Perks of being The Fat Kid

[@illymation]

again not sponsored, pleeeease check out the podcast Maintenance Phase: www.maintenancephase.com/ If ever you're feeling down about your body, I find listening to an episode brings me back down to Earth, validates the difficult feelings of body image vs the world, and I always learn something new!

[@FuturisticKabu]

OMG FIRST :DDD (Edit: can you heart me or smth? Idrc if you do it or not but it would make my day)

[@FuturisticKabu]

​@Cottoncandycookiehusbandno I'm first this is my first time tho

[@AzariHutson]

OMGGG! Hey Illy, I’m a new subscriber but I’ve loved your channel for months!

[@nene-kusanagi1]

OMG IM SO EARLY HELP?? HII ILLY :DDD damn comments are flowing like water flows 😨

[@ExtinctionFeverr]

You're so kind.

[@jarrod752]

So fun fact: Muscle -weighs more- *is denser* than fat. If you worked out, and your posture and endurance improved, that's a sign of muscle growth. It can explain why the scale didn't move, despite your workout. Adding fiber to my diet and eating less processed sugar did wonders for my health.

[@bensjournal]

It's a lot more accurate to say that muscle has a higher density than fat rather than muscle weighs more than fat. A pound of fat weighs that exact same as a pound of muscle

[@jarrod752]

@@bensjournalYeah you say potato I say tomato. You're correct, but that was always the reason that was described to me for why fat people can float so much better in the swimming pool. I'm kinda scrawny myself so I can't even relax and keep my head above water. Some people I know can just lay there like they have their own raft.

[@iamgoo]

So everything weighs the same to you? You obviously know what they mean​@@bensjournal

[@berniegores6261]

Thats like saying a kg of steel is heavier than a kg of feathers

[@raffa4792]

why can't you let her do her thing? she can do whatever she wants lmao

[@Shotazawalvr]

I AM HERE FOR THE CHAOS

[@wony_doll_]

YESSS THE CHAOSSS

[@NotRxseyyKitYT]

START A FIGHT HERE LOL FOR *EXTRA* CHAOS

[@yumzzzie]

YEAHHH

[@shark1nfested6rain]

HERE👏 FOR👏 THE👏 CHAOS👏

[@Your-Local-Animator]

NOT EVEN 2 MINUTES IN TO IT MAAAAAAN

[@thenightranger987]

“Mirrors were made to just show us our reflection, not to be a weapon of self destruction” THIS LINE MADE MY DAY OMFG

[@nathana9037]

It doesn't change the fact that she FAT

[@WhatWouldLubitschDo]

Louder for the folks in back 👏👏👏

[@rommix0]

Somebody should have told George W Bush that when he used to be president lol.

[@Woodleaf_critter]

​@@WhatWouldLubitschDo MIRRORS WERE MADE TO JUST SHOW OUR REFLECTION, NOT TO BE A WEAPON OF SELF DESTRUCTION!! 👏👏👏👏👏

[@WhatWouldLubitschDo]

@@Woodleaf_critter thanks bud, my voice is out or I woulda done it myself 😜

[@artemixxae]

I’m so sorry, nobody deserves to be doxxed. I love you so much and hope you’re safe and doing okay :)

[@animationfox2049]

she didn't deserve to get doxxed but it doesn't excuse her actions

[@hassanrazakhan9645]

​@@animationfox2049 what actions sharing here experience

[@PinkTocaGirl]

Wait what happend

[@D3ad_linez]

​@@animationfox2049what actions did she do wrong? Explain yourself

[@makinyoumad9498]

She brought it up on herself

[@chloramite567]

I started getting boobs at age 10, and they were fully developed before Middle school. I was a huge target for literally every girl in my school because of it. I was a geeky tomboy with few friends(most of which were boys) and I guess they believed I didn't deserve having them. I too got cat calls from strange men driving by and I was a minor... No wonder I literally lived in an oversized hoodie for a majority of my teen years.

[@claudefrolltomstein8935]

I empathize with you. I started at age 8 and got bullied for it. But its perfectly normal

[@Shiny.Sparky.Boi.69]

bruh that isnt bad why would the girls bully, i know the dudes didnt

[@Just-A-Fr0gg]

So relatable,I’m currently a teen and I always have an oversized hoodie because I’m scared…

[@Self_Lovely]

Same ( I was 34 C in 5th grade) I was sexually harassed every single day by this boy in 6th, nothing ever fits my chest, I am always being stared at, my family would make comments about my chest (which is so not okay) I was so insecure. Now I honestly dont care what people think or say about my body ( I am 34 DDD now in the 9th grade)

[@sorrybusyreading]

Girl same. My body started developing like that in elementary school and I was so insecure about how I fit in my clothes.

[@apurplecrayon9397]

what you have to understand is even if youre not losing weight, you may just be replacing your fat in weight to muscle. BMI's and weighing yourself isnt accurate way to tell if youre improving, its just another measure of scale. Like you said, you are lifting, running and feeling better. Its muscle being added to you replacing the fat weight

[@pickler_pickler]

The only two measures of actually knowing if you're losing fat are digital calipers and the mirror

[@exginto8053]

Yes, milk these sweet cardio gains xD

[@SkylarThompson-mu1qs]

@@pickler_pickler People with eds use mirrors though

[@PumTePego]

​@@SkylarThompson-mu1qsLa disfunción eréctil está sobrevalorada 🗿🚬

[@SkylarThompson-mu1qs]

@@jellynut5903 ok

[@Suited_Nat]

14:10 The part of the video that was cut out by the person who made this creator have to move due to doxxing, death threats and r*pe threats. She’s talking about how if your health is compromised, to stick to what your doctors tell you to do.

[@MasonBitByte]

​@@secretslul strong words from the hazbin hotel sml fan

[@7avdes]

@@secretslulwtf u posting then

[@sweetsourorange]

@@secretslulbro wtf you want

[@yvaincallipso84]

Yeah the guy was malicious to the core and no one covering it questioned or watched the original video. Really makes you sick

[@Ebh55.]

@@MasonBitByte ?

[@Freya448]

What happened is wrong on so many levels; I hope you're doing ok, Illy. You didn't deserve this.

[@ashleyburton5177]

This was a story and message I really needed to hear right now. I’ve been trying for a while to keep a body neutral/positive mindset, but have never fully overcame the thought of weight loss. It feels like an endless battle and diet culture has been winning lately. Thank you for expressing that our weight doesn’t dictate our health!

[@miles_fury3409]

This brought back memories. With the added stress of having problems with my grades, I was also the fat kid. My mom saying it was baby fat wasn’t helping. Had to wear bigger sizes in clothing, I wasn’t able to do the games during PE, and hated playing tag with friends cause it was easier to tag the fat one. I didn’t like it and how I looked in family photos. The second I was living with my mom, she put me on a diet and workout routine when I was in the 4th grade. It was a pain at first but noticing the results and how other people noticed too made me feel better about myself. But because of having that on my mind as a kid, I start to dislike my body now as a young adult even though I’m not technically overweight from doctors. I know that I can do better but when I do there is no change. So I try my best to have a better mindset of loving my body and its okay to eat whatever I like cause I am healthy. Thank you Illy for telling your story❤️❤️❤️, making videos that are so relatable that I’m not alone in the way I feel or think. I hope you have a wonderful holiday and I’m excited to watch what you make in the new year

[@vivthesloth9719]

As someone who got teased by my own family about my weight, this video restored the confidence I thought I could never get back after losing it as an elementary schooler. Your stories are an inspiration and motivator for so many Illy and I hope you keep reminding yourself that on the daily❤

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@gacha_tuber55]

It's crazy how people are trying to remove you from the platform, this video really got me in my feelz and I now feel comfortable in my own skin and I enjoy eating the amount I love and won't let anyone force me down into the dark hole of body fashion, health fads and diets and if I want to change my body, it's my choice.

[@youtubeisdead1858]

Well yeah, cause she also tried to get someone removed from the platform.

[@shadocloud]

She was the one who tried to remove someone from the platform

[@LuckyMrAsHat]

​@@shadocloud Source?

[@uhhBrinK]

Wanna be dead by 45 from obesity? I guess that's your choice. Hopefully you live in America so we don't have to pay your medical bills

[@mxcrro]

@@uhhBrinK What is that insane hyperbole…

[@bleachsundae1368]

Doxxing someone is never okay. Hope she's safe.

[@Mang0z8]

Wait she was doxxed?

[@shadowisinsane845]

Pretty sure she literally had to leave her state because people were sending her death threats and rape threats.

[@toothpaste_lunchbox8680]

​@@Mang0z8yep, anti-semit people also found her adress and she had to MOVE AWAY FROM HER STATE to avoid literal death

[@nosirree1121]

@@secretslul Such low iq that u fucked up the meme

[@TurtleChad1]

​@@secretslul not funny lil bro

[@Cosmic_mona]

OMG GIRL U ARE GORGOUS 😭 also this video was genuinely so informing and nice too. Especially when u said, "Mirrors were just made to show us our reflection, not to be a weapon of self destruction". time stamp: 15:37

[@rosemiramoreira82]

🤨

[@Cosmic_mona]

@@rosemiramoreira82 huh

[@Kalvinwiddakay]

Should I be scared or are you just kidding

[@Sombra-k6s]

i saw this one video and subscribed IMMEDIATELY this helped so much with just feeling valid and..enough. but watching it did hurt knowing that so many adults, teens, even kids can relate to this and it is brave to address these topics in a time like this on the internet, but i am so so SO thankful you did, thank you, thank you so much. ❤

[@KazaneHimari]

I watched this video the first it came out and it made me smile. so when i heard that people were doxxing you for being happy and sharing YOUR story, and also helping those who are struggling the same, IS JUST OUTRAGEOUS I hope you're doing well illy. I love your videos and you probably wont see this but i just really wanted to say that! Thank you for the wonderful vid illy

[@Rosemary-rr9jf]

Same it is SO FUCKING STUPID LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOW?! 😤😡

[@AlexStarkey-f1g]

honestly, humans are kinda crap sometimes

[@thtautisticgamer]

^

[@ByMyLonely.]

@@AlexStarkey-f1gmost times

[@saphirawings9512]

To be honest, clicking on this video, I was like “but Illyssa isn’t fat,” but I love the content so I stayed. And now I’m nearly crying because I’m also the fattest I’ve ever been, and it feels out of control, and her conclusions about her body and health in this video are the things I try to remind myself. But it feels harder for me because I have health issues that prevent me from working out and dieting in any classic way. And I just feel stuck in a loop with no way out. I have yet to even get answers from doctors after over a year of appointments trying to figure it out, and when this all started I WAS feeling healthy. I WAS happy with myself. I loved my body. And then my body felt like it decided to hate me. I’m still seeing doctors and I haven’t given up, but it’s just… it’s hard feeling like I’m stuck in the bottom of a pit with no ladders or ropes to help me out.

[@juanmanuelmoramontes3883]

Lots of people have made being chubby a synonym for fat unfortunely.

[@TheRoseAlmighty]

I'm also the fattest I ever been and it really does feel isolating

[@Ganbhrand]

TL;DR

[@TheRoseAlmighty]

@@Ganbhrand you are so funny

[@Ganbhrand]

So is your 3 bot subscribers

[@genisay]

One thing that doesn't get mentioned a lot either is that you can exchange fat weight for muscle weight. I actually put on weight while I was doing some of my gym work outs, but I noticed I looked a bit more slim and had less chub in some places. Not even they people at my gym explained to me that what was happening is I was exchanging one for the other as I got stronger.

[@SewardWriter]

I've been shrinking for months, but my weight has increased. Go figure. I have no illusions of ever being skinny, anyway.

[@1738-l1j]

Unles she was blasting tren thats imposible in 2 months

[@Mavisdundundunnnmanston]

Ugh. Im going on vacation in june and am so worried i dont "look" how i should. This helped. Between you and brideydrake, ive learned how to be ok.

[@Retro-shru]

I see someone is not aware of the WARZONE that occurred

[@marisstaff7019]

@@Retro-shru their trying to comfort her

[@Retro-shru]

@@marisstaff7019 I hope it does comfort her, cuz she doesn't deserve getting doxxed.

[@vasamatijasevic1948]

Its nice to be happy about yourself, but the solution to your "problem" is very straight forward

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@PrincessNoobTheFirst]

Im so sorry you got doxxed. Noone deserves that kind of treatment.

[@StanTorrent]

@IlovefebruaryHow?

[@xoxoRachelZegerSuperfan]

I hope Illy is okay, the threats and doxing is inexcusable and horrible

[@Leviathan399]

​@Ilovefebruary shut up chvddie! Xhe didn't deserve it!

[@yupiix127.x3]

@Ilovefebruary are you stupid?

[@llliiimmmeee]

@Ilovefebruary ?

[@JayHikoya]

Love your work, Illy!!! I've been following your channel for awhile now, and I just want you to know that your messages have helped me in some of my darkest times. You're an amazing person. You got this❤

[@rendoesnotpost]

Thanks Illysa. I’ve struggled with multiple eating disorders for my whole life and you posting about young kids dieting makes me feel better. It’s sad how much we praise unhealthy weight loss.

[@PickleGobbler9000]

And it’s even more dlsgustlng that you fks normalize obesity

[@PurpleBugs]

peak irony right here

[@Blehbl]

​@@PurpleBugswhat is the irony?

[@illy_vine]

This video honestly hit me so hard in a place I didn’t realize was still subconsciously effecting me. Hearing one of my favorite creators talk about one of the biggest struggles I dealt with in middle school made me feel seen. Thank you

[@ShinyHunterMuck]

Girl it’s 16 minutes long and had been out for 5 minutes you did NOT watch it all 💀

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@gella_drawz]

I hope you’re doing ok dude

[@maybellx3]

Detroit

[@sillybillybob3636]

I'm 14, and despite me not being overweight, I've lately been struggling with my self image based on my weight, and I've been eating way less because I feel like I'm "fat", even though I'm not. I've been told I was skinny or a good weight my entire life, so I'm not exactly sure why I feel this way. I might have an ED, I don't know. But this video did help me feel less insecure about my body and made me feel more comfortable in my own skin, so thank you Illy

[@krislo009]

I feel you. I am teen too and I feel insecure abt my belly. So I tried many workouts but nothing changed. Self love is really big journey,but please eat tasty food and healthy food. Maybe visit a doctor if you feel bad. Food is energy. Nobody called me fat as well but I called myself fat. And tbh it is a kinda my mental problem so yea. I just want to say that you are pretty the way you are. You deserve to be loved and if your heart full of kind,respect,love,your look doesn’t matter. Wear clothes that you like and you comfortable with and don’t give a fuck if it doesn’t look on you like on some models I love you,stay safe,eat tasty food and enjoy your life❤

[@sillybillybob3636]

@sofiparker9984 thank you so much, please treat yourself good as well. You deserve the best. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise💕

[@cheez_crazy]

Same here!

[@sillybillybob3636]

​@@cheez_crazyI'm sorry, I hope you feel better soon

[@iamtheloraxandispeakforthe8496]

Kurt truly is the best 💪

[@HeisenbergFam]

Lily casually returning after a month with pure art is a Christmas treat

[@pepsiblondie]

lol u prob hear this a lot but I see u everywhere!!!

[@bleha2827]

*ily :)

[@SamarahRahman-q2v]

not u being everywhere…

[@lilyalbrecht6920]

LILY??? her name is alyssa .

[@codeknecht8887]

​@@lilyalbrecht6920 her name is illyssa

[@PinkAndPathetic]

Friendly reminder that even if everyone on earth ate the same diet and had the same workout routine, we'd still have different bodies

[@random_dragon]

Preach!!!!

[@StrongestDebunker]

But no one would be obese or overweight

[@RenderingUser]

1. in that world, almost no one would be obese 2. this is why personal trainers exist. to adjust exercise and nutrition relative to your body. instead of giving everyone the standard amount

[@RenderingUser]

@@Cherika119 read what I said. You literally went and incorrectly wrote my point 1. Skipping out an important word, and you completely ignore point number 2 entirely.

[@something_spooky]

@@StrongestDebunker except there are various health conditions and influence that can make losing weight more difficult for some people than others

[@gracebowling4083]

Literally crying rn, man. I’m going through the same struggles.

[@Snorcat-zx5tp]

That’s so sweet thanks again illy!

[@TheDuckSaidWat-jk5nl]

You got this I’m sure you’re a great person

[@100years-is-a-century]

Good I hope it gets worse

[@100years-is-a-century]

@crazy_sonic845 Hating is free

[@randihorvath]

I was born with hypothyroidism (diagnosed at 17 days old) and I grew up the fat kid. To this day I still struggle with my weight and it caused me to hate my wedding photos from last year. Hearing your take on weight struggles actually helps and I need to start practicing body neutrality 😌 thank you.

[@mr.waterbucket]

More people need to learn about medical conditions that can predispose someone to gaining weight. People (including some doctors, who should really know better) are far too quick to judge without knowing the full picture.

[@morgiemango6242]

Same here. I got diagnosed with hypothyroidism in 8th grade. I have always been bigger :(

[@QuicksilverTheElegant]

I also have hypothyroidism, although I forget what age I was diagnosed, definitely not as young as you I don’t think. However I have another hormone issue that’s stagnating my weight…PCOS. These two conditions combined has made it rather difficult to lose any substantial weight. I did lose about 40 pounds once I started exercising and eating less, but now I’m kind of floating around a certain number. My weight could be lower but honestly I’ve never been concerned with my looks. My mother also being overweight (she has hypothyroid too) probably helped with that. I was only bullied in one grade and it was for an entirely different reason and I was too young to really be affected by him, and he apologized the next year so that was something. Once I finished 4th grade, I expressed to my mom that I didn’t want to go to public middleschool and beyond, again for entirely unrelated reasons, but she agreed rather readily and so I spent my last school years in homeschooling. I think I dodged a far bigger bullet than I realized back then, especially since one of my school friends’ mom who is friends with my mom said her daughter basically went through hell in highschool, and she wasn’t even overweight like I was. If I had gone through the roughest parts of highschool, I may have developed a stronger disdain for my appearance than I do, but as of now, I’m not perfect but I’m healthy and in a community of nice people who have never judged my appearance. I hope you can find peace as well ^~^

[@Wr41thgu4rd]

You can't gain weight without overeating and not exercising.

[@mr.waterbucket]

@@Wr41thgu4rd It's okay, not everyone can understand the simple fact that the human body is extremely complex and there are many reasons someone may gain weight.

[@ForsetisStenographer]

Body image is something I struggle with greatly. Thank you for this, Illy. I got teary eyed but I really needed this. Stay safe and have happy holidays!

[@AudreyX333]

9:19 YOUR LIKE ONE OF THE PRETTIEST ANIMATOR THAT I KNOW😭😭😭

[@RubyRoks]

I've struggled with body dysmorphia and dysphoria for as long as i can remember. Literally some of my earliest memories involve me wishing i was different so i could fend off bullying from my peers and family members. This video and the message within has been revelatory. I'll have to look into Maintenance Phase. Thank you.

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@crystallotus3422]

For the first time in my life, I started feeling self conscious of my body since September. This video really helped getting the perspective of someone who probably struggles more than me and still be perfectly happy. Thank you illy

[@buh2701]

i just put on my boots i ain’t worried bout no rain

[@thedirtypenguin2417]

Being someone who started exercising at 10 and constantly has to remind themself that I'm a healthy weight and just don't look it, I really appreciate this video. It makes me feel seen.

[@ShuichiSaiharasAhoge]

I developed ana at 10 as well, and sadly I can relate to this. I hope you never forget that you're perfectly fine the way you are

[@Sinthiastar]

Oh no at just 10- please just enjoy being a kid ! Eat , play outside , enjoy being a kid ❤ you’ll look back and love how you were at your age

[@thedirtypenguin2417]

@@Sinthiastar Oh don’t worry! I feel like I didn’t make it quite clear but I’m not still 10. That’s just when I started. I’m ok

[@tempejkl]

you only started exercising at 10? Most people start at age 3???? Did you just not run at all in the first 10 years or what

[@johnnydied9563]

Looking a healthy weight and being a healthy weight are normally related. But are you a healthy weight?

[@allyson186]

Sorry I missed this on the original drop on this. Thank you for being you and making beautifully crafted videos. Im so sorry for all the crap you got for this. ❤️

[@RaeAguirre-sr8cu]

i’m so sorry about what’s happening to you illy you’re amazing!

[@ObossRocks]

Lol good one

[@lokifan5416]

Ikr too funny

[@sarahdgh1072]

@@ObossRocks wdym.

[@thtautisticgamer]

@@sarahdgh1072 don't engage, they're brain dead

[@exoticbreadstick8661]

fuck around find out

[@ella4442]

As someone who grew up constantly being bullied about their weight, I am sobbing over how relatable I found this video and how inspiring the ending was for me. Thank you so much for making this.

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@بدرالغامدي-ذ5ظ]

illy i hope you are ok and save now with all this fuckry and doxing that is happening. i pray for you the best life and i hope that you pass these difficult times save and sound ❤

[@AlexStarkey-f1g]

she is indeed safe

[@iReekOfLemons]

I just watched Noah's video, and I feel absolutely *horrible* for what happened to you. You did nothing wrong, and you didn't deserve to have this happen to you. You're one of the greatest storytime animators out there, and I hope you're doing better. In the meantime, congrats on the GoFundMe!

[@ComputerLad]

noahs video was retarded stop letting youtubers construct ur viewpoint

[@ARandomWolfApproaches]

I wish her the best honestly

[@xxxtimeghostxxx]

the best cheeseburgers ?

[@french_fry_man]

@@ComputerLadironic

[@ComputerLad]

@@french_fry_man Ironic how?

[@SandwitchZebra]

I'm so sorry this had to happen to you, Illy.

[@MShmalamala]

She brought the negative attention all on her own.

[@isaiahlusigariye8530]

​@@MShmalamalato be fair yes but she also said if you have dietary restrictions follow them

[@juliasutton8634]

body neutrality helped me so much. I hope Illy is okay and safe, and I'm so sorry about what happened to you

[@Based_Dept.]

Gross ginger

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@noahgraber9339]

I am a wrestler so I have to keep track of my weight. I’ve always felt I have control of my weight by bulking or cutting. I was skeptical going into this but it sounds like you put in a lot of work to try and control your weight and that’s respect. There’s nothing wrong with being in a higher weight class.

[@OsoPan]

I'm so sorry for what happened to you illy I hope you're doing well

[@aamna4584]

“healthy” looks different on everybody, honestly don’t know why people find problems in everything

[@MDKishere0410]

I KNOW

[@radicaldude2000]

as someone who is 600 pounds my doctor says im to fat and I might die any second but they just fat phobic

[@hecheng4909]

@@radicaldude2000good

[@funkr4674]

ur 600 pounds in debt

[@wwaffle]

@@radicaldude2000that isn’t fat phobic, your literally 600 pounds. Your doctor is worried about you.

[@luciaanna407]

Just heard what happened, I hope you're okay ❤ stay strong

[@Tobithepurpleducc]

The fact that you don’t even look overweight any time I’ve seen you is crazy to me. I’ve been trying to loose a few pounds recently and I feel your struggle. You look amazing and you have helped me so much, thanks illy, I hope this gets easier for you :)

[@addirr]

Youre so pretty girl. I searched up the streamy award and that dress was so gorgeous on you. Clothes are meant to fit you, you arent meant to fit them. I love this channel it is so real and straightforward c:

[@TheRogBG]

She's like a 4 at best

[@Anon._.M]

@@TheRogBGyour like a -1 at best :3

[@TheRogBG]

@@Anon._.M realistically I'm a 7-8 but in all honesty she's not fat she's just doesn't have any attractive features. Pale freckled skin makes her look sickly, her double chin (again she's not fat) is very unflattering. I mean a 4 isn't that bad it's one below the average. She isn't horribly ugly but she's definitely not as attractive as the average female.

[@TheRogBG]

@@Anon._.M probably a 7-8 but for real. She's a 4 at best. Almost as attractive as the average female by no means is that ugly

[@mazzystarwhore]

⁠@@TheRogBGstop yapping mate

[@Saskiaham]

We love you illy, Thank you.

[@Dybwmlt]

Just looked up your red carpet photos! Girl you KILLED that!! Love your openness about the struggles we’ve all faced!

[@Sunshineattacks3]

Omg same!! She looks so good!!

[@pacoramon9468]

She is a narcissist, she count on you to fed her ego.

[@_Fenn]

@@pacoramon9468giving compliments is nice regardless of whether you feed someone’s (who you don’t even know) ego :)

[@kittynado758]

where did you find the photos I can't for the life of me

[@mooonblooom]

@@pacoramon9468 bro all your comments are just you being an asshole, please go outside and stop stalking this channel

[@fwurbz]

illy deserves nothing but the world ❤

[@Jollyjose251]

The world gave her red hair and she doesn’t wanna use it 1:05

[@7avdes]

⁠@@Jollyjose251who cares? let the girl live

[@nene-kusanagi1]

@@Jollyjose251what does that even mean?

[@cxarhomell5867]

​@@nene-kusanagi1Exactly what it sounds like. The world gave her red hair and she doesn't want to use it. It's not hard to understand.

[@theweirdalex12]

​@@cxarhomell5867That literally makes no sense

[@mo0ny._satvrn]

illy i hope your okay please stay safe im very worried for you

[@varenikart]

One of my favorite quotes i’ve seen on this topic is “work out your body because you love it, not because you hate it”

[@illymation]

I love this quote!!

[@HotRod237]

Wow that's a good quote, sorry but I'm stealing this

[@simonleva3805]

@@HotRod237 For what are you stealing it?

[@HotRod237]

@@simonleva3805 I see people mainly working out or getting surgury because they hate their bodies and just wanna look good for the "gram". People who genuinely love their bodies work hard for it and it's shown as a results of their health, looks and self esteem. People who does it just to look good are never happy. It's shown in their attitude towards others and themselves

[@tempejkl]

@@HotRod237what if I want both. my quads are simply too scrumptious.

[@Marikyuun]

Thank you for this video! I started going to the gym in August and haven't rly seen any changes in my body and no weight loss yet. I will try to focus on the good things from now on 💖

[@Marcaronipasta]

Yeah definitely, I agree! It's hard to lose weight and like Illy said, being fat does NOT mean you're unhealthy. Besides, if someone fat-shames you, that is a red flag, you should focus on the love and support around you. And what are you doing here Marikyuun but anyway, love your vids :D

[@lillibird23]

Hi, Marikyuun!!! ❤

[@Valtinho22he]

If you want to lose your weight I recommend you do a diet. As long as you go to the gym and making a diet you can have lose weight so easily. So don’t worry and enjoying the process. It takes times but it’s worth

[@Valtinho22he]

@Irishmando155bro, Take your time and don’t hurry! Make it count and keep you head up! I know you know you can do it. It takes times so enjoy the process

[@Mannof1000Thoughts]

I can’t thank you enough for making this video. This spoke to me on such a personal level.

[@carolinelippitt8896]

Omg i didn't realize you watch Illy

[@dat1samofficial]

shit you were doxxed? prayers from denmark that you don’t get into something bad

[@JuriLuvsU]

Thank you for posting this while the holidays are in full swing. I'm at my heaviest right now too. Each day is a roll of the dice -- do I love my vibe or do I feel blobbish? Trying to keep positive and be kind to myself before I go home for Christmas. It isn't easy, but thank you for encouraging us to just accept ourselves.

[@flatztflead1375]

just lose it stop trying to love yourself

[@GeoTube9]

@@flatztflead1375 why are you so negative

[@Hannah_Mackay]

@@flatztflead1375you didn’t get the message of this whole fucking video, come back watch it again and then you should realise what it’s all about

[@monkeyandtangerines3621]

​@@Hannah_MackayYeah the message is . "If you weight 500 pounds don't listen to the hater love yourself even if it cost you your life"

[@monkeyandtangerines3621]

​@@GeoTube9why is he being Truth I wonder why?

[@capainsharp1447]

As a middle schooler I can sadly confirm that this is still how they act and I recently had to stick up for a friend who was being bullied. What the actual hell is wrong with us.

[@emiliomurkmere]

as a junior in high school who dealt with very similar circumstances, i applaud you (and thank you) for sticking up for your friend. times can be really rough but you just gotta push through. one day you'll look back and feel relief that it's finally over.

[@vexywexypoo]

I'm not in middle school, but I took a field trip recently and these girls in the back called the bus driver a whale and made fun of her. It pissed me off so much.

[@iiantixsocial]

Much like kids learn to be homophobic and bully others for being gay, I'm pretty sure it's the same thing with weight shaming. If you're told by a young age or even if you read online that being fat is bad and being skinny is good, you'll get that mindset as well and bully others for being fat

[@dragonnightwing9082]

You're such a a good friend, I really applaud you, and I know that you just made a core memory for your friend that will stick with them for the rest of their life. Please give them a compliment or two and assure them that they're beautiful and nothing's wrong with them. Even if it doesn't seem like it, it's always good to do it anyways in case they are feeling bad about themself, but are just hiding it.

[@Johnny_T779]

Some people are naturally bigger or skinnier. The fact that you stayed at the same weight even when exercising alot is proof that you are at a healthy weight for YOUR body type! What's dangerous for health is doing the yo-yo, and keeping a relatively stable weight is healthy, whatever the weight is. Stop bullying people for that, it includes skinny people who always are suspected of being anorexic! Be happy the way you are if it doesn't handicap you in any way 😊! (by the way, you are really cute, don't worry!)

[@EvangelineIsMe]

As a high schooler currently obsessed with trying to keep myself skinny and nothing working except eating no food, this video resonates with me. I’ve been doing better lately. Thank you for sharing your story Illy. You inspire me every video. ❤️

[@CrystalClear5617]

Your mental health is way more important than your physical health, if your personality is beautiful it will shine brighter than any physical appearance ever could attempt to be.

[@thatoneidiot5108]

better is amazing

[@somerandomartistperson]

dude i really hope you're alright, stay safe out there

[@xxxtimeghostxxx]

i dont

[@WhyUBully957]

@@xxxtimeghostxxxgo to heck

[@thtautisticgamer]

@@xxxtimeghostxxx get help

[@modkip25]

@@xxxtimeghostxxx this is why your dad doesn't love you.

[@itzam3ss]

I'm literally crying, rn I'm going through some personal shots with weight and felt like I'm going back to my old self, I really appreciate the fact that it's okay to have my body like this, I'm glad I have a youtuber like you who talks about topics that a lot of people struggle with. I hope you make a lot of people feel reassurance illy, and thank you ❤

[@4oho361]

hey lardass here's a salad 🥗

[@randomrandom1905]

I've dealt with so much self hatred for my body lately, so thank you for this, it helps a lot to hear other people share their struggles

[@SockPuppetTalksYT]

as a chubby teenager myself, i’m so glad you made this video to shed some light on the experiences that i and many others go through (: edit: guys please stop calling me fat or telling me to go work out. for one, i am not overweight or obese. literally js chubby. i am currently recovering from an ED and its been extremely hard recently. right now, all i need is to be happy in my own skin. thanks.

[@BenitoDamianHernandez]

He he he he he he piggy 😂🤣

[@FemkeMeurer]

i feel you, i don't think Ive ever felt good in my body, even as a child who wasn't bullied even once, i was still sub-consciously comparing myself to others

[@PinayUSAMarion]

@@BenitoDamianHernandez shut up stop being mean

[@idkguyxp]

@@PinayUSAMarion wait till he looks in the mirror

[@SockPuppetTalksYT]

@@BenitoDamianHernandez wtf you been piggy 💀💀

[@flaiirenn]

she's gorgeous - it's saddening to know she's been struggling with self-image. i can't believe she was doxxed yet again. i really hope she's okay and returns on youtube. i miss her :(

[@Kittycat12675]

Same! I hope she’s ok! 😔

[@yupiix127.x3]

Same, I hope she’s doing alright.

[@GoofyManMF]

gyatt? big level 10 illy gyatt?

[@yupiix127.x3]

@@GoofyManMF you’re the unfunniest person I’ve ever seen

[@Cosmo_On_Paws432]

She came back!

[@invadsion]

ive struggled with an eating disorder since i was 11 and seeing a video like this is so great for me right now. i really love seeing your videos on topics like this, it really helps with my own and i’m sure a lot of other peoples state of mind and gives people something to be able to relate to in a more healthy and productive way.

[@the_sunflower_on_pluto]

i was always considered “ugly” and “weird” and i believed it too, and it took years to see something different. looking back however, i see someone who was nothing but their most authentic self, and whenever they tried to be something they weren’t just to try to fit in, and they DID try, they failed. it took a while to learn how to love myself and how to let myself be me, but most importantly that the ones who love you for being authentically you are the only people worth having around you, and now every time i look in a mirror, i see me, and i smile because i’m happy to see me ✨🚀💫⭐️ i hope you’re happy to see you too, or one day will be

[@fatcat5817]

Ah the female heirarchy, haven't been part of them since I was four. 😌 No regets.

[@vocaloid_boi]

I personally find it hard to accept my own body, but this video helped me feel a bit better about myself. Thank you, illymation :3

[@chickennuggetpaw]

That body neutrality stuff really does help! I started thinking that way a bit ago without really knowing the term for it, but I just kinda figured I was tired of being so critical. It’s really freeing, definitely recommend!

[@CarMedicine]

@randomspacefan effects*

[@indridhartley1504]

I love you Illy! I've been following you for years and you're one of my favorite youtubers!

[@Moosh-py8zp]

I can’t express how much this video touched me. I have been dealing with body image issues for the past 3 years with diets and exercise only making me gain more weight. This is just what I needed to hear. I really appreciate it. I am also so proud of you!!

[@spriharayamajhi6827]

This genuinely made me cry. I'm twelve years old and I've been getting picked on since elementary school by other girls for so long. Hearing what you had to say made me feel so much better about my body and the way I saw it. Seriously thank you for making this, you've really opened my eyes.

[@phill1451]

As a 15 year old, it’s gonna get a lot better trust me man.

[@moondart6963]

same

[@nathana9037]

Go on fucking treadmill NIKA

[@spriharayamajhi6827]

@@phill1451 Thank you that means alot

[@ViktorErikFade]

If you are 12 you barely hit puberty yet in my eyes It will get better Judy give it time Those bullies will peak in middle or high school and you still have so much more progress to go I was bullied a lot when I was your age and I survived

[@alexz.lololz]

guys this was 4 months ago PLSSS shut up off topic but illy always makes my day and makes me more confident in myself when she posts

[@burnbats]

FRR

[@Lily_Loves_Cows]

Frrr

[@NotZoeG]

Fr

[@That1Z-bot]

She’s an inspiration 😊

[@spongewaffle]

SAMEE

[@Scarlebread]

I also had this issue thing but when I was 8 but now I’m not insecure anymore and watching ur videos makes it feel easier knowing that more people are going through it

[@devinlupei5071]

I'm almost 30 and my mother has been borderline bullying me just because I have a little gut. I've been skinny my entire life and it's only in my late 20's that I've been shamed (and felt shame) for a little body fat. Words do have an impact and it's not just true for teens.

[@yousefassiri2905]

Sometimes it's actually healthy to have body fat because a lot of people forget how important fat is having a gut or something isn't bad but having so much fat it starts getting stored in blood veins is bad(yes your body does that)so u shouldn't feel shamed

[@_Blossom_xx]

I weigh 120 pounds and I’m thirteen and 5’2 is that overweight?

[@anthurium_]

not at all!@@_Blossom_xx

[@oliviads6951]

@@_Blossom_xx If you look at BMI, you'd be just barely "overweight" but I wouldn't really say so. I'm the same age and a bit heavier than you but I've just got more muscle than the average, so you're fine :))

[@Pusheenpuppu]

@@_Blossom_xxno no that’s acutally perfect if not a little bit light depending on the weight distribution

[@sylphierose6103]

I normally don't comment too often, but this video was something I absolutely needed. As a girl who was also bullied most of her life for her body and had such an unhealthy relationship with weight, I've recently come to the decision to stop my restrictive dieting. This change has been a struggle and there have been moments where I almost convinced myself to go back. But this video helped remind me that my life has been so much better since I've let go of my bad habits and started living my life again. Thank you Illy for making videos like this and handling them with the same love and care as a friend. You've touched many peoples hearts today

[@illymation]

;o; your comment has me tearing up. thank you so much- and know that im rooting for you! recovery isn't linear, there will be good days and bad days, and having a therapist or a trusted friend or adult to talk to really helps. you got this!!! i believe in you!!!

[@NefariousCrow]

Yes!! We are all rooting for you! :D I may be an internet stranger but you should definitely know that YOU CAN DO IT!!!! ❤️

[@Silly_fairy]

We are rooting for you!!! It's understandable and human to have doubts and to go back to a unhelthy habit. For me, I fear aging and "looking old" despite knowing that objectively, it isn't healthy for me and is rooted in the strict gender norms that I have internalised and am experiencing more as I transition (as an AMAB non-binary person). At least, if I look back from far, I am better off today then I was a year ago. If you look back far and are happy with were you are in comparison to that point, then you have the right to be proud :)

[@mattschehr163]

bullshit straight up bullshit

[@Local_user]

The comment above me is kinda cool

[@puffy6763]

jesus christ i feel like this animator is CONSTANTLY going through it 😭 i watch her videos every couple of months and it’s like.. damn 🙁 give my girl a break 😭😭😭

[@whimsyxox]

it’s definitely a team rather than a 1 person project

[@starcrawler77]

the saga of the eternal victim continues yet again

[@rinatransom708]

Yeah, same here!

[@Ben-zg8xk]

She just complain too much

[@flannelfables]

⁠@@Ben-zg8xk bro she’s not complaining too much, she’s simply talking about topics that many people go through 💀but not everyone 1. Feels comfortable to talk about it publicly and 2. Has this much attention around their stories.

[@finnsitar634]

I watched this when it first came out and loved it.. and had no idea until now people were hating on it and doxxed you?? (not sure if thats true but I wouldn't be surprised). I hope you're safe and doing well, and I'm glad the video is still up

[@eggowaff3379]

I am currently a year into my journey of recovering from my eating disorder, anorexia nervosa. It is so hard to believe the support but more media like this is so helpful. Hearing others experiences and knowing I’m not alone is so comforting. Thank you Illy 💗

[@amateurdechats]

you can do it !! i hope recovery goes great for u :))

[@FionaLambert-ms6gy]

YOU GOT THIS QUEEN

[@roguesriot147]

if you need to talk lmk :) stay safe and i hope you recover from anything

[@bcuniverse_]

if ur still fat you didnt have anorexia. If your entire ribcage was showing from the front and back I hope ur back up to a healthy weight.

[@amateurdechats]

@@bcuniverse_ you when people who have anorexia arent extreme stereotypes and are actual humans 🤬🤬🤬😡😡😡😢😢😭

[@shilimousseau5215]

Illy’s videos always hit different. I love how she talks about serious issues while also making it entertaining to watch

[@mikoto-san6251]

This is singlehandedly the most relatable and true video I've seen in a LONG while, more people should know that not all of us are just lazy or unhealthy because i got hated on by my whole class for reasons i still don't understand and they'd use my weight as a way to mock me almost every day and that needs to stop

[@starz_knyfan12334]

the thing that truly annoyed me the most was that I had to accept being bigger then other girls it was not just my wheight I was hitting puberty to early! I saw other girls wearing crop tops and skirts and all of this it annoyed me, but I loved sharing clothes with my mom I loved wearing teenager clothes I loved the feeling of being taller then my brother the thing about my height made me feel like I do not blend in withtge rest of my class but I always remind my self that we don't have to all look the same to make one single boring painting with nothing but one single color but instead we could all be different colors making fun shapes so the painting could be unique, and after all your body has its positives that may look like negatives for others

[@itsliterally3am377]

This video is so beautiful. I was never bullied, but growing up around people who would beat them selves up over how they looked, it rubbed off on me. Seeing this video was an incredible reminder that, as long as I'm healthy, none of that really matters and all that matters is that I can be around the people I love. Thanks, Illy!

[@sugsugahh]

im so sorry about everything illy ❤❤ stay strong girl

[@M-Kathlene]

As someone who’s still in recovery for an ED, this is so comforting. I’m trying to work toward body neutrality but it’s hard :( thanks ily! :)

[@Kiki_music5674]

Good luck on your recovery!

[@AVERYCHAN-d2h]

Your videos always make me cry😭 thank you

[@mjinsinna]

Respectfully, thought I would share some points for a more holistic view of diet and exercise (read if you’d like): 1. Even with a regular exercise routine, diet is arguably a more important factor in weight loss. 2. Different foods offer different kinds / amounts of nutrients that your body needs for better functioning. (Carrots have vitamins and antioxidants whereas marshmallows are high in sugar content and don’t offer any nutritional value.) 3. Eating foods with high sugar content can be okay if done in moderation. Too much sugar increases risk for illnesses, linked to depression, stress, etc. 4. When you first begin a regular exercise routine, you probably won’t experience immediate weight loss. 5. Muscle is denser than fat. As you lose fat and gain muscle, your weight might not change or it might even increase. 6. Your weight will naturally fluctuate throughout the day and over the course of a week. (as you eat and use the bathroom) 7. There are better ways to measure health than weight (BMI, heart rate, blood pressure, blood glucose, cholesterol, etc.) 8. A healthy diet and exercise routine will nurture your body and increase your quality of life (less stress, greater endurance, better sleep).

[@skipslash7367]

bmi ia naturally flawed as it relies on weight, and doesn't factor body composition, so someone with 200 pounds of muscle at 5'4 will have the same bmi as someone with 200 pounds of fat at 5'4.

[@mrkrabshankandersonreal]

thank you so much!!

[@thekaelixchamber]

Thanks for this! Much more helpful than the video.

[@the.blue_alien]

AND, that not everybody loses weight the same, some people have certain conditions where they can burn fat easily and some where they can't burn fat at all (same with gaining weight) I love your points though, it's a better summary than this video didn't get across

[@Tomtom1056LMAO]

Well said!

[@DorkysCorner]

This is such an important video. When it’s mentioned how unhappy she felt about herself in 2022, I took a total pause in confusion. I thought to myself that, “I didn’t remember Iley being big?” I actually tended to put her in the skinny category in my brain. So, I stalked the instagram and looked at a few pictures, and she was how I remember her! So, she felt she was big, but I thought she was skinny! It’s really about perspective ❤ what’s most important of course is how you see yourself, but I know it’s been a comfort to me before when I’ve heard this advice on perspective Omg devils advocate! I can’t believe I didn’t get that until it was pointed out 🤣 14:51

[@trentunderwood7072]

i was always the unhealthly skinny kid but i really appreciate hearing your experience of struggling from the opposite problem. you really helped me understand yours and many others perspective, so thank you!

[@PurpleCowArt]

as someone whom is dealing with this now she explained it very well. i finally feel like im not the only one.

[@paxton_]

Whom 🤓

[@UrGurlMaddii]

Gaining muscle will never have you loose weight, trust me I would know as a high schooler taking weight training. The point is that your body is getting healthy and stronger, leading you to feel healthy and good! Love your vids and cheering you on!

[@memi-414]

You hit the nail on the head!! Hope your training goes well, from one athlete to another‼️ 💪

[@JamEngulfer]

That’s a good point, I forgot that muscle gain will balance out fat loss. It explains her being much healthier while maintaining the same overall weight.

[@Possessionisland]

I related to everything in this video. The dieting/weight watchers, the bullying, hiding in hoodies and sweaters, and being ashamed of how I looked in the mirror and photos. Being the fat kid made me feel alone and like a monster. Thank you illy for this video. I want to go back in time and tell my younger self that she wasn’t alone.

[@unstablegay4384]

Thank you for this. I'm fat too, but my fat distributes differently.. It makes me look like I'm pregnant, and it's been like this since I was 10 years old.. And on top of that I have to deal with gender dysphoria. Thank you for talking about this, Illy.

[@44foxyy]

I have really looked like I’m pregnant since I was 10 too

[@flareisroyalty]

I am the exact same!!!!!

[@unstablegay4384]

@@44foxyy and @flareisroyalty Yay! I'm not alone anymore!

[@Cole-c5f]

@@unstablegay4384what’s gender dimorphisa

[@polfloe10]

as a trans gal i can confirm gender dysphoria sucks

[@SawyerTL]

I'm so sorry about everything that's been happening to you. People can be disgusting. I hope you're safe.

[@ILoveMellos]

Maybe she shouldn't have tried to de platform someone

[@EmotionalParaquat714神离天]

@@ILoveMellos source？

[@StarEco64]

This was well made, and it kind of makes me feel better about my own situation. Getting out of the funk will hopefully allow me to start my own cycle of exercising, so thank you.

[@F_doesnotwanttobehere7]

As someone who has been struggling with my bodyweight for a couple of years, this kind of reassurance helps a lot. and I'm finally starting to accept myself and I go to the gym and eat healthy for me and not because I hate my body like I did in the past,so thankyou

[@Juliangotknocked]

Just do boxing brody. It helped me.

[@storytellerofwilds133]

As a young adult male in college who is very self conscious about his weight, this video was incredibly reassuring and heartfully. I can personally relate to your struggle. Thank you for such an amazing video Illy.

[@Caketurtle7]

Damn no likes is sad

[@MeCatburgee]

Shut up caketurtle

[@logokopa6264]

You can always decide if you want to take the easy path or the hard path, the only difference is, that the easy path is a circle. You will always get back right where you started. The hard path is foggy, uncharted territory. It is longer and you don´t know where it leads. But don´t you think you owe it to yourself to try and walk that path. Don´t you think that at the end of the long hard journey that you can look back and be proud of all the roadblockes you overcame, the excuses you stoped using and the truth you started telling yourself. Walking the familliar circle is easy, but throwing yourself in the dark with no clue of how far the journey will take you is hard and takes courage. Just make sure you don´t have to look back at your life and feel regret for the things you missed out on, the opertunitys you were too afraid to take. Find yourself brother.

[@HzMuhamadelsupahul-jamallullah]

I am sorry man. World is cruel that you cant be fat as an man.

[@tasha6934]

then... go to.... the gym...

[@theonlySaturnstarr]

illyssa, ik you probably wont see this, but i am so so so sorry about everything that has happened. i genuinely hope you are safe and just know that none of this is your fault. we all know you did nothing wrong and im keeping you in my prayers ❤

[@ashisalrtaken]

when the thoughts and prayers dont work:

[@stardustorchard9316]

Im so worried

[@JjJj-kv7wu]

its literally her fault lol

[@mini-of8oo]

It is mostly her fault

[@OroTheEye]

@@mini-of8oohow? She said to eat what you want as long as it doesn’t compromise your health, so how is people doxxing her and getting angry over edited footage her fault?

[@pponca8953]

This is an awesome video that has helped countless people, including me. I'm sorry that certain people have been so terrible about it. I hope you are doing alright.

[@Th3_V01D9]

As a 14 year old that is technically ‘bigger’ then most this video really touched me and I’m very sure others. And as a diabetic seeing someone do a blood test that isn’t part of an full on educational or medical video, shows me it as something normal and not something that’s separate me from others. So I thank you for this video, very much. :)

[@flatztflead1375]

bros fat

[@pustak7202]

i hope you're doing well! remember that no matter your size you deserve love and friends

[@dNorsh]

You still need to work out tho weights are amazing and that first realization that you’ve gained muscle and lost weight is the best

[@pustak7202]

@@dNorsh no one "needs" to work out, not everyone wants to feel big and strong. Nothing wrong with working out tho

[@sailsmi]

@@pustak7202 its not about feeling "big" and "strong", it's about the health problems genius

[@lizo9049]

Damn did this hit me here it hurt. After years of very disordered eating & excessive exercise I finally tapped out & started learning about body positivity & self love. That shit is hard, but it was exactly what I needed. Also mad love to Maintenance Phase, that show has changed me in all the best ways :) thank you for making this

[@SubzeroYoutube]

Thats just called giving up bro

[@luvleytatym]

I'm in recovery for multiple eating disorders and you literally are so inspiring. I've been slipping in and out of my old habits and your video helped me remember that food is food, nothing good or bad. and as a 15 year old I do not have to care about my body or what I think people say about it because it's only a body, my personality is all that matters. I hope you're doing well illy, stay safe ❤️

[@Vadim-jn8ew]

no please dont believe that

[@Vadim-jn8ew]

@@GA5_MA5KHarvell-wp6yj i hope so aswell

[@luvleytatym]

@@GA5_MA5KHarvell-wp6yj wdym bro

[@luvleytatym]

@@Vadim-jn8ew y?

[@GunsAndAmmo3]

Please don't be seriously