I Survived a Suicide Attempt (How Do I Heal?)

[@Erick-zg6qr]

This call hit home. Overthinking everything, feeling always wrong or not enough.

[@thegingersnaps8075]

Same

[@Erick-zg6qr]

@@thegingersnaps8075 worst part about it is when you know your doing things right, but still there's that "felling" bugging.

[@gravelor78]

I suffer from this and it never really goes away. It's like it's rooted in my subconscious.

[@5minnuggets]

@@gravelor78 I think it comes from childhood

[@megalopolis2015]

This guy is so cool. He has no idea how neat he is. He's a loyal husband, doting father, smart, witty, generous, thoughtful, detail-oriented, a natural leader. I hope he gets some great counseling advice and supervision so he can discover all of that, and so he can get a healthy handle on his emotions. I hope his wife will also be able to help, holding some stuff down while he works this out.

[@orangesplaylist]

I was just thinking this throughout the video. He emanates good vibes, like he just seems like a nice person

[@megalopolis2015]

@@orangesplaylist He really does.

[@builtontherockhomestead9390]

After spending over a month in the hospital, a lot of it in ICU, from an unknown virus, a friend started sharing on FB 5 things she was grateful for. She did this for over a year. It changed her life.

[@debbieanderson6740]

Colin, that is brave of you to call the show. Knowing that you need to get unstuck. It is never too late to heal.

[@ramblinmama]

We are rooting for you, Colin. Your heart is so so good. And you deserve the best. Sending you, your baby girl and your wife so much love.

[@Chihuahuauno1]

This boi NEEDS his 👅💦💦💦💦💦✊🏽🍌🥜

[@kathygritzmacher90]

Dr Delony your so honest and get right in the deep soul of our callers ! You are Blessed Beyond words❤

[@In_TheHouse]

I hope he gets better, hope he understands his family loves him

[@mildchaos6037]

As a survivor of an attempt myself, I am glad John made a video on this. Very insightful. Plus this caller is awesome, hope he finds the happiness in life he deserves

[@KathyClementi]

I just came upon you Dr John. I am hooked. Thank you for your great courage in telling us that you are doing trauma work. Thank you for your courage to be authentic and vulnerable.

[@U.SFreedomU.S]

The show is amazing. Great advice as always. This guy has Rancid album in the back! John you are a renal for multiple causes.

[@lbslott]

Praying for you Collin.

[@singerg02]

I've losd count of the number of times I've come back to listen to this call again. I am OBSESSED with Colin's voice. ❤

[@pear_jules4013]

Colin was just out of a tumultuous toxic relationship. That’s like jumping from a roller coaster mid-ride. He was completely disoriented. And the silence was probably deafening.

[@JohnBrown-ig5nc]

I like the Rancid album in the background. John must be a metalhead

[@megalopolis2015]

Rancid is a bit more alt-punk. But yeah, John is pretty hardcore. :0)

[@JohnBrown-ig5nc]

@@megalopolis2015 I remember him having an album in the background awhile back of some metal band, though I can't remember which one. I know Rancid isn't metal but I'm glad to see that John is into the good stuff

[@rawpower12xu]

That’s punk. I’ve seen him wearing a Social Distortion jacket

[@epsilona7472]

Colin, tell us if you managed to get off those anti-depressants. My mum has been on max dose for 35 years, a year ago she weaned off them completely for 2 months, and it was amazing to actually have a mother who actually cared, but she couldn't handle the tough times and my dad wasn't prepared to support her through the change (which I'm furious about). So she is back onto full dose and back to her shell of a human, she's so smart, but just seems numb to it all, she definitely believes it's too late for her, and it makes me sad for my children.

[@myboyjasper]

Those medications are poison.

[@sign.language.l5765]

Jesus is the ultimate sufferer - run to Him in surrender. Satan does not get the final say.

[@veggiesarefruits]

Yessir! He is the ONLY way! Let us exalt Him and praise Him for being our strength! Amen. God bless you and keep you. ❤🙏

[@5thdimensionliving727]

Well done to both of you ✅ to the gentleman for his openness and transparency and to Dr John for his expert advice..and the combined vulnerability you both showed was inspiring- I hope the rest of humanity were dialling into your discussion 🙏🙏👏👏 very insightful - bless you both 🙏🙏

[@razio1096]

This guy wasn’t trying to kill himself, it was a cry for attention. Glad he turned it around.

[@PEARLPediatricTherapyPLLC]

Remarkable call.

[@JohnBrown-ig5nc]

I can relate yo what John said in that I've been so proud of how smart I think I am due to all of the information I've taken in. I need to allow myself to feel. I'm talking to a therapist in a few weeks and want to start healing. I think a detox from media would do me good

[@megalopolis2015]

That's awesome. Good for you. I hope your healing goes relatively smoothly.

[@JohnBrown-ig5nc]

@@megalopolis2015 thank you

[@sanitary103]

@@JohnBrown-ig5ncsocial media in general is not good imo, maybe small doses at most. Good luck.

[@games68775]

Yea, I relate to trying to explore things purely from a logical perspective rather than actually feeling. At times I try my best not to feel as a strategy to mitigate anxiety and overstimulation. Also, media and social media especially introduces a lot of noise into your life and your mind, which I believe can really distort and cloud your perspective and thoughts in general. Take a break for sure, you're not missing anything.

[@JohnBrown-ig5nc]

@@games68775 I need to take a break. Was thinking on this very thing earlier today and how distorted my thinking is because of it

[@patriciaegan7244]

To this caller, please try to realize you didn’t only put your self in danger, it sounds like you may have put other peoples lives in danger while doing that. Consider yourself blessed, and move forward with your accomplishments since. If you’re still feeling these impulses, get help now. Your baby girl and wife are in your life for a reason.

[@pulidobl]

Cynicism masking as depression?

[@alexcajiao7489]

Jesus is a sure foundation! Everything else will fail you. Jesus is the Rock! A strong foundation! Without Him you and we are nothing and will fail its just a matter of time.

[@derekcook8201]

When he said he's a type one diabetic and he tried to overdose on insulin I immediately related. At one point I planned to do the exact same thing

[@traceejohnson290]

Delony never found out from Colin where he learned that he had no value or was a burden🤔

[@cc3822]

Exactly, he needs to learn how to value himself again.

[@happydays310]

I turn to Jesus Christ and pray to him to heal my troubles. Works wonders. Believe that Jesus Christ died for our sins was buried and rose again the 3rd day by which we are saved, 1 Corinthians 15 1-4.

[@Jaisee14]

I feel like a piece of crap every single day.

[@TheNightOwl-i8R]

Me too

[@blueStarKitt7924]

Please, don't you all hesitate to reach out for help. You are worth it.🙏❤️

[@matthewburns1012]

we are all sinners, and we have broken Gods law. Therefore we all deserve hell. But God was merciful and sent Jesus Christ, God in the flesh, His Son, to die for the sins of the world. He lived a sinless life, then he died on the cross,taking the wrath of God we deserved onto himself. He rose again 3 days later to defeat death for all of those who would put their trust in him. If you repent of your sin and place your faith in Christ, He will save you from hell. This is the Gospel of Jesus Christ. The only way to enter heaven.

[@alexcajiao7489]

How can you deconstruct from the One ( GOD/Jesus) who holds everything together!? To deconstruct from Him only leads to destruction. There is no other option!

[@blueStarKitt7924]

.......

[@myboyjasper]

antidepressants can create paradoxical suicide ideations. I know, I've been there.

[@bettysmith4527]

Depression is a serious illness, but for this guy to overdose on insulin on purpose AND THEN DRIVE risking other peoples' lives was so selfish. I know he wasn't in his right mind, but I think there is a certain degree of self awareness and responsibility for the safety of others, even if one is wishing to die themselves.

[@myboyjasper]

If you attempt it once, you will eventually try it again.

[@patriciaegan7244]

There’s many things that have never been discussed during childhood. Including what kids see in TV. Caller; you’ve already did more work on improving your life. Please appreciate your accomplishments. Please!

[@myoung6067]

Why are 90% of the people who call into this show religious? I know very few religious people. Maybe the US is just more religious?

[@chrisinolympiawa9295]

The company they work for (Ramsey Solutions) is owned by a Christian and the principles he teaches come from that. I don't think that everybody who works there is Christian, nor is everyone who listens, but the majority who know much about the company know that and at least accept those basic principles.

[@myoung6067]

@chrisinolympiawa9295 thank you for answering!

[@Unknown-f7x2e]

Jesus loves you and wants a relationship with you

[@brightpage1020]

Ok, if you are an able bodied grown up, there is no such thing as “helpless”, almost no matter what your situation. If Nick Vujicic (Christian public speaker with no arms or legs) can make a family plus provide for and protect them, I don’t care what the environmental wars may be going on, then the rest of us have no excuse. No excuse. To be positive and work toward something valuable or worthwhile. Come on, now.

[@megalopolis2015]

I've seen many of his talks. He also says that everyone's pain and brokenness needs to be addressed and prayed for, and that family, friends, and the church need to come together for each one who hurts. He gets the importance of fellowship. He has many people helping him (including his Lovely wife), as he helps many people. It's a beautiful thing.

[@brightpage1020]

@@megalopolis2015 I agree. Thank you. I definitely posted this getting more disgruntled as I listened, and here's why: I'm a survivor of people who have succeeded at their attempts and I once made one of my own and am so grateful I get to stay. The beginning of my previous comment talks about Kevin Hines, a guy who speaks out now against suicide and pro prevention. He has been influential in a lot of folks changing their attitude toward life for the better. The 1st interview I saw with him, he was still in a wheelchair, told he may never walk again from his attempt, but he was beaming - glowing with this high smile and couldn't stop saying "I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful..." He was so grateful he lived. Now, a few decades after my own attempt I am a parent. And I'm sorry; when people depend on you, you don't get the luxury of apathy. And when you make a decision to try and attempt in a way that could or would harm others, by overdosing behind the wheel and them go drive around - I get angry - because now you aren't just putting yourself at risk, which is bad enough, you're putting yourself and other people's kids at risk. I volunteer on suicide prevention lines. This guy sounded so so so so so different than anyone in this situation I've ever heard so far after years of volunteering. I shouldn't have posted my comment for many reasons. Mainly myom always says, "if you can't say something nice don't say anything at all." And she's right. This guy set me off. I should have stayed quiet. Mostly I know that when you are ideating about it you might consider that an orange or red flag that you might not be thinking clearly. I know he probably is in that space of not thinking clearly which is why I began by introducing him to a powerful force in prevention: survivors. I got nervous when his tone and affect seemed so flat. This is a sensitive and shameful topic for a lot of survivors. The don't usually talk about it so nonchalantly. You are absolutely right. I should have compassion and pray for him, and I appreciate the correction. The guy scared me. Especially as a dad of a defenseless baby. Because if he makes choices for himself that include risking others, that momma and baby could be in harms way. I'm a mom now. Not cool. Gotta get some support for those two also, just in case. The guy scared me, and I've helped support some folks and helped them put their kits away. Survivors help each other. I pray he gets into helping prevention efforts, meets others, feels less alone, and feels a renewed commitment to life as well as enthusiasm for it after meeting children of folks who have gone and seeing how it affects their lives. Or becoming a warrior for prevention. I pray he stays and find renewed motivation... And I pray he connects the dots that his attempt cold have endangered the lives of others. He seemed to just roll right over that like it was nothing, like he didn't even notice that fact. That was chilling to somebody who has children and drives. It's a chilling topic anyway. I'd do anything to get those I know who went this way back. I pray they get to Heaven because they may have made that judgement call on themselves in a state of mental distress. I hope this guy gets the support he needs to feel strengthened and renewed and to care as much about others even in his pain. I pray I can forgive him for the choice he made. I do - especially because no one was permanently harmed by it, including him. Thank God.

[@megalopolis2015]

@@brightpage1020 I greatly appreciate the thought and effort that went into this reply. Thank you. I also want to thank you for the self-sacrificial work you have done for other people in crisis, who are desperate to have someone who cares enough to talk them down. My fiance' has been one of those people in need, more than once. He has more obstacles than many, mentally, emotionally and physically. I am one of the only people who he can talk to besides people like you who can deal with the situation, or even cares to try. His sobriety and faith have helped enormously, as well as developing healthy boundaries with others, cutting off contact when necessary. It can a difficult thing to fight for yourself when few people in your life told you that you were worth fighting for. Hopefully in time he will believe it more. As for the caller, I share your concern with his driving that day. He should not have endangered other people. I think that the way he seems to speak casually about the incident is because his deep embarrassment over losing control so much, as well as fear for what could have happened. Either way, he can use our prayers.

[@83yomomma]

This is bullshit

[@blueStarKitt7924]

Ok. Why?

[@DeeLee-p8c]

Ill quickly tell you where I m at now. 6 hours later. DR John: Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Lifts his head and wakes up. Ok. Whats your household income?

[@brightpage1020]

There is a guy. You gotta see this - wait I’ll link him - lookup Kevin Hines: Jumper. The Bridge. He lived. Week coma, broke all but 7 bones… come out wheelchaired up, glowing… beaming… “I’m so grateful [I survived]!” He says. From his wheelchair… to the news reporter because no one has ever survived that fall - wait - you got a baby girl?!?!! And. Wife!?!?!!?’ DUDE! Man up! You no longer have the luxury of cutting out early. You got people depending on you, needing you - like for their own survival! Ladies, no less. Nah. Nah. Nah. You don’t get to be that spoiled. You get to be sacrificial. You a Christian, right? Obviously not if you tried this - behind the wheel of a car, no less!!! Oh my golly gosh darn!!! Have some sense, Kid! Heaven forbid you’d have had an accident that took out somebody else or somebody else’s kid or mom or grandma… while you were unconscious behind the wheel. Holy smoke. We’re you tokin’? Are you a sociopath? Who do you think you are, Buddy?!? What gives you the right to take risks like that on other people’s lives? Oh, heck no… I’m sorry. I can’t. I just can’t. I can not abide all that. What. A. Jerk. You got problems, well guess what, my grandparents had problems and my parents and our generation… and yours got jacked and taxed for a lot of our band aid solutions. Not fair to you at all. I get that. But you do what grandpa did and you strap up your boots and get out there solving it in whatever way you can necessary… because you are an adult, now. And you have responsibility for yourself and your life. Your decisions, your choices. No one else. People have lived with less. Come on. Grow up. Grow a heart.

[@prestonj.7687]

the attempt was before his marriage and birth of his daughter and before he found God. he lives with what happened 7 years ago & chose to build a beautiful family for himself. here he stands admitting he wants to stray farther and better mentally than the person he used to be, for his family. that is a man if i ever did see one myself…stay kind brother

[@megalopolis2015]

@@prestonj.7687 Exactly. "Don't show weakness ever" is how guys keep getting into these emotional wrecks to begin with. We all need each other. This guy has done amazing things, but he knows when he needs help, and that shows strength, too.

[@brightpage1020]

@@prestonj.7687 Thank you. I just reread my very snarky original comment. It was selfish of me, and hurtful toward him. He doesn't deserve that. Especially because look at him doing the brave thing now and reaching out for help - to a radio show of all things, broadcasting his struggle. That is a braver soul than I initially gave him credit for. Thank you for helping me step off my soapbox of self righteousness. Sincerely, I hope this guy gets the support he needs for himself and his family. We all have weak moments and he did the right thing during his - he reached out for us to lift him up and that is like lifting an anvil of fear and trepidation off your heart. I hope and pray he finds the comfort he needs. Man, I am truly sorry for my hurtful words and judgemental spirit. I spoke out while angry and forgot to exercise self control - or listen. One of the most powerful amd important principles of prevention. Caller, you deserved so much better. I was immature amd hasty in my initial response. I was nasty towards you, angry and bristing. I am sorry. I hope you can forgive me. I'll hold my tongue and be more understanding from this point forward. Grateful to those who stepped up for you amd so gently steered me in a different direction. This culture of popping off at each other may have me more defensive than is positive. I can slow my roll. Thank you to all who helped me see the error of my ways. Great wisdom is also on the interwebs - who knew? Not just nutty folks coming out of the woodwork. Thank you.

[@lbslott]

Even Christians can feel hopeless. Read David’s psalms. Look at Elijah. Especially if you grew up with a critical parent that constantly insinuated you were never good enough. That’s the lie that’s been sold to you from the get-go.

[@blueStarKitt7924]

​@brightpage1020 🙏❤️

[@maximusdecimusmeridius5438]

Sounds like a weak attempt

[@aarondavid5866]

called looking for attention get over yourself man

[@aarondavid5866]

survive u sure survive is the right word?

[@BetOnIt-m2p]

He wanted attention

[@megalopolis2015]

Correction: He wanted help and is going to get it; you two wannabe chauvinists want attention.

[@BetOnIt-m2p]

@@megalopolis2015 no he wanted attention like I said this call sounds so fourced with him trying to sell us story

[@BetOnIt-m2p]

@@megalopolis2015 omg you have no life you sitting here replying to everyone in the comments 😂😂😂 this you 🤡

[@aprilchow-chee5281]

​@ace2live957 then I pray that you're never in a situation where you see no out and life falls on on you. Suicidal thoughts can happen when life happens to us all.

[@blueStarKitt7924]

🙄🤔

[@theologytherapist]

The healing process is a very non-linear journey to take -- it's never easy. ❤‍🩹