LessOfSarah: I Had WLS...Why Am I Still Fat!?!

Some ramblings on what it's like to have lost 250lbs and still be "fat"
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[@vsgkirk]

You hit the nail on the head - you are FAR from "average" - you are amazing! When you walk in the room, you just command attention (in a good strong confident person way). You are just gorgeous and statuesque and I think you look wonderful. And yes, I'm slightly biased because I'm your friend - but if I have seen how total strangers (non WLSers) respond to you, look at you, check you out and it has nothing to do with your size. It's your presence and nobody can buy that or measure it - so deal with it! Yes, you did "all that" and this is what you get - you get to be fabulous, loved and an inspiration to many people.

[@vsggranny3637]

I made a video about this exact topic a little over a week ago. I had my surgery in August 2014 with 110-135 lbs to lose, I'm now at 75lb lost and feel wonderful, but still see "fat" and "obese". I'll be thrilled with the 110 lb loss and know I will get there I told a select few about my surgery and think they are expecting to see me skinny...what others are expecting and what the reality is are totally different. I know that the attitude and pride I take in who and where I am on this journey and in life is going to make all the difference in how others view me. You are one of the first I have followed and I am so grateful for what you have offered, not only in your weight loss, but in your life journeys! Thank you for taking the time!! xoxoxo

[@calichick097]

You are such an inspiration. My doctor just told me 2 days ago that I might only lose 100 lbs which to most people would be a lot but 300+ lbs is still really fat and I really felt like no one at the support groups would understand how I was feeling so it's extremely comforting to know that not only do you know exactly how I feel, you surpassed any "average" loss. Thank you for these videos.

[@VSGWarrior]

Cheers from a fellow "Super" fattie! I'm so glad your vlogn again. I'm down over 180 lbs and I'm still a fat guy but hey I'm a much more palatable fat guy than I was before and hey I'm healthier! However, the mindfuck is constant and malicious, it's a real struggle to keep moving forward. Thanks for sharing my darling! I think you look beautiful and I'm not just saying that because I'm your 3rd husband!

[@Howelton2020]

My highest weight was 652 lbs I am now 398 lbs. I get sleeved in three days. I don't expect to ever be skinny or "normal sized"' I just want to be a better version of myself. I will agree that losing all this weight to still be considered fat does suck'all kind of nuts. I have a lot to be thankful for. I have had major eye surgery that was successful a cornea transplant I also had a cataract removed from one eye on the 5th of this month. I have another one that will be removed on the 25th of this month post weight loss surgery. . I love the honesty in your videos Sarah they have helped me a great deal. Even when I had trouble seeing them listening to them help.I should add I am from West Des Moines, Iowa my name is Darnel. My surgeon is Dr. Theresa LaMasters. I think Jennifer B had the same surgeon. I. Know this comment is all over the place. lol I guess I am just so excited I can see clearly enough now to comment.

[@jodib2222]

I been waiting for this video since you mentioned it last week. Well watching now.. thank you for taking the time to make your videos.

[@colorfulruth4980]

I really appreciate this video. I can identify with you because I am in a very similar situation. I haven't had wls, but I have thought about it and may still have it done. Your forthright videos are sometimes exactly what I need during a certain time of my journey. Also, you were one of the motivating factors for me to start documenting ny own progress. I am really glad you are back to making videos. Thanks so much for choosing to share this part of your journey.

[@ladyvsg9719]

One of the things I've always loved about your videos is your honesty, and I think you did an AMAZING job with this one. I am on the borderline of MO & SMO, and I think my fear about not ever getting "skinny" is one of the reasons I haven't told many people about my upcoming surgery. Much love to you!!

[@GastricTiger]

Sarah I completely understand where you are coming from. My body decided it was done losing weight about 30 pounds shy of where I wanted to end up. Now I feel like I have put in all this work and sacrificed so much to still be a bigger guy. I am above average in size and without a fair amount of self punishment my body will never end up in the average range. I have just decided to work on accepting myself where I am and do my best not to compare my results with other people in the community. I have tried to just focus on things I do have control over, like exercise, and stop stressing over my size. It's tough to know I will never be really trim, but I'm working on being positive every day.

[@VSGJoeyG]

Thanks for your honesty. I can relate a lot to what you are saying, especially since I've had some regain. It's a constant process and a life long journey, which for some reason I thought would go away when I was sleeved. I think you look fabulous every time I see you!!! Miss you and sending you so much love!!XOXOXO

[@heathermmeeks]

Girl, you are certainly not alone. I am 5'2, got up to 340 and I'm down to 210 so I TOTALLY feel you when you talk about people's reactions when you say you've had weight loss surgery. I've always been overweight. I am a little bitter that I can't seem to lose any more, but I just try to remember how miserable I was at 340. I can do almost everything I want to do at this weight and I feel so much better. I weighed 180 in high school and was an athlete so, I feel like 30 pounds over HS weight isn't too shabby. For me to get down to my ideal weight (150-160) I would have to starve (literally) and have skin surgery. It's an odd feeling to still be "fat" after weight loss surgery and to still look kind of funny due to the way your body looks. Thanks for sharing!

[@melinarinck4526]

Hi Sarah, I have been watching your videos and i really appreciate your courage to post your journey, I am just beginning my journey and I will go to my first bariatric appointment....you are motivating

[@irismoreno6909]

Such an honest video. You are amazing. I hope you get to have the plastics sooner rather than later. I am 62, and just had my VSG IN JUNE 2015. I wish I would have done it sooner. ❤️

[@colorsofavon934]

Great video! So glad you giving us your experience from maintenance level. The struggle doesn't end it's just different. Best wishes.

[@TheSherbear352]

Sarah, I understand exactly where you're coming from. At 5'10" and coming from the SMO category I'm still big after having lost 120#. I still need to lose 40-50# more before even considering plastics. It's hard when others are racing to their goal or celebrating reaching a "normal" bmi and knowing that you may never get there. At least as tall women I think we are perceived as smaller than we really are. People are surprised to learn that I still weigh 230#. It's a good discussion topic and good to know that others are feeling the same way. Xoxo Sherri

[@tallcurvylatina]

Sarah, I can really relate to what you are saying. I recently had surgery in February and my highest was 406lbs. Like you I hope to lose a total of about 200 lbs and I am not a small framed woman. I know I will not end up skinny but I will be healthier and that is what keeps me going. i guess what I want to say is don't worry too much about how you are viewed what matters is that you know where you once were and look at the strides you continue to make. You are awesome!

[@kylierae1628]

Thank you for this sarah (: I'm having my sugery in august and this was something that I was very nervous about especially cuz I have a similar build that you did pre op ( I'm about 5'9 and 402) but this makes me feel alot better and kinda gives me an idea of what my body might look like and though its not "skinny" you look very healthy and like a regular beautiful woman (: I just hope I can keep the smile and positive attitude like you do (: thank you for the insperation (:

[@ckrtom2]

Great honest in-depth video. I understand all the mental things you're talking about, having lost hundreds of pounds and maintaining now. I can say there are certainly times when I feel freakish about my appearance (due mostly to excess skin), but I think being successful and proud of the weight loss overshadows it -- I know what I have accomplished and I tend to be a very internal person anyways. Like you, I think I'm pretty mentally strong at this point in life, but it makes me a little offended when an acquaintance or customer at work might say something like, "Hey, big guy...!" If they only knew...It is interesting how it's socially acceptable to say that to me in the present, whereas when one is super obese as I was, I don't think they would dare say it.

[@lynfairbairn]

I have followed you from the start and think you are an inspiration. x

[@mdmay1975]

You are so successful in my eyes! Love ya!

[@kjzj800]

Love ur videos. Very informative. Just starting the process so about 4 or so weeks out from VSG and trying to get as much info as possible. Congrats on the amazing weight loss and keeping it off..

[@ATimelessBeauty]

I hear you! I went from 283 to 166, stayed at 172 for about a year, then began re-gaining and am currently at 213-215. I am so disappointed with myself. I see my face, with 40+ lbs. At 166 lbs I was able to fit in a 14 jean (I am 5'5", large boned). the more I focus on losing again, the more I eat and the more I gain! Thank you for sharing. From the neck up you look perfectly healthy normal weight!

[@wandabfreen03]

Sarah, I saw Maya Angelou at a conference in the 1980's and she was 5'9" and what I would consider average weight....probably more like what you are now. When I saw you in the video on motivation (not sure where), I thought the same about you as I did about her. She was beautiful and dramatic. She had a stage presence and so do you.We all know that a person is more than their body frame and you have very special gifts....stature, communication skills, empathy and compassion for others and I love that you think, act and talk in a way that inspires us.

[@rebeccasevek9535]

I love your videos and I am so glad that I found you. Thank you

[@shaysmith3206]

I'm so happy u made this video. At my highest weight was 350 and I had a gastric bypass only to loss 50 lbs. I am having a revision on April 29th. I don't tell people I had RNY because of the looks I will get. I'm currently 290 and like you I know I will always be a bigger girl and I'm ok with that. I will be happier to healthier girl. Thank you Sarah for sharing your journey.

[@keithsaunders2667]

Thank you for sharing so honestly. I just had GS surgery 3 mths ago. Unfortunately I dont have a supportive group from other people how have gone thru this to guide me and encourage me. So...thank you.

[@keishajpmes1103]

Hey Sarah, glad to see you are back. I found your videos right before I had VSG 9/22/15. My highest weight was 519. So I definately understand what you are saying. I think we see things differently at different stages of our weight loss. At 5 months out I would be over the moon if I could hit the goal of 200lbs. But once I get there it just may be a different story. But what I can't do is dwell on the ravages on my body that come with such a dramatic weightloss. Honestly I say that now nut when I get there hopefully I will be able to keep that in mind.

[@fitfatbrittrny]

Your stunning and seriously an inspiration for my videos. Miss your videos!

[@healthismywealth9668]

Hi....welcome back. You were one of the first videos I saw when I was considering wls. I am now 10mts out and have lost 110 lbs. I'm now 230lbs, my height is 5' 8". Annd I have a big structure. My doctor thinks 200lbs is a good goal for me. I've been struggling to lose any more weight for the past 3mts. It's like I'm stuck, and sometimes I get depressed. But when I think of where I came from. I feel blessed. I think its because ppl look at you because u had wls and feel u should be skinny. And some say it, others keep asking if you've lost any more yet, and if you're putting bavk on the weight. They are putting so much pressure on me it's ridiculous. And I think that could be the problem. People's perception of what wls patients SHOULD look like. We have to stand firm and let all know we all have different goals. Not every wls patient wants to be skinny. We just want to be HEALTHY and fit, and you dont have to be skinny to achieve that. I'm in the gym 5day a wk and doing more than the women weighing 130lbs can do. My trainer is always pointing me out and calling me up front to demonstrate the exercises. I'm the biggest in my aerobics class. Now isn't that just to fuck with your brain. WOW....SMH. Just be You ppl. Just Do you. Again welcome back and keep on inspiring us. Thank you.

[@woodartcful]

Awesome video!

[@praisedancer010244]

"I am completely independent of the good or bad opinions of others." I think this affirmation would help you get over what people think, bad or good. You are a beautiful, gifted, creative woman who is not defined by the size you wear. You took the initiative and had the weight loss surgery and achieved what so many of us don't, You are healthier and in a much better position to enjoy your life. If you are concerned about the skin, make an intention to do something about it, and if you don't, so what. You are awesome anyway!

[@kimstephanopoulos6621]

Thank you for sharing this point of view. Your videos were the first I found when considering WLS. You are so real and inspirational. I'm down 120lbs at 6 months out and I'm very happy where I am. I'm not certain I want to be smaller. WLS for me was about health, not appearance. My labs indicate I'm in PERFECT health so I'm not certain how I want to proceed. There is certainly the expectation that I had this surgery and I should want to be smaller, but I don't like the sagging skin and I feel like my face has aged years. I'm fortunate that almost no one knows I had surgery so I don't have a lot of opinions being tossed my way. I often feel like something is wrong with me that I don't want to be "average".

[@vsgandy2928]

Great Video!

[@TheCurvyJones]

💖 you Sarah!

[@cjshahmeran6921]

Coming late to this discussion as I just discovered your channel. I've been very impressed with your videos, your honesty and depth, and your ease in the presence of a camera. Just want to say that I can really relate to this topic. My story is a bit different than yours, but the issue of accepting limitations is not. I've had plastics and I'm still coming to terms with the limits of the surgery. Part of my frustration is a ROI thing. After spending all that money (75K to date, and I'm still not done) there are limits on what can be done to my damaged skin. I know what I looked like before I gained the weight, and it frustrates me that no surgeon can put me back together the way I was. All the money in the world can't make it possible. Accepting that limitation has been very challenging for me.

[@roger571967]

Wow Great video ! I know exactly what you're talking about. Went from 478 pounds to my lowest at 254 for the last four months bouncing between 263-270. I feel great but definitely still consider myself to be Fat. Even though I've lost over 200 pounds I think people who didn't know me before WLS still think of me as Fat. I have to get a new license next month and it kind of saddens me because I still get the question when people look at it now "That's You"? I smile and say 200 pounds ago. Think I'm going to miss that.

[@audreyarentson2157]

I think you are absolutely beautiful and very brave to post this. I have been watching your videos for almost 2 years now, and I could not have done this without you.

[@VSGJodi]

Wish you were back!! Hope you are well! You're beautiful!

[@Saigastory94]

This is a very deep video. I think that you went through a great deal to get to the weight you are now and to still be considered "fat" would be very hard. I want you to know that even though I've never met you in person, I suspect that you would be one if those persons who carry themselves in such a way that the vast majority would not think of you as "fat". I say this because I've known people who if you really look at them would be considered fat or ugly but that is not how I or most people see them. The way you present yourself to the world is how most people will see you. I'm experiencing that even after all that I went through to lose weight, I will always struggle with my weight. If I don't I'll gain it all back. I'll never be effortlessly thin. That messes with my mind sometimes too. At the end of the day I have to find a way to be ok with me. However I look at this moment is good.

[@JaimeNacole]

Thank you for these videos. They really help me. Your stats are similar to mine. I am still pre-op.

[@zenmaiden1]

Great topic Sarah glad you spoke about this! Funny how that works I don't see you as fat! I wonder if its a matter of if we will ever be happy with ourselves?

[@MsJlsj]

I have always been fat. Since I was 6. I was not super - morbid but still fat. I think that many of us who have always been fat will never see ourselves as thin, Ok, normal,etc. Looking back on times in my life when I was able to lose some weight, even at my smallest, I did not recognize it. I worry that body image and perception will always shadow my views and I may never feel OK, no matter what size I wear. I am so impressed that you are sharing these feelings with all of us.. Putting words to feelings I may not have even been aware of. Thanks!

[@emilyzapata6981]

Hey Sarah, you probably don't know me yet, but I am Emily. Nice to meet you! I would like to say I feel like I relate to a lot you are saying in this video. I have not yet had my surgery, and I'm not exactly positive to what your weight is now. But I do know, that you are doing great through your journey, and I say celebrate your journey! Don't allow yourself to think negative that you are not weighing as low as others, you have to celebrate your own goals and losses at your own time. Don't allow anything to get you down. You had this surgery and have accomplished so many things, you can't compare yourself to the "light weights". You have to look at so much more you have done and work towards all of your other goals you want so you don't give up!!! I love you already. And I hope we can stay in touch through out our journeys. I hope to subscribe to eachothers channels

[@xstreammakeova]

You're NOT FAT!! Seriously, there is a huge range between being slim & being fat, you're not fat. I am fat, I'm 5'5 239.5 and I had to check out your pictures on facebook for body shots, and no you're not fat. That is the truth. It is the old you talking, I was 350 at my highest, and most of the time I still have difficulty seeing the changes, over 110 lbs. later? You can't tell me there isn't psychological stuff we're dealing with, it is natural and your mind has to catch up to your body. You look wonderful, and your smile is perfect!

[@lauradennis4344]

I totally know how you feel....this is exactly how I feel too. I'm a shortie compared to you...only 5'4 1/2....but every single thing you said I can totally relate to. I started at 380 and I'm down to 240. I am so proud and happy with what I have accomplished but the loose skin and the fact that I am still overweight....I don't even want to talk about weight loss surgery anymore 'cos I feel like I have to explain why I'm still overweight. Even though my surgeon told me 100 pounds is about all the surgery will do for me and I have surpassed that, it still feels very awkward to talk about it with normies. People who did not spend their entire lives morbidly obese just really can not understand it. I consume 900 calories a day and work out 5 days a week. I'm still losing a bit and my body is shifting around still but short of plastic surgery, this is pretty much it and I am mostly ok with that. The great news is not everyone cares that I'm still overweight. I do feel more accepted as "normal" by more people now. It's very hard to explain. Great video.

[@kyliechasingdreams9965]

Sarah thank you so much for this video. I have been struggling with the fact that I can't fit into some clothes because of my excess skin where people who weigh the same can fit into smaller clothes. I also am so scared of not getting into a healthy weight range, but I have to look at where I have come from and not to compare myself with everyone else.

[@heidimarie2095]

I love your hair.. And I was watching your video thinking shes not Fat?? Look at what you have lost..woop woop!!

[@VSGRedesignMe]

Yeah, I'm wondering how far I'll actually get. Starting weight of 345lb, "average" would be 150-160lb at 5'7. I can't even fathom that. I'm only 2 months out and people are shocked to learn I weighed that much. Then when I say I've lost 50lb it's come out a bit lackluster. I can see it in their eyes. I'm trying not to let that bother me!

[@janisbagby1978]

Great video thank you Sarah

[@amys4360]

I'm right there with you! I started out at 427, a year out I've lost 135lbs, but when I tell people that (on the rare occasion that it comes up) I always get these looks like "holy shit, if you're this big now, how huge were you before?!"

[@lifeincolor2045]

Hey Less of Sarah My name is Hayden. And I had WLS 3 months ago and I have lost 80.2 lbs. I was wondering or going we could get in touch to talk about WLS. You have helped me so much. Thank you for your post.

[@ritafaris]

Thank you so much for making this video. I lost 136lbs but I still look fat! I carry all my weight in my stomach area my arms and legs are twigs but if I don't wear a shirt that covers my stomach I look pregnant and I feel like how could I loose that much weight and still look fat? I wear a size 8 which sounds like it should be small because I'm tall also about 5'10 I bounce between 151/156 but I cant wear anything fitting or I look so out of proportion. I made my husband watch this with me because he tries to understand what I'm feeling about this but he really can't he is tall and thin and always has been. It helps so much to know someone else gets it so thank you again. By the way you look beautiful as always.

[@vinitacopher2333]

While in recovery from extended tummy tuck, I happened across your videos. I had a lot of questions, was facing many emotions and was thinking surely someone out there has the answers or can relate. I had the lap band and lost 99lbs and kept have troubles asperating and vomiting up blood. Come to find out I had a l hernia at the base of my esophagus and the band had to be removed in order to repair the hernia. The restriction was gone and I gained a lot of the weight back. But not all of it. Though emotionally I felt bummed out for having gained some of the weight back, I was determined to get this weight off. So, I took all the tips from hundreds of diet plans I had tried over a life time and worked out a system that best suited me. The pounds began to come on off. So now, I have lost a total of 138lbs. Yes, I'm still not within my goal -- I have about 30 more lbs to get there, but your videos have very much encouraged me in this journey and I've accept where I'm at in my life -- I'm certainly not where I was and have determined to never go back to that obese unhappy person. Many don't understand this transition and the emotions that come along with it. I'm just happy to know that there is a community of people out there sharing their experiences (good and bad) to let us know we are not alone. I have more videos to watch while out on medical leave. Knowledge IS gain!!! Thank you Sarah!!! Vinita (Springdale, Arkansas)

[@amberhavok870]

When did "above average" become a bad thing? Darling, fat or not you're still beautiful from the inside out and that's what I think matters most.

[@evam.2101]

i was a light weight but still overweight.do you think of making new wls videos?

[@katvsg5787]

OMG yes! 6ft woman right here who is in the 220s. I am still fat! And yes it might be the excess skin but I'm still fat. I will never be skinny. I will be two years postop this month. I totally get what you are saying!

[@blossomboba7444]

Omg 😮 you lost sooo much weight good job

[@passionmacmakeup86]

I love ur videos

[@sarahkoob1156]

You are amazing love your spirt and journey

[@careya]

I have two friends with your height and frame, and I swear their skeletons alone would be a size 12. Another friend was a size 00. All were very healthy, and ate similar amounts from what I could see. Bodies just come in different sizes.

[@tarynrodriguez1106]

I got pregnant at 9 month post op with the daughter I have always hoped for. Now at 4 years post op, I am 40 lbs higher than my lowest weight and it bothers me so much. It is SO HARD to lose. I eat so healthy and workout constantly and still can't get the scale to move. It's hard. I don't regret my daughter but sometimes I feel like I was stupid for getting pregnant so soon after and wasting my surgery

[@carolynnturner8551]

Where have you been? I miss your videos!

[@BlackQueen64]

Sarah thank you for sharing this. I can see exactly where you are coming from. I have always been overweight. My ideal of size beautiful would have been being able to wear a size 18 dress when I was in high school. I am still pre-op and I don't know if I have outgrown that ideal because I have never been there in my adult life. I just don't know. Time will tell. I agree with your comments about diversity......I may start documenting soon. Thanks

[@dialisema]

I just found out today that my goal will end up me losing 200lbs. So although you have had to lose a significant amount more (kudos) I get how I will never have a "normal" bmi and will be considered overweight.

[@sandiilee606]

I think as wls patients we will never be content with ourselves. I wear a size 8/10 from my highest size of 20/22 and I still feel like I have not accomplished anything with wls surgery. Its a mind game.

[@Jreinspiried]

You look absolutely beautiful. I would love to see an update

[@FlyeGirlFitnessVSG]

You're amazing and beautiful. I love this video.

[@rn2cnm1]

Thanks so much for this video!!!! I have been following since the beginning of your journey. I will be 2 yrs post op vsg in may 2015. I work in the medical community so I feel judged every day, from what I eat at the cafeteria( usually salad or grilled chicken breast) to what size scrubs I'm in and how right they are. I carry all my weight in my stomach and have been obese since kindergarten. Have struggled with alcohol and subsequent weight of 20 lbs over the last few months. It make me Just want to throw in the towel but I know I can't. I see people Looking at me I know they see the gain.... I think it would be more helpful if they said, hey Wendy get your fat ass back on track. Anyway this video was important for Me so thank you so much!!!! Btw I think the BMI is crap.... Someone who has lots of bone density and muscle mass will never be Normal according to the BMI Unless they at anorexic.... And Rhys no good. Love ya Sara

[@findingelizabeth]

I have been thinking about this a bit lately too - only from another viewpoint . But first I want to say this (and I know it's all about what we think about ourselves and less about how others see us) -- but having met you in person, I would not at all describe you as fat. Yes - you are tall and have a bigger frame -- but I would not describe you to anyone as fat now. You look absolutely normal. Just saying. So - I started out at 402 and am down 180 pounds at 10 months out. Someone commented on my video last week about a photo I had posted on Facebook saying I looked completely normal. Completely normal? Really? And I've started to wonder about that - how do I appear to other people? Do I look normal? Hell, I thought I was fat when I weighed 145 pounds for about 20 seconds in my early 20s so how in the world could I look normal in the 220s? I don't know that we're always a good judge of that. I can just watch my WLS Trainer videos when I'm in workout clothes and no shapewear and say no I am definitely still fat. I do believe, however, that I'm going to get to normal -- and I think you are that already. But I do find myself wondering - will I get to a goal of 138 pounds (I'm 5'4 and my surgeon thinks that is possible)? Is that going to be possible for me? I don't know -- but I'm going to push towards it and see where we land. And I have to admit, I do find myself being envious of people who started this journey at a lower BMI and hit their goal in six months or so. It's a different journey from where we are - but you know what, even if I stopped losing weight today, I am so fucking happy compared to where I was then. xoxoxoxo

[@keishajpmes1103]

Oh btw I am 364lbs currently

[@vickyrogers2926]

No, No, No... You're not fat... You're Size Sexy. That's it. You're Size Sexy!!!!!!

[@Frankensleeve]

I know where your coming from LessofSarah. I knew going into this adventure that I'd have loose skin and that I wasn't going to end up having a "beach body". My doc even told me to expect to "only" get down to 235lbs, now I'm at 205! :-) kzbin.info/www/bejne/mqCwdoeEaMuHnLM But even knowing that AND losing 170lbs, I'm not satisfied with the way I look. Even though I put up a good front and say that I don't care what people think about me, it still weighs on my mind. Get it... "weighs on my mind". :-P I would love to be one of those guys that felt comfortable taking their shirt off at the pool, but without plastic surgery to remove the excess skin and fat, I'll never feel comfortable going shirtless in public. Maybe not even then, after all, I haven't taken my shirt off in public for over 30 years. Now, don't take what I've said wrong. I am still very very happy with my VSG results and I wouldn't go back to the old me for anything, but like most everyone, I want perfection or at least as close as I can get to it. Keep Pimpin' that Sleeve!

[@simplybeautiful026]

I'm still above average too. still considered obese

[@evam.2101]

I'm pcos.maybe thats why it's so hard to lose

[@TJBrownfieldIsAwesome]

HATER... But I still love you

[@TheCurvyJones]

I guess I am confused by the "never" and the idea that you are done with your weight loss journey. Is this the place you want to land, and you want everyone to understand that this is where you land? I don't honestly think a size 10 would look terrible on you. Or a single digit size. And I don't think sub 200 is a crazy number. There are people taller and smaller than your lowest. If you don't want to be there that's one thing. Can't? Fuck that noise.

[@sarsman55]

wow ur face is pretty and i can tell you have a big frame....amazonian it seems...what size are ur feet? im guessing 12.....keep up the hard work!

[@scottbennett777]

This is your local Fire Dept calling. When you say, "I don't care what other people think," your pants are on fire. Sure you do. OK, what if all 7 billion people on Earth thought of you as tubby, plump -- or, as I refer to myself, "circumferentially gifted". You have absolutely zero control over their thinking. You only have control over your own thinking, and, if you're mortal, even THAT is a challenge sometimes. Since you have no control over what others think, you have only 2 choices: accept that everyone will privately think whatever they please, OR guess what others think and then feel miserable about it and yourself. BTW, MY guess is: the peeps who care about you will not give a flying f#!& about your loose skin, unless it is causing you pain or infection or some other health problem. Rant over. All the best to you!

[@ellestime4342]

I dont know why you dont think you are average sized you are 5/10 !!!!! So you are going to weigh alot more than someone 5/5 !!! Think of it this way a man 6/5 would wheigh a whole lot more than a guy at 6ft even ! I honestly think u are are average being 100% honest !

[@hansendesigns]

This makes me wonder who you hang out with, seriously. You are the same size as most everyone i know and see in my community. No one thinks they are fat. Not that you shouldn't talk about this topic, but (anyone who experiences this) just don't take any of this ignorance to heart. Any person who takes time out of their day to assess that size 14-18 is fat has too much time on their hands and a small world view.

[@supportrtroopz]

This pisses me off, for many reasons, you aren't fat, there are so many who have lost limbs, you got surgery & your still not happy? Upsets me to listen to you when I've seen many who have lost more, I actually think your being selfish, go to the VA, go to a child's cancer ward, go SEE what a weightloss surgery can't fix, I saw another vid of yours n cheered for you but now I personally think your ungrateful,