Imposter Syndrome - Fake It Till You Make It - Extra Credits

Imposter Syndrome is the psychological phenomena of thinking that you're less capable or deserving of your achievements that you are, leading you to think that you must have "fooled" your way into your position or success. And it is SUPER common in creative fields, including the game industry. Where does this phenomena come from, why is it so harmful, and how can we prevent it?
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[@extrahistory]

This is an issue that's close to a lot of our hearts. Every designer I've ever met has had to deal with imposter syndrome in some way. If it's getting you down, remember that we're all figuring our way on this weird planet and there's no wrong path to where you are. We're all here to support each other so we can continue making awesome things for each other and the world.

[@kingocookies]

Extra Credits what happened to extra breakfast?

[@jamesbachmann7617]

I doubt I am the first or will be the last to say this, but thank you so much. This video just made the world of a difference for me. Hearing that I am not alone when it comes to feeling inadequate, although awful in the sense that so many suffer from it, is very liberating in that if others can get through it, so can I. So thank you again and keep up the great work!!

[@infiniteflame4084]

I swear the song is played at the end is from undertale.

[@baron-von-masky]

@@infiniteflame4084 I thought so as well!

[@Osamathegamer]

5:56 The dude that looks like he is holding his hand out for the lady is not actually helping her that is the hand of the guy holding him (who is right out of frame) and he is helping that lady. This leads to the conclusion that either that guy is amazing at this and can hold two people without having had any assistance or that he has three hands. While the guy in frame has either one hand or is helping the next person out of frame. You guys put very strange Easter eggs.

[@user-uh7cb3vy4v]

NO DONT CALL ME OUT THEY WILL KNOW

[@u.m.rcentral868]

This is how we live comrade, high 5!

[@sweatyskeleton7390]

skeleton brother??????

[@anything4660]

@@sweatyskeleton7390 i am only like you in the inside

[@paultapping9510]

HE'S NOT TALKING TO YOU, HE'S TALKING TO ME

[@stout8138]

THEY ALREADY KNOW

[@mso1ps4]

Neil Armstrong also experienced imposter syndrome after he became the first man to walk on the moon. He felt like he didn't deserve to be seen as someone who accomplished something great, and that he 'just went where he was sent' and that was all. It's sort of mind-boggling how easily we can deceive ourselves.

[@wytfish4855]

doesn't help when he's fully aware that its a team effort but the public revere him as THE man to step onto the moon. as far as i'm concerned impostor syndrome is not merely a mental block. your surroundings WILL affect you as well

[@daikage]

One of my favorite anecdotes on the subject.

[@christopherfleetwood5252]

To be fair he is an .A lieN

[@Zyrdalf]

He could just be admitting that we never actually went to the moon...

[@idcgaming518]

@@Zyrdalf no.

[@flusterfluff]

Matt, I will admit, I was a bit wary when you first came on. I had grown so used to the usual "sound" of EC videos, and such that I was a bit nervous that quality would drop when Dan stopped voicing these. Or when James left. But the show has been consistently high quality, and I very quickly came to enjoy the sound of your voice. You're not Dan. You will never be Dan. And that is so far from a bad thing. You are very, very distinctly your own person, and the voiceover you provide for this series is amazing. Thank you for contributing so much to these lessons and stories (especially a fan of Extra Mythology and Sci-Fi here!) with your voice and amazing delivery. Keep up the great work, you're making all of us proud.

[@wva6809]

I can't tell you how much I agree with you. I feel sad for the people who left because Dan or James left. They're truly missing out on amazing content!

[@matthewpontrelli9069]

Truth!!!!!!!!!

[@youdoyouidome7452]

Same

[@xanderpizza2759]

Why did they leave?

[@RetroRageasaurus]

Took the words right outta my head!

[@insertname252]

“Down to new writers and narrators of moderately successful KZbin channels” hmmmmm

[@quedtion_marks_kirby_modding]

That seems a bit spesific.

[@___i3ambi126]

@@quedtion_marks_kirby_modding probably a coincidence

[@quedtion_marks_kirby_modding]

@@___i3ambi126 smh.

[@roflTiMeX]

Damn that episode hit hard. I've lost my job after 5 months of working there because I refused to ask for help resulting in my work getting done super slow. Now while I'm looking for work I don't apply to some openings because they require skills or knowledge that I only have little experience in and I don't feel like I'll be able to do that job. Anyway, you're doing a great job Matt! Keep it up!

[@jimmyc.491]

Are you sure you're not me?

[@justinthomas7222]

Just a word of encouragement, a very good friend of mine got every job she had over 40 years applying to jobs she was not qualified for. She never lied about her abilities, but always said, "give me 30 days. I'm willing & able to learn, & if it doesn't work out after 30 days, I'll go, no questions asked, no hard feelings." She was never let go. Sometimes, humility & a willingness to learn is more desired than the actual skills. And sometimes they just put in requirements in order to weed out those who are too scared to try. If you see a job you want, go for it. Be honest, but don't be self-deprecating.

[@pogo575]

Apply to them anyway! From the other end of the stick I can tell you many places care more about your ability to adapt and fit in to the pipeline.. much like new software employees can be taught plenty as long as they know the basics. But, finding someone that has humility, enough skill to get the job done and will mesh well with others is priceless.

[@thrillhouse_vanhouten]

@@justinthomas7222 thank you for sharing that story!

[@justinthomas7222]

@@pogo575 thanks for your story too!

[@MusicalShenanigans99]

I’m a grad student. I really felt this.

[@DarkKnightDad]

Me too😣. It is even worst when you have a full scholarship and feel like you are just "tricking" your supervisor 😣 but i learned to cope with it and just do my best 😅😁👍

[@natanoj16]

I am a teacher. One thing that helped me was one of the other teachers saying 'until you repeat teaching the same year atleast a few time, you won't even start feeling like you know what you are doing. Atleast the first 5 years will be with a constant feeling of' I have no idea what I am doing' "

[@MusicalShenanigans99]

@darkknightdad. I started anti anxiety meds, made a huge difference from last year. It’s better

[@c0rzilla2]

Right there with you, especially since I'm starting an internship soon

[@mohammedalshirawi7584]

MBA student. Still feel this despite my grades. Dunning Krueger effect. Just ignore the feeling and do what you do.

[@geofff.3343]

Matt: Goes off script Me: MAKE THIS MAN AN HONORARY DAN!

[@zavdan7682]

as a fellow Dan I approve of this message

[@PrototypeSpaceMonkey]

He has more than earned his Danning permit.

[@OrbitalAstronaut]

I feel like this in school right now.

[@felixmortem1177]

I felt like this in school so my response was to save work until the 11th hour then try to get it done before turn in time, not the healthiest way to go about it but c'est la vie

[@yajamanvamsikrishna509]

We all do.. even in india

[@CybeastID]

Same...

[@lucarvee]

I am in school right now.

[@WhyGodby]

SAME

[@Machtyn]

1:15 Procrastination - First thing I thought of was the allegory Jesus told about the servant who received 1 talent. He was so afraid to lose it, he failed to do anything.

[@lettuceprime4922]

That's not a bad reference. Nice connection.

[@Valery0p5]

Man that hit hard...

[@DaRealPielover1987]

This was fantastic! Programmer here. I started professional work at age 20 and was instantly a mid level engineer. There were basic programming concepts that weren't taught in school. I'd never worked on a team as large as what I was brought into. First day in I wrote code that ended up needing to be fixed a couple days later. Time passed and I eventually turned things around and became a great asset to the team. Taking over quite a few large features in our game and adding new ones. My imposter syndrome stemmed from being so much younger than my counterparts. There were a few engineers who were less than 10 years older than me but most had been doing this for almost as long as I had been alive. Recently found out that they have the same thing because they are viewing themselves as old since I'm able to keep up even if I might not be as experienced.

[@christianbradford5383]

I've been watching and loving this show for many years. I loved what Dan and James did. It may not feel it, but you are both well worth stepping into their shoes. Thank you so much for being brave and taking up the reins of this show. I know there is an awesome future in store for all of us in this community.

[@demondton96]

"Watching this as i feel like I'm getting behind in my job" squad where you at?

[@matt-ti8yw]

Here! I work the seasonal department at a walmart. Me and my other associates are struggling to keep the seasonal department looking clean and organized, and I feel like I'm not doing my part to keep things looking nice.

[@heftyordinanceindividual4015]

I have 2 exams tommorow and i think i'm going to fail them...

[@Codraroll]

Several papers for my PhD with deadlines coming up. I don't feel competent enough to write any of them.

[@user-jp7tw3sd3x]

"Ramirez, Do Everything."

[@rushalias8511]

This is something that has plagued me for a while. High school and now university as well as social settings

[@mandisaw]

Talk to someone, a counselor, or even just a peer. Having a colleague who can help you through those early feelings of "not-belonging" can be immensely beneficial.

[@ThomasWindar]

Matt - I remember the first episode with you. It felt new and different, cause Dan moved away. But for all it's worth - nowadays I'd feel weird if someone replaced YOU. Cause you became integral to this show. Keep up the good work.

[@LoevNL]

I felt it before my first sports game in the national league, like I wasn't good enough to compete. My coach noticed it and asked: "How are you feeling?" Nervous I answered. He replied: "Why? You are in the starting line up, benching the person who was in the team 3 years before you." After that, everything I had the same feeling I remember this moment and it helped me get passed it.

[@ScoffMathews]

Damn I legit started crying when you went off script.

[@ribby9069]

That off script part was part of the script though 😂

[@pussymastermpampinos9039]

@@ribby9069 Triple ultra nani twist

[@icarue993]

@@ribby9069 Maybe. But the longer pauses between words, the doubts and "hums" didn't make it seem like so. There's a real clear difference between the script and the "off script" part

[@AsparagusEduardo]

Same here

[@Roxfox]

@@ribby9069 Matt doesn't write the scripts, so it'd be weird if it was! Besides, you can tell from his change in tone that, though he may have planned to say something along those lines before hitting the record button, those words definitely weren't read from a page.

[@VTPPGLVR]

I’m a teacher, but I didn’t get a permission slip for the feels trip you’re taking me on.

[@theasianthatsbetterthanyou8324]

Thank you for this video! As a computer engineering student falling behind his studies, this is a big encouragement. Ok now to actually do some studying

[@fatguy338]

It's really unfortunate how competitive enviornments can make us forget eachother's humanity.

[@bazinga2665]

ok this hit way too close to home, mom come pick me up I'm scared

[@bevanfindlay]

I remember a classic case of this: had been working closely with a group of about a dozen others for a couple of weeks and it was going amazingly when one of the group almost had a breakdown in front of us all from feeling so inadequate compared to us all. We then realised that everyone (except one) - including those in charge - were feeling the same. It helped to know we all felt like that.

[@hanswurst5712]

If I can just break away from the script real fast. You are awesome, I'm glad you kept going :)

[@waleedkhalid7486]

I very honestly wish this had come out a couple years ago when I was heavily affected by this. I was in academia (biology) and had every single symptom stated and dealt with it with procrastination and settling for a lower tiered job. However, I think something to note is that it is OK to feel unhappy and to want to change. For me, I just wasn't into the idea of being a scientist. Instead, I like teaching and am quite good at it (according to my biased students). It took a while for me to reconcile my desires and the desires of others who wanted me to do other things whether I truly liked it or not. Maybe my experience is similar to yours, or maybe not- I think the key is recognizing the root cause of the issue and then addressing it. For me it was being pushed into things I never had a choice in and feeling like I should not be there. I addressed it by leaving that and following my heart (with a dose of realism) and am now pretty happy with my life (though still struggling to advance).

[@auranyaa7482]

Love this video! I was meant to graduate with my peers this year as a pharmacist. But for the last four years, I've had very much the same feeling discussed here (after failing a course). It's pick ups like this video where it's not all doom and gloom. Heck, I may have been worse off switching degrees after that failure. So I continue on, towards the time I graduate and be able to tell a grander story to my peers. Thank you Extra Credits (and Dan and Zoey)

[@mosslander]

Thank you. This came along at just the right time for me. I've been teaching at a private school for 5 years without a teaching certificate, and am now applying for jobs in public schools (as a para-educator) and having trouble shaking off the feeling that I'm not a 'real teacher'.

[@darkblueknightgirl]

0:51 3:24 *head pats* you're doing fine :)

[@jimmyc.491]

This one spoke to me on a number of levels. We're all less confident than we appear and more capable than we think, aren't we?

[@dpad200x8]

I'm going through a bit of a rough stretch emotionally as of late, with new responsibilities at work and just general depression setting in. This video hit me hard, and is what I needed to get through the week, so I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for covering something that is not just related to gaming culture.

[@noonedude101]

I’m an airline captain. I definitely had a touch of this. I had some poor quality instructors early on who failed to achieve their goals, and they took it out on me by telling me that I wasn’t good enough. Took a few months as the captain to break free of that. What helped a lot, actually, was working with all of our brand new FO’s who were nervous and making mistakes. It really put it into perspective how far I had come since I was at that point, and it felt great helping them through it.

[@Zeldur]

Thank you for making this right before finals. Since the time you posted this video, I've actually felt a lot better about my situation with one of my classes where I feel a tremendous amount of imposter syndrome. Also, standing in the shower repeating, "I can do this" for maybe 5 mins while taking deep breaths also helped a lot. Thank you for covering this topic.

[@TibsisTops]

All of you who work on the show right now deserve to be there. All of you are doing a great job. I've watched the show for years, way before it was even on youtube, and you guys keep getting better, trying new things, and raising important questions. I'm proud of y'all.

[@kevinlai7524]

i just say to myself "if i'm incompetent then i must be competent enough to know i'm incompetent." Truly incompetent people don't realize just how incompetent they are.

[@eiiza8283]

Wait... no, that's genus. I'm gonna borrow that. Cold logic, that will help me a lot. Thanks.

[@hmsquared8603]

This episode felt like a comforting blanket and I needed that. Thank you. Also want to note that when I was doing high school theatre, a friend of mine wrote an Among Us-themed show about imposter syndrome. It was so refreshing to openly discuss the topic while also making it kind of fun.

[@echanhenry2285]

I don’t really care if anyone else sees this, I just felt like writing it. Thank you so much for making this video. As small as it may seem, I legitimately teared up a bit when you said you got this. Keep up the great work, all of you. And remember, we’re all in this together

[@andybryant2450]

This...is powerful. Because I have (and still do) suffer from imposter syndrome. But I struggle with it in almost everything I do. Like...I didn't do well my first two years of college and it has lead me to believe that I'm not capable of being there, especially when I see my friends and classmates beings so...successful at it. But seeing this has, hopefully, given me some ways to deal with the imposter syndrome.

[@jennifergrosky]

This is one of those vids I'll watch over and over just to remind myself. Great episode guys, I always look forward to each release.

[@HolyGarfield]

Bravo for talking about this (dealt with this too often). Especially given how you guys may feel. You're doing this channel justice in what you bring! Keep it up!!

[@sarahblack9333]

So the next time you look around and wonder how everyone else manages to have everything together, remember: MOST OF THEM HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY'RE DOING EITHER! Hugs to everyone on the Extra Credits team, you guys are the best. Because Mental Health Matters!

[@ceridwenaeradwr8105]

Daaaamn, I needed this. Thank you.

[@karolzuchowicz6177]

Guys I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoy watching your historical sieries, matter of fact, I binge watched every one at lest few times. I need more!

[@snowflakedice]

Oh I so needed this today. I have suffered with this for quite a long time.

Come on, we like you and we always had, our sweet Not-a-Dan!

[@ElBobDestroyer]

The first time Mat made that joke, I immediately felt that as a coping mechanism for that imposter syndrome. If i'm right, I'm glad to see he doesn't need that joke anymore. If you're reading this Mat you're not a imposter but a full fledged and real damn good Not-a-Dan ;-)

[@TaberIV]

Never thought anyone would be able to live up to Dan when he left, I was wrong.

[@mandisaw]

Different, but also good.

[@snickerdog65hume27]

I remember having the reverse of this before, other people were saying that over HALF my hits in table tennis were flukes and I was just getting lucky, for HALF my hits.

[@wontonjohn321]

Hey man, you've been doing an amazing job of not only taking over for Dan, but also making your own voice! At first I was thrown off by your different style but now I've come to appreciate it just as much as Dan. Keep up the good work!

[@devonstein7464]

This is one of the few channels I highly recommend to friends and this video is a great example why. At it's core, it's a channel about game development, but most of the time, it also ends up being a great discussion on how to live a healthy life. Keep up the great work!!

[@psycologo121]

This episode came at the perfect time. I'm starting a new job and I feel like I shouldn't be there. Thank you guys so much.

[@coryb3]

Thank you Extra Credits team, I love you guys

[@Thefuryspeed100]

I don't blame you matt, when you came here you had some HUGE shoes to fill in, but now i can't imagine the show without you!

[@ChaseL16357]

Thank you, I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for a while now, but nothing was really working. Now with this video I have a better idea of what I am struggling with and why after years it hasn't really been feeling better. Honestly, this has been one of the most helpful videos you guys have made.

[@cyberwaffls3113]

Great video. as always! And Matt, you for sure deserve the narrator role. The personality and charm you added is priceless!

[@jpfife84]

Hearing you talk about this and the ending music has filled me with DETERMINATION. Thank you.

[@Orrphoiz]

I really needed to hear this one right now. Thank you guys!

[@NL8584]

I have been dealing with this for over a decade I never even knew it was a thing. Thank you so much for making this.

[@shallbetterdj]

You brought Zoey you brought your own unique self that’s why my wife and I love you Matt

[@warioware3odst]

funnily enough, this video showed up just when i really needed it. started a new job recently and i have been feeling impostor syndrome HARDCORE. i cant thank you enough for making this video! it was a fun watch and i was able to take away so much from it

[@furse2190]

Appreciated that a lot.. Love your work guys, been loyal since long time!

[@Ghost3210]

When you realize that your life is a big spiderman meme

[@Dragmirejr]

As a store manager of a decently sized store, I feel this a lot! Great video and thanks for sharing this valuable knowledge

[@yonokhanman654]

0:50 Wait a minute, that's the guy from Extra Credits!

[@ZatomiAwake]

Another episode I really needed. Thanks!

[@BrianOxleyTexan]

Nothing like your usual videos. Wow! Imposter Syndrome is something constantly appearing at all levels. This is my new go-to for starting discussion. Thank you.

[@sharif47]

I have a classmate who's total opposite. When I decided to do a small project (simpler than what others were doing), he was like... "I know what you're doing. You really are a trickster. Don't think you can fool me like everyone else..." blah blah. [In my native language, of course] You don't need imposter syndrome if you have a friend like him.

[@littlefishbigmountain]

A “friend”, eh? But maybe he was insecure about himself and was projecting his own imposter syndrome onto you. Don’t listen to that foolishness.

[@holicmaster]

Thank you I really needed this right now. I’ve always had this feeling that it was merely luck that I’ve achieved the things I did. I’m glad to know that there are many people that feel the same way.

[@mochure]

This came at an impeccable time, thank you very much EC!

[@gideonravid2722]

In all honesty, Matt, you're the one who deserve this the most. I was afraid quality would drop, but you're doing such a good job that I haven't missed a single video!

[@johntolentino8827]

Thanks for this video Extra credits. This particular issue has been haunting me for the longest time. It feels good to put a name to a face.

[@MrAshCarr]

Nice, a video about my comfort zone! I self-sabotaged in high school just to save time and honestly I've lived with this for so long I don't think I'd know what to do with myself if I got over it

[@kylearchbold5189]

Thanks for this, been doubting myself about my abilities as a DM for my gaming group. Been wondering if they were even enjoying what I was presenting each week. Took a few weeks off to focus on work and when I sent out the text for the next session the enthusiasm I received was really heart warming and validating. This video helped me realize how I was thinking negatively and will help me reframe those thoughts into positive ones. Thanks EC

[@BubblyOasis]

I needed this badly. Thank you.

[@GameFlife]

Tks you so much extra credit!!

[@rbm_gps3088]

people always ask “who is the impostor” but sadly no one ever asks “how is the impostor” T_T

[@shayanahmad5439]

This is my first video from your channel. I subscribed just because of the strong voice and intro. Thanks!

[@AnhTran-fd8cj]

this video is very helpful to me as im gonna take a very important exam and always feel inferior to other peers arround me. watching this video is actually like getting a motivation boost and self confidence!!

[@syrusangi8743]

Thanks for addressing this topic. It really helps a lot

[@excellensea1071]

Thanks for the video! I have a presentation for my class today and this removed some of the stress.

[@Vicky_1995_]

2 Things. First. Matt I won't lie I was saddened when I heard Dan was leaving the podium I had listened to every extra history and most the extra credits, but I still tuned into the new videos as they dropped and now when i think of Extra credit I hear your voice (And Zoey's meows). You have earned that podium in my eye and I will enjoy watching every video your in. Second. Most my life has been a case of imposter syndrome. I'm still struggling with it even today. My isn't work related more of a personal level. I never felt right with who I am and then now that I'm making strides to be the person that I know I am I feel like I'm still an imposter. That I won't be accepted in either group now. I try to not let it get to me I focus on other things but it's still thier in the back of my mind.

[@AE-lw1ug]

I think you do a great job narrating and making this show awesome. Thanks for what you do.

[@IlkkaSavilampi]

Thank you, i needed this today

[@mithickwolf]

Thanks Extra Credits this video was exactly what i needed to hear coz i am feeling like this but did not know how to express it I feel like i’m going to watch this again and again to remind my self that i can do it.

[@SamuelEstenlund]

I'm a quite new follower, but you (the narrator) are doing an awesome job! I love this channel for how you read things.

[@aierisfrost8447]

I think it's advice videos like this that supply me with endless joy

[@THECHEESELORD69]

Hey it’s been 4 years since this video and this probably won’t be seen but thank you all for what you’ve done.

[@alix7657]

Wait you’re telling me that what I’ve been suffering from for most of my life actually has a name?

[@amireinav1]

It’s so weird seeing him stumble in animated form, like you can imagine a real person behind that drawing

[@The_OPN]

I had a horrible case of this that made my life pretty much self-destruct, confirming the imposter syndrome and ruining a good many of my chances. But now it's a rebuilding year, and I'm realizing how helpful videos like this are in terms of making sure it doesn't happen again.

[@Boltizar49]

Imposter Syndrome: The Trans Experience It’s such a common thing in the trans community to experience Imposter Syndrome. That’s why validation and acceptance are such important things. And it’s why getting somebody’s pronouns wrong hurts so much.

[@l0stndamned]

A very interesting episode. I often feel this way socially. Like I'm blagging knowing how to speak to folks.

[@wisdom_save]

I've been having a rough last couple of weeks since since applying for uni and skipping straight into the second year, loads of things that they just assumed i should know and it felt awful and this resonated powerfully, thanks EC. xxx

[@zoeh7077]

Thank you. This is a helpful reminder that I seem to need quite often.

[@untruelie2640]

This video has helped me very much. Thank you.

[@danc6167]

A very timely video for me to hear today. Thanks.

[@MrFreakRite]

I'm only just realizing as I watch this that I've been fighting imposter syndrome for years at my job. And only in the past few months have I been able to turn it around and just a few days ago I got my promotion that honestly I deserved years back, but I had to apply myself to get that, and will myself to actually DO it. Nice to know that most people deal with similar issues in their life aswell

[@odedsayar4345]

Every word hits so close to home

[@Duchess_Van_Hoof]

Hugely important episode, thank you.

[@aidenhall8593]

We need more extra credits videos like this

[@troyimlach1453]

I feel Like this at work and I have been in my department for 3 years. I do know what I'm doing. but as soon as another employee can see what I'm doing I start to panic and then I start to make mistakes.

[@mattig89ch]

Wait...are there people who haven't felt this way when starting a new job? Seriously?

[@Captainflake99]

I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels like this about their work. I thought it was just me after being left to run a entire IT department by myself with little help after being at my work for 2 years and my predecessors for being their for 5-10 years each. And all I’ve know is how it was and not how it could and will be and that gets to me as i keep comparing myself and my work to that and thinking I’m not doing the best that the department could be doing. Hopefully now knowing it’s ok to feel like this and many others are the same, I might one day over come it. Thanks guys and matt you are doing really great I love you and Zoe and love your energy in the mythology episodes