"I just don't really plan on being here that long" - Euphoria US (2020) S01E00

[@valitsaki1924]

This episode was art at its purest and most honest form. This is probably my favorite episode of any show ever, pure beauty.

[@ahdabdalaziz8720]

Do you have a link where I can watch the episodes cuz I don’t have hbo

[@chaimaedarrah8075]

@@ahdabdalaziz8720 there is a website called ‘soap2day’ en u can basically watch any american/english movie/show

[@ahdabdalaziz8720]

@@chaimaedarrah8075 thank you!

[@lordfarquaad8267]

Agree. I cried, watched it twice and cried again. It’s a knife in the heart and a love letter to everyone who hurts, written in blood and tears.

[@valitsaki1924]

@@lordfarquaad8267 well said, couldn't have worded it better myself. ❤

[@cruzreynaiv4523]

“Everyone’s just out to make everyone else not seem human” Ong

[@ProMrLecoq01]

I felt that when I saw trump supporters bombard the capitol, really had me awake for a couple nights that we’re seeing so much anger

[@xav96]

@@ProMrLecoq01 very true. this world is pitted against one another. whether your black, white, gay or straight - - there’s always someone out there who intends to fuck your life up. it doesn’t make any sense but it’s so normalized it’s crazy

[@arielvanessa]

the lines that hits to me the most was “the world’s just really fucking ugly you know... i don’t want to be a part of it” “as someone who tried really hard to be someone i couldnt” and “i just dont plan on being here that long” because like she said, the world is so shitty and you just cant help but feel like you don’t want to be here anymore because it’s too much and you can’t handle it

[@astoldbynickgerr]

yeah :(

[@synclair9809]

I feel that way nearly everyday

[@jokesonyou222]

literally i relate sm which is why I love rue sm

[@user-jt3yi6cz6e]

And yet Rue laughed at her friend

[@Shalalalala_666]

I'm trying really hard to handle it. I hope all of you get through it too and I'd say it gets better but if I die at some point, I'm not dying as a liar. You all are just gonna have to go through the journey yourselves and find out. It might be worth it.

[@prongsversion]

This episode was like therapy. The subject of being clean is just a goal that everyone can replace with their own goal. Like getting out of depression, becoming more confident, stop being mean to other people... There are tons of goals. Honestly, I felt this episode like a big therapy session and I learned so much about life. For me, this is the best episode of the show. As someone else said in the comments, this episode is art, poetry. When I finished it, I was in tears, and I cried for a few minutes after it ended. I thought about life and everything they talked about. I thought about my own goals, and like Rue is trying to figure out if she really wants to be clean I tried to figure out if I really wanted to reach those goals. I cried a lot, but after all, I never felt better and wiser than after watching it.

[@gwenarnold3973]

what episode is it

[@prongsversion]

@@gwenarnold3973 The special one about Rue

[@Reb0rnKnight]

As someone who is an addict, this episode hit even harder. I felt like Ali was talking to me directly, and all the answers Rue gave back to him would've been similar to ones that I would give. I was in tears from start to finish. Maybe I'm bias, but I think this was the best episode in any series ever made. Pure art. From the music, to the cinematography, to the script, to the acting. Everything was perfect.

[@moonsyoungestsun6550]

What a great sum-up of this episode!!! I just started watching Euphoria a few weeks ago and mannn......this episode, more than any others, touched me deeply. I also thought it was like therapy and commented this on a few other threads. But your sum-up spoke to me just as much as this episode because, like you said, you can really substitute any issue you're going through in place of the drug addiction and picture Ali speaking to you about it. I forgot that I was watching a show and had to just sit and think alone for a few after it went off. Then I found myself watching it several more times just like it was my first time seeing it. Colman Domingo deserves an award for this episode because his performance was too real. I even think this episode was too grown and mature for Zendaya. Seems like a more seasoned actress would've really killed it with what Ali was bringing.

[@dasweetnezzofficial]

Couldn’t have said it better myself ❤️ good luck with your journey

[@rc4083]

As an addict, this episode was so hard to watch. I have never in my young life seen the way we think portrayed so raw and truthful. I hope you’re all okay out there. Somebody cares about you.

[@Kamoblue]

That’s what I was thinking too. It’s so beautiful to see portrayed onscreen, but it’s also so painful to watch because we (addicts) live those words everyday.

[@Appleton920]

I'm an addict myself. It's so crazy to me how there are so many statements Rue makes that I've made myself, especially statements to her mother, literally word for word. This show really does a good job capturing the picture of addiction.

[@rayevans9276]

the silence when ali asks rue how she wants her mom and sister to remember her is so L O U D.

[@KamikazeK219]

"As someone who tried really hard to be someone I couldn't" This line hits home more than anything else in the series so far. I think at some point Rue thought it would be better if she just untethered herself from everyone. Like it would be noble to spare them some pain. The long silence seems to me like this is what she wants to say, but she knows that she can tell Ali the truth. And the truth is that she wants her family to know that she really did try, that she truly wanted to be different for them. Even if she couldn't do it. Anyway that's what the subtext means to me. And whoever wrote this knows their shit.

[@romanjohnson1655]

I like you... I’ve seen your comments on the other videos aswell. I agree this episode was really the cherry on top for this whole show. This whole conversation had me in tears. It’s very powerful.

[@why2528]

Agreed. This whole show shows a lot of angles and perspectives.

[@noise6327]

BIG FACTS

[@Soleil-vk9ts]

This line and your comments hits home for me... It's exactly what I've tried to do in the past,

[@AC-ri2ph]

girl i’ve been trying to change myself for the longest time and i’ve been the same for 10 years. i’m about to say it is what it is

[@dionedelima8153]

"the thing i miss about doing drugs is the beauty" this line really hits me everytime

[@TheHighLevel.]

It's that when you're on drugs, you see things differently 💫 At that moment, even our worst enemy becomes our best friend... But it's an illusory pleasure! It takes us away from the concrete and the reality of things 🤷🏽

[@TheEricksen]

I know people will disagree on this...best Euphoria episode ever

[@karabokhanyile]

I agree

[@bgos4727]

I agree

[@Kristina-kh1ms]

agree

[@julesjuulsjewels]

for me it was the jules episode. hunters acting, the visuals, the script, all of it was just amazing

[@katyKEM]

What episode is it

[@esmabartin]

3:12 - 3:45 the most meaningful silence. Its tells everything. Its tells what u thinking in this long silence... best episode of Euphoria

[@pamelarojas8878]

Totally

[@christofera.amadeus8704]

I think it's just realistic for me, it's dramatic sure but when you're carry such emotional load inside, making up and saying words takes effort and a loong time

[@hippiecheezburger5457]

Life is worth living we need to help one another and listen to each other it’s the only way to get through things

[@whoisneezy]

Honestly, there was something in this episode for everyone. Drug addict, alcoholic, or sober, no matter what your title, there was something in this episode that we all could relate to.

[@moonsyoungestsun6550]

Very true!!! Just substitute your issue in place of Rue's and it felt like Ali could be speaking directly to you.

[@RubenMunshower]

I drink and watch this All the time

[@callielayneherring5888]

I'm not an addict but I WAS suicidal from a very young age growing up in a bad environment, and this episode just absolutely came for my throat. THIS is why I'm still hooked on Euphoria. When they linger on emotions like this it's so raw and so real.

[@7000Leafs.]

Stay strong man. ❤️☕

[@Ugh_yunaa]

thats exactly me, this series really made me realize a lot of things

[@nadya3864]

Same. Not an addict but grew up unfathomably sad. Lost a sibling young and never felt like I knew anything else but being sad. I just have to remind myself that I’m more than the circumstances I grew up in and teach myself that sad is not suppose to be normal.

[@biancarosealinaseraphim]

I lost my mom at a younger age and wanted to kill myself at 16 wrote aboit it went to the hospital twice.. amd then cut myself when My, ex broke up with me. Ever sumve theb it sorta went downhill

[@jazg1622]

I felt like he was talking to me or something and Everything that rue was saying is literally what i feel specially when she said she wasn't planning on being here long they really spoke in this episode 💀

[@Soleil-vk9ts]

I feel you.. I hope things will get better for you. Nobody deserves to go through this shit mentally...

[@ProMrLecoq01]

Felt the same... hope for better days for all of you. Especially recently with the riots in Washington DC and the storming of the capitol it just showed inhumanity, had me awake for a couple of nights

[@cavidankaradag6541]

Same...

[@n.dior7]

this scene is so powerful it brought me to tears 🥺

[@nevaeh9420]

I relate to her struggles/problems too much that watching this specific episode hit so very deeply.

[@OceanIgs]

Same. I shit a tear this episode

[@SK-ds9hr]

@@OceanIgs lol

[@JMCSEE]

@@OceanIgs same i just had taco bell

[@arielvanessa]

i hate how when this episode aired people were so quick to call it boring and say they just want to know about the other characters,, the episode is LITERALLY ABOUT RUE ! “part 1: rue” what else did y’all expect?? also people are disrespecting rue and her story so much which is so rude and unfair because rue is based off of the director sam levinson’s story and the least yall can do is appreciate it

[@kaaliyahrogers9081]

Exactly!! Thank you. I still don’t get why people were mad that the other characters weren’t in it when it was literally called “part 1: Rue” 💀

[@scp-507]

It’s probably why it’s the only episode that’s actually good

[@marcellaflood]

This scene broke me when she said as someone who tired really hard to be something they couldn't... from a place of someone who deals with anxiety and depression there has been days where I didn't want to be here anymore... and everyday I strive to be better but this really hit home to me

[@peeppaa1997]

Everyone who says this episode was boring is ignorant af

[@kerrid5717]

Ali is the perfect mix of tough love and brutal honesty with compassion and patience

[@noise6327]

AMEN. THIS WAS THE BEST MONOLOGUE IN THE WHOLE ASS SHOW

[@kelisbest1659]

I remember sitting in bed crying because I was depressed this show helped alot

[@MRmotorhead59]

Are you feeling better now ?

[@markymark2191]

same 😢

[@ximenagutierrez677]

I really feel this part of the episode, ‘cause I’m a sad person and I always thinking the world is so mean, and I don’t won’t to be a part of it, I just tried so hard every day and it’s so exhausting

[@astoldbynickgerr]

People who can live through it are so strong and lucky.

[@MeesdeFilmliefhebber]

Life is worth living. For every f*ed up shit and ugly miserable thing, there is something beautiful, precious and valuable out there. All you need to do is look, and allow yourself to feel it. All of it. Whether or not you can carry all that, and keep going, is up to you. Just try.

[@summerwisniewski6779]

This is undoubtedly the best episode of the entire series. Everything about rue and her life relates to me and this really is pure art. The acting, the long silences, her eyes even portray pain. It’s amazing and Zendaya is now one of my favorite actresses. I’m very thankful to the director of this show, I really needed this. It was almost like a wake up call.

[@mudit1110]

Which episode number was it?

[@naimabouzammour9310]

I wish i had someone like Ali in my life I love this charachter so much i hope he will get his own storyline in season 2

[@stantwitter1016]

This episode is a therapy session, it fucking hits me I didn’t stop crying after the credits roll, only because it hits close to home. For people who says this is boring, be grateful cause you can’t relate or don’t understand what they’re talking about, means that you not experiencing the worst in life yet. This is the best episode yet.

[@Destinnies]

The scary thing about how relatable this is too- is how rue also has a little sister and is with her mom. And the question he asked about how she wants them to remember her, really hit. What can I leave behind?

[@Stinarodriguez]

This was the most realest episode ever. I felt like I was apart of this conversation. Very emotional and deep

[@dafirorodifa1011]

this entire episode is pure art, the talk looks spectacularly natural.

[@jets_mets]

This show is my soul as entertainment. If you could say to me "Hey how do you feel about the current world we live in?" I would just play this clip.

[@yungking148]

yess

[@dominiquemorefield6024]

Absolutely beautiful. This whole episode, but this clip especially, is brilliantly written. The thought-provoking dialogue, acting, and setting are all just *chef’s kiss*

[@astoldbynickgerr]

Her words are what has been echoing in my mind since I watched the episode. I cried when she said what she said. It resonates.

[@nAanis100]

My favorite sentence about this episode were : « You’ve got to believe in the poetry because everything else in your life will fail you, including yourself. » And « Baby trouble don't last always »

[@user-hn9fl3mx5h]

I’ve really been struggling with my sobriety lately. And with lockdown stopping na meetings and being unable to do them online I’m having a hard time doing it on my own again. So this was very important to me and I will carry it in my mind for a long time. I’m very grateful to the writers of this show and to these performances, it really gave me hope at a time I needed it most ❤️

[@adhamnassar6219]

I hope things work out for you....be safe and strong.

[@user-hn9fl3mx5h]

@@adhamnassar6219 thanks 😊

[@rc4083]

@@user-hn9fl3mx5h hey buddy. Same. Somebody out there in the world is thinking of you and wishing nothing but the best life for you. You’re doing great.

[@user-hn9fl3mx5h]

@@rc4083 thanks, wishing you the best as well 🙏

[@lelec6923]

you are going to make it buddy. i lost a family member due to addiction. but i know you will do it. be strong... everybody is very proud of you.

[@elizabethfigueroa6159]

“As someone who tried really hard to be someone I couldn’t,” as much as I have mix feelings about this show this line and this moment is everything to me.

[@iyaiiya-wawg3657]

This episode was so real. Never did I think I'd enjoy an episode that was just a conversation. But it felt so real and even I learned.

[@eliza8848]

I just watched this episode and it made me cry and reflect on some of the questions I've been asking myself for the past years. This is forever my favourite episode and I shall rewatch it whenever I feel bad again. This is amazing

[@lunaveil1318]

God this scene makes me bawl every time, especially when rue says she wants them to remember her as someone who tried so hard to be something she couldn’t. So much about that resonates and is just… so heartbreaking.

[@ilievalentin629]

this was the most artistic episode of any show i ve seen in a while. it was almost poetic , it was philosophical and emotional , so different from the conversations in the other episode , this was a real conversation. find poetry in your life and learn to understand yourself and love yourself , to be a better person and to accept your own flaws.

[@juliabing7972]

who’s here after rue was disrespectful asf to ali in the latest episode……..

[@Ifjfjdjdjsdodod]

I literally almost cried when I saw his face after she threw that back at him … he really cared about her and I hope he sees she’s really going down a terrible path

[@dawnbrown6330]

That scene honestly pissed me off. He didn’t even do anything to her except for playfully ask what’s in the suitcase. Her throwing his personal regrets in his face was so shitty and I honestly wanted to go into the tv and slap her in the face 😭 The way she treats her mom, sister, Ali and even Lexi is so fucking shitty and annoying

[@MegaMan-bs3oy]

"I don't even want to be a part of it. I don't even want to witness it". YOU CAN'T control what others feel or do or say but you CAN control your reaction to it and YOU CAN FOCUS ON MAKING YOURSELF HAPPY. I sat alone at a waffle house drinking coffee and eating waffles and I just felt the moment. I felt like I was watching myself in a movie EVERYONE was so angry and cold and bitter and arguing about tips and who didn't make the gravy. But I sat there...in MY moment MY moment. Happy. I was in a diner. I was drinking coffee and eating a waffle. I could in GREAT detail explain everything I was feeling and tasting and smelling and hearing. IN THE MOMENT. Everyone is so disconnected waiting for that next endorphin kick from a text, from a video game, from porn, from anything. That we FORGET what it is it like to just sit still for a freaking while and breathe and BE IN THE MOMENT. I have struggled with anxiety and depression and low self esteem for over 15 years. TRUST ME. WHEN YOU STOP and say wait a minute and all those voices in your head stops and there is peace and you feel it and you feel your eyes watering up because for the first time in a long time you are at peace. No stress. No worries. No regrets or pain. That is you being in the moment. Like he said two people in a diner on Christmas eve. How many of you have been somewhere amazing and NOT even taken the moment to realize you are there? BLOWING through life is you not LIVING in the moment. SLOW DOWN BREATHE and notice your surroundings and YOUR important place in them! YOU ARE IMPORTANT YOU ARE WHERE YOU ARE NOW AND THAT MEANS SOMETHING.

[@0xytocinz616]

i will never forget this line

[@Bluemgwes]

The amount of depth this episode had was amazing. I honestly loved how Ali and Rue were just chatting about life, the dichotomy of Ali's wisdom and Rue's cynicism made for a fruitful conversation. These two brought such an insane sense of realism to this episode and the writing/direction is fantastic. My favorite episode of Euphoria for sure.

[@coolface5635]

I’m officially addicted to this show I waited a year and a half to start it because I wasn’t ready but this past week of bing watching has been an emotional ride..this episode was deep and showed a lot about Addiction Battles, Generational Differences, Social Issues, and The necessary changes one must make to overcome all of it. Revolution..Spiritual Revolution..that’s the point Ali was trying to make..

[@watergunemoji9731]

this episode was hands down the best thing I watched in 2020

[@whoisneezy]

I had to watch this again. Honestly, whenever I'm having a bad day, whenever I see how cold how people can be, I think of this scene. I never could relate so much to anything on tv today. I know exactly how Rue felt and sometimes I feel like however I can find some sense of bliss, numbness or escape, I would rather feel those things than to be in a moment of inhumanity or even witness it. It makes me wish like I wasn't human. I'm grateful for this show so much.

[@moonsyoungestsun6550]

Same here. I just started watching all of the episodes a few weeks ago and this one, with Ali and Rue in the diner, gave me life. I've struggled with bouts of depression since I was a kid, while my mom acted/still acts like nothing is wrong. She's the type to tell me to just be happy, get over it or that I'm ruining her day because of the depression. She always makes it about her or downplays it instead of acknowledging what's going on with me. So for me, Ali is the best thing to come into my life. I really wish that I had someone like this in my life because I would not take him for granted and would soak up all of this knowledge. I'm so happy to know that so many other people really got this episode because I think it went over some people's heads. Colman Domingo is out here providing free therapy and doesn't know it.

[@MetroCop2077]

This scene breaks hearth when u realize what she did to him in se2 episode 3..

[@MegaMan-bs3oy]

I just legit choked up. "How do you want your mom and sister to remember you". As someone who has had bad depression for as long as I can remember and anxiety self esteem issues...I rethought that as "How do you want your mom and brother to remember you". And first thing that popped into my head was "failure". But her answer was just as freaking crushing.

[@neoscencez]

I've just watched this episode and thought it was hauntingly beautiful. The two of them are SO well acted and have just chemistry. It generally felt like I was a fly on the wall during a conversation.

[@callmekildazero4954]

"How do you want your mom and sister to remember you?" 💔💔💔

[@cruzalvarez6875]

As someone who tried really hard to be someone I couldn't

[@madspazmo388]

this part made me tear up hard💔

[@yammymaphumulo1739]

I have never wanted a series to never end before ,but damn can Euphoria not end😓

[@jordanhenry9017]

This whole scene and episode spoke to me and knocked some sense into me because it made me realize that when she said “ to be somebody who tried to be somebody I couldn’t that spoke volumes to me because it made me realize that I don’t want this life anymore I don’t want the life that I’m living because I have so much more potential and I know that I can be the person that I see deep inside of myself even tho it’s very hard to change and I’m trying my hardest but like I said the scene made me realize that the people I talk to I hang with the things I talk about the thing that I do aren’t what I want anymore I want a change and Inorder to get a change it has to start within and I will do everything in my power to get that change for myself

[@ess23ldvb]

God, the WRITING here was just incredible. I hard sob every time. It was so honest and raw. Those two are magical together.

[@sheismymoon829]

The fact I’m here on Christmas Eve while feeling this way of not wanting to be apart of the world anymore and leave hits a way I can’t describe. I just want everything to be okay and while I’m trying to improve myself each day I feel like outside circumstances is what keeps me back. It’s so hard to be here. the only thing that keeps me living is the promises I made to my loved ones I wouldn’t leave. It hurts so much it’s hard to bare

[@dumbelldaisy]

I've never, EVER been able to rewatch any scene like this and cry the exact same way, with the exact (hard crying) amount of energy. This scene wrecks me, every-single-time. I've never heard addiction explained so perfectly in such few words. His opening lines, and ESPECIALLY her ending lines.. They are truly perfect. That, "As someone who tried really hard to be someone I couldn't ".. Encapsulates how I feel so perfectly. I feel like I'm dying to just prove that I simply couldn't do it. I just can not wrap my mind around my brain not needing the artificial enhancement (and peace in my body) that opiates give. It's like my mind found the exact compound that makes me.... I guess who I feel I truly AM. That struggling addict that just cannot get it right. Rue and that line.. Heart wrenching. As I feel leaving those I loved, this is exactly how I would explain it.. I'm sorry I couldn't be who I should/could have been.. Of course that's the darkest depths of my thoughts. I have people I want-need to live for in my life and will do everything possible and imaginable to beat this... I just hope I'm not sitting in a cafe in a year, eating something for the first time in days, crying with someone that's not my closest loved ones... Speaking about how, "I couldn't do it" .. Maybe worse feeling? The person with years under my belt and still dreaming of the peace of mind drugs bring. Being an addict is such a rough, scary and daunting experience. It's like all one can do is try to be as okay as possible, struggling.. keeping our heads above water, each day, and hope others do not give up on us. It is amazing how family at its best and loved ones out up with it and still have hope. Like I've said to my loved one today.. I hope I can get sober and eventually love myself even a smidgen as much as I love them. Maybe then it will not be such a hard concept to wrap my head around... Being okay. While being sober. The craziest concept; Being happy, while sober. 💜🌼

[@aerin-gp9nr]

this episode really helped me in some aspects it’s sad to see people think this episode is boring when it’s really pure and meaningful

[@jennyx1111]

This entire episode really spoke to me. I was in tears at the end of this episode I had to really take a moment to myself and just think.

[@tonjamollan6369]

Metoo fantastic show

[@clonazemane9]

if you never been addicted or have friends who are trynna get clean wont understand the show shits no joke i just recently started watching it and its the most realistic shit ive ever seen so real it almost triggered me

[@Hey.its.lucy21]

Man I needed to come back to this scene tonight because fuck today was hard and I’m struggling bad I’m loosin a battle in keeping my head above water but this scene hits so close to home for me I needed it

[@trlover111]

Praying that you are still pushing through 🙏🏽

[@Mustbcedric]

I really felt this episode, when people say they don't understand this show I wanna tell them watch this episode

[@jon_ovo3653]

Felt amazing watching this episode like I was just so calmed down and relaxed I can’t even explain I just felt good but sad also

[@graagraes]

This episode is for me what Ali is to Rue: a friend who understands me deeply and tries to comfort me

[@happyhippie6330]

This episode was just a warm hug for me. Loved it.

[@mikeparez]

When she said to be remembered as someone who tried to be something she couldn’t I felt that.

[@nelly4982]

This is definitely my favorite episode of euphoria. so good.

[@jdchy6181]

the way i felt the same around her age and now i am a decade older and that hasnt changed at all…in fact it’s only became harder to fit in - the drugs, paying your bills, pretending to everyone else im just so exhausted

[@AbdulRahman-gd8gd]

It's the best episodes of any show I've ever watched. It's rich and the lines get through you. I've been having suicidal thoughts since few months. After watching this episode...... I've got a new view of life. Thanks to this wonderful conversations. And thanks to Euphoria.

[@watford777]

I didn't want this talk to end it's was something else, felt like I was with them

[@TheDeepstory9595]

This episode saved my life and made me take accountability to grow from my own fears and excuses. I cried like 20 times watching this.

[@hengoku131]

this scene is to relatable. it gets me everytime.

[@Jordan_Dale]

Why did you cut Rue’s “I don’t plan on being here that long.” That would make this clip complete/what I was hoping for.

[@adhamnassar6219]

i cut it for copyrights purposes unfortunately, the clip would be long enough for KZbin to block it.

[@Jordan_Dale]

@@adhamnassar6219 Bummer. The opening line makes the point of/kicks off the scene clearer. I wanted to post a higher quality video than what I shakily recorded on my phone while I watched it on my bed. When I found this upload, I was happy to re watch it in HD.

[@Jordan_Dale]

Could you upload it somewhere that I could download it?

[@adhamnassar6219]

@@Jordan_Dale www.convkzbin.info/www/bejne/mnKUXpyYoLStd6M&lc=UgxfsHe3wwe7aesLm354AaABAg.9H_g6B0LWg49IRNc0zkDiz&ab_channel=AdhamNassar

[@adhamnassar6219]

@@Jordan_Dale here is a link, i think you can probably download it from

[@anabolicchicken4115]

The moment when you fundamentally understand what Ali is saying is the moment you'll be able to pull yourself out of whatever spot you find yourself in. The toughest battle you'll ever face is within yourself, the goal of the battle is precisely to find yourself. How do you that? Well its different for everyone, but the knowledge is already there, you just have to search for it, be it through outside teachings and within. The toughest thing is to make the choice, because the journey is tough and it sort of never ends, yet it is in the journey itself that you'll find fullfillment. Love, forgiveness, and truth above all my friends, through those principles you'll be able to find yourself and hence the divinity within, but get ready for everything beneath your feet to crumble. All of your beliefs, values, and whatnot will be brought into question, its your job to find what works for you, and letting go of what you shouldn't be holding so close to who you are and see the world purely without judgement as a compassionate being. The power of eastern philsophy and mindfullness cannot be understated, its a long journey for sure, but a necessary one. We've lost that knowledge about ourselves and we are paying for it, dearily, but we don't have to anymore.

[@StridersBored]

Oh Rue. I’m in the same boat as you yet you’re only a character and despite that you were the first person that I related to after almost a decade of intense mental anguish. Last year especially was the lowest point in my life with my overdose. I am so alone because no matter how hard I try I can never find anyone to talk to. My brain is so hard wired at hating my existence I don’t know how I’ll be able to make a life after this chapter of my life eventually comes to a close and the shitstorm continues

[@gbreezy143]

As years go on, I literally can start to relating to rue when she says “trying really hard to be someone I couldn’t”. I feel stuck sometimes and doing shit I don’t care about because of being a part of toxic family. I need to slowly break away.

[@loopygal9925]

This should’ve been made into a movie… would’ve been a classic a lot of good scenes like this

[@mustache_awesom]

i relate a lot to rue right now. i don’t know if the little bits of happiness i get sometimes is worth the constant pain

[@leondreamcast]

This episode is crazy it’s literally one entire take of a 1to1 conversation. This takes talent.

[@thedaking4880]

That's what we call a REAL TALK

[@noahsong3865]

This episode was so compelling, it was like a stage play.

[@jessiecat2736]

I’m so glad I clicked on this !!

[@blackroseindigo]

I relate to this so much..

[@berrybobagacha7715]

This is the best episode in the whole show. First time the show made me cry actually.. I love how they had a real talk and ppl can say it’s boring but that would mean they only watch the show for the giggles and the glitter and the romance drama . Only reason I keep watching this show is because of episodes / scenes like this

[@theman100allday5]

THIS THE BEST EPISODE OF EUPHORIA HANDS DOWN!!!! I’ll never forget the day I watched this episode

[@davidhattersley5045]

Beautifully honest. The how your mum and sister will remember you bit hit me like a sledgehammer. Very powerful and very real. Well done to all 👏

[@jhedatitan4228]

I’m watching Euphoria now I finished season 1. I was going to season 2 but I saw this special episode and im glad I watched. God the message behind it all is beautiful and it made me cry.

[@rubythorp1998]

If you say this episode is boring, unfortunately we're never gonna be friends.

[@Dbennett12]

Jesus this hurts

[@thisisjustanillusion6486]

You can tell when a24 produces anything. Idk how but they know what they are doing when it come to authenticity of human interaction. I’m sure thousands of these meetings happen every year but this was perfectly captured.

[@sophie5686]

This was by far one of my favourite episodes of Euphoria and I often find myself coming back to it to rewatch. Everything that is said in this episode was nothing but truth and reality. It hit hard and was honestly hard to watch since coming from someone who had to live with someone struggling badly with addiction for a long period of time, this is exactly what it was like with the questions being asked and the answers being given. So although i am not an addict, i could relate to this episode so much just by my experiences of living with a mother who is one herself. This episode speaks volumes and sometimes i think to understand it you have to relate to it in some way. I bawled my eyes out after this episode and had to keep pausing it cause i was a crying mess lol. but truly this episode was art and almost felt like a therapy session and i couldn't be more thankful for it cause even though it opened up some wounds i clearly hadn't gotten over, it taught me so much about life, addiction and goals. You can't help an addict if they don't want help themselves, that's the number 1 thing I learnt. they have to WANT to be sober , you can't force it. Addiction is ruthless and has no leniency but this episode explains so much about addicts and their thoughts etc. best tv show epsiode i think i will ever watch and that speaks volumes.

[@Samuel-xu1jr]

Just wait for the tiktok edits

[@hsmo6924]

there gonna make cringe povs

[@lavenderania]

No, i will burn internet

[@wasitjustadream2345]

Please no :(

[@doublegtotheg9807]

Master of the art this was, replayed everything over and over again to grasp the hard truth of it all and make it stick, was in tears like a baby the whole episode.

[@Truthster772]

This was an amazing episode. Everything EVERYTHING Ali says is 100% and even though this show pushes an agenda, I was pleasantly surprised at just how to “the core” of these issues that was addressed. Spot on. From BS Nike to drugs completely taking over who you are, even in sobriety. Just amazing! I’m thoroughly impressed. I’d like to see more of this in a show. Retrospective. Deep diving into the heart of the matter. I also appreciated the actors. Ali is addressing at a level learned through experience with much insight that only occurs as you age and become more mature and Rue not quite understanding. Not because of her stupidity or ignorance, simply because she is still young. However, these words were words that will be a voice in her head as she matures. I’m interested to see how this episode carries Rue throughout Season 2. The show was a bit bizarre for me. But the underlying tones of honesty is what kept me watching. These are the issues teenagers face today and they’re really not so far off from when I was a teenager during the 90’s when mental illness shift into primary focus. Rue being the generation raised by the mentally ill generation of Gen X. I only keep watching the show because of my being able to identify with all the characters, from the good to the bad. This episode is the stuff Emmy’s are made of and I would like to see both these actors receive the praise they deserve. If you are watching this show and have a family member that’s an addict, this is 100% how they feel. From Rue and Ali’s perspective. And don’t get me wrong, there comes a time where an addict has to get clean, has to “buck it up,” but just know, who they were, before drugs, is gone and get to know who they are now. This doesn’t mean to enable the behavior, but more conflict breeds more desperation and more trauma, which keeps an addict in the cycle. It’s also not excused away by “being an addict” during that particular period of time, no, it stays with the addict. For years and helps in the destruction of who that person is, whether or not they are clean. Addiction is hard, unfair and not easy, for all involved. Human nature has us keeping score and keeping tallies and record of who has and who was wronged most. Whether you’re an addict, recovering addict, or a family member dealing with an addict, learn NOT to keep score, learn not keep record. Learn unconditional love and in the face of what is “unlovable,” allow yourself to love. This sort of love is not enabling, but it is unconditional. My mother is my example of this sort of unconditional and she’s put up with allot. I just know it’s possible. Love the unlovable. Learn to love without enabling. It’s hard, it’s even kinda ignorant and unfair to ask those who aren’t dealing with addiction, but a family member who is an addict to have the courage and strength to learn to love this way. But be the bigger person and learn to unconditionally love in this way. It is positively life changing.

[@alexsaborit5599]

what agenda does this show have??

[@yaraa101]

This whole episode felt like a therapy session tbh

[@markgarreth706]

This episode was so triggering for me. I had to pause every once in a while. Loved the writing in this episode.

[@paperstacksfilms]

Damn what rue says about the world and not wanting to be a part of it or witness it, that shit hits hard to anyone who feels out of place in this world.

[@pimpleneck79]

Some of the best writing for that season...breathtakingly unapologetic

[@cmatteo2780]

As someone who has been STRUGGLING with addiction and depression the first 2 episodes hit wayyyyy too close to home

[@vanityward]

this is just heartbreaking

[@missdee4927]

That last part did it for me. That last line felt too real. Broke me down in tears.

[@micaiahborchers8914]

this scene broke my heart. never have i related to rue more.

[@SOAPhia083]

That episode healed me more than it was planned