakfast...many of these things would help me but I struggle to build them!

[@avg_ale21]

As a certified mexican, we survive instead of living each day... you will get used to tho, don't worry. Ifykyk

[@yappykaki]

Hey avg, tbh I am very lucky and privileged and I should always have gratitude...have a nice day!

[@ygt626]

I feel the same way my whole life, i only could rely on myself. i often feel envious of others but then I remember as you mentioned in the beginning, its the cards we are dealt and we have no choice to play them and we should remind ourselves life is not a competition and everything in this world is temporary. lets focus on what makes us happy 😄

[@yappykaki]

I am luckily not very jealous of others because I consider myself quite lucky. I just wish I have some more positive ways of thinking and also less "thinking" but more "doing" and executing. I also have problems to create structure in life.

[@MfTheSupervillain]

Despite everything you've been though Im so glad you pulled through! The race is long and the only opponent is yourself

[@yappykaki]

I think my mind is a bit weird and stubborn. I know what to think and feel would be the best for me but I always went to the wrong direction. I wish I am more simple minded and just go straight for what I need to do and just repeat and be consistent

[@MfTheSupervillain]

@ I think i get what you mean, instead of working harder after losing a race bc that’s the best option afterwards for some reason you just don’t bc it feels futile all the same. Well that’s js how i feel and I’m just assuming that’s what u meant 😭

[@awwzuzu]

hello :-), the youtube algorithm brought me here. i used to be pretty confident and involved in many things, but something happened that shifted the plans i had for the future, resulting in me struggling to envision who i will be or even who i am right now. it doesnt help either that i feel anxious every day because i feel like at any point the "path" i build for myself will be messed with again. i have also pushed a few people away because of how "worthless" i see myself, and while taking the time alone to can be good, i need to realize that any failures in my life do not define me in the end. i have been taking baby steps to piece everything together or move forward into something greater, though of course i still have my bad days. yet, i try to have faith that in the present moment i am doing what is best for me. sometimes our biggest obstacles are ourselves, as cliché as that sounds. everyone experiences the low lows and the high highs differently as well. we go through a cycle of lows and highs and i trust that the next thing for me will be a high. i hope you continue to have the courage to chase whatever passion you have! life is too short to listen to the noise in our heads sometimes. i hope you have a good day or night ❤️

[@yappykaki]

Hey @awwzuzu, thank you for this comment because it give me a new way to think. It is very true life is just a set of ups and downs and there is no way I expect to be always highs without the downs. It will happen and I just need to accept it. I have fear because I am in a foreign country and I feel like I have no safety net in what I do so I cannot "fail". But I need to believe in my luck...I guess.

[@TheBreakingProgram]

Sending Love ❤ 🙌

[@yappykaki]

Sending back love to you :)

[@sstopprocastinating]

Many people pursue careers unrelated tp their university major and many bave been very successful in the process as well. U can always learn by going back to school or even by not going back to school.

[@yappykaki]

The things that I want to do cannot be learnt in school, I need disciplines, research and then applying the knowledge to make new changes! I have budgets to do stuff now but I need to create and improve what I am working on! It is hard but I really want to do it!