It's Too Scary To Be Alone - John Floreani of Trophy Eyes

[@caitlinharrison5334]

I will always have endless respect for John and the rest of Trophy Eyes for always being so raw, honest and open about their struggles. It helps so so many of their fans to know they're not alone

[@emilyk5003]

I cannot fathom spending a whole appointment listening to John Floreani and coming out of it thinking “yes, this man’s brain is perfectly healthy.” That makes my blood boil. I know he said he let it go but I hope he doesn’t because not knowing what’s wrong with your brain doesn’t make you not have the problem, it just makes you feel like shit.

[@baggaz167]

"Compared to your parents having to bury you, it's incredibly fucking easy to talk to someone". Damn, man. That hits hard. I hope everyone I know - and strangers I don't - are able to talk. Whether to loved ones, or me, a random person on the internet. The more we talk, the less alone we feel, because we're social creatures who feel like there is so much more stigma than there really is. It's not bottling it up that's impressive or strong, it's talking, man. I was never brave enough to talk when I battled mental health problems, and when I hear people still struggling - as honestly as I talk about the issue now - I don't think you're weak; I think you're strong as fuck. Honestly. They're braver people than me, and John's right: it IS much harder to lose someone to mental health problems than to talk about them.

[@fpsrussian2696]

Yep! Ty

[@aardenriv]

Crazy how he's saving lives now. We love you John ❤❤❤❤

[@WizardSquares]

Been my favourite band since 2013, I love John and I appreciate his openness. The boys’ music has helped me through so much. I struggle with being alone and had the same experience with insomnia ruining my life. Unfortunately i no longer have who I found peace in but I’m Thankful to have met you recently and get the chance to thank you in person. Stay well boys ❤

[@HeartSupport]

From taylorpalmby: Oh man friend this sucks. It sucks to struggle with being alone, find someone to help you through that and then you lose that person too, which leaves you alone, which is a really hard place to be. On top of that you're stuck in your racing thoughts, while the rest of the world is asleep which has to feel so frustrating and isolating. My heart hurts for you friend. I hope it gives you hope that you were able to see so much of your story in John's. He has struggled with so many similar things and he has and is finding healing from them. That means there is hope for you too. There is healing. You're not alone, because someone you love and look up to has gone through the same things. This community is here for you.

[@HeartSupport]

From NateTriesAgain: So hard when you've got these kind of compounding factors - feeling alone in general, losing someone who helped you feel at peace, and stacking insomnia on top of all of that. It's so hard to be stuck with your thoughts, wide awake at night, when your thoughts only echo of the pain you feel. It's like not being able to escape it - it is a kind of echo-chamber of hollowness and loneliness, and it can be terrifying to have to face that. I know in my own life, I ran away as hard and as fast as I could from that kind of vibe. I filled my life with escapism - playing video games every waking moment, watching porn when I got sick of video games, and scrolling the internet just to fill the void. When I did go to sleep, I listened to a talk show so that I didn't have to listen to my own thoughts because it was terrifying. I appreciate you sharing. It's hard to open up and say - yeah, shit's not all well. Thankful for your courage <3

[@HeartSupport]

From mpicreates: First off I want to say thank you for opening up here and sharing with us. Struggling with feeling alone is difficult, but you mention losing the person you found peace in which understandably would make you feel even more alone. Then compound insomnia on top of it where you're up all night with your thoughts. That's such a heavy feeling to deal with. I hope John talking about his similar experiences reminds you that you aren't alone in what you're going through and helps you find some peace again. Holdfast friend, we believe in you.

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: Thank you for sharing about these parts of your life here. It is comforting to hear how much their music has helped you during rough seasons of your life. Although I'm truly sorry that loneliness and insomnia have been part of your personal experiences. On top of a sense of loneliness that we can feel throughout the day, it certainly hits differently when it comes at night. I can recall many nights when my worries and anxieties would keep me awake, and how much being awake while the world was asleep was making me feel even more lonely. I've only had a peak of what insomnia can look like as a depression symptom -- I can only imagine how it's been for you as it sounds to be a core obstacle in your life at the moment. Rooting for you, friend. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@joshuac360]

Sounds like my mental health without the drugs and alcohol. It’s rough I hope you keep learning John, stay strong!

[@waydagotc]

Sucks he went through this. Just went through this same extract bullshit - haven’t slept solid in months, finally went to a dr, answered the invasive questions, tried to advocate for myself, came home feeling even more hopeless. No sleep. No peace. Shit sucks.

[@makennah23]

I love Trophy Eyes, and really appreciate him speaking so openly about this. I’ve had horrible experiences with psychiatrists too, it took me 10 years to finally find one who would help me get the proper diagnosis and treatment. I’m not sure how the mental healthcare systems differ between the US and Australia, but it sounds like they need improvement all around.

[@2505callum]

Amen brother ! Can relate to this 🙏

[@josueaguilar1911]

We’re here with you brother.

[@natasazanda5702]

You are brave to open up about all this. And thank god you didn’t commit suicide… it takes a strong person to not do it. So you have that strength in you!!! So proud of you!! You ve got so much to give to this world … and what you said: don’t do this to your parents.. ever! It s the worst thing that could ever happen to a parent to lose a child. 🖤 Rock on John! You got this

[@SushiTattoos]

I fully believe there are mental health professionals, therapists and counselors that should not be in that field, especially one that is so detrimental to certain people. I have experienced something similar after getting in trouble in my youth telling court mandated counselors about my issues and they only wanted my money and almost took it as a joke. I also fully believe that to cope with mental illness it starts with physical health I didn’t start turning my life around until I just started running one day and that transitioned into a gym membership which ultimately lead to achieving bigger goals whilst giving me a more clear mindset on how to get to those goals.

[@Ruthlesshauser]

If you see this, much love man

[@CorlaxCory]

Absolute legend.

[@codycarr3151]

Trophy Eyes is my favorite band. You have helped me and many others through so much shit in life. I love you guys, thank you for your beautiful music. We love you John.

[@ReeceTweaks]

Very talented man

[@steaksmash33]

I appreciate this video

[@michaelestorico9401]

John you did an amazing job in Adelaide, thank you for keeping the energy so high and being so honest to the whole crowd, we all appreciated it so much

[@justinclark1182]

Love you bro

[@PalmsRedMan]

Been through the same experience on the Gold Coast when I lived up there for 6 years… constantly told nothing wrong with me and have I tried exercise… haven’t had “professional” help since

[@HeartSupport]

From NateTriesAgain: Yeah it’s brutal to seek help and then just get some vanilla answer that doesn’t feel personal or attentive at all. It’s like - did you even hear me? Do you even care? It’s hard to feel like just another chart. Especially when you know you’re on the edge, and you are reaching for help and just need SOMEONE…SOMETHING…and then to be let down by all of it…it’s so defeating. Makes it hard to try again. Makes you want to swear it off altogether. But the problems remain and you feel totally stuck. I’m sorry for all of that…you deserved better. I appreciate you commenting here, there’s something beautiful about talking about the disappointment because it is opening a door again. Even though there’s fear it’ll be pointless, you pressed through that and said yeah - shit’s not good still, and I’m angry about the past. Talking about it is the first step to renewed hope, a chance for things to improve. And worst case for someone to hear you and see you. Thank you for reaching out.

[@michaelshellenberger5935]

Thank you for this John. I don’t think I could relate much more than I do to the things you shared. I appreciate the depth of your honesty more than I can explain. So many things you said, I really needed to hear at this moment. Hope your healing continues and same to all here struggling. I lost my father to suicide 10 years ago in October and it still very often feels like yesterday. That pain is so real for the ones who love us. You hit the nail on the head when you said it’s beyond easy in comparison to parents burying their children (or parents to this). Much love man and congrats on the new album. It’s helped me so much in the short time I’ve had the songs but I’m positive so so many others have had the same experience! Much love everyone 🫶🏼

[@baggaz167]

Sorry to hear about your father. I hope Trophy Eyes' music continues to bring you joy

[@deathwishlv]

Love John

[@D-doggy77]

Don’t ever let things get so bad, I lost my little brother because he couldn’t get any help and he didn’t come and talk to me or Mum and Dad now we are shattered and life will never be the same.

[@HeartSupport]

From gravitykills24: @user-vw4rv7em1k Thank you for reaching out to HeartSupport - that is what we are here for and my heart breaks to hear about your family and you losing your brother. I am glad we live in a time in history when admitting to having mental health struggles is getting more common and accepted in society because for too long people have hidden in the shadows feeling like they were alone, that nobody else had the dark thoughts or feelings they do, or that something is wrong with them. A great way to honor your brother is to continue to advocate for others to get help when they need it and to destroy the stigma of mental health. Everyone is struggling with something. Everyone has felt like they aren't enough or has let someone down. Everyone has at some point felt like they have done something so bad that nobody would ever love them again if people found out. EVERYONE. The time of silently struggling is over. Feel free to post again or reply anytime - we are here to love and support and help individuals and families like yours to advocate for people seeking help.

[@D-doggy77]

@@HeartSupport thanks very much for the kind words. My little brother lived free to put it mildly but I still can’t believe that he did what he did. I know he struggled with mental health issues and also did too many things that wouldn’t have helped him. I guess if I could say anything that would be to not be too afraid to ask for help, at least give people the opportunity to help you and know that you’re only putting your pain onto your family and people who care by taking your own life.

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From ManekiNeko: @user-vw4rv7em1k I want to thank you for what you have shared. The experience of losing someone you love to their mental health struggles is so raw, so painful and so heavy. I’m sure there has been such a lengthy process that has taken place to work through all the emotions that flood when it comes to such a loss. I know through loss there can be so many questions and so much hurt that can easily lead to guilt and anger. It can be so hard to shift those feelings. Your message is such a powerful one. To provide the message that there is love and support if you reach out because there are people who have so much love in their heart and would do so much to ease the pain in their hearts. It’s a beautiful place where we can come to knowing that we carry so much of their memory and honour them in our hearts by having this awareness and spreading this message. Others who see this message can feel the gravity of the eight that is beared through loss, but also find a hope that there is support to give.

[@HeartSupport]

From Lisalovesfeathers: @user-vw4rv7em1k Thank you so much for your post. I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your brother. I cannot imagine the pain and sorrow that you and your family have gone through since that time. Within your message to others which is such a gift to give, to remind people not to leave things, not to let things get bad, not to let things go unsaid. I feel your pain. I understand that no one wants to be in the position to remind anyone with that message and how brave you are to have reached into your heart and found a gift for others amid your grief. I hope with that said, there is no guilt that comes with that?? I am sorry he didn’t come and talk to you or your parents, sadly sometimes it isn’t that you don’t want to, sometimes you don’t know how to express it or you just don’t know if anyone will truly understand so instead of giving them a chance to find out we hide away or keep to ourselves. I like to think that even when a person we love passes they are still around sometimes, just checking in on us. I am certain if that is the case your brother checks in often and even if life will not be the same, you can all still live a good life in his memory surrounded by his love. Xxx

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: @user-vw4rv7em1k I'm so sorry, friend. It must have been absolutely world-shattering to lose your brother, especially in such a brutal way. To know that he was struggling and to wake up one day knowing he wasn't part of this world anymore. It's unfair, and there is no doubt that you have spent your share of nights and days thinking about all of it again and what could have been done differently. Feeling the weight of opportunities lost can truly haunt us. Losing a sibling is like losing a part of your own soul, and words are not enough to describe how painful it is to keep on going without them. Despite all of it though, you are sharing this beautiful message of love and hope to those who might be afraid of reaching out or overwhelmed just by the idea of doing it. You heart is so pure, and through all your words here we can feel all the love you have for your brother too. I hope that, in the midst of this grief you are walking through, you also allow yourself as much grace and kindness as you're offering others here. However you feel is valid, at any time of your own journey. Thank you for being here, for sharing your voice, for being you. -Marie-Anne

[@muhamadrizkyramadhan7449]

That's the thing that I'm trying to fight now atm. Being dead it's not the thing that I'm afraid of but can't sleep it's the thing that really scares me now, especially when you can't sleep but the thoughts keeps running and running and you can't do anything it just can't stop and it messed me up. Heartbroken and how I cope it it's the thing that cause this and I'm still fight with that

[@vylantv1783]

you got this, man. Reach out to Lifeline

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: Hey friend. I'm proud of you for still fighting and not giving up on yourself. It sounds like life has been really heavy on you lately, and I'm truly sorry that you've been dealing with such painful emotions. It makes completely sense to experience having your thoughts keeping you awake at night when you're feeling so heartbroken and vulnerable. Sometimes it does feel like our mind leads a fight against us, forcing us to think about things we don't want to focus on. I hear how difficult it is for you and how chaotic it feels to deal with this rush of thoughts at night. For what it's worth, I can relate to what you describe, and there are definitely times in my life when I felt like I wasn't in control -- only standing on the passenger seat. Sometimes our mind lead us to dark spaces only as a way to let us know that something needs to be taken care of -- that *we* deserve a lot of care and attention. I don't know your story and what has been making you feel that way, but know that if you'd like to talk about it, this comment section is safe to open up. You're not alone, and you matter so very much. Hold Fast, friend.

[@fpsrussian2696]

They DESERVE and NEED more views

[@littlebro1818]

6:23 John you talking about this.. Is exactly how i felt and still feel, im only 26 and went to see you at the edge hill tavern only a couple weeks ago, i still dont want to live but cant do anything myself. So i drown myself in drugs and alcohol. The say your not a man till 27, but next year im pretty sure i will still have no idea what to do.

[@HeartSupport]

From ExtremelyKind: Though I did not watch the video. But the title is about fear of being alone, so I might role with that. I get being alone sucks. I too feel alone at times and I don’t exactly do anything about it to change it. But I urge you to try looking into things that your community does. Maybe join a group that peaks your interest. Its hard to meet people and make friends through jobs sometimes and it is extremely hard to meet people if your a home body (meaning you like to be at home all the time). But know this, you sir, are not alone. Explore the community, find some new hobbies and you will find people you can relate to in your community, Im sure of it. And if it helps, I will be trying to do the same as well! Good luck, and try to see life as a explorational experience. In other words, every day try to do something new everyday or at least once a week, give yourself something to look forward to every week.

[@rune544]

❤

[@joshuamcmichael4121]

You are NOT alone John

[@fpsrussian2696]

I cant.. i can't ever sleep

[@felipeacosta_]

It's so crazy that the solution is so simple, yet it becomes incredibly hard to get through with it. Like, I'm almost fucking 30 and besides my partner I have no one else I can talk to. Left my country 2 years ago now and with that my friends and family. And yes, I talk with them but it's not the same as having someone closer. Got my partner and my dog and that’s it. Still go to therapy every week, but still no friends, no one else closer I can talk to. I put so much weight on my partner telling her my feelings and I can tell that she's already tired of it and it's not fair for her to carry all my crap and now I'm just venting myself out in a KZbin video comment section... Fuck.

[@EXCELSIOR_INC]

Have you tried jumping into crowds of people?

[@drtg101we7]

Do you think making light of a tragic accident makes you some kind of a hero?

[@ballerbscott]

@@drtg101we7I like trophy eyes and John and am empathetic to the severity of the victims situation. The comment still made me laugh. Lighten up.

[@inktothepast]

“Like it was crushing me” That aged fckin poorly.. lol

[@thatkidredhead]

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[@VirtualNazgul]

He stagedived on a girl and paralyzed her​@@thatkidredhead

[@linguisticsdrums9215]

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