Johnny Depp Tells of His Detox Experience & Being Denied Medication

[@TraversyMedia]

His description of opiate withdrawal is spot on. Wanting to jump out of your skin. It doesn't matter how successful you are, addiction does not discriminate. Amber heard is evil for denying him his medication. She seems like the type that would enjoy watching him suffer. Disgusting.

[@sdavis5001]

It is AWFUL. I give him SO much respect going back to LA, for denying any further drugs to block any further withdrawals, as it DOES replace one with another. That I know all too well, and it’s far worse. The sickness is unbearable. The nights are the worst; feeling like running 100 miles to stop the RLS. It goes on. It just can’t be imagined if one hasn’t experienced.

[@trudieristich795]

@@sdavis5001 definitely yeah I just couldn't really kind of stop moving couldn't get comfortable felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest and I did it on my own think it took about four or five days and definitely now that I know don't want to go through that again scared the s*** out of me because a nurse told me I should have had some help to get through it and I didn't know that so it was like cold turkey and yeah I felt like I was going to die

[@sdavis5001]

@@trudieristich795 😳😳😳😳 cold Turkey!!!!! Omgosh, you were being watched over!! That’s so dangerous….well, I do remember when I couldn’t get anything, that was a CT situation too, except I wasn’t trying. 5 days is a blessing, I went close to 3 weeks and I should’ve then just finished but, I didn’t. I was a coward. No, I wasn’t under a dr’s care either. Eventually my ex kinda helped me, so when I had 2 surgeries I had to request as little pain meds as possible. The cramps, and the body stiffens when you stand up….the flu symptoms ugh…it sounds like nothing to those who thank God haven’t been through, it cannot be explained. I am currently on other controlled from my dr., and I want to get off. Weaning off isn’t as easy as it sounds. Idk what I’ll be like, and I dread it. I’m so happy to know you’re good, and you made it through. That old saying; “double your dose and you’re done” is a fact. But I didn’t listen.

[@trudieristich795]

@@sdavis5001 I know I thought it was bad enough I was withdrawing but course I didn't find the other stuff out till after the fact but like you said I think somebody's watching over me that night well hope you're doing well right now

[@brendaseager7371]

She has this pleasure of pushing pain on people. I think in all honesty, she actually hated him, this is the sense she gives off. Looking at her here, you can see how intent she is in hearing what he is going thru. She degraded him, that was her evil mind wanting him to suffer, for her pleasure. Listening to him, and knowing the feelings, I hate this heard thing more, than I have ever hated anything or anyone!

[@margotgray3330]

I'm so pleased the world is getting to hear his side of this toxic relationship. He was brave enough to detox and he deserves peace. She deliberately ruined his career over six years.

[@honigdachs.]

He was in a toxic relationship because he made sure his body was toxic at all times. Junkies always whine about other people ruining their lives.

[@TheSoulOfhisViolin2]

@@honigdachs. he was a junkie since early teens, he never blamed anybody else before, no matter the turbulence of relationships he was in.

[@ambermarie7531]

@@honigdachs. I would disagree. It's people who have no accountability and who have a victim mentality. Doesn't take a junkie to be like that.

[@i_luv_hecklefish]

@@ambermarie7531 Agreed

[@magen2271]

😂

[@therealbe]

Johnny's entire relationship with Amber is so abnormally similar to my own toxic marriage. Including the cruelty while detoxing off of the very same drug, followed by defamation and slander after the divorce. Using someone's trauma against them to be demeaning, belittling, and verbally/emotionally abusive. I feel this man's pain on such a deep level. I'm so glad he has the ability to seek justice and share his truth. Unfortunately, not all victims do.

[@bookbeing]

I'm so sorry that happened to you.

[@therealbe]

@@bookbeing Thank you sweetheart. It warms my heart to know how many kind people occupy this world as well.

[@gingerlicious13]

When he was talking about his mother and her craziness he could have been talking about my own mother! My mother once threw a 13-inch TV at me! The only thing that saved me from harm was it was still plugged in!

[@therealbe]

@@gingerlicious13 I'm sorry you went through that. Mine preferred throwing insults. I wish parents were forced to complete a child development course before giving birth. Or a 'how to not mess up your kid' course.

[@gingerlicious13]

@@therealbe Exactly! Home Economics needs to be updated and taught in schools. Age-appropriate from K-thru- 12th.Children these days are not prepared for adulthood. Alcoholism was a big part of my parent's marriage. But it is my opinion that my mother was an undiagnosed bipolar. Which was not even a thing back then.

[@jeanninejones8350]

As a recovering addict I can relate to everything he is saying. I went to an inpatient facility and was medically detoxed. It was one of the hardest things I had ever done. Detoxing is far from just being physical, it's also mental and emotional. I thank God that the facility I choose didn't allow visitors and only allowed one outgoing phone call a week. Had I been forced to go through it with someone like Ms Heard I'm not sure that I would have graduated the program. The best thing about getting clean is you feel again. The worst thing about getting clean is you feel again.

[@leaburns9599]

It is a very admirable thing for Johnny Depp to share the most intimate details of his ordeal to become 😀 clean again. Good for you Johnny! The world 🌎 certainly needs more people like you. You have helped so many by your honesty and candidates. Thank you 😊 😍 beautiful & handsome Johnny 😘 Depp!

[@anjiedavie6792]

Good fortune with any ongoing battle and well done for getting through the inpatient process. My "addiction" is sugar, hence an ever expanding waistline

[@Mrariesdave]

Me too, wow, imagine having Amber around you when you are detoxing...Oy!

[@jeanninejones8350]

@@Mrariesdave I would have continued using just to numb myself to her.

[@smtwd6839]

Respect. Nothing but respect for you.

[@JustMeAndcookie]

I don't think people realize how difficult it is to open up about addiction. Every addict knows that there is a huge stigma surrounding the topic and that it can easily be manipulated and used against you to label you as a bad person. Not every addict is an domestic abuser, some are just in pain (having grown up with an abusive addict dad I think I have enough authority to say that). I commend Johnny for facing all of this so bravely. I've been following this case pretty closely and Amber does not have the body language nor the demeanor of a victim. And based on everyone's testimony so far, Johnny seems like a kindhearted and very traumatized man who saw drugs as an escape. And for Amber and her team to exploit his trauma and to manipulate the the court's and public opinions is absolutely abhorrent. Justice for Johnny Depp.

[@loristoneking4536]

The newspapers or someone needs to get AH to write a statement clearing Johnny's name or she needs to go to prison for human rights violation.

[@verabolton]

@@loristoneking4536 I'm afraid she might win this case but I very much hope she'll be brought to criminal court for perjury.

[@blakeb9964]

Exactly. To be fair, it is a bit easier for him because he's loved and famous and he had a huge motivation to do so here in the trial. Still a hard thing to do though. Very hard. It's really embarrassing and people just don't look at you the same.

[@sallymascorro7313]

@@loristoneking4536 totally agree with you 💯

[@kekemanning03]

No fr🙈👀🤫🤫🥺🤐😶🔊🔊👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾🥰🥰🥰🤗🤗🤗💯💯💯

[@bluecollar825]

I gotta admire Johnny for being embarrassed about detoxing on an island lol. He's a real one, he knows most of us go through it on a cold jail cell floor with NO medication. Always liked you Johnny, and still do.

[@zanerinsane1574]

Man I’ve always enjoyed watching Johnny Depp as an actor and I’ve only gained more respect for him throughout this trial. This has to be so difficult to have to go through and the fact that he is doing it just to prove his innocence just proves how much this man has gone through in this terrible relationship

[@bluecollar825]

@@zanerinsane1574 for sure. He's been in so many great movies. Even if this does end his career, he's still gonna be remembered as one of the all time greats. And I said this on another video and strange enough I got attacked for it. If he was really a pos one of his ex's would have exposed him long ago.

[@trope5105]

he was embarassed due to OWNING the island lol, not for choosing to detox there!

[@bluecollar825]

@@trope5105 I think it was a little of BOTH. But who really knows, definitely not u or me.✌

[@trisha7913]

He wasnt embarrassed about detoxing there and even explained how it was for his own anonymity & the best place for him. Other celebrities have gone to rehabs that the public knew about. He thinks saying he owns an island is awkward for him. I would do it on an island I own too. Who wouldn't? lol

[@jancarmy5749]

Johnny is so humble. I really believe him. He’s very soft spoken and very kind. He seems very honest.

[@DimplesGenX]

Addicts by nature are not honest.

[@chris_iapetus]

He's.... an actor.

[@kitty-vk8ic]

I feel the same

[@kitty-vk8ic]

@@chris_iapetus you can’t fake this

[@Randat73]

Agree

[@sweetheartheather]

This was so heavy to watch, yet so inspiring. He is such a brave man. To tell that story on the stand, admit to the whole world his lowest moment, to eventually go through detox without help from meds. All I can say is wow. And that woman is evil, she's all about control.

[@rustyangel9265]

And his $$...let's don't forget how greedy she is.

[@tinajanzen4574]

Controlling .greedy . evil.. has no feelings for others. You can just tell by the looks on her face while Johnny's talking.

[@elisabethpeter8609]

BRAVO J.DEEP FÉLICITATIONS .honte à cette amber

[@markuslamm1072]

"And that woman is evil, she's all about control." She would be evil if she made him addicted and then torture him. But this does not seem to be the case.

[@ginaswellnessdiaries7491]

Respect levels for Johnny Depp 📈📈📈📈📈📈📈📈📈

[@chloewright1]

Having been through multiple opioid detoxes in my life, I can completely relate to Johnnys description of his painful experience. He actually described it better than anyone I've ever heard. It is absolutely horrific.

[@0therun1t21]

What she dis when denying him meds was straight up TORTURE. I fully believe she enjoyed being in a position of power that allowed her a legal way to torture him that looked morally righteous to the uninitiated. Knowing her intent and result of her actions, I think she deserves just as much prison time as anyone who trapped a stranger in a location and physically, mentally and emotionally tortured them.

[@jacque883]

Yes, it definitely sounds like she was power tripping!!

[@darlenegenovese8214]

reminds me of the Steven King book/movie...Misery..a delusional sociopath! she really needs guys are going to jail or be incarcerated in an insane asylum because she is off her rocker!

[@steggopotamus]

Too bad our society doesn't have enough empathy for addicts to see it on a larger scale.

[@jacque883]

@@steggopotamus Exactly!!! 👏🏼👏🏼

[@hippielove3100]

@@steggopotamus I went to the hospital and didn't get to see my doc for 4 hours. The emergency doctor gave me some oxy as I was prescribed. I was have a gall bladder attack . A nurse came in and was rude yourself. I was sweating no runny nose , puking and terrible stomach pain. It's a long story why I went to that hospital Anyways after she left the room I thought about what she said , Oh , no your not saying that to anyone. They took my gall Bladder out that night, it was Disintegrated . A week later I drove down and spoke to public relations. She was fired , I'm assuming I was the only one to complain. Since I had a therapy Dog and visited the patients 2 a week. The gal knew me. Thank gawd I had some sort of reputation with the hospital. All I could think of is what if it was true . She would treat the patient like that. I totally agree it's a epidemic & disease and no one should be treated that way

[@phylly5576]

I think Mr. Depp is an amazing and thoughtful storyteller and should write his autobiography. I imagine there are a lot of people who would read it and learn from it. #1 bestseller

[@anarcturian8525]

HM.......How about you "Google"......."Johnny Depp".......Texting a friend........."I will F her Burnt Corpse".....this before he married her.........PLAeeeeese......give me a "Huge Break".......

[@amber619pop]

Whenever he goes on tour after writing a book I will be first in line to get it signed after I read the whole thing in less than a week

[@stacey021375]

I would love to have his autobiography read by him as an audiobook.

[@elteescat]

​@@stacey021375 that would be epic!

[@mauramcferran2612]

cud listen to tis man forever. just something about him . 😍 Honest to the core xo

[@metalingus9997]

What a testimony. An inspiration. Amazing hearing him talk. It sucks he went through all that

[@katyaann9664]

A fighter …. This humble man !

[@GoldenLight22]

Soooo disturbing though she would do that. OMG

[@Kenny.J84]

And he put it lightly. It's actually worse than that.... worse than any language can put into words. I don't care if I lose a limb or split my scull open, I'll NEVER take another opiate as long as live. E V E R!

[@thedevilsadvocate5210]

Don't take drugs

[@VicMikesvideodiary]

At 14:30 Johnny Depp says " what that will do is..." instead of would really have been said had the event really had happened > what that did to me was...

[@deltax7159]

As a former addict Johnny’s testimony on addiction maybe one of the most candid and honest depictions of what detoxing is really like I have ever heard out in the open like this dude is brave beyond words to be able to get up on a stand and talk about this kind of stuff

[@iownadodge7081]

He would, perhaps, be slightly brave & stunning had he taken any responsibility for anything. He is clearly not even sober here. Pathetic, sniveling, misogynistic addicts who text they want to r@pe the burnt corpse of their spouse do not deserve anyone’s sympathy.

[@mongrelbitchband]

If that was my husband going through withdrawal I would have done anything to help him…. She is a narcissistic control freak who loved torturing him…. I have had doctors and nurses deny me while I was covered in sweat and writhing in pain begging for help I got none… to this day I still suffer and am not getting the proper meds

[@blakeb9964]

@@iownadodge7081 lmao so lame. He's clearly sober and obviously would be for a televised trial. Even if he wasn't, so what? Addicts suffer from a disease. And you mock them? You're sick. Btw...AMBER LOST 😂😂😂

[@larissacastellanos4831]

@@iownadodge7081 Oh please. You know nothing. This is obviously more than your simple minded brain can comprehend. Depp has been sober from Opiates for 6 plus years. It's pathetic & disgusting you defend her. He's taken plenty of responsibility. You're not listening. 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@keianao6369]

I completely agree. It brought me to tears hearing him describe it.

[@Mia-ep4zu]

I've never been addicted to any drug but I do know how it feels to have to humiliate yourself to survive ... This hits me in the core and I feel so much respect for Johnny.

[@brooklynnchick]

I have never really followed JD before this trial, I am impressed by his willingness to detox for his sister. I have family members who are in recovery and it was traumatizing for me to be present at portions of their detox. People lose control of bowels and bladder, they become unable to feed, dress, and clean themselves and there is nothing you can do to help them. I wasn’t even able to touch my loved ones because it hurt them to be have their hands held or muscles rubbed. Detox nursing is a calling. Detoxing from any drug should immediately qualify you for whatever warrior status you find meaningful!

[@realclairewarner]

Oh my gosh Johnny, she is so sadistic and cruel harming you in so many ways even at the lowest point in your life. We love you and are behind you all of the way.

[@CR-yn5sy]

She wants to be HIM, so many indications pointing to that she wanted to take him down and take over

[@tammytaylor5255]

@6:27 she smiled briefly after he said, “As things could fluctuate very rapidly in our relationship”

[@melodyfisher1512]

A real life Nurse Ratchet….

[@Kpc9872]

What an Evil person!😞

[@mickieerickson7267]

She's straight out evil 😈 💀.

[@robinwilliams7080]

As a 25 year recovered alcoholic, I hear what you’re saying. It’s REALLY clear that Amber enabled you to drink freely, without any help from her…until she ‘got’ you. You divorcing her is the best idea ever. GOOD JOB.

[@alittlewheiser521]

I commend Johnny for committing himself to getting clean. It’s not easy.

[@debramaki2768]

Especially if you are always around someone who is not supportive. Who continously pushes you to the edge emotionally.

[@angeltait4682]

So true

[@chrissyduggan3347]

Haha is that what Americans call "clean".. think ya need to raise the standards, and stop faking it....

[@michellespencer8838]

S

[@michellespencer8838]

No its not especially when the people you care about you feel are attacking you you try your hardest its not easy ive been going throygh it for ye

[@sandilou2U]

As a recovered opiate addict, I can tell you Johnny's testimony about the effects of withdrawals is another example of how he minimizes how much pain he genuinely suffers. It truly is absolutely horrific. And, what Johnny failed to mention is he had a choice (I assume) to detox using Suboxone. This can be taken approximately 24 hours after last use and it eliminates the most severe symptoms because it fills the same receptors. But, it is designed to do just that, replace one, illegal drug, for another, legal drug. You never truly detox. He was clearly determined to be free from all drugs because he chose the hard way. Although I can understand that Amber was trying to keep Johnny on the medicine schedule ordered by his doctor, I have no doubt she did it with pleasure. A loving wife would have given him massages, distracted him with positive discussions and given him encouragement, etc.

[@ohdear2275]

She could have texted or called the Dr or nurse on the island to ask if he could have the medication early. Anyone who cared about the person they love would have at least asked.

[@rhonda3399]

@@ohdear2275 This is the first thing I thought of as he was speaking. She is a horrible person and intentionally tortured him!!

[@carolynhartley6371]

If her concern was keeping him on the med schedule she could have easily reached out to his doctor for guidance.

[@Kawamura2]

The look of utter contempt in her eyes as he was relaying this harrowing experience says volumes about her character.

[@brightlight4ever1]

As I looked at her, I thought exactly the same thing, but add in evil.

[@ZootedUchiha]

@@brightlight4ever1 nah just sheer chaotic evil

[@dylanwho6299]

As an addict, listening to him describe how he was begging for meds and she wouldnt makes me feel for him. The way she sits staring cold and empty makes me think she was getting enjoyment from watching him suffer. As someone who has gone through withdrawals, I would never wish that on my worst enemy and the fact she was playing with him and not giving him meds just shows shes a twisted person.

[@wam6465]

Same here!! When I was withdrawing I would have torn the house apart if I knew there was something to help me feel better. No understands an addict like another addict!!

[@terri7544]

Same 🎯💯 His description was so accurate; it took me back and that’s an experience I wouldn’t wish on anyone! She is truly coming across as a sadistic, vile, mean spirited human being I respect and admire Johnny’s honesty and humility in this situation, and the fact that he’s not trying to sugarcoat his sins and shortcomings to make his case

[@ulrikerudel6859]

I dont think its enjoyment - she´s is too mentally disturbed to get his feelings but a timetable and of course her own egocentric impulses.

[@megankh7706]

I pray for your continued healing from this addiction.

[@terrymcclay3897]

My heart breaks for him detox is not an easy thing, I myself went through it several times, before I finally got Clean, I eventually stopped drinking a year later been clean and sober now 8 years going on nine aug 28th, my heart breaks for him during this part of the testimony, the whole thing really, I hope she gets what she really deserves for destroying this poor man,

[@justineharper3346]

I’ve went through opioid withdrawal before. It’s not fun. I’ve always described it as feeling like I was popping out of my skin. You feel like you’re dying and you’re mean as a bear. If he didn’t hit her then, then he didn’t hit her

[@libbyliebig1327]

Sooooo true….for him to have to beg. She was trying to push him to go after her for the meds. Disgusting

[@pearls7272]

So right..I didn't think of it this way.. she's so evil

[@pamjames2161]

Me too. It’s really rough and you do feel like your dying.

[@conorsmith8551]

Think that scene in train spotting sums it up in the best way possible. Frightening

[@pinupdoll97]

Absolutely agree. The feeling is awful and it’s a big reason why it becomes so hard to stop them. If he kept his cool feeling that way and being provoked, he has great restraint.

[@Animalfarm6cats]

This woman is a disgusting human being. You can feel how difficult this for him. These are such private moments shared with the world. I'm so sorry, for him.

[@shawnsimien3991]

I totally agree she's crazy is she on any meds

[@jenniferorlandoludwig7145]

@@shawnsimien3991 Yes...she's on prescribed and recreational drugs. She is mostly on Ecstasy.She is pure evil for what she did to JD.

[@Randat73]

Sounds that she is a crazy one! Sounds that she’s in depression

[@shawnsimien3991]

@@jenniferorlandoludwig7145 omg she's on all that and the Xanax it doesn't help her she's the devil

[@Animalfarm6cats]

@@Randat73 Having depression doesn't make you crazy.

[@gibsongirl9046]

This is truly miraculous, that he made it through on his own determination and grit. What an amazing man to persevere and come out the other side.

[@gr8lampini]

Been there, right down to 2nd degree burns from the scolding showers. For people who don't understand what withdrawal is, listen to his words. And most have to do it without the aide of the meds he speaks of. Made me tear up cause I know exactly what he's describing.

[@ragtopannie]

Me too. Hope you're doing well now.

[@LayDeeTee1]

God bless you🥺🙏 I hope your life is better now.☀️

[@gr8lampini]

All good thank you kindly.

[@nicolehein8285]

Same. Opioid withdrawals are the worst thing I've personally ever experienced in my life. I'm so glad JD was able to get that monkey off his back. ❤️

[@Cristina-nb5fo]

I started crying when I imagined him laying on the floor crying from all the pain and begging and she would remain cold-blooded and tell him "it's not time". If the love of my life was going through that i'd have held their head and given them the meds because otherwise i'd start crying as well seeing them in so much pain.

[@fivefour5451]

Amen

[@timf3099]

She is a true sadist - the pain and suffering of others is what gives her an ecstatic thrill.

[@GoddessArkasha]

Me too its so sad that he had to endure this behind closed doors his sister should have been there Not her she didn't care this poor man 😔 😢 and had to leave his own peace at the island cause of this Bish

[@caobita]

Same here. Would have done anything possible to relieve the pain and suffering, giving all my love and support. She's so immensely cruel and selfish with not an ounce of empathy. I feel very sorry for poor Johnny that he fell for her and had to go through so much. It's not fair

[@crystalheartstar]

Me too, I have tears in my eyes listening to this.. its just so horrible

[@lusciousleo1971]

I applauded him for publicly defending himself in court, not going the settlement route with her...baring all the ugly details of his detox and his demons for public consumption can't be easy when he's already lost much career wise.

[@jen7916]

I think the main reason for the lawsuit was to get his story out, and him and his team actually fought to have the trial televised, her team didn’t want it shown to the public

[@mitaveeh2757]

I salute Depp's team in going public coz the world now knows how evil and manipulaltive this woman was.

[@loristoneking4536]

@@jen7916 I wish that Johnny and his team called the police on AH but I know JD wanted to protect her and his privacy and keep her out of trouble.

[@jen7916]

@@loristoneking4536 yes, exactly this. Then again, I never called the police either and I’m a nobody so I get he didn’t want it all over the tabloids and stuff. It’s just sad

[@deborahamstead731]

This is so healing for Johnny!❤️ And exposing the Toxic Narcissism in his life.

[@Celestein]

I was married to a narcissist years ago. After I finally left him, he stalked me at my job until police was called after a few weeks. He'd stand outside the store window and stare nonstop at me with this persistent stare I called the 'tragic wronged puppy face'. Amber Heard is making that exact same face; it's so identical it's scary.

[@sherylF5610]

She is either really really sad or really really good at looking sad

[@tinamitchell7496]

@@sherylF5610 I don't see sad at all. In AH's face, I see cold and emotionless.

[@rororobertson]

@@sherylF5610 just a fake actress trying to act

[@optoms1178]

All i see is she's cold and heartless

[@astridjaye6224]

@@tinamitchell7496 Only sad she may have to pay him and many hate her now

[@beekay9607]

My dad died of opioid overdose. I’m proud of Johnny for speaking up about his struggles and he was and is so brave.

[@susiefrades-white3088]

Oh goodness.. I am so very sorry. I have been there and this could very well have been me. It is a wicked road. I am clean now but the desire to go back will never go away. Even I know I could overdose it would be the death of me, my brain bypasses that judgement.

[@sallymascorro7313]

Me too ✋

[@sallymascorro7313]

Bee Kay well said 👏

[@chrisarm3047]

When ever she feels threatened she pretends to write stuff down. She wanted to torture him- loved seeing him in immense pain. She’s a horrible person. This should never be forgotten.

[@kristygaboury8519]

Omg I’ve noticed that too. Or when she writes something down right after her little smirk, as if she knows they’re telling the truth

[@jayceec3178]

Exactly, she pretends to be writing. She has no conscience, look at her face while he’s explaining the beginning of withdrawals, they are horrific and a person should always be under the care of a doctor. This female not only has no conscience, she has no empathy either. She couldn’t care less about what he was going through. She feels nothing except possible hatred.

[@sharonsobolewski3707]

YUP BELIEVE ME WE ALL HER NO ONE IS EXEMPT FROM KARMA

[@mylink.orb17]

Too true

[@deborahfrye3377]

Post it notes driving Elaine crazy. She’s STARING at the camera, stone faced!! Her baby is in in danger if she’s alone in the house with an incapacitated addict!

[@cidadaoPPT]

Massive respect for what he is doing! MASSIVE RESPECT!

[@leonlheureux508]

Actually, she was the only one that needed to leave the island. The fact that she made this about her is despicable.

[@ashleydixon6122]

I've never heard anyone explain detox so eloquently all the while still getting across the sheer agony and horror of it. When he started talking about taking scalding hot showers so that the pain his skin was in was enough to take his mind off the pain the opioid receptors were causing, I couldn't do anything but cry and applaud him. As a chronic pain patient whose medications that were allowing me to live a functional life were cut by 2/3rds thanks to the fake "opioid" crisis, I sometimes have to endure withdrawal if I have a bad week and have to take extra medication so I run out before my next refill. If they ever want to make terrorists talk, all they need to do is induce withdrawal like symptoms. It's not only physical, but the mental symptoms as well that are just horrifying.

[@BuckSnortx]

I was a former opioid addict myself, after getting t-boned on my atv by a car driven by a woman with severe dementia, I almost broke my neck when my head/helmet took out her windshield knocking me out for a few minutes I was prescribed oxycodone 10mg, 2 pills every six hours or so as needed, also I want to add the doctor never made any mentions of how addictive these drugs are, when my neck healed enough and I got back to work I decided I no longer needed them as I thought like anti biotics if you take them when you don't need them, when you do they wont work. So I stopped cold, and found out just how bad it really was, after a week with no improvements and continual withdrawal, I said enough was enough and that's when my true addiction started, I was lobster fishing at the time bringing in $60,000.00+ a year and with the exception of rent, pills came first, when i was buying off the street, pills were $60-$80 each for about 4-6 hours of relief depending on how much I exerted myself, if I got a sweat going they'd run out sooner, if I laid around on the couch they'd last longer. it made me very lazy, and destroyed my credit. luckily after 7 years of snorting opioids I was blessed enough that a friend had gotten into a methadone clinic and told me just how nice and understanding the people were, and how the methadone had allowed him to take his life back, now its not like Johnny where I went cold turkey, but the methadone allowed me to ease back into semi sober living and begin to feel and feel emotions again. and the way this man described withdrawal is exactly as I remember, only for me there was much more vomiting to the point of dry heaving blood, using the bathroom until toilet paper made your skin raw, and worst of all, the physical pain of the restless limbs, being more of an annoyance balanced with a subtle pain, to the point you want to saw off your limbs, and any actual injuries or pain, (In my case my lower back from a hockey injury and my neck) it amplified that pain ten fold or more. Methadone gave me a new lease on life, as I ween off it now, originally at 120mg of methadone drank daily, I'm now down to 30 (only allowed 10mg decreases a month) I will be done in 3 months after 6 years. I'm now 29. I know people including my own mother who went through what you are currently experiencing, and switching to methadone has helped her pain without the scrutiny that's put on doctors for prescribing opioids, perhaps it is something you should consider, and I will pray for you to have better days when it comes to chronic pain. Unfortunately for me I've had to learn to live with my neck and back due to my medical history as an addict now. I wish you nothing but the best in your future and god bless you in your endeavors.

[@mademoisellemarchand4427]

I am a paraplegic with excruciating phantom limb pain and am always in the same position as you.

[@annalopinski4459]

Well there was a real opioid crisis but sounds like what happened to you shows how horrible and dysfunctional our health system is :(

[@ashleydixon6122]

@@BuckSnortx I am sorry for all you went through, but I would like to point out that there is a HUGE difference between medical dependence and addiction. Medical dependence is when you NEED the medication and take it as prescribed to help alleviate pain, but your body becomes used to it. It's physical and medical. Addiction is physical, mental, and behavioral. It's when your NEED for the drug goes above and beyond its intended medical purpose, and you are no longer taking it for pain control, but simply to feel good or to not be sick. Addiction is behavioral in the sense that you will do things you never would otherwise do- Like steal money or items, lie, buy street drugs, mix other drugs with the opioids, etc. Chronic Pain Patients who are truly taking these medications for relief but have become dependent usually do not end up resorting to the behavioral tactics that addicts do.

[@2triangles]

Wow man. I wish you the best. Salaam.

[@liveandletlive7152]

Something random but I can't help notice when Johnny softly smiles. It radiates a certain kindness and sweetness that is beautiful to see. One can see that he is a good man despite his many demons.

[@LH-kr4od]

Good men don't ever refer to female partners as c***s or their vaginas as "flappy fish markets. They don't threaten murder or necrophilia either. Raise your standards.

[@matthewinsydneyful]

I've gone through Detox of opiods many times... All his words bring back my experience.. I had no stop diarrhoea, I would shake like a leaf, I would cry uncontrollably, the pain in my legs was beyond any pain I had ever felt. I would beg the nurse for medication too... Its amazing he did this away from a hodpital environment... You can die from going through detox without medication, you would get your legs thst never stayed still, I would run hot baths for me all the time, I'd forget what day it was, I didn't care, I couldnt sleep for weeks, my legs would constantly spasm for months.... Nothing was more painful as detox... I have never taken heroin... I was addicted to over the counter pain meds... Opiates.

[@peterquirk8835]

Yea he explained it so vividly i got goose bumps , well done on getting clean from opiates , im a bit over a year clean from methadone , and man was that a nightmare , petty much all the withdrawls you mentioned, execpt on day 9 of no sleep at all i had a suspected psychotic break and ended up in emergency dept ,suicidal, delusional, begging for something to knock me out , i said even hand cuff me to the bed and knock me out , put me in a coma - anything to escape that feeling , but nope just put in a room for 5 hours and monitored, that was my lowest point in my life . But was a good lesson i will never go though that again, dont even get cravings at all it was that bad

[@sinceunati]

I don't think those are over the counter. I think you need a prescription. But yeah, the legs are the worst.

[@Hopeguz3]

Yes this is very true, one can die from detoxing by yourself especially if one is a heavy user. I had one patient actually ended up going to ICU.

[@livewiiiiire]

Over the counter pain meds? OTC means that you can buy if off the shelf (like DayQuil). You can't die from opiate withdrawal directly, but you can die from dehydration if you can't or won't consume fluids

[@freeyourdreama7822]

This is exactly why the medical community prescribing these things and developing them should be held criminally liable

[@nbitsme1629]

he explained withdrawal so well and people who never been through will still never understand its the worse of the worse feelings you will ever feel

[@wam6465]

Amen!! Worst experience of my life. And I continued off and on for years until I finally quit.

[@terri7544]

Word

[@kylem1112]

I went cold turkey off of benzos and yes.... It was one of the worst experiences of my life.

[@ADA_746]

He is telling the truth withdrawal are so bad. It's a nightmare that you go thru. I know for a fact that he is telling the truth

[@carousel15drummond92]

How could she be so cruel when he was going through such a hard time she knew exactly what she was doing what a cold hearted monster

[@janishart5128]

She's a damned narcissistic, money-grubbing MONSTER!!! .

[@labadoor2607]

It's all about control...she is a vicious narssistic sociopath!!

[@pateicialane4740]

Positive now for him we done negative

[@trope5105]

its hard to feel sorry for someone who did it too themselves! its just how it is. if you have never gone through withdrawls then its impossible for you to be able to relate to the WD person. they look at them like they just have a bad flu, but its nothing like the flu, so its impossible to comprehend, which blocks the perception of what the addict is really going through

[@loristoneking4536]

Shes a sadistic torturer.

[@jessicacurcio7351]

as someone who has personality went through opiate withdrawals ..(now clean 8 years) this is amazingly brave . I respect him! he deserves such peace after coming back from what at the time feels to be death... I hope he achieves love and peace 🕊️

[@MsRollingstone11]

Congratulations on your 8 years!

[@EmilyW.isawakenotwoke]

Proud of you too Jessica. In the words of Russell Brand "the best day as a using addict is still worse than my worst day sober". Xxx ♥️🕊️

[@MsLax45]

Exactly. Congrats on your 8 years of sobriety!

[@jessicacurcio7351]

Thank you everyone !

[@cobaltblues8688]

You are an Inspiration to me 💖 I've been prescribed Suboxone for almost 15 years. I hope someday I will win the battle and be substance free.

[@noellecatherine1219]

This is a form of torture what she did to him. To deny the man his medication his doctor prescribed him while he was in extreme physical and emotionally agony. That alone make me want to see her go to prison I swear. And I barely have been following the case. I just came across this video and decided to watch it and felt so bad for Johnny while he was speaking.

[@donnahall9796]

WHAT A WITCH!!!!!

[@deelohazel]

People can die from drug withdrawal.

[@margoojiri7147]

She's a piece of work, unbelievable no heart at all

[@DebbiSmithDC]

Just the smug way she is sitting there gets under my skin!

[@daniellecooper7193]

I’ve come here after watching the trial. I don’t believe Johnny hit Amber ever because if he didn’t do it when she was standing between Johnny and required medication, while going through withdrawal, then he didn’t hit her atall. I’ve been through withdrawal several times, and wouldn’t have been so nice if someone had done that to me. What a psychopath to do that to him. No empathy. So glad he won the case 😊

[@certifiedstar]

Can we just appreciate the fact that Johnny Depp has been keeping up with talking for a while even though he’s a shy guy?

[@trudylee6095]

Johnny is The Man

[@alittlewheiser521]

@Theresa L. Dowling no it isn’t.

[@LaraCroftEyes1]

Wrong there Johnny is shy and he stuttered since he was a child.

[@LaraCroftEyes1]

Amber is a drug user.

[@iamlost2]

He's a frikken actor; a very famous one

[@karisbish]

I’ve been through opiate withdrawals, Johnny is so incredibly strong. I would’ve wrestled Amber to the ground to get those meds

[@incandesantlite]

Every day I watch this trial and I watch Mr. Depp on the stand and he seems very honest, forthright, down to earth, open, and frank. I have zero respect for Amber Heard at this point and I think she is going to end up shelling out some $$$ because I think a lot of people feel similarly Edit: He also has a very clear and concise understanding of the mechanism of his addiction and the effects on his body

[@proudmarinemomma827]

That’s what I think as well. Some folks are saying that he speaks like this because of drugs. I don’t believe that to be true. He speaks well; slow and thoughtfully, of what he’s explaining. He understands fully about his addiction.

[@sylvia_angel11]

What a courageous testimony. Johnny, you have my utmost respect. Wishing you peaceful, clean life from now on with beautiful people around you. ❤️🤗

[@Sam-cg6rv]

Poor Johnny, I hope he heals and finds someone who will love him for himself.

[@bookbeing]

Omg! She withheld his medicine! She is a monster who hijacked his life. She wanted a hostage not a husband.

[@ellieveganphilly-7335]

Right? Only an evil monster would do such a thing. 👿

[@Lambchoppe53]

This was her chance to let him die. She insisted on being there in place of Johnny's sister. There was not a prenup. She wouldn't sign one.

[@kathybishop6623]

I truly believe she was planning to murder him ....

[@ellieveganphilly-7335]

@@Lambchoppe53 did his sister say that? Sadly I missed a good chunk of her testimony.

[@lizc6194]

I wonder why the nurse and doctor would agree to let her take over such an important responsibility. She could have done a lot worse and overdosed him, what a witch!

[@HannaMagdalena]

The fact that he had to BEG her to be able to heal from this addiction is so fcking sad I can't find words for it.

[@BenDover-zp4pv]

That's a toxic relationship right there! Not sure why he stayed so long. I'm assuming once he detoxed he realised the next toxic thing in his life was her!

[@CR-yn5sy]

It is a power thing. Once she was established in his life she slowly violated his boundaries to a point of no return. This is a powerful psychological chess game to ruin him and take over

[@BenDover-zp4pv]

@@CR-yn5sy I don't understand why he let it get to the stage of sliced off finger tops and putting human faeces on the bed! I'm sure his family and friends were concerned for his welfare during this time. He deserves more than she was offering. Just goes to show that just because people have money and fame it doesn't make them happy.

[@722redsea]

@@BenDover-zp4pv She blocked him to see his family and distanced his friends, only surrounded by HER friends. That was how she made him in a situation like that.

[@sharonsobolewski3707]

AND STAY AWAY FROM HIM WHICH SHE OBVIOUSLY DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO WHEN HE BEGGED FOR PEACE UGGG SHES SO COLD HER STARES HER SMIRKS HER LAUGHING AND ABOUT THE FINGER INCIDENT ID LIKE TO SEE HER LAUGH IF ONE OF HER OWN LIMBS WAS REMOVED

[@suffak8]

Having been a person who went through detox from opioids, I know how hard it is to talk about. Props to Johnny for his openness. I’m no celebrity and it’s hard for me to talk about if someone asks so I admire his intestinal fortitude about talking on public record about it. It’s something not many people understand unless they go through it. On an unrelated note, I sure wish I’d had as island to escape to when I went through it years ago! Seriously though…major respect, Johnny. I never did or didn’t like him really before this but he seems so human here, and I admire that. Celebrities can seem so distant from reality sometimes.

[@LH-kr4od]

So many former addicts on this thread! Just like on the makeup artist video everyone was a makeup artist. 😒

[@db198081]

Feel bad but very impressed with Depp’s commitment to recovery but also his honesty and humility in his sharing it.

[@pop6997]

I actually think Johnny sharing this description of detox is very valuable for anybody considering that battle. Be careful who you surround yourself with etc. This, I think is a bare soul....

[@ariesprincess1111]

"I was feeling." and his smile ❤️ Everyone who is able to see with clarity and who is able to feel with empathy is seeing and feeling the truth. 💫 The truth will always come out. 🙌🏻 Thank you for sharing your story, for being honest and vulnerable. We love you, Johnny ❤️

[@loristoneking4536]

I agree Aries Princess. BTW Happy Birthday belated.:)

[@sanniwartinen3595]

Wow. Johnny's description of taking a hot shower and thus forcing his nerves to have to deal with the pain of the scalding water and not the empty opioid receptors was just amazingly spot on. Very deep stuff, Ive never heard it explained this way but its so very true.

[@loristoneking4536]

I agree. That part REALLY got to me. I felt like I was listening to something similar to what happened in the Holocaust.

[@dazhoghedge3981]

Honestly i have just got out of a scalding hot bath,but im freezing cold still its insane.aghhhh

[@beverlystaley9698]

So accurate! The electricity you feel which feels like it is burning you ?? Omg I have been there. I hate that he has had to expose so much of his personal & private struggles but I appreciate how much light he is shedding on addiction

[@verabolton]

And Dr Spiegel used it against Johnny twisting it and saying he "burned himself" as a self-harm. Despicable.

[@bonnieoles4212]

It breaks my heart to think he had to stand in scalding hot water to try to help him get through this horrendous experience. I wish I were a judge and could throw the book at Mz AH! I've never heard of anything so cruel. She is so heartless.... It's so so so so sad that he had to go through all that with AH there instead of someone who really cared about him, like his sister. AH cannot say she loved him... she was so cruel and mean to him. She's the one who should be charged with being an abuser! Time and time again I hear someone talking about how kind and caring and generous he was toward others. His first wife of 14 years spoke of him that way... said he was very kind and a great father... was never abusive. (And she knew him for 25 years.)

[@kimberlymartnez8775]

Feeling the worst imaginable. Anxiety, cold sweats, pain…a living nightmare and being around someone not understanding the process. It sucks. I had no idea he went through that and can respect anyone who detoxed and conquered addition. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever went through and have done it many times. I hope he gets justice and help.

[@kimberlymartnez8775]

@@julieanndiorio2286 does Suboxone help with cravings tho??

[@CR-yn5sy]

She did understand the process very well, she is just sadistic. Assuring she didn't you just don't let someone suffer like this (refusing to give his meds because it is not time is an excuse , she's not dump)

[@gwenjackson8583]

@@kimberlymartnez8775 I know a few people who take Suboxone daily and they no longer crave the opiates they were addicted to. Everyone is different though!

[@seventieslove8783]

@@kimberlymartnez8775 YES. I speak from experience, it helps with cravings but doesn't make you high like methadone does. It just lets you be normal, as much as you can be while still taking a pharmaceutical. The great thing about Suboxone is that it's not hard to lower the amount you take fairly quickly, so that you're not stuck putting huge amounts of it in your body - with methadone ppl are always upping their dose to get that high, but Suboxone doesn't do that and you can actually reduce your intake to tiny amounts if you choose (over time) to and it's STILL just as effective.

[@Bettyboop991]

@@CR-yn5sy I completely agree with you. She just wanted control and power and she wanted to make him suffer. Maybe she wanted him to attack her so she would have more proof to record. She’s completely evil

[@kimgee4708]

Everything Johnny says about detox and withdrawal is true and it's sad to think the one who supposedly loved him would keep medications away from him that's wrong and sick

[@audreymai2773]

He explained withdrawal perfectly. Like "your inside self trying to come out". I can't imagine someone you love, denying you medication you need to not suffer and scolding your body in a hot shower to not feel some of that intense pain. Everyone has their demons, so I don't judge him at all for his drug use. He is clean now and I think he should be proud of himself. We love you Johnny boy. ❤️

[@shadow.banned]

Denying medical attention to those withdrawing from opioids is a human rights offense in my opinion. Heard had no business administering his medication. I know exactly what kind of horror he went through.

[@zanerinsane1574]

Exactly wtf was she doing with his meds in the first place? He was there to get help not be forced to suffer even more. The fact that someone was not there to watch him and give him meds when needed is kind of shocking to be completely honest with you.

[@ylvany1]

When I go thru withdrawals it's the worst pain imaginable. I will do anything NOT to experience that again. Unfortunately I've been on pain meds for over 20 years and I know I'm gonna have to go thru it again one day. It's either keep taking opioids or live in pain. I don't want either but I definitely don't want to live in pain. I really admire what he's been thru and how he was trying to better his life. I really hope the whole world sees what a sadistic B*tch she really is! All I need to do was hear this one segment to make up my mind about her. (This isn't the only segment I've watched, it's just the one that hits home the deepest.)

[@rosep8481]

@@ylvany1 Ive tapered back significantly but I know exactly what you mean. Honestly even quitting regular large doses of ibuprophen is seriously painful. Opiates was worse for sure. Its like your entire body is one big feeling of pain.

[@dazhoghedge3981]

I keep getting major jumps or like sparks down my left hand side like he said electricity its nuts

[@peggysue2748]

Why was she in control of his meds when he had a nurse with him? She probably strong armed the nurse for control of them.

[@julietigermoon9572]

People that have been unfortunate enough to encounter people in their lives like AH totally understand what she is capable of doing. So sad for him.

[@carolevans5285]

Real domestic violence, she wouldn't be that quick to be punching him up. Trust me. A women can not fight a man. I no I was beaten by my ex on and of for 8 years.

[@CatalinaFOIA]

He's lucky to have survived her.

[@loristoneking4536]

@@carolevans5285 Sorry that happened to you. AH is willful and a fighter. If your a mellow person like JD and you come up against someone who gets moody and wild like AH after her Ambien and 2 bottles of wine or whatever. Shes aggressive, and like JD stated--she's about equal weight and just as tall as he is. She could take down a man because shes out of control and possessed-mayb on ecstacy

[@caobita]

@@CatalinaFOIA yes, definitely

[@Barkerfam6]

Johnny describing opiate withdrawals has me bawling, a feeling I know all too well😔Thank God for Suboxone! God bless anyone who is fighting this disease right now🙏🏻

[@sorandom3349]

I am on suboxone and I dont know what I would do without it 🙏

[@jubileejennings1413]

Suboxone saved my hubby's life!

[@sorandom3349]

@@jubileejennings1413 so glad to hear how its helping people. Blessings to you and your hubby!

[@Barkerfam6]

@@jubileejennings1413 Us too! It is a godsend and I don’t know how I would’ve got clean without it!

[@Barkerfam6]

@@sorandom3349 good for you, that’s awesome! I feel like anyone who overcomes opiates is a fricken warrior!🙌

[@zephirinedrouhin3735]

I was on phenobarbital for a few years to control seizures. That stuff makes you feel like a zombie. The first time I was on it, my mother couldn’t wake me up very easily. I remember her being really concerned. You feel so tired all the time and it’s hard to focus on things, it’s terrible. Praise God, I’m now on something better that doesn’t leave me feeling drugged up at all. His detox experience is a lot like others I’ve heard, like a nightmare. I had no clue there was a trick like the hot shower to deal with how your body goes through such pain. If anyone ever has the temptation to take drugs, they should at least hear what it’s like to detox. Johnny is fortunate he didn’t die from drugs. I hope he gets better and his life is happier. I know that I am since I’ve had God in my life. There’s just no better way to heal than the way you do with God in control.

[@kristygaboury8519]

He described detox from opiates more accurately than I’ve yet to hear in my 3 years of sobriety. This man is incredible

[@carolinejenssen6196]

I think this is very important... And I am actually happy he talks about this.. I really support him, he didnt deserve this..

[@cmagee14]

He's trying his best and doing an ok job of it, but in all fairness, opiate withdrawals are some of the most indescribably torturous feelings and no one can ever understand what that feels like unless they've gone thru it themselves...i wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy

[@K-Riz314]

It's the absolute worst! Never again!

[@lh98]

People that haven’t experienced it can never understand that’s why I get so frustrated and annoyed when you hear certain A holes talk like someone can just turn it off like a switch. So many ppl cast judgement without walking in their shoes. No one sets out to get to that point and everyone thinks they can control it until they can’t. Personally I think his detox could have been less extreme by switching the drug and tapering very slowly giving the body a chance to acclimate. I admire his ability to do it rapidly but there are other ways.

[@cmagee14]

@@lh98 oh my gosh right?!?!?! I totally get that maybe going thru the torture might further ensure you won't put yourself back in that position but i couldn't IMAGINE doing what he did, anyone that has dealt with an opiate/opioid addiction and made it to the other side has conquered a HUGE struggle and i commend anyone that decides to stop being sick and tired of being sick...and tired...

[@Terra_Divina]

Deepest respect for Mr. Depp. After such childhood it is quite normal to get into drug use, and he is doing great!

[@CelebrianUndomiel]

Narcissists have a mind-boggling way of turning themselves into the victim in any situation, regardless of how much pain you're in. Seeing a man go through the agonising, horrific process of detox and somehow turning that into "but you're abandoning ME, you don't appreciate ME"...it's chilling.

[@landenbubnis3536]

He described withdrawal like a movie in my head. So detailed and perfect. He truly knows what it feels like.

[@joelmasantos879]

Johnny sounds like a humble soul, no one deserves to go through such a bitter divorce. Poor man, Amber needs a psychological assessment and treatment. Johnny deserves peace

[@Bettyboop991]

I agree she should have had to have a psychological assessment. I’m positive she’s a narcissist. Pure evil and she gets off on power and control and making him beg

[@ExHaleDream]

Hang in there Johnny Keep your faith in the Creator he will see you through this. Sending Love Hugs and Prayer.

[@dsgillegal]

Everytime Jonny says something true like "her hitting him/not giving meds to help with the detox" she goes to write something ✍️ everytime she wants to hit him she writes. Sorry for you 😔 but youll be in a better place and way more peaceful 🕊️

[@blairsmith125]

While listening to Johnny speak of his detox experience and the horrible way he was treated by Amber I can't help but think of Johnny Cash and the Extreme contrast of the way that June Carter helped him get through his detox . I am inspired by his ability to share his story! I hope he finds his June!

[@melissastruxness512]

This man is so genuine so sweet I never realized it before. I am a fan for life now. What a wonderful man. So glad this cruel woman's lies and terrible personality are being exposed

[@strider7900]

He has always been a fearless actor. But I'm in awe of the courage to testify in his own skin. I feel for him, I have been there myself. I spent many nights knelling and rocking back and fourth in scalding showers. Recover is a long hard road. I'm proud of every step.

[@rrainnecross8065]

Good for you and congrats on even starting I hope you continue to heal.

[@strider7900]

@@rrainnecross8065 Thank you for the kind words. It was a battle I fought a long time ago now. But continuing to heal is a very appropriate statement. Addiction is a wound so easily reopened.

[@therealdachshunddjangosmom]

I can't believe, someone would be that cruel. It's horrific. Justice for Johnny ❤️

[@therealdachshunddjangosmom]

@@therealawakener7 oh, i am so sorry for you. My mom was mentally ill, she had terrible mood swings and so on. I know what it's like, to be raised like that. I feel for everyone who experienced it. Much ❤️ from Austria 🇦🇹

[@debrajarnagin7101]

He can explain himself very well. Amber be a real cold person

[@gardenroom65]

Or not? We shall never know!

[@iownadodge7081]

He’s very good at acting, I’ll give you that. Btw, notice that he is a fully grown, middle aged man not taking responsibility for all the terrible choices he made in his life? That’s what addicts do best! Can you even imagine how boring it is to sit in court for dozens of hours watching your ex blather on about being a middle aged junkie who consistently made poor choices and endlessly behaved badly? I cannot imagine having to sit through all this, desperately trying to not nod off.

[@ItsLauraPape]

For her to refuse him the meds to help stop the withdrawal just proves how inhuman she is. I feel so bad for Johnny it is clear as day that he was the victim not her!!!

[@13ritneyanne]

It's not even so much that it was cruel of her because his doctor told him what time his meds were to be administered-- it's the fact she lacked compassion enough to let an hour or so slide because he was so uncomfortable. She's just so dense and vile.

[@ItsLauraPape]

@@13ritneyanne I agree! I’ve been through withdrawal before. I know how painful it is. I can’t believe his doctor even set times to have the medicine given to him honestly. When your in that state of mind and wanting to get clean. He should have been able to take the medicine anytime he was feeling the withdrawal coming on. It should never get to the point of rolling around on the floor moaning and groaning. She had the meds and could have helped him instead of forcing him to stay in agony another hour. But she loved it and instead of helping him she whipped out her phone and recorded him. 💔She’s a cruel person for sure. Breaks my heart to imagine how he felt during that night. So betrayed and already at his lowest point. 😭

[@13ritneyanne]

@@ItsLauraPape same! Been through withdrawal just like this too and maybe that's why we can empathize so much. When you need something to relax you, you should be able to take it until the withdrawals are over! Totally agree with you

[@magdamorgan7561]

No feelings in her eyes or on her face. May God be with this man

[@silverdoeGirl]

You can't help an addict stop their addiction, by doing exactly that in the same house/place what they are doing themselves. If you love someone you support them no matter what, even if that means you being sober yourself? You do it. Because you help people you love, you don't hinder them!

[@mangopapaya6376]

Right. But narcissists don't know, what love is. They're incapable of true, uncondititional love.

[@silverdoeGirl]

@@mangopapaya6376 Unfortunately very true!

[@nataliajaf]

My heart breaks listening to Johnny and reading your true comments.

[@lizc6194]

During the beginning stages of my husband's recovery I abstained from alcohol and it was good for both of us honestly. It was not a big deal and it made me feel like I could be helpful when before it felt hopeless. Things got better and are wonderful today. I wouldn't be surprised of she is a big druggie but better at hiding it. Women with addiction are notorious for this.

[@silverdoeGirl]

@@lizc6194 I'm so glad you got through it together. It can't have been an easy time for you both. Sadly women are. Amber has a lot of issues she hides from people imo and that's a toxic bomb waiting to go off....

[@skassitl]

Following, feeling, believing and sending my love. ❤ My heart aches listening to him having to relive all of this trauma though I find a sliver of comfort in knowing time has passed and he is no longer suffering in the presence of this woman. Bless you Johnny. We are sending you hugs and healing thoughts from all over the world.

[@RacheilAZ]

What an absolutely disgusting, despicable person to deny Johnny the medication he needed while he was detoxing. If she could do THAT, you know she did everything she is being accused of. She is the type of person that would walk by someone drowning because that wasn’t at the “scheduled” time.

[@CR-yn5sy]

It seems she wanted to drag him down, bring out the worst of him and take over

[@GameChanger597]

@@CR-yn5syThat's exactly what she was doing. They literally enjoy watching others suffer. That's the sole purpose of a narcissists- to destroy the person closest to them mostly by method of emotional damage through manipulation, control, and degradation. They are hateful and cruel. An evil that can only come from the demonic realm.

[@KrystalMimms]

She loved having control...simple as that

[@rhee1110]

She is an evil person. Such a terrible idea to have her around during his detox process. It would have been to his best interest to have his sister instead. Just watching her span her eyes back and forth between the judge and the jury to watch their reactions to his sufferings 🤦🏽‍♀️. I would be in tears if I was hearing the person I truly love speaking about their terrible physically ordeal. She lacks empathy and love for this man💔

[@CR-yn5sy]

@@rhee1110 if only she had used her charm to torment the type of man like Epstein or harvey Weinstein but no. I never heard of a narcissist tormenting another narcissist. They always go for the nice men or women

[@zain06]

When he said 'I was feeling' 'I was actually feeling' I felt so happy for him

[@Axcia]

this entire time he has been so incredibly respectful and kind. And hearing his willingness to detox and to be denied something that would so clearly help him. It's horrible. Even if Heard hadn't denied him medication. The amount of stress and pain he was going through was only made worse by her presence. It's horrible that heard tried to prevent him from bettering himself and becoming healthier and happier.

[@Haircrafter22]

He's explanation of opiate withdrawal was frightening accurate... Worse pain I've ever experienced.

[@gabrielaceballos3789]

She’s so violently taking notes at own point. That’s so scary. That’s immediate guilt in my opinion

[@stickypawn]

I think she’s just doodling just like with the first trial

[@CR-yn5sy]

Yes why does she needs to take notes for anyway, like she is a lawyer. Johnny didn't need to do that

[@astridjaye6224]

Probably a means to control her rage and keep the almost poker face

[@dashortnails]

Dude, what can she take note of? She is just hiding behind the action taking notes to avoid facing the truth. She takes the most notes while he is talking hahah unfortunately truth has the habit of coming to the surface sooner or later you cannot avoid it

[@kjm8055]

I just came here to mention the same thing. She’s taking notes at points in his story that aren’t even noteworthy for her. Makes me wonder what she could possibly be writing. When she’s not taking notes she goes back to “sad face” for the camera.

[@user-bd4bo4tb8u]

Wow. For someone you love to watch you suffer and prolong it is horrendous. Heartbreaking for him.

[@monae6171]

I'm very happy that Johnny is getting to share his side of the story. But I'm against the process. This is an uncomfortable situation that he HAS to speak about. It's very vulnerable and personal and you can feel it when he speaks. If i were a celebrity i wouldn't want these things out there. And I feel if he did he would've told us. In some ways this trial is a blessing and a curse. He gets to speak his truth, fill in the gaps, and illuminate the whole story. But then he also has to share and relieve vulnerable and traumatize experiences to the whole world. No he's not forced to, but if he didn't it would hurt his case and affect the sequence of events. It's very uncomfortable, i feel like I'm hearing and seeing this that were never meant for me to hear or see

[@knitsatknittylicious8823]

Wow, am in awe of listening to him talk. So insightful as to truly what detox is. For him to be so frank must have been painful for him to relive. What I found truly evil is that I was watching Ambers face and the slight changes in her face albeit very slight were there. She actually smirked on several occasions when he talked about his pain, you could see her eyes light up too and even smile. She's totally toxic!

[@stephany1519]

She knows what she did , you can see the memories are definitely hitting her but she is trying to stay away and detach herself ... she is a horrible person how can a person act so disgusting towards someone else , she needs to be in jail and taken off of all the movies she has been in and made money from she is a real life villain !!!

[@loristoneking4536]

Yes why is AH getting held up as some kind of hero!? I wish JD called the cops on her or on her more often to get a paper trail established. It seemed all her antics were kept in house. Part of the was (co-dependent Johnny wanted to protect her.)

[@rrainnecross8065]

She knows exactly what she was doing. The doctor and nurse where crazy to let her volunteer to give him meds. This lady is a doctor nurse psychologist actor neurologist economist. She thinks she is so much Smarter than the majority or the most brilliant of the world population.

[@_REVOLUTION]

17:31 as a clinical scientist fully understanding the physiological and psychological effects of opiate withdrawal - the ability to consider someone else’s happiness and book them somewhere with friends would have taken incredible strength alone. We all produce natural endorphins which are chemically similar to opiates. An addicts body has simply stopped producing them. Therefore withdrawal is a period where our body had no ability to feel comfort, security, or even happiness. He doesn’t even mention the crippling depression withdrawal causes. The hot shower Jonny describes is just a way of triggering some natural endorphins. A tiny amount in response to pain. The music he played on repeat would do the same. But it takes days/weeks for our natural endorphins to gradually come back into production. Knowing this, I do not understand how he still remained so tolerant of that sour judgmental face looming over him. He actually seems, too kind, too generous, tolerant to the point someone can manipulate him, more like his younger years have made him a people pleaser. Either way, this man is no abuser. Phenobarbital and lithium are very old fashioned drugs. Neurontin would have stopped a lot of the pain and seroquil reduced the severity of depression. That cocktail is decades out of date as a detox approach. Patients should be placed on low dose buprenorhine and slowly titrate down. But I’m from the UK. The US healthcare system very often places profit before efficacy.

[@untetheredsoul4335]

Appreciate your very informative comment!

[@Alenastrbikova4975]

Yes that’s the one burprenorhine- espranor very informative comments thank you

[@sookie.smooth]

Thanks for such a thoughtful and considered comment. I’ve never experienced most of these drugs, but I empathize with each of the commenters who have. Thanks for sharing your knowledge. You nailed it on the head when pointing to the US medical system. All of our large government controlled entities are rife with corruption-pharma, education, prison, food-you name it.

[@juliebelliveau5190]

I'm so glad he won his case, I've dealt with drug attics and I was in a similar situation,as a loving wife I helped him recover. Sadly he relapsed and passed away.

[@dextermoore278]

Proud of Johnny for going to Detox off the opiates. He was on his Island for privacy. Withdrawal from medication is extremely painful and you get extremely sick. You can actually die from Withdrawal if it isn't handled correctly.

[@jennpenn5]

From alcohol and valium, yes, but not really with opiates. It's painful and horrific but rarely fatal.

[@dextermoore278]

@@jennpenn5 Nope. You are wrong. People can die from withdrawal from Klonopin. I know people who almost died and had to go to the hospital. Klonopin withdrawal is very painful. I know from experience.

[@rrainnecross8065]

Exactly and I can bet that was the plan.ehy. Was she even there ?? She just showed up and demanded that she be the one to give him his meds, is she now a detox nurse???

[@raymondrodriguez2582]

When Johnny Depp is describing dark painful moments in his life he tends to smile let out a smile of relief. Amber going to the island with him for his detox was to interfere with his sobriety detox treatment knowing what we know now. She has the mind of an 8th grade dropout which is her last grade of education before dropping out of high school, She should have never been alone with with him.

[@laraoneal7284]

Withholding his meds. Why would JD give her authority over his detox meds. That was ridiculous.

[@christinel5347]

The nurses should have taken control over that, not her. I’m sure she insisted otherwise there would be another argument

[@rrainnecross8065]

I think she showed up unannounced and demanded that she going to give him.

[@tomhiggart]

8:52 It looks like shes trying to stop herself smiling at the thought of mr depp in pain, If people are doubting her watch and tell me she's innocent

[@Cyndi159]

She doesn’t feel anything she’s a dead human she reacts inappropriately in all situations

[@gonzzceli]

She definitely smiled for a fraction of second

[@loristoneking4536]

@@gonzzceli I saw her almost laugh at some joke but she stifled it. I saw him give her the gentleness of smiles for a few seconds-I think it was when he spoke about when he talked to her mom and told her thanks to Amber in regard to his detox. but maybe he was smiling to himself or someone else.

[@gonzzceli]

@@loristoneking4536 it's scary how faked her expressions really are!

[@steggopotamus]

Yep

[@truthalltheway6791]

as sad and clearly cruel his life story is...we can all see right through Amber at this point. I am sure nothing will happen to her. she will get away with it. but I hope Johny's voice can reach far and he can get support from industry that he helped build.

[@zanerinsane1574]

Well, very obviously from this comment section, Johnny seems to have a lot of supporters out there and I feel like if this case does swing in Ambers favor, a LOT of people are going to be VERY unhappy. I can guarantee without certainty that any movie Amber stars in after this will be boycotted by anyone on johnnys side, as they should be.

[@angiecameron245]

I had chronic pain for years from anxiety. Nerve pain is horrible! My heart goes out to him.💕🙏

[@mbburg2149]

Such an incredible talent, one of the greatest actors of our time. Such profound respect for him to admit he had a problem and to go through the rigors of Detox. All this and to be in a toxic relationship. Major respect and prayers for Johny Depp.

[@samanthabui3883]

Wow, I have so much respect for this man.

[@ginatay3781]

The fk is she takeing notes for …..the world hates her and the world fell in love with Johnny even more because of his all open Honesty

[@loristoneking4536]

@@anne7619 Probably what she thinks is her defense points.

[@marykoufalis7666]

She was likely writing how the doctors told her to not deviate from the schedule. Bull crap on that. They never said that.

[@jacksmedullaoblongata7659]

I've been through withdrawal from these substances. The physical "effects" are things that you want privacy for. It's something you don't want people to see or be there adding any kind of extra.

[@lynnbarker8124]

I stand up and applaud him for sharing just a portion of what really happens when you are detoxing off opiates! I look at him with different eyes now! I've been right where he's been. God bless you JD

[@ginacodalata4885]

You can see her lack of compassion as he tells his story his very true story. You can also see in her eyes the windows of the soul you can see her enjoyment that she’s receiving while he’s reliving this horror that he went through. Justice for Johnny!

[@LH-kr4od]

Yes, true compassion would've been allowing him to overdose