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[@AJ-bw3ep]

Mark has literally moved many times, different cars, different people around him, but one constant has always been Donny ❤️❤️

[@shawnkelley3695]

Donny, JP....♥️

[@teatravis]

❤❤❤💗💗💗

[@dangagne3347]

I real friend is always there. Donny & Mark really are friends for life. Beautiful to see, and great that they are there for each other. Reminds me of a story. When you call a friend at 3am because you need to talk: if he says “what the hell, why are you calling me at this hour” he isn’t a friend, he’s an acquaintance; if he answers with “don’t worry about the time, how can I help”, hold on to him - he’s a best friend.

[@marvkoenigskind]

I can’t explain how calming your videos are. If I have a day with a lot overthinking, I watch one of your videos and I feel so much better about myself

[@Dan-gg1je]

I was literally thinking the exact same thing

[@tikettle]

I was overthinking the same thing 😅

[@GrotrianSeiler]

Mark has the perfect voiceover voice. That’s part of it

[@caliphaawilson9388]

Almost 10 years later and i’m still watching! Freshman in high school when i started watching. Keep going Mark!

[@jjimenez_purr]

Damn seeing your comment made me realize that it’s really been 10 years 😮 love his videos and vibe ✨

[@stevec404]

I'm with you on the anxiety thing. Any time we face an abrupt situation change (mine was losing a job I had held for ten years) the door opens wide for anxiety. You conquered yours...I had my first day of work at my new (and way better) job today. Cheers!

[@minnis69]

As someone who has recently come out of a long term relationship, I can completely relate to getting the courage to go to the club on your own. I lost a lot of myself I think within my relationship and now as a 33 year old man I’m left trying to reclaim what I missed before but also figure out a way forward. It terrifies me how in my mind I get when I just have to remember everyone is most likely thinking about themselves and not thinking about you.

[@tstieber]

That last sentence is exactly on point. Ppl always feel like the eyes of the world are on them, when in fact we are all invisible unless we make ourselves noticed.

[@nightowl5475]

@@tstieberYou live and learn. It’s hard going back into single life after a long term relationship. But from my experience, time is the great healer. In the beginning, you always compare the new person to your ex. That’s not a good thing to do, even though you’re not consciously doing it. Everyone is different and has their own pluses. It’s a transition. Don’t be afraid to grow.

[@Mcflyeon]

It's good to hear that you've been growing within the past years with hard work but it's also good to have fun without overthinking things with us defining our heads and the world with our own choices and action. Going to a gay bar sounds spontaneous of you. Happy New Year to you too.

[@markchristopher9070]

OMFG! Your aunt is the cutest.....Love her...What great energy......And the swearing to boot...Priceless

[@mrnavigator3816]

You drama queen😂😂

[@iRonnie18]

So happy for you Mark! Stepping outside of your comfort zone is the best way to grow and learn more about yourself! Such a big step you took! ❤

[@andyweaver277]

We love you mark, your vlogging encourages us. Hearing others say what we often feel is important. Have an amazing and blessed New Year!

[@thechristoshow1]

So happy you stepped out of your comfort zone! Being alone isn’t always the easiest, I’m 27 and have never had a boyfriend, but as much as I’ve enjoyed getting to know myself I’ve lately been trying to push myself to get out around more people and try new things I normally wouldn’t just to expand more and build new relationships. Super relatable and thanks for sharing, been watching your channel since you first started you were probably the main person that gave me the courage to come out almost 10 years ago now! 🎉

[@mrnavigator3816]

Only 27 and you are lonely. Wait till you 50. Gay life can get pretty lonely and depressing. Good luck

[@ste.h9825]

Happy New Year Mark.Your words & thoughts mean so much.

[@marty88ish]

Proud of you Mark. Anxiety can be debilitating. It first hit me in my teens, of course around the time I came to terms with being gay. It’s been a lifelong struggle. Sometimes I feel like I’ve conquered it and other times I feel like I may never leave the house again. Stepping outside and participating in our community always helps. Well done.❤

[@hm2746]

Mark, you‘re on the right path. You deserve it. Have a fantastic new year.

[@OutLoudJB]

Your dad’s celebratory payback dance was everything 👌🏼

[@MattPoe742]

I’ve been meaning to do this and psych myself up because I HATE online dating. I normally love doing things alone cause you’re on your own time. Going to Disneyland alone was awesome. But a bar is totally a different story. Loved the prank too! 😂

[@motjon]

​@@ArlinGodwinI don't think OP was saying that there was anything inherently wrong with going to a bar. Just that it's challenging to go to a bar ALONE. Especially if you're already someone who has social anxiety.

[@MattPoe742]

@@motjon yes thank you!

[@chetanvinayak6799]

,@@MattPoe742 hi my name is Chetan I am gay myself their is nothing the matter with going to places you enjoy going I would love to go to a gay bar oh yeah nice to meet you

[@scottsaunders5087]

Love your honesty. I’m single and cannot imagine to going a bar on my own so your way ahead of me !

[@brunerguy1]

Another post: after watching this channel for so many years, I have a sense that probably a lot of us would feel comfortable chilling with you low key and just trying to be friendly. So glad Donny has been there for you. Have a terrific new year.

[@privatekbj]

This Channel is my Happy Place 🥰 I Laugh, I cry, I get mad and i Love it!!!

[@Doraphobic]

your vibe and energy are always calming even when the topic of the video isn't been around for years, happy new year to you mark wish you more self love this year (and to you who's reading this)

[@matt_phx]

Great to hear where you’re at now Mark. Seems like a nice coincidence to see that guy again and a nice gesture for him to say hello! 😊

[@PkmnLovr1]

I love how honest you are about your mental health Mark. You are so so so so so so honestly cool for being honest about your mental and emotional experiences. It makes you 5000% relatable. Social anxiety is real so I can actually truly understand what it feels like to never have anxiety in your life and then suddenly experiencing extreme, intense anxiety. You are truly a human being who is not perfect and is going about his life as best as he can. You are like me and I love that about you. I do like you as a person also just for the record. I think we might actually become good friends if circumstances would have it ☺️😉✌🏽✌🏽

[@lighthouse66]

Wishing you a really Happy New Year, dude! It’s so weird though, this, you having 650,000 subscribers, half of which for sure would give up one arm to be your boyfriend and husband for ever, but having too much social anxiety to make it happen….. Just saying. We love you so much!

[@sherburnjayram2468]

💗💝💗

[@landonbecker1745]

Can you post a home decor tour and what stuff you have? The vibe of your apartment is immaculate and the warm lighting is exactly what I want!!

[@jasonbathurst3199]

Mark it's so good to see you feeling back to yourself again, any break up can be rough and it was obvious you were having a rough time. So proud of you and the journey you are now on again!

[@chrisparry1192]

Love your vlogs,they are so calming and make a hell of a lot of sense,I've used some of the things you mentioned in your vlogs to help me move forward,and you said that you were going to try not to over think things this year ,that's a big problem I have,as I suffer with depression,so this year I'm going to try and not over think things and see how it goes,Happy New year Mark hope it's a great one,and thanks for your great vlogs .

[@Sesso20]

Hi Mark, I havent watched your videos in a while, also kind of break-up related. And seeing you, is really refreshing. I am in the middle of the video and never realized that you had social anxiety. I had it for most of my life and now I am at a point where its rarely a problem too. Last year I had my first holidays alone in a different country - as a little challenge for me and it was beautiful and awesome. Still having a hard time going into a bar alone. Kudos to you, you are very brave and I admire your willingness to fight the beast. This is a little personal, but you are such a sweet and lovely soul, dont let your beast tell you otherwise. 🙂 Greets from Germany, To -

[@darkzomb]

Mark, I totally get the apprehension about going out, I hate going out alone. I wasn't too fond of goign out to gay bars, and then i went through a break up and it really messed with my confidence, and I still dont go out often. just occasionally to a local place for Kareoke night. I am terrified that people are gonna think im a creep cuz I am there alone, think I have no friends, judge/ignore me... its utterly nonsense. and I know that, but its still something I struggle with.

[@bradleyklaver278]

Thanks Mark. Long time viewer and first time commenting. The simplicity of your videos is very calming and relatable. You’re genuine and authentic self come through each and every time. I’m battling anxiety right now too and can totally relate to what you said. Your video gave me hope. Will keep working on my s*%$ and hope to make progress this year. I’m probably a couple steps behind you atm but a similar journey to what you described. Thanks again

[@_nezmo_]

Not many people today know how to socialize in person let alone on the apps. When I turned 30, I went to Europe (I'm from Aus) on my own for 6 weeks. I learnt to step out of my comfort zone as I had no friends with me. The experience really helped me grow as a person and changed me for the better. I went to bars on my own and ate at restaurants on my own. I can't suggest it enough for people to experience.

[@johnjonen1725]

Mark, I’ve been exploring many KZbin channels hosted by gay dudes over the last few years to help with my mental gay health and to help me try to come out. I stumbled on to your channel this evening and watched about 6 of yours. Your honesty, humor, charisma is off the charts! Plus you have a beautiful body and are so handsome and happy… you give me hope down my path of coming out and start this journey of searching for someone. John from the Mile High City… peace out and thanks!

[@justlookin3]

I acknowledge you for your bravery and contribution you make with sharing your KZbin channel with us. Thanks

[@transpirit20]

We're with you, Mark, in this new phase of your life.

[@DutchGameMen]

I’ve also been struggling lately with social anxiety. So to go out alone is a huge step!

[@lelandpeck4585]

Hey Mark, I hope that this year will be a very prosperous, and happy one for you!!

[@MsKorianna]

I love the editing and vibe of this video. The esthetic of this video is different and it's working for me lol

[@MsKorianna]

Also, your poor mom she's so sweet

[@CCGR-2024]

I enjoy your videos especially how you freely admit you have social anxiety and then talk about your growth dealing with it. You are cute and easy on the eyes as well! ❤

[@nikkilogan7726]

Love the part of: Going to a gay bar alone... Its some sort of confidence & happiness. Also love the part of being pranked! 😂 Your dad is a great pranker!😎🥰👍 Love your videos Mark! Happy 2023!! 😎💖🎉🎊✨

[@Sameon94]

Mark uploads I immediately watch I am happy and content.

[@Jarrod323]

This whole tea/walking Olive sequence with the funky music had me giggling 😂

[@specialzuk]

Ride the wave. Learning to be you again can be fun without having to worry about someone else's experience.

[@bryanfujimoto]

Thank you. I smiled and laughed so many times throughout your video. Happy New Year!!!!

[@lewismabe8946]

Happy New Year Mark.... Thanks for all you do for this subscriber ❤

[@ady8097]

Wishing you a fabulous 2023 Mark. I’ve followed your vlogs from the beginning. You’ve grown into a wonderful person. Hugs from London 😍

[@OLDS98]

I have been catching up on the few videos of yours I missed. I did not watch them in order. Thank you for opening up and sharing the many aspects of your life as you are on the journey discovering things and growing in the process.

[@Auleymoley]

You always have the funkiest tunes ever during your videos it’s the best

[@gary.joseph]

You are and this video is an inspiration to me because I am also one to be stuck in my own head, a constant over thinker and have general anxiety when anticipating any kind of social event. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself. It really helps those of us who are feeling the same way. Taking small steps forward and being empowered by small successes is what helps me but there are many days where anxiety is knocking on the door. It makes me feel good that you feel good about your night out experience. I wish you many more moments like these and thanks again for just being you. 🙂

[@MrYesko]

Hey Mark live life, break your heart a thousand times, living is fun and painful for everyone, most of our lives will be spent alone with ourselves according to statistics, better to live and feel things than not feel anything... I love you much favorite gay youtuber, greetings from Peru, hugs from here

[@hasitha6568]

happy new year! I also went to bar myself, on New Year’s Eve. It felt like a “universe” moment that you uploaded this vlog with this title and expressed the exact same thoughts that I had/have. Here’s to more growth and peace.

[@decpticons_destroy]

Mark, I know how hard it is coming out of a long term relationship. I was with a guy for 6yrs but he had a gf. It was 6yrs of joy when i was with him but also 6yrs of shame and guilt coz what I was doing to the gf was horrible. I’m now 41yo, single for the last 6yrs and going through depression and social anxiety. Like you, I never had anxiety until after the breakup because I feel so lonely and unwanted after every hookup. All my friends are straight (the gay ones all live overseas as I met them while travelling to gay parties) and married with children. I too have to find every ounce of will power and courage to go to gay bars/places alone but was never able to make friends because of my anxiety. I don’t know if I’ll ever find the right guy for me coz. I think I’m hoping to find my soulmate who will give me the strength and courage to come out to my family. But you’re such a genuine, caring and grounded guy I have no doubt you will find your +1 and live happily ever after ❤

[@jamiechristmas3609]

Made me genuinely smile seeing you happy about your bar experience 💛

[@jcstone5225]

i’m in complete agreement about the app idea!! so needed

[@jrose3001]

That's growth, right there. Well done Mark.

[@AugustEverywhere]

Random Denver photo guy showing up twice sounds like some fate thing from a movie.

[@danielhm6885]

Cheers for a 2023 full of new experiences, lets walk this new amazing path 🎉

[@octaviofranco329]

You’re a brave guy!, at least braver than me. Once I went to a gay bar here at my city I was terrified! Never did it again. I’m terrible socializing by myself; l always have to be with friends otherwise I’d prefer to be at home. Sending hugs from GDL Mex. Have an awesome year full of blessings and more success!! 🤗 ❤

[@louisdewit4429]

Yet i hope you will break out of that. Most guys at those places are like you. They all feel a bit awkward. They might need you as a companion. 😊. (And an attractive one too).

[@rashaunspiller5571]

Hey Mark, just wanted to let you know I love your videos. You have helped me through alot. I thought I was the only one that has felt this way for a long time... So thank you so much for all you do....

[@Warpali]

Lol at the prank! Looks like a fun household 🥰

[@keepitsmooth9498]

Seeing a good looking, healthy and nice guy like yourself struggle and talking about it makes me feel less bad about myself. We all go through some shit in life, but being open about it and try to have a positive attitude towards the world is the right way to handle it. Kudos man

[@GrotrianSeiler]

That friendship with Donnie is priceless

[@dbm92]

Socializing and going out can be SO important for mental health!

[@michaelarthur3691]

so much emotion captured in a short bit of time. be proud of yourself, celebrate little wins, sending so much love your way.

[@darbat]

One thing I've hated since being gay, single and in my 30s is that my straight friends have gotten married and started having kids. And I feel like they're maturing into dads while I'm still in a prolonged state of being in my 20s. I wonder if Mark is starting to feel the same when he's around Donny.

[@louisdewit4429]

Yes. We all do. There are several videos here on YT about thirty guys who are out and proud but due Gay guys not evolving into mature relationship seekers and keepers are left by themselves and fear loneliness. I am single 65 year old. I experienced this but was of the first generation that was able to come out without too many problems. 10 Years after stonewall. I always figured that connection beyond a hookup was difficult because of hangups from childhood or millennia of discrimination. Still difficult family situations etc. But nothing changed. That is bad ánd might be part of the reason for all this anxiety. What does make me feel better is YT videos about Gay relationships with kids. I love and envy them. Perhaps things change slowly. Good luck 👍 😊❤

[@QuincyDisneyVegan]

Mark, Thank you for uploading this! I'm in similar situation, where after years of anxiety and anticipation, I'm finally going to go alone inside my first gay bar. I've picked up and dropped off many people and dear friends that actively go to several, and so I know where they all are, but at long last I've finally chosen one to walk into.

[@nicob2063]

Omg I love aunt Katie! She is a beautiful human!

[@iPhonePhan]

Proud you made it out on your own. Takes a lot more courage than ppl can understand and a good sign of an intrepid / inquisitiveness mindset. Hitting the clubs and partying to the wee hours of the morning could be the next level of getting out and putting yourself out there. Trust me, a lot of folks in the clubs are actually lonely and seeking any kind of human contact so you’ll make friends easily ❤🎉😊

[@jomccutcheon2173]

Happy New Year Mark, have an awesome 2023, You're family is amazing!!!

[@jaynade2248]

Happy new year!

[@katiewilliams5643]

Do athletic greens always sponsor your videos because you are incredible and you and Donnie are amazing. Two best friends hanging out sounds likes fun I love your videos and I love it when Donnie are in them

[@EiFoncka]

I’m so proud of you 💖 you can do it boy! I’m pretty sure that you will do it. Don’t doubt about yourself! You’re enough! You’re valuable! You’re a complete and great guy! Send you a big hug.

[@a.j.stauft1779]

I'm so happy for you and your victory with the bar..I ended a 2 yr engagement and coz he hangs at the bars and downtown I don't go anywhere .☺💪👍💋❣

[@19Demeter]

I'm terrified of going to gay bars, of what I have experienced it just being seen and seen by. No interaction at all, you get rolling eyes even before you can start a conversation. If online dating on grindr has judging people, with no responding, but getting ignored or mean looks in real life.... no thank you.

[@filipesantos6071]

I had the same experience with hanging out by myself last Saturday. Tbh, it was kinda of weird at the beginning, but becomes fun and cool at the end. I think we as social humans need sometime with ourselves time to time. Enjoy your own company. It’s worth it!

[@brunodinora9283]

thank you for your video, just had this conversation with my best friend and I think everyone should try it. I've travelled abroad by myself and I can't reccommend enough. Somehow a busy place like a gay bar full of people, I can't seem to do it but good on you Mark!

[@TheGor800]

Love you, Mark and love the person you are and have become. Please don’t change. Your post are encouraging, uplifting, and insightful. Thank you so much for your KZbin post. Please keep them coming. And loved your Dad having revenge. 😊

[@Shalott63]

Happy new year, Mark! I hope you do have more fun this year.

[@finalGambitShedinja]

i went to the gay bar alone for the first time last week!

[@davidmcclellan9959]

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2023 MARK AND I LOVE YOU LOVE DAVID

[@jones922000]

I love those sequences that start at 6:27! So much art in different perspectives.

[@sherburnjayram2468]

12:25 with Olive on the Couch 🐕 the way get pampering so adorable 😍 💕 .

[@johnmoon2734]

Always courageous, always beautiful, always wonderful, thank you! Happy New Year, Mark! 💖

[@literallychristopher]

I love going to the bars on my own! it's easier to approach people than our anxiety lets us think.

[@smithmen]

anyone remember when olive first joined the channel? seems sooo long ago, and yet just like yesterday 💖 would love more olive footage!

[@Powerpuff772]

Your videos are seriously the besssstttt, Mark. 😭

[@sufyanlowel4631]

Oh Mark. I first saw you about eight years ago. I was a disconsolate widower and you were a happy couple. You were the light that kept me going, thank you very much. It's amazing how with modern technology you can influence the lives of complete strangers just by talking about yourself. Time has passed. A lot of things happened and I didn't follow you. I didn't follow anyone in fact. Now I'm happy as a couple, again. Well.. I wish you love, Mark. Like that song in the movie with Ashley Judd I wish you bluebirds in the spring To give your heart a song to sing And then a kiss But more than this I wish you love

[@shanetaylor9307]

So glad you went out and had a good time! Sometimes just gotta push ourselves and get out haha and omg the scratcher was so funny 😂😂

[@flavia230]

What a lovely&funny video and you got some nice beautyshots from the chai-making!

[@jrjr4843]

Mark, once again I laughed out loud (alone again) sooo hard watching your family prank! I LOVE ❤❤❤ your videos dude, been watching from the very beginning!!

[@RaskylC]

watching your videos always bring some extra light into my day haha :3

[@summeroflove394]

I came back from a short Europe trip and went to the gay bars alone. It gets a little awkward initially but people are usually very nice. I avoid places with young crowd as most of them are already in groups.

[@joubaierjoubert7748]

I RELATE TO WHERE YOU ARE ATM SOOOOO MUCH KEEP PUSHING FORWARD MARK

[@balazsfeher7760]

damn I felt so bad for your aunt, she was so adorable wanting to share the money with you haha

[@chasedean]

Always watch your videos when I need them the most without even realizing lol 😂 thank you for sharing the good and bad and I also may have to go to the club alone now despite how much it intimidates me so thank you for you and your inspiring outlook ❤❤❤❤

[@BojanKordic]

This video was so fun to watch 😂😂😂

[@SamSmithVev0]

The tea making part of this video was serving “how starbucks ads are made” vibes!! Haha.

[@tomjanowski8584]

Been single for 20 years and I like it that way. I go to dinner, movies, vacation all alone. I think I have always been comfortable with myself in any situation. I still go to movies and dinner with friends, but that gets so complicated when it comes to picking a place to eat or a movie to see.

[@whitewatersflame]

So many lovely moments captured in this video. I wish you more of the same in '23!

[@treyvonnecarter8908]

I’m short on cash atm because I just paid for my school in full but I’ll get your product later ❤❤😂 I’ve been looking for super greens ❤

[@joshfallen8069]

Happy New Year y'all. Great Vlog, per usual Mark!

[@michaelmetcalf2715]

Happy 2023 Mark. Love you're content and channel. Much continued success and happiness 😊. We share the same initials. Way cool. In school my friends called me M & M 's like the candy. 💪💪👑👑

[@zackzada]

Great overall message, keeping pushing and growing.