I HATE MY BRAIN

[@Hannah-hx5sp]

raw dogging my mental illnesses is a phrase i never thought id hear lmao. love to see you back xx

[@maneskinnnnn7190]

Raw dogging life is not easy.. gimme my meds

[@Hannah-hx5sp]

@@maneskinnnnn7190 couldn’t agree more lol 😂

[@fialagerdahl]

Nearly choked on my food when I heard it but honestly, it's very relatable.

[@Mis.tresss]

Honestly, I’ve never understood the saying. Isn’t raw sex supposed to be MORE enjoyable? But raw-dogging life is not

[@Margles349]

I don’t understand people who judge you for visiting your friends when you’re struggling! What do they expect you to do, just stay inside and be alone all day? How would that help? I’m sorry you’re burned out and struggling, I hope this video helped break the cycle

[@binkx3]

The woman has not had a moment to herself in 10+ years. As mentally ill people we need to try to build a connection with ourselves. Our thoughts can be scary and it's easier said than done, but taking personal self care days are ESSENTIAL for growth and healing..even if we feel like it's not helping. She's burnt out. As traumatized people, we need to recharge our social batteries. Regularly

[@binkx3]

Also, it's perfectly normal to get frustrated with people we care about for not taking care of themselves properly. I genuinely like her as a creator and person.

[@Denõdnaba]

Please don't apologize for life getting a bit chaotic sometimes, you have to take care of you so that you can do these videos!

[@AmbyMT]

As someone with MDD, GAD, and very recently diagnosed ADHD, figuring out where the Sad is coming from and how to cope is always an exhausting process lol thank you for being so candid about it

[@stephierussell]

I've never related to a video title more😭

[@Laura_Crawfield_Valo]

Same!!

[@samanthafrewinvallings3975]

Me too autistic ocd adhd, I’m collecting the alpo😂😂

[@stephierussell]

@@samanthafrewinvallings3975 oh my goodness😆

[@Randomark3087]

​@@samanthafrewinvallings3975Same here. I have tourette's too.

[@samanthafrewinvallings3975]

@@stephierussell I’m a 70s baby, back then you were either ‘difficult, slow or just lazy’ I’m also dyslexic, so lots of school reports saying ’could try harder’. At 36 I went back to college and left university 7 years later with a Bsc a PGCE and a Masters of science. I proved to myself I’m not stupid or lazy, my brain just works differently and it’s just finding the way that works for you

[@emilyackerman2000]

Kaya, we’re always proud of you!! Take time for yourself girly, we’ll be here waiting for you xox

[@Undertow7]

I relate to you so much, I also have ADHD and depression, and everything you are describing is my pain everyday. I sympathize wholeheartedly. I'm stuck in a long cycle of accomplishing nothing, and when I do I fixate on one task so long, I realize I spent all my time to do one thing I planned to do. It's a whole thing at this point, as you well understand. And depression when you are actually doing well is very much a thing, and hard for most people to understand. Enjoy the moment though if you can, and enjoy while life is good as much as you are able. 😊

[@bitesize326]

I feel this exact thing with my depression summer is absolutely the worst for my depression

[@Dreadfuldowner]

I’m so glad you’re thriving!! Don’t let ur lil brain make u feel bad about “not being productive” sometimes we need to do nothing!! Everyone who loves you will def still be here 🖤🩶

[@Aurora81689]

“Dune hooker” xD omg the vision makes me wanna catch up on the videos 😂 I’m sorry life being so chaotic and rough.

[@KaeldreaRose]

Executive dysfunction is real, and something that I struggle with all the time. Love you no matter what, hunbun! I'm so glad that you're doing better, and I hope the stress becomes more manageable!

[@dr.ryttmastarecctm6595]

It is great to see you back AND you're busy doing Summer things. Tell the wankers to frak-off from me. I too suffer from depression, plus childhood and adult-onset PTSD. I manage my own meds and take what the medical folks say very carefully. It's our bodies and brains, not theirs! Looking forward to more spooky boxes. I found a "Pin Head-inspired" item for Halloween and it's in the post now! Be safe, be kind to yourself, and persevere!

[@kayta84]

Fucking executive dysfunction!!! I fucking hate it! And I hate the people that judge because of it... good to see you Kaya! Sending ghost hugs ❤

[@gabriellerussell8484]

Nondysphoric depression. I legitimately started crying as soon as you said that, because SAME. Thank you for saying it's name.

[@greekbeast8D]

You're absolutely lovely Kaya💖 makes me feel less alone and less crazy hearing how relatable you are. Wishing you all the best in life 💚

[@tragiclyxpoetic6857]

I feel you so much on this I hate being called lazy when it's clearly much more than that

[@gummybear.509]

Noooo don’t feel like you have to defend yourself 🖤

[@smolbattybat296]

You got this! I know adhd suckssss and the depression that comes with it is weird and frustrating. Be kind to yourself ❤️ love you!

[@arp711]

"doom hooker" if this ain't the best description of goth club attire, i don't know what is 🤣🤣🤣

[@Treeeboy]

It's so nice to see you on a uphill with regards to you getting out and living and doing everything you've wanted! I take it the medication you're talking about is Sertraline too, can confirm on both fronts! My favourite review of it is still "I no longer want to KMS but I'm as dry as a desert!"

[@LavenderApogee]

This entire video is highly relatable. As always, wishing you all the best 🖤

[@Artsy_Christmouse]

Yeah, brains suck, lol. And so do people. I remember seeing people make loads of unwelcome comments about your body, back in the day... Like, an AFAB person can't just exist without something being said about their appearance. We're glad to hear from you, though! Hopefully you can get the things done you want to but we understand if not! 🥰

[@videohorror9139]

It sounds alot like Executive dysfunction, (witch I also suffer from) so this video is hella relatable I hope things get better soon dude! ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@thebackpackingbookwyrm]

Oof i relate 😂 burnout feels like spinning your wheels in mud.. You're flooring the gas but going nowhere.

[@krissy3mc2]

🖤 So good to see you! Very much enjoy these chatty updates and was just wondering about you so this was perfect timing 😊

[@ladyedraven]

This sounds a LOT like me. I recently had to stop assuming that people in my life are likely to be judging me. I also recently vowed to stop pushing myself past my pain points. Screw what people say. Take care of myself. Your body will learn how to tell you what it needs. You will always be a beautiful soul.

[@pamelarenfree4185]

I’ve never bought “influencer” merch before but yours is the only merch that I’ve been tempted and would actually wear/use so I’m super excited to the plush 🖤🖤🖤

[@cadavher]

Wow, I can't believe it costs that much!! Here in my province, my Dr just printed me off a sheet with about 40 questions for yes or no, and so you fill it out and hand it back. Boom you get a diagnosis. If you end up answering that you've got adhd from the list, then you're referred to a specialist. It's so sad that it's 2023, and there is still such a lack of resources out there. I'd never expect the UK to be that bad, always thought it was similar to Canada.

[@xorinoa]

People suck. I'm super glad you're at least able to get out and spend time with friends. You more than deserve that. I had the same issue you did with antidepressants. I just took a gene test that I sent off today to try to find meds that will work with my body chemistry and I'm waiting for those results. I hope you can rest and have fun and that your brain can be a little nicer to you.

[@karynhuber511]

I love these type of videos! Thank you for being you!!!

[@frostfang1]

Man I relate to that first part. Not being happy haha, too much stress for that. But two weeks ago I could just not get out to do bed to do anything but to eat. I'd scroll for hours on my phone but any attempts to do anything failed. I had a headache and neck ache. Both things I'd experience before that was just "well that sucks, guess I slept badly". Until a day I slept well and still couldn't get shit done. Then a few other symptoms appeared... And turns out I had Lymes disease when I just thought I was having a particularly bad depression episode. (Not trying to scare people, there was other more obvious physical symptoms after that first set that came into plau). It was just funny to realize it was something more when I was kinda confused and just dismissed it as worse depression than I'd had in a while. Even though there was a little voice in my head saying something wasn't quite right with that. Little voice felt so validated when it all came together.

[@fus1111]

Kaya it’s okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes. Adhd is a bitch and when RSD+executive disfunction kick in with depression as a background comorbidity it makes you feel horrid for a couple of days or even weeks! Your brain is trying to tell you to take a break and do simple things that inject dopamine 🧠❤. Even if you “are doing nothing all day” you are, don’t worry about vídeos we support you anyway 😊. Greeting from Barcelona and take care, from another neurodivergent pal.

[@happysmelly3310]

I've been watching you for ten years man, and I've always related with everything you deal with. I spent 13 hours trying to clean my house and i basically just got 80% of the dishes done, some folding and 2 loads of laundry. It feels pathetic but I was really trying. I'm not diagnosed but all my ADHD friends say there's no doubt I have it as well, I tick every box. I'm really rooting for you, and I hope you get into a good swing soon, but I totally get the self-loathing that comes from not being able to do the basic things you need and want to do. All the best mate.

[@lightninglithium]

I fully support you. When you release a video I get excited and watch it, bit if you don't post for a long time, I totally get it. Love ya, Kaya.

[@Baconlazer]

I know perfectly how that feels and I usually blame myself for paralysis dysfunctional and being burnt out from work, I'm learning to radical acceptance through the moment and exercise kindness in my environment

[@deedeeblackwater8354]

I relate so hard to the executive dysfunction issue. Always glad to see a video from you, no matter how long it takes in between them :)

[@mortisspeaks8926]

I hope this new month can bring in some goodness and ways to navigate through the twisted as fuck road called life. Much love for you and congrats on the new piercings!

[@TRDiabSoule]

I feel this so much, I got ADHD and Depression and executive dysfunction sucks man cause like life is going good and I’m not sad sad either but having this head stuff really gets to you, it’s hard to fix I think but at least you’re doing good and have good people around you, it helps not add to what’s going on, simple things can be super stressful then you do it and you’re like why did I obsess over that being so bad etc Also medication is hard I went through so many till I found one that worked for adhd but never for depression or anxiety honestly, it keeps giving me tolerance too it after a while so it can get annoying to figure out, waiting lists are crazy I’m on a few myself just to get to a therapist and psychiatrist and they’re like 6 months waits some 2 years ffs, but hey we got this and it’s understandable so don’t feel alone or to down on yourself about it some things are outta personal control at times, when you get things done tho it does make ya feel better I find, you’ll get the things you want done, I hope all goes well for you and you can get to see the people you need!! You got this ❤

[@KatherineYoung]

I am sorry for this life-long struggle. You always give it your best. ❤

[@endormimi5261]

“Suffering from depression when you’re not sad” YES finally someone put it into words. I know this so well. It’s such a weird feeling!

[@BoredSoprano]

Don’t worry about making us proud, you are living your life the way you want to, that is the best thing ever 🖤🖤🖤

[@CecileTellier]

You're loved, you're doing things as you need to do them. Don't compound the struggle by adding guilt. We are in your corner and cheering for you!

[@gabbikelli1564]

I have never related more with anyone in my life 🙌 it's wonderful to see/hear you're in such a good place....you're doing great, your brain is a liar🖤

[@OdinSmilesRavensLaugh72051]

Listen you! You've been through a LOT this last year kaya no fkin wonder you feel the way you do, keep the faith kiddo ;) we got you

[@sgaray87933]

I feel ya girl. My ADD has been in full out monstrous mode with zero fucks given.

[@eternal_winter8713]

I hear you, I have major depressive disorder and everything is a struggle. It doesn’t go away and a person just gets better at managing it or hiding it, but people believe what they want and come down hard on you no matter what you do. I think the the best explanation for the contradiction of what a person feels in depression is “soul happy in a zombie body” Happiness is there in some capacity but it rots away quickly, and when it is there you just gotta use it all before it dissapears.

[@itsmeJeanii]

I completely get where you're coming from with all of this!! I'm trying so hard to work with my executive dysfunction and trying to find energy to create again. Also literally just got on my cycle today and just got through being sick for the last couple days so my body is getting no breaks haha we just gotta keep going though and keep trying!

[@xXxchemiicalsxXx]

KAYA! i was just diagnosed with adhd about a month ago… i never knew what executive dysfunction was until just recently and HOLY SHIT do i understand how you feel. i always thought my whole life i was just lazy or something and couldn’t understand how i would just SIT and worry about all the THINGS that need to be done but not knowing how the fuck to get up and do it and start. this shit fucking sucks but it makes me feel better hearing others who suffer from this bullshit talk about it. love u xx

[@katvoodoo5520]

Adhd paralysis. One task has many steps. It's overwhelming. I suffer also from major depression disorder the paralysis makes me feel worse. Took almost 3 years to get the right combo of meds. It's a hell of a ride but worth it. Also suffer from cptsd among more issues. Ur strong u got this

[@DrinkYourNailPolish]

I have times where i can't bring myself to do things i desperately WANT to do- even things that bring me joy. I call those times "being stuck". When that happens i will meditate and take stock of my life and just accept the moment for what it is- my brain is putting my body on pause so i can just BE. Hopefully that gibes you an idea on what to do.

[@ykop3950]

Finaallyy: I HATE MY BRAIN ...you got me🙈😅

[@moon_shoes]

Girl I feel you, my summer has just been a clusterfuck of mental issues. It started with me feeling like my antidepressant has stopped working because I've been so emotional, then the past two months my anxiety has been through the roof and I've been upset and irritable. Then last week I started having shortness of breath which I've only ever experienced in 2020 when my stress was it's worst in a long time. I think it's some kind of anxiety induced asthma but, of course, my brain keeps telling me my heart is failing which doesn't help. Hopefully when autumn comes around I'll level back out. In the meantime, right there with you.

[@Tiia]

My therapist told me, everytime I feel like I am lazy and beating myself up I need to remind myself that if I suffer and want to change something it can't be laziness because being lazy is a choice. Executive Dysfunction isnt.

[@bioluminescentlyunfolding5716]

I'm in a very similar place in my life. Got out of an abuse situation, finally doing lots of stuff I couldn't do back then, but I'm also in autistic burnout and there's a constant contradiction in that I need to be seeing people and doing stuff for my morale, but to deal with the burnout I also just need very, very little to be going on. And meanwhile the whole cost-of-living shitshow continues and I don't know a single mentally ill/neurodivergent/physically disabled person who has any sense of security because of it. It's no wonder we're cracking up, especially in Northern Ireland where the whole healthcare access situation is exponentially worse than in GB (not that theirs is remotely good) - that jacked-up price is just sheer profiteering off desperate people, and I know so many people in the same boat re: ADHD assessments or ongoing support.

[@melissamiew4056]

My Mate has a very normal brain while i am extremely chaotic. He is very patient and we agreed from the beginning that we had to talk. He learned a ridiculous amount about mental issues in the 12 or so years together. I have a separate space all for myself and i get out and putter and do things for about 20 - 30 minutes then go sit for about 15, repeat.

[@horror-core]

Your environment can 100% effect you mentally and emotionally. I've been going through that for a bit of a long time now, since 2020, and am struggling to get the hell out. Im on 5 medications that don't do much, and my situation has made my depression so severe that sometimes it debilitating and i can't even get out of my bed or go to work. I won't even answer my phone or check my texts for about a month.

[@JoinJamiesJourney]

Loving you're content and seeing you on this striving note, makes me happy too even through life isnt perfect 💖😅

[@s.elizabeth1753]

Im very much like you when it comes to being exhausted and burnt out and depressed and not bein able to get up and do things. A gym routine would probably help all these things but actually starting that is very hard! Or taking a class youre interested in like pole or belly dancing. That helped me, going twice a week. And because i paid in advance, i was forced to go, which is what i needed.

[@JDiology]

Ur awesome n worthy just tell that to urself, it can b worse, ur actually doing good. Life is about hard work ,& u come a long way, u got toxic tears!! U got it. 😊

[@maraortiz5114]

I really appreciate the part of the video that u say it's weird having depression when u are having e good time o feel that really deeply and it's reasonable that u feel stressed and with the 🧠 on limit u have pass more than 13 drastic changes and have it to fix it meanwhile u scape from shity things but I have saw u since I don't even remember and u come back as a Fenix! The internal world it's the shitty part of become and adult and I feel it as well and try every day to just keep swimming ur videos helps me a lot too I feel it like a long distance friend ❤

[@vicious_0363]

I saw the notification for the video and was like "yup - relatable"

[@cyclesofstrength]

Man I can relate so much.. I just CANT get things done and then I hate myself for not doing them and then that low feel makes me not be able to get stuff done and then I feel like a failure of an adult

[@blep806]

Your choice of words always make me laugh lol Glad to hear that at least its not awful all the way around though! Executive dysfunction is awful. I have GAD, which is now under control thankfully, but my dysfunction was so awful and frustrating that I would end up in tears so often. My best advice is to be kind to yourself. Treat yourself with the leeway that having a disability brings. It sucks but it is our reality. Keep havin fun! You are my favorite story to see pop up on instagram (keep in mind that is content too).

[@weeghostie_]

Goddd I feel the raw dogging mental illnesses so much rn 😂 I just got my industrial reopened recently and planning to get my conch done soon, the jewellery for them is so so cute!

[@seanlems]

Relating to this video so much right now. It seems like I constantly fight with wanting to be productive all the time even though I know I should take a break but don’t want to get called lazy for it. Also, the NHS unfortunately sounds like it’s following in the footsteps of the US healthcare system with expensive ass appointments and long wait times! Sending good vibes from Florida, I really hope everything works out for you 💜

[@elizabethpink]

Luv, the fact that you manage to get out of bed and keep yourself fed is enough to make me proud of you. You're grand. Do some mindfulness breathing and get your blood pressure down. 😉🥰

[@Kornkitt3n]

CW: Talk about weight • The little rant about weight gain is so true. I experienced people pointing out my small amount of weight gain after being on birth control.. I think because its more noticeable of a difference when you're always known for being really thin, I was once a very twiggy person too lol people blow it wayyyyy out of proportion. It's so unnecessary

[@AnnieNorthman89]

Same Kaya, same 😅😅 I know the feeling and it sucks

[@peaches65835]

Everyone needs to give themselves permission for downtime. As in just doing absolutely nothing downtime. I pushed through an illness and ended up with chronic fatigue syndrome. Ive now had it for 13 years. Please don't do this to yourselves.

[@KittyKerushi]

Hey;🖤 I understand, as I also deal with executive dysfunction as a ADHD hooman Doing things can be SOO harddDx

[@frankiefranklin9761]

The ADHD burnout is real. I am hyperfocused on my new job and everything else has kinda gone to shit 😂 last minute hotel and travel bookings for various weddings and my side of the bed is a fucking state. The only chore I can just about get done is laundry and even that is sometimes being done at work or my parents when I visit 😂 Strongly relate to fixing one area and everything else falling apart. I almost had it cracked in the 2019/2020 overlap and then...lockdowns 🙃

[@Cl0200]

Unfortunately adhd has become a popular thing at the moment so the prices and wait times (both private and NHS) are ridiculous. But I know people who have had the same situation with meds as you, so you aren’t alone. Definitely when things are more stable financially, try out medication again, or try a combination of stimulants and non stimulants x

[@waterwitch8902]

It's so good to know you've had happy times. Your a good person and I want to see you enjoying your life, because you deserve it. Depression is a constant battle of wills. Sometimes we can beat it and than because depression is a petty bitch she will sneak up and cover our fun with a blanket. So please stay healthy, happy and safe always. We can do this.❤

[@mardi7346]

It's both. And then the anxiety is the killer. For me it's like I become petrified. I freeze. It's part of Adhd. It's a shit storm. And you don't suck as a human being. We did not choose these brains. You are a Goddess. Don't forget that.

[@justapile4376]

Your body may be cycling. I go through this periodically. There are times when I'm awake for the entire day, then slowly I start sleeping longer until I end up awake all night. Then it starts all over again. You may also be sensitive to the weather. I know when the barometric pressure changes rapidly, I feel like crap. Kind of like a hangover, but not.

[@ciarafitzpatrick9248]

Occupational Therapy is helping me with day to day ADHD stuff. It is expensive privately but could be something on NHS. The things we discuss are hilariously simple, like getting up in the morning but it helps❤

[@missmorganne3800]

I absolutely love these kinds of videos❤ it feels so good to know I’m not alone

[@c.skeleton4223]

It is expensive to get diagnosised here in America as well so I cannot even consider trying to figure out what is happening with me (ADHD and/or Autism) and because I cannot get an official diagnosis I am bullying myself into both thinking I have ADHD/Autism and other times bullying myself into thinking that I am just making it all up. Totally sucks and without a diagnosis or meds no one really believes, understands, or cares since you aren't taking care of it so why should they care? It sucks.

[@SandraBlackheart]

Sounds like your brain is going into freeze mode because of anxious overwhelm. I've been going through similar! Take care of yourself as number one priority. 🖤

[@DrinkYourNailPolish]

My first go to for any health issue- mental and phyaical- is proper nutrition. Make sure you are getting all of rhe vitamins minerals and amino acids you need foe your body either through food or supplements. Include things like meditation and journaling- just taking stock of your thoughts and feelings and include some phyaical activity like going for a walk and enjoying nature. Get that on lock first. If you are still having trouble then pursue pharmachological aide. Like i noticed ince i added an amino acid supplement to my diet my anxiety went way down and I slept better. Thats b/c my brain needed that to function optimally. Like putting top tier gas in a ferarri. I hope that helps anyine else who may stuggle to get medical help. It sucks that thwre is a mental health crisis and its all due to unaffordability.

[@wanderer8336]

Yeah... it's just so awful when you're frustrated with your brain. 😡 I'm on the path of getting tested for ADD (thanks to you!) and autism, but the waiting lists to get started are just ridiculous. 😞 ADD hopefully in September? Autism probably next year. 🥺 Been on antidepressants for a year now. Don't go as low as I used to, but the highs are also gone. Feels like I'm just constantly "flatlining". And on top of that, I get some absolutely lovely side effects like (night)sweats and super intense dreaming, which does nothing for my sleep quality. 🙄 Exhausted all the time. Listening to your rant,... feels like I'm listening to myself. Gah,... I just try to get through every single day at a time. I know how crappy things can get. And how others can make you feel because they have no clue of what it's like. 🥺 Hang in there. Take a breath. We're here for you. 🌈 Much love, 🖤🖤🖤

[@winternightmarecrochet]

Adhd paralysis is a real thing. And it's harsh. People think we're lazy bastards but we're not. It's excruciatingly tiring in itself to be stuck like that. Much love 🖤

[@moyaxoxo5923]

I’m riddled in adhd so I get it . I wake up exhausted sometimes. Can’t even watch a full KZbin video. I’m back n forth

[@vTH89i]

shame is a very strong feeling and it is so important to give yourself a break and dont listen to stupid NTs who lack the ability to understand complex humans. you do what gives you energy and try to not feel guilty when stigma sneaks in

[@MyInfamousPanic]

Not the worst bit, but I can currently relate to feeling like shit thanks to your period 😂 As if life weren't often stressful enough, gotta throw the pms in there too 🙃

[@katerinastrange1085]

Totally understand, how do I make all the proper appointments when I have adhd and no meds. Lol😂😂😂😂

[@norabrice]

Oh my sweet lord!! White Rhino Hourglass Pickle Jar!!!! Guurrrrlll!!🤯❤‍🔥

[@gabbikelli1564]

We are all proud, you should be too!

[@meeriplathan5564]

your struggles are way too relatable 😭 sucks to hear because I know how fucking awful you must feel, but also kinda soothing that someone I regard as so fuvking cool has similar struggles as mine. Thank you for sharing this little menty b 💕 Maybe check out iron deficiency without anemia?

[@TheEmpressgoth]

❤you don't have to apologize delete the snarky comments. And do you love. Take it day to day hugs

[@Mzrenegade]

I suggest you get your thyroid checked. I'm neurodivergent too, I suffered from clinical depression since puberty until I got on thyroid meds. it's made a huge difference.

[@ToxicTears]

I did years ago and they told me it was normal but I honestly struggle to believe it, I have a lot of symptoms of a fucky thyroid 🥴

[@smolshepherd3907]

Stay strong Kaya!🖤

[@horror-core]

You should start recording all of this for content. It would have been cool to see what you've been up to for the past month. The festival experience etc. Gotta keep keeping up!👍

[@danielprice2743]

Hi Kaya! Nice to see you. I never had ADHD, but my depression was super bad. I took 25 2mg Xanax bars, all at once hoping to unalive myself. I was so pissed I woke up 2 days later covered in vomit and piss. Ask your doctor about the antidepressant, Welbutrin. It really worked wonders for me. Maybe it'll help you too, if you haven't tried it. I was on them for 4 years, and eventually, I was taken off. I don't need them anymore, and my depression levels are gone. Sure, I still have bad days, but it's far less terrible than before. I became a far better father because of my time on those meds. Stay well, Lovely Lady.

[@christiebecerril8113]

I also got a conch piercing and I love it so much, I can't wait for it to be fully healed so I can be fancy. I know mental health is hard but hopefully things will be manageable and you can enjoy life and have fun with friends and no stress

[@cassmuncher959]

Love you, Kaya!!!!! I'll support you till the ends of time 🔥🔨💯🍕🧚🏻‍♀️💅🏻🦇

[@MxPotato84]

Existence is exhausting. Existence burns me out!

[@theclawless1225]

glad to hear from u!

[@pilesofpeonies]

Oof felt this in my soullll. I've had anxiety and depression pretty badly since I was in middle school. Constant 'bad' thoughts (iykyk, I don't wanna trigger anyone). I heard the phrase 'passively Suicidal' while my sister was watching Grey's Anatomy and I was like 'OUCH'. But I think I've felt this way for so long that I truly don't know any alterative and that *sucks*. Never any therapy and never any medication, just raw dogging tf outta this shit bc I can't afford anything else (bc America hates poor people). So we just surviving out here ✌✌ All I can hope for is that it's not always gonna be like this. Bare minimum but yanno

[@Froggi77]

The diagnosis process is awful. Where I live, there's only one adhd specialist, so I had to wait 2 years for a diagnosis appointment, but now I'm waiting months for an appointment for medication. The autism diagnosis process, however, has been hell because I had an appointment a few years ago and they decided I wasn't autistic bc I could communicate well on the phone? I'm waiting for a second opinion, and they've not been in touch at all or left contact information. Even the adhd specialist said I clearly have autism.