What Happened on YOM KIPPUR? | My Miscarriage Story | Orthodox Jewish Mom (Jar of Fireflies)

In this video, I tell you the story of what happened on Yom Kippur. It a story of pregnancy loss as I had a miscarriage start shortly after Yom Kippur began. I will tell you the story of the entire pregnancy with a focus on Yom Kippur when the miscarriage occurred. I will talk to you about how Yom Kippur affected my pregnancy loss including the fasting. I will wrap up the video by telling you some things that I am grateful for from this experience and talk about how we can be thankful for anything based on my beliefs as an Orthodox Jewish Mom.
Hello and welcome! My name is Chana, I’m married to my best friend, and we have three wonderful children together. We also happen to be Orthodox Jews and we homeschool our kids. This video is a sneak peek into our daily lives :) You can see how this particular Jewish homeschool mom sets up her days, rolls with the punches, and gets it all done. Thanks for watching!
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[@jaroffireflies]

I forgot to mention in this video, but there is no shiva for a miscarriage. Thank you all for listening to my story.

[@gilyashar]

And no funeral. Very emotionally hard for a pregnant woman. I knew someone in Israel who had a stillborn and in her pain insisted on a funeral.

[@jaroffireflies]

@@gilyashar just to clarify stillborn babies are buried in Jewish cemeteries.

[@catherinepalmer4812]

@@jaroffireflies so so sorry for your loss. I love watching your videos and I think you are an inspiring mum. Sending love from the UK ❤️

[@winkydstanaccount5003]

Oh I'm so sad for you. :( May God send you all of the healing xxxxxxxxxxx

[@jaroffireflies]

@blackcandy thank you so much

[@CatFromFL]

I am almost 70. My first 2 pregnancies resulted in miscarriages. They were some of the lowest days of my life. I know exactly the profound sadness especially when they are desired pregnancies. I still remember the emotions I experienced. I then went on to have 2 healthy children who are everything a mother could want their children to become. Having kids doesn’t negate the pain of miscarriages. Many people think otherwise. So gentle kind hugs from one mom to another. I pray you never experience this again.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Catherine! You said it so perfectly, thank you for sharing your wisdom. I appreciate you and your kind and thoughtful words. I’m so sorry for your losses, sending you love and hugs!

[@libbyadler9360]

I am 70 and also had two miscarriages back to back before I had children. There was a real sense of loss. I could not carry on a conversation without crying. And most people did not really understand.

[@dozergetscrafty]

So many hugs. I lost a child at 22 weeks. It was the hardest time in my life. 4 years later i was blessed to be pregnant again. He was born at 23 weeks. And after 6 months in the nicu we were able to bring him home. He will be 7 in October. Im not religious but i do believe in G.od and i firmly believe his big brother was and is still watching over him. ❤

[@julsjewels3185]

I had two ectopic miscarriages and could no longer bear anymore children. I almost died the second time. 1996 was sad for me and I laid it all out to God. One year to the date we welcomed my son through adoption. God gave us th strength to move forward. I still think about my two babies. I know I will see them in Heaven.

[@jaroffireflies]

I’m so sorry for your losses 💜

[@kristinesharp6286]

Your husband sounds like a great guy asking you what he needed to do for you and the kids throughout all that went on. He really stepped up.

[@jaroffireflies]

He’s a great guy, I’m so very lucky to have him

[@jaroffireflies]

@@erikcripe6192 he’s doing like I am, sad but healing.

[@jaroffireflies]

@@erikcripe6192 thank you so very much we appreciate that

[@Tinkerbell31326]

I am so so sorry for the loss of your child. My heart breaks fir you and your husband. Bless you dear sweet lady.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you

[@staceyjohnson2929]

Oh honey, I didn't want to guess.. but I saw it in your eyes. I have had two miscarriages, and I've been a nurse on a high risk pregnancy unit, and I recognized the look in your eyes. I also noticed that you wore black for a few episodes. I felt it in my soul. I was with you in spirit, and continue to be. Many prayers.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Stacey! I appreciate you!

[@staceyjohnson2929]

@@jaroffireflies I was also the type that took alot of tests and watched the pregnancy tests get darker. It's such a state of anxiety. But I relate so much. I had my kids young, so it's been 15-20 years since I went through all this, but the feeling is still close to the surface even after all this time.

[@jaroffireflies]

@@staceyjohnson2929 my first loss was soooo long ago and it never goes away. I feel you. Hugs!

[@sandrawallace1001]

Oh, my dear. I am not Jewish but I am a woman who has been down this road. I remember telling a young woman I worked with years later who had also miscarried that as close as she and her husband were, a miscarriage is something that really, only another woman can fully understand. And we also understand that it's OK to mourn, to cry, then to pray a lot and pick up our feet and keep stepping into the next day and the next. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Sandra fro your kind and encouraging words. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs and love

[@kendalllane9145]

I’m holding you in my heart, Chana. I had a miscarriage two weeks ago, and it has been the most difficult experience of my life. I’m so sorry for your loss, and grateful that you shared your experience and feelings with us. ❤️

[@jaroffireflies]

Oh Kendall I am so very sorry for your loss! Sending you love and hugs and prayers of comfort! That is so very difficult. There are groups that meet in different areas if you need people to talk to in a safe space

[@oxymom2002]

So many of us can personally understand the sorrow of your loss. I am so very sorry and know that your arms feel so empty right now. May your precious baby’s memory be a blessing. 💜

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Theresa, I appreciate your kind words

[@pattymorrison9921]

When you said that your baby had only known being held by his momma, that really touched my heart. It gave me comfort, to realize my 3 angel babies knew I loved and wanted them. I'm thankful to God for my son I was able to carry to term. Prayers and positive thoughts from S.E.FL.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Patty! And I am so sorry for your losses! Hugs and love to you my dear!

[@brucheweinberger6863]

Another comforting thought for me was this was too my child, only that I didn't birth and that child will be greeting me in heaven after I die. I sort of imagining someone that looks exacyly like me.

[@jaroffireflies]

@@brucheweinberger6863 that is comforting

[@carolnahigian9518]

i toolost one Baby- so SAD

[@gillianc8106]

I know that this was last year now, and you may not even get this message, but I just wanted to say I’m so sorry for your loss. Your words about your child never knowing a moment without you holding them were so beautiful, and I hope that thought brings you some comfort whenever you’re looking back on your miscarriage. I’m glad you had (and have) such a caring community and the love of your family around you. Best wishes to you and the rest of your beautiful Jar of Fireflies.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Gillian 💜 I’m happy to say that I gave birth over the summer to a wonderful baby boy ❤️

[@gillianc8106]

@@jaroffireflies I saw that, and I’m so happy for you all. ☺️ I love watching your videos while I’m going about my day. They have such a feeling of peace and joy about them, and the world needs more of both. Best wishes from Scotland - I hope you’re having a lovely week.

[@nancyellen8496]

I am so sorry for your loss. I had several miscarriages many years ago but finding your story today, on my 79th birthday, I remember how painful and heartbroken that left me. Back in the day there were even fewer women to talk to about the trauma. Quite frankly, after reading your story I realize right at this moment that I have never dealt with the grief or worked through processing any of it. Thank you for sharing with us what happened to you. My tears atm remind me there is work to be done beginning now. B'H. May the healing begin. Blessings to you and your family.

[@OnaMuir]

Oh! Dear lady, so sorry for you and the family.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you

[@kimberly27285]

What you said about holding your baby it’s entire life was beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss. May G-d bring you and your family comfort during this time of mourning.

[@jaroffireflies]

thank you so much Kimberly. I am so glad those words resonated with you.

[@UU-mt4wv]

Dearest Chana, all of my sympathies, thoughts and prayers go out to you and your husband too! I can only imagine how hard it must have been.. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this hardship with us.. I feel like too many women go through it but don't feel like they can talk about it or feel ashamed. I am struggling a bit with what to say, as I am Christian and I really don't wanna say something wrong or something that you don't find comfort in. But I strongly believe that you are God's beloved daughter and that your Baby is now safe in the arms of our Heavenly Father. You are gracious and strong.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you for your kind words. What you said was perfect and I appreciate you.

[@BellzyBellz]

As soon as I saw the first few clips with the candles, I knew what this is about. I am so sorry for your loss! My heart goes out to you and your family. Take care! :)

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Isabela, I really appreciate you. Ya, It's I don't know ironic maybe that I had just recently shared that about why I light so many candles.

[@amypearsall]

@@jaroffireflies Which video was that, where you explain about the candles?

[@jaroffireflies]

@@amypearsall I can’t remember exactly , I was just answering a lot of questions in videos the few weeks before the holidays

[@elizabethanne6361]

What is the reason for the candles?

[@LeaSonnenscheinTrier]

@@elizabethanne6361 I think - a candle for every loved one that has passed away.

[@lindsayberry8749]

So incredibly sorry for your loss. You’re right… this topic needs to be talked about more. Thinking of you and your family and will continue to. ❤️❤️

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Lindsay

[@lizhumble9953]

“i would have to say the words outloud.” I know this feeling so much that it made me tear up for you. Every loss is different, but I know that pain. I am praying for you in this time.

[@jaroffireflies]

Hugs to you Liz!

[@AndreaD.]

I’m sorry for your loss. I went through a miscarriage after a rape in college. It truly was an answered prayer for me. I was not sure what I was going to do with my life before it. My children are adults now & have heard my story so that they can understand women better and support them through anything like this.

[@bathshuaspooner8553]

I’m so sorry this happened to you. Sending love to you

[@jaroffireflies]

Sending hugs and love to you! Thank you for sharing your story

[@marilynryan7822]

I’m so very sorry for your loss. Prayers for healing - the physical and mental. 🙏🏻😔 My son and DIL just miscarried their first child. I’ve miscarried several myself. Blessings on you and your family.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you for your kind words Marilyn. My heart goes out to your daughter and her husband and of course you at this time. I am so sorry for your losses. Sending love and hugs

[@janesiskind9467]

I am so sorry. Do the kids know? My mom had several miscarriages but we never knew. We just knew she was chronically sad. She shared when I bled at 10weeks. We prayed together and a miracle happend! You are in my prayers.

[@margierodgers688]

I’m so very sorry for the loss of your child. I can’t say that I know what you’re going through because I’ve never had a miscarriage. Thank you for being so real with us. My heart is broken for your loss. Love ❤️ you.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Margie ❤️

[@saucyspice1]

It’s very brave for you to talk about such a deeply personal experience

[@sbrown6070]

You're so brave to speak about such a terrible experience. Thank you for your honesty, and I truly respect your desire to help others. You're so positive! Just love you to pieces.

[@lynneanthony168]

Oh Chana, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I have also had a miscarriage but I didn't even know I was pregnant. My heart goes out to you knowing how much your baby was planned and loved so much. My baby was gone before I knew about him or her. And here we are awaiting the birth of a new baby!! Much peace and love to you and wishes for a smooth delivery. x

[@karenmiller6088]

Losing a baby is heartbreaking. I am so sorry you experienced this loss. Take the time to mourn and let things settle is important. Blessings to you sister. Many of us have been through this as well. You are not alone and each person mourns differently. Our hearts and tears go out to you mamma.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Karen, I appreciate your kind words. Thank you

[@notsogreatreset4476]

Ah, the part about trying to keep a happy face for your kids really got me tearing up. You are a good mama. I think it is great you have such deep faith and and a place you can go for support and answers. The rabbi and your husband sound like really great men. I am so glad you have them for support. 💜

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much. I’m very lucky for the people in my life

[@karenhopper1691]

Chana, my heart aches for you. I lost my first 2 babies and was pregnant with twins the 3rd time. At 17 weeks I lost one twin. The doctors put me on bedrest and I was able to have my first daughter at 34 weeks. I was so hyper focused on bringing the other twin into this world that I barely had time to mourn the other baby. I ended up having one more daughter and could not have anymore children. I am so grateful for my daughters but still feel the emptiness of loss. You can't help but wonder how your life would have been different with more children. I am so very sorry for your loss. As soon as you took the candle out I started crying for you. You are so beloved by our Creator, I pray blessings on you and your family. Much peace and love your way. 🙏❤

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much for sharing your story Karen. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and hugs! Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words. I appreciate you

[@Jelena.Derosa]

I feel your pain.. i was crying watching this, thinking back. I had a miscarriage over a year ago, 3 months before I got pregnant again with our beautiful daughter Eliyana. I made a video about my experience and the most amazing response about what happens to a baby that was miscarried, given by a rabbi. It gave me so much strength and peace. It’s hard to lose a baby at any stage, but like you said G-d is always good & everything he allows to happen is. B’H

[@fionajocher2531]

Chana, thank you so much for having the courage to tell your story I've never had the opportunity to share about my two miscarriages and I am also a verbal processor so their story is buried deep within my soul. Somehow as you shared I felt a stirring of healing. Ha Shem has blessed me with 6 beautiful children yet still I feel the loss of knowing two more. Thank you for describing your journey to synagogue seeking to honour HaShem's call to fast despite your sorrow. Such a beautiful picture of the psalmist words "Adonai is a strong tower, the righteous run into it and are saved." Baruch Ha Shem!

[@maralynfarber2068]

Beautiful words❤️🙏

[@ThePatriotNurse]

I love what you're doing with this channel. Bless you dear

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much 💜💜💜

[@viktoriahavas8511]

I’m so sorry for your miscarriage. I think you are absolutely right, we don’t talk about miscarriage nearly enough and it happens to many of us. We do need to help you each other going through life, which can get hard. I love the expression baruch Hashem and your reflection on it. take good care of yourself.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Viktoria

[@sharonreinblatt9790]

So sorry for your loss. May your memory of this child be a blessing. Your sentiment of have held this child their entire life is beautiful.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Sharon

[@jholly5747]

I know this was over a year ago now, but I am so sorry for your loss. I don’t have kids and have never been pregnant, but when my sister-in-law was trying to have kids, she had a miscarriage too. My husband told me and I just broke down crying. I’m actually crying now to, and I don’t even know you. But I feel I know you do your videos. I know nothing can feel the place of a lost child, but I’m glad you had a fourth child. Perhaps you’re a little fire fly gives you comfort and joy.

[@coopie624]

My heart breaks for you, Channa. I can’t even imagine your pain, but G-d knows and will carry you through this time. ❤️🙏

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much

[@karendavis2380]

I'm sorry for your loss. When you said your child never knew a moment without being surrounded with your love - thank you for saying that. It's such a beautiful thought and one that gives me great comfort 20 years after the loss of my only child.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Karen

[@lindseymarcum7147]

Oh precious sister, I too have suffered through several miscarriages. I applaud you for sharing your story so bravely, I think it’s a great service to other women to be open about miscarriage and I was crying as you told your story and I thought about my own miscarriage stories as well. I pray peace and healing over you and your family.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Lindsey. I am so sorry for your losses. Sending you love and hugs

[@jerymia2911]

I'm sorry for your loss. I appreciate your openness on such a tough topic.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Maile

[@rebeccaquayle9072]

This is exactly why people have no right to ask creators how soon an explanation video is coming. Ive been concerned but this was not even on my radar. I am so sorry, u and ur family are in my prayers.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you for your kind words and support

[@patricianadasi1233]

Dear Chana, I'm so increadibly sorry for your loss😢. Sending you lots of love, and remember, Your Baby is looking down to you, and smiling❤. You're amazingly strong!❤

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Patricia

[@BettyHorn]

I think that is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard. You held your child his entire life and all he knew was love. May God continue to grant you His grace.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Betty 💖

[@BettyHorn]

@@jaroffireflies 💔💔💔

[@samanthal562]

My heart goes out to you Chana. Sending you all my love and prayers. G-d is so good He will heal and get you through this. I know how you feel I've been through it too. Wish I could give you a bug hug 🤗

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much for your kind words Samantha, you are so kind. I am so sorry that you experienced this also, sending you love and hugs!

[@MariaDeLuca82871]

First of all my deepest condolences I had no idea. I had 2 miscarriages. The first time I didn’t know that I was pregnant. The second one hit me the hardest because I truly wanted this child. Sadly I don’t have any children, although my life is filled with children. When I was told that I won’t be able to have children it nearly…. Well, I’m now in my 50’s (just entered) Thank You for sharing this video because sadly it’s a painful subject for lots of women. I hope this isn’t wrong for saying that I am truly happy for you and your family that baby firefly is here in 2022. I don’t know you personally but I do know that you are truly an incredible strong woman and amazing mother. God bless you

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Maria ❤️ I’m so sorry for your losses

[@MariaDeLuca82871]

@@jaroffireflies Hanna, I hope that you and all your fans, friends and family lives will be filled with much joy and love everyday of your lives. I used to video blog however like got in the way(some amazing experiences) and lost time to blog. My only “regret” I have is not being able to have a child. However, God had other plans for me that is now opening doorways to become a foster mother (His will be done and the State of NY 🥰) Plus my life has always been filled with children now of them have families of their own. I hope this will encourage someone to know no matter what happens never ever give up! Yes, there’s a loss and I have felt like “less” of a woman because of my personal health issues. But after therapy, friends and family, I learned that everything comes full circle and I lived a “rich” (not money) but other dreams came true for every single painful experience I went through. To anyone who reads this please remember it’s NOT your fault! You ARE an amazing and incredible strong woman or man or person! Whoever you are I truly believe the Best is yet to come for all of you. Stay Awesome!

[@jaroffireflies]

@@MariaDeLuca82871 thank you ❤️

[@allisongrace9317]

My heart breaks for you and your family. You are helping so many other women by posting this video, thank you❤

[@jaroffireflies]

thank you Allison

[@coastalfarmhouse1820]

I’m so sorry. You are brave to share something so personal but you will help others with your experience.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you, I hope so

[@michelled.1758]

I did think it was something like that, its so traumatic to go through. My heart goes out to you as I know how it feels as it’s happened several times for me and the devastation of it goes very deep. No matter the timing. Blessings to you Chana and may Hashem give you the desires of your heart. Much love ❤️

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Michelle. I am so sorry that you dealt with this also. Sending you love and hugs

[@TeamBensonHomestead]

You just helped so many people with your video. May God heal your heart and bring you comfort.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much!

[@lindsaya7733]

Oh Chana… I am so sad about your sweet one. You are such an amazing mother and so strong to speak about your loss here. While I haven’t had a miscarriage, I have been in emotional positions where people definitely say the ‘wrong thing’, so I will just send love your way. Know I am thinking of you and your husband and your beautiful family. ❤️❤️❤️

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much

[@phyllisjohnson8112]

I am so, so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. You and your family will be in my prayers. You are a beautiful, strong woman and I love your spirit. This African-American woman from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania am so glad that God steered me to your videos. Be well and keep smiling! God is with you, as you already know.🥰

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Phyllis

[@martinelanglois3158]

I know it's been two years (watching in 2023) but I'm sending you lots of love. What a strong woman you are. 💚

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much

[@tinas8085]

Love and prayers for you and your husband. I've lost a few myself and it's so hard. I'm open too and in being open, it's 🤞 going to lessen the stigma around it. Here in New Zealand at 7pm tonight we have a global wave of light for baby and infant loss. I will light my candle and add prayers for you. ❤️ 🕯️

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much! I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers of peace and comfort. Thank you for your prayers

[@bethnichols8401]

Oh Chana, I’m so sorry. Thank you for sharing, it’s a great help to other mothers. My only pregnancy ended in miscarriage (23 years ago) but God sent us the perfect child for us from China. I had a nice cleansing cry with you. You are right - God is good all the time, all the time God is good.

[@jaroffireflies]

I’m so sorry for you loss Beth! But also so happy to hear that you and your child came together 💜 G-d is good :)

[@NancyCronk]

I'm so sorry to hear your story. Those of us who experienced miscarriage have a special sisterhood. It can be really traumatic and it takes time to heal. You never forget the child you were "expecting" no matter what the length of your pregnancy. (30 years later, I still think about it from time to time.) Sending you much love !!!

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Nancy 💜

[@anoukweustink9592]

It has been many years for me, my youngest is 16 now, I had 8 miscarriages in a period of 5 years, thankful for my 2 healthy kids still. What you said, about holding this child their whole life is even now comforting to remember, thank you

[@jaroffireflies]

I’m so sorry for your losses 💜

[@SonyasPrep]

😭So emotional to watch you speak about this. You are so strong and brave to talk about this and I am sure this video will help so many. I struggled with infertility and miscarriage in my first 6 years of marriage and it was so hard to go through that time alone. It was definitely not talked about which made it so very isolating. Even when I briefly spoke about my struggles to conceive in my Q&A video it took a lot out of me. You are amazing!! Wishing you only happy times from here on out ❤️.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Sonya! I am so sorry that you went through that. I also dealt with infertility (I was told I couldn't have kids before I got married). It is so hard and so lonely. I am always here for you if you want to talk. Thank you for sharing and sending you love and hugs!

[@SonyasPrep]

@@jaroffireflies likewise Chana

[@jaroffireflies]

@@SonyasPrep 💜💜💜

[@cristinasperandio503]

Many prayers and understanding to you and your husband. Having had 3 Angel babies it's extremely important to know it's not your fault. It's wonderful that you talked about this openly because someone here needed to hear it. Blessings to you for that.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you :) And don't worry, I know it is not my fault.

[@christinebarone2829]

Thank you for pointing that out. I have blamed myself for this happening to me. It has taken a Long Time to move past this thought.

[@jaroffireflies]

@@christinebarone2829 I’m so very sorry Christine 💜

[@ashextraordinaire]

Chana, my heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing with us and for trusting your audience. So glad that your family and your community are supporting you and helping you through the grief. And even though you are one of the most upbeat and optimistic women I've ever seen, miscarriage isn't an easy experience, and I wish you comfort and healing.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words. I really appreciate you!

[@julianec8494]

Dear Chana, what a strong, reflected and brave woman you are! There is nothing I could say at this time, but I send you an honest warm hug to express my feelings about what you just told. Wishing all the best for you and your whole family, from the bottom of my heart.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Juliane

[@dammitgeorge]

Chemical pregnancies are so hard. It’s amazing how quickly we fall in love. I’m so sorry for your loss. I pray for your health and fertility.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much

[@marisamanning9355]

I absolutely admire you for your bravery in sharing about this difficult time. I know by sharing your story you are helping other women share theirs! My deepest condolences to you and your family. God certainly is love and I pray you will feel that love everyday. ❤️

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Marisa!

[@debra333]

Hi, dear Chana. I'm so sorry you have gone through this heartbreaking loss. I appreciate the directness with which you discussed and shared your story. Please know that you're in my heart. Hugs.🫂💙💔

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much for your kind words Debra

[@couturehelvetica1261]

Hey Chana, I'm so sorry to hear this happened. My heart goes out to you and your family. I applaud you for sharing this. I agree - miscarriage is a taboo subject, and one which can perpetuate and amplify the trauma. I cannot possibly imagine how much courage is requires to be open like this, but I wanted to let you know it is very much appreciated! I hope you and your family continue to heal and get all the help, prayer and comfort you need.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank yo so much! I appreciate your kind and supportive words

[@eileenreynolds266]

Having had multiple losses myself, I know there are no words to make this better. I am deeply sorry for you and your husband, and your children, and I am keeping you in my prayers.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Eileen

[@stinkygraykitty6808]

Having a miscarriage is like having the rug of life pulled out from under you, it sends you tumbling into the abyss. It is super sad. Sorry for your loss. I've had 4, carried a daughter to 5 months, but for me, I kept my chin up and carried on. Yes, always remembering them all, all were important and they all count.

[@jaroffireflies]

I am so sorry for your losses

[@stinkygraykitty6808]

@@jaroffireflies You also.

[@malkymandel9925]

My heart broke as you were revealing your story. It took such strength to be so honest and you were so generous to help other women. I loved your amazing emunah that was displayed towards the end of the video. It is something I, personally, am trying to strengthen on a daily basis and so admire you for being able to do this. May Hashem take away your pain and may you and your family be blessed.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Malky, I appreciate your kind and encouraging words.

[@amyferrill770]

I had 5 miscarriages, so I totally understand what you are going through. (hugs) I am so sorry. It's very painful, emotionally and physically. I eventually was able to use those experiences to help others with pain and suffering. And yes, grieving is tough. Thanks so much for being open and honest You are not alone.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you for your kind and supportive words. I am so sorry for your losses. Sending you love and hugs!

[@amyferrill770]

@@jaroffireflies I'm glad you have supportive friends. It will help your healing a LOT! If you ever just need to chat, PM me. I'm a good listener.

[@ixchelkali]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby, so sorry that this happened, sorry for your pain. Thank you for being willing to talk about it publicly; I think that took courage. I haven't gone through that, so perhaps hearing your story will help me to be more understanding. Please be especially kind and gentle to yourself as you grieve. Sending you love and hugs. Wishing you peace, comfort, and strength.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so very much

[@LisaW509]

I’m so very sorry for your loss. Pregnancy loss is so hard!!! I admire your strength in telling your story. It’s something that really needs to be spoken about more. So many of us suffer in silence with internal anguish, and put on a brave face.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Lisa

[@tiagorman1553]

Dear Chana, thank you for sharing your experience, although difficult sharing your sorrow is a positive step toward healing. I too have had a multiple miscarriages and am so happy I was able to have my daughter. It’s never easy but becomes more so as we each share our experiences. My prayers are with you and your family.🙏

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Tia

[@vergieclark131]

My first child was a boy, full term weighed 8 lb 10 oz and passed away at 2 days old ! It was devastating but we got through it with Our faith in God and his comforting presence! Don’t get me wrong we had a lot of why’s and a ton of tears ! I know your pain and I pray for peace and comfort that only God can give ! 💜🙏🏼💜🙏🏼

[@jaroffireflies]

I am so very sorry for your loss! That is heartbreaking!

[@louiseclark7967]

As women, mothers, wives, daughters and friends, we often feel the need to shield those around us from our pain, and put on that brave face. So sorry for your loss, honey. God has definitely blessed you with an optimistic and resilient nature, and a loving family to help you through the hard times; but be sure to take care of your tender heart, too. Thank you so much for sharing- there are a lot of us out here that understand!

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Louise

[@louiseclark7967]

@@jaroffireflies 💝

[@linpoulsen1940]

Dear Chana, I'm so sorry for your loss and wish you peace through the acceptance and healing process. My wish for you is that the child you are meant to mother will join your family in time. May Hashem shelter you both under wings of love. With love and tears, Lin

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Lin

[@barbaranielsen2888]

Thank you for having the courage to speak about this personal loss! Your honesty and candid words are so inspiring. Life is very difficult, sometimes! Our heavenly Father is near us and provides for us, especially during these times! Your words are bring comfort and healing to others now! May G_d bless you and keep you in his grace!

[@kcnolan3258]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you 💜

[@chanahminuk8485]

Oh, Chana, I am so sorry for your loss. This happened to me seven years ago after several years of not being able to get pregnant. At the time, I told very few people. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@jaroffireflies]

thank you so much Chanah. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love and hugs even though its been years, the pain is real

[@chanahminuk8485]

@@jaroffireflies Thank you for your love and hugs. (I send you more of the same.) May Hashem send comfort and blessings to you and your family.

[@juliecorby7794]

I'm sorry about your loss, my prayers are with you

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Julie. I appreciate you.

[@annasewell8686]

🥺 I'm praying for you and your family Chana. Huge hugs to you 💔❤❤💖💖

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Anna

[@showerdancer]

I'm sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much

[@karenhill1739]

HI Chana - I was so sorry to hear your news. I am sorry I didn't respond earlier, but words seemed so inadequate. I know you are a strong, faithful woman with a loving husband and family, and I know they will all help you through this sad time. I think I can speak for all of your followers and say we will keep your family in our thoughts and prayers and hopefully help you through this sad time. Keep strong and well. Your friend from across the pond.

[@jaroffireflies]

You are so kind Karen thank you so much. I really appreciate you

[@risenandreturning]

I admire your spiritual strength which holds fast in good times and hearbreaking times. It just so happens, I needed that reminder today. So even in your great pain, you have lifted others spiritually. Thank you for sharing your life and faith. Blessings upon you and your wonderful family.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much for those kind and encouraging words Denise ❤️

[@jackandpicklesvlogs]

My heart is with you and unfortunately, I know how it feels. Sending love, prayers and a huge hug, My Tichel Sister. ❤

[@jaroffireflies]

Oh I am so sorry you went through this too! Sending you love and hugs! Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate you

[@Jewgirl2911]

Baruch HaShem That was such a beautiful testimony and I love how you defined your child’s life - “they only knew your love and warmth and they were held by you their entire life” (paraphrasing) Thank you for being so open and raw and vulnerable - I am blessed by your testimony. I would ask one thing; as I’ve not ever experienced a miscarriage, what could one say to someone who hasn’t been through it? My heart breaks and I cry too for you - but what could I say? I will say this, I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m praying for you. May HaShem bless you and keep you, comfort you and give you shalom. Blessed are You, O Lord, G-d of compassion, who comforts the bereaved and shares sorrow with Your creation. Shalom and blessings.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you for your kind words 💜to answer your question, there really isn’t much you can say. Just let them know you are there for them. A thoughtful comforting gift of a meal or a chocolate bar or something would likely be very appreciated.

[@Yomariegut]

Wow! Hearing your story brought healing to my soul. Like you, I have also had multiple miscarriages... And it's never easy to share. Baruch Hashem for the peace and comfort He brings through every storm. Shalom!

[@jaroffireflies]

I’m so sorry for your losses. Sending love and prayers of comfort

[@kbs8597]

My heart goes out you. I pray for healing for your sadness and for the physical pain that it has left in your heart.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you

[@laulutar]

I'm so sorry you had to experience this! I lost my first pregnancy at 10 weeks, so I got off relatively easily too ❤️ I'm so glad you've got lots of support, especially when times are tougher then usual.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you and I’m so sorry for your loss! Sending you love and hugs

[@bezawitseyoum597]

Sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and love your way. I’m so sorry for your loss

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Bezawit

[@theblessedmum6683]

Aww Chana! I honestly cannot imagine how you are feeling, my heart really aches for you and I can see how difficult it was for you to do this video ((hugs)). I am praying for you and your family xxx

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Leona

[@PippiD]

Thank you sharing your story. Its very personal. I miscarried 21 years ago, the twin of my 21 year old son. I still think about it. So grateful for my other children but it is a loss. Glad you have your family and community around you for support.

[@jaroffireflies]

I am so very sorry for your loss! Sending you love and hugs. Thank you for your kind words

[@jennyrust8334]

I’m so sorry for your loss. May God hold you in his heart.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you

[@user-zw8zw3zo3q]

Channah we are all with you. I'm crying right now. This was very sad. Hard to hear from. You. But we don't know His plan . What I do know is that when it falls or a rav declares a miscarriage it is a good advocate for you and your family . Good new year sweetie

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you

[@sharonl3327]

You and your family are in my thought and prayers. You inspire me with your bravery. I cried watching this video, but loved it just the same. I was raised to keep your emotions to yourself and always put on a smiling face and everything is always perfect. Your willingness to discuss your feelings and put them out there for all is inspiring. Thank you.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you Sharon

[@NicSullivan15]

Thank-you for sharing this with us Chana, as a mother of two who also has high risk pregnancies and has had multiple miscarriages I appreciate others telling their story. Sending you lots of love from the rainy UK xxx

[@jaroffireflies]

Oh Nicole I am so sorry you went through this also! Sending you love and hugs. Thank you for your kind words

[@NicSullivan15]

@@jaroffireflies xxx

[@d.sh.2501]

Thank you for sharing such a difficult situation in life. I too am deeply saddened by a loss similar to yours...I am almost 70. Women share loss with gentle strength...bless you my dear sweet child....you are a wonderful woman and remarkably warm mother to share your story.

[@user-pw3uh5zn2r]

I see your face , and remember the hurt I also felt when I lost my first baby, and then 2 more pregnancies. My heart aches when I remember 😔💔🙏

[@jaroffireflies]

I’m so sorry for your loss

[@baileyschindler9270]

Chana, sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and love your way. I’m so sorry for your loss. Your videos are always such a joy to watch.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much

[@lisandrabracero7301]

I feel , when we were created by our creator he made us with a fighting will a strength that will push through any struggle. Men don't really have what we carry nor fully understand. In that way i feel we are divine . If your blessing wasn't this time around it was for a reason. Not to sound rough but something went wrong and when that happens its a blessing. Deformity and infant sickness is so hard. It is a blessing to try again. That you are able and free to try again. A Jewish doctor told me this when i was loosing my son. I didn't understand him then i just cryed but i understand now. Stay beautiful ,you are watched over.

[@jillywells1232]

I am so sad for you, words fail me! However, God will not fail you! Much love and prayers! Jilly ♥️💔♥️

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you :) You are very kind! I appreciate you!

[@jillywells1232]

@@jaroffireflies and I you.♥️🌹♥️

[@jaroffireflies]

@@jillywells1232 thank you

[@PrayerfullyBlessedMama]

Binging several of your videos. So thankful for your blessings in your children, here and in heaven. So deeply sorry for your loss. We mourn our babies whether or not we mourning like the world or our religion dictates. And so especially grateful for your latest blessing bundle of joy.

[@meeragovindaraj9469]

Chana, I'm so sorry. I'm tearing up, watching and listening to your video. I'm terribly sorry. I don't know what else to say; I don't think there is anything else to say at a time like this. Wishing you strength and comfort.

[@jaroffireflies]

Thank you so much Meera

[@sabrinastratton1991]

I lost my son at 17 weeks in 2018. TBH I think Judaism should change in regards to pregnancy loss and infant loss. I sat shiva to help myself because I was mourning a death. They wanted to take him to bury him in a undisclosed section of the cemetery because he was a fetus and never took a breath and I didn’t want that nor could I not deal with the prospect of not visiting him. I ended up having him buried in a secular cemetery so I could visit which helped immensely with the grieving process. It’s not everyone’s choice which I respect. I wish Judaism had rituals now in the modern day to help cope with pregnancy loss and stillbirth. I also light a candle for Ezra on his birthday/angelversery every year with a yahrzeit on the Hebrew date (Tevet 13th) and say Kaddish for him. He was my 11th pregnancy and 9th loss. Again this is how I process the loss and grief and know not every Jewish family does the same. And also trying to find Jewish resources to handle pregnancy loss and grief are few and far between which is very sad because I think it could help families immensely.

[@jaroffireflies]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and hugs. There are some Jewish resources, check out NechamaComfort. If you'd like me to find you some others, I would be happy to