I Made Myself Blind: Living With BIID

I Made Myself Blind: Living With BIID
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FOR most people becoming blind would be a living nightmare - but for Jewel Shuping it was the fulfilment of a lifelong dream. Jewel, 30, from North Carolina, USA, has Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), a condition in which able-bodied people believe they are meant to be disabled. Her need to lose her sight was so strong that in 2006 she decided to blind herself - by having a sympathetic psychologist pour DRAIN CLEANER into her eyes. As a young child she would spend hours staring at the sun in a bid to damage her eyes, acquiring her first white cane aged 18 and becoming fully fluent in braille by the age of 20. Tired of being secretive due to the stigma surrounding the condition, Jewel is now sharing her story to help raise public awareness of BIID and to encourage people with the condition to seek professional help.
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[@LechLecha893]

That therapist needs to lose his license. His actions are beyond unethical and crosses into pathological.

[@907john316]

DrPeri his job was to keep her safe this is self harm what kind of life will she live now

[@mellowmaddyasmrr]

DrPeri I was thinking the same thing lmao. I mean really, there must have been a better more ethical way to go about the process

[@grace-ellenk5879]

I seriously doubt he was a "real" or liscened psychologist/therapist. Likely just a delusional and disturbed person like herself. It's really sad how sick they both are.

[@unovasfinest2623]

Or we could not let people maim themselves...

[@bawkbawk5789]

She didn’t do any real research on the therapist and she trusted him even though she did no actual research

[@MollyBurkeOfficial]

I went blind at 14 due to a rare eye disease and it's the hardest thing I've ever been through. I nearly took my own life because it was such a difficult adjustment and something I'd never wish on anyone. I find this absolutely offensive and don't understand how anyone in the blind community could be accepting of her choice... This is just shocking and I feel it just takes away from the hardships of going blind for those of us who don't choose this life.

[@MollyBurkeOfficial]

+jeff deers Wow, you are beyond ignorant. Don't assume you know everything about the blind community from watching one video of someone who does not represent what being blind is. I have a disease called Retinitis Pigmentosa, my gene deformity is Tulp1. I've been going to SickKids Hospital every since I was 6 months old. I'd really love to hear what you think "looking blind" is? In answering this, try not to fill it with stereotypes like "closed eyes" or "glassy / hazed eyes" - yes, SOME blind people look that way, but majority of us don't, especially when you've lost vision later in life. I was sighted for 14 years, I'm not just going to randomly start closing my eyes now, my bodies instinct is to keep them open and look around, even if I'm not seeing anything. I can tell you that as a person who is blind, the LAST thing we want in life is sympathy. I want others to understand what I go through on a daily basis and respect me for it, but no, I do not want your sympathy or pity. At 21 I live a successful and fulfilling life. I've written a book, I host a TV show, I travel the world as a motivational speaker. I've worked with people like Macklemore, Demi Lovato, Magic Johnson, Martin Luther King III, and companies like MTV, Dove and Clean and Clear. I write blogs and make KZbin videos to continue to educate the world on what living with a disability is really like, and how people that it doesn't have to stop you from living a "normal" happy life. Try educating yourself before making a rude and judgment comment.

[@dianaa.1735]

+jeff deers All blind people don't "look blind" or have deformed or missing eyes. They don't all go around with their eyes closed or wearing sunglasses either, dude!

[@MollyBurkeOfficial]

+Diana A. Amen to that girl!

[@MollyBurkeOfficial]

+Abdul Rahman Yasin aww! hahah thank you :)

[@ruben8774]

+Molly Burke This question may sound stupid to you, but I would like to know how do you use the Internet? Do you have a friend helping you, or you are using special applications for blind people?

[@JulieGraceImmink]

I am now diagnosing myself as normal

[@dansmith16]

Bigot

[@Brittoxo]

Same lol 😂

[@Andy_0L]

Pretty sure you are not, lol

[@tandysaysyoucandoanything6758]

As a psychologist, that is my worst nightmare. I WOULD NOT do that to a patient nor endorse such behavior.

[@pratikpatra8096]

But every single day many gender affirming psychologists are endorsing such behaviors and instead of tackling and addressing the dysphoria that people are facing, they are rather just prescribing surgeries and hormone therapies. This is pretty commonplace, so why not do the same for BIID?

[@pratikpatra8096]

After what a person feels is much more important than what the truth is. So.

[@punishedgloyperstormtroope8098]

Why is this any different to a sex change which most modern psychiatrists support?

[@Rebecca_Bailey]

I watched the Dr Phil episode and the ‘psychologist’ who did it wasn’t licensed, he had his license revoked 11 years before she saw him

[@amitchkrabarty05]

This psychologist guy wasn't even a psychologist, but probably a random devil guy from a Darknet website ......... he did have some knowledge of psychology however, which he misused it to drive herself in actualizing it

[@janayah7070]

Literally my biggest fear is going blind

[@toxiccan175]

So many people would give everything to have sight and yet she takes her own. The amount of entitlement and stupidity.

[@healthfacts8860]

Right

[@Ally-ke6yx]

Jenny Jenny same honestly

[@dmitryshlomov9273]

RIGHT! I'm blind in my left eye. So when I saw this video I lost my mind. Obviously she has a mental disorder. It blows my mind that everybody just agreed and shrugged off her decision. just like wow!!!

[@mattrob6446]

Frfr that and going to hell... Which is being blind

[@zoe9632]

The psychologist who assisted her to go blind, should be deregistered & liable. She should not be able to claim welfare or any disability support!!!

[@mollyoxy]

By SJW logic he did the right thing...

[@ev7985]

In my view she should, she's clearly mentally ill. But yes, that shrink needs serious consequences. I'm sure in his mind he thought he was helping her, I'm familiar with stories like this, but I don't know if I've heard of mental health professionals agreeing to participate before. He must have realized he was at high risk of losing his license at the minimum, by doing so. I have compassion for her, I'm not angry about it, I just regret she felt this uncontrollable desire to do what she did. I don't know if there was any treatment that would have worked to change her mindset. I understand people's reaction to this, but this kind of situation is extraordinarily rare. Im fine with her getting SSI or SSDI for it, even though she did it to herself in this supremely odd case. This is just a sad situation all the way around. I know she feels "happier" now, and I believe that she is. It's just an extremely rare, bizarre, and poorly understood phenomenon.

[@karenallen938]

You are absolutely correct in your statements! I knew a young woman who tried to get disability, due to mental illness. She was denied. She had a club foot, but was entirely mobile. She found a doctor that did an amputation, below the knee. It was an ELECTIVE surgery, at 27 yrs old. She had been told that, later in life, she might have to have another corrective surgery. Guess who now gets disability... Be blessed, Rebecca, today and always!

[@cartoonhoodie131]

rebecca The psychologist needs to go to jail She is disabled both mentally and now physically

[@luval3506]

rebecca the psychologist did nothing wrong. ITS THEIR JOB to help. There are psychologist out there who help people get rid of their patient’s arms, legs, or anything else because that’s what the patients feels is the right thing to do.

[@dabneyscholler8495]

This is insane. If she wanted to be blind, I know several people, including my mother, who would gladly trade places with her. It's not like blind people can decide to see.

[@offthegoldstandard]

I'd guess she would have gladly traded places with someone who wasn't being driven insane by this bizarre desire

[@sheilaselengomez]

@Blueness1230 im sorry, but what is gender dysphoria?

[@captainusopp6349]

The same way your mom didn’t choose to be blind this woman didn’t choose to be mentally ill. That’s a poor equivalency

[@dabneyscholler8495]

@angelicacline4160 Thank you. Unfortunately, for her disease there isn't anything they can do. She makes the most of life though 😃

[@YourMomIsHere8008]

​@isaacshub2251 bizarre desire?? I think you mean lack of restraint.

[@macance]

I don't know... does anyone else have a hard time believing that she is actually happy?

[@katesmortimer]

'A sympathetic psychologist poured drain cleaner into her eyes' I hope that person lost their job!!!!! What sort of professional does that??

[@hampstershat123]

+Katie Mortimer It's like going to a psychologist with suicidal depression and having them kill you.

[@broman260]

+Luca Fuoco 2edgy4me

[@treedirt10000]

+Katie Mortimer - They need to lose their license all together.

[@TheRandomguy06]

+Luca Fuoco That is a legitamite thing that is done professionaly by medical doctors this is different

[@ICEGTN]

Explain how it's different please.

[@jessicawatson7360]

The worst part is that a psychologist ‘helped’ her.

[@moonheart889]

Psychologist.....

[@2kwimp]

🤦🏽‍♂️

[@trawrtster6097]

That's the only cure for BIID. Anti depressants and therapy don't help.

[@shanninsimms7722]

Yes like thats whats really making alarm bells go off to me

[@crestfallenwarrior8435]

@@trawrtster6097 Well that should be the only option. It's all in their head. It's not a real thing. We need to stop making names for these things. Psychiatrists are evil.

[@CookieGoofy]

I'm super late to this video but I just remembered it out of the blue and decided to rewatch it and comment about my own experiences with sight, because my god this actually makes me so upset now. I was born with really messed up eyes. I'm legally blind with glasses and totally blind in my right eye. I have chronic eye pain and straining my eyes just to experience the world is a daily thing, but the most painful realization I've ever had to come to is knowing it's going to get worse. I know that one day this is going to be gone. I didn't confront that for the first 14 years of my life even though I knew, I was in denial, but ever since I confronted that I've developed so much anxiety about my sight. It's this cycle over and over again of being convinced that something's wrong, and this is clearly the sign that total blindness is just moments away. It'll be like that until the day it's gone, so seeing this woman willingly throw away something I desperately wish I had: stable, clear eyesight. That upsets me, and clearly upsets not only people from the blind community but the BIID community too. Really disturbing to watch this lady take away what I consider a privilege, and watch everyone be cool with it. This woman needed some actual help, not the clowns in this that enabled her beyond return.

[@LaraAlmeidaR]

While I completely understand and acknowledge your pain, it will make you feel better if you think that it literally changes nothing about your eyesight the fact that this woman had a mental illness that made her brain not recognize her eyesight as her own and she decided to take it away. Although you feel the desire to compare, there’s no correlation between her case and yours. I know you wanted to see forever, but she didn’t. The same dying desire you have to see, she had for not seeing. It sounds insane, and it does because it is. This out of insanity. She has a MENTAL ILLNESS! She can’t help it. It would be great if we could switch positions to obtain what people don’t want. It would be great for people who can’t conceive and desperately want to to switch places with someone who can but chose not to. But that’s not real life. Thus nobody is judging those who decided to not have kids. Because it changes nothing in the lives of those who are unable to have! This woman’s case is even worse, though, since it stems from a very peculiar disorder that she surely didn’t choose to be born with.

[@melissaslutter4146]

Omg! I'm also legally blind with glasses and completely blind in my right eye. Its hard enough. Going completely blind in both eyes is my biggest fear and I would not wish this on my worst enemy

[@ipshitamishra7803]

I can't even imagine how offended you must be feeling. I'm so very sorry that you have to go through this pain. I send you love and prayers

[@joshtayz167]

I'm angry because I am visually impaired and we are busy crying out here to see well, BUT here some are blessed to take away their sight. Who does that. She is not grateful. It is wrong what she did

[@trawrtster6097]

That’s like complaining about someone who can have children getting sterilized on their own accord or choosing not to have kids because there are some people who want to have kids but can’t. It’s not as if this woman seeing would make people un-blind

[@ryanrocha5981]

She has a disorder

[@lostwsbf]

​​are you some kind of idiot? Holy crap

[@joshuasnell7942]

No offense, but I think when someone has reached such desperation that they're pouring drain cleaner into their own sockets, their blindness was approximately as unavoidable as yours

[@I_leave_mean_comments]

That "psychiatrist" that helped blind a healthy woman needs to go to prison.

[@mack7963]

yep

[@waddie96]

I wouldn't say go to prison but lose his/her medical license!

[@mack7963]

Liam W. or eyes, take their eyes away, see if they continue to give the same crappy advice that caused another "i am so desperate to be different" idot to voluntarily blind themselves and then make em live together.

[@anitabonghit2758]

Zeet i guess they dont take the hypocratic oath

[@jktea5323]

Zeet Craigslist psychiatrist

[@darkwingduke1631]

Let this soak in, a doctor who is supposed to help prevent insanity and self harm... promoted insanity and self harm

[@sharky322]

Correction: he promoted treatment to her problem.

[@strawberryshortcake8382]

He denies ever knowing her

[@Danimal77]

Treatment? So if a client of mine came in and said they really felt like they are meant to be dead, your definition of "treatment" is for me to assist them in killing themselves? This woman was suffering from a MENTAL disorder, NOT a physical one. The psychologist should be stripped of their license and put in jail.

[@Dagger_323]

sharky322 correction: you’re an idiot.

[@meganmichaels9510]

he only worked with her for two weeks. Two weeks. And then he blinded her with his own hands. He deserves jail time

[@indulekhamoore3373]

This makes me feel physically sick. We're being encouraged to accept that things like this are something we should understand. It's beyond belief that a psychologist did this to her.

[@Artichokehead44]

My brother is blind and talks about how much he wishes he wasn’t, the fact that she made herself blind, and is getting support from people is disgusting

[@anthonyhauser3467]

SHE WAS GIVEN THE GIFT OF SIGHT AND SHE TOOK IT AWAY

[@kaylacolgan]

Not only that, but she took it for granted. How sad. :/

[@veritaskairos9466]

Your only saying that because it's something that works for you but imagine if something didn't feel right to you but you just had to "deal with it"

[@well3034]

Adviel Lopez Do you know How many People in the Blind community Who actually Needs eyesight, But they couldn't do anything, If I Bring it to an Actual Blind, He would felt broken, But Not, I'm not gonna Do that, I'm not Gonna add up his Misery.

[@himesilva]

There are people who want children that will never be able to. There are people who are able to have children that choose not to. Are they taking their fertility for granted?

[@antonialazar9876]

That's true, but said people who choose not to have children don't normally mutilate their own reproductive organs in order to achieve their goal

[@mb-xx7tv]

damn she couldve just closed her eyes

[@glowshot30]

lol

[@LilYungOwlGod]

😂😂😂😂

[@hahahaha-oi2jm]

Madison Buczkowski this should be top comment lol

[@8213apice]

Very true

[@emyiahall7760]

Madison Buczkowski sure could have

[@sida_risa]

That "therapist" must rot in the darkest prison for this. What a disgusting criminal. There are truly horrendous persons out there.

[@Jhonjgh98]

She had absolutely beautiful blue eyes

[@ryanrocha5981]

But not a beautiful brain. Lol 😢

[@claytonarianagrande4945]

“It didn’t feel like a choice” *pours drain cleaner in eye*

[@an_ge_lo]

*me making bad choices tbh* "iT wAsN't A cHoIcE"

[@luisalbertoarenasaraya4579]

Agree

[@maxeezy7203]

uwu aesthetic lmao she did it, it’s her fault. no hate though it’s her body she can do what she wants with it

[@eeemms]

@@maxeezy7203 it was her therapist/psychologist who pored rhe drain cleaner in her eyes and supported her

[@chloedassler6156]

😂🤣

[@phoenixsnilloc995]

“Im Going Blind, It’s Gonna Be Okay.” *_NO IT’S NOT_*

[@rokuplas]

Phoenix Snilloc as soon as she said that I saw the comment

[@reylol3853]

Phoenix Snilloc lol its rlly not shes crazy

[@ladypain2332]

She was literally saying this at the exact same time i read this

[@randomuploadsism]

2 sentences never put together before

[@alreawon1212]

@Sgrp270 Hmm, so it's the same like with guys who want to become a girl, they just remove a 3rd leg growing on them because they feel it doesn't belong to them and they should be born as a girl. Just like this woman thinks she should've been born blind. But what's interesting, why one is legal but the other not?

[@ameliab324]

I can't believe it, between the ages of 8 and maybe 11 I was so so afraid that I'd turn blind someday, and it's so uncomfortable for me to listen to what this woman did to herself. I get that she is sick, but it doesn't mean that she should get more 'sick' to treat it. If putting drain cleaner in my eyes would somehow cure my OCD, I still wouldn't do it, and that's the line between having a condition and being unable to think straight.

[@LVL60Beltran]

Thank god she can’t read the comments

[@somnuswaltz5586]

Uhh actually she could if she wants to, with simple accessibility tools and apps available

[@cannedstarfish6194]

She actually reads them, under this video. I've actually seen her reply.

[@trevor3013]

I cant believe somebody helped her do this.

[@frenchmoxie]

Trevor Olague Well really, the “therapist” was just present in the room while she put the drops in her eyes, right?

[@tanyajanat]

@@frenchmoxie no,he put it in for her.

[@GeminiLeo6]

😱😱😱😱oh my god is she crazy my son is partially sighted due to a brain tumour and he would do anything to be able to see from both eyes. What is she thinking 🙀😱😱

[@beautyfromashes.998]

Me too I’m shocked 😱 Is not against the law?

[@fernandocuriel124]

Trevor Olague Why not? Some people ask for help to cut off their genitalia’s or transition to the opposite sex. 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣😆😆😆HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

[@livimccollum4288]

How in the world is this “inspiring”???

[@matthewmcalister2165]

Did anyone say that it is? Serious question, given the mind of some I wouldn’t be surprised, just I haven’t seen it.

[@livimccollum4288]

Matthew McAlister yeah I think that one of her blind friends says that she is an inspiration to her. It is towards the end of the video I think.

[@halimak625]

She needs psychiatric care how dare she purposely destroy the eyes God gave her, she will reap what she has sown!

[@haleypierce82793]

Exactly its awful. She should have gotten help

[@PrincessofKeys]

Idk to make people think before they go through with it and seek help for their disorder?

[@lindasmith1493]

Its definitely hard to understand her perspective. I'm lost some of my vision and hate not seeing the beauty that can easily be taken for granted. Like seeing a night sky full of stars. Can't see them like I used to. To me, having good eyesight is a gift.

[@RiveryJerald]

first stages are denial, this woman is absolutely crazy.

[@corleeshataylor3734]

She out here blinding herself and children born blind are crying everyday to see🤦🏾‍♀️

[@nikkiwikki73]

Actually, kids who are born blind are able to adjust pretty easily, and literally don’t even comprehend what seeing even is. The real tragedy are the individuals who go blind after years of being able to see 😢.

[@ghostytoasty9269]

uwu aesthetic you mean dysphoria?

[@LCDreams2600]

@@ghostytoasty9269 Dysphoria and dysmorphia aren't the same things!

[@ghostytoasty9269]

xeclipseax I know that. I was asking if uwu aesthetic meant to say dysphoria

[@LCDreams2600]

@@ghostytoasty9269 That's what I'm telling you. Dysphoria is about trans, and dysmorphia about eating disorder, other mental ilnesses that alternate the way you see your body, so i'm pretty sure that is what she was talking about

[@elegxntartist8830]

i hate it so much when she said *being blind was definitely a hard decision to make*

[@michaelw7385]

Ya because of some people having no choice about going blind it is just quite disturbing (what she is doing to herself)

[@cartoonhoodie131]

IVy c: It’s probably was tough. Her strong desire for it could be due to BIID. This compulsion led her to disabling herself. She knew it was wrong which is why it was tough

[@jokertheservicecat818]

Flaming Female Gamer BIID is not a real disability or problem it's seeking for attention

[@cartoonhoodie131]

Autism Service cat You’re very ignorant.

[@michaelw7385]

@@cartoonhoodie131 True True

[@NativeWarrior88]

The psychologist who put drain cleaner in your eyes needs his/her license revoked permanently! That is the most vile thing I have ever heard of a medical professional taking part in!

[@reisetyler]

Could she not have just kept her eyes closed and wore blackout glasses

[@f1nn15]

If you’re gonna blind yourself at least clean them crusty eyes

[@Thanasis_Koligliatis]

twntyoneshields You're an idiot

[@panickingchemicalpiltsatth3752]

Clikkie?

[@lialaura8140]

Thats all what I thought while watching this

[@38gwapoo]

Thanasis Koligliatis and your a dumbass

[@leozennelton4326]

Exactly 😂

[@xtaxta3u]

Why her psychologist didnt advice her to donate her eyes instead of doing this

[@mnicholls]

Wait u can donate your eyes?

[@xtaxta3u]

Meggy mushroom yes you can if it is working normally you can donate your cornea

[@mnicholls]

@@xtaxta3u oh cool! I didn't know you could did that's. That's qiute interesting

[@TheChastity1986]

I saw her on dr Phil, he wasn’t licensed. This isn’t telling the full story. It was basically some guy pretending to be a dr. What a moron she is.

[@mendmywings7238]

I doubt it would've been legal given that she's not dead and has nothing (physically) wrong which would require the removal of her eyes. And that would be causing harm for no reason. I have no idea though. I'm just guessing. Although personally I think that is a rather good solution. She'd have anaesthetic, and someone more appreciative of vision could enjoy them. Make two lives better x

[@nics5395]

This is crazy. I can't believe a psychologist helped her do this. If she ever asks someone what something looks like, they shouldn't answer, because that's what she wanted.

[@ElfHostage]

Why stop there? She should not get disability checks too.

[@davidcox8582]

@@ElfHostage Wrong.

[@CreeperG0d]

When I was a young child, I was introverted and didn't like talking. I sometimes wished I was mute, so I had an excuse to not talk with people. I never made myself mute, and it would be a disadvantage to be.

[@Speedcuber6969]

Imagine going to a psychologist saying "I wanna be skinny" and then helping them be anorexic.

[@noemibenitez8074]

yes that happened to one of my cousin sadly

[@dejaa736]

@@noemibenitez8074 girl WHAT

[@amogus787]

@@noemibenitez8074 what?!?! That’s a horrible psychologist. I’m so sorry for you/your family and your cousin.

[@candy-ninja]

@@noemibenitez8074 God, I'm sorry

[@anonymoususer3888]

@noemi thats horrible :( I hope she's doing okay now and that the psychologist got fired

[@evedwa]

She must have predicted bird box

[@KT-po7rp]

😂😂😂😂 I am dying laughing

[@joncampos5551]

Aw snap! LMAO!

[@PurposeDriven77]

LOL HAHA

[@lisalee3837]

😂😂😂😂

[@zariahrawlinson2710]

😫😂😂😂😂

[@junezhang6267]

While I definitely can’t relate to her feeling of intentionally going blind, but since clearly she had a psychological disorder and she is not actually affecting anyone, I think some comments are way too harsh. I mean she’s not persuading people who doesn’t has that disorder to blind themselves; she’s only trying to help (in some ways) people who is in the same situation as her.

[@africanawang2674]

I wish her well. Mental illness should never attract judgment. She was once a little innocent baby girl. I hope she finds peace.

[@real.anameria1927]

If I went blind I think I would get a panic attack every single day.

[@PseudoShork]

Same

[@lillyblack1213]

Real.anameria I was born blind and it feels like you have a panic attack every day and you just want to open your eyes when you do you just see black

[@camille2ls]

Lilly Black how are you able to type this??

[@makemecry6604]

Lilly Black if you’re born blind and don’t know what seeing is like why are you afraid because you can’t see? Usually you have to had sight before to be afraid like that

[@makemecry6604]

CamilleNo vocal command on iPhone you say your text out loud and it types, or when you hit keys a voice says what is the key

[@juniorhasbigears]

"Does this affect our friendship?" "No, i think its very inspiring, your positively contributing to the blind community" Stop. Just stop.

[@umok8433]

SHE IS NOT CONTRIBUTING TO THE BLIND COMMUNITY AT ALL.

[@NYGamer90]

She's insulting them instead

[@roccosaladino7414]

Lolol

[@Silvia.Araujo]

🔊FAKE FRIEND ALERT FAKE FRIEND ALERT🕪

[@swag9587]

She is insulting them because 99% of them didn't want to be blind and would be mad that she took her own sight that they wished they had

[@Anonymous13448]

lots of correlations can be drawn with another fashionable mental disorder...

[@TheTrashAccount]

Truly builds this videos as positive. They show clips how her talking about her life is better, they use a psychologist that says people should do it if it makes them happy. They use her friend that call her an inspiration. They have her blind friends say that there is no resentment. Then, at the end of the video, they quickly say that people shouldn’t do it. This video may encourage people to do something similar to themselves instead of seeking help. Despicable. I hope Truly will pay for the damage this video will cause.

[@generalmadness6832]

This is awful she is not free she needs a therapist her eyes probably always hurt now they are always twitching in this video she is severely mentally ill and will never be able to live by herself and do things for herself because she took her own vision probably the greatest sense ever.

[@ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww]

did she lose the feeling around her eyes too? how does she not feel the need to get rid of those eye boogers?

[@kera8462]

rat ikr

[@sara-fk1bk]

IKR, i'm so triggered! 😡😔

[@philomenasherlock4550]

It looks like an infection in her eye , I’m so triggered rn

[@Thanasis_Koligliatis]

@rat You're an idiot

[@jademekhi7471]

rat im SCREAMING 😭😭😭!! but like honestly

[@veggie9067]

Psychologist: **agrees to help her go blind** Psychologist: **helps her go blind** Psychologist: **makes her go blind** Psychologist: **takes to hospital to try and fix her eyes** Me: worst psychologist *EVER*

[@laurenalarie7841]

Smh...

[@fernandocuriel124]

Fortnite Gameplay Videos even those psychologists that choose or decide some children should go to sex reassignment and put them on puberty blockers. 😮😮😮😮😮

[@brian-us6vw]

@@Sucksucksuck666 I agree this is malpractice ... but the doctor says "if they dont do it, they might commit suicide or do something drastic or live a life of pain." I n the doctors opinion ... thats worth a few eyes .... :|

[@salinas9441]

Also Psychologist: It is not disorder being a homosexual and it is completely normal.

[@brian-us6vw]

@@salinas9441 An@l s3x isn't same as mutilation and cutting off limbs or parts that you feel it doesn't belong , I think that's important

[@gardensbytheminute2668]

The psychologist needs to be arrested

[@daisysdaily]

I’m glad she realizes she was crazy to do what she did and sending a message to others to not do what she did.

[@StephanieYoungChannl]

What kind of psychologist would participate in helping this woman harm herself?

[@RayTC]

a fake one. he didnt have a license.

[@livefree1030]

The same kind of Psychologist that chopped the penis off of a 22 month old twin boys to prove his study of "gender is a social construct". His name was John Money.

[@kerstinnilsson9968]

He wasn’t licensed. It was proven on the Dr. Phil show

[@skywise8]

@@livefree1030 he didn't chop the penis off anybody. the infant's penis was was removed during a botched circumcision. Money then convinced the parents that sex reassignment surgery was necessary. the whole story is very tragic.

[@Shotgun467]

Wait could one donate eyes?

[@badtheoriginal4713]

That chick really said "I've seen enough"

[@vinnym5607]

Underrated.

[@didi3016]

I should not be laughing 😁

[@mrhawkemdownnn]

😂

[@winzyl9546]

Far from a chick

[@junkoenoshima2500]

Why am I laughing

[@malav_patel]

Bro what , I’m speechless idc what mental or physical disorder you have , don’t take out your eyes they are literally priceless.

[@sida_risa]

@malav_patel She never did. She just burned them. Pay attention.

[@groominator-magneticequato7195]

Wow, I’m so glad I happened upon this. Thank you for sharing your story. We’re a species able to explore profoundly our sense of being and change/evolve in ways never seen. 🙏🏻

[@zlarb]

I lost so many brain cells after watching this that I might have to redo grade school.

[@alinasperception]

Me too.

[@jakob3115]

it's a mental disorder, it's not like she's at fault for being like this

[@germanshepard4656]

no its not

[@re_i_gn]

So... You can't handle the reality that there are millions of people living with extreme mental disorders? Yeah I think it would be a good idea for you to go back to grade school.

[@IGleeker]

German Shepard yes it is, sometimes people’s brains feel the urge to cut off a leg or an arm

[@nours4332]

She literally took away her own sight. Something people would die to have.

[@princesykkuno5295]

It's a condition, she felt obligated to do it. It's unfortunate but it is what it is.

[@roxannemua9350]

she has a mental disorder shes obviously not right mentally its very sad and tragic. I wish she got help maybe she would not have done this she obviously some type of psychosomatic condition

[@viperlife914]

@@roxannemua9350 i have no remorse for her

[@jerryberonilla3953]

Nour S But she has BIID so it’s not really her fault

[@chelseamuusha6949]

It is what it is, many people are not greatful for what they have and at the end it's about how you feel and what you know in your gut is what it is

[@jaymevdwesthuizen7744]

Imagine condoning mental illnesses instead of trying to help people

[@shadowmomochiuchiha6839]

as a person who isint blind i am offended on the behalf of people who are actually blind or suffer from a disorder. society has taught people to fake or cause diseases for attention those people that support her make it worse

[@Leelz247]

But she DOES have a disorder. It's called Body Identity Integrity Disorder (BIID). It is psychological, and it is her disorder that caused her blindness. Kind of how other mental disorders can cause bodily harm, like how depression causes cutting or suicide. Yes, there is some choice involved, but it is a choice by someone who has lost self control due to mental illness.

[@hafsafarah]

@@Leelz247 but this is wrong and being bluind is not the solution

[@chrisbedwards]

"I don't think I'm crazy" - Crazy people

[@RoccosVideos]

I worked in psych for years. The people that didn’t think they were crazy were always the ones that were completely insane. Anyone who is aware they might be crazy has a much better prognosis.

[@maqqrolol]

Chris Edwards 700th Like!

[@noneofurbusiness4821]

Chris Edwards the voices in my head told me that You are the crazy one

[@bighams710]

She will literally never read this comment lol

[@4ktwhoyouhate950]

😭😭

[@SweetBlackSistah]

😂😂😂 omg

[@A.dollyy]

Big Hams 🤣🤣

[@purpleglitterladette]

🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@ceebee9633]

Big Hams There’s technology that allows blind people to read content online, she can easily read your comment.

[@simonak9769]

I don't get why she simply didn't keep her eyes covered the whole time, if she wanted it to much...

[@joshuahendrickson4854]

I am totally blind and I don’t know why anyone would think this person is inspiring in any way. I’ve been blind since the age of 15 months, so being blind isn’t nearly as bad as someone who has lost their vision later in life. However, you don’t in anyway make yourself blind. The one thing I don’t like about being blind, is not being able to drive. This person would have to rely on others for all kinds of help. She’d have to learn things like braille,eascreen readers like jaws and so much more. I don’t know how this person would ever be happy again. How could anyone in the blind community take herseriously!

[@jennifersanchez8152]

you could donate your corneas instead of ruining them since someone wants to see. I hope this woman gets help from a real psychologist.

[@brycewakefield6565]

jennifer sanchez what doctors can reattach eyes like in minority report?

[@jennifersanchez8152]

@@brycewakefield6565 your cornea is apart of your eyes that allow you to see. Eyeball transplants do not exist. Like I said in my comment, corneas, not eyeballs.

[@brycewakefield6565]

jennifer sanchez eye ball transplant should exist

[@jsmith2678]

Omg. This is unbelievable.

[@Aceandthehounds]

Not off of a living person. You can’t legally donate your heart or any organs you need to use while you’re alive. You can donate a liver because it germinates back and one kidney because you have two but even then it’s can be so traumatic of a change for the body that it alters your life a lot. Taking someone’s eyesight would be considered assistance in self harm.

[@lexilei191]

I'm horrified. I had my eye removed 2 years ago after years of problems. The vision in my other eye is 20/800 with glasses. I miss my vision. And do NOT find this woman inspiring in the least.

[@medaendriekute3014]

A Brighter Star I feel so sorry for you

[@tillialee]

Sorry for your eyes

[@tillialee]

💔

[@jul2447]

Damn,I respect you fot being strong all this time. I hope that you will continue having a great life

[@vandaangellozzi1990]

Yes, she makes me sick too.

[@whatdoinamethischannel9749]

My eyes are getting worse everyday especially my left one, they've become so light sensitive that I can't drive without special glasses, mainly transition lenses, but this woman with perfect vision just decides to blind herself and everytime I see this video I get so angry and hope that she regrets her decision

[@taga-long5697]

I need transitions too! I have total blindness in my right eye, and my left has color and light perception. Sucks that I'm light sensitive.

[@yanderchan1850]

Be careful guys, she might read the comments and get mad

[@Cathee.M.]

What kind of a 'psychologist' would help somebody BLIND themselves??? That man needs to go to jail, he's screwed up worse than she is.

[@MrAndor982]

She would have done it anyway

[@magical571]

not necessarily; it takes some real commitment to do it yourself. same as with suicide, hence why many people try it or think about it but don't go through with it,

[@bonniehandsoncote]

Morganna it's beyond malpractice

[@well3034]

IKR, I Mean, He's a Professional, If he Couldn't Make her stop to Be Blind, Then He could've Make her donate her Eyes to someone who needs it.

[@yanderechan4209]

Morganna I don’t blame him it’s her fault

[@TheMimiandbb]

The fact that a *psychologist* was okay with this and *helped* her is absolutely unethical and that psychologist needs to lose their license

[@emilycathcart7387]

I agree. Very unethical and very disturbing.

[@trawrtster6097]

There is little scientific literature on this condition, but antidepressants and therapy don't work for BIID. The only cure is for that person to have their body part or function removed. To people with BIID, their particular body part or function feels foreign and causes significant distress. Based on limited data and patient experience, I think the psychologist has made the right decision here.

[@MLGRDR]

@@trawrtster6097 WHAT

[@trawrtster6097]

@@MLGRDR Seriously, look it up. The only way to alleviate their distress for good is to have their body part or function removed.

[@theangriestcatintheworld]

If he ever had one to begin with. Lovely professional behaviour, that. Quite unethical I would imagine.

[@lafidala.1726]

I have no understanding for this. The therapist who helped her should be sued. I am more than happy to finance disabled people's health issues with my taxes but NOT when someone deliberately ruins their body just for the heck of ruining their body (excluding suicide attempts and self-harm). However, as long as she pays all her medical expenses on her own along with all the other expenses her new way of living calls for I couldn't care less.

[@tuktuk1959]

"BIID" as an African I have never ever heard of something that's even close to this....

[@Kobemane]

"I am not crazy, I just think that I have a disorder" Yeah that disorder is called being crazy

[@Pandamor]

She does have one

[@Wizonah]

paola ivanova I have many disorders this is just being crazy

[@Wizonah]

XXX_unknown_ XXX look at what I said to the other guy that agreed

[@newdecada]

@@87rosepink because all of these things are disorders?... i dont think schizophrenics feel comfortable in their bodies and heads...

[@angienagtalon9691]

it's called xenomelia/body integrity identity disorder

[@GummyBearRecords]

People are getting stupider by the minute

[@thundercatvstheworld1855]

Ikr like what next i identified as a dishwasher

[@suziealfie5972]

GummyBearRecords ikr I was thinking that

[@JC_RW11]

@@arielm1374 Stupider is a word. You are embarrassing yourself buddy

[@Kittra.kaibyo]

@@JC_RW11 Honestly that's what I was thinking...

[@JC_RW11]

@@Kittra.kaibyo They deleted their comment so I guess they realized they were wrong 😆

[@littlebirdling238]

A psychologist who does that should be jailed for decades!

[@aaryapanse5851]

This is so offensive to ppl who are blind and would die to get to see again.

[@stingy7101]

As someone who has terrible eyesight this infuriated me. I would honestly give anything to have perfect eyesight

[@stingy7101]

Gravy Is Nice and I’m sure you’re stingy for a good sense of humour.

[@jul2447]

@@gravyisnice4465 burnnn

[@minnalunar]

My eyesight is probably 15/5

[@thankyounext365]

I'd give anything to see well. I have 20/200 vision since I was very little. I have very bad astigmatism and I cannot even read big billboards while driving. And legally I need prescriptions to drive. Having bad or no eye sight isn't something to be desired.

[@Mehk]

So is a transman getting his breast tissue removed offending women with breast cancer who are forced to get mastectomies? Are you offending homeless/starving people by not eating certain foods you dislike? I have terrible eyes sight, but I don’t hold that against this woman. Stop taking other peoples choices personally. Body dysphoria is an extreme mental disorder that kills people everyday.

[@immi7662]

Idgaf what she wants to do but she should get absolutely NO benefits, no welfare support, none of it.

[@busterthedog6721]

Your absolutely correct.

[@lissetterodriguez7952]

Exactly let’s all go smoke crack, lose our jobs and go ask for assistance, smfh!

[@iBeFloe]

Monay Mentally ill people don’t even get benefits through so. She shouldn’t get benefits disabled people do for self-caused reasons.

[@monay6576]

iBeFloe she would get benefits for having a mental illness that’s a disability. Why would you want to deny her that?

[@obiwankenobi661]

actually, i dont think shes mentally ill. the current understanding in the science community is that its more of a neurological mismapping of the body than a mental illness. her brain is simply not mapped to have eyes and while they work and all, her eyes will always feel "foreign". kind of like a fly on your arm and you want to swipe it away.

[@RavenLione]

Whoever that psychiatrist is he needs to be sued and lose his license

[@ShaneWalshinc]

I’m just confused why her therapist allowed her to go through this?

[@savannahwatts5178]

Just wear a blindfold lmao

[@Queen-rl2uo]

As I am a person suffering from BIID....I'm telling you now that's not the actual thing.

[@frenchmoxie]

Bird box! Lol!

[@BigDaddyNexus]

@@Queen-rl2uo "Suffering" Just Go the therapist, Take your pills and everything will be fine. Disabled persons don't choose To be disabled.

[@heatheranders335]

@@BigDaddyNexus dont take any damn pills or drops from whatever dr she went to 😵

[@laykantheealien5722]

Haha

[@zapbrannigannn]

she should not be entitled to any government assistance whatsoever.

[@music_review_all_genres]

That's what I was thinking.

[@marinasmith3763]

Lt. E. Ripley nope. Maybe that would have discouraged her.

[@rachelel9087]

I just commented this. 100% agree

[@xFiinn]

Neither should transgender people

[@SwissMappin]

I dont think she would have stopped, because it is not rational.

[@925_antioch_ca_rap]

Looking yourself in the mirror everyday takes more courage than most think .

[@guitarttimman]

I'm so sick of seeing these bad things being done to fellow human beings. When I was young, I was viciously deceived. I care about people. We should always fight not to think just like everyone else. I wish I could give her eyesight. I love people.

[@rubyh3834]

its not "inspiring" my dude

[@Queen-rl2uo]

Actually....it is

[@shesuckonmyglock6664]

Unlock Minds Jesus Christ ..😪😂

[@twdjt6245]

Ikr....more like depressing.

[@CeleRiv]

@@Queen-rl2uo It's not, it's just promoting self harm.

[@MeMe-po1ze]

ScarStains . Look, you're not understanding that she is stupid. She could've donated her eyes to someone who ACTUALLY needs them. If people get inspired by this video, then they will just keep on blinding themselves without thinking of how other people need them more.

[@jacobaths]

Her: can you help blind me? Psychologist: Say no more

[@delphinephelps6528]

As someone who was diagnosed with advanced eye disease in 2021, now has greatly improved but lower vision due to eye therapies, and has been doing eye treatments including injections (Eyelea) (every 7 wks) + laser, I find this UTTTERLY & COMPLETELY baffling. I'm doing all I can to save my vision NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. I do not want to become Blind. I try to remain open-minded and never judge people but I am totally dumbfounded by this situation DISORDER OR NO DISORDER.

[@lopear111]

How is that psychologist not in jail?

[@wallbanger1968]

I think he's dead now, and he did eventually lose his license

[@tadm123]

The moment when you have so much social anxiety that you decide to go blind.

[@sandra1761]

Lol I wanted to cut my legs off so that I'd have a reason to be a weirdo ))) lol or get those bionic legs

[@tobiscout9176]

Mood

[@sunshinestate-bb3gm]

tadm123 sometimes I stick ear buds in my ear and see what its like to be deaf... But I'd never take my own hearing

[@stephanieg8545]

Her psychologist should lose their license..

[@RayTC]

he never had one.

[@spinningsage7727]

Yeah thats crazy as fuc

[@user-ho1vt8vz2l]

He's just a psycho

[@aleksanderreljanovic]

Stephanie G no

[@lanie5875]

i feel sick. throughout this whole thing i had a lump in my throat that i couldn't swallow. this is insanity.

[@aspiringprogrammer2820]

Imagine my case. A poor,short,ugly man who identifies as a rich,tall and handsome man. And I can't simply change that. Well I can stop being poor,and a little less ugly but taller? No way.

[@Takedownman]

WHY????? I am legally blind I would rather see!!!!

[@miroh3540]

Omg takedown man

[@Djeinaba_Minaj]

Same here.

[@tiffanyhelp7834]

I know right!!!!

[@melissaslutter4653]

I know. I'm legally blind too. And I wish I could see also

[@abbiegordon670]

if you are blind how could you comment? are you using a voice command or something?

[@kingtronadon2844]

"She found a psychologist willing to help her" What... What?! That's not helping. That's disturbed.

[@meh6131]

@Jill Harris indeed

[@wohwoh7764]

This is a tragic nightmare. Honestly, even the happiest person can succumb to self-harm. It’s really sad to see anyone go through this.

[@lisalamphier1410]

I actually understand this a (very) little bit. I recently went blind from fast growing cataracts and I actually enjoyed being blind. It was calm and serene and I adapted quickly. BUT I also knew it wasn't permanent and I happily went for surgery and rejoined the sighted world. But that psychologist should be jailed!

[@Omniescience]

I have a desire to be dead. Brb guys, I'm gonna go find a psychologist who will force feed me drain cleaner. It's ok, he will only be treating my condition. Ffs.

[@deniziscool]

exactly!!. glad i see some intelligence here.. i guess the whole world hasn't gone completely insane.. but most of the world has..

[@ICEGTN]

nitrogen is the painless way to go

[@Kalleosini]

+7.62x54Ron ' since when, wtf, forcing someone to be alive when they don't want it, would literally be torture, I'm pretty sure torture is illegal, who is mad now?

[@practicemakesperfectthenth5034]

7.62x54Ron ' If you were in constant pain you would want to commit suicide too.

[@Kalleosini]

***** if a person has a right to live, why can't they have a right to die? who are we to determine who lives and who dies, who are we to tell someone to man up and deal with their desire to be undone? if someone really, really, really want to die, nobody can possibly stop them. I'd never kill someone if they asked me to, it's their own life to take. I'm don't support assisted suicide, I support a persons right to make their own choices. and I am certainly against laws against suicide, such as dealing out fines to the relatives, cause that's just awful. all that said, this woman should not have had to pour fucking drain cleaner in here eyes.

[@godbrixe1064]

Why did she just tape her eyes shut and then when u want your eyesight back untape herself.

[@notfunny1410]

Brick Wall it's difficult because her brain knows her eyes are still there. It wants them gone because they're not recognised as a part of her body

[@sharonw2862]

Brick Wall She's not smart. That's why.

[@notfunny1410]

Sharon W google BIID

[@tseringdehradun6540]

🤣👌👌👌

[@notfunny1410]

EVOCATEUR well...Yes but gender dysphoria is more common and usually doesnt cause people to hurt themselves

[@VicLilith]

The “psychologist.” Does no one get this right? He wasn’t a psychologist, only claimed to be, she said she met him in a chat room or something.

[@benji-yb8fn]

What is the difference with people who want to remove genital sex from their body? Eyes, genital sex or arms, in all these cases are part of our own body.

[@aoflex]

If you're an adult and you choose to injure yourself then you should receive zero government assistance for your actions. Nobody but yourself should pay for your dumb choices.

[@minkorrh]

Basically it is the equivalent of me quitting my job for no reason and then expecting to receive unemployment benefits. Now this fucking lump is the taxpayers burden. It's fucking sickening because it's using resources for those that really need it.

[@kashsmith6181]

Yeah.And the "psychologists" shouldn't have helped her give into it.

[@chaton20]

+Argle Bargle But she *is* ill. Mentally. Shame mental illness still seems to be such a stigma. This woman probably didn't receive enough help prior to her action and this lead to this drastic step.

[@katherinemoreno2076]

i sadly agree.

[@spydergs07]

She's a fucking idiot. Plain and simple.

[@hajinata]

im sorry but parts of her eyelids are stuck together it makes me anxious and i want to just pull them apart i just want to uGHHhg

[@pp-eg6oy]

she's just a stupid spoiled... I guess no one have disputed to her in her entire life. That's why people need to correct their children - so not to end like this.

[@Discordia5]

@@pp-eg6oy Correcting children does not prevent mental illness. I do agree that she would have been helped by other adults in her life telling her to stop the nonsense. They should not have indulged her.

[@Malin_Xo]

😭😭😭

[@user-sf9gs2pg1b]

MLKKK - honestly

[@jesus-islord6540]

Lol

[@chauncygardner123]

Like it or not a man or woman has the sovereign right to do what they want as long as no one else is harmed by their actions.

[@lonette8314]

Completely agree

[@xiaolan1369]

I mean I get why people are angry but she's insane. Like.. I don't think people chose to be insane