Sex Addict interview-Drew

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Drew, a sex addict in Rochester, New York.
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[@TheNewDrew]

Thank you all for your love and support (as well as constructive criticism). I appreciate every one of you. Much love! - Drew

[@saltyfries9283]

You got this brother!

[@SR388Zebes]

Amazing story from a very intelligent individual

[@zerinakarup1368]

Would love to hear more about your experience of being in recovery and the role spirituality has played and continues to play - and what it is that made you finally open up to it. Hopefully soon on your podcast :-) Something that came up for me and I don’t know if this resonates at all… you would love to be in a relationship. However, I wonder if subconsciously you are afraid of truly falling in love and then losing them - like you had to experience the unexpected loss of your father? The fact that you are drawn towards the guidance and care of older males also hints towards some unresolved emotions & trauma. Maybe, before you can attract the love of your life you will have to go inward and continue your healing journey - which you’re already mastering. Congrats! The right person will understand how HIV works and will want to be with you either way. Much love to you!

[@katanalashawn4468]

You are loved. How do I know? Idk 🤷🏾‍♀️ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@katanalashawn4468]

I would be your lady

[@7somekindofsomething]

“Would you call yourself a sex addict” “I don’t really like that word..” >’Sex Addict Interview’

[@anne._.0717]

no but like fr? I love soft white underbelly, but I've seen multiple interviews where the people being interviewed get titled as something they don't feel like or want to be titled. It's weird.

[@k.2382]

@@anne._.0717everything for the clicks 😅

[@Kathy_1991]

😂

[@ccnma]

@@anne._.0717it’s quite disrespectful.. he’s helping them but also using them for views at the end of the day. Maybe that’s the tradeoff… kinda unfair

[@cqxzl5181]

@@ccnma using them for views or is he giving those who r disregarded an oppurtunity to speak for themselves, depends alot on what u want to see it for

[@florenceasmr2442]

When he said “it didn’t matter who, I just wanted to love and be loved” I teared up. I feel like that too 🥺

[@Loriburnett]

Me too. I identify with so much of his story. I wish we were friends. I rarely meet people that inspire me. Ya I have issues. His explanation and perspective has deeply helped me. I felt like he was reading my mind. I also respect his decision to not have children. I agree.

[@SherryNelms-es5oo]

How do you get the medicine... that keeps you alive..?

[@zamaafrika4605]

How about you love yourself? How about you choose YOU?

[@Enter_Zoneless]

@@zamaafrika4605but I hate myself

[@alanpaulespinoza2964]

Orgy? 😮

[@sk8nchill52]

Former porn addict here. Some things I noticed: -He had childhood trauma, losing a father, and a mother that moved on quickly from his perspective . -He grew up in an emotional* vacuum. He didn’t have connection in his family system. -He felt like he couldn’t talk about his problems without judgement, which is describing a lack of actual support and connection, trust or ability to have vulnerability. -He didn’t believe in a higher power, and felt like he lacked purpose. -He numbed his life with habitual drug use. -He tried to fill his EMOTIONAL pain with PHYSICAL sex and drug use. -only AFTER hitting HIS rock bottom did he CHOOSE to change his actions and life. -He took responsibility for himself. -He loved himself. If anyone wants more info on sexual addiction and behaviors, check out the book “Unwanted” by Jay Stringer. It is fantastic and helped me understand my own story. -17 years addicted to porn. 4 years of freedom. 🤙🏻

[@Smb8185]

I totally agree with your comment. A lot of men deal with this, and just suppress for years because they’re afraid of judgement and rejection.

[@sk8nchill52]

@@Smb8185 you 100% nailed it. It’s a tough thing to do to talk about this and be vulnerable

[@boursitocard]

nice comment. I recommend semen retention subreddit for those curious enough to read about it.

[@ravipun632]

Q0】0⁰

[@user-jh7cq3ct6u]

True

[@jasminechastine4082]

I went to high school with this guy and when I tell you he is so kind and sweet. The most beautiful smile. I remember his laugh in the hallway. I’m praying for his peace.

[@tammiebono9935]

His face is as beautiful as his soul

[@jeremyfan2505]

damn nigga u pretty

[@erock9594]

What made him so kind and sweet? Did he bring everyone flowers and candy or something

[@HYDROPONIQ]

@@erock9594 Yes

[@hannahsexton3312]

@@erock9594 giving gifts isntr just being kind and sweet

[@PicesChic]

This guy is Introspective and able to articulate it without holding back. He’s blunt and straightforward. No BS or romanticizing his hardships if that makes sense. I respect that.

[@fromscla5883]

And yet he got hiv

[@celestek.2395]

Very well said!

[@mathewg7053]

These are modern day Babylon dastardly, insidious, degenerates that Mark is grifting off of and providing a platform to, mark is tacitly endorsing HIV just like he told the plastic surgery addict in yesterday‘s video that she wasn’t hurting anybody not even herself, Liata will vociferously reverberate those same abjectly abhorrent sentiments regarding this guy above, who is spreading a black plague throughout West Hollywood, San Francisco, Los Angeles, Portland, Seattle, etc.

[@HocDolliday]

Exactly, I also really respect his self awareness and responsibility.

[@morgancatherwood5665]

he's a clown - get a clue - there are people out there who try all day to make real difference - doctors, scientists and teachers - our military, researchers, volunteers, police officers, firefighters, EMT's - You give your respect to a crackhead??? Get a MFing clue - He got HIV cuz he smoked a ton of rocks and had sex with a bunch of weird people and he's earned your respect? Wow - lowest bar I've ever heard of - what's next? You wanna nominate someone for class president cuz they whipped it out and pissed on the sidewalk? I heard a dude down the block wiped his butt with a Bible while high on meth - class president? Treasurer? Go ALL the way away - put your energy where it belongs - and it ain't here - grow up

[@c0stly_cb7]

I've known Drew for almost 20 years now, we grew up together and we're best friends in highschool. I'm so happy to see him on this channel! He has been through a lot and continues to push through everyday! You go drew! Love you man

[@MackBrusznicki]

boy no you didnt😆

[@papamesha]

@@MackBrusznicki😆

[@12omle]

bro did NOT know drew

[@percxsznzZz]

🧢🧢 no you didn’t lil bro

[@jeremygibson9157]

Everyone of these videos has a comment like this 🤦🏻

[@m_a_lissa]

Drew is truly an example of someone that transmutes his suffering through serving others. This is worth waking up everyday for and your story will help others. Keep up the great work

[@rogdawg123]

you have a very beautiful smile 😍👌

[@kirani111]

Wel put. I admire people who turn their suffering into something positive. Incredibly powerful thing to do.

[@ashontiwilliams4512]

So glad he's doing better.Being a trans woman whos been thru some things herself,i get it.Handsome guy,I would date him for sure....

[@Thehoesgonnelovethisss]

She said keep the game up drew!🤣😮‍💨

[@hlmitchel]

Huh????

[@sydneysmith4830]

This video is just amazing. Drew happens to be my first cousin, and we talk a lot about things like this and I am SO happy to see him sharing his story. I am honored to be your cousin, Drew. This is incredibly inspiring. Love you cuz

[@bitchibeauty702]

Can we have his IG ?!

[@Elennaaaaaaa]

He’s amazing !

[@TheNewDrew]

@@bitchibeauty702 newdrewmood

[@bane8305]

what you doing step bro

[@cwarpaint2763]

Wonderful! Yeah your cousin sounds like a thoughtful, lovely guy. I hope you are there for each other

[@AgentAO7]

Drew is an example of a person with a genuinely good heart whose soul has been broken by circumstances & wrong choices made. But I’m glad that he acknowledged all that, bounced back & try to become an inspiration to others.

[@TheCookieFranco]

Well said!

[@VIsTheMusic]

Nah. He said: "I might as well go do that again". Thrill seeking, pleasure and good times only please, behavior. Regardless of consequence or any boredom or discomfort. He just rinses and repeats. Circumstances are always there to break us and distract us. Some of us lack the mental capacity or the fortitude or the faculties to eject one's self from potentially harmful Circumstances. Provided the evidence is out there highlighting consequences to many activities, yet one still participates knowing full well. Good heart or not, at the end of the day we are all on a lone journey. An inspirational person is one whose actions speak louder than their words.

[@IAmNotOfThisWorld]

He’s very soft-spoken and intellectual. His life began when his life ended, if that makes sense

[@xhorxheetxeberria-td1hu]

Good heart? No. He's a self hating homosexual who has fucked up other people's lives also.

[@IAmNotOfThisWorld]

@@xhorxheetxeberria-td1hu ew, you need to go. This channel is not for you.

[@leeboriack8054]

He sounds like an intelligent, humble and very self aware man. He is so together for having gone through so much hell.

[@susanseiler2071]

Man, this guy is good. As an addict myself with 15 years sobriety I can tell he has listened to the wisdom others offered him and humbled himself. Great speaking skills, a lot if self reflection. This was such a good listen. Damn, you got a lot to offer man. Keep doing the next right thing, you got this. ❤

[@MariaMartinez_07]

Congratulations on your sobriety. 😊 I’m back with my boyfriend and he’s approaching his 1yr if sobriety.

[@poohbearm.]

#ODATlife✊💙✌️

[@john.premose]

Why does he say "it got to the point where it would be guys", like that's so terrible?

[@ryr6677]

Exactly I’m sober since 7/27/10 (alc&coke) I get him and been very active in AA He def did the work to get to where he is today I’m proud of you!! ❤

[@Boudica234]

When I saw the title of the video I had no idea what I was in for. Drew may be my favorite underbelly video. I was blown away by his unabashed honesty, his intelligence and his attitude. The fact that he refused to play the victim and accepted responsibility for his decisions was quite refreshing in an era where many folks point the finger of blame at everyone but themselves. And the man is so articulate and self aware. There is no question he can help a lot of people with his message and his wisdom.

[@WenchInTheTinfoilHat]

I concur

[@ultimatechampions9994]

@@WenchInTheTinfoilHat I concur

[@patriciajones2183]

Well said.

[@north_star8]

Atheism keeps most ppl responsible for their own bs. No ground troll to blame it on.

[@Boudica234]

@Syber Digital Art I suppose that's one way to look at it. I believe in God although I can't even define what God is. I will grant u that takes a leap of faith. I do not believe in any organized religion on planet Earth. But I will add that I believe God endows every human being with free will. Any religion that blames a devil or demons for the bad decisions of human beings is full of it in my opinion.

[@sircharlessinderhorn3452]

Despite the issues Drew is dealing with, he comes across level-headed, intelligent and self-aware. Many people hide their self-doubt and feelings of inadequacy with things like their profession, possessions and family relationships. The true Drew is out there for everyone to see. Many years ahead of him, I wish him the best in life’s journey.

[@words007]

Everybody is addicted to something. I personally laugh at people who get addicted to drinking/ drugs like weed meth or any other stuff cause iv tried them many times but to this day I don't feel a need to get that high* So I internally feel NARCISSISTIC Superior quality in myself. "Hey' I am better then most people. So my addiction actually is EXTREMEITY. & my addiction is KNOWLEDGE I am ready to burn myself to get the knowledge that nobody has ever had. No human ever born or died with consciousness ever experienced. I want to find that. It is really difficult to find something new on a planet with 8 Billion of my kind.

[@johnnydeppisarapistjohnnyd8962]

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[@juliemcalister2557]

​@@words007you will never find that sugar! You are asking for too much! Don't be a dope head or alcoholic or sex mania idiot! Stop trying to please anyone! This guy is sick. No excuse for this shat! Bahaaaa

[@reelincoln7747]

@@words007 Go to college

[@mothmos]

@@words007 that's the ego my friend, the 'hungry ghost', it precisely operates the way you described. Addicted to knowledge, gratification, accumulation, amassing, experiences, being better, being 'higher', being 'holier-than-thou', being lesser, being small, whatever its kink XDDD it's not the whole you however. In fact, it is often called the 'false self'. However, one cannot just 'know' this mentally, an experiential awakening needs to happen, which comes just one day, according to the stars, as it happens to most. Not by reading billions of books, not by taking billions of psychedelics, not by consuming billions of videos. It happens when it happens and boy, you'll just be blindsided

[@kimberlymalpass7425]

This is my favorite interview. This guy is so smart and I am so proud of him. All of the awful things he went through in his life, many people would turn to drugs, sex etc. He pulled himself out of it. He is really rare. I would watch his TED talk!

[@simonhawkins8572]

What a selfless, humble, truly beautiful human being. Man if this is you at 30, I can only imagine the huge strides you are going to take and the sheer number of people you are going to touch and genuinely help by sharing your story. Just when I start to think there are no decent, caring people left in the world, this guy comes along! Amazing, really.

[@ashleymckenna2808]

This is definitely one of my favorite interviews! It’s so refreshing to see someone actually hold accountability for their actions instead of trying to blame everyone and everything under the sun for their problems. But what’s even better than holding himself accountable he was able to pinpoint where his trauma stems from and how it’s negatively affected him. And the absolute best thing of all is how he was able to crawl his way out of addiction and come out the other side to tell his story and hopefully try to help others who are suffering and struggle with what he overcame.

[@zio431]

Yes I agree

[@mathewg7053]

You mark Liata acolytes and sycophants in the comment section are canonizing and lionizing this HIV laden abject abomination of a human. How is Mark Grifting Liata or this eggplant 🍆 guzzling vacuous, effeminate, emasculated and cognitively impaired Sodomite he’s interviewing auspicious for society? Mark even showers this guy with adulation a little more than halfway through the video when he tells him his being diligent about keeping his HIV in check like he’s running a business, and Mark does not castigate or lambaste or deride him as he should, he instead reinforces the beneficial elements of this degenerates deleterious behavior. Mark is an intelligence agency asset. He has yet to provide incontrovertible evidence controverting his purported claim, which is an outright, unequivocal lie that he’s yet to make any profit off of his KZbin channel soft white underbelly, and you obtuse naïve. Mark fanboy sycophants, providing him with views are so delusional or just patently evil that you actually buy his grift. How did Mark Liata accrue all of his disposable income that he’s ostensibly losing interviewing these ignominious humans out there on Skid Row?

[@teijaflink2226]

Very inspiring, I really liked that he's trying to take accountability and chance his life and so far seems to be doing well, good luck to him.

[@ChiefTJBallout]

How is that all you got from people who lived through hell

[@dd61125]

think you're real clever don't you

[@aann7132]

“Symptoms for the spiritual malady.” This young man has such profound wisdom and such an admirable sense of personal accountability. I hope he finds peace in his soul.

[@Decipherization]

He's dope but that particular line/phrase is something they repeat often at narcotics anonymous. It did sound smart though.

[@thelostcosmonaut5555]

I've also heard it called a "moral injury".

[@zoram671]

Yes, when he said that line...i keep repeating it to myself cos it makes me realise our conversation with a friend that different substances have different spirituality. I even said heroin injection is very setanic cos we play with blood and sometime wipe the extra blood on our cigerrates and smoke it. How dark it is.

[@doublefeature]

@@Decipherization yeah it's def a line from the program in general. AA/NA/SA any 12 step group.

[@india6039]

Yes it’s what the Big Book AA refers to our disease as. A spiritual Malady.

[@suninmymouth78]

Drew is more than qualified to do a TED talk. Glad I watched this. We’re all rooting for you Drew. Thank you for sharing such a powerful story.

[@marqui1968]

He would be awesome on TED 👏👍

[@mytamponhurt]

mark your channel is my NA meeting, i haven't been here in a month and i swear your videos, just keeps me so grounded and it just so nice to know that i can come to this channel when i feel alone as a recovering addict, thank you for existing and thank you for this interview!

[@louisweisberg6879]

This interview blew me away. From my mid-40s to my mid-50s, my use of drugs and sex was exactly the same as yours. I was never physically addicted but I was emotionally dependent on the adventures and thrills. That's how I dealt with losing my youth and accepting the inevitability of death. During those years, I became unable to have sexual relationships without chemical enhancement sand I preferred "intimacy" with strangers. I put myself in highly dangerous situations, even while I managed to maintain what appeared to be a "normal" life on the surface. I worked, went to the gym, attended community events, and had sober social interactions with friends. Advancing age put an end to that phase of my life. I was very fortunate not to die, acquire HIV or any other major physical or mental maladies.. But that way of life devoured my ambition and eroded my confidence and talent. It left me empty. I'm now in my early 70s and it's been more than a decade since I indulged. I. don't even think about it anymore. Congratulations on your efforts and success at pointing your life in another direction. You have many years left to develop your true self. I'm retired now and in a sexless, passionless marriage. Just kind of sitting around playing with my cat, learning about vegan cooking, starting projects that never get off the ground, and waiting to die. I hope you find real happiness, not just for yourself but for all of us who never gave ourselves the chance.

[@ans40]

Your comment made me sad. You sound like you are a very adventurous person and have a lot offer. There is only so much you can do with a cat 🐱

[@tania714]

just allow yourself to enjoy every moment with the beautiful surroundings around you not only with the cat,

[@travisjones8084]

Wow. You have quite a story yourself, Sir. PLEASE live your best life NOW-after all , you have a very powerful testimony. ♥️

[@bonelessbananna5410]

everyday is a new beginning. you are alive right now be thankful. the only place you’re ever truly always in is your own head so make it a good place to be.

[@queenratv115]

Take a trip to Jamaica

[@meganfaith]

This was a great interview. The way he shared his story was refreshing, not blaming anyone, but understanding the loss of his father and how that has played out in his life. Thank you Drew for sharing your story. I will remember this interview.

[@mathewg7053]

These are modern day, Babylon dastardly insidious, the generates that Mark is providing a platform to mark is tacitly endorsing HIV just like he told the plastic surgery addict in yesterday‘s video that she wasn’t hurting anybody not even herself, you’ll reverberate those same sentiments regarding this guy above, who is spreading a black plague throughout West Hollywood, San Francisco, Los Angeles, Portland, Seattle, etc.

[@lisalarouge6309]

He needs Jesus

[@TeneABuckner]

@@lisalarouge6309 I've known of some Christians who've smoked crack. It is what it is.

[@Cantthinkofwhatshouldgohere]

@@lisalarouge6309 yes!

[@yasminbowman1966]

This guy is a stunningly good looking, articulate, conscious guy. I’m sorry it took him such a roundabout journey to find his worth. Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you great health and a long happy life. You have so much to offer and share. Bravo for you! 👏🏼. You are very special, your life is precious and you deserve to love and be loved.

[@MariaMartinez_07]

Wow, this interview has me in awe and admiration. He is so insightful and self aware. His experiences and actions have got him to where he is now, good and bad he still takes responsibility and ownership of his emotions and actions. Truly amazing. His vulnerability and honesty is eye opening and I’m glad he shared his story. I think everyone can relate to him in some ways. I’m sorry for the loss of your father and I pray you find the love within yourself and receive the love you have always deserved. ❤

[@allthepugs]

He’s gonna go far in this world. The amount of depth of character he has gained from the negative aspects of his journey is really admirable. I hope he knows how happy we are that he’s here and that we are all out here rooting for him

[@libbyhicks7549]

and for all of us.

[@john-ic5pz]

he's already gone far

[@Sanedits412]

inside @@john-ic5pz

[@BilliardKing-zz9ck]

Umm. No. Lmao. You admire a crackhead. 🤣

[@BilliardKing-zz9ck]

It’s funny you admire a crackhead. You must smoke crack also. 🤣

[@Alfonso-rs2du]

This is what’s missing in this world. Accountability, this young man has more integrity in his pinky finger than most people will ever have

[@sc12video]

I was completely caught off gaurd how close to home drews story has hit. Very relatable, and thank you for taking the time to share your story.

[@mollymyluv]

Drew is someone who can help people beyond those who relate to his experience. He’s truly a beautiful soul and his willingness to share his message and want to help others is so inspirational. Drew your spark will continue to grow with you

[@thebigcheese5114]

I can really relate to this man, fatherless problems, drug addiction, sex addiction. I have been clean and sober 4 years but the sex addiction still lingers on. I patched things up with my Dad this year and I’m feeling things change now. Never underestimate the impact a father has on a sons view of himself and the world around him.

[@yaboydolphin]

Cheer up cheese. You problems will Melt away like cheesy goodness

[@wisfanatic]

The judge will be in our head FOREVER.

[@HamsterLover360]

Aw, it's okay Big Cheese. Tell me, do you use Fondue as lube? 🧀

[@TheeRighteousOnee]

I wonder why he focused on transgender women mostly.

[@jonassantos4037]

can we meet? im gay tho

[@stephaniepapaleo9001]

To share the most intimate details of your life as catharsis while helping others is so admirable. I’m just blown away at your acceptance and accountability. I’m in recovery from a 3 yr addiction to crack and the best thing I’ve learned is being open minded, compassion and gratitude. Sending ❤ and support your way, I needed to hear this bc that “negative self talk” is what destroyed me. You have given us a gift by your message, thank you so much

[@dark_sunset]

The lesson about empathy is really great. Thanks for sharing your story dude. Thanks Mark for doing this. I am gaining so much perspective from these videos.

[@yourworthy872]

I literally listened to Drew without any judgment! Life throws a lot of unseen obstacles through mental health struggles. I am proud of him for not giving up on himself. He was with himself all through . He is a strong unique man. Thank you for sharing your story it is one of the most eloquent and pure real life stories I have ever listen to!

[@FrancisofMaine]

My girlfriend left me 10 days ago, not only am I in recovery but Im finding myself falling into weird patterns. I needed this interview. Thanks Mark.

[@maryannhope8276]

Take care of yourself. Peace and Love

[@bret1538]

Relationships come and go! Trust me you will find another girl. It’s so painful I’ve been there but the right one will come please please trust me. I’m happily with the love of my life now and originally I was where you may be now

[@vibrandoando]

This pain and uncertainty is temporary Francis, people and better times are coming for you, be strong and love yourself, I hug you tight

[@iamezekiel1970]

Love yourself first. Heal yourself first. It’s scary to be alone but you get to meet a new person and that new person is you.

[@Sushibites160]

@@julezxz none of your business. You should be more interested in him getting better.

[@mclaybry]

I have complete respect for Drew. This is one of the best interviews I've ever seen of yours. Amazing young man who holds himself accountable and admits to his flaws. I wish more people could be this honest with themselves. Wishing Drew the best.

[@kyrishiajohnson5984]

Hands down this is THE BEST episode I’ve seen. His honesty and clarity of explaining his life journey drew me in. I’m proud of this guy for taking accountability for his actions and acknowledging why he is where he is. He reminds me of my brother in many ways. I’ll be sharing this with him in hopes that he will wake up and take life seriously before something drastic happens. Thank you and Blessings.

[@dannmurray1199]

Your desire and ability to help others who are going through what you've been through is a lifelong purpose. You have empathy, understanding and self accountability and self awareness to know and teach the seriousness of lifestyle consequences. Best of luck in all your positive future accomplishments.

[@alanastuckmeyer5494]

Thank you so much for being strong enough to share your story. I’m writing a book about mine write now and you’ve helped me immensely. ❤️

[@rayneloeppky7020]

One of the best interviews I’ve seen. He was so able to look inward and piece everything together in such a mature knowledgeable way. I love that he mentioned empathy at the end and how important it is.

[@BaltushkaMe]

Thank you Mark and Drew for sharing this story! I work in HIV research in Canada. If Drew is wanting more ideas in how to create impact, I would highly recommend seeking out patient oriented research opportunities. These can be peer work where you work with newly diagnosed and/or newly sober persons. These can be patient partner opportunities where you leverage your expertise living with HIV to help guide research and care delivery for people living with HIV. Particularly crucial is/will be expertise on how to reach people who are high risk, (drug use and sex), how to keep them engaged in care and get their viral loads suppressed. There is such a need for input from patients on how to make care more accessible and relevant to stabilize their condition, so the more people we have sharing their experience, the better we can help them and others like them.🙏

[@mommae295]

That's a great idea for him to go with tu help out !! How he sees this or Mark show him

[@gregorymoats4007]

@@mommae295excellent suggestions. His assertion that the HIV drugs are “perfect” is a long term mistake in thinking. Yes, they are quite effective. Yet as you suggest much is yet unknown. May his journey towards wholeness prevail…

[@494ava]

Great information ❤

[@eliomiro7855]

I need you need to s t fu. You go out with your slogan "HIV doesn't discriminate". Yes it does. It affects overwhelmingly the people who society neglects to the point where they end up not caring enough about the consequences out of pure despair. And then you go around telling them it takes only a pill and they're saved. Those pills are toxic af and many if most of the people who end up with HIV come from a very hectic and chaotic lifestyle which is really hard to change overnight just because they got a sudden diagnosis and are now asked to "simmer down" and get cured of their despair so they can have the healthiest lifestyle being HIV positive so they can basiaclly live. An almost impossible task. Many can't change because their mental illness is greater than their fear of dying of AIDS. So the adherence to the pills is just a fcked up, messy, conniving myth of yours. Stop spreading it.

[@chicofromph33nix64]

You really should check out a rare book from Robert Welner called the deadly deception... the book is very expensive and rare,but you can download the pdf.. there is a reason this book dissapeared... it was published in 1991 and went into great detail about the aids virus not killing ppl,it was the medication/the cure.. kinda sound familiar? Well guess who was in charge of everything, the keebler elf himself,ANTHONY FAUCI..

[@kellywerner6085]

Thank you for sharing your testimony with the world. I am also from Rochester and its always a breathe of fresh air to witness one of my fellow Rochestarian neighbor's that was struggling and down at one point in time to come out strong!! You're intelligence and humbleness are off the charts. I'm sure you've already inspired so many. Your brave opening up about your journey and expressing your growth and emotions on an everyday basis. Your a great speaker and your words speak volumes. In tune with your emotions and you being so self-aware is a plus too. You're on the right path to success, so don't stop now!! Thank you. ❤

[@pricilacruz7248]

I’m so proud of you, Drew. You are one of the most authentic people I’ve ever seen. Thank you for sharing your story. I know that life has beautiful things in store for you.

[@stephentyree9296]

He said something about having nothing going on for the weekend and for a second I got jealous. I thought to myself “man, I would love to have a weekend with nothing going on.” Then I remembered those weekends where I actually DID have nothing going on and how much I would drink. I’m over 9 months completely off of alcohol now, and at the beginning of that process, I very intentionally filled my weekends with things to do in order to have structure. I got more involved in my church, started spending more time with my family and friends, started playing more live music, etc. My weekends are the way they are because it’s BETTER to be busy than have nothing to. When we’re bored, we want to indulge. When we indulge, we go down rabbit holes. When we go down rabbit holes, we get lost.

[@dtownlove10]

So true. Idle hands are the devils tools.

[@juliettezea9507]

I am one of those people with nothing to do. But I don’t do drugs or alcohol

[@bryanfrombuffalo7685]

Structure n routines are crucial

[@leahflower9924]

​@@bryanfrombuffalo7685 I think you need meaning and good relationships in life I don't think structure and routine are as important as people say they are, a lot of people that are successful and disciplined have no meaning in their life and are completely depressed

[@janityy]

when we go down rabbit holes we get lost ??? I finished a level 1 spiritual initiation took me over 15 years under altered states ,prayer absolutely no drugs or alcohol ,had k and c of the HGA ,knowledge and conversation of my Holy Guardian Angel ,found my True will have been on a current ever since and yes it's everything they say it is after all the pain struggle and suffering it really is

[@crikkette3715]

The wisdom and profound statements in this interview are just astounding… I wish I could be half as accountable as this human in my daily life I’m sorry for the things that have happened to them but without them they wouldn’t be the human they are today and even though it’s just a video it’s given me the want to be accountable in my life and be responsible instead of dismissing everything like I have thus far…. Thank you for what you do and thank you for interviewing these amazing humans. It helps.

[@larrenturner9626]

This gentleman is the first person to make a solid point that going back to your childhood if you had a chance would be pointless. Stay where you are, work on yourself, and love yourself. Change is ALWAYS possible. Never give up!

[@dr.florence]

As a fellow 12-stepper (ACA here, adult child of an addict), I love hearing recovery stories...it's very very hard to be on the path of recovery. You have to have guts. Nobody chooses to become addicted. It happens. It happens because of childhood trauma. I wonder whether Drew knowing about his dad's cheating sort of looped somewhere in his mind and soul, and kind of brought about the sex addiction... as a way to be closer to him maybe...just thinking out loud... addictions always make sense, why this one and not that one, and it's sometimes useful to uncover that to then get to the root cause...the loneliness, unfelt grief, unresolved trauma... Big shout out to Drew, and fingers crossed the promises become true for him. ✨

[@scrappybastard]

Its so heartbreaking that he did all the sex just to feel love. You’re going to find a wonderful partner someday who loves you so much Drew. Big hugs from Chicago.

[@osmanhempwick]

This man’s existence and courage is everything for society. He brings up a great point: what’s someone who’s atheist supposed to do in an overly christian recovery program? Thanks for sharing Drew you’re the man.

[@jakez1930]

Find God, it will bring you more joy than being a nihilistic atheist. The reason they bring up God in 12 step and recovery is to help people find a higher power stronger than them to try and help guide them in a better direction. Religion is great when used right, not in a cult way, the vatican sucks, but the joy religion and belief in God brings to billions worldwide isn't a coincidence.

[@naturallaw1733]

@@jakez1930 the Belief in a "God" is just that... a Belief. there are Many things and Many ways to Believe in something that can bring more Joy into your Life. Religion/God is just something Traditionally prevalent in Culture and is why people seek it. but Life can be just a satisfying or even more satisfying Without any type of God/Religious too so ...

[@osmanhempwick]

@@jakez1930 I think pushing the Christian belief on people in their times of need may do more for the rescuers than the rescued. A lot of people I know who are into drugs would never fit into a patriarchal religion where white Jesus solves every question for them. Me included. Jesus a great example of someone to try and emulate (I think Mr. Laita is doing a great job of this). But our existence is an anomaly that can’t be downplayed by simple creation stories. We are made of the stuff of stars: pure energy, manifesting itself in all of the glorious forms, channels, and paths the cosmos creates for itself throughout time and space. It’s a lot more comforting for some people to believe that when they die they die and their bodies break down and are recycled back into the earth for the next life form. And that life ends with some finality and there is no eternal life other than the whole sum of what is left behind. It may not sound appealing or extravagant but it is a simple explanation that is more convincing for a lot of folks.

[@epicurhyss4014]

@@jakez1930 Problem with your view is that once your eyes are open the the fraud that the Bible is and how people delude themselves about God, you can''t un-see them and be an intellectually honest and courageous person. Besides, you don't have to choose nihilism. Many atheists choose humanism.

[@JasonBurnsStuartMcleoud]

He is 30. Spark still remains.

[@dedeivori8472]

The amount of accountability and reflection that Drew has done is amazing. May you continue to thrive during your recovery journey❤

[@MarleneCreaser]

What an incredibly wise, self-aware young man. I thoroughly enjoyed this video and wish all the best for you , Drew. You deserve it.

[@applepie6313]

Drew’s levels of self-awareness and articulation of his thought process and emotion process is impressive ❤

[@Melancholyygirl]

This is honestly the best interview I have seen from this channel. Drew is so in tune with his emotions and aware of life in general as well as the complexities of it

[@marqui1968]

ABSOLUTELY 💯!!!! Just watched it myself. What a pure , intelligent, true heart & head he has 🇦🇺👍🥰

[@gotti2.0]

@yoomoee u look so familiar

[@Melancholyygirl]

@gotti2.0 really ? From where ?

[@crv9305]

gone through some similar things and have a very similar thought process towards a lot of things. Im only 23 but i could never see myself opening up like this in publlic. Kudos to you Drew I never thought I'd hear some of these things articulated so well. I'm not alone, thanks.

[@dustinwm_]

I've learned too over the years that empathy is one of the greatest attributes one can have. It helps you to understand others, or at least attempt to. It helps you to see the humanity and fallibility of others because we can often see so much of ourselves in others. Empathy is what gets me choked up watching this interview because I can feel his pain and relate to it. Empathy can really help us to love other and treat them with kindness and humanity. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@patriciajones2183]

What and incredible and inspiring interview. Thank you, Mark and Drew, for the the encouragement to return to a 12-step program. I kicked heroin, but started drinking again after my mom passed 10 yrs later. I hope Drew has an idea of how many lives he has touched by telling his story. ❤

[@sharonscollard9471]

It works...it really works.

[@patriciajones2183]

If you work it! 😊❤

[@vibrandoando]

Come Patricia, with everything, I hug you tight at a distance

[@tiffanyspenger3941]

This is the kinda content I was looking for just a few minutes into his interview. Picking up on certain terms. If you know you know!!! 🔺️

[@happyhippie5905]

He touched me as well and I had od’d a month ago he makes me feel hopeful and positive ❤

[@amac8487]

This interview must have really helped him get this all off his chest. Seems like a great dude, that just needs some good people around him to show him friendship and companionship. I give him so much credit to get on this platform and share his story and let it all out there. Keep your head up man.

[@eddiespaghetti1451]

@Aaron MacQuesten you’re a beautiful human being ❤

[@Jerry.anthony.c]

Yeah, I've seen countless interviews on here, this one is up there! So honest, so refreshing. Thanks for sharing

[@lukelanich2942]

As someone who has been going through a very similar journey, it helps to hear how others have been dealing with the repercussions and bettering themselves. Thank you.

[@leothelion6075]

Amazed at his willingness to take accountability for his actions and moving forward. Rooting for you Drew. Wish you the best and also hope you find real love as well.

[@libbyhicks7549]

I think he realized that love isnt to be found, it is to be acknowledged as an inherant part of yourself.

[@jujujouet7944]

I had a friend in college who found his mother hanging in her bedroom. It def. messed him up psychologically. Glad that Drew shined a light on the trauma of losing a parent as a child & his path to finding his inner purpose.

[@ayana188]

His issue is more so not being able to get a relationship = incel

[@TSJ99]

AYANA incels don’t have sex though

[@winniecash1654]

I hope your friend is ok today. How very sad.

[@dondotta365]

@@ayana188 you don’t know what that term means goofy

[@ayana188]

@@dondotta365 goofy you one too

[@Julybaby12619]

Drew, Your message is So Powerful. I am so honored that I got to hear your story. I have been in and around recovery for 40 years (with several road bumps along the way). Listening to you tonight I want to get sober again. It has been such a mind fuck after being sober for long periods of time. You are so right though, if we are clean and sober we have so much to offer others who are struggling. Best of luck to you in everything!

[@jacksonsteele1503]

One of my favorite interviews ever. Loved how willing to share you are. Thank you!

[@g.e.m8046]

Love this guy’s soul! He speaks so honestly and candidly about who is he and his life experiences. You can see the wisdom he’s gained over the years.

[@tammiebono9935]

Yes, he has a beautiful soul AND face!!!!

[@nativeamericanfeather9948]

I agree..self aware,handsome,& a genuine soul

[@libbyhicks7549]

Yes, this has been a very valuable life for him.

[@quisierasalirvolando]

Never in my life had I found a KZbin channel full of stories I could relate to, I'm not proud of what I have done but it is beyond our understanding why us addicts need to experience the worst and make bad decisions to actually learn how to thrive, most die trying to stop. To all the people that is still in the journey of getting familiar with empathy, sometimes feeling understood and listened is everything a person needs to take the first step. I am infatuated by your work, thank you so much. This is the true meaning of keeping it real.

[@nataliefenelon4796]

MIND BLOWN!! Divine right timing in watching this... thank you so much for tying the freyed pieces of my life together & allowing me to see a more tangible and connected way forward. My eldest is a street skater & the skate community represents exactly how I wish the greater community behaved. You're a fucking legend in formation- I am so so inspired by your approach at a time when I am struggling to see even a day in the future.

[@sophieseverson8465]

Such a kind and gentle soul. You can see the sadness on his face and hear it in his voice. He's still learning resilience. I wish him all the best in this world.

[@v.m.1720]

mark, thank you so much for this channel. i always take away something new from each interview, and it's like the person i was before watching the video is different from who i am after. this one was no different, and i appreciate that almost every person being interviewed has challenged my worldview and helped me to change my perspective in some way. these voices must be heard!

[@esoheiyare5719]

He just wants love. That's the void he was trying to fill. The void of authentic connection and companionship ♥️

[@danieljanowski4679]

It was one of the best interviews I have ever seen. This guy is an excellent example of what one should take away from their past. Especially in your 20s. You could do a Ted talk, man. You've really unlocked all the secrets to live a good life. Keep up the good work.

[@Backcountryhiker]

Thank you for your honesty and I'm glad you turned your addiction around, to a positive aspect in your life. And thank you for thinking of so many others who are struggling and haven't reached your awareness and maturity. God bless.

[@nataliedelgadillo4084]

This is such an act of bravery, love and vulnerability for Drew to share his heart and soul with us. I’m sorry you were looking so hard for the simple and deserving need to be loved and held. Sending a lot of love. Taking inspiration to be more loving and vulnerable form this. Thank you.

[@Nfiacko]

Wow, Drew, you're an incredible person. The fact that you went through so much pain in your life and sharing now how important is it to listen to others and to have empathy is just so inspiring and heart-warming. Keep up the good work!

[@GeorgieGuzman]

Omfg this guy is such a beacon. I'm so happy for him. The clarity he has is just fully something else. So powerful, like he said. Just wow and honestly glad he has the bravery it takes to share so much and be better about all of it. It's awesome to see something go thru the tough times and live long enough to use it for Good ! Thank u to him and to KZbin !

[@chrismathews663]

I love the eloquent way that he has explained his journey and I really appreciate the introspection that has allowed him to know how and why it has all happened

[@JHost66]

Drew, your honesty speaks volumes in this video. It’s amazing how you can share this story and not blame a single person, but instead take the accountability on to yourself. Because after all, that is who makes our decisions, us. No one else. So powerful, you should be so proud of yourself. You really have come out the other side better than you were.

[@darla4042]

I love how full circle Drew has come. Beautiful story and beautifully told.

[@sheisntreal0_090]

I love how Drew, all of the people speaking in these vids are so honest. I tend to think the more we hear about other people's lives we grow and learn from one another. And can usually find ways we're more alike than we realize.

[@rahanaht]

On the surface u would think u have nothing in common with this guy but then u hear his story and a lot of it resonates with me that’s why I love this platform. Continue to be well Drew, wish you peace love and healing ❤

[@amyparra1881]

This guy has such a tender heart. Not many of these people being interviewed make me feel emotional, but Drew telling his story had me chopping onions.

[@barrythebee3053]

@@AdamGoldswain yes

[@heatherfischer2201]

This was my favorite interview by far. The minute he started talking I could tell he had been to therapy or something he is just so honest. I also love how he said just give people the space to talk. I wish him all the best.

[@_KMAC_]

Really brave for someone to come out and say all of this on camera. Huge respect.

[@ngaherewihare8336]

You’re come so far drew thanks for sharing your story with us butttt this comment sections makes me sad for the people who are lost and have experienced trauma we praise this man because he can articulate himself, sure he’s introspective and all power to him for his truth but I wish we had the same energy for everyone , I understand you need to want to change yourself but understanding for everyone is the begining

[@ellichatzistamou6541]

This.was very brave! I was astonished by the tone of your voice telling your emotionally steong story. I am glad I heard your message and I hope you continue down this path and work more actively with people who have seriour insecurities or have developed addictions. It is so important to share shine the light when everything seems dark. Thank you so much!!

[@wysteria5551]

I needed this video sm, being in a very similar situation to him, and how he speaks about his experiences is so relatable & makes me feel less alone in all this, ty mark for a amazing video per usual

[@kaimarley1799]

i clicked on this video closed minded but when i actually sat and listened to Drew i realized how much people go through when we just sit there and judge. I can tell how much of a good person Drew is, hes very smart, and understandable. I wish him only the best in recovery and in life! Much love

[@bezprizvanniy]

Such a wise soul, it is both sad that he had to experience all this to get to this awareness, but also is inspiring as a journey! I wish him all the best in his future life and I hope he will feel joy and fulfilment along the way!

[@cynthiaoreilly3962]

Dude you are awesome!!! You're growing up and you're doing a beautiful job! You are serving a purpose and even one life that you change or save is worth it! I just want to extend a hug to you, I am so proud of you... the things you are saying! So honest and true and pure of heart.. best wishes to you and much love❤

[@lennie9700]

Thank you for sharing! Being in the dark, lonely, and depressed comes in waves for me at times. I have gone into moments where I have latched onto certain pleasures for validation and feeling its the only thing(s) that make me "feel alive" and I was simply focusing on the wrong things. This story has touched me and I am grateful you have shared. Keep going! Stay strong for others and more will join the fight with you!

[@gailthompson9005]

This interview with Drew is the best one you have ever done. He is so articulate. His story touched my soul. I hope he finds love. And I hope he makes it.

[@MarkoBoj92]

You lived a tough life Drew, much respect and appreciation to you. Keep pushing and moving forward brother. You aren’t a bad person, these are choices that made it this way. God bless.

[@Wertherisdead]

Love this idea of seeming to listen, "chill listening", but not actually hearing. This is so often understood to be normal or just the way things are by young folks who may not have encountered a better way of being empathetic, being a friend. It's important for young people to know that friendship, empathy, love, and caring for other humans can mean so much more than "chill listening".

[@marymckenna6482]

What a kind, intelligent, perceptive, and articulate young man. His is absolutely my favorite interview. I hope all good things for him.

[@purplesvet]

This is by far my favourite interview. Drew is so articulate and confrontingly self aware. I was captivated by his story.

[@stephenmarcus9601]

You remind me so much of me. I'm dodged the bullet, didn't get sick, but the rest of you experience, from isolation to not being present to anxiety and fatherlessness, is so much like mine. Bro, you're great!

[@user-mx3hs1en7x]

thank you for being so honest and real. Hella respect for sharing your story. Sending love, positivity, and internal peace always.

[@kathleencameron3479]

So much respect to this man. I hope he finds the love he deserves on his recovery journey

[@1122redbird]

Respect you man. Articulate, thoughtful dude. We all have stories, demons to overcome, and battles to fight in our journey through this existence. Going off the rails happens, but getting back on is what matters. Keep going man...peace.

[@sarahpowers2212]

What a wonderful young man. I love when he said “I want to be proud of myself”. Your meaning has been realized…you are making a difference.

[@robynrogala9126]

What a beautiful, extraordinary, raw, and courageous young man. It is evident that the gaping hole in your heart from the sudden loss of your Dad was something you chased until you were faced with your mortality. Im so so sorry for your immense pain and trauma. But you made it brother❤ You now know why you were placed here. Congratulations and warmest hugs ❤

[@glittergirl2547]

this is NOT what i expected. this was amazing and i am so proud of him, inspired by him, and grateful that he shared his story!

[@brys.3131]

I can identify with him in so many ways. I haven't reached where he's at, but this has motivated me to fight the good fight and not give up. I'm proud of this young man for turning his life around after all he went through. If he can daily conquer his inner demons then we can too wherever we're at and help each other along the way.

[@LK-bz9sk]

This man is the definition of self awareness.