Leman Russ and the Fear of Nothingness

[@Fell-Handed_Bjorn]

Russ abandoned me, and now I've been stuck in a box for 10,000 years

[@DetectiveLance]

You're the best Astartes in a box, though.

[@Fell-Handed_Bjorn]

On a more serious note what you outlined is why I like Russ and the Wolves so much you can find many such dynamics within their characters case in point how bitter Bjorn is from being left behind and his feelings of having been a failure in some way.

[@LJD442]

I will never stop loving you buddy.

[@Drakonslayer777]

You’re the best boxy boi

[@H.P.L.-ln9of]

LOOOOOOOOL sike bro tought shit cry about just like those cadians cry about cadia

[@TheCreepyLantern]

warhammer for the longest time "everything sucks forever." Warhammer now we've got two of the primarchs back. "Everything sucks.......... we'd better fucking do something about it"

[@henrypaleveda7760]

and people complain about there being too much hope. Come on. This is what we call AGENCY.

[@TheCreepyLantern]

@@henrypaleveda7760 hells yeah! The lion litterally thought the tiny bit of the galaxy he could reach 'cause of the great rift was all that's left. he thought the like half dozen dark angels he had found were it. and his response was still to plant his feet and dare the scum to try and fight him.

[@TheChuckfuc]

​@@henrypaleveda7760 I don't get it either. It's still an uphill battle.

[@Lunch_Meat]

​@@henrypaleveda7760 you need just a liiiitttle hope in a grimdark setting so that you have something to smash.

[@nakenmil]

@@henrypaleveda7760 It's not that I dislike the agency, it's that Warhammer has gradually gone from being an impossibly vast sandbox focused on hobbyist creativity, to an ongoing storyline that smacks heavily of being, frankly, a family drama. It teeters on falling into the same trap as Star Wars, where you have this great, vast setting of opportunities, but it just keeps revisiting the Skywalkers ad nauseam, except for Warhammer it's the primarchs.

[@JoelTheKven]

My 46 years have been chock full of depression and mental health issues and I appreciate your "depression nonsense". I feel seen, so thank you.

[@literalrom]

hey bro i hope stuff improves for you. God bless

[@petereldred8547]

Im in my mid 20’s and the last few years have been tough especially this one and the fear of turning into the bitter old man waiting for the end terrifies me to my core but people like you make me feel a little less alone knowing there’s someone older who feels just as exhausted and burdened out there if not more, someone to look to for guidance so to speak so thanks for sticking around👍

[@snoox27]

​@petereldred8547 therapy will help but not too much. I hope that makes sense. I've had depression for at minimum 30 years. It won't go away but I can stop it getting worse.

[@panzerfury6579]

Likewise, buddy. May you always be a Russ and never a Curze.

[@Man_Emperor_of_Mankind]

Same here, man... Im about a decade behind you, but have also dealt with depression and other issues since childhood. I didn't have the nicest father and am likely on the autism spectrum, or at the least display several of the associated behaviors. Around my late teenage years I started self medicating, eventually throwing opioid addiction into the mess in my head. A few years ago I met the most amazing person to ever enter into my life, and we're coming up on our first wedding anniversary. It's been amazing, the happiest year of my life... But it's created a whole new flurry of fears an worries, trying to figure out how to manage emotions that have been bottled up and hidden behind spite and the expectation that everyone will leave Guy's, take care of yourselves.

[@aarovit4257]

I like the part in Scars where Bjorn goes on Leman Russ’s ship to fight Alpha legion and when Russ shows up to kill the contemptor dreadnaught Russ is mad Alpharius didn’t take the bait to his ambush on his ship and Bjorn is like “Yeah dad of course he didn’t show up, because you would win” And Russ is like “OF COURSE I WOULD WIN!” Where Bjorn responds “Yes father you would win… why would Alpharius show up then?” Where Russ then thinks about it and marches off but takes Bjorn with him because he admits maybe this guy has a bit more in the brains department I do. It’s a small moment with Russ I enjoy because it shows Russ is smart in laying an ambush by looking like his ship was falling apart, but he sometimes lets his ego ahead of him showing he’s not as smart as he thinks he is (compared to Alpharius at least)

[@JB-ls5pq]

Might not have even been the "I would loose to Leman" Remember. Alpharius, or is it Omeon, Maybe the third one, is there a third one,??? I am alpharius??? When did that happen? Anyways. He (who it may be) is 4 parallel universes ahead of everybody. Who knows why he didn't show up.

[@kieranadamson3224]

​@@JB-ls5pqhe might've even still been there. A seemingly regular marine who never seemed to be killed despite being in the thick of it and the skunk away in an instant once the battle was over.

[@DisasterLord]

That wolf in the beginning was perfect

[@LexYeen]

yup.

[@darnokx9277]

Yeah, I was lucky I had nothing in my mouth at the moment - snorting all over the laptop WOULD have happened.

[@Pallyk426]

look up bad taxidermy for more. you're welcome

[@plaguefellow1499]

What does this have to do with the tank

[@konradzych4610]

Well, he was drinking from the tank...ard

[@freelancegyno2254]

Mr bones, I can’t imagine the balls it took to share your story with us and I hope you know that even though we are just a bunch of parasocial relationships on the internet we care about you! You’re my favorite 40k creator and I love your content and your honesty only makes you more genuine! Thanks for always entertaining us and giving us A++ videos!

[@LexYeen]

It's good to "keep it real" as the kids once said.

[@Kyle-v2w]

Definitely appreciate the human touch, your work is of very high quality so don't worry too much about sprinkling your own blend on top 😎😎😎

[@Pallyk426]

To those that think it should always be grimdark all the time. A ray of light makes the dark all more present. Loved the narrative you made for russ with this by the way and hope you get well soon

[@LexYeen]

Yeah. Without the light as a contrast, the darkness means nothing.

[@DieselDog403]

This is why stuff like a Salamander interacting with children in the setting is always welcome in my book.

[@rumpelstilzz]

@@LexYeen This is why, while I think the Tau are boring as 'goos guys', they still have a valid spot in the setting. A faction trying to bring actual light into grim darkness makes the universe feel even darker.

[@mr.ashenfire2624]

I admit i didnt care much for Space Wolves. But Leman Russ is such a Bro-Tier Primarch where it counts.

[@dumbidea1007]

I disagree. He feels like a massive douche and hypocrite more than anything else. I mean you can’t claim to hate psychers because they are unreliable and have your peoples turn into furry and hide it. I mean sanguinius did it but he wasn’t an hypocrite about it. Plus he is super arrogant and prideful while being one of the weaker primarch. I mean he can beat the twins, blue berry boo, lorgar and fulgrim but anyone else would end him. (Maybe Corvus but he has had invisibility) Angron, chadgatai, Vulcan, ferrus, sanguinius, Horus, Conrad the lion and Magnus when he’s not listening to some Linkin park while sobbing in his room would end him no question. And if you want to pretend he won against angron the alpharius clapped his cheeks and blue man group would It’s not that he brag that annoys me it’s how arrogant being the best. It’s like what if homelander was a primarch except less insecure

[@randomcenturion7264]

He can be so frustrating but dammit he IS the brother you want by your side, be it in a fight, a party or even just a heart to heart. Leman gets so lost in his "Savage" act so often we can forget he is one of the best brothers of the lot.

[@dumbidea1007]

@@randomcenturion7264 not really Vulcan, sanguinius, magnus are better bro. Leaman sound like an abnoxious angry drunk. The type that try to fight you once you drink for no reason and laugh about it the next day

[@alexandrudorries3307]

Damn you, Bones, for making me cry during a fucking Leman Russ video of all things, you glorious bastard.

[@Infinity_Coda]

I genuinely think Russ is actually the most interesting primarch. I think the contrast between the deep, melancholic humanity and the bombastic warrior king works so well, and I completely relate to all the reasons you resonate with the character as well.

[@dumbidea1007]

I don’t know. It would work if when he returned he realized that he’s just a massif f up like the lion except in his case he didn’t just screwed his children’s but everything he was sucked to the point he need to face the fact that the wolf were worse off with him there. (Specially since they don’t kill their furry brothers anymore while he executed them) Then he could pretend to be the legend peoples believe him to be while hating on what kind of douche he actually was. That everyone, be it the lion, valdor, Magnus , chadgatai and specially Angron in his speech told him about his crap while he was so arrogant that he antagonized them all and ignored their very wise advises It would be the opposite of the lion. Him going I failed my sons and brothers and had I not been there to get rid of the only thing that could replace the emperor on the throne out of arrogance he would be walking and the dream of the emperor would be a reality Realizing that the legend of himself Is more of an example than the actual leaman and having to pretend. You would pass from the most arrogantly abnoxious primarch to one with a impostor syndrome

[@happydisaster6703]

@@dumbidea1007dude, the space wolves got better because of him. Before him, the rout were a raucous bunch that more resemble Orks in command structure and personality than space marines. Also read wolfsbane, his emotions and characterization are what lead to the wolves shifting even more towards what the 40k wolves are in personality.

[@snoox27]

The pull between duty and how it makes him feel deep down.

[@YungFozz]

@@dumbidea1007obvious magnus fan spotted

[@dumbidea1007]

@@YungFozz nop the khan all the way

[@shadowmc2609]

The feeling of not wanting stories to be forgotten is something I know all too well now. When my grandfather, rest his soul, was diagnosed with blood cancer... what I wanted above all else was to try and document as many stories about his life as I could. I wanted the life of this beautiful fool of a man to be carried on as HE remembered it. That opportunity never came, and it pains me to no end that I won’t have his memory preserved as pristinely as it deserves to be, that the tales I might tell to friends and family have to be filtered through my faulty recollections. I still want to salvage whatever I can, while there are still people who can speak about him, but it’s hard to let go of the fact that it’ll be secondhand information, things that I wish I could have just asked him myself. But like with Leman to Björn, that won’t stop me from making sure his memory is kept fresh in my mind as accurately as I possibly can. And I encourage you all to do the same. Here’s to those we cherish. Cheers, everyone.

[@inquisitionagent9052]

I do like these psychological deep dives you're doing with each of the primarchs. Its unique

[@qwefg3]

I would say that is the ironic duality of the wolves. During the early parts or initial joining there is fun, excitement, a bit of chaos, yet there is a thrill of life. Yet as we get to the older and oldest members... There is a wear and tear, a depression, loss of those who had fell now left missing in their life while those who came after will not know who they were. Joy of the young dancing with sorrow of the old. Things may grow better and brighter, but until then the dance between hope and dull apathetic numbness to the world duels between what was lost and what yet has to be recovered or discovered.

[@spartastic4]

As a SW player, this was the one I was looking forward to you making because of how much you don't like the SW. Honestly thought you were gonna skip Russ and come back to him at a later date. Anyway, it really is nice to see that you came away with a better appreciation for him. People always talk about how he is just a man pretending to be a savage and is actually smart but not many talk about the moments away from those two aspects. So thank you for shedding more light on that and best of luck in your endeavors. And remember, you are not alone in your struggles.

[@thelasthunter3123]

The Space Wolves were already one of my favorite legions and here you go making me love them even more. The segment where you talked about him numbness, fear of becoming numb and how depressing that reality is for primarchs hit close to home. I've been dealing with some serious depression the last few years and it's only recently gotten a lot better because I lost my shitty job. I've had a lot of those same thoughts and feelings Russ has and you asshole you made me cry! I completely understand where Russ is coming from and dammit now I just want to give the guy a hug, something I needed a lot of during those times when those thoughts came into my head. I hope when he returns he isn't corrupted by chaos but honestly, I think it's a coin toss whether or not he'll return a more broken, chaos corrupted man, or a man who has used his pain to give him strength. Either way I can't wait.

[@Dogmelter42]

Hope you're doing okay, Arthur. I've been in that boat, and it sucks. Ironically, 40k was that new thing that kinda brought a little light in the dark. It's tough, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Keep up the good work.

[@HederaPaints]

From an absolute stranger, I hope things start getting better for ya

[@drhapi5308]

Holy crap, you finally did it! You broke through and saw the melancholy and wise heart we love in Leman!!!

[@manux3605]

One of us! One of us!

[@cooldude6527]

I anticipate Leman's return to the modern setting... Almost as much as I anticipate a Red Scorpions video that I am now requesting for a sixth iteration With Love, cool dude

[@Burntoutloser]

I heard rumors that it's either going to be him or dorn I kind of hope it's Lehman who's coming back next

[@henrypaleveda7760]

I'm waiting for a rogal return. Russ' return would be cool but that may be when Gw tries to close the setting or fractures a chaos god (nurgle) or revives/reintroduces an eldari one.

[@twentysecondnomad8177]

Would Russ return with anything to show for his trip into the Eye of Terror though? A cure to help the Emperor?

[@ardanwin5724]

0:01 "Hai" Some german: "No sir, that's a wolf."

[@StarshadowMelody]

**throws it into google translate** **jaws theme**

[@pedropierre9594]

Its always interesting to me how many people can discard Russ simply as a savage, and not noticed the deepness of the character like you have

[@kaitracksmalgom]

That’s why I like this quote about Russ and the lion Russ is a man Masquerading as a beast while lion is a beast masquerading as a man

[@cartoonguygaming9521]

I genuinely think this is your best video. At least the one that most made me feel something. Things do get better

[@coryholden89]

the best thing to do in times of depression is to talk about it. or as the kids say it these days "trauma dump". youve got a huge following of poeple and fans and im sure a large number are more than willing to bend an ear offer advice or just be a distraction. the wolves are awesome and its crazy how much their schtick has evolved from heresy to current the amount of humanity displayed by objectively inhuman characters does make them very relatable.

[@wolflordgio6320]

For Russ and the Allfather!!!!! Thank you for sharing Bones it means more than you know and again thank you for all the amazing content brother looking forward to many more.

[@quinnamations9715]

Honestly, this video hits different, because the story and fears of Russ parallel my own. Like you, I have…not had a good year so far due to my mental health being less than stellar to put it mildly. Things I used to enjoy and put hours upon hours into years ago are now slowly numbing to a point where my enjoyment is significantly reduced. And one of my biggest fears is that one day, I’ll just become a numb, stagnate depressed shell of my former childhood self, unable to move forward in life and never being able to feel that sense of enjoyment out of anything ever again. The craziest thing is that I’m not even a Space Wolves or Leman Russ fan either, and whilst that isn’t gonna change, I do have a newfound respect for him.

[@theodoremccarthy4438]

I love the idea of Russ and the Lion together again as old rivals back on the war path side by side. Each older and wiser, but still brothers who know how to get each other’s goat. It sounds like the best buddy cop movie ever pitched.

[@carlosanton6048]

knowing you're not the biggest fan of the space wolves, I really appreciate this complex and deep analysis you've made. I feel like most people that don't like Leman and/or the space wolves usually change their minds when they go a bit bellow the surface, which I find incredibly meta and poetic given how this legion is known for playing on the whole "savages" persona to their advantage

[@raptornight2875]

hey man, i know your probably not going to read this but i wanted to thank you Leman Russ is my personal comfort character because i feel i can relate to him more than any other character in warhammer or even fiction as a whole, i know that sounds strange considering hes a primarch but his emotional struggles and the way he was shaped by his environment and expectations really resonates with me ive been having a really shit time too, for a long time, and he's been really important on keeping me on the right track that whole time. and knowing that im not the only one going through these things and taking comfort in these things has really helped me. and i hope the amount of support in these comments helps you so thank you for making me feel seen

[@paulwilliamgoyeneche6494]

Arthur, I've been a member for a while now, I have to say you have diffinitely grown. I'm proud of you man. PS: The Wolves are my favorite Legion/Chapter because of Russ; because of the humanity he brought to warriors who were supposed to be more than human. Thanks for this Arthur and keep going.

[@LJD442]

I love Leman and I want you to know its not silly to relate to these characters. I think he as a character always wore a bit of a mask around people except his closest people. He lost those people during the heresy save Bjorn. Just my little thought on him I agree with everything you said in this video. I also I wanted to say your videos have been really elevating recently. Thanks for an interesting twenty minutes.

[@hoenheim94]

Great video, but Im gonna be pedantic on one point because it makes a bigger difference than people might realize. The mushrooms from which the berserker stew was supposedly made were Amanita Muscaria. While they are absolutely hallucinogenic, their active constituent (muscimol) isnt a psychedellic. Its effects are actually fairly distinct in mechanism of action and presentation among hallucinogens, and are worth reading about if pharmacology interests you.

[@seanmadson8524]

To add to this information, the term berserker was described as becoming bear-like, not wolf-like, but I'm pretty sure this concept did eventually contribute to the eventual idea of werewolves later on

[@fluffywolfo3663]

Russ does sometimes feel like a regular man inside a primarch. One thing that always stuck with me is how he seems to have an inherent cynicism about being a Primarch, a kind that feels slightly different from anyone else’s. Maybe the reason he found himself believing in wyrd is because he felt trapped by his role - being trapped by fate seems like a logical extension of that.

[@minhducnguyen9276]

Russ is extremely loyal to the emperor but if he was created for war then what's his purpose when the war is over? Even the Khan realized this problem as he has never fit in with the imperial power structure as far as during the crusade. Gulliman also talked about their existential crisis, space marines are created to build a world that they have no place in.

[@jbagger331]

All Norse felt trapped by fate, it was a part of their belief system, as the seer says to Amled(Hamlet) the mad prince of the Jutes, "Your fate is set and you cannot change it".

[@FoxHound-ut1hu]

​@@minhducnguyen9276 "A king does not invite his bloodstained headsman to the victory feast, for such a man has no place in the halls of peace and plenty. While there are terrors for the axe to slay, I will be lauded from afar, and when there are no more, I will be simply forgotten." ~ Leman Russ

[@Croatoam97]

now i want a space wolf army. YOU DID THIS TO ME

[@przemigiusz4915]

I want Russ to come back and to be basically a beacon of "It's gonna be better". Him being older and wiser, traveling with his chapters to outer rims of imperuim to fight literally anything that comes by, creating new era of sagas. Wolves, next to Salamanders by beloved, care about other humans the most and Russ coming back from the eye of terror and being firefighter-like character in terms of: save them, then fuck the bad guys over would be perfect

[@mementomori771]

I can think of few other chapters that would go to war with the inquisition purely for the lives of normal humans

[@henrypaleveda7760]

If he comes back -and I know that this IS too much to ask - I want it to be fracturing nurgle's realm. [permanent damage to a chaos faction. maybe paving the way for Isha to be freed or for some other such thing. But his quest for the tree of life to restore the emperor sounds like it'd be in the intervening point between nurgle and tzneenche's realm.

[@AzraelSoulHunter]

I think he will returns as his father's son. Leman Russ the Sigilite.

[@lucasshuyler8696]

​@@AzraelSoulHunter YOU! YES!!! You perfectly understand what Malcador meant to Leman! Gods be good it's so good to hear from someone who knows that Leman saw Malcador as a true father and not the Emperor! At least not to the same degree of respect and affection.

[@arlodurham2040]

You don’t need to apologize so much about feeling close to these characters! They’re good characters not because they’re fun. That helps. But it’s because, as you say, they’re *human.* They’re relatable. We can understand their struggles and reactions. I think this series is amazing in getting at the core of a lot of that. Thank you!

[@Drakonslayer777]

Living a long time might seem cool but it means you will seem those you care about die off as you live on its a sad thought and Leman shows how this can affect you, the things you liked before begin to feel dull and I feel sorry for him, I myself have gone through some similar things I’ve lose people and things I care about and it hurts but I live on and remember them as anyone should and I think Leman Russ might be going through something similar. P.S keep up the good work👍

[@Gimzig]

Beautiful. Thank you for the eloquence of your words. Ive struggled to explain my situation in the past, this hit home.

[@xbox-spartan]

I'm mostly new to 40k and have been diving head first into the lore and didn't understand most of what I found until I stumbled across your breakdown of the Salamanders, and it helped reignite the curiosity and love for science fiction I've been missing for a few years. I've been a Star Wars and Halo fan most of my life and lately I've noticed that I keep going back to the old stuff due to the new content lacking the same impact and feel it used to but when I watch or play them it doesn't hit like it used to as well to the point were I'd spend more time remembering the good ole days and start to crack from realizing that I couldn't get it back. Your videos have been a major part in not only giving me a starting point into the community but also helped me find something I can relate to and given me hope that I can get the joy and excitement back. Also you magnificent bastard, I'm not a fan of the Space Viking esthetic but you gotten me to like Leman Russ more and now I'm looking up stories for the damn Space Wolves!

[@dylancox631]

Dang… never thought of Russ like that. Thanks for the insight, hope your year gets better.

[@NaturallyCynical]

Hope things start looking up for you. You're one of my favorite creators. Your work always makes me think. Whatever you're going through I hope it gets better.

[@Miron_Marnic]

A great analysis of Leman's character that was! I must say, with every video like this I love your channel even more. Jokes and conspiracy theories intertwine with really deep commentary about, welp, everything really. So thank you Mr.Bones, and see you in the next video!

[@Antheraws]

Hey man I just wanna say of all the lore content out there you really do an amazing job finding the archetypes of each element warhammer has to offer and the human element you bring in yourself I can't thank enough to feel a solidarity in human struggle. Never thought I'd find that opening a warhammer lore video but damn im so happy i did.

[@somewhereyouarent]

You are the man. Your videos always bring me back up, knowing that Im not alone in feeling the way that I feel. You are so awesome for sharing what you have in this video.

[@definitelynotalpharius5246]

Honestly one of your best videos arthur. I love the deeper character analysis of the primarchs. 👍

[@thatonegreenguy2842]

The Russ will return. He’s just taking his damn sweet time. I think your analysis of his struggle between ‘the truth’ and the stories people tell is spot on. Even in the story ‘Prospero Burns’ this is played out as well. The Imperial Iterator/Remberancer struggles between recounting a tale of hard facts about the titanic clashes the Wolves face and the more subtle telling of an EXPERIENCE. To me, the lesson was that you do in some ways obscure the hard truth of things for a story but it’s to reflect the emotional and personal experience of the event that’s hard to put into words. Yes it’s not very impressive to kill an Orc war boss when all the legions were doing it, but it speaks to the life of your friends in combat to say ‘My boy Teeth of the Storm faced down an 18foot tall orc, the damn thing screamed it’s challenging so loud the ground vibrated at our feet and he took its life even as it took his’. I say all that to say I think you made a great point about where, especially in the death of knowledge that is 40k does the truth remain and legend begin? You can still tell the truth and impart the aspects of the story you want told by playing up the best parts of your friends’ character after you lose him to battle, and slowly rub out the negative parts. Do the new bloods need to know he was a drunk off of the field and that he didn’t like the sons of Gulliman? Or do they just need to know the parts of the story where the sky split open from the amount of artillery that was shot at you two and he still cracked a smile before charging in on the enemy. That aspect of legends/sagas is where the wolves are now I think. They hear these stories about these larger than life heroes and struggle to live up to these expectations. The Dark Angel’s had this angle in ‘Descent of Angels’. The knight is never about to piss himself of fear before the battle and isn’t shaking so hard his sword is about to fall from his hand. He still killed the enemy. Is it such a crime to tell the next generation that he did his duty while obscuring the less than totally heroic aspects of the person. Edit: was prospero burns, not wolves of fenris, that’s not even a book lole. Also tied in the aspect of the heroes journey story vs the truth to the sons of the lion.

[@DiscoKevin69420]

This is the most interesting dissection of Russ I've ever seen. Hope your travels help man. It did me a world of good being out in the world on my own and having to socialise with complete strangers. It brought me out of my shell and gave me a world of confidence I'd never had before. Also don't tell Pancreasnowork you can see yourself inside Leman Russ

[@thisistherevolt]

My dude, this year has also been bullshit to me. My issues have mostly been spinal, so I'm not against sharing. I will say however, your videos have been a bright spot this year. I got into 40K just last year around February when I needed something to focus on when I quit smoking. I found your channel in the summertime and have greatly enjoyed the sardonic nature, something I don't see from anyone outside PancreasNoWork. Keep it up and thanks.

[@Wulfen26]

Great upload. Love it. On the Canis Helix- I believe the primary purpose was to add the lycanthropy gene. aside from the terran born that im aware of, no astartes aside from the fenrisian born were able to accept the canis helix, until primaris came about. One reference of this was the wolf brothers chapter which failed miserably and mostly turned wulfen. From then on no other chapters were founded from the geneseed of russ until primaris, for that reason. Which, on that note, I acknowledge bad writing for my space viking boys has been a consistent problem, but I believe the premise is every bit as viable and cool as the blood angels, literal space vampires fighting their darker nature and curses, and at times, using it as an advantage. ... Very literal parallel lines can be drawn between the blood angels and space wolves, from their induction processes and their monikers as savage nobles/noble savages. People hate the space wolves and cite the writing of flawed characters alongside OP feats as why, but I think they can still be saved and love them regardless. In addition to 41k space wolves seeming to have learned their lessons about being jerks and doing a full 180 in how they interact with the imperium, by not being afraid to break rank as always but now having more concern for the common man(reference the first war for armageddon/months of shame) The wolf spears primaris founding was already a great step in the right direction, taking their theme and smoothing it out to be much less overbearing WOLFYWOLF and more akin to the white scars as hunters in space with historical tribalistic themes. WelpThats my tedtalk, thx. Liked your channel bones. Rock on

[@curiouswind9196]

Only thing that doesn't change is change. There IS light in that tunnel, not only at the end but along the way there is light to hold on to. It will get better no matter how dark it gets.

[@Battusai1984]

Thank you for sharing, it made me feel seen in turn, it feels at times like i became a whole other person and have to rediscover myself, which has it charms, but at the same time there is a sense of mourning for the "old" me as wel. *warm hug/supportive firstbump/ aknowledging headnod* (whichever you're most comfy with) well wishes on your journey.

[@christianl4652]

Its the joy of aging in manhood. We bare the world of others so we can simply give them the chance and lose ourselves with every piece we give. We all wish we could go back to our younger days when we didn't have responsibilities. But I find solice in knowing that others gain because I had the ability to lose with purpose. Stand tall brother.

[@LexYeen]

Bro, Sir, My comrade on this wet ball of rock and dirt, Lean on your brothers when you need support. All of us can bear more weight than _any_ one of us could alone.

[@christianl4652]

@LexYeen You know it. I've had the worst year of my life, and I'm somehow better than I've ever been. I grit my teeth and bare the challenge head on

[@The_CrimsonHunter]

I want to cry dude. all of your videos hit so hard, but this one broke me. hearing that you still tuff it out despite what happens to you inspired me, that's not even mentioning how you have made me relate to my favourite primarch and such a deep level. Thank you.

[@ayumishiraishi]

Russ used to be one of (no, actually he was) the most hated primarch to me from what he did to Magnus. But then I learnt more about the background and surroundings, I changed my mind as his story and him changed me. Now he becomes my no.2 most favorite in my list, side by side with Magnus. And yes, Mr.Bones said it right, Russ is very humanly and the way he just sit there wondering back into the sea of memory, with all those nostalgias, that hit so hard and I also can relate with that. Russ is a depth character and he doesn’t be what many see him at first. That’s the most interesting thing about him.

[@THExRISER]

Good job with that ending, you made me cry.

[@thehowlingjoker]

that face at the start nearly made me shit myself im fuckin up rn this shit not needed bruv

[@richardvaldes3959]

14:00 dog, I feel you. 37 years old my life has changed so many times so many people in and out.... hang tough. These books and setting and Fandom keep me happy too. Much respect for that opening up

[@Smigger97]

You were right about beserkers and the shrooms, its where the word beserk comes from and for the reasons you mention.

[@mementomori771]

Leman Russ is the most older brother like to his fellow primarchs imo he wants them to be better like he wants himself and his children to be better maybe he doesnt get his point across in the best way because hes a bit of a brash ass but that doesnt mean he cares any less

[@TechPriestCharlie]

This is one of the first lore videos in a while I've actually learned something new and interesting! Also I love the psychoanalysis vids you do. Also... I completely get what you meant in your aside towards the end of the video. You're definitely not alone.

[@veteranofbaal8232]

I feel like, from this description of events, that Leman's struggles are more about the fear of being forgotten. That all of his brothers and his closest son's will have died and, over time, forgotten. He wants the new generations of marines to know that these people lived and fought and died for them, for the preservation of the galaxy and the space wolves. But you could also see it a third way, that Leman is heartbroken that the only group of people he felt could possibly understand him are gone. All of his brothers are dead or have been pushed away and he'll never have a familial bond with them.

[@halobat64]

I gotta admit, I've been a space wolves fan for ages. And I know they're a bit of a love or hate chapter, it seems like that's very true for Leman Russ as well. So I was very interested to see where you'd stand on Russ, I'm glad you walked away with a rather unique take on him. Also, I don't know you personally, and I probably never will. But still, I'm glad inspite of whatever you're struggling with, you are still able to get work done and make quality content. You've quickly become one of my favorite content creators.

[@skullsquad900]

Moments like that are why I love 40k soo much. Thanks for that, makes me like him a lil more, and actually makes me hope for his return.

[@alexismercado5117]

To share your burden with us and through Leman Russ's take, brought a tear to my eyes. An architecture professor once told me that I had a particular sensitivity, part bright part shadow, but that I should never let go... Well I've felt it drift away in the past years but then I went to Japan recently and I had a major shift in perspective. And I can honestly say, find your own places in your mind and times where you can be at peace, find time to reflect on looking inwards to project yourself outwards and forward and find time to have and participate in rites of passage and recurring ones too, cherish them and that may bring back some of the light in the greyness and lift the numbness. I started playing wolves on 2nd edition, and basically because everyone wanted the perfect codex compliant SM army whilst I couldn't care less, (back then the only truly divergent chapter was the wolves) but mostly also because they brought their goodbois into battle. And I'm a sucker for dogs... So the whole viking vibe really never bothered me, as it went along with the berserker themes. Then around 3rd we started getting wolfying sprues that gave our armies more and more different feel... However sometimes it really feels like a chore to have to plan everything ou especially with the primaris kits which are in a sense a return to 2ed times when coming across wolves kits was a rare sight. But hey I like putting pelts and horns and really transforming the new minis to give them a truly wolfy feel... I will not settle for just some color scheme and a few shoulder pads. Growing up and after reading the novels sometimes I just got pissed at the wolves depiction of hotheads that deus ex machina everything by virtue of their sheer cartoonish badassery... But sometimes other stories always made me feel kind of stupidly proud for them, especially Leman's. Thank you. A proudly stupid Fenrisian

[@myonlyfriendtheend4958]

catharsis is good for the soul

[@coreybrown7164]

Keep fighting Keep loving, apathy is death. Good luck on ur journey

[@Shinsay]

This and your Fulgrim video are hands down my favorites. They couldn't have been easy but mad respect for what you shared with us in both--it's also always great to see others give Russ a damn chance.

[@Bollthorn]

Thank you for sharing your story. I know how hard it is to do that. As someone that takes daily medication for anxiety and depression, I understand that numbness with the passing of the years all too well, and willing to give anything just to revisit the days when I felt genuinely happy, when things were better, just wanting to feel SOMETHING instead of living through the emotional equivalent of watching paint dry.

[@gerardorafaelubaldopatron6042]

To me, the vibe that i get when i think about leman is about learning from the mistakes, from the guilt, to fight an overcome depression, leman in some point in the heresy is just f*ckin depressed, i like him, he is human, complex, flawed in different forms and various of his brothers are better, but idc he's one of my favourites, he trascends that "viking wolf" bullshit, and grows a lot in the heresy, i think that he is misunderstood and that's ok, i know the reputation the wolves have, but for me he is different, i don't view him reflected on his legion like others primarchs do, in this case the primarch and the legion are separated as concepts

[@MattB-es2zo]

I think you've put words to something I've been unable to describe, a general feeling of frustration, lack of really enjoying things that I once loved to do and just feeling drained.

[@Insane-Howl-Cowl]

This video hit deep. I've been going through it lately, and this didn't necessarily give me hope but helped me feel seen.

[@epim00]

I deeply resonate with your truth and vulnerability. Thank you! And it is not just because I experience a greyness/abyss/numbness/falling away that is something like what you talk about. But it is because truth and vulnerability of any form are attractive. The world is short on this. And people not only hunger or thirst for it, but need it to live full lives. It is the air we breathe and that we, sadly, adulterate with all the other bullshit. So I invite you to share more of this as you become more comfortable with it. I believe that it will serve you and your business well. And I would close with an offer to you: gratitude practice. For me it felt so, so, so, so, so stupid when I started. I faked it until I made it for a full season (which is not my natural inclination)! But I kept at it (with the encouragement of a therapist and after reading multiple studies on its effectiveness in wiping out the grey... what psychologists call "dissatisfaction"). Every day I identify 2 things in my life that help make it what it is, think about what my life would be like without it, and I try to show gratitude or thankfulness for it. Most times I acknowledge the small and trite, like how funny I find it when a dog single-mindedly licks its balls. But some times I can get to a more profound reality, like being deeply and completely grateful for my wife and kids. Sometimes I can even be fully grateful for myself and my offerings. Sometimes. Today's gratitude is for my continued health and for silver polish (it makes knives shiny!). So perhaps a little from column A and little from column B. Anyways, take it for what it's worth. And blessings on your journey, both inward and outward 🙏. BTW, I'm grateful for your humor and videos too!

[@joselugo1982]

Thank you for this video and sharing. It most certainly was not nonsense, and has me looking at my Space Wolves in a different way.

[@Knight-chaplainashriel]

Great content bub, I know the fee fee's you're having. Dealing with my own. Thanks for sharing, hope all gets straightened out for you. Truly.

[@strangletherobot3832]

Berserkr, a conjunction of Ber (bear or bare) and Serkr (shirt or garment). Since Ber could be translated in two ways, a berserker could either be referring to a warrior strung out on psychotropics fighting with reckless abandon and no armor/shirt, or a warrior wearing a bear pelt, which was usually the marker that he was the champion of a Jarl, King, etc. Your understanding of historical berserkers is spot on with one of the two theories. Another form of berserker is the Ulfhednar (wolf coat), which is essentially a berserker but with wolf aesthetics rather than bear. This would be my guess as to the inspiration for the aesthetics of the space wolves.

[@kdelfino1767]

Love the video, and I've got to say, I think I understand where you're coming from with all of this. I've had those moments of feeling kind of apathetic towards my old hobbies and all of this other stuff as well, but I'm of the opinion that it's just our minds and our hearts saying "We've already experienced this, let's go find what else is out there!". Keep up the good work, Arthur!

[@abstracttrxp8621]

I appreciate so much in this video, the lore, the relatability with Leman. Thank you for this one it shifted my perspective on Leman

[@clearlypellucid]

You can never go home again is an unavoidable truth. But you can make a new home. It's not possible to get back my days in the sun sneaking extra cookies for a "midnight snack" with my grandmother, because she's gone now. But we can keep trying to bring new people and experiences into our lives, and maybe they can be as good or better than the ones we've lost.

[@ConquistadoraDeLaEstrella]

That bit about wanting to just remember old friends and even old rivals amidst a whole celebration really hit home for me. I can be, and have been, at parties and celebration events where all I can focus on is that there are people who meant so much to me who are now no longer able to share the celebration. And it's not just the dead people in my life, it's the living who either left my life or whom I left theirs. Each time someone leaves, either dying or just moving to a different part of their life, it still feels like a loss. That intimate knowledge that even if you get back in touch, things won't be the same. That holiday can never be repeated, that night of random choices won't have the same outcome. And it's something I still don't know how to fully accept.

[@10thCompanyCaptain]

Honestly, how you're relating to 40k is exactly how I relate to 40k in that regard. Depression has been an ongoing theme in my adult life, and Leman Russ having this melancholic personality and dealing with the struggle of loss is very real to me, as I have lost multiple friends and family members to cancer within the last 10 years or so, and seeing people drift away as seasons go by is very, very real to me. So affection from one fan to another, and solidarity.

[@10thCompanyCaptain]

Following on, 40k is actually wone of the things that helps me DEAL with my depression.

[@drpretzel2086]

Mood my dude. I feel ya, the loss of excitement, meaning and joy you’d find in the things. Everything becoming grey I feel ya

[@Bossbridge18]

Bro I know this video is 4 months old but I'm crying I needed this thank you

[@codycurtin2295]

The Jarnhammer trilogy are some of the greatest warhammer stories period.

[@FoxHound-ut1hu]

Hell yeah Blood of asaheim, Stormcaller and Helwinter gate are absolute bangers

[@codycurtin2295]

​@@FoxHound-ut1hu I wasn't a space wolves fan until I read those. Holy shit what a masterpiece of a trilogy

[@TNLSKIZZY]

Thank you for allowing yourself to be vulnerable bones, you’ve helped us more than you think

[@johnwycough1955]

Dude. I feel ya. I am so freaking happy I found your channel last year. Makes me happy to see your vids in my feed.

[@TheKoistar]

Well, now I am genuinely crying with grief-healing tears of joy for the return of Guilliman and the Lion, as if I were Leman and had been despairing for millenia at their loss. Is this empathy? I think you did a fantastic job with this emotional video.

[@ChaseTheChamp11]

The feeling you are talking about happens as you get older. Between 23 and 29 were the hardest times for me for all of that. Just means its time to find the new things that brings you joy, and let the old things go.

[@Gaze_Hound]

I’ve been having a challenging year also and this hit really well for me thank you.

[@Dremux117]

For the last 3 or so years I've had that same creeping gray feeling seep into everything I used to find joy in. You aren't alone. I'm not sure how to escape it or come to terms with, but I just try to take it one day at a time.

[@hd9y1jdjad]

That was a lovely aside - thank for sharing. I think Russ' return will ultimately be positive thing for him, not only because he can re-unite with his brothers but because he'll return to an era of new heroes, stories, and battles. He'll see his sons carving out their own legends, and I choose to believe it'll allow him to slot nicely into his father figure role.

[@animtonni]

This was really nice, and made 40k lore better for me, thanks man ❤️

[@TZerot0]

Big fan of personal emotions and relating to art in these videos. Keep it up Mr. Bones

[@Ltcoombs1]

A bitter melancholy that stuck to his bones like a fevered chill, great writting mate

[@lordofdefiance8174]

Epic video man. You are an inspiration to so many. Stay strong brother

[@Uncle_Rudi]

i don't know how apropriate it is for me to comment this on such an emontion-filled video but let me tell you how glad i am that i found this channel. I tried getting into 40k a while back, but seeing some youtubers that talk about lore completly ignoring any symbolism or messaging in the stories for "Factual retalings of the facts"(Like such a thing can even happen in a work of fiction) really made me drop the endeavor. I came back to interacting with 40k content recently (God knows i am never playing the actuall game) and finding a creator such as yourself has really helped spark actuall interest in the narrative again.

[@kristophermichaud4467]

I feel seen by you talking about you feeling seen by Russ' situation, to put it short 🎉❤ 'Simply wishing to speak to his brothers without the fear of repercussion" That reminds me of the few years I had house rented with three good friends. Every night, no matter how good or bad, at least one friend would be just talking with me about something, and i always felt i advanced more as a person for those conversations. Conversations by the bbq, I think thats all Leman truly wants. And I'm there for it.

[@15DEAN1995]

I've lost a couple important family members this year and can empathize with Russ. The loss of those close to you means youll never hear a story told their way, youll never hear them laugh again or the story's they had left to tell.

[@grosslyincandescent3833]

As someone who has spent a handful of years only enjoying the setting through the lore and the video games surrounding it. I enjoy when there are discussions about the characters themselves rather than just listing their achievements (the latter is still good tho). Also as a fellow all things dwarf fan keep up the excellent work!

[@chrisroberts7000]

Please keep up the good work gracing us with genuine and uncommon perspectives on this wonderfully mad universe.

[@JT-jn8hx]

Thank you for sharing!