My Suicide Story: Episode 8 - Matt's Story

Join Matt as he shares his journey grappling with mental health issues, navigating a diagnosis of rapid cycling bipolar disorder, and the profound shifts in his life following a harrowing suicide attempt.
Music by Scott Buckley
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741

[@JulieCoveney-uc2eq]

Thank you. So eloquent.

[@nikhilsharma3563]

These are really helpful. Keep it up.

[@anatman6304]

Thank you. I have thought about wanting to die almost every day of my life since the start of high school (35 years now). And, odd as it may sound, I have found that listening to the stories of others who've been there is the only thing that brings me any peace.

[@oreakinpelu9036]

How are you doing now?

[@anatman6304]

@@oreakinpelu9036 Thank you for asking. My last two weeks have been compartively better - little suicidal ideation, I started going to the gym a little for the first time in years and it feels good. But, the overall arc of my life tells me it likely wont last long. Perhaps a few months, if that. But I'll take it. Maybe I can keep the gym thing up longer this time ☺️

[@MISNM0]

🫂💛

[@TamaraGKing]

​@@anatman6304 I think it because it's the only place we feel understood, and maybe not alone. For me anyways. I hope you're doing as okay as possible, sending you love and praise for making it another day❤❤❤

[@TamaraGKing]

​@@anatman6304good for you going to the gym, I hope this good time lasts a long time for you! Well done for the good work ❤❤❤ I'm proud of you! 👏🏻💯 Lots of love 😘💖😘💖😘💖

[@anemone9081]

An intelligent person for sure.

[@kristenwilson3306]

Matt, I am so grateful that you're still here. Life wouldn't be the same without you in it ❤❤❤ You're an awesome human being.

[@LeahDyson-kq4bd]

Shine on you crazy diamond

[@hollydaugherty2620]

Great speaker and storyteller. I enjoyed hearing your story. I hope you find peace.

[@kingayy9267]

This guy is really handsome. Glad he's still here and sharing his story with others who may be in the same place or know someone who's attempted/succeeded. I hope he's doing better now.

[@stangss1]

It kind of makes it worse that your father didn't do drugs or drink.... he was just that terrible with a sober mind.

[@lindorini]

Yes, for sure!

[@kingayy9267]

There's always the possibility that he _did_ have a substance abuse issue. Alcoholics don't always look/act the way intoxicated people are expected to look or act. Besides, a ten-year-old kid wouldn't be able to recognize the subtle signs of alcoholism/drug addiction.

[@LostwaveObsession]

Hoping Matt is doing ok. Really wishing the best for everything that is in front of him... and anyone in a dark place right now. I always try to say that after a really bad today, that tomorrow or next week might be blue skies.

[@nevillehilton347]

What an incredibly brave, real, story. The artwork... wow. Thank you.

[@raneshreevankrimpen7460]

Matt you are so handsome and smart. I'm struggling with bipolar for 33 years and I'm 47 years old. Your video gives me some hope . Thank you. Love from South Africa 🇿🇦 ❤️ 💙

[@chillasrolo5897]

Much love homie. I'm a 24 year old man and I just wanna give you a hug bro. Been there, felt that. Don't wish that empty chasm on anyone.

[@ihopethedayfindsyouwell9995]

Thank You for opening up to us. I struggle often. I've tried to disincarnate 3 times. It seems for some of us once that door is opened we never get to completely close it. Tonight I'm having a hard time but getting to share this time with the guests here helps some. Thank you

[@bea93120]

I'm there now and have no one

[@AchievingIndifference]

It was extremely brave of you to talk about your experience. Thank you for sharing

[@thetruthhastobesaidintheuk4064]

Still now like this young man. I don't get one call. No home. Justice. No one. My mother gave birth to me from rape. I lost my mother from her abuse from my male parent. Made to work on a farm at 13. A paedophile. Even when in a cell under false arrest. The officer said if I want to kill myself go ahead. I watched this. And I am not going to say my feelings. But Truthfully. I had enough of being abused by services. Denied my human rights. And no one in my life. Why is it men are narcissistic getting away with covering up in employment destroying life

[@Susanarylander]

Excellent, I’m truly grateful for everthing you said. Your ability to observe yourself and put things into words that might resonate for others as well is pretty unique. My son says he doesn’t need help but I think he does. He shuts me down each time I bring it up.

[@senecasweatt2973]

Thank you, going threw a bad time right now in my life

[@JulieKelly-mq3nm]

Sorry you are suffering x

[@anastasiastec43]

Thanks for this video Matt, you remind me of myself and I think I was meant to listen to this tonight.

[@holisticpsychology7943]

So grateful that you pulled through! You are so strong and Im convinced you can achieve anything after overcoming this chapter... :)

[@nikkibarrett9171]

Good you are here with us lad, I like your attitude and great you found what works for you. Wishing you future success ❤

[@justmadeit2]

Amazing that he still went to work that day.

[@kalynmaitozo]

Thank you. Your story just gave me the time out I needed.

[@maddyknight4464]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@Hay_and_Bella]

I love the Floyd too, lol. This helped me. I'm okay but just going through a lot of depression lately. Bouncing back though. Wow, what an incredibly powerful, eloquent and insightful speaker you are though! Very real, very human and very genuine. Thank you!

[@Alexlinnk]

Thank you for this video

[@spiritualgoodness902]

4:48 “I wanted to unplug my brain somehow.” Wow, I feel that. Hope you’re doing well man.

[@bea93120]

I'm there right now and I am looking for a reason to not do it.

[@somystery]

My childhood was very rough. I haven't attempted suicide though.

[@jessparsons8515]

I have depression been there I’m on meds keeps me sane

[@lavishwhisper6753]

Me too. Do you have any side effects?

[@pettydavis420]

Hey, Matt. I fuckin love you, dude.

[@aprilleerose]

Is there anywhere we can buy Matt’s paintings?

[@fire12731]

I’m struggling badly for many years.

[@manie141]

Thank you

[@somystery]

My cousin killed himself, so sad.

[@houseofblues9016]

i have one but it might be the most stupid story ever lol im bored to say the story but what i will say is that after the attempt i feel like my life cut in 2 periods before and after and a big chunk of what i d consider to be me as self at that moment died there i havent watched any of this videos but i wonder how many feel the same

[@Darknight3701_]

❤

[@Morbid_micko]

Thankyou for sharing your story.