I'm Having a Lot of Feelings

[@vlogbrothers]

Hi. LOS ANGELES: Tomorrow! I will be in talking with producers and cast of Looking for Alaska at the Paley Center. I hope to see you there! Tickets: www.eventbrite.com/e/venue-change-looking-for-alaska-screening-conversation-tickets-76782591799 Also p.s. I changed the title of this video because Sarah suggested this title and it is better in every way. Thanks, Sarah. Also thanks for 15+ years of partnership and support and so on but mostly for the new video title. -John

[@AshisutantoDirekutaa]

Hey, John. Super excited you are in L.A. Bought tix a week ago via the other venue, but it looks like the venue changed. Do we need to re-buy tix? Thanks.

[@krissymillard1823]

AshisutantoDirekutaa Hi! I had the same question. You may have figured it out by now, but the Alex Theater tickets were refunded and we have to buy new ones (same price) for the Paley Center. I’m bummed because I had great seats, but glad to still get to go. I would have shown up in Glendale instead so I’m glad I saw this earlier. I’m worried a lot of people will show up at the other venue. Anyway, hope you enjoy the show and DFTBA!

[@alexistai5456]

Krissy M, thank you so much for letting us know! I too saw the venue change by chance and was wondering what to do. I reached out to Alex Theatre so hopefully they’ll send a mass email to folks who bought tickets to let them know their tickets were refunded-which will hopefully limit the number of people who go to Glendale by accident (but if anyone does, I highly recommend stopping by Porto’s bakery because that place is bomb and worthy consolation). Anyways, Krissy, thanks again, enjoy the show, see you there, and DFTBA!

[@krissymillard1823]

Alexis Tai Great idea to reach out to the Alex Theater! Thanks for doing that. I did get an email from the LA Times, but only found it by searching through my email after seeing John’s comment here. (The subject line was cut off on my mail app on my phone.) I hope the theater takes your advice so more nerdfighters get the message. So excited for the show! DFTBA

[@AshisutantoDirekutaa]

Krissy M thanks! I did check the Alex Theatre ticket order status and it does say “Refund” on it. I also had great seats there, but Paley Center is probably a more intimate venue in comparison (and supposedly has free parking in BH!).

[@MarkThePage]

Henry and Alice are such beautiful children. They truly have their father's face.

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[@Drew-lm9wp]

That was them??? Omg they're so big

[@mcmaths1]

"This is temporary." is an excellent idea for my first tattoo

[@galli0]

Love the juxtaposition of it

[@RockSmithStudio]

no ragrets

[@LuxinNocte]

"this too shall pass" is also quite popular

[@kayisfish]

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[@naomil2288]

I actually love that

[@Mystik3eb]

"This...is temporary" John being in an airport after a "stunning turn of events" though? That's eternal.

[@witchsorrowful1918]

Loved that phrasing. Some sentences often remind me that this guy here is one excellent author.

[@anthonynorman7545]

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[@ReasonMakes]

I haven't had as good a laugh as that in a LONG time hahahaha, thank you

[@cassie9169]

As eternal as the grey speckled walls

[@pinkysaurusrawr]

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[@5ab14]

Can't believe Turtles All the Way Down came out two years ago, holy crap time flies

[@cowboylike_zoe]

I know I remember leaving school early so I could get it

[@asawerabbood]

*sh!t* I'm gonna be 18 years old after like 6 months. feel so anxious about the whole thing. at least it's " *temporary* " as *John* like to say..

[@shilittletsure]

Didn't I just stay up all night reading it? No, that was two years ago? This really is temporary.

[@brandonthesteele]

wait what I've noticed that things that don't have a definite temporal marker have been assumed to be "a year or so ago". I thought Turtles was last year lol

[@WPMontgomery]

I grow old I grow old.

[@justinenguyen7578]

"I'm like a piano that has a lot of different keys but can only play one note" A mood by John Green.

[@RainaRamsay]

#mood

[@DemiDragonQueen]

If I could tune pianos....that would be an art piece

[@minseoyang2967]

Large emotion

[@AaronOrtiz]

Probably F# though

[@Ford_prefect_42]

*Mattias Krantz has entered the chat*

[@catherinecase1142]

“If there’s one thing we know about the universe, it’s that this is temporary.” How can one sentence be both comforting and terrifying at the same time??

[@GuiHarrison]

I love that at face value you can read this as nihilism but if you think carefully it lifts your spirit in a profound way.

[@luisabravo1438]

Because everything passes. It can hurt to think that the good things in your life are only temporary but that also means the bad things in your life are temporary as well.

[@wxlurker]

@@luisabravo1438 Moments like these, when I feel like a total wreck and get anxiety... I like to look at images of the Hubble Legacy Field. It reminds me of how small I am in our Solar System and even more so in the roughly 200,000 galaxies in that image. It feels like nothing matters when you look at that image like everything gets swallowed by the plain vastness of space... I feel a little better knowing that what I feel or did doesn't matter or even if I feel this way it will all disappear one day. As you said, it is all temporary.

[@einarssone]

​@@GuiHarrison those two are not mutually exclusive.

[@MykiiMescal]

It’s kinda like “this too will pass” makes you sad when you’re happy and happy when you’re sad

[@sackclothandashes998]

Henry and Alice truly are John's spitting image

[@JoaoGabriel-sz9rj]

holy shit i remember when alice was born and she’s so big now

[@ThePrimevalVoid]

Bruh I remember when Henry was born and good lord he's so big now.

[@elfsi1]

@@ThePrimevalVoid BIG SAME

[@JoaoGabriel-sz9rj]

@@ThePrimevalVoid for sure i think i was just so surprised from seeing alice's size bc (if i'm not mistaken) we literally have never seen her on camera before. or at least not since she was a baby.

[@cheyennemarie7075]

I had to pause the video at that point because I was so shook. I remember John’s “Adorable Baby is Adorable” video from the Brotherhood 2.0 days (or thereabouts)! Henry’s not a baby anymore😢

[@mrclueuin]

@@cheyennemarie7075 Awww! But now he's a young child with a good life ahead of him and Brillent Father and Mother + a Bright and Loving Sister! 👨👩👧👦😀

[@knightly13]

i love that john doesn't ever try and censor his real life, he's so honest. 10 years of refreshing continuity - thank you.

[@lou2850]

Yes same

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[@TheJessicaKent]

In a stunning turn of events, airport videos are still the best.

[@NUCCubus]

However airports are not

[@rikwisselink-bijker]

@@NUCCubus This one didn't even have grey speckled walls

[@curiositykilledthekat]

"i have a lot of feeling right now; not good feelings or bad feelings, just a lot of them." A Mood(tm)

[@ihavespoken164]

hulkwidows a new definition for these moods that we constantly have. ✨

[@RainaRamsay]

#alsomood

[@seanmurphy3430]

Big mood.

[@WintaAssefa]

"At the moment, I'm like a piano that has a lot of different keys but only plays one note". *Damn.* Do analogies like these come to John like, on the fly?

[@Felisquoreda]

Not just on the fly, but in the airport

[@WintaAssefa]

@@Felisquoreda *slow clap*

[@TheRaspberryExperiment]

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[@mrclueuin]

He's a Writer, it comes with the territory! 😊

[@ye3s146]

Is that Henry?? At risk of sounding like a weird aunt: He's gotten so big! I remember the cooking for a three year old video like it was yesterday!!

[@jennifergoebel8333]

Tasnia Choudhury that’s my favorite John/Hank as dad vid!!

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[@fortheloveofLDS]

lol, was that slobber carrots?

[@shewhotalksalot]

I love that video!

[@ye3s146]

@@fortheloveofLDS no slobber carrots was a punishment video for John, theyre both great videos, though!

[@quintingell]

Alice and Henry as Pizza John is my new favorite thing

[@meechisminners]

Geez, how did I not realize that's Henry and Alice? Oml they've grown up so much

[@wogdog985]

WAIT THAT’S HENRY??? WOAH HE’S SO TALL

[@danielpereira2080]

They got so big!!

[@quintingell]

@@meechisminners I kinda just assumed but now I'm imagining John just asking two random kids to put a mask of his face on at the airport and that's a gift

[@SamiJaneRen]

I thought that was Charlie and Kristine OH MY GOD HENRY AND ALICE

[@BriSueQ]

"I'm like a piano that has a lot of different keys but only plays one note" Beautiful illustration of anxiety

[@brightstar180]

"Your now is not your forever." -Turtles All The Way Down

[@RachelAnn]

"This is temporary and I will be okay and so will you." Me: *crying

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[@rachelgrubbs]

I like how John uses the puff as punctuation when mentioning the Partners in Health project “Now it is about to be announced-“ Raises puff “- and I am definitely feeling a limitless anxious.”

[@hadaszayada8606]

John, your openess about your mental health is such a blessing in a world full of photoshop and facades. Thank you

[@SapphireSparrowFilms]

"I know that I'm done growing up. But I hope that I'm not done growing."

[@imid3440]

K.J. Sparrow i liked this a lot

[@sanitysquota937]

I have a t-shirt that says 'never grow up. never stop growing'

[@Molscheira]

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[@EmilyAnn634571]

“I wish I had a but at the end of that sentence” might be the most relatable thing you’ve ever said

[@akarshitachandra3971]

Omg yes😂

[@ShipofInsomnia]

"But now I understand my anxiety as part of a brain disorder that I have which isn't my fault or at least I usually understand that." That is one of the most accurate statements about anxiety I've ever heard.

[@nemockulous]

The amazing part about John is that he can talk about mortality, in all this being temporary, and he does it in such a way that it's somehow comforting.

[@ishitasawant6435]

"I know that i'm done growing up but i hope that i'm not done growing" This should be everyone's motto in life

[@QualityDoggo]

Like an oldschool vlogbrothers video? Sign me up!

[@ElfyBean]

When im having a bad brain day, it is so comforting to know that this is temporary.

[@book97addict]

I had a phone job interview for a potential first Big Girl Job and being someone who gets really anxious about: 1) phone calls 2) talking about myself 3) talking to strangers and 4) the future, it was perfect anxiety storm for me. Didn't sleep much leading up to it. But you have tapped into something here that feels kind of like healing. So thank you, John. And now I'm going to watch it again.

[@ihavespoken164]

‘One thing we know about the universe is that this is temporary.’ Attended a workshop on dealing with stress, the vlogbros videos helped me understand stuff that pre-vlogbros I wouldn’t fathom to get close to.. Thank you.✨ #dftba

[@fictionalhuman]

“This is temporary...” is both a comforting and terrifying acknowledgment of life. Thank you, as always, John.

[@frankynstein]

"this is temporary" is exactly what i needed to hear right now, though I fear the gremlins in my brain will find reasons to argue with that statement soon enough

[@sourgreendolly7685]

Keep arguing back 💕

[@isabellekenneke9370]

“This is temporary” I really needed this today, I’ve been super anxious about college applications and other school madness, it’s a good reminder to remember

[@melissagenoter5776]

I’ve been struggling with college apps a ton today too and this video was definitely comforting ... best of luck with school and applications you’ve got this!!

[@wuffles101]

Oh John, it looks like you're about to cry with that very last twitch of your lips... Mind you "everything is temporary" is both the most calming and the saddest thing ever... Hug !

[@alwaysyouramanda]

Did we just witness all five stages of grief?

[@AnneloesF]

Still the greatest wisdom, greatest joy, sorrow and comfort: 'This, too, shall pass.'

[@lauren8135]

"The only constant is change." -A t-shirt I saw one time.

[@shannonottarson9247]

On a day where my anxiety won, and i have spent the day in bed under the covers, i needed this reminder. Thanks John ❤

[@lizwink5909]

"You will be OK, because eventually we'll all die" is very on-brand for John.

[@RonnSnoww23]

Missed these types of videos!

[@wem3121]

*"If there is anything that we know about the universe is that this is temporary"* - John Green, 2019

[@wem3121]

it had 10likes then it became 9. *why*.

[@WintaAssefa]

"I know that I'm done growing up, but I hope that I'm not done growing" _DAYUUUMMM John_

[@purplefire2834]

John's videos about emotions and stuff are always oddly comforting.

[@emilywassell4489]

Sometimes when John smiles you can suddenly see the brotherly likeness of Hank in there :D they look pretty different but they have great smiles

[@blahblahblahblha303]

John, I know you have limited input into the myriad things that make the Looking For Alaska TV series exist, but I want you to know how overwhelmed with emotion I am just halfway through the first episode. From the first time I read the book in high school twelve years ago it's stuck with me, and the characters and school in the show are exactly how I pictured it. Thank you for the wonderful story.

[@dallasrover5515]

"I have a lot of feelings right now. Not really good feelings or bad feelings, just... A lot of them." Oof, you have just described my whole past week in a nutshell, man.

[@kshivika]

That's why we love John, for his genuineness

[@Lauryn-Woods]

watching this after school, during my senior year, during a very hard week of assignments, and it is comforting to know that it’s okay to have a lot of feelings and that other people have a lot of feelings too

[@brongulus2617]

You are among the most courageous people on the entire internet, and I just wanted to say how much I respect you for it.

[@NeirinElixir]

"It's actually not Tuesday, but it will be in the fullness of time." sounds like a line out of the Hitchhiker's Guide.

[@CogentCap]

John, you are so loved. Thank you for being, and for continuing to be. You are a hero for continually demonstrating how to be kind, and compassionate, and thoughtful, and sincere. I so appreciate your willingness to be both vulnerable and visible, and your remarkable skill in guiding attention to places where it does such good, and all while living your life and managing your brain AND being a rockstar author. Thank you for not hiding. Thank you for caring, and showing others how to care as well. Thank you for providing an example. The world is already better because of your influence. Bless you for ever and ever.

[@etharyasser]

I also have many feelings at the moment but the one that is always constant when i watch your videos is that i wanna give you a big hug and thank you for existing

[@its.dragaton]

"I know that I'm done growing up, but I hope that I'm not done growing." As someone who has been changing and "growing up" a lot for the past 2-3 years (I'm almost 21), this sentiment makes me happy. I really like growing. As a kid, I didn't want to grow up. But now that I am, I really love the feeling of "Wow, that used to bother me, and now it doesn't" and just general confidence in myself, not needing nearly as much validation from others as I used to. Seeing you as an actual adult talking about still growing is comforting... It seems that I, too, will never be done growing. And that's a good thing.

[@delaneyvanwey]

Holy CRAP I needed that right now in my life. My anxiety is not a character flaw. Thank you.

[@brionosullivan1992]

“When adulthood hit the cement of myself dried I would become this unchanging thing”. I really like that imagery.

[@dannythecheshirecat]

The title of this video alone was a mood and a half. John, thank you for the calmness that your voice brings me (ironicly). Thank you for your insight and commentary on life!!!

[@benjaminkelley9993]

I’m convinced that John moved to Indianapolis not because he was born there or for Sarah’s job but because of how nice the airport is

[@MrFirefox322]

i was crying by the end, too. thank you for this. i needed these reminders today.

[@tenpointstojules]

it’s a comforting thing to know people who you’d think “have life in the bag” are just as turbulent with their feelings as yourself. Just to know it’s regular means a lot. Thank you!

[@ariannawright7586]

The temporary quality of everything is actually very very comforting to me so, thank you for the "but" !

[@Jenn12141983]

Thank you for being open about your mental health struggles. As someone who has fought anxiety and depression for most of her life, it’s comforting to be reminded that I’m not alone.

[@aussiegecko1892]

"I like the current iteration of myself" Not sure if I heard it somewhere or just made it up myself but this is how I look at my ever shifting personality.

[@ClaireF_]

“This is temporary and I will be okay and so will you” my heart 💓 thank you John for your beautiful words that are always a comfort to me wherever I go and whatever I’m going through. I appreciate you and Hank so so much ❤️

[@shawnguy3317]

Why have I not heard about the “Let It Snow” movie, John!?

[@emilyhennessey8294]

Right?! I thought something happened with it because I've seen no promo on it. I think Netflix was just going hard on El Camino, and hopefully will soon put out a trailer.

[@iplaysdrums]

To be fair, you have now!

[@rachelfountain1052]

He talked about it in a video months ago, but that's all I've heard

[@hyackley]

Well, I don't know if he's mentioned lately but he's off the social internet (hahahahaha)

[@Molscheira]

Me too! It's a staple read come december for me. So excited to watch it!

[@CharmEng89]

as someone dealing with anxiety and trying to get to grips with the whole "my brain doesn't work like I want it to", this was nice to hear. it won't fix my anxiety. but it was nice to hear. From across the miles, thanks.

[@etudaire8111]

"I have a lot of feelings right now, not particularly good feelings or bad feelings - just a lot of feelings." it somehow makes perfect sense???

[@marifriggstad4344]

Right now I'm managing a truly awful and debilitating chronic pain flare-up, and the words "But this is temporary, and I will be okay and so will you" made me unexpectedly burst into tears. Thank you John.

[@ceciliapontes3397]

"If there's one thing we about the universe, it's that this is temporary". Realistic and I loved it.

[@coramcvey270]

It is so refreshing to see an established adult not only accept his anxiety, but still stutters over it. The fact that you kept in that moment after you couldn't find the "but" was the most powerful part of this video. I'm a senior in college and I have those "ahhh" moments everyday, and my MAD is also chronic, so thank you for maturely discussing it. It gives me a lot more hope than some famous people just admitting they have it or like you said joking about it, and I'm grateful you use your platform to talk about chronic mental illness

[@TheWorldmanOne]

A true inspiration in this depressing time. Thanks John for being a inspirational source.

[@OtakuAlice]

I would just like to thank you John, for being so open about your experiences with anxiety. For a while now, I've found a lot of value in listening to the evolution of your relationship with your brain. Everything from talking about how the 100 day fitness challenge helped your mental health as well as your physical health, to recently reading Turtles All The Way Down, and reminding myself that there is no winning this battle, only living with it. Listening to someone else change and evolve has sometimes been the motivation I needed to change myself. Thank you

[@UncannyDoge]

Been thinking a lot about how cement isn’t permanent either. This is temporary. 🖤

[@rikwisselink-bijker]

As Tom Scott likes to say: "This too shall pass", which is comforting to the down and buzzkill for the happy.

[@etudaire8111]

John your metaphors in this video are really well thought and creative!!

[@Walderro]

I legit cheered (alone in my room) when John said he was going to talk about his feelings. That's all I ever want

[@wogdog985]

“if there’s one thing we know about the universe, it’s that _this_ is temporary.” oh john, ever so existential. the quality content i’m here for!!

[@ivancasty9600]

I really appreciate hearing you talk about your anxiety so openly. I also have a ton of anxiety in my day to day life and it’s always felt like a huge handicap. Hearing someone I look up to and admire, talk about their experiences coping with similar issues gives me confidence and assurance that I can still achieve my goals, even when my self doubt tells me I can’t. Thanks John. I look forward to your return to the podcast.

[@bailymorgan1126]

“I have a lot of feelings right now.” Me too John, me too. Love this guy!

[@sorchaOtwo]

Thank you for sharing your feelings. There are times I glean insights into the feelings of my hubby who suffers from bipolar, depression and anxiety, from your videos. I wish desperately that there was a cure for him and others like him, but in the meantime, there's medication, understanding, and patience. And I'm always trying to learn more for his sake both from him and others, so that I, as his partner in life, can be more helpful to him in his times of need. Again, thanks John, for being candid and thereby helping me learn even more for his sake .

[@catherinetestaverde1907]

My version of "this is temporary" is "time will pass." Whether I want it to pass faster or slower, it will pass just the same as always. Whatever my anxiety is about, it will come to pass whether I am ready or not, and that has been very comforting in my darkest moments.

[@sourgreendolly7685]

Mine is “the only constant is change” It’s helped me a lot

[@celticgirl389]

John really does know just what to post when I need it. I am a freshman in college and had an anxiety attack during my debate practice, and I was just so embarrassed and ugh it was so bad. But at least at this moment I am reassured that my anxiety is not my fault, and hopefully i will feel that more and more as I grow.

[@rishikachutani2508]

Could I sense you almost breaking down at the end, John??

[@ameenahhhh]

Today was really, really tough for me mental-health wise, so that little bit at the end about anxiety (especially the lines "This is temporary. I will be okay and so will you.") was something I needed to hear. Thanks, John. I hope each coming day gets a little lighter for you, and for everyone.

[@jaboodi]

"Why did john put his masks on two random kids WAIT is that Henry and Alice? They're so big!!!!!"

[@piachersicola9438]

I"ve been here for the better part of 10 years, and somehow it still amazes me how you always find the right words to explain how I feel. It leaves me teary eyed and shocked. You have no idea of the amazing gift you give so many people. Feeling understood.

[@salmagamal5676]

Ahhh. The good old overwhelming/sweet John rants

[@hanaalohiya3910]

Every time John talks about his anxiety I feel so comforted that I'm not crazy. Turtles all the way down meant so much to me in feeling less alone. I'm usually a silent nerdfighter, but if you see this, thank you John.

[@rileythewizard]

I’m in the airport too on my way to LA watching this! So excited for the show!

[@naomis2]

Thank goodness each anxiety filled situation is only temporary. It’s a good reminder to have when I’m going through those deep lows and I have trouble seeing a way out.

[@Uebeltank]

"I'm Having a Lot of Feelings" >Me when I'm drunk.

[@ImaginethenorthNet]

What a lovely human you are John Green. Thank you for being you - even with the gnarly bits. We all have them and your courage in showing yours makes me feel less alone. Fellow anxiety sufferer.

[@emilyhennessey8294]

I am so excited for "Let it Snow." Also, if y'all haven't read Maureen Johnson's other books where have you been?

[@nikko_neko_]

1. It's crazy that there is no promo about the Let It Snow movie! 2. This video is kinda all over the place but I really appreciate the part about anxiety. Felt like me and many others needed to hear that. So thank you John!

[@meaigs]

Hey John, everything's going to be ok.

[@Danieldrylie]

Thank you for making this video. I had a bit of an epiphany a few weeks back when I had a panic attack during one of my classes. It wasn't related to anything in the class but just one of those random ones I tend to get occasionally. Afterwards, I felt ridiculous, like I had done something completely silly. When I articulated that to myself, it hit me. A panic attack is not something I do. I haven't done anything to be ashamed of. It is something that happens to me. There is nothing to be embarrassed about. Anyway, it was nice to hear someone else say it too. Thanks again.

[@mariewikiwaka3851]

If that was Alice and Henry behind the mustachioed masks then they are far too old. Henry is 4 and Alice is 1.

[@IguessImight]

marie wikiwaka nope factually both Henry and Alice are 1

[@johannaklug7280]

I didn't even consider the possibility that it could be them!

[@mariewikiwaka3851]

IguessImight Alice talking during the P4A last year was genuinely alarming. She’s too young to have acquired language.

[@N3rdfightermom]

John and Sarah asked Obama about baby names in February of 2013, so Alice has to be about 6.

[@mariewikiwaka3851]

Alissa Frederick Nope. It’s 2015.

[@maddykae4415]

John I really appreciate when you talk about your anxiety. It is comforting to have that feeling put to words. Thanks for continuing to make stuff.

[@vicyoung2196]

So happy to see an old school vlogbrothers video. DFTBA

[@ceeb420]

Just finished watching the show and I cried a lot in the last three episodes. Great adaptation, well worth the wait. I'm glad they went with a mini-series, because it let the characters breathe and develop in a deeper way than a 2 hour movie could have. Kudos, John. Thank you for everything.

[@vinicius99157]

"I really want to have a 'but' at the end of that sentence, except I really don't have one right now" me: oh :/ "Alright, I got one" me: yeah! "This is temporary" me: yeaah!! [...] "if there is one thing we know about the universe, is that this is temporary" me: oh... oh wow... oh shit

[@Kaihne]

I struggle regularly with anxiety and depression - I've REALLY been struggling with it tonight, after a set-back in some of my long-term goals. Videos like this keep me going. I regularly feel like I'm a total piece of crap and won't be able to accomplish what I want to. But seeing that wonderful, amazing, unquestionably awesome people like you also feel that way makes me hope I don't suck quite as much as I think I do.