I've Been Keeping A Big Secret - My Mental Health Struggle

My struggles with mental health are something that I've kept as a secret for far too long. It's time to bring my battles with panic disorder, depression and agoraphobia into the light.
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[@BigMoosePrinting]

I’ve been watching your videos for years and even though I’m quite a bit older than you (I’m 54), I admire you and look up to you for your drive and confidence. This video doesn’t diminish that one bit. Kinda the opposite actually. I have no idea what it’s like to experience what you’re going through or how to help, but like most of us that follow your stuff, we’re here for you brother. If anyone has the will to figure this out and fucking dominate it, it’s you. Thanks for having the strength to make this video and put it out there. You never know how many people needed to see this and understand that they’re not the only ones. You got this bro, and when you don’t, we’re all here

[@redstickviking2808]

Fellow men: This is what wisdom and inner strength looks like. The only way to light the fire for research and treatment methods is raising awareness, and that's something all of us can do. Mad respect to you for your determination and your vulnerability. Go put in the work and give it hell.

[@mattsconberg8225]

bro, I was choked up the entire time watching and listening to you.

[@SevenSlotSociety]

I've been a silent watcher for years. I'm struggling with a lot of similar things and I have thousands of dollars worth of screen printing equipment that isn't being used. My business is suffering because I can't get my shit together. Thank you for posting this. I feel less "alone" because you had the balls to post this. Thank you. You have been, and continue to be an inspiration for me.

[@dannyking3625]

You got this ! Put it to work !you can do it !

[@chrismonty69]

Absolute legend. Not only did we start screen printing because of you, and have a sustainable business, but have massive respect for you putting your heart and soul out there. ❤❤❤

[@leviteapparel]

❤ Bro I pray nothing but success for you. I want to see you make it and do well selfishly, because I want to see some of them videos. Otherwise, from the time that I've known you on YT, I want to see you make it and succeed beyond because the knowledge you have is incredible. The final reason people don't realize you can have a million dollars gone tomorrow, but if you take care of your health, it is the number one thing towards riches, good health and support structure, these are the things that make wealthy people wealthy. Whether you have money or not. That struggle is real, but you can overcome it..

[@mattsconberg8225]

brother - the timing of this video couldn't have been better. The universe works like that, its all at the right time. THANK YOU for sharing something like this with us. we all look up and admire you in some way, thanks for being honest with us.

[@456printco]

Proud of you man, I can’t imagine how hard this was to put out and it most definitely resonates with a lot of people. We’re all pulling for you. You got this.

[@Smallbore2wheels]

This is a huge step dude. We're here behind you! 💪🏻

[@timgangloff]

Sorry to hear of your struggles. And happy you felt you could share. We’ve got your back. Mental health should never be stigmatized.

[@jahnetik]

Get your B12 levels checked. I've had a panic disorder and Agoraphobia for years. Thought I'd have to live with it for the rest of my life. Got a blood test and my levels were extremely low. My body can't absorb B12 properly. After taking 10,000 mcg worth, daily for 6 months, I got my level up to normal. Changed my life. I barely have any symptoms anymore and can deal with situations A LOT better. Just seems like my body doesn't react anymore to what would normally cause panic. Cheers Edit: I also take 500 mg Magnesium Bisglycinate + D3 daily which has helped too

[@deathtrapindustries]

Fully agree. I had and currently dealing with the same issues and finally went to the doctor to find out that my levels of Vitamin D and Iron are extremely low and causing a lot of issues. Without going into details, all I can say is this is a great start and has helped me as well. Most people are magnesium deficient also.

[@Leadership_matters]

​@@deathtrapindustriesyah bro. I had this for a minute and my insurance was absolute shit. I went into survival mode for a few years and got tired of it. There is a way out of this for sure. I also joined one of those groups. It was cool knowing I wasn't alone but that's all it was.

[@deathtrapindustries]

@@Leadership_matters yeah I totally understand the insurance thing... I was in the same boat for years. It is amazing how something as simple as vitamin deficiency can cause so many issues and nobody seems to know this or puts the info out there.

[@Leadership_matters]

@@deathtrapindustries my experience was same same different. I was having crazy stomach issues so I couldn't really go anywhere. My GP told me it was nothing for a year. I ended up at the internal medicine guy who told me without hesitating, in my 15 minute appointment, that, "It looks like colon cancer. I want to have some tests with biopsies." I scheduled my appointment immediately ... 3 months later. I hid I side the whole time. F--k me! So I finally go to find out wtf. I have my knees to my chest having a great conversation with a hot Filipino nurse who says everything looks fine. Internal medicine guy says over the phone ... Nope. You're good. But I'm not good. So I go back to my GP who says, "holy crap! This has all been going on for 6 months? At least you lost 40 lbs! No! Not good. I am going to send you to the nutritionist. 2 months later I get in to the nutritionist who looks at my food diary and says, "you are glutamate sensitive and can't eat acidic food." I had to cut out Doritos, ranch, canned soup, most salad dressings, spaghetti factory, and a bunch of other crap and now have an uphill battle against anxiety and fear of being trapped. Why? Because the brain is an evil machine that is not designed to handle the crap we put it through. I did have a crazy vitamin B and D deficiency. They gave me injections and then 50,000iu a day for a while. Did I vent enough?

[@ink5961]

My story is similar, and also low B12. I'm reading that taking more than 1200 mcg's per day is pointless, but you say you were taking 10,000? I was considering getting shots from the doctor, but could the liquid drops work? Were you taking the drops? If so, my bottle says 1 drop per day, so I could, without issue, take as many as 5-8? I know you're not a doctor, but I appreciate your experience and advice.

[@justchilling7594]

The hardest part about mental health is that there are no absolutes everyone's issues are unique. People love to tell you to just snap out of it as if it were that easy. To do all you do while suffering from this you have my mad respect. All I can tell you is do your best !

[@robertvolesky5485]

Lee, I have been watching you since the beginning and I also struggle with similar things ever since I got out of the service. Your grind is what I’ve always modeled my own off of. I started my own business just to escape the need to interact with others every day. You, as one of my biggest role models, coming forward with this today is so comforting in a sense. I hope you continue to be the biggest advocate for yourself and reach the level of health I know you’ll achieve!

[@AndyTheKenworthGuy]

Kudos to you for being vulnerable.

[@dgoddard]

I have severe anxiety and dealt with it like you tried to. I think talking openly about it helps out a lot. It lets you know that it isn't a "me' thing as much as it feels like it is. Once you realize that, it's easier to put your mind at ease. I wish you well.

[@alejandropennerphotos]

Proud of you man! you got this and you know we are always here to help bud!

[@the-brand]

First time seeing one of your videos and just wanted to quickly comment: Wish you the absolute best brother, this is a huge step for you and I'm sure you're going to crush this crap out of your life soon. Wishing you peace, innerstanding, support, and all the love. One day you will be part of that 1% who can actually help others in your position = PRICELESS. Take care.

[@RynoHuman-il4qp]

It takes courage to stand up like this. Thanks Lee for being honest about it

[@clolourofbue]

Well done for talking about this, men in particular have a tough time talking about it. I am going through pretty much the same right now. Mine kicked off again in 2020, I had to deal with an awful lot then we had the pandemic. My life changed beyond recognition that year and I wasn't in control of any of it. I am in the UK and the NHS is completely broken so there is no help on offer and I can't afford private. If it wasn't for my art I don't think I would be here now. Sending you good vibes and best wishes. Once again well done for talking about this. x

[@kmarkable]

Excactly what I needed to hear today. Currently in the hospital for mental health resaons. Nice to know others out there struggle. Stay strong

[@kathy_b]

Thank you for sharing your story. It was crazy to listen to because over the years I've had similar experiences. It's not so bad now, but at times can still be limiting. I can tell by your strength and determination that you will overcome this hurdle and it will be like a weight lifted off your shoulders. I wish you the very best!

[@maritzak214]

So you made me tear up... This is so brave and you are not alone, and this video has made me realize I am not alone too. Thank you for sharing and I am sorry to hear of your struggles, but glad to hear about your strength in this! You keep pushing forward and you should be proud of that. I have watched your videos throughout the years, wanting to get into screen printing and went as far as buying some equipment but I stopped at my first attempt to print.. felt defeated. I have been struggling with depression, brain fog, fatigue, lack of motivation due to perimenopause since 40 ( I am 47 now), this has effected my creative work, my motivation to do anything creative and I gave up, if this is what perimenopause looks now for me, I am afraid how I will feel when I hit full blown menopause, I feel like I am going crazy now. I recently went to see if I can get Hormonal therapy, but was told this is normal process and it's a part of aging. I cry all the time because my hormones are all over the place...I am considering going back to school in January to change my career all together because I no longer feel creative to continue my graphic design career...it saddens me because I used to have such a passion for it. Still struggling through it, trying to stay consistent with exercise and vitamins but it's a challenge. I do plan on getting a second opinion from another doctor soon. Thanks for this video, it gave me some kind of encouragement to keep my head up.

[@Jolsen002]

You are still our hero. This is one of many reasons why you are still our hero.

[@ParkersDesigns]

I can totally relate Lee ! I had the same issues as you. Diagnosed with anxiety, panic disorder, and agoraphobia! It is hell ! Thankfully by the grace of God I rarely have issues now and no longer take medication. I know you can overcome it… you have a kick ass personality and attitude and will figure this out. All of my prayers and best to you my friend ! If you ever need anyone to bounce off of don’t be afraid to reach out !

[@drdorn1]

Big Props to you Lee putting that out there... keeping it real... we are with you.

[@jfalbe6120]

Lee, Thanks for sharing. I cant imagine what its like for you, But after watching all your videos, I got to say, Your one strong dude. We all support you and reaching out the way you did on this video shows allot of courage. Stay Strong Brother

[@ouattaraibrahim9476]

I have been on your videos for a while now following your progress which also inspired me doing same in my business, bro I can’t image what u going through but I may be from the second you have the vim to putting this info out , you got cured .god willing all will be well . Don’t let that heat your mind again ,feel free and keep been positive . No therapy will help because the cure for this is just your mind . We love you man keep doing what you do best . Waiting for more videos

[@JoshBraunz]

Best of luck in tackling your mental health struggles man. That is one of my goals as well look forward to seeing you do well with it.

[@edwinacuna8500]

ending it the way you did was great, ive always seen that quote around your warehouse and for you to clarify "its time to REALLY put in the fucking work" just lends to the age old truth of not being able to escape your demons no matter what. Glad to see you jumping on this new journey.

[@MaltandMake]

I'm really impressed with this video and your drive to make changes. Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you all the best for the future.

[@captcrow]

Kudos for taking the first step by talking about it. I am rooting for our good ol Canadian boy and I know you will put your drive behind this disorder and kick it in the ass. Thanks for being real Lee, stay strong

[@stzsupplyco.8376]

Strong of you to put this out bro! I know everyone here is behind me when I say WE GOT YOU! And you got this! Stay strong 💪🏾

[@liamvella223]

I really appreciate you making this video. You’re a beacon of inspiration in the print world and it’s really easy to look up to someone who seemingly “has it all” on a screen every week and compare myself to your journey. This really helps put things into perspective that everyone struggles with something. My mental health struggles aren’t exactly the same as yours but they’ve definitely held me back from where I could be in business right now. We all focus on things differently, we’ve watched you put in the fucking work in your shop for years and I’m glad you’re taking the time to put that work into yourself now. You only have one you. Take the best care of yourself that you can. Definitely looking forward to any updates you share.

[@liamvella223]

Also it’s so easy to get sucked into agoraphobia when working from a home based shop. Not having to leave the house ever really can take its toll on us self employed people. I completely relate to you there.

[@tonyabdalla]

Cheers to you Lee for putting this out there. I can only imagine how tough that was to do, but can't help but think it was the first step towards your healing. Keeping that secret and hidden has got to contribute to your condition. Hope is a powerful thing, brother! Keep pushing on!!

[@timdesignsincolorado]

I appreciate your honesty, Lee! It's great to hear people get honest about their struggles; hearing other's struggles has always helped me validate my own. This is also the principle of 12-step meetings, which has helped me stay sober for almost 4 years now. Keep up the amazing work. We can ONLY kick ass if we have our own asses in check. You opening up will help others understand they need to open up and share about their mental health as well. Sending you love man!!

[@SarahWiseGarcia]

Lee I’ve been watching you for years and you’ve been the only one to really help me. All other channels and groups shame you for asking questions and starting out. They make it seem like if you don’t know what you’re doing already, you never will. Not everyone is born an expert and I really appreciate how you share your journeys in an HONEST way. I really appreciate your honesty all the time. Please update us on how you’re doing. Side note: I never had panic problems until after trying to quit smoking and taking Chantix .. I believe it’s banned now but it was around 2012.

[@chkrdmedia8785]

Wow. I actually had my first ever panic attack a few days ago; I never understood how crippling they could be until it happened. It really does feel like everything’s going wrong at once. Rad of you to be open about it, it’s nice knowing there’s other people that can relate to something that makes you feel so isolated

[@netwrkops]

Man by looking at you I would not have known you were going for through all that. Glad you were able to share as I know will help you as well as someone else. Know that I admire you as well as many others. Keep on pushing for relief. I’ll sent up a prayer for you.

[@leestuart38]

If this helps even one more person, then I'll be happy with my decision to put this out there. Thank you 🙏🏻

[@tjitskebes135]

Wow, i ve been following you for years, and struggling with the same agorafoby and panickattacks for nearly 20 years now, also in and out of multiple therapys, lost all confidence in therapists and psychologists. Love to look at people who accomplish stuff in their lives (like your channel) and never in a million years thought this would be something you struggle with. You re a badass, i live in holland but i’m right beside you😘

[@michaelraffety7787]

Thanks for sharing. This was a surprise from what we would have noticed from the you we've come to know from your helpful merch creating content. Wishing you the best in controlling the demons.

[@ParsonsDesigns]

You got this Lee! One day at a time. Thanks for sharing and being so open with all your community. I’m sure you know & it may not feel like it but you have support and I will be praying for the right help to come your way brother. 👊

[@brokenlegz]

Bro, well done for airing this. It will help other people. From the outside looking in, to me, I would have never guessed you’re going through this, but if you’re going through hell, don’t stop! You made a fucking business! That’s more than some people without mental problems do, to do that you are fucking strong. And I always thought you starting this business was something huge and I wish I could do it. I guess what I’m trying to say is, you’ve done really well, to me you are a strong person, then I watch this video and you tell me you’ve done it all with this “problem”, man, that is truly inspirational.

[@illuminationstation-33]

Just discovered you through searching for how to add texture to an image (thanks for that!). I really loved hearing your story, but more so just feeling grateful that you're sharing it! It helps alot of people to feel like they're not alone. The struggle is real, and we're in this together! I see your light brotha! 💪

[@dannyespaillat8798]

Stay focused Lee! Knowing the type person you are, I'm confident you'll figure it out on your own without meds! Definitely try the ice bath water therapy and earthing (barefoot on grass)..lastly, I salute you for opening up to these battles, as this will help others in your same situation. When you "suffer in silence", it makes things worse..

[@jaddreed9216]

You continue to inspire people that you probably don't have any clue that your inspiring. One thing for sure there are alot of people that struggle with mental health more now than ever. Your videos help me with some of my own. People aren't as passionate about doing things as they use to be. You definitely have that passion that you put in to your business and life. Things will get better and your problems today will be gone moving forward.

[@cpearson8]

Appreciate you sharing! We all have our own demons and mental health issues to overcome. We need to make this easier to talk about. You've got this! You've got plenty of great years ahead. Definitely keep the updates coming! Let's put in the fucking work!

[@leestuart38]

Thank you 🙏🏻. Talking about it is the first step towards smashing the stigma and fixing this

[@Ngloreusbasterd]

If there is anyone out there that would use this against you they arent worth the time anyway. You have an Army standing behind you brother. You do you and dont worry about anyone else. Love your content, keep your head high.

[@sunrisetacticalgear2676]

Thank you for sharing your very personal condition. There are so many people suffering from various forms of depression and anxiety. This video just may save someone, besides yourself. I’m a Middle aged man studying health and longevity, while working a home based business. I think you are on the right track with exercise and diet. I would highly suggest low carb or even carnivore. Cold plunge might also be helpful. My last suggestion would be to go on a guided mushroom trip. Your Community is here for you. Sincerely, Scott

[@K1da]

Hang in there! Don't think negatively about yourself. Think about all the great achievements that you've accomplished. When all *hope* is gone and seems death is a way out, think about the people around you, people who work for you, to them you are their *HOPE*. You are important! And you are Strong! Just keep on walking, one day at a time. Keep on going!

[@patty578]

Thank you for being part of the people breaking the stigma, we can’t ever stop talking about mental health especially in men.

[@jayjames5914]

I can relate having depression and anxiety sucks. I gave up on my business and dream as I couldn't cope. You have done amazing to get you business to where it is under such circumstance. And to make this video. We are all behind you.

[@trinawidders3535]

We love you Lee. Big hugs. Thanks for being vulnerable. You really do rock. Hang in there. Like someone else said get your B12 levels checked.

[@JestRR]

With great power, come great responsibility!! You know you have a following! You also know what it comes with!! Coming clean helps YOU, not the neh sayers! But setting a good example, and showing others the hard times, and that they are part of life, and not letting the demons eat you alive IS THE WHOLE POINT! That's how I took this vid. Not everything is an edited, perfect take! But you can make it a positive thing to learn from! Thank you!

[@timheathcote9294]

Hi Lee. Thankyou for sharing your story. I wanted to respond to you and anyone else out there who is struggling with Anxiety and depression to say, it does fix itself. I have been through it and have come out the other side. I didn't take medication, I didn't take on therapy, and when I was going through it there wasn't anyone that could help me. No one understood, and there wasn't anyone to talk to. I just tried to look after myself as best I could, eat healthy, exercise (as difficult as it was) and eventually the chemicals in my brain balanced themselves out. Anxiety is still with me, but in much more manageable form. When I feel it creeping up I make sure to increase my aerobic exercise (cycling) and this helps enormously. I will say it again: it does go away. And you don't have to put yourself in any type of extreme situation to force it to happen. The only pressure I put on myself was to do aerobic exercise and that seemed to work for me. With cycling you can start small, ride around the block, and increase the distance as you feel more comfortable. And you are in control of when you return back home. You are breathing in fresh air and getting a good dose of Vitamin D at the same time. There is no cost, no gym memberships or having to travel to a place to do the exercise. Its free and "freeing". If anyone needs to chat, send me a message.

[@HalfAssHomestead]

Lee, you are the reason why I own a print shop in the first place. I'm here with and for you.

[@higherlifeformstudios6823]

Wow... I started following you to learn how to screen print and build a business... Now I am following you to see how your mental health journey goes! You're an inspiration for both!! I too, have many of the same issues. A lot of us do! So first know that you're not alone. You got this!! Keep us posted Bro!! We care!

[@leestuart38]

I'll make sure to update periodically with what works. Thanks 🤘🏻

[@SarahWiseGarcia]

@@leestuart38please do!!

[@deathtrapindustries]

Good luck with everything man. I know the struggle. It isn't easy, especially when running a business. Take it one day at a time!

[@nicholasericaromano5641]

Proud of you! I enjoy watching your video's, you have been teaching me quite a bit. It is awesome that you are allowing folks to know you have mental illness. Please keep talking as you need, because it will also help.and we will listen.

[@scotlandskysurf8948]

Thankful to you for your vulnerability in this. I am confident that just like your channel’s tutorial videos you have such a purpose in teaching and helping others and through what you’ve suffered for so long. Love and prayers to you, thanks for all you do.

[@ryanmoor6267]

Man! Great job making this video and putting this out there! I believe in you and your plan and I can see in your stories and with this video it’s already working! Excited to see how this takes things to the next level for you and you sharing it will help more people too! 👊

[@lowtidecustoms1166]

You continue to inspire... even at your lowest. I know you will come out on top of this, it's what you do best!

[@vikingcanuck9205]

Hell yeah brother it’s not easy but you gota attack this shit on your own sometimes I never went to therapy and I definitely made some mistakes but being able to attack it my way and over come the anxiety’s and depression was so powerful have me a great footing to attack other issues I have. You got this man keep killing it with the videos keep the shop running right and now you’ve got a team you can trust to allow you to attack that mental health like you attacked the business and built it up! You got this man.

[@crackshotscreenprinting]

your fans are here and we support you brother. As BigMoose below said, I have watched you from the video where you installed the drying box in your basement. I went back and watched all you had before that. I have kept up with your videos since then. It inspired me to open my own shop and I too am much older than you, 58, and starting a new business.... scary stuff, but again, we are with you.

[@LoyalToThePress]

Lee thank you for sharing about your personal mental health. Whats great is you are taking steps to figure out and help yourself. I have a brother Corey who currently lives in Canada who has a very similar experience as you have been having. I think it has been about 7 years for him. He has done motocross for most of his life and has been in many accidents. Literally one day had a panic attack and went to the er because of it. His body did not cease up but from then on he would not leave the house he constantly had attacks. His heart rate would shoot so high and back to the er he would go. He worn heart monitors multiple times throughout the years to try and catch when he has an attack but every time he wore the heart monitor the attack seem to never come. To this day he has done everything possible to try and figure out how to fix it. He has had CT scan, MRIs of his entire body several times including his brain. He just recently got in contact with a neurologist and been doing therapy with a physiotherapist. He had never done any type of physical therapy after breaking his back years ago. He’s also had blood work done to see if or what he was deficient in and b12 apparently is what he was deficient on and he said that he can tell it’s been making a difference with how dizzy he had been feeling. Obviously everybody’s situation is different and it will take a while and a lot of work for you to figure out what’s going on with your body and brain, but I feel like hearing other peoples situation that is similar might help you go in a certain direction. You have a lot of people on here that admire you and will help you and I’m sure there are people in here that are in contact with the right type of people that can help you figure out what’s going on. I don’t know anything about panic attacks personally, but if I had to think about where they would come from, I would say the brain is a good place to start. I feel like everything comes from the brain and to me the brain is the heart of the body. You will figure it out and it will take time and patience. But you are in the right mindset for it and you have been for a long time. You just need to direct it towards your health like you said.

[@joshuahayden784]

Appreciate you being real. We all get it. I deal with same issues. Just know you’re not alone. Keep being you and handle what you need to be mentally where you need to be. We all love your content. Because you’re real. Appreciate the message and don’t beat yourself up about it.

[@heatherarneson3814]

Thank you for sharing and for your vulnerability!!! I’ve struggled with mental health for the past 15+ years, and it’s exhausting! And there are other supports out there. It can get better- keep going…

[@BrandonPich-204bloodweshare]

Man I give you big props. I grew up watching you freestyle snowcross and ripping’ dirt bikes and too see where you are at now

[@mattanderson7065]

Right there with you. Same thing since 1991. I rarely go outside ever. It's not an easy road.....art, keeping busy and meditation help keep things in check.

[@n2dchaos]

All that support to you bro you are an inspiration to me. I am older than you. I am stuck in my business right now. No growing for 2 years.

[@Jeffdoeswhat]

This is a huge step on moving forward. I know this had to be a hard video to make but at same time will help you connect with people with the same issue.

[@azizs4426]

Stay strong we all support you and I wish you recover from your issue as soon as possible!!

[@KillbarrackShoppingCentre]

It's okay to not be okay , and you're doing great. Hang in there Evel , now we know we got your back.

[@Apparelphernalia]

Bro I went through stuff like this for almost a decade. Look into the treatments for complex trauma disorder. We gotta be exposed to these things that can cause us to go into these types of mental states to reprogram ourselves to respond as if it’s okay. There’s this book called the body keeps the score I believe and the author really goes into detail about how the culmination of traumatic experiences in our lives basically conditions us. Our nervous system remembers the traumas even if we don’t remember them ourselves. When exposed to things even slightly similar our nervous system responds and puts us into that fight or flight mode producing that anxiety that’s so bad and lasts so long that your body physically starts to hurt and that impending doom feeling.

[@tornsoulclothing]

Wishing you wellness and healing. I started watching in 2020 and can’t thank you enough for all of your help. I’m where I am because of your step by step videos. Not quite where I want to be but plugging along for the long haul. I hope you can get the help you need and look forward to seeing you in the future.

[@PistolPeteHD]

Homie. I'm glad you are taking some steps to get through this. I go through the same things, not to the same extreme. But man I get it. We are here for you. I'm no medical professional but if you even need someone to talk to hit me up any time man.

[@daved1639]

Dude, had no idea - thanks for sharing. This is a huge step toward healing. And as always, well said and well done.

[@wrkuba]

Nice that You shared Your story. I love Your content and I think this video will give You not only a motivation but also a relief, and a good starting point for taking care of Your mental health. You are my small hero in the field of screenprint, a motivation and someone I look up to. Tons of love and support for You man!

[@Almightees70]

Thank you for sharing your struggles! We’re here for you and support you!!

[@ethanroman1112]

Good for you Lee! Thank you for opening up to us with your mental struggles. Proud of you man. You got this.

[@jeffmaynard1909]

Been there bro - you got this! This is the first step - you could help a lot of people with your reach - keep us updated if you feel like you can.

[@bigbearcanada1]

Thanks for sharing Lee. I have a good friend who reminds me of you in many ways. Like you he is extremely bright, learns new software very fast, always working on and developing new ideas and patents. He is entirely self taught and just a great guy all round. Like you he struggles with similar mental health issues. I was not aware for years until he shared his condition with me. I respect him even more today as I do you buddy! Keep your chin up and keep moving forward both physically and mentally. Hope to meet you one day. Big fan!

[@Ken-Sho]

Thanks for sharing Lee. From my experience, it always points to being compassionate with myself. Rooting for you. There’s no courage without fear.

[@blackskullincwoodshop1594]

Thank you for sharing man. I know its not easy getting your life back from your own head. Anything I can do to support I would gladly be disposable. Especially with your woodwork projects

[@KylaVerm]

That was so brave of you and required so much strength. So incredibly proud of you. Good for you for taking steps to get better. I hope that eventually you are able to find relief and possibly a great therapist who knows their shit.

[@stayphenomenalbranding]

Dude thank you for sharing this with us🙏 you’ve done an amazing job building something (your business and KZbin) now it’s time to really focus on YOU. There’s no business or KZbin without Lee Stuart.

[@leestuart38]

Thank you. That's the plan now, I need to fix myself so I can take all of what I've worked towards to the level it deserves

[@TRexTravis]

Thank you! It is and will never be easy to get as personal about struggles you are going through. I for one will say that i am proud as hell of you for bringing it all to light and taking the steps to try and get through it all in any way possible! Do the best you can and try not to be too tough on yourself(easier said then done).

[@mrjonnyjones]

I can't begin to image how hard this video was for you to make dude, but I'm in awe. You've shared tiny amounts of your struggles on IG but we had no idea how deep it went. No doubt you've also empowered so many others with your story. Those people will relate and, who knows, maybe this is a start of a support community! They'll want to join you on your journey to living a life almost free of mental struggles. Top man Lee, I wish you nothing but the best 👊

[@kayrasp]

Rooting for you. You got this ❤

[@leftlanesyndicate]

I admire your honesty and truly believe you can focus your energy on not only helping yourself but others. You’ve been doing it for years already.

[@vikingpiper]

You, sir, are an animal. I've been watching you for years, grow your empire. You've got this!

[@NurturedbyNatureStudio]

Thanks for sharing and I can relate. I had my first panic attack this year while driving over a bridge, I guess that’s a new thing for me. I’ve also retreated from the world in an unhealthy way. I appreciate you sharing something so intimate and know you will beat this. I’ll follow on IG so I can cheer you on! ❤

[@realestatehomework]

Lee, I understand the panic attacks too well! The stress of building a business can exacerbate it because it’s all we focus on, the pressure we place on ourselves and the level of perfection we try to reach. It’s also the burden we bear as creatives. Small trips doing things I look forward to has helped. Moments in nature can help as well as gut health. I’ve watched your videos since you started and you have helped so much! I was just telling a rep how your videos, the way you film, the troubleshooting and sharing your journey has been instrumental. In fact, we just got our first automatic! Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us and know you are not alone. You got this, one day at a time!

[@veronicapozas7444]

Oh man, you are so straight up. That’s what I love about your coaching and all your videos. To see you doing this is incredible and even though you are helping yourself, in turn it will help others. Amazing! All the best on your quest. 💗V

[@ferinpuleo1428]

You are an inspiration on so many fronts! I can’t wait to see you crush this shit!💖

[@Roterdrache_Store]

Your best Video yet Lee. Huge respect for sharing, you are not alone bro. You got this✌️

[@MegaLabLimited]

Right on, Lee. Being vulnerable isn’t always easy. This was a breath of fresh air. #PITFW

[@markboyer6486]

Good job Lee. Sharing your struggles will help you move forward

[@waynehiggins8587]

Thank you for the courage to share this video. Unfortunately I suffer some of the same issues. Not as severe as your symptoms, but nevertheless, it is an issue for me. I applaud you stepping out in doing this. Talking and sharing seems to me to be part of the healing up process. Take care man.

[@leatheronlids]

Hate to see you struggling and love that you put this out there, getting it out there is probably the best thing for you Lee. Really appreciate you and this channel. Sending love and positive vibes your way

[@VectorApprenticeGraphics]

Your Lee thanks for sharing. You've always been the man and you always will. I just want you to know that God is mindful of you plus am praying for you. Stay strong champ, you'll win again.