What It's Like To Live With Schizophrenia

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[@qxob2123]

I don't appreciate people wanting to kill me either. Like how rude can they be GAWD

[@notrosie3339]

I know right? There's a camera right up in the sky that's watching me right now and broadcasting and I don't know if you're in on it but it's broadcasting across the universe and I heard them last night recording and they stuffed up its so fucking rude honestly like they don't even try

[@qxob2123]

not Rosie Oh you're the person that my company is spying on? Oh DUDE i'm so sorry! I'll make sure to keep everything quite for you- terribly sorry

[@notrosie3339]

+Marty can't see the light so positive

[@joshjosh1160]

Xob he so fake im tired of these lazy people claim skitsophrenia is so great and a blessing theyll be homeless one day and in prison for fraus longer they go frauding the system

[@greta1115]

That little smile when you talked about hanging out with her :D good to see you happy

[@jzj095]

"I don't appreciate people trying to kill me" "its so rude when they talk when im trying to sleep" XD love his humor about it

[@UpDownMichelle]

"Why do voices have to happen right when you're trying to sleep. That's just rude." I literally laughed out loud. At my desk at work. It's right on though, that shit gets a million times worse at night. And why? Like you said... it's just rude.

[@torealreality4207]

Those hallucinations sound so scary Creepy demon girls always freak me out! You're really brave facing that every day

[@juliannar9376]

You're lucky that you don't give a fuck about your appearance but you're still completely gorgeous

[@Nepenthesis]

how come people dont care about their appearance and they have amazing hair but i comb my hair and try to make it nice and i look like a fucking cassowary with a feather disease like wtf

[@briannahmaria8270]

+Nepenthesis honestly meeeee omg

[@Nepenthesis]

Briannah Maria i think i look pretty similar to this guy (face) except for the hair so i look fucking dumb unless i get a buzz cut but then i look like a neo nazi so theres just no winning like ugh

[@sunflower-mm4wd]

You are looking better and happy Jacob, I really wish you the best of luck

[@hotpotato265]

+Nepenthesis Cut your hair on the sites short and your front long.

[@Moon_samurai128]

I'm so happy that you're social and enjoying life again. You're making so much progress and that's inspirational. So many people who have mental illnesses (especially schizophrenia) are told they'll be lonely/single/friendless and won't be able to maintain relationships but I'm so happy to see you're proving them wrong! I'd love to see a video on that topic

[@PersonWeird]

Dont want to sound shallow or something but you're incredibly good looking!

[@noah-iy5ry]

you do sound shallow. getting sick of these comments and women thinking this kind of behavior is okay. if men do it its catcalling/objectifying.

[@PersonWeird]

+noah I'm sorry no one ever complimented the way you look so you dont know shit about it but as long as its not overly sexual or something its actually ok to compliment someone. So stop being petty(:

[@noah-iy5ry]

Im not an ape so i dont care if people dont compliment how i look (we live in the 21st century). i just want to know how is his attractiveness relevant to this video. and maybe you're too dumb to realize this but there is a double standard

[@PersonWeird]

+noah bruh you just admitted that no one compliments you 😂😂😂 comments are here for people to say whatever they want whats irrelevant is what you consider relevant lol no one cares. Also if a man is complimenting a woman kindly without making it sexual she'll appreciate it as well too bad you dont know how to compliment woman lmao

[@NebulusVoid]

look noah, I suppose you're here because you think you have schizophrenia, you possibly have schizoaffective because... you're bipolar a/f. You know compliments are kinda really give you a good feeling lol

[@sturm_werther]

I think your followers would love it if you did a Q&A. I would also appreciate if you did a video about anxiety or paranoid anxiety.

[@qxob2123]

Paranoid Anxiety? You mean ANXIETY

[@qxob2123]

A. Fitzpatrick ikr

[@kaitlynnrenee631]

thank you so much for your videos. My cousin who I grew up with was diagnosed with schizophrenia about a year ago. She has gone down a really awful path and her family (myself included) have no idea how to handle the symptoms. Everything I've seen of this illness is severe and she looks so lost all the time. But you clearly have the ability to function and rationalize and it's so encouraging, you said it started out really bad- I was worried she would just get worse but this gives some hope. thanks.

[@dankmemeslol9808]

Kaitlynn Renée ii

[@yasmina8348]

I just found your channel the other day and I'm pretty sure I've watched nearly every video

[@brittanypatterson4840]

I'm just now finding your channel and I love how open you are about mental illness. I work at a mental health facility, so I love seeing someone trying to help people understand this difficult topic. So many people have misconceptions about people with mental illness and even though I don't struggle with schizophrenia, I appreciate your videos so much because you can help so many! Thank you for sharing your personal experiences and I look forward to seeing new videos from you! 😀

[@Polyfusia]

Having trouble dealing with my own illness lately. Keep spreading the word man. Well wishes.

[@giuliopalumbo8153]

You're such an amazing person, I hope heartily that you'll deal with your symptoms always at the best that you can. - a big hug from Italy

[@AA-jv5hg]

Awesome channel bruh, feel less alone. Had 2 psychotic episodes and my experiences with mostly audio hallucinations, pretty similar to yours. Still on meds...

[@acatnamedbeef]

There was an ad in the middle of the video and then I checked to see how many subscribers you got now and it's 18,000! That 3x as much as it was the last time I checked.

[@rebeccamendez2691]

Plz keep making videos - it's very interesting to listen to you - if u can speak on what the voices say to you and why - what you see on a daily basis - you can talk about what you experience on a daily basis - we can learn from whatever u go through

[@eileen729]

It's 2019 now, but this year I wanted to tell people at my school what's its like so they really know how hard it is for people to live with it. You really helped me with this video!! I'm so proud that you share your experience to the internet! Keep it going and stay strong

[@delairdelair5526]

You are such a good person, you are so genuine, thanks for being the person you are. I'm facing social anxiety. I know it's not completely the same as schizophrenia but I understand what you're going through. Please stay strong you are not alone ok ? With much love from Paris ❤️

[@user-iy6vk4gq8w]

You seem to be doing much better .I'm glad to see meds are helping.🙂

[@rowanthomas9181]

Just saw Anna Campbell's video, loved yours to as it gives the view of a 'patient'. And I don't mean that in a negative way or something I really loved this and feel for you. I have a friend who has early onset schizophrenia and we try to make him aware of it and try to help him by just listening to him and trying to get him to a therapist or something.

[@kimiantumblod7654]

Dude, nothing but good vibes for you man. You have amazing self-control. I hope everything works well in your life.

[@kevinmarcolin4044]

Thanks for this. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia recently and this has helped me with a number of different things. I was like you too always involved with sports and activities and I loved to learn. But recently my hallucinations and voices took me away from all that. The important thing I took from this video is I have to stay strong through all that. This really helped me.

[@coreywills2000]

u got a real calming voice and u seem real chilled I like watching your videos relax me

[@boojoo1234]

Thank you for having the courage to make this video. A good friend of mine killed himself last week, after his death we found out he had schizophrenia. He had not told any of his life long close friends about his illness. Maybe if he had been open about it like you, the support we could have given him might have helped him not feel so alone and not do such a thing. Thanks for raising awareness, I too have a mental illness, bipolar disorder, and it is not something that anyone should attach stigma to.

[@priscillamathews4671]

Did you find that stress made your symptoms worse? Do you have triggers? what are your triggers? Suggested topics.

[@hannahpereira8508]

My lecturer linked us to watch your video! You have so much courage!

[@terryabate9231]

Your description of your schizophrenia is like mine I’m so glad you are sharing I feel like I’m not alone

[@sarahbucket8037]

I just woke up too & so happy to see you uploaded a vid :)

[@jackster330]

i had a short schizophrenic episode too for a few months but man is it tough... the worst its gotten was probably near insanity and almost losing my mind because i couldn't control my thoughts and it hurt just to think. I've also had encounters where I think demons are in my room and feel their presence but not sure if that was related to my schizophrenia or not. hopefully God will heal you and you can live in peace man.! keep ur head up this isn't the end.

[@fgfgfg4]

Omg i just discovered your channel and you just uploaded

[@suntzu5562]

You are a truly amazing man. Your story is so inspiring.

[@DavidFiveThirteen]

i'm an aspiring psychiatrist and i deeply appreciate your videos. thank you for training a new generation a physicians to help others like yourself!

[@erinashley6970]

I find it really interesting to learn about this topic! & I would have never guessed you had an illness if you weren't talking about it. I'm sorry you have to live with this but you seem to handle it pretty well at this point. & I just have to mention your a very good looking guy hopefully you can find an amazing person to spend your life with!

[@jinn4490]

I don't really remember how I was before I started getting ill either. It's depressing. And every time I try to move forward I can feel the stress taking me back towards psychosis. So on top of not having the motivation to go on with my life, I'm constantly fearful that I will fall back into psychosis trying. I agree with you in that you just have to stay strong. I just often wonder if I can keep it up is all.

[@SkittlesInYourHand]

Hope you're still doing okay.

[@Minty1337]

I also have schizophrenia, and I love your videos, they make me feel less alone in my thoughts, you are awesome. and yes, I have noticed I also don't care about looks at all, I look kinda like complete trash.... random question, if you have had a positive hallucination, what's your favorite and what was it like?

[@Minty1337]

+Andy Jones nope... but I have long conversations with voices in my head, but I have less visual and more auditory hallucinations

[@Minty1337]

+Andy Jones Huh, most of the time for me, my visual hallucinations are normal, something you may expect, but something is always off...

[@cannibalcaterpillar2212]

Derpy Hooves I've had some positive ones!

[@Minty1337]

Rad!

[@taylorstanley4379]

Andy Jones hey Andy I know it's been 9 months since your post but yea your first post pretty accurately describes what happens with me. I have managed to work through the negative symptoms and I'm starting to see things like what you describe. I think schizophrenia is like being tuned in with the spiritual world and most people don't know how to rationalize their experiences. They just write it off as dillusions and paranoia.

[@wtfellification]

You're doing great dude :) not many cope with this like you do I would really like to hear you say something more about your lsd experience, which you've mentioned in some other video...Because I think it might have brought me negative symptoms. I'm in a sort of a permanent trip, part of me just 'stayed there'.. but luckily no positive symptoms anyway, keep up, love you

[@Loenter]

I love your way of thinking :). Love your videos!

[@lilou955]

Hey, this is really interesting to watch, and I can imagine especially helpful for those going through Schizophrenia themselves! Well wishes to you :)

[@sunflower-mm4wd]

Glad to see you happy Jacob :-) you are doing good.

[@emilyanomaly1994]

I stumbled upon your channel and I wanted to say thank you for sharing. I am recently diagnosed and I am having a hard time with the diagnosis. I feel very alone so I have taken to KZbin to find other people like me.

[@julianunez114]

interesting videos. here for you man. good luck.

[@CindyNyxRavenmoon]

I'm so glad that you got out to see someone. It's good to be with people you trust.

[@tonkacalmetta622]

i see so much diffrence in ur behaviour from a first video u posted. It seems ur doing so much better. Ur awsome!

[@Mauamone]

I don't have schizophrenia but some other weird shit and I gotta say it's kind of comforting hearing from someone who has somehow similar problems eventhough caused by a different issue. Always remember to keep your head up.

[@savvyann4918]

Thank you for posting this video, it's comforting to see how someone else deals. The paranoia is constant, and distracting. How do you handle the everyday struggles? Are you upfront with everyone concerning your mental health, employers, co-workers, friends, etc? I personally don't share the information with anyone in my professional life for fear of stigma. If you've already posted a video about handling your mental health in public/professional environments disregard my comment, I just haven't seen it yet. But if you haven't addressed the issue could you? Thanks :-)

[@92mattster]

I'm so sorry for saying this, especially under such a serious, personal and open video, but I just have to say that I think you are so beautiful. Usually I don't comment shallow stuff like this but I just wanted you to know. Now you do. Also, thanks for sharing and talking about this. I found it extremely educational and interesting. Plus I believe that we all should talk more openly about mental illnesses in general so thanks for doing that as well. :)

[@TigersLullaby125]

You should do a vid on bipolar disorder. I have it and it would mean a lot if you made one. Even if you don't know much it's good to be educated.

[@420StonedToParallels]

Can you clarify this for me cause i read different stuff that gives me mixed answers but what causes Schizophrenia? Is it something that you're born with from birth or can someone just randomly get it?

[@ezraswag1998]

420StonedToParallels you can be predisposed to it via your genes and certain factors can kind of "set it off"

[@ezraswag1998]

If it's in your genes, it still usually doesn't affect you until your early twenties

[@arcticcatkickass]

I respect you for talking about it. I have mental illnesses of my own but my best friend has bad skitzo. Its terrible. He is on medication has been for a few years he wasn't this way at one point in time bug now he will be forever

[@staceynagi]

Just a quick genuine question. when you say you only have 5 shirts are you including the one on your wall as well?

[@gloriacee1506]

You should a q&a video ,we wanna get to know you more. Much love xxxx

[@user-ky7rt4hp1h]

I no this is an old video but it helps so much keep making videos

[@kekelovesskonkas]

when i was in boot camp, i would always think people were trying to poizen me. every time i would leave my canteen somewhere, when i got back and i would empty it and clean it. same with my food. i would always think people were plotting to kill me when i got out and shit. i couldn't sleep. i was paranoid af. it lasted a couple more months when i got out of boot camp too. that was last year from January all the way through June. its all gone now doe.

[@PuRpLeDiNoSaUr0912]

I am new to your channel so I apologize if you've already spoken about this but let's say I have a psychotic episode around people who don't know what to do. What should they do to minimize the episode? Can they do anything?

[@andresfelipe619]

My baby brother was just diagnosed with schizophrenia recently. We haven't spoken in many years but I'm hoping that these videos will help me understand what he's going through when we do meet again.

[@vegangurly]

This I very interesting to watch. My mother was schizophrenic but never sought help. My family tried but she was aggressively adamant that her delusions were real. She thought that the government was trying to kill her and that they put an infection inside of her when my younger brother was born. She would pick at her skin obsessively and then point to those wounds and try to claim them as evidence to her claim that "the people" were hurting her. She kept the scabs and made messages out of them for her abusers. My childhood was odd to say the least. I always have wondered how different our lives would be if she had ever gotten on medication. I am not sure where she is now. I don't intend to seek her out.

[@musicspeaks0101]

Can you please do a video on anxiety/panic disorder? Thank you, I love your videos :)

[@franciscojesus6]

Do a Q&A!

[@LivingDead53]

For me, when I had fear, it was a scary feeling that would create a mirage for me that was more of a delusion but there to me. It would shock my mind. I've gone through delirium and other states where I've seen bleeding eyed people and dead people and a bunch of other stuff, but my hallucinations like yours were delusions of impressions.

[@DiabolicalButler]

i have your next topic: How schizophrenia affects romantic relationships

[@lunaj._.]

I'm a new subscriber from korea. I like your story! 🙋🏻

[@sumnosun7631]

Hey I just want you to know that as a scitsophrenic... this is a great video. It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one, you know? Thank you, for this.

[@acatnamedbeef]

I always thought you looked really thin in your older videos but the fact that you thought your food was poisoned explains that. But I think you look better now!

[@ghosthunter012]

Question about the clothing topic, do you ever go through fits of heavily giving a shit about appearance only to have no results. I have this disorder and relate to the "not giving a shit" look but sometimes go through a week of wanting to wear sick shit, but get talked out of it, as a result of the voices. (obviously)

[@porcupineracer2]

Looking at videos across the internets about people with this issue, man, you guys always look exhausted. Is that just from the constant looking over the shoulder from the paranoia, sapping your energy?

[@Feelsgoodman9]

Hey man, you should really look into Sarcosine. I've been schizophrenic since i was a kid and this stuff saved me. All my suicidal thoughts and paranoia are gone and i only take the sarcosine, no rx. I highly recommend it to you and anyone else suffering from schizophrenia and depression. No bad side effects and it's cheap, look into it!

[@maryshibilski4907]

what are ur dreams and aspirations about illness and life? by the way ur videos @ Monday help me out guite a bit. I sometimes feel like I can go on and then there's my 2 bad days of the week. Hope to see ur video next week! pal, mary.

[@rarecockneyguvnor4945]

Your a lovely person and I wish you get well I wish you all the happiness please god help this nice young man.

[@jessicaapplegate6819]

You could do a video of what kind of hallucinations you have, what they are like, and how they affect your everyday life.

[@Francisco-ih1iy]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@stasi200xo]

i dont have schizophrenia but I have severe OCD and its always the worst at night I can never sleep bc of my compulsions. Mental illness likes to show up in the worst situations!

[@mmmmsk11]

can you tell more stories of your specific hallucinations? btw you are an awesome person :)

[@nobarknomad4685]

A Q&A would be pretty cool. I don't know much about schizophrenia, but you seem really mentally strong and I'm actually wondering how you stay so mentally strong like you do. Not trying to be weird or personal

[@leslieroha]

I wish I had snapchat, quick question, you think it will help you if you gradually ignore the illness, maybe travelling, doing some camping or going to the Beach? changing your surroundings

[@darthvader2994]

i really REALLY like your face and i'm straight, damn boi well done :)

[@nztgadapt3777]

I've had tactile hallucinations before my paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis, it was bugs under my skin at first and then a spider like a tarantula size on my neck, and i tried swiping it off but it was as if my fingers went straight through it and I thought "It better not bite me" and then it did and i freaked out so I ran to the mirror to look for red marks because I truly felt it.

[@nztgadapt3777]

But no marks it was just in my head

[@marrun7708]

Thank you for sharing- Thank you for keep on going- i do not have this mental issue- believe me- everyday it is struggle to keep on going- different issues- still it is hard- keep sharing please- keep sting!!! M-

[@Giemme8791]

Amazing and disturbing video, thank you.. Isn't there a way to change negatives images, sounds, voices, feelings into positive ones? (Maybe you said in the video, but I'm not sure to have understood all you said, I'm not a good english speaker) Doesn't it depends on the personal approach to the disease? Why for someone it's not so bad and for someone is the hell? Maybe this starts from our personal temperament or mood? So the real question is, If you try to have a positive approach to fear, to surrend yourself, to do not care of what's happening around you for a lapse of time, is there a possibility to change for a minimum bad experiences into good ones? ...Just asking!

[@1lynn1]

THank you for doing this

[@Polyfusia]

Can you do a video about schizophrenia and creativity? Did you ever have any creative periods?

[@ErinCaliforniaa]

other video ideas would be to tell us more about your life experiences! maybe story times, 50 facts about me tag, etc.

[@ArfaInk]

Great video Just great!

[@roosevelt3311]

how do you deal with all of it at night? that is when I seem to have most of my problems. I have been scared to sleep alone now for over a year. I have to have my daughter sleep with me. also I hate to be the last one to fall asleep. I'm better when I go to bed and fall asleep before everyone else. can you help me with this situation?

[@TheBobmarley113]

Hey man "normal" question......what's your favorite musical group?.....interesting question.................whats are your dreams like?...do the hallucinations transfer?

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

hmm favorite musical band would be led zeppelin

[@mr.woowoo8826]

.

[@TheBobmarley113]

+IhaveSchizophrenia are you a fan of jimi Hendrix?

[@Synicizm]

Can't argue with that!

[@akidowilliams8267]

Am a big fan of Jimmy Hendrix and I have schizophrenia

[@adrianadelgado4332]

Maybe its ridiculous but you reminds me River Phoenix. But full apart of yor good looking you're such and strong person cause i know it's not easy to live with schizophrenia (my closest cousin live with it and its hard to see her hallucinate, sometimes she doesnt sleeps its really hard) it's a life challenge but God bless you and wish you the best.

[@tamarabradberry9299]

My son describes it as living in the twilight zone. My son doesnt hear voices or see things, but definitely has the delusions that everyone is trying to ruin his life, although he cant explain why anyone would want to do this to him. Question? Do you try, or have you tried switching your meds to see if one is more affective for you? Have you tried the injectable anti psychotic? It would be great if there was a med that worked as well on the negative symtoms as well as the positive symptomes.

[@elenapg5969]

I love that the shirt you wore with that girl i hanging on your wall

[@xevsetter1201]

can you do another one about self care?

[@jeanamembers220]

I've been watching your videos but never seen you respond to any questions. Anyone know how to reach him?

[@KD-ys4hr]

You could do a Q&A:) Also, what are your tips for dating with mental illness?

[@alexvaldovinos88]

You look great in this video by the way, have a good one!

[@miryam4246]

New subscriber, i really like your personality!! I'm just wondering why are your pupils dilated?

[@chloressa30]

probably because of medication

[@arthurdent6256]

Inside Out Burger Might uh, just be dim in his room.

[@chloressa30]

Arthur Dent there's a small possibility it's due to the dim room

[@roosevelt3311]

people that have schizophrenia their eyes dialate often

[@babymia981]

Courtney Bradley not true, it may be from the medications he is taking like the antipsychotics

[@n-3262]

uh do you have a video about when you started the illness and what were the signs?

[@DDoggy1224]

Hello. you mentioned you like learning and I was wondering what were some topics that you enjoy learning about the most :)?

[@mariabutler7532]

Jacob what kind of anti psychotics work for you? My son has paranoid schizophrenia and has gone through a bunch only to find a mild reduction of symptoms. Plus your the only person who doesn't seem to be bothered with weight gain.

[@SweetSoSweet]

when you said living nightmare, i didn't think you meant, "i'm feels like i'm literally dreaming a nightmare but all the time." :0 mm i really can't imagine how bad this illness had to have been for my uncle. :c he.. he didn't hardly even talk much. idk if that was apart of his illness, the reason he spoke so little, but idk.... :c [hugs you]

[@Blank-ez7mu]

I hope things get better for you man I’ve started hallucinating visually and tactile and I’ve been very paranoid I don’t think it’s schizophrenia well I hope not but I still feel u if u need someone to talk to feel free to message eme

[@Shyguyexplores]

You sound like a genuinely good person. I noticed a lot of girls like you too. You should put up a GoFundme page so people can donate to you. You are helping people by explaining exactly what this illness is and what it is not. :)

[@Princess_Pixie]

was if hard to go out since you haven't been in a really long time or was it like you've been going out?