little rests: autumnal reset

[@WestTexasGothic]

Begin again. Begin again. Begin again.

[@delaneycarter7391]

god the whole “i don’t do ANYTHING” it’s so hard to watch people do the “wrong” things and make it out okay while i can’t make it through while being as “perfect” as humanly possible

[@delaneycarter7391]

just thank god for books to make us survive and just exist (and also i guess be more understanding to other people 🙄🤪)

[@prplrhinomilk]

I think about this toooo often. It sucks 😅

[@amanduhreads]

I know there isn’t much you want/need to hear from a stranger in the internet but I hope you know how loved and appreciated you are and how every single one of us roots for you to get better and get through this. We’re with you every step of the way for real! This was your best video to date by the way 🤎

[@readiculousreads4164]

I couldn't have said it better, I second this! ❤️

[@octopeaches]

Hands up if you too bawled your eyes out at this far too relatable and impactful intro 👐

[@theonewithmo]

🤚🏾🤚🏾🤚🏾

[@sammyb_12]

I came to the comments to say that same thing. I have never had the words stolen right from my mouth, but that INTRO!!!!

[@graceannreads]

“Keeping the ball rolling doesn’t mean we have to go full speed with the ball” UGH I needed that 😭😭

[@xobeautygoddessox]

That was such a beautiful and impactful intro, Ally! The guitar playing, the message, the range of emotions on display, the shots of the shrooms (!!) were just... *chef's kiss* Thank you for taking care of yourself and encouraging the rest of us to do the same. We all need those little rests in this crazy world. I appreciate ya!

[@caitlingee]

As someone who suffers from chronic pain and an unknown/currently trying to be diagnosed chronic illness, the beginning of this hit hard ❤

[@SpookyAndCozy]

That intro hit something I didn’t even know was there. I literally started crying. I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed lately and don’t know what’s causing it other than just having so much going on. The reminder to rest my physical, mental, and emotional self for MYSELF was a hitter. ❤

[@alyssalemoine00]

Ally. I’ve spent the past few years in a depressive slump because of the impact my chronic illnesses have had on every aspect of my life. I’m in a better place mentally now, but there was so much time spent thinking that going on was useless. You’re the only person I’ve ever seen who is perfectly able to describe what I’ve also gone through. And I just wanted to thank you for being the person who has given me hope throughout the years. I’ve been watching you since 2018 or so, and have found so much comfort in your videos and your vulnerability. I hope that all continues to go well for you health-wise. Us chronically ill girlies are stronger than we know! 💕

[@tallulahproctor5731]

Ally as a fellow autistic, chronically ill person who is in a rough patch at the moment that intro and this vlog has helped me more than you could ever imagine. Autistic burnout along with health burnout is a whole new level but we can get through it. Know we're here for you even when you take breaks, we'll be here when you're well enough to come back. Sending spoons xx

[@TaylaLouise]

God damn didn't realise I needed to hear that intro so much 💕 2023 has been one hell of a year with a lot of unexpected and hard change and with health issues too . I'm proud of myself, you Ali and everyone watching this video that we are here despite it all ❤

[@ireallyamjomarch]

Oof. How I made it through this without crying is the miracle of this year. I started watching your videos for the books. But have stayed and come to treasure your videos because of YOU. I appreciate you so much for making these videos. They’re real and honest without seeming bleak and hopeless. And this video has made me realize how much I don’t know what rest is. I had a mental breakdown earlier this year and thought I’ve been resting but have realized I’m not feeling any better so I need to do something different. And this video has helped me see I’m not alone and that it’s ok to try and falter and to keep going.

[@AnnaIPlayPretend]

Im rewatching just thinking about you hope you're doing well, sending my love and well wishes

[@sophsbookss]

I love the John Green format of the outdoors-with-a-giant-mic section

[@yaelnitzan1058]

I get injections like this every month and it is helping me. I hope it will help you too. I know it’s not the same for all of us. I admire you for taking care of yourself after all this both physically and emotionally.

[@user-qu8zs7vs1x]

Haven't finished the video but i just want to say thank you for creating such a beautiful and complex and empathetic corner on KZbin. I really hope things get better soon, and while they are not better now, I hope you keep having people who love you in your life and who are by your side as you seek answers and solutions

[@itmedana]

+++ couldn’t agree more about this beautiful and complex and empathetic corner of the internet (you phrased that perfectly btw). the feeling i get in this little community is so beyond rare among internet spaces and i’m so so grateful to have it!!

[@bageba8]

"Keeping the ball rolling doesn't mean we have to be going at full speed all of the time with the ball--just as long as you don't stop!" That's what I needed to hear :)

[@jvstingraves]

New friend here! I love your videos and book recommendations. Your openness about burnout and just living a life with a body that won't cooperate all the time really is relatable for me and your attitude genuinely makes me more at peace with my own struggles. I was diagnosed ADHD as a child but more and more I'm relating to folks who describe their autistic experience/life tools. Thank you for this little video.

[@agothbee]

oof this intro hits hard lol. I've been suffering from chronic pain for a long time and it has been worse these past few months than ever before which just makes it feel almost impossible to exist, but recently I've been trying to do one thing a day that will make me either laugh or smile or just simply content and it makes this weird little life seem worth it. thank you truly for being vulnerable about your health it's made me feel less alone and allows me to acknowledge my thoughts and feelings about my health are valid🥰

[@litwithkat]

26:58 LAURENS WALKING INTO THE ROOM 😂 also so so happy for you & being able to get the shots for your migraines. i hope it helps!! sending you love & also I SCREAMED SEEING YOU AND TAZ IN THE SAME FRAME

[@bumblevees]

hey ally! i juhey ally! i just wanna say thank you. thank you for being such a positive presence in my life, and i'm sorry if it sounds weird, but your videos are so comforting and you remind me that i need to take care of myself and that i'm allowed to have rough days because i'm just a silly little human being on this silly (not so) little planet. today was a really bad day for me and i only managed to do some bare minimum things but that's ok - i'm celebrating the little victories -, and this video was just what i needed to watch today. i hope you keep taking care of yourself and always remember that you and your health come first, we'll always understand when you need to take a break and we'll be here waiting for you to come back. 🫶💖

[@itsthemadster]

I loved your little monologues in nature. Proud of you for taking time for yourself to rest and heal!

[@tamarpost]

After 10 years of chronic migraines as a kid now going into adulthood. Thank you. We can do this even though we didn't deserve this. You are such a beautiful soul and I am thankful to know we are living on the same beautiful earth. Thank you again, for everything.

[@GraceClift]

watching your videos gives me the same feeling as reading the anthropocene reviewed - an understanding that we're in this together. making our meals, giving ourselves points for going for a walk, doing scary things and getting through them. i'm glad you've been resting, i hope everyone in the comments is doing the same

[@allisonpaiges]

this is one of the highest compliments i’ve ever received! ✨ thank you

[@natalieskov7355]

I really love seeing vlogs from someone who is managing health issues and disability. It's easy to watch people who don't deal with these things and compare yourself and get frustrated. Your content feels like a gentle reminder it's ok to rest.

[@natbatrat-d7e]

i was watching the first portion of this video next to my mom and when you queued to past ally she went “how old is this video? i need to know if the shots worked!! this treatment is a game-changer, im rooting so much for her!!” and she’s never even seen any of your videos in the past. just know that now you have one extra person sending you good vibrations and hoping the treatment works 💗

[@Ylimeable777]

As someone who also feels like she needs to take some time to feel more human I really appreciate this video. I have an autoimmune disease than can put a little bit of a damper on things and it is good knowing that some of my favorite youtubers understand how it feels to need to take a break for note just physical reasons, but mental and emotional reasons as well.

[@VeraFran]

Happy birthday to me! As someone with a late diagnosis of bipolar disorder, I related so much to what you said. I wish we could have known things we know now that would have made life a little easier to us. We'd still meet here today, but with a few less scars.

[@cisabel]

the "ba, bababa, bababa" sims 2 song at the end of the video unlocked memories i didn't know i had wish you the best queen

[@gre_ni]

Ally I really feel like you are doing something quite special over here and I don't like how harsh the youtube backend scaries environment can be with this whole "consistency" thing. Your videos have become so meaningful to me and had such an impact on my life, teaching me to be kinder and live a more joyful life... I genuinely feel really grateful that at some point, this random stranger on the internet decided to capture these vulnerable moments which in turn make me feel much less alone in this world... I would hate to imagine that you feel any icky pressure about it! Take care girlie, you are not an algorithm driven machine, but a talented human being💚

[@bby.kaylamarie]

You are literally the most REAL booktuber I have ever watched😩❤️ shows life, the ups and downs, and tell us when we are struggling to take a break and focus on our health! It’s truly not talked about enough and I wanted to say thank you for that! I’m so glad you were able to finally get those shots and it can help you because you definitely deserve it! Keep being you! Your amazing!🐌🩷

[@wordstowordlessthings]

Thank you for your anger. I'm not particularly religious but there's a holiness to honouring the dark and difficult foundations of change, growth, understanding.

[@ChloeTheePayne]

34:03 WHOAH... how did that author document what's going on inside my brain??? grateful as always for these videos that share the ups and downs being survived by another human out there. i feel like a lot of us are Going Through It™and it's reassuring to reflect on how we're all just getting through it together 🐌🐌🐌

[@HealedandThriving]

I love your channel. It’s been a hard few weeks and I’m so drained. Listening to the beginning of this had me in tears. The way you described chronic illness… yes yes yes! I feel like no be around me understands. They get up and have the energy and health to take a shower, parent, cook and clean and their body is working with them. Meanwhile I eat clean, work out as much as I can, have never smoked or drank, go to bed early, take naps and I am so sick all the time. These last two years I’ve been 50-75% bed bound. The mom guilt I have is ever mounting. To hear someone understand what a body that betrays you is like is so weirdly comforting. I’m sorry you have to go thru something like that but I applaud your tenacity and joy around doing what you can and sharing it with us.

[@bradisrelaxing4417]

Allison, I'm watching this video while dreading my initial appointment to advocate for an adhd/autism diagnosis as a 23 yr old woman, I suffer with anxiety and low self esteem symptoms so tomorrows appointment is kid of terrifying, but I'm finding strength in your authenticity and alibility to fight for yourself against doctors to be seen and treated. I came here for the books but I think you've helped me grow

[@kristenmoore925x]

I have really nothing to say other than your videos, regardless of the content, fill my heart with the same cozy loving energy as a psalm for the wild built, or legends and lattes, so I feel like the phrase “thank you” is inadequate to express my appreciation for what you do.

[@indiaromo]

From one chronically ill person to another, I’m sending you all the well wishes with the new medication! Those clips of you receiving the meds and being worried about how the first shots would go were so relatable to me as someone who has to get painful shots every month as well. You got this!!! 🐌🐌🐌

[@miriammeyer9436]

Adore how unapologetic you are in this video. This energy feels new and good and confident. Something in you has shifted, I feel like now you are going to float.

[@juananjones]

Love the fact that you carried anxious Bea to accompany you on your scary visit to the doctor. I bet that amazing friendship gave you the comfort that you needed it!

[@cactusinthedesert2103]

This video really spoke to me. I was recently diagnosed with different chronic health issues, and may need surgery, so I understand the sentiment of there being nothing else to give. I feel like I try my best to take care of myself but I just keep getting sicker. There are hopeful days and those periods of rest truly do help. Know that your videos reach so many of us and that there are people rooting for you and your journey! I will always look forward to new videos from and want to support how I can!

[@ladybee4]

humans showing the actual human bits of themselves has always been a bit taboo on social media i feel, so I'm so glad that you're showing hidden parts of yourself to the world to show other people that they shouldn't be afraid to embrace who they are and how they cope, or even how they present themselves. thank you for being you

[@deblawrence8341]

A little bit of philosophy, mixed with a little bit of Ally, throw in some nature and what do you have? A great combination! So glad you found some medicine that works for those pesky migraines. Keeping you in my prayers!

[@dee1661]

Your videos are just so perfect and real to our experience with disability, thank you so so much. No other videos compare to yours, they are just everything right with the internet.

[@spc.aesthetic]

This video felt like that hug you need that keeps you from falling apart completely, thank you ❤

[@Valeria-po3wq]

we are here for you, like you have been there for us. you alone have carried my ass through countless days of intrusive thoughts that leave me exhausted. you've been there for me when I was isolated from the real world thanks to gad and agoraphobia. take every frikin second you need for every single one of your needs, we'll be here waiting and rooting for you❤

[@jenniwhatsbookin]

Not gonna lie your joy and excitement about your migraine shots got me all teared up! I am so happy that you were able to get a medication that (hopefully) will continue to make life a little easier!!

[@jenniferb319]

I’m watching this with a 2 day long migraine and I’m about to cry I’m so happy for you.

[@deborahalice]

A little rant; I took literally two weeks off from everything, which was really only one week because my brain wouldn't stop so I slept, constantly. Today my poor boyfriend had to stay with me while I showered etc. becasue I got stuck crying in front of the sink for longer than I feel like saying. Since beginning my rest I have developed internal tremors from my groin down my left leg - which is triggering my sensory issues which I was working so hard on managing. Something always goes wrong. I am so glad you are still here, that the world is alive and it's not all in my head. I hope the shots make a significant difference to your daily life - you deserve the world. I hope everyone out there is doing well. "Life is an illusion and I am here to partake" x

[@cupcakesanddancing]

I’m so sorry that you’re struggling, but this is the most affirming, validating, cozy and sweet video on the internet. you are my favorite creator of all time. just got to order the there’s no rush hoodie and very excited about it ❤

[@morganj3970]

Ally I just wanted to pop down here in the comments to tell you that I am so glad that I found your channel a year ago. It definitely sounds weird to say but after spending a year with you I definitely feel like we’re friends. I’m so appreciative of the fact that you choose to share a portion of your life on the internet, which I’m sure is scary. Seeing you go through similar struggles that I experience gives me the strength to believe that I can get past it. So thank you. ❤

[@zozobop]

every video feels like a warm little reassuring hug that will fuel me for this winter

[@julieannelovesbooks]

Ally I’m crying 🥺🥺🥺 I’m so happy you were able to get those new meds!!! As someone with debilitating chronic migraines I get the struggle. I really hope that these are as game changing as they sound and that it doesn’t have to feel like your life is on pauze anymore and that you can just do the things you want to do without having to be scared that it will trigger migraines.

[@emmaclark5289]

I needed this Ally - I'm a neurodivergent (ADHD and bipolar) girlie trying to find my way in the corporate world and I am burned. out. Wishing you the best and hoping your health, mental and physical, is on the mend.

[@dominiquebrattesani9500]

Words can't describe how much your channel means to me. I really appreciate how raw you are and I feel like my feelings about life are so validated. You're videos ALWAYS make me have a better perspective on my life. I truly feel like I got out of such a sad and depressing rut because of you! And whenever I fall back into another rut I come back to your channel. Thank you thank you thank you!

[@JessicaNicoleDickerson]

As someone with a chronic illness - diabetes type 1 💕 I TOTALLY get the fear of needles! Even someone with tattoos. The idea of using needles to sustain normal life is A LOT to accept!!! (I recommend tummy shots! very easy to start) It's a huge shift and you're fear my never truly go away BUT it gets better! Be easy on yourself AND GOSH I hope it works wonders for you❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ *side note when I first started taking shots NO ONE helped me :( I never realized as an adult that nurses and doctors could have helped me - America health insurance making chronic illness more difficult 💀 ALWAYS ALWAYS ask for help! Advocate for yourself ALL DAY EVERYDAY!!! 🥴

[@katieb_reads]

oh my god, this made me feel so seen!! This past October and the beginning of November I've been feelings like this and found out i have a chronic illness as well!! Your videos make me feel not so alone ❤︎

[@rachelthorn6397]

I read minor detail during my grade 11 English class and it was one of the best books I’ve ever read and one of the hardest but I’ve never heard anyone talk about it and it should get more recognition

[@sarasreadingsomething]

having a parent suffer from hemiplegic migraines & seeing how debilitating it can be, I am so so happy you were finally able to find a treatment option & sending you all the love 💗

[@booksbybites]

I’d love a video talking just about graphic novels. I love manga and graphic novels, but my knowledge of them mostly floats around the weird sci-fi or superhero variety and I have no idea where to start on more cozier sides of things

[@allisonpaiges]

i have one of all my fav graphic novels from last september - perhaps it's time for a part 2!

[@paula22701]

I was almost reaching the end of the video and suddenly I felt the need to write down how happy it makes me to see you progressing. Progressing in listening to your body, progressing in your little victories, progressing in life in general. I really feel you like a close friend who, although I don't see as frequently as I would like, it feels like time doesn't pass by. I'm glad to know that you are listening to what your body asks of you and that you are providing it. I hope with all my heart that the shots you talk about work their magic and your health allows you to live your life as you please, without limitations (I swear nothing would make me happier). I'm sure you know this but it never hurts to remember that we are going to be here (on the other side of the screen) eagerly awaiting each video of yours, whether it's a week from now, a month, half a year, or however long you need to be at your 100%. I send you a big big hug (one of those that feels like they put you back together inside) ❤‍🩹 Until next time 🌾

[@lilyfontaine2186]

Thank you for making this ❤️ As someone who is also going through a period of burnout and attempting to reset, this entire video was so healing and relatable. It makes me feel just a little less alone.

[@djunaskye6220]

I'm sure I've said it before but I'll say it again. Your videos make me feel seen and feel less alone, I appreciate you for being real and honest. Your channel is one of my favorites 💗

[@gracecooper760]

The rush of serotonin I feel when I see ally has posted is intense. Thank you for making me feel able to rest and work on unmasking. Life if hard and not enough people acknowledge it in the good times as well as the bad. Thank you for showing both ⭐️

[@ElainaMarie6]

This helped me so much. I struggle with mental health issues as well as GERD. I was feeling nauseous after breakfast this morning and thought I could stick it out and go to work but decided to go with my gut and go home instead because I felt sick. Thank you for brightening up my day Allison.

[@thelitnerd]

Okay i just discovered this channel and i cannot tell you how much joy the music from video games i love is bringing me

[@sophiaupshaw4980]

the burnout has been so real lately, and this video felt like a warm hug. if you listen v closely, you'll hear the sound of me cheerin you on all the way from florida - sending you a whole heckin lot of strength n' love, ally

[@rowan.27]

"Keeping the ball rolling doesn't mean that you gotta be going at full speed all the time with the ball, just as long as you don't stop." This part was so real and poignant I had to pause to let it sink in!! Plus the intro and the whole video in general was just so well-edited and put together in such a lovely and cozy way (as usual). I think this is one of my new fave videos of yours ❤ Big big congrats on the migraine shots and I hope you're taking care of yourself and resting as much as possible! 💞🫂

[@kajalouise]

I'm also chronically ill and have been lacking a lot of spoons lately. Thank you for making me feel less alone and sharing your own struggles. I'm so so so happy to hear about the migraine shots and I really hope they give you as much relief as possible! Hope this isn't weird but in a way you feel like the big sister I never had & always wanted. Wishing you all the best always

[@crunkxbella]

You were my bias in ftfk because I thought you were so intelligent, cool, beautiful, and sincere. I hope you can give yourself more credit for the things you did achieve then, the amazing person you were, and for the positive ways in which you influenced your viewers! I am still here feeling the same way, receiving more joy and hope from your content as we both become more adult-ish. We all cherish you. ALSO can we please get a round of applause for Laurens’ strength? It is probably devastating to witness someone you love in chronic pain but he still smiles and shines through in these videos. Rooting for you and celebrating you 🎉

[@wereallwallflowers]

I am so happy you are taking time for yourself and to rest. We care about your content, of course, but we care more about you! Take all of the time you need and do the best you can and know we will always support you you silly gal! ❤

[@Hillary429]

Dewayne reminded me of a really beautiful movie I watched recently called God’s Own Country. It has some very hard to watch scenes with farm animal death and caring for a sick parent, but the love story between our two main characters, grappling with their sexuality, and trying to find a way to keep this beautiful farmland going in such tough times was such an impactful and touching story. Their love and growth really reached down deep in my soul in a way most movies lately haven’t been able to do.

[@ChekovWessels]

I am a new subscriber and oh my god I feel so seen and heard. I'm glad you have started to take steps for more self-care. I can't really put into words how - as another disabled reader - cathartic this was for me to cry to, especially on a bad pain day when I have been mostly bed-bound. I didn't expect this when stumbling upon your channel but I'm glad I did & I'm gonna share this vid with my therapist

[@goingwiththechlo]

I have been thinking about that tree ALL YEAR

[@nissasbookcorner]

seeing u get those shots and then treat yourself with treats and then for the shots to WORK makes me so unbelievably happy and proud for u :’))))

[@forestdarling]

The theme of rest really resonates with me this month. I had to say goodbye to my sweet beloved cat at the beginning of the month who I’ve had for almost 9 years and the grief has hit me so hard. I’ve only finished one book this month but that’s okay. On another note I’m so glad you’re getting rest and hope you continue to give yourself the rest you need! Also I read Minor Detail back in October and it clobbered me. What a hard hitting book!

[@amyh7673]

So sorry for the loss of your kitty.

[@danielamarmo3774]

The happiness I get from your videos is insane. Also from finding one new Jellycat on your shelves everytime.

[@kaileia_4]

I am currently going through a difficult situation with some friends and it's been stressing me out mentally and, in turn, physically. It's affecting my job and my personal time. This video helped not to make me feel better, but made me feel less alone. I still have to deal. But I'm not the only one that's dealing. And there's a comfort in that. I hope you find good, quality rest and medical relief. 💖

[@vclae93]

Hi Ally, first time commenting on your videos but been following you for a couple of years now. Finally joined your patreon and rewatching your videos & being part of the pocket pals has been my go to in my own autistic burnout. It's a tough battle. I wish you well and thank you for creating this place of comfort ❤

[@Sophie_Milagros]

I absolutely LOVED the beginning of this video and I’ll probably replay it every time I’m struggling. I also take Emgality and it truly saved my life. Nothing was working until I tried this. It’s actually insane that we have to suffer for so long even though we know what treatment could be the right one for us. Sending you spoons

[@rubypowell3959]

Would love an updated tattoo tour

[@thebookautistic]

your videos make me feel like there's someone out there that understands how i feel. i hope we can make you feel like that too, ally

[@amybyrne13]

no why did that intro make me cry😭😭dewayne i love you

[@darling_mack]

im watching this video after having my own mental and emotional burn out reset and just thank you for being so open, i feel so seen and heard with your videos.

[@MissRagnarok]

That intro hit me right in the heart but it is also exactly what I needed to hear all at the same time. I'm proud of all the steps you've taken to be where you are today. Thank you for sharing with everyone your struggles, your words help more than you realise.

[@squishypig8]

i was playing this video in the background while video editing (as i often do) but when you started talking about your new medication i had to pause and devote my full attention out of excitement for you! this stranger from minnesota is so happy for you

[@kylierussell0207]

This video made me emotional. You’re not alone Alli. Thank you so much for sharing and for reminding us all to slow down. I needed that reminder. ❤

[@Rinn421]

I LOVE your style of editing. I’m so happy to hear you will always edit your videos! Because you’re right when u say you have ur own style and it wouldn’t feel like an Ally video without that! ❤❤❤

[@fully_book_ed]

I'm currently in bed, day 8 of antibiotics, a few left to go, feeling awful, but I finally got some diagnosis (after years of struggling and hope it's the right one) and your vlog- just thank you.♥It felt like the hug that I really needed.🥰

[@ideknic]

this was so touching and relatable, you're so inspiring.. proud of you- stranger on the internet

[@sereneadair4941]

I needed this today. I am not going to what you are but I am becoming so tired and can't be everything to everyone.

[@elizabethgranger21]

no matter how much time you take off, we'll always be here for whenever you want to come back. ❤

[@astoldbykat]

God that intro...I think so many of us needed it, and the reminder. It's been about 5 years since I was diagnosed with chronic pain, and it's only been this year that I've been willing to make myself rest, and I STILL feel guilty about doing it when people invite me out or when my job indicates they want me to take on a higher position that I know will only increase my stress. Thank you for these amazing videos you create, and I hope your new medication does help your headaches! Also, I hope you enjoy Amari! I've only read the first one (I got it before the new prints, so it doesn't match any editions of the 2nd one T_T) but it was SO good!

[@KeryKatto]

thanks for making me SOB. I live with chronic pain due to breaking my ankles in the military and them not recovering or being treated well during Covid and with the cold weather coming the pain increases everyday with no solutions from my doctors. Being unheard is one of the most painful things I've experienced, especially when a doctor tells me my pain is in my head even though my ankle is swollen and obviously in pain from all the hardware in it. I hadn't read since September and I started feeling so guilty and wanted so badly to force myself to read that I ended up avoiding my books even more. Thankfully I was about to break the burn with reading some manga yesterday and being nicer to myself for not feeling like reading even though it's my favorite hobby. Thank you for being so open with us and not making me feel so alone in the world when I'm missing my spoons :')

[@Pikaorio]

Your videos always make me long for good friends. It seems so lovely

[@JanetsThingamajigs]

There are only two parasocial relationships that I truly and deeply care about, and you are one of them. I only recently discovered your channel but have been binging old videos. You are so comfortable and real and honest and open about your life and your experiences, I feel like it's just facetiming a friend. I don't have friends in my life right now outside of my partner, so any bit of that I can have is precious. You take time and rest and recover and grow. You know we'll all be here when you get back ❤

[@momofsparky8205]

Allie, please rest when you need. I know that KZbin is your job but I want you to know that since I found your channel it has reinvigorated me. I did the bloomin readathon and it was Perfect Timing for me as my husband had a heart attack then complications which can be overwhelming but reading took me out of my anxieties. Thanks for being willing to share, you impact people in ways you can’t possibly imagine.

[@awildernessofbooks]

OOF almost just cried at that intro. I feel this. It’s frustrating and isolating at times. So thankful for your voice in this space.

[@priscillacosta1307]

Allison, thank YOU so much being here, not just on KZbin, but on planet earth. Be kind to yourself!

[@booksmart_cass]

I really needed this reset vlog now more than ever. I got Shingles on my face and in my eye recently. It has been debilitating. I have not been able to read or do other things I love for weeks. But this is a good reminder that it’s okay. Take it one day at a time. I need to give myself this break. Thank you Ally ❤

[@booksmart_cass]

Also so happy to see that you finally got some answers and help for your chronic migraines! Yayyyyy! I cannot fathom the relief you must have felt

[@melaniefletcher3217]

I really needed this video. I’ve been majorly struggling mentally and physically lately so the beginning had me in tears. But disabled creators like you are so validating and important. I don’t feel alone and as trapped getting to see this kind of representation. Thank you for being so vulnerable with your disabilities online and your health. Thank you for still making videos when you feel good enough to. You and your presence is incredibly valuable and appreciated